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Gideon: I HATE MY BODY.

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I MEAN, I FEEL LIKE
I AM DISGUSTING.

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Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME
A DEATH SENTENCE.

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Woman: THE THING
I RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS

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IS WHAT'S KILLING ME.

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-IT'S BROKEN!
-WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?

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I DON'T KNOW.
I CAN'T GET OFF.

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DON'T LET ME GO, PLEASE.
-I'M NOT.

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Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER
FROM A CHAIR.

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[ GRUNTS ]
THANK YOU, HONEY.

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I SEE
THAT UNWILLINGNESS.

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IF YOU'RE SERIOUS,
YOU'LL MAKE CHANGES.

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Kayleigh: I LOVE GIDEON,
BUT HE HAD HIS CHANCE TO CHANGE,

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AND RIGHT NOW,
HE'S NOT USING IT.

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Gideon: SOMETIMES YOU THINK
YOU KNOW WHAT YOU NEED TO DO,

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WHEN YOU REALLY HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT REAL CHANGE IS GONNA TAKE.

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WHEN I WAKE UP, I INSTANTLY FEEL
PAIN ALL OVER MY BODY.

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MY WEIGHT PUTS PRESSURE ON ME,
MAKES MY BACK HURT.

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MY LEGS SWELL,

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AND IT'S A CONSTANT BATTLE
TO CATCH MY BREATH.

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EVERYTHING IS EXTREMELY HARD
AT MY SIZE.

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AND I JUST FEEL LIKE MY BODY
COULD GIVE OUT AT ANY MOMENT.

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WHEN I GET IN THE SHOWER,
I TRY TO STAY AS STILL AS I CAN.

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'CAUSE FALLING'S NOT A GOOD IDEA
AT 625 POUNDS.

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THAT WOULD BE HUMILIATING FOR
MY FAMILY TO SEE ME LIKE THAT.

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I ALREADY CAN BARELY FUNCTION,

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'CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT I DO
REVOLVES AROUND MY WEIGHT.

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PHYSICALLY, IT'S DIFFICULT
IN EVERY ASPECT OF THE WORD.

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LIKE, I HAVE TO USE DEODORANT
NOT ONLY IN MY ARMPITS

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BUT IN BETWEEN MY ROLLS
BECAUSE I SWEAT A LOT,

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SO THEY GET RAW AND CHAPPED.

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AND I HAVE TO WEAR
THREE SHIRTS EVERY DAY

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JUST TO ABSORB THE SWEAT
AND TO HIDE THE FACT

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THAT MY MAN BOOBS ARE SO BIG
AND MY FAT ROLLS ARE SO BIG.

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I JUST FEEL
LIKE I AM DISGUSTING.

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I KNOW I LET MYSELF
GET THIS WAY, BUT I STILL EAT.

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AS SOON AS I START MY DAY,
I AM STARVING.

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I HAVE A WIFE AND A SON,
AND I TRY TO GET UP BEFORE THEM

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BECAUSE IF THEY SEE ME
EATING AS MUCH AS I DO,

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THEY'RE GONNA SAY SOMETHING.

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AND I WOULD RATHER
JUST EAT IN PEACE.

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I CHOOSE TO EAT THINGS
THAT AREN'T NECESSARILY

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AS HEALTHY FOR ME AS I SHOULD.

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BUT I JUST WANT TO EAT A SNACK
WITHOUT SOMEONE GIVING ME LOOKS,

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TELLING ME THAT I EAT TOO MUCH,

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OR CRITICIZING ME
ABOUT WHAT I EAT.

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BUT THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENED
ALL MY LIFE.

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FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN
A COMFORT FOR ME.

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WHEN MY PARENTS GOT DIVORCED,
I WAS ABOUT 8 YEARS OLD.

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THAT DEFINITELY IS WHEN I THINK

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EVERYTHING KIND OF WENT DOWNHILL
FOR ME, YOU KNOW, EMOTIONALLY.

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I REMEMBER
NOT REALLY UNDERSTANDING,

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BUT I KNEW I FELT BETTER
WHEN I ATE.

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SO, BY THE TIME I WAS 9,
I WEIGHED OVER 150 POUNDS.

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AND I WAS STILL EATING A LOT

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BECAUSE OF THE STRESS
FROM THE CUSTODY BATTLE.

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I HAD TO PICK WHICH PARENT
I WANTED TO LIVE WITH,

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AND MY BROTHER WANTED
TO LIVE WITH MY DAD,

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SO I SAID I WOULD GO WITH HIM.

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BUT I FELT REALLY HORRIBLE
FOR MY MOTHER.

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LOOKING BACK, IT MAY NOT
HAVE BEEN THE BEST CHOICE

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BECAUSE ME AND MY STEPMOM
COULD NOT GET ALONG.

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SO, FOOD WAS WHAT I TURNED TO TO

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TRY TO FIND SOME TYPE
OF A CALMNESS.

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BY THE TIME I WAS 12,
I WAS ALREADY SO BIG

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THAT I HAD TO BUY MY CLOTHES
FROM THE "BIG AND TALL" SECTION

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IN THE MEN'S DEPARTMENT.

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AND MY WEIGHT WAS
A CONSTANTLY SOURCE OF RIDICULE

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WITH MY STEPMOM, AND SHE DIDN'T
REALLY WANT ME AROUND AT ALL,

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SO SHE WOULD SEND ME
TO FAT CAMP.

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I REMEMBER THE STIGMA
OF EMBARRASSMENT

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ATTACHED TO THE WHOLE SITUATION,

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BUT REGARDLESS OF WHAT I DID,

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THERE WAS NEVER WEIGHT LOSS.

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IT JUST WAS ALWAYS
GRADUALLY CREEPING UP.

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AND BY THE TIME I GRADUATED HIGH
SCHOOL, I WAS OVER 400 POUNDS.

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AFTER THAT, I WASN'T GAINING
FOR A FEW YEARS THERE,

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BUT I DIDN'T KNOW
THAT IT WAS GONNA GET WORSE

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AS QUICKLY AS IT DID.

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WHEN I WAS 25, MY MOM DIED.

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AFTER THAT, THE GUILT AND PAIN
FOR LEAVING MY MOM CAME BACK,

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AND I REALLY REMOVED MYSELF
FROM...EVERYTHING.

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I JUST KIND OF SHUT DOWN.

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I PUT ON EVEN MORE WEIGHT
AFTER THAT...

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...UNTIL I MET MY WIFE.

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KAYLEIGH MADE ME HAPPIER
THAN I'D EVER BEEN.

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I WAS AROUND 500 POUNDS
WHEN KAYLEIGH AND I MET,

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BUT SHE DIDN'T CARE
ABOUT MY WEIGHT,

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AND WE STARTED SPENDING
A LOT OF TIME TOGETHER.

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THE FIRST THING THAT I NOTICED
ABOUT GIDEON WAS HIS SMILE.

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HE WAS JUST MAKING JOKES
AND BEING REALLY FUNNY,

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AND I LIKE THAT.

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Gideon:
I JUST FELL IN LOVE WITH HER.

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AND SHE HAD A SON, JONATHAN.

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AND AS WE STARTED
TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER,

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I STARTED TO FEEL
THAT HE WAS MY SON, TOO.

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SO WE GOT MARRIED
AND BECAME A FAMILY.

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Kayleigh: IT WAS A LOT DIFFERENT
WHEN I MET HIM.

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HE WAS ALWAYS HAPPY.

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HE WAS CONFIDENT.

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HE DID NOT CARRY HIMSELF LIKE
HE WEIGHED AS MUCH AS HE DID.

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BUT HE'S CHANGED SO MUCH
SINCE I'VE KNOWN HIM.

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THINGS DEFINITELY GOT BETTER
FOR A WHILE,

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BUT WITHIN A YEAR OF KAYLEIGH
AND I GETTING MARRIED,

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MY DAD AND MY SISTER BOTH DIED
WITHIN THREE DAYS OF EACH OTHER.

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ALL I CAN THINK OF NOW IS FOOD.

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FOOD HELPS ME WITH THE PAIN, AND
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THAT.

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AND NOW I KNOW I MUST BE
OVER 600 POUNDS.

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WHENEVER GIDEON'S DAD AND SISTER
DIED, HE JUST GOT DEPRESSED.

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AND NOW HE DOESN'T GET UP
AND MOVE AROUND A LOT.

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GIDEON, I'M GONNA GO OUT
AND MOW.

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OKAY.
YOU WANT TO COME HELP ME?

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HE DOESN'T REALLY
DO ANYTHING

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OTHER THAN PLAY
ON HIS PHONE AND EAT.

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IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING TO ME
BECAUSE I DO NOT FEEL

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LIKE WE ARE EQUAL PARTNERS
IN THE HOUSEHOLD.

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I WORK,
I GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME.

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AND ON TOP OF TRYING
TO TAKE CARE OF JONATHAN

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AND TAKE CARE OF THE HOUSE,
I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM.

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GO GET THE TRASH CANS AND DRAG
THEM UP HERE FOR ME, PLEASE.

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IT'S REALLY STRESSFUL,
AND IT ALWAYS FEELS

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LIKE I AM A SINGLE PARENT
WITH TWO CHILDREN.

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Gideon: I KNOW I SHOULD DO MORE
TO HELP OUT WITH THE HOUSE WORK,

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BUT IT'S SO HARD
ON ME PHYSICALLY.

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THAT'S BEEN THE BIGGEST HURDLE,

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AND THE HARDEST THING
TO KIND OF SWALLOW HAS BEEN

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HOW IT AFFECTS THEM.

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I DON'T KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE
WITHOUT KAYLEIGH.

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JUST TERRIFIED THAT MY WEIGHT'S
GOING TO CAUSE KAYLEIGH

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TO LEAVE ME
BECAUSE SHE'S NOT HAPPY.

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MY WEIGHT HAS BEEN DETRIMENTAL
TO BEING THE FATHER,

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THE HUSBAND, THE PROVIDER

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THAT I'VE DREAMED OF BEING
MY WHOLE LIFE.

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BEING A DAD IS PROBABLY THE ONLY
THING THAT I'M REALLY PROUD OF.

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Jonathan: I LOVE MY DAD A LOT.

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I WANT HIM TO LOSE WEIGHT
AND BE HEALTHY

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SO WE CAN PLAY OUTSIDE
MORE OFTEN.

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OOH.

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Gideon: I HAD A GREAT DAD,

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AND [SNIFFLES]
HE DIDN'T LIVE LONG ENOUGH.

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SO I'M AFRAID
THAT'S THE MOMENTUM

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THAT I'M CARRYING OVER
FOR JONATHAN...

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WHERE DID IT GO?

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...IS THAT I'M NOT GONNA
LIVE LONG ENOUGH.

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LET'S GO INSIDE.
OKAY.

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[ GRUNTS ]

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I'M TERRIFIED OF WHAT KIND OF
BURDEN I'M BECOMING TO THEM.

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AND I DON'T REALLY KNOW
HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS

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MY FAMILY'S WILLING TO TAKE.

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Kayleigh:
ARE YOU GUYS ALMOST READY?

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BEYOND READY.

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I ONLY REALLY GO OUT TO GET FOOD

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OR IF THERE'S GONNA BE FOOD
WHERE I'M GOING.

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BUT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW
I'M GOING SOMEWHERE TO EAT,

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I HAVE A HARD TIME
NOT STOPPING TO GET A SNACK.

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JUST GRILLING, LIKE...

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YEAH, WE'RE GONNA
GRILL THE BRATS

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AND JUST HANG OUT,
PLAY SOME GAMES.

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THAT'S COOL.

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I'LL SEE A PLACE AND I'LL START
TO CRAVE SOMETHING THEY HAVE.

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GOOD MORNING.

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DO YOU HAVE APPLE FRITTERS?

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OH, I WANT TWO OF THOSE.

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AND THEN A CHOCOLATE
LONG JOHN -- TWO OF THOSE.

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Kayleigh: GIDEON IS
EATING HIMSELF TO DEATH.

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DO YOU HAVE, LIKE,
A MIXED DOZEN?

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HE SAYS THAT HE'S FIGHTING
TO LIVE FOR US,

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BUT I DON'T THINK
HIS ACTIONS SHOW THAT.

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IF THERE'S ONE THING I KNOW,
IT'S A GOOD APPLE FRITTER.

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I JUST WANT TO SHAKE HIM
AND JUST SCREAM AT HIM,

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"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?

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WHY CAN'T YOU CHANGE?

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DON'T YOU WANT BETTER
FOR YOURSELF?

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DON'T YOU WANT BETTER FOR ME
AND JONATHAN?

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YOU ARE SLOWLY
KILLING YOURSELF."

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HEY. WE'RE HERE.
WE MADE IT.

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HE NEEDS TO REALIZE
THAT HE'S LOSING EVERYTHING.

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MY FAMILY AND ME AND JONATHAN IS
REALLY ALL THAT HE HAS.

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COME HERE, SISTER.

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WE WANT HIM TO BE SUCCESSFUL,
BUT WE KIND OF FEEL LIKE

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HE'S HAD THESE OPPORTUNITIES
BEFORE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT,

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AND HE HASN'T GRABBED AHOLD OF
THEM AND DONE ALL THAT HE CAN.

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[ GROANS ]
GOOD GRIEF.

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MY WHOLE LIFE,
NEVER BEING ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT,

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HAS BEEN TOUGH ON ME.

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I FEEL LIKE I'M CONSTANTLY
FAILING AT EVERYTHING I TRY.

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HI.

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AND WHEN I SIT AROUND,

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IT FEELS LIKE THEY'VE ALREADY
WRITTEN ME OFF FOR DEAD.

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THIS IS NOT WHAT
I DREAMED OF FOR MY LIFE,

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AND I DON'T THINK
BEING MARRIED TO A FAT GUY

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IS WHAT SHE DREAMED OF
FOR HERS.

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I GOT FOOD!

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I DON'T THINK GIDEON REALIZES
HOW CLOSE I AM TO...BEING DONE.

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I WANT HIM TO LIVE,
JONATHAN NEEDS HIM TO LIVE,

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AND HE'S GOT TO BE HEALTHY
TO LIVE.

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BUT EVERYTHING HAS TO CHANGE,

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AND I DON'T KNOW
IF HE GETS THAT.

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MMM.

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Gideon: I'M AT THE POINT WHERE
I'M SEEING MY FUTURE,

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AND IT'S VERY BLEAK.

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I'VE HAD TO BURY
TOO MANY PEOPLE,

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AND I DON'T WANT JONATHAN
TO HAVE TO BURY ME.

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SOMETHING'S GOT TO CHANGE,

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BUT I DON'T KNOW
HOW TO STOP EATING.

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AND I KNOW THAT IF I DON'T
TAKE CONTROL...I'M DOOMED.

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**

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Kayleigh:
YOU READY TO GO TO HOUSTON?

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I BELIEVE SO.

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TODAY KAYLEIGH AND I
ARE GOING TO HOUSTON

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TO SEE A DOCTOR NAMED
DR. NOWZARADAN.

216
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HE DOES WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY
ON PEOPLE MY SIZE,

217
00:13:51,567 --> 00:13:54,200
AND I'M HOPING HE CAN HELP ME.

218
00:13:58,067 --> 00:13:59,667
[ GRUNTS ]

219
00:14:02,400 --> 00:14:04,733
I'M A LITTLE BIT NERVOUS
BECAUSE I WANT HELP,

220
00:14:04,733 --> 00:14:08,367
BUT I'M ALSO A LITTLE SCARED
ABOUT HAVING TO GIVE UP FOOD.

221
00:14:08,367 --> 00:14:13,767
BUT I KNOW MY MARRIAGE
AND MY LIFE IS ON THE LINE.

222
00:14:13,767 --> 00:14:15,667
DID WE FIGURE OUT LUNCH?

223
00:14:15,667 --> 00:14:17,567
I WANT THE NUMBER FIVE.

224
00:14:17,567 --> 00:14:20,633
I NEED A JUNIOR
BACON CHEDDAR MELT,

225
00:14:20,633 --> 00:14:25,067
A NUMBER FIVE,
AND THEN A NUMBER NINE.

226
00:14:27,333 --> 00:14:28,767
THANK YOU, MA'AM.

227
00:14:32,267 --> 00:14:34,500
I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME,

228
00:14:34,500 --> 00:14:37,867
BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NEVER GONNA
CHANGE ON MY OWN.

229
00:14:41,867 --> 00:14:46,233
BUT I'M A LITTLE ANXIOUS ABOUT
WHAT THE DOCTOR IS GONNA SAY.

230
00:14:46,233 --> 00:14:50,833
I WAS ABLE TO CHECK MY WEIGHT
RECENTLY, AND I WAS AROUND 620,

231
00:14:50,833 --> 00:14:53,767
SO I DON'T THINK IT'S GONNA BE
MUCH HIGHER THAN THAT.

232
00:15:01,467 --> 00:15:04,633
I'M SHOCKED.

233
00:15:04,633 --> 00:15:07,767
WASN'T EXPECTING IT
TO BE THAT HIGH.

234
00:15:07,767 --> 00:15:10,400
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY
THE HEAVIEST I'VE EVER BEEN.

235
00:15:12,967 --> 00:15:16,233
REALITY JUST HIT ME IN THE FACE

236
00:15:16,233 --> 00:15:20,067
AND MADE ME AWARE OF HOW BAD
MY WEIGHT HAS GOTTEN.

237
00:15:20,067 --> 00:15:22,100
THAT'S AN UGLY NUMBER.

238
00:15:22,100 --> 00:15:24,733
IT'S JUST GONNA
KEEP GOING UP.

239
00:15:24,733 --> 00:15:26,433
YOU GOT TO KNOCK IT OUT.

240
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[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]

241
00:15:28,300 --> 00:15:30,067
HELLO.
HELLO.

242
00:15:30,067 --> 00:15:31,933
I'M DR. NOWZARADAN.
IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

243
00:15:31,933 --> 00:15:34,200
NICE TO MEET YOU.
NICE TO MEET YOU.

244
00:15:34,200 --> 00:15:37,500
SO, YOU'RE 650 POUNDS.

245
00:15:37,500 --> 00:15:40,267
TELL ME HOW YOUR WEIGHT HAS
CLIMBED THIS HIGH.

246
00:15:40,267 --> 00:15:42,333
WELL, I'M OBESE.

247
00:15:42,333 --> 00:15:44,300
THAT'S THE BIGGEST PROBLEM.

248
00:15:44,300 --> 00:15:47,633
OKAY, SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK
IS THE CAUSE OF THAT?

249
00:15:47,633 --> 00:15:51,633
UH, A HISTORY, A WHOLE LIFE,
OF BAD EATING HABITS.

250
00:15:51,633 --> 00:15:54,133
WHAT DOES
YOUR EATING LOOK LIKE?

251
00:15:54,133 --> 00:15:56,367
I DEFINITELY
DON'T EAT HEALTHY.

252
00:15:56,367 --> 00:16:00,067
I HAVE A SNACK IN THE MORNING,
THEN BREAKFAST,

253
00:16:00,067 --> 00:16:03,067
AND THEN I EAT MAYBE
ONE SMALL MEAL DURING THE DAY.

254
00:16:03,067 --> 00:16:04,867
LIKE, I'LL GO THROUGH
FAST FOOD,

255
00:16:04,867 --> 00:16:07,200
GET LIKE TWO HAMBURGERS,
THREE COOKIES.

256
00:16:07,200 --> 00:16:08,767
SO YOU CALL THAT
A SMALL MEAL?

257
00:16:08,767 --> 00:16:12,467
WELL, I MEAN, COMPARED TO, LIKE,
MY DINNER MEAL, IT'S SMALLER.

258
00:16:12,467 --> 00:16:17,367
WELL, FOR A TYPICAL DINNER, WHAT
DO YOU USUALLY HAVE AT HOME?

259
00:16:17,367 --> 00:16:19,800
WE USUALLY HAVE
QUICK MEALS,

260
00:16:19,800 --> 00:16:23,367
SO LIKE SPAGHETTI,
BECAUSE I DO WORK LATE.

261
00:16:23,367 --> 00:16:26,067
SO WHO DOES
THE GROCERY SHOPPING?

262
00:16:26,067 --> 00:16:28,433
I DO, TYPICALLY.

263
00:16:28,433 --> 00:16:30,300
YOU DO?
YEAH.

264
00:16:30,300 --> 00:16:33,100
GIDEON IS MAKING JOKES,
AND HIS WIFE, KAYLEIGH,

265
00:16:33,100 --> 00:16:35,833
IS MAKING EXCUSES
ABOUT HAVING LITTLE TIME

266
00:16:35,833 --> 00:16:37,267
TO MAKE HEALTHY FOOD.

267
00:16:37,267 --> 00:16:39,867
THEY'RE LOOKING
FOR A MAGIC PILL

268
00:16:39,867 --> 00:16:42,733
TO SOLVE THEIR PROBLEM
WITHOUT EFFORT.

269
00:16:42,733 --> 00:16:46,400
YOU BOTH KNOW
WHAT HEALTHY EATING IS.

270
00:16:46,400 --> 00:16:48,967
YOU JUST DON'T WANT
TO MAKE THE CHANGE.

271
00:16:48,967 --> 00:16:51,100
BUT NOW IS THE TIME
TO DO THAT.

272
00:16:51,100 --> 00:16:53,067
I'M GIVING YOU
A DIET PLAN,

273
00:16:53,067 --> 00:16:56,267
AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE 50 POUNDS
OVER THE NEXT MONTH

274
00:16:56,267 --> 00:16:58,967
TO SHOW ME THAT YOU'RE READY
AND WILLING TO WORK.

275
00:16:58,967 --> 00:17:00,100
OKAY.
OKAY?

276
00:17:00,100 --> 00:17:01,167
YES, SIR.

277
00:17:01,167 --> 00:17:02,567
ALL RIGHT,
SEE YOU SOON.

278
00:17:02,567 --> 00:17:04,300
IT WAS AWESOME
TO MEET YOU, SIR.

279
00:17:04,300 --> 00:17:08,367
Dr. Nowzaradan: GIDEON HAS
AN EXTRA 400 POUNDS ON HIS BODY.

280
00:17:08,367 --> 00:17:11,900
THAT'S GOING TO START TAKING
A GREATER TOLL ON HIM.

281
00:17:11,900 --> 00:17:15,067
IT'S TIME FOR BOTH OF THEM
TO MAKE A CHANGE

282
00:17:15,067 --> 00:17:17,900
IF GIDEON IS GOING TO
TURN HIS HEALTH AROUND.

283
00:17:17,900 --> 00:17:22,267
DO YOU THINK YOU CAN LOSE
50 POUNDS IN A MONTH?

284
00:17:22,267 --> 00:17:25,533
I THINK THAT I'M GONNA
GIVE IT EVERYTHING I CAN

285
00:17:25,533 --> 00:17:28,067
TO LOSE 55 POUNDS
IN A MONTH.

286
00:17:31,467 --> 00:17:34,967
Kayleigh: 50 POUNDS IS
A BIG STEP FOR HIM.

287
00:17:34,967 --> 00:17:38,333
I WANT TO BE THE DUTIFUL WIFE
AND BE LIKE, "MAN,

288
00:17:38,333 --> 00:17:40,367
YOU CAN KNOCK OUT
50 POUNDS EASY,"

289
00:17:40,367 --> 00:17:44,600
BUT I DON'T KNOW,
REALISTICALLY, THAT HE CAN.

290
00:17:44,600 --> 00:17:48,333
I NEED GIDEON TO LOSE
THIS WEIGHT SO HE CAN LIVE,

291
00:17:48,333 --> 00:17:52,767
[Voice breaking] SO HE CAN
BE HERE FOR JONNY AND FOR ME.

292
00:17:54,900 --> 00:17:58,433
Gideon: NOW IT'S NOW OR NEVER.

293
00:17:58,433 --> 00:18:01,467
YOU KNOW, I'M HURTING KAYLEIGH
AND I'M HURTING JONATHAN,

294
00:18:01,467 --> 00:18:05,567
AND THOSE ARE THE ONLY
TWO THINGS I HAVE LEFT.

295
00:18:05,567 --> 00:18:12,067
SO, WHATEVER IT TAKES,
I'M GONNA DO IT.

296
00:18:12,067 --> 00:18:16,300
**

297
00:18:16,300 --> 00:18:20,733
Kayleigh:
IT'S HOTTER THAN HADES TODAY.

298
00:18:20,733 --> 00:18:22,833
GIVE ME THE DRAWERS,
PLEASE.

299
00:18:22,833 --> 00:18:25,667
IT'S BEEN
A HARD COUPLE OF WEEKS,

300
00:18:25,667 --> 00:18:29,600
AND I KNOW AT THIS POINT,
I'M EITHER ALL IN OR ALL OUT.

301
00:18:31,067 --> 00:18:34,167
SO, I'VE BEEN ADAPTING
TO NEW EATING HABITS.

302
00:18:34,167 --> 00:18:38,233
WE ARE LOADING UP
TO HEAD SOUTH TO TEXAS.

303
00:18:38,233 --> 00:18:41,733
WE FOUND A HOUSE THERE,
AND WE'RE MOVING DOWN THERE

304
00:18:41,733 --> 00:18:45,867
SO THAT I CAN BE CLOSER
TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE.

305
00:18:45,867 --> 00:18:48,900
THE FACT THAT KAYLEIGH,
JONATHAN, AND I ARE MOVING

306
00:18:48,900 --> 00:18:52,333
FURTHER AWAY FROM FAMILY JUST
PUTS MORE ADDED PRESSURE ON ME

307
00:18:52,333 --> 00:18:54,833
BECAUSE I HAVE TO SUCCEED.

308
00:18:54,833 --> 00:18:59,367
OTHERWISE, I'VE PUT THEM THROUGH
CHAOS AND STRESS FOR NO REASON.

309
00:18:59,367 --> 00:19:02,567
BUT I'VE GOT TO DO
WHATEVER IT TAKES

310
00:19:02,567 --> 00:19:05,633
FOR ME TO GET
MY HEALTH TOGETHER.

311
00:19:05,633 --> 00:19:11,900
Kayleigh:
THIS IS LIFE CHANGING FOR GIDEON
AND FOR US AS A FAMILY, TOO.

312
00:19:11,900 --> 00:19:16,433
WE GAVE UP GOOD JOBS
TO PURSUE HIS DREAM.

313
00:19:16,433 --> 00:19:18,967
I'M JUST SCARED
IF WE GET DOWN THERE

314
00:19:18,967 --> 00:19:23,233
AND HE DOESN'T HAVE THE SURGERY,
THEN WE'RE OUT OF OPTIONS.

315
00:19:23,233 --> 00:19:24,567
ONE, TWO, THREE.

316
00:19:27,233 --> 00:19:30,067
Gideon: THIS IS DEFINITELY
MY LAST CHANCE

317
00:19:30,067 --> 00:19:32,400
TO GET MY HEALTH UNDER CONTROL,

318
00:19:32,400 --> 00:19:34,833
BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M
PUSHING MYSELF TO THE LIMIT,

319
00:19:34,833 --> 00:19:37,767
PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY.

320
00:19:37,767 --> 00:19:39,533
I WAS SUPPOSED TO
DRIVE MY TRUCK,

321
00:19:39,533 --> 00:19:43,333
BUT I'VE BEEN ON THE VERGE
OF JUST HEAT EXHAUSTION.

322
00:19:43,333 --> 00:19:48,100
I HATE FEELING GUILTY
BEING IN THE AIR CONDITIONING,

323
00:19:48,100 --> 00:19:51,767
AND ANY TIME I AM PUTTING
KAYLEIGH AND JONATHAN OUT,

324
00:19:51,767 --> 00:19:54,467
I FEEL LIKE IT'S JUST
ANOTHER CONSTANT REMINDER

325
00:19:54,467 --> 00:19:58,067
OF HOW I'M KIND OF
LETTING THEM DOWN,

326
00:19:58,067 --> 00:20:03,300
MAKING IT HARDER ON THEM
BY BEING...FAT.

327
00:20:03,300 --> 00:20:07,000
BUT THAT'S WHAT WE'RE HERE
TO CHANGE.

328
00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:11,167
Kayleigh: GIDEON HAS DONE REALLY
WELL ON THE JOURNEY SO FAR,

329
00:20:11,167 --> 00:20:15,767
BUT IF WE MOVE DOWN HERE
AND UPROOT OUR WHOLE LIVES

330
00:20:15,767 --> 00:20:17,633
AND HE STARTS TO FAIL,

331
00:20:17,633 --> 00:20:21,167
WE WILL BE REEVALUATING
OUR RELATIONSHIP.

332
00:20:23,867 --> 00:20:27,333
**

333
00:20:27,333 --> 00:20:29,033
OKAY.

334
00:20:29,033 --> 00:20:33,233
Gideon: IT WAS A LONG JOURNEY
HERE, BUT WE MADE IT.

335
00:20:33,233 --> 00:20:37,767
AND I DIDN'T STOP
FOR FAST FOOD ONCE.

336
00:20:37,767 --> 00:20:40,667
WE'VE HAD MY WIFE'S FAMILY
OVER HERE HELPING,

337
00:20:40,667 --> 00:20:43,267
BUT UNTIL WE MOVE IN,

338
00:20:43,267 --> 00:20:45,633
I KNOW WE'RE GONNA
HAVE TO DO FOOD RUNS.

339
00:20:45,633 --> 00:20:48,100
AND FAST FOOD IS
THE NATURAL CHOICE...

340
00:20:48,100 --> 00:20:49,800
DO YOU WANT ANYTHING
TO EAT?

341
00:20:49,800 --> 00:20:51,600
UM, YEAH.

342
00:20:51,600 --> 00:20:55,200
I WANT...
THAT SPICY CHICKEN.

343
00:20:55,200 --> 00:20:57,367
...WHICH MAKES IT HARDER
TO RESIST.

344
00:20:59,333 --> 00:21:03,167
FOOD ADDICTION IS
A UNIQUE TYPE OF ADDICTION.

345
00:21:03,167 --> 00:21:07,667
IT'S LIKE NEEDING HEROIN
TO LIVE, BUT JUST A LITTLE,

346
00:21:07,667 --> 00:21:10,633
SO YOU HAVE TO GO AND FACE
YOUR DEMONS EVERY DAY

347
00:21:10,633 --> 00:21:12,500
AND STILL RESIST IT.

348
00:21:12,500 --> 00:21:15,433
I NEED TWO
OF THE GRILLED MARKET SALADS

349
00:21:15,433 --> 00:21:18,133
AND THEN A KID'S MEAL,
THE SIX.

350
00:21:20,600 --> 00:21:22,567
I'LL BE HONEST --

351
00:21:22,567 --> 00:21:26,700
THINKING ABOUT DOING THIS
FOR A LIFETIME IS SCARY.

352
00:21:26,700 --> 00:21:28,533
THIS ONE'S YOURS.

353
00:21:28,533 --> 00:21:31,100
I KNOW KAYLEIGH IS SKEPTICAL,

354
00:21:31,100 --> 00:21:35,367
AND THAT'S BECAUSE I'VE LET HER
DOWN SO MANY TIMES BEFORE.

355
00:21:35,367 --> 00:21:38,767
IN THE PAST ON DIETS,
GIDEON HAS ALWAYS CHEATED,

356
00:21:38,767 --> 00:21:42,467
BUT I'M TRUSTING THAT HE'S
GOING TO STICK TO THE PLAN

357
00:21:42,467 --> 00:21:44,733
AND NOT SLIDE BACK.

358
00:21:44,733 --> 00:21:48,433
I'M TRYING TO SHOW HER THIS TIME
IT'S GONNA BE DIFFERENT

359
00:21:48,433 --> 00:21:52,067
BY NOT FAILING AT THIS,
BECAUSE IF I DO,

360
00:21:52,067 --> 00:21:55,333
I'LL LOSE
EVERYTHING I CARE ABOUT.

361
00:22:01,500 --> 00:22:04,533
**

362
00:22:12,433 --> 00:22:15,567
Gideon: IT'S BEEN A MONTH
SINCE I SAW THE DOCTOR,

363
00:22:15,567 --> 00:22:18,233
AND HE TOLD ME
THAT I NEEDED TO LOSE 50 POUNDS

364
00:22:18,233 --> 00:22:20,667
AND GET TO 600 POUNDS.

365
00:22:20,667 --> 00:22:22,667
MR. YEAKLEY?

366
00:22:25,167 --> 00:22:28,367
I'M MORE NERVOUS THIS TIME
THAN THE FIRST TIME,

367
00:22:28,367 --> 00:22:31,767
'CAUSE NOW I HAVE A GOAL
I NEED TO HIT.

368
00:22:31,767 --> 00:22:34,167
THIS ONE IS PASS/FAIL

369
00:22:34,167 --> 00:22:36,767
AND WILL DETERMINE
IF I GET THE SURGERY OR NOT,

370
00:22:36,767 --> 00:22:39,333
AND I HAVE TO
GET APPROVED TODAY.

371
00:22:42,933 --> 00:22:45,900
PART OF ME IS EXCITED
TO SEE PROGRESS,

372
00:22:45,900 --> 00:22:48,600
BUT AT THE SAME TIME,
I'M DISAPPOINTED

373
00:22:48,600 --> 00:22:50,600
IT WASN'T AS MUCH
AS THE DOCTOR WANTED,

374
00:22:50,600 --> 00:22:52,367
AND I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW

375
00:22:52,367 --> 00:22:55,133
THAT HE'S NOT GONNA APPROVE ME
FOR SURGERY,

376
00:22:55,133 --> 00:22:57,067
AND I WAS COUNTING
ON TELLING KAYLEIGH

377
00:22:57,067 --> 00:22:59,133
THAT I WAS APPROVED TODAY.

378
00:22:59,133 --> 00:23:01,167
HI, GIDEON.
HELLO, SIR.

379
00:23:01,167 --> 00:23:04,067
SO, YOU LOST 30 POUNDS
THIS PAST MONTH.

380
00:23:04,067 --> 00:23:08,767
YEP. THE DIET CHANGE, I THINK,
WAS THE BIGGEST EFFECT.

381
00:23:08,767 --> 00:23:10,633
I'M PROUD
OF THE PROGRESS YOU MADE,

382
00:23:10,633 --> 00:23:13,100
BUT YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE
TO LOSE 50 POUNDS

383
00:23:13,100 --> 00:23:14,767
IN THE LAST MONTH.
YES, SIR.

384
00:23:14,767 --> 00:23:17,233
Dr. Nowzaradan:
GIDEON IS A BIG, TALL MAN.

385
00:23:17,233 --> 00:23:21,767
LOSING 50 POUNDS IS THE SAME AS
ASKING OTHER PEOPLE TO LOSE 20.

386
00:23:21,767 --> 00:23:25,900
HE SHOULD HAVE HAD NO PROBLEM
TO MAKE THE PROGRESS HE NEEDED,

387
00:23:25,900 --> 00:23:29,067
SO HE'S STILL NOT DOING
ALL HE SHOULD BE.

388
00:23:29,067 --> 00:23:32,400
YOU'RE STILL NOT FULLY MOVING
IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION,

389
00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:36,067
AND I AM CONCERNED ABOUT
YOUR TEST RESULTS RIGHT NOW.

390
00:23:36,067 --> 00:23:39,100
SO I'M NOT APPROVING YOU
FOR SURGERY.

391
00:23:39,100 --> 00:23:41,900
GIDEON'S HEALTH
HAS DETERIORATED,

392
00:23:41,900 --> 00:23:44,367
AND THAT IS CONCERNING FOR ME.

393
00:23:44,367 --> 00:23:47,600
A PERSON'S BODY AT THIS WEIGHT
STARTS TO GIVE OUT.

394
00:23:47,600 --> 00:23:50,067
IT'S SOMETHING
THAT HAPPENS RAPIDLY.

395
00:23:50,067 --> 00:23:52,433
GIDEON, I'LL TELL YOU
WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO

396
00:23:52,433 --> 00:23:54,300
SINCE YOU MADE
SOME PROGRESS.

397
00:23:54,300 --> 00:23:57,067
I'M GOING TO SEND YOU
TO THE HOSPITAL FOR A WEEK.

398
00:23:57,067 --> 00:23:59,867
I WANT TO RUN SOME MORE TESTS
ON YOU TO MAKE SURE

399
00:23:59,867 --> 00:24:02,900
THERE ARE NO LIFE-THREATENING
ISSUES RIGHT NOW.

400
00:24:02,900 --> 00:24:05,433
AND IF YOU STICK WITH
THE PROGRAM DURING THAT TIME

401
00:24:05,433 --> 00:24:07,467
AND LOSE
ANOTHER 10 POUNDS,

402
00:24:07,467 --> 00:24:09,933
THEN I'LL SEE
THE EFFORT IS THERE

403
00:24:09,933 --> 00:24:12,133
AND I WILL APPROVE YOU
FOR SURGERY.

404
00:24:12,133 --> 00:24:13,433
THANK YOU, SIR.
OKAY?

405
00:24:13,433 --> 00:24:14,800
YES, SIR.

406
00:24:14,800 --> 00:24:17,133
ALL RIGHT,
I'LL SEE YOU LATER.

407
00:24:17,133 --> 00:24:23,700
Gideon: THE DOC DIDN'T SAY NO,
BUT HE DIDN'T SAY YES, EITHER,

408
00:24:23,700 --> 00:24:26,400
AND I'M WORRIED
WHAT KAYLEIGH IS GONNA SAY.

409
00:24:28,367 --> 00:24:30,700
LOOKING BACK, YOU KNOW,
I KEEP THINKING

410
00:24:30,700 --> 00:24:33,767
I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER.

411
00:24:33,767 --> 00:24:39,600
I AM SO USED TO BEING
AN UNDERACHIEVER, YOU KNOW,

412
00:24:39,600 --> 00:24:44,067
THE FAT KID THAT'S LOOKED AT
AT EVERY GROCERY STORE,

413
00:24:44,067 --> 00:24:48,300
AND I DON'T WANT TO BE
THIS FAILURE ANYMORE.

414
00:24:48,300 --> 00:24:51,967
THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE,
AND I'M TAKING IT.

415
00:24:54,067 --> 00:24:57,733
**

416
00:24:57,733 --> 00:25:01,800
IT'S BEEN INTERESTING BEING
IN THE HOSPITAL THIS PAST WEEK.

417
00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:04,600
BUT I'M STUCK WITH THE DIET
THEY'VE GIVEN ME HERE,

418
00:25:04,600 --> 00:25:08,300
AND I'VE GOTTEN UP AND DONE ALL
THE EXERCISES THEY'VE ASKED ME,

419
00:25:08,300 --> 00:25:11,533
BECAUSE I KNOW
HOW MUCH IS RIDING ON THIS.

420
00:25:11,533 --> 00:25:14,300
Kayleigh:
IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME

421
00:25:14,300 --> 00:25:17,200
THAT GIDEON GETS APPROVED
FOR THE SURGERY TODAY.

422
00:25:17,200 --> 00:25:20,467
YOU KNOW, WE'VE SACRIFICED A LOT
MOVING DOWN HERE,

423
00:25:20,467 --> 00:25:22,667
SO IF HE DOESN'T
GET THE SURGERY,

424
00:25:22,667 --> 00:25:24,533
I'M GONNA BE
REALLY DISAPPOINTED.

425
00:25:24,533 --> 00:25:26,667
HELLO.

426
00:25:26,667 --> 00:25:27,933
HELLO, DOC.
HI.

427
00:25:27,933 --> 00:25:29,333
HOW YOU DOING TONIGHT?

428
00:25:29,333 --> 00:25:31,067
I'M GOOD.
HOW ARE YOU?

429
00:25:31,067 --> 00:25:33,833
ALL RIGHT. I'VE REVIEWED
ALL THE PROGRESS YOU MADE

430
00:25:33,833 --> 00:25:37,267
OVER PAST WEEK, AND I THINK
YOU'RE READY FOR SURGERY.

431
00:25:37,267 --> 00:25:39,067
AWESOME.
AWESOME.

432
00:25:39,067 --> 00:25:40,533
OKAY?
THANK YOU, SIR.

433
00:25:40,533 --> 00:25:42,067
YEAH, THAT'S AMAZING.

434
00:25:42,067 --> 00:25:43,767
GREAT NEWS!
THANK YOU.

435
00:25:43,767 --> 00:25:45,400
YOU'RE WELCOME.

436
00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:47,100
ALL RIGHT.
THANK YOU, SIR.

437
00:25:47,100 --> 00:25:49,367
GIDEON HAD SOME MEDICAL ISSUES

438
00:25:49,367 --> 00:25:51,700
THAT WERE RESOLVED
OVER THE PAST WEEK,

439
00:25:51,700 --> 00:25:55,867
SO I USED IT AS A CHANCE TO PUT
HIM ON AN EXERCISE AND DIET PLAN

440
00:25:55,867 --> 00:26:00,267
TO SEE HOW HE STUCK WITH IT, AND
HE'S BEEN COMPLETELY COMMITTED,

441
00:26:00,267 --> 00:26:02,933
AND HE'S READY
FOR GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY.

442
00:26:02,933 --> 00:26:06,700
I THINK HE JUST NEEDED A LITTLE
MORE GUIDANCE WITH THINGS.

443
00:26:06,700 --> 00:26:08,300
HOW DO YOU FEEL
RIGHT NOW?

444
00:26:08,300 --> 00:26:09,467
[ CHUCKLES ]

445
00:26:09,467 --> 00:26:11,567
ARE YOU GONNA, LIKE,
JUMP OUT OF THE BED?

446
00:26:11,567 --> 00:26:13,533
NO, BECAUSE MY SCIATIC HURTS
'CAUSE I'M FAT.

447
00:26:13,533 --> 00:26:17,733
THIS MEANS A LOT TO ME
THAT YOU GOT ACCEPTED,

448
00:26:17,733 --> 00:26:19,733
'CAUSE YOU'RE GONNA
LIVE NOW.

449
00:26:19,733 --> 00:26:21,300
YOU'RE GETTING
YOUR WISH.

450
00:26:21,300 --> 00:26:24,367
HE DID JUST BASICALLY
TELL ME LIKE,

451
00:26:24,367 --> 00:26:25,833
"I'M GONNA EXTEND
YOUR LIFE."

452
00:26:25,833 --> 00:26:27,367
YEAH.
I LOVE YOU.

453
00:26:27,367 --> 00:26:29,367
I LOVE YOU.

454
00:26:29,367 --> 00:26:33,600
YOU WANT TO GET IN HERE,
GIVE YOUR DADDY A HUG?

455
00:26:33,600 --> 00:26:36,767
IT'S A HUGE SENSE OF RELIEF

456
00:26:36,767 --> 00:26:39,900
THAT HE GOT THE ACCEPTANCE
FOR SURGERY.

457
00:26:39,900 --> 00:26:42,967
I'M VERY EXCITED FOR US
AS A FAMILY,

458
00:26:42,967 --> 00:26:46,967
AND HE...
BETTER BE SUCCESSFUL.

459
00:26:51,433 --> 00:26:54,467
**

460
00:26:57,567 --> 00:27:00,400
Gideon: TODAY'S THE DAY
FOR MY SURGERY...

461
00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:02,733
GIVE YOUR DADDY
A HUG AND A KISS.

462
00:27:02,733 --> 00:27:05,433
...AND I'M VERY ANXIOUS.

463
00:27:05,433 --> 00:27:07,700
IS IT TOO LATE
TO BACK OUT?

464
00:27:07,700 --> 00:27:11,600
YES. THIS IS DEFINITELY
TOO LATE TO BACK OUT.

465
00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:13,500
LAST FEW NIGHTS,
I'VE BEEN HAVING DREAMS

466
00:27:13,500 --> 00:27:16,467
THAT THERE'S COMPLICATIONS
THAT ARISE DURING SURGERY,

467
00:27:16,467 --> 00:27:20,533
SO THE CLOSER I GET TO SURGERY,
THE MORE TERRIFYING

468
00:27:20,533 --> 00:27:25,500
IT'S BECOMING BECAUSE OF
WHAT'S AT STAKE.

469
00:27:25,500 --> 00:27:26,900
WHAT IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG?

470
00:27:26,900 --> 00:27:28,700
WHAT IF I DON'T MAKE IT
OUT OF IT?

471
00:27:28,700 --> 00:27:31,333
I'M SCARED I'M ABOUT TO DIE,

472
00:27:31,333 --> 00:27:34,067
AND PART OF ME WANTS
TO JUST BACK OUT RIGHT NOW.

473
00:27:36,467 --> 00:27:38,667
BUT I KNOW THAT'D BE
THE END OF MY MARRIAGE,

474
00:27:38,667 --> 00:27:42,900
AND THAT WOULD BE WORSE TO ME,
SO I'M DOING THIS.

475
00:27:45,233 --> 00:27:47,167
Dr. Nowzaradan:
TODAY, WE'RE ATTEMPTING TO DO

476
00:27:47,167 --> 00:27:49,667
GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY
ON GIDEON.

477
00:27:51,533 --> 00:27:53,633
BIGGEST CONCERN WITH GIDEON

478
00:27:53,633 --> 00:27:57,533
IS MOST OF HIS WEIGHT IS
IN MID PORTION ABDOMEN.

479
00:27:57,533 --> 00:28:01,500
SO, IT'S GONNA BE CHALLENGING
TO DO GASTRIC BYPASS ON HIM.

480
00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:11,367
GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY IS
A WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THAT WE DO

481
00:28:11,367 --> 00:28:14,233
TO REDUCE THE SIZE
OF THE STOMACH ABOUT 90%.

482
00:28:14,233 --> 00:28:19,167
WE CREATE A SMALL POUCH, AND WE
HOOK THAT TO THE SMALL BOWEL.

483
00:28:21,567 --> 00:28:25,833
AND WE REROUTE THE FOOD FROM
GOING TO PART OF THE STOMACH

484
00:28:25,833 --> 00:28:27,667
AND SMALL INTESTINE.

485
00:28:30,500 --> 00:28:32,500
WE HAVE AN ISSUE WITH ACCESS.

486
00:28:34,833 --> 00:28:37,333
WE HAVE TO TRY SOMETHING
DIFFERENT RIGHT NOW.

487
00:28:39,800 --> 00:28:42,833
Kayleigh: I'M REALLY ANXIOUS
FOR HIM TO BE DONE.

488
00:28:42,833 --> 00:28:44,567
I HOPE THAT THIS SURGERY

489
00:28:44,567 --> 00:28:46,900
JUST IMPROVES
THE QUALITY OF HIS LIFE.

490
00:28:46,900 --> 00:28:48,767
OUR RELATIONSHIP'S
GONNA GET BETTER.

491
00:28:48,767 --> 00:28:51,100
HE'S GONNA BE A BETTER FATHER
TO JONATHAN.

492
00:28:51,100 --> 00:28:52,967
IT'S GONNA BE GOOD
FOR ALL OF US.

493
00:28:52,967 --> 00:28:55,600
ALL RIGHT, THAT'S BETTER.

494
00:28:56,400 --> 00:29:00,400
WE HAD AN ISSUE FOR A MOMENT,
BEING ABLE TO MAKE INCISIONS

495
00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:02,867
TO GET INSTRUMENTS
IN THE RIGHT POSITION,

496
00:29:02,867 --> 00:29:05,067
BUT WE'VE BEEN ABLE
TO REPOSITION

497
00:29:05,067 --> 00:29:06,800
AND GET THE ACCESS WE NEED.

498
00:29:10,933 --> 00:29:13,233
GIDEON'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL.

499
00:29:13,233 --> 00:29:15,600
WE DID A BYPASS ON HIM.

500
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:17,633
TOOK A LITTLE BIT LONGER
THAN EXPECTED,

501
00:29:17,633 --> 00:29:19,833
BUT THERE WERE NO MAJOR ISSUES.

502
00:29:22,167 --> 00:29:24,733
GIDEON HAS TO
KEEP MAKING RIGHT CHOICES

503
00:29:24,733 --> 00:29:28,200
AND PUSH HIMSELF TO DO THAT,
BUT IF HE DOESN'T,

504
00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:32,533
THEN HE WILL EVENTUALLY FAIL
AND START TO GAIN AGAIN.

505
00:29:32,533 --> 00:29:34,900
IT'S ALL UP TO HIM NOW.

506
00:29:40,367 --> 00:29:43,400
**

507
00:29:48,467 --> 00:29:50,733
Boy: I'M HUNGRY.

508
00:29:50,733 --> 00:29:52,467
YOU WANT ME
TO MAKE YOU A SANDWICH?

509
00:29:52,467 --> 00:29:54,133
YEAH.
OKAY.

510
00:29:54,133 --> 00:29:56,067
DO YOU WANT TO GO WAKE
YOUR DADDY UP

511
00:29:56,067 --> 00:29:57,900
AND SEE IF HE WANTS
TO EAT SOMETHING, TOO?

512
00:29:57,900 --> 00:30:01,133
SURE.
OKAY.

513
00:30:01,133 --> 00:30:05,233
I AM REALLY WORRIED ABOUT GIDEON
RIGHT NOW.

514
00:30:05,233 --> 00:30:08,767
ONCE HE GOT THE SURGERY,
HIS GOAL WAS TO GET A JOB

515
00:30:08,767 --> 00:30:10,833
AND START HELPING MORE
AROUND THE HOUSE,

516
00:30:10,833 --> 00:30:13,000
AND HE'S NOT DOING THAT.

517
00:30:13,000 --> 00:30:14,733
HE SLEEPS
MOST OF THE DAY,

518
00:30:14,733 --> 00:30:16,800
BECAUSE HE DOESN'T GET UP
TO EAT ALL DAY.

519
00:30:18,900 --> 00:30:20,733
I CAN TRY.

520
00:30:20,733 --> 00:30:23,333
I CAN'T EAT A SANDWICH,
BUT I CAN COME FIND SOMETHING.

521
00:30:23,333 --> 00:30:26,700
I'M HOPING THIS IS
JUST PART OF THE RECOVERY.

522
00:30:26,700 --> 00:30:32,600
Gideon: SINCE SURGERY, I'VE HAD
NO PROBLEM STICKING TO THE DIET.

523
00:30:32,600 --> 00:30:35,100
BUT I'VE JUST FOUND IT HARD
TO GET UP

524
00:30:35,100 --> 00:30:36,867
AND STAY ACTIVE ALL DAY.

525
00:30:36,867 --> 00:30:38,800
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT?

526
00:30:40,633 --> 00:30:43,067
IT'S HARD,
BECAUSE WHEN I FELT ANYTHING,

527
00:30:43,067 --> 00:30:45,200
I COULD JUST GO EAT.

528
00:30:47,033 --> 00:30:50,067
NOW, I CAN'T DO THAT.

529
00:30:50,067 --> 00:30:52,167
Kayleigh:
WE DIDN'T COME ALL THIS WAY

530
00:30:52,167 --> 00:30:54,767
FOR GIDEON TO END UP
THE EXACT SAME WAY.

531
00:30:54,767 --> 00:30:57,033
IF HE DOESN'T FIGURE THIS OUT,

532
00:30:57,033 --> 00:31:00,300
I'M TAKING JONATHAN
AND MOVING BACK TO OKLAHOMA.

533
00:31:00,300 --> 00:31:02,167
Kayleigh:
YOU FEEL UP TO GOING OUT?

534
00:31:02,167 --> 00:31:04,200
I'M GONNA GO LAY DOWN.

535
00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:08,400
IT'S REALLY HARD BECAUSE I KNOW
THAT MOVING HERE

536
00:31:08,400 --> 00:31:10,833
AND HIM BEING ABLE
TO HAVE THE SURGERY

537
00:31:10,833 --> 00:31:14,067
IS SOMETHING THAT POTENTIALLY
SAVED HIS LIFE,

538
00:31:14,067 --> 00:31:18,133
BUT ON THE FLIP SIDE, KNOWING
EVERYTHING THAT WE GAVE UP,

539
00:31:18,133 --> 00:31:23,367
IT MAKES IT REALLY HARD TO SAY,
"YEAH, IT WAS WORTH IT."

540
00:31:23,367 --> 00:31:26,933
Gideon: I KNOW
KAYLEIGH IS GETTING FRUSTRATED.

541
00:31:26,933 --> 00:31:29,400
AND I'M HOPING
WHEN I GO TO MY NEXT APPOINTMENT

542
00:31:29,400 --> 00:31:32,233
WITH DR. NOWZARADAN,
HE CAN HELP ME FIGURE THIS OUT,

543
00:31:32,233 --> 00:31:35,567
BECAUSE I JUST HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW

544
00:31:35,567 --> 00:31:37,667
OR IF SOMETHING IS WRONG.

545
00:31:39,833 --> 00:31:42,067
JUST LET HIM REST
FOR A LITTLE BIT.

546
00:31:45,467 --> 00:31:49,400
**

547
00:31:49,400 --> 00:31:51,833
IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS
SINCE SURGERY,

548
00:31:51,833 --> 00:31:54,933
AND I'M SEEING
THE DOCTOR AGAIN TODAY.

549
00:31:54,933 --> 00:31:56,800
I'M MAKING GOOD PROGRESS,

550
00:31:56,800 --> 00:31:59,333
AND I'M GETTING CLOSE
TO BEING UNDER 500 POUNDS.

551
00:31:59,333 --> 00:32:00,867
OH.

552
00:32:00,867 --> 00:32:03,133
I CAN STRIP DOWN.

553
00:32:03,133 --> 00:32:05,300
BUT IT'S MY ENERGY

554
00:32:05,300 --> 00:32:07,567
I'M HOPING THE DOC CAN GIVE ME
SOME HELP WITH.

555
00:32:09,567 --> 00:32:12,600
15 POUNDS.

556
00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:14,533
I HOPE HE HAS A FIX
OR SOMETHING.

557
00:32:14,533 --> 00:32:16,733
[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
HELLO.

558
00:32:16,733 --> 00:32:18,767
HOW ARE YOU, SIR?
I'M DOING OKAY.

559
00:32:18,767 --> 00:32:21,267
HOW ABOUT YOURSELF?
OKAY.

560
00:32:21,267 --> 00:32:23,933
SO, YOU LOST SOME WEIGHT.
CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE?

561
00:32:23,933 --> 00:32:26,767
MY LEGS ARE THANKING ME
ALREADY, YEAH.

562
00:32:26,767 --> 00:32:28,667
SO, YOU'RE
WALKING MORE NOW?

563
00:32:28,667 --> 00:32:32,067
I FEEL LIKE -- I MEAN, I WANT
TO BE DOING MORE ACTIVITY,

564
00:32:32,067 --> 00:32:34,767
BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE ENERGY
TO REALLY DO A WHOLE LOT.

565
00:32:34,767 --> 00:32:39,067
THIS CAN BE A NORMAL REACTION
TO LOSS OF COPING MECHANISM.

566
00:32:39,067 --> 00:32:42,567
IT'S A PERIOD OF ADJUSTMENT
THAT MAY LAST A FEW MONTHS.

567
00:32:42,567 --> 00:32:47,633
IT'S NOT UNUSUAL FOR SOMEONE WHO
USED FOOD TO COPE FOR SO LONG

568
00:32:47,633 --> 00:32:50,600
TO EXPERIENCE
WHAT GIDEON'S DESCRIBING.

569
00:32:50,600 --> 00:32:53,367
HE'S SHUTTING DOWN
WHEN HE FEELS ANYTHING

570
00:32:53,367 --> 00:32:57,400
BECAUSE HE'S TRYING TO ADJUST
TO HOW THINGS WORK NOW.

571
00:32:57,400 --> 00:33:00,733
IF YOU FIND YOURSELF FATIGUED
AND YOU STILL FEEL

572
00:33:00,733 --> 00:33:03,433
YOU HAVE NO ENERGY
OVER THE NEXT FEW MONTHS,

573
00:33:03,433 --> 00:33:07,333
WE SHOULD GET YOU A THERAPIST
SO YOU CAN KEEP MAKING PROGRESS.

574
00:33:07,333 --> 00:33:11,433
GIDEON NEEDS TO START LEARNING
HOW TO DEAL WITH HIS EMOTION

575
00:33:11,433 --> 00:33:13,300
AND THE STRESS IN A HEALTHY WAY.

576
00:33:13,300 --> 00:33:15,933
KEEP WORKING ON IT.
I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH, OKAY?

577
00:33:15,933 --> 00:33:17,967
ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU, SIR.
YOU'RE WELCOME.

578
00:33:17,967 --> 00:33:22,533
IF HE DOESN'T, AND GIDEON GOES
BACK TO HIS OLD EATING HABITS,

579
00:33:22,533 --> 00:33:25,133
THE SURGERY WILL BE INEFFECTIVE.

580
00:33:27,267 --> 00:33:32,067
Gideon:
IT'S A RELIEF TO FIND OUT MY LOW
ENERGY IS SOMEWHAT NORMAL,

581
00:33:32,067 --> 00:33:35,400
BUT I DON'T LIKE
THE REASON BEHIND IT

582
00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:37,567
AND THAT I'M GOING TO HAVE TO
DEAL WITH SOMETHING,

583
00:33:37,567 --> 00:33:41,800
'CAUSE I NEVER REALLY
PLANNED ON DEALING WITH IT.

584
00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:46,233
I'D RATHER SOME THINGS
JUST STAY BURIED.

585
00:33:46,233 --> 00:33:49,367
**

586
00:33:49,367 --> 00:33:52,200
HONEY, DO YOU WANT THE BLENDER
IN STORAGE?

587
00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:53,867
Kayleigh:
YEAH, THAT'S FINE.

588
00:33:53,867 --> 00:33:56,167
IT'S BEEN A TOUGH MONTH.

589
00:33:56,167 --> 00:33:58,700
I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE
TO FIND A JOB,

590
00:33:58,700 --> 00:34:02,700
SO KAYLEIGH DECIDED TO MOVE BACK
TO OKLAHOMA WITH HER PARENTS.

591
00:34:02,700 --> 00:34:05,067
THE NICE THING
ABOUT JUST MOVING IN HERE

592
00:34:05,067 --> 00:34:07,933
IS A LOT OF STUFF
IS STILL IN BOXES.

593
00:34:07,933 --> 00:34:12,067
I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD STAY CLOSE
TO THE DOCTOR FOR LONGER,

594
00:34:12,067 --> 00:34:14,067
BUT I KNOW
IF I DON'T GO WITH HER,

595
00:34:14,067 --> 00:34:17,200
THEN OUR RELATIONSHIP
IS GOING TO SUFFER.

596
00:34:17,200 --> 00:34:22,800
Kayleigh: I LOVE GIDEON,
BUT HE HAD HIS CHANCE TO CHANGE,

597
00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:25,333
AND RIGHT NOW,
HE'S NOT USING IT.

598
00:34:25,333 --> 00:34:29,533
AND THAT'S WHY IT'S REALLY HARD
NOT TO RESENT HIM RIGHT NOW.

599
00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:35,100
I'M JUST NOT SURE
WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO.

600
00:34:39,300 --> 00:34:42,333
**

601
00:34:49,967 --> 00:34:52,067
Gideon:
WE'VE BEEN BACK IN OKLAHOMA

602
00:34:52,067 --> 00:34:54,867
LIVING WITH KAYLEIGH'S PARENTS
FOR A COUPLE MONTHS,

603
00:34:54,867 --> 00:34:59,800
AND I STILL FEEL TIRED
AND JUST DRAINED ALL THE TIME.

604
00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:02,567
I FEEL LIKE
I NEED TO DO SOMETHING

605
00:35:02,567 --> 00:35:06,267
TO REPAY MY IN-LAWS, THOUGH.

606
00:35:06,267 --> 00:35:10,733
SO, I GOT A LIST OF CHORES OF
THINGS TO DO AROUND THE HOUSE.

607
00:35:10,733 --> 00:35:12,867
HOW DO I TURN IT ON?

608
00:35:12,867 --> 00:35:15,333
WE HAVE WATER.

609
00:35:15,333 --> 00:35:18,200
I'M LIKE A KID RIGHT NOW
THAT HAS TO HAVE HIS HAND HELD

610
00:35:18,200 --> 00:35:21,833
TO DO THINGS,
AND THAT'S NOT RIGHT.

611
00:35:21,833 --> 00:35:28,200
I KNOW I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT
QUICKLY -- LIKE, YESTERDAY.

612
00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:31,700
SO, I'M TAKING DR. NOW'S ADVICE
AND GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST.

613
00:35:33,667 --> 00:35:35,400
I JUST WANT
TO GET OUT OF THIS FUNK,

614
00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:36,733
'CAUSE I JUST FEEL LIKE

615
00:35:36,733 --> 00:35:39,100
I'M GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS
WITH THINGS.

616
00:35:39,100 --> 00:35:40,900
AWESOME.

617
00:35:40,900 --> 00:35:43,400
AND WHAT'S REALLY SCARING ME

618
00:35:43,400 --> 00:35:47,800
ARE THE CRAVINGS AND THE DESIRE
TO STRESS EAT ARE COMING BACK.

619
00:35:47,800 --> 00:35:50,733
I DON'T WANT
TO END UP LIKE I WAS,

620
00:35:50,733 --> 00:35:53,833
SO I'M REALLY HOPING
THIS THERAPIST IS ABLE TO HELP.

621
00:35:55,867 --> 00:35:59,367
**

622
00:35:59,367 --> 00:36:02,300
TODAY KAYLEIGH AND I ARE
GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST.

623
00:36:04,367 --> 00:36:06,067
IF HE'S NOT ABLE TO HELP US,

624
00:36:06,067 --> 00:36:09,200
I LITERALLY DON'T KNOW
WHERE ELSE TO GO,

625
00:36:09,200 --> 00:36:11,667
BUT I'M STEPPING OUT
OF MY COMFORT ZONE

626
00:36:11,667 --> 00:36:13,933
TO TRY AND SAVE MY MARRIAGE.

627
00:36:13,933 --> 00:36:15,967
HI, GIDEON.

628
00:36:15,967 --> 00:36:17,500
KAYLEIGH.
NICE TO MEET YOU.

629
00:36:17,500 --> 00:36:18,767
COME ON BACK.

630
00:36:18,767 --> 00:36:21,067
SO, TELL ME WHY
YOU'RE HERE TODAY.

631
00:36:21,067 --> 00:36:25,767
I FEEL LIKE I HAVE
A LOT OF ANXIETY AND ANGER,

632
00:36:25,767 --> 00:36:28,133
DEPRESSION FROM LIFE
IN GENERAL.

633
00:36:28,133 --> 00:36:31,200
SO, IF OUR SESSION TODAY
GOES AMAZINGLY WELL,

634
00:36:31,200 --> 00:36:32,467
WHAT WILL BE
THE END RESULT?

635
00:36:32,467 --> 00:36:35,167
FIGURING OUT
WHY I TURN TO FOOD,

636
00:36:35,167 --> 00:36:39,067
BECAUSE I'VE LIVED MY WHOLE LIFE
BEING, YOU KNOW, "THE FAT GUY."

637
00:36:39,067 --> 00:36:42,067
YOU KNOW, I'VE HAD WHAT I WOULD
CONSIDER TO BE A VERY HECTIC,

638
00:36:42,067 --> 00:36:46,900
YOU KNOW, CHILDHOOD, ADOLESCENT,
YOU KNOW, 20s, ALL THE WAY UP

639
00:36:46,900 --> 00:36:49,233
TILL, YOU KNOW,
BOTH OF MY PARENTS DIE AT 50,

640
00:36:49,233 --> 00:36:50,533
YOU KNOW,
JUST A FEW YEARS APART.

641
00:36:50,533 --> 00:36:51,967
FROM OBESITY OR...?

642
00:36:51,967 --> 00:36:54,067
NO, MY MOM DIED
FROM A PAIN MEDICATION

643
00:36:54,067 --> 00:36:56,167
THAT EXPLODED HER HEART,
BASICALLY.

644
00:36:56,167 --> 00:36:58,700
AND THEN MY DAD HAD
A LONG HISTORY OF DRUG ABUSE.

645
00:36:58,700 --> 00:37:02,200
AND, I MEAN, I FIGHT BACK TEARS
OVER MY DAD'S DEATH

646
00:37:02,200 --> 00:37:05,667
DAILY ALMOST BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE
I COULD HAVE PREVENTED IT.

647
00:37:05,667 --> 00:37:08,067
BUT YOU DO FEEL RESPONSIBLE
FOR YOUR FATHER'S DEATH.

648
00:37:08,067 --> 00:37:10,733
YEAH.

649
00:37:10,733 --> 00:37:12,867
ALL RIGHT,
TAKE YOUR TIME, GIDEON.

650
00:37:12,867 --> 00:37:16,100
MM.

651
00:37:16,100 --> 00:37:18,733
Kayleigh:
I'M HEARING GIDEON SHARE THINGS

652
00:37:18,733 --> 00:37:22,067
THAT I HAD NO IDEA
HE WAS DEALING WITH.

653
00:37:22,067 --> 00:37:25,967
ALL THIS PAIN AND GUILT
THAT HE'S BEEN SHOULDERING

654
00:37:25,967 --> 00:37:29,600
FOR YEARS --
IT JUST BROKE MY HEART.

655
00:37:29,600 --> 00:37:31,767
[ Crying ] I LOVE YOU.

656
00:37:31,767 --> 00:37:34,367
I WANT US TO WORK THROUGH
ALL THIS CRAP

657
00:37:34,367 --> 00:37:35,967
THAT WE'VE BEEN
GOING THROUGH.

658
00:37:35,967 --> 00:37:38,900
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I'VE EVER
LOVED ANYBODY OR ANYTHING.

659
00:37:38,900 --> 00:37:42,600
I KNOW A LOT OF OUR ISSUES
IN MARRIAGE

660
00:37:42,600 --> 00:37:44,567
AND IN OUR RELATIONSHIP

661
00:37:44,567 --> 00:37:47,500
STEMMED FROM YOU BEING AFRAID
OF LOSING ME

662
00:37:47,500 --> 00:37:48,867
BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT

663
00:37:48,867 --> 00:37:53,533
AFTER YOU FOUND MY DAD
IN BED...DECEASED.

664
00:37:56,067 --> 00:37:57,600
IF YOU DON'T WANT
TO BE YOUR DAD,

665
00:37:57,600 --> 00:37:59,200
YOU'VE GOT TO RESOLVE
HIS DEATH.

666
00:37:59,200 --> 00:38:01,367
YOU'VE GOT TO
WALK THROUGH IT.

667
00:38:03,833 --> 00:38:07,700
Gideon: I NEVER REALIZED
HOW MUCH PAIN CONTROLLED MY LIFE

668
00:38:07,700 --> 00:38:10,867
AND HOW IT'S
NOT ONLY HURTING ME,

669
00:38:10,867 --> 00:38:14,100
BUT EVERYONE I LOVE AROUND ME.

670
00:38:14,100 --> 00:38:17,900
JUST LIKE I'M LOSING THE WEIGHT,
I KNOW I HAVE TO WORK

671
00:38:17,900 --> 00:38:22,800
TO LOSE THIS PAIN AND GUILT
IF I WANT TO CHANGE.

672
00:38:22,800 --> 00:38:25,833
**

673
00:38:29,767 --> 00:38:32,467
IF YOU WERE LOOKING
AT THE WHOLE -- THERE YOU GO.

674
00:38:32,467 --> 00:38:34,867
SINCE SEEING THE THERAPIST,

675
00:38:34,867 --> 00:38:37,467
I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN ABLE
TO MAKE SOME PROGRESS.

676
00:38:39,067 --> 00:38:41,333
IT'S NOT LIKE
RIGHT AFTER I CAME HOME,

677
00:38:41,333 --> 00:38:43,667
I HAD ALL THIS ENERGY,

678
00:38:43,667 --> 00:38:46,933
BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M ABLE TO GET
UP AND SPEND TIME WITH JONATHAN

679
00:38:46,933 --> 00:38:48,900
AND HELP AROUND THE HOUSE.

680
00:38:51,067 --> 00:38:54,067
JUST KNOWING THAT I'VE HAD
ALL THIS EMOTION AND PAIN

681
00:38:54,067 --> 00:38:56,700
THAT I'VE NEVER DEALT WITH
HAS HELPED ME.

682
00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:02,600
AND I'M SETTING UP A GOAL
OF GETTING A JOB

683
00:39:02,600 --> 00:39:04,267
IN THE NEXT MONTH AND A HALF.

684
00:39:04,267 --> 00:39:05,867
BABE!
Kayleigh: YEAH?

685
00:39:05,867 --> 00:39:09,067
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
A JUVENILE-DETENTION OFFICER?

686
00:39:09,067 --> 00:39:10,700
DO YOU THINK THAT
THAT'S SOMETHING

687
00:39:10,700 --> 00:39:12,133
THAT YOU'LL FEEL
COMFORTABLE DOING?

688
00:39:12,133 --> 00:39:14,600
I FEEL LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING
THAT I COULD DEFINITELY

689
00:39:14,600 --> 00:39:17,467
MAKE A CAREER OUT OF
INSTEAD OF JUST A JOB.

690
00:39:17,467 --> 00:39:19,600
HOPEFULLY,
I'LL GET BACK TO WORK

691
00:39:19,600 --> 00:39:21,367
AND START
TAKING CARE OF MY FAMILY

692
00:39:21,367 --> 00:39:24,200
SO WE CAN GET
A PLACE OF OUR OWN.

693
00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:27,267
I JUST KNOW THAT THAT'S GONNA
BE HUGE FOR OUR MARRIAGE.

694
00:39:31,600 --> 00:39:34,633
**

695
00:39:39,933 --> 00:39:41,767
Gideon:
YOU READY FOR SCHOOL?

696
00:39:41,767 --> 00:39:43,533
YEAH.

697
00:39:43,533 --> 00:39:47,133
Gideon:
THINGS HAVE REALLY GOTTEN
A LOT BETTER THIS PAST MONTH.

698
00:39:47,133 --> 00:39:50,533
I GOT THE JOB THAT I WANTED
AS A JUVENILE-DETENTION OFFICER,

699
00:39:50,533 --> 00:39:53,900
AND I'M BACK WORKING AGAIN
AND PROVIDING FOR MY FAMILY.

700
00:39:53,900 --> 00:39:56,467
IT'S THE BEST FEELING.

701
00:39:56,467 --> 00:39:58,533
I WAKE UP EACH MORNING,

702
00:39:58,533 --> 00:40:00,833
AND INSTEAD OF GETTING DRESSED
AND STARTING TO EAT...

703
00:40:00,833 --> 00:40:02,700
LOVE YOU, BUDDY.
LOVE YOU.

704
00:40:02,700 --> 00:40:05,767
...I TAKE JONATHAN TO SCHOOL,
AND THEN I HEAD TO WORK.

705
00:40:05,767 --> 00:40:08,667
I FEEL LIKE
I'M THE FATHER I SHOULD BE NOW,

706
00:40:08,667 --> 00:40:11,733
AND I'M GETTING BETTER AT IT
EACH DAY.

707
00:40:11,733 --> 00:40:15,300
I'M MAKING A LOT OF PROGRESS
WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS.

708
00:40:15,300 --> 00:40:16,633
THANK YOU, SIR.

709
00:40:16,633 --> 00:40:20,733
I STAYED ON TRACK AND FINALLY
MADE IT BELOW 500 POUNDS.

710
00:40:20,733 --> 00:40:22,867
THAT'S SUCH
A GREAT FEELING.

711
00:40:22,867 --> 00:40:24,400
THANK YOU, SIR.

712
00:40:24,400 --> 00:40:27,200
I'M PRETTY EXCITED TO GO OUT
AND NOT FEEL EMBARRASSED

713
00:40:27,200 --> 00:40:30,467
OR, LIKE, UNDESERVING
TO BE WITH KAYLEIGH.

714
00:40:30,467 --> 00:40:33,433
I'M LOVING THE CHANGES
THAT I'M SEEING IN GIDEON.

715
00:40:33,433 --> 00:40:37,633
THINGS ARE MOVING IN THE RIGHT
DIRECTION, AND I'M REALLY HAPPY.

716
00:40:37,633 --> 00:40:42,000
I FEEL LIKE THE RESENTMENT THAT
KAYLEIGH HAD FOR ME IS GONE,

717
00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:45,133
AND NOW WE'RE CLOSER THAN EVER.

718
00:40:45,133 --> 00:40:47,567
I DON'T KNOW THAT I WOULD HAVE
MADE IT THIS WHOLE YEAR

719
00:40:47,567 --> 00:40:49,133
THROUGH EVERYTHING
WITHOUT YOU,

720
00:40:49,133 --> 00:40:52,433
SO I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU
BEING PATIENT AND SUPPORTING ME,

721
00:40:52,433 --> 00:40:53,967
AND THAT'S THE TRUTH.

722
00:40:53,967 --> 00:40:55,967
YOU'RE WELCOME.

723
00:40:55,967 --> 00:40:57,400
IT WAS WORTH IT.

724
00:41:02,633 --> 00:41:05,267
THIS LAST MONTH,
I'VE BEEN TO THE GYM A LOT,

725
00:41:05,267 --> 00:41:07,267
AND I'VE PUT IN THE WORK.

726
00:41:10,233 --> 00:41:11,367
YES.

727
00:41:11,367 --> 00:41:13,867
WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU.
YOU'RE DOING VERY WELL.

728
00:41:13,867 --> 00:41:16,067
I WAS CONCERNED WHEN GIDEON

729
00:41:16,067 --> 00:41:18,300
MOVED BACK TO OKLAHOMA
SO QUICKLY,

730
00:41:18,300 --> 00:41:20,733
BUT HE'S COPING WITH LIFE
IN HEALTHY WAYS

731
00:41:20,733 --> 00:41:23,067
THAT ARE KEEPING HIM
ON THE RIGHT TRACK.

732
00:41:23,067 --> 00:41:24,500
Gideon:
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

733
00:41:26,867 --> 00:41:29,267
WE MADE IT.
WE MADE IT.

734
00:41:29,267 --> 00:41:32,233
Kayleigh: GIDEON HAS
HONESTLY BLOWN MY MIND.

735
00:41:32,233 --> 00:41:35,500
HE HAS SURPASSED
ALL OF MY EXPECTATIONS,

736
00:41:35,500 --> 00:41:37,600
AND I HONESTLY COULD NOT
BE PROUDER.

737
00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:41,200
Gideon:
I CAN'T BELIEVE MY LIFE NOW.

738
00:41:41,200 --> 00:41:44,733
I'M NO LONGER A BURDEN
TO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME,

739
00:41:44,733 --> 00:41:47,533
AND IT'S BEEN AWESOME
JUST ENJOYING BEING A FAMILY.

740
00:41:47,533 --> 00:41:50,067
**

741
00:41:50,067 --> 00:41:52,800
IT'S LIKE A DREAM.

742
00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:55,367
AND MY LIFE IS
SO MUCH BETTER NOW.

743
00:41:57,400 --> 00:42:00,500
I LIKE SPENDING TIME
WITH MY DAD.

744
00:42:00,500 --> 00:42:03,900
HE'S MORE ACTIVE, AND HE CAN
PLAY WITH ME A LOT MORE.

745
00:42:03,900 --> 00:42:06,333
All: OHH!

746
00:42:06,333 --> 00:42:08,200
[ IMITATES GUNSHOTS ]

747
00:42:08,200 --> 00:42:10,400
LET'S GO LASER.

748
00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:13,400
Gideon: I'M NOT THE FAT GUY
THAT I USED TO BE.

749
00:42:13,400 --> 00:42:15,167
I'M CHANGING,
MY BODY'S CHANGING,

750
00:42:15,167 --> 00:42:17,867
MY MIND IS CHANGING,
MY CONFIDENCE IS CHANGING.

751
00:42:17,867 --> 00:42:21,500
AND THIS IS NOT THE END
OF MY JOURNEY.

752
00:42:21,500 --> 00:42:22,533
THAT WAS
A GOOD WORKOUT.

753
00:42:22,533 --> 00:42:24,467
OH, THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN!
I WAS THIRD.

754
00:42:24,467 --> 00:42:25,833
WE KILLED MOM.

755
00:42:25,833 --> 00:42:27,433
MY GOAL WEIGHT IS 220,

756
00:42:27,433 --> 00:42:30,767
AND I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING
I CAN TO GET DOWN TO THAT

757
00:42:30,767 --> 00:42:32,400
BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M CAPABLE
OF DOING ANYTHING NOW.

757
00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545
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