"My 600-lb Life" Tara's Story

1 00:00:05,267 --> 00:00:08,100 Tara: I'M DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF. 2 00:00:08,100 --> 00:00:11,333 IF I COULD CUT IT OFF, I WOULD. 3 00:00:11,333 --> 00:00:14,500 JUST -- JUST TAKE IT OFF. 4 00:00:19,133 --> 00:00:22,133 Woman: SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE I'M DEAD, 5 00:00:22,133 --> 00:00:24,100 LIKE THAT I'M NOT ALIVE. 6 00:00:24,100 --> 00:00:25,933 Woman #2: IF I COULD DO IT WITHOUT THE SURGERY, 7 00:00:25,933 --> 00:00:27,000 I WOULD HAVE DONE IT. 8 00:00:27,000 --> 00:00:29,133 MY WAY DOESN'T WORK. 9 00:00:36,767 --> 00:00:39,567 AND THIS IS A DYNAMIC THAT WE NEED TO CHANGE NOW. 10 00:00:39,567 --> 00:00:42,933 I'M DONE WITH THIS! I-I QUIT! I'M DONE! 11 00:00:46,767 --> 00:00:49,833 OH, IT HURTS. 12 00:00:49,833 --> 00:00:51,267 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ] 13 00:00:51,267 --> 00:00:53,400 Woman: I CAN'T BE THE REASON YOU LOSE WEIGHT 14 00:00:53,400 --> 00:00:55,300 OR THE REASON YOU GAIN WEIGHT, PERIOD. 15 00:00:55,300 --> 00:00:57,567 [ Voice breaking ] I'M GONNA MAKE THIS WORK. I PROMISE. 16 00:01:03,067 --> 00:01:04,733 WE CAN'T PROCEED. 17 00:01:04,733 --> 00:01:06,500 RIGHT NOW. 18 00:01:08,567 --> 00:01:11,900 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 19 00:01:11,900 --> 00:01:15,400 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 20 00:01:15,400 --> 00:01:18,967 Tara: SOME PEOPLE DISPLAY THEIR PAIN ON THE OUTSIDE, 21 00:01:18,967 --> 00:01:21,067 BUT MORE OFTEN THAN NOT, 22 00:01:21,067 --> 00:01:24,300 THEIR PAIN ON THE INSIDE IS FAR WORSE. 23 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:32,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 24 00:01:54,600 --> 00:01:58,267 BECAUSE OF MY SIZE, I DON'T DO MUCH OF ANYTHING. 25 00:01:58,267 --> 00:02:02,800 I DON'T MOVE MUCH. 26 00:02:02,800 --> 00:02:07,100 BASICALLY, MY DAY IS IN THE BED, STUCK. 27 00:02:07,100 --> 00:02:09,067 [ GRUNTING ] 28 00:02:16,067 --> 00:02:17,300 IT'S NOT EASY. 29 00:02:19,500 --> 00:02:23,100 THIS IS WHAT I AM ASHAMED OF. THIS. 30 00:02:23,100 --> 00:02:24,933 THIS I CAN'T DEAL WITH. 31 00:02:24,933 --> 00:02:30,800 IF I COULD CUT IT OFF RIGHT NOW, I WOULD AND WOULDN'T CARE. 32 00:02:30,800 --> 00:02:33,367 JUST -- JUST TAKE IT OFF. 33 00:02:33,367 --> 00:02:36,800 I'M DISGUSTED BY MYSELF. 34 00:02:36,800 --> 00:02:40,067 EVERYTHING I DO IN THE ROOM. I DON'T DO MUCH OF ANYTHING. 35 00:02:40,067 --> 00:02:41,233 [ SIGHS ] 36 00:02:41,233 --> 00:02:43,967 I TRY TO HELP OUT AT TIMES. 37 00:02:43,967 --> 00:02:47,400 TARA, I NEED FOR YOU TO COME HELP ME IN THE KITCHEN. 38 00:02:50,900 --> 00:02:53,133 ALL RIGHT. 39 00:02:53,133 --> 00:02:55,467 I'M IN CONSTANT PAIN. 40 00:02:55,467 --> 00:02:59,400 MY WEIGHT HAS WORN DOWN THE CARTILAGE IN MY KNEES, 41 00:02:59,400 --> 00:03:03,167 SO WHEN I WALK, IT'S LITERALLY BONE-ON-BONE. 42 00:03:03,167 --> 00:03:04,800 IT HURTS. 43 00:03:04,800 --> 00:03:06,200 GOT IT? 44 00:03:06,200 --> 00:03:07,267 YEP. 45 00:03:07,267 --> 00:03:09,167 I'M TIRED OF MY KNEES HURTING. 46 00:03:09,167 --> 00:03:10,967 I'M TIRED OF MY BACK HURTING 47 00:03:10,967 --> 00:03:13,433 'CAUSE MY STOMACH HANGS SO FAR DOWN. 48 00:03:13,433 --> 00:03:15,133 I'M JUST TIRED. 49 00:03:16,933 --> 00:03:18,300 YOU WANT IT CREAMY? 50 00:03:18,300 --> 00:03:19,233 Paula: YES. 51 00:03:22,533 --> 00:03:24,067 THANK YOU, MOM. 52 00:03:24,067 --> 00:03:26,867 NO, THANK YOU FOR HELPING ME. 53 00:03:26,867 --> 00:03:28,667 OH, YOU'RE WELCOME. 54 00:03:28,667 --> 00:03:33,500 Tara: THE WAY I AM NOW, I HATE MYSELF. 55 00:03:33,500 --> 00:03:37,800 EVER SINCE I CAN REMEMBER, I'VE ALWAYS BEEN OVERWEIGHT. 56 00:03:41,633 --> 00:03:44,067 Paula: IN THE 1st GRADE, 57 00:03:44,067 --> 00:03:47,200 SHE WAS THE BIGGEST CHILD IN THE CLASSROOM. 58 00:03:47,200 --> 00:03:52,400 Tara: IT DIDN'T REALLY DAWN ON ME ABOUT MY SIZE 59 00:03:52,400 --> 00:03:54,533 UNTIL I GOT OLDER. 60 00:03:54,533 --> 00:03:58,900 WHEN I WAS 13 YEARS OLD, I STEPPED ON A SCALE. 61 00:03:58,900 --> 00:04:01,233 IT READ 187.5. 62 00:04:01,233 --> 00:04:04,433 I JUST BRUSHED IT OFF. 63 00:04:04,433 --> 00:04:10,933 WHEN I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL, I WAS 352 POUNDS. 64 00:04:10,933 --> 00:04:14,067 IT HIT ME LIKE, "WOW." 65 00:04:14,067 --> 00:04:19,500 YOU KNOW, IT'S AN ADDICTION. MY FOOD IS AN ADDICTION. 66 00:04:19,500 --> 00:04:24,800 THIS IS MY HIDING STASH. IT'S WHEN I FEEL DOWN. 67 00:04:24,800 --> 00:04:26,067 I KNOW WHERE IT'S AT, 68 00:04:26,067 --> 00:04:28,833 SO I CAN GRAB ME SOMETHING AND GOT A QUICK FIX. 69 00:04:28,833 --> 00:04:31,967 FOOD DOESN'T JUDGE ME. 70 00:04:31,967 --> 00:04:35,800 WHETHER I'M HAPPY OR SAD OR ANGRY OR UPSET OR WHATEVER, 71 00:04:35,800 --> 00:04:38,133 I ALWAYS HAVE FOOD. 72 00:04:38,133 --> 00:04:42,400 FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY SAFE HAVEN. 73 00:04:42,400 --> 00:04:45,233 ALWAYS. 74 00:04:45,233 --> 00:04:49,500 ESPECIALLY AT THE HARDEST TIMES. 75 00:04:51,867 --> 00:04:56,100 WHEN I WAS 26, I WAS RAPED, 76 00:04:56,100 --> 00:05:01,700 AND I GOT PREGNANT FROM THE RAPE. 77 00:05:01,700 --> 00:05:05,067 AND I HAD A -- I HAD A MISCARRIAGE. 78 00:05:05,067 --> 00:05:11,067 I WAS HEAVY, BUT AFTERWARDS, I KEPT GETTING HEAVIER. 79 00:05:11,067 --> 00:05:16,633 I FELT THAT IF I WOULD BECOME MORE UNATTRACTIVE, 80 00:05:16,633 --> 00:05:19,100 NO MAN WOULD WANT TO TOUCH ME. 81 00:05:19,100 --> 00:05:22,400 SO, IF NO MAN WANT TO TOUCH ME, THEN I'M SAFE. 82 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:26,600 IT MADE ME NOT CARE. I DIDN'T CARE. 83 00:05:26,600 --> 00:05:29,200 I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT NOBODY ELSE'S FEELINGS. 84 00:05:29,200 --> 00:05:32,167 Paula: [ Voice breaking ] SHE HAD A LOT OF HATRED, 85 00:05:32,167 --> 00:05:35,367 SO HER HATRED MADE HER EAT. 86 00:05:38,867 --> 00:05:45,200 AFTER I EAT, I FEEL DISGUSTED, ANGRY AT MYSELF. 87 00:05:45,200 --> 00:05:47,833 I BEAT MYSELF UP ABOUT IT. 88 00:05:47,833 --> 00:05:49,467 [ SNIFFLES ] 89 00:05:49,467 --> 00:05:50,867 [ SIGHS ] 90 00:05:53,400 --> 00:05:55,400 Paula: I'M HELPING HER TO STAY LIKE SHE IS 91 00:05:55,400 --> 00:06:01,467 BECAUSE IT'S HARD TO SERVE HER AND TELL HER, 92 00:06:01,467 --> 00:06:03,367 "THAT'S ALL YOU CAN HAVE." 93 00:06:03,367 --> 00:06:06,133 I ALWAYS END UP GIVING TO HER. 94 00:06:06,133 --> 00:06:08,800 SHE'S MY CHILD. 95 00:06:08,800 --> 00:06:13,733 HOW CAN YOU TELL A CHILD, "NO, YOU CAN'T HAVE THIS FOOD"? 96 00:06:13,733 --> 00:06:16,833 Tara: I KNOW I CAN'T KEEP GOING ON LIKE THIS. 97 00:06:19,567 --> 00:06:22,233 NOW I HAVE TWO KIDS WHO NEED ME TO TAKE CARE OF THEM. 98 00:06:22,233 --> 00:06:23,533 AWW. 99 00:06:26,567 --> 00:06:29,500 AND I HAVE TO BE THERE TO TAKE CARE OF THEM. 100 00:06:33,400 --> 00:06:34,233 MM-HMM. 101 00:06:34,233 --> 00:06:35,367 MY KIDS ARE MY WORLD. 102 00:06:35,367 --> 00:06:38,767 RIGHT NOW, MY MOTHER IS RAISING THEM 103 00:06:38,767 --> 00:06:41,600 BECAUSE I CAN'T GET UP TO TAKE CARE OF THEM. 104 00:06:41,600 --> 00:06:43,733 THIS ONE? YEAH. 105 00:06:43,733 --> 00:06:45,300 SHE DOES BASICALLY EVERYTHING. 106 00:06:45,300 --> 00:06:49,267 MY MOM IS GETTING TOO OLD TO BE DOING WHAT SHE'S DOING. 107 00:06:49,267 --> 00:06:51,400 I SHOULD BE TAKING CARE OF HER. 108 00:06:51,400 --> 00:06:52,433 LET'S GO. 109 00:06:52,433 --> 00:06:53,500 LET'S GO. 110 00:06:53,500 --> 00:06:54,900 COME ON, DUKE. 111 00:06:54,900 --> 00:06:56,600 LET'S PLAY BASKETBALL. 112 00:06:56,600 --> 00:07:00,267 Tara: I WANT TO BE THERE FOR MY CHILDREN. 113 00:07:00,267 --> 00:07:02,467 I WANT TO GO SEE THEM PLAY SPORTS. 114 00:07:02,467 --> 00:07:03,933 I WANT TO CHEER THEM ON. 115 00:07:03,933 --> 00:07:06,500 I WANT TO SEE THEM GROW UP. 116 00:07:06,500 --> 00:07:09,800 I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE GROWING UP MISSING A PARENT, 117 00:07:09,800 --> 00:07:12,967 AND I DON'T WANT MY CHILDREN TO FEEL THAT PAIN. 118 00:07:17,933 --> 00:07:22,600 AND WHEN I WAS 15, ONE MORNING, MY DAD WOKE UP NOT FEELING WELL, 119 00:07:22,600 --> 00:07:24,133 WENT TO THE DOCTOR, 120 00:07:24,133 --> 00:07:27,833 AND THREE DAYS LATER, HE PASSED AWAY. 121 00:07:27,833 --> 00:07:29,133 THAT QUICK. 122 00:07:29,133 --> 00:07:33,467 [ SNIFFLES ] 123 00:07:33,467 --> 00:07:38,633 I CAN'T LEAVE MY CHILDREN THE WAY MY DADDY LEFT ME. 124 00:07:38,633 --> 00:07:40,467 TO EAT IT? MM-HMM. 125 00:07:44,533 --> 00:07:46,700 SHE TRIES TO DO AS MUCH AS SHE CAN, 126 00:07:46,700 --> 00:07:48,667 BUT SHE COULD DO MORE. 127 00:07:48,667 --> 00:07:51,767 Tara: I WANT TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 128 00:07:51,767 --> 00:07:53,600 AND THE FOOD IS GONNA ALWAYS BE THERE, 129 00:07:53,600 --> 00:07:54,667 BUT I WON'T. 130 00:07:54,667 --> 00:07:56,467 IF I KEEP ON THE WAY I'M GOING, I WON'T. 131 00:07:57,867 --> 00:07:59,167 LOVE YOU, TOO. I LOVE YOU, TOO. 132 00:07:59,167 --> 00:08:03,500 I KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING, AND I HAVE TO DO IT NOW. 133 00:08:20,067 --> 00:08:23,867 I HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE DOCTOR IN SEVEN YEARS. 134 00:08:23,867 --> 00:08:27,333 I'M REALLY NERVOUS. 135 00:08:27,333 --> 00:08:28,767 AND IT HAS A STEP. 136 00:08:28,767 --> 00:08:29,633 YEAH. 137 00:08:29,633 --> 00:08:31,067 BE CAREFUL. 138 00:08:34,500 --> 00:08:35,733 I GOT IT. I GOT IT. 139 00:08:35,733 --> 00:08:37,800 OH, YOU'RE SO SWEET. 140 00:08:37,800 --> 00:08:40,067 Woman: MS. TAYLOR? 141 00:08:40,067 --> 00:08:41,767 NERVOUS. [ CHUCKLES ] 142 00:08:41,767 --> 00:08:43,200 DON'T BE. 143 00:08:43,200 --> 00:08:46,467 Tara: IT'S BEEN YEARS SINCE I'VE ACTUALLY WEIGHED MYSELF. 144 00:08:46,467 --> 00:08:48,500 I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WEIGH NOW. 145 00:08:50,100 --> 00:08:53,700 OH, MY GOD. 146 00:08:56,900 --> 00:08:59,833 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 147 00:08:59,833 --> 00:09:01,633 HELLO. 148 00:09:01,633 --> 00:09:03,533 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN, TARA. 149 00:09:03,533 --> 00:09:04,500 YES, SIR. 150 00:09:04,500 --> 00:09:09,067 YOU HAVE BEEN OVERWEIGHT FOR HOW LONG? 151 00:09:09,067 --> 00:09:10,767 I'VE ALWAYS BEEN OVERWEIGHT. 152 00:09:10,767 --> 00:09:11,700 OKAY. 153 00:09:11,700 --> 00:09:13,400 WHAT SEEMS TO BE THE PROBLEM 154 00:09:13,400 --> 00:09:15,967 THAT YOU'RE NOT ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT? 155 00:09:15,967 --> 00:09:17,667 MY KNEES HURT ME A LOT. 156 00:09:17,667 --> 00:09:20,667 SO I CAN'T GO AND EXERCISE. 157 00:09:20,667 --> 00:09:22,767 HERE'S A COUPLE THINGS THAT YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND. 158 00:09:22,767 --> 00:09:24,133 YES, SIR. 159 00:09:24,133 --> 00:09:29,900 YOU DON'T GET TO BE 600 POUNDS IF YOU ARE ABLE TO EAT PROPERLY. 160 00:09:29,900 --> 00:09:33,200 IT'S BECAUSE YOU TAKE IN TOO MANY CALORIES. 161 00:09:33,200 --> 00:09:34,733 YES, SIR. OKAY. 162 00:09:34,733 --> 00:09:36,633 AND SO HOW MANY TIMES YOU EAT -- 163 00:09:36,633 --> 00:09:39,333 I EAT BREAKFAST, DINNER, SNACKS IN BETWEEN, 164 00:09:39,333 --> 00:09:40,533 THEN SUPPER AT NIGHT. 165 00:09:40,533 --> 00:09:42,633 AND THEN MAYBE A SNACK AFTER SUPPER. 166 00:09:42,633 --> 00:09:47,267 Dr. Nowzaradan: TARA SEEMS TO HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH THE FACT 167 00:09:47,267 --> 00:09:48,567 THAT SHE'S OVEREATING. 168 00:09:48,567 --> 00:09:51,300 TO SUSTAIN HER WEIGHT, 169 00:09:51,300 --> 00:09:54,067 SHE HAS TO EAT AT LEAST 6,000 CALORIES A DAY. 170 00:09:54,067 --> 00:09:58,800 SOMEONE IN HER SITUATION IS NOT DOING IT ALONE. 171 00:10:00,433 --> 00:10:01,833 MY MOM. 172 00:10:01,833 --> 00:10:03,800 YOU NEED TO CUT YOUR EATING HABIT, 173 00:10:03,800 --> 00:10:05,967 AND I THINK, PROBABLY, 174 00:10:05,967 --> 00:10:08,233 WE SHOULD HAVE A LITTLE VISIT WITH YOUR MOM 175 00:10:08,233 --> 00:10:10,800 AND MAKE SURE SHE'S GONNA SUPPORT YOU 176 00:10:10,800 --> 00:10:13,467 IN EATING THREE TIMES A DAY 177 00:10:13,467 --> 00:10:16,400 AND NOT THE SNACKING IN BETWEEN. 178 00:10:16,400 --> 00:10:17,967 IS YOUR MOM HERE? 179 00:10:17,967 --> 00:10:19,067 DR. NOWZARADAN. 180 00:10:19,067 --> 00:10:20,200 HI. 181 00:10:20,200 --> 00:10:22,233 HELLO. HOW YOU DOING? I'M TARA'S MOTHER. 182 00:10:22,233 --> 00:10:24,200 OKAY, COME ON IN. COME ON IN. 183 00:10:24,200 --> 00:10:25,300 OKAY. GREAT. 184 00:10:25,300 --> 00:10:27,633 I UNDERSTAND THAT SHE EATS SIX TIMES A DAY. 185 00:10:27,633 --> 00:10:29,000 MM-HMM. 186 00:10:29,000 --> 00:10:32,267 SO, IF SHE EATS SIX TIMES A DAY AFTER SURGERY, I CAN TELL YOU 187 00:10:32,267 --> 00:10:33,900 SHE'S NOT GONNA LOSE WEIGHT. NO. 188 00:10:33,900 --> 00:10:36,600 WE NEED TO MAKE THOSE TRANSITIONS NOW 189 00:10:36,600 --> 00:10:40,000 TO HAVE SOME WEIGHT LOSS 190 00:10:40,000 --> 00:10:41,600 AND BE IN BETTER SHAPE FOR SURGERY. 191 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:42,933 OKAY. 192 00:10:42,933 --> 00:10:46,167 Dr. Nowzaradan: BEFORE WE MOVE AHEAD WITH THE SURGERY, 193 00:10:46,167 --> 00:10:49,100 SHE NEEDS TO LOSE 20 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 194 00:10:49,100 --> 00:10:51,267 TARA'S CONDITION IS CRITICAL, 195 00:10:51,267 --> 00:10:54,600 AND SHE NEEDS A DRASTIC CHANGE NOW. 196 00:10:54,600 --> 00:10:57,233 I THINK, YOU KNOW, SHE'S AT THE POINT -- 197 00:10:57,233 --> 00:11:01,400 I DON'T KNOW IF SHE'S GONNA LIVE ANOTHER FIVE YEARS. 198 00:11:01,400 --> 00:11:06,867 IT IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU TO TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT NOW. 199 00:11:06,867 --> 00:11:08,800 WE GET THE BALL ROLLING, THEN. 200 00:11:08,800 --> 00:11:09,733 OKAY. 201 00:11:09,733 --> 00:11:11,567 NICE TO MEET YOU. THANK YOU. 202 00:11:11,567 --> 00:11:12,900 MM-HMM. 203 00:11:12,900 --> 00:11:14,233 Paula: YOU OKAY? 204 00:11:14,233 --> 00:11:17,367 [ Voice breaking ] THAT WAS LIKE REALITY 205 00:11:17,367 --> 00:11:20,067 JUST SLAPPED ME DEAD IN THE FACE. 206 00:11:20,067 --> 00:11:21,167 COME ON, NOW. 207 00:11:21,167 --> 00:11:23,833 YOU DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW HOW MUCH YOU WEIGHED. 208 00:11:23,833 --> 00:11:26,700 NO, I DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW. I NEVER WANT TO KNOW. 209 00:11:26,700 --> 00:11:29,233 LOOK AT ME. YOU CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. 210 00:11:29,233 --> 00:11:31,800 LOSE THE WEIGHT SO THAT YOU CAN HAVE THAT SURGERY. 211 00:11:31,800 --> 00:11:34,500 [ Voice breaking ] I WAS THERE TO SEE Y'ALL GROW UP. 212 00:11:34,500 --> 00:11:37,467 I EXPECT FOR YOU TO BE THERE TO SEE YOUR CHILDREN GROW UP. 213 00:11:37,467 --> 00:11:39,900 I LOVE YOU. 214 00:11:39,900 --> 00:11:40,933 YOU HEAR ME? 215 00:11:40,933 --> 00:11:41,967 YES, MA'AM. 216 00:11:45,100 --> 00:11:46,700 Tara: I KNOW I'M NOT DOING WELL. 217 00:11:46,700 --> 00:11:47,767 [ GRUNTS ] 218 00:11:47,767 --> 00:11:48,900 YOU GOT IT? 219 00:11:48,900 --> 00:11:50,067 YES, MA'AM. 220 00:11:50,067 --> 00:11:51,967 BUT IT'S HARD TO HEAR SOMEONE SAY, 221 00:11:51,967 --> 00:11:55,300 "YOU'RE NOT GONNA LIVE MUCH LONGER." 222 00:11:55,300 --> 00:11:57,633 I'M READY TO CHANGE MY LIFE. 223 00:12:07,167 --> 00:12:09,733 Tara: CHANGE ISN'T EASY. 224 00:12:09,733 --> 00:12:12,700 YOU CAN'T SIT AROUND AND WAIT FOR IT. 225 00:12:12,700 --> 00:12:16,333 YOU WANT SOMETHING, YOU GOT TO GO GET IT. 226 00:12:28,900 --> 00:12:32,367 THIS PAST MONTH, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO 227 00:12:32,367 --> 00:12:34,233 WHAT THE DOCTOR SAID, 228 00:12:34,233 --> 00:12:37,367 BUT IT'S REALLY, REALLY HARD TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABITS. 229 00:12:37,367 --> 00:12:39,700 Paula: FELICITY. 230 00:12:39,700 --> 00:12:42,367 AND CUTTING YOUR DAILY MEALS BY HALF IS HARD... 231 00:12:42,367 --> 00:12:46,067 YOU SEE ALL THIS EMPTY SPACE? THAT'S A SHAME. 232 00:12:46,067 --> 00:12:47,167 [ LAUGHTER ] 233 00:12:47,167 --> 00:12:49,833 ...ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR WHOLE LIFE, 234 00:12:49,833 --> 00:12:52,967 YOU'VE JUST KNOWN TO GO TO FOOD TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. 235 00:13:02,600 --> 00:13:04,767 I PATTED IT AFTER I FRIED IT 236 00:13:04,767 --> 00:13:08,567 TO GET AS MUCH AS I COULD OUT OF IT. 237 00:13:08,567 --> 00:13:11,633 MY MIND'S TELLING ME TO STOP RIGHT NOW, STOP. 238 00:13:11,633 --> 00:13:14,533 BUT MY STOMACH SAYS, "YOU'RE STILL HUNGRY, 239 00:13:14,533 --> 00:13:16,067 SO YOU NEED TO EAT." 240 00:13:16,067 --> 00:13:17,567 TARA, YOU HAD ENOUGH? 241 00:13:19,733 --> 00:13:20,833 [ LAUGHS ] 242 00:13:23,667 --> 00:13:26,567 DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAD ENOUGH? 243 00:13:26,567 --> 00:13:28,600 IT'S, LIKE, CLEAN HERE. 244 00:13:28,600 --> 00:13:33,700 HE TOLD YOU IF YOU DON'T HAVE A LIFE CHANGE AND THIS SURGERY, 245 00:13:33,700 --> 00:13:37,133 THE MOST HE SEES YOU LIVING IS FIVE YEARS. 246 00:13:37,133 --> 00:13:41,700 I DON'T HAVE MUCH LONGER TO LIVE IF I KEEP GOING LIKE THIS. 247 00:13:41,700 --> 00:13:44,200 I KNOW I WANT TO BE THERE FOR MY KIDS 248 00:13:44,200 --> 00:13:46,433 MORE THAN I WANT FOOD TO MAKE ME HAPPY. 249 00:13:47,967 --> 00:13:51,767 I CAN'T LEAVE MY CHILDREN THE WAY MY DADDY LEFT ME. 250 00:14:02,267 --> 00:14:04,967 TODAY, I HAVE A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 251 00:14:04,967 --> 00:14:08,133 I HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL TODAY. 252 00:14:08,133 --> 00:14:11,267 IT'S BEEN A HARD MONTH, BUT I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST WEIGHT. 253 00:14:11,267 --> 00:14:15,933 AND I FEEL BETTER. 254 00:14:15,933 --> 00:14:17,767 BUT HOPEFULLY I'VE LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT. 255 00:14:17,767 --> 00:14:18,767 Woman: GOOD MORNING. 256 00:14:18,767 --> 00:14:21,100 I'M NERVOUS. 257 00:14:21,100 --> 00:14:23,233 BUT I'M EXCITED TO SEE THE RESULTS. 258 00:14:28,067 --> 00:14:32,333 YEAH, YOUR WEIGHT LOSS HAS NOT BEEN IMPRESSIVE. 259 00:14:32,333 --> 00:14:35,267 SO I THINK YOU CAN DO BETTER. 260 00:14:35,267 --> 00:14:36,767 YES, SIR. 261 00:14:36,767 --> 00:14:39,500 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S SOME PROGRESS, 262 00:14:39,500 --> 00:14:41,300 BUT IT'S NOT A WHOLE LOT OF WEIGHT LOSS. 263 00:14:41,300 --> 00:14:43,933 AND HOW IS YOUR ACTIVITY? 264 00:14:43,933 --> 00:14:46,200 LET ME SEE HOW YOU WALK. 265 00:14:46,200 --> 00:14:47,700 [ CHUCKLES ] 266 00:14:50,633 --> 00:14:53,367 IT'S KIND OF HARD TO MOVE ALL THE 500 POUNDS, HUH? 267 00:14:53,367 --> 00:14:55,800 IT'S THIS -- ALL THIS RIGHT HERE THAT HANGS. 268 00:14:55,800 --> 00:14:58,433 LET ME SEE HOW MUCH IT HANGS. 269 00:14:58,433 --> 00:15:01,100 IT HANGS PRETTY LOW. 270 00:15:01,100 --> 00:15:04,933 YOU GOT SOME SORT OF SKIN INFECTION ON THE SKIN, TOO. 271 00:15:04,933 --> 00:15:06,467 OKAY. 272 00:15:06,467 --> 00:15:10,700 Dr. Nowzaradan: TARA IS PHYSICALLY IN CRITICAL CONDITION. 273 00:15:10,700 --> 00:15:12,500 SHE NEEDS INTERVENTION NOW. 274 00:15:12,500 --> 00:15:16,400 I DON'T THINK YOU CAN GO MUCH LONGER LIKE THIS. 275 00:15:16,400 --> 00:15:17,567 YES, SIR. 276 00:15:17,567 --> 00:15:20,433 SO, WE NEED TO MAKE ADJUSTMENT IN YOUR EATING. 277 00:15:20,433 --> 00:15:23,667 WE'RE GONNA ACHIEVE THAT WITH GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY. 278 00:15:23,667 --> 00:15:28,567 I'M GONNA HAVE TO SCHEDULE YOU FOR SURGERY IMMEDIATELY. 279 00:15:28,567 --> 00:15:30,567 Dr. Nowzaradan: IF I SEND TARA BACK HOME NOW, 280 00:15:30,567 --> 00:15:33,533 I'M AFRAID THAT THIS IS GONNA BE 281 00:15:33,533 --> 00:15:36,233 THE LAST TIME I'M GONNA SEE TARA. 282 00:15:36,233 --> 00:15:38,833 THANK YOU VERY MUCH. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 283 00:15:38,833 --> 00:15:40,200 LATER, OKAY? YES, SIR. 284 00:15:40,200 --> 00:15:41,233 THANK YOU. 285 00:15:41,233 --> 00:15:45,367 Tara: I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT MY SURGERY, 286 00:15:45,367 --> 00:15:50,067 BUT IT'S HAPPENING REALLY, REALLY, REALLY FAST. 287 00:15:50,067 --> 00:15:52,833 I GOT TO BE STRONG. 288 00:15:52,833 --> 00:15:55,200 I KNOW I HAVE TO DO THIS. 289 00:15:55,200 --> 00:15:56,333 Tara: LET'S GO. 290 00:16:02,300 --> 00:16:05,667 THIS IS SCARY FOR ME. 291 00:16:05,667 --> 00:16:07,600 I HAVE NEVER HAD SURGERY LIKE THIS. 292 00:16:09,633 --> 00:16:11,467 MAMA! 293 00:16:11,467 --> 00:16:12,467 HEY! 294 00:16:12,467 --> 00:16:16,933 Tara: FOR A MOM, THIS IS A LOT. 295 00:16:16,933 --> 00:16:18,900 WHAT IF I DON'T WAKE UP? 296 00:16:18,900 --> 00:16:21,133 WE GOT ANOTHER THING TO PUT ON MY HEAD. 297 00:16:21,133 --> 00:16:21,967 [ CHUCKLES ] 298 00:16:21,967 --> 00:16:23,167 MAMA, ARE YOU OKAY? 299 00:16:23,167 --> 00:16:24,333 YEAH, MAMA FINE. 300 00:16:24,333 --> 00:16:26,600 HE WAS WORRIED. HE WANTED TO SEE HIS MAMA. 301 00:16:26,600 --> 00:16:30,967 Tara: MY DAUGHTER UNDERSTANDS HOW RISKY THIS SURGERY IS. 302 00:16:30,967 --> 00:16:34,867 MY SON -- HE'S 6. HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND. 303 00:16:34,867 --> 00:16:37,733 HE JUST THINKS IT'S LIKE A MOVIE, YOU KNOW? 304 00:16:37,733 --> 00:16:40,300 BUT MY DAUGHTER -- SHE KNOWS. 305 00:16:44,400 --> 00:16:45,800 I KNOW. 306 00:16:45,800 --> 00:16:48,100 THAT MAKES YOU MAD, HUH? AND YOU WANT TO FIGHT? 307 00:16:48,100 --> 00:16:49,133 I KNOW. 308 00:16:49,133 --> 00:16:51,367 BUT MOMMY'S GONNA START LOSING SOME WEIGHT. 309 00:16:51,367 --> 00:16:53,633 YOU WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT NO MORE. 310 00:16:53,633 --> 00:16:55,967 I CAN'T STAND THE FACT THAT HIS CLASSMATES 311 00:16:55,967 --> 00:16:58,167 ALL MAKE FUN OF HIM BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 312 00:16:58,167 --> 00:17:04,633 I DON'T WANT MY FAT TO BE MY CHILD'S PAIN. 313 00:17:04,633 --> 00:17:08,500 I'M A LITTLE SCARED RIGHT NOW. BUT I AM READY FOR THIS CHANGE. 314 00:17:14,833 --> 00:17:17,700 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, AND THERE'S NO TURNING BACK. 315 00:17:17,700 --> 00:17:20,767 Man: I'D LIKE YOU TO TAKE SOME BIG, DEEP BREATHS FOR ME. 316 00:17:20,767 --> 00:17:23,300 OKAY. 317 00:17:47,300 --> 00:17:49,067 ALL RIGHT. 318 00:17:49,067 --> 00:17:50,267 OKAY. 319 00:18:07,433 --> 00:18:10,533 [ RAPID BEEPING ] 320 00:18:10,533 --> 00:18:14,700 Paula: I HOPE THAT THE SURGERY GOES WELL, 321 00:18:14,700 --> 00:18:17,333 THERE'S NO COMPLICATIONS, 322 00:18:17,333 --> 00:18:23,067 AND TO SEE HER WAKE UP AND ASK FOR HER KIDS AND HER MOM. 323 00:18:23,067 --> 00:18:25,400 [ RAPID BEEPING ] 324 00:18:34,967 --> 00:18:36,067 WHY YOU CRYING? 325 00:18:36,067 --> 00:18:37,533 [ Sobbing ] BECAUSE. 326 00:18:37,533 --> 00:18:39,233 BECAUSE -- BECAUSE WHY? 327 00:18:41,867 --> 00:18:43,567 [ CRYING ] 328 00:19:01,667 --> 00:19:04,067 [ RAPID BEEPING ] 329 00:19:42,167 --> 00:19:44,433 Dr. Nowzaradan: PUSH IT BACK JUST ABOUT AN INCH. 330 00:19:44,433 --> 00:19:49,167 SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY IS A LESSER-INVASIVE PROCEDURE 331 00:19:49,167 --> 00:19:51,833 WHICH REMOVES PART OF STOMACH AND MAKE IT SMALL... 332 00:20:11,600 --> 00:20:16,100 HER SURGERY WAS A LITTLE BIT MORE CHALLENGING 333 00:20:16,100 --> 00:20:19,667 THAN I EXPECTED, BUT EVERYTHING WENT FINE. 334 00:20:19,667 --> 00:20:22,033 I HAD TO MAKE TARA'S INCISION 335 00:20:22,033 --> 00:20:27,000 A LITTLE BIT BIGGER THAN USUAL BECAUSE OF HER SIZE. 336 00:20:27,000 --> 00:20:30,700 AND THIS IS GONNA MAKE HER RECOVERY A LITTLE BIT LONGER. 337 00:20:37,900 --> 00:20:40,300 TARA. YOU IN PAIN? 338 00:21:03,300 --> 00:21:08,733 I GOT TARA ON A LIQUID DIET FOR THE FIRST MONTH AFTER SURGERY. 339 00:21:08,733 --> 00:21:11,100 I THINK IT'S GONNA BE CHALLENGING 340 00:21:11,100 --> 00:21:13,267 FOR TARA TO ADJUST TO, 341 00:21:13,267 --> 00:21:18,233 BUT IT'S GONNA BE SOMETHING THAT SHE NEEDS TO WORK ON. 342 00:21:18,233 --> 00:21:20,067 HEY. GOOD MORNING. 343 00:21:20,067 --> 00:21:22,433 Tara: HELLO. GOOD MORNING. 344 00:21:25,733 --> 00:21:27,567 IT'S GOING DOWN. [ CHUCKLES ] 345 00:21:27,567 --> 00:21:30,467 ALL RIGHT. LET'S LOOK AT YOUR INCISION. 346 00:21:30,467 --> 00:21:34,500 ALL RIGHT. THIS LOOKS GOOD. 347 00:21:34,500 --> 00:21:36,167 [ GROANS ] 348 00:21:36,167 --> 00:21:37,267 OKAY. 349 00:21:37,267 --> 00:21:39,267 HOW LONG WILL I BE IN HERE? 350 00:21:39,267 --> 00:21:40,267 MM... 351 00:21:40,267 --> 00:21:43,133 YOU GET TO GO HOME SATURDAY. HOW IS THAT? 352 00:21:43,133 --> 00:21:44,233 GREAT. 353 00:21:44,233 --> 00:21:47,067 GREAT. SATURDAY'S OUR GOAL TO GO HOME. 354 00:21:47,067 --> 00:21:49,067 YES, IT IS. YES, IT IS. 355 00:21:49,067 --> 00:21:51,167 ALL RIGHT. LET'S GET YOU WALKING AROUND, OKAY? 356 00:21:51,167 --> 00:21:52,233 YES, SIR. 357 00:21:52,233 --> 00:21:53,500 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT IS VERY IMPORTANT 358 00:21:53,500 --> 00:21:56,900 TO GET THESE PATIENTS MOBILE AND GET THEM MOVING 359 00:21:56,900 --> 00:21:59,833 TO REDUCE THE RISK AND COMPLICATION OF SURGERY. 360 00:21:59,833 --> 00:22:00,767 AAH! 361 00:22:00,767 --> 00:22:02,767 KEEP GOING. KEEP GOING. 362 00:22:02,767 --> 00:22:03,967 [ WHIMPERS ] 363 00:22:03,967 --> 00:22:05,467 IT'S GONNA HURT. 364 00:22:12,500 --> 00:22:14,800 Woman: GOOD JOB. 365 00:22:14,800 --> 00:22:19,367 THIS IS A LOT HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE. 366 00:22:19,367 --> 00:22:22,800 SLOWLY LOWER YOUR BODY. THERE WE GO. 367 00:22:22,800 --> 00:22:23,933 GREAT JOB. 368 00:22:23,933 --> 00:22:27,067 I HAVE TO PUSH THROUGH THE PAIN. 369 00:22:27,067 --> 00:22:30,200 I HAVE TO GO HOME TO MY KIDS. 370 00:22:40,633 --> 00:22:44,367 RIGHT NOW, I DON'T HAVE THE CRAVINGS, 371 00:22:44,367 --> 00:22:46,500 BUT I KNOW THEY WILL COME BACK, 372 00:22:46,500 --> 00:22:51,500 AND WHEN THEY DO, I'M SCARED I'M GONNA GIVE IN. 373 00:22:51,500 --> 00:22:55,667 I KNOW I HAVE TO STAY STRONG AND STAY FOCUSED, 374 00:22:55,667 --> 00:22:58,067 AND I AM READY TO DO THAT. 375 00:22:58,067 --> 00:22:59,867 I'M NOT GOING BACK. 376 00:23:05,233 --> 00:23:09,267 [ HORN HONKS ] 377 00:23:09,267 --> 00:23:10,367 MWAH! 378 00:23:10,367 --> 00:23:12,600 OH, I'M SO HAPPY TO BE HOME. I MISSED YOU. 379 00:23:12,600 --> 00:23:14,400 Tara: MY FAMILY'S SUCH A SIGHT FOR SORE EYES. 380 00:23:14,400 --> 00:23:18,200 IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME THAT THEY CAME OUT TO GREET ME. 381 00:23:18,200 --> 00:23:22,767 I'M JUST SO GLAD TO BE HOME. 382 00:23:22,767 --> 00:23:26,567 I'M READY TO GET MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER. 383 00:23:37,433 --> 00:23:39,600 YOU WANT SOME? 384 00:23:39,600 --> 00:23:40,533 NO. 385 00:23:40,533 --> 00:23:41,933 [ LAUGHS ] 386 00:23:41,933 --> 00:23:45,800 I'M SUPPOSED TO STAY ON THIS HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET, 387 00:23:45,800 --> 00:23:47,667 AND SO FAR, IT'S NOT THAT BAD. 388 00:23:47,667 --> 00:23:48,833 GIVE ME A TASTE. 389 00:23:53,333 --> 00:23:56,367 THIS DIET AND MY NEW LIFESTYLE WILL HOPEFULLY MAKE AN IMPACT 390 00:23:56,367 --> 00:23:58,233 ON MY CHILDREN'S LIVES. 391 00:23:58,233 --> 00:24:02,533 I WOULD HATE FOR THEM TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES I DID. 392 00:24:02,533 --> 00:24:06,067 GUESS WHAT -- I'M GONNA MAKE A WHIRLPOOL. 393 00:24:06,067 --> 00:24:08,267 IT'S BEEN TOUGH TO STICK TO THE DIET, 394 00:24:08,267 --> 00:24:11,167 BUT I HAVE, AND I KNOW IT'S MAKING A DIFFERENCE... 395 00:24:11,167 --> 00:24:13,667 CANNONBALL! 396 00:24:13,667 --> 00:24:18,367 ...BECAUSE I'M ABLE TO DO THINGS I HAVEN'T DONE IN YEARS. 397 00:24:18,367 --> 00:24:20,933 I HAVE NEVER SEEN MY BABY SWIM. 398 00:24:20,933 --> 00:24:22,433 MAMA, LOOK. I CAN DO A -- 399 00:24:22,433 --> 00:24:23,633 CANNONBALL! 400 00:24:23,633 --> 00:24:28,800 THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT SHE'S GONE OUT THERE 401 00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:30,067 AND WATCHED DARREN SWIM. 402 00:24:30,067 --> 00:24:32,600 ONE, TWO, THREE. HOLD YOUR PANTS OR THEY'LL FALL! 403 00:24:32,600 --> 00:24:34,333 [ LAUGHTER ] 404 00:24:34,333 --> 00:24:36,200 I LIKE THAT DIVE. 405 00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:38,600 HE CAN SWIM UNDERWATER. 406 00:24:38,600 --> 00:24:41,267 Felicity: I WAS HAPPY AND EXCITED. 407 00:24:41,267 --> 00:24:44,300 I WANT HER TO DO MORE STUFF WITH US... 408 00:24:44,300 --> 00:24:46,067 AND ESPECIALLY ME. 409 00:24:46,067 --> 00:24:47,300 I CAN MAKE A TWIRL! 410 00:24:47,300 --> 00:24:49,933 Tara: THIS IS SUCH A WONDERFUL FEELING. 411 00:24:49,933 --> 00:24:53,700 ALL I WANT IS TO BE A PART OF MY BABIES' LIVES 412 00:24:53,700 --> 00:24:57,367 AND TO BE ABLE TO START DOING MORE THINGS WITH THEM. 413 00:24:57,367 --> 00:25:02,067 I HAVE A REAL LONG WAY TO GO, BUT THIS IS A GOOD START. 414 00:25:09,433 --> 00:25:12,133 I'M NERVOUS ABOUT THE APPOINTMENT. 415 00:25:13,567 --> 00:25:15,500 WHEN I STEP ON THE SCALE... 416 00:25:18,433 --> 00:25:21,733 PHYSICALLY, I FEEL GREAT. 417 00:25:21,733 --> 00:25:23,067 TAYLOR? 418 00:25:23,067 --> 00:25:25,667 I'VE BEEN MOVING AROUND A LITTLE MORE... 419 00:25:25,667 --> 00:25:29,900 MAYBE NOT AS MUCH AS THE DOCTOR WOULD LIKE. 420 00:25:29,900 --> 00:25:31,700 BUT HOPEFULLY I'VE LOST SOME WEIGHT. 421 00:25:34,300 --> 00:25:36,333 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT NUMBER? 422 00:25:38,933 --> 00:25:40,400 I'M ANNOYED. 423 00:25:40,400 --> 00:25:44,867 THE NUMBERS WEREN'T WHAT I WANTED IT TO BE. 424 00:25:44,867 --> 00:25:45,933 Paula: HELLO, THERE. 425 00:25:45,933 --> 00:25:47,267 HELLO. HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 426 00:25:47,267 --> 00:25:48,333 Tara: GOOD. 427 00:25:48,333 --> 00:25:49,900 HOW'S YOUR DIET AND EVERYTHING COMING ALONG? 428 00:25:49,900 --> 00:25:54,067 I'M STICKING TO MY DIET. I'M DOING WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO. 429 00:25:54,067 --> 00:25:58,200 AND, AMAZINGLY, YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT IN ONE MONTH. 430 00:25:58,200 --> 00:26:01,067 I'VE LOST FIVE POUNDS. FIVE POUNDS IN ONE MONTH? 431 00:26:01,067 --> 00:26:03,333 YEAH. I USED TO GAIN 20 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH. 432 00:26:03,333 --> 00:26:04,933 THAT'S -- THAT'S GOOD. 433 00:26:04,933 --> 00:26:06,667 WITH THIS TYPE OF OPERATION, 434 00:26:06,667 --> 00:26:09,600 YOU SHOULD LOSE 20 TO 30 POUNDS A MONTH. 435 00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:11,900 WELL, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU. 436 00:26:11,900 --> 00:26:13,933 WELL, JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH -- 437 00:26:13,933 --> 00:26:17,100 HOW MANY TIMES YOU'RE EATING, HOW MUCH YOU'RE EATING. 438 00:26:17,100 --> 00:26:19,567 I EAT BREAKFAST, AND THEN I EAT SUPPER. 439 00:26:19,567 --> 00:26:21,633 Dr. Nowzaradan: TARA IS OVEREATING, 440 00:26:21,633 --> 00:26:24,267 AND SHE'S NOT BEING TRUTHFUL ABOUT IT. 441 00:26:24,267 --> 00:26:27,133 I WANT TO SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING IN TWO WEEKS. 442 00:26:27,133 --> 00:26:28,600 OKAY. 443 00:26:28,600 --> 00:26:33,067 I'M HOPING THAT SHE WILL LOSE 10 POUNDS NEXT TIME I SEE HER. 444 00:26:33,067 --> 00:26:34,833 TWO WEEKS. 445 00:26:34,833 --> 00:26:37,233 [ DOOR CLOSES ] 446 00:26:39,733 --> 00:26:41,733 [ TARA SNIFFLES ] 447 00:26:52,133 --> 00:26:55,067 [ Voice breaking ] I'M TRYING, DAMN IT. 448 00:26:55,067 --> 00:26:56,633 I'M EVEN MOVING MORE. 449 00:26:58,967 --> 00:27:01,867 LIKE I'M GOING CRAZY, LIKE I'M NOT TRYING. 450 00:27:01,867 --> 00:27:03,933 I'M [BLEEP] TRYING. [ SOBS ] 451 00:27:07,600 --> 00:27:09,067 Tara: ON SOME DAYS, 452 00:27:09,067 --> 00:27:13,233 EFFORT AND STRUGGLE IS YOUR ONLY OPTION FOR SUCCESS. 453 00:27:16,367 --> 00:27:18,133 AT THE LAST DOCTOR'S VISIT, 454 00:27:18,133 --> 00:27:21,567 I DIDN'T HAVE THE WEIGHT LOSS THAT MY DOCTOR WANTED. 455 00:27:21,567 --> 00:27:24,133 I'VE DECIDED I'M READY TO MAKE A CHANGE. 456 00:27:24,133 --> 00:27:25,600 I WANT TO DO WELL, 457 00:27:25,600 --> 00:27:28,833 AND I WANT TO MAKE THE PROGRESS I NEED TO, 458 00:27:28,833 --> 00:27:31,100 SO I'M GONNA START WORKING OUT. 459 00:27:31,100 --> 00:27:32,600 HELLO. HI, ARE YOU TARA? 460 00:27:32,600 --> 00:27:34,967 YES, MA'AM. LESLIE? YEAH. NICE TO MEET YOU. 461 00:27:34,967 --> 00:27:35,967 NICE TO MEET YOU. 462 00:27:35,967 --> 00:27:37,667 ALL RIGHT, COME ON. 463 00:27:37,667 --> 00:27:39,300 SO, WE'RE GONNA DO 464 00:27:39,300 --> 00:27:42,567 A LITTLE BIT OF AN ASSESSMENT TO SEE WHAT YOUR STRENGTH IS. 465 00:27:42,567 --> 00:27:44,567 COOL. 466 00:27:44,567 --> 00:27:45,967 I'M NERVOUS TO WORK OUT. 467 00:27:45,967 --> 00:27:47,133 FIRST OF ALL, GRAB. 468 00:27:47,133 --> 00:27:48,767 I'M NOT USED TO PHYSICAL ACTIVITY. 469 00:27:50,767 --> 00:27:52,200 LAST ONE. GOOD. 470 00:27:52,200 --> 00:27:53,767 ALL RIGHT. IT IS LIGHT. 471 00:27:56,867 --> 00:27:59,367 I'M GONNA KIND OF SHOW YOU WHAT I WANT. 472 00:27:59,367 --> 00:28:01,600 ONE MORE FOR ME. THEN WE'LL TAKE ANOTHER REST. 473 00:28:01,600 --> 00:28:03,467 Lafaye: TARA'S ONE OF THE LARGEST WOMEN 474 00:28:03,467 --> 00:28:06,100 THAT I'VE EVER WORKED WITH AND TRAINED BEFORE. 475 00:28:06,100 --> 00:28:09,600 SOMEBODY TARA'S SIZE WHO'S NEW TO EXERCISE 476 00:28:09,600 --> 00:28:11,433 HAS A LOT TO OVERCOME. 477 00:28:11,433 --> 00:28:14,100 IT DEPENDS ON HOW COMMITTED SHE IS 478 00:28:14,100 --> 00:28:18,167 TO MAKING A PERMANENT CHANGE TO HOW WELL SHE'LL DO. 479 00:28:18,167 --> 00:28:19,533 AWESOME. 480 00:28:19,533 --> 00:28:21,500 SHE'S DEFINITELY GOT A LONG WAY TO GO, 481 00:28:21,500 --> 00:28:22,800 AND I'M REALLY CONCERNED 482 00:28:22,800 --> 00:28:25,767 ABOUT HOW SHE'S GONNA HANDLE THIS IN THE LONG RUN. 483 00:28:25,767 --> 00:28:29,167 TARA, WHAT IS YOUR ATTITUDE TOWARDS FOOD? 484 00:28:29,167 --> 00:28:32,100 SINCE SURGERY, WHAT'S BEEN YOUR EXPERIENCE WITH THAT? 485 00:28:32,100 --> 00:28:33,333 FOOD IS THE ENEMY. 486 00:28:33,333 --> 00:28:34,500 FOOD'S THE ENEMY? 487 00:28:34,500 --> 00:28:36,867 THAT'S SOMETHING WE NEED TO CHANGE. 488 00:28:36,867 --> 00:28:38,433 I WOULD LOVE TO HELP YOU 489 00:28:38,433 --> 00:28:41,933 TO MAKE IT ABOUT FUELING YOUR BODY. 490 00:28:41,933 --> 00:28:44,700 WELL, WHEN YOU HAVE CHILDREN, YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT YOURSELF. 491 00:28:44,700 --> 00:28:47,200 THEY SAY, "MOM, I'M HUNGRY." "OKAY, WHAT DO YOU WANT?" 492 00:28:47,200 --> 00:28:49,833 YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE DECISION THAT THIS SURGERY, 493 00:28:49,833 --> 00:28:51,067 WHICH IS A BIG DEAL, 494 00:28:51,067 --> 00:28:53,300 CHANGED YOUR LIFE ENOUGH THAT YOU MATTER. 495 00:28:53,300 --> 00:28:56,067 AND WE'LL GET THERE. 496 00:28:56,067 --> 00:28:58,500 IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN OVERNIGHT. 497 00:28:58,500 --> 00:29:00,067 YOU MATTER IN THIS. 498 00:29:00,067 --> 00:29:01,667 [ SOBBING ] 499 00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:10,333 IT'S HARD WHEN YOU HAVEN'T PUT YOURSELF FIRST. 500 00:29:10,333 --> 00:29:13,567 AND YOU'RE RIGHT -- OUR KIDS HAVE TO COME FIRST. 501 00:29:13,567 --> 00:29:16,300 WHEN YOU ARE YOUR HEALTHIEST, 502 00:29:16,300 --> 00:29:19,400 YOU WILL TAKE BETTER CARE OF THEM, 503 00:29:19,400 --> 00:29:21,600 AND THEY WILL BE HEALTHY, TOO. 504 00:29:21,600 --> 00:29:25,200 BUT YOU WILL BE SO MUCH BETTER FOR THEM WHEN YOU MATTER, TOO. 505 00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:29,200 SHE DOESN'T FEEL THAT SHE MATTERS, 506 00:29:29,200 --> 00:29:34,900 AND IT'S VERY HARD FOR HER TO TAKE CENTER STAGE. 507 00:29:34,900 --> 00:29:38,367 Tara: I DIDN'T REALIZE NOW IT'S TIME FOR ME TO TAKE CARE OF ME 508 00:29:38,367 --> 00:29:40,700 AND MAKE SURE I GET MYSELF RIGHT. 509 00:29:43,833 --> 00:29:47,067 YOU GONNA PUT THIS IN THE GLOVE COMPARTMENT FOR ME... 510 00:29:47,067 --> 00:29:48,067 YEAH. 511 00:29:48,067 --> 00:29:50,067 ...SINCE YOU'RE GOING ON THAT SIDE? 512 00:29:50,067 --> 00:29:52,333 TODAY, WE'RE GOING SHOPPING FOR THE KIDS. 513 00:29:52,333 --> 00:29:56,200 I'M NOT GOING IN THERE FOR JUST, LIKE, ONE ITEM. 514 00:29:56,200 --> 00:29:58,233 AND IT'S GONNA BE AISLE TO AISLE TO AISLE, 515 00:29:58,233 --> 00:30:00,567 AND THEN I CAN'T WALK IT. 516 00:30:00,567 --> 00:30:03,567 MY TRAINER TOLD ME TO WALK MORE AND STAY ACTIVE, 517 00:30:03,567 --> 00:30:04,967 AND I'M REALLY TRYING... 518 00:30:04,967 --> 00:30:06,067 COME ON, BABY. 519 00:30:06,067 --> 00:30:09,900 ...BUT I STILL NEED TO USE MY SCOOTER. 520 00:30:12,600 --> 00:30:15,933 MY KNEES HAVE BEEN BOTHERING ME. 521 00:30:15,933 --> 00:30:19,033 I CAN HARDLY WALK. 522 00:30:19,033 --> 00:30:22,067 I WORK OUT AT THE GYM, 523 00:30:22,067 --> 00:30:24,233 AND I'M ALWAYS WALKING AROUND THE HOUSE. 524 00:30:25,833 --> 00:30:28,500 I'M NOT USED TO MOVING AROUND SO MUCH. 525 00:30:28,500 --> 00:30:31,333 I'M NOT READY FOR IT. 526 00:30:32,833 --> 00:30:36,500 I CAN'T CHANGE OVERNIGHT. 527 00:30:36,500 --> 00:30:38,667 FOUR...TWO...FIVE. START. 528 00:30:38,667 --> 00:30:40,767 THEY'RE BIGGER, AND THEY'RE PRETTIER. 529 00:30:40,767 --> 00:30:43,033 CHANGING SOMETHING LIKE MY EATING HABITS 530 00:30:43,033 --> 00:30:45,533 IS NEVER GONNA BE EASY 531 00:30:45,533 --> 00:30:49,367 BECAUSE I'M USED TO DOING WHAT I KNOW. 532 00:30:49,367 --> 00:30:52,233 I MAY CHEAT A LITTLE BIT HERE AND THERE, 533 00:30:52,233 --> 00:30:54,400 BUT I'M REALLY TRYING. 534 00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:57,400 IT'S NOT JUST ABOUT WHEN MY STOMACH SAYS I'M DONE. 535 00:30:57,400 --> 00:30:59,800 IT'S ABOUT WHEN MY HEAD SAYS I'M DONE. 536 00:30:59,800 --> 00:31:03,067 SO IT'S HARD TO STOP. 537 00:31:03,067 --> 00:31:05,167 CHANGING SOMETHING LIKE EATING HABITS 538 00:31:05,167 --> 00:31:06,767 IS JUST REALLY, REALLY HARD. 539 00:31:13,467 --> 00:31:16,133 TODAY, I'M AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE. 540 00:31:16,133 --> 00:31:19,400 I HOPE I'VE LOST THE WEIGHT MY DOCTOR WANTED 541 00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:22,767 AND GET APPROVED FOR SKIN SURGERY. 542 00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:32,200 Dr. Nowzaradan: YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT. 543 00:31:33,833 --> 00:31:35,233 BUT I'M DOING THINGS I'M SUPPOSED TO. 544 00:31:35,233 --> 00:31:37,100 I EVEN WALKED THE WHOLE -- A WHOLE DEPARTMENT STORE. 545 00:31:37,100 --> 00:31:41,067 YOU'RE STILL EATING TOO MANY CALORIES FOR YOUR METABOLISM. 546 00:31:41,067 --> 00:31:43,667 THAT'S WHY YOU'RE NOT LOSING WEIGHT. 547 00:31:43,667 --> 00:31:45,800 YOU CAN PREACH AND PREACH AND PREACH. 548 00:31:45,800 --> 00:31:48,267 I DON'T EAT NOTHING I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO. 549 00:31:48,267 --> 00:31:50,233 THINGS I USED TO EAT, I DON'T EAT ANYMORE. 550 00:31:50,233 --> 00:31:52,900 Dr. Nowzaradan: IF THE PATIENT DOESN'T WANT TO CHANGE, 551 00:31:52,900 --> 00:31:54,267 THEY WILL CONVINCE THEMSELF 552 00:31:54,267 --> 00:31:56,833 THAT THEY ARE NOT EATING VERY MUCH. 553 00:31:56,833 --> 00:32:01,833 MOST OF THESE PATIENTS ARE PATHOLOGICAL EATERS, 554 00:32:01,833 --> 00:32:03,167 AND THEY LIE TO YOU. 555 00:32:03,167 --> 00:32:07,200 BUT THE REALITY IS, TO MAINTAIN SUCH A HIGH WEIGHT, 556 00:32:07,200 --> 00:32:09,500 THEY HAVE TO EAT A LOT. 557 00:32:09,500 --> 00:32:12,067 WE WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING HER STOMACH REMOVED. 558 00:32:12,067 --> 00:32:14,500 WE CAN'T REMOVE THE SKIN IF SHE DOESN'T 559 00:32:14,500 --> 00:32:17,400 LOSE THE WEIGHT FIRST. 560 00:32:17,400 --> 00:32:20,700 IF TARA HASN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT NEXT TIME SHE'S HERE, 561 00:32:20,700 --> 00:32:25,067 I'M AFRAID THAT'S GONNA BE THE END OF HER WEIGHT LOSS. 562 00:32:25,067 --> 00:32:27,333 TARA, WE NEED TO GET YOU BACK ON TRACK NOW. 563 00:32:27,333 --> 00:32:31,400 IF YOU CAN'T, THERE'S NOTHING MORE I CAN DO FOR YOU. 564 00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:33,167 DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT HE TOLD YOU? 565 00:32:33,167 --> 00:32:35,067 [ Voice breaking ] YES, I UNDERSTAND. 566 00:32:35,067 --> 00:32:37,167 I'M GONNA [BLEEP] STARVE MYSELF FOR TWO WEEKS 567 00:32:37,167 --> 00:32:38,367 TO MAKE EVERYBODY [BLEEP] HAPPY. 568 00:32:38,367 --> 00:32:41,833 I'M DONE WITH THIS! I-I QUIT! I'M DONE! 569 00:32:41,833 --> 00:32:43,167 [BLEEP] THIS! 570 00:32:46,133 --> 00:32:49,933 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ] 571 00:32:49,933 --> 00:32:52,467 MY [BLEEP] HOUSE. 572 00:33:01,867 --> 00:33:03,533 Tara: A STRUGGLE CAN GET YOU NOWHERE... 573 00:33:03,533 --> 00:33:08,067 UNTIL YOU DISCOVER YOU'RE ONLY STRUGGLING WITH YOURSELF. 574 00:33:17,267 --> 00:33:21,700 AT FIRST, IT REALLY UPSET ME WHAT THE DOCTOR WAS SAYING, 575 00:33:21,700 --> 00:33:25,267 BUT THEN I REALIZED WHAT HE WAS SAYING WAS TRUE. 576 00:33:25,267 --> 00:33:28,867 I GOT TO STOP LYING TO MYSELF. 577 00:33:28,867 --> 00:33:30,400 HEY. HOW YOU DOING? 578 00:33:30,400 --> 00:33:31,433 I'M GOOD. 579 00:33:31,433 --> 00:33:34,067 I LIKE TO GIVE LOTS OF HUGS TODAY. 580 00:33:34,067 --> 00:33:35,367 COME ON. YES. 581 00:33:35,367 --> 00:33:36,767 I WANT TO ASK YOU 582 00:33:36,767 --> 00:33:41,500 BEFORE WE GET STARTED, WHERE THE HECK HAVE YOU BEEN? 583 00:33:41,500 --> 00:33:44,300 WHEN I DON'T SEE YOU FOR WEEKS ON END, IT -- 584 00:33:44,300 --> 00:33:45,600 WE'RE STARTING OVER. 585 00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:49,067 THIS IS ALMOST LIKE THIS IS OUR FIRST SESSION. 586 00:33:49,067 --> 00:33:51,433 WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW THE DOCTOR? 587 00:33:51,433 --> 00:33:54,133 THE LAST TIME I SAW THE DOCTOR, IT WAS NOT CUTE. 588 00:33:54,133 --> 00:33:57,100 HE WAS FUSSING, TELLING ME I'M NOT LOSING ENOUGH WEIGHT. 589 00:33:57,100 --> 00:33:58,133 WELL, YOU AREN'T. 590 00:33:58,133 --> 00:33:59,133 THEN HE'S LIKE -- 591 00:33:59,133 --> 00:34:00,433 THERE'S TRUTH IN THAT. 592 00:34:00,433 --> 00:34:02,567 ON HIS SCALES, YOU OBVIOUSLY HADN'T LOST 593 00:34:02,567 --> 00:34:05,067 THE WEIGHT HE EXPECTED YOU TO LOSE. 594 00:34:05,067 --> 00:34:08,700 THIS IS NOT GONNA BE A CAKEWALK. 595 00:34:08,700 --> 00:34:11,333 YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE COMFORTABLE AT EVERY MOMENT, 596 00:34:11,333 --> 00:34:13,367 BUT YOU HAVE TO SHOW UP. 597 00:34:13,367 --> 00:34:14,200 MM-HMM. 598 00:34:14,200 --> 00:34:16,367 OKAY? I CAN HANDLE TRUE TARA. 599 00:34:16,367 --> 00:34:19,400 YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO SHOW HER TO ME. 600 00:34:19,400 --> 00:34:22,367 SHUT UP, AND LET'S GO WORK OUT? 601 00:34:22,367 --> 00:34:25,300 [ LAUGHS ] THAT'S FINE WITH ME. 602 00:34:25,300 --> 00:34:26,333 LET'S GO. 603 00:34:26,333 --> 00:34:27,967 [ EXHALES DEEPLY ] 604 00:34:27,967 --> 00:34:30,933 MY STOMACH IS IN THE WAY. [BLEEP] 605 00:34:30,933 --> 00:34:32,733 IT'S GOING TO GET EASIER. 606 00:34:33,833 --> 00:34:34,667 AWESOME. 607 00:34:34,667 --> 00:34:35,933 STEP THROUGH IT. 608 00:34:35,933 --> 00:34:37,167 WHENEVER YOU'RE READY. 609 00:34:37,167 --> 00:34:39,400 IT'S TIME FOR ME TO STOP MAKING EXCUSES 610 00:34:39,400 --> 00:34:40,933 AND START CHANGING FOR REAL. 611 00:34:40,933 --> 00:34:44,067 THAT'S 30 SECONDS. 612 00:34:44,067 --> 00:34:47,067 I HAVE TO PUSH MYSELF. I HAVE TO DO THIS. 613 00:34:47,067 --> 00:34:47,867 GOOD DEAL. 614 00:34:47,867 --> 00:34:49,233 [ EXHALES DEEPLY ] 615 00:34:49,233 --> 00:34:51,700 I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES, NO MATTER HOW DIFFICULT, 616 00:34:51,700 --> 00:34:53,833 TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD AND TO MAKE PROGRESS. 617 00:34:53,833 --> 00:34:56,333 GET THE FRUSTRATIONS OUT. IT FEELS GOOD, ALL RIGHT? 618 00:34:56,333 --> 00:34:58,333 WHENEVER YOU'RE READY. 619 00:34:58,333 --> 00:35:00,333 FIVE...FOUR...THREE... 620 00:35:00,333 --> 00:35:02,133 TWO...ONE. BOOM! 621 00:35:02,133 --> 00:35:03,933 Lafaye: I'M IMPRESSED WITH TARA. 622 00:35:03,933 --> 00:35:05,900 SHE SHOWED UP TODAY. SHE DID THE WORK. 623 00:35:05,900 --> 00:35:07,100 I HAVE FAITH IN HER. 624 00:35:07,100 --> 00:35:09,067 SHE'S GONNA HAVE TO COMMIT TO MAKING A CHANGE 625 00:35:09,067 --> 00:35:11,733 AND STICKING TO IT IF THIS IS GONNA WORK. 626 00:35:11,733 --> 00:35:14,967 I KNOW SHE CAN DO IT. 627 00:35:27,267 --> 00:35:30,933 Tara: TODAY, WE'RE GOING SHOPPING FOR SOME GROCERIES. 628 00:35:30,933 --> 00:35:34,100 LAST TIME I WENT SHOPPING, I HAD TO USE THE CART 629 00:35:34,100 --> 00:35:36,167 'CAUSE I COULDN'T WALK THAT FAR. 630 00:35:36,167 --> 00:35:39,333 BUT THIS TIME, I DON'T NEED THE SCOOTER. 631 00:35:39,333 --> 00:35:40,633 I'M GONNA WALK. 632 00:35:40,633 --> 00:35:44,167 IT'S TIME FOR ME TO STOP MAKING UP EXCUSES. 633 00:35:44,167 --> 00:35:46,167 I NEED TO CHANGE IF I WANT TO LIVE. 634 00:35:46,167 --> 00:35:47,500 BEFORE I HAD MY SURGERY, 635 00:35:47,500 --> 00:35:50,100 I COULD EAT LIKE THREE OR FOUR OF THESE TV DINNERS. 636 00:35:50,100 --> 00:35:52,567 I DON'T EVEN EAT THAT ANYMORE. 637 00:35:52,567 --> 00:35:55,767 MISSING OUT ON THE FOOD THAT I CAN'T HAVE 638 00:35:55,767 --> 00:35:57,367 DOESN'T MAKE ME SAD. 639 00:35:57,367 --> 00:35:59,367 ARE YOU PROUD OF MY WALKING AND STUFF? 640 00:35:59,367 --> 00:36:01,300 HIGH FIVE! THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. 641 00:36:01,300 --> 00:36:03,867 I'M PROUD OF YOU BECAUSE WE'RE BOTH TAYLORS! 642 00:36:03,867 --> 00:36:05,767 AND WE BOTH CAN WALK THE STORE. 643 00:36:05,767 --> 00:36:07,067 YEAH! YEAH, BABY! 644 00:36:07,067 --> 00:36:09,067 AH, COME ON, BABY. 645 00:36:09,067 --> 00:36:10,567 NO ICE CREAM. MNH-MNH, MNH-MNH. 646 00:36:10,567 --> 00:36:11,800 I CAN'T HAVE. YOU CAN'T HAVE. 647 00:36:11,800 --> 00:36:13,067 MOVE IT. MOVE IT. 648 00:36:13,067 --> 00:36:16,367 IT FEELS GOOD TO BE ABLE TO GO TO THE STORE. 649 00:36:16,367 --> 00:36:18,100 NEED A HAND BRINGING IT OUT? 650 00:36:18,100 --> 00:36:20,333 OH, NO, I GOT MY KIDS. THANK YOU, THOUGH. 651 00:36:20,333 --> 00:36:21,300 COME ON, DEE. 652 00:36:21,300 --> 00:36:24,833 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG WHILE, 653 00:36:24,833 --> 00:36:27,167 I KNOW I CAN DO THIS. 654 00:36:35,067 --> 00:36:38,767 I CAN'T WAIT TO SHOW THE DOCTOR HOW MUCH WEIGHT I'VE LOST. 655 00:36:38,767 --> 00:36:41,533 AND THIS TIME, I KNOW I'VE MADE PROGRESS. 656 00:36:46,500 --> 00:36:47,967 THESE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS, 657 00:36:47,967 --> 00:36:50,067 I'VE REALLY PUSHED MYSELF TO THE LIMIT. 658 00:36:50,067 --> 00:36:52,800 I HOPE THAT'S ENOUGH TO GET THE APPROVAL 659 00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:54,067 FOR MY SKIN SURGERY. 660 00:36:54,067 --> 00:36:55,200 HEY. HI, DR. NOW. 661 00:36:55,200 --> 00:36:57,067 YOU LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT. 662 00:36:57,067 --> 00:37:00,067 I'M PROUD OF YOU STICKING TO THE PROGRAM. 663 00:37:00,067 --> 00:37:02,267 Dr. Nowzaradan: TARA IS MAKING PROGRESS NOW. 664 00:37:02,267 --> 00:37:04,733 I WAS WORRIED ABOUT HER LAST VISIT, 665 00:37:04,733 --> 00:37:07,933 BUT SHE'S TURNING THE CORNER NOW. 666 00:37:07,933 --> 00:37:10,233 IF WE GO AHEAD AND DO SKIN SURGERY, 667 00:37:10,233 --> 00:37:11,667 THAT MAY INCREASE YOUR ACTIVITY 668 00:37:11,667 --> 00:37:13,567 SO YOU'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT. 669 00:37:13,567 --> 00:37:15,867 YOU SERIOUS? LIKE, FOR REAL? 670 00:37:15,867 --> 00:37:17,067 YEAH. 671 00:37:17,067 --> 00:37:18,900 I WOULD KISS YOU, BUT YOUR WIFE MIGHT GET MAD. 672 00:37:18,900 --> 00:37:19,867 [ CHUCKLES ] 673 00:37:19,867 --> 00:37:21,400 NOW I'M GONNA DO THE HAPPY JIG. 674 00:37:21,400 --> 00:37:22,533 [ LAUGHS ] I'M JUST HAPPY. 675 00:37:22,533 --> 00:37:24,867 I'M VERY HAPPY WITH HER PROGRESS. 676 00:37:24,867 --> 00:37:26,833 YES! YES! YES! YES! YES! 677 00:37:26,833 --> 00:37:30,400 Tara: I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GETTING MY SKIN SURGERY. 678 00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:32,233 THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. 679 00:37:41,900 --> 00:37:44,367 Tara: [ Voice breaking ] IT'S A REALLY BIG SURGERY. 680 00:37:44,367 --> 00:37:47,433 AND I'M NERVOUS I MIGHT NOT EVEN WAKE UP THIS TIME. 681 00:37:47,433 --> 00:37:49,200 Paula: IT'S A BIG SURGERY, 682 00:37:49,200 --> 00:37:53,433 BUT IT'S GONNA BE BETTER FOR YOU AND ESPECIALLY FOR YOUR KIDS. 683 00:37:53,433 --> 00:37:55,500 EVERYTHING WILL GO FINE. 684 00:37:56,733 --> 00:38:00,533 JUST WANT YOU TO TAKE SOME NICE, SLOW DEEP BREATHS FOR ME. 685 00:38:00,533 --> 00:38:02,467 IN AND OUT. 686 00:38:02,467 --> 00:38:04,067 I'M JUST REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY NERVOUS. 687 00:38:15,200 --> 00:38:17,500 Dr. Nowzaradan: LET ME HAVE A KNIFE. 688 00:38:49,767 --> 00:38:54,600 ALL RIGHT. WE ARE DONE WITH TARA'S OPERATION. 689 00:38:54,600 --> 00:38:57,400 TWO...THREE. 690 00:39:15,733 --> 00:39:19,267 Tara: IF YOU CANNOT BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE, 691 00:39:19,267 --> 00:39:23,600 THEN ANY SORT OF TRANSFORMATION WILL NOT HAPPEN. 692 00:39:32,167 --> 00:39:34,567 Lafaye: 10 MORE. COME ON. 693 00:39:34,567 --> 00:39:36,133 10...9 -- HARDER! 694 00:39:36,133 --> 00:39:38,767 HARDER. COME ON. 695 00:39:38,767 --> 00:39:41,467 IT'S HARD FOR ME TO GO OUT WHILE I'M RECOVERING FROM SURGERY. 696 00:39:41,467 --> 00:39:45,467 BUT LESLIE'S WILLING TO COME HERE AND TRAIN WITH ME. 697 00:39:45,467 --> 00:39:47,200 LET'S GO. HIT ME. 698 00:39:49,567 --> 00:39:51,800 THE NEW ME ACTUALLY LIKES WORKING OUT. 699 00:39:51,800 --> 00:39:54,567 I LOOK FORWARD TO IT. 700 00:39:54,567 --> 00:39:58,300 I WANT YOU TO GO AS FAST AS YOU CAN WITHOUT IT CAUSING PAIN. 701 00:39:58,300 --> 00:40:01,133 I WANT TO KEEP PUSHING MYSELF TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS. 702 00:40:01,133 --> 00:40:03,933 IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU TRYING AND PUSHING YOURSELF. 703 00:40:03,933 --> 00:40:07,333 [ Voice breaking ] I'VE COME SO FAR, YOU KNOW? 704 00:40:07,333 --> 00:40:10,000 AND I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO. 705 00:40:10,000 --> 00:40:12,367 I KNOW NOTHING HAPPENS OVERNIGHT, 706 00:40:12,367 --> 00:40:16,333 BUT I'M JUST READY TO BOUNCE BACK IN THE WORLD, STOMACH-FREE. 707 00:40:16,333 --> 00:40:20,233 I'M NEVER GONNA GIVE UP. 708 00:40:24,467 --> 00:40:28,933 THE DOCTOR'S SCALE USED TO SCARE THE HECK OUT OF ME, 709 00:40:28,933 --> 00:40:31,467 BUT TODAY, I CAN'T WAIT TO GET ON IT. 710 00:40:35,300 --> 00:40:36,933 [ CHUCKLES ] 711 00:40:36,933 --> 00:40:38,767 Dr. Nowzaradan: 610 TO 320. 712 00:40:38,767 --> 00:40:41,633 YOU'RE ALMOST A HALF OF THE WEIGHT THAT YOU USED TO BE, HUH? 713 00:40:41,633 --> 00:40:43,167 THANK YOU. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 714 00:40:43,167 --> 00:40:44,933 YOU TURNED MY LIFE AROUND. THANK YOU. 715 00:40:44,933 --> 00:40:47,000 ALL RIGHT. I APPRECIATE IT. 716 00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:49,400 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M PROUD OF TARA -- HOW FAR SHE HAS COME, 717 00:40:49,400 --> 00:40:50,633 AND SHE'S DOING GREAT. 718 00:40:50,633 --> 00:40:52,000 LET'S GO. 719 00:40:52,000 --> 00:40:54,567 Tara: A YEAR AGO, I WAS AT THE LOWEST POINT OF MY LIFE. 720 00:40:54,567 --> 00:40:57,533 I WILL NEVER FORGET WHO THAT 600-POUND PERSON WAS. 721 00:40:57,533 --> 00:41:00,200 [ Voice breaking ] I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER... 722 00:41:02,567 --> 00:41:05,067 I HAVE A WORLD OF POSSIBILITIES. 723 00:41:05,067 --> 00:41:08,600 I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO START LIVING MY LIFE. 724 00:41:14,300 --> 00:41:16,400 NOW DINNERTIME IS NOT WHAT MY MOM IS GONNA MAKE. 725 00:41:16,400 --> 00:41:18,933 IT'S WHAT WE'RE ALL GONNA DO TOGETHER. 726 00:41:20,633 --> 00:41:23,867 NOT LONG AGO, I WAS WHEELING INTO THE KITCHEN, 727 00:41:23,867 --> 00:41:26,700 MAKING NOTHING BUT STARCH AND CALORIES. 728 00:41:26,700 --> 00:41:28,100 I NEED TO PUT SOME SALT. 729 00:41:28,100 --> 00:41:30,100 I'M GONNA PUT A LITTLE SEASONING ON IT FOR HIM. 730 00:41:31,500 --> 00:41:34,367 NOWADAYS, THE FOOD IS DIFFERENT, 731 00:41:34,367 --> 00:41:36,933 AND I'M NOT WAITING IN BED TO EAT IT. 732 00:41:36,933 --> 00:41:40,867 BUT WITH ALL THIS CHANGE, ONE THING IS STILL THE SAME -- 733 00:41:40,867 --> 00:41:42,433 WE'RE IN THIS TOGETHER, 734 00:41:42,433 --> 00:41:46,600 AND THAT ALONE IS THE REASON WHY MY WHOLE NEW LIFE IS GONNA WORK. 735 00:41:49,733 --> 00:41:51,167 Darren: MM-HMM. 736 00:41:51,167 --> 00:41:53,700 READY...SET...GO! 737 00:41:53,700 --> 00:41:56,133 I'M NOT USED TO MOVING AROUND SO MUCH. 738 00:41:56,133 --> 00:41:58,200 I HAVE NEVER HELPED MY SON GET READY FOR SCHOOL. 739 00:41:58,200 --> 00:42:02,967 ONE DAY, HE WON'T WANT HIS MAMA HELPING HIM IN THE MORNING, 740 00:42:02,967 --> 00:42:06,100 SO I WANT TO DO IT WHILE I CAN. 741 00:42:06,100 --> 00:42:10,067 I KNOW NOW I CAN ACTUALLY BE A PART OF HIS LIFE... 742 00:42:10,067 --> 00:42:11,367 BE GOOD, OKAY? 743 00:42:11,367 --> 00:42:12,967 ...AND SUPPORT HIM. 744 00:42:12,967 --> 00:42:16,067 BLOW ME A KISS BYE! 745 00:42:16,067 --> 00:42:19,200 WHOO! THANK YOU! 746 00:42:19,200 --> 00:42:21,700 IT FEELS LIKE A NEW LIFE 747 00:42:21,700 --> 00:42:24,633 TO BE ABLE TO BE WITH MY CHILDREN A WHOLE LOT MORE -- 748 00:42:24,633 --> 00:42:28,067 PARTICIPATE, TO BE WITH THEM. 749 00:42:28,067 --> 00:42:29,200 I CAN BE A BETTER MOM. 750 00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:31,933 I CAN'T IMAGINE EVER GOING BACK. 750 00:42:32,305 --> 00:43:32,613 Do you want subtitles for any video? -=[ ai.OpenSubtitles.com ]=-