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Nikki: I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED.

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[ Voice breaking ] MY BODY
SHOULDN'T LOOK LIKE THIS.

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I HATE IT.

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[ GROANING ]

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Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME
A DEATH SENTENCE.

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Nikki: THE THING I RELIED ON
ALL THESE YEARS

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IS WHAT'S KILLING ME.

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-IT'S BROKEN!
-WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

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I DON'T KNOW!
I CAN'T GET UP!

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DON'T MAKE ME GO. PLEASE.

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Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER
FROM A CHAIR.

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[ GROANS ]
THANK YOU, HONEY.

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I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS.

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AND IF YOU WERE SERIOUS,
YOU'D MAKE CHANGES.

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Dr. Nowzaradan:
WE'RE HAVING SOME DIFFICULTY
GETTING EXPOSURE.

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MY HOPE WAS
TO DO BYPASS ON NIKKI,

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BUT IT'S NOT GOING TO BE
POSSIBLE.

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Nikki: LIFE DOESN'T EVER GO
LIKE YOU PLAN.

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BUT THERE ARE MOMENTS
WHERE YOU SEE THE CONSEQUENCES

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OF NOT CHANGING
WHAT YOU KNOW IS HURTING YOU.

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WHEN I WAKE UP,

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THE PAIN THAT I FEEL
IS OVERWHELMING.

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EVERY BONE IN MY BEING
IS TELLING ME TO LAY BACK DOWN.

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[ Voice breaking ]
IT'S MISERABLE.

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I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED

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BECAUSE IT'S JUST DIFFICULT
TO MOVE MY BODY.

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I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN.

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I CAN'T STAND
FOR VERY LONG AT ALL.

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BUT THE HARDEST THING FOR ME
TO LIVE WITH IS MY STOMACH.

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IT IS SO HEAVY

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THAT IT GETS IN THE WAY
OF EVERYTHING.

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EVEN GETTING IN AND OUT
OF THE SHOWER IS EXHAUSTING.

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TO JUST SQUEEZE MYSELF IN THERE
TAKES ALL MY BREATH AWAY.

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AND I RARELY LOOK AT MYSELF
NAKED IN THE MIRROR.

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[ Voice breaking ] MY BODY
SHOULDN'T LOOK LIKE THIS.

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LIVING IN THIS BODY IS PAINFUL.

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I HATE IT.

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THERE'S NO BETTER WORD
TO DESCRIBE IT OTHER THAN HATE.

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BUT I'VE DONE THIS TO MYSELF.

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FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN
AN ADDICTION FOR ME.

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AND MY ADDICTION TO IT
IS KILLING ME.

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WHEN I START MY DAY,
I CAN'T WAIT TO START EATING.

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OKAY, SWEETIE.
I'M GONNA SEND IT UP.

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ALL RIGHTY.

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MY DAD WILL MAKE ME A PLATE
AND SEND IT UP TO ME

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SO I DON'T HAVE TO GO DOWNSTAIRS
AGAIN UNTIL BREAKFAST.

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Llewellyn:
NIKKI HAS ALWAYS HAD PROBLEMS

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WITH HER FOOD ADDICTION.

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THERE WERE MANY TIMES

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THAT I WOULD TALK TO HER
ABOUT HER EATING HABITS,

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BUT NIKKI HAS TOLD ME,

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"FOOD IS ONE THING
I HAVE CONTROL OVER.

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IT HURTS MY FEELINGS
WHEN YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT IT."

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FINALLY, I'D SAY,
"OKAY, YOU KNOW WHAT?

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NIKKI, I DON'T CARE."

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SO, I JUST GIVE HER
WHAT SHE WANTS.

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Nikki: I KNOW I OVEREAT.

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BUT FOOD MAKES ME HAPPY.

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AND I FEEL THE MOST AT EASE
WITH MY EATING

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WHEN I'M EATING BY MYSELF.

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'CAUSE THERE'S NO ONE THERE
TO JUDGE ME.

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THAT'S MY HAPPY PLACE.

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Terry:
WE NOTICED AT A VERY YOUNG AGE

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THAT NIKKI WANTED
WHAT SHE WANTED

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AND SHE WANTED IT THEN.

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SHE LEARNED HOW TO WORK US
PRETTY QUICKLY.

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IN MANY WAYS, WE WAIT ON NIKKI
LIKE YOU WOULD AN INVALID.

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AND I'VE ASKED MYSELF
SO MANY TIMES,

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"WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE
BETWEEN ENABLING AND HELPING?

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WHEN AM I ENABLING HER
AND WHEN AM I HELPING HER?"

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I DON'T REALLY KNOW THE ANSWER.

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I JUST KNOW THAT I'M LOSING
MY DAUGHTER A POUND AT A TIME

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BECAUSE SHE HAS BECOME
A DIFFERENT PERSON,

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IN MANY RESPECTS,

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THAN MY VIVACIOUS,
ENERGETIC DAUGHTER.

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AND THAT -- THAT'S JUST --

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THAT'S JUST HEARTBREAKING.

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Nikki: I WAS A HAPPY KID.

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BUT I KNOW
THAT I STARTED GAINING WEIGHT

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WHEN I WAS ABOUT 4.

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AND BY THE TIME
I WAS 10 YEARS OLD,

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I WEIGHED 140 POUNDS.

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THAT'S WHEN I STARTED TO NOTICE
THAT I WASN'T LIKE EVERYONE ELSE

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AND I DON'T FIT IN MY DESK

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AS WELL AS THE GIRL
SITTING NEXT TO ME.

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EVEN THOUGH I HAD A HAPPY FACE,

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INTERNALLY, I FELT LIKE,
"I DON'T BELONG HERE."

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SO, MY PARENTS TRIED,
PROBABLY HUNDREDS OF ATTEMPTS,

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TO HELP ME LOSE WEIGHT,

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AND IT WAS JUST DEPRESSING
AND SAD TO ME.

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PART OF ME FELT LIKE,
"WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME?

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QUIT TRYING TO FIX ME."

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Llewellyn: NIKKI TRIED LOTS OF
DIFFERENT WAYS TO LOSE WEIGHT.

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THEY WOULD WORK FOR A WHILE,
AND THEN THEY WOULDN'T.

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Nikki: I FELT LIKE A FAILURE,

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AND I DIDN'T MEASURE UP TO BE
THE DAUGHTER THAT MY MOM WANTED.

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Terry:
NIKKI AND HER MOM HAVE HAD

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WHAT I MIGHT CALL
MORE OF A STORMY RELATIONSHIP.

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Nikki: I HAVE TWO SISTERS
AND A BROTHER.

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BUT GROWING UP,

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I FEEL LIKE I WASN'T
WHAT MY MOM NEEDED.

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NIKKI AND I WERE NOT VERY CLOSE.

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WE JUST DIDN'T HAVE
THAT BOND TOGETHER.

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SHE WOULD TELL ME SOMETIMES,

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"MOM, YOU SPEND MORE TIME
WITH HEIDI,"

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OR, "YOU SPEND MORE TIME
WITH COURTNEY."

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AND SHE WAS VERY JEALOUS
OF THAT.

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Nikki:
WHEN I WAS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL,

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MY SISTERS GOT MARRIED WITHIN
LIKE SIX MONTHS OF EACH OTHER.

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AND THEN WITH THAT CAME,
LIKE, GRANDKIDS.

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AND MY MOM WAS SO ENAMORED
AND ENTHRALLED

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WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON
WITH MY SISTERS.

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OUR RELATIONSHIP
SEEMED TO DRIFT EVEN MORE.

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I FELT SOMEWHAT INVISIBLE,

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WHICH ALLOWED ME TO INVISIBLY
GO INTO THE KITCHEN AND EAT.

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SO BY THE TIME
I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL,

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I WEIGHED ALMOST 300 POUNDS,

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AND I JUST CONTINUED TO GAIN.

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BY THE TIME THAT I LEFT COLLEGE,
I HAD REACHED 500 POUNDS.

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AND THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED
WAS A YEAR AGO.

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I WEIGHED 636.

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NOW I HAVE NO IDEA
HOW HIGH I'M UP TO.

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HOW'S THAT?

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PERFECT.

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AFTER COLLEGE,
I MOVED BACK HOME

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WITH MY MOM AND MY DAD
AND MY BROTHER, CHRIS,

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BECAUSE LIVING ON MY OWN
IS JUST TOO DIFFICULT.

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CHRIS HAS CEREBRAL PALSY,

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AND IN MANY INSTANCES,
MY LIMITATIONS FAR EXCEED HIS.

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AND THAT'S A BIG STATEMENT.

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A CONDITION
THAT HE WAS BORN WITH

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IS EXCEEDED BY A CONDITION
THAT I'VE PUT UPON MYSELF.

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I FEEL LIKE MY PARENTS

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PROBABLY WORRY MORE ABOUT ME
THAN CHRIS.

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[ Voice breaking ]
AND IT MAKES ME FEEL GUILT.

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I FEEL LIKE
I'M LETTING HIM DOWN.

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[ BREATHING HEAVILY ]

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[ Crying ] AND I NEED
TO BE THERE FOR HIM.

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[ Normal voice ]
HE DESERVES THAT.

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EVEN THOUGH
I CAN BARELY GET AROUND,

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I STILL TRY TO WORK.

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IT'S THE ONLY TIME
I LEAVE THE HOUSE,

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AND IT GIVES ME A CHANCE TO EAT
MORE WITHOUT ANYONE KNOWING.

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CAN I GET TWO GLAZED,
TWO CHOCOLATE ICED,

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AND DOUGHNUT HOLES?

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THANK YOU.

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MY REWARD FOR GETTING UP
AND BEING A HUMAN BEING

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IS THAT I GET DOUGHNUTS.

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WHEN I HAVE
THIS BAG OF DOUGHNUTS

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AND MY CHOCOLATE MILK,

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THEN IT'S LIKE PARTY TIME,
U.S.A.

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BUT I DON'T WANT PEOPLE KNOWING

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THAT I'M EATING DOUGHNUTS
EVERY MORNING,

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SO I ALWAYS GO THROUGH HERE

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AND THROW AWAY MY TRASH
ON MY WAY TO WORK.

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I AM AN ASSISTANT
COSTUME DESIGNER AT A THEATER,

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AND TO WALK BACK TO WHERE
WE WORK IS A VERY LONG WAY.

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AND SO, I HAVE TO PARK
IN THE LOADING DOCK.

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AND I'LL HAVE SOMEONE
OPEN THE DOOR FOR ME.

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[ Voice breaking ] IT'S GETTING
MORE AND MORE DIFFICULT

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TO GO TO WORK

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BECAUSE JUST MEASURING SOMEBODY,

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YOU'VE GOT TO BE ABLE
TO STAND ON YOUR FEET.

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AND SO, THAT TASK,
WHICH SHOULD BE MINE,

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IS PLACED ON SOMEONE ELSE.

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IT FEELS LIKE EVERY DAY,
I CAN DO LESS AND LESS.

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I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG NOW

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I CAN'T PHYSICALLY GO DOWN
THE SPIRAL STAIRCASE

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WHERE OUR COSTUME STOCK IS.

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I FEEL VERY CLOSE TO
NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THIS JOB.

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MY WEIGHT HAS DEFINITELY CHANGED
THE OUTSIDE ME,

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BUT NOW IT HAS LEAKED
INTO MY CORE SELF

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AND CHANGED ME INTO A PERSON
THAT I DON'T RECOGNIZE.

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I KNOW THAT THE THING
THAT I GO TO FOR COMFORT,

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THE THING I'VE RELIED ON
ALL THESE YEARS,

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IS WHAT'S KILLING ME.

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I'M A TICKING TIME BOMB.

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AND IF I DON'T LOSE THIS WEIGHT,
I'LL DIE.

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I FEEL LIKE
I HAVE A FUNERAL PLANNED

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MORE THAN I HAVE
A WEDDING PLANNED.

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AND YOU SHOULDN'T FEEL THAT WAY
AT 33 YEARS OLD.

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I'M AT THAT POINT WHERE
I HAVE NO WHERE ELSE TO GO.

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IF I DON'T LOSE THIS WEIGHT,
IT'S GONNA KILL ME.

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Nikki:
THE BIGGEST STEPS OF FAITH

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ARE THE ONES
THAT ARE NOT ONLY HARD

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BUT COME WITH NO GUARANTEES.

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IT'LL BE ALL RIGHT.
IT'LL BE GOOD.

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I LOVE YOU.

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I LOVE YOU, TOO.

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Terry:
THERE IS A GREAT DEAL OF ANXIETY

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IN TERMS OF WHETHER
SHE'LL ACTUALLY BE ACCEPTED

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IN THE PROGRAM.

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IF NIKKI ISN'T ACCEPTED,

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I DON'T THINK SHE'S GOING TO
LIVE MUCH LONGER.

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Nikki: THIS IS MY ROCK BOTTOM
AND MY LAST CHANCE,

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AND IF THIS DOCTOR
CAN'T DO ANYTHING FOR ME,

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I WOULD PROBABLY FEEL LIKE
IT WAS A DEATH SENTENCE.

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SO, NOW THAT WE'RE ACTUALLY
ON THE ROAD,

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ARE YOU
A LITTLE BIT NERVOUS?

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I THINK I'LL BE MORE NERVOUS
ONCE WE GET INTO HOUSTON.

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THEN, ALL OF A SUDDEN,
IT'S REAL.

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YEAH. IT'S LIKE,
"THIS IS FOR REAL."

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Nikki: WE'VE BEEN IN THE CAR
FOR EIGHT HOURS.

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RIGHT NOW, I'M JUST READY
TO GET OUT AND MEET THE DOCTOR.

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Woman: NIKKI WEBSTER?

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Nikki: IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME
SINCE I'VE CHECKED MY WEIGHT.

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I JUST HOPE
THAT IT'S NOT TOO HIGH.

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Woman: 649.

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I'M JUST SHOCKED
TO SEE THAT NUMBER,

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BECAUSE IT'S THE HIGHEST
I'VE EVER WEIGHED.

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HELLO.
HELLO.

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I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.

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NIKKI WEBSTER.

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HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

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I'M DOING WELL.

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SO, YOU ARE 650 POUNDS?

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YES.
OKAY.

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WHAT SEEMS TO BE
YOUR BIGGEST CHALLENGE

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00:14:27,467 --> 00:14:28,900
WITH YOUR EATING HABIT?

223
00:14:28,900 --> 00:14:31,633
I THINK NOT REALLY THINKING
ABOUT WHAT I'M EATING

224
00:14:31,633 --> 00:14:33,667
AND JUST GETTING
WHAT I'M CRAVING.

225
00:14:33,667 --> 00:14:36,067
WHAT DO YOU EAT
IN THE MORNING?

226
00:14:36,067 --> 00:14:38,133
AN EGG AND SAUSAGE BISCUIT.

227
00:14:38,133 --> 00:14:40,100
AND LUNCH,
WHAT DO YOU DO?

228
00:14:40,100 --> 00:14:43,733
MY LUNCH IS
USUALLY PRETTY HEALTHY,

229
00:14:43,733 --> 00:14:46,067
UM, BUT COMING HOME,

230
00:14:46,067 --> 00:14:49,733
I'LL STOP AND GO
TO A FAST-FOOD RESTAURANT.

231
00:14:49,733 --> 00:14:51,800
WHEN YOU GET HOME,
DO YOU EAT AT HOME?

232
00:14:51,800 --> 00:14:54,967
YES. TYPICALLY, THEN I'LL HAVE
DINNER WITH MY FAMILY.

233
00:14:54,967 --> 00:14:59,400
SO, YOUR PARENTS GIVE YOU
MORE FOOD AFTER EATING ALL DAY?

234
00:14:59,400 --> 00:15:02,233
NIKKI IS EATING
FIVE TO SIX TIMES A DAY.

235
00:15:02,233 --> 00:15:05,733
SOME OF THAT
IS ENABLED BY HER FAMILY.

236
00:15:05,733 --> 00:15:08,800
THEY'RE HELPING KILL HER
IF THEY DON'T STOP THIS.

237
00:15:08,800 --> 00:15:11,767
SOMETIMES, AS A PARENT,
IT'S HARD TO KNOW

238
00:15:11,767 --> 00:15:14,200
IF YOU'RE HELPING OR ENABLING,
YOU KNOW?

239
00:15:14,200 --> 00:15:15,967
SOMETIMES,
THERE'S A FINE LINE.

240
00:15:15,967 --> 00:15:17,667
IT'S NOT THAT COMPLICATED.

241
00:15:17,667 --> 00:15:20,600
IF IT'S HURTING HER,
IT'S ENABLING HER.

242
00:15:20,600 --> 00:15:24,133
AND NIKKI IS AT
A VERY DANGEROUS POINT.

243
00:15:24,133 --> 00:15:27,700
A NORMAL PERSON'S BMI
IS 18 TO 25.

244
00:15:27,700 --> 00:15:32,667
YOUR BMI IS 105.

245
00:15:32,667 --> 00:15:36,700
THE CHANCES THAT
YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO 40

246
00:15:36,700 --> 00:15:38,300
ARE NOT THAT GOOD.

247
00:15:38,300 --> 00:15:41,867
NIKKI NEED TO MAKE CHANGES NOW

248
00:15:41,867 --> 00:15:45,200
BEFORE SHE DEVELOPS
ANY SERIOUS HEALTH ISSUE

249
00:15:45,200 --> 00:15:49,200
THAT CAN PREVENT SURGERY
FROM EVEN BEING AN OPTION.

250
00:15:49,200 --> 00:15:52,500
SO, YOU ARE NOT
A CANDIDATE RIGHT NOW

251
00:15:52,500 --> 00:15:54,767
FOR DOING
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

252
00:15:54,767 --> 00:15:58,067
YOU NEED TO TAKE
SOME PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY.

253
00:15:58,067 --> 00:16:02,533
AND YOUR PARENTS NEED TO SHOW
THAT THEY CAN STOP ENABLING YOU

254
00:16:02,533 --> 00:16:04,133
BEFORE YOU'RE READY.

255
00:16:04,133 --> 00:16:07,867
I'M GOING TO START YOU
ON 1,200 CALORIE A DAY DIET.

256
00:16:07,867 --> 00:16:10,300
THEN YOU SHOULD BE ABLE
TO LOSE 50 POUNDS

257
00:16:10,300 --> 00:16:11,500
OVER THE NEXT MONTH.

258
00:16:11,500 --> 00:16:12,700
OH, MY GOSH.

259
00:16:12,700 --> 00:16:14,800
THAT SOUNDS LIKE
A LOT OF WEIGHT.

260
00:16:14,800 --> 00:16:15,867
IT IS NOT.
IT IS NOT.

261
00:16:15,867 --> 00:16:16,900
OKAY.

262
00:16:16,900 --> 00:16:18,633
YOU'RE GONNA EAT
THREE TIMES A DAY.

263
00:16:18,633 --> 00:16:20,467
NO CARB IN YOUR DIET.

264
00:16:20,467 --> 00:16:22,967
NO SUGARY DRINK.
NO SODAS.

265
00:16:22,967 --> 00:16:24,433
NO FRUIT.

266
00:16:24,433 --> 00:16:25,533
NO -- NO FRUIT?

267
00:16:25,533 --> 00:16:26,867
NO FRUIT.
OKAY.

268
00:16:26,867 --> 00:16:30,067
OKAY, FRUIT HAS
A LOT OF SUGAR IN IT.

269
00:16:30,067 --> 00:16:31,167
ALL RIGHT?

270
00:16:31,167 --> 00:16:32,500
I'M READY TO DO IT.

271
00:16:32,500 --> 00:16:33,600
OKAY?

272
00:16:33,600 --> 00:16:35,133
READY TO CLEAN OUT
MY PANTRY.

273
00:16:35,133 --> 00:16:37,200
DAD IS GONNA HELP YOU
WITH THAT?

274
00:16:37,200 --> 00:16:38,833
DAD WILL HELP.
MOM WILL HELP.

275
00:16:38,833 --> 00:16:40,367
BROTHER WILL HELP.

276
00:16:40,367 --> 00:16:42,400
ALL RIGHT?
I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH.

277
00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:43,667
50 POUNDS LESS.

278
00:16:43,667 --> 00:16:45,300
OKAY.
[ LAUGHS ]

279
00:16:45,300 --> 00:16:48,600
NIKKI NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND
HOW BAD HER SITUATION IS.

280
00:16:48,600 --> 00:16:51,200
SHE DOESN'T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT.

281
00:16:51,200 --> 00:16:54,067
I'VE NEVER LOST 50 POUNDS
IN A MONTH.

282
00:16:56,533 --> 00:17:00,100
Nikki:
THIS IS A LITTLE OVERWHELMING.

283
00:17:00,100 --> 00:17:02,400
BUT I HAVE NO DOUBT

284
00:17:02,400 --> 00:17:06,667
THAT THIS IS SOMETHING
THAT I HAVE TO DO.

285
00:17:06,667 --> 00:17:10,067
I'M JUST HOPING
THAT I DON'T LET MYSELF DOWN.

286
00:17:21,600 --> 00:17:25,467
IT'S BEEN A TOUGH FEW WEEKS.

287
00:17:25,467 --> 00:17:28,333
WHEN WE GOT HOME
FROM SEEING THE DOCTOR,

288
00:17:28,333 --> 00:17:29,933
THE FIRST THING WE DID

289
00:17:29,933 --> 00:17:34,167
WAS GET RID OF THE FOOD
THAT WAS NOT ON THE DIET.

290
00:17:34,167 --> 00:17:38,067
IT WAS REALLY HARD
TO LET SOME OF THAT GO.

291
00:17:38,067 --> 00:17:42,200
I'VE REALLY HAD TO TAKE IT
A MEAL AT A TIME.

292
00:17:42,200 --> 00:17:45,833
BECAUSE IF I THINK ABOUT IT,
I'LL GET TOTALLY OVERWHELMED.

293
00:17:45,833 --> 00:17:49,067
START EATING.
Y'ALL ARE ALREADY DONE.

294
00:17:49,067 --> 00:17:50,367
Llewellyn: WELL, YEAH.

295
00:17:54,267 --> 00:17:57,333
MINE CAME TO 345.

296
00:17:57,333 --> 00:18:00,367
ALL RIGHT, DAD.
WHAT DID YOUR CALORIES COME TO?

297
00:18:00,367 --> 00:18:03,267
IT CAME TO 274 CALORIES.

298
00:18:03,267 --> 00:18:04,533
NO.

299
00:18:04,533 --> 00:18:05,933
DID YOU HAVE A TOSTADA?

300
00:18:05,933 --> 00:18:07,667
OH, I FORGOT THE TOSTADA.

301
00:18:07,667 --> 00:18:09,500
[ LAUGHS ]
I WAS ABOUT TO SAY...

302
00:18:11,200 --> 00:18:14,333
CHANGING MY EATING HABITS
HAS BEEN A HARD ADJUSTMENT,

303
00:18:14,333 --> 00:18:18,267
AND I'M NOT SURE OF MY PROGRESS
RIGHT NOW.

304
00:18:18,267 --> 00:18:20,600
I FEEL NERVOUS
TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN,

305
00:18:20,600 --> 00:18:23,767
BECAUSE I'M SCARED THAT
I HAVEN'T LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT,

306
00:18:23,767 --> 00:18:26,167
MOSTLY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T
BEEN ABLE TO EXERCISE

307
00:18:26,167 --> 00:18:28,867
AS MUCH AS I'D LIKE TO.

308
00:18:28,867 --> 00:18:30,400
GOING TO SEE THE DOCTOR

309
00:18:30,400 --> 00:18:34,267
WAS MORE ACTIVITY
THAN I'VE HAD IN A LONG TIME.

310
00:18:34,267 --> 00:18:37,667
BY THE TIME I LEFT,
I WAS HAVING TROUBLE BREATHING,

311
00:18:37,667 --> 00:18:41,067
AND I'VE HAD TO START USING
MY OXYGEN AGAIN.

312
00:18:41,067 --> 00:18:44,067
SO, I'VE JUST BEEN DOING,
LIKE, SOME WEIGHTS,

313
00:18:44,067 --> 00:18:46,567
SOME SIMPLE EXERCISES.

314
00:18:46,567 --> 00:18:49,767
I CAN FEEL
MY BODY DETERIORATING,

315
00:18:49,767 --> 00:18:55,067
SO I KNOW THIS IS
A RACE AGAINST THE CLOCK.

316
00:18:55,067 --> 00:18:59,833
AND I HOPE WHAT I'M DOING
IS GOING TO BE ENOUGH.

317
00:19:14,733 --> 00:19:19,667
TODAY IS MY SECOND APPOINTMENT
WITH DR. NOWZARADAN.

318
00:19:19,667 --> 00:19:21,967
I'VE BEEN WAITING

319
00:19:21,967 --> 00:19:24,800
AND COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS
FOR IT TO COME.

320
00:19:24,800 --> 00:19:29,867
AND I'M HOPING THAT I'VE LOST
AT LEAST 50 POUNDS.

321
00:19:29,867 --> 00:19:34,900
SO MUCH IS RIDING ON
THAT NUMBER.

322
00:19:37,500 --> 00:19:40,567
I REALLY HOPE
THAT I'VE DONE ENOUGH.

323
00:19:50,067 --> 00:19:53,367
Nikki: I'M REALLY SCARED

324
00:19:53,367 --> 00:19:55,700
THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE
UNDER 600 POUNDS

325
00:19:55,700 --> 00:19:58,100
TO QUALIFY FOR SURGERY.

326
00:19:59,800 --> 00:20:01,200
Woman: 587.

327
00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:05,833
IS THAT THE REAL NUMBER?

328
00:20:05,833 --> 00:20:07,067
[ CHUCKLES ]

329
00:20:07,067 --> 00:20:08,667
-THAT'S THE REAL NUMBER.
-OKAY.

330
00:20:08,667 --> 00:20:10,967
THANK YOU, DADDY.

331
00:20:10,967 --> 00:20:12,367
I LOVE YOU.

332
00:20:12,367 --> 00:20:16,667
Nikki:
I WORKED SO HARD TO DO THIS.

333
00:20:16,667 --> 00:20:21,033
TO SEE IT PAY OFF IS INCREDIBLE.

334
00:20:21,033 --> 00:20:22,067
HELLO.

335
00:20:22,067 --> 00:20:23,200
-HELLO.
-DR. NOWZARADAN.

336
00:20:23,200 --> 00:20:27,733
I SEE YOU LOST 63 POUNDS
IN ONE MONTH.

337
00:20:27,733 --> 00:20:29,000
YES.

338
00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:30,633
DID YOU THINK
YOU WERE GONNA LOSE THAT?

339
00:20:30,633 --> 00:20:32,133
NO, I DID NOT.

340
00:20:32,133 --> 00:20:34,367
NOW YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT,
RIGHT?

341
00:20:34,367 --> 00:20:36,200
YES. MOST DEFINITELY.

342
00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:39,367
YOU'VE DONE VERY WELL,
BUT I NEED TO RUN SOME TESTS

343
00:20:39,367 --> 00:20:42,400
TO BE SURE THAT YOU'RE READY
FOR SURGERY NOW.

344
00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:44,067
OKAY?
OKAY.

345
00:20:44,067 --> 00:20:47,167
I'M REALLY HAPPY
WITH NIKKI'S PROGRESS,

346
00:20:47,167 --> 00:20:51,133
BUT SHE CARRIES MOST
OF HER WEIGHT IN THE ABDOMEN,

347
00:20:51,133 --> 00:20:54,233
WHICH CAN COMPROMISE
HER RESPIRATORY SYSTEM OR HEART.

348
00:20:54,233 --> 00:20:58,567
I NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT
HER BODY CAN HANDLE SURGERY

349
00:20:58,567 --> 00:21:02,733
OR SHE WOULD LIKELY
NOT SURVIVE THE PROCEDURE.

350
00:21:04,267 --> 00:21:08,700
Nikki: I'M NOT SURE
WHAT THE DOCTOR IS LOOKING FOR,

351
00:21:08,700 --> 00:21:12,200
BUT I'VE WORKING REALLY HARD
TO LOSE THE WEIGHT,

352
00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:13,333
AND I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW

353
00:21:13,333 --> 00:21:15,233
THAT'S ALL GONNA HAVE BEEN
FOR NOTHING.

354
00:21:15,233 --> 00:21:16,433
[ SIGHS ]

355
00:21:16,433 --> 00:21:17,900
[ CHUCKLES ]

356
00:21:17,900 --> 00:21:19,067
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

357
00:21:19,067 --> 00:21:22,400
SO, YOUR EKG LOOKS GOOD.

358
00:21:22,400 --> 00:21:24,600
BUT CHEST X-RAY INDICATES

359
00:21:24,600 --> 00:21:28,467
THAT YOU MAY HAVE WHAT WE CALL
PULMONARY HYPERTENSION.

360
00:21:28,467 --> 00:21:30,100
WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

361
00:21:30,100 --> 00:21:32,967
THAT MEANS YOUR WEIGHT
HAS AFFECTED YOUR HEART,

362
00:21:32,967 --> 00:21:36,700
AND YOUR HEART IS NOT ABLE
TO TRANSPORT ENOUGH OXYGEN

363
00:21:36,700 --> 00:21:37,833
FOR YOUR BODY.

364
00:21:37,833 --> 00:21:40,767
SO, WE'VE GOT
A LITTLE WAYS TO GO

365
00:21:40,767 --> 00:21:43,233
TO GET YOU TO A POINT

366
00:21:43,233 --> 00:21:47,667
THAT WE CAN SAFELY PUT YOU
TO SLEEP AND DO SURGERY ON YOU.

367
00:21:47,667 --> 00:21:50,900
NIKKI STILL HAS A LOT OF WEIGHT
PUSHING ON HER HEART.

368
00:21:50,900 --> 00:21:55,733
THE ONLY WAY TO FIX IT
IS FOR HER TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT.

369
00:21:55,733 --> 00:21:57,833
IF SHE'S UNABLE TO DO THIS,

370
00:21:57,833 --> 00:22:00,700
SURGERY WOULD NOT BE AN OPTION
FOR HER.

371
00:22:00,700 --> 00:22:03,667
I WANT YOU TO LOSE
ANOTHER 50 POUNDS

372
00:22:03,667 --> 00:22:07,567
OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS
AND TRY TO ADDRESS THIS ISSUE.

373
00:22:07,567 --> 00:22:10,967
OKAY.
SOUNDS LIKE A PLAN.

374
00:22:10,967 --> 00:22:13,200
THIS NEED TO BE FIXED NOW.

375
00:22:13,200 --> 00:22:15,067
Terry: WE'LL DO THAT.

376
00:22:17,567 --> 00:22:19,833
[ CRYING ]

377
00:22:28,300 --> 00:22:31,167
Nikki: I WORKED SO HARD,

378
00:22:31,167 --> 00:22:34,267
AND TO BE TOLD MY BODY
CAN'T HANDLE SURGERY?

379
00:22:35,500 --> 00:22:40,733
I JUST FEEL HOPELESS RIGHT NOW,

380
00:22:40,733 --> 00:22:43,467
COMPLETELY HOPELESS.

381
00:22:51,800 --> 00:22:55,067
WHEN I SAW
THAT I HAD LOST 60 POUNDS,

382
00:22:55,067 --> 00:22:58,300
I THOUGHT THAT ALL MY HARD WORK
HAD PAID OFF.

383
00:22:58,300 --> 00:23:00,633
BUT WHEN THE DOCTOR TOLD ME

384
00:23:00,633 --> 00:23:03,900
THAT MY BODY
WAS TOO BAD FOR SURGERY,

385
00:23:03,900 --> 00:23:06,867
I JUST WANTED TO GIVE UP.

386
00:23:06,867 --> 00:23:09,933
BUT I WANT TO LIVE.

387
00:23:12,533 --> 00:23:14,600
I DID IT ONCE.

388
00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:17,300
I KNOW I CAN DO IT AGAIN.

389
00:23:17,300 --> 00:23:20,900
AND I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME
IF I DON'T DO THIS.

390
00:23:27,067 --> 00:23:30,133
I'M STARTING
TO BE ABLE TO DO MORE,

391
00:23:30,133 --> 00:23:34,167
AND I FEEL LIKE
I'M GETTING MY LIFE BACK.

392
00:23:35,733 --> 00:23:38,067
IT JUST MAKES ME
WANT TO KEEP GOING.

393
00:23:38,067 --> 00:23:41,733
AND THE HOPE I FEEL RIGHT NOW
FOR A NEW LIFE

394
00:23:41,733 --> 00:23:45,967
MAKES ME REALIZE I HAVE TO
TRULY LET GO OF EVERYTHING

395
00:23:45,967 --> 00:23:48,867
THAT LED TO MY OLD LIFE.

396
00:23:50,467 --> 00:23:52,533
THIS IS MY BOX

397
00:23:52,533 --> 00:23:57,267
THAT HAD CHOCOLATE BARS
AND CANDY AND --

398
00:23:57,267 --> 00:23:59,433
BUT I'VE THROWN IT ALL OUT.

399
00:23:59,433 --> 00:24:02,800
HAVING A BOX OF CANDY
NEXT TO MY BED

400
00:24:02,800 --> 00:24:07,067
DISRESPECTS THE WORK
THAT I'VE DONE SO FAR.

401
00:24:07,067 --> 00:24:10,100
THERE'S NO GOING BACK.

402
00:24:10,100 --> 00:24:13,667
I KNOW IT HAS TO BE
ALL OR NOTHING

403
00:24:13,667 --> 00:24:19,067
BECAUSE THIS NEXT DOCTOR'S VISIT
IS MY LAST CHANCE.

404
00:24:29,133 --> 00:24:30,933
Woman: MS. WEBSTER?

405
00:24:30,933 --> 00:24:34,533
THIS HAS BEEN A REALLY HARD
COUPLE OF MONTHS.

406
00:24:34,533 --> 00:24:35,767
HI.

407
00:24:35,767 --> 00:24:38,300
MY GOAL WAS
TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS

408
00:24:38,300 --> 00:24:40,600
AND GET BELOW 550.

409
00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:42,633
BUT GETTING ON THE SCALE

410
00:24:42,633 --> 00:24:45,067
AND WAITING FOR
THE NUMBER TO COME UP

411
00:24:45,067 --> 00:24:48,100
IS JUST TERRIFYING.

412
00:24:50,233 --> 00:24:51,633
Llewellyn: IS THAT GOOD?

413
00:24:51,633 --> 00:24:53,633
YEAH, IT'S GOOD.
IT'S GOOD.

414
00:24:54,933 --> 00:24:57,400
I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF.

415
00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:00,700
BUT I'M TRYING TO KEEP
EXPECTATIONS LOW,

416
00:25:00,700 --> 00:25:02,767
BECAUSE I STILL DON'T KNOW

417
00:25:02,767 --> 00:25:05,433
IF THIS HAS BEEN ENOUGH
TO FIX MY HEART.

418
00:25:05,433 --> 00:25:06,733
HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING?

419
00:25:06,733 --> 00:25:08,100
DOING WELL.

420
00:25:08,100 --> 00:25:10,067
YOU'RE LOSING
ALMOST A POUND A DAY,

421
00:25:10,067 --> 00:25:11,200
WHICH IS VERY GOOD.

422
00:25:11,200 --> 00:25:13,600
SO, LET ME GET
SOME TESTS DONE ON YOU,

423
00:25:13,600 --> 00:25:15,733
AND THEN I'LL ASSESS
THE POSSIBILITY

424
00:25:15,733 --> 00:25:17,533
OF DOING
WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY.

425
00:25:17,533 --> 00:25:21,067
NIKKI'S DONE VERY WELL,
BUT I NEED TO SEE

426
00:25:21,067 --> 00:25:24,567
IF THE PRESSURE ON HER HEART
HAS BEEN RELIEVED ENOUGH

427
00:25:24,567 --> 00:25:27,767
FOR US TO SAFELY DO SURGERY
ON HER.

428
00:25:27,767 --> 00:25:31,600
Nikki: IT'S BEEN SO HARD
TO GET THIS FAR.

429
00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:33,333
I'M JUST REALLY SCARED RIGHT NOW

430
00:25:33,333 --> 00:25:38,500
THAT EVERYTHING I'VE DONE
IS NOT GOING TO BE ENOUGH.

431
00:25:49,400 --> 00:25:53,900
Nikki: I'M REALLY ANXIOUS
TO FIND OUT IF MY TESTS ARE GOOD

432
00:25:53,900 --> 00:25:57,733
AND IF I'M APPROVED FOR SURGERY.

433
00:25:57,733 --> 00:26:01,567
THIS JUST HAS TO HAPPEN FOR ME.

434
00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:05,300
OKAY.

435
00:26:05,300 --> 00:26:07,633
EVERYTHING LOOKING GOOD.

436
00:26:07,633 --> 00:26:09,600
I THINK
WE'RE GONNA GO AHEAD

437
00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:11,533
AND APPROVE YOUR SURGERY
AT THIS POINT.

438
00:26:11,533 --> 00:26:12,867
EXCELLENT.

439
00:26:12,867 --> 00:26:14,133
YOU EXCITED?

440
00:26:14,133 --> 00:26:15,767
-[ LAUGHS ]
-YES.

441
00:26:15,767 --> 00:26:17,767
YES, I AM EXCITED.

442
00:26:17,767 --> 00:26:18,800
ALL RIGHT.

443
00:26:18,800 --> 00:26:20,067
-THANK YOU.
-THANK YOU.

444
00:26:20,067 --> 00:26:21,733
Dr. Nowzaradan:
I'M VERY PROUD OF NIKKI.

445
00:26:21,733 --> 00:26:25,767
I KNOW THIS WASN'T EASY FOR HER,
BUT HER WORK HAS PAID OFF.

446
00:26:25,767 --> 00:26:29,200
AND SURGERY IS GONNA HELP HER
TO MAKE EVEN MORE PROGRESS.

447
00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:32,100
Nikki: I CAN'T BELIEVE
IT'S REALLY HAPPENING.

448
00:26:32,100 --> 00:26:38,167
I FEEL LIKE THE DOCTOR IS
GIVING ME THIS AMAZING CHANCE.

449
00:26:40,067 --> 00:26:43,067
AND I'M NOT GOING TO FAIL.

450
00:26:56,333 --> 00:26:58,733
I'M GLAD THIS DAY HAS COME,

451
00:26:58,733 --> 00:27:02,767
BUT I FEEL TERRIFIED
ABOUT WHAT COULD HAPPEN.

452
00:27:05,867 --> 00:27:07,267
I LOVE YOU.

453
00:27:07,267 --> 00:27:09,467
I LOVE YOU, TOO.

454
00:27:09,467 --> 00:27:11,800
SEVERAL MONTHS AGO,

455
00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:15,100
IT WAS NOT UNCOMMON FOR ME
TO THINK ABOUT MY FUNERAL.

456
00:27:16,700 --> 00:27:19,867
AND NOW I FEEL LIKE
I HAVE A CHANCE.

457
00:27:19,867 --> 00:27:24,767
I'M RISKING MY LIFE
TO HAVE A LIFE.

458
00:27:26,867 --> 00:27:29,467
Dr. Nowzaradan:
NIKKI HAD DONE VERY WELL,

459
00:27:29,467 --> 00:27:31,933
BUT EVEN WITH
ALL OF HER PROGRESS,

460
00:27:31,933 --> 00:27:35,167
SHE'S STILL CARRYING A LOT
OF WEIGHT AROUND HER ABDOMEN,

461
00:27:35,167 --> 00:27:38,067
WHICH CAN PUT PRESSURE
ON THE HEART AND LUNGS

462
00:27:38,067 --> 00:27:40,967
IF WE DON'T WORK FAST.

463
00:27:40,967 --> 00:27:44,667
TODAY, WE'RE GONNA DO
GASTRIC BYPASS ON NIKKI.

464
00:27:44,667 --> 00:27:49,067
THIS IS AN OPERATION
THAT WE REDUCE THE STOMACH

465
00:27:49,067 --> 00:27:52,367
FROM A SIZE OF A FOOTBALL
TO THE SIZE OF A SMALL ORANGE.

466
00:27:52,367 --> 00:27:54,800
THIS WILL LIMIT THE AMOUNT

467
00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:57,933
THAT PATIENT CAN EAT
IN ONE SITTING.

468
00:27:57,933 --> 00:28:02,333
WE ALSO REROUTE
OR BYPASS THE INTESTINE

469
00:28:02,333 --> 00:28:04,600
TO SHORTEN THE LENGTH.

470
00:28:04,600 --> 00:28:06,933
BY DOING THAT,

471
00:28:06,933 --> 00:28:10,900
WE ALSO KIND OF LIMIT
THE AMOUNT OF FOOD ABSORPTION.

472
00:28:14,067 --> 00:28:18,300
Llewellyn: NIKKI'S PROBABLY BEEN
IN SURGERY FOR TWO HOURS.

473
00:28:18,300 --> 00:28:21,933
YOUR IMAGINATION RUNS AWAY
WITH YOU AND YOU WORRY.

474
00:28:21,933 --> 00:28:25,567
WE'RE JUST ANXIOUS FOR HER
TO COME OUT OF SURGERY.

475
00:28:35,600 --> 00:28:39,633
Dr. Nowzaradan: I WAS HOPING
TO DO A BYPASS ON NIKKI,

476
00:28:39,633 --> 00:28:42,700
BUT WITH HOW MUCH
THE ABDOMEN HAS BEEN STRETCHED

477
00:28:42,700 --> 00:28:43,867
WITH HER WEIGHT,

478
00:28:43,867 --> 00:28:47,667
THE BOWEL WOULD NOT REACH
FOR DOING A BYPASS.

479
00:28:55,067 --> 00:28:57,333
SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY
IS AN OPERATION

480
00:28:57,333 --> 00:28:59,900
THAT JUST REDUCES
THE SIZE OF THE STOMACH

481
00:28:59,900 --> 00:29:04,767
AND MAKE IT LOOK LIKE A SLEEVE
INSTEAD OF A BIG BALL.

482
00:29:04,767 --> 00:29:08,100
IT CAN BE JUST AS EFFECTIVE
AS BYPASS.

483
00:29:18,333 --> 00:29:19,767
ALL RIGHT.

484
00:29:19,767 --> 00:29:23,800
WE HAD SOME CHANGE OF PLAN,
BUT EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL.

485
00:29:25,100 --> 00:29:28,067
EVEN THOUGH
NIKKI DIDN'T HAVE BYPASS,

486
00:29:28,067 --> 00:29:32,333
A SLEEVE IS GOING TO HELP HER
TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT.

487
00:29:32,333 --> 00:29:35,900
BUT IF SHE PUSHES HERSELF
TO EAT MORE,

488
00:29:35,900 --> 00:29:38,300
THE SURGERY
CAN BECOME INEFFECTIVE

489
00:29:38,300 --> 00:29:40,800
MUCH FASTER THAN BYPASS.

490
00:29:40,800 --> 00:29:45,067
SHE NEEDS TO STAY MOTIVATED
TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS.

491
00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:02,100
YOU READY TO SLEEP
IN YOUR BED TONIGHT?

492
00:30:02,100 --> 00:30:04,000
IT'S BEEN A WHILE.

493
00:30:11,633 --> 00:30:13,467
Nikki: I'M REALLY NERVOUS

494
00:30:13,467 --> 00:30:18,300
ABOUT GOING BACK TO THE PLACE
WHERE ALL MY TEMPTATIONS ARE.

495
00:30:18,300 --> 00:30:21,500
THE DOCTOR SAID I COULD RETURN
A WHILE AGO,

496
00:30:21,500 --> 00:30:24,233
BUT I THINK I'VE BEEN STALLING.

497
00:30:26,233 --> 00:30:28,700
WHEN I WOKE UP FROM SURGERY,

498
00:30:28,700 --> 00:30:34,600
IT WAS SCARY TO FIND OUT THAT
I DIDN'T GET THE FULL BYPASS.

499
00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:38,100
BUT I'VE STILL BEEN LOSING
WEIGHT OVER THE PAST MONTH.

500
00:30:39,533 --> 00:30:41,533
IT'S GETTING HARDER, THOUGH,

501
00:30:41,533 --> 00:30:45,467
BECAUSE MY CRAVINGS
ARE SLOWLY COMING BACK.

502
00:30:45,467 --> 00:30:46,967
YOU KNOW, EVENTUALLY,
YOU'LL STOP IN

503
00:30:46,967 --> 00:30:48,967
AND SAY HI TO YOUR FRIENDS
AT THE OLD DOUGHNUT SHOP.

504
00:30:48,967 --> 00:30:50,233
[ LAUGHS ]

505
00:30:50,233 --> 00:30:52,567
THEY PROBABLY THINK THAT
SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED TO ME.

506
00:30:52,567 --> 00:30:54,067
[ LAUGHS ]

507
00:30:54,067 --> 00:30:56,467
THEY SAID, "HOW ARE
WE GONNA MAKE OUR RENT?"

508
00:30:56,467 --> 00:30:58,567
[ LAUGHS ]

509
00:30:58,567 --> 00:31:00,800
THAT WAS MEAN!

510
00:31:02,067 --> 00:31:04,100
ALL RIGHT.
HOME, SWEET HOME.

511
00:31:06,467 --> 00:31:09,800
I WAS FOCUSED
ON GETTING THE SURGERY.

512
00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:13,933
NOW THAT I HAVE IT
AND STILL HAVE CRAVINGS,

513
00:31:13,933 --> 00:31:18,733
I'M REALIZING
HOW MUCH I'VE BEEN USING FOOD

514
00:31:18,733 --> 00:31:21,433
TO AVOID DEALING WITH
SOME THINGS.

515
00:31:24,367 --> 00:31:27,467
I'M PROUD OF HOW FAR I'VE COME.

516
00:31:27,467 --> 00:31:30,933
SO THERE'S NO TURNING BACK
FOR ME AT THIS POINT.

517
00:31:32,333 --> 00:31:35,667
THANKSGIVING
IS IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS,

518
00:31:35,667 --> 00:31:39,300
AND EVERYONE IS COMING
TO OUR HOUSE TO EAT.

519
00:31:39,300 --> 00:31:40,667
NOT ONLY DOES IT MEAN

520
00:31:40,667 --> 00:31:43,333
THAT THIS HOUSE
WILL BE FILLED WITH FOOD,

521
00:31:43,333 --> 00:31:47,800
BUT THAT MY SISTER COURTNEY
WILL BE HERE.

522
00:31:47,800 --> 00:31:51,667
I HAVEN'T REALLY TALKED TO HER
IN YEARS

523
00:31:51,667 --> 00:31:55,667
BECAUSE AT ONE POINT
SHE BROKE OFF OUR RELATIONSHIP.

524
00:31:55,667 --> 00:31:58,400
SHE WAS SCARED THAT MY SIZE

525
00:31:58,400 --> 00:32:03,067
WAS EMOTIONALLY DISTRESSING
TO HER KIDS.

526
00:32:05,267 --> 00:32:08,233
IT MADE ME FEEL
MORE LIKE A FAILURE

527
00:32:08,233 --> 00:32:11,333
THAN I EVER HAD BEFORE.

528
00:32:11,333 --> 00:32:13,867
AND I'VE NEVER DEALT WITH IT.

529
00:32:13,867 --> 00:32:16,433
I JUST ATE MORE AND MORE.

530
00:32:16,433 --> 00:32:21,633
AND NOW, I CAN'T HIDE IN FOOD.
I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THINGS.

531
00:32:21,633 --> 00:32:23,967
AND THAT'S SCARY.

532
00:32:29,333 --> 00:32:31,700
Nikki:
THERE ARE MOMENTS YOU FACE

533
00:32:31,700 --> 00:32:35,400
THAT CAN NOT ONLY
DETERMINE YOUR FUTURE

534
00:32:35,400 --> 00:32:37,900
BUT REDEFINE YOUR PAST.

535
00:32:53,300 --> 00:32:57,133
THE MORE I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT
THE THINGS I NEED TO DEAL WITH,

536
00:32:57,133 --> 00:33:02,167
THE MORE I'VE REALIZED
I CAN'T DO THIS ON MY OWN.

537
00:33:04,867 --> 00:33:07,600
I'VE ALWAYS FELT LIKE A FAILURE,

538
00:33:07,600 --> 00:33:13,333
AND THERE'S NO WAY I'LL BE ABLE
TO TALK TO MY SISTER OR MY MOM

539
00:33:13,333 --> 00:33:16,867
IF I CAN'T GET PAST THAT.

540
00:33:16,867 --> 00:33:20,067
SO I'M GONNA SEE
A THERAPIST TODAY.

541
00:33:20,067 --> 00:33:21,233
HI.

542
00:33:21,233 --> 00:33:22,800
MY NAME'S LEE.
I'M NIKKI.

543
00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:24,800
NICE TO MEET YOU.
COME ON IN.

544
00:33:24,800 --> 00:33:26,833
WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME
A LITTLE BIT

545
00:33:26,833 --> 00:33:28,100
ABOUT WHY YOU'RE HERE?

546
00:33:28,100 --> 00:33:32,500
WELL, I HAVE STRUGGLED WITH
MY WEIGHT MY WHOLE LIFE,

547
00:33:32,500 --> 00:33:35,267
SO I MADE THE DECISION
TO HAVE SURGERY.

548
00:33:35,267 --> 00:33:39,467
AND I AM CONCERNED
ABOUT GAINING IT BACK.

549
00:33:39,467 --> 00:33:40,600
RIGHT.

550
00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:43,667
WELL, 88% OF WHAT'S GOING ON
WITH THIS

551
00:33:43,667 --> 00:33:45,600
IS ACTUALLY SUBCONSCIOUS.

552
00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:49,667
SO THERE ARE EMOTIONAL ISSUES
WHY YOU EAT,

553
00:33:49,667 --> 00:33:52,700
AND SO IT'S IMPORTANT TO
DEAL WITH THE EMOTIONAL ISSUES

554
00:33:52,700 --> 00:33:55,333
THAT CAUSED THE WEIGHT GAIN
IN THE FIRST PLACE.

555
00:33:55,333 --> 00:33:56,767
LIKE, TAKE ME BACK.

556
00:33:56,767 --> 00:33:59,500
TAKE ME BACK
TO SOME CHILDHOOD STUFF

557
00:33:59,500 --> 00:34:01,733
THAT YOU'RE CARRYING AROUND
WITH YOU.

558
00:34:01,733 --> 00:34:05,833
UM, WHEN I WAS
LIKE 13 OR SO,

559
00:34:05,833 --> 00:34:09,133
BOTH MY SISTERS
WERE GETTING MARRIED,

560
00:34:09,133 --> 00:34:11,067
AND I --

561
00:34:11,067 --> 00:34:16,133
I THINK THAT MAYBE I FELT LIKE
I WAS JUST IN THE BACKGROUND.

562
00:34:16,133 --> 00:34:18,533
AND NOT KNOWING
HOW TO DEAL WITH THOSE EMOTIONS,

563
00:34:18,533 --> 00:34:20,067
EATING WAS
MY COPING MECHANISM.

564
00:34:20,067 --> 00:34:21,067
RIGHT.

565
00:34:21,067 --> 00:34:22,267
AND SO I REALIZE

566
00:34:22,267 --> 00:34:24,733
THAT I HAVE TO FIND
A NEW COPING MECHANISM,

567
00:34:24,733 --> 00:34:28,100
BUT I GET SO CONSUMED
WITH THAT THOUGHT OF LIKE,

568
00:34:28,100 --> 00:34:30,500
"I CAN'T DO THIS,
I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH",

569
00:34:30,500 --> 00:34:32,067
I'M AFRAID THAT I'LL JUST
THROW IT ALL AWAY,

570
00:34:32,067 --> 00:34:33,667
AND THAT TERRIFIES ME.

571
00:34:33,667 --> 00:34:36,967
WELL, THAT 88%
IS WORKING AGAINST YOU.

572
00:34:36,967 --> 00:34:39,833
SO THAT'S WHY MOST PEOPLE
JUST GAIN IT RIGHT BACK.

573
00:34:39,833 --> 00:34:43,433
UNLESS YOU MAKE CHANGES
IN THE SUBCONSCIOUS.

574
00:34:43,433 --> 00:34:45,767
SO, YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH.

575
00:34:45,767 --> 00:34:48,267
BUT YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE ABLE
TO SEE THAT

576
00:34:48,267 --> 00:34:51,067
BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING YOU'RE
CARRYING AROUND WITH YOU --

577
00:34:51,067 --> 00:34:52,100
LITERALLY.

578
00:34:52,100 --> 00:34:54,600
AND ONCE YOU'RE ABLE
TO LET GO OF THAT,

579
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:57,500
THEN IT BECOMES EASIER
TO KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF,

580
00:34:57,500 --> 00:35:00,133
'CAUSE YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE
THAT YOU'RE STRONG ENOUGH.

581
00:35:00,133 --> 00:35:01,400
YEAH.

582
00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:03,733
ALL OF THIS CAN BE CHANGED.
YOU CAN KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF.

583
00:35:03,733 --> 00:35:04,967
OKAY.

584
00:35:04,967 --> 00:35:07,600
Nikki:
I THINK, FOR SO MANY YEARS,

585
00:35:07,600 --> 00:35:11,833
I JUST ASSUMED THAT I WOULD FAIL
AND LET PEOPLE DOWN.

586
00:35:11,833 --> 00:35:15,267
I KNOW THAT
I'VE GOT TO LET THAT GO,

587
00:35:15,267 --> 00:35:18,300
AND PART OF THAT IS LETTING GO

588
00:35:18,300 --> 00:35:22,200
OF THE PAIN I'VE HAD
WITH MY SISTER AND MY MOM.

589
00:35:39,067 --> 00:35:43,067
AS THANKSGIVING HAS GOTTEN
CLOSER AND CLOSER,

590
00:35:43,067 --> 00:35:45,433
I'VE GOTTEN MORE NERVOUS

591
00:35:45,433 --> 00:35:50,767
ABOUT SEEING MY SISTER
AND TALKING WITH HER.

592
00:35:50,767 --> 00:35:54,867
BUT RIGHT NOW,
I'M JUST FOCUSING ON

593
00:35:54,867 --> 00:35:57,800
NOT EATING ANYTHING
I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO.

594
00:35:59,700 --> 00:36:02,867
COURTNEY KNOWS THAT
I'M TRYING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT,

595
00:36:02,867 --> 00:36:08,300
AND I'M HOPING THIS WILL HELP
OUR RELATIONSHIP.

596
00:36:08,300 --> 00:36:10,667
I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO COURTNEY

597
00:36:10,667 --> 00:36:14,133
ABOUT WHEN SHE DISTANCED
HERSELF FROM ME

598
00:36:14,133 --> 00:36:15,967
BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT.

599
00:36:15,967 --> 00:36:20,300
SO I ASKED HER IF I COULD SHOW
HER SOME OF MY NEW MAKEUP.

600
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:24,667
DO I REALLY LOOK
THAT DIFFERENT TO YOU?

601
00:36:24,667 --> 00:36:26,333
YES. YOU DO.

602
00:36:26,333 --> 00:36:30,967
I KNOW THAT MY WEIGHT
HAS ALWAYS BEEN AN ISSUE

603
00:36:30,967 --> 00:36:35,533
IN ALL OF OUR LIVES,
AND, UM...

604
00:36:35,533 --> 00:36:38,767
[ Voice breaking ] I KNOW
THAT THAT WAS HARD FOR YOU

605
00:36:38,767 --> 00:36:40,233
TO, YOU KNOW, TELL ME

606
00:36:40,233 --> 00:36:43,067
THAT YOU NEEDED
TO STEP BACK A LITTLE BIT

607
00:36:43,067 --> 00:36:45,667
AND GIVE IT SOME SPACE.

608
00:36:45,667 --> 00:36:48,067
[ Voice breaking ]
IT WAS HARD, NIKKI.

609
00:36:48,067 --> 00:36:49,967
I NEVER WANTED TO HURT YOU.

610
00:36:49,967 --> 00:36:54,700
AND IT'S BEEN PAINFUL
TO JUST WATCH YOU DYING

611
00:36:54,700 --> 00:36:57,367
AND NOT KNOW
IF I'D EVER SEE YOU AGAIN.

612
00:36:57,367 --> 00:36:59,100
YOU KNOW?

613
00:36:59,100 --> 00:37:03,400
I WORRIED ABOUT THAT
EVERY TIME I SA--

614
00:37:03,400 --> 00:37:07,900
AND I JUST WASN'T THINKING ABOUT
WHAT IT WAS DOING TO YOU.

615
00:37:07,900 --> 00:37:09,967
YOU HAVE A LIFE TO LIVE,

616
00:37:09,967 --> 00:37:14,067
AND I'M SO EXCITED
TO SEE YOU COMING ALIVE.

617
00:37:14,067 --> 00:37:16,067
GIVE ME A HUG.

618
00:37:18,300 --> 00:37:19,667
I LOVE YOU.

619
00:37:19,667 --> 00:37:21,900
I LOVE YOU.

620
00:37:21,900 --> 00:37:24,133
AND I'M SO GLAD
YOU'RE HERE.

621
00:37:24,133 --> 00:37:26,167
ME TOO.

622
00:37:39,467 --> 00:37:41,267
DO YOU WANT TO GO
FOR A LITTLE WALK?

623
00:37:41,267 --> 00:37:43,133
Chris: YEAH.

624
00:37:44,867 --> 00:37:48,633
Nikki: TALKING WITH MY SISTER
LAST MONTH WAS REALLY GOOD.

625
00:37:48,633 --> 00:37:51,767
I FEEL LIKE I'M MAKING PROGRESS,

626
00:37:51,767 --> 00:37:56,400
AND I'VE REALLY BEEN PUSHING
MYSELF TO DO MORE AND MORE.

627
00:37:56,400 --> 00:37:58,067
YOU GOT ME?

628
00:37:58,067 --> 00:38:00,333
I GOT YOU.

629
00:38:00,333 --> 00:38:02,967
WHOA, WHOA, WHOA, WHOA.
[ LAUGHS ]

630
00:38:02,967 --> 00:38:05,600
ONE OF MY GOALS FOR YEARS

631
00:38:05,600 --> 00:38:08,600
HAS BEEN TO START TAKING CARE
OF MY BROTHER.

632
00:38:08,600 --> 00:38:11,800
LET'S SEE IF WE CAN MAKE IT
TO THAT CAR OVER THERE.

633
00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:15,467
LET'S SEE IF I CAN MAKE IT
TO THAT CAR OVER THERE.

634
00:38:15,467 --> 00:38:19,067
MY PARENTS HAVE NOT ONLY HAD TO
TAKE ON THAT RESPONSIBILITY

635
00:38:19,067 --> 00:38:20,533
BY THEMSELVES,

636
00:38:20,533 --> 00:38:24,700
THEY ALSO HAD TO TAKE CARE OF ME
AT THE SAME TIME.

637
00:38:24,700 --> 00:38:27,267
I WANT TO CHANGE THAT.

638
00:38:27,267 --> 00:38:30,133
I'M DOING EVERYTHING
I SAID I WOULD.

639
00:38:30,133 --> 00:38:32,200
HERE WE GO.

640
00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:35,067
I'M DOWN 160 POUNDS,

641
00:38:35,067 --> 00:38:40,067
AND MY GOAL IS
TO HAVE LOST OVER 200 POUNDS

642
00:38:40,067 --> 00:38:42,100
AT MY ONE-YEAR MARK.

643
00:38:43,500 --> 00:38:46,500
AND I'M GONNA DO IT.

644
00:38:46,500 --> 00:38:50,100
FOR THE FIRST TIME
IN A LONG TIME,

645
00:38:50,100 --> 00:38:52,233
I BELIEVE IN MYSELF.

646
00:39:10,567 --> 00:39:14,400
Nikki: I'M REALLY EXCITED
ABOUT TONIGHT.

647
00:39:14,400 --> 00:39:16,133
HEY!
HEY, WHAT'S GOING ON?

648
00:39:16,133 --> 00:39:17,867
HOW'S LIFE?
GOOD.

649
00:39:17,867 --> 00:39:20,067
I'M GONNA HANG OUT
WITH SOME FRIENDS

650
00:39:20,067 --> 00:39:22,600
AND GO SEE AN IMPROV SHOW.

651
00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:26,400
IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE I'VE SEEN
SOME OF THESE FRIENDS.

652
00:39:26,400 --> 00:39:28,767
COULD YOU,
MY GOOD FRIEND NIKKI,

653
00:39:28,767 --> 00:39:30,067
COME AND HELP ME OUT
FOR A MINUTE?

654
00:39:30,067 --> 00:39:31,567
ARE YOU KIDDING?
I AM NOT KIDDING YOU.

655
00:39:31,567 --> 00:39:32,900
WOULD YOU COME HELP ME,
PLEASE?

656
00:39:32,900 --> 00:39:34,200
OKAY.
EXCELLENT.

657
00:39:34,200 --> 00:39:36,767
HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS
AND BEING SOCIAL

658
00:39:36,767 --> 00:39:39,867
IS A HUGE PART
IN MY PERSONALITY.

659
00:39:39,867 --> 00:39:42,200
WE'RE GONNA BE PLAYING A GAME
CALLED "SPEED DATING."

660
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:46,333
THAT IS SOMETHING THAT
I REALLY MISSED IN MY LIFE.

661
00:39:46,333 --> 00:39:47,800
HEY, HOTNESS.

662
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:48,933
HEY.

663
00:39:48,933 --> 00:39:50,667
[ LAUGHTER ]

664
00:39:50,667 --> 00:39:53,433
Nikki: I'VE SPENT
SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE

665
00:39:53,433 --> 00:39:55,733
HIDING FROM EVERYONE.

666
00:39:55,733 --> 00:39:57,733
I'M WORKING HARD
TO LOSE THE WEIGHT,

667
00:39:57,733 --> 00:39:59,333
AND I'M GETTING BACK OUT THERE.

668
00:39:59,333 --> 00:40:00,900
[ BELL DINGS ]

669
00:40:00,900 --> 00:40:02,733
[ LAUGHTER AND APPLAUSE ]

670
00:40:02,733 --> 00:40:04,933
-NIKKI!
-GIVE IT UP FOR NIKKI!

671
00:40:04,933 --> 00:40:07,067
Nikki: I'M GONNA SEE
THE DOCTOR NEXT MONTH,

672
00:40:07,067 --> 00:40:09,867
AND I AM DETERMINED
TO HIT MY GOAL

673
00:40:09,867 --> 00:40:12,067
OF LOSING 200 POUNDS IN A YEAR.

674
00:40:12,067 --> 00:40:14,800
THERE IS NO GOING BACK.

675
00:40:14,800 --> 00:40:16,567
HOW ARE YOU?
GOOD.

676
00:40:21,267 --> 00:40:23,367
I'M HEADED TO THE DOCTOR,

677
00:40:23,367 --> 00:40:28,667
AND MY GOAL HAS BEEN TO HIT
449 POUNDS WITHIN A YEAR.

678
00:40:28,667 --> 00:40:32,600
AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE
WHAT THE SCALE SAYS.

679
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:35,500
I'VE USUALLY BEEN AFRAID
OF WHAT IT MIGHT SAY.

680
00:40:38,067 --> 00:40:39,733
443.

681
00:40:39,733 --> 00:40:41,867
WHAT? [ LAUGHS ]

682
00:40:41,867 --> 00:40:44,100
MY GOSH, YOU SILLY GIRL.

683
00:40:44,100 --> 00:40:45,500
Dr. Nowzaradan:
YOU LOST 200 POUNDS.

684
00:40:45,500 --> 00:40:47,267
THAT'S VERY GOOD.

685
00:40:47,267 --> 00:40:48,700
THANK YOU.

686
00:40:48,700 --> 00:40:51,033
Dr. Nowzaradan:
NIKKI WORKED VERY HARD,

687
00:40:51,033 --> 00:40:52,300
AND I HAVE NO DOUBT

688
00:40:52,300 --> 00:40:55,433
THAT SHE WILL REACH
HER TARGET WEIGHT NEXT YEAR.

689
00:40:55,433 --> 00:40:58,700
THANKS, DR. NOWZARADAN.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.

690
00:40:58,700 --> 00:41:01,233
YOU'RE QUITE WELCOME.
I'LL SEE YOU IN THREE MONTHS.

691
00:41:01,233 --> 00:41:02,367
SOUNDS GOOD.
OKAY.

692
00:41:04,100 --> 00:41:07,067
I'M FEELING REALLY CONFIDENT
RIGHT NOW,

693
00:41:07,067 --> 00:41:11,067
SO I DECIDED IT WAS TIME
TO TALK TO MY MOM

694
00:41:11,067 --> 00:41:13,233
AND DEAL WITH SOME
OF THE EMOTIONS I'VE HAD

695
00:41:13,233 --> 00:41:14,400
WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP.

696
00:41:14,400 --> 00:41:17,967
I THINK I FELT LIKE I WAS
JUST NEVER GOOD ENOUGH.

697
00:41:17,967 --> 00:41:19,800
I HATE THAT
YOU EVER FELT THAT WAY.

698
00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:21,800
I HOPE I DON'T EVER
HURT YOUR FEELINGS,

699
00:41:21,800 --> 00:41:22,900
'CAUSE I LOVE YOU.

700
00:41:24,300 --> 00:41:25,433
MM.

701
00:41:25,433 --> 00:41:27,867
I LOVE YOU, TOO, BABY.

702
00:41:27,867 --> 00:41:31,267
I CAN DO SO MUCH MORE NOW.

703
00:41:31,267 --> 00:41:32,933
WORK IS SO MUCH DIFFERENT

704
00:41:32,933 --> 00:41:36,233
BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE
I CAN ACTUALLY DO MY JOB.

705
00:41:36,233 --> 00:41:41,733
I DON'T HAVE TO RELY ON OTHERS
TO DO MY JOB FOR ME.

706
00:41:41,733 --> 00:41:43,367
IS THAT TOO TIGHT?
NO, THAT'S FINE.

707
00:41:43,367 --> 00:41:44,833
THAT FEEL GOOD? OKAY.

708
00:41:47,133 --> 00:41:49,300
Terry: NIKKI'S WEIGHT LOSS

709
00:41:49,300 --> 00:41:53,333
HAS JUST HAD A POSITIVE EFFECT
NOT ONLY ON HER, OF COURSE,

710
00:41:53,333 --> 00:41:55,767
BUT ALSO ON OUR WHOLE FAMILY.

711
00:41:55,767 --> 00:41:58,667
SHE IS DOING
MUCH MORE FOR HERSELF,

712
00:41:58,667 --> 00:42:01,733
AND SHE'S TRYING TO DO
EVEN MORE FOR CHRIS.

713
00:42:01,733 --> 00:42:03,067
THANKS FOR COMING OUT
WITH ME.

714
00:42:03,067 --> 00:42:05,333
SINCE I'VE BEEN
LOSING WEIGHT,

715
00:42:05,333 --> 00:42:07,233
WE'VE BEEN ABLE TO DO
A LITTLE BIT MORE, HUH?

716
00:42:07,233 --> 00:42:08,533
UH-HUH.

717
00:42:08,533 --> 00:42:10,767
I LIKE BEING ABLE TO SPEND
THAT TIME WITH YOU.

718
00:42:10,767 --> 00:42:12,533
I DO, TOO.

719
00:42:12,533 --> 00:42:15,667
Nikki:
A YEAR AGO, I FELT DEBILITATED,

720
00:42:15,667 --> 00:42:21,733
AND TODAY, IT'S LITERALLY
A BRAND-NEW LIFE.

721
00:42:23,433 --> 00:42:27,733
I'M DOING THINGS
THAT I HAVEN'T DONE IN FOREVER,

722
00:42:27,733 --> 00:42:29,933
AND IT FEELS AMAZING.

723
00:42:29,933 --> 00:42:32,167
I'VE TAKEN CONTROL OF MY LIFE.

723
00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545
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