My Partner

1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 2 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:21,240 When I look at these pictures I think how all of them are single moments. 3 00:00:21,440 --> 00:00:23,480 Well, sure. Of course they are, 4 00:00:23,640 --> 00:00:26,480 that's why being present means being in the moment. - Right. Yeah. 5 00:00:27,520 --> 00:00:30,520 And do you remember what you did? You old weasel. 6 00:00:31,200 --> 00:00:34,560 You gave me this pink bathrobe as a gift ― 7 00:00:34,720 --> 00:00:35,720 Yeah. 8 00:00:35,840 --> 00:00:39,760 You had just come from the hotel 9 00:00:40,360 --> 00:00:43,000 where you had been fucking your damn lover, fucking hard. 10 00:00:43,200 --> 00:00:45,320 The whole night long. I was intensely jealous. 11 00:00:45,600 --> 00:00:46,600 Oh. 12 00:00:46,680 --> 00:00:48,960 At the end of the night you said: 13 00:00:49,080 --> 00:00:53,480 "And, by the way, I gave this pink bathrobe to you as a gift 14 00:00:53,680 --> 00:00:57,480 because Karoli had the same one and I wanted you to remind me of Karoli." 15 00:00:57,680 --> 00:01:00,120 That was said to hurt you. - Well, exactly. 16 00:01:09,200 --> 00:01:14,920 Do you remember that our first kiss was right here? 17 00:01:15,440 --> 00:01:16,480 Yeah. 18 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:21,240 It was just by the old boat harbor over there. 19 00:01:22,400 --> 00:01:27,040 I pulled myself together. Asked you if I could. 20 00:01:27,480 --> 00:01:29,080 How old were we back then? 21 00:01:29,400 --> 00:01:31,840 You were nineteen. I was twenty. 22 00:01:32,640 --> 00:01:36,480 It took something like a year to get to the kiss. 23 00:01:56,920 --> 00:01:59,360 MY PARTNERS 24 00:02:11,480 --> 00:02:15,600 I have heard from other people and friends 25 00:02:15,960 --> 00:02:18,760 that old school relationships no longer work. 26 00:02:19,040 --> 00:02:24,640 But the new way is not really here yet. So how to do it? 27 00:02:25,160 --> 00:02:28,680 How to create this free love, a love free of fear? 28 00:02:29,160 --> 00:02:32,160 So you can really go home and tell your husband: 29 00:02:32,320 --> 00:02:37,080 "God, dear Taavi, today in my shindo lesson 30 00:02:37,400 --> 00:02:40,440 this really cool guy looked at me and smiled." 31 00:02:40,760 --> 00:02:46,120 So Riita could express this and you could also feel what you feel 32 00:02:46,360 --> 00:02:50,000 and Riita is ready to accept, that okay, 33 00:02:50,200 --> 00:02:55,040 it was fun for you but it made Taavi pensive or unhappy at the time. 34 00:02:55,520 --> 00:02:58,720 But in order to carry the relationship with such honesty 35 00:02:58,920 --> 00:03:01,760 there is this practice all over the world 36 00:03:02,040 --> 00:03:05,440 where couples entering the uncharted 37 00:03:05,520 --> 00:03:09,520 world of free love will sign contracts. 38 00:03:09,880 --> 00:03:12,000 So if there's a fight or a misunderstanding 39 00:03:12,080 --> 00:03:14,000 they immediately turn to the contract: 40 00:03:14,160 --> 00:03:16,520 "See, it says here in black and white that we can discard 41 00:03:16,680 --> 00:03:20,720 these issues right now because we agreed not to argue over them." 42 00:03:22,120 --> 00:03:26,000 Where are the limits? We can communicate, 43 00:03:26,280 --> 00:03:30,080 smile, even go to the cafe with another woman or man 44 00:03:30,480 --> 00:03:36,720 but hugging, kissing or starting a sexual relationship is forbidden. 45 00:03:39,000 --> 00:03:41,200 How do you feel? Is this something you'd like to do? 46 00:03:41,360 --> 00:03:44,080 Yeah! That's why we're here. 47 00:03:53,600 --> 00:03:55,600 Our contract. 48 00:03:58,520 --> 00:04:01,480 If we say that the relationship is completely free 49 00:04:01,680 --> 00:04:04,760 and sex is allowed, we are authorizing new love, too. 50 00:04:05,400 --> 00:04:06,440 Basically. 51 00:04:07,160 --> 00:04:10,880 But in some sense that's good ― we're not restricting our life. 52 00:04:11,080 --> 00:04:12,120 We're not. 53 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:14,400 We're liberating it as much as possible. - Exactly. 54 00:04:14,480 --> 00:04:16,399 You can agree on whether you can sleep 55 00:04:16,480 --> 00:04:18,440 with them in your marital bed or not. 56 00:04:18,720 --> 00:04:20,880 Will the linen be washed afterwards or not? 57 00:04:21,079 --> 00:04:23,440 You can allocate time to take a shower, for example. 58 00:04:23,640 --> 00:04:27,120 Or when your beard is full of the smell of another woman's cunt, 59 00:04:27,280 --> 00:04:30,640 can you kiss your wife on the cheek? 60 00:04:31,040 --> 00:04:33,320 To Tinder or not to Tinder? - No! 61 00:04:33,520 --> 00:04:35,040 We'll write down 'no'. 62 00:04:36,680 --> 00:04:38,560 That's it. Write it down. 63 00:04:53,160 --> 00:04:54,320 Right. 64 00:04:59,000 --> 00:05:00,280 Long live love! 65 00:05:00,600 --> 00:05:02,160 Long live love! 66 00:05:23,200 --> 00:05:26,200 Something caught my eye: 67 00:05:26,520 --> 00:05:31,600 the Biosensory Psychology Institute in Tallinn. 68 00:05:32,480 --> 00:05:34,840 I feel a kind of attraction, maybe the next ― 69 00:05:34,960 --> 00:05:39,280 You have to consider things a bit. What do you really need in life? 70 00:05:39,360 --> 00:05:42,200 There's an infinite number of such courses, all the time and everywhere. 71 00:05:42,280 --> 00:05:48,760 And how would this work in terms of the children? 72 00:05:50,720 --> 00:05:56,520 Someone has to work full time for life to go on. 73 00:05:56,760 --> 00:05:59,680 If I don't life won't go on here nor there. 74 00:06:01,480 --> 00:06:04,320 Well, in Munich there are also courses and such. 75 00:06:04,760 --> 00:06:07,200 Even some kind of a tantric school. But, well... 76 00:06:07,440 --> 00:06:09,040 Well, like I said ― 77 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:11,840 after the workday I think of nothing else but "get home, lie down". 78 00:06:11,920 --> 00:06:14,200 I simply don't have the energy to go anywhere else. 79 00:08:36,039 --> 00:08:39,320 Blessed are you, Lord, our God, king of the universe, 80 00:08:39,799 --> 00:08:43,559 who brings forth bread from the earth. Amen. 81 00:10:04,480 --> 00:10:09,880 MUNICH, GERMANY 82 00:12:31,000 --> 00:12:32,680 How was your day today? 83 00:12:33,480 --> 00:12:35,080 Fine. 84 00:12:35,880 --> 00:12:38,840 Did you go to the store on your own to get pizza or...? 85 00:12:39,760 --> 00:12:42,560 Hanna went. - Hanna went alone, yeah? 86 00:12:44,200 --> 00:12:46,760 And the school day was as usual? 87 00:12:47,360 --> 00:12:48,800 Yeah. 88 00:12:49,800 --> 00:12:52,600 I'll be there already next week. 89 00:12:53,520 --> 00:12:54,520 Yeah. 90 00:12:54,640 --> 00:12:56,640 We'll be able to do something together. 91 00:14:30,280 --> 00:14:33,560 "You're the best in the world, I love you." With a double 'u'. 92 00:14:33,960 --> 00:14:38,800 "I miss you, I hope you miss me too. This heart is just for you. 93 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:41,880 Hugs, Hanna. You're the greatest father in the world." 94 00:14:42,200 --> 00:14:45,920 She's just expressing her feelings from the bottom of her heart. 95 00:15:37,560 --> 00:15:39,040 Hi! 96 00:15:41,720 --> 00:15:42,760 Where are the kids? 97 00:15:42,920 --> 00:15:45,280 In the car. Waiting in the car. Yeah... 98 00:16:00,440 --> 00:16:03,440 Well, come on, tell me, what's the solution. 99 00:16:04,880 --> 00:16:10,120 We agreed between ourselves that ― 100 00:16:10,560 --> 00:16:12,200 Who agreed with whom? 101 00:16:12,640 --> 00:16:16,120 Me and Kay. That we won't meet any more. 102 00:16:18,280 --> 00:16:21,760 Well, I want to be certain that things won't continue like this. 103 00:16:22,520 --> 00:16:25,520 Or that you'll meet again next spring and it continues. 104 00:16:25,920 --> 00:16:30,280 Otherwise I don't see any opportunity for our relationship anymore, 105 00:16:30,440 --> 00:16:32,240 if this continues. 106 00:16:32,880 --> 00:16:37,400 I've never thought that it could be some kind of polygamy. 107 00:16:38,000 --> 00:16:41,160 That's why I ended up in the hospital. 108 00:16:41,400 --> 00:16:43,720 The doctor said it's not normal to collapse like that. 109 00:16:47,760 --> 00:16:52,320 It makes me truly unhappy 110 00:16:52,600 --> 00:16:54,840 to be regularly merely faced with the fact that 111 00:16:55,040 --> 00:16:58,520 "this is the situation, deal with it, you have no say." 112 00:16:58,840 --> 00:17:00,480 I don't feel like a man. 113 00:17:00,720 --> 00:17:03,960 I'm just the breadwinner and nothing else. 114 00:17:04,800 --> 00:17:06,240 As long as this goes on our 115 00:17:06,319 --> 00:17:08,599 relationship is not a happy one for me. 116 00:17:31,160 --> 00:17:32,520 Are you sure you want to help me? 117 00:17:32,680 --> 00:17:35,160 Of course I do! But I would like you to do something as well. 118 00:17:35,360 --> 00:17:37,040 I am doing something! - What? 119 00:18:34,040 --> 00:18:36,520 Whoa! You're going like this? - Yeah, I'm going like this! 120 00:18:36,600 --> 00:18:39,880 Your call. I couldn't care less! 121 00:18:59,120 --> 00:19:01,720 No, it's not difficult for me at all. It's really chill for me. 122 00:19:01,960 --> 00:19:03,840 It's nice to talk. 123 00:19:35,240 --> 00:19:37,360 So, what kind of relationships are you having? 124 00:19:38,040 --> 00:19:40,600 What kind of relationships I have here? 125 00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:45,520 Well, there was this... young man from Berlin. 126 00:19:46,560 --> 00:19:47,760 You had what? 127 00:19:48,080 --> 00:19:50,480 In the sense that I've been with him. 128 00:19:52,040 --> 00:19:56,240 Chatted and... Kissed and... Made out and... 129 00:19:58,280 --> 00:19:59,880 Look, you've got a boil here! 130 00:20:00,000 --> 00:20:01,040 Well ― 131 00:20:01,760 --> 00:20:03,920 Stop it! - But you've got pus coming out. 132 00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:07,400 It's just some kind of... Stop it! 133 00:20:07,520 --> 00:20:09,040 No, I can't look, empty it yourself ― 134 00:20:09,120 --> 00:20:11,520 So don't look, I'm pulling my dress over it. 135 00:20:12,040 --> 00:20:13,400 You're dumb. 136 00:20:14,560 --> 00:20:16,120 I'm dumb? - You're dumb, yeah. 137 00:20:16,240 --> 00:20:18,920 Well, I can't just... I look and there's some pus-filled thing here. 138 00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:20,080 Isn't it painful? 139 00:20:20,280 --> 00:20:22,040 It's inflamed, isn't it? - No. 140 00:20:22,880 --> 00:20:24,080 Suit yourself. 141 00:20:26,360 --> 00:20:28,280 Don't you have something to do elsewhere? 142 00:20:28,440 --> 00:20:29,440 In what sense? 143 00:20:29,560 --> 00:20:31,240 I don't know, go and smoke some tobacco. 144 00:20:31,400 --> 00:20:33,080 No, I want to go to the concert ― - So go. 145 00:20:33,200 --> 00:20:34,480 Are you mad or something? - Yeah. 146 00:20:34,640 --> 00:20:37,040 Why? - You're acting like a jerk. 147 00:20:37,240 --> 00:20:38,880 Oh, because of that, yeah? - Yes! Exactly. 148 00:20:39,000 --> 00:20:42,800 Oh, sorry! I totally... I just noticed it and I ― 149 00:20:43,040 --> 00:20:44,680 Yeah, like a child. 150 00:20:45,480 --> 00:20:47,080 Yeah, the sun really is bright right now. 151 00:20:47,200 --> 00:20:48,840 Oh, the sun is down? 152 00:20:54,080 --> 00:20:56,560 Take care. - You, too. 153 00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:24,320 We get along super nice when not together. 154 00:22:24,480 --> 00:22:25,760 It's interesting. 155 00:22:25,960 --> 00:22:27,480 The moment we go our separate ways 156 00:22:27,600 --> 00:22:29,000 we're the best of friends. 157 00:22:29,200 --> 00:22:32,760 When we're together, we're like some kind of ― 158 00:22:42,280 --> 00:22:43,960 Makes you sick. 159 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:45,760 We hurt each other, 160 00:22:45,960 --> 00:22:48,000 we've got these problems and all kinds of stuff. 161 00:22:48,120 --> 00:22:51,400 At times I feel like a patient in an asylum. 162 00:22:51,680 --> 00:22:53,760 And I really don't know what Riita thinks 163 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:56,280 because she says one thing but thinks another. 164 00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:20,000 There's tantra here from dawn till dusk. 165 00:23:20,160 --> 00:23:22,440 Are you're flexing? - No, I'm not flexing... 166 00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:25,360 But, listen, I thought that maybe we 167 00:23:25,440 --> 00:23:27,680 could meet on Monday? Or Sunday or...? 168 00:23:27,960 --> 00:23:30,320 I have to be at work on Monday anyway. 169 00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:32,360 It makes no difference for me 170 00:23:32,560 --> 00:23:36,000 whether I have sex with you tomorrow evening or on Tuesday evening. 171 00:23:37,760 --> 00:23:38,800 Right. 172 00:27:31,760 --> 00:27:33,560 We have been together with Kay for 173 00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:35,800 quite a long time. From the age of 18. 174 00:27:36,600 --> 00:27:39,640 That's more than 30 years ago now. 175 00:27:41,840 --> 00:27:44,520 This opening in our realationship took place 176 00:27:44,640 --> 00:27:47,480 two years ago, I guess. 177 00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:48,680 Oh? 178 00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:51,040 Yeah this thing is pretty new. 179 00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:04,640 But that was Kay's initiative, of course. 180 00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:07,120 I think I would not have started it. 181 00:28:11,200 --> 00:28:14,160 Actually last September was for me a real breakthrough. 182 00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:16,320 A lot of things happened. 183 00:28:17,720 --> 00:28:21,360 For the first time in my life 184 00:28:21,760 --> 00:28:24,520 I had sex with several other men. 185 00:28:24,920 --> 00:28:28,680 Before that was for me something 186 00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:31,040 I don't even know how to say this... 187 00:28:31,240 --> 00:28:33,320 Like something that is unsuitable. 188 00:28:33,520 --> 00:28:37,080 I had the idea of some kind of honesty 189 00:28:37,360 --> 00:28:40,360 or an exclusive partnership. 190 00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:45,320 He told me he has noticed that he feels 191 00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:48,120 like being in a better place now. 192 00:28:48,720 --> 00:28:51,400 Opening oneself, opening himself to another women, 193 00:28:51,600 --> 00:28:54,280 opening his heart. 194 00:29:00,040 --> 00:29:02,720 To be frank, he is now much more alive. 195 00:29:37,400 --> 00:29:38,440 Yeah? 196 00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:40,600 Hello honey. - Hi. 197 00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:45,600 I wanted to say that I'll try sending you a bit more money this month. 198 00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:48,600 You can buy clothes for the kids and such. 199 00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:50,400 Yeah. 200 00:29:50,600 --> 00:29:52,880 I'll try to send you a thousand euros 201 00:29:52,960 --> 00:29:55,440 but I'll see how I'll manage. I'll try. 202 00:29:56,560 --> 00:29:59,280 You do know my thoughts are always with you. 203 00:29:59,520 --> 00:30:02,160 So that everything would be fine. 204 00:30:02,360 --> 00:30:04,760 Yes. I know that and I feel that. 205 00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:09,200 I love you very much. 206 00:30:09,760 --> 00:30:14,000 I love you too. Whether we're far apart or close, we're still... 207 00:30:15,600 --> 00:30:18,920 Only I'd like to touch you more. 208 00:30:19,720 --> 00:30:21,200 Yeah. 209 00:31:30,320 --> 00:31:33,080 Are these already joined over there? 210 00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:45,400 Come on in! - I brought some flowers. 211 00:31:45,680 --> 00:31:49,360 Obviously Kay's physical sexuality level is very open. Right? 212 00:31:49,520 --> 00:31:50,600 Yeah. 213 00:31:50,760 --> 00:31:55,400 Women not used to those kinds of men 214 00:31:55,840 --> 00:31:58,920 will be very frightened, let me put it like that. 215 00:31:59,760 --> 00:32:01,720 He touched your heart. - Yeah. 216 00:32:01,920 --> 00:32:03,360 That is clearly visible. 217 00:32:03,600 --> 00:32:04,880 Yes, 218 00:32:05,160 --> 00:32:07,200 he definitely 219 00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:12,840 touched me, he helped open up spaces in me 220 00:32:13,080 --> 00:32:16,760 that I wasn't even aware of before. 221 00:32:17,160 --> 00:32:22,160 And all the time I felt very much protected. 222 00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:26,160 You actually wanted to feel like a woman! Say it like it is! 223 00:32:26,400 --> 00:32:28,400 You waited for a man. 224 00:32:28,680 --> 00:32:31,360 Maybe Sven felt more like a friend. 225 00:32:31,520 --> 00:32:35,080 Yeah, with Sven we have a very strong friendship. 226 00:32:35,560 --> 00:32:36,960 That is very different. 227 00:32:37,200 --> 00:32:39,880 Ideally it is all combined in one man. 228 00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:43,520 Yes. 229 00:33:07,600 --> 00:33:08,800 Thank you! 230 00:33:09,000 --> 00:33:10,600 This is my gift to you. 231 00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:15,760 A bed warmer! 232 00:33:18,160 --> 00:33:19,200 Thanks! 233 00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:20,360 You're welcome. 234 00:33:27,200 --> 00:33:29,960 Yeah, I just discovered at one point 235 00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:34,440 that love, for example 236 00:33:34,640 --> 00:33:36,760 is in overbundance - 237 00:33:37,240 --> 00:33:42,920 it's not like a glass of water 238 00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:49,320 that is reduced more you share it, quite the opposite. 239 00:33:50,520 --> 00:33:54,600 So we both at times have 240 00:33:54,800 --> 00:33:59,400 so-called relationships with other people. 241 00:34:02,240 --> 00:34:05,640 Love relationships. Intimate relationships. 242 00:34:06,760 --> 00:34:08,840 Oh, come on, people! 243 00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:17,719 Okay. And what's next?! 244 00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:19,840 Nothing. 245 00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:24,679 And who, where, when? 246 00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:29,159 Who, where, when? 247 00:34:56,080 --> 00:34:58,120 This is Marianne from Sänna. 248 00:34:58,520 --> 00:35:00,440 And this is my mother Monica. 249 00:35:00,960 --> 00:35:02,280 Marianne also speaks German. 250 00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:04,160 Oh yeah, super. 251 00:35:11,400 --> 00:35:12,840 Yeah, okay, all good. 252 00:35:13,040 --> 00:35:14,320 Thanks! 253 00:35:14,680 --> 00:35:16,160 Yesterday you were asking 254 00:35:16,320 --> 00:35:17,480 about my relationships. 255 00:35:18,000 --> 00:35:20,360 Marianne is one of my relationships. 256 00:35:20,480 --> 00:35:22,480 Yes? - Yes. 257 00:35:23,960 --> 00:35:26,480 Do you wish to hear more details? 258 00:35:42,600 --> 00:35:48,880 Gooooood damn it! 259 00:35:51,120 --> 00:35:52,920 Stupid people! 260 00:36:46,720 --> 00:36:47,880 And no kids! 261 00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:49,920 I started feeling 262 00:36:50,400 --> 00:36:52,880 a kind of self-pity. 263 00:36:53,040 --> 00:36:56,560 Like what have I actually done? Like that. 264 00:36:57,920 --> 00:36:59,520 As if I had lived my life wrong 265 00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:05,840 I've been thinking that I guess it has been necessary. 266 00:37:06,040 --> 00:37:09,480 It's not like I can rewind the clock. What happened, happened. 267 00:37:10,680 --> 00:37:12,680 Where are your mother and father now? 268 00:37:13,680 --> 00:37:15,520 My biological father is dead. 269 00:37:15,800 --> 00:37:18,240 Mother is... alive. 270 00:37:19,840 --> 00:37:25,360 How old is the Riita who misses being loved? 271 00:37:27,800 --> 00:37:30,120 Eleven. - Eleven? Very good. 272 00:37:31,200 --> 00:37:36,000 You are 11-year old Riita. Enter this image. 273 00:37:36,400 --> 00:37:38,200 You can close your eyes if you want to. 274 00:37:38,280 --> 00:37:39,280 I don't. 275 00:37:39,640 --> 00:37:42,000 Where are you? Who are you with? 276 00:37:43,720 --> 00:37:47,160 The family had actually disintegrated and ― 277 00:37:47,400 --> 00:37:49,760 mom had taken off somewhere already 278 00:37:50,200 --> 00:37:54,840 with her young lover and my little brother. 279 00:37:55,800 --> 00:37:57,800 And she promised to come to my birthday. 280 00:37:58,000 --> 00:37:59,800 But she didn't. 281 00:38:10,280 --> 00:38:13,480 Eleven-year old Riita ― what do you need right now? 282 00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:19,160 A mother. 283 00:38:25,800 --> 00:38:28,760 I feel as if I was left alone. 284 00:38:29,120 --> 00:38:32,560 And I have done everything wrong. 285 00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:35,320 All of my life has been wrong! 286 00:38:47,400 --> 00:38:49,480 When was the last time you heard 287 00:38:51,560 --> 00:38:54,320 someone tell you "I love you"? 288 00:38:55,560 --> 00:38:57,280 And "I am proud of you"? 289 00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:00,200 Never. 290 00:39:11,760 --> 00:39:13,800 Something exciting from here. - Buckwheat cake. 291 00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:20,920 One day you told me over the phone 292 00:39:21,280 --> 00:39:24,240 that this Kay sent you a message and that he is here now and, well ― 293 00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:26,760 I don't even know what he wrote 294 00:39:26,920 --> 00:39:29,400 but I understand he wanted to meet with you. 295 00:39:32,120 --> 00:39:33,400 I did pop by there. 296 00:39:33,520 --> 00:39:34,920 You did go there, yeah? 297 00:39:38,160 --> 00:39:39,840 Well, you know 298 00:39:40,000 --> 00:39:42,520 that you wouldn't like it either if I did something like that. 299 00:39:43,600 --> 00:39:47,400 I have never forbidden you from communicating with someone 300 00:39:48,080 --> 00:39:51,280 but if such problems arise I will do it. 301 00:39:53,040 --> 00:39:56,160 Because I've told you many times: put yourself in my situation. 302 00:39:56,360 --> 00:39:58,440 I guess I would indeed start worrying at some point. 303 00:39:58,600 --> 00:40:01,960 Well, put yourself in my situation and you will understand. 304 00:40:11,040 --> 00:40:14,400 No average man would not discuss it at all. 305 00:40:14,600 --> 00:40:17,760 He would leave and that's that ― he wouldn't discuss a single word. 306 00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:22,280 And yet I talk for a year, for two years ― 307 00:40:22,880 --> 00:40:25,440 I'm not like the average man, right? 308 00:40:26,040 --> 00:40:28,120 He would say one sentence and if that wouldn't help 309 00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:30,400 he would march off and leave everything behind. 310 00:40:30,560 --> 00:40:32,160 Wouldn't send any money or anything ― 311 00:40:35,360 --> 00:40:38,520 And that would be a perfectly decent, normal man, not some jerk. 312 00:41:24,760 --> 00:41:30,760 Yeah, it was a surprise that Kay has to be away next week as well. 313 00:41:32,600 --> 00:41:38,120 I know that he is meeting another woman 314 00:41:38,360 --> 00:41:41,200 with whom he also has a relationship. 315 00:41:42,040 --> 00:41:43,560 For me it is difficult 316 00:41:44,640 --> 00:41:49,120 when I need intimacy or support 317 00:41:49,320 --> 00:41:51,480 and that person is not actually here. 318 00:42:12,360 --> 00:42:15,440 But why don't we take a plunge in the unknown waters and invite Kira over? 319 00:42:17,440 --> 00:42:19,320 I feel relief 320 00:42:19,480 --> 00:42:20,960 when I say I don't want that. 321 00:42:25,560 --> 00:42:29,360 And I have difficulties empathizing with you in this sense. 322 00:42:30,720 --> 00:42:32,640 You can leave that decision to me. 323 00:42:32,760 --> 00:42:35,960 I trust my intuition quite a lot. 324 00:42:41,120 --> 00:42:45,200 Well, yeah, but what are your 'intuition' and your 'motivation'? 325 00:42:49,600 --> 00:42:53,040 My motivation is to open up new opportunities. 326 00:42:53,480 --> 00:42:55,920 To meet people and get to know them. 327 00:42:57,200 --> 00:42:59,360 All kinds of dynamic. 328 00:42:59,680 --> 00:43:02,840 That eventually leads to us 329 00:43:03,840 --> 00:43:07,200 somehow growing or developing as people. 330 00:43:08,720 --> 00:43:10,480 But something I have learned by now 331 00:43:10,720 --> 00:43:12,640 is that it's a package. 332 00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:15,480 Pleasure, joy and pain come only as a package. 333 00:43:17,440 --> 00:43:19,680 You're telling this to me now? 334 00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:21,640 I'm speaking in general. 335 00:43:21,880 --> 00:43:25,760 Yeah, but is this what you're currently trying to tell me? 336 00:43:25,920 --> 00:43:27,680 So anger, pain and joy ― 337 00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:31,360 You're saying: go along with the pain? 338 00:43:32,440 --> 00:43:35,560 Exactly. Since it somewhat... 339 00:43:37,800 --> 00:43:41,440 ... comes with joy and pleasure. 340 00:44:19,040 --> 00:44:23,600 And this house was built by my great-great-great-grandfather. 341 00:45:23,840 --> 00:45:25,640 Sometimes I feel like saying 342 00:45:25,760 --> 00:45:29,160 "Okay, I'm off, goodbye. 343 00:45:29,320 --> 00:45:31,680 Enjoy yourself, I'm leaving." 344 00:45:31,840 --> 00:45:35,240 That's the kind of feeling that I had before. 345 00:45:40,760 --> 00:45:43,760 I cannot understand at all what's going on 346 00:45:43,960 --> 00:45:46,480 and in which direction things are moving or not moving. 347 00:45:47,480 --> 00:45:49,840 If I understand correctly, 348 00:45:50,280 --> 00:45:53,000 you'd like to spend more time alone with Kay? 349 00:45:53,160 --> 00:45:54,520 Yes. 350 00:45:54,680 --> 00:45:56,120 Yeah... 351 00:45:56,440 --> 00:45:58,240 But now I'm here too. 352 00:45:58,560 --> 00:46:00,080 Exactly. 353 00:46:00,560 --> 00:46:03,880 Maybe you two have options when I'm not here. 354 00:46:04,080 --> 00:46:05,760 That's kind of the issue. 355 00:46:05,920 --> 00:46:08,920 How to find the format that would suit us all. 356 00:46:13,320 --> 00:46:15,560 Well, we both invited you here. 357 00:46:15,760 --> 00:46:18,920 We discussed for a long time whether it is a good idea or not. 358 00:46:21,040 --> 00:46:24,120 For me it's kind of important 359 00:46:25,720 --> 00:46:28,320 to at least be seen. 360 00:46:28,640 --> 00:46:33,720 And to be respected as Kay's partner too. 361 00:48:36,000 --> 00:48:38,720 Right now I don't really have the energy to do anything. 362 00:48:38,880 --> 00:48:41,760 Although I feel I should. - Should do what? 363 00:48:43,440 --> 00:48:45,240 I should ask if we can make a fire here. 364 00:48:45,440 --> 00:48:48,160 If we can't, we need to figure out 365 00:48:48,360 --> 00:48:50,720 if we can make this room warmer. 366 00:48:51,120 --> 00:48:53,240 For the massage, see. 367 00:48:57,440 --> 00:48:59,400 There's plenty of room. 368 00:50:20,360 --> 00:50:22,680 I went to a psychiatrist 369 00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:25,240 and I was given pills. 370 00:50:26,160 --> 00:50:28,520 Well, that did suppress things, yeah. 371 00:50:31,920 --> 00:50:36,840 That's approximately the second time I have this deeper depression. 372 00:50:39,120 --> 00:50:42,560 We got into a fight with Riita over something really small 373 00:50:42,760 --> 00:50:44,600 and now... 374 00:50:44,720 --> 00:50:46,680 We're no longer in an intimate relationship. 375 00:50:56,400 --> 00:50:59,560 Just like Riita and I. I just don't know who's who. 376 00:51:32,720 --> 00:51:34,840 I see. - Yeah, lengthwise. 377 00:51:35,080 --> 00:51:37,000 It has been ripped apart 378 00:51:37,080 --> 00:51:40,440 purposefully, not something impulsive. 379 00:51:40,680 --> 00:51:42,000 No, I destroyed it quite calmly. 380 00:51:42,200 --> 00:51:43,360 Oh, calmly? - Yeah. 381 00:51:43,480 --> 00:51:44,480 But ― 382 00:51:44,680 --> 00:51:48,040 In the sense that my actions were calm. Why bother? 383 00:51:48,880 --> 00:51:52,480 Maybe I see this relationship differently than Riita. 384 00:51:52,800 --> 00:51:54,160 How do you see this relationship? 385 00:51:54,320 --> 00:51:57,000 Well, I see it in the sense that ― 386 00:51:58,800 --> 00:52:00,040 Riita is only looking for fun. 387 00:52:00,160 --> 00:52:02,000 The moment things get difficult, she leaves. 388 00:52:03,360 --> 00:52:06,840 I felt anger towards Riita. 389 00:52:07,720 --> 00:52:10,680 We had the agreement that we want to have a child 390 00:52:11,000 --> 00:52:17,960 and I strived to make the situation economically suitable. 391 00:52:19,240 --> 00:52:22,000 And then Riita declared she no longer wants a child. 392 00:52:22,240 --> 00:52:24,600 Not only that ― 393 00:52:25,720 --> 00:52:28,320 she went to live with Kaur. Kaur... 394 00:52:28,680 --> 00:52:30,680 is a neighbor. 395 00:52:32,720 --> 00:52:35,080 Is Riita currently at home too? 396 00:52:35,360 --> 00:52:36,480 Yeah. 397 00:52:36,760 --> 00:52:39,560 Shall we invite her over to drink tea? Or... I don't know? 398 00:52:39,920 --> 00:52:42,280 Yes, lets invite her over. Sure. - I'd like to see her too. 399 00:52:42,440 --> 00:52:44,040 Where are you? 400 00:52:44,840 --> 00:52:47,000 Listen, you mind coming over to my room? 401 00:52:48,880 --> 00:52:50,400 Kristina wants to see you. 402 00:52:55,760 --> 00:52:58,080 We are currently at these strips, right? 403 00:52:58,200 --> 00:53:01,000 The question is indeed if these contracts 404 00:53:01,160 --> 00:53:02,960 support freedom or do the opposite ― 405 00:53:03,080 --> 00:53:06,360 More like restrict it. I feel like it's full of fear. 406 00:53:06,640 --> 00:53:08,520 You feel that? - "Can't do this, can't do that. 407 00:53:08,640 --> 00:53:10,880 Must do this. Once a month, twice a month." 408 00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:14,800 Not very free, in my opinion. 409 00:53:17,640 --> 00:53:19,960 If you want a warm room and a nice 410 00:53:20,040 --> 00:53:23,000 life, you must suffer in a relationship. 411 00:53:23,200 --> 00:53:25,520 No! What are you talking about?! - Have to make an effort! 412 00:53:25,640 --> 00:53:27,800 No! See, that again is exactly... 413 00:53:27,920 --> 00:53:30,480 "Suffer in a relationship" ― what are you talking about?! 414 00:53:31,880 --> 00:53:35,640 I said that we must make an effort for the sake of shared goals. 415 00:53:35,840 --> 00:53:38,320 I said that. And it is like that. 416 00:53:39,560 --> 00:53:43,880 People move on in life together. I don't think that's weird. 417 00:53:45,440 --> 00:53:49,040 Yeah, you need to make a bit of an effort but it's not something... 418 00:53:50,360 --> 00:53:51,960 really unpleasant, is it? 419 00:53:52,280 --> 00:53:54,120 I think that's perfectly logical, I don't know. 420 00:53:54,280 --> 00:53:57,920 It is, but if we don't have 421 00:53:58,960 --> 00:54:02,800 the "inspiration" or the "elevation, support and trust", 422 00:54:02,880 --> 00:54:04,800 then it's a huge effort. 423 00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:07,680 Why isn't it there? I don't understand. 424 00:54:07,760 --> 00:54:09,240 Well... we don't have it, right? 425 00:54:09,680 --> 00:54:12,080 I think only the support is missing. 426 00:54:13,080 --> 00:54:14,400 Inspiration is there. 427 00:54:14,560 --> 00:54:16,440 I don't think it's there. 428 00:54:18,040 --> 00:54:20,880 Trust isn't there either? I no longer have trust either 429 00:54:21,080 --> 00:54:22,640 but we did have it, in my opinion. 430 00:54:23,400 --> 00:54:27,000 Well, we didn't have support. But, again, that's my viewpoint ― 431 00:54:27,160 --> 00:54:30,160 But what is this support? In your opinion? 432 00:54:43,520 --> 00:54:45,480 MUNICH, GERMANY 433 00:54:50,160 --> 00:54:53,240 I was just thinking that you might bring flowers. 434 00:55:22,280 --> 00:55:24,200 I'd like to light one for my mother. 435 00:55:35,400 --> 00:55:37,400 Your mother was very worried about me. 436 00:55:38,800 --> 00:55:41,120 She thought about how Sven feels 437 00:55:41,760 --> 00:55:44,520 when these things are going on. 438 00:55:45,120 --> 00:55:46,800 Well, yeah, she was ultra-sensitive ― 439 00:55:46,960 --> 00:55:50,040 She didn't think about what Sven should do but what Sven must feel. 440 00:55:50,240 --> 00:55:53,800 How will Sven cope, how will he survive this. 441 00:55:56,280 --> 00:55:59,920 When I ended up in the hospital in Germany with heart problems, 442 00:56:00,120 --> 00:56:02,960 my opinion changed. My life is important too. 443 00:56:03,200 --> 00:56:05,920 It's not just Marianne and the children ― my life is important, too. 444 00:56:06,000 --> 00:56:07,520 Because if I'm no longer here, they will 445 00:56:07,600 --> 00:56:09,040 not live in Southern Estonia anymore 446 00:56:09,160 --> 00:56:11,720 and everything will collapse and our marriage has been destroyed. 447 00:56:11,800 --> 00:56:14,040 When I'm dead, the marriage is destroyed, right? 448 00:56:14,680 --> 00:56:17,040 One can't think that it's all about the kids, the kids 449 00:56:17,200 --> 00:56:19,040 and Marianne, the relationship ― 450 00:56:19,240 --> 00:56:22,400 I said: "This physical body is failing 451 00:56:22,520 --> 00:56:25,680 but at one point there is a limit and I am the most important." 452 00:56:26,560 --> 00:56:29,600 Sven, that's enough, I think. I grow tired of this talk. 453 00:56:29,840 --> 00:56:31,840 Sven, I want to go to bed. 454 00:56:32,120 --> 00:56:35,520 We have discussed some things so many times that... yeah. 455 00:57:15,680 --> 00:57:17,840 Got you! You little weasel, what are you doing here? 456 00:57:18,040 --> 00:57:19,560 You can't be in here. 457 00:57:23,440 --> 00:57:25,040 Into the box! 458 00:57:27,280 --> 00:57:30,640 Since the cat does not know we are separated 459 00:57:31,560 --> 00:57:35,040 I put our pictures up. Riita and I, together. 460 00:57:41,400 --> 00:57:46,800 Sometimes I just look at how the branches sway in the wind 461 00:57:47,000 --> 00:57:52,320 and feel that ― without any living object in this ― 462 00:57:52,480 --> 00:57:53,560 Yeah? 463 00:57:53,680 --> 00:57:56,160 ... in this view. I feel that life moves 464 00:57:56,240 --> 00:57:58,960 all the time and I just sit and enjoy it. 465 00:57:59,240 --> 00:58:04,520 I can't explain it to anyone that sometimes it is all I need. 466 00:58:04,760 --> 00:58:08,840 I have sent applications and I could have gotten a job long ago. 467 00:58:09,000 --> 00:58:10,080 Yeah. 468 00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:13,000 Now, in some sense, all of these seem like the wrong options. 469 00:58:13,160 --> 00:58:15,120 People often do that ― pick a routine, 470 00:58:15,200 --> 00:58:17,240 they choose it and want it themselves. 471 00:58:17,560 --> 00:58:19,880 Yeah. That I can understand perfectly well. 472 00:58:20,800 --> 00:58:25,800 But, see, noticing these paths 473 00:58:25,960 --> 00:58:28,920 is useless if you don't go there. 474 00:58:30,800 --> 00:58:32,120 Well, yeah. - You understand? 475 00:58:32,360 --> 00:58:34,120 But it starts with noticing. 476 00:58:35,280 --> 00:58:37,880 So if I notice them I can choose at one point. 477 00:58:38,040 --> 00:58:40,000 If I don't even notice then ― 478 00:58:41,720 --> 00:58:44,160 So you were just busy noticing? 479 00:58:45,840 --> 00:58:47,400 Not choosing? 480 00:58:49,200 --> 00:58:51,240 I'm thinking about how to choose. 481 00:58:51,480 --> 00:58:53,440 You're thinking, huh? 482 00:58:59,360 --> 00:59:03,800 My concern here is indeed 483 00:59:05,160 --> 00:59:07,960 whether I would trust myself into your hands. 484 00:59:08,520 --> 00:59:10,520 Why would you need to trust yourself into my hands? 485 00:59:10,720 --> 00:59:12,440 Well, simply... as a woman, see. 486 00:59:14,560 --> 00:59:15,760 In that sense. 487 00:59:45,200 --> 00:59:51,000 For me the most annoying is when someone just disappears. 488 00:59:52,000 --> 00:59:53,880 Eventually he texted that he doesn't 489 00:59:53,960 --> 00:59:56,120 want to communicate with you any more? 490 00:59:56,320 --> 01:00:01,560 Probably you replied politely that you understand, something like this? 491 01:00:01,800 --> 01:00:04,560 Something like this. - Very well. 492 01:00:04,800 --> 01:00:10,440 After being such a nice person, open your other side as well. 493 01:00:10,720 --> 01:00:13,360 Yes? Stay in that feeling of anger 494 01:00:13,600 --> 01:00:14,640 I don't know how. 495 01:00:14,960 --> 01:00:18,160 Stay in that feeling of anger. Very good. 496 01:00:20,160 --> 01:00:23,200 Don't climb up there. First, put your two feet on the ground. 497 01:00:23,840 --> 01:00:25,840 Stay in that feeling of anger. 498 01:00:26,520 --> 01:00:28,720 The start of the next sentence, Riita, is: 499 01:00:28,920 --> 01:00:30,480 "What the fuck...". 500 01:00:30,640 --> 01:00:32,240 Continue. 501 01:00:38,240 --> 01:00:41,840 You're entering the feeling of anger. - I don't have any feelings of anger! 502 01:00:43,920 --> 01:00:45,800 Right into that feeling, whatever you have ― 503 01:00:49,400 --> 01:00:50,440 Exactly. 504 01:00:50,600 --> 01:00:52,680 What the fuck? What else will you tell him? 505 01:00:52,960 --> 01:00:54,440 From that same place? 506 01:00:59,160 --> 01:01:01,640 The fuck you're still hanging around for? 507 01:01:08,200 --> 01:01:10,600 Go and humiliate someone else. 508 01:01:29,880 --> 01:01:34,800 So I'm having a conversation with Kay today. 509 01:01:36,240 --> 01:01:39,960 I'll meet with him and tell him about these things. 510 01:01:42,080 --> 01:01:45,080 But he won't come to the manor, right? So the kids would see. 511 01:01:45,200 --> 01:01:47,280 Yes. He won't come, we're meeting ― 512 01:01:47,520 --> 01:01:49,400 No, it's just that ― 513 01:01:50,360 --> 01:01:53,160 You know the kids don't want it. 514 01:01:53,880 --> 01:01:56,240 We're meeting in a neutral place. 515 01:01:56,440 --> 01:01:59,040 Don't tell the kids you and Kay are going to meet. 516 01:01:59,200 --> 01:02:01,040 Yes, I'm going to tell them ― 517 01:02:01,240 --> 01:02:03,920 Some other reason. 518 01:03:55,400 --> 01:03:59,880 The largest part of human pain is useless. 519 01:04:01,440 --> 01:04:05,280 Until life is ruled by subconsciousness, 520 01:04:05,680 --> 01:04:07,640 you're creating your own pain. 521 01:05:15,320 --> 01:05:18,000 POTSDAM, GERMANY 522 01:05:32,640 --> 01:05:34,440 Not that easy for me anymore. 523 01:05:40,640 --> 01:05:42,880 Did you go out yesterday? - Yeah. 524 01:05:43,080 --> 01:05:44,600 So tell me, how was it? 525 01:05:44,680 --> 01:05:46,200 No, I'm not saying anything. 526 01:05:46,440 --> 01:05:48,520 You're not telling? 527 01:05:48,800 --> 01:05:50,520 It's too private. 528 01:05:50,720 --> 01:05:53,360 Okay. But tell me: was it good or was it shit? 529 01:05:53,520 --> 01:05:56,160 No, it was good. Yeah. 530 01:05:57,440 --> 01:05:59,960 Do you feel something else? Jealousy? 531 01:06:00,160 --> 01:06:01,920 Definitely. 532 01:06:02,200 --> 01:06:06,840 But I have never had that feeling very strongly. 533 01:06:07,000 --> 01:06:08,840 Even earlier. 534 01:06:10,480 --> 01:06:11,560 But, yeah, 535 01:06:11,760 --> 01:06:14,320 in principle I know this feeling. 536 01:06:20,480 --> 01:06:22,000 Feels like a waste. 537 01:06:34,600 --> 01:06:35,880 Good morning! 538 01:06:36,000 --> 01:06:37,640 You're already here. 539 01:06:40,680 --> 01:06:42,840 Did you sleep well? - Yeah. 540 01:06:43,440 --> 01:06:47,720 Considering that I have to leave now I slept really well indeed. 541 01:06:48,640 --> 01:06:51,280 It's good to catch a bit of sleep. 542 01:07:38,520 --> 01:07:41,920 Right. Good bye. 543 01:07:48,720 --> 01:07:52,040 Say hi to Beate for me. 544 01:07:54,920 --> 01:07:56,560 And off he goes. 545 01:07:58,400 --> 01:08:00,600 And off he goes. 546 01:13:36,480 --> 01:13:42,360 It was like a fast-paced intensive course. 547 01:13:42,720 --> 01:13:45,880 All those moments together. 548 01:13:46,200 --> 01:13:51,240 Although in reality the meetings weren't that many. 549 01:13:51,400 --> 01:13:55,680 But when we were together it was really intense. 550 01:13:59,440 --> 01:14:02,960 He was the one who opened my eyes in many ways. 551 01:14:03,240 --> 01:14:05,960 And gave me a lot of self-confidence. 552 01:14:07,160 --> 01:14:10,920 To find something inside me 553 01:14:11,120 --> 01:14:16,120 that I had lost or forgotten. 554 01:14:17,920 --> 01:14:20,840 And I felt that I need a male teacher for that. 555 01:14:21,040 --> 01:14:24,960 Who has been studying these topics. And also knows tantric path. 556 01:14:27,840 --> 01:14:32,520 I also got an inner message or guidance 557 01:14:33,880 --> 01:14:35,600 that we need to meet. 558 01:14:36,280 --> 01:14:39,520 I would like to do a meditation together with him. 559 01:14:40,320 --> 01:14:44,720 We really haven't been in contact for a year. 560 01:14:49,240 --> 01:14:51,360 Yeah, I sent him a message on Friday. 561 01:14:56,960 --> 01:14:58,080 And then he responded ― 562 01:15:31,120 --> 01:15:33,760 HALF A YEAR LATER 563 01:15:35,440 --> 01:15:38,960 Welcome, Marianne and Sven, to the workshop 564 01:15:39,240 --> 01:15:41,280 'The Path to Desired Love'! 565 01:15:41,520 --> 01:15:44,520 Pencil... and a bottle of water. 566 01:15:45,040 --> 01:15:47,320 And for you, Marianne. - Yeah, thanks! 567 01:15:47,600 --> 01:15:49,440 Do you want to keep the sheets in your hand? 568 01:15:49,600 --> 01:15:52,600 I'd rather not, actually. - I'll then... I'll keep them here. 569 01:15:52,760 --> 01:15:55,360 I'm helping you and you don't have to worry at all. 570 01:15:55,960 --> 01:15:57,480 And then, Marianne, you can say "I 571 01:15:57,560 --> 01:15:59,440 wish to discuss with you the situation 572 01:15:59,800 --> 01:16:03,640 where I feel disturbed". That is the title for this theme. 573 01:16:04,520 --> 01:16:07,840 I feel very disturbed when... 574 01:16:09,680 --> 01:16:14,040 you're tense... 575 01:16:15,760 --> 01:16:20,760 and withdrawn, you keep to yourself. 576 01:16:21,200 --> 01:16:26,120 I am actually completely alone in that situation. 577 01:16:27,440 --> 01:16:29,800 I feel isolated. 578 01:16:33,720 --> 01:16:37,080 When old issues have not been permanently closed 579 01:16:37,240 --> 01:16:39,840 and those relationships severed, then ― 580 01:16:40,080 --> 01:16:43,120 I'm totally honest with you ― these feelings can never be restored. 581 01:16:43,920 --> 01:16:48,440 I feel hurt when you don't listen to me, when I tell you: 582 01:16:48,640 --> 01:16:52,400 this activity hurts me and the children, don't do it! 583 01:17:00,760 --> 01:17:03,040 We can be without words, I don't... 584 01:17:04,120 --> 01:17:07,280 Just to listen to silence for a bit. 585 01:17:23,400 --> 01:17:25,960 So is that okay for you? To be without words? 586 01:17:26,080 --> 01:17:27,400 Yeah. 587 01:17:28,880 --> 01:17:31,960 I really do value this silence above everything right now. 588 01:17:39,960 --> 01:17:44,400 I wish to be listened to as a man and a husband, 589 01:17:44,600 --> 01:17:46,320 to have my opinion taken into account. 590 01:17:46,520 --> 01:17:49,960 How does it feel when you have that? "Then I will feel..."? 591 01:17:50,120 --> 01:17:52,680 Then I will feel as a real man, your husband. 592 01:17:54,080 --> 01:17:55,280 "So that you would notice..." 593 01:17:55,400 --> 01:17:58,960 So that you would notice how important it is that I am not just 594 01:17:59,120 --> 01:18:01,920 a man who goes to work but that I am the head of the family 595 01:18:02,120 --> 01:18:03,680 and when he says something we listen 596 01:18:03,760 --> 01:18:05,640 to him and take him into consideration. 597 01:18:07,680 --> 01:18:09,840 I want to feel that I am more important 598 01:18:09,920 --> 01:18:12,000 to you than other people, outsiders. 599 01:18:12,680 --> 01:18:14,680 That I am important to you. - The most important. 600 01:18:14,880 --> 01:18:16,240 The most important. 601 01:18:16,360 --> 01:18:18,760 "I would like to feel that I am the most important to you." 602 01:18:19,160 --> 01:18:21,680 Yes, I want like to feel that I am the most important to you. 603 01:18:24,280 --> 01:18:31,600 You said that you want to feel that you are the most important to me. 604 01:18:34,080 --> 01:18:35,280 Yeah. 605 01:18:35,640 --> 01:18:37,120 Well? 606 01:18:37,480 --> 01:18:39,560 Now look up there! 607 01:18:43,280 --> 01:18:45,800 I'm not happy with how I look! 608 01:18:49,240 --> 01:18:50,760 Let's try it one more time. 609 01:18:50,880 --> 01:18:52,680 Trying to be more natural somehow ― 610 01:18:52,880 --> 01:18:54,840 So be natural! 611 01:18:57,160 --> 01:18:58,200 There. 612 01:19:01,160 --> 01:19:04,360 A little further away, that would be better. Wait. 613 01:19:10,360 --> 01:19:11,720 Well, it's ― 614 01:19:15,200 --> 01:19:16,960 Whatever. 615 01:19:39,920 --> 01:19:42,720 What is it with you? Huh? 616 01:19:43,520 --> 01:19:45,600 I'm having all of these thoughts 617 01:19:45,800 --> 01:19:48,200 You're getting those naughty thoughts, yeah? 618 01:19:49,040 --> 01:19:50,840 I won't deny it. 619 01:19:51,080 --> 01:19:52,440 Why should you deny it? 620 01:20:06,080 --> 01:20:08,680 Don't look too much at me. 621 01:20:23,920 --> 01:20:29,800 He is a German, a Baltic German who visits Estonia often. 622 01:20:30,320 --> 01:20:33,520 And our age difference is precisely 12 years and 2 days. 623 01:20:34,360 --> 01:20:37,920 I still consider him to be a great mentor to myself. 624 01:20:39,840 --> 01:20:42,840 But you have been... It shows the past here. 625 01:20:43,080 --> 01:20:46,240 You have bonds from previous lives. 626 01:20:46,560 --> 01:20:50,600 You either were a couple or very close, a brother and a sister. 627 01:20:51,200 --> 01:20:55,320 And something was left unfinished in your previous incarnations. 628 01:20:55,480 --> 01:20:58,480 that's why you had to meet in this life like that. 629 01:21:03,920 --> 01:21:06,320 It's like there's a void in your soul. 630 01:21:06,720 --> 01:21:08,840 You've got a void on the masculine side 631 01:21:09,080 --> 01:21:14,240 and also on the side of your childhood family. 632 01:21:15,440 --> 01:21:17,360 The thing is that, look, 633 01:21:17,560 --> 01:21:21,200 if a man and a woman are sexual partners, for example, 634 01:21:22,360 --> 01:21:26,480 this energy will remain in the aura fields for seven years. 635 01:21:27,000 --> 01:21:31,000 I can reduce this by two or three years 636 01:21:31,880 --> 01:21:33,880 but you have to do this work yourself. 637 01:21:34,160 --> 01:21:38,880 After we have unbound you from each other, 638 01:21:39,320 --> 01:21:41,800 it would be sensible to no longer communicate with each other. 639 01:21:42,000 --> 01:21:47,320 No writing, otherwise you'll restore the connection. 640 01:21:48,680 --> 01:21:50,560 This is now your responsibility. 641 01:22:13,000 --> 01:22:15,120 I'm severing it completely. 642 01:22:16,240 --> 01:22:17,600 Put your hand down. 643 01:22:21,960 --> 01:22:26,400 Bravely onward in your life, bravely onward. 644 01:22:33,120 --> 01:22:34,240 Again! 645 01:22:40,440 --> 01:22:42,000 Yeah! Louder! 646 01:22:42,320 --> 01:22:43,440 Yeah! 647 01:22:44,000 --> 01:22:45,320 Again! 648 01:22:46,640 --> 01:22:48,680 Can we get a full voice or not? 649 01:22:51,360 --> 01:22:52,360 Good! 650 01:22:54,760 --> 01:22:56,720 Good girl. 651 01:22:59,000 --> 01:23:01,840 You did it. You did it! 652 01:23:05,880 --> 01:23:07,920 Thanks! - Thanks! 653 01:23:09,040 --> 01:23:12,760 BERLIN, GERMANY 654 01:24:14,840 --> 01:24:18,440 And I have no plans for Sunday as well. 655 01:24:20,080 --> 01:24:22,560 I've got plans for Monday. - Yeah... 656 01:26:36,000 --> 01:26:40,800 What I will miss most is my own room. 657 01:26:41,520 --> 01:26:44,400 I was so pleased with it. - It was pretty cozy. 658 01:26:44,600 --> 01:26:48,120 Yeah, it was the most beautiful room I've ever had. 659 01:26:48,240 --> 01:26:50,520 Exactly in my style. 660 01:26:50,920 --> 01:26:53,840 But I have to just let go. 661 01:26:55,600 --> 01:26:57,840 I guess other things will come along in life. 662 01:27:23,880 --> 01:27:25,920 Up to you where you want to put it. 663 01:27:29,960 --> 01:27:32,080 Let's rest a bit. - Yeah. 664 01:27:33,360 --> 01:27:34,920 Oh. - Tiresome, yeah. 665 01:27:37,480 --> 01:27:40,040 To a happy new beginning! - Yeah. 666 01:27:40,800 --> 01:27:43,040 Another home. 667 01:27:45,560 --> 01:27:47,200 To peaceful proceedings here! - Yes. 668 01:27:49,480 --> 01:27:53,120 And so you could only deal with the children and with your work 669 01:27:53,480 --> 01:27:55,680 and wouldn't have to deal with any other nonsense. 670 01:27:57,200 --> 01:27:58,920 That you shouldn't have. 671 01:27:59,720 --> 01:28:02,480 Yeah, so I could focus on the important things in life. 672 01:28:02,760 --> 01:28:04,880 Yeah. - Yeah. 673 01:28:16,320 --> 01:28:18,320 Will you go to work tomorrow? - Yes. 674 01:28:19,160 --> 01:28:20,440 I'll take the plane tomorrow. 675 01:28:36,600 --> 01:28:37,920 How does this work? 676 01:28:38,840 --> 01:28:40,640 How do you even start this? 677 01:28:41,280 --> 01:28:43,120 You turn this here. - Oh, like that. 678 01:28:43,320 --> 01:28:45,680 But I really don't know how long it will take them. 679 01:28:50,160 --> 01:28:53,720 Actually we shouldn't have started a relationship. 680 01:28:53,880 --> 01:28:55,200 I was the one tempting ― 681 01:28:55,280 --> 01:28:57,480 I remember it very well; I ran away, you started to ― 682 01:28:57,600 --> 01:28:59,760 I chased after you. Yeah. 683 01:29:00,080 --> 01:29:01,680 And that's when everything went to shit. 684 01:29:01,840 --> 01:29:03,360 Well, yeah. - Exactly, yeah. 685 01:29:04,640 --> 01:29:08,640 I screwed up my health and you did not become happy. 686 01:29:13,280 --> 01:29:14,960 So get a lover then. 687 01:29:15,760 --> 01:29:18,400 Why would I need a lover? I don't even have a man! 688 01:29:19,360 --> 01:29:22,000 I'd like something more... 689 01:29:23,400 --> 01:29:25,000 complete. 690 01:29:27,560 --> 01:29:28,920 But do you still want a child? 691 01:29:29,080 --> 01:29:31,040 Not alone like that! 692 01:29:33,760 --> 01:29:36,160 Today I do, tomorrow I don't. - Egotist. 693 01:29:36,360 --> 01:29:39,200 Oh, an egotist, huh?! If I don't want a child? 694 01:29:39,720 --> 01:29:41,480 Then you need to be sensible. 695 01:29:42,920 --> 01:29:46,520 No, first I want a nice relationship, romance. 696 01:29:48,480 --> 01:29:51,080 But why not ― - Because I've never had it! 697 01:29:51,200 --> 01:29:53,480 Stop lying. - Even with you. 698 01:29:57,120 --> 01:30:02,440 But I think if you know that your friends have ideal men ― 699 01:30:03,120 --> 01:30:05,760 They are not satisfied at times ― 700 01:30:06,000 --> 01:30:07,600 At times nobody is satisfied. 701 01:30:07,720 --> 01:30:09,680 Then you should also be content right 702 01:30:09,760 --> 01:30:12,000 now that you are on a journey, seeking ― 703 01:30:12,200 --> 01:30:14,280 I am content. - the ideal man until you die. 704 01:30:14,920 --> 01:30:16,360 And you'll seek him. 705 01:30:16,640 --> 01:30:18,360 And you won't find him. 706 01:30:19,080 --> 01:30:20,920 But all the time you're feeling good. 707 01:30:21,080 --> 01:30:22,720 What are you programming here? 708 01:30:27,640 --> 01:30:30,040 It's the journey that's important, not this ― 709 01:30:44,760 --> 01:30:47,000 Ah, damn it! 710 01:30:47,480 --> 01:30:49,720 Will you iron them? - Yes! 711 01:31:08,080 --> 01:31:09,520 Well, bye! 712 01:31:14,760 --> 01:31:16,520 Alright. Bye! 713 01:34:43,920 --> 01:34:47,520 Beate and Kay finished their relationship in 2020. 714 01:34:48,760 --> 01:34:50,920 After three more years of open relationship, 715 01:34:51,040 --> 01:34:53,160 Beate now lives in a monogamous partnership. 716 01:34:54,640 --> 01:34:59,320 Kay has a new partner and is still exploring the field of polyamory. 717 01:35:01,080 --> 01:35:03,760 Marianne has moved to a small town in Germany 718 01:35:03,880 --> 01:35:06,120 to share life with her husband Sven. 719 01:35:06,200 --> 01:35:08,360 Their grown-up daughter and son in his late teens 720 01:35:08,520 --> 01:35:09,920 continue living in Estonia. 721 01:35:10,840 --> 01:35:13,200 Riita has not found a steady partner and leads a quiet life. 722 01:35:13,280 --> 01:35:14,880 She has taken up painting as a hobby 723 01:35:14,960 --> 01:35:16,520 and is in the process of putting an end 724 01:35:16,600 --> 01:35:18,120 to her co-dependent personality traits 725 01:35:18,200 --> 01:35:19,560 with the help of a psychologist. 726 01:35:20,080 --> 01:35:23,920 Taavi is looking for his place in life, trying out new religions 727 01:35:24,040 --> 01:35:25,880 from Mormonism to the Russian Orthodox faith. 728 01:35:25,960 --> 01:35:27,960 He hasn't found a new partner yet. 728 01:35:28,305 --> 01:36:28,873