Snorkeling
ID | 13186016 |
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Movie Name | Snorkeling |
Release Name | Snorkeling.2023.1080p.AMZN.WEB-DL.DDP2.0.H.264 |
Year | 2023 |
Kind | movie |
Language | English |
IMDB ID | 20257536 |
Format | srt |
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Open the door!
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<i> That's right.</i>
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Hey.
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Yo. What's happening?
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Hey, hey, hey, hey.
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A strong wind today.
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Yeah.
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Um, my name's Michael.
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I'm 17.
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I'm in high school.
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Okay, switching gears.
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Um, I'd like you to
put your cellphones away.
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Um, eyes up here.
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Uhhhhhhh...
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You could change the pitch.
Ahhhh...
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Goddamn. Loosen up.
Just one more. Try.
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That's for experts.
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I guess I-I do spend
a lot of time with myself.
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No, no, no.
I got it. Yeah.
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<i> Just be careful.</i>
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Yeah, I always lock it up.
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<i>...fuckin' wait. Can you wait?</i>
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<i>Film this here.</i>
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This guy looks fucked up.
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Every time I try,
I do it wrong.
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You tell me it's wrong!
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What the fuck do you want
me to do?!
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Fuck.
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No camera?
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I don't really...
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talk to my parents very much.
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Um, I don't know, like,
my parents were always arguing.
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I don't talk with my dad a lot.
He's always on my ass.
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Like, he's not ever really
satisfied with where I'm at.
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Even if I'm, you know,
doing good.
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There's, like,
a bug flying around.
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Is everything good?
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-Ah, ah, ah, what!
-That's pretty good.
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That was dope.
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...she found
the least common denominator,
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150, which is simply what?
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100?
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100. This is 100.
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So that would make --
make this 34%.
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Even though it's 17
out of 50 people,
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it would make it still 34%,
34 out of 100.
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All right? 34%. So even though
they were close...
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- I like to film.
- ...percent bar.
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Did you look at it
on your percent bar?
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Things that I --
that I find either beautiful
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or, um...
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...or scary or, you know,
whatever intrigues me.
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My name's Jameson.
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I am 17 years old.
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It's hard to introduce yourself.
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♪<i> Hijos de la noche </i>♪
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Happiness.
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It's just that feeling of...
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of -- of almost catching
yourself
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just in a moment where...
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where you're okay...
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...where you can just be.
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<i>I couldn't sleep a lot</i>
<i>last night,</i>
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<i>so I'm kinda tired.</i>
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I guess, like, uh, I get a lot
of thoughts at night,
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and I just couldn't really...
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um, let 'em go.
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<i> What is the concept</i>
<i>of being alone?</i>
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<i>You have, um...</i>
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<i>you have your friends</i>
<i>and you have your family.</i>
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<i>You have the acquaintances</i>
<i>you see around, and -- and...</i>
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<i>...still, it just feels</i>
<i>like it's just...</i>
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...it's just you.
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Is anyone really watching this?
I mean...
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<i>I have a lot of videos of you.</i>
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I watch 'em back a lot.
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I feel like
we're the same person.
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In what way?
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I always see you
when you're alone.
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<i>I'm half, you know, Iranian.</i>
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See? I ne--
I never knew that, though.
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-You didn't know that?
-I thought you were Mexican,
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to be honest.
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Oh.
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To be honest, I did.
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You just got that look.
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All right.
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Um...
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Whatcha got there?
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This place sucks, right?
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Can I have some...of my...
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Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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It's good stuff.
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You snorkel?
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Like in the water?
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No.
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Like...
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You don't know?
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It's like Darth Vader
or something.
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Kinda like Darth Vader.
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No, I don't know what that is.
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I can't tell
if you're kidding or not.
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Oh, I don't do any.
Do you...?
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Yeah.
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I gotta go.
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-Okay.
-I'll see ya.
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All right, we'll see.
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<i> Hit it!</i>
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<i>Hit it!</i>
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<i> Let's see.</i>
<i>What else is there?</i>
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<i> Welcome to the exciting</i>
<i>new sound, sound, sound...</i>
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<i> It's like smoking,</i>
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like two ounces of,
like, pure indica pot.
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And just like -- just like...
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you're just melted into,
like, where you are.
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<i> Everything around me</i>
<i>gets brighter, more fun.</i>
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<i>Everyone's dancing better</i>
<i>if they sucked before.</i>
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<i>The music's better</i>
<i>if it's sucked before.</i>
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Like, everything
that sucked is a bit better.
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<i> I get so nervous</i>
<i>around girls.</i>
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<i>But when I'm in this world,</i>
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I'm not scared to be myself.
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And I feel like
no one's judging me.
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A lot of times it's hard
to be a part of the world
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if you're not open
to that kind of thing.
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<i> It's not something</i>
<i>I-I don't know too much about.</i>
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But, yeah, it's like a...
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drug that they breathe in.
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<i> That particular drug</i>
<i>feels like I left my body</i>
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<i>and I'm just somewhere else.</i>
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I mean,
it's all in your head,
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but the world around you
completely changes.
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You feel kind of invincible.
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Like you can do anything.
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I guess I was curious.
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But I guess it's, like,
also kind of because of a girl.
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<i> Nirtraxil, Trax,</i>
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<i>or you guys might</i>
<i>call it snorkeling.</i>
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<i>Extremely dangerous,</i>
<i>highly addictive drug.</i>
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<i>It can be taken in</i>
<i>various forms,</i>
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<i>most commonly inhaling</i>
<i>from a canister,</i>
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<i>but in more severe cases</i>
<i>it can be injected,</i>
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<i>which poses an even greater</i>
<i>risk of overdose.</i>
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80% of first-time users
will use again.
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If you or anyone you know
is using,
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please seek medical help
and counsel immediately.
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I just don't like myself
or being in my own body, so...
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And the...situation I'm in
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with just everything,
I just -- I --
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it's too much
and I just want to...
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escape from it.
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This isn't cool, man.
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This is not --
you know it's not cool.
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I know, thank you.
Thank you for accompanying me.
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I guess the scariest moment
is -- is --
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is when you don't know --
is when you're outside
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and you're about to open
the door and you don't know.
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-Mike.
-Shut the fuck --
shut the fuck up.
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<i> Well, you put, like,</i>
<i>a little cartridge</i>
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<i>into the thing</i>
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and then you put the mask on.
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And then you press, like,
a thing that lets the smoke
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come in,
but I guess it's kind of scary,
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like, the seconds
before doing it,
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'cause I did it for the first
time, and I don't really --
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I didn't really know
what to expect.
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So it was kind of scary.
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It was quite wonderful.
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The come-down, like, it sucks.
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And it's crazy to go from here
to there so quickly.
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You can really tell when
someone's, like, taken too much.
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They just become so, like,
secluded and in their own space.
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And it's depressing.
Like, it sucks to be
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in that zone, in that world,
like, re-appropriating
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everything and everything's new
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and you're like a baby
and naive
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and stuff's way better
than it really is,
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and then you come out of it
and you, like,
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are back in the shit again.
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-Hey.
-Hey.
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How's it going?
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-Good, good. How are you?
-Good.
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Um, we're just all
meeting up Saturday night.
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-Shit. Okay, cool.
-Yeah.
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You're gonna be there,
obviously, so...
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Yeah. Yeah, I'll be there.
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Yeah.
What are you gonna do?
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Okay.
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When's the last time
you were out in nature?
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Mm...I haven't been
into the nature
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in a -- in a while, I guess.
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Like<i> real </i>nature, nature.
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I guess probably
when I was young,
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like camping,
like, maybe five years old.
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-Really?
-But I-I don't know...
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With your mom?
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Yeah.
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Just the two of you?
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Mm-hmm.
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That's nice.
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Do you miss it?
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<i> Yeah, I guess.</i>
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<i>Do you believe in love?</i>
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<i> Yeah.</i>
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Hey.
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Hey.
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How do you feel?
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Good.
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-What's this?
-Just listen.
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<i>Does it scare you</i>
<i>that we're completely alone?</i>
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<i> What do you like to do</i>
<i>when you're alone?</i>
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<i> I like to write.</i>
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<i>What do you love most</i>
<i>in the world?</i>
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<i>I guess the feeling of, uh...</i>
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<i>...the feeling of being loved.</i>
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Run faster!
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Whoa!
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Come on.
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-Whoa.
-You ran like...
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Have you tried that?
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Fuck.
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Why do you think
people want to escape?
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Well, I guess some people
don't feel comfortable
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with who they are.
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Why do you think
people want to escape?
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Because reality sucks.
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I love these movies.
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They're beautiful.
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I like how they talk.
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Yeah, it's different.
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I love the music.
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You wanna dance?
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♪<i> Don't waste your mind </i>♪
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♪<i> Don't waste your life </i>♪
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♪<i> Don't waste your blood </i>♪
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♪<i> Don't, don't </i>♪
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♪<i> Don't </i>♪
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♪<i> Don't waste your mind </i>♪
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♪<i> Don't waste your mind </i>♪
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♪<i> Don't waste your breath </i>♪
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♪<i> Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh </i>♪
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Um, I think for me,
happiness would be,
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um, like stability,
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just, like,
mentally and emotionally
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and, like, just in life.
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00:30:17,945 --> 00:30:20,739
If everything could
just be stable for a second,
248
00:30:20,823 --> 00:30:22,283
then I can, like, catch up.
249
00:30:22,366 --> 00:30:24,034
I feel like
in the absence of, like,
250
00:30:24,118 --> 00:30:25,911
pure happiness or whatever,
251
00:30:25,995 --> 00:30:27,454
the next best thing for me
is, like,
252
00:30:27,538 --> 00:30:29,957
whatever fake happiness
I can create,
253
00:30:30,040 --> 00:30:32,334
usually through doing stuff.
254
00:30:32,418 --> 00:30:34,587
I guess maybe
when I'm just not alone is
255
00:30:34,670 --> 00:30:38,674
when I feel the most content
and happy.
256
00:30:38,757 --> 00:30:41,635
There's so many fucking cool
people in this world and, like,
257
00:30:41,719 --> 00:30:43,554
meeting them,
it makes you so happy.
258
00:30:43,637 --> 00:30:45,222
Like, you're like, whoa!
259
00:30:45,306 --> 00:30:47,099
I just got this connection
with someone.
260
00:31:26,972 --> 00:31:30,518
-You circumcised?
-What?
261
00:31:32,353 --> 00:31:33,646
You got those happy eyes.
262
00:31:33,729 --> 00:31:36,190
-Yeah.
-You got those lovey-dovey eyes.
263
00:31:36,273 --> 00:31:39,068
Mm. I don't know.
264
00:31:39,151 --> 00:31:40,653
Yeah. Yeah, I think so.
265
00:31:42,196 --> 00:31:43,572
You in love?
266
00:31:44,448 --> 00:31:45,574
Ah!
267
00:31:52,915 --> 00:31:54,917
What would you want to eat?
268
00:31:55,000 --> 00:31:56,669
Um...
269
00:31:58,379 --> 00:32:02,341
Double chocolate cookie dough
from Dairy Queen
270
00:32:02,424 --> 00:32:05,719
and...burgers.
271
00:32:05,803 --> 00:32:09,640
I wanna have a...
Quarter Pounder with cheese.
272
00:32:09,723 --> 00:32:10,891
Whoa.
273
00:32:28,325 --> 00:32:30,369
The air conditioning's not real.
274
00:32:30,452 --> 00:32:32,705
Are your parents out?
275
00:32:32,788 --> 00:32:34,748
Yeah, I don't know,
I think so, yeah.
276
00:32:37,710 --> 00:32:38,711
-Wow.
-I-I'm sorry.
277
00:32:38,794 --> 00:32:41,088
Could you take your shoes off?
278
00:32:41,172 --> 00:32:43,215
-Yeah. Yeah, of course.
-Yeah. I'm sorry. Yeah.
279
00:32:45,426 --> 00:32:48,888
Just don't, like,
touch any of the...stuff.
280
00:32:49,471 --> 00:32:51,098
Sure.
281
00:32:53,017 --> 00:32:54,476
What's up with the owls?
282
00:32:55,561 --> 00:32:58,939
Oh, I like owls.
I like, I guess, animals and...
283
00:33:01,233 --> 00:33:02,693
What are your parents like?
284
00:33:02,776 --> 00:33:06,197
My dad's very quiet
and my mom's...
285
00:33:06,280 --> 00:33:07,948
very loud.
286
00:33:08,032 --> 00:33:10,075
-Oh, really?
-Mm-hmm.
287
00:33:11,327 --> 00:33:13,204
What are your --
What are your parents like?
288
00:33:14,121 --> 00:33:16,665
Um...
289
00:33:16,749 --> 00:33:18,250
well, I haven't seen
my dad in a while,
290
00:33:18,334 --> 00:33:21,879
but...he's a good man.
291
00:33:21,962 --> 00:33:25,382
He's just a bit --
a bit of a child.
292
00:33:26,592 --> 00:33:29,553
My mom, she's, um,
very outgoing.
293
00:33:29,637 --> 00:33:31,472
Mm-hmm.
294
00:33:36,977 --> 00:33:39,563
Cool. Um...
295
00:33:41,106 --> 00:33:43,776
Y-Yeah. I'm sorry.
I don't like...
296
00:33:43,859 --> 00:33:46,070
Sorry about --
I don't like people touching...
297
00:33:46,153 --> 00:33:47,571
-No, no, no, I didn't mean --
-...my stuff.
298
00:33:47,655 --> 00:33:49,240
My mom comes in here sometimes
299
00:33:49,323 --> 00:33:51,116
and just messes all my shit up
300
00:33:51,200 --> 00:33:53,118
and it fucking annoys me,
you know?
301
00:33:53,202 --> 00:33:55,204
Is there a system?
302
00:33:55,287 --> 00:33:57,289
Not -- no. Um...
303
00:33:57,373 --> 00:34:00,876
Well, yeah,
I just like everything...
304
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:02,670
sort of organized.
305
00:34:04,505 --> 00:34:06,423
I don't want to mess that up.
306
00:34:06,507 --> 00:34:08,050
Mm-hmm.
307
00:34:08,133 --> 00:34:11,846
So you just let me know
if I'm crossing any boundaries.
308
00:34:11,929 --> 00:34:14,849
No boundaries crossed or -- no.
309
00:34:14,932 --> 00:34:16,058
-No?
-No.
310
00:34:16,141 --> 00:34:17,518
Okay.
311
00:34:18,602 --> 00:34:20,563
I'm so excited
for the weekend.
312
00:34:20,646 --> 00:34:23,357
Weather's gonna be nice.
313
00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:24,942
I'm gonna look nice.
314
00:34:24,984 --> 00:34:26,569
You gonna look nice?
You gonna be with your girl?
315
00:34:26,652 --> 00:34:27,903
I'm gonna look nice for Jameson.
316
00:34:27,987 --> 00:34:29,488
Jameson.
317
00:34:29,572 --> 00:34:31,448
-Jameson.
-Jameson.
318
00:34:31,532 --> 00:34:33,617
-Jameson. Jameson.
-Jameson. Jameson.
319
00:34:33,701 --> 00:34:36,620
-Jameson. Jameson.
-Jameson. Jameson. Jameson.
320
00:34:36,704 --> 00:34:39,290
Jameson. I feel good,
dude. I feel really good.
321
00:34:39,373 --> 00:34:41,375
- Yeah.
- I like that.
322
00:34:41,458 --> 00:34:43,210
I like -- I like seeing you
like this.
323
00:35:01,020 --> 00:35:02,521
What are you thinking?
324
00:35:04,231 --> 00:35:05,399
Nothing.
325
00:35:11,322 --> 00:35:14,200
117. 116.
326
00:35:29,590 --> 00:35:30,966
Third time's the charm.
327
00:35:49,568 --> 00:35:50,986
You come here a lot?
328
00:35:53,489 --> 00:35:54,740
Yeah.
329
00:37:52,483 --> 00:37:54,151
I feel so connected.
330
00:38:01,242 --> 00:38:03,577
Does my voice
sound different?!
331
00:38:10,793 --> 00:38:12,878
I want to know
everything that's in your head.
332
00:38:13,963 --> 00:38:15,464
Why?
333
00:38:15,548 --> 00:38:17,800
'Cause I want to feel
more connected to you.
334
00:38:20,761 --> 00:38:23,180
But what if I open up
and then you leave?
335
00:38:25,558 --> 00:38:27,393
Do you think
we can just stay here?
336
00:38:29,770 --> 00:38:31,063
I want to.
337
00:38:43,158 --> 00:38:46,287
Can you drop this to Dennis?
It's his birthday.
338
00:38:46,787 --> 00:38:48,038
After school?
339
00:38:50,207 --> 00:38:51,500
Mm-hmm.
340
00:38:56,839 --> 00:38:58,674
-Oh, lordy, lordy.
-Happy birthday.
341
00:38:58,757 --> 00:39:00,593
-Thank you.
-Yeah. Yeah.
342
00:39:00,676 --> 00:39:03,304
Thank you.
Look at right here.
343
00:39:05,890 --> 00:39:08,350
<i>With my real self, I feel --</i>
344
00:39:08,434 --> 00:39:12,980
I feel like I'm very obsessive,
you know, and anxious at times.
345
00:39:13,063 --> 00:39:15,733
I guess when I -- when I --
when I'm on it...
346
00:39:17,276 --> 00:39:19,361
...it takes that feeling away.
347
00:39:20,529 --> 00:39:23,991
<i>Even when I'm off it, I guess</i>
<i>I start to feel less obsessive</i>
348
00:39:24,074 --> 00:39:25,993
<i>or -- or anxious.</i>
349
00:39:31,373 --> 00:39:33,417
-Hey.
-Hey.
350
00:39:33,500 --> 00:39:34,668
-Hi.
-Hi.
351
00:39:34,752 --> 00:39:36,295
This is my grandma.
This is Michael.
352
00:39:36,378 --> 00:39:38,839
-Hi, Michael. Nice to see you.
-Nice to meet you.
353
00:39:38,923 --> 00:39:41,550
I, uh, I was standing
across the room,
354
00:39:41,634 --> 00:39:43,427
and I saw you.
355
00:39:43,511 --> 00:39:45,179
Oh, wow.
356
00:39:45,262 --> 00:39:47,473
Would you want to
dance with me?
357
00:39:47,556 --> 00:39:50,684
Oh, sure. I'd love to.
Oh, what an honor.
358
00:40:06,367 --> 00:40:08,202
Michael!
359
00:40:09,286 --> 00:40:12,039
Don't forget your
dentist appointment.
360
00:40:15,918 --> 00:40:17,503
Oh.
361
00:40:17,586 --> 00:40:19,797
All right.
362
00:40:26,220 --> 00:40:28,472
Let me, uh, take a look at 'em.
363
00:40:31,225 --> 00:40:34,770
Pay some attention
to your teeth.
364
00:40:34,854 --> 00:40:36,397
Wide open.
365
00:40:36,480 --> 00:40:39,650
And a bit of
366
00:40:39,733 --> 00:40:41,068
You're gonna be fine.
367
00:40:44,780 --> 00:40:47,283
Ohh...
368
00:40:47,366 --> 00:40:48,701
Ah!
369
00:41:17,354 --> 00:41:20,232
Should I put it on?
370
00:41:27,865 --> 00:41:29,575
What do you think
about the world right now?
371
00:41:29,658 --> 00:41:30,951
What do I think
about the world?
372
00:41:31,035 --> 00:41:32,244
Yeah, sure.
373
00:41:32,328 --> 00:41:34,622
It's messy.
It's a messy place.
374
00:41:34,705 --> 00:41:36,040
I don't know
how I feel about it.
375
00:41:36,123 --> 00:41:38,584
Um...
376
00:41:38,667 --> 00:41:44,758
I feel like it's in an absolute
state of madhouse chaos,
377
00:41:44,841 --> 00:41:48,929
and everyone is doing
their damnedest to block it out.
378
00:41:49,012 --> 00:41:50,430
The world's fucked up.
I don't know.
379
00:41:50,514 --> 00:41:52,182
I don't love it.
380
00:41:52,265 --> 00:41:54,059
But I'm grateful
for stuff like this.
381
00:41:54,142 --> 00:41:59,439
Like, nature and stuff
that humans didn't fuck up yet.
382
00:41:59,523 --> 00:42:01,399
I don't know.
Obviously, it's like blu--
383
00:42:01,483 --> 00:42:03,735
Like, it's beautiful.
384
00:42:03,818 --> 00:42:07,155
It's nice, but I think there's
a lot of crappy people in it.
385
00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:09,866
How do you see the future?
386
00:42:09,950 --> 00:42:10,951
Um, I don't know.
387
00:42:11,034 --> 00:42:13,203
In general, I think,
388
00:42:13,286 --> 00:42:14,913
I want to believe that
the world's gonna be okay
389
00:42:14,996 --> 00:42:17,958
and, like, happy and everyone --
390
00:42:18,083 --> 00:42:21,086
It's stupid,
but, like, I want that,
391
00:42:21,169 --> 00:42:23,755
and I want everyone to be happy
and peaceful.
392
00:42:23,839 --> 00:42:27,342
But I really don't think that's
gonna happen anytime soon.
393
00:42:27,425 --> 00:42:30,345
And for me, I just
haven't thought about it at all.
394
00:42:30,428 --> 00:42:32,264
I don't think
I want to think about it.
395
00:42:39,145 --> 00:42:42,524
What's wrong?
396
00:42:42,607 --> 00:42:44,484
I just don't like
thinking about the future.
397
00:42:48,864 --> 00:42:51,241
Why?
398
00:42:55,912 --> 00:42:58,039
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
399
00:43:05,839 --> 00:43:07,465
Hi, my name is Michael.
400
00:43:07,549 --> 00:43:10,218
Do you mind if I ask
you guys some questions?
401
00:43:10,302 --> 00:43:11,803
Are you, uh, are you guys
from around?
402
00:43:11,887 --> 00:43:14,890
You live here?
-Um, we're from Aggasiz,
403
00:43:15,056 --> 00:43:16,683
but I used to come
to Hope all the time.
404
00:43:16,766 --> 00:43:19,811
Yeah?
What's it like growing up there?
405
00:43:19,895 --> 00:43:21,479
Everyone knows you,
that's for sure,
406
00:43:21,563 --> 00:43:23,315
and everyone wants to know
your business.
407
00:43:23,398 --> 00:43:24,649
It's super small.
408
00:43:24,733 --> 00:43:26,610
Like, I mean, you got
not much to do.
409
00:43:26,651 --> 00:43:29,070
Just, I guess, go and get high.
410
00:43:29,154 --> 00:43:30,530
Yeah. You find ways to entertain
yourself,
411
00:43:30,614 --> 00:43:32,657
more or less.
-Exactly.
412
00:43:32,741 --> 00:43:35,118
So many people that have
the potential to do so great,
413
00:43:35,202 --> 00:43:37,495
but then they get hooked
and latched on to this drug
414
00:43:37,579 --> 00:43:39,998
and it just takes
over their lives.
415
00:43:40,081 --> 00:43:42,209
-Exactly.
-And it's not good.
416
00:43:42,292 --> 00:43:43,752
You wanna --
You wanna play a song?
417
00:43:43,835 --> 00:43:44,961
Uh, yeah.
418
00:43:45,045 --> 00:43:47,672
-Heck yeah.
-Hecka yeah.
419
00:43:51,468 --> 00:43:53,094
What are the lyrics again?
420
00:43:58,225 --> 00:44:01,895
<i>♪ Settle down with me ♪</i>
421
00:44:01,978 --> 00:44:05,106
<i>♪ Cover me up ♪</i>
422
00:44:05,190 --> 00:44:07,192
<i>♪ Cuddle me in ♪</i>
423
00:44:09,819 --> 00:44:12,364
<i>♪ Lie down with me ♪</i>
424
00:44:12,447 --> 00:44:15,867
<i>♪ And hold me ♪</i>
425
00:44:15,951 --> 00:44:18,662
<i>♪ In your arms ♪</i>
426
00:44:21,039 --> 00:44:24,042
<i>♪ And your heart's</i>
<i>against my chest ♪</i>
427
00:44:24,125 --> 00:44:26,878
<i>♪ Your lips pressed to my neck</i>
<i>♪</i>
428
00:44:26,962 --> 00:44:30,090
<i>♪ And I'm fallin'</i>
<i>for your eyes ♪</i>
429
00:44:30,173 --> 00:44:32,509
<i>♪ But they don't know me yet ♪</i>
430
00:44:32,592 --> 00:44:35,262
<i>♪ And with this feeling,</i>
<i>I'll forget ♪</i>
431
00:44:35,345 --> 00:44:37,305
<i>♪ I'm in love now ♪</i>
432
00:44:37,389 --> 00:44:42,143
<i>♪ Kiss me</i>
<i>like you wanna be loved ♪</i>
433
00:44:42,227 --> 00:44:45,188
<i>♪ You wanna be loved ♪</i>
434
00:44:45,272 --> 00:44:49,442
<i>♪ You wanna be loved ♪</i>
435
00:44:49,526 --> 00:44:54,698
<i>♪ This feels like</i>
<i>fallin' in love ♪</i>
436
00:44:54,781 --> 00:44:57,659
<i>♪ We're falling in love ♪</i>
437
00:44:57,742 --> 00:45:00,370
<i>♪ We're in love ♪</i>
438
00:45:02,581 --> 00:45:05,584
<i>♪ Settle down with me ♪</i>
439
00:45:05,667 --> 00:45:09,004
<i>♪ You'll be my safety ♪</i>
440
00:45:09,087 --> 00:45:11,548
<i>♪ And I'll be your lady ♪</i>
441
00:45:13,758 --> 00:45:18,263
<i>♪ I was made to keep</i>
<i>your body warm ♪</i>
442
00:45:18,346 --> 00:45:20,932
<i>♪ But I'm cold</i>
<i>as the wind blows ♪</i>
443
00:45:21,016 --> 00:45:24,394
<i>♪ So hold me in your arms ♪</i>
444
00:45:24,477 --> 00:45:26,021
<i>♪ Oh, no ♪</i>
445
00:45:26,104 --> 00:45:28,398
<i>♪ My heart's</i>
<i>against your chest ♪</i>
446
00:45:28,481 --> 00:45:31,735
<i>♪ My lips pressed</i>
<i>to your neck ♪</i>
447
00:45:31,818 --> 00:45:34,905
<i>♪ And I'm falling</i>
<i>for your eyes ♪</i>
448
00:45:34,988 --> 00:45:37,282
<i>♪ They don't know me yet ♪</i>
449
00:45:37,365 --> 00:45:40,202
<i>♪ And with this feelin',</i>
<i>I'll forget ♪</i>
450
00:45:40,285 --> 00:45:42,245
<i>♪ I'm in love now ♪</i>
451
00:45:42,329 --> 00:45:46,458
<i>♪ Kiss me like</i>
<i>you wanna be loved ♪</i>
452
00:45:46,541 --> 00:45:49,711
<i>♪ You wanna be loved ♪</i>
453
00:45:49,794 --> 00:45:53,882
<i>♪ You wanna be loved ♪</i>
454
00:45:53,965 --> 00:45:58,428
<i>♪ This feels like</i>
<i>falling in love ♪</i>
455
00:45:58,512 --> 00:46:01,139
<i>♪ We're falling in love ♪</i>
456
00:46:01,223 --> 00:46:04,643
<i>♪ We're falling in love ♪</i>
457
00:46:04,726 --> 00:46:06,728
And that's it
'cause I don't know the rest.
458
00:46:11,358 --> 00:46:14,444
I feel
like I'm losing myself to it.
459
00:46:14,528 --> 00:46:15,946
I don't like who I am
when I'm sober,
460
00:46:16,029 --> 00:46:17,697
and I don't like what's
around me when I'm sober.
461
00:46:17,781 --> 00:46:21,409
And -- Sorry. I don't --
462
00:46:21,493 --> 00:46:23,328
I don't feel comfortable
doing this.
463
00:46:25,872 --> 00:46:28,458
Why'd you want to get
out of town?
464
00:46:28,542 --> 00:46:30,043
I just needed to get out.
465
00:46:35,173 --> 00:46:38,885
- What's wrong?
- Nothing's wrong.
466
00:46:38,969 --> 00:46:40,178
You sure?
467
00:46:43,598 --> 00:46:45,642
Do you think
we're doing it too much?
468
00:46:50,939 --> 00:46:53,984
Oh, fuck it.
469
00:47:35,901 --> 00:47:37,277
No.
470
00:47:40,739 --> 00:47:42,824
I'm here.
471
00:47:44,159 --> 00:47:46,494
Oh.
472
00:47:46,578 --> 00:47:48,455
I'm here.
473
00:47:51,166 --> 00:47:53,501
I feel empty.
474
00:47:53,585 --> 00:47:56,004
- I can help you.
- Stop.
475
00:47:57,714 --> 00:47:59,549
I can help you.
476
00:47:59,633 --> 00:48:01,092
No, you can't.
477
00:48:03,470 --> 00:48:05,430
- I can help you.
- No, you can't!
478
00:48:05,514 --> 00:48:07,432
- Yeah.
- Shut up!
479
00:48:07,516 --> 00:48:09,601
- I can help you.
- Shut up!
480
00:48:09,684 --> 00:48:11,478
- I can help you.
- Shut up!
481
00:48:15,565 --> 00:48:19,277
What time is it?
482
00:48:19,361 --> 00:48:21,446
I gotta go.
483
00:48:23,365 --> 00:48:25,825
Hey, I gotta go.
Are you coming?
484
00:48:29,454 --> 00:48:30,539
Are you coming?
485
00:48:30,622 --> 00:48:32,332
No, I'm just gonna stay.
486
00:48:51,852 --> 00:48:54,771
You know, I-I did...
487
00:48:54,855 --> 00:48:58,316
You know, I did something
I shouldn't have done.
488
00:48:58,400 --> 00:49:01,570
Um...
489
00:49:01,653 --> 00:49:03,280
it felt really...
490
00:49:03,363 --> 00:49:04,906
You know, I felt really --
491
00:49:04,990 --> 00:49:06,199
like, really embarrassed
about it,
492
00:49:06,283 --> 00:49:08,702
really ashamed.
493
00:49:30,015 --> 00:49:32,517
Jameson?
494
00:49:32,601 --> 00:49:34,769
Jameson?
495
00:49:39,733 --> 00:49:42,027
Jameson.
496
00:49:42,110 --> 00:49:44,738
Jameson.
497
00:49:44,821 --> 00:49:47,991
<i>How old are you?</i>
498
00:49:48,074 --> 00:49:50,535
<i> 17.</i>
499
00:49:50,619 --> 00:49:54,080
<i> What are you</i>
<i>most scared of?</i>
500
00:49:54,164 --> 00:49:57,000
<i>I'm scared...</i>
501
00:49:57,083 --> 00:49:59,836
<i>of all the time I'm wasting.</i>
502
00:49:59,920 --> 00:50:01,338
<i>And...</i>
503
00:50:04,549 --> 00:50:07,636
<i>...that I'll never...</i>
504
00:50:07,719 --> 00:50:10,847
<i>get better.</i>
505
00:50:10,931 --> 00:50:13,475
<i>And give up.</i>
506
00:50:13,558 --> 00:50:14,893
<i> What are you</i>
<i>running away from?</i>
507
00:50:17,479 --> 00:50:18,813
<i>Myself.</i>
508
00:50:24,694 --> 00:50:26,404
I haven't seen you
around much.
509
00:50:30,075 --> 00:50:31,451
You really look fucked up.
510
00:50:34,079 --> 00:50:37,749
Have you seen Jameson?
511
00:50:37,832 --> 00:50:39,376
No.
512
00:51:25,755 --> 00:51:27,674
If I look back
on my own life,
513
00:51:27,757 --> 00:51:29,801
like, my parents
and my aunts and uncles,
514
00:51:29,885 --> 00:51:33,722
and everybody was always
going through, like, withdrawal,
515
00:51:33,805 --> 00:51:36,600
trying to wean yourself off
or stay away from it
516
00:51:36,683 --> 00:51:39,477
to, like, balance
what drugs can offer you
517
00:51:39,561 --> 00:51:42,314
as, like, a coping thing.
518
00:51:42,397 --> 00:51:44,691
It is terrifying to see.
519
00:51:44,774 --> 00:51:47,611
I've had
amazing moments on drugs
520
00:51:47,694 --> 00:51:50,405
that I will remember forever.
521
00:51:50,488 --> 00:51:54,492
Then I also know that
abusing them can be super awful
522
00:51:54,576 --> 00:51:56,703
because it's like,
"When are you abusing it?
523
00:51:56,786 --> 00:52:00,415
When does it not become
just, like, fun?"
524
00:52:00,498 --> 00:52:03,835
I don't really
do a lot, I guess,
525
00:52:03,919 --> 00:52:05,545
and it's nice to know
that there's something --
526
00:52:05,629 --> 00:52:07,255
There's lots of things out there
527
00:52:07,339 --> 00:52:10,800
that I can use to alter
who I am.
528
00:52:10,884 --> 00:52:13,887
I've been struggling
a lot with feeling like
529
00:52:13,970 --> 00:52:15,722
what I'm doing
is really selfish,
530
00:52:15,805 --> 00:52:17,265
but in the moment,
it doesn't feel
531
00:52:17,349 --> 00:52:19,059
like there's any other option.
532
00:52:19,142 --> 00:52:20,602
I've just been doing
stupid shit,
533
00:52:20,685 --> 00:52:22,979
like drinking
and doing Xanax, for example.
534
00:52:23,063 --> 00:52:25,440
And I don't know, a lot
of people die off that mixture
535
00:52:25,524 --> 00:52:27,484
and I think I'm just being
an idiot.
536
00:52:27,567 --> 00:52:31,321
But I also don't know how else
to get through a day sometimes,
537
00:52:31,404 --> 00:52:33,865
so it's just messy.
538
00:52:47,921 --> 00:52:50,257
Fuck.
539
00:52:50,340 --> 00:52:52,676
Fuck.
540
00:52:52,759 --> 00:52:54,469
Fuck.
541
00:52:54,553 --> 00:52:56,304
What have I done?
542
00:52:56,388 --> 00:52:57,848
What have I done?
543
00:53:18,660 --> 00:53:20,537
Mikey!
544
00:53:20,620 --> 00:53:21,955
My boy!
545
00:53:28,086 --> 00:53:30,046
Oh, my God.
546
00:53:30,130 --> 00:53:31,464
Oh.
547
00:53:31,548 --> 00:53:33,884
Hey, man,
548
00:53:33,967 --> 00:53:36,511
tonight we gotta
do something.
549
00:53:36,595 --> 00:53:40,432
Come on, man.
Wake up.
550
00:53:40,515 --> 00:53:43,143
Gotta go clubbing or something.
551
00:53:43,226 --> 00:53:44,561
Let's go.
552
00:54:24,351 --> 00:54:27,896
Color pink
and bright hues of life.
553
00:54:43,537 --> 00:54:45,288
Where's my bike?
554
00:54:45,372 --> 00:54:47,749
Oh, we should get stuck.
555
00:54:49,626 --> 00:54:52,045
Get stuck in the mud.
556
00:54:52,128 --> 00:54:55,423
Like a stick in the mud.
Crazy and wild.
557
00:55:13,859 --> 00:55:16,361
Where Were You?
558
00:55:18,780 --> 00:55:20,699
Where Were You?
559
00:55:22,826 --> 00:55:25,453
I Was Trying To Find You.
560
00:55:27,497 --> 00:55:31,293
I Couldn't Find You.
561
00:55:33,837 --> 00:55:36,381
I Think I Love You
562
00:57:28,326 --> 00:57:30,078
Apparently he's kind of junky.
563
00:57:30,161 --> 00:57:34,791
He's the only one that,
like, um, injects, uh,
564
00:57:34,875 --> 00:57:37,502
injects the drug instead
of just, like, you know,
565
00:57:37,586 --> 00:57:38,712
breathing it in like we all do.
566
00:57:49,973 --> 00:57:52,392
If you overdose on it,
567
00:57:52,475 --> 00:57:54,144
it's almost like
where you're in your own mind,
568
00:57:54,227 --> 00:57:56,396
if that makes sense.
569
00:57:56,479 --> 00:57:59,816
It just kind of takes you
through your memories
570
00:57:59,900 --> 00:58:01,276
in a way you --
571
00:58:01,359 --> 00:58:03,445
You're kind of going through,
572
00:58:03,486 --> 00:58:06,698
You're reliving things
from the past.
573
00:58:06,781 --> 00:58:09,910
Um, hi.
574
00:58:09,993 --> 00:58:12,287
I'm Michael.
575
00:58:12,370 --> 00:58:14,915
You know, I guess I'm a bit
of an introvert.
576
00:58:14,998 --> 00:58:17,459
I'm a little obsessive.
577
00:58:23,049 --> 00:58:25,343
Love is really scary
578
00:58:25,426 --> 00:58:28,262
in the sense
it makes you really realize
579
00:58:28,346 --> 00:58:31,098
that you can be your
own company.
580
00:58:31,182 --> 00:58:34,060
You're constantly needing
for something
581
00:58:34,143 --> 00:58:37,355
or someone to fulfill
your desire-- desires,
582
00:58:37,438 --> 00:58:39,690
or some wishes
that you can kind of...
583
00:58:39,774 --> 00:58:44,237
Pink and bright hues
of life.
584
00:58:51,536 --> 00:58:54,872
Why am I so obsessive?
585
00:58:54,956 --> 00:58:56,165
What am I?
586
00:58:56,249 --> 00:58:58,668
Can I find myself?
587
00:58:58,751 --> 00:58:59,961
I'm alone.
588
00:59:12,974 --> 00:59:16,644
I feel...
589
00:59:16,727 --> 00:59:18,521
really lost.
590
00:59:21,774 --> 00:59:25,361
I don't know
how I'm gonna get through it.
591
00:59:25,444 --> 00:59:27,071
It's like the next
fucking minute.
592
00:59:30,032 --> 00:59:32,076
It's just all too much.
It's just...
593
00:59:34,453 --> 00:59:36,622
It's too overwhelming,
all of it.
594
00:59:40,960 --> 00:59:42,753
And I don't want to be here.
595
01:00:07,987 --> 01:00:09,655
Jameson!
596
01:00:09,739 --> 01:00:11,532
Jameson!
597
01:00:17,496 --> 01:00:20,875
Fuck. I should
have fucking lost her!
598
01:00:20,958 --> 01:00:22,668
Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
599
01:01:53,759 --> 01:01:55,428
What the fuck?
600
01:01:58,931 --> 01:02:00,057
Oh, fuck.
601
01:02:07,398 --> 01:02:09,483
Uh.
602
01:02:37,136 --> 01:02:41,015
Can I sing a song or...
603
01:02:55,071 --> 01:02:58,783
<i>♪ It's just like Heaven ♪</i>
604
01:02:58,866 --> 01:03:03,079
<i>♪ Being here with you ♪</i>
605
01:03:03,162 --> 01:03:06,332
<i>♪ You're like an angel ♪</i>
606
01:03:06,415 --> 01:03:09,835
<i>♪ Too good to be true ♪</i>
607
01:03:09,919 --> 01:03:13,339
<i>♪ But after all ♪</i>
608
01:03:13,422 --> 01:03:15,508
<i>♪ I love you ♪</i>
609
01:03:15,591 --> 01:03:17,677
<i>♪ I do ♪</i>
610
01:03:17,760 --> 01:03:21,305
<i>♪ Angel baby ♪</i>
611
01:03:21,389 --> 01:03:24,767
<i>♪ My angel baby ♪</i>
612
01:03:24,851 --> 01:03:28,563
<i>♪ When you are near me ♪</i>
613
01:03:28,646 --> 01:03:32,400
<i>♪ My heart skips a beat ♪</i>
614
01:03:32,483 --> 01:03:35,278
<i>♪ I can hardly stand on ♪</i>
615
01:03:35,361 --> 01:03:39,699
<i>♪ My own two feet ♪</i>
616
01:03:39,782 --> 01:03:43,452
<i>♪ Because I love you ♪</i>
617
01:03:43,536 --> 01:03:46,956
<i>♪ I love you, I do ♪</i>
618
01:03:47,039 --> 01:03:49,625
- Hey, I can't move.
<i>- ♪ Angel baby ♪</i>
619
01:03:49,709 --> 01:03:51,502
I can't move my arms.
620
01:03:51,586 --> 01:03:53,296
-Calm down.
<i>-♪ My angel baby ♪</i>
621
01:03:53,379 --> 01:03:54,672
I can't move,
I can't fucking move!
622
01:03:54,755 --> 01:03:56,966
<i>♪ Ooh, I love you ♪</i>
623
01:03:57,049 --> 01:03:58,843
- I'm not gonna move.
- We gotta get out.
624
01:03:58,926 --> 01:04:00,386
- I'm gonna stay.
- Look at me.
625
01:04:00,469 --> 01:04:02,138
Can you look at me?
-No. I want to stay here.
626
01:04:02,221 --> 01:04:03,514
Look at me.
627
01:04:03,598 --> 01:04:05,099
You can do
whatever you want.
628
01:04:05,183 --> 01:04:06,684
You should leave.
629
01:04:14,859 --> 01:04:18,487
I'm not just my thoughts.
630
01:04:18,571 --> 01:04:21,657
I'm not my obsessive thoughts.
I'm not my obsessive thoughts.
631
01:04:21,741 --> 01:04:24,368
There's more to me
than just my thoughts.
632
01:05:05,368 --> 01:05:06,953
Jameson!
633
01:05:32,186 --> 01:05:33,771
Hey.
634
01:05:33,855 --> 01:05:35,898
Hey. Hey. Look at me.
635
01:05:35,982 --> 01:05:38,442
Just open your eyes.
636
01:05:38,526 --> 01:05:40,111
Please stay.
Please don't go.
637
01:05:40,194 --> 01:05:41,904
Please.
I'm sorry.
638
01:05:41,988 --> 01:05:43,990
Okay? I love you.
Fuck!
639
01:05:44,073 --> 01:05:47,159
Please. Please.
640
01:05:47,243 --> 01:05:49,787
Fuck. Fuck! Please.
641
01:05:52,290 --> 01:05:54,625
It's okay to not be okay.
642
01:05:56,502 --> 01:06:00,173
You're worthy.
You're worthy of love.
643
01:06:00,256 --> 01:06:02,675
You're not a burden.
644
01:06:02,758 --> 01:06:06,262
You're not the depression
and you're not the anxiety.
645
01:06:08,389 --> 01:06:11,225
And please don't ever give up.
646
01:06:11,309 --> 01:06:14,020
You are not your
obsessive thoughts.
647
01:06:14,103 --> 01:06:17,773
You are not what your
mind makes you think you are.
648
01:06:17,857 --> 01:06:19,483
You are you.
649
01:06:19,567 --> 01:06:21,110
I am Michael.
650
01:06:21,194 --> 01:06:24,238
It's okay to not be okay.
651
01:06:24,363 --> 01:06:28,159
You are worthy.
You are worthy of love.
652
01:06:28,242 --> 01:06:31,370
You are not your
obsessive thoughts.
653
01:06:31,454 --> 01:06:34,081
You are not what your
mind makes you think you are.
654
01:06:34,165 --> 01:06:36,167
You're not a burden.
655
01:06:36,250 --> 01:06:38,920
You're not the depression
and you're not the anxiety.
656
01:06:39,003 --> 01:06:40,379
You are you.
657
01:06:40,463 --> 01:06:42,173
Please don't ever give up.
658
01:06:42,256 --> 01:06:44,133
I am Michael.
659
01:06:44,217 --> 01:06:46,219
It's okay to not be okay.
660
01:06:46,302 --> 01:06:48,179
You are not a burden.
661
01:06:48,262 --> 01:06:51,807
You are not the anxiety
and you're not the depression.
662
01:06:51,891 --> 01:06:53,893
You are loved
and you are worthy of love.
663
01:06:57,522 --> 01:06:59,732
And please don't ever give up.
664
01:07:18,334 --> 01:07:20,336
Learn to love yourself
and forgive yourself
665
01:07:20,419 --> 01:07:24,549
and just...love.
666
01:09:43,980 --> 01:09:48,818
<i> ♪ Seek your</i>
<i>soul with your consent ♪</i>
667
01:09:51,028 --> 01:09:55,616
<i>♪ Hundred miles an hour</i>
<i>if I can ♪</i>
668
01:09:57,952 --> 01:10:03,499
<i>♪ Wonder if</i>
<i>I'll ever see again ♪</i>
669
01:10:11,007 --> 01:10:15,511
<i>♪ An easy love I can't repay ♪</i>
670
01:10:18,014 --> 01:10:23,853
<i>♪ Over and over,</i>
<i>our world decays ♪</i>
671
01:10:23,936 --> 01:10:26,480
<i>♪ Whisper slow ♪</i>
672
01:10:26,564 --> 01:10:31,485
<i>♪ There's a lot at stake ♪</i>
673
01:10:34,947 --> 01:10:36,199
<i>Shattered glasses.</i>
674
01:10:36,282 --> 01:10:40,036
<i>But I still see the sun rise.</i>
675
01:10:40,119 --> 01:10:41,370
<i>Blurred vision</i>
<i>from broken thoughts.</i>
676
01:10:41,454 --> 01:10:43,122
<i> Broken thoughts.</i>
677
01:10:43,206 --> 01:10:44,373
<i>Understandably so.</i>
678
01:10:44,457 --> 01:10:45,833
<i> Understandably so.</i>
679
01:10:45,917 --> 01:10:47,710
<i>This pain comes in stages,</i>
680
01:10:47,793 --> 01:10:51,214
<i>a menage of emotions</i>
<i>with acceptance at the end.</i>
681
01:10:54,217 --> 01:10:56,886
<i>This can't be rushed.</i>
<i>- No.</i>
682
01:10:56,969 --> 01:10:59,597
<i>This can't be rushed.</i>
683
01:10:59,680 --> 01:11:02,808
<i>But it's there waiting.</i>
<i>- Waiting.</i>
684
01:11:02,892 --> 01:11:05,353
<i> Waiting for</i>
<i>the next step from you.</i>
685
01:11:05,436 --> 01:11:07,021
<i>Grief does not change.</i>
686
01:11:07,104 --> 01:11:10,191
<i>Only reveals who you are.</i>
687
01:11:10,274 --> 01:11:11,817
<i>♪ I need a seventh sense ♪</i>
688
01:11:11,901 --> 01:11:15,112
<i>♪ In the arms of the maker ♪</i>
689
01:11:15,196 --> 01:11:17,073
<i>Only reveals who you are.</i>
690
01:11:17,156 --> 01:11:20,451
<i> ♪ Some silver</i>
<i>linings never show ♪</i>
691
01:11:20,535 --> 01:11:22,119
<i>Will you stay faithful?</i>
692
01:11:25,831 --> 01:11:30,086
<i>♪ Will it break up? ♪</i>
693
01:11:30,169 --> 01:11:35,967
<i>♪ How can I leave him ♪</i>
694
01:11:36,050 --> 01:11:38,845
<i>♪ With a wandering mind ♪</i>
695
01:11:38,928 --> 01:11:43,349
<i>♪ As she slipped away ♪</i>
696
01:11:43,432 --> 01:11:48,813
<i>♪ Those silhouettes</i>
<i>running wild ♪</i>
697
01:11:48,896 --> 01:11:52,066
<i>♪ But these deceiving tears ♪</i>
698
01:11:52,149 --> 01:11:55,570
<i>♪ Nothing is protected now ♪</i>
699
01:11:55,653 --> 01:11:58,322
<i>Where do you stand?</i>
700
01:11:58,406 --> 01:12:01,951
<i>By my side</i>
<i>or is there doubt?</i>
701
01:12:02,034 --> 01:12:04,078
<i>Faith is cliché for a reason.</i>
702
01:12:04,161 --> 01:12:05,830
<i>The substance of hope.</i>
703
01:12:05,913 --> 01:12:07,498
<i>Deliberate confidence.</i>
704
01:12:07,582 --> 01:12:09,709
<i>Unwavering faith.</i>
705
01:12:09,792 --> 01:12:11,544
<i>Forever.</i>
<i>- Forever.</i>
706
01:12:11,627 --> 01:12:13,880
<i>♪ Forever faithful ♪</i>
707
01:12:13,963 --> 01:12:15,923
<i>Forever faithful.</i>
708
01:12:16,007 --> 01:12:18,551
<i>All things are possible.</i>
709
01:12:18,634 --> 01:12:21,262
<i>Can't see the linings.</i>
710
01:12:21,345 --> 01:12:24,891
<i>Because what is the outside</i>
<i>made of?</i>
711
01:12:24,974 --> 01:12:27,768
<i>Broken pieces,</i>
<i>a tattered cover.</i>
712
01:12:27,852 --> 01:12:29,729
<i>A shell of itself.</i>
713
01:12:29,812 --> 01:12:32,315
<i>Meant for you to look</i>
<i>the other way.</i>
714
01:12:32,398 --> 01:12:34,317
<i>That's all I see.</i>
<i>- That's all I see.</i>
715
01:12:34,400 --> 01:12:35,651
<i>♪ Forever faithful ♪</i>
716
01:12:35,735 --> 01:12:38,404
<i>That's all I see.</i>
717
01:12:38,487 --> 01:12:40,448
<i>But I stay...</i>
<i>- I stay.</i>
718
01:12:40,531 --> 01:12:43,117
<i>Forever faithful.</i>
719
01:12:43,201 --> 01:12:47,038
<i>But I stay forever faithful.</i>
<i>- Forever faithful.</i>
720
01:12:47,121 --> 01:12:50,750
<i> What I need</i>
<i>is unseen but felt.</i>
721
01:12:50,833 --> 01:12:53,127
<i>So I stay forever faithful.</i>
722
01:12:53,211 --> 01:12:55,254
<i>♪ Forever faithful ♪</i>
723
01:12:55,338 --> 01:12:58,966
<i> So I stay</i>
<i>forever faithful.</i>
724
01:12:59,050 --> 01:13:03,304
<i>♪ Forever faithful ♪</i>
725
01:13:03,387 --> 01:13:05,097
<i> Forever faithful.</i>
726
01:13:05,181 --> 01:13:09,101
<i>♪ Forever faithful ♪</i>
726
01:13:10,305 --> 01:14:10,502
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