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Susan:
I DON'T LIKE LOOKING AT MYSELF.

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[ Voice breaking ]
ALL I SEE IS A FAT GLOB.

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I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE.

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I WOULDN'T WISH THIS
ON MY WORST ENEMY.

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I HATE THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE.

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DON'T YOU DARE
PUT IT ALL OFF ON ME!

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SHE IS GOING TO DIE,
PERIOD.

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MOM, JUST STOP!

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Dr. Nowzaradan:
WE GOT TO CORRECT THIS PROBLEM.

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OTHERWISE, SURGERY
WOULD NOT BE USEFUL FOR YOU.

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[ Voice breaking ]
I CAN'T DO THIS

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WITHOUT SOMEBODY
TO HELP ME SAY "NO."

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Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'RE NOT
100% SURE WHAT'S WRONG,

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BUT SHE MAY END UP PARALYZED.

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[ Voice breaking ] IT SCARES
THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME!

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Susan: IT'S A LOT HARDER TO
CHANGE THAN YOU EVER REALIZED.

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YOU JUST HAVE TO HOPE
IT'S NOT TOO LATE

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[ MATTRESS CREAKING ]

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LIFE IS MISERABLE.

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I HURT ALL THE TIME,
SO I DON'T GET UP MUCH.

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WITH ME HAVING THIS BIG STOMACH,
IT PULLS ON ME SO BAD,

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AND IT FEELS LIKE
MY SKIN IS ON FIRE

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AND IT'S JUST GONNA MELT.

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I HAVE TROUBLE BREATHING,
ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M WALKING.

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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I HAVE TO TAKE BABY STEPS
BECAUSE I'M AFRAID OF FALLING.

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[ COUGHS ]

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AND IF I FELL, THERE'S NOTHING
ANYBODY COULD DO FOR ME.

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I DON'T LIKE LOOKING AT MYSELF,

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SO I DON'T LOOK AT MYSELF
IN THE MIRROR.

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[ WATER RUNNING ]

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TO ME, I'M FAT AND UGLY.

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[ Voice breaking ]
ALL I SEE IS A FAT GLOB.

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[ SNIFFLES ]

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I'M JUST DISGUSTED
OF THE WAY I LOOK.

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I HATE MYSELF.

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MY WEIGHT IS GETTING TO A POINT

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WHERE I CAN'T TAKE CARE
OF MYSELF ANYMORE.

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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I LIVE WITH MY MOTHER,

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AND SHE HAS TO TAKE CARE OF ME
MOST OF THE TIME.

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[ Breathlessly ] OKAY.
I NEED YOU TO PUT THOSE ON.

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Nita:
SUSAN'S ALWAYS BEEN MY BABY.

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SHE'S NEVER LIVED ON HER OWN.

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SHE'S ALWAYS LIVED WITH ME.

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AND I'VE ALWAYS HAD TO
TAKE CARE OF HER.

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YOU GOT YOUR SHOES?

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GROWING UP,
SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN OVERWEIGHT.

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I KEPT THINKING
AS SHE GOT OLDER,

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SHE WOULD LOSE IT.

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BUT SHE DIDN'T.

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SHE JUST KEPT ON AND KEPT ON
AND JUST GOT BIGGER.

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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I WOULD JUST EAT.

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I DON'T KNOW IF I WAS EATING
TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER.

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I JUST ATE
'CAUSE THE FOOD WAS THERE.

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Nita:
WHEN SUSAN WAS ABOUT 4 OR 5,

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ME AND HER DAD
STARTED FIGHTING A LOT.

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HE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC.

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HE WOULD COME HOME DRUNK,
AND SOMEBODY WAS GONNA GET HIT.

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IT WAS EITHER ME OR SUSAN.

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Stephanie: I THINK THAT
SUSAN WAS UNHAPPY GROWING UP.

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SHE PROBABLY WANTED MORE
FROM MY DAD THAN WHAT SHE GOT.

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Nita:
WHEN SUSAN WOULD GET UPSET,

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I WOULD GO TO THE STORE.

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IF SHE WANTED ICE CREAM
OR IF SHE WANTED CANDY,

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I'D GO BUY IT FOR HER.

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FOOD WAS HER COMFORT.

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THAT WAS HER WAY OF ESCAPING.

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Susan: AS I GOT OLDER,

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I JUST STARTED
PUTTING ON WEIGHT.

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BUT IT ALL GOT WORSE
WHEN I WAS 17.

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Nita: HER DAD WAS DRUNK.

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[ SNIFFLES ]

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AND HE STARTED YELLING
AND SCREAMING AT ME.

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HE GOT HIS RIFLE.

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SUSAN AND STEPHANIE
GOT IN THE MIDDLE AND TOLD HIM,

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"DAD, IF YOU SHOOT,
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO SHOOT ME."

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[ SOBS ]

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[ Voice breaking ] SO HE PUT
THE GUN DOWN, AND HE LEFT.

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THAT'S WHEN I WENT AHEAD
AND FILED FOR DIVORCE.

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Susan: WHEN MY PARENTS DIVORCED,
IT WAS HARD.

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AND [SIGHS] I DID START
PUTTING ON MORE WEIGHT.

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Stephanie: THAT HURT SUSAN

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WORSE THAN PROBABLY ANYTHING
HAS EVER HURT HER.

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IT WAS ABSOLUTELY
A BREAKING POINT FOR HER.

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I NEED TWO BURGERS,

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AND THEN
A SPICY CHICKEN SANDWICH.

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Woman: OKAY.
A REGULAR FRY.

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IT'S BEEN OVER 20 YEARS,

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AND SHE HAS JUST BEEN ANGRY --
ANGRY AT THE WORLD.

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THANK YOU.

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CAN I ASK WHY
IT WAS SO LONG?

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I'M SORRY?

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CAN I ASK WHY
IT WAS SO LONG?

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'CAUSE YOU HAVE OTHER PEOPLE
BEHIND THERE.

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[ HORN HONKS ]

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ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU.

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UNBELIEVABLE.

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[ LAUGHS ]

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Susan:
WHEN MY DAD LEFT MY MOM...

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I WAS MAD, AND I WAS...HURT.

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[ Voice breaking ] I WAS SAD.

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NOW I THINK I AM USING FOOD
TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER.

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Nita:
SUSAN STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT,

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AND SHE JUST HASN'T STOPPED.

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SHE JUST KEEPS GETTING BIGGER
AND BIGGER.

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Stephanie: EVERY DAY HAS GOTTEN
A LITTLE BIT WORSE.

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I FEEL LIKE, EVEN NOW,
SHE'S JUST WAITING.

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MAYBE THEY'LL GET BACK TOGETHER.

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MAYBE, YOU KNOW,
SHE'LL HAVE HER FAMILY BACK.

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SOMETIMES, I LOOK AT HER
LIKE SHE'S LIVING LIKE A KID

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BECAUSE SHE HAS NOT
MOVED PAST THAT.

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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Stephanie: IT'S ALMOST LIKE

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SHE STOPPED LIVING HER LIFE
AT THAT POINT.

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[ Voice breaking ]
I'M AFRAID THAT,

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IF SUSAN DOESN'T GET SOME HELP,

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SHE'S NOT GONNA BE WITH US
AND SHE'S GONNA DIE.

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YOU NEED HELP?
MNH-MNH.

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Susan: I DON'T LIKE
GOING OUT MUCH ANYMORE.

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I ONLY GO OUT TO GET FOOD
OR IF I HAVE TO.

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AND I CAN ONLY WALK ENOUGH

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TO GET TO THE NEXT PLACE
AND SIT DOWN.

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DO Y'ALL HAVE
AN ELECTRIC CART?

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[ Voice breaking ] I CANNOT
WALK AROUND THIS DAMN STORE.

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IT GOT TO SIT DOWN.
I'M SORRY.

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[ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ]

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[ CRYING ]

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Susan: I GOT TO HAVE
SOMEWHERE TO SIT DOWN.

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IF NOT, I JUST --
I START PANICKING...

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[ HYPERVENTILATING ]

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...BECAUSE MY KNEES AND MY BACK
WILL GIVE OUT.

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IF YOU HOLD ON TO THE BASKET,
JUST TRY A LITTLE.

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[ SOBS ]

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I CANNOT WALK AROUND
THIS [BLEEP] STORE.

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I'M TELLING YOU
RIGHT NOW.

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[ SOBS ]

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I CAN'T DO IT.

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WHAT IF I COME UP HERE
AND GET YOU A CHAIR?

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THAT WAY,
IF WE NEED IT,

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WE CAN JUST PULL IT OUT
AND YOU CAN SIT THERE.

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OKAY?

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WILL THAT BE BETTER?
YEAH.

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HOW ABOUT THAT?

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WHAT KIND OF CAKE
DO YOU WANT?

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YOU WANT THOSE?

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Stephanie: SUSAN AND MY MOM,

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THEY'RE VERY CLOSE,
AND THEY'VE GOT EACH OTHER.

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NACHO?

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YEAH.

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MY MOM IS THE MOST IMPORTANT
PERSON IN SUSAN'S LIFE.

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SHE IS ALSO THE BIGGEST ENABLER.

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[ Breathlessly ]
I NEED TO S--

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SIT DOWN.

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YOU WANTED THE OATMEAL?

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SHE DOESN'T WANT TO
TELL HER "NO."

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SHE DOESN'T WANT TO HURT HER.
THAT'S HER BABY GIRL.

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BUT IT'S KILLING HER.

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AND SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE.

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AND I KNOW THAT, AT THIS POINT,

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EVERY PLATE OF FOOD
THAT WE HAND HER IS POISON.

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YOU'LL HAVE TO SIT THAT BACK,
MOM.

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Nita: I WILL.

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GET THAT IN.

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MY MOM IS GONNA HAVE TO BE
THE ONE TO HELP HER THE MOST.

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AND RIGHT NOW,
THAT'S NOT HAPPENING.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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Nita: [ Voice breaking ]
I DO FEEL GUILTY

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ABOUT HOW SHE WAS RAISED

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AND WHAT I FELT LIKE
I DID TO HER.

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SO I TRY TO GIVE HER
WHAT SHE WANTS.

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Susan:
I WANT TO MAKE MY FAMILY PROUD.

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I DON'T WANT THEM
TO FEEL LIKE I'M A BURDEN

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AND THEY HAVE TO
TAKE CARE OF ME.

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I'M JUST MORE DISAPPOINTED
IN MYSELF RIGHT NOW

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BECAUSE I'VE LET MYSELF GET
TO THIS POINT.

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I'M GONNA MAKE
THOSE DUCK NOODLES.

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IS THAT OKAY?
YEAH.

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I AM AFRAID OF DYING.

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I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING
TO GET MYSELF BETTER

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BECAUSE I KNOW
I'M KILLING MYSELF.

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[ Voice breaking ]
I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

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Susan: WHEN YOU'RE AT A PLACE
IN YOUR LIFE THAT YOU HATE,

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YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH
HOW YOU GOT THERE TO CHANGE IT.

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MY WORST FEAR IS GOING TO HIM

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AND HE'S NOT GONNA BE ABLE
TO HELP ME AT ALL.

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AND I NEED HELP.

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I'M VERY SCARED
ABOUT WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY.

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[ TURN SIGNAL CLICKING ]

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I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS
WHAT THE SCALE'S GONNA SAY.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WEIGH.

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Woman: MS. FARMER?

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AND I DON'T KNOW
IF I CAN STAND LONG ENOUGH

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TO GET MY WEIGHT ON THE SCALE.

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[ GRUNTING ]

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I NEED [CHUCKLES]

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[ GRUNTS ]

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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[ Gasping ] MY LEGS...
ARE GONNA GIVE...

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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Susan:
I DIDN'T KNOW I GAINED SO MUCH.

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[ KNOCKS ON DOOR ]

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HELLO.
I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.

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I'M SUSAN.
NICE TO MEET YOU.

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AND SO, YOU WEIGHED HOW MUCH?
600 POUNDS.

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SO, YOUR SIZE IS
HANDICAPPING YOU QUITE A BIT.

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YES, SIR.
OKAY.

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AND WE'RE GONNA DO
SOME TESTS TODAY

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AND SEE WHERE YOU STAND
WITH YOUR GENERAL HEALTH,

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AND THEN DECIDE WHAT'S GONNA BE
YOUR RISK FACTOR, OKAY?

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OKAY.

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NOW, THIS SKIN --

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IS THERE ANY WAY
I CAN TAKE A LOOK AT IT?

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YEAH.

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UM...

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[ Strained voice ]
I WANT TO...LIFT THIS UP.

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YOU GOT SOME INFECTION.
ALL RIGHT.

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WE GOT -- WE GOT A LOT OF WORK
TO DO TO GET YOU WELL.

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OKAY.

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RIGHT NOW, I'M CONCERNED

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THAT SURGERY IS TOO MUCH
FOR HER BODY TO HANDLE.

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SOMETHING MINOR
CAN PUSH HER BODY OVER,

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AND SHE CAN DIE.

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WE HAVE TO GET
TO THE POINT

231
00:13:29,567 --> 00:13:32,500
THAT SURGERY IS GONNA BE
A SAFE THING TO DO.

232
00:13:32,500 --> 00:13:34,333
WHO LIVES WITH YOU?

233
00:13:34,333 --> 00:13:36,667
I LIVE WITH MY MOM.
OKAY.

234
00:13:36,667 --> 00:13:41,367
SO, WE HAVE TO GET MOM
TO SORT OF WATCH YOU, HUH?

235
00:13:41,367 --> 00:13:44,100
ARE YOU A GOOD WATCHER,
OR ARE YOU AN ENABLER?

236
00:13:44,100 --> 00:13:46,733
I'VE BEEN AN ENABLER.

237
00:13:46,733 --> 00:13:49,833
I FIGURED THAT OUT.

238
00:13:49,833 --> 00:13:54,133
YOU SHORTENED HER LIFE,
AND THAT'S NOT LOVE.

239
00:13:54,133 --> 00:13:58,100
I'M GOING TO NEED SUSAN
TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC.

240
00:13:58,100 --> 00:14:02,067
SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO LOSE
A GREAT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT.

241
00:14:02,067 --> 00:14:05,167
NEED TO GET HER INFECTION
UNDER CONTROL.

242
00:14:05,167 --> 00:14:09,867
HER DIET SHOULD CONSIST
OF ZERO CARB, ZERO FAT,

243
00:14:09,867 --> 00:14:12,900
AND PROTEIN
AND SOME FIBER.

244
00:14:12,900 --> 00:14:16,267
WHEN I WANT TO DO IS
SEE YOU IN A COUPLE MONTHS

245
00:14:16,267 --> 00:14:19,067
AND SEE WHAT THE DIET
IS DOING FOR YOU.

246
00:14:21,767 --> 00:14:25,267
SO, IT IS VERY IMPORTANT
FOR YOU TO LOSE 100 POUNDS

247
00:14:25,267 --> 00:14:27,533
BEFORE WE CAN DO
YOUR SURGERY.

248
00:14:27,533 --> 00:14:30,433
[ Voice breaking ]
I'M WILLING TO DO ANYTHING.

249
00:14:30,433 --> 00:14:32,067
ALL RIGHT,
LET ME SOME GET SOME TESTS DONE,

250
00:14:32,067 --> 00:14:34,167
AND WE'LL COME BACK
AND TALK TO YOU.

251
00:14:34,167 --> 00:14:35,900
ALL RIGHT.

252
00:14:35,900 --> 00:14:37,900
IT IS NOT
GOING TO BE EASY FOR HER.

253
00:14:39,533 --> 00:14:43,367
IT'S CLEAR THAT HER MOTHER
IS ENABLING HER LIFE.

254
00:14:43,367 --> 00:14:46,400
SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO CHANGE
THE SITUATION

255
00:14:46,400 --> 00:14:49,067
IF SHE'S GOING TO SUCCEED.

256
00:14:49,067 --> 00:14:51,867
SHE'S SCARED.
SHE JUST IS SCARED.

257
00:14:51,867 --> 00:14:53,067
IT'S HARD TO HEAR.

258
00:14:53,067 --> 00:14:55,300
IT'S NOT THAT --
YEAH, IT'S HARD TO HEAR.

259
00:14:55,300 --> 00:14:58,200
BUT IT'S HARD TO JUST...

260
00:14:58,200 --> 00:15:01,333
PUT IT DOWN AND QUIT
LIKE IT AIN'T NOTHING.

261
00:15:01,333 --> 00:15:04,533
YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO CHANGE
YOUR MIND-SET, TOO,

262
00:15:04,533 --> 00:15:06,367
OR THIS WON'T WORK FOR HER.

263
00:15:06,367 --> 00:15:09,233
[ Voice breaking ]
IF SHE'S GONNA LIVE WITH YOU

264
00:15:09,233 --> 00:15:11,500
AND YOU DON'T CHANGE
YOUR MIND-SET,

265
00:15:11,500 --> 00:15:14,800
SHE'S GOING TO DIE, PERIOD!

266
00:15:14,800 --> 00:15:16,133
PERIOD!

267
00:15:16,133 --> 00:15:19,400
ENOUGH, ENOUGH, ENOUGH!
STOP!

268
00:15:19,400 --> 00:15:20,867
I'M NOT SAYING
THAT I'M NOT.

269
00:15:20,867 --> 00:15:23,167
BUT DO YOU THINK I'M GONNA
BUY HER ANYTHING ELSE?

270
00:15:23,167 --> 00:15:26,067
DON'T PUT IT ALL ON ME.
DON'T YOU DARE.

271
00:15:26,067 --> 00:15:27,667
OH, MY GOD.
MOM, ENOUGH.

272
00:15:27,667 --> 00:15:29,167
YOU'RE NOT LISTENING.

273
00:15:29,167 --> 00:15:32,133
YOUR ATTITUDE
IS AS IMPORTANT AS HERS.

274
00:15:32,133 --> 00:15:34,833
YOU HAVE TO THINK
DIFFERENTLY.

275
00:15:34,833 --> 00:15:36,833
I'LL BE THERE FOR HER
BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT.

276
00:15:36,833 --> 00:15:37,967
NO!

277
00:15:37,967 --> 00:15:40,067
DON'T MAKE ME OUT TO BE
THE VILLAIN!

278
00:15:40,067 --> 00:15:41,967
BOTH OF YOU, STOP!
JUST STOP!

279
00:15:41,967 --> 00:15:43,433
I'M NOT GONNA DO THIS.

280
00:15:43,433 --> 00:15:45,533
[ SOBBING ]

281
00:16:01,633 --> 00:16:06,133
Susan: THE DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT
LAST MONTH WAS A WAKE-UP CALL.

282
00:16:06,133 --> 00:16:10,233
I'VE BEEN STICKING
TO THE DIET THAT HE'S GIVEN ME,

283
00:16:10,233 --> 00:16:11,600
BUT IT'S HARD.

284
00:16:13,500 --> 00:16:16,400
I DO WANT TO GO GET A BURGER
OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT,

285
00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:18,833
BUT I JUST GOT TO STAY
DISCIPLINED.

286
00:16:18,833 --> 00:16:22,300
REFRIGERATOR --
IT'S KIND OF BARE.

287
00:16:22,300 --> 00:16:25,533
IT'S GOT YOGURTS
FOR MY BREAKFAST.

288
00:16:25,533 --> 00:16:26,833
WE GOT EGGS.

289
00:16:26,833 --> 00:16:30,533
I KNEW THIS PROCESS
WAS GONNA BE HARD,

290
00:16:30,533 --> 00:16:33,267
BUT I DIDN'T REALIZE
IT WAS GONNA BE THIS HARD.

291
00:16:33,267 --> 00:16:37,600
[ Voice breaking ]
I'VE GIVEN UP A LOT OF THINGS...

292
00:16:37,600 --> 00:16:40,467
[SOBS]

293
00:16:40,467 --> 00:16:42,967
...THAT'S NORMAL TO ME.

294
00:16:45,533 --> 00:16:47,667
I WANT TO EAT WHAT I CRAVE,

295
00:16:47,667 --> 00:16:49,867
BUT I'M NOT GIVING IN RIGHT NOW.

296
00:16:52,133 --> 00:16:55,633
I'VE JUST GOT TO LEARN
HOW TO RESIST IT

297
00:16:55,633 --> 00:16:59,067
BECAUSE I CAN'T STAY THIS WAY.

298
00:16:59,067 --> 00:17:03,767
I TOLD THE DOCTOR
I WOULD DO ANYTHING, AND I AM.

299
00:17:03,767 --> 00:17:06,933
SO I'VE BEEN WALKING
A LITTLE BIT MORE EACH DAY.

300
00:17:12,100 --> 00:17:17,467
I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME
I'VE BEEN ABLE TO WALK THIS FAR.

301
00:17:17,467 --> 00:17:21,533
BUT THE HARDEST CHANGE HAS BEEN
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY MOM.

302
00:17:21,533 --> 00:17:22,833
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

303
00:17:22,833 --> 00:17:25,233
[ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ]

304
00:17:25,233 --> 00:17:29,333
SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN THERE
TO GIVE ME WHAT I WANT,

305
00:17:29,333 --> 00:17:31,533
AND WE BOTH KNOW
IT'S KILLING ME.

306
00:17:31,533 --> 00:17:34,567
IF YOU NEED TO LEAN ON ME,
LEAN ON ME.

307
00:17:34,567 --> 00:17:37,300
I WASN'T SURE IF WE WOULD BE
ABLE TO CHANGE THAT

308
00:17:37,300 --> 00:17:38,633
ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP.

309
00:17:38,633 --> 00:17:42,100
BUT MY MOM HASN'T BROUGHT ME
ANYTHING BAD,

310
00:17:42,100 --> 00:17:45,633
AND SHE'S BEEN A SUPPORT TO ME
OVER THE LAST MONTH.

311
00:17:45,633 --> 00:17:48,967
I GOT TO SIT DOWN FOR A MINUTE
ON THE STEPS.

312
00:17:48,967 --> 00:17:50,433
SIT DOWN.

313
00:17:50,433 --> 00:17:52,200
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

314
00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:55,067
SURGERY'S MY ONLY HOPE.

315
00:17:55,067 --> 00:17:58,100
AND IT'S MY MOTIVATION
RIGHT NOW...

316
00:17:58,100 --> 00:18:00,300
SEE? YOU DID IT.
YOU PROUD OF YOURSELF?

317
00:18:00,300 --> 00:18:01,867
YEAH.
OKAY.

318
00:18:01,867 --> 00:18:04,600
...BECAUSE IT MEANS
I GET TO LIVE

319
00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:07,733
AND THAT I CAN HAVE A CHANCE
AT A NORMAL LIFE.

320
00:18:09,667 --> 00:18:12,367
I DO WANT TO MAKE
MY FAMILY PROUD,

321
00:18:12,367 --> 00:18:16,167
AND I DON'T WANT THEM
TO FEEL LIKE I'M A BURDEN.

322
00:18:17,633 --> 00:18:20,633
NOTHING'S GONNA STOP ME
FROM DOING THIS.

323
00:18:32,433 --> 00:18:33,767
IT'S BEEN A FEW MONTHS,

324
00:18:33,767 --> 00:18:36,200
AND WE'RE GOING
TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE

325
00:18:36,200 --> 00:18:38,067
FOR A FOLLOW-UP VISIT.

326
00:18:38,067 --> 00:18:40,567
HOPEFULLY GET SOME GOOD NEWS.

327
00:18:44,133 --> 00:18:48,067
I KNOW I'M STILL TOO BIG
FOR A REGULAR SCALE,

328
00:18:48,067 --> 00:18:50,533
SO I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE
TO CHECK MY WEIGHT.

329
00:18:50,533 --> 00:18:51,933
Woman: MS. FARMER.

330
00:18:51,933 --> 00:18:54,533
I JUST HOPE
I'VE LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT

331
00:18:54,533 --> 00:18:57,733
TO BE APPROVED FOR THE SURGERY.

332
00:19:02,700 --> 00:19:04,533
OH, MY GOSH.

333
00:19:07,933 --> 00:19:10,333
I'M SO EXCITED.

334
00:19:10,333 --> 00:19:11,633
I'VE COME SO FAR,

335
00:19:11,633 --> 00:19:14,200
AND I WANT THIS
MORE THAN ANYTHING.

336
00:19:14,200 --> 00:19:16,567
I'M HOPING TO GET GOOD NEWS.

337
00:19:16,567 --> 00:19:18,133
HELLO.

338
00:19:18,133 --> 00:19:19,267
Susan: HELLO.

339
00:19:19,267 --> 00:19:21,867
SO, YOU LOST 150 POUNDS.

340
00:19:21,867 --> 00:19:23,067
YEP.

341
00:19:23,067 --> 00:19:24,933
CAN YOU TELL
THE DIFFERENCE?

342
00:19:24,933 --> 00:19:26,500
YEAH. A LITTLE BIT.
[ LAUGHS ]

343
00:19:26,500 --> 00:19:29,067
Dr. Nowzaradan:
SUSAN HAS DONE VERY WELL.

344
00:19:29,067 --> 00:19:32,267
SHE HAS EXCEEDED MY EXPECTATION.

345
00:19:32,267 --> 00:19:35,067
HOW'S THE HANGING SKIN
ON THE LOWER ABDOMEN?

346
00:19:36,600 --> 00:19:38,167
THE SORES ARE HEALING,
SO...

347
00:19:38,167 --> 00:19:39,233
MM.

348
00:19:39,233 --> 00:19:42,667
HER SKIN INFECTION
HAS GOT BETTER,

349
00:19:42,667 --> 00:19:46,700
SO THINK SHE DEFINITELY
IS READY FOR SURGERY.

350
00:19:46,700 --> 00:19:49,100
YOU HAVE DONE VERY WELL,

351
00:19:49,100 --> 00:19:51,400
AND SO I'M GOING TO APPROVE YOU
FOR SURGERY.

352
00:19:51,400 --> 00:19:53,900
YES! OKAY.

353
00:19:53,900 --> 00:19:55,833
YOU EXCITED?
YES, SIR.

354
00:19:55,833 --> 00:19:57,167
ALL RIGHT, SUPER.

355
00:19:58,900 --> 00:20:01,867
Susan: I'VE DREAMED
OF GETTING THIS HELP.

356
00:20:01,867 --> 00:20:05,000
I'M SO EXCITED
THIS IS HAPPENING.

357
00:20:05,000 --> 00:20:08,367
THIS MEANS I HAVE A CHANCE
OF HAVING A NORMAL LIFE.

358
00:20:10,533 --> 00:20:12,767
AND I CAN'T WAIT.

359
00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:31,600
I COULDN'T SLEEP AT ALL
LAST NIGHT.

360
00:20:31,600 --> 00:20:35,200
THIS IS THE BIGGEST THING
I'VE EVER DONE FOR MYSELF.

361
00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:37,600
I KNOW I'M A GROWN ADULT,

362
00:20:37,600 --> 00:20:40,967
BUT I'M STILL JUST --
I'M JUST SCARED.

363
00:20:42,433 --> 00:20:45,567
[ CRYING ]

364
00:20:45,567 --> 00:20:47,667
SHH.

365
00:20:47,667 --> 00:20:49,500
THIS IS THE WORST PART.

366
00:20:49,500 --> 00:20:50,500
YEAH.

367
00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:51,900
I LOVE YOU.

368
00:20:51,900 --> 00:20:54,333
Nita: SHE'LL BE OKAY.

369
00:20:54,333 --> 00:20:57,600
I'M JUST DOING A LOT OF PRAYING
THAT EVERYTHING'S OKAY.

370
00:20:57,600 --> 00:21:03,100
Susan: THIS IS A LOT SCARIER
THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE.

371
00:21:03,100 --> 00:21:06,667
I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW.

372
00:21:06,667 --> 00:21:10,267
I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST HOPE
TO BECOME NORMAL.

373
00:21:13,633 --> 00:21:16,333
Dr. Nowzaradan:
PATIENTS THIS SIZE

374
00:21:16,333 --> 00:21:17,833
ARE VERY DIFFICULT
TO PUT TO SLEEP

375
00:21:17,833 --> 00:21:22,500
BECAUSE THESE PEOPLE
HAVE DIFFICULTY BREATHING.

376
00:21:45,733 --> 00:21:49,200
Dr. Nowzaradan: SUSAN IS HAVING
HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY.

377
00:21:49,200 --> 00:21:53,167
GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY
IS AN OPERATION

378
00:21:53,167 --> 00:21:56,800
THAT REDUCES THE STOMACH
TO A MUCH SMALLER SIZE.

379
00:21:56,800 --> 00:21:58,867
OKAY. THAT SECTION.

380
00:21:58,867 --> 00:22:00,100
BY DOING THAT,

381
00:22:00,100 --> 00:22:02,200
THE PATIENT WILL BE ABLE
TO EAT A SMALL AMOUNT

382
00:22:02,200 --> 00:22:03,633
AND GET FULL REAL QUICK.

383
00:22:03,633 --> 00:22:06,600
SO THEY'RE ABLE TO EAT LESS
AND THEY'RE NOT HUNGRY,

384
00:22:06,600 --> 00:22:09,633
AND THEIR FOOD OBSESSION
SHOULD GO AWAY.

385
00:22:09,633 --> 00:22:11,167
YOU CAN TURN THE ROOM LIGHT ON.

386
00:22:13,300 --> 00:22:15,933
ALL RIGHT, THAT'S ALL.

387
00:22:18,067 --> 00:22:20,433
SUSAN'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.

388
00:22:20,433 --> 00:22:24,467
IT WAS A LITTLE BIT CHALLENGING
BECAUSE OF HER SIZE,

389
00:22:24,467 --> 00:22:27,433
BUT EVERYTHING WENT FINE.

390
00:22:27,433 --> 00:22:29,067
DON'T MOVE, THOUGH.
YOU'RE STILL IN --

391
00:22:29,067 --> 00:22:32,433
[ GROWLS ]
SUSAN, RELAX.

392
00:22:32,433 --> 00:22:34,733
TOMORROW, WE START HER
ON A LIQUID DIET.

393
00:22:34,733 --> 00:22:36,467
WE'RE GONNA KEEP HER
ABOUT THREE OR FOUR DAYS,

394
00:22:36,467 --> 00:22:38,067
MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY.

395
00:22:38,067 --> 00:22:42,367
I THINK SHE CAN LOSE 30 TO 40
POUNDS THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS

396
00:22:42,367 --> 00:22:44,533
IF SHE KEEPS UP THE ACTIVITY.

397
00:22:44,533 --> 00:22:46,067
GOT TO RELAX, OKAY?

398
00:22:46,067 --> 00:22:50,067
SHE HAS TO STAY MOTIVATED AND
ACTIVE TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS.

399
00:22:50,067 --> 00:22:51,133
DEEP BREATH.

400
00:22:51,133 --> 00:22:52,600
[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

401
00:23:08,400 --> 00:23:10,333
Nita: READY TO GO SEE
WHAT IT SAYS?

402
00:23:10,333 --> 00:23:11,467
Susan: YEAH.

403
00:23:11,467 --> 00:23:12,733
SINCE SURGERY,

404
00:23:12,733 --> 00:23:15,633
IT'S BEEN A LOT HARDER
TO GET UP AND MOVE AROUND.

405
00:23:15,633 --> 00:23:19,300
IT HURTS SO BAD
JUST GOING A SHORT DISTANCE.

406
00:23:19,300 --> 00:23:21,600
I NEED YOU OVER HERE.

407
00:23:24,067 --> 00:23:27,367
BUT I'M HOPING
FOR SOME WEIGHT LOSS TODAY.

408
00:23:27,367 --> 00:23:30,300
I'M JUST -- I'M SCARED.

409
00:23:30,300 --> 00:23:32,067
GAIN'S NEVER A GOOD THING.

410
00:23:32,067 --> 00:23:33,267
Woman: MS. FARMER?

411
00:23:42,467 --> 00:23:44,833
OKAY.

412
00:23:47,133 --> 00:23:49,867
WITH HOW HARD IT'S BEEN
TO EXERCISE,

413
00:23:49,867 --> 00:23:52,667
I'M HAPPY WITH THAT LOSS.

414
00:23:52,667 --> 00:23:54,300
HELLO.
HELLO.

415
00:23:54,300 --> 00:23:56,200
HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
GOOD.

416
00:23:56,200 --> 00:23:59,067
SO, YOU LOST A LITTLE BIT
MORE WEIGHT.

417
00:23:59,067 --> 00:24:02,267
NOT AS MUCH
AS I WAS HOPING,

418
00:24:02,267 --> 00:24:04,600
BUT YOU'RE GOING
THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

419
00:24:04,600 --> 00:24:07,067
ANY SHORTNESS OF BREATH
OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT?

420
00:24:07,067 --> 00:24:09,267
YEAH.
WHEN I WAS WALKING IN HERE,

421
00:24:09,267 --> 00:24:11,533
I FELT LIKE MY LEGS
WERE GONNA GIVE OUT.

422
00:24:11,533 --> 00:24:13,067
MM-HMM.

423
00:24:13,067 --> 00:24:15,933
BUT I HAVEN'T EXERCISED
AS MUCH AS I LIKE.

424
00:24:15,933 --> 00:24:19,067
Dr. Nowzaradan: SUSAN'S DECREASE
IN ACTIVITY IS A SMALL CONCERN.

425
00:24:19,067 --> 00:24:22,600
THERE IS NO REASON
FOR HER TO HAVE LESS ENERGY.

426
00:24:22,600 --> 00:24:26,767
IT MAY BE IN HER HEAD
OR MAY BE SOMETHING ELSE.

427
00:24:26,767 --> 00:24:28,533
HAVE TO KEEP AN EYE ON HER
AND SEE.

428
00:24:28,533 --> 00:24:31,100
FOCUS ON BEING ACTIVE.

429
00:24:31,100 --> 00:24:33,567
IF YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEM,
LET ME KNOW.

430
00:24:33,567 --> 00:24:35,567
OKAY.

431
00:24:35,567 --> 00:24:37,900
[ GRUNTS ]

432
00:24:37,900 --> 00:24:40,900
Susan:
I JUST NEED TO GO HOME, REST,

433
00:24:40,900 --> 00:24:43,167
AND SEE IF I CAN
GET MY STRENGTH BACK.

434
00:24:43,167 --> 00:24:44,500
YOU FEEL BETTER NOW?

435
00:24:44,500 --> 00:24:46,067
YEAH.

436
00:24:46,067 --> 00:24:48,533
I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT
OF GOING BACK TO WHERE I WAS.

437
00:24:48,533 --> 00:24:50,067
NEED ME
TO HELP YOU GET DOWN?

438
00:24:50,067 --> 00:24:52,167
NO.

439
00:24:52,167 --> 00:24:54,700
SO I KNOW I CAN DO THIS.

440
00:25:13,067 --> 00:25:14,500
Nita: SUSAN?

441
00:25:14,500 --> 00:25:15,533
YEAH.

442
00:25:15,533 --> 00:25:17,333
YOU READY TO GET UP
AND GET READY?

443
00:25:17,333 --> 00:25:18,467
YEAH.

444
00:25:27,333 --> 00:25:28,867
Susan: THIS PAST MONTH

445
00:25:28,867 --> 00:25:31,767
HASN'T BEEN GOING AS WELL
AS I WISH IT HAD.

446
00:25:31,767 --> 00:25:34,533
I'VE BEEN HAVING TROUBLE
WALKING,

447
00:25:34,533 --> 00:25:36,667
AND IT'S GETTING WORSE.

448
00:25:39,867 --> 00:25:42,067
IT'S JUST HARD TO DO IT
RIGHT NOW,

449
00:25:42,067 --> 00:25:43,300
AND I DON'T KNOW WHY.

450
00:25:51,067 --> 00:25:53,333
YOU THINK IT'S BECAUSE
YOU'RE NOT WALKING AS MUCH?

451
00:25:53,333 --> 00:25:54,733
YEAH.

452
00:25:54,733 --> 00:25:56,433
I DON'T KNOW
HOW TO DESCRIBE IT.

453
00:25:56,433 --> 00:25:59,900
Susan: IT'S ALMOST LIKE IT WAS
BEFORE I LOST THE WEIGHT,

454
00:25:59,900 --> 00:26:01,933
AND THAT SCARES ME.

455
00:26:01,933 --> 00:26:06,633
I DON'T KNOW WHY THAT IS
OR WHAT'S GOING ON.

456
00:26:06,633 --> 00:26:08,733
I KNOW
I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT,

457
00:26:08,733 --> 00:26:11,200
OR I'LL START GAINING
THE WEIGHT AGAIN.

458
00:26:27,533 --> 00:26:30,667
THIS MORNING,
I JUST FELL TO THE GROUND.

459
00:26:30,667 --> 00:26:33,133
IT JUST HAPPENED
ALL OF A SUDDEN.

460
00:26:34,567 --> 00:26:39,567
I COULDN'T GET THE STRENGTH
TO GET UP,

461
00:26:39,567 --> 00:26:44,133
AND I HAD TO CRAWL AND HAVE
MY MOM HELP ME GET INTO BED.

462
00:26:44,133 --> 00:26:46,300
Nita: SHE COULDN'T STAND.

463
00:26:46,300 --> 00:26:50,433
SHE SAID SHE COULDN'T FEEL
ANYTHING IN HER LEGS.

464
00:26:50,433 --> 00:26:52,633
HER LEGS HAVE BEEN GOING NUMB.

465
00:26:54,467 --> 00:26:56,233
HI, SUSAN.
HOW YOU DOING?

466
00:26:56,233 --> 00:26:57,500
HELLO.

467
00:26:57,500 --> 00:26:59,200
HOW YOU FEEL?

468
00:26:59,200 --> 00:27:00,400
I FEEL OKAY,

469
00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:03,433
EXCEPT FOR I JUST DON'T HAVE
STRENGTH IN MY LEGS.

470
00:27:03,433 --> 00:27:06,467
LET ME TAKE A LOOK AT YOUR LEG,
SEE WHAT'S GOING ON.

471
00:27:06,467 --> 00:27:08,067
IT FEELS NUMB.

472
00:27:08,067 --> 00:27:09,900
FEEL NUMB?
YEAH.

473
00:27:09,900 --> 00:27:11,567
CAN YOU RAISE
YOUR LEG UP?

474
00:27:11,567 --> 00:27:13,700
OKAY.

475
00:27:13,700 --> 00:27:16,267
WE'RE NOT 100% SURE
WHAT'S WRONG WITH SUSAN,

476
00:27:16,267 --> 00:27:19,567
BUT I'VE CALLED A SPECIALIST
TO SEE HER.

477
00:27:19,567 --> 00:27:22,067
WE'RE GONNA SEE
WHAT THE NEUROLOGIST SAYS

478
00:27:22,067 --> 00:27:23,700
AFTER EXAMINING YOU,
OKAY?

479
00:27:23,700 --> 00:27:26,300
IF IT IS
WHAT I'M CONCERNED IT MAY BE,

480
00:27:26,300 --> 00:27:30,533
WE NEED TO TREAT IT IMMEDIATELY
OR SHE MAY END UP PARALYZED.

481
00:27:30,533 --> 00:27:32,100
[ CRYING ]

482
00:27:32,100 --> 00:27:35,133
ARE YOU OKAY?

483
00:27:35,133 --> 00:27:40,200
[ Sobbing] IT SCARES ME NOT
TO BE ABLE TO BE MOVING AROUND.

484
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:41,533
BUT YOU WILL BE.

485
00:27:41,533 --> 00:27:43,233
I DON'T WANT TO BE
IN A WHEELCHAIR.

486
00:27:43,233 --> 00:27:47,700
AND IT JUST SCARES
THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME.

487
00:28:03,100 --> 00:28:04,233
[ ELEVATOR BELL DINGS ]

488
00:28:04,233 --> 00:28:07,067
Dr. Nowzaradan:
A SPECIALIST SAW SUSAN,

489
00:28:07,067 --> 00:28:10,667
AND SHE'S BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH
A CONDITION CALLED NEUROPATHY.

490
00:28:10,667 --> 00:28:13,700
THIS CONDITION IS NERVE DAMAGE

491
00:28:13,700 --> 00:28:17,600
THAT CAN BE A RESULT
OF BEING OBESE FOR A LONG TIME.

492
00:28:17,600 --> 00:28:18,867
SUSAN IS LOSING WEIGHT,

493
00:28:18,867 --> 00:28:20,500
BUT SHE'S STILL GOING TO SUFFER

494
00:28:20,500 --> 00:28:23,567
FROM THE EFFECT OF BEING
SO HEAVY FOR SO LONG.

495
00:28:23,567 --> 00:28:26,167
HOW'S YOUR DAY GOING?

496
00:28:26,167 --> 00:28:27,567
EARLIER, WHEN I STOOD UP,

497
00:28:27,567 --> 00:28:32,333
I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T HAVE
ANY STRENGTH IN MY THIGHS.

498
00:28:32,333 --> 00:28:35,567
YOU GOT WHAT WE CALL
A PERIPHERAL NEUROPATHY.

499
00:28:35,567 --> 00:28:37,600
THIS IS
A PROGRESSIVE CONDITION,

500
00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:40,367
AND WE NEED SOME REHAB PROGRAM
TO WORK WITH IT.

501
00:28:40,367 --> 00:28:44,067
IT CAN BE PERMANENT
IF NOT TREATED IMMEDIATELY,

502
00:28:44,067 --> 00:28:48,467
SO WE HAVE TO GET SUSAN TO REHAB
TO REVERSE THIS CONDITION

503
00:28:48,467 --> 00:28:50,400
BEFORE IT BECOMES PERMANENT.

504
00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:52,833
WE NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT
YOU DON'T LOSE ANY MUSCLE.

505
00:28:52,833 --> 00:28:54,067
OKAY.

506
00:28:54,067 --> 00:28:58,300
THIS WON'T BE EASY,
BUT YOU CAN DO IT.

507
00:28:58,300 --> 00:29:00,167
AND WE'LL SEE HOW THINGS GO,
OKAY?

508
00:29:00,167 --> 00:29:01,900
OKAY.
ALL RIGHT.

509
00:29:01,900 --> 00:29:04,800
Susan: I'VE BEEN DOING
EVERYTHING TO GET BETTER,

510
00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:07,067
AND THIS DOESN'T
FEEL FAIR AT ALL.

511
00:29:07,067 --> 00:29:10,200
BUT I WILL NOT END UP
IN A WHEELCHAIR.

512
00:29:31,467 --> 00:29:32,700
SO, TODAY,
WE'RE JUST GONNA DO

513
00:29:32,700 --> 00:29:34,533
THE REST OF OUR THINGS
THAT WE TALKED ABOUT YESTERDAY,

514
00:29:34,533 --> 00:29:36,833
SO WALKING AND STAIRS.

515
00:29:36,833 --> 00:29:38,067
YOU READY?
YEAH.

516
00:29:42,300 --> 00:29:45,333
I'VE BEEN AT THE REHAB FACILITY
FOR A MONTH NOW.

517
00:29:45,333 --> 00:29:48,533
IT'S BEEN HARD
LEARNING HOW TO WALK AGAIN.

518
00:29:48,533 --> 00:29:51,967
MY MOM HAS STAYED
THE WHOLE TIME, HELPING ME.

519
00:29:51,967 --> 00:29:55,600
AND IT'S BEEN NICE
KNOWING THAT SHE'S THERE.

520
00:29:58,133 --> 00:30:02,200
I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT
BEING IN A WHEELCHAIR...

521
00:30:02,200 --> 00:30:03,800
SO, I'M GONNA TAKE
HER WALKER, MOM,

522
00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:05,833
AND I'M GONNA PUT IT
AT THE TOP OF THE STAIRS.

523
00:30:05,833 --> 00:30:08,400
...AND USING THAT
AS MOTIVATION TO KEEP GOING.

524
00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:10,067
WHEN SHE GETS UP THERE,
IT'S READY FOR HER.

525
00:30:10,067 --> 00:30:11,333
OKAY.

526
00:30:11,333 --> 00:30:14,033
AND THEN, I JUST STAND
BEHIND HER ON THE WAY UP.

527
00:30:14,033 --> 00:30:16,133
AGAIN, MY STANCE
IS KIND OF WIDE,

528
00:30:16,133 --> 00:30:18,667
AND I'M JUST HERE AT HER HIPS
IN CASE SHE NEEDS ME.

529
00:30:18,667 --> 00:30:21,967
THE SURGERY WAS
MY SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE.

530
00:30:23,467 --> 00:30:26,133
AND I'M NOT GONNA LET
A SETBACK LIKE THIS

531
00:30:26,133 --> 00:30:28,467
TAKE THAT FROM ME.

532
00:30:28,467 --> 00:30:29,933
[ GRUNTS ]

533
00:30:29,933 --> 00:30:31,633
I'M GONNA FIGHT.

534
00:30:31,633 --> 00:30:32,633
OKAY.

535
00:30:32,633 --> 00:30:34,000
SO, I'M LOOKING BACKWARDS.

536
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:38,267
I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING
I POSSIBLY CAN TO GET BETTER.

537
00:30:39,033 --> 00:30:40,733
NICE JOB, SUSAN.

538
00:30:40,733 --> 00:30:42,467
WHOO-HOO!

539
00:30:42,467 --> 00:30:43,867
OKAY.

540
00:30:43,867 --> 00:30:45,400
WE'RE JUST GONNA GO
TO THAT GRAY CYCLE

541
00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:46,533
RIGHT THERE
IN THE CORNER.

542
00:30:46,533 --> 00:30:49,667
EVEN THOUGH I'M BACK
AT SQUARE ONE,

543
00:30:49,667 --> 00:30:51,300
I'M NOT GIVING UP.

544
00:30:51,300 --> 00:30:54,300
IF I LOSE MY ABILITY TO WALK,

545
00:30:54,300 --> 00:30:56,733
I'M GONNA END UP
GAINING EVERYTHING BACK.

546
00:30:56,733 --> 00:31:01,267
AND THEN I'LL JUST
BE WAITING TO DIE.

547
00:31:03,433 --> 00:31:06,400
IT'S MY LIFE THAT'S AT STAKE.

548
00:31:20,800 --> 00:31:22,533
OKAY, NOW WE'RE READY.

549
00:31:22,533 --> 00:31:25,500
IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF MONTHS,
AND I'M GOING HOME.

550
00:31:26,700 --> 00:31:30,300
I CAN GET AROUND WITH A WALKER
RIGHT NOW.

551
00:31:30,300 --> 00:31:33,167
BUT MY GOAL IS
TO BE COMPLETELY INDEPENDENT

552
00:31:33,167 --> 00:31:35,233
OF ANYONE AND ANYTHING.

553
00:31:35,233 --> 00:31:36,433
THIS WAY.
THIS WAY?

554
00:31:36,433 --> 00:31:37,733
YES.

555
00:31:37,733 --> 00:31:40,400
Nita: SUSAN, I'M GONNA GO
GET THE CAR REAL QUICK.

556
00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:43,267
I'M A LITTLE CONCERNED AT MAKING
THE SAME PROGRESS AT HOME.

557
00:31:43,267 --> 00:31:46,267
BUT I'M JUST GONNA TAKE IT
A DAY AT A TIME.

558
00:31:47,900 --> 00:31:50,433
SEE? WHEN SHE CAME,
SHE COULDN'T DO THAT.

559
00:31:50,433 --> 00:31:51,633
[ LAUGHS ]

560
00:31:56,067 --> 00:31:58,567
TRYING TO THINK
OF SOMETHING YOU COULD EAT.

561
00:31:58,567 --> 00:32:01,100
YOU WANT A CHICKEN SALAD?

562
00:32:04,333 --> 00:32:06,767
I NEED A CHICKEN SALAD,

563
00:32:06,767 --> 00:32:08,533
AND THEN I WANT
A 12-PIECE NUGGET.

564
00:32:08,533 --> 00:32:11,967
THANK YOU.

565
00:32:11,967 --> 00:32:14,667
Susan: IT'S BEEN A HARD
COUPLE OF MONTHS,

566
00:32:14,667 --> 00:32:17,133
AND I'M HAVING MOMENTS
WHERE I'M GIVING IN A LITTLE.

567
00:32:17,133 --> 00:32:18,600
TAKE LITTLE BITES.

568
00:32:18,600 --> 00:32:20,767
I KNOW.

569
00:32:20,767 --> 00:32:23,867
THE ONLY THING THAT'S BAD IN IT
IS THE MAYONNAISE.

570
00:32:23,867 --> 00:32:26,067
IT'S PROBABLY NOT LOW-FAT.

571
00:32:26,067 --> 00:32:27,267
I'M NOT PERFECT.

572
00:32:27,267 --> 00:32:30,167
I'M GONNA MESS UP
EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE.

573
00:32:30,167 --> 00:32:31,700
I CHEAT A LITTLE,

574
00:32:31,700 --> 00:32:34,467
BUT IT HELPS ME COPE
WITH EVERYTHING GOING ON.

575
00:32:34,467 --> 00:32:38,133
THE KEY IS FINDING BALANCE.

576
00:32:38,133 --> 00:32:40,800
I JUST CAN'T OVERDO IT.

577
00:32:48,733 --> 00:32:51,700
I'M GOING
TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE,

578
00:32:51,700 --> 00:32:53,267
AND I'M A LITTLE SCARED
TO SEE

579
00:32:53,267 --> 00:32:55,067
IF I'VE MADE ANY PROGRESS
OR NOT.

580
00:32:58,333 --> 00:33:02,233
I'VE HAD MOMENTS WHERE
MY EMOTIONS GET THE BEST OF ME

581
00:33:02,233 --> 00:33:04,233
AND I ATE WHAT I SHOULDN'T HAVE.

582
00:33:04,233 --> 00:33:06,267
Woman: MS. FARMER?

583
00:33:06,267 --> 00:33:09,367
SO I'M NOT SURE
HOW MUCH PROGRESS I'VE MADE.

584
00:33:10,933 --> 00:33:14,233
I JUST HOPE I HAVEN'T GAINED.

585
00:33:21,267 --> 00:33:23,500
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

586
00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:27,400
I KNOW.

587
00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:29,567
HELLO.
HI.

588
00:33:29,567 --> 00:33:31,633
SO, WHAT'S GOING ON
WITH YOU?

589
00:33:31,633 --> 00:33:34,500
I WANT MY LEG STRENGTH BACK
LIKE IT WAS, BUT...

590
00:33:34,500 --> 00:33:36,800
HOW IS YOUR NUTRITION?

591
00:33:36,800 --> 00:33:38,600
I'M KIND OF SCARED
TO TELL YOU.

592
00:33:38,600 --> 00:33:40,333
WHEW.

593
00:33:40,333 --> 00:33:43,633
UM...
I'VE BEEN EATING CRACKERS

594
00:33:43,633 --> 00:33:46,967
AND OTHER STUFF THAT
I'M NOT REALLY SUPPOSED TO.

595
00:33:46,967 --> 00:33:49,400
Nita:
SHE HAD CHIPS AND A CUPCAKE

596
00:33:49,400 --> 00:33:53,067
AT MY GRANDSON'S
BIRTHDAY PARTY HERE.

597
00:33:53,067 --> 00:33:54,733
THE REASON YOU CAN'T WALK

598
00:33:54,733 --> 00:33:57,367
BECAUSE YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT
AND YOU'RE MALNOURISHED.

599
00:33:57,367 --> 00:34:01,367
OKAY, THIS WEIGHT GAIN
IS UNACCEPTABLE.

600
00:34:01,367 --> 00:34:04,233
YOU SHOULD BE WALKING
WITHOUT A WALKER.

601
00:34:04,233 --> 00:34:08,233
YOU SHOULD MAKING
MORE PROGRESS BY NOW.

602
00:34:08,233 --> 00:34:10,900
LET ME SEE HOW YOU WALK.

603
00:34:10,900 --> 00:34:13,467
UM, I'M GONNA HAVE TO
GET YOU UP.

604
00:34:13,467 --> 00:34:17,467
UNLESS I HAVE ARMS ON THE CHAIR,
I CAN'T.

605
00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:30,400
SUSAN, SHE SHOULDN'T
STILL NEED A WALKER.

606
00:34:30,400 --> 00:34:34,967
AND SHE'S USING THE SITUATION
AS AN EXCUSE.

607
00:34:34,967 --> 00:34:38,967
SHE'S GOING BACK
TO THE SAME OLD HABITS.

608
00:34:38,967 --> 00:34:40,167
Nita: CALM DOWN.

609
00:34:40,167 --> 00:34:42,633
JUST RELAX
AND YOU'LL DO IT.

610
00:34:42,633 --> 00:34:44,633
WHEN YOU GET UPSET,
YOU CAN'T.

611
00:34:44,633 --> 00:34:47,467
Dr. Nowzaradan:
HER MOTHER BABYING HER

612
00:34:47,467 --> 00:34:49,933
LIKE A 10-YEAR-OLD KID,

613
00:34:49,933 --> 00:34:52,167
AND THIS IS
A PATHOLOGICAL SITUATION

614
00:34:52,167 --> 00:34:56,067
THAT, IF SHE DOESN'T
TAKE IT VERY SERIOUSLY,

615
00:34:56,067 --> 00:34:59,900
SHE'S GOING BACK TO HER ORIGINAL
WEIGHT VERY QUICKLY.

616
00:34:59,900 --> 00:35:02,867
HER CONDITION MIGHT BECOME WORSE
AND EVEN PERMANENT.

617
00:35:02,867 --> 00:35:04,433
PUSH YOURSELF UP.

618
00:35:04,433 --> 00:35:06,067
I CAN'T.

619
00:35:06,067 --> 00:35:08,900
[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]
LIKE YOU DO ON THE COUCH.

620
00:35:08,900 --> 00:35:11,800
SHE HAS TO MAKE A CHANGE NOW.

621
00:35:19,367 --> 00:35:21,567
Susan: CHANGING WHAT YOU NEED TO
IN LIFE

622
00:35:21,567 --> 00:35:24,067
CAN BE ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS
YOU EVER DO.

623
00:35:24,067 --> 00:35:28,300
AND SOMETIMES, IT'S TOO HARD
TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN.

624
00:35:38,567 --> 00:35:43,333
AFTER THE DOCTOR'S VISIT,
I WAS PRETTY UPSET.

625
00:35:43,333 --> 00:35:48,133
BUT I REALIZED THAT I DO
HAVE TO STOP MAKING EXCUSES.

626
00:35:50,433 --> 00:35:54,067
I KNOW THERE'S A LOT
GOING ON INSIDE ME

627
00:35:54,067 --> 00:35:57,200
THAT LEADS ME TO EAT.

628
00:35:57,200 --> 00:36:03,067
AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I THOUGHT
I COULD AVOID ALL THAT.

629
00:36:03,067 --> 00:36:06,367
SO I'M GOING TO SEE
A THERAPIST TODAY.

630
00:36:07,900 --> 00:36:11,067
HI, LADIES.

631
00:36:11,067 --> 00:36:12,567
COME RIGHT ON BACK.

632
00:36:14,067 --> 00:36:17,767
SO, TELL ME WHAT BRINGS YOU
THERAPY AT THIS POINT IN TIME.

633
00:36:17,767 --> 00:36:19,933
I DON'T KNOW.

634
00:36:19,933 --> 00:36:22,833
[ Voice breaking ]
I'M JUST SCARED.

635
00:36:22,833 --> 00:36:25,267
ALL OF THESE CHANGES
ARE SCARY, SUSAN.

636
00:36:25,267 --> 00:36:28,867
IT'S REASONABLE THAT YOU WOULD
FEEL A LOT OF FEAR RIGHT NOW.

637
00:36:28,867 --> 00:36:32,333
I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY SHE'S SO SCARED.

638
00:36:32,333 --> 00:36:34,067
DO YOU WANT TO LOOK
AT YOUR MOM

639
00:36:34,067 --> 00:36:35,800
AND TELL HER
WHAT YOU'RE AFRAID OF?

640
00:36:35,800 --> 00:36:39,167
IT'S SCARY FOR YOU
TO BE IN CONTROL.

641
00:36:39,167 --> 00:36:41,067
YEAH.

642
00:36:41,067 --> 00:36:43,833
I JUST GOT TO QUIT RELYING
ON YOU SO MUCH

643
00:36:43,833 --> 00:36:46,167
INSTEAD OF...

644
00:36:46,167 --> 00:36:47,500
I DON'T KNOW.

645
00:36:47,500 --> 00:36:49,767
SO, SUSAN,
EXPRESS TO YOUR MOM --

646
00:36:49,767 --> 00:36:51,933
WHAT ARE THINGS
THAT YOU NEED,

647
00:36:51,933 --> 00:36:54,833
AND WHAT ARE SOME THINGS
THAT MAY BE CRIPPLING YOU

648
00:36:54,833 --> 00:36:56,067
THAT YOU DON'T NEED?

649
00:36:56,067 --> 00:36:59,300
I GUESS WHAT
WOULD BE CRIPPLING ME IS

650
00:36:59,300 --> 00:37:03,800
YOU HAVING TO DO MY LAUNDRY,
COOKING FOR ME.

651
00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:08,067
MISS NITA, ARE YOU WILLING
TO MAKE CHANGES IN THE HOUSEHOLD

652
00:37:08,067 --> 00:37:09,800
TO SUPPORT SUSAN'S GOALS?

653
00:37:09,800 --> 00:37:12,900
I CAN BACK OFF,
IF THAT'S WHAT SHE NEEDS.

654
00:37:12,900 --> 00:37:14,733
DO YOU NEED ME
TO STAND BACK

655
00:37:14,733 --> 00:37:18,600
AND LET YOU DO THE WASHING
AND DO YOUR COOKING?

656
00:37:21,067 --> 00:37:22,467
YES.

657
00:37:22,467 --> 00:37:26,167
SUSAN, YOU'VE REALLY DONE
EXTREMELY WELL

658
00:37:26,167 --> 00:37:29,067
EXPRESSING YOURSELF.

659
00:37:29,067 --> 00:37:31,067
WELL, LADIES, THANK YOU.

660
00:37:31,067 --> 00:37:32,867
[ CRYING ]

661
00:37:35,333 --> 00:37:38,333
Susan: THIS GOING TO BE HARD.

662
00:37:38,333 --> 00:37:40,500
I'VE SPENT TOO LONG
BEING DEPENDENT ON OTHERS.

663
00:37:42,967 --> 00:37:45,467
I'M AFRAID
I CAN'T DO IT ON MY OWN.

664
00:37:45,467 --> 00:37:50,133
SOMETHING ALWAYS GIVES ME
AN EXCUSE NOT TO.

665
00:37:50,133 --> 00:37:55,300
I JUST HAVE TO START DOING IT
AND PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I CAN.

666
00:38:19,867 --> 00:38:21,900
THE PAST MONTH,

667
00:38:21,900 --> 00:38:24,600
I'VE SLOWLY BEEN TAKING ON
THE CHORES AROUND THE HOUSE.

668
00:38:24,600 --> 00:38:27,800
I'VE SET OUT TO DO
EVERYTHING I CAN FOR MYSELF

669
00:38:27,800 --> 00:38:31,067
WITHOUT MY MOTHER'S HELP.

670
00:38:31,067 --> 00:38:33,500
I'VE BEEN DOING THE LAUNDRY...

671
00:38:36,467 --> 00:38:38,433
...AND WASHING THE DISHES

672
00:38:38,433 --> 00:38:43,900
AND TRYING TO WALK AS MUCH
AS POSSIBLE WITHOUT MY WALKER.

673
00:38:43,900 --> 00:38:48,400
I DIDN'T NEED IT
AS MUCH AS I THOUGHT.

674
00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:49,967
IT HASN'T BEEN EASY,

675
00:38:49,967 --> 00:38:53,067
BUT I'M SLOWLY GETTING BACK
MY MOBILITY.

676
00:38:53,067 --> 00:38:54,267
I'VE LIVED FOR SO LONG

677
00:38:54,267 --> 00:38:56,433
TELLING MYSELF
I COULDN'T TAKE CARE OF MYSELF

678
00:38:56,433 --> 00:39:00,800
AND LIVING IN THAT FEAR
AND THAT EXCUSE.

679
00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:04,100
AND FOR THE FIRST TIME
IN MY LIFE,

680
00:39:04,100 --> 00:39:06,300
I FEEL LIKE
I'M AN INDEPENDENT PERSON.

681
00:39:07,933 --> 00:39:10,200
IT'S BEEN A GREAT FEELING.

682
00:39:18,500 --> 00:39:22,533
I'VE BEEN DOING SO WELL,
I THOUGHT I'D TREAT MYSELF.

683
00:39:22,533 --> 00:39:25,167
SO I'M GETTING MY HAIR CUT
AT A SALON.

684
00:39:25,167 --> 00:39:29,467
IT CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME
I DID SOMETHING LIKE THIS.

685
00:39:29,467 --> 00:39:32,767
IT FEELS LIKE THE WHOLE WORLD
IS OPENING UP TO ME.

686
00:39:35,700 --> 00:39:38,967
I'M ACTUALLY LIVING LIFE.

687
00:39:38,967 --> 00:39:40,933
AND IT LOOKS REALLY EASY
TO STYLE,

688
00:39:40,933 --> 00:39:42,667
AND IT'LL JUST BE NICE.

689
00:39:42,667 --> 00:39:45,967
I'M WORKING HARD TO KEEP GOING.

690
00:39:45,967 --> 00:39:48,667
I HAVE A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT
NEXT MONTH,

691
00:39:48,667 --> 00:39:51,700
AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE
WHAT I WEIGH.

692
00:39:51,700 --> 00:39:53,100
I LOST 150 POUNDS

693
00:39:53,100 --> 00:39:56,800
THE LAST TIME I PUSHED MYSELF
OVER THREE MONTHS.

694
00:39:58,267 --> 00:39:58,800
I HOPE I'VE DONE THAT AGAIN.

695
00:40:03,800 --> 00:40:06,800
Susan: YOU HAVE TO GET TO A
PLACE WHERE YOU'RE JUST BROKEN

696
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:09,867
TO BE DESPERATE ENOUGH
TO CHANGE.

697
00:40:15,467 --> 00:40:19,000
TODAY, I HAVE ANOTHER
DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT.

698
00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:23,267
I'VE BEEN DOING EVERYTHING I CAN
TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS.

699
00:40:25,833 --> 00:40:28,033
AND I'M DOING IT,
AND I'M DOING IT WELL.

700
00:40:33,967 --> 00:40:36,733
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT.

701
00:40:37,967 --> 00:40:39,833
HELLO.
Susan: HI.

702
00:40:39,833 --> 00:40:42,267
HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING?

703
00:40:42,267 --> 00:40:43,967
I SEE YOU LOST
SOME MORE WEIGHT.

704
00:40:43,967 --> 00:40:45,933
I'M GLAD TO SEE THAT
YOU'RE MAKING GOOD PROGRESS.

705
00:40:45,933 --> 00:40:47,100
YEAH.

706
00:40:47,100 --> 00:40:49,000
Dr. Nowzaradan:
I'M VERY HAPPY WITH SUSAN.

707
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:51,100
SHE'S DONE EXCELLENT LATELY.

708
00:40:51,100 --> 00:40:53,867
SHE STOPPED WITH THE EXCUSES,

709
00:40:53,867 --> 00:40:57,233
AND SHE'S RECOVERING NICELY,
AND SHE'S STAYING ON TRACK.

710
00:40:57,233 --> 00:41:00,167
I'M PROUD OF YOU.
YOU'VE DONE VERY WELL.

711
00:41:03,333 --> 00:41:07,067
Susan: I'M VERY PROUD OF
THE PROGRESS I'VE MADE SO FAR.

712
00:41:08,633 --> 00:41:12,300
A YEAR AGO,
I WAS BARELY WALKING.

713
00:41:12,300 --> 00:41:15,633
RIGHT NOW, MY WORLD HAS CHANGED.

714
00:41:15,633 --> 00:41:19,533
AND I'M STARTING
TO GET MY LIFE BACK.

715
00:41:23,867 --> 00:41:26,467
IT'S MY 38th BIRTHDAY,

716
00:41:26,467 --> 00:41:31,200
SO MY FAMILY DECIDED TO HAVE
A PARTY FOR ME THIS YEAR.

717
00:41:31,200 --> 00:41:34,367
A LOT OF MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS
HAVEN'T SEEN ME IN A WHILE.

718
00:41:36,333 --> 00:41:39,200
I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO
SPENDING SOME TIME WITH THEM.

719
00:41:39,200 --> 00:41:41,867
[ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ]

720
00:41:41,867 --> 00:41:43,200
IT'S BEEN OVER 20 YEARS

721
00:41:43,200 --> 00:41:45,167
SINCE I'VE CELEBRATED
MY BIRTHDAY

722
00:41:45,167 --> 00:41:48,567
WITH MY FAMILY LIKE THIS.

723
00:41:48,567 --> 00:41:52,467
Stephanie: BEFORE THE SURGERY,
SHE WAS JUST BARELY LIVING.

724
00:41:52,467 --> 00:41:54,633
BUT I FEEL LIKE SHE'S BACK.

725
00:41:54,633 --> 00:41:56,167
SHE'S HAPPY AGAIN.

726
00:41:56,167 --> 00:41:58,900
AND I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD.

727
00:41:58,900 --> 00:42:03,067
WITHOUT THIS SURGERY,
SHE WOULDN'T BE ALIVE.

728
00:42:03,067 --> 00:42:07,833
THIS HAS GIVEN HER
A NEW CHANCE AT LIFE.

729
00:42:07,833 --> 00:42:11,067
IT'S LIKE A NEW BEGINNING
FOR HER.

730
00:42:11,067 --> 00:42:14,067
THIS YEAR HAS BEEN
THE MOST DIFFICULT OF MY LIFE.

731
00:42:14,067 --> 00:42:17,300
BUT EVERYTHING I'VE GONE THROUGH
IN LOSING THIS WEIGHT

732
00:42:17,300 --> 00:42:18,467
HAS BEEN WORTH IT.

733
00:42:18,467 --> 00:42:20,700
I WILL NEVER GO BACK
TO THE WAY I WAS.

734
00:42:20,700 --> 00:42:22,400
I'VE COME TOO FAR.

735
00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:24,967
I'M ENJOYING LIFE,

736
00:42:24,967 --> 00:42:28,400
AND I'M HAPPIER THAN I'VE BEEN
IN A LONG TIME.

737
00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:32,567
IT FEELS SO GOOD TO HAVE
A REASON TO SMILE AGAIN.

737
00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545