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Marla:
I CAN'T EVEN BATHE MYSELF.

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MY KIDS HAVE TO DO THAT FOR ME.

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Charity:
I FEEL LIKE SOME MONSTER.

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Olivia: I'VE BEEN HIDING FROM
THE WORLD, JUST WAITING TO DIE.

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Pauline: I AM ABSOLUTELY TRAPPED
IN THIS BODY,

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AND I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING
EVERY DAY.

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Susan:
I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW.

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THIS IS MY LAST HOPE
TO BECOME NORMAL.

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Madison: I NEED MY MOM.
I NEED HER TO BE HERE FOR ME.

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Man: 10 SECONDS NOW.
HOLD IT, HOLD IT, HOLD IT.

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-[ BREATHES DEEPLY ]
-GOOD JOB.

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Christina: I HAD TO MAKE
A CHOICE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

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Joe:
I REFUSE TO LET THEM BURY ME.

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Susan:
I AM NOW EXPRESSING MYSELF

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AND LIVING MY OWN TRUTH.

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Olivia: I LOST THE WEIGHT,
BUT I GAINED MY FAMILY.

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Zsalynn: LIFE IS AMAZING NOW.
I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF.

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* DUN, DA-DA, DAAAA *

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-ALL THIS WILL BE GONE.
-WOW.

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Zsalynn: I'M NOT LIVING A LIFE,
I'M JUST EXISTING.

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AND I HAVE A DAUGHTER NOW,
AND IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING,

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SHE MAY NOT HAVE A MOM.

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SOMETHING IN MY LIFE
HAS TO CHANGE.

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WITHOUT THIS SURGERY, I'M GONNA
DIE SOONER RATHER THAN LATER.

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GARETH RECENTLY TOLD ME HE WANTS
TO GAIN SOME WEIGHT BACK.

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HE WANTS A FAT WIFE.

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YOU KNOW, HE TALKS ABOUT
THAT I'LL BE REPULSIVE TO HIM.

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[ Crying ] I JUST WANT TO FEEL
LIKE SOMEBODY LOVES ME.

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THAT'S SO STUPID.

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I'M GONNA HAVE TO PICK MY HEALTH
OVER MY MARRIAGE.

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I'VE MADE SUCH GREAT PROGRESS.

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MY LIFE IS AMAZING NOW.

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HANNAH, HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ME
FIT IN A SWING BEFORE?

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NOPE.

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FOR HANNAH, I FEEL LIKE WE ARE
ON THE RIGHT PATH.

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AND I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE
HOW FAR I'VE COME.

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THIS IS GONNA BE A POSITIVE
THING TO HAVE IT REMOVED.

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OVER THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS,
IT'S BEEN JUST HANNAH AND I,

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AND I DON'T FEEL SKIN SURGERY

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IS THE RIGHT OPTION
FOR ME RIGHT NOW.

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HANNAH IS MY BIGGEST PRIORITY.

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IN TWO YEARS,
MY LIFE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED.

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AND THERE'S SO MUCH THAT I CAN
DO NOW, THAT I'M THANKFUL FOR.

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BUT I KNOW
I'VE GAINED SOME WEIGHT,

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AND THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED,
I WAS AROUND 315 POUNDS,

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AND THE DOCTOR WANTED ME TO GET
UNDER 300 FOR MY NEXT GOAL.

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IT'S ALMOST HALF MY BODY WEIGHT
LOST FROM 597 POUNDS.

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AND I'VE BEEN WORKING
TO MAKE THAT PROGRESS.

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BUT I DON'T LIKE TO MEASURE
MYSELF BY MY WEIGHT ANYMORE.

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HOW I USED TO MEASURE LIFE

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WAS WITH ALL THE THINGS
THAT I CAN'T DO.

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I CAN'T WALK, I CAN'T STAND,
I CAN'T CARRY MY LAUNDRY BASKET.

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NOW I MEASURE LIFE
BY ALL THE THINGS I CAN DO.

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MY LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER NOW,

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AND PART OF THAT IS BECAUSE

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GARETH AND I ARE FINALLY,
OFFICIALLY DIVORCED.

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HE DIDN'T WANT ME
TO LOSE THE WEIGHT,

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AND I DIDN'T DESERVE TO FEEL BAD
ABOUT CHOOSING MY HEALTH.

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SO, NOW GARETH AND I ARE SHARING
JOINT CUSTODY OF HANNAH.

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BEING ALONE A LOT HAS BEEN
A BIT OF AN ADJUSTMENT FOR ME.

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SO, I'VE STRUGGLED
WITH BEING DEPRESSED

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WHEN I DON'T SEE HANNAH
FOR A WHILE.

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AND BEING ALONE HAS MADE IT
EVEN HARDER FOR ME

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TO DEAL WITH MY CRAVINGS.

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**

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FOOD WAS MY COPING MECHANISM,

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AND NOW, WHEN I FEEL MYSELF
GETTING DEPRESSED,

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I REALLY, REALLY,
REALLY WANT TO EAT.

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I WANT TO EAT THINGS
THAT ARE BAD FOR ME.

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I WANT TO EAT THOSE SWEETS

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THAT REALLY MADE ME FEEL
WONDERFUL BEFORE.

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I JUST WANT TO MAKE LOVE TO THEM
WITH MY MOUTH!

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EXACTLY, IT'S LIKE A SEXUAL
THING FOR ME, OBVIOUSLY.

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MMM!

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I KNOW I'VE COME A LONG WAY,

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BUT I WANT TO MAKE
MORE PROGRESS

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AND TO START DOING THINGS LIKE
DATING AND GETTING MORE ACTIVE.

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SO I FINALLY DECIDED
I WANT TO GET SKIN SURGERY.

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I KNOW I SHOULD BE LOVING LIFE

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AND LOVING EVERYTHING
THAT I'VE DONE TO CHANGE MYSELF.

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Woman:
YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY.

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THANKS, YOU DO THE SAME.
THANK YOU.

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BUT I'M STILL INSECURE.

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I STILL DON'T FEEL CONFIDENT.

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SO, IT WAS A HARD DECISION,

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BECAUSE I WASN'T REALLY SURE
IF I WANTED TO GO THROUGH

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SOMETHING LIKE THAT,
BUT I'M READY NOW.

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BUT I'M NOT SURE
IF I WANT DR. NOWZARADAN

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TO DO THE SURGERY.

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BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO
TALK ABOUT A NUMBER

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OR MY WEIGHT ANY LONGER.

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I AM MORE THAN A NUMBER,
AND I WILL NOT BE FORCED

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TO FOCUS ON THAT
IF I DON'T WANT TO.

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Olivia: MY WEIGHT IS KILLING ME.

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I'VE BEEN HIDING FROM THE WORLD,
JUST WAITING TO DIE.

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SHE'S IN THE BASEMENT BECAUSE
EVERYTHING'S ON ONE FLOOR.

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Olivia: IT'S TIME FOR ME
TO DO SOMETHING.

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Olga:
I JUST WANT HER TO GET BETTER.

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I CAN'T.

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[ Voice breaking ]
I CAN'T CLIMB THE STAIRS.

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YEAH, YOU CAN, OLIVIA.

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I DON'T WANT TO DIE.

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I WANT TO DO SOMETHING
WITH MY LIFE.

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I JUST WANT THIS SURGERY
TO GET MY LIFE BACK.

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WHEN CAN I HAVE THIS REMOVED?
YOU SEE HOW HEAVY IT IS.

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I'M PUSHING MYSELF HARDER
THAN I'VE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE.

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WE'RE TAKING ALL THIS BIG MASS
OFF OF HER.

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BEFORE, I'D BE LIKE,
"GET MY WALKER. GET MY CHAIR."

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I'M NOT DEPENDING
ON THEM ANYMORE.

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FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE,
I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF,

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SO I MOVED INTO MY OWN PLACE.

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I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD
EXPERIENCE LIFE LIKE THIS.

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I'M DOING
MORE THAN I EVER IMAGINED,

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BUT THERE'S STILL SO MANY
NEW ADVENTURES AHEAD OF ME.

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**

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GO DOWNSTAIRS.
COME ON.

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IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS
SINCE MY GASTRIC BYPASS,

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AND I'M STILL EXCITED
ABOUT ALL THE WAYS

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MY LIFE IS CHANGING
FOR THE BETTER.

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I CAN DO THINGS FOR MYSELF NOW,

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AND I DON'T NEED ANYBODY
TO TAKE CARE OF ME.

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AT MY HIGHEST,
I WAS ALMOST 600 POUNDS.

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I DIDN'T HAVE A LIFE.

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AND I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK
TO WHERE I WAS.

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NOW I'M ABOUT 200 POUNDS,
SO I'VE LOST

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MORE THAN HALF MY BODY WEIGHT,
AND IT FEELS AMAZING.

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AND I'M TRYING TO GET UNDER 180
TO GET MY LAST SKIN SURGERY.

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BUT BEFORE THAT, I HAVE TO GET
MAJOR KNEE SURGERY.

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LAST YEAR,
I WAS FINALLY ABOUT TO START

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LIVING ON MY OWN
FOR THE FIRST TIME.

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BUT SINCE I HAVE TO HAVE
A FEW MORE SURGERIES,

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I TEMPORARILY MOVED BACK IN
WITH MY BROTHER

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SO I CAN HAVE SOME HELP
WHILE I RECOVER.

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AND I CAN'T WAIT BECAUSE THERE'S
SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO.

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SO, I STARTED TRAINING
TO BE A CHEF

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BECAUSE THAT'S MY DREAM JOB.

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BUT I CAN'T STAND LONG ENOUGH
TO COOK LIKE I NEED TO.

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SO, I'M HOPING
TO GET MY KNEE SURGERY

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AND THEN START DOING
EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN

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WAITING AND DREAMING TO DO.

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BUT I GAINED A LITTLE WEIGHT,

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AND I'M BACK AT 200 POUNDS
RIGHT NOW.

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FOOD WILL ALWAYS BE
A TEMPTATION.

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FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE,
IT WILL ALWAYS BE THERE.

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BUT I FEEL LIKE
I'M AT A GOOD PLACE RIGHT NOW

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WITH THE BALANCE OF FOOD
AND MY HEALTH.

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NO. CAN'T HAVE NONE, HARLEY.
COME ON.

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SO, I'M REALLY EXCITED
ABOUT WHAT'S AHEAD THIS YEAR.

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I HAVE A LOT OF GOALS
I KNOW I'M GONNA HIT.

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**

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Zsalynn:
I'M HEADED TO MY APPOINTMENT
WITH DR. NOWZARADAN RIGHT NOW.

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IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF MONTHS
SINCE I'VE SEEN HIM,

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AND HE APPROVED FOR SKIN REMOVAL
SURGERY A WHILE AGO.

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AND I WANT TO TELL HIM
THAT I'M READY FOR IT,

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BUT THAT I'M GOING WITH
A DIFFERENT DOCTOR

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TO DO THE OPERATION ON ME.

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I FEEL LIKE HE ONLY SEES
A NUMBER WHEN HE LOOKS AT ME,

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AND THAT'S JUST NOT GONNA WORK
FOR ME ANYMORE.

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EVERY TIME I GET ON THE SCALE,
I DON'T LOOK AT THAT NUMBER

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BECAUSE THAT NUMBER IS NOT
RELEVANT TO ME.

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Woman: OKAY.

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I WANT TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS,
AND I KNOW THAT I WILL,

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BUT I DON'T WANT TO SEE MY
WEIGHT OR USE A NUMBER ANYMORE.

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[ KNOCK ON DOOR ]
HI, DR. NOW.

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HEY. HOW ARE YOU?
I'M GREAT, THANK YOU.

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THIS IS THE TWO YEARS
AFTER YOUR SURGERY, HUH?

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THAT'S RIGHT. I'VE DECIDED TO
GO AHEAD AND HAVE SKIN SURGERY,

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BUT I WANT TO GO TO A DIFFERENT
DOCTOR TO HAVE THE OPERATION.

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WELL, I'M GLAD
TO FINALLY AGREE TO THAT

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BECAUSE THE LAST TIME
WE TALKED TO YOU ABOUT IT,

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YOU WERE NOT READY
FOR IT.

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SO, IF YOU'RE MORE COMFORTABLE
WITH ANOTHER DOCTOR,

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THAT'S FINE.
I WANT YOU TO BE COMFORTABLE.

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GREAT. THANK YOU.

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SO, NOW YOU'RE DOWN TO...
UNDER 300, HUH?

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299, YES.

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I SEE SOME TEARS
COMING DOWN YOUR EYES BECAUSE

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YOU FIND OUT SOMETHING
YOU DIDN'T WANT TO FIND OUT?

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WELL, I DON'T CARE
WHAT THAT NUMBER IS,

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AND IT JUST MAKES ME MAD

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THAT MY WHOLE LIFE
IS JUDGED BY A NUMBER.

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I DON'T CARE.
[ SIGHS ]

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I DON'T CARE
WHAT THAT NUMBER IS.

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ZSALYNN, YOU'RE RIGHT.
THAT NUMBER DOESN'T DEFINE YOU.

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IT'S WHAT YOUR WEIGHT IS,
THAT'S IT.

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BUT WITHOUT
A MEASURE OF IT,

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YOU WON'T REALLY KNOW
IF YOU'RE MAKING ANY PROGRESS.

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DR. NOW, YOU SEE US
WHEN WE WALK IN HERE.

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THAT NUMBER
ON THE SCALE --

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THAT NUMBER DOESN'T REFLECT
WHO I AM.

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I SEE YOUR POINT, BUT
THERE'S ANOTHER POINT, OKAY?

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WEIGHT IS LIKE
A BANK ACCOUNT.

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YOU DON'T GUESS HOW MUCH
YOU'VE GOT IN THE BANK.

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YOU JUST CHECK
YOUR BALANCE, RIGHT?

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THE SCALE IS
THE SAME THING.

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YOU SET A GOAL
FOR YOURSELF

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AND YOU WORK
ON EATING HABIT EVERY DAY

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AND YOU MEASURE
WITH THE SCALE.

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ZSALYNN HAS SPENT SO MANY YEARS

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ASSOCIATING HER WEIGHT
WITH BEAUTY AND SO FORTH

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SHE'S HAVING TROUBLE
SEPARATING THOSE ISSUES.

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BECAUSE OF THAT,
SHE SEES THE NUMBER

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AS A FORM OF JUDGMENT ON HER
WHEN IT'S NOT.

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DON'T BE AFRAID
TO MEASURE YOUR WEIGHT

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AND SEE WHERE YOU ARE.

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SHE NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND

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THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE
IS JUST A TOOL.

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IT'S NOT ABOUT
HER SELF-WORTH.

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I THINK RIGHT NOW,
YOU'RE DOING VERY WELL,

215
00:12:30,867 --> 00:12:33,333
AND YOUR BODY IS READY
FOR SURGERY.

216
00:12:33,333 --> 00:12:34,533
TRY TO LOSE 10 POUNDS.

217
00:12:34,533 --> 00:12:36,900
IT'S GONNA MAKE A BIG DIFFERENCE
IN YOUR SURGERY.

218
00:12:36,900 --> 00:12:38,733
YOU'RE SUCH A NUMBERS GUY.

219
00:12:38,733 --> 00:12:40,933
I WANT YOU TO
LOSE SOME WEIGHT, OKAY?

220
00:12:40,933 --> 00:12:42,067
OKAY.
ALL RIGHT.

221
00:12:42,067 --> 00:12:43,400
ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU.

222
00:12:43,400 --> 00:12:45,100
I'LL SEE YOU LATER.
OKAY, SOUNDS GOOD.

223
00:12:45,100 --> 00:12:46,500
GOOD LUCK.
THANK YOU.

224
00:12:46,500 --> 00:12:48,500
OKAY.

225
00:12:48,500 --> 00:12:50,567
I'M REALLY PROUD
OF ZSALYNN.

226
00:12:50,567 --> 00:12:54,667
IN A LITTLE BIT OVER TWO YEARS,
SHE LOST ALMOST 300 POUNDS,

227
00:12:54,667 --> 00:12:58,467
AND SHE CERTAINLY NEEDS
SOME EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL.

228
00:12:58,467 --> 00:13:00,433
IF SHE'D LIKE
A DIFFERENT DOCTOR,

229
00:13:00,433 --> 00:13:04,433
THEN I'M HAPPY SHE'S GOING
TO AT LEAST MAKE THIS PROGRESS

230
00:13:04,433 --> 00:13:07,800
AND GET THE OPERATION SHE NEEDS.

231
00:13:07,800 --> 00:13:10,933
Zsalynn:
I'M GLAD ABOUT EVERYTHING TODAY.

232
00:13:10,933 --> 00:13:14,633
I'M READY FOR SKIN SURGERY
AND I'M GOING TO GET IT.

233
00:13:14,633 --> 00:13:17,767
I JUST DON'T THINK I NEED
A NUMBER TO HELP ME DO THAT.

234
00:13:24,100 --> 00:13:27,133
**

235
00:13:38,500 --> 00:13:42,133
Zsalynn: I'VE BEEN SEARCHING
FOR A NEW DOCTOR,

236
00:13:42,133 --> 00:13:43,967
AND I FOUND ONE IN LOS ANGELES

237
00:13:43,967 --> 00:13:46,133
THAT I'M GOING TO SEE
IN A MONTH,

238
00:13:46,133 --> 00:13:49,500
BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M FOCUSING
ON MAKING MORE PROGRESS

239
00:13:49,500 --> 00:13:51,433
LIKE DR. NOWZARADAN SAID

240
00:13:51,433 --> 00:13:55,900
SO I CAN GET AS MUCH EXCESS SKIN
REMOVED AS POSSIBLE.

241
00:13:55,900 --> 00:13:58,867
IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU.
I KNOW! YOU, TOO.

242
00:13:58,867 --> 00:14:01,467
ALL RIGHT, LET'S GET
A GOOD WORKOUT IN.

243
00:14:01,467 --> 00:14:03,433
YOU'RE PRETTY STRONG,
ZSALYNN.

244
00:14:03,433 --> 00:14:05,167
I'VE BEEN WORKING.
I'M TELLING YOU.

245
00:14:05,167 --> 00:14:08,800
I'VE BEEN ABLE TO DO MORE
AND MORE EVERY TIME I WORK OUT,

246
00:14:08,800 --> 00:14:11,733
ESPECIALLY COMPARED
TO WHEN I STARTED THIS.

247
00:14:11,733 --> 00:14:13,800
[ Straining ] I CAN'T.

248
00:14:13,800 --> 00:14:14,933
YOU GOT THIS, YOU GOT THIS,
YOU GOT THIS.

249
00:14:14,933 --> 00:14:16,300
PUSH IT OUT.

250
00:14:16,300 --> 00:14:19,067
BUT I'VE HIT A WALL
WITH MY EXCESS SKIN

251
00:14:19,067 --> 00:14:22,533
WITH HOW IT HINDERS ME AND KEEPS
ME FROM DOING EVEN MORE.

252
00:14:22,533 --> 00:14:25,467
I DON'T BEND THE WAY OTHER
PEOPLE BEND.

253
00:14:25,467 --> 00:14:29,133
AND HAVING THIS SKIN IN THE
MIDDLE OF MY BODY IS EXHAUSTING.

254
00:14:29,133 --> 00:14:30,833
ALL RIGHT, TAP AND GO,
TAP AND GO.

255
00:14:30,833 --> 00:14:32,367
KEEP WORKING, ZSALYNN.
COME ON, NOW.

256
00:14:32,367 --> 00:14:36,067
BUT THE POSSIBILITY
OF HAVING THIS SURGERY RIGHT NOW

257
00:14:36,067 --> 00:14:39,300
IS PUSHING ME TO TRY
AND DO MORE AND MORE.

258
00:14:39,300 --> 00:14:40,433
GOOD JOB.

259
00:14:40,433 --> 00:14:41,667
GOOD WORK.

260
00:14:41,667 --> 00:14:43,967
AND I'M READY
FOR ANYTHING RIGHT NOW

261
00:14:43,967 --> 00:14:47,067
IF IT MEANS I CAN
GET THIS SKIN REMOVED.

262
00:14:48,867 --> 00:14:51,900
**

263
00:14:55,900 --> 00:14:58,967
Olivia: TODAY, I'M HEADED TO AN
APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOWZARADAN

264
00:14:58,967 --> 00:15:01,733
TO SEE WHAT PROGRESS I MADE
WITH MY WEIGHT.

265
00:15:01,733 --> 00:15:05,267
BUT I'M MORE CONCERNED
ABOUT MY LEG PAIN RIGHT NOW.

266
00:15:05,267 --> 00:15:07,267
I THINK I'M STARTING
TO GET AN INFECTION

267
00:15:07,267 --> 00:15:09,067
BECAUSE IT HURTS A LOT.

268
00:15:09,067 --> 00:15:11,600
[ GROANS ]

269
00:15:11,600 --> 00:15:14,767
I HOPE I MADE SOME MORE PROGRESS
WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS, THOUGH.

270
00:15:14,767 --> 00:15:18,500
LAST TIME I CHECKED,
I WAS BACK UP AT 200 POUNDS.

271
00:15:18,500 --> 00:15:22,700
AND I'M HOPING I'M STARTING
TO GET BACK TO 180 POUNDS AGAIN.

272
00:15:22,700 --> 00:15:24,133
BUT I'M NOT WORRIED.

273
00:15:24,133 --> 00:15:26,467
I'VE COME SO FAR,
AND I CAN DO SO MUCH.

274
00:15:26,467 --> 00:15:27,833
I GOT YOU.

275
00:15:27,833 --> 00:15:31,300
BEFORE, I COULDN'T EVEN WALK
ON MY OWN OR GET IN A CAR.

276
00:15:31,300 --> 00:15:34,700
JUST MOVING AROUND IS HARD.

277
00:15:34,700 --> 00:15:38,300
AND I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF.

278
00:15:38,300 --> 00:15:42,367
Woman: YOU'RE AT 207.

279
00:15:42,367 --> 00:15:44,333
YOU CAN STEP DOWN.

280
00:15:44,333 --> 00:15:46,200
I KNOW THAT'S NOT GREAT,

281
00:15:46,200 --> 00:15:49,700
AND I KNOW DR. NOW'S NOT GONNA
BE HAPPY ABOUT THIS.

282
00:15:49,700 --> 00:15:53,067
BUT WITH ALL THE STRESS
AND PAIN IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW,

283
00:15:53,067 --> 00:15:55,467
I'M HOPING HE UNDERSTANDS.

284
00:15:55,467 --> 00:15:57,767
HELLO.
Olivia: HELLO, DOCTOR.

285
00:15:57,767 --> 00:16:00,267
HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
NO BUENO.

286
00:16:00,267 --> 00:16:02,100
WHAT'S GOING ON?
MY LEG.

287
00:16:02,100 --> 00:16:03,867
I DON'T KNOW IF I HAVE
AN INFECTION.

288
00:16:03,867 --> 00:16:05,333
I'VE BEEN HURTING
FOR ABOUT A WEEK.

289
00:16:05,333 --> 00:16:07,900
LET'S HAVE A LOOK AT IT,
SEE WHAT'S GOING ON.

290
00:16:07,900 --> 00:16:10,367
IT WAS RED,
BUT I DON'T KNOW.

291
00:16:10,367 --> 00:16:12,800
IT'S RED NOW. IT'S JUST A LOT
OF SORENESS RIGHT NOW.

292
00:16:12,800 --> 00:16:14,300
I THINK IT LOOKS FINE.

293
00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:22,100
NOW, ASIDE FROM THAT,
WHAT IS GOING ON

294
00:16:22,100 --> 00:16:25,967
THAT YOUR WEIGHT IS STUCK
IN THE 200s NOW?

295
00:16:25,967 --> 00:16:28,167
I DON'T KNOW.
I'M JUST UNDER A LOT OF STRESS.

296
00:16:28,167 --> 00:16:30,767
I MEAN, I'VE BEEN WALKING,
DOING EXERCISE.

297
00:16:30,767 --> 00:16:32,900
OKAY.
DON'T CHANGE THE SUBJECT.

298
00:16:32,900 --> 00:16:35,067
LET'S STICK WITH
YOUR EATING HABIT.

299
00:16:35,067 --> 00:16:37,367
WHAT DO YOU MEAN,
MY EATING HABIT?

300
00:16:37,367 --> 00:16:40,633
WELL, YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY
EATING MORE CALORIES

301
00:16:40,633 --> 00:16:42,133
THAN YOU'RE REQUIRED.

302
00:16:42,133 --> 00:16:44,400
I'M NOT EATING A LOT. AM I
EATING THE WRONG THINGS? YES.

303
00:16:44,400 --> 00:16:45,667
AM I DRINKING SODA?
YES.

304
00:16:45,667 --> 00:16:47,067
AM I EATING CHIPS?
YES.

305
00:16:47,067 --> 00:16:51,167
OKAY, SO WHAT
CAN WE DO TO CONTROL THAT?

306
00:16:51,167 --> 00:16:55,500
OLIVIA HAS LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT
AND MADE GREAT PROGRESS,

307
00:16:55,500 --> 00:16:58,767
BUT IN THE PAST MONTH OR TWO,
SHE STARTED GAINING AGAIN,

308
00:16:58,767 --> 00:17:01,400
AND THAT'S CONCERNING ME A LOT
RIGHT NOW.

309
00:17:01,400 --> 00:17:04,067
SO, YOU THINK YOU CAN GET BACK
ON THE PROGRAM?

310
00:17:04,067 --> 00:17:05,633
I CAN. YOU KNOW.
AND YOU'VE SEEN IT,

311
00:17:05,633 --> 00:17:08,067
AND I'VE PROVEN TO YOU
THAT I CAN 'CAUSE I HAVE LOST --

312
00:17:08,067 --> 00:17:09,667
SO, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

313
00:17:09,667 --> 00:17:12,400
YOU HAVE DONE IT BEFORE.
DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN DO IT.

314
00:17:12,400 --> 00:17:15,233
OLIVIA DOESN'T REALIZE
HOW HARD IT IS

315
00:17:15,233 --> 00:17:17,567
TO STOP THE PROCESS
OF WEIGHT GAIN

316
00:17:17,567 --> 00:17:20,300
WHEN IT STARTS
TO SPIRAL OUT OF CONTROL.

317
00:17:20,300 --> 00:17:22,067
YOU'RE ABOUT TO GET
KNEE SURGERY.

318
00:17:22,067 --> 00:17:24,100
THIS IS GOING TO BE
GOOD FOR YOU.

319
00:17:24,100 --> 00:17:28,067
BUT IT ALSO MEANS THAT YOU'RE
GOING TO BE INACTIVE FOR A WHILE

320
00:17:28,067 --> 00:17:31,300
AND PRONE TO GAIN
EVEN MORE WEIGHT.

321
00:17:31,300 --> 00:17:33,467
YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY,

322
00:17:33,467 --> 00:17:37,067
BUT OFF AND ON, YOU'VE FALLEN
OFF OF THE TRACK.

323
00:17:37,067 --> 00:17:39,400
YOU NEED TO CONTROL
ALL THAT, OKAY?

324
00:17:39,400 --> 00:17:40,767
OKAY.

325
00:17:45,933 --> 00:17:47,833
Olivia:
THAT WAS A LITTLE FRUSTRATING.

326
00:17:47,833 --> 00:17:51,767
I'VE GOT A LOT GOING ON,
A LOT OF STRESS I'M DEALING WITH

327
00:17:51,767 --> 00:17:54,067
ON TOP OF HAVING SURGERY SOON.

328
00:17:54,067 --> 00:17:56,467
SO, I'M NOT WORRIED
ABOUT MY PROGRESS

329
00:17:56,467 --> 00:17:59,067
BECAUSE I KNOW
I CAN GET TO WHERE I NEED TO BE.

330
00:18:01,833 --> 00:18:04,867
**

331
00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:13,300
Zsalynn:
I'M IN LOS ANGELES TODAY.

332
00:18:13,300 --> 00:18:15,633
I FLEW IN TO SEE A DOCTOR

333
00:18:15,633 --> 00:18:19,233
I FOUND THROUGH THE WEIGHT LOSS
SURGERY FOUNDATION OF AMERICA.

334
00:18:22,200 --> 00:18:24,867
THEY HELP PEOPLE
WHO HAVE HAD BARIATRIC SURGERY

335
00:18:24,867 --> 00:18:27,967
GET SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY.

336
00:18:27,967 --> 00:18:29,933
ZSALYNN, COME ON IN.

337
00:18:29,933 --> 00:18:32,433
SO, I'M EXCITED RIGHT NOW.

338
00:18:32,433 --> 00:18:36,067
I'M JUST READY FOR ALL THIS
EXCESS SKIN TO BE OFF ME,

339
00:18:36,067 --> 00:18:40,300
AND I'M HOPING HE THINKS HE CAN
TAKE IT ALL OFF IN ONE SURGERY.

340
00:18:40,300 --> 00:18:42,333
HEY, HOW ARE YOU?
HI, DR. KATZEN.

341
00:18:42,333 --> 00:18:44,100
GOOD TO SEE YOU.
YOU ALL READY?

342
00:18:44,100 --> 00:18:46,200
SO, WE'LL HAVE YOU
COME OVER HERE.

343
00:18:46,200 --> 00:18:49,067
I'LL DROP OUR BLUE BACKGROUND
FOR OUR PICTURES.

344
00:18:49,067 --> 00:18:51,800
NOW LET'S TAKE A LOOK
AT TUMMY.

345
00:18:51,800 --> 00:18:53,700
SO, WHAT
I'M PLANNING TO DO

346
00:18:53,700 --> 00:18:56,567
IS I WILL GO DEEP
IN THE PUBIC REGION

347
00:18:56,567 --> 00:18:58,233
AND FROM THAT INCISION,

348
00:18:58,233 --> 00:19:01,767
I EXTEND IT OUT LATERALLY
OVER HERE OVER THE HIPS.

349
00:19:01,767 --> 00:19:03,700
AND THIS INCISION COMES AROUND
OVER THE BUTTOCKS,

350
00:19:03,700 --> 00:19:07,067
AND THIS WILL BE GONE,
ALL THAT,

351
00:19:07,067 --> 00:19:09,333
AT LEAST UP TO BELLY BUTTON
RIGHT THERE.

352
00:19:09,333 --> 00:19:11,067
SO, ALL THIS
WILL BE GONE, OKAY?

353
00:19:11,067 --> 00:19:12,600
WOW.

354
00:19:12,600 --> 00:19:15,867
THINK OF ALL THAT WEIGHT
ON YOUR BACK AND YOUR KNEES

355
00:19:15,867 --> 00:19:17,433
AND YOUR ANKLES.
YES.

356
00:19:17,433 --> 00:19:19,300
YOU'LL BE ABLE TO MOVE
A LOT BETTER.

357
00:19:19,300 --> 00:19:20,533
YES. SO EXCITED.

358
00:19:20,533 --> 00:19:22,300
YAY.
ALL RIGHT, I'M READY.

359
00:19:22,300 --> 00:19:23,667
GOOD. WE'LL SEE YOU
IN ABOUT TWO MONTHS THEN.

360
00:19:23,667 --> 00:19:25,067
OKAY. THANK YOU.

361
00:19:25,067 --> 00:19:26,467
SURE, MY PLEASURE.

362
00:19:28,800 --> 00:19:32,500
I'M VERY EXCITED
RIGHT NOW.

363
00:19:32,500 --> 00:19:35,867
I KNOW THIS SURGERY
IS GOING TO BE HARD AND RISKY,

364
00:19:35,867 --> 00:19:39,067
BUT IT'S GOING TO BE WORTH IT
IN THE END.

365
00:19:39,067 --> 00:19:42,300
MY WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY
SAVED MY LIFE,

366
00:19:42,300 --> 00:19:47,200
AND NOW THIS SURGERY IS LIKE
SAVING MY FUTURE.

367
00:19:47,200 --> 00:19:50,233
**

368
00:19:57,367 --> 00:19:59,067
Olivia: I DESTROYED MY KNEES

369
00:19:59,067 --> 00:20:01,600
BECAUSE I LET MY WEIGHT
GET OUT OF CONTROL FOR SO LONG.

370
00:20:01,600 --> 00:20:06,567
NOW I HAVE THE CHANCE
TO FIX THAT DAMAGE.

371
00:20:06,567 --> 00:20:10,333
AND WHATEVER IT TAKES,
NO MATTER HOW HARD AND PAINFUL,

372
00:20:10,333 --> 00:20:12,867
I'M READY TO DO IT
AND GET MY LIFE BACK.

373
00:20:15,533 --> 00:20:17,533
Dr. George:
OLIVIA LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT.

374
00:20:17,533 --> 00:20:20,133
IN ALL THOSE YEARS OF ALL
THE HEAVY WEIGHT ON HER JOINTS,

375
00:20:20,133 --> 00:20:22,800
IT REALLY TOOK ITS TOLL, SO SHE
HAS DEGENERATIVE ARTHRITIS,

376
00:20:22,800 --> 00:20:25,000
AND IT'S PRETTY SIGNIFICANT.

377
00:20:25,000 --> 00:20:27,767
AND SO, RIGHT NOW, SHE CAN'T
BEND HER LEG BACK VERY FAR,

378
00:20:27,767 --> 00:20:30,000
SO IT'S LIKE WALKING
ON A SHORT LEG.

379
00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:31,900
SO TO BE ABLE
TO GET HER MORE ACTIVE AGAIN,

380
00:20:31,900 --> 00:20:33,633
WE NEED TO REPLACE THE KNEE.

381
00:20:39,867 --> 00:20:41,167
TIGHT.

382
00:20:41,167 --> 00:20:43,733
IN THAT RIGHT KNEE,
SHE HAS BONE-ON-BONE,

383
00:20:43,733 --> 00:20:46,367
WHICH CAUSED SIGNIFICANT PAIN
FOR HER.

384
00:20:46,367 --> 00:20:47,567
[ DRILL BUZZING ]

385
00:20:47,567 --> 00:20:51,000
ONCE WE DO THIS SURGERY,
THAT BONE-ON-BONE PAIN'S

386
00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:53,300
GONNA BE GONE
AND SHE WILL RAPIDLY BE ABLE

387
00:20:53,300 --> 00:20:57,300
TO WALK AND GET BACK INTO DOING
NORMAL ACTIVITIES WITHOUT PAIN.

388
00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:24,867
WE'RE DONE.

389
00:21:24,867 --> 00:21:27,367
A STRAIGHT LEG THAT MOVES NOW.

390
00:21:27,367 --> 00:21:30,867
SHE SHOULD BE VERY HAPPY
WITH THIS.

391
00:21:30,867 --> 00:21:32,567
ALL DONE, OKAY?
ALL DONE.

392
00:21:32,567 --> 00:21:35,600
OLIVIA'S SURGERY WENT
JUST AS PLANNED.

393
00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:38,500
HAVING THE NEW KNEE NOW IS GONNA
MAKE A WORLD OF DIFFERENCE

394
00:21:38,500 --> 00:21:40,633
ON HER ACTIVITIES AND JUST
HER DAY-TO-DAY FUNCTION.

395
00:21:40,633 --> 00:21:43,200
AND SHE SHOULD HAVE
A SIGNIFICANT IMPROVEMENT

396
00:21:43,200 --> 00:21:44,733
IN THE QUALITY OF HER LIFE.

397
00:21:44,733 --> 00:21:46,167
[ GROANS ]

398
00:21:49,067 --> 00:21:52,100
**

399
00:22:03,867 --> 00:22:07,433
Dr. Nowzaradan:
EVERY TIME WE OPERATE, THERE IS
A POSSIBILITY OF BLEEDING,

400
00:22:07,433 --> 00:22:10,667
BUT AT THIS POINT,
SHE'S LOSING TOO MUCH BLOOD.

401
00:22:10,667 --> 00:22:12,900
DR. GEORGE IS NOT
ON CALL RIGHT NOW,

402
00:22:12,900 --> 00:22:17,533
SO I'M STEPPING IN TO THIS ISSUE
AND STOPPING THE BLEEDING.

403
00:22:17,533 --> 00:22:19,933
IF WE DON'T
AND THE BLEEDING CONTINUES,

404
00:22:19,933 --> 00:22:21,533
SHE WON'T SURVIVE THE NIGHT.

405
00:22:21,533 --> 00:22:24,567
SHE'S LOSING TOO MUCH BLOOD,
SO WE NEED TO HURRY.

406
00:22:29,233 --> 00:22:32,267
**

407
00:22:37,333 --> 00:22:40,067
Dr. Nowzaradan: OLIVIA HAD
RIGHT TOTAL KNEE REPLACEMENT

408
00:22:40,067 --> 00:22:43,733
EARLIER THIS MORNING,
AND A FEW HOURS AFTER THAT,

409
00:22:43,733 --> 00:22:46,500
SHE STARTED BLEEDING PROFUSELY.

410
00:22:47,867 --> 00:22:49,933
SO, I BROUGHT HER
BACK TO SURGERY

411
00:22:49,933 --> 00:22:52,667
AND STOPPED THE BLEEDING
AND PUT A DRAIN IN,

412
00:22:52,667 --> 00:22:55,233
AND HAVE THE SITUATION
UNDER CONTROL.

413
00:22:57,133 --> 00:22:59,333
ALL RIGHT, EVERYTHING LOOK GOOD.

414
00:23:01,533 --> 00:23:05,267
RIGHT NOW, SHE'S STABLE
AND EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL.

415
00:23:05,267 --> 00:23:08,867
WE'RE GOING TO KEEP AN EYE
ON HER FOR THE NEXT DAY OR SO,

416
00:23:08,867 --> 00:23:11,933
AND ONCE WE MAKE SURE
THERE ARE NO FURTHER ISSUES,

417
00:23:11,933 --> 00:23:16,233
THEN OLIVIA WILL BE READY TO
GO HOME AND START HER RECOVERY.

418
00:23:20,500 --> 00:23:23,533
**

419
00:23:31,200 --> 00:23:35,167
Zsalynn:
TODAY, I'M FINALLY GETTING
MY SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY.

420
00:23:35,167 --> 00:23:37,233
GOOD MORNING.
GOOD MORNING, DR. KATZEN.

421
00:23:37,233 --> 00:23:39,633
SO, WHAT HAPPENS NOW IS WE'LL
GET YOU ALL MARKED UP.

422
00:23:39,633 --> 00:23:41,933
AND WE'LL GET THE I.V. IN,
AND THEN WE'LL GET GOING.

423
00:23:41,933 --> 00:23:43,767
ALL RIGHT,
SOUNDS LIKE A PLAN.

424
00:23:43,767 --> 00:23:45,433
OKAY, GOOD.

425
00:23:45,433 --> 00:23:47,800
I'M GLAD
TO BE HAVING THIS DONE.

426
00:23:47,800 --> 00:23:49,600
I'M GONNA HAVE YOU
TURN AROUND. YEP.

427
00:23:49,600 --> 00:23:53,333
BUT IT'S SINKING IN JUST HOW BIG
AN OPERATION THIS IS.

428
00:23:53,333 --> 00:23:55,900
YOU EXCITED, NERVOUS?
A LITTLE NERVOUS.

429
00:23:55,900 --> 00:23:57,067
YEAH, NORMAL.

430
00:23:57,067 --> 00:23:59,233
AND I'M GETTING
REALLY SCARED.

431
00:23:59,233 --> 00:24:01,533
ALL DONE.
ALL RIGHT.

432
00:24:01,533 --> 00:24:04,733
I'M MORE SCARED
THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD BE

433
00:24:04,733 --> 00:24:09,367
BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS
A VERY RISKY SURGERY.

434
00:24:09,367 --> 00:24:11,667
AND SO MUCH COULD GO WRONG.

435
00:24:13,733 --> 00:24:15,400
SO, I'M JUST PRAYING RIGHT NOW

436
00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:20,633
THAT I WAKE UP, AND
THE WHOLE OPERATION GOES WELL.

437
00:24:20,633 --> 00:24:24,367
Dr. Katzen: TODAY, WE'RE DOING
ZSALYNN'S 360 BODY LIFT.

438
00:24:24,367 --> 00:24:26,167
SHE'D LOST
A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT,

439
00:24:26,167 --> 00:24:28,833
AND NOW SHE HAS THIS EXCESS SKIN
AND FAT ON HER TUMMY,

440
00:24:28,833 --> 00:24:31,067
EXCESS SKIN AND FAT ON HER HIPS.

441
00:24:31,067 --> 00:24:32,467
IT'S A BIG SURGERY,

442
00:24:32,467 --> 00:24:34,633
BUT I THINK SHE'S GONNA GET
A VERY GOOD RESULT.

443
00:24:34,633 --> 00:24:35,667
SCALPEL.

444
00:24:35,667 --> 00:24:37,067
I'M GONNA MAKE AN INCISION

445
00:24:37,067 --> 00:24:39,800
ON THE UPPER PORTION
OF THE BUTTOCKS,

446
00:24:39,800 --> 00:24:44,233
LIFT THE BUTTOCK UP, AND THEN
REMOVE THAT EXCESS SKIN AND FAT.

447
00:24:46,233 --> 00:24:47,867
THEN WE'RE GONNA
FLIP THE PATIENT

448
00:24:47,867 --> 00:24:50,267
SO WE CAN OPERATE
ON HER ABDOMEN.

449
00:24:50,267 --> 00:24:53,600
THEN I REMOVE THE EXCESS SKIN
AND FAT FROM HER ABDOMEN

450
00:24:53,600 --> 00:24:57,367
AND TAKE IT OFF
AS ONE BIG SPECIMEN.

451
00:24:57,367 --> 00:24:59,133
AND SUTURING ALL UP.

452
00:25:04,967 --> 00:25:07,600
THE 360 BODY LIFT TODAY
WENT REALLY WELL.

453
00:25:07,600 --> 00:25:10,400
WE REMOVED 52.5 POUNDS

454
00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:14,900
FROM ZSALYNN'S STOMACH, HIPS,
BACKSIDE, BUTTOCK.

455
00:25:14,900 --> 00:25:18,900
OUR RECOVERY IS PAINFUL, BUT
SHE'S GONNA BE MUCH HAPPIER NOW

456
00:25:18,900 --> 00:25:21,733
TO HAVE THOSE 52 POUNDS
OFF HER BODY

457
00:25:21,733 --> 00:25:24,267
BECAUSE THIS IS
A LIFE-CHANGING EVENT.

458
00:25:27,667 --> 00:25:30,700
**

459
00:25:36,800 --> 00:25:40,067
Olivia:
IT'S BEEN ABOUT TWO MONTHS
SINCE I HAD MY KNEE SURGERY,

460
00:25:40,067 --> 00:25:43,333
AND A LOT'S CHANGED
DURING THAT TIME.

461
00:25:43,333 --> 00:25:45,900
MY BROTHER WASN'T GONNA BE ABLE
TO HELP ME WITH MY RECOVERY

462
00:25:45,900 --> 00:25:48,467
AS MUCH AS HE THOUGHT
BECAUSE OF HIS WORK,

463
00:25:48,467 --> 00:25:51,067
SO I GOT A PLACE
WITH MY SISTER, OLGA.

464
00:25:51,067 --> 00:25:52,833
SHE'S BEEN MY BIGGEST SUPPORT,

465
00:25:52,833 --> 00:25:55,633
AND SHE'S BEEN ABLE TO HELP ME
WHILE I RECOVER.

466
00:25:55,633 --> 00:25:59,067
IT HASN'T BEEN EASY,
BUT I'M PUSHING MYSELF.

467
00:25:59,067 --> 00:26:01,400
[ KNOCK AT DOOR ]

468
00:26:01,400 --> 00:26:03,067
HELLO.

469
00:26:03,067 --> 00:26:05,467
TODAY,
I HAVE PHYSICAL THERAPY.

470
00:26:05,467 --> 00:26:07,767
I HAVE THERAPY
THREE TIMES A WEEK.

471
00:26:07,767 --> 00:26:10,133
HOW MANY MINUTES?
WE'RE TRYING FOR 10.

472
00:26:10,133 --> 00:26:11,533
OKAY.

473
00:26:11,533 --> 00:26:13,533
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO STAY
ON TRACK BUT IT REALLY HURTS

474
00:26:13,533 --> 00:26:17,133
TO DO MY EXERCISES
OR USE MY KNEE AT ALL.

475
00:26:17,133 --> 00:26:20,567
SEE, THAT HURTS.
I CAN FEEL THAT RIGHT HERE.

476
00:26:20,567 --> 00:26:24,400
YOU'RE REALLY,
REALLY SWOLLEN.

477
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:26,900
ONE MINUTE.
OKAY.

478
00:26:26,900 --> 00:26:28,100
I REMEMBER
WHEN MY WHOLE WORLD

479
00:26:28,100 --> 00:26:30,400
WAS CONFINED TO A BASEMENT
FOR YEARS,

480
00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:34,067
AND I COULD BARELY GET UP
AND DO ANYTHING ON MY OWN.

481
00:26:34,067 --> 00:26:38,300
I'M IN EXTREME PAIN BECAUSE
OF MY STOMACH AND MY LEG.

482
00:26:38,300 --> 00:26:40,467
I HAVE ALL THIS LYMPHEDEMA HERE.

483
00:26:40,467 --> 00:26:42,833
LOOK.
[ Groaning ] YOU CAN SEE.

484
00:26:42,833 --> 00:26:45,133
I CAN'T EVEN MOVE IT.

485
00:26:45,133 --> 00:26:47,833
I VOW TO NEVER GO BACK
TO LIVING LIKE THAT.

486
00:26:47,833 --> 00:26:49,067
TAKE A DEEP BREATH.

487
00:26:49,067 --> 00:26:51,400
THIS SURGERY WAS TO HELP ME
GET MY LIFE BACK

488
00:26:51,400 --> 00:26:53,433
SO I CAN STAND ALL DAY
LIKE I NEED TO

489
00:26:53,433 --> 00:26:56,533
SO I CAN BE ACTIVE
AND GET MY DREAM JOB AS A CHEF,

490
00:26:56,533 --> 00:26:58,067
BUT IT'S
EASIER SAID THAN DONE.

491
00:26:58,067 --> 00:26:59,233
GOOD.

492
00:26:59,233 --> 00:27:01,400
IT'S STILL SO HARD
BECAUSE THE PAIN IS SO MUCH MORE

493
00:27:01,400 --> 00:27:03,833
THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE.
KEEP BREATHING.

494
00:27:03,833 --> 00:27:06,867
BUT I HAVE A CHANCE
AT A WHOLE NEW LIFE.

495
00:27:06,867 --> 00:27:09,200
AND THAT'S WHY
I'M PUSHING THROUGH THE PAIN...

496
00:27:09,200 --> 00:27:11,367
YOU WANT TO REST
FOR A MINUTE?

497
00:27:11,367 --> 00:27:13,400
...SO I CAN LOSE THE LAST BIT
OF WEIGHT I NEED

498
00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:14,967
TO GET MY SKIN SURGERY.

499
00:27:14,967 --> 00:27:17,200
IT'S JUST A LOT HARDER
THAN I THOUGHT.

500
00:27:22,433 --> 00:27:25,433
**

501
00:27:26,533 --> 00:27:28,400
Olivia:
I CAME TO DR. NOWZARADAN TODAY

502
00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:31,733
BECAUSE I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN
FROM MY SHOULDER AND MY KNEE.

503
00:27:31,733 --> 00:27:33,900
BUT I'M WORRIED ALL THE DOCTOR'S
GONNA CARE ABOUT

504
00:27:33,900 --> 00:27:35,700
IS MY WEIGHT RIGHT NOW.

505
00:27:35,700 --> 00:27:38,800
THE PAIN HAS MADE IT REALLY HARD
TO KEEP DOING MY EXERCISES

506
00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:41,867
AND KEEP ACTIVE, SO I DON'T KNOW
WHAT MY WEIGHT IS.

507
00:27:41,867 --> 00:27:45,100
BUT I'M NOT REALLY INTERESTED
IN TALKING ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW.

508
00:27:45,100 --> 00:27:47,533
I JUST WANT
TO GET RID OF THIS PAIN.

509
00:27:47,533 --> 00:27:50,067
[ GROANS ]

510
00:27:50,067 --> 00:27:52,667
HE WANTS ME TO GET
UNDER 180 POUNDS.

511
00:27:52,667 --> 00:27:54,700
I WAS 207 LAST TIME,

512
00:27:54,700 --> 00:27:57,267
AND I HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT MY PROGRESS IS RIGHT NOW.

513
00:27:59,633 --> 00:28:01,267
[ GROANS ]

514
00:28:04,700 --> 00:28:06,867
I CAN'T DEAL WITH MY WEIGHT
RIGHT NOW.

515
00:28:06,867 --> 00:28:09,167
OLIVIA,
HOW ARE YOU?

516
00:28:09,167 --> 00:28:11,067
IN A LOT OF PAIN.

517
00:28:11,067 --> 00:28:13,933
MY SHOULDER'S HURTING
AND MY KNEE.

518
00:28:13,933 --> 00:28:15,667
OKAY, RIGHT NOW,
I'M GONNA GO AHEAD

519
00:28:15,667 --> 00:28:18,333
AND X-RAY YOUR KNEE
AND YOUR SHOULDER

520
00:28:18,333 --> 00:28:21,067
TO SEE IF THERE'S
ANYTHING WRONG, OKAY?

521
00:28:21,067 --> 00:28:23,533
Dr. Nowzaradan:
OLIVIA HAS GOT INTO THE HABIT

522
00:28:23,533 --> 00:28:26,200
OF MAKING EXCUSES
FOR HER WEIGHT GAIN.

523
00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:27,767
I'M GOING TO RUN SOME TESTS

524
00:28:27,767 --> 00:28:29,800
TO MAKE SURE THERE IS
NOTHING WRONG WITH HER,

525
00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:35,933
BUT SHE MAY BE MAKING UP MORE
EXCUSES TO AVOID THE SITUATION.

526
00:28:35,933 --> 00:28:39,067
HER X-RAYS -- THEY ALL LOOK
ABSOLUTELY NORMAL.

527
00:28:39,067 --> 00:28:40,767
THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT.

528
00:28:40,767 --> 00:28:44,333
HER SHOULDER LOOKS GOOD
AND HER KNEE IS HEALING NICELY,

529
00:28:44,333 --> 00:28:47,800
SO SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE PAIN
LIKE SHE SAYS SHE HAS.

530
00:28:49,767 --> 00:28:52,100
ALL RIGHT, OLIVIA.

531
00:28:52,100 --> 00:28:54,167
YOUR X-RAYS ARE NORMAL.

532
00:28:54,167 --> 00:28:57,100
THERE'S NOTHING WRONG
WITH YOUR KNEE OR YOUR SHOULDER,

533
00:28:57,100 --> 00:29:00,067
SO THE ONLY ISSUE HERE
IS YOUR WEIGHT.

534
00:29:00,067 --> 00:29:03,767
YOU GAINED ANOTHER 10 POUNDS
SINCE THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU.

535
00:29:03,767 --> 00:29:05,600
SO, WHAT EXACTLY IS GOING --

536
00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:07,300
DOCTOR, I DIDN'T COME HERE
FOR MY WEIGHT.

537
00:29:07,300 --> 00:29:08,833
I'M HERE FOR THE PAIN.

538
00:29:08,833 --> 00:29:10,533
I KNOW
I PUT ON SOME WEIGHT,

539
00:29:10,533 --> 00:29:12,833
BUT I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT
RIGHT NOW. I JUST --

540
00:29:12,833 --> 00:29:14,233
OKAY, WELL,
YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND --

541
00:29:14,233 --> 00:29:15,400
TAKE CARE OF THIS PAIN.

542
00:29:15,400 --> 00:29:16,800
IF NOT, THEN I CAN JUST
GO HOME RIGHT NOW.

543
00:29:16,800 --> 00:29:18,733
ALL RIGHT, YOU NEED
TO CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE.

544
00:29:18,733 --> 00:29:19,967
I'M -- OKAY.

545
00:29:19,967 --> 00:29:21,367
YOU NEED TO CHANGE
YOUR ATTITUDE.

546
00:29:21,367 --> 00:29:22,700
YOU'RE HERE
FOR ALL YOUR PROBLEMS.

547
00:29:22,700 --> 00:29:25,533
YOU'RE GAINING WEIGHT,
AND YOU HAVE BEHAVIOR

548
00:29:25,533 --> 00:29:27,500
THAT DOESN'T MAKE
A WHOLE LOT OF SENSE.

549
00:29:27,500 --> 00:29:28,700
SO, WHAT YOU'RE SAYING

550
00:29:28,700 --> 00:29:30,100
IS THAT YOU DON'T BELIEVE
THAT I'M IN PAIN.

551
00:29:30,100 --> 00:29:31,733
YOU HAVE A PAIN --

552
00:29:31,733 --> 00:29:33,067
ARE YOU SAYING THAT YOU DON'T
BELIEVE THAT I'M IN PAIN?

553
00:29:33,067 --> 00:29:35,200
JUST LISTEN
TO WHAT I'M TELLING YOU.

554
00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:38,067
OKAY. SEE, THIS IS WHY I DIDN'T
WANT TO COME TO THIS DOCTOR.

555
00:29:38,067 --> 00:29:40,067
YOU DON'T WANT
TO COME TO THE DOCTOR,

556
00:29:40,067 --> 00:29:42,267
YOU CAN WALK OUT RIGHT NOW
IF YOU WANT TO

557
00:29:42,267 --> 00:29:46,733
BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND
THAT YOU HAVE ADDICTIVE PROBLEM,

558
00:29:46,733 --> 00:29:49,833
AND YOU HAVE A PROBLEM
THROUGH ADDICTION TO FOOD,

559
00:29:49,833 --> 00:29:51,067
ADDICTION TO MEDICINE,

560
00:29:51,067 --> 00:29:52,933
AND ALL THOSE THINGS
ARE NOT GONNA GO AWAY.

561
00:29:52,933 --> 00:29:54,367
YOU HAVE TO WORK ON THEM.

562
00:29:54,367 --> 00:29:57,500
YOU CANNOT BE IGNORING THE FACT
THAT YOU'RE GAINING WEIGHT.

563
00:29:57,500 --> 00:29:58,600
YOU CANNOT
IGNORE THE FACT --

564
00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:00,033
OH, I'M NOT IGNORING IT.
I KNOW.

565
00:30:00,033 --> 00:30:02,000
I FEEL IT.
I CARRY IT EVERY DAY.

566
00:30:02,000 --> 00:30:05,133
OLIVIA, YOU NEED TO GET AHOLD
OF THIS SITUATION NOW.

567
00:30:05,133 --> 00:30:07,533
IF YOU DON'T,
YOU'RE GOING TO KEEP GAINING

568
00:30:07,533 --> 00:30:10,567
AND RISK ENDING UP
600 POUNDS AGAIN.

569
00:30:10,567 --> 00:30:12,367
YOU DON'T WANT THAT.

570
00:30:12,367 --> 00:30:15,733
Dr. Nowzaradan: WEIGHT LOSS
IS NOT AN ON AND OFF SWITCH.

571
00:30:15,733 --> 00:30:20,067
IT'S A LIFESTYLE COMMITMENT
AND HAS TO BE MAINTAINED DAILY.

572
00:30:20,067 --> 00:30:22,600
I'LL SEE YOU SOON.

573
00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:26,900
SHE NEEDS TO STOP MAKING EXCUSES
AND GET BACK WITH THE PROGRAM

574
00:30:26,900 --> 00:30:31,333
OR HER SITUATION IS GOING TO GET
VERY OUT OF CONTROL.

575
00:30:31,333 --> 00:30:33,967
Olivia:
I'M VERY FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW.

576
00:30:33,967 --> 00:30:36,933
I FEEL LIKE HE DON'T BELIEVE ME.

577
00:30:36,933 --> 00:30:39,333
I'M NOT COMING BACK.
I'LL TELL YOU THAT RIGHT NOW.

578
00:30:39,333 --> 00:30:42,133
I'M JUST NOT COMING BACK.

579
00:30:42,133 --> 00:30:45,167
**

580
00:30:49,033 --> 00:30:51,967
Zsalynn: I'VE BEEN RECOVERING
FROM MY SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY

581
00:30:51,967 --> 00:30:54,500
THIS PAST MONTH, AND SO FAR,

582
00:30:54,500 --> 00:30:57,667
IT'S BEEN THE WORST RECOVERY
I'VE EVER HAD.

583
00:30:57,667 --> 00:31:02,100
I'M JUST IN CONSTANT PAIN,
AND IT'S BEEN MISERABLE.

584
00:31:02,100 --> 00:31:05,233
I HAVE TO
KEEP EMPTYING MY DRAINS,

585
00:31:05,233 --> 00:31:08,700
AND I HAVE TO KEEP CLEANING
ALL MY SUTURES.

586
00:31:08,700 --> 00:31:11,067
OKAY.
I FEEL LIKE AN ALIEN

587
00:31:11,067 --> 00:31:14,133
WITH ALL OF THESE TUBES RUNNING
IN AND OUT OF ME.

588
00:31:16,167 --> 00:31:18,800
SO, I'VE STOPPED
LOOKING AT MYSELF RIGHT NOW

589
00:31:18,800 --> 00:31:20,700
BECAUSE I'M WAITING UNTIL I HEAL

590
00:31:20,700 --> 00:31:23,333
TO TRY AND WRAP MY HEAD
AROUND IT.

591
00:31:23,333 --> 00:31:27,067
FOR SO MANY YEARS, I HATED WHAT
I HAD DONE TO MY BODY

592
00:31:27,067 --> 00:31:31,067
AND HOW IT PREVENTED ME
FROM DOING ALMOST ANYTHING.

593
00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:35,633
NOW I'M MAKING PROGRESS.

594
00:31:35,633 --> 00:31:40,333
I JUST WANT TO HEAL AS FAST
AS I CAN AND GET PAST THIS PART.

595
00:31:40,333 --> 00:31:43,967
I KNOW IN MY HEAD
IT WILL BE WORTH IT WHEN I DO.

596
00:31:43,967 --> 00:31:49,233
BUT RIGHT NOW,
IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT.

597
00:31:49,233 --> 00:31:52,533
**

598
00:31:52,533 --> 00:31:54,700
Olga: SO, WHAT HAPPENED
WITH THE DOCTOR?

599
00:31:54,700 --> 00:31:56,833
YOU KNOW, HE GOT MAD.

600
00:31:56,833 --> 00:31:59,433
HE DIDN'T BELIEVE
I WAS IN THE PAIN I SAID I WAS.

601
00:31:59,433 --> 00:32:01,600
ALL HER CARED ABOUT
WAS MY WEIGHT LOSS.

602
00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:05,467
HE KIND OF GOT UPSET
'CAUSE I HAD GAINED SOME WEIGHT.

603
00:32:05,467 --> 00:32:08,233
THAT'S NOT GOOD.
NO, IT'S NOT.

604
00:32:08,233 --> 00:32:11,367
HE SAID I WAS MAKING
TOO MUCH EXCUSES,

605
00:32:11,367 --> 00:32:14,067
AND THEN
HE STARTED SAYING

606
00:32:14,067 --> 00:32:16,600
THAT I'M ADDICTED
TO PAIN MEDICATION.

607
00:32:16,600 --> 00:32:19,733
HE'S NOT THE ONLY DOCTOR THAT
PRESCRIBES PAIN MEDICATIONS.

608
00:32:19,733 --> 00:32:21,267
IF I WAS, I COULD GET THEM,
IF I WANT.

609
00:32:21,267 --> 00:32:22,967
YEAH, BUT IT'S
NOT GOOD ANYWAY.

610
00:32:22,967 --> 00:32:24,667
IT'S NOT GOOD.

611
00:32:24,667 --> 00:32:26,400
MAYBE THE DOCTOR
IS RIGHT A LITTLE.

612
00:32:26,400 --> 00:32:29,567
I NOTICE YOU'VE BEEN
DRINKING SODA A LOT.

613
00:32:29,567 --> 00:32:31,667
I'VE BEEN TRYING
TO TELL YOU THAT.

614
00:32:31,667 --> 00:32:33,400
IT'S NOT GOOD FOR YOU.

615
00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:37,267
I'M NOT DOING IT
JUST TO PICK ON YOU OR NOTHING,

616
00:32:37,267 --> 00:32:39,733
BUT I'M JUST TRYING
TO TELL YOU TO HELP YOU.

617
00:32:39,733 --> 00:32:43,067
YOU STOPPED EATING
ALL THAT JUNK FOR A WHILE.

618
00:32:43,067 --> 00:32:44,767
WHY DID YOU
START EATING IT?

619
00:32:44,767 --> 00:32:46,400
WELL, JUST STRESS
OF NOT WORKING,

620
00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:48,467
BEING HERE AT HOME
DOING NOTHING.

621
00:32:48,467 --> 00:32:50,233
I WANT TO GET OUT
AND GO TO WORK ALREADY.

622
00:32:50,233 --> 00:32:52,367
I JUST --
YOU KNOW.

623
00:32:52,367 --> 00:32:55,100
YOU'VE GOT A SECOND CHANCE
AT LIFE.

624
00:32:55,100 --> 00:32:58,467
YOU'VE GOT TO GET TO IT
AND DO BETTER BY IT,

625
00:32:58,467 --> 00:33:00,200
'CAUSE IF YOU CONTINUE TO,
YOU KNOW,

626
00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:01,533
GO BACK TO YOUR OLD HABITS,

627
00:33:01,533 --> 00:33:03,533
YOU'RE NOT GONNA
REACH YOUR GOAL.

628
00:33:10,100 --> 00:33:13,133
**

629
00:33:20,433 --> 00:33:22,067
Olivia: TODAY,
I'M GONNA WORK OUT AT THE GYM

630
00:33:22,067 --> 00:33:25,267
SO I CAN START PUSHING MYSELF
TO MAKE PROGRESS AGAIN.

631
00:33:25,267 --> 00:33:27,333
AFTER TALKING WITH MY SISTER,

632
00:33:27,333 --> 00:33:29,467
I REALIZED I GOT
A LITTLE OVER-CONFIDENT

633
00:33:29,467 --> 00:33:33,067
BECAUSE I HAD LOST
A LOT OF WEIGHT ALREADY.

634
00:33:33,067 --> 00:33:36,167
I THOUGHT I COULD JUST
DO IT AGAIN WHEN I WANTED.

635
00:33:36,167 --> 00:33:40,100
BUT ADDICTION AND WEIGHT LOSS
IS NOT THAT EASY,

636
00:33:40,100 --> 00:33:42,733
AND YOU JUSTIFY
YOUR BAD BEHAVIOR.

637
00:33:42,733 --> 00:33:44,733
BUT THE ONLY WAY
TO STAY IN CONTROL

638
00:33:44,733 --> 00:33:47,067
IS TO STOP WITH ALL THE EXCUSES.

639
00:33:47,067 --> 00:33:48,733
AND WHEN YOU MAKE MISTAKES,

640
00:33:48,733 --> 00:33:52,433
YOU HAVE TO BE READY
TO ADMIT AND CORRECT THEM.

641
00:33:52,433 --> 00:33:55,167
AND THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING
RIGHT NOW.

642
00:33:55,167 --> 00:33:56,933
[ EXHALES SHARPLY ]

643
00:33:56,933 --> 00:33:59,067
THAT'S ONLY 10 POUNDS,
AND IT'S HURTING.

644
00:33:59,067 --> 00:34:01,067
NO PAIN, NO GAIN.

645
00:34:01,067 --> 00:34:03,433
[ GROANS ]

646
00:34:05,567 --> 00:34:09,067
WHEN I WAS AT MY HEAVIEST LIVING
WITH MY PARENTS IN CHICAGO,

647
00:34:09,067 --> 00:34:11,867
I COULDN'T EVEN CLIMB
A FEW STEPS OUT OF THE BASEMENT.

648
00:34:11,867 --> 00:34:13,833
I CAN'T.
WHAT IS IT?

649
00:34:13,833 --> 00:34:15,967
[ Voice breaking ]
I CAN'T CLIMB THE STAIRS.

650
00:34:15,967 --> 00:34:17,500
YEAH, YOU CAN, OLIVIA.

651
00:34:17,500 --> 00:34:19,967
I CAN'T BELIEVE
WHAT I'M DOING NOW.

652
00:34:19,967 --> 00:34:21,800
* DUN, DA-DA, DAAAA *

653
00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:23,733
IT'S INCREDIBLE.

654
00:34:23,733 --> 00:34:25,933
NOW I'M SO CLOSE TO MY GOAL.

655
00:34:25,933 --> 00:34:29,200
THE DOCTOR WANTS ME BELOW 180
TO GET MY SKIN SURGERY.

656
00:34:29,200 --> 00:34:30,600
Woman:
YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY.

657
00:34:30,600 --> 00:34:31,733
THANK YOU.

658
00:34:31,733 --> 00:34:33,100
SO, NEXT TIME I GO SEE HIM,

659
00:34:33,100 --> 00:34:35,400
I'M HOPING THE SCALE GOES BACK
IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION,

660
00:34:35,400 --> 00:34:37,067
WHICH IS DOWN.

661
00:34:39,567 --> 00:34:43,633
**

662
00:34:43,633 --> 00:34:46,067
IT'S BEEN A FEW MONTHS
SINCE MY SKIN SURGERY,

663
00:34:46,067 --> 00:34:48,467
AND I'M FEELING A LOT BETTER.

664
00:34:48,467 --> 00:34:50,500
MY INCISIONS HAVE BEEN
HEALING WELL,

665
00:34:50,500 --> 00:34:53,867
AND I'M EXCITED TO FINALLY
BE THROUGH WITH ALL THAT PAIN.

666
00:34:55,833 --> 00:34:59,067
BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE
I'M THAT 600-POUND PERSON,

667
00:34:59,067 --> 00:35:00,967
AND I THOUGHT
GETTING SKIN SURGERY

668
00:35:00,967 --> 00:35:03,500
WOULD FINALLY HELP ME WITH THAT.

669
00:35:03,500 --> 00:35:06,933
BEFORE, I WAS IN A WORLD
WHERE BIG WAS BEAUTIFUL.

670
00:35:06,933 --> 00:35:09,167
AND THAT WAS MY IDENTITY.

671
00:35:11,667 --> 00:35:16,700
NOW I FEEL LOST, SO I'M GONNA
SEE A THERAPIST TODAY.

672
00:35:16,700 --> 00:35:20,067
I'M DR. ANN-LOUISE LOCKHART.
IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

673
00:35:20,067 --> 00:35:21,800
FOLLOW ME.

674
00:35:21,800 --> 00:35:23,767
SO, WHY DON'T YOU START OFF
BY TELLING ME

675
00:35:23,767 --> 00:35:25,667
WHAT YOUR ULTIMATE GOAL
WOULD BE

676
00:35:25,667 --> 00:35:28,133
IN TERMS OF WHAT YOU WANT TO GET
OUT OF LIFE IN GENERAL?

677
00:35:28,133 --> 00:35:30,067
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.
OKAY.

678
00:35:30,067 --> 00:35:32,867
AND LOSING WEIGHT
HASN'T MADE ME HAPPIER.

679
00:35:32,867 --> 00:35:35,067
ALL IT'S DONE
IS MAKE ME HEALTHIER.

680
00:35:35,067 --> 00:35:36,367
SO, WHAT DOES HAPPINESS
LOOK LIKE, THEN?

681
00:35:36,367 --> 00:35:38,233
I DON'T KNOW.
[ LAUGHS ]

682
00:35:38,233 --> 00:35:41,400
YOU KNOW, I'M SO HAPPY
I'VE LOST 300 POUNDS.

683
00:35:41,400 --> 00:35:43,500
I HAVE A FIGURE.

684
00:35:43,500 --> 00:35:46,933
I HAVE BIG HIPS,
AND I HAVE A SMALL WAIST,

685
00:35:46,933 --> 00:35:49,900
AND I FEEL LIKE
THAT'S WHAT I SHOULD LOOK LIKE.

686
00:35:49,900 --> 00:35:51,867
BUT I FEEL LIKE
I'M LETTING PEOPLE DOWN

687
00:35:51,867 --> 00:35:53,933
WHEN I SAY, "I'M HAPPY."

688
00:35:53,933 --> 00:35:56,067
WHY DO YOU FEEL LIKE
YOU'RE LETTING PEOPLE DOWN?

689
00:35:56,067 --> 00:35:58,133
BECAUSE I'M
STILL CONSIDERED "FAT."

690
00:35:58,133 --> 00:35:59,700
PEOPLE STILL LOOK AT ME,
ON THE OUTSIDE --

691
00:35:59,700 --> 00:36:01,833
SO YOU MUST BE UNHAPPY.
RIGHT.

692
00:36:01,833 --> 00:36:03,067
IT SOUNDS LIKE
YOU FEEL LIKE

693
00:36:03,067 --> 00:36:04,700
YOU'RE ALWAYS HAVING
TO JUSTIFY YOUR EXISTENCE

694
00:36:04,700 --> 00:36:07,333
AND YOUR BEAUTY AND WHY
YOU'RE SATISFIED WITH YOURSELF.

695
00:36:07,333 --> 00:36:08,667
YOU FEEL LIKE
PEOPLE FEEL LIKE

696
00:36:08,667 --> 00:36:10,833
THERE'S NO REASON WHY YOU SHOULD
BE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF.

697
00:36:10,833 --> 00:36:12,067
THAT'S RIGHT.

698
00:36:12,067 --> 00:36:14,333
NOW, TODAY, PEOPLE SAY TO ME,
"HOW MUCH DO YOU WEIGH?

699
00:36:14,333 --> 00:36:16,167
HOW MUCH HAVE YOU LOST?"

700
00:36:16,167 --> 00:36:17,800
I REFUSE
TO GET ON A SCALE.

701
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:19,067
RIGHT.

702
00:36:19,067 --> 00:36:22,667
I HAVE 40 YEARS OF
JUDGING MYSELF BY THAT NUMBER.

703
00:36:22,667 --> 00:36:26,233
IT WAS NEVER LOW ENOUGH,
IT WAS NEVER RIGHT ENOUGH.

704
00:36:26,233 --> 00:36:29,200
[ SNIFFLES ]
SO, I'M JUST NOT DOING IT.

705
00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:31,367
BUT YOU KNOW,
THE BOTTOM LINE --

706
00:36:31,367 --> 00:36:34,767
YOU COULD BE THE IDEAL WEIGHT
AND BE THE PERFECT SHAPE

707
00:36:34,767 --> 00:36:36,067
AND HAVE THE PERFECT SKIN

708
00:36:36,067 --> 00:36:37,700
AND HAVE ALL THESE THINGS
THAT PEOPLE VIEW AS PERFECT,

709
00:36:37,700 --> 00:36:39,333
AND THEY'RE STILL GONNA
JUDGE YOU ANYWAY.

710
00:36:39,333 --> 00:36:41,067
IT CAN'T BE DETERMINED
BY OTHER PEOPLE.

711
00:36:41,067 --> 00:36:42,467
IT HAS TO BE
DETERMINED BY YOU.

712
00:36:42,467 --> 00:36:44,067
SO, YOU JUST HAVE TO BE
THAT BEAUTIFUL WORK OF ART

713
00:36:44,067 --> 00:36:46,200
THAT YOU'RE HAPPY WITH
AND THAT YOU TREASURE,

714
00:36:46,200 --> 00:36:47,867
EVEN IF NO ONE ELSE DOES.

715
00:36:47,867 --> 00:36:49,367
AND YOU HAVE TO THEN START
LOOKING AT YOURSELF

716
00:36:49,367 --> 00:36:51,333
FROM A DIFFERENT LENS
'CAUSE YOU'VE SEEN YOURSELF

717
00:36:51,333 --> 00:36:53,600
FROM THE SAME LENS
FOR SO LONG.

718
00:36:53,600 --> 00:36:55,467
SO, WHAT I'D LIKE
FOR YOU TO DO

719
00:36:55,467 --> 00:36:58,600
IS LOOK AT SOMETHING
WHERE YOU CAN KEEP MAYBE EVEN,

720
00:36:58,600 --> 00:37:01,500
LIKE, A DAILY-EXPERIENCES DIARY,
IF YOU DON'T ALREADY,

721
00:37:01,500 --> 00:37:03,500
WHERE YOU JUST WRITE DOWN
MAYBE ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL

722
00:37:03,500 --> 00:37:05,133
FOR THAT DAY
SO THAT YOU CAN STAY FOCUSED

723
00:37:05,133 --> 00:37:07,933
ON MOVING FORWARD RATHER THAN
ALWAYS LOOKING BACK.

724
00:37:07,933 --> 00:37:11,833
BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT
THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE.

725
00:37:11,833 --> 00:37:13,533
THANK YOU SO MUCH,
DR. LOCKHART.

726
00:37:13,533 --> 00:37:15,400
YOU'RE VERY WELCOME.
YOU'RE WELCOME.

727
00:37:15,400 --> 00:37:19,367
Zsalynn: IT'S HARD TO LET GO
OF WHAT EVERYONE ELSE THINKS,

728
00:37:19,367 --> 00:37:23,800
AND I DON'T SEE MYSELF AS
BEAUTIFUL, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY.

729
00:37:25,667 --> 00:37:28,400
I HAVE TO FIND THE BEAUTY
THAT'S THERE IN ME

730
00:37:28,400 --> 00:37:32,300
THAT I'M JUST NOT SEEING
RIGHT NOW.

731
00:37:32,300 --> 00:37:35,333
**

732
00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:44,267
Olivia: TODAY,
I'M GONNA SEE DR. NOW AGAIN.

733
00:37:44,267 --> 00:37:46,333
LAST TIME I SAW HIM,
I WAS PRETTY UPSET

734
00:37:46,333 --> 00:37:48,633
BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT
TO TALK ABOUT MY WEIGHT.

735
00:37:48,633 --> 00:37:50,633
OLIVIA CRUZ.

736
00:37:50,633 --> 00:37:55,167
I LET MYSELF SLIP,
AND HE WAS RIGHT.

737
00:37:55,167 --> 00:37:57,467
SO, I'M JUST HOPING
I MADE ENOUGH PROGRESS

738
00:37:57,467 --> 00:38:01,233
TO AT LEAST CONVINCE HIM TO TAKE
ME BACK AND NOT GIVE UP ON ME.

739
00:38:05,567 --> 00:38:09,167
**

740
00:38:09,167 --> 00:38:13,667
Olivia:
I'M HOPING I'M ABOUT TO SHOW
DR. NOW A LOT OF GOOD PROGRESS.

741
00:38:13,667 --> 00:38:17,267
I WAS AT 217
WHEN I SAW THE DOCTOR LAST,

742
00:38:17,267 --> 00:38:19,633
SO I AT LEAST WANT
TO BE BELOW 210 TODAY

743
00:38:19,633 --> 00:38:21,767
TO SHOW HIM I'M BACK ON TRACK,

744
00:38:21,767 --> 00:38:24,233
AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE
MY SKIN SURGERY.

745
00:38:25,467 --> 00:38:28,267
Woman: 202.
WHAT?

746
00:38:28,267 --> 00:38:31,067
[ BOTH CHUCKLE ]

747
00:38:31,067 --> 00:38:33,500
HI, OLIVIA.
HELLO, DOCTOR.

748
00:38:33,500 --> 00:38:35,600
HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
I'M GOOD.

749
00:38:35,600 --> 00:38:37,733
WELL, I'M GLAD
TO HEAR THAT.

750
00:38:37,733 --> 00:38:41,233
SO, NOW THAT YOU'RE BACK ON
TRACK TO GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN,

751
00:38:41,233 --> 00:38:44,667
WE'RE ALMOST THERE
TO GET YOU UNDER 180

752
00:38:44,667 --> 00:38:46,333
SO WE CAN DO
YOUR SKIN SURGERY.

753
00:38:46,333 --> 00:38:49,267
OKAY. ME AND MY SISTER ARE
EATING DIFFERENT NOW, YOU KNOW?

754
00:38:49,267 --> 00:38:50,633
STAYING AWAY
FROM ALL THOSE SUGARY DRINKS.

755
00:38:50,633 --> 00:38:53,333
I'M JUST DRINKING WATER
AND UNSWEETENED TEA.

756
00:38:53,333 --> 00:38:55,333
SO, YOU'RE ALL SUPPORTING
EACH OTHER, HUH?

757
00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:56,467
WE'RE SUPPORTING
EACH OTHER.

758
00:38:56,467 --> 00:38:57,533
GREAT.

759
00:38:57,533 --> 00:38:59,067
Dr. Nowzaradan:
I'M PROUD OF OLIVIA.

760
00:38:59,067 --> 00:39:00,833
SHE WORRIED ME FOR A BIT,

761
00:39:00,833 --> 00:39:04,467
BUT SHE HAS MADE
SIGNIFICANT CHANGES IN HER LIFE,

762
00:39:04,467 --> 00:39:07,067
AND IF SHE CONTINUES
TO MAKE PROGRESS,

763
00:39:07,067 --> 00:39:09,900
I THINK SHE'LL BE ABLE
TO GET HER FINAL SKIN SURGERY

764
00:39:09,900 --> 00:39:11,633
IN THE NEXT THREE
TO FOUR MONTHS.

765
00:39:11,633 --> 00:39:12,967
I'M NOT GONNA
LET YOU DOWN.

766
00:39:12,967 --> 00:39:14,067
I'M GONNA
GET TO THIS GOAL WEIGHT

767
00:39:14,067 --> 00:39:16,300
SO THAT WE CAN DO
THIS SKIN REMOVAL.

768
00:39:16,300 --> 00:39:17,533
OKAY.
THANK YOU, DOCTOR.

769
00:39:17,533 --> 00:39:19,267
ALL RIGHT.
ALL RIGHT.

770
00:39:19,267 --> 00:39:22,667
Olivia: I'M REALLY GLAD
I WAS ABLE TO DO THIS TODAY,

771
00:39:22,667 --> 00:39:24,633
AND THE DOC DIDN'T
GIVE UP ON ME.

772
00:39:24,633 --> 00:39:27,700
I'M GONNA KEEP WORKING HARD
NO MATTER WHAT,

773
00:39:27,700 --> 00:39:30,800
AND I'M HITTING MY FINAL GOAL
OF 150 POUNDS

774
00:39:30,800 --> 00:39:34,500
AND GETTING BACK TO MY LIFE.

775
00:39:34,500 --> 00:39:36,567
**

776
00:39:36,567 --> 00:39:38,667
WE'RE GONNA WALK
AROUND THE PARK.

777
00:39:38,667 --> 00:39:40,167
OKAY.

778
00:39:40,167 --> 00:39:42,367
FOR MONTHS, I'VE BEEN
WORKING THROUGH THE PAIN

779
00:39:42,367 --> 00:39:44,067
TO REHAB MY KNEE,

780
00:39:44,067 --> 00:39:46,267
AND FOR THE FIRST TIME
SINCE I CAN REMEMBER,

781
00:39:46,267 --> 00:39:48,300
I CAN BE ACTIVE
AS MUCH AS I WANT

782
00:39:48,300 --> 00:39:51,067
WITHOUT HAVING TO USE MY CANE
OR REST MY KNEE.

783
00:39:51,067 --> 00:39:52,900
ARE YOU TIRED?

784
00:39:52,900 --> 00:39:55,367
NO, I'M JUST TRYING TO HOLD HIM.
HE'S GOING FAST.

785
00:39:55,367 --> 00:39:56,767
I'LL HOLD HIM.

786
00:39:56,767 --> 00:39:59,100
I'M SO EXCITED
THAT MY DREAMS

787
00:39:59,100 --> 00:40:01,400
ARE NOT JUST HOPES
FOR THE FUTURE NOW.

788
00:40:01,400 --> 00:40:04,000
THEY'RE LITERALLY STARTING
TO HAPPEN.

789
00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:06,733
HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RIB EYE
STEAKS FOR DINNER TONIGHT?

790
00:40:06,733 --> 00:40:09,900
MY BIGGEST DREAM HAS BEEN
TO BECOME A CHEF,

791
00:40:09,900 --> 00:40:11,967
TO MAKE FOOD
FOR OTHER PEOPLE.

792
00:40:11,967 --> 00:40:13,800
BUT I HAD TO STOP TRAINING

793
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:17,100
BECAUSE I COULDN'T STAND AND
MOVE AROUND LIKE I NEEDED TO.

794
00:40:17,100 --> 00:40:19,633
BUT NOW THAT I CAN
STAND ALL DAY,

795
00:40:19,633 --> 00:40:22,933
I'M GOING BACK TO PICK BACK UP
WHERE I LEFT OFF.

796
00:40:25,367 --> 00:40:27,800
AND I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT THAT.

797
00:40:27,800 --> 00:40:29,767
I AMAZE MYSELF.

798
00:40:29,767 --> 00:40:32,333
THE FUTURE I HOPED FOR
IS SO CLOSE NOW.

799
00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:39,367
I'M GONNA SHOW YOU HOW TO SAUTé
ALL THE VEGETABLES.

800
00:40:39,367 --> 00:40:43,200
THIS IS NOT JUST MY DREAM,
IT'S MY INDEPENDENCE.

801
00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:45,300
I CAN BE BACK OUT
IN SOCIETY AGAIN,

802
00:40:45,300 --> 00:40:47,767
AND I CAN MAKE A LIVING
FOR THE FIRST TIME

803
00:40:47,767 --> 00:40:50,433
IN ALMOST
A DECADE AND A HALF.

804
00:40:50,433 --> 00:40:53,667
JUST THREE YEARS AGO,
I WAS BARELY ABLE TO MOVE,

805
00:40:53,667 --> 00:40:55,767
BARELY ABLE TO
TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AT ALL.

806
00:40:55,767 --> 00:40:59,300
[ GROANS, SIGHS HEAVILY ]

807
00:40:59,300 --> 00:41:01,567
NOW, I'M A COMPLETELY
DIFFERENT PERSON.

808
00:41:01,567 --> 00:41:05,833
I'M ABLE TO BE PART OF SOCIETY
AGAIN AND GO OUT IN THE WORLD.

809
00:41:05,833 --> 00:41:08,100
I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW,

810
00:41:08,100 --> 00:41:11,067
AND I'M DEDICATED
TO MAKING MORE PROGRESS,

811
00:41:11,067 --> 00:41:12,800
AND I'M DOING EVERYTHING I CAN

812
00:41:12,800 --> 00:41:18,067
TO KEEP THIS NEW LIFE THAT I'VE
BEEN GIVEN A CHANCE TO HAVE.

813
00:41:18,067 --> 00:41:21,067
**

814
00:41:23,100 --> 00:41:25,667
IT'S BEEN A WHILE
SINCE MY SKIN REMOVAL,

815
00:41:25,667 --> 00:41:28,800
AND MY INCISIONS ARE
ALMOST COMPLETELY HEALED.

816
00:41:28,800 --> 00:41:30,567
MY STOMACH IS FLAT NOW,

817
00:41:30,567 --> 00:41:33,767
AND THAT'S SOMETHING
I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE AGAIN.

818
00:41:33,767 --> 00:41:35,500
BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY,

819
00:41:35,500 --> 00:41:40,533
I'VE FINALLY BEEN CLEARED
TO EXERCISE AND BE ACTIVE AGAIN.

820
00:41:40,533 --> 00:41:43,667
I'VE EVER STARTED DOING YOGA.

821
00:41:43,667 --> 00:41:45,567
I'VE BEEN WORKING
ON SEEING MYSELF

822
00:41:45,567 --> 00:41:48,800
THROUGH A DIFFERENT LENS
LIKE THE THERAPIST SAID,

823
00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:51,100
AND I FEEL LIKE
I'M STARTING TO BECOME THE ME

824
00:41:51,100 --> 00:41:53,600
I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO BECOME.

825
00:41:53,600 --> 00:41:58,067
I'M MORE THAN A NUMBER,
SO I'M DONE WITH SCALES.

826
00:41:58,067 --> 00:42:01,267
I HAVE OTHER WAYS
TO DETERMINE PROGRESS,

827
00:42:01,267 --> 00:42:04,700
LIKE HOW I FEEL
AND HOW MUCH ENERGY I HAVE.

828
00:42:04,700 --> 00:42:09,233
AND I'M STARTING TO BECOME
MORE CONFIDENT IN WHO I AM.

829
00:42:09,233 --> 00:42:11,433
SO, I FIGURE IT'S TIME I START

830
00:42:11,433 --> 00:42:13,233
GETTING BACK OUT THERE
AND DATING AGAIN.

831
00:42:13,233 --> 00:42:14,900
ZSALYNN?
YES, LARRY?

832
00:42:14,900 --> 00:42:16,067
LARRY, YES.
HI, LARRY.

833
00:42:16,067 --> 00:42:17,500
IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU.

834
00:42:17,500 --> 00:42:20,200
THREE YEARS AGO,
I COULD BARELY EVEN GET UP

835
00:42:20,200 --> 00:42:22,700
TO LEAVE THE HOUSE BACK THEN.

836
00:42:22,700 --> 00:42:25,600
BUT I'M FINALLY
LIVING LIFE AGAIN,

837
00:42:25,600 --> 00:42:29,567
AND I'M SLOWLY LEARNING
I'M BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE I'M ME,

838
00:42:29,567 --> 00:42:31,367
AND I KNOW
THERE ARE GOING TO BE OTHERS

839
00:42:31,367 --> 00:42:32,267
THAT SEE THAT BEAUTY IN ME, TOO.

839
00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545
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