1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 2 00:01:23,083 --> 00:01:25,210 Open the door! 3 00:01:57,784 --> 00:02:00,454 That's right. 4 00:02:39,243 --> 00:02:42,120 Hey. 5 00:02:42,204 --> 00:02:43,872 Yo. What's happening? 6 00:02:45,040 --> 00:02:47,543 Hey, hey, hey, hey. 7 00:03:27,124 --> 00:03:29,042 A strong wind today. 8 00:03:29,459 --> 00:03:30,586 Yeah. 9 00:03:34,339 --> 00:03:37,134 Um, my name's Michael. 10 00:03:37,217 --> 00:03:39,052 I'm 17. 11 00:03:39,136 --> 00:03:40,137 I'm in high school. 12 00:03:47,561 --> 00:03:49,146 Okay, switching gears. 13 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:51,315 Um, I'd like you to put your cellphones away. 14 00:03:51,398 --> 00:03:52,441 Um, eyes up here. 15 00:03:52,524 --> 00:03:58,113 Uhhhhhhh... 16 00:03:58,197 --> 00:04:00,324 You could change the pitch. Ahhhh... 17 00:04:04,328 --> 00:04:07,414 Goddamn. Loosen up. Just one more. Try. 18 00:04:09,499 --> 00:04:11,084 That's for experts. 19 00:04:23,597 --> 00:04:27,309 I guess I-I do spend a lot of time with myself. 20 00:04:45,911 --> 00:04:47,538 No, no, no. I got it. Yeah. 21 00:04:47,621 --> 00:04:49,081 Just be careful. 22 00:04:49,164 --> 00:04:50,791 Yeah, I always lock it up. 23 00:04:53,210 --> 00:04:56,004 ...fuckin' wait. Can you wait? 24 00:04:56,964 --> 00:04:58,090 Film this here. 25 00:05:08,183 --> 00:05:09,518 This guy looks fucked up. 26 00:05:19,444 --> 00:05:21,613 Every time I try, I do it wrong. 27 00:05:21,697 --> 00:05:23,448 You tell me it's wrong! 28 00:05:23,532 --> 00:05:24,908 What the fuck do you want me to do?! 29 00:05:28,036 --> 00:05:29,746 Fuck. 30 00:05:35,169 --> 00:05:36,461 No camera? 31 00:05:41,508 --> 00:05:45,345 I don't really... 32 00:05:45,429 --> 00:05:47,556 talk to my parents very much. 33 00:05:47,639 --> 00:05:50,934 Um, I don't know, like, my parents were always arguing. 34 00:05:52,102 --> 00:05:55,355 I don't talk with my dad a lot. He's always on my ass. 35 00:05:55,439 --> 00:05:59,568 Like, he's not ever really satisfied with where I'm at. 36 00:06:00,444 --> 00:06:02,446 Even if I'm, you know, doing good. 37 00:06:08,160 --> 00:06:11,413 There's, like, a bug flying around. 38 00:06:45,989 --> 00:06:47,449 Is everything good? 39 00:07:05,884 --> 00:07:08,679 -Ah, ah, ah, what! -That's pretty good. 40 00:07:08,762 --> 00:07:10,180 That was dope. 41 00:07:11,181 --> 00:07:13,100 ...she found the least common denominator, 42 00:07:13,183 --> 00:07:15,227 150, which is simply what? 43 00:07:15,310 --> 00:07:16,478 100? 44 00:07:16,562 --> 00:07:17,938 100. This is 100. 45 00:07:18,021 --> 00:07:21,275 So that would make -- make this 34%. 46 00:07:21,358 --> 00:07:23,777 Even though it's 17 out of 50 people, 47 00:07:23,861 --> 00:07:27,990 it would make it still 34%, 34 out of 100. 48 00:07:28,073 --> 00:07:30,826 All right? 34%. So even though they were close... 49 00:07:30,909 --> 00:07:32,744 - I like to film. - ...percent bar. 50 00:07:32,828 --> 00:07:34,538 Did you look at it on your percent bar? 51 00:07:34,621 --> 00:07:38,333 Things that I -- that I find either beautiful 52 00:07:38,417 --> 00:07:40,878 or, um... 53 00:07:42,796 --> 00:07:46,592 ...or scary or, you know, whatever intrigues me. 54 00:08:07,487 --> 00:08:09,323 My name's Jameson. 55 00:08:09,406 --> 00:08:12,201 I am 17 years old. 56 00:08:12,284 --> 00:08:14,578 It's hard to introduce yourself. 57 00:09:48,923 --> 00:09:51,676 ♪ Hijos de la noche ♪ 58 00:09:52,802 --> 00:09:55,013 Happiness. 59 00:09:55,096 --> 00:09:58,933 It's just that feeling of... 60 00:09:59,017 --> 00:10:02,604 of -- of almost catching yourself 61 00:10:02,687 --> 00:10:05,356 just in a moment where... 62 00:10:05,440 --> 00:10:06,900 where you're okay... 63 00:10:10,653 --> 00:10:13,823 ...where you can just be. 64 00:10:36,596 --> 00:10:39,015 I couldn't sleep a lot last night, 65 00:10:39,098 --> 00:10:40,391 so I'm kinda tired. 66 00:10:42,101 --> 00:10:45,396 I guess, like, uh, I get a lot of thoughts at night, 67 00:10:45,480 --> 00:10:49,651 and I just couldn't really... 68 00:10:49,734 --> 00:10:51,569 um, let 'em go. 69 00:11:11,464 --> 00:11:14,759 What is the concept of being alone? 70 00:11:18,388 --> 00:11:21,099 You have, um... 71 00:11:21,182 --> 00:11:24,519 you have your friends and you have your family. 72 00:11:24,602 --> 00:11:27,188 You have the acquaintances you see around, and -- and... 73 00:11:30,567 --> 00:11:32,986 ...still, it just feels like it's just... 74 00:11:33,945 --> 00:11:35,154 ...it's just you. 75 00:11:51,087 --> 00:11:53,464 Is anyone really watching this? I mean... 76 00:12:23,953 --> 00:12:25,872 I have a lot of videos of you. 77 00:12:30,293 --> 00:12:31,878 I watch 'em back a lot. 78 00:12:35,131 --> 00:12:36,883 I feel like we're the same person. 79 00:12:39,802 --> 00:12:40,970 In what way? 80 00:12:45,975 --> 00:12:47,894 I always see you when you're alone. 81 00:13:04,661 --> 00:13:07,664 I'm half, you know, Iranian. 82 00:13:07,747 --> 00:13:09,874 See? I ne-- I never knew that, though. 83 00:13:09,958 --> 00:13:11,793 -You didn't know that? -I thought you were Mexican, 84 00:13:11,876 --> 00:13:13,169 to be honest. 85 00:13:13,253 --> 00:13:15,338 Oh. 86 00:13:15,421 --> 00:13:16,965 To be honest, I did. 87 00:13:18,383 --> 00:13:20,009 You just got that look. 88 00:13:22,595 --> 00:13:23,763 All right. 89 00:13:44,659 --> 00:13:46,035 Um... 90 00:13:48,872 --> 00:13:50,123 Whatcha got there? 91 00:14:06,556 --> 00:14:08,224 This place sucks, right? 92 00:14:13,313 --> 00:14:14,856 Can I have some...of my... 93 00:14:14,939 --> 00:14:16,900 Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 94 00:14:19,611 --> 00:14:20,862 It's good stuff. 95 00:14:33,750 --> 00:14:34,918 You snorkel? 96 00:14:37,295 --> 00:14:39,297 Like in the water? 97 00:14:39,380 --> 00:14:41,132 No. 98 00:14:42,884 --> 00:14:45,845 Like... 99 00:14:45,929 --> 00:14:47,347 You don't know? 100 00:14:47,430 --> 00:14:48,848 It's like Darth Vader or something. 101 00:14:48,932 --> 00:14:51,059 Kinda like Darth Vader. 102 00:14:51,726 --> 00:14:53,186 No, I don't know what that is. 103 00:14:58,733 --> 00:14:59,943 I can't tell if you're kidding or not. 104 00:15:00,026 --> 00:15:02,278 Oh, I don't do any. Do you...? 105 00:15:03,321 --> 00:15:04,572 Yeah. 106 00:15:13,456 --> 00:15:14,874 I gotta go. 107 00:15:16,668 --> 00:15:19,295 -Okay. -I'll see ya. 108 00:15:19,379 --> 00:15:20,797 All right, we'll see. 109 00:15:45,738 --> 00:15:46,990 Hit it! 110 00:15:49,617 --> 00:15:51,035 Hit it! 111 00:15:52,078 --> 00:15:54,122 Let's see. What else is there? 112 00:16:10,013 --> 00:16:12,599 Welcome to the exciting new sound, sound, sound... 113 00:16:26,404 --> 00:16:28,823 It's like smoking, 114 00:16:28,907 --> 00:16:32,118 like two ounces of, like, pure indica pot. 115 00:16:32,202 --> 00:16:34,495 And just like -- just like... 116 00:16:34,579 --> 00:16:37,040 you're just melted into, like, where you are. 117 00:16:37,123 --> 00:16:39,250 Everything around me gets brighter, more fun. 118 00:16:39,334 --> 00:16:42,128 Everyone's dancing better if they sucked before. 119 00:16:42,212 --> 00:16:44,130 The music's better if it's sucked before. 120 00:16:44,214 --> 00:16:46,716 Like, everything that sucked is a bit better. 121 00:16:46,799 --> 00:16:48,968 I get so nervous around girls. 122 00:16:49,052 --> 00:16:50,887 But when I'm in this world, 123 00:16:50,970 --> 00:16:53,598 I'm not scared to be myself. 124 00:16:53,681 --> 00:16:55,600 And I feel like no one's judging me. 125 00:16:55,683 --> 00:16:58,811 A lot of times it's hard to be a part of the world 126 00:16:58,895 --> 00:17:01,940 if you're not open to that kind of thing. 127 00:17:02,023 --> 00:17:04,776 It's not something I-I don't know too much about. 128 00:17:06,486 --> 00:17:09,489 But, yeah, it's like a... 129 00:17:09,572 --> 00:17:12,659 drug that they breathe in. 130 00:17:12,742 --> 00:17:16,579 That particular drug feels like I left my body 131 00:17:16,663 --> 00:17:18,414 and I'm just somewhere else. 132 00:17:18,498 --> 00:17:20,083 I mean, it's all in your head, 133 00:17:20,166 --> 00:17:22,544 but the world around you completely changes. 134 00:17:22,627 --> 00:17:24,504 You feel kind of invincible. 135 00:17:27,799 --> 00:17:30,009 Like you can do anything. 136 00:17:34,097 --> 00:17:36,015 I guess I was curious. 137 00:17:38,601 --> 00:17:42,939 But I guess it's, like, also kind of because of a girl. 138 00:18:13,011 --> 00:18:15,638 Nirtraxil, Trax, 139 00:18:15,722 --> 00:18:17,599 or you guys might call it snorkeling. 140 00:18:17,682 --> 00:18:20,518 Extremely dangerous, highly addictive drug. 141 00:18:20,602 --> 00:18:22,687 It can be taken in various forms, 142 00:18:22,770 --> 00:18:25,607 most commonly inhaling from a canister, 143 00:18:25,690 --> 00:18:27,775 but in more severe cases it can be injected, 144 00:18:27,859 --> 00:18:30,486 which poses an even greater risk of overdose. 145 00:18:33,072 --> 00:18:36,367 80% of first-time users will use again. 146 00:18:36,451 --> 00:18:39,412 If you or anyone you know is using, 147 00:18:39,495 --> 00:18:43,208 please seek medical help and counsel immediately. 148 00:18:48,796 --> 00:18:53,468 I just don't like myself or being in my own body, so... 149 00:18:55,970 --> 00:18:59,432 And the...situation I'm in 150 00:18:59,516 --> 00:19:02,268 with just everything, I just -- I -- 151 00:19:02,352 --> 00:19:05,438 it's too much and I just want to... 152 00:19:05,522 --> 00:19:06,981 escape from it. 153 00:19:10,735 --> 00:19:13,112 This isn't cool, man. 154 00:19:13,196 --> 00:19:14,864 This is not -- you know it's not cool. 155 00:19:14,948 --> 00:19:17,367 I know, thank you. Thank you for accompanying me. 156 00:19:35,426 --> 00:19:38,096 I guess the scariest moment is -- is -- 157 00:19:38,179 --> 00:19:40,682 is when you don't know -- is when you're outside 158 00:19:40,765 --> 00:19:43,393 and you're about to open the door and you don't know. 159 00:20:07,041 --> 00:20:09,127 -Mike. -Shut the fuck -- shut the fuck up. 160 00:20:43,745 --> 00:20:45,580 Well, you put, like, a little cartridge 161 00:20:45,663 --> 00:20:47,415 into the thing 162 00:20:47,498 --> 00:20:49,709 and then you put the mask on. 163 00:20:51,794 --> 00:20:54,547 And then you press, like, a thing that lets the smoke 164 00:20:54,631 --> 00:20:57,258 come in, but I guess it's kind of scary, 165 00:20:57,342 --> 00:20:59,552 like, the seconds before doing it, 166 00:20:59,636 --> 00:21:02,180 'cause I did it for the first time, and I don't really -- 167 00:21:02,263 --> 00:21:04,182 I didn't really know what to expect. 168 00:21:04,265 --> 00:21:05,934 So it was kind of scary. 169 00:21:16,402 --> 00:21:19,239 It was quite wonderful. 170 00:23:01,216 --> 00:23:03,510 The come-down, like, it sucks. 171 00:23:03,593 --> 00:23:06,387 And it's crazy to go from here to there so quickly. 172 00:23:06,471 --> 00:23:09,390 You can really tell when someone's, like, taken too much. 173 00:23:09,474 --> 00:23:14,312 They just become so, like, secluded and in their own space. 174 00:23:14,395 --> 00:23:16,189 And it's depressing. Like, it sucks to be 175 00:23:16,272 --> 00:23:19,025 in that zone, in that world, like, re-appropriating 176 00:23:19,108 --> 00:23:20,568 everything and everything's new 177 00:23:20,652 --> 00:23:23,196 and you're like a baby and naive 178 00:23:23,279 --> 00:23:25,406 and stuff's way better than it really is, 179 00:23:25,490 --> 00:23:29,202 and then you come out of it and you, like, 180 00:23:29,285 --> 00:23:30,870 are back in the shit again. 181 00:23:56,521 --> 00:23:58,815 -Hey. -Hey. 182 00:23:58,898 --> 00:24:00,149 How's it going? 183 00:24:00,233 --> 00:24:02,443 -Good, good. How are you? -Good. 184 00:24:03,444 --> 00:24:05,989 Um, we're just all meeting up Saturday night. 185 00:24:06,072 --> 00:24:08,157 -Shit. Okay, cool. -Yeah. 186 00:24:10,243 --> 00:24:11,953 You're gonna be there, obviously, so... 187 00:24:12,036 --> 00:24:13,621 Yeah. Yeah, I'll be there. 188 00:24:13,705 --> 00:24:16,291 Yeah. What are you gonna do? 189 00:24:17,959 --> 00:24:20,170 Okay. 190 00:24:32,515 --> 00:24:35,185 When's the last time you were out in nature? 191 00:24:38,980 --> 00:24:41,941 Mm...I haven't been into the nature 192 00:24:42,025 --> 00:24:44,319 in a -- in a while, I guess. 193 00:24:44,402 --> 00:24:47,280 Like real nature, nature. 194 00:24:47,363 --> 00:24:50,283 I guess probably when I was young, 195 00:24:50,366 --> 00:24:53,161 like camping, like, maybe five years old. 196 00:24:53,244 --> 00:24:55,538 -Really? -But I-I don't know... 197 00:24:59,918 --> 00:25:01,378 With your mom? 198 00:25:01,462 --> 00:25:03,714 Yeah. 199 00:25:03,797 --> 00:25:05,174 Just the two of you? 200 00:25:06,091 --> 00:25:07,635 Mm-hmm. 201 00:25:08,677 --> 00:25:10,137 That's nice. 202 00:25:11,305 --> 00:25:13,015 Do you miss it? 203 00:25:14,558 --> 00:25:15,851 Yeah, I guess. 204 00:25:36,872 --> 00:25:38,916 Do you believe in love? 205 00:25:41,418 --> 00:25:42,545 Yeah. 206 00:26:43,689 --> 00:26:45,608 Hey. 207 00:26:45,691 --> 00:26:46,901 Hey. 208 00:26:48,861 --> 00:26:50,529 How do you feel? 209 00:26:53,407 --> 00:26:54,700 Good. 210 00:26:59,622 --> 00:27:02,208 -What's this? -Just listen. 211 00:27:07,880 --> 00:27:11,133 Does it scare you that we're completely alone? 212 00:27:19,391 --> 00:27:21,185 What do you like to do when you're alone? 213 00:27:22,686 --> 00:27:23,896 I like to write. 214 00:27:28,484 --> 00:27:31,695 What do you love most in the world? 215 00:27:33,155 --> 00:27:35,407 I guess the feeling of, uh... 216 00:27:36,742 --> 00:27:38,869 ...the feeling of being loved. 217 00:27:45,042 --> 00:27:46,877 Run faster! 218 00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:49,588 Whoa! 219 00:27:53,509 --> 00:27:55,261 Come on. 220 00:28:00,182 --> 00:28:01,350 -Whoa. -You ran like... 221 00:28:01,433 --> 00:28:02,601 Have you tried that? 222 00:28:02,685 --> 00:28:03,853 Fuck. 223 00:28:06,939 --> 00:28:09,149 Why do you think people want to escape? 224 00:28:12,444 --> 00:28:16,532 Well, I guess some people don't feel comfortable 225 00:28:16,615 --> 00:28:17,783 with who they are. 226 00:28:21,412 --> 00:28:23,539 Why do you think people want to escape? 227 00:28:26,166 --> 00:28:28,127 Because reality sucks. 228 00:28:37,761 --> 00:28:39,180 I love these movies. 229 00:28:40,764 --> 00:28:42,141 They're beautiful. 230 00:28:42,224 --> 00:28:43,976 I like how they talk. 231 00:28:45,060 --> 00:28:46,896 Yeah, it's different. 232 00:28:50,566 --> 00:28:52,359 I love the music. 233 00:29:03,287 --> 00:29:04,455 You wanna dance? 234 00:29:15,799 --> 00:29:19,094 ♪ Don't waste your mind ♪ 235 00:29:22,723 --> 00:29:26,852 ♪ Don't waste your life ♪ 236 00:29:29,605 --> 00:29:32,650 ♪ Don't waste your blood ♪ 237 00:29:36,862 --> 00:29:39,615 ♪ Don't, don't ♪ 238 00:29:41,200 --> 00:29:43,077 ♪ Don't ♪ 239 00:29:43,160 --> 00:29:46,580 ♪ Don't waste your mind ♪ 240 00:29:49,959 --> 00:29:53,963 ♪ Don't waste your mind ♪ 241 00:29:56,632 --> 00:30:00,052 ♪ Don't waste your breath ♪ 242 00:30:00,135 --> 00:30:03,472 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 243 00:30:05,724 --> 00:30:09,687 Um, I think for me, happiness would be, 244 00:30:09,770 --> 00:30:12,231 um, like stability, 245 00:30:12,314 --> 00:30:15,609 just, like, mentally and emotionally 246 00:30:15,693 --> 00:30:17,862 and, like, just in life. 247 00:30:17,945 --> 00:30:20,739 If everything could just be stable for a second, 248 00:30:20,823 --> 00:30:22,283 then I can, like, catch up. 249 00:30:22,366 --> 00:30:24,034 I feel like in the absence of, like, 250 00:30:24,118 --> 00:30:25,911 pure happiness or whatever, 251 00:30:25,995 --> 00:30:27,454 the next best thing for me is, like, 252 00:30:27,538 --> 00:30:29,957 whatever fake happiness I can create, 253 00:30:30,040 --> 00:30:32,334 usually through doing stuff. 254 00:30:32,418 --> 00:30:34,587 I guess maybe when I'm just not alone is 255 00:30:34,670 --> 00:30:38,674 when I feel the most content and happy. 256 00:30:38,757 --> 00:30:41,635 There's so many fucking cool people in this world and, like, 257 00:30:41,719 --> 00:30:43,554 meeting them, it makes you so happy. 258 00:30:43,637 --> 00:30:45,222 Like, you're like, whoa! 259 00:30:45,306 --> 00:30:47,099 I just got this connection with someone. 260 00:31:26,972 --> 00:31:30,518 -You circumcised? -What? 261 00:31:32,353 --> 00:31:33,646 You got those happy eyes. 262 00:31:33,729 --> 00:31:36,190 -Yeah. -You got those lovey-dovey eyes. 263 00:31:36,273 --> 00:31:39,068 Mm. I don't know. 264 00:31:39,151 --> 00:31:40,653 Yeah. Yeah, I think so. 265 00:31:42,196 --> 00:31:43,572 You in love? 266 00:31:44,448 --> 00:31:45,574 Ah! 267 00:31:52,915 --> 00:31:54,917 What would you want to eat? 268 00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:56,669 Um... 269 00:31:58,379 --> 00:32:02,341 Double chocolate cookie dough from Dairy Queen 270 00:32:02,424 --> 00:32:05,719 and...burgers. 271 00:32:05,803 --> 00:32:09,640 I wanna have a... Quarter Pounder with cheese. 272 00:32:09,723 --> 00:32:10,891 Whoa. 273 00:32:28,325 --> 00:32:30,369 The air conditioning's not real. 274 00:32:30,452 --> 00:32:32,705 Are your parents out? 275 00:32:32,788 --> 00:32:34,748 Yeah, I don't know, I think so, yeah. 276 00:32:37,710 --> 00:32:38,711 -Wow. -I-I'm sorry. 277 00:32:38,794 --> 00:32:41,088 Could you take your shoes off? 278 00:32:41,172 --> 00:32:43,215 -Yeah. Yeah, of course. -Yeah. I'm sorry. Yeah. 279 00:32:45,426 --> 00:32:48,888 Just don't, like, touch any of the...stuff. 280 00:32:49,471 --> 00:32:51,098 Sure. 281 00:32:53,017 --> 00:32:54,476 What's up with the owls? 282 00:32:55,561 --> 00:32:58,939 Oh, I like owls. I like, I guess, animals and... 283 00:33:01,233 --> 00:33:02,693 What are your parents like? 284 00:33:02,776 --> 00:33:06,197 My dad's very quiet and my mom's... 285 00:33:06,280 --> 00:33:07,948 very loud. 286 00:33:08,032 --> 00:33:10,075 -Oh, really? -Mm-hmm. 287 00:33:11,327 --> 00:33:13,204 What are your -- What are your parents like? 288 00:33:14,121 --> 00:33:16,665 Um... 289 00:33:16,749 --> 00:33:18,250 well, I haven't seen my dad in a while, 290 00:33:18,334 --> 00:33:21,879 but...he's a good man. 291 00:33:21,962 --> 00:33:25,382 He's just a bit -- a bit of a child. 292 00:33:26,592 --> 00:33:29,553 My mom, she's, um, very outgoing. 293 00:33:29,637 --> 00:33:31,472 Mm-hmm. 294 00:33:36,977 --> 00:33:39,563 Cool. Um... 295 00:33:41,106 --> 00:33:43,776 Y-Yeah. I'm sorry. I don't like... 296 00:33:43,859 --> 00:33:46,070 Sorry about -- I don't like people touching... 297 00:33:46,153 --> 00:33:47,571 -No, no, no, I didn't mean -- -...my stuff. 298 00:33:47,655 --> 00:33:49,240 My mom comes in here sometimes 299 00:33:49,323 --> 00:33:51,116 and just messes all my shit up 300 00:33:51,200 --> 00:33:53,118 and it fucking annoys me, you know? 301 00:33:53,202 --> 00:33:55,204 Is there a system? 302 00:33:55,287 --> 00:33:57,289 Not -- no. Um... 303 00:33:57,373 --> 00:34:00,876 Well, yeah, I just like everything... 304 00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:02,670 sort of organized. 305 00:34:04,505 --> 00:34:06,423 I don't want to mess that up. 306 00:34:06,507 --> 00:34:08,050 Mm-hmm. 307 00:34:08,133 --> 00:34:11,846 So you just let me know if I'm crossing any boundaries. 308 00:34:11,929 --> 00:34:14,849 No boundaries crossed or -- no. 309 00:34:14,932 --> 00:34:16,058 -No? -No. 310 00:34:16,141 --> 00:34:17,518 Okay. 311 00:34:18,602 --> 00:34:20,563 I'm so excited for the weekend. 312 00:34:20,646 --> 00:34:23,357 Weather's gonna be nice. 313 00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:24,942 I'm gonna look nice. 314 00:34:24,984 --> 00:34:26,569 You gonna look nice? You gonna be with your girl? 315 00:34:26,652 --> 00:34:27,903 I'm gonna look nice for Jameson. 316 00:34:27,987 --> 00:34:29,488 Jameson. 317 00:34:29,572 --> 00:34:31,448 -Jameson. -Jameson. 318 00:34:31,532 --> 00:34:33,617 -Jameson. Jameson. -Jameson. Jameson. 319 00:34:33,701 --> 00:34:36,620 -Jameson. Jameson. -Jameson. Jameson. Jameson. 320 00:34:36,704 --> 00:34:39,290 Jameson. I feel good, dude. I feel really good. 321 00:34:39,373 --> 00:34:41,375 - Yeah. - I like that. 322 00:34:41,458 --> 00:34:43,210 I like -- I like seeing you like this. 323 00:35:01,020 --> 00:35:02,521 What are you thinking? 324 00:35:04,231 --> 00:35:05,399 Nothing. 325 00:35:11,322 --> 00:35:14,200 117. 116. 326 00:35:29,590 --> 00:35:30,966 Third time's the charm. 327 00:35:49,568 --> 00:35:50,986 You come here a lot? 328 00:35:53,489 --> 00:35:54,740 Yeah. 329 00:37:52,483 --> 00:37:54,151 I feel so connected. 330 00:38:01,242 --> 00:38:03,577 Does my voice sound different?! 331 00:38:10,793 --> 00:38:12,878 I want to know everything that's in your head. 332 00:38:13,963 --> 00:38:15,464 Why? 333 00:38:15,548 --> 00:38:17,800 'Cause I want to feel more connected to you. 334 00:38:20,761 --> 00:38:23,180 But what if I open up and then you leave? 335 00:38:25,558 --> 00:38:27,393 Do you think we can just stay here? 336 00:38:29,770 --> 00:38:31,063 I want to. 337 00:38:43,158 --> 00:38:46,287 Can you drop this to Dennis? It's his birthday. 338 00:38:46,787 --> 00:38:48,038 After school? 339 00:38:50,207 --> 00:38:51,500 Mm-hmm. 340 00:38:56,839 --> 00:38:58,674 -Oh, lordy, lordy. -Happy birthday. 341 00:38:58,757 --> 00:39:00,593 -Thank you. -Yeah. Yeah. 342 00:39:00,676 --> 00:39:03,304 Thank you. Look at right here. 343 00:39:05,890 --> 00:39:08,350 With my real self, I feel -- 344 00:39:08,434 --> 00:39:12,980 I feel like I'm very obsessive, you know, and anxious at times. 345 00:39:13,063 --> 00:39:15,733 I guess when I -- when I -- when I'm on it... 346 00:39:17,276 --> 00:39:19,361 ...it takes that feeling away. 347 00:39:20,529 --> 00:39:23,991 Even when I'm off it, I guess I start to feel less obsessive 348 00:39:24,074 --> 00:39:25,993 or -- or anxious. 349 00:39:31,373 --> 00:39:33,417 -Hey. -Hey. 350 00:39:33,500 --> 00:39:34,668 -Hi. -Hi. 351 00:39:34,752 --> 00:39:36,295 This is my grandma. This is Michael. 352 00:39:36,378 --> 00:39:38,839 -Hi, Michael. Nice to see you. -Nice to meet you. 353 00:39:38,923 --> 00:39:41,550 I, uh, I was standing across the room, 354 00:39:41,634 --> 00:39:43,427 and I saw you. 355 00:39:43,511 --> 00:39:45,179 Oh, wow. 356 00:39:45,262 --> 00:39:47,473 Would you want to dance with me? 357 00:39:47,556 --> 00:39:50,684 Oh, sure. I'd love to. Oh, what an honor. 358 00:40:06,367 --> 00:40:08,202 Michael! 359 00:40:09,286 --> 00:40:12,039 Don't forget your dentist appointment. 360 00:40:15,918 --> 00:40:17,503 Oh. 361 00:40:17,586 --> 00:40:19,797 All right. 362 00:40:26,220 --> 00:40:28,472 Let me, uh, take a look at 'em. 363 00:40:31,225 --> 00:40:34,770 Pay some attention to your teeth. 364 00:40:34,854 --> 00:40:36,397 Wide open. 365 00:40:36,480 --> 00:40:39,650 And a bit of 366 00:40:39,733 --> 00:40:41,068 You're gonna be fine. 367 00:40:44,780 --> 00:40:47,283 Ohh... 368 00:40:47,366 --> 00:40:48,701 Ah! 369 00:41:17,354 --> 00:41:20,232 Should I put it on? 370 00:41:27,865 --> 00:41:29,575 What do you think about the world right now? 371 00:41:29,658 --> 00:41:30,951 What do I think about the world? 372 00:41:31,035 --> 00:41:32,244 Yeah, sure. 373 00:41:32,328 --> 00:41:34,622 It's messy. It's a messy place. 374 00:41:34,705 --> 00:41:36,040 I don't know how I feel about it. 375 00:41:36,123 --> 00:41:38,584 Um... 376 00:41:38,667 --> 00:41:44,758 I feel like it's in an absolute state of madhouse chaos, 377 00:41:44,841 --> 00:41:48,929 and everyone is doing their damnedest to block it out. 378 00:41:49,012 --> 00:41:50,430 The world's fucked up. I don't know. 379 00:41:50,514 --> 00:41:52,182 I don't love it. 380 00:41:52,265 --> 00:41:54,059 But I'm grateful for stuff like this. 381 00:41:54,142 --> 00:41:59,439 Like, nature and stuff that humans didn't fuck up yet. 382 00:41:59,523 --> 00:42:01,399 I don't know. Obviously, it's like blu-- 383 00:42:01,483 --> 00:42:03,735 Like, it's beautiful. 384 00:42:03,818 --> 00:42:07,155 It's nice, but I think there's a lot of crappy people in it. 385 00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:09,866 How do you see the future? 386 00:42:09,950 --> 00:42:10,951 Um, I don't know. 387 00:42:11,034 --> 00:42:13,203 In general, I think, 388 00:42:13,286 --> 00:42:14,913 I want to believe that the world's gonna be okay 389 00:42:14,996 --> 00:42:17,958 and, like, happy and everyone -- 390 00:42:18,083 --> 00:42:21,086 It's stupid, but, like, I want that, 391 00:42:21,169 --> 00:42:23,755 and I want everyone to be happy and peaceful. 392 00:42:23,839 --> 00:42:27,342 But I really don't think that's gonna happen anytime soon. 393 00:42:27,425 --> 00:42:30,345 And for me, I just haven't thought about it at all. 394 00:42:30,428 --> 00:42:32,264 I don't think I want to think about it. 395 00:42:39,145 --> 00:42:42,524 What's wrong? 396 00:42:42,607 --> 00:42:44,484 I just don't like thinking about the future. 397 00:42:48,864 --> 00:42:51,241 Why? 398 00:42:55,912 --> 00:42:58,039 I don't know what I'm gonna do. 399 00:43:05,839 --> 00:43:07,465 Hi, my name is Michael. 400 00:43:07,549 --> 00:43:10,218 Do you mind if I ask you guys some questions? 401 00:43:10,302 --> 00:43:11,803 Are you, uh, are you guys from around? 402 00:43:11,887 --> 00:43:14,890 You live here? -Um, we're from Aggasiz, 403 00:43:15,056 --> 00:43:16,683 but I used to come to Hope all the time. 404 00:43:16,766 --> 00:43:19,811 Yeah? What's it like growing up there? 405 00:43:19,895 --> 00:43:21,479 Everyone knows you, that's for sure, 406 00:43:21,563 --> 00:43:23,315 and everyone wants to know your business. 407 00:43:23,398 --> 00:43:24,649 It's super small. 408 00:43:24,733 --> 00:43:26,610 Like, I mean, you got not much to do. 409 00:43:26,651 --> 00:43:29,070 Just, I guess, go and get high. 410 00:43:29,154 --> 00:43:30,530 Yeah. You find ways to entertain yourself, 411 00:43:30,614 --> 00:43:32,657 more or less. -Exactly. 412 00:43:32,741 --> 00:43:35,118 So many people that have the potential to do so great, 413 00:43:35,202 --> 00:43:37,495 but then they get hooked and latched on to this drug 414 00:43:37,579 --> 00:43:39,998 and it just takes over their lives. 415 00:43:40,081 --> 00:43:42,209 -Exactly. -And it's not good. 416 00:43:42,292 --> 00:43:43,752 You wanna -- You wanna play a song? 417 00:43:43,835 --> 00:43:44,961 Uh, yeah. 418 00:43:45,045 --> 00:43:47,672 -Heck yeah. -Hecka yeah. 419 00:43:51,468 --> 00:43:53,094 What are the lyrics again? 420 00:43:58,225 --> 00:44:01,895 ♪ Settle down with me ♪ 421 00:44:01,978 --> 00:44:05,106 ♪ Cover me up ♪ 422 00:44:05,190 --> 00:44:07,192 ♪ Cuddle me in ♪ 423 00:44:09,819 --> 00:44:12,364 ♪ Lie down with me ♪ 424 00:44:12,447 --> 00:44:15,867 ♪ And hold me ♪ 425 00:44:15,951 --> 00:44:18,662 ♪ In your arms ♪ 426 00:44:21,039 --> 00:44:24,042 ♪ And your heart's against my chest ♪ 427 00:44:24,125 --> 00:44:26,878 ♪ Your lips pressed to my neck ♪ 428 00:44:26,962 --> 00:44:30,090 ♪ And I'm fallin' for your eyes ♪ 429 00:44:30,173 --> 00:44:32,509 ♪ But they don't know me yet ♪ 430 00:44:32,592 --> 00:44:35,262 ♪ And with this feeling, I'll forget ♪ 431 00:44:35,345 --> 00:44:37,305 ♪ I'm in love now ♪ 432 00:44:37,389 --> 00:44:42,143 ♪ Kiss me like you wanna be loved ♪ 433 00:44:42,227 --> 00:44:45,188 ♪ You wanna be loved ♪ 434 00:44:45,272 --> 00:44:49,442 ♪ You wanna be loved ♪ 435 00:44:49,526 --> 00:44:54,698 ♪ This feels like fallin' in love ♪ 436 00:44:54,781 --> 00:44:57,659 ♪ We're falling in love ♪ 437 00:44:57,742 --> 00:45:00,370 ♪ We're in love ♪ 438 00:45:02,581 --> 00:45:05,584 ♪ Settle down with me ♪ 439 00:45:05,667 --> 00:45:09,004 ♪ You'll be my safety ♪ 440 00:45:09,087 --> 00:45:11,548 ♪ And I'll be your lady ♪ 441 00:45:13,758 --> 00:45:18,263 ♪ I was made to keep your body warm ♪ 442 00:45:18,346 --> 00:45:20,932 ♪ But I'm cold as the wind blows ♪ 443 00:45:21,016 --> 00:45:24,394 ♪ So hold me in your arms ♪ 444 00:45:24,477 --> 00:45:26,021 ♪ Oh, no ♪ 445 00:45:26,104 --> 00:45:28,398 ♪ My heart's against your chest ♪ 446 00:45:28,481 --> 00:45:31,735 ♪ My lips pressed to your neck ♪ 447 00:45:31,818 --> 00:45:34,905 ♪ And I'm falling for your eyes ♪ 448 00:45:34,988 --> 00:45:37,282 ♪ They don't know me yet ♪ 449 00:45:37,365 --> 00:45:40,202 ♪ And with this feelin', I'll forget ♪ 450 00:45:40,285 --> 00:45:42,245 ♪ I'm in love now ♪ 451 00:45:42,329 --> 00:45:46,458 ♪ Kiss me like you wanna be loved ♪ 452 00:45:46,541 --> 00:45:49,711 ♪ You wanna be loved ♪ 453 00:45:49,794 --> 00:45:53,882 ♪ You wanna be loved ♪ 454 00:45:53,965 --> 00:45:58,428 ♪ This feels like falling in love ♪ 455 00:45:58,512 --> 00:46:01,139 ♪ We're falling in love ♪ 456 00:46:01,223 --> 00:46:04,643 ♪ We're falling in love ♪ 457 00:46:04,726 --> 00:46:06,728 And that's it 'cause I don't know the rest. 458 00:46:11,358 --> 00:46:14,444 I feel like I'm losing myself to it. 459 00:46:14,528 --> 00:46:15,946 I don't like who I am when I'm sober, 460 00:46:16,029 --> 00:46:17,697 and I don't like what's around me when I'm sober. 461 00:46:17,781 --> 00:46:21,409 And -- Sorry. I don't -- 462 00:46:21,493 --> 00:46:23,328 I don't feel comfortable doing this. 463 00:46:25,872 --> 00:46:28,458 Why'd you want to get out of town? 464 00:46:28,542 --> 00:46:30,043 I just needed to get out. 465 00:46:35,173 --> 00:46:38,885 - What's wrong? - Nothing's wrong. 466 00:46:38,969 --> 00:46:40,178 You sure? 467 00:46:43,598 --> 00:46:45,642 Do you think we're doing it too much? 468 00:46:50,939 --> 00:46:53,984 Oh, fuck it. 469 00:47:35,901 --> 00:47:37,277 No. 470 00:47:40,739 --> 00:47:42,824 I'm here. 471 00:47:44,159 --> 00:47:46,494 Oh. 472 00:47:46,578 --> 00:47:48,455 I'm here. 473 00:47:51,166 --> 00:47:53,501 I feel empty. 474 00:47:53,585 --> 00:47:56,004 - I can help you. - Stop. 475 00:47:57,714 --> 00:47:59,549 I can help you. 476 00:47:59,633 --> 00:48:01,092 No, you can't. 477 00:48:03,470 --> 00:48:05,430 - I can help you. - No, you can't! 478 00:48:05,514 --> 00:48:07,432 - Yeah. - Shut up! 479 00:48:07,516 --> 00:48:09,601 - I can help you. - Shut up! 480 00:48:09,684 --> 00:48:11,478 - I can help you. - Shut up! 481 00:48:15,565 --> 00:48:19,277 What time is it? 482 00:48:19,361 --> 00:48:21,446 I gotta go. 483 00:48:23,365 --> 00:48:25,825 Hey, I gotta go. Are you coming? 484 00:48:29,454 --> 00:48:30,539 Are you coming? 485 00:48:30,622 --> 00:48:32,332 No, I'm just gonna stay. 486 00:48:51,852 --> 00:48:54,771 You know, I-I did... 487 00:48:54,855 --> 00:48:58,316 You know, I did something I shouldn't have done. 488 00:48:58,400 --> 00:49:01,570 Um... 489 00:49:01,653 --> 00:49:03,280 it felt really... 490 00:49:03,363 --> 00:49:04,906 You know, I felt really -- 491 00:49:04,990 --> 00:49:06,199 like, really embarrassed about it, 492 00:49:06,283 --> 00:49:08,702 really ashamed. 493 00:49:30,015 --> 00:49:32,517 Jameson? 494 00:49:32,601 --> 00:49:34,769 Jameson? 495 00:49:39,733 --> 00:49:42,027 Jameson. 496 00:49:42,110 --> 00:49:44,738 Jameson. 497 00:49:44,821 --> 00:49:47,991 How old are you? 498 00:49:48,074 --> 00:49:50,535 17. 499 00:49:50,619 --> 00:49:54,080 What are you most scared of? 500 00:49:54,164 --> 00:49:57,000 I'm scared... 501 00:49:57,083 --> 00:49:59,836 of all the time I'm wasting. 502 00:49:59,920 --> 00:50:01,338 And... 503 00:50:04,549 --> 00:50:07,636 ...that I'll never... 504 00:50:07,719 --> 00:50:10,847 get better. 505 00:50:10,931 --> 00:50:13,475 And give up. 506 00:50:13,558 --> 00:50:14,893 What are you running away from? 507 00:50:17,479 --> 00:50:18,813 Myself. 508 00:50:24,694 --> 00:50:26,404 I haven't seen you around much. 509 00:50:30,075 --> 00:50:31,451 You really look fucked up. 510 00:50:34,079 --> 00:50:37,749 Have you seen Jameson? 511 00:50:37,832 --> 00:50:39,376 No. 512 00:51:25,755 --> 00:51:27,674 If I look back on my own life, 513 00:51:27,757 --> 00:51:29,801 like, my parents and my aunts and uncles, 514 00:51:29,885 --> 00:51:33,722 and everybody was always going through, like, withdrawal, 515 00:51:33,805 --> 00:51:36,600 trying to wean yourself off or stay away from it 516 00:51:36,683 --> 00:51:39,477 to, like, balance what drugs can offer you 517 00:51:39,561 --> 00:51:42,314 as, like, a coping thing. 518 00:51:42,397 --> 00:51:44,691 It is terrifying to see. 519 00:51:44,774 --> 00:51:47,611 I've had amazing moments on drugs 520 00:51:47,694 --> 00:51:50,405 that I will remember forever. 521 00:51:50,488 --> 00:51:54,492 Then I also know that abusing them can be super awful 522 00:51:54,576 --> 00:51:56,703 because it's like, "When are you abusing it? 523 00:51:56,786 --> 00:52:00,415 When does it not become just, like, fun?" 524 00:52:00,498 --> 00:52:03,835 I don't really do a lot, I guess, 525 00:52:03,919 --> 00:52:05,545 and it's nice to know that there's something -- 526 00:52:05,629 --> 00:52:07,255 There's lots of things out there 527 00:52:07,339 --> 00:52:10,800 that I can use to alter who I am. 528 00:52:10,884 --> 00:52:13,887 I've been struggling a lot with feeling like 529 00:52:13,970 --> 00:52:15,722 what I'm doing is really selfish, 530 00:52:15,805 --> 00:52:17,265 but in the moment, it doesn't feel 531 00:52:17,349 --> 00:52:19,059 like there's any other option. 532 00:52:19,142 --> 00:52:20,602 I've just been doing stupid shit, 533 00:52:20,685 --> 00:52:22,979 like drinking and doing Xanax, for example. 534 00:52:23,063 --> 00:52:25,440 And I don't know, a lot of people die off that mixture 535 00:52:25,524 --> 00:52:27,484 and I think I'm just being an idiot. 536 00:52:27,567 --> 00:52:31,321 But I also don't know how else to get through a day sometimes, 537 00:52:31,404 --> 00:52:33,865 so it's just messy. 538 00:52:47,921 --> 00:52:50,257 Fuck. 539 00:52:50,340 --> 00:52:52,676 Fuck. 540 00:52:52,759 --> 00:52:54,469 Fuck. 541 00:52:54,553 --> 00:52:56,304 What have I done? 542 00:52:56,388 --> 00:52:57,848 What have I done? 543 00:53:18,660 --> 00:53:20,537 Mikey! 544 00:53:20,620 --> 00:53:21,955 My boy! 545 00:53:28,086 --> 00:53:30,046 Oh, my God. 546 00:53:30,130 --> 00:53:31,464 Oh. 547 00:53:31,548 --> 00:53:33,884 Hey, man, 548 00:53:33,967 --> 00:53:36,511 tonight we gotta do something. 549 00:53:36,595 --> 00:53:40,432 Come on, man. Wake up. 550 00:53:40,515 --> 00:53:43,143 Gotta go clubbing or something. 551 00:53:43,226 --> 00:53:44,561 Let's go. 552 00:54:24,351 --> 00:54:27,896 Color pink and bright hues of life. 553 00:54:43,537 --> 00:54:45,288 Where's my bike? 554 00:54:45,372 --> 00:54:47,749 Oh, we should get stuck. 555 00:54:49,626 --> 00:54:52,045 Get stuck in the mud. 556 00:54:52,128 --> 00:54:55,423 Like a stick in the mud. Crazy and wild. 557 00:55:13,859 --> 00:55:16,361 Where Were You? 558 00:55:18,780 --> 00:55:20,699 Where Were You? 559 00:55:22,826 --> 00:55:25,453 I Was Trying To Find You. 560 00:55:27,497 --> 00:55:31,293 I Couldn't Find You. 561 00:55:33,837 --> 00:55:36,381 I Think I Love You 562 00:57:28,326 --> 00:57:30,078 Apparently he's kind of junky. 563 00:57:30,161 --> 00:57:34,791 He's the only one that, like, um, injects, uh, 564 00:57:34,875 --> 00:57:37,502 injects the drug instead of just, like, you know, 565 00:57:37,586 --> 00:57:38,712 breathing it in like we all do. 566 00:57:49,973 --> 00:57:52,392 If you overdose on it, 567 00:57:52,475 --> 00:57:54,144 it's almost like where you're in your own mind, 568 00:57:54,227 --> 00:57:56,396 if that makes sense. 569 00:57:56,479 --> 00:57:59,816 It just kind of takes you through your memories 570 00:57:59,900 --> 00:58:01,276 in a way you -- 571 00:58:01,359 --> 00:58:03,445 You're kind of going through, 572 00:58:03,486 --> 00:58:06,698 You're reliving things from the past. 573 00:58:06,781 --> 00:58:09,910 Um, hi. 574 00:58:09,993 --> 00:58:12,287 I'm Michael. 575 00:58:12,370 --> 00:58:14,915 You know, I guess I'm a bit of an introvert. 576 00:58:14,998 --> 00:58:17,459 I'm a little obsessive. 577 00:58:23,049 --> 00:58:25,343 Love is really scary 578 00:58:25,426 --> 00:58:28,262 in the sense it makes you really realize 579 00:58:28,346 --> 00:58:31,098 that you can be your own company. 580 00:58:31,182 --> 00:58:34,060 You're constantly needing for something 581 00:58:34,143 --> 00:58:37,355 or someone to fulfill your desire-- desires, 582 00:58:37,438 --> 00:58:39,690 or some wishes that you can kind of... 583 00:58:39,774 --> 00:58:44,237 Pink and bright hues of life. 584 00:58:51,536 --> 00:58:54,872 Why am I so obsessive? 585 00:58:54,956 --> 00:58:56,165 What am I? 586 00:58:56,249 --> 00:58:58,668 Can I find myself? 587 00:58:58,751 --> 00:58:59,961 I'm alone. 588 00:59:12,974 --> 00:59:16,644 I feel... 589 00:59:16,727 --> 00:59:18,521 really lost. 590 00:59:21,774 --> 00:59:25,361 I don't know how I'm gonna get through it. 591 00:59:25,444 --> 00:59:27,071 It's like the next fucking minute. 592 00:59:30,032 --> 00:59:32,076 It's just all too much. It's just... 593 00:59:34,453 --> 00:59:36,622 It's too overwhelming, all of it. 594 00:59:40,960 --> 00:59:42,753 And I don't want to be here. 595 01:00:07,987 --> 01:00:09,655 Jameson! 596 01:00:09,739 --> 01:00:11,532 Jameson! 597 01:00:17,496 --> 01:00:20,875 Fuck. I should have fucking lost her! 598 01:00:20,958 --> 01:00:22,668 Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! 599 01:01:53,759 --> 01:01:55,428 What the fuck? 600 01:01:58,931 --> 01:02:00,057 Oh, fuck. 601 01:02:07,398 --> 01:02:09,483 Uh. 602 01:02:37,136 --> 01:02:41,015 Can I sing a song or... 603 01:02:55,071 --> 01:02:58,783 ♪ It's just like Heaven ♪ 604 01:02:58,866 --> 01:03:03,079 ♪ Being here with you ♪ 605 01:03:03,162 --> 01:03:06,332 ♪ You're like an angel ♪ 606 01:03:06,415 --> 01:03:09,835 ♪ Too good to be true ♪ 607 01:03:09,919 --> 01:03:13,339 ♪ But after all ♪ 608 01:03:13,422 --> 01:03:15,508 ♪ I love you ♪ 609 01:03:15,591 --> 01:03:17,677 ♪ I do ♪ 610 01:03:17,760 --> 01:03:21,305 ♪ Angel baby ♪ 611 01:03:21,389 --> 01:03:24,767 ♪ My angel baby ♪ 612 01:03:24,851 --> 01:03:28,563 ♪ When you are near me ♪ 613 01:03:28,646 --> 01:03:32,400 ♪ My heart skips a beat ♪ 614 01:03:32,483 --> 01:03:35,278 ♪ I can hardly stand on ♪ 615 01:03:35,361 --> 01:03:39,699 ♪ My own two feet ♪ 616 01:03:39,782 --> 01:03:43,452 ♪ Because I love you ♪ 617 01:03:43,536 --> 01:03:46,956 ♪ I love you, I do ♪ 618 01:03:47,039 --> 01:03:49,625 - Hey, I can't move. - ♪ Angel baby ♪ 619 01:03:49,709 --> 01:03:51,502 I can't move my arms. 620 01:03:51,586 --> 01:03:53,296 -Calm down. -♪ My angel baby ♪ 621 01:03:53,379 --> 01:03:54,672 I can't move, I can't fucking move! 622 01:03:54,755 --> 01:03:56,966 ♪ Ooh, I love you ♪ 623 01:03:57,049 --> 01:03:58,843 - I'm not gonna move. - We gotta get out. 624 01:03:58,926 --> 01:04:00,386 - I'm gonna stay. - Look at me. 625 01:04:00,469 --> 01:04:02,138 Can you look at me? -No. I want to stay here. 626 01:04:02,221 --> 01:04:03,514 Look at me. 627 01:04:03,598 --> 01:04:05,099 You can do whatever you want. 628 01:04:05,183 --> 01:04:06,684 You should leave. 629 01:04:14,859 --> 01:04:18,487 I'm not just my thoughts. 630 01:04:18,571 --> 01:04:21,657 I'm not my obsessive thoughts. I'm not my obsessive thoughts. 631 01:04:21,741 --> 01:04:24,368 There's more to me than just my thoughts. 632 01:05:05,368 --> 01:05:06,953 Jameson! 633 01:05:32,186 --> 01:05:33,771 Hey. 634 01:05:33,855 --> 01:05:35,898 Hey. Hey. Look at me. 635 01:05:35,982 --> 01:05:38,442 Just open your eyes. 636 01:05:38,526 --> 01:05:40,111 Please stay. Please don't go. 637 01:05:40,194 --> 01:05:41,904 Please. I'm sorry. 638 01:05:41,988 --> 01:05:43,990 Okay? I love you. Fuck! 639 01:05:44,073 --> 01:05:47,159 Please. Please. 640 01:05:47,243 --> 01:05:49,787 Fuck. Fuck! Please. 641 01:05:52,290 --> 01:05:54,625 It's okay to not be okay. 642 01:05:56,502 --> 01:06:00,173 You're worthy. You're worthy of love. 643 01:06:00,256 --> 01:06:02,675 You're not a burden. 644 01:06:02,758 --> 01:06:06,262 You're not the depression and you're not the anxiety. 645 01:06:08,389 --> 01:06:11,225 And please don't ever give up. 646 01:06:11,309 --> 01:06:14,020 You are not your obsessive thoughts. 647 01:06:14,103 --> 01:06:17,773 You are not what your mind makes you think you are. 648 01:06:17,857 --> 01:06:19,483 You are you. 649 01:06:19,567 --> 01:06:21,110 I am Michael. 650 01:06:21,194 --> 01:06:24,238 It's okay to not be okay. 651 01:06:24,363 --> 01:06:28,159 You are worthy. You are worthy of love. 652 01:06:28,242 --> 01:06:31,370 You are not your obsessive thoughts. 653 01:06:31,454 --> 01:06:34,081 You are not what your mind makes you think you are. 654 01:06:34,165 --> 01:06:36,167 You're not a burden. 655 01:06:36,250 --> 01:06:38,920 You're not the depression and you're not the anxiety. 656 01:06:39,003 --> 01:06:40,379 You are you. 657 01:06:40,463 --> 01:06:42,173 Please don't ever give up. 658 01:06:42,256 --> 01:06:44,133 I am Michael. 659 01:06:44,217 --> 01:06:46,219 It's okay to not be okay. 660 01:06:46,302 --> 01:06:48,179 You are not a burden. 661 01:06:48,262 --> 01:06:51,807 You are not the anxiety and you're not the depression. 662 01:06:51,891 --> 01:06:53,893 You are loved and you are worthy of love. 663 01:06:57,522 --> 01:06:59,732 And please don't ever give up. 664 01:07:18,334 --> 01:07:20,336 Learn to love yourself and forgive yourself 665 01:07:20,419 --> 01:07:24,549 and just...love. 666 01:09:43,980 --> 01:09:48,818 ♪ Seek your soul with your consent ♪ 667 01:09:51,028 --> 01:09:55,616 ♪ Hundred miles an hour if I can ♪ 668 01:09:57,952 --> 01:10:03,499 ♪ Wonder if I'll ever see again ♪ 669 01:10:11,007 --> 01:10:15,511 ♪ An easy love I can't repay ♪ 670 01:10:18,014 --> 01:10:23,853 ♪ Over and over, our world decays ♪ 671 01:10:23,936 --> 01:10:26,480 ♪ Whisper slow ♪ 672 01:10:26,564 --> 01:10:31,485 ♪ There's a lot at stake ♪ 673 01:10:34,947 --> 01:10:36,199 Shattered glasses. 674 01:10:36,282 --> 01:10:40,036 But I still see the sun rise. 675 01:10:40,119 --> 01:10:41,370 Blurred vision from broken thoughts. 676 01:10:41,454 --> 01:10:43,122 Broken thoughts. 677 01:10:43,206 --> 01:10:44,373 Understandably so. 678 01:10:44,457 --> 01:10:45,833 Understandably so. 679 01:10:45,917 --> 01:10:47,710 This pain comes in stages, 680 01:10:47,793 --> 01:10:51,214 a menage of emotions with acceptance at the end. 681 01:10:54,217 --> 01:10:56,886 This can't be rushed. - No. 682 01:10:56,969 --> 01:10:59,597 This can't be rushed. 683 01:10:59,680 --> 01:11:02,808 But it's there waiting. - Waiting. 684 01:11:02,892 --> 01:11:05,353 Waiting for the next step from you. 685 01:11:05,436 --> 01:11:07,021 Grief does not change. 686 01:11:07,104 --> 01:11:10,191 Only reveals who you are. 687 01:11:10,274 --> 01:11:11,817 ♪ I need a seventh sense ♪ 688 01:11:11,901 --> 01:11:15,112 ♪ In the arms of the maker ♪ 689 01:11:15,196 --> 01:11:17,073 Only reveals who you are. 690 01:11:17,156 --> 01:11:20,451 ♪ Some silver linings never show ♪ 691 01:11:20,535 --> 01:11:22,119 Will you stay faithful? 692 01:11:25,831 --> 01:11:30,086 ♪ Will it break up? ♪ 693 01:11:30,169 --> 01:11:35,967 ♪ How can I leave him ♪ 694 01:11:36,050 --> 01:11:38,845 ♪ With a wandering mind ♪ 695 01:11:38,928 --> 01:11:43,349 ♪ As she slipped away ♪ 696 01:11:43,432 --> 01:11:48,813 ♪ Those silhouettes running wild ♪ 697 01:11:48,896 --> 01:11:52,066 ♪ But these deceiving tears ♪ 698 01:11:52,149 --> 01:11:55,570 ♪ Nothing is protected now ♪ 699 01:11:55,653 --> 01:11:58,322 Where do you stand? 700 01:11:58,406 --> 01:12:01,951 By my side or is there doubt? 701 01:12:02,034 --> 01:12:04,078 Faith is cliché for a reason. 702 01:12:04,161 --> 01:12:05,830 The substance of hope. 703 01:12:05,913 --> 01:12:07,498 Deliberate confidence. 704 01:12:07,582 --> 01:12:09,709 Unwavering faith. 705 01:12:09,792 --> 01:12:11,544 Forever. - Forever. 706 01:12:11,627 --> 01:12:13,880 ♪ Forever faithful ♪ 707 01:12:13,963 --> 01:12:15,923 Forever faithful. 708 01:12:16,007 --> 01:12:18,551 All things are possible. 709 01:12:18,634 --> 01:12:21,262 Can't see the linings. 710 01:12:21,345 --> 01:12:24,891 Because what is the outside made of? 711 01:12:24,974 --> 01:12:27,768 Broken pieces, a tattered cover. 712 01:12:27,852 --> 01:12:29,729 A shell of itself. 713 01:12:29,812 --> 01:12:32,315 Meant for you to look the other way. 714 01:12:32,398 --> 01:12:34,317 That's all I see. - That's all I see. 715 01:12:34,400 --> 01:12:35,651 ♪ Forever faithful ♪ 716 01:12:35,735 --> 01:12:38,404 That's all I see. 717 01:12:38,487 --> 01:12:40,448 But I stay... - I stay. 718 01:12:40,531 --> 01:12:43,117 Forever faithful. 719 01:12:43,201 --> 01:12:47,038 But I stay forever faithful. - Forever faithful. 720 01:12:47,121 --> 01:12:50,750 What I need is unseen but felt. 721 01:12:50,833 --> 01:12:53,127 So I stay forever faithful. 722 01:12:53,211 --> 01:12:55,254 ♪ Forever faithful ♪ 723 01:12:55,338 --> 01:12:58,966 So I stay forever faithful. 724 01:12:59,050 --> 01:13:03,304 ♪ Forever faithful ♪ 725 01:13:03,387 --> 01:13:05,097 Forever faithful. 726 01:13:05,181 --> 01:13:09,101 ♪ Forever faithful ♪ 726 01:13:10,305 --> 01:14:10,502 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm