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[John] I did have
something I wanted to ask you.

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[Kimberly] Yeah, what's that?

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I-I just heard-

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[Kimberly] What did you hear?

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Did you and, uh-

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[Kimberly] Huh?

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You and, uh-

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[Kimberly] Me and... David.

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Hey-Hey what?

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Finish your sentences.

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I thought you would catch my implication.

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Yeah, I am catching your implication,

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but I want you to say it.

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I heard you made out.

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Yeah, so?

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That was, like, two months ago.

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This is the first time you and me have-

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It's not the making out part, it's David.

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He's not the kinda guy
who'd be good for you.

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He only comes to church
because he thinks it'll...

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Okay, it's just...

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I guess if you ever had a perception

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of someone for a long time,

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only to find out later something

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that makes you realize
they're not what you thought.

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You're talking like

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this is some kind of
hypothetical situation.

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Just say what you mean.

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I guess I just always
thought you were different.

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Are you telling me how to behave?

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It's not like you have to do what I say.

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But you are telling me.

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I'm telling you

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you shouldn't go around
with guys like David.

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Okay, you're being an asshole.

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Okay, you're a harlot.

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(scoffs) A harlot? What is your deal?

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That sounds like something
your dad would say.

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My dad's a good man.

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Your dad is a harlot.

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[John] I don't even
know what to say to you.

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I touched his dick too!

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[John] You touched my dad's dick?

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No, I touched David's dick!

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I haven't gotten around to your dad's yet.

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(footsteps thumping)

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(Kimberly huffs)

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Jesus Christ.

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(footsteps thumping)

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(guitar worship music)

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♪ Take my will and make it thine ♪

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♪ It shall be no longer mine ♪

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♪ Take my heart, it is your own ♪

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♪ It shall be your royal throne ♪

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♪ It shall be your royal throne ♪

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♪ Take my love; My Lord, I pour ♪

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♪ At your feet its treasure store ♪

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(Stu claps hands)

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(Stu sighs)

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Do you remember when you were younger,

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back in Sunday School,
that song about heaven?

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I don't know if they sang it for you,

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but it said something like,

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"Heaven would be this
house with a lot of rooms,

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and a big table and a big yard."

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Well, that's not what heaven's
really gonna be like, right?

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I mean, I'm sure you realized
when you were younger

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that heaven isn't playing harps
on a cloud and pearly gates.

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It's, um, well, we don't really know

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what's gonna be like, right?

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This gives us some clues.

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The truth is it's nothing
like we can imagine.

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Doesn't Jesus say there
won't be marriage in heaven?

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Yeah, that's right. He does.

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So, I just think that on Earth,

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marriage seems like one of,

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like, one of the happiest like...

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So I know heaven has
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just it seems like...

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How could it be?

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Well, there's this kind of communion

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to marriage that I think
we'll experience in heaven

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just in a different way.

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So not sex.

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(chuckles) No, not sex.

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I wouldn't think we'd need sex in heaven.

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I mean, it's not like we're
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That's true.

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So what would the point of sex be?

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(stutters) It's about more than...

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It's a sacred... you know,
that's besides the point.

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I brought up heaven

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because I wanted to
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um, people we've lost.

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Or more than that,

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people we're looking
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I think what I'm looking
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is seeing my cousin again.

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My cousin Jeff.

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Maybe some of you were old enough then...

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I was around your age then.

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I didn't go with him.

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I almost did.

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But I stayed home to help my
dad with something in the yard.

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And I'll never forget when we got the call.

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I was sitting in my kitchen,

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and the windows were
open because it was summer.

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I'll always remember
the way the air smelled

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coming through the window that day.

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When the phone rang.

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(car blinker clicking)

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Oh yeah, it makes me feel so dirty

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knowing that I've literally
been stealing kisses

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from his future wife.

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(Leah scoffs)

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I think I'm gonna lean into my harlot side

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and see what happens.

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[Leah] Okay, but everyone at church

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thinks you're a prude now.

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[Kimberly] What do you mean?

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"What would be the point of sex

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if we're not making children"?

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I was trying to make John mad!

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It was not obvious you were joking.

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Come on, did you see how
much his mouth was hanging open?

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I could see like 5 or 10
"harlots" just waiting to get out.

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[Leah] What a jerk.

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Yeah, I hate him.

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Next time I see him doing his stretches

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or whatever before he runs,
I'm gonna push him over.

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Except he'd probably like it.

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He'd probably be like,
"Uhh, do it again, you harlot."

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(Kimberly chuckles)

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I liked what Stu said

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about there being no time in heaven.

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I don't know what it's gonna be there,

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but I've always liked that idea.

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But that's what throws me off,

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it's like everybody's talking

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about how people are
waiting for us up there.

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But if there's no time,

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then wouldn't everyone who's ever died

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get to heaven for the
first time, like, all at once?

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I don't think it would be all at once,

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'cause there wouldn't be any time.

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[Kimberly] I don't know.

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You should've said that though!

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I didn't really feel like
saying anything more than I did.

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I started thinking about Helen.

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[Jimmy] I'm close, very close.

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I said I don't have it.

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Howard, just send her address.

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Send her address. Howard.

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(seagulls squawking)

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(sighs) Um, I've got a new destination.

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[Driver] You gotta put it on the app.

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Oh.

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Okay. Okay.

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(tires squeal)

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(knocking on door)

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(door opens)

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[Alice] Hello?

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- Alice?
- [Alice] Yeah.

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Hi.

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Sorry, I looked up your address

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before I found your phone number,

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or else I would've given you a ring first.

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[Alice] I don't know who you are.

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My name's Jimmy. I'm Helen's uncle.

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Uh, Helen...

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You're Helen's uncle?

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[Jimmy] I came as soon as I heard.

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(scoffs) As soon as you heard?

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[Alice] It was-

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I haven't exactly had
my ear to the ground.

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Listen, could we talk?

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I completely understand if
not now, but could we talk?

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Yeah, if you take the sidewalk,

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if you make a left at the sidewalk,

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there's a park across the way.

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And I can be there in, I
don't know, 15 minutes?

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[Jimmy] I'll be there.

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I would invite you in, but-

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I understand. I'll be there.

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(door closes)

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(Alice sighs)

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(car engine rumbling)

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(knocking on door)

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They know I can cook, right?

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(chuckles) Yes, I think this is more so

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that I have an opportunity to convert you.

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(chuckles) You haven't
been trying very hard.

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That's because it's so
easy to falsify the results.

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I can tell them you teach me

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to keep my dress below my ankles

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and hold the Word as a
lamp unto my feet and all that.

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I'm a devoted enough sinner

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that it wouldn't work on
me anyway, but Jesus.

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(chuckles) What kind of sins
do you get up to nowadays?

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Oh, well, avarice, wrath, envy, and lust.

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My favorite. (Kimberly chuckles)

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They never were nice to Helen.

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As much as they pretended to be.

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They haven't been kind to Alice either.

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After Alice found out about Helen,

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our parents made me
go to church the next day.

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I mean, they tried to get Alice to go too,

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because she was back from college,

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but she didn't, of course.

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And, I mean, I didn't want to either,

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but somehow I went anyway, and...

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I remember other people dying, you know,

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like when I was younger, and
they'd announce it on Sunday.

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And usually they do the whole

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"We'll see them again one day" thing.

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But with her, they didn't say that.

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Because they knew she
didn't believe in that stuff.

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They couldn't even say it as a courtesy.

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They can burn.

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Helen never said anything about an uncle.

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She said her dad was dead.

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Her father's alive.

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But I guess I'm not surprised
that she thought that.

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My brother is a real egotist.

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He only thinks of himself.

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I didn't even know he had a
daughter 'til about a week ago.

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I don't really see him that often, so.

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- So he told you then?
- Yes.

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So he told you about Helen,

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and he told you about Helen dying,

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- but he couldn't come himself?
- Yeah.

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And I was out on the
Peninsula anyway for a shoot,

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so I figured coming to pay my respects

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was the very least I could do.

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It seems like you knew her best.

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We were together for a long time. Before.

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[Jimmy] It was accidental?

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Yes, they're sure it was an accident.

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What happened to...

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Where, uh... is there a cemetery?

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No, she wanted her ashes scattered.

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How'd you know?

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Because she told me.

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Mt. St. Helens.

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We sorta had this joke
between the two of us.

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"Already plenty of ash there,

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"what's a little more," you know.

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And since she was named after it.

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Right.

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[Alice] So how long are you in town?

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I don't know.

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I guess long enough to
hear a little bit more about her.

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I know we haven't met
before, but you look familiar.

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Well, you might've seen me on television.

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[Alice] You're an actor?

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Yeah, yeah, I'm on "Death Row."

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I can't say I watch too much TV,

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00:15:36,462 --> 00:15:38,047
but maybe I saw a clip or something.

263
00:15:38,630 --> 00:15:40,967
Well, I've also been
in a lot of commercials.

264
00:15:44,511 --> 00:15:48,432
Let's talk again, yeah?

265
00:15:48,515 --> 00:15:50,517
When you've had some more time to think?

266
00:16:03,322 --> 00:16:05,992
(water ripples)

267
00:16:10,997 --> 00:16:13,290
[Leah] Whoa! (Chuckles)

268
00:16:14,791 --> 00:16:16,710
I'd almost rather go to, like,

269
00:16:16,793 --> 00:16:18,004
a Catholic college, you know,

270
00:16:18,087 --> 00:16:20,714
where you can at least
do the rituals and stuff.

271
00:16:20,797 --> 00:16:22,841
But instead it's gotta
be a hip private school

272
00:16:22,924 --> 00:16:26,678
where you have, like,
strobe lights in the chapel.

273
00:16:26,762 --> 00:16:28,805
You're just being pessimistic.

274
00:16:28,889 --> 00:16:29,889
Maybe.

275
00:16:31,475 --> 00:16:34,103
If nothing else, it seemed
like they have hot professors.

276
00:16:35,146 --> 00:16:37,148
We should each fuck a professor.

277
00:16:37,231 --> 00:16:41,193
Kimberly, you've never
had sex with anyone your age,

278
00:16:41,277 --> 00:16:42,653
much less a professor.

279
00:16:42,736 --> 00:16:44,363
- Ouch, Leah!
- [Leah] It's true.

280
00:16:44,446 --> 00:16:47,574
That's 'cause I've been
saving myself for the professors.

281
00:16:47,658 --> 00:16:51,662
The glasses, the tweed
jacket, the intellect.

282
00:16:51,745 --> 00:16:53,348
I'm pretty sure you would get kicked out

283
00:16:53,372 --> 00:16:55,332
for even flirting with a professor.

284
00:16:55,416 --> 00:16:57,668
The pent-up energy from
only ever doing missionary.

285
00:16:57,751 --> 00:16:59,295
(Leah snorts)

286
00:17:05,259 --> 00:17:08,137
Alice told me that while
she was living in Eastman,

287
00:17:08,220 --> 00:17:11,973
there was a secret
attic on the third floor.

288
00:17:12,058 --> 00:17:14,893
You could only get in there
through a panel in the ceiling,

289
00:17:14,976 --> 00:17:15,894
so you'd have to, like, wait

290
00:17:15,936 --> 00:17:17,296
'til there weren't any RAs around.

291
00:17:17,896 --> 00:17:21,692
Anyway, they had this chimney,
and you could smoke weed

292
00:17:21,775 --> 00:17:23,985
and you could, like, blow
the smoke up in the chimney

293
00:17:24,070 --> 00:17:25,696
and it would just go into the air.

294
00:17:25,779 --> 00:17:28,031
Mm, yeah, Alice must
know all the secrets.

295
00:17:28,115 --> 00:17:30,052
Come on, freshmen aren't
supposed to know about it,

296
00:17:30,076 --> 00:17:32,494
but Alice said that, as her sister,

297
00:17:32,578 --> 00:17:34,830
I'm allowed to inherit certain information.

298
00:17:40,294 --> 00:17:41,628
Would you smoke weed?

299
00:17:44,381 --> 00:17:46,508
Uh, I don't know.

300
00:17:48,427 --> 00:17:49,821
You know, people, like, try to pretend

301
00:17:49,845 --> 00:17:52,098
that it's better for your lungs
than smoking cigarettes,

302
00:17:52,181 --> 00:17:53,849
but I don't think that's actually true.

303
00:17:53,932 --> 00:17:56,102
You're still breathing in smoke.

304
00:18:00,481 --> 00:18:02,149
Well, I wanna try it at least.

305
00:18:03,150 --> 00:18:04,794
See, you're more excited than you think.

306
00:18:04,818 --> 00:18:06,278
Yeah, maybe you're right.

307
00:18:15,704 --> 00:18:18,207
(reflective music)

308
00:18:28,049 --> 00:18:30,469
(pages flip)

309
00:18:32,138 --> 00:18:34,640
(Jimmy sighs)

310
00:18:38,977 --> 00:18:42,148
(Jimmy clears throat)

311
00:18:43,357 --> 00:18:45,692
Are you putting me
through a joke, McCormick?

312
00:18:46,568 --> 00:18:48,862
A breath of fresh air was all I wanted.

313
00:18:48,945 --> 00:18:50,864
And don't tell me the yard counts.

314
00:18:50,947 --> 00:18:53,700
That chain link curtain keeps
the wind of the real world out

315
00:18:53,784 --> 00:18:55,369
better than a concrete dome.

316
00:18:58,038 --> 00:18:59,790
A concrete fucking dome?

317
00:19:01,292 --> 00:19:04,044
(paper rustling)

318
00:19:08,590 --> 00:19:11,593
(dial pad clicking)

319
00:19:20,394 --> 00:19:21,937
Yeah, yeah, I made it.

320
00:19:22,020 --> 00:19:25,316
Listen, is this first draft

321
00:19:25,399 --> 00:19:27,526
something they bled out of their noses

322
00:19:27,609 --> 00:19:29,903
during a fucking coke binge or something?

323
00:19:29,986 --> 00:19:34,032
A concrete fucking dome? What is that?

324
00:19:34,908 --> 00:19:36,660
Have you seen one?

325
00:19:36,743 --> 00:19:37,845
And then, wait, wait, wait, wait,

326
00:19:37,869 --> 00:19:41,039
then it goes on to say, and
this is verbatim, by the way,

327
00:19:41,122 --> 00:19:42,975
from the nasal blood that
you've been referring to

328
00:19:42,999 --> 00:19:46,962
as dialogue, "I feel like a jay bird

329
00:19:47,045 --> 00:19:49,465
that cannot fly from its cage."

330
00:19:51,049 --> 00:19:52,426
I feel like a jay...

331
00:19:54,345 --> 00:19:58,599
Jail bird, oh. (Chuckles)

332
00:19:58,682 --> 00:20:00,309
Now you're just making stuff up.

333
00:20:02,185 --> 00:20:06,482
Can you just ask them
to bleed out something

334
00:20:06,565 --> 00:20:07,983
a little less embarrassing?

335
00:20:09,360 --> 00:20:10,652
It's not a demand.

336
00:20:10,736 --> 00:20:11,736
Just ask them.

337
00:20:16,908 --> 00:20:19,077
Okay, okay, listen,
I'll say the rest of it,

338
00:20:19,160 --> 00:20:21,372
but I'm not saying the jaybird line.

339
00:20:22,373 --> 00:20:25,251
No, I'm not a fucking hired gun, Matthew.

340
00:20:25,334 --> 00:20:28,629
And if I was, I would hire
myself to shoot your writers.

341
00:20:28,712 --> 00:20:29,712
Fuck!

342
00:20:34,926 --> 00:20:37,429
(Jimmy sighs)

343
00:20:51,485 --> 00:20:53,904
(soft classical music)

344
00:20:56,239 --> 00:20:59,159
(knocking on door)

345
00:21:03,414 --> 00:21:04,498
Howard.

346
00:21:04,581 --> 00:21:05,581
Jimmy.

347
00:21:06,542 --> 00:21:07,542
Come in.

348
00:21:11,713 --> 00:21:12,713
Have a seat.

349
00:21:14,550 --> 00:21:17,553
Can I get you anything to drink?

350
00:21:17,636 --> 00:21:19,430
A little early for that.

351
00:21:19,513 --> 00:21:22,057
[Howard] I meant water, tea, juice.

352
00:21:23,350 --> 00:21:24,851
It's not even 10:00.

353
00:21:24,935 --> 00:21:26,353
Water would do the trick.

354
00:21:26,437 --> 00:21:27,979
[Howard] Okay.

355
00:21:28,063 --> 00:21:30,399
[Jimmy] So when did you move in?

356
00:21:30,482 --> 00:21:31,882
Had to stay in a hotel last week.

357
00:21:31,942 --> 00:21:32,984
The movers were late.

358
00:21:33,068 --> 00:21:35,195
Fucking overpaid and lazy?

359
00:21:35,278 --> 00:21:36,572
Yes, Jimmy.

360
00:21:36,655 --> 00:21:38,865
Thank you for being brave enough to say so.

361
00:21:38,949 --> 00:21:41,952
(water sloshes)

362
00:21:42,285 --> 00:21:44,621
And are you a good little boy now?

363
00:21:44,705 --> 00:21:46,332
Oh yeah, I'm reformed.

364
00:21:46,415 --> 00:21:49,751
And do you keep your teacups on your desk

365
00:21:49,835 --> 00:21:53,004
and out of the air, away
from interns' heads?

366
00:21:53,088 --> 00:21:54,106
It was a straight fastball.

367
00:21:54,130 --> 00:21:55,048
He didn't even see it coming.

368
00:21:55,090 --> 00:21:58,344
You know, most people use
their fists and not dinnerware.

369
00:21:58,885 --> 00:22:01,179
I'll throw it right now,
you fucking bastard.

370
00:22:05,308 --> 00:22:07,603
It's good to see you, Howard.

371
00:22:07,686 --> 00:22:08,895
It's good to see you, Jimmy.

372
00:22:08,979 --> 00:22:12,273
(toaster clicks) (toaster buzzing)

373
00:22:12,774 --> 00:22:15,318
So you met with Helen's girlfriend already?

374
00:22:16,653 --> 00:22:17,738
[Jimmy] Yeah.

375
00:22:17,821 --> 00:22:19,406
And did she wanna talk to you?

376
00:22:20,699 --> 00:22:25,704
Well, I'm assuming the role of the uncle,

377
00:22:27,080 --> 00:22:30,584
'cause I was worried she
wouldn't speak to me otherwise.

378
00:22:30,667 --> 00:22:32,919
The uncle, you gotta be fucking with me.

379
00:22:33,003 --> 00:22:34,295
What do you expect, man?

380
00:22:35,381 --> 00:22:37,298
I only knew Charlotte for a night.

381
00:22:37,383 --> 00:22:39,092
I never knew Helen.

382
00:22:39,175 --> 00:22:41,136
Would you wanna speak to me?

383
00:22:41,219 --> 00:22:42,303
No, not really, Jimmy.

384
00:22:42,388 --> 00:22:44,264
But to tell you the truth, I rarely do.

385
00:22:46,266 --> 00:22:48,059
When I heard what happened to her,

386
00:22:49,770 --> 00:22:52,606
I guess I felt a sense of possibility.

387
00:22:54,274 --> 00:22:58,612
I felt like maybe I could
care if I got a little closer.

388
00:23:01,197 --> 00:23:05,035
So that's what this is about.

389
00:23:06,662 --> 00:23:08,121
To induce a little grief.

390
00:23:08,204 --> 00:23:10,957
(toaster pops) (bread crunches)

391
00:23:11,750 --> 00:23:14,503
You do know how to toast
a slice, I'll give you that.

392
00:23:14,586 --> 00:23:16,505
What little mark do you set the knob to?

393
00:23:17,589 --> 00:23:19,466
One past the halfway point.

394
00:23:19,550 --> 00:23:21,802
I'll have to fucking file that away.

395
00:23:21,885 --> 00:23:23,279
[Kimberly] I didn't
know Helen had an uncle.

396
00:23:23,303 --> 00:23:24,303
Neither did I.

397
00:23:25,180 --> 00:23:27,849
He just showed up at my
door. His name's Jimmy.

398
00:23:28,475 --> 00:23:30,226
He said her dad is alive.

399
00:23:31,728 --> 00:23:33,980
- Helen's dad is alive?
- Yeah.

400
00:23:35,356 --> 00:23:37,568
Well, then why didn't he come?

401
00:23:37,651 --> 00:23:40,654
I don't know, it didn't
seem like he really cares.

402
00:23:40,737 --> 00:23:42,906
All this time, he never came to see her?

403
00:23:42,989 --> 00:23:43,989
Nope.

404
00:23:46,159 --> 00:23:48,203
(Kimberly huffs)

405
00:23:48,286 --> 00:23:49,830
Weird.

406
00:23:50,664 --> 00:23:53,459
It's bringing a lot of things back.

407
00:23:54,710 --> 00:23:58,046
Not that I stopped thinking
of those things, but...

408
00:24:00,549 --> 00:24:02,968
I just wish I could tell Helen, you know?

409
00:24:05,178 --> 00:24:07,013
I wanna tell her that I met her uncle

410
00:24:08,264 --> 00:24:09,683
and that her dad's alive.

411
00:24:11,226 --> 00:24:13,604
It just feels weird that I
know and she doesn't.

412
00:24:15,564 --> 00:24:18,066
[Kimberly] I'm sorry, Alice.

413
00:24:24,531 --> 00:24:25,699
I'm so tired.

414
00:24:27,367 --> 00:24:30,120
I just can't, I don't know.

415
00:24:30,203 --> 00:24:31,121
I'm just so tired.

416
00:24:31,204 --> 00:24:33,665
Well, you can come stay
here for a bit, if you want.

417
00:24:34,290 --> 00:24:35,876
While mom and dad are still gone.

418
00:24:37,127 --> 00:24:38,336
Maybe I will soon.

419
00:24:42,549 --> 00:24:46,512
Are you gonna talk to Jimmy again?

420
00:24:46,595 --> 00:24:47,595
I think so.

421
00:24:50,181 --> 00:24:51,808
[Kimberly] No, that is interesting.

422
00:24:51,892 --> 00:24:54,603
Here, you can highlight it if you want.

423
00:24:58,732 --> 00:24:59,691
[Leah] Have you heard
from your roommate yet?

424
00:24:59,733 --> 00:25:01,878
[Kimberly] Yeah, I just
got a text from her last night.

425
00:25:01,902 --> 00:25:03,695
Her name's Rebecca.

426
00:25:03,779 --> 00:25:05,488
She's from Utah.

427
00:25:05,572 --> 00:25:08,283
She's a biochem major.

428
00:25:09,117 --> 00:25:11,703
She said she's the small
group coordinator for our hall.

429
00:25:11,787 --> 00:25:13,163
Ooh. (Kimberly huffs)

430
00:25:13,246 --> 00:25:16,207
I don't want to room with
a small group coordinator.

431
00:25:16,291 --> 00:25:17,167
It can't be so bad.

432
00:25:17,250 --> 00:25:18,710
I ran our small group last year.

433
00:25:18,794 --> 00:25:21,254
Yeah, but you're the
exception to the rule, you know?

434
00:25:21,755 --> 00:25:24,090
I think you're judging too soon.

435
00:25:24,174 --> 00:25:25,300
I guarantee you,

436
00:25:25,383 --> 00:25:27,803
I won't be able to keep drinks in the room.

437
00:25:27,886 --> 00:25:29,304
I mean, technically,

438
00:25:29,387 --> 00:25:31,139
you could get in trouble for that anyway.

439
00:25:31,222 --> 00:25:33,600
Yeah, I know! That's why it's so fun.

440
00:25:34,601 --> 00:25:37,437
I just think that if you
agree to the rules of a place,

441
00:25:37,520 --> 00:25:40,691
like if you willingly sign up to go there,

442
00:25:41,149 --> 00:25:44,152
then you just kinda
have to live with the rules.

443
00:25:45,070 --> 00:25:46,756
I don't know, like go to a different school

444
00:25:46,780 --> 00:25:47,906
if you don't want to-

445
00:25:47,989 --> 00:25:48,865
[Kimberly] Go to a different school?

446
00:25:48,907 --> 00:25:52,828
No, I didn't mean actually
go to a different school,

447
00:25:52,911 --> 00:25:53,620
I just mean-

448
00:25:53,704 --> 00:25:56,372
All the people I know aren't
going to a different school.

449
00:25:57,290 --> 00:26:01,086
I just think that you might be agreeing

450
00:26:01,169 --> 00:26:03,839
to not do some of the things
that you might wanna do.

451
00:26:05,006 --> 00:26:08,844
Oh my god, have they
drafted you as an RA already?

452
00:26:08,927 --> 00:26:10,804
Are you gonna be like a red shirt RA,

453
00:26:10,887 --> 00:26:12,198
where they train you your first year?

454
00:26:12,222 --> 00:26:13,222
No.

455
00:26:14,265 --> 00:26:16,077
[Kimberly] Oh my god, why
are you pulling out your phone?

456
00:26:16,101 --> 00:26:17,853
Are you texting your RA group chat?

457
00:26:18,311 --> 00:26:20,105
No, I got a text from my mom.

458
00:26:23,609 --> 00:26:25,986
Okay, sorry, I was
literally just trying to complain

459
00:26:26,069 --> 00:26:28,864
about something that
doesn't even affect you.

460
00:26:28,947 --> 00:26:29,947
It's okay.

461
00:26:31,700 --> 00:26:32,700
Okay, whatever.

462
00:26:33,534 --> 00:26:34,745
What does your mom need?

463
00:26:36,287 --> 00:26:37,372
She, like, wants to plant

464
00:26:37,455 --> 00:26:39,124
like a hundred plants or something.

465
00:26:41,668 --> 00:26:42,687
It's okay if you need to go help her,

466
00:26:42,711 --> 00:26:44,630
I forgot I have to practice anyways.

467
00:26:45,463 --> 00:26:46,757
Are you singing on Sunday?

468
00:26:47,298 --> 00:26:49,550
In a couple Sundays. (Sighs)

469
00:26:51,344 --> 00:26:53,263
Well, if you want me to go-

470
00:26:53,346 --> 00:26:56,474
It's not that I want
you to go, it's just that,

471
00:26:56,557 --> 00:26:59,936
like, if you have things to
do, I have things to do too.

472
00:27:00,020 --> 00:27:01,020
Okay.

473
00:27:04,107 --> 00:27:05,942
Sounds like my roommate's a party animal,

474
00:27:06,026 --> 00:27:09,070
so if you ever get tired of
small group coordinating,

475
00:27:09,154 --> 00:27:11,489
I'm sure you can come
over and have a drink there.

476
00:27:12,615 --> 00:27:13,615
Thanks, Leah.

477
00:27:19,998 --> 00:27:22,751
(Kimberly sighs)

478
00:27:49,945 --> 00:27:53,031
(footsteps thumping)

479
00:27:56,367 --> 00:27:58,078
(Kimberly sighs)

480
00:27:58,161 --> 00:28:00,914
(birds chirping)

481
00:28:05,711 --> 00:28:07,170
What do you want me to do?

482
00:28:07,253 --> 00:28:09,422
What do you want me to do?

483
00:28:10,924 --> 00:28:12,068
I'm fucking tired of this shit.

484
00:28:12,092 --> 00:28:13,343
I just wanna scream at someone.

485
00:28:13,426 --> 00:28:16,763
I'm tired of people telling
me to be nice all the time.

486
00:28:16,847 --> 00:28:20,225
I'd almost prefer if they
just told me to burn in hell.

487
00:28:20,308 --> 00:28:22,352
And you can't bother to give anyone a sign

488
00:28:22,435 --> 00:28:24,062
telling them they've got it wrong.

489
00:28:25,105 --> 00:28:28,066
You want them to figure
it out for themselves.

490
00:28:28,149 --> 00:28:29,901
I've come here every day since I was a kid,

491
00:28:29,985 --> 00:28:31,611
and all I've heard is that you want me

492
00:28:31,694 --> 00:28:33,279
to figure it out for myself.

493
00:28:33,363 --> 00:28:36,366
So say something right
now if You care so much.

494
00:28:36,449 --> 00:28:39,202
(birds chirping)

495
00:28:42,705 --> 00:28:46,793
♪ Abide with me ♪

496
00:28:46,877 --> 00:28:51,882
♪ Fast falls the eventide ♪

497
00:28:54,300 --> 00:28:59,305
♪ The darkness deepens ♪

498
00:29:00,431 --> 00:29:05,436
♪ Lord, with me abide ♪

499
00:29:06,562 --> 00:29:11,567
♪ When other helpers ♪

500
00:29:12,527 --> 00:29:17,532
♪ Fail and comforts flee ♪

501
00:29:18,408 --> 00:29:22,871
♪ Help of the helpless ♪

502
00:29:22,954 --> 00:29:25,957
♪ Oh, abide with me ♪

503
00:29:29,836 --> 00:29:32,755
[Mrs. Roland] Okay, great! We're good.

504
00:29:32,839 --> 00:29:33,631
(Pastor Roland claps heartily)

505
00:29:33,673 --> 00:29:34,507
It's really beautiful!

506
00:29:34,590 --> 00:29:36,051
It's really coming together!

507
00:29:37,177 --> 00:29:38,887
Kimberly!

508
00:29:38,970 --> 00:29:39,595
Hi!

509
00:29:39,679 --> 00:29:41,222
You guys sounded awesome.

510
00:29:41,306 --> 00:29:42,640
Thank you.

511
00:29:42,723 --> 00:29:44,642
I've been meaning to ask you,

512
00:29:44,725 --> 00:29:47,562
usually Laura and I have
every senior over for dinner

513
00:29:47,645 --> 00:29:49,815
before they leave to college.

514
00:29:49,898 --> 00:29:51,191
Especially since your parents

515
00:29:51,274 --> 00:29:53,276
are on a mission trip this month,

516
00:29:53,359 --> 00:29:56,321
we could save you from
one night of cooking at least.

517
00:29:56,404 --> 00:29:57,530
Yeah, totally!

518
00:29:57,613 --> 00:29:59,657
Thank you, I appreciate that.

519
00:29:59,740 --> 00:30:01,034
That would be really nice.

520
00:30:01,910 --> 00:30:03,054
[Pastor Roland] Do you
remember coming over

521
00:30:03,078 --> 00:30:04,120
when you were little?

522
00:30:04,204 --> 00:30:05,663
Yeah, I remember.

523
00:30:08,083 --> 00:30:10,293
- Bethany!
- Yeah?

524
00:30:10,376 --> 00:30:13,088
Do you remember Kimberly
coming over when you were little?

525
00:30:13,171 --> 00:30:14,171
Yeah.

526
00:30:14,214 --> 00:30:16,716
We used to put all our stuffed
animals on the trampoline.

527
00:30:16,799 --> 00:30:17,944
[Kimberly] I can bring 'em.

528
00:30:17,968 --> 00:30:19,094
We can all go bounce around.

529
00:30:19,177 --> 00:30:21,096
(Pastor Roland laughs)

530
00:30:22,097 --> 00:30:24,850
I was just inviting
Kimberly over for dinner soon

531
00:30:24,933 --> 00:30:27,477
since her parents are on
a mission trip this month.

532
00:30:28,103 --> 00:30:30,146
Oh, yeah, that sounds fun.

533
00:30:30,230 --> 00:30:32,230
[Mrs. Roland] What do
your parents say, Kimberly?

534
00:30:32,565 --> 00:30:33,625
I think they're doing well.

535
00:30:33,649 --> 00:30:35,735
Um, building houses.

536
00:30:36,611 --> 00:30:39,405
They told me their group's
house count is at two so far.

537
00:30:39,489 --> 00:30:40,448
[Mrs. Roland] That's wonderful!

538
00:30:40,490 --> 00:30:41,490
Yeah.

539
00:30:42,909 --> 00:30:44,011
(Kimberly chuckles awkwardly)

540
00:30:44,035 --> 00:30:45,370
(dogs barking at a distance)

541
00:30:45,912 --> 00:30:48,999
(footsteps thumping)

542
00:30:51,960 --> 00:30:54,963
(knocking on door)

543
00:30:56,256 --> 00:30:58,008
[Chelsea] Here you go.

544
00:30:58,091 --> 00:30:59,425
Thank you.

545
00:30:59,509 --> 00:31:00,611
[Chelsea] Yeah, you're welcome.

546
00:31:00,635 --> 00:31:02,387
[Jimmy] So you see Alice often then?

547
00:31:02,470 --> 00:31:04,014
Oh yes, almost every week.

548
00:31:05,056 --> 00:31:06,450
Do you have any family in the area?

549
00:31:06,474 --> 00:31:08,768
[Chelsea] Um, well,
not since Helen, and...

550
00:31:08,851 --> 00:31:10,520
Well, before that, Charlotte.

551
00:31:10,603 --> 00:31:11,521
Helen's mother?

552
00:31:11,604 --> 00:31:13,606
Yes, but that was several years ago now.

553
00:31:16,317 --> 00:31:18,778
I can't believe he never
came back all those years.

554
00:31:19,737 --> 00:31:20,738
Neither can I.

555
00:31:22,782 --> 00:31:24,617
Charlotte never said much about him.

556
00:31:24,700 --> 00:31:26,744
She didn't even have a picture of him.

557
00:31:28,246 --> 00:31:30,540
She said he turned
out to be a real shitheel,

558
00:31:32,125 --> 00:31:33,751
and that was about all she said.

559
00:31:34,794 --> 00:31:36,922
Well, you know, my brother is, um...

560
00:31:38,298 --> 00:31:40,466
He's a real egotist.

561
00:31:40,550 --> 00:31:41,968
He only thinks of himself.

562
00:31:43,094 --> 00:31:43,886
To shoot straight with you,

563
00:31:43,929 --> 00:31:46,639
he doesn't really feel like family anymore.

564
00:31:46,722 --> 00:31:50,268
- Just an obligation.
- [Chelsea] Mm-hm.

565
00:31:50,351 --> 00:31:52,979
But yeah, thicker than water, I guess.

566
00:31:53,063 --> 00:31:55,315
(Jimmy and Chelsea chuckle)

567
00:31:55,398 --> 00:31:56,732
But to hell with my brother.

568
00:31:56,816 --> 00:31:59,694
I'm here because I wanna
find out a little bit about Helen.

569
00:31:59,777 --> 00:32:00,611
Okay.

570
00:32:00,695 --> 00:32:02,006
She must've spent a lot of time here.

571
00:32:02,030 --> 00:32:05,408
Yep, she came over
a lot when she was little,

572
00:32:06,451 --> 00:32:08,578
afternoons after school,

573
00:32:08,661 --> 00:32:10,455
when Charlotte was working.

574
00:32:10,538 --> 00:32:13,041
And then after Charlotte
died, I took her in.

575
00:32:13,874 --> 00:32:15,918
Her friends would come over,

576
00:32:16,002 --> 00:32:18,129
and they would have
sleepovers on the weekends

577
00:32:18,213 --> 00:32:21,341
and walk over to the park
or go down to the water,

578
00:32:21,424 --> 00:32:22,258
when they were old enough.

579
00:32:22,300 --> 00:32:24,094
And then once she started college,

580
00:32:24,177 --> 00:32:26,346
she came and lived here a couple summers.

581
00:32:27,305 --> 00:32:28,907
I still have some of her things up there,

582
00:32:28,931 --> 00:32:30,016
if you'd like to see.

583
00:32:30,891 --> 00:32:32,477
Yeah, I would.

584
00:32:32,560 --> 00:32:34,980
Well, okay, let me show you.

585
00:32:42,070 --> 00:32:44,905
(bag zipper zips)

586
00:32:46,907 --> 00:32:48,243
Sorry, my parents always like

587
00:32:48,326 --> 00:32:49,827
to bring up everyone's childhoods.

588
00:32:49,910 --> 00:32:53,748
[Kimberly] Oh no,
it's okay. They're nice.

589
00:32:53,831 --> 00:32:57,002
Sometimes the pastor
energy gets a little exhausting.

590
00:32:57,085 --> 00:32:58,336
It does, huh?

591
00:32:58,419 --> 00:33:00,171
(Bethany chuckles)

592
00:33:00,255 --> 00:33:03,216
Come on, there's gotta be
some advantages though, right?

593
00:33:03,299 --> 00:33:05,968
Being the pastor's daughter
means you know some secrets?

594
00:33:06,052 --> 00:33:09,180
Uh, I don't know about secrets.

595
00:33:09,264 --> 00:33:10,449
[Choir Member] See you later!

596
00:33:10,473 --> 00:33:11,473
See you!

597
00:33:13,184 --> 00:33:14,411
Okay, there's no one to overhear you now.

598
00:33:14,435 --> 00:33:16,229
You can reveal your secrets.

599
00:33:16,312 --> 00:33:18,523
(chuckles) Um.

600
00:33:18,606 --> 00:33:20,566
[Kimberly] Come on, no secret passages

601
00:33:20,650 --> 00:33:22,152
or hidden doorways or anything?

602
00:33:22,235 --> 00:33:26,281
Um, my dad had a
locked closet in his office

603
00:33:26,364 --> 00:33:27,740
we were never allowed into.

604
00:33:27,823 --> 00:33:29,034
[Kimberly] Had or has?

605
00:33:29,117 --> 00:33:30,493
Has, I guess.

606
00:33:30,576 --> 00:33:32,328
I haven't thought about it in a while.

607
00:33:32,412 --> 00:33:33,996
Why weren't you allowed into it?

608
00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:35,165
I don't know.

609
00:33:35,248 --> 00:33:37,667
I think maybe he has some
expensive things in there.

610
00:33:38,501 --> 00:33:40,295
Sacred old texts or whatever.

611
00:33:40,378 --> 00:33:41,730
[Kimberly] I feel like if
it was sacred old texts,

612
00:33:41,754 --> 00:33:43,839
he'd let you see them, you know.

613
00:33:43,923 --> 00:33:44,965
Maybe you're right.

614
00:33:46,301 --> 00:33:47,301
So mysterious.

615
00:33:48,636 --> 00:33:51,389
I do have some CDs in
the corner over here though,

616
00:33:51,472 --> 00:33:54,559
but that's not really a secret.

617
00:33:54,642 --> 00:33:55,642
[Kimberly] CDs?

618
00:33:56,061 --> 00:33:57,538
Sometimes, before I could drive myself,

619
00:33:57,562 --> 00:33:58,914
I'd get stuck here after the service

620
00:33:58,938 --> 00:34:02,067
while my dad met with
people in his office or whatever.

621
00:34:02,150 --> 00:34:05,653
So I'd come in here and listen to music

622
00:34:05,736 --> 00:34:10,741
and draw or read or just sit here.

623
00:34:12,868 --> 00:34:14,508
[Kimberly] I wanna see your collection.

624
00:34:20,793 --> 00:34:23,421
It's mostly Christian stuff.

625
00:34:23,504 --> 00:34:24,815
I couldn't listen to anything too edgy

626
00:34:24,839 --> 00:34:26,299
in case my dad walked in.

627
00:34:26,382 --> 00:34:29,344
Like, I couldn't listen to anything sexy.

628
00:34:29,427 --> 00:34:31,554
Ooh. (Kimberly and Bethany laugh)

629
00:34:32,513 --> 00:34:33,806
If this is a ploy to distract me

630
00:34:33,889 --> 00:34:36,434
from the real secrets
though, it's not gonna work.

631
00:34:36,517 --> 00:34:39,979
I don't know about secrets,

632
00:34:40,062 --> 00:34:42,107
but I might have some spooky stories.

633
00:34:43,065 --> 00:34:45,025
[Kimberly] I'll accept
that as a substitute.

634
00:34:45,110 --> 00:34:49,155
Okay, do you remember Mr. Greenleaf?

635
00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:50,507
You mean the one who had the aneurysm?

636
00:34:50,531 --> 00:34:52,283
- Yeah.
- Yeah, I remember him.

637
00:34:53,576 --> 00:34:55,411
I was in the room when it happened.

638
00:34:57,663 --> 00:34:59,332
Did you feel anything different?

639
00:34:59,915 --> 00:35:00,791
What do you mean?

640
00:35:00,875 --> 00:35:04,379
I don't know, like before
you knew what had happened,

641
00:35:06,297 --> 00:35:07,465
did you feel anything?

642
00:35:09,467 --> 00:35:13,638
I didn't feel anything, but I did see...

643
00:35:15,473 --> 00:35:17,892
I saw this little flash
of light out the window.

644
00:35:19,059 --> 00:35:20,353
It could've just been the sun

645
00:35:20,436 --> 00:35:23,063
reflecting off a car or
something, you know?

646
00:35:23,148 --> 00:35:25,400
But it didn't seem like it.

647
00:35:28,194 --> 00:35:29,320
It's probably nothing.

648
00:35:30,280 --> 00:35:32,740
Everyone seems to think
the story's bullshit anyway.

649
00:35:32,823 --> 00:35:34,325
I don't think it's bullshit.

650
00:35:38,704 --> 00:35:41,416
How many people do you
think have died in this church?

651
00:35:43,293 --> 00:35:45,670
I guess this building's been here

652
00:35:45,753 --> 00:35:47,004
for a really a long time.

653
00:35:48,589 --> 00:35:49,840
I was just curious.

654
00:35:49,924 --> 00:35:52,843
I did hear they used to
have people in hospice here.

655
00:35:52,927 --> 00:35:54,053
A long time ago.

656
00:35:55,388 --> 00:35:57,014
These are the fucking secrets

657
00:35:57,097 --> 00:35:59,058
you should've been telling me, Bethany!

658
00:35:59,141 --> 00:36:00,560
There could be ghosts! Ooh.

659
00:36:00,643 --> 00:36:03,354
What if the ghosts don't
want anyone to know?

660
00:36:03,438 --> 00:36:05,190
Maybe they paid me off.

661
00:36:06,148 --> 00:36:09,527
I think they'd all be old
harmless church people.

662
00:36:11,404 --> 00:36:13,030
I'm gonna guess 30.

663
00:36:13,113 --> 00:36:14,114
30 ghosts?

664
00:36:14,199 --> 00:36:17,702
- 30 people who have died!
- That's a lot.

665
00:36:17,785 --> 00:36:20,913
(Kimberly and Bethany chuckle)

666
00:36:22,540 --> 00:36:24,041
Play me something.

667
00:36:30,130 --> 00:36:31,507
This was her room.

668
00:36:35,010 --> 00:36:37,179
Books are still here, pictures.

669
00:36:38,723 --> 00:36:40,516
Was she a religious person?

670
00:36:40,600 --> 00:36:42,852
[Chelsea] Religious, not especially.

671
00:36:42,935 --> 00:36:44,788
Charlotte took her to
church when she was little,

672
00:36:44,812 --> 00:36:47,147
but Helen never really took to it.

673
00:36:47,232 --> 00:36:49,442
And Charlotte died when
she was in high school,

674
00:36:49,525 --> 00:36:52,653
so she sort of followed my
lead after that, I suppose.

675
00:36:53,571 --> 00:36:55,006
[Jimmy] You're not much of a churchgoer?

676
00:36:55,030 --> 00:36:58,618
No. I like to sin.

677
00:36:58,701 --> 00:36:59,452
So do I.

678
00:36:59,535 --> 00:37:00,846
[Chelsea] She did go to church sometimes

679
00:37:00,870 --> 00:37:02,204
with Alice, though.

680
00:37:02,288 --> 00:37:05,666
I have her journals if you'd like to see.

681
00:37:08,878 --> 00:37:10,921
You know, Helen and I shared some sense of

682
00:37:11,005 --> 00:37:12,465
the spiritual, though.

683
00:37:12,548 --> 00:37:14,925
She was very in tune with that kinda thing.

684
00:37:15,009 --> 00:37:15,744
[Jimmy] In what way?

685
00:37:15,801 --> 00:37:17,177
Well, I remember her telling me

686
00:37:17,262 --> 00:37:19,281
how she always felt something
different about the water.

687
00:37:19,305 --> 00:37:22,558
She could sense a presence there.

688
00:37:22,642 --> 00:37:23,893
Presence.

689
00:37:23,976 --> 00:37:26,562
Maybe I felt it too, now and again.

690
00:37:28,523 --> 00:37:30,566
It's nothing to be afraid of.

691
00:37:30,650 --> 00:37:31,859
[Jimmy] What do you mean?

692
00:37:31,942 --> 00:37:33,611
Well, I don't know what it is.

693
00:37:33,694 --> 00:37:36,238
But when I was young, my uncle told me

694
00:37:36,322 --> 00:37:39,199
it was the spirits of the
sailors who die at sea

695
00:37:39,284 --> 00:37:41,869
who come back and
stand watch on the coasts.

696
00:37:41,952 --> 00:37:43,746
He said there was something else,

697
00:37:43,829 --> 00:37:48,250
something deeper out there,
that they had to keep at bay.

698
00:37:49,001 --> 00:37:50,001
[Jimmy] Hmm.

699
00:37:50,503 --> 00:37:54,799
So sometimes when I go down to the water,

700
00:37:54,882 --> 00:37:55,925
I think of them.

701
00:37:57,259 --> 00:38:00,430
I think of them far out at sea at night.

702
00:38:04,850 --> 00:38:07,853
Um, I gotta get going, so.

703
00:38:08,979 --> 00:38:10,648
Oh, okay.

704
00:38:15,653 --> 00:38:16,737
[Jimmy] Thank you.

705
00:38:16,821 --> 00:38:17,863
- Thanks again.
- Yeah.

706
00:38:19,449 --> 00:38:21,116
You're welcome. Thanks for coming.

707
00:38:28,833 --> 00:38:31,126
(police siren wailing in the distance)

708
00:38:43,431 --> 00:38:47,977
Okay, this might just
creep us out even more,

709
00:38:48,936 --> 00:38:49,936
but I've got it.

710
00:39:00,365 --> 00:39:04,118
(drums beating rhythmically)

711
00:39:23,471 --> 00:39:25,111
♪ A red priest broke into our classroom ♪

712
00:39:25,139 --> 00:39:27,224
[Bethany] Come on, you
can't dance sitting down.

713
00:39:27,307 --> 00:39:31,020
♪ Caught us children by attention ♪

714
00:39:31,103 --> 00:39:34,148
♪ Listen closely to the words I speak ♪

715
00:39:34,231 --> 00:39:38,778
♪ Lord knows if we'll
ever, ever again meet ♪

716
00:39:38,861 --> 00:39:42,948
♪ Spoke such words never spoken before ♪

717
00:39:43,032 --> 00:39:46,869
♪ On the way he declared the war ♪

718
00:39:46,952 --> 00:39:49,747
♪ Miracles like you've never seen ♪

719
00:39:49,830 --> 00:39:54,209
♪ From a man who was raised up in the sea ♪

720
00:39:54,293 --> 00:39:58,548
♪ A man is coming in thirteen-one ♪

721
00:39:58,631 --> 00:40:02,427
♪ To charm the daughters and the sons ♪

722
00:40:02,510 --> 00:40:05,513
♪ Scared for our lives,
I turned to your hands ♪

723
00:40:05,596 --> 00:40:09,975
♪ Hold us tight while
we run, if we still can ♪

724
00:40:23,698 --> 00:40:27,535
♪ What disasters may come ♪

725
00:40:27,618 --> 00:40:31,371
♪ Whatever it may be ♪

726
00:40:31,456 --> 00:40:35,209
♪ At the end of the age ♪

727
00:40:35,292 --> 00:40:39,046
♪ It will land you and me ♪

728
00:40:39,129 --> 00:40:43,342
♪ What tragedy may bring ♪

729
00:40:43,425 --> 00:40:47,346
♪ Whatever may fall ♪

730
00:40:47,429 --> 00:40:51,391
♪ The end of the world ♪

731
00:40:51,476 --> 00:40:54,645
♪ You'll still belong ♪

732
00:41:09,744 --> 00:41:13,288
♪ Before the red priest
took his last breath ♪

733
00:41:13,372 --> 00:41:17,167
♪ He told me, child, now don't forget ♪

734
00:41:17,251 --> 00:41:20,755
♪ The sun will turn dark very soon ♪

735
00:41:20,838 --> 00:41:25,217
♪ Your days are numbered
when there's blood on the moon ♪

736
00:41:25,300 --> 00:41:29,138
♪ The earth will shake
and the sky will fall ♪

737
00:41:29,221 --> 00:41:33,183
♪ The eyes will open of those involved ♪

738
00:41:33,267 --> 00:41:36,186
♪ Don't take this son,
but you'll be killed ♪

739
00:41:36,270 --> 00:41:40,900
♪ By the man from seven hills ♪

740
00:41:40,983 --> 00:41:44,987
♪ A man is coming in thirteen-one ♪

741
00:41:45,070 --> 00:41:46,531
♪ To charm the daughters ♪

742
00:41:46,614 --> 00:41:50,492
(car engine screeches)
- What the fuck!

743
00:41:50,576 --> 00:41:53,078
(Jimmy sighs)

744
00:42:02,755 --> 00:42:06,508
[Kimberly] Ever since, I
can remember all the times

745
00:42:06,592 --> 00:42:08,135
I went over to Chelsea's house,

746
00:42:08,218 --> 00:42:11,180
you know, since Alice and
Helen were still together.

747
00:42:12,640 --> 00:42:14,492
And sometimes Alice
would be stuck in class late,

748
00:42:14,516 --> 00:42:16,185
and I'd go up to Helen's room

749
00:42:16,268 --> 00:42:17,937
and hang out with her for a while.

750
00:42:20,439 --> 00:42:23,150
She had such a strong presence,

751
00:42:24,276 --> 00:42:26,195
like you can just feel when she's around.

752
00:42:26,278 --> 00:42:28,197
Did you know her, do you know what I mean?

753
00:42:28,280 --> 00:42:29,156
[Bethany] I didn't know her that well,

754
00:42:29,198 --> 00:42:31,491
but I've known people like that.

755
00:42:34,286 --> 00:42:36,056
[Kimberly] Sometimes when
I go over to Chelsea's house,

756
00:42:36,080 --> 00:42:39,208
it's like I can still feel Helen there.

757
00:42:41,460 --> 00:42:44,171
In her room, or in the kitchen, or,

758
00:42:44,254 --> 00:42:45,965
especially in the backyard.

759
00:42:46,048 --> 00:42:49,009
She spent a lot of time out
there reading in the summer,

760
00:42:49,093 --> 00:42:50,344
or practicing lines.

761
00:42:51,637 --> 00:42:52,989
Or when they had their
college friends over,

762
00:42:53,013 --> 00:42:54,264
sometimes I got to tag along,

763
00:42:54,348 --> 00:42:58,560
and they'd make a fire, and
people would play music and...

764
00:43:00,562 --> 00:43:03,065
(Kimberly sighs)

765
00:43:03,148 --> 00:43:08,028
I think I just, I don't
like thinking about her

766
00:43:08,112 --> 00:43:11,240
up in that lake, all alone, after dark.

767
00:43:12,950 --> 00:43:16,078
I hiked there with
Alice. It gets deep fast.

768
00:43:18,580 --> 00:43:20,791
And she didn't realize, you know?

769
00:43:20,875 --> 00:43:24,211
She had no idea what was
going to happen to her that day.

770
00:43:27,464 --> 00:43:29,067
My parents keep saying,
"She's in a better place.

771
00:43:29,091 --> 00:43:29,967
She's in a better place."

772
00:43:30,050 --> 00:43:32,136
But sometimes I feel like she's not.

773
00:43:33,470 --> 00:43:37,432
I feel like she's just here.

774
00:43:39,852 --> 00:43:40,853
Like the rest of us.

775
00:43:51,155 --> 00:43:53,741
(reflective music)

776
00:44:18,808 --> 00:44:23,228
(background music drowns out voices)

777
00:45:24,623 --> 00:45:26,125
I get what you're saying though.

778
00:45:26,208 --> 00:45:27,477
We're supposed to believe the whole thing,

779
00:45:27,501 --> 00:45:28,878
but if parts of it are wrong,

780
00:45:28,961 --> 00:45:31,088
like what about the rest of it?

781
00:45:31,171 --> 00:45:34,049
Like, God tells Moses to
massacre an entire tribe

782
00:45:34,133 --> 00:45:35,217
except the virgins?

783
00:45:35,300 --> 00:45:36,820
[Bethany] I asked my
dad about that part too,

784
00:45:36,844 --> 00:45:38,512
and he literally just said,

785
00:45:38,595 --> 00:45:40,806
"God does things we
don't understand sometimes

786
00:45:40,890 --> 00:45:42,224
and He knows better than we do."

787
00:45:42,307 --> 00:45:43,409
[Kimberly] Yeah, and
none of it can be wrong,

788
00:45:43,433 --> 00:45:44,559
because Jesus didn't come

789
00:45:44,643 --> 00:45:48,022
to abolish the law or the
prophets, but to fulfill them.

790
00:45:48,105 --> 00:45:49,290
I had to memorize that one too.

791
00:45:49,314 --> 00:45:53,360
"One jot or tittle shall in
no wise pass from the law."

792
00:45:53,443 --> 00:45:55,338
I used to think tittle
meant titty when I was a kid.

793
00:45:55,362 --> 00:45:56,781
I think it does.

794
00:45:56,864 --> 00:45:58,884
That's why it's best to read
the King James Version.

795
00:45:58,908 --> 00:46:01,701
The NIV people didn't have
the courage to leave it in.

796
00:46:01,786 --> 00:46:02,971
[Kimberly] (snorts) If you wanna know

797
00:46:02,995 --> 00:46:04,663
how excited I am about college,

798
00:46:04,746 --> 00:46:06,331
my admissions counselor asked me

799
00:46:06,415 --> 00:46:08,083
which translation was my favorite.

800
00:46:08,167 --> 00:46:10,502
(chuckles) Consider yourself lucky.

801
00:46:11,461 --> 00:46:14,256
I'm going to Edwards, which
is even more, you know,

802
00:46:14,339 --> 00:46:17,467
like girls and guys can't
even visit each other

803
00:46:17,551 --> 00:46:18,969
on their floors.

804
00:46:19,053 --> 00:46:20,095
- Really?
- Yeah.

805
00:46:20,179 --> 00:46:21,430
Except for Fridays, I think.

806
00:46:21,513 --> 00:46:23,015
Casual fuck Fridays.

807
00:46:23,098 --> 00:46:24,558
[Bethany] (laughs) Exactly.

808
00:46:26,018 --> 00:46:28,728
(groans) My dad is
friends with Mr. Bushnell,

809
00:46:28,813 --> 00:46:30,898
and Mr. Bushnell is on
the board of Edwards,

810
00:46:30,981 --> 00:46:34,234
and I think he feels like he
has some kind of influence.

811
00:46:34,318 --> 00:46:35,796
[Kimberly] Maybe
Mr. Bushnell could convince them

812
00:46:35,820 --> 00:46:36,860
to drop some of the rules.

813
00:46:36,904 --> 00:46:37,988
I'll ask him.

814
00:46:38,072 --> 00:46:39,781
"Mr. Bushnell, have you considered

815
00:46:39,865 --> 00:46:41,992
a pro-casual fuck stance?"

816
00:46:42,076 --> 00:46:42,952
(Kimberly clears throat)

817
00:46:43,035 --> 00:46:45,704
Why, yes, Bethany, funny you should ask.

818
00:46:45,787 --> 00:46:49,291
In fact, my wife was
asking me the same thing.

819
00:46:49,374 --> 00:46:51,919
Oh, does that mean you'll
be distributing free condoms

820
00:46:52,002 --> 00:46:52,920
to all Edwards students?

821
00:46:53,003 --> 00:46:56,966
No, Bethany, the Lord
gives good Christian men

822
00:46:57,049 --> 00:46:59,134
the strength to pull out.

823
00:46:59,218 --> 00:47:01,887
If you use birth control, that
means you don't trust God.

824
00:47:01,971 --> 00:47:05,515
Huh, where does God
want men to cum instead?

825
00:47:05,599 --> 00:47:06,308
(Kimberly chuckles)

826
00:47:06,391 --> 00:47:08,352
(Kimberly clears throat)

827
00:47:08,435 --> 00:47:09,561
Wherever the spirit leads.

828
00:47:09,644 --> 00:47:13,190
If you see a tongue of flame
appear above her breasts...

829
00:47:13,273 --> 00:47:14,191
(Bethany and Kimberly laugh)

830
00:47:14,233 --> 00:47:17,611
Oh my God, okay, I gotta
stop being Mr. Bushnell now.

831
00:47:17,694 --> 00:47:19,464
Like, even the small amount
of his spirit I've channeled

832
00:47:19,488 --> 00:47:20,948
feels like way too much.

833
00:47:21,031 --> 00:47:22,992
I think you need an exorcism.

834
00:47:24,534 --> 00:47:26,620
Okay, how does it work?

835
00:47:26,703 --> 00:47:27,787
Uh, I think

836
00:47:31,458 --> 00:47:35,087
I just need to hold a cross to your face.

837
00:47:36,463 --> 00:47:38,715
You'll feel a slight burning sensation,

838
00:47:38,798 --> 00:47:39,798
and then you'll be free.

839
00:47:42,970 --> 00:47:43,970
I'm ready.

840
00:47:47,892 --> 00:47:49,476
Oh, yeah, it definitely stings.

841
00:47:50,560 --> 00:47:52,320
I can totally feel
something leaving my body.

842
00:47:54,273 --> 00:47:55,690
(Kimberly gasps)

843
00:47:56,150 --> 00:47:57,359
[Bethany] There you go.

844
00:47:57,943 --> 00:48:01,196
Thank you. I finally
feel like Kimberly again.

845
00:48:01,280 --> 00:48:03,448
Prove it. What's something
only Kimberly would say?

846
00:48:03,532 --> 00:48:08,828
Uh, I don't know.

847
00:48:08,913 --> 00:48:10,539
You're not helping your case.

848
00:48:10,622 --> 00:48:11,623
Give me a hint.

849
00:48:11,706 --> 00:48:13,476
You want me to give
you a hint about yourself?

850
00:48:13,500 --> 00:48:14,418
[Kimberly] Yes.

851
00:48:14,501 --> 00:48:15,877
(laughs) Okay.

852
00:48:15,961 --> 00:48:19,256
Um, when we were little,
you'd come over to my house

853
00:48:19,339 --> 00:48:21,179
and you'd always talk
about how afraid you were

854
00:48:21,258 --> 00:48:23,552
of dying in a plane crash,

855
00:48:23,635 --> 00:48:26,763
how afraid you were of
dying from a brain tumor,

856
00:48:27,764 --> 00:48:31,435
how afraid you were of
dying in an earthquake,

857
00:48:31,518 --> 00:48:34,021
and all sorts of other death situations.

858
00:48:34,104 --> 00:48:35,290
But there was one that you were afraid of

859
00:48:35,314 --> 00:48:36,356
more than anything.

860
00:48:38,192 --> 00:48:40,735
Yeah, it was the mountain erupting.

861
00:48:41,861 --> 00:48:43,072
Still your number one?

862
00:48:44,531 --> 00:48:45,907
No, I don't think so.

863
00:48:47,492 --> 00:48:48,910
It just makes me really sad.

864
00:48:49,744 --> 00:48:50,888
But I'm not actually scared of it.

865
00:48:50,912 --> 00:48:54,333
Like, I actually might put it
as my number one way to die.

866
00:48:55,584 --> 00:48:57,294
What part?

867
00:48:57,377 --> 00:49:00,297
Drowning, melting, getting buried in rocks?

868
00:49:00,380 --> 00:49:04,468
Um, just swept away.

869
00:49:05,760 --> 00:49:06,845
Yeah, getting swept away

870
00:49:06,928 --> 00:49:08,973
until you get hit in the
head by a tree trunk.

871
00:49:09,056 --> 00:49:09,764
(Kimberly and Bethany laugh)

872
00:49:09,806 --> 00:49:11,683
Have I proven myself?

873
00:49:11,766 --> 00:49:12,977
You're getting closer.

874
00:49:14,436 --> 00:49:19,441
I also know that you have a
stuffed polar bear named Pole.

875
00:49:20,067 --> 00:49:21,110
(Bethany laughs)

876
00:49:21,193 --> 00:49:24,738
Which is insider info only
the true Kimberly would know.

877
00:49:24,821 --> 00:49:26,823
Another successful exorcism.

878
00:49:26,906 --> 00:49:30,119
(Kimberly and Bethany laugh)

879
00:49:31,078 --> 00:49:33,622
(paper map rustles)

880
00:49:34,623 --> 00:49:37,584
It's right here.

881
00:49:38,543 --> 00:49:40,170
About a mile up from the trail head.

882
00:49:41,546 --> 00:49:42,589
Okay, okay.

883
00:49:44,383 --> 00:49:45,384
Okay, thank you.

884
00:49:47,886 --> 00:49:49,429
[Alice] Are you Helen's father?

885
00:49:52,057 --> 00:49:52,807
[Jimmy] Huh?

886
00:49:52,891 --> 00:49:54,518
[Alice] Are you Helen's father?

887
00:49:55,852 --> 00:49:56,997
[Jimmy] What would make you think that?

888
00:49:57,021 --> 00:49:59,106
[Alice] Chelsea had a feeling.

889
00:49:59,189 --> 00:50:00,148
[Jimmy] When did you talk to Chelsea?

890
00:50:00,190 --> 00:50:01,983
[Alice] This morning.

891
00:50:02,067 --> 00:50:04,944
[Jimmy] Do you generally
trust Chelsea's feelings?

892
00:50:05,029 --> 00:50:06,029
[Alice] Yes.

893
00:50:08,990 --> 00:50:10,242
[Jimmy] Well.

894
00:50:11,326 --> 00:50:12,577
[Alice] Well?

895
00:50:16,623 --> 00:50:18,292
[Jimmy] Well.

896
00:50:18,542 --> 00:50:20,127
[Alice] Pretty good performance.

897
00:50:20,210 --> 00:50:21,210
Evidently not.

898
00:50:23,505 --> 00:50:26,716
So Helen was alive for 23 years,

899
00:50:27,801 --> 00:50:30,887
and you were alive for those same 23 years?

900
00:50:30,970 --> 00:50:31,970
[Jimmy] Yes.

901
00:50:32,889 --> 00:50:35,142
And you never tried to meet her?

902
00:50:35,225 --> 00:50:36,476
[Jimmy] No.

903
00:50:36,560 --> 00:50:37,560
Why not?

904
00:50:38,603 --> 00:50:41,022
[Jimmy] 'Cause I didn't care then.

905
00:50:41,106 --> 00:50:42,816
You care now all of a sudden?

906
00:50:42,899 --> 00:50:43,899
[Jimmy] Yes.

907
00:50:46,153 --> 00:50:46,986
Why didn't you just-

908
00:50:47,071 --> 00:50:49,049
[Jimmy] I knew Charlotte
wouldn't wanna see me again.

909
00:50:49,073 --> 00:50:50,407
That's enough of a reason.

910
00:50:51,950 --> 00:50:53,327
[Alice] And you didn't miss her?

911
00:50:53,410 --> 00:50:55,662
I didn't know her. How could I miss her?

912
00:50:55,745 --> 00:50:57,414
[Alice] She never knew you either.

913
00:50:57,497 --> 00:51:00,542
Well, it's just not the
way I'm wired, okay?

914
00:51:00,625 --> 00:51:03,087
Look, when I first found out
about what happened to Helen,

915
00:51:03,170 --> 00:51:04,713
I didn't care that much.

916
00:51:04,796 --> 00:51:07,132
I won't pretend that I did, but, you know,

917
00:51:07,216 --> 00:51:09,718
I saw a glimmer of something;

918
00:51:09,801 --> 00:51:12,304
I felt hope that maybe I could care.

919
00:51:12,387 --> 00:51:16,558
I felt something real
pierce through the bullshit.

920
00:51:16,641 --> 00:51:17,642
I wanted to-

921
00:51:17,726 --> 00:51:21,020
So you had an "authentic experience."

922
00:51:21,105 --> 00:51:23,482
[Jimmy] Yes, what's wrong with that?

923
00:51:23,565 --> 00:51:26,360
(Alice groans)

924
00:51:26,443 --> 00:51:30,530
Somebody died. Somebody I love.

925
00:51:39,123 --> 00:51:40,415
You're a bad person, Jimmy.

926
00:51:41,875 --> 00:51:42,626
You can't just-

927
00:51:42,709 --> 00:51:45,170
Just shut the fuck up.

928
00:51:45,254 --> 00:51:47,631
(Alice chuckles)

929
00:51:47,714 --> 00:51:50,384
I never felt that way in my life.

930
00:51:52,344 --> 00:51:54,888
But I knew I had to come here.

931
00:51:54,971 --> 00:51:57,307
Even though I knew it was too late,

932
00:51:57,391 --> 00:51:58,517
I knew I had to come here.

933
00:51:58,600 --> 00:52:00,280
And I didn't know if you would talk to me,

934
00:52:00,352 --> 00:52:01,145
if you knew who I was.

935
00:52:01,228 --> 00:52:03,438
I didn't know if Chelsea
would talk to me either.

936
00:52:03,522 --> 00:52:06,150
But I wanted to hear about my daughter.

937
00:52:06,233 --> 00:52:08,318
I wanted to hear about Helen.

938
00:52:08,402 --> 00:52:11,112
I am only here because Charlotte...

939
00:52:11,196 --> 00:52:13,532
(sound drowns out Jimmy's voice)

940
00:52:13,615 --> 00:52:16,201
(somber music)

941
00:52:35,804 --> 00:52:38,307
You sit me down, you
tell me I'm a bad person,

942
00:52:38,390 --> 00:52:39,891
how do you expect me to react?

943
00:52:41,976 --> 00:52:43,853
Like a bad person, I guess.

944
00:52:43,937 --> 00:52:46,565
[Jimmy] Oh, and Helen wasn't the same?

945
00:52:46,648 --> 00:52:48,858
I didn't pass that gene on to her, hmm?

946
00:52:48,942 --> 00:52:51,611
She never was cruel?
She never raised her voice?

947
00:52:53,071 --> 00:52:54,155
Helen could be mean,

948
00:52:55,282 --> 00:52:57,242
when she felt strongly about something.

949
00:52:58,117 --> 00:53:00,829
She could get emotional
and say things to hurt me.

950
00:53:01,788 --> 00:53:05,709
But I always respected the
things she felt strongly about.

951
00:53:07,836 --> 00:53:09,463
I guess I wouldn't know.

952
00:53:09,546 --> 00:53:11,340
I don't care about you being gone.

953
00:53:12,507 --> 00:53:14,227
I'm not here to judge all of your mistakes.

954
00:53:14,259 --> 00:53:15,927
I just think you're a bad person

955
00:53:16,010 --> 00:53:17,721
for the way you just talked to me.

956
00:53:18,888 --> 00:53:20,325
That's the note you're
gonna leave things on?

957
00:53:20,349 --> 00:53:21,558
[Alice] Yup.

958
00:53:21,641 --> 00:53:22,785
Hey, if you had known who I was,

959
00:53:22,809 --> 00:53:24,228
would you have talked to me?

960
00:53:27,231 --> 00:53:28,732
Yes.

961
00:53:28,815 --> 00:53:30,567
But you won't talk to me now?

962
00:53:30,650 --> 00:53:31,943
No.

963
00:53:32,026 --> 00:53:33,069
Hey, I'm sorry.

964
00:53:34,238 --> 00:53:35,958
I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't come earlier,

965
00:53:35,989 --> 00:53:36,823
I'm sorry I haven't been honest with you.

966
00:53:36,865 --> 00:53:37,865
I'm sorry.

967
00:53:38,867 --> 00:53:41,160
Maybe I could start like a
scholarship or something

968
00:53:41,245 --> 00:53:42,263
in Helen's honor, you know.

969
00:53:42,287 --> 00:53:43,622
I've got the money.

970
00:53:43,705 --> 00:53:45,415
I wanna do something good with it.

971
00:53:45,499 --> 00:53:46,499
I've realized that now.

972
00:53:46,541 --> 00:53:48,377
I came here because I wanna be better.

973
00:53:51,212 --> 00:53:52,212
The fuck, shit!

974
00:53:54,966 --> 00:53:57,469
(Jimmy sighs)

975
00:53:58,845 --> 00:54:01,348
(gentle music)

976
00:54:16,613 --> 00:54:19,032
[Bethany] No, I don't really
tell my parents anything.

977
00:54:19,115 --> 00:54:20,700
I always feel quiet around them.

978
00:54:21,576 --> 00:54:25,789
I feel different. Like I'm a boring person.

979
00:54:25,872 --> 00:54:27,832
Because the things I wanna say the most,

980
00:54:29,083 --> 00:54:30,083
I don't say.

981
00:54:31,127 --> 00:54:32,879
If you don't know what you wanna do next,

982
00:54:32,962 --> 00:54:35,173
could you tell them that?

983
00:54:35,256 --> 00:54:38,885
They've put so much effort
into making a good path for me.

984
00:54:38,968 --> 00:54:41,805
That's basically the
whole purpose of their lives.

985
00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:44,808
They're probably right.

986
00:54:45,725 --> 00:54:46,726
I should be thankful.

987
00:54:46,810 --> 00:54:49,396
But it's your life, you know?

988
00:54:51,648 --> 00:54:53,775
I'd be too nervous to bring it up anyway.

989
00:54:55,902 --> 00:54:58,363
I'm trying to imagine Nervous Bethany.

990
00:54:58,447 --> 00:55:00,615
I've never seen you be nervous before.

991
00:55:00,699 --> 00:55:02,241
I'm good at hiding it.

992
00:55:02,326 --> 00:55:03,386
[Kimberly] Do you have any tells?

993
00:55:03,410 --> 00:55:06,204
Yeah, my ears turn red.

994
00:55:06,287 --> 00:55:07,432
Your ears are red right now.

995
00:55:07,456 --> 00:55:10,083
- [Bethany] Really?
- [Kimberly] Yeah. (Chuckles)

996
00:55:10,792 --> 00:55:11,960
- Are you nervous?
- No.

997
00:55:13,169 --> 00:55:14,546
What are your other tells?

998
00:55:15,755 --> 00:55:16,755
Lying.

999
00:55:21,386 --> 00:55:23,638
You know, it would be really cool

1000
00:55:23,722 --> 00:55:26,600
to not think about anything
for once. (Chuckles)

1001
00:55:26,683 --> 00:55:27,892
That would be cool.

1002
00:55:27,976 --> 00:55:30,479
I think it's impossible,
but it would be cool.

1003
00:55:32,689 --> 00:55:33,689
Let's try it.

1004
00:55:34,524 --> 00:55:36,818
We'll both start not thinking.

1005
00:55:36,901 --> 00:55:40,822
And then if you start to think
of something, let me know,

1006
00:55:40,905 --> 00:55:43,825
and I'll push you or something.

1007
00:55:50,499 --> 00:55:51,458
[Bethany] I'm already
thinking about something.

1008
00:55:51,500 --> 00:55:53,543
[Kimberly] What are you thinking about?

1009
00:55:55,379 --> 00:55:57,756
I'm thinking about kissing you.

1010
00:56:13,563 --> 00:56:15,399
I'm sorry, I don't think I can,

1011
00:56:15,482 --> 00:56:16,775
I don't think I can do that yet.

1012
00:56:16,858 --> 00:56:17,734
[Kimberly] Okay.

1013
00:56:17,817 --> 00:56:18,568
I'm sorry.

1014
00:56:18,652 --> 00:56:20,069
No, I'm sorry.

1015
00:56:27,744 --> 00:56:28,744
Can we bike?

1016
00:56:29,746 --> 00:56:30,997
- Yeah.
- Okay.

1017
00:56:41,841 --> 00:56:43,718
I don't feel like going home,

1018
00:56:43,802 --> 00:56:47,556
but the longer I wait, the longer I'm out,

1019
00:56:47,639 --> 00:56:50,517
and the more my parents are
gonna be wondering where, ugh.

1020
00:56:54,145 --> 00:56:55,939
[Kimberly] I mean, hanging out with me,

1021
00:56:56,022 --> 00:56:58,149
that's not so bad, right?

1022
00:56:58,232 --> 00:57:00,777
[Bethany] I think my mom
saw you smoking a cigarette

1023
00:57:00,860 --> 00:57:02,737
outside of school after graduation.

1024
00:57:02,821 --> 00:57:04,089
[Kimberly] That is the only cigarette

1025
00:57:04,113 --> 00:57:05,532
I've ever even smoked.

1026
00:57:05,615 --> 00:57:07,116
I was graduating!

1027
00:57:07,200 --> 00:57:09,786
[Bethany] Yeah, I've definitely smoked

1028
00:57:09,869 --> 00:57:11,663
more cigarettes than you.

1029
00:57:11,746 --> 00:57:15,875
But anyway, the point is: You're
a very bad influence on me.

1030
00:57:15,959 --> 00:57:18,462
[Kimberly] (scoffs) I
am a stumbling block.

1031
00:57:18,545 --> 00:57:19,546
Exactly.

1032
00:57:20,714 --> 00:57:22,650
[Kimberly] Does your mom
realize I could be so much worse?

1033
00:57:22,674 --> 00:57:23,693
[Bethany] That sounds like a threat.

1034
00:57:23,717 --> 00:57:24,926
[Kimberly] It is a threat.

1035
00:57:25,009 --> 00:57:27,303
The harder your parents
pull you away from me,

1036
00:57:27,386 --> 00:57:29,305
the more I'll corrupt you.

1037
00:57:29,388 --> 00:57:34,310
I'm gonna make you into a slut. Very soon.

1038
00:57:40,066 --> 00:57:43,152
[Bethany] I'm so tired of
feeling like I'm not a good,

1039
00:57:43,236 --> 00:57:44,236
like...

1040
00:57:48,825 --> 00:57:52,370
Anything that I do anything they, without,

1041
00:57:57,667 --> 00:58:01,588
(sighs) they put so much,
without even saying anything,

1042
00:58:02,589 --> 00:58:04,674
they put so much pressure on me.

1043
00:58:06,551 --> 00:58:07,927
If I don't do those things...

1044
00:58:11,430 --> 00:58:13,558
They've taught me to put
the pressure on myself.

1045
00:58:14,976 --> 00:58:16,978
Taught me to put the rules on myself.

1046
00:58:19,105 --> 00:58:23,401
[Kimberly] Bethany, You're a good person.

1047
00:58:24,694 --> 00:58:25,694
[Bethany] Okay.

1048
00:58:29,282 --> 00:58:30,282
Thanks, Kimberly.

1049
00:58:32,869 --> 00:58:34,203
I think I'm gonna go home.

1050
00:58:37,498 --> 00:58:38,833
See you!

1051
00:58:38,917 --> 00:58:40,334
[Kimberly] Bye!

1052
00:58:45,840 --> 00:58:49,343
(dog barks in the distance)

1053
00:58:51,888 --> 00:58:53,365
[Operator] When you
have finished recording,

1054
00:58:53,389 --> 00:58:56,517
you may hang up or
press one for more options.

1055
00:58:56,601 --> 00:58:57,393
(phone beeps)

1056
00:58:57,476 --> 00:58:59,062
Seems like you're occupied right now.

1057
00:58:59,145 --> 00:59:00,939
Probably with your prick in one hand,

1058
00:59:01,022 --> 00:59:02,440
and also in the other hand,

1059
00:59:02,523 --> 00:59:04,776
if it's as big as you seem to think it is.

1060
00:59:04,859 --> 00:59:07,236
I guess I'm here to tell you that it's not.

1061
00:59:07,320 --> 00:59:09,322
Your prick is a little tiny pinprick,

1062
00:59:09,405 --> 00:59:11,783
and your show is a shit show.

1063
00:59:11,866 --> 00:59:12,867
It's bad.

1064
00:59:12,951 --> 00:59:14,202
I'm embarrassed by it.

1065
00:59:14,953 --> 00:59:16,681
You know, I sit up, I
read my lines at night,

1066
00:59:16,705 --> 00:59:18,832
I feel like muck is
dribbling out of my mouth.

1067
00:59:18,915 --> 00:59:20,750
I feel like I'm your little pinprick

1068
00:59:20,834 --> 00:59:22,919
and I'm just dribbling at the urinal.

1069
00:59:23,002 --> 00:59:26,715
And part of me doesn't wanna
be your prick anymore, Matthew.

1070
00:59:26,798 --> 00:59:28,174
But I do enjoy the money.

1071
00:59:29,175 --> 00:59:30,175
I enjoy it.

1072
00:59:32,178 --> 00:59:33,280
You know, if I was feeling cynical,

1073
00:59:33,304 --> 00:59:34,931
I would tell you that

1074
00:59:35,014 --> 00:59:37,642
all the people who made
great movies are dead.

1075
00:59:37,726 --> 00:59:40,144
And you are alive.

1076
00:59:40,228 --> 00:59:41,270
You're alive.

1077
00:59:42,856 --> 00:59:46,150
Unfortunately, that means
you're going to be preserved.

1078
00:59:47,944 --> 00:59:50,321
Nowadays, you know, you can
go visit all those dead people.

1079
00:59:50,404 --> 00:59:51,740
Film is seance.

1080
00:59:51,823 --> 00:59:54,367
You can see Paul Newman exactly as he was

1081
00:59:54,450 --> 00:59:55,761
and he'll never be that young again

1082
00:59:55,785 --> 00:59:57,871
because he's preserved, and so am I,

1083
00:59:57,954 --> 01:00:00,039
and unfortunately so are you.

1084
01:00:00,123 --> 01:00:01,040
I say "unfortunately"

1085
01:00:01,124 --> 01:00:03,877
because you haven't fucking earned it.

1086
01:00:03,960 --> 01:00:05,670
You and your bad show.

1087
01:00:05,754 --> 01:00:07,672
You know, I bet you wanna can me,

1088
01:00:07,756 --> 01:00:09,883
but you can't, because I have a contract.

1089
01:00:09,966 --> 01:00:12,218
I'm angry tonight, Matthew.

1090
01:00:12,301 --> 01:00:13,052
I'm feeling angry.

1091
01:00:13,136 --> 01:00:14,888
And so I say, fuck your night too.

1092
01:00:14,971 --> 01:00:16,222
I hope you're angry too.

1093
01:00:16,305 --> 01:00:18,474
I hope you have steam
coming out of your fucking ears

1094
01:00:18,557 --> 01:00:20,184
and every other available orifice.

1095
01:00:20,268 --> 01:00:22,896
I hope your head looks like
a goddamn choo-choo train.

1096
01:00:22,979 --> 01:00:23,813
Goodbye.

1097
01:00:23,897 --> 01:00:25,940
Thank you for hearing me out, goodbye.

1098
01:00:28,526 --> 01:00:29,526
Piece of shit.

1099
01:00:32,906 --> 01:00:35,659
Are you putting me
through a joke, McCormick?

1100
01:00:35,742 --> 01:00:38,161
A breath of fresh air was all I wanted.

1101
01:00:38,244 --> 01:00:40,538
And don't tell me the yard counts.

1102
01:00:40,621 --> 01:00:41,831
That chain link,

1103
01:00:43,291 --> 01:00:46,711
chain link curtain,
that chain link curtain,

1104
01:00:46,795 --> 01:00:49,422
chain link curtain keeps
the wind of the real world out

1105
01:00:49,505 --> 01:00:51,049
better than a concrete dome.

1106
01:00:52,175 --> 01:00:55,136
All I wanted was one
visit to something real.

1107
01:00:56,179 --> 01:00:58,056
Buy a cola at the convenience store,

1108
01:00:58,139 --> 01:01:00,016
go check out a book from the library,

1109
01:01:00,099 --> 01:01:02,351
go for a walk to a nice neighborhood,

1110
01:01:02,435 --> 01:01:06,022
and feel like a first-class citizen again.

1111
01:01:06,105 --> 01:01:08,191
Feel my record expunged.

1112
01:01:08,274 --> 01:01:11,903
When I break out of this
pretend place and I inhale,

1113
01:01:13,988 --> 01:01:15,573
when I break out of this pretend place

1114
01:01:17,575 --> 01:01:19,535
and I inhale the air outside...

1115
01:01:19,618 --> 01:01:22,246
When I break out of this pretend place

1116
01:01:22,330 --> 01:01:27,418
and I inhale the air outside,
I can taste the difference.

1117
01:01:27,501 --> 01:01:29,754
I can taste the difference.

1118
01:01:29,838 --> 01:01:31,923
I can taste the difference.

1119
01:01:33,049 --> 01:01:34,129
I can taste the difference.

1120
01:01:34,175 --> 01:01:36,135
But I do, McCormick. I do.

1121
01:01:36,219 --> 01:01:40,598
When I break out of this
pretend place (breathes deeply)

1122
01:01:40,681 --> 01:01:43,351
And inhale the air outside,

1123
01:01:43,434 --> 01:01:48,314
inhale the air outside, (clears throat)

1124
01:01:48,397 --> 01:01:51,192
(breathes deeply) inhale the air outside,

1125
01:01:51,275 --> 01:01:55,529
(whispers) inhale the air outside.

1126
01:02:13,422 --> 01:02:16,009
(reflective music)

1127
01:05:20,526 --> 01:05:23,612
(reflective music fades)

1128
01:06:13,287 --> 01:06:16,040
(water sloshing)

1129
01:06:42,650 --> 01:06:45,090
[Kimberly] I don't think Alice
is gonna talk to Jimmy again.

1130
01:06:45,611 --> 01:06:47,363
Not after the way he talked to her.

1131
01:06:48,364 --> 01:06:49,615
Well, maybe he knew deep down

1132
01:06:49,698 --> 01:06:52,285
it would've made things worse for Helen.

1133
01:06:52,368 --> 01:06:53,368
Maybe.

1134
01:06:54,828 --> 01:06:58,374
It could be better not to
have a father than to have him.

1135
01:07:01,794 --> 01:07:03,837
I think Helen turned
out just fine without him.

1136
01:07:04,380 --> 01:07:06,465
I mean, that's all your fault, right?

1137
01:07:06,549 --> 01:07:07,550
And Charlotte's.

1138
01:07:07,633 --> 01:07:09,218
No, it was all Helen's fault.

1139
01:07:09,302 --> 01:07:12,263
I just watched. (Chuckles)

1140
01:07:16,725 --> 01:07:18,936
You know, I didn't go to college.

1141
01:07:19,853 --> 01:07:20,938
[Kimberly] You didn't?

1142
01:07:22,065 --> 01:07:22,815
No.

1143
01:07:22,898 --> 01:07:23,774
I know things are different now,

1144
01:07:23,816 --> 01:07:27,611
but I just wanna make sure
you leave your option open.

1145
01:07:29,029 --> 01:07:30,114
I appreciate that.

1146
01:07:32,700 --> 01:07:35,035
I don't know what I'd do instead.

1147
01:07:35,119 --> 01:07:37,746
I didn't either. (Chuckles)

1148
01:07:37,830 --> 01:07:39,224
[Kimberly] Well, what did you do?

1149
01:07:39,248 --> 01:07:44,253
Well, I had a few shit jobs.

1150
01:07:45,671 --> 01:07:47,631
And I was living in
Los Angeles at the time,

1151
01:07:47,715 --> 01:07:49,633
and I just said, "Fuck Los Angeles."

1152
01:07:49,717 --> 01:07:50,717
And I left.

1153
01:07:51,760 --> 01:07:54,180
And then I ended up
falling in love actually.

1154
01:07:56,056 --> 01:07:57,350
It didn't last more than a year,

1155
01:07:57,433 --> 01:08:01,520
but we saw a lot of the world,

1156
01:08:01,604 --> 01:08:05,691
and we had great sex,

1157
01:08:06,775 --> 01:08:09,362
and we felt the possibility of everything,

1158
01:08:10,988 --> 01:08:12,698
if that's what you're looking for.

1159
01:08:16,577 --> 01:08:19,497
Yeah, you know what,
Chelsea, that doesn't sound so bad.

1160
01:08:27,588 --> 01:08:30,258
(door creaking)

1161
01:10:02,891 --> 01:10:05,353
(water sloshing)

1162
01:10:05,436 --> 01:10:06,436
Helen?

1163
01:10:07,521 --> 01:10:09,607
(wind blowing)

1164
01:10:41,555 --> 01:10:44,141
(water rippling)

1165
01:11:22,555 --> 01:11:25,641
(footsteps thumping)

1166
01:11:32,648 --> 01:11:34,400
[Kimberly] Chelsea?

1167
01:11:36,151 --> 01:11:37,151
Chelsea?

1168
01:11:52,167 --> 01:11:53,669
She seemed peaceful, at least.

1169
01:11:55,629 --> 01:11:57,130
I just didn't expect it.

1170
01:11:59,883 --> 01:12:01,110
I don't know what could've happened.

1171
01:12:01,134 --> 01:12:06,139
She was just sitting there.

1172
01:12:07,099 --> 01:12:09,435
(Kimberly sniffles)

1173
01:12:09,518 --> 01:12:12,480
Stroke, maybe. Or an aneurysm.

1174
01:12:12,563 --> 01:12:16,609
Yeah.

1175
01:12:16,692 --> 01:12:18,611
She doesn't have any family left.

1176
01:12:23,907 --> 01:12:28,912
Did she ever say if, what she would want?

1177
01:12:32,416 --> 01:12:33,792
She didn't want a funeral.

1178
01:12:36,795 --> 01:12:40,173
She said they are not dragging
her back to fucking church

1179
01:12:40,257 --> 01:12:41,550
just because she's dead.

1180
01:12:44,845 --> 01:12:46,725
She didn't like the idea
of being buried either,

1181
01:12:46,764 --> 01:12:48,098
especially not in a coffin.

1182
01:12:49,892 --> 01:12:51,477
I don't like that idea either.

1183
01:12:56,356 --> 01:12:59,067
What did she say, before?

1184
01:13:00,611 --> 01:13:05,616
She was talking all about
how she ditched college

1185
01:13:09,119 --> 01:13:13,791
and traveled the world and fell in love,

1186
01:13:15,250 --> 01:13:19,838
and... had great sex, apparently.

1187
01:13:22,007 --> 01:13:23,467
She told Helen that too.

1188
01:13:25,428 --> 01:13:28,514
She wanted Helen to,
well, before everything,

1189
01:13:31,975 --> 01:13:34,394
Helen and I were gonna get out of here.

1190
01:13:34,478 --> 01:13:35,604
[Kimberly] And go where?

1191
01:13:37,440 --> 01:13:38,440
I don't know.

1192
01:13:40,818 --> 01:13:42,277
Where Chelsea wanted us to go.

1193
01:14:00,879 --> 01:14:05,342
(music from old movie)

1194
01:14:20,524 --> 01:14:25,070
(Character from old
movie speaking indistinctly)

1195
01:14:25,153 --> 01:14:26,404
Me and Bethany kissed.

1196
01:14:28,949 --> 01:14:30,158
Bethany Roland?

1197
01:14:31,577 --> 01:14:32,577
Yeah.

1198
01:14:34,246 --> 01:14:35,246
Kimberly!

1199
01:14:37,958 --> 01:14:39,752
Kimberly! What!

1200
01:14:39,835 --> 01:14:41,169
You're spilling the popcorn!

1201
01:14:41,253 --> 01:14:42,796
I know! But Kimberly!

1202
01:14:42,880 --> 01:14:47,092
(Kimberly and Alice giggle)

1203
01:14:53,974 --> 01:14:58,395
(Movie character speaking indistinctly)

1204
01:15:05,611 --> 01:15:08,697
(Kimberly sniffling)

1205
01:15:37,893 --> 01:15:39,394
(garbage clattering)

1206
01:15:39,477 --> 01:15:40,477
Fuck!

1207
01:15:45,859 --> 01:15:50,030
(Kimberly muttering indistinctly)

1208
01:15:52,365 --> 01:15:55,452
(footsteps thumping)

1209
01:16:08,173 --> 01:16:10,759
(somber music)

1210
01:16:58,515 --> 01:16:59,909
This morning I was talking to Alice,

1211
01:16:59,933 --> 01:17:02,602
and she told me something
she'd never told me before.

1212
01:17:03,771 --> 01:17:06,148
She said that before
Helen left for college,

1213
01:17:07,357 --> 01:17:09,609
Pastor Roland told her
she was going to hell.

1214
01:17:10,819 --> 01:17:12,570
- My dad?
- Yeah.

1215
01:17:13,530 --> 01:17:14,281
He told her that?

1216
01:17:14,364 --> 01:17:16,050
I don't know if he said
it in those exact words.

1217
01:17:16,074 --> 01:17:18,410
But that was what he
wanted her to get from it.

1218
01:17:19,995 --> 01:17:22,080
I'm so sorry, Kimberly.

1219
01:17:22,164 --> 01:17:23,999
Yeah, that's a terrible thing to say.

1220
01:17:24,082 --> 01:17:26,209
Yeah, it's the kinda
thing that fucks you up.

1221
01:17:26,293 --> 01:17:29,129
When it comes from someone
you're supposed to listen to.

1222
01:17:30,798 --> 01:17:33,717
[Leah] I mean, I think
his intentions were good.

1223
01:17:35,635 --> 01:17:36,635
What do you mean?

1224
01:17:37,888 --> 01:17:38,889
[Leah] Well, you know,

1225
01:17:38,972 --> 01:17:40,683
like when you see someone struggling

1226
01:17:40,766 --> 01:17:42,559
and you wanna help them-

1227
01:17:42,642 --> 01:17:44,102
Help them?

1228
01:17:44,186 --> 01:17:46,188
(scoffs) What are-

1229
01:17:46,271 --> 01:17:48,816
You know, she didn't believe in,

1230
01:17:50,859 --> 01:17:52,211
I don't know, I don't make the rules.

1231
01:17:52,235 --> 01:17:53,987
Pastor Roland doesn't make the rules.

1232
01:17:54,071 --> 01:17:56,364
[Kimberly] God makes the rules.

1233
01:17:56,448 --> 01:17:57,199
I mean-

1234
01:17:57,282 --> 01:17:58,158
[Kimberly] God sends people to hell.

1235
01:17:58,200 --> 01:18:00,118
[Leah] Okay, well,
God doesn't send people.

1236
01:18:00,202 --> 01:18:00,953
They choose-

1237
01:18:01,036 --> 01:18:02,705
No, He gives them the choice.

1238
01:18:02,788 --> 01:18:05,123
The two options: Be good or burn.

1239
01:18:05,207 --> 01:18:08,251
[Leah] Well, it's not about being good.

1240
01:18:08,335 --> 01:18:10,462
It's not about behavior.

1241
01:18:10,545 --> 01:18:14,674
It's about grace and accepting
your own helplessness.

1242
01:18:14,758 --> 01:18:17,344
Can you just try to think
outside of what you've,

1243
01:18:18,595 --> 01:18:19,596
what they've...

1244
01:18:22,933 --> 01:18:25,435
I don't know what to
tell you. Stupid bullshit.

1245
01:18:27,896 --> 01:18:29,022
Do you not believe in it?

1246
01:18:29,106 --> 01:18:30,607
[Kimberly] In what?

1247
01:18:30,690 --> 01:18:31,690
[Leah] In hell.

1248
01:18:33,777 --> 01:18:34,945
[Kimberly] I don't know.

1249
01:18:35,946 --> 01:18:37,697
[Leah] You've never told me that before.

1250
01:18:37,781 --> 01:18:40,075
Yeah, because it's a big
fucking heresy or whatever.

1251
01:18:40,158 --> 01:18:43,746
Okay, what Pastor
Roland said is fucked up.

1252
01:18:43,829 --> 01:18:45,789
All I'm saying is that
his intentions were good.

1253
01:18:45,873 --> 01:18:49,542
It's not easy to come to
terms with the way things are.

1254
01:18:49,626 --> 01:18:50,878
It's scary to think about,

1255
01:18:50,961 --> 01:18:53,338
but that doesn't mean it's not true.

1256
01:18:53,421 --> 01:18:55,841
[Kimberly] We're talking
about infinite punishment.

1257
01:18:55,924 --> 01:18:57,026
I don't know how to explain to you

1258
01:18:57,050 --> 01:18:58,194
how there's nothing you can do

1259
01:18:58,218 --> 01:18:59,803
that should get infinite punishment.

1260
01:18:59,887 --> 01:19:01,138
It's not a punishment.

1261
01:19:01,221 --> 01:19:03,640
It's like choosing to be apart from...

1262
01:19:04,808 --> 01:19:06,684
You know, sin is separation from God.

1263
01:19:06,769 --> 01:19:07,560
I don't make the... [Kimberly] I get it!

1264
01:19:07,602 --> 01:19:09,021
You don't make the rules!

1265
01:19:09,104 --> 01:19:10,164
[Leah] Don't shoot the messenger.

1266
01:19:10,188 --> 01:19:12,900
[Kimberly] I might fucking
shoot the messenger.

1267
01:19:12,983 --> 01:19:15,044
I feel like you're attacking
me for what I believe in

1268
01:19:15,068 --> 01:19:16,736
just as much as he was attacking her.

1269
01:19:16,820 --> 01:19:18,155
I don't care.

1270
01:19:18,238 --> 01:19:20,991
You believe in something that
makes people hate themselves.

1271
01:19:21,074 --> 01:19:22,575
That's not what it's about.

1272
01:19:22,659 --> 01:19:24,327
I believe people can be saved.

1273
01:19:24,411 --> 01:19:26,329
I believe in love and grace-

1274
01:19:26,413 --> 01:19:28,415
Where do you think Helen is now, Leah?

1275
01:19:30,959 --> 01:19:32,460
[Leah] That's not for me to judge.

1276
01:19:32,544 --> 01:19:33,837
You think she's in hell?

1277
01:19:35,005 --> 01:19:35,923
You know, only God can-

1278
01:19:36,006 --> 01:19:39,009
But you can have an opinion
based on what you believe.

1279
01:19:41,053 --> 01:19:41,719
I'm not the judge.

1280
01:19:41,761 --> 01:19:43,221
Where is she?

1281
01:19:43,305 --> 01:19:45,307
And what about Chelsea? Where's Chelsea?

1282
01:19:51,479 --> 01:19:53,273
[Leah] Where do you think she is?

1283
01:19:53,356 --> 01:19:57,027
I don't know! I don't fucking know!

1284
01:19:57,110 --> 01:19:59,154
I think you're a liar.

1285
01:19:59,237 --> 01:20:00,989
I think you lie to feel some comfort.

1286
01:20:01,073 --> 01:20:03,450
And I don't get to feel any comfort.

1287
01:20:03,533 --> 01:20:05,327
I can believe in all this bullshit,

1288
01:20:05,410 --> 01:20:07,620
and it still doesn't make me feel better.

1289
01:20:07,704 --> 01:20:09,164
I'm sorry.

1290
01:20:09,247 --> 01:20:11,041
I know you're going
through a lot right now,

1291
01:20:11,124 --> 01:20:12,459
and I wish I knew how to help.

1292
01:20:12,542 --> 01:20:14,044
[Kimberly] No you fucking don't.

1293
01:20:14,127 --> 01:20:16,379
'Cause you make people
hate themselves, Leah.

1294
01:20:17,422 --> 01:20:19,216
You make people hate themselves.

1295
01:20:20,843 --> 01:20:24,179
People meet you, they hear what you say,

1296
01:20:24,262 --> 01:20:26,639
and then they hate themselves.

1297
01:20:26,723 --> 01:20:27,724
Do you know that?

1298
01:20:34,272 --> 01:20:36,859
(somber music)

1299
01:21:24,739 --> 01:21:27,492
(Kimberly huffs)

1300
01:21:36,459 --> 01:21:38,503
(Kimberly coughs)

1301
01:21:39,046 --> 01:21:42,757
(Bethany and Kimberly chuckle)

1302
01:21:42,840 --> 01:21:45,677
(Kimberly coughs)

1303
01:21:47,554 --> 01:21:49,973
(soft music)

1304
01:22:10,368 --> 01:22:13,121
(birds trilling)

1305
01:22:29,221 --> 01:22:30,930
There's one more person I wanna meet.

1306
01:22:31,014 --> 01:22:32,265
He was her drama teacher.

1307
01:22:32,349 --> 01:22:33,766
She mentioned him in her journal.

1308
01:22:33,850 --> 01:22:34,930
[Howard] What's his name?

1309
01:22:34,977 --> 01:22:35,977
Alvin Tenold.

1310
01:22:36,019 --> 01:22:38,313
You know, Jimmy,
you're younger than I am.

1311
01:22:38,396 --> 01:22:39,790
You gotta learn how to use a search bar.

1312
01:22:39,814 --> 01:22:41,566
I tried the search bar.

1313
01:22:41,649 --> 01:22:43,485
That's how I found his last name.

1314
01:22:43,568 --> 01:22:44,611
I'm evolving.

1315
01:22:44,694 --> 01:22:47,530
Not fast enough for Darwin to select you.

1316
01:22:47,614 --> 01:22:49,907
You're bound for fossil hood.

1317
01:22:49,992 --> 01:22:51,472
They're not gonna make another Jimmy.

1318
01:22:52,327 --> 01:22:53,953
They're probably right not to.

1319
01:22:54,037 --> 01:22:55,913
Next time bring me something to produce,

1320
01:22:55,998 --> 01:22:58,101
so I can stop sitting on my
ass, making tea for people

1321
01:22:58,125 --> 01:23:00,377
and looking up their old
high school drama teacher.

1322
01:23:00,460 --> 01:23:02,521
Isn't the producer usually
the one that does the bringing?

1323
01:23:02,545 --> 01:23:03,338
You know what I mean.

1324
01:23:03,421 --> 01:23:04,815
And if my memory hasn't gone too hazy,

1325
01:23:04,839 --> 01:23:08,051
isn't there a reason people
stopped bringing you things?

1326
01:23:08,135 --> 01:23:09,344
Something something asshole.

1327
01:23:09,427 --> 01:23:11,596
Yeah, something something
asshole yourself, fucker.

1328
01:23:21,481 --> 01:23:27,112
You know, the day I found
out about Helen's death

1329
01:23:27,195 --> 01:23:31,699
was probably the worst
I've ever felt about myself.

1330
01:23:31,783 --> 01:23:32,700
[Howard] About yourself?

1331
01:23:32,784 --> 01:23:37,289
Yeah, because I didn't know her

1332
01:23:37,372 --> 01:23:39,041
so I couldn't feel much for her,

1333
01:23:39,124 --> 01:23:44,129
but I thought if I could,
if I could feel something,

1334
01:23:50,927 --> 01:23:53,596
maybe I could turn it into
something award-winning one day.

1335
01:23:53,680 --> 01:23:55,307
And that made you feel bad?

1336
01:23:55,390 --> 01:23:57,517
[Jimmy] Wouldn't it make you feel bad?

1337
01:23:57,600 --> 01:23:59,018
I don't know.

1338
01:23:59,102 --> 01:24:01,854
I have ways of not feeling
bad when it happens to me.

1339
01:24:03,648 --> 01:24:05,483
Feel anything for her now?

1340
01:24:05,567 --> 01:24:08,903
(Jimmy breathes deeply)

1341
01:24:11,156 --> 01:24:13,032
I went into the mountains yesterday

1342
01:24:15,702 --> 01:24:17,912
to the place where they found her.

1343
01:24:17,995 --> 01:24:19,122
It's a beautiful place.

1344
01:24:19,206 --> 01:24:21,040
- A lake, right?
- Yeah.

1345
01:24:23,085 --> 01:24:24,377
Being in a place like that

1346
01:24:26,671 --> 01:24:30,383
gives me this urge I can't satisfy.

1347
01:24:32,677 --> 01:24:36,264
What do you do with the
feeling a mountain gives you?

1348
01:24:39,392 --> 01:24:43,271
Nothing. There's nothing you can do.

1349
01:24:43,355 --> 01:24:47,817
You just sit there, until it
becomes uncomfortable.

1350
01:24:49,361 --> 01:24:50,862
You can't take it in.

1351
01:24:52,614 --> 01:24:54,532
There are so much we can't take in.

1352
01:25:00,455 --> 01:25:01,831
My guess about death is

1353
01:25:03,708 --> 01:25:05,460
we get to take in all those things.

1354
01:25:07,462 --> 01:25:10,882
One last moment of satisfaction,

1355
01:25:16,138 --> 01:25:17,514
before whatever comes after.

1356
01:25:27,023 --> 01:25:29,526
(people chattering)

1357
01:25:29,609 --> 01:25:32,779
(upbeat lively music)

1358
01:25:38,451 --> 01:25:39,369
[Leah] I didn't know
you lived on the lake.

1359
01:25:39,411 --> 01:25:40,953
It's a reservoir, actually.

1360
01:25:41,037 --> 01:25:42,037
[Leah] Oh, right.

1361
01:25:42,997 --> 01:25:44,308
I mean, there's a ton of fish, but-

1362
01:25:44,332 --> 01:25:46,251
[Leah] Oh, what kind?

1363
01:25:46,334 --> 01:25:47,334
[Brent] No idea.

1364
01:25:49,796 --> 01:25:51,130
That is too big.

1365
01:25:51,214 --> 01:25:53,300
Sorry, too late!

1366
01:25:53,383 --> 01:25:55,385
Does that say "tell your crush"?

1367
01:25:55,468 --> 01:25:56,928
No, call your crush.

1368
01:25:57,011 --> 01:25:58,614
Now I have like a one
in three chance of that,

1369
01:25:58,638 --> 01:25:59,764
thanks, Bethany.

1370
01:26:00,723 --> 01:26:01,599
(coin rattles) (Kimberly sighs)

1371
01:26:01,641 --> 01:26:02,475
Goddammit, Bethany.

1372
01:26:02,559 --> 01:26:03,559
This was targeted.

1373
01:26:03,601 --> 01:26:06,229
All right, who's it gonna be?

1374
01:26:07,146 --> 01:26:08,690
I don't have a crush.

1375
01:26:08,773 --> 01:26:09,315
[Dan] Come on.

1376
01:26:09,357 --> 01:26:10,757
No, really, I don't have a crush.

1377
01:26:12,068 --> 01:26:12,860
I'll call anyone.

1378
01:26:12,944 --> 01:26:14,028
Just tell me who to call.

1379
01:26:14,111 --> 01:26:14,946
How about John?

1380
01:26:15,029 --> 01:26:16,614
- No, that would be mean.
- Why?

1381
01:26:16,698 --> 01:26:18,408
Because I don't like him.

1382
01:26:19,116 --> 01:26:20,202
Anyone else?

1383
01:26:24,497 --> 01:26:25,832
[John] What's the game?

1384
01:26:25,915 --> 01:26:28,167
Kimberly has to call her crush.

1385
01:26:28,251 --> 01:26:29,961
I thought she had a new one every week?

1386
01:26:30,044 --> 01:26:31,730
Can you say that
again? I didn't hear you.

1387
01:26:31,754 --> 01:26:33,232
[John] I didn't really say anything.

1388
01:26:33,256 --> 01:26:35,007
Oh, okay. I don't know who to call.

1389
01:26:35,091 --> 01:26:36,092
Tell me who to call.

1390
01:26:38,094 --> 01:26:39,304
You could call David.

1391
01:26:39,387 --> 01:26:41,055
John, you're ruining the game.

1392
01:26:41,138 --> 01:26:42,575
I'm just tossing out some suggestions.

1393
01:26:42,599 --> 01:26:43,558
I could toss out a suggestion

1394
01:26:43,600 --> 01:26:44,910
for something you could go do to yourself.

1395
01:26:44,934 --> 01:26:47,229
Yeah, you'd know all about that, huh?

1396
01:26:47,312 --> 01:26:49,356
Can someone punch him or something?

1397
01:26:49,439 --> 01:26:51,065
[John] I'm just saying.

1398
01:26:51,148 --> 01:26:55,445
I'm just saying I think Kimberly
would know all about that,

1399
01:26:55,528 --> 01:26:56,738
especially with David.

1400
01:26:57,739 --> 01:26:58,823
(water splashes)

1401
01:26:58,906 --> 01:27:00,074
The fuck?

1402
01:27:00,157 --> 01:27:01,534
(cup clunks)

1403
01:27:01,618 --> 01:27:02,785
The hell is wrong with you?

1404
01:27:05,997 --> 01:27:09,166
You can eat shit, and
then go eat more shit.

1405
01:27:10,001 --> 01:27:13,004
(upbeat music)

1406
01:27:14,297 --> 01:27:15,417
The hell's wrong with her?

1407
01:27:16,466 --> 01:27:20,303
(upbeat music continues)

1408
01:27:40,156 --> 01:27:42,199
(water splashes)

1409
01:27:42,284 --> 01:27:46,120
(upbeat music continues)

1410
01:27:55,422 --> 01:27:56,649
I've never had someone pour their drink

1411
01:27:56,673 --> 01:27:58,174
on someone else for me before.

1412
01:28:06,891 --> 01:28:11,270
Kimberly, I wanted to say that I'm sorry.

1413
01:28:14,190 --> 01:28:16,734
You know, I just, I've
been thinking about it,

1414
01:28:16,818 --> 01:28:19,612
and I wanted to say-

1415
01:28:19,696 --> 01:28:21,113
I'm sorry too.

1416
01:28:22,239 --> 01:28:23,239
Okay.

1417
01:28:24,116 --> 01:28:25,660
It's just that I'm kinda scared.

1418
01:28:25,743 --> 01:28:27,078
I just...

1419
01:28:27,161 --> 01:28:29,038
I don't think I can do this right now.

1420
01:28:31,958 --> 01:28:32,958
Okay.

1421
01:28:40,925 --> 01:28:42,344
(Kimberly sighs)

1422
01:28:42,427 --> 01:28:44,095
I feel like shit.

1423
01:28:44,178 --> 01:28:45,323
I think she knows you didn't mean it.

1424
01:28:45,347 --> 01:28:47,157
I just wish I could think
about something new

1425
01:28:47,181 --> 01:28:49,517
for five minutes.

1426
01:28:49,601 --> 01:28:52,354
I think we were doing pretty
good until John showed up.

1427
01:28:55,022 --> 01:28:56,022
I can't win.

1428
01:28:56,691 --> 01:28:58,275
Let's think about something else.

1429
01:28:58,360 --> 01:28:59,360
Like what?

1430
01:29:01,404 --> 01:29:05,992
How about the kayak on top of John's car?

1431
01:29:06,075 --> 01:29:07,660
(Kimberly and Bethany laugh)

1432
01:29:07,744 --> 01:29:08,870
He would kill us.

1433
01:29:08,953 --> 01:29:10,747
But I'm faster than he is.

1434
01:29:10,830 --> 01:29:12,415
Plus, I have better reflexes.

1435
01:29:13,916 --> 01:29:17,211
See? (Bethany and Kimberly laugh)

1436
01:29:17,294 --> 01:29:20,632
[Kimberly] Yeah, that was pretty good.

1437
01:29:23,843 --> 01:29:28,848
[Bethany] Do you think
we'll be alive to see it go?

1438
01:29:28,931 --> 01:29:30,767
[Kimberly] I don't know.

1439
01:29:30,850 --> 01:29:33,436
(reflective music)

1440
01:29:48,242 --> 01:29:49,411
[Bethany] Oh my god.

1441
01:29:49,494 --> 01:29:53,415
(Kimberly speaks indistinctly)

1442
01:29:55,708 --> 01:29:58,461
(water splashes)

1443
01:30:00,087 --> 01:30:03,174
(Kimberly and Bethany laugh)

1444
01:30:03,257 --> 01:30:06,678
(reflective music continues)

1445
01:30:20,066 --> 01:30:22,151
Who's gonna pop the champagne?

1446
01:30:22,234 --> 01:30:25,947
I don't know, are you
good at popping things?

1447
01:30:26,030 --> 01:30:27,574
Yeah, I think so.

1448
01:30:27,657 --> 01:30:29,742
Okay, I'll pop it then.

1449
01:30:29,826 --> 01:30:31,160
I need the practice.

1450
01:30:31,243 --> 01:30:32,721
Oh, shouldn't we find
something to christen?

1451
01:30:32,745 --> 01:30:34,622
No, then we'd have to break it.

1452
01:30:34,706 --> 01:30:35,957
Oh, right.

1453
01:30:36,040 --> 01:30:37,750
Okay, here we go.

1454
01:30:41,253 --> 01:30:42,547
(bottle pops open)

1455
01:30:42,630 --> 01:30:43,923
(champagne sloshes)

1456
01:30:44,006 --> 01:30:47,343
I wanted to drink the
champagne, Kimberly.

1457
01:30:47,426 --> 01:30:50,179
(Bethany laughs)

1458
01:30:52,223 --> 01:30:53,600
[Driver] Fuck!

1459
01:30:53,683 --> 01:30:55,077
What the fuck are you shooting at my car!

1460
01:30:55,101 --> 01:30:57,436
[Bethany] Oh my god. We should go.

1461
01:30:57,520 --> 01:30:59,063
[Driver] Fuck you!

1462
01:30:59,146 --> 01:31:00,314
Get back here!

1463
01:31:07,196 --> 01:31:09,657
Fuck you, bitch! You're dead!

1464
01:31:11,826 --> 01:31:13,077
You're fucking dead!

1465
01:31:17,915 --> 01:31:19,542
(siren wailing)

1466
01:31:20,502 --> 01:31:21,293
[Bethany] Where did it go?

1467
01:31:21,335 --> 01:31:23,337
Did it float away?
- [Kimberly] I don't know.

1468
01:31:39,562 --> 01:31:42,857
(phone rings) Shit!

1469
01:31:55,662 --> 01:31:56,847
- [Bethany] Get in the car!
- [Kimberly] What?

1470
01:31:56,871 --> 01:31:59,040
[Bethany] Get in the car!

1471
01:32:05,087 --> 01:32:08,424
(car engine turns over)

1472
01:32:09,967 --> 01:32:13,054
(car engine purring)

1473
01:32:20,269 --> 01:32:21,789
There's gotta be a way out of here, right?

1474
01:32:21,813 --> 01:32:23,165
[Kimberly] Yeah, there has to be.

1475
01:32:23,189 --> 01:32:25,107
[Bethany] Okay, okay.

1476
01:32:26,693 --> 01:32:29,070
I'm gonna text someone to pick us up.

1477
01:32:29,153 --> 01:32:30,756
[Bethany] Where are
we gonna leave the car?

1478
01:32:30,780 --> 01:32:31,530
[Kimberly] Uh-

1479
01:32:31,614 --> 01:32:32,406
[Bethany] We can't
leave it at Brent's house!

1480
01:32:32,448 --> 01:32:33,808
[Kimberly] No, no, you're right.

1481
01:32:35,952 --> 01:32:39,914
♪ I could hear a song ♪

1482
01:32:39,997 --> 01:32:43,626
♪ Ringing in my ears ♪

1483
01:32:44,210 --> 01:32:47,630
♪ So I wrote it down ♪

1484
01:32:47,714 --> 01:32:51,676
♪ For my love to hear ♪

1485
01:32:51,759 --> 01:32:55,221
♪ Melody so sweet ♪

1486
01:32:55,304 --> 01:32:59,892
♪ And harmony like waves ♪

1487
01:32:59,976 --> 01:33:03,479
♪ It brought me to my knees ♪

1488
01:33:03,562 --> 01:33:08,484
♪ And took my breath away ♪

1489
01:33:08,567 --> 01:33:11,153
♪ I tried to turn it ♪

1490
01:33:11,237 --> 01:33:15,658
♪ Into something so profound ♪

1491
01:33:15,742 --> 01:33:18,369
♪ It's not a love song ♪

1492
01:33:18,452 --> 01:33:22,206
♪ Just a beautiful, beautiful sound ♪

1493
01:33:22,289 --> 01:33:27,211
♪ A beautiful, beautiful sound ♪

1494
01:33:42,769 --> 01:33:46,063
♪ I could see a light ♪

1495
01:33:46,147 --> 01:33:49,692
♪ Shining through the trees ♪

1496
01:33:49,776 --> 01:33:53,112
♪ So I drew it down ♪

1497
01:33:53,195 --> 01:33:56,824
♪ For my love to see ♪

1498
01:33:56,908 --> 01:34:00,161
♪ Glimmering with warmth ♪

1499
01:34:00,244 --> 01:34:04,040
♪ Like heaven through the haze ♪

1500
01:34:04,123 --> 01:34:07,626
♪ Brought me to my knees ♪

1501
01:34:07,710 --> 01:34:12,173
♪ And took my breath away ♪

1502
01:34:12,256 --> 01:34:14,759
♪ I tried to turn it ♪

1503
01:34:14,842 --> 01:34:19,388
♪ Into something so finite ♪

1504
01:34:19,471 --> 01:34:21,933
♪ It's not a photograph ♪

1505
01:34:22,016 --> 01:34:25,895
♪ Just a beautiful, beautiful sight ♪

1506
01:34:25,978 --> 01:34:29,816
♪ A beautiful, beautiful sight ♪

1507
01:34:46,457 --> 01:34:49,668
♪ I could hear a song ♪

1508
01:34:49,752 --> 01:34:53,172
♪ Ringing in my ears ♪

1509
01:34:53,255 --> 01:34:56,843
♪ So I wrote it down ♪

1510
01:34:56,926 --> 01:35:00,554
♪ For my love to hear ♪

1511
01:35:00,637 --> 01:35:03,933
♪ Melody so sweet ♪

1512
01:35:04,016 --> 01:35:07,770
♪ And harmony like waves ♪

1513
01:35:07,854 --> 01:35:11,065
♪ It brought me to my knees ♪

1514
01:35:11,148 --> 01:35:15,737
♪ And took my breath away ♪

1515
01:35:15,820 --> 01:35:18,530
♪ I tried to turn it ♪

1516
01:35:18,614 --> 01:35:23,035
♪ Into something so profound ♪

1517
01:35:23,119 --> 01:35:25,747
♪ It's not a love song ♪

1518
01:35:25,830 --> 01:35:29,583
♪ Just a beautiful, beautiful sound ♪

1519
01:35:29,666 --> 01:35:34,255
♪ A beautiful, beautiful sound ♪

1520
01:35:37,341 --> 01:35:40,177
[Bethany] Do you have a blanket?

1521
01:35:44,140 --> 01:35:45,516
[Kimberly] What are you doing?

1522
01:35:45,599 --> 01:35:50,604
I'm never going outside again.

1523
01:35:52,189 --> 01:35:57,194
I don't think I am either.

1524
01:35:58,570 --> 01:36:02,992
Wait, sorry, can you turn off the lights?

1525
01:36:03,075 --> 01:36:04,576
[Kimberly] Yeah.

1526
01:36:12,668 --> 01:36:14,503
[Bethany] I'm never going outside again.

1527
01:36:14,586 --> 01:36:16,588
[Kimberly] Yeah, let's
just stay in here forever.

1528
01:36:20,134 --> 01:36:21,854
- [Bethany] Oh my god.
- [Kimberly] I know.

1529
01:36:23,095 --> 01:36:25,389
[Bethany] I'm too scared
to be seen right now.

1530
01:36:25,472 --> 01:36:26,974
[Kimberly] Same.

1531
01:36:30,269 --> 01:36:32,104
Your driving was hot.

1532
01:36:32,188 --> 01:36:35,274
[Bethany] Oh, am I your chauffeur now?

1533
01:36:35,357 --> 01:36:38,277
(Kimberly giggles)

1534
01:36:45,910 --> 01:36:49,746
(Kimberly and Bethany giggle)

1535
01:36:55,837 --> 01:36:58,505
- [Kimberly] Hi.
- [Bethany] Hi.

1536
01:37:22,947 --> 01:37:26,283
(Jimmy breathes deeply)

1537
01:37:37,419 --> 01:37:38,837
I can't believe this.

1538
01:37:40,797 --> 01:37:42,174
I can't believe this.

1539
01:37:45,344 --> 01:37:46,387
I'm crying.

1540
01:37:48,264 --> 01:37:52,393
I'm crying because I am deeply sad.

1541
01:37:54,061 --> 01:37:55,562
I am deeply sad.

1542
01:37:58,690 --> 01:37:59,775
She's dead now.

1543
01:38:01,360 --> 01:38:02,111
She's dead now.

1544
01:38:02,194 --> 01:38:04,280
She's dead now.

1545
01:38:04,363 --> 01:38:06,782
I never met her. She's dead now.

1546
01:38:06,865 --> 01:38:09,660
I never met her. I never will meet her.

1547
01:38:09,743 --> 01:38:11,287
I never will meet her.

1548
01:38:11,370 --> 01:38:15,291
I never, I never will meet her.

1549
01:38:17,584 --> 01:38:20,296
I am her father.

1550
01:38:20,379 --> 01:38:25,092
I am her father.

1551
01:38:25,176 --> 01:38:28,179
I am a grieving father.

1552
01:38:29,721 --> 01:38:30,806
I'm a grieving father.

1553
01:38:32,433 --> 01:38:36,062
I am a bereaved father.

1554
01:38:37,271 --> 01:38:40,732
And I don't deserve this.

1555
01:38:40,816 --> 01:38:41,733
I don't deserve this.

1556
01:38:41,817 --> 01:38:44,695
No father deserves this.

1557
01:38:48,365 --> 01:38:51,077
I never meet her.

1558
01:38:52,703 --> 01:38:55,957
I will never meet her, because she,

1559
01:38:56,040 --> 01:38:57,791
she died too young.

1560
01:38:57,874 --> 01:38:59,585
Oh, she died too young.

1561
01:38:59,668 --> 01:39:01,503
I will never...

1562
01:39:01,587 --> 01:39:04,631
(clears throat) She
died, she died too young

1563
01:39:04,715 --> 01:39:08,052
and I will never see her.

1564
01:39:09,470 --> 01:39:10,887
I will never see her.

1565
01:39:10,972 --> 01:39:15,017
I will never hear her voice.

1566
01:39:15,892 --> 01:39:20,064
I will never hear, I will
never hear her voice.

1567
01:39:20,147 --> 01:39:21,857
I will never hear her (sniffs).

1568
01:39:23,275 --> 01:39:24,275
She's gone.

1569
01:39:26,945 --> 01:39:32,201
Yeah, she's gone, and
sometimes it's difficult

1570
01:39:32,284 --> 01:39:35,954
for me to even believe it, but she's gone.

1571
01:39:37,248 --> 01:39:41,210
And (sniffs) I'll never recover.

1572
01:39:41,293 --> 01:39:46,090
I'll never, I will always be deeply sad.

1573
01:39:46,173 --> 01:39:48,467
I will always be a grieving father.

1574
01:39:48,550 --> 01:39:51,303
I will always be deeply sad

1575
01:39:51,387 --> 01:39:54,806
and I will always be a grieving father.

1576
01:39:56,225 --> 01:39:59,811
Oh, there will be no light in my life.

1577
01:39:59,895 --> 01:40:03,690
No, there's not gonna
be any light in my life.

1578
01:40:04,650 --> 01:40:07,986
Why? Because the light of my life is gone.

1579
01:40:09,238 --> 01:40:10,239
A father's daughter?

1580
01:40:11,407 --> 01:40:14,993
That is the light of his
life, and my light is gone.

1581
01:40:16,828 --> 01:40:18,372
I mean, if that's what you're asking,

1582
01:40:18,455 --> 01:40:20,249
if that's what you wanna know.

1583
01:40:20,332 --> 01:40:25,046
My light is gone, and I will never recover.

1584
01:40:25,129 --> 01:40:29,091
The best part of me will always be dead.

1585
01:40:29,175 --> 01:40:33,179
The best part, the best part of me

1586
01:40:35,472 --> 01:40:36,973
will always be dead.

1587
01:40:39,851 --> 01:40:41,270
I will never meet her.

1588
01:40:41,353 --> 01:40:42,688
I will never see her.

1589
01:40:42,771 --> 01:40:44,440
I never will meet her.

1590
01:40:44,523 --> 01:40:47,401
I never, I will never meet her.

1591
01:40:47,484 --> 01:40:49,278
I will never be this young again.

1592
01:40:50,112 --> 01:40:51,572
Yeah, I will never be this...

1593
01:40:57,786 --> 01:40:59,080
No father deserves this.

1594
01:41:03,375 --> 01:41:04,375
I am crying.

1595
01:41:07,003 --> 01:41:08,714
I am crying.

1596
01:41:10,674 --> 01:41:12,176
I've never cried like this.

1597
01:41:20,309 --> 01:41:23,645
(Jimmy breathes deeply)

1598
01:41:36,575 --> 01:41:39,161
(rain pouring)

1599
01:41:55,677 --> 01:41:59,890
♪ Abide with me ♪

1600
01:41:59,973 --> 01:42:07,022
♪ Fast falls the eventide ♪

1601
01:42:07,689 --> 01:42:13,570
♪ The darkness deepens ♪

1602
01:42:13,654 --> 01:42:19,326
♪ Lord, with me abide ♪

1603
01:42:19,410 --> 01:42:25,416
♪ When other helpers ♪

1604
01:42:25,499 --> 01:42:31,547
♪ Fail and comforts flee ♪

1605
01:42:31,630 --> 01:42:36,009
♪ Help of the helpless ♪

1606
01:42:36,092 --> 01:42:41,097
♪ O abide with me ♪

1607
01:42:43,767 --> 01:42:49,606
♪ Swift to its close ebbs ♪

1608
01:42:49,690 --> 01:42:55,571
♪ Out life's little day ♪

1609
01:42:55,654 --> 01:43:01,076
♪ Earth's joys grow dim ♪

1610
01:43:01,159 --> 01:43:07,499
♪ Its glories pass away ♪

1611
01:43:07,583 --> 01:43:12,128
♪ Change and decay ♪

1612
01:43:12,213 --> 01:43:19,553
♪ In all around I see ♪

1613
01:43:19,636 --> 01:43:25,226
♪ O thou who changest not ♪

1614
01:43:25,309 --> 01:43:31,523
♪ Abide with me ♪

1615
01:43:51,918 --> 01:43:55,088
(wind chimes chiming)

1616
01:44:04,640 --> 01:44:07,559
(knocking on door)

1617
01:44:12,439 --> 01:44:13,815
- Hey.
- [Jimmy] Hi.

1618
01:44:13,899 --> 01:44:14,899
Hello!

1619
01:44:15,692 --> 01:44:16,777
You must be Jimmy, right?

1620
01:44:17,319 --> 01:44:18,695
The one, the only.

1621
01:44:18,779 --> 01:44:21,239
Nice to meet you, Jimmy. I'm Alvin.

1622
01:44:21,323 --> 01:44:23,158
Let me show you around, okay?

1623
01:44:26,870 --> 01:44:30,040
(wind chimes chiming)

1624
01:44:38,715 --> 01:44:40,801
I wanted to make movies, you know?

1625
01:44:40,884 --> 01:44:43,178
Back in the early '90s,
everyone was doing music.

1626
01:44:43,261 --> 01:44:46,307
There was a different
wavelength in the city.

1627
01:44:47,641 --> 01:44:50,519
And I'd been working away on projects,

1628
01:44:50,602 --> 01:44:53,314
I had an old 16-millimeter camera

1629
01:44:53,397 --> 01:44:54,815
I got from a friend of mine in LA,

1630
01:44:54,898 --> 01:44:58,193
who's done much better than I have,

1631
01:44:59,945 --> 01:45:02,280
and I'd put away a little bit each month

1632
01:45:02,364 --> 01:45:03,865
so I could buy some film.

1633
01:45:03,949 --> 01:45:07,911
And then, this was '91, I suppose,

1634
01:45:07,994 --> 01:45:10,789
I remember I was out in my kayak

1635
01:45:10,872 --> 01:45:14,000
and I could see the film crew at Gas Works.

1636
01:45:14,084 --> 01:45:17,588
And it wasn't like crews
hadn't filmed there before,

1637
01:45:17,671 --> 01:45:20,841
but I still had this feeling, I thought,

1638
01:45:20,924 --> 01:45:24,302
"Damn, they beat me to it."

1639
01:45:24,386 --> 01:45:27,848
I mean, there was a
thrill about it too though,

1640
01:45:27,931 --> 01:45:31,059
because maybe it wasn't just the music,

1641
01:45:31,142 --> 01:45:33,645
maybe the rest of us
could catch the magic too.

1642
01:45:33,729 --> 01:45:37,065
And there were a few more
movies during that time.

1643
01:45:37,148 --> 01:45:38,859
There were the Jeff Bridges ones,

1644
01:45:38,942 --> 01:45:41,695
there was Tom Hanks, of course.

1645
01:45:41,778 --> 01:45:44,406
But it never caught on
the way I felt like it could,

1646
01:45:44,490 --> 01:45:46,908
never became a real wave.

1647
01:45:49,119 --> 01:45:52,205
And as time has gone by, I realized

1648
01:45:52,288 --> 01:45:53,874
that maybe that was for the best.

1649
01:45:53,957 --> 01:45:57,586
Maybe it means more this way, you know?

1650
01:46:03,216 --> 01:46:04,216
What's this?

1651
01:46:05,886 --> 01:46:08,930
Well, there's a lot of pressure

1652
01:46:09,014 --> 01:46:10,348
in the earth at the moment.

1653
01:46:11,475 --> 01:46:14,603
At some point, in our children's lifetimes,

1654
01:46:14,686 --> 01:46:16,730
or if not theirs, then their children,

1655
01:46:16,813 --> 01:46:18,273
the mountain is gonna blow.

1656
01:46:18,356 --> 01:46:19,400
We can't stop it.

1657
01:46:19,483 --> 01:46:23,278
But we can alleviate the
pressure in the earth a little.

1658
01:46:23,361 --> 01:46:27,908
And this is a method of draining it.

1659
01:46:29,618 --> 01:46:31,412
You think this is going to stop

1660
01:46:31,495 --> 01:46:33,371
the mountain from erupting?

1661
01:46:33,455 --> 01:46:34,540
Stop? No.

1662
01:46:34,623 --> 01:46:37,125
But we can put it off
for an hour or so, maybe.

1663
01:46:38,084 --> 01:46:41,547
If everyone did this, we
could buy ourselves some time

1664
01:46:41,630 --> 01:46:42,798
that we shouldn't have.

1665
01:46:42,881 --> 01:46:45,300
Here, let me show you this.

1666
01:46:47,844 --> 01:46:48,844
Watch.

1667
01:47:06,822 --> 01:47:08,841
[Jimmy] So you knew Helen
all the way through high school?

1668
01:47:08,865 --> 01:47:11,034
Oh yeah, yeah, I suppose I did.

1669
01:47:12,077 --> 01:47:15,456
I stopped teaching a few years back,

1670
01:47:15,539 --> 01:47:19,084
but I used to shoot audition
tapes and such for them.

1671
01:47:19,167 --> 01:47:21,336
Or I'd loan my camera to them,

1672
01:47:21,419 --> 01:47:23,259
and they'd go off and
have fun with the Super 8

1673
01:47:23,338 --> 01:47:25,298
and make acting reels for themselves,

1674
01:47:25,381 --> 01:47:29,094
and then I'd scan the film for them.

1675
01:47:29,177 --> 01:47:31,429
That's what I'm looking for now right now.

1676
01:47:31,513 --> 01:47:34,683
I think I still have the old reels

1677
01:47:34,766 --> 01:47:37,478
lying around here somewhere.

1678
01:47:37,561 --> 01:47:39,480
So she had auditions?

1679
01:47:39,563 --> 01:47:40,939
Yeah.

1680
01:47:41,022 --> 01:47:42,816
Did she ever get any gigs?

1681
01:47:42,899 --> 01:47:44,776
She did some ads and short films,

1682
01:47:44,860 --> 01:47:46,945
but nothing that really took off.

1683
01:47:51,658 --> 01:47:53,159
[Pastor Roland] Oh, I'm sorry.

1684
01:47:55,787 --> 01:47:56,787
I'm sorry.

1685
01:47:57,664 --> 01:47:58,664
Okay.

1686
01:48:01,334 --> 01:48:04,921
All right, we'll see you
later this evening then.

1687
01:48:06,006 --> 01:48:08,759
(hangs up phone)

1688
01:48:13,639 --> 01:48:15,766
Well, unfortunately,

1689
01:48:16,725 --> 01:48:19,645
Laura has to stay with her sister tonight.

1690
01:48:21,021 --> 01:48:23,314
The family has been
going through a hard time,

1691
01:48:24,190 --> 01:48:28,069
and I guess they could really
use our prayers right now.

1692
01:48:32,490 --> 01:48:34,367
She thought it would be the right thing.

1693
01:48:38,288 --> 01:48:39,623
So it's just us.

1694
01:48:41,082 --> 01:48:45,962
I'm sorry I only have salad and soup.

1695
01:48:46,046 --> 01:48:48,214
I was expecting Laura to do the cooking.

1696
01:48:49,049 --> 01:48:50,049
That's okay.

1697
01:49:00,977 --> 01:49:05,566
Lord, please be with
Sarah and Laura this evening.

1698
01:49:07,275 --> 01:49:09,527
Rest Your hand upon their family

1699
01:49:09,611 --> 01:49:11,487
and make Your presence known to them.

1700
01:49:13,990 --> 01:49:18,704
Thank You for bringing
Kimberly here, and Bethany,

1701
01:49:18,787 --> 01:49:20,288
and thank You for this meal.

1702
01:49:21,582 --> 01:49:23,416
Please be with us this evening,

1703
01:49:25,251 --> 01:49:27,003
and make Your will known to us.

1704
01:49:30,632 --> 01:49:31,632
Amen.

1705
01:49:32,884 --> 01:49:34,302
[Bethany] Amen.

1706
01:49:44,813 --> 01:49:46,231
So your parents weren't able

1707
01:49:46,314 --> 01:49:48,483
to drag you along this trip, huh?

1708
01:49:48,566 --> 01:49:50,086
No, I kinda wanted to be around here

1709
01:49:50,151 --> 01:49:51,862
my last summer before college.

1710
01:49:52,738 --> 01:49:55,198
Oh yes, that makes a lot of sense.

1711
01:49:56,157 --> 01:49:58,284
I'd probably do the same, to be honest.

1712
01:50:00,245 --> 01:50:03,539
Well, let your parents know
that we're praying for them.

1713
01:50:03,624 --> 01:50:05,333
And if I know anything about your mom,

1714
01:50:05,416 --> 01:50:07,753
I'm sure I'm just returning the favor.

1715
01:50:07,836 --> 01:50:08,837
Yeah, definitely.

1716
01:50:10,922 --> 01:50:13,884
So what's their house count up to now?

1717
01:50:13,967 --> 01:50:15,886
Uh, four, I think.

1718
01:50:17,345 --> 01:50:18,179
That's wonderful.

1719
01:50:18,263 --> 01:50:19,263
Yeah, it's great.

1720
01:50:24,770 --> 01:50:26,772
So what are you studying in college?

1721
01:50:27,981 --> 01:50:29,274
Uh, not really sure yet.

1722
01:50:30,358 --> 01:50:31,652
Any rough ideas?

1723
01:50:32,944 --> 01:50:34,487
Not really, to be honest.

1724
01:50:34,570 --> 01:50:35,571
When do you leave?

1725
01:50:37,323 --> 01:50:40,618
I think the 26th is the
day I'm supposed to leave.

1726
01:50:40,702 --> 01:50:43,579
Oh, that's pretty close
to yours, right, Bethany?

1727
01:50:43,664 --> 01:50:45,498
Uh, yeah, I think so.

1728
01:50:46,917 --> 01:50:48,835
But I'm not going to college actually.

1729
01:50:51,629 --> 01:50:52,380
(Pastor Roland snorts)

1730
01:50:52,463 --> 01:50:53,463
I'm serious.

1731
01:50:56,009 --> 01:50:57,260
You're serious?

1732
01:50:57,343 --> 01:50:58,343
[Bethany] Yes.

1733
01:51:04,893 --> 01:51:07,938
Well, that's something
we need to talk about then.

1734
01:51:08,021 --> 01:51:13,234
I think we, well, we don't
need to talk about it now.

1735
01:51:13,819 --> 01:51:15,696
I'm not going to college either.

1736
01:51:21,952 --> 01:51:25,956
Did Kimberly give you a
nudge in this direction, Bethany?

1737
01:51:26,039 --> 01:51:28,208
No. I decided.

1738
01:51:31,044 --> 01:51:33,129
Okay, I want you to
make your own decisions,

1739
01:51:33,213 --> 01:51:37,133
I really do, but, I mean,
we've invested a lot.

1740
01:51:43,181 --> 01:51:45,726
Once you get out of college,
you can do whatever you want.

1741
01:51:45,809 --> 01:51:49,145
I just don't think it's the
right thing for me right now.

1742
01:51:49,229 --> 01:51:51,606
I don't even know what I would study.

1743
01:51:51,689 --> 01:51:53,734
It's normal to figure
that out your first year.

1744
01:51:53,817 --> 01:51:55,902
You can try different things.

1745
01:51:55,986 --> 01:51:56,694
I don't know how many things you can try

1746
01:51:56,737 --> 01:51:57,988
when you're in one place.

1747
01:52:01,074 --> 01:52:04,786
I think that's a limited
way of thinking about it.

1748
01:52:04,870 --> 01:52:07,080
Yeah, I think it would be a mistake to-

1749
01:52:07,163 --> 01:52:08,414
I wanna make a mistake.

1750
01:52:09,374 --> 01:52:11,126
That's what I wanna do.

1751
01:52:11,209 --> 01:52:12,961
I wanna make a mistake.

1752
01:52:13,754 --> 01:52:18,591
Okay, well, it's a big decision-

1753
01:52:18,674 --> 01:52:19,968
I have something to say.

1754
01:52:22,512 --> 01:52:23,263
Okay?

1755
01:52:23,346 --> 01:52:25,390
I know that before
Helen left for college,

1756
01:52:25,473 --> 01:52:26,473
you met with her.

1757
01:52:28,143 --> 01:52:30,311
Like I do with every senior.

1758
01:52:31,021 --> 01:52:32,939
And Alice told me what you told her.

1759
01:52:34,357 --> 01:52:36,067
You told Helen she was going to hell.

1760
01:52:38,111 --> 01:52:39,195
I did not.

1761
01:52:40,613 --> 01:52:42,323
I would never use those words-

1762
01:52:42,407 --> 01:52:43,407
Yeah, I get it.

1763
01:52:44,159 --> 01:52:47,662
You imply, and imply, and imply, and imply.

1764
01:52:47,745 --> 01:52:49,998
You told her she was going to hell.

1765
01:52:52,500 --> 01:52:54,580
And maybe you told her
that with six double negatives

1766
01:52:54,627 --> 01:52:58,256
and a verse and a smile,
but that's what you told her.

1767
01:52:58,339 --> 01:52:59,257
And I want you to imagine

1768
01:52:59,340 --> 01:53:02,093
if that's the last thing she
thought about before she died.

1769
01:53:04,054 --> 01:53:05,054
It wasn't.

1770
01:53:06,431 --> 01:53:08,683
I guarantee you it wasn't.

1771
01:53:08,766 --> 01:53:10,446
I guarantee you whatever she thought about

1772
01:53:10,518 --> 01:53:13,438
was something that made her feel warm

1773
01:53:14,772 --> 01:53:18,902
and happy and okay, right before she left.

1774
01:53:20,486 --> 01:53:23,406
I believe that in her mind, at that moment,

1775
01:53:23,489 --> 01:53:28,494
you may as well have never existed.

1776
01:53:31,456 --> 01:53:32,790
But I want you to think about it:

1777
01:53:32,874 --> 01:53:34,960
What if what you said was the last thing

1778
01:53:35,043 --> 01:53:36,127
that crossed her mind?

1779
01:53:36,211 --> 01:53:37,545
"I'm going to hell.

1780
01:53:37,628 --> 01:53:39,505
I'm gonna suffer for all eternity."

1781
01:53:39,589 --> 01:53:40,756
Think about that.

1782
01:53:50,266 --> 01:53:52,310
Kimberly, I would never...

1783
01:53:58,399 --> 01:54:00,485
I can't change the truth.

1784
01:54:01,444 --> 01:54:03,029
I have to share the truth.

1785
01:54:03,113 --> 01:54:06,366
That's why I'm here, that's
what I've devoted my life to.

1786
01:54:07,658 --> 01:54:09,827
And I shared the truth with Helen

1787
01:54:09,911 --> 01:54:12,956
because I felt God's love for her.

1788
01:54:13,039 --> 01:54:14,540
I know that God loved her.

1789
01:54:16,751 --> 01:54:19,587
But love isn't always easy.

1790
01:54:19,670 --> 01:54:22,048
It doesn't always mean good news.

1791
01:54:23,258 --> 01:54:26,469
Sometimes it means honesty,
and honesty can be hard.

1792
01:54:26,552 --> 01:54:27,888
But it's all love.

1793
01:54:29,680 --> 01:54:31,266
That's what God is.

1794
01:54:33,809 --> 01:54:37,105
And you have to trust that
He knows better than we do.

1795
01:54:39,900 --> 01:54:41,484
What if I think you're a cunt?

1796
01:54:45,863 --> 01:54:48,199
I am only trying to understand.

1797
01:54:48,283 --> 01:54:49,700
I don't know what to do.

1798
01:54:51,202 --> 01:54:53,413
I can't, if she...

1799
01:54:55,748 --> 01:55:00,336
I can't. I can't.

1800
01:55:00,420 --> 01:55:01,462
I fucking won't.

1801
01:55:01,546 --> 01:55:03,214
I'm just really tired of,

1802
01:55:05,300 --> 01:55:07,093
I'm just really tired.

1803
01:55:07,177 --> 01:55:12,682
I think I need to go.

1804
01:55:12,765 --> 01:55:15,185
If hell is a place, and
if that's where Helen is,

1805
01:55:15,268 --> 01:55:17,687
then that's where I wanna go.

1806
01:55:39,334 --> 01:55:42,003
(Bethany sighs)

1807
01:55:42,087 --> 01:55:45,381
(Bethany chuckles)

1808
01:55:50,011 --> 01:55:52,347
(soft music)

1809
01:55:57,227 --> 01:55:59,812
(burst of music)

1810
01:56:11,824 --> 01:56:13,493
(Kimberly and Bethany laugh)

1811
01:56:13,576 --> 01:56:16,162
(rain pouring)

1812
01:56:42,022 --> 01:56:45,691
(projector whirring)

1813
01:57:00,581 --> 01:57:05,586
♪ This is how it feels to be in love ♪

1814
01:57:07,630 --> 01:57:12,552
♪ This is life from above ♪

1815
01:57:12,635 --> 01:57:17,765
♪ There's no books anymore ♪

1816
01:57:17,848 --> 01:57:24,855
♪ I'm bound to that summer ♪

1817
01:57:24,939 --> 01:57:30,820
♪ Big box office hit ♪

1818
01:57:30,903 --> 01:57:34,824
♪ Making love to a counterfeit ♪

1819
01:57:42,790 --> 01:57:44,584
♪ Why ♪

1820
01:57:53,384 --> 01:57:59,557
♪ Did so many ♪

1821
01:57:59,640 --> 01:58:06,356
♪ Get a rise out of me ♪

1822
01:58:06,439 --> 01:58:10,360
♪ I love ♪

1823
01:58:10,443 --> 01:58:17,492
♪ The movies ♪

1824
01:58:21,496 --> 01:58:27,377
♪ Some people feel what some people don't ♪

1825
01:58:27,460 --> 01:58:33,258
♪ Some people watch until they explode ♪

1826
01:58:33,341 --> 01:58:36,802
♪ The meaning of life ♪

1827
01:58:36,886 --> 01:58:43,559
♪ Doesn't seem to shine like that screen ♪

1828
01:58:43,643 --> 01:58:48,689
♪ Put me in a movie ♪

1829
01:58:48,773 --> 01:58:53,194
♪ And everyone will know me ♪

1830
01:58:53,278 --> 01:58:57,407
♪ You'll be the star ♪

1831
01:58:57,490 --> 01:59:05,248
♪ You know you are ♪

1832
01:59:05,331 --> 01:59:11,045
♪ The movies I watched ♪

1833
01:59:11,128 --> 01:59:17,677
♪ When I was a kid ♪

1834
01:59:17,760 --> 01:59:24,267
♪ The hopes and the dreams ♪

1835
01:59:24,350 --> 01:59:30,022
♪ Don't give credit to the real thing ♪

1836
01:59:30,105 --> 01:59:34,319
♪ I love ♪

1837
01:59:34,402 --> 01:59:40,741
♪ The movies ♪

1838
01:59:44,161 --> 01:59:48,749
♪ I know the meaning ♪

1839
01:59:48,833 --> 01:59:53,546
♪ I know the story ♪

1840
01:59:53,629 --> 01:59:58,426
♪ I know the glory ♪

1841
01:59:58,509 --> 02:00:04,974
♪ I love movies ♪

1842
02:00:09,103 --> 02:00:12,273
(upbeat string music)

1843
02:00:34,754 --> 02:00:35,754
♪ I ♪

1844
02:00:39,967 --> 02:00:43,929
♪ Wanna be ♪

1845
02:00:44,013 --> 02:00:48,268
♪ In my own movie ♪

1846
02:00:48,351 --> 02:00:50,311
♪ I wanna be ♪

1847
02:00:50,395 --> 02:00:55,275
♪ I wanna be the star ♪

1848
02:00:55,358 --> 02:00:59,153
♪ Of my ♪

1849
02:00:59,236 --> 02:01:05,701
♪ Of my own ♪

1850
02:01:05,785 --> 02:01:11,791
♪ My own ♪

1851
02:01:11,874 --> 02:01:16,504
♪ My own ♪

1852
02:01:16,587 --> 02:01:20,425
♪ I wanna be ♪

1853
02:01:20,508 --> 02:01:24,679
(projector whirring)

1854
02:01:24,762 --> 02:01:27,515
(Jimmy sniffles)

1855
02:01:29,183 --> 02:01:30,827
[Helen] Your smile is
like the bend of a river

1856
02:01:30,851 --> 02:01:32,019
I can't see around.

1857
02:01:33,479 --> 02:01:34,897
[Alice] That was pretty good.

1858
02:01:34,980 --> 02:01:37,066
Try it... dreamier.

1859
02:01:37,149 --> 02:01:39,777
Dreamier? Okay.

1860
02:01:39,860 --> 02:01:44,156
Your smile is like the bend
of a river I can't see around.

1861
02:01:44,239 --> 02:01:45,074
(Helen laughs)

1862
02:01:45,157 --> 02:01:46,534
Was that dreamy enough?

1863
02:01:46,617 --> 02:01:47,977
[Alice] I mean, I was convinced.

1864
02:01:48,035 --> 02:01:50,580
I'm starting to think you
might just like bad acting.

1865
02:01:50,663 --> 02:01:52,641
[Alice] I'm only trying to
be a supportive director.

1866
02:01:52,665 --> 02:01:54,208
I do feel very supported.

1867
02:01:55,376 --> 02:01:56,126
[Alice] Okay, try it

1868
02:01:56,210 --> 02:01:58,087
like we're just having a conversation.

1869
02:01:58,170 --> 02:01:59,630
Like we're having right now.

1870
02:01:59,714 --> 02:02:00,465
Like it's no big deal.

1871
02:02:00,548 --> 02:02:02,967
I mean, I guess I would say your smile

1872
02:02:03,050 --> 02:02:05,928
is like the bend of a
river I can't see around.

1873
02:02:06,011 --> 02:02:08,806
[Alice] (laughs) Okay, not that casual.

1874
02:02:08,889 --> 02:02:10,099
I give up.

1875
02:02:10,182 --> 02:02:12,477
But I do think your smile
is like the bend of a river

1876
02:02:12,560 --> 02:02:14,604
I can't see around.

1877
02:02:14,687 --> 02:02:16,230
[Alice] Okay, hold that.

1878
02:02:16,313 --> 02:02:17,313
Just smile.

1879
02:02:22,653 --> 02:02:25,990
(film reel stops)

1880
02:02:29,494 --> 02:02:31,496
She has such presence.

1881
02:02:32,622 --> 02:02:33,873
She deserves...

1882
02:02:37,167 --> 02:02:38,461
You gotta release this.

1883
02:02:40,380 --> 02:02:42,715
You gotta cut it together and release it.

1884
02:02:42,798 --> 02:02:44,216
I'll pay you anything you need.

1885
02:02:44,299 --> 02:02:46,343
Look, I don't think you understand,

1886
02:02:46,427 --> 02:02:47,428
I think you-

1887
02:02:47,512 --> 02:02:48,614
[Jimmy] What don't I understand?

1888
02:02:48,638 --> 02:02:50,222
It's an audition tape.

1889
02:02:50,305 --> 02:02:52,392
Audition tape and pickup shots.

1890
02:02:54,018 --> 02:02:59,189
So, I don't know, put it
together with another project.

1891
02:02:59,273 --> 02:03:00,900
I thought you wanted to be a filmmaker?

1892
02:03:00,983 --> 02:03:02,109
I don't anymore.

1893
02:03:02,192 --> 02:03:04,069
At least not in the way you mean.

1894
02:03:04,153 --> 02:03:05,070
What's the point of filming anything

1895
02:03:05,112 --> 02:03:06,363
if nobody's gonna see it?

1896
02:03:07,573 --> 02:03:08,908
You're seeing it.

1897
02:03:09,324 --> 02:03:12,412
I'll pay anything you need.

1898
02:03:13,746 --> 02:03:17,875
Look, it isn't a film for the big screen.

1899
02:03:17,958 --> 02:03:20,503
It's an acting reel for a student.

1900
02:03:20,586 --> 02:03:22,797
It's a favor for a friend.

1901
02:03:22,880 --> 02:03:23,880
Just play it again.

1902
02:03:25,090 --> 02:03:26,290
(clears throat) Play it again.

1903
02:03:33,766 --> 02:03:35,685
She was a person, Jimmy.

1904
02:03:37,437 --> 02:03:38,729
You should remember that.

1905
02:03:48,781 --> 02:03:52,452
(projector whirring)

1906
02:03:57,998 --> 02:04:00,585
(reflective music)

1907
02:04:02,086 --> 02:04:03,086
Let's go somewhere.

1908
02:04:04,714 --> 02:04:05,506
Like where?

1909
02:04:05,590 --> 02:04:07,216
I don't know. Let's just leave!

1910
02:04:08,926 --> 02:04:11,220
- Like leave town?
- Yeah.

1911
02:04:12,680 --> 02:04:15,725
Okay, um, pick a direction.

1912
02:04:15,808 --> 02:04:17,392
- [Bethany] West.
- [Kimberly] West?

1913
02:04:17,477 --> 02:04:18,477
[Bethany] West.

1914
02:04:21,814 --> 02:04:24,900
(car engine revving)

1915
02:04:25,818 --> 02:04:27,236
(Kimberly and Bethany laugh)

1916
02:04:27,319 --> 02:04:29,404
Okay, now we're going west.

1917
02:04:34,827 --> 02:04:37,079
So do you think we're
on our way to hell now?

1918
02:04:37,162 --> 02:04:38,789
I think we are.

1919
02:04:44,754 --> 02:04:46,506
(film reel clicks)

1920
02:04:47,047 --> 02:04:48,549
(film reel stops)

1921
02:04:48,633 --> 02:04:52,344
(rain pattering)

1922
02:04:53,305 --> 02:05:53,722