"My 600-lb Life" Laura's Story

1 00:00:02,900 --> 00:00:06,133 Laura: SOME DAYS, I WANT TO DIE 2 00:00:06,133 --> 00:00:08,833 SO THEY DON'T HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME ANYMORE. 3 00:00:13,933 --> 00:00:16,033 Man: I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE. 4 00:00:16,033 --> 00:00:19,833 I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON MY WORST ENEMY. 5 00:00:19,833 --> 00:00:23,133 Woman: I HATE THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE. 6 00:00:31,633 --> 00:00:34,600 DON'T YOU DARE PUT IT ALL OFF ON ME! 7 00:00:34,600 --> 00:00:37,567 LISTEN, SHE IS GOING TO DIE. THAT'S ENOUGH! 8 00:00:37,567 --> 00:00:39,400 BOTH OF Y'ALL, STOP! JUST STOP! 9 00:00:42,267 --> 00:00:44,367 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'VE GOT TO CORRECT THIS PROBLEM. 10 00:00:44,367 --> 00:00:47,833 OTHERWISE, SURGERY WOULD NOT BE USEFUL FOR YOU. 11 00:00:47,833 --> 00:00:49,400 [ Voice breaking ] I CAN'T DO THIS 12 00:00:49,400 --> 00:00:52,433 WITHOUT SOMEBODY TO HELP ME SAY NO. 13 00:00:58,300 --> 00:01:01,467 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD RIGHT NOW. 14 00:01:01,467 --> 00:01:03,667 SHE'S VERY CLOSE TO DYING. 15 00:01:03,667 --> 00:01:06,667 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 16 00:01:06,667 --> 00:01:10,167 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 17 00:01:10,167 --> 00:01:13,767 Laura: SOMETIMES YOU REALIZE THAT YOU'RE ON THE WRONG PATH, 18 00:01:13,767 --> 00:01:16,267 BUT YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT 19 00:01:16,267 --> 00:01:19,500 UNTIL YOU COME TO A CROSSROADS. 20 00:01:21,000 --> 00:01:27,074 21 00:01:36,667 --> 00:01:39,100 [ GRUNTS ] 22 00:01:39,100 --> 00:01:40,767 OKAY. 23 00:01:42,833 --> 00:01:46,433 MOST DAYS, I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GET UP. 24 00:01:50,267 --> 00:01:52,867 [ WATER RUNNING ] 25 00:01:52,867 --> 00:01:58,067 I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED IN THIS BODY. 26 00:01:58,067 --> 00:01:59,867 OW. 27 00:01:59,867 --> 00:02:00,933 SORRY. 28 00:02:00,933 --> 00:02:03,667 OW, OW, OW! WAIT, WAIT, WAIT. 29 00:02:03,667 --> 00:02:06,367 I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN. 30 00:02:06,367 --> 00:02:08,567 [ Voice breaking ] IT'S A NIGHTMARE 31 00:02:08,567 --> 00:02:11,567 THAT I WANT TO WAKE UP, BUT I CAN'T. 32 00:02:11,567 --> 00:02:14,933 YOU HAVE TO LIFT IT. 33 00:02:14,933 --> 00:02:17,067 OW, OW! WAIT, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT! 34 00:02:17,067 --> 00:02:21,733 AND IT'S AN UGLY FEELING. 35 00:02:21,733 --> 00:02:26,500 I DON'T WANT NOBODY TO EVER HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS. 36 00:02:26,500 --> 00:02:30,100 I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG 37 00:02:30,100 --> 00:02:33,367 THAT I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF MYSELF ANYMORE. 38 00:02:33,367 --> 00:02:36,300 IT'S JUST HUMILIATING 39 00:02:36,300 --> 00:02:40,567 TO HAVE YOUR FAMILY DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU LIKE THIS. 40 00:02:43,133 --> 00:02:44,833 SOME DAYS, I WANT TO DIE 41 00:02:44,833 --> 00:02:48,433 SO THEY DON'T HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME ANYMORE. 42 00:02:48,433 --> 00:02:51,400 [ GRUNTS ] 43 00:02:51,400 --> 00:02:53,067 ALL RIGHT. READY? 44 00:02:53,067 --> 00:02:54,533 YEAH. 45 00:02:56,333 --> 00:02:59,267 WE DO MOSTLY EVERYTHING FOR HER. 46 00:02:59,267 --> 00:03:02,833 SHE NEEDS SOMEBODY ALL THE TIME. 47 00:03:02,833 --> 00:03:07,333 I FEEL BAD 'CAUSE SHE CAN'T DO IT HERSELF. 48 00:03:07,333 --> 00:03:09,367 BUT THAT'S WHY I'M THERE. 49 00:03:09,367 --> 00:03:12,067 Laura: NO MERCY. 50 00:03:12,067 --> 00:03:14,233 PICK UP THAT. 51 00:03:14,233 --> 00:03:18,067 I'M HERE TO HELP HER WITH HER LIFE. 52 00:03:18,067 --> 00:03:20,133 CAREFUL. REMEMBER. 53 00:03:20,133 --> 00:03:21,967 SLOW. 54 00:03:21,967 --> 00:03:24,067 NOW WE GOT TO SHIFT IT. 55 00:03:24,067 --> 00:03:25,467 THERE. 56 00:03:25,467 --> 00:03:26,833 OW. 57 00:03:26,833 --> 00:03:28,667 Laura: IT'S HURTING ME, 58 00:03:28,667 --> 00:03:31,133 NOT BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING FOR MYSELF. 59 00:03:31,133 --> 00:03:32,333 OH. 60 00:03:32,333 --> 00:03:33,800 DON'T LET GO OF ME! 61 00:03:33,800 --> 00:03:35,267 WELL... 62 00:03:35,267 --> 00:03:37,500 YOU NEVER THINK YOUR LIFE WILL EVER END UP 63 00:03:37,500 --> 00:03:39,200 IN A PLACE LIKE THIS. 64 00:03:41,733 --> 00:03:45,633 GROWING UP, MY WEIGHT WASN'T MUCH OF AN ISSUE. 65 00:03:49,900 --> 00:03:53,400 BUT I STARTED TO GAIN WEIGHT WHEN I WAS 5. 66 00:03:56,233 --> 00:04:01,200 AN OLDER COUSIN OF MINE MOLESTED ME. 67 00:04:01,200 --> 00:04:06,367 HE WOULD JUST TOUCH ME AND STUFF. 68 00:04:08,900 --> 00:04:12,100 I NEVER TOLD MY PARENTS ANYTHING, 69 00:04:12,100 --> 00:04:15,633 SO THE MOLESTATION WENT ON FOR YEARS. 70 00:04:15,633 --> 00:04:19,200 MY WHOLE LIFE JUST CHANGED. 71 00:04:19,200 --> 00:04:21,933 SO I TURNED TO FOOD. 72 00:04:21,933 --> 00:04:24,667 THAT WAS MY COMFORT. 73 00:04:24,667 --> 00:04:29,933 IN ELEMENTARY, I WAS ALWAYS THE BIGGEST KID. 74 00:04:29,933 --> 00:04:31,333 SHE USED TO GO TO SCHOOL, 75 00:04:31,333 --> 00:04:34,167 AND THEY WOULD MAKE FUN OF HER 'CAUSE SHE WAS OVERWEIGHT. 76 00:04:34,167 --> 00:04:39,067 Laura: THEY WOULD CALL ME FAT AND... 77 00:04:39,067 --> 00:04:43,233 SAY THAT "YOU'RE GONNA BREAK THE DESK." 78 00:04:43,233 --> 00:04:44,667 [ SNIFFLES ] 79 00:04:44,667 --> 00:04:49,567 AND I TOOK ALL THAT ANGER AND PAIN AND KEPT EATING. 80 00:04:49,567 --> 00:04:52,733 AND BY THE TIME I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL, 81 00:04:52,733 --> 00:04:55,167 I WAS ALREADY OVER 300 POUNDS. 82 00:04:57,200 --> 00:05:01,767 I JUST KEPT PUTTING ON WEIGHT AND GETTING BIGGER AND BIGGER. 83 00:05:01,767 --> 00:05:07,100 AND THEN I MET JOEY WHEN I WAS 27. 84 00:05:07,100 --> 00:05:10,267 I DID LIKE HEAVYSET GIRLS WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, 85 00:05:10,267 --> 00:05:13,733 SO I LIKED THE WAY SHE WAS. 86 00:05:13,733 --> 00:05:17,567 Laura: I'VE GAINED A LOT MORE WEIGHT SINCE THEN. 87 00:05:17,567 --> 00:05:21,800 NOW I FEEL LIKE I'VE BECOME THIS BURDEN IN HIS LIFE... 88 00:05:21,800 --> 00:05:23,067 BABY... 89 00:05:23,067 --> 00:05:24,167 YEAH? 90 00:05:24,167 --> 00:05:26,967 ...CAN I HAVE SOMETHING FROM THE SWEET BIN? 91 00:05:26,967 --> 00:05:30,433 ...JUST SOMEONE HE HAS TO TAKE CARE OF. 92 00:05:32,500 --> 00:05:36,200 SOME OF THE THINGS I DO FOR HER MAY NOT BE GOOD FOR HER, 93 00:05:36,200 --> 00:05:38,100 LIKE THE SWEETS AND OTHER STUFF, 94 00:05:38,100 --> 00:05:40,067 BUT SHE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. 95 00:05:40,067 --> 00:05:41,533 I LOVE MY WIFE A LOT. 96 00:05:45,067 --> 00:05:49,067 BUT IT'S HARD TO TELL HER NO 'CAUSE I LOVE HER. 97 00:05:59,467 --> 00:06:02,533 Laura: NOW I'M AROUND 600 POUNDS, 98 00:06:02,533 --> 00:06:05,600 AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ANYMORE. 99 00:06:05,600 --> 00:06:08,967 I WANT TO GET HEALTHY, 100 00:06:08,967 --> 00:06:10,867 BUT I LOVE FOOD. 101 00:06:10,867 --> 00:06:12,500 OKAY. 102 00:06:14,067 --> 00:06:15,967 OW! 103 00:06:15,967 --> 00:06:18,067 [ GRUNTS ] 104 00:06:24,800 --> 00:06:28,200 I WANT TO HAVE A FUTURE AND A LIFE. 105 00:06:28,200 --> 00:06:31,633 OW. MY BACK. 106 00:06:33,433 --> 00:06:36,333 IT'S HOT IN HERE. 107 00:06:36,333 --> 00:06:37,833 I NEED A SHIRT. 108 00:06:37,833 --> 00:06:41,167 I DON'T KNOW WHAT COLOR SHIRT. 109 00:06:41,167 --> 00:06:43,733 I GUESS THE PURPLE ONE THAT I HAD YESTERDAY. 110 00:06:43,733 --> 00:06:46,233 MAKE SURE YOU STRETCH IT. 111 00:06:46,233 --> 00:06:47,300 I WANT THINGS. 112 00:06:47,300 --> 00:06:49,667 TELL HIM TO STRETCH IT. 113 00:06:49,667 --> 00:06:53,433 I WANT A JOB AND TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A FAMILY. 114 00:06:56,433 --> 00:07:01,533 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, I MAY NEVER HAVE KIDS OF MY OWN. 115 00:07:01,533 --> 00:07:06,100 SO I TREAT MY NIECES LIKE THEY'RE MY OWN CHILDREN. 116 00:07:06,100 --> 00:07:10,100 BUT IT'S NOT THE SAME. 117 00:07:10,100 --> 00:07:15,167 AND JOEY HAS TO HELP ME TO DO ANYTHING AND GO ANYWHERE. 118 00:07:15,167 --> 00:07:16,800 I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOUR CANE'S AT. 119 00:07:16,800 --> 00:07:18,067 WELL, I NEED IT. OW. 120 00:07:18,067 --> 00:07:21,367 DAMN! ALMOST BROKE MY LEG. 121 00:07:21,367 --> 00:07:24,900 I HAVE TO TAKE MY OXYGEN AND MY WHEELCHAIR 122 00:07:24,900 --> 00:07:27,100 BECAUSE I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT THEM. 123 00:07:27,100 --> 00:07:31,933 I GET OUT MAYBE ONCE A MONTH, 124 00:07:31,933 --> 00:07:34,733 AND I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO DO THIS 125 00:07:34,733 --> 00:07:37,067 ON AN EVERYDAY BASIS. 126 00:07:37,067 --> 00:07:40,067 IT'S TOO MUCH WORK. 127 00:07:40,067 --> 00:07:42,967 IT HURTS A LOT, AND PEOPLE STARE A LOT, 128 00:07:42,967 --> 00:07:46,100 SO I JUST DON'T WANT TO DO IT MUCH. 129 00:07:46,100 --> 00:07:49,200 I FEEL BAD BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS STARING AT HER, 130 00:07:49,200 --> 00:07:52,833 AND I'M WITH HER, BUT I CAN'T DO NOTHING FOR HER. 131 00:07:52,833 --> 00:07:56,333 IT'S NOT RIGHT. 132 00:07:56,333 --> 00:08:00,433 Laura: I DON'T KNOW WHAT THOSE PEOPLE ARE STARING AT. 133 00:08:00,433 --> 00:08:03,767 COME ON. DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT. 134 00:08:07,867 --> 00:08:10,633 I THINK SHE IS EMBARRASSED. 135 00:08:10,633 --> 00:08:12,900 SEE? I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT THE CART. 136 00:08:12,900 --> 00:08:16,300 AND THEY LOOK AT HER, YOU KNOW, "UGLY." 137 00:08:17,800 --> 00:08:20,633 MUCH BETTER. 138 00:08:20,633 --> 00:08:22,733 I FEEL DEPRESSED, OF COURSE, 139 00:08:22,733 --> 00:08:23,967 BECAUSE IT'S MY DAUGHTER THEY'RE LOOKING AT. 140 00:08:28,500 --> 00:08:31,967 NANA, I WANT A PINK CUPCAKE. 141 00:08:31,967 --> 00:08:35,333 THOSE ARE GOOD. THEY HAVE ALMONDS IN THEM. 142 00:08:35,333 --> 00:08:37,467 SOME GOOD STUFF RIGHT THERE. 143 00:08:42,333 --> 00:08:43,500 WHOA. 144 00:08:43,500 --> 00:08:45,400 THAT'S LIKE HEAVEN OVER THERE. 145 00:08:45,400 --> 00:08:47,100 [ CHUCKLES ] 146 00:08:48,733 --> 00:08:50,833 AND THE WHITES. 147 00:08:50,833 --> 00:08:52,467 [ SPEAKING SPANISH ] 148 00:08:52,467 --> 00:08:54,433 ARE YOU GONNA EAT THEM WITH ME? 149 00:08:57,333 --> 00:09:00,533 Laura: EVERY TIME I HAVE A STRESS IN MY LIFE, 150 00:09:00,533 --> 00:09:03,300 I TURN TO SWEETS. 151 00:09:03,300 --> 00:09:05,467 I'LL GO, "OH, I'M STRESSED OUT. 152 00:09:05,467 --> 00:09:08,067 I'M GONNA GO EAT A PIECE OF CAKE." 153 00:09:08,067 --> 00:09:11,900 OH, MY GOD. MY FAVORITE CANDY. 154 00:09:11,900 --> 00:09:13,867 I KNOW I SHOULDN'T GET IT, 155 00:09:13,867 --> 00:09:16,900 BUT I KEEP GETTING IT, AND I'M LIKE, "OH, MY GOD. 156 00:09:16,900 --> 00:09:18,533 I WANT THAT, I WANT THAT." 157 00:09:18,533 --> 00:09:21,167 I'LL GO LOOK FOR A BAKERY 158 00:09:21,167 --> 00:09:23,667 QUICKER THAN I'LL GO LOOK FOR A DRIVE-THROUGH. 159 00:09:23,667 --> 00:09:27,233 I WISH THEY COULD JUST LOCK DOWN ALL THE BAKERIES 160 00:09:27,233 --> 00:09:29,067 SO I DON'T HAVE TO GO HIT THEM UP. 161 00:09:34,133 --> 00:09:37,467 I KNOW SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE NOW, 162 00:09:37,467 --> 00:09:39,967 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW. 163 00:09:45,533 --> 00:09:47,267 I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING, 164 00:09:47,267 --> 00:09:50,300 OR I'M NOT GONNA BE AROUND MUCH LONGER. 165 00:09:51,667 --> 00:09:53,500 WE NEED TWO OF THE REGULAR TENDERS, 166 00:09:53,500 --> 00:09:56,300 AND THEN WE NEED THREE OF THE HOT ONES. 167 00:09:56,300 --> 00:10:01,333 I HAVE A BIG FAMILY, AND WE ALL LOVE TO EAT. 168 00:10:01,333 --> 00:10:02,700 [ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ] 169 00:10:02,700 --> 00:10:04,700 Laura: AND I JUST CAN'T STOP. 170 00:10:04,700 --> 00:10:07,233 ANYTIME. 171 00:10:07,233 --> 00:10:10,567 [ Voice breaking ] NOT BEING ABLE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT 172 00:10:10,567 --> 00:10:12,833 IS KILLING ME. 173 00:10:12,833 --> 00:10:15,267 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M FAILING. 174 00:10:15,267 --> 00:10:20,600 I FEEL LIKE... I'M GIVING UP ON THEM. 175 00:10:24,633 --> 00:10:26,833 Joey: MY BIGGEST FEAR IS 176 00:10:26,833 --> 00:10:30,333 THAT SHE DOESN'T GET HELP AND SHE GIVES UP ON HERSELF. 177 00:10:30,333 --> 00:10:33,400 I WORRY ABOUT IT, 178 00:10:33,400 --> 00:10:35,567 BUT I DON'T WANT HER TO KNOW ANYTHING, 179 00:10:35,567 --> 00:10:38,867 SO I JUST KEEP IT TO MYSELF. 180 00:10:38,867 --> 00:10:41,867 Laura: MY MOM CRIES WITH ME. 181 00:10:41,867 --> 00:10:46,000 SHE SAYS THAT SHE'S SORRY. 182 00:10:46,000 --> 00:10:51,133 AND I TOLD HER IT'S NOT HER FAULT. 183 00:10:51,133 --> 00:10:53,467 [ GASPS ] 184 00:10:56,533 --> 00:10:59,500 I WANT TO CHANGE, 185 00:10:59,500 --> 00:11:02,733 BUT I'M SCARED THAT I WON'T MAKE IT. 186 00:11:06,600 --> 00:11:10,800 I KNOW IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING, I'M GONNA DIE SOON. 187 00:11:23,133 --> 00:11:24,867 WHY ARE YOU HOLDING MY CANE? 188 00:11:24,867 --> 00:11:26,833 WELL, YOU -- I GOT YOU RIGHT NOW. 189 00:11:26,833 --> 00:11:28,233 YOU NEED IT FOR OUTSIDE. 190 00:11:33,933 --> 00:11:37,500 NANA WILL BE BACK IN A LITTLE WHILE, OKAY? 191 00:11:37,500 --> 00:11:41,667 DOCTORS HAVE SAID THAT THEY COULD HELP ME BEFORE, 192 00:11:41,667 --> 00:11:44,367 BUT THEY'VE DONE NOTHING FOR ME. 193 00:11:44,367 --> 00:11:47,467 I HOPE THIS DOCTOR'S DIFFERENT. 194 00:11:50,933 --> 00:11:52,600 A LOT OF DOCTORS HAVE TOLD ME 195 00:11:52,600 --> 00:11:54,933 THAT THEY'RE JUST GIVING ME MEDICATION 196 00:11:54,933 --> 00:11:56,767 SO THEY CAN MAKE ME COMFORTABLE 197 00:11:56,767 --> 00:11:58,967 SO I CAN GO AHEAD AND DIE ALREADY. 198 00:12:04,167 --> 00:12:08,233 I'M SCARED HE'S GONNA TELL ME SOMETHING I CAN'T DO, 199 00:12:08,233 --> 00:12:10,733 AND I WON'T GET THE SURGERY. 200 00:12:13,067 --> 00:12:16,733 I'M A LITTLE SCARED TO FIND OUT MY WEIGHT, TOO. 201 00:12:16,733 --> 00:12:18,667 I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I'VE GAINED 202 00:12:18,667 --> 00:12:21,300 SINCE THE LAST TIME I WAS WEIGHED. 203 00:12:26,333 --> 00:12:29,233 WOW. 204 00:12:29,233 --> 00:12:32,267 ALL THE DOCTORS I'VE SEEN BEFORE DIDN'T HELP ME. 205 00:12:32,267 --> 00:12:35,767 [ Voice breaking ] SO, I'M NERVOUS ABOUT WHAT HE'S GONNA TELL ME, 206 00:12:35,767 --> 00:12:39,967 AND I'M AFRAID OF HEARING HE WON'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME. 207 00:12:39,967 --> 00:12:42,067 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] Dr. Nowzaradan: HELLO. 208 00:12:42,067 --> 00:12:43,867 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 209 00:12:43,867 --> 00:12:45,833 HI. I'M LAURA PEREZ. 210 00:12:45,833 --> 00:12:51,333 SO, YOU ARE HAVING DIFFICULTY WITH YOUR WEIGHT, HUH? 211 00:12:51,333 --> 00:12:54,067 WHAT SEEMS TO BE YOUR BIGGEST CHALLENGE 212 00:12:54,067 --> 00:12:55,633 WITH YOUR EATING HABIT? 213 00:12:55,633 --> 00:12:56,833 SWEETS. 214 00:12:56,833 --> 00:13:00,200 I'LL TRY TO FIND ANYTHING SWEET, LIKE CANDY OR... 215 00:13:00,200 --> 00:13:02,233 A LOT OF CAKE. 216 00:13:02,233 --> 00:13:05,067 SO, WHERE DO YOU GET THAT CAKE? 217 00:13:05,067 --> 00:13:07,867 WHO? 218 00:13:07,867 --> 00:13:10,333 YOU? 219 00:13:10,333 --> 00:13:12,733 YOU KNOW, I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYBODY THIS OVERWEIGHT 220 00:13:12,733 --> 00:13:14,800 THAT DOESN'T HAVE ENABLING PEOPLE AROUND THEM, 221 00:13:14,800 --> 00:13:15,867 SUPPORTING THEM. 222 00:13:15,867 --> 00:13:17,800 IT SHOULD BE THE OPPOSITE. 223 00:13:17,800 --> 00:13:21,200 THEY SHOULD TELL YOU YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE THAT. 224 00:13:23,067 --> 00:13:25,900 I SEE YOU'RE CARRYING OXYGEN WITH YOU ALL THE TIME? 225 00:13:25,900 --> 00:13:27,367 YES. 226 00:13:27,367 --> 00:13:31,467 OKAY. AND YOU ARE DIABETIC? 227 00:13:31,467 --> 00:13:33,667 LAURA IS AT HER LIMIT, 228 00:13:33,667 --> 00:13:37,567 AND THE FAMILY IS THE ONE PUSHING HER THERE. 229 00:13:37,567 --> 00:13:39,400 SHE CARRIES AN OXYGEN TANK WITH HER 230 00:13:39,400 --> 00:13:42,667 BECAUSE SHE CAN NO LONGER BREATHE ON HER OWN. 231 00:13:42,667 --> 00:13:46,633 SHE'S PHYSICALLY IN ONE OF THE WORST SHAPE I HAVE SEEN. 232 00:13:46,633 --> 00:13:49,833 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO GET CONTROL OF YOUR EATING, 233 00:13:49,833 --> 00:13:51,400 SO NO MORE CAKE. 234 00:13:51,400 --> 00:13:54,133 MY 2-YEAR-OLD AND THE 5-YEAR-OLD, 235 00:13:54,133 --> 00:13:55,867 THEY'RE MY BABIES, 236 00:13:55,867 --> 00:13:57,733 AND THAT'S WHAT'S MAKING ME GET MOTIVATED. 237 00:13:57,733 --> 00:13:58,933 THEY WROTE A LETTER TO YOU. 238 00:14:03,467 --> 00:14:07,133 SHE'S ONLY 5 YEARS OLD. 239 00:14:07,133 --> 00:14:09,133 SHE'S ONLY 5 YEARS OLD? 240 00:14:09,133 --> 00:14:10,900 YES. WOW. 241 00:14:10,900 --> 00:14:14,267 "I WANT HER TO BE SKINNY." AND WHO IS THAT? 242 00:14:14,267 --> 00:14:17,800 HER DAUGHTER, BUT SHE'S LIKE MY -- 243 00:14:17,800 --> 00:14:19,533 SHE CALLS ME MOMMY, TOO. 244 00:14:19,533 --> 00:14:23,400 ALL RIGHT. SO YOU'RE GONNA MAKE THAT BABY PROUD. 245 00:14:23,400 --> 00:14:24,700 YES. 246 00:14:24,700 --> 00:14:27,600 SO, YOU KNOW, YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITY 247 00:14:27,600 --> 00:14:31,067 TO THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU TO MAKE THE CHANGES, OKAY? 248 00:14:31,067 --> 00:14:34,700 AND YOU NEED TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES NOW 249 00:14:34,700 --> 00:14:35,967 BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 250 00:14:35,967 --> 00:14:38,600 OTHERWISE, YOU'RE GONNA GET SICKER AND SICKER, 251 00:14:38,600 --> 00:14:41,433 AND THERE'LL BE NO WAY TO PULL YOU OUT. 252 00:14:41,433 --> 00:14:45,400 RIGHT NOW, I DON'T KNOW IF YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO BE 50. 253 00:14:45,400 --> 00:14:50,200 I HAVE TO TRY TO DO IT BECAUSE I NEED TO LIVE. 254 00:14:50,200 --> 00:14:53,700 I NEED TO LIVE FOR MY BABIES. I NEED TO LIVE FOR MYSELF. 255 00:14:53,700 --> 00:14:58,100 TO DO THAT, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT. 256 00:14:58,100 --> 00:15:00,867 FREQUENCY OF EATING IS GONNA BE ONLY THREE TIMES. 257 00:15:00,867 --> 00:15:03,667 THERE'LL BE NO SNACKING BETWEEN THE MEALS. 258 00:15:03,667 --> 00:15:05,267 NO SWEETS. 259 00:15:05,267 --> 00:15:08,333 THIS IS GONNA BE YOUR TRIAL PERIOD, 260 00:15:08,333 --> 00:15:13,767 AND I NEED YOU TO LOSE 50 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS. 261 00:15:13,767 --> 00:15:15,633 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 262 00:15:15,633 --> 00:15:17,067 YES, I WILL DO IT. 263 00:15:17,067 --> 00:15:18,100 OKAY. 264 00:15:18,100 --> 00:15:22,133 LAURA HAS A WHOLE ENVIRONMENT OF ENABLERS. 265 00:15:22,133 --> 00:15:25,267 THAT WILL BE VERY HARD TO ADDRESS. 266 00:15:25,267 --> 00:15:26,400 ALL RIGHT. NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS. 267 00:15:26,400 --> 00:15:27,700 Carmen: LIKEWISE, DOCTOR. 268 00:15:27,700 --> 00:15:30,967 WE'LL SEE HOW SHE DOES OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS. 269 00:15:33,367 --> 00:15:34,833 Laura: IT'S SCARY TO KNOW 270 00:15:34,833 --> 00:15:37,633 THAT I HAVE TO LOSE THAT MUCH TO GET THE SURGERY. 271 00:15:37,633 --> 00:15:38,933 GET SOME CIRCULATION GOING. 272 00:15:38,933 --> 00:15:42,933 I'VE NEVER TRIED TO DO ANYTHING LIKE THIS. 273 00:15:42,933 --> 00:15:46,633 BUT I KNOW I'M DOWN TO MY LAST RESORT. 274 00:15:49,167 --> 00:15:51,667 I JUST HOPE I CAN DO THIS. 275 00:16:02,567 --> 00:16:06,267 OVER THIS LAST MONTH, 276 00:16:06,267 --> 00:16:09,700 I'VE BEEN WORKING HARDER THAN I'VE EVER WORKED AT ANYTHING. 277 00:16:09,700 --> 00:16:14,867 THE DOCTOR SAID I NEED TO MOVE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, 278 00:16:14,867 --> 00:16:17,100 SO I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO THAT. 279 00:16:17,100 --> 00:16:21,900 WHAT SHE'S EATING NOW IS A LOT OF SALADS AND VEGETABLES 280 00:16:21,900 --> 00:16:23,433 AND STUFF LIKE THAT. 281 00:16:23,433 --> 00:16:26,100 SHE'S REALLY STICKING TO HER DIET, 282 00:16:26,100 --> 00:16:28,200 SO I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 283 00:16:28,200 --> 00:16:31,900 Laura: JOEY'S BEEN REALLY SUPPORTIVE. 284 00:16:31,900 --> 00:16:35,700 SOMETIMES I JUST WANT CANDY OR CAKE, 285 00:16:35,700 --> 00:16:38,900 BUT HE BRINGS ME GOOD STUFF NOW AND NOT JUNK. 286 00:16:41,067 --> 00:16:42,667 OH, YEAH. 287 00:16:42,667 --> 00:16:46,833 THIS IS STEAMED CHICKEN WITH VEGETABLES, 288 00:16:46,833 --> 00:16:50,167 BELL PEPPER, ONION, AND MUSHROOMS. 289 00:16:50,167 --> 00:16:53,867 AND IT'S VERY DIFFERENT THAN WHAT I WAS EATING. 290 00:16:53,867 --> 00:16:58,100 NO OTHER DOCTOR HAS GIVEN ME THIS KIND OF HOPE. 291 00:16:58,100 --> 00:17:01,400 SO WHATEVER IT TAKES, I'M WILLING TO DO IT. 292 00:17:11,267 --> 00:17:13,967 WE'RE AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE AGAIN 293 00:17:13,967 --> 00:17:16,267 TO SEE IF I QUALIFY FOR SURGERY. 294 00:17:16,267 --> 00:17:17,600 I'M REALLY NERVOUS, 295 00:17:17,600 --> 00:17:20,933 'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE ANSWER'S GOING TO BE. 296 00:17:28,700 --> 00:17:30,200 OH, MY GOSH. 297 00:17:33,067 --> 00:17:34,167 GOOD. 298 00:17:34,167 --> 00:17:36,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: HELLO. HOW YOU ALL DOING? 299 00:17:36,733 --> 00:17:38,600 GOOD. 300 00:17:38,600 --> 00:17:41,833 ALL RIGHT. SO YOU LOST QUITE A BUT OF WEIGHT, 301 00:17:41,833 --> 00:17:43,800 SO I'M GOING TO APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY. 302 00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:45,967 WE'RE GONNA SCHEDULE YOU AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. 303 00:17:45,967 --> 00:17:47,433 [ LAUGHS ] 304 00:17:47,433 --> 00:17:49,633 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY PLEASED WITH LAURA'S PROGRESS, 305 00:17:49,633 --> 00:17:53,167 AND IT SEEMS THE FAMILY'S SUPPORTIVE OF HER. 306 00:17:53,167 --> 00:17:56,167 YOU'RE DOING VERY GOOD. STICK WITH THE PROGRAM. 307 00:17:56,167 --> 00:17:57,867 OKAY. THANK YOU. ALL RIGHT. 308 00:17:57,867 --> 00:18:01,133 WE'LL GO AHEAD AND GET HER IN SURGERY, 309 00:18:01,133 --> 00:18:04,733 AND THEN WE'LL START WORKING ON NEXT STEPS. 310 00:18:04,733 --> 00:18:07,733 Laura: THERE'S SO MUCH I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO, 311 00:18:07,733 --> 00:18:09,167 AND I JUST CAN'T WAIT. 312 00:18:09,167 --> 00:18:12,200 I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 313 00:18:12,200 --> 00:18:15,467 I'M NOT JUST FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE. 314 00:18:15,467 --> 00:18:17,467 [ ENGINE TURNS OVER ] 315 00:18:17,467 --> 00:18:20,167 I'M FIGHTING FOR MY FAMILY. 316 00:18:39,933 --> 00:18:43,800 THE REALITY OF THIS IS ALL SETTING IN. 317 00:18:45,700 --> 00:18:49,533 THIS IS MAJOR SURGERY, AND I'M REALLY SCARED. 318 00:18:49,533 --> 00:18:52,067 AND YOU'RE NOT GOING NOWHERE, MY LITTLE PUMPKIN. 319 00:18:52,067 --> 00:18:53,800 Girl: BYE, NANA! BYE, NANA! 320 00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:55,067 BYE, BABY. 321 00:18:55,067 --> 00:18:56,600 I LOVE YOU, NANA. 322 00:18:56,600 --> 00:18:58,167 I LOVE YOU, BABY. 323 00:18:58,167 --> 00:19:01,433 [ Crying ] I'M SCARED THAT I'LL NEVER SEE MY BABIES AGAIN. 324 00:19:01,433 --> 00:19:04,567 [ SNIFFLES ] 325 00:19:14,267 --> 00:19:18,767 I'M SCARED I WON'T WAKE UP, AND I JUST CAN'T DO IT. 326 00:19:18,767 --> 00:19:20,900 I CAN'T TAKE THE RISK. 327 00:19:20,900 --> 00:19:24,133 I'M CANCELING THE SURGERY. 328 00:19:33,933 --> 00:19:37,133 Laura: BITTERNESS AND PAIN ARE LIKE A CURRENT 329 00:19:37,133 --> 00:19:41,333 THAT CAN TAKE YOU TO PLACES YOU NEVER WANTED TO GO. 330 00:19:52,767 --> 00:19:54,433 I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. 331 00:19:56,233 --> 00:19:58,767 I WANTED TO CALL OFF THE SURGERY, 332 00:19:58,767 --> 00:20:02,033 BUT MY FAMILY CONVINCED ME TO GO AHEAD AND DO IT. 333 00:20:04,267 --> 00:20:05,833 Woman: READY? 334 00:20:08,067 --> 00:20:09,467 I KNOW I WANT IT, 335 00:20:09,467 --> 00:20:12,100 BUT I'M JUST SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. 336 00:20:12,100 --> 00:20:14,900 I'M SCARED THAT I WON'T WAKE UP... 337 00:20:14,900 --> 00:20:18,633 PERFECT. TAKE IN A DEEP BREATH. 338 00:20:18,633 --> 00:20:22,767 ...AND I WON'T SEE MY FAMILY AGAIN. 339 00:20:22,767 --> 00:20:25,867 Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA IS HAVING HER GASTRIC BYPASS TODAY. 340 00:20:25,867 --> 00:20:31,133 THIS IS A RISKY OPERATION FOR A PATIENT THIS SIZE, 341 00:20:31,133 --> 00:20:34,400 AND THERE ARE ADDITIONAL RISK FACTORS FOR LAURA 342 00:20:34,400 --> 00:20:37,100 BECAUSE OF THE REST OF HER CONDITION. 343 00:20:37,100 --> 00:20:40,400 WE HAVE TO BE CAREFUL TO MAKE SURE 344 00:20:40,400 --> 00:20:43,033 THAT SURGERY IS NOT GONNA COMPROMISE 345 00:20:43,033 --> 00:20:44,233 THE REST OF HER STATUS 346 00:20:44,233 --> 00:20:47,233 AND CREATE SOME EMERGENCY SITUATION. 347 00:20:47,233 --> 00:20:50,800 BUT THIS BYPASS WILL HELP HER LOSE WEIGHT 348 00:20:50,800 --> 00:20:52,800 AND MAKE GOOD PROGRESS. 349 00:20:56,367 --> 00:20:57,733 THIS IS NOT GOOD. 350 00:20:57,733 --> 00:20:59,067 [ MONITORS BEEPING LOUDLY ] 351 00:21:13,600 --> 00:21:16,767 IT LOOKS LIKE IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO DO A BYPASS. 352 00:21:16,767 --> 00:21:20,067 WE HAVE TO CONVERT TO A SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY. 353 00:21:20,067 --> 00:21:23,500 GASTRIC SLEEVE IS AN OPERATION 354 00:21:23,500 --> 00:21:26,067 THAT WILL REDUCE THE SIZE OF THE STOMACH. 355 00:21:26,067 --> 00:21:29,300 WE ESSENTIALLY TAKE ABOUT 80% OF THE STOMACH OUT. 356 00:21:29,300 --> 00:21:32,667 THE SURGERY WILL STILL HELP HER 357 00:21:32,667 --> 00:21:36,333 BUT NOT AS MUCH AS A FULL BYPASS. 358 00:21:39,433 --> 00:21:41,533 LAURA'S SURGERY IS FINISHED. 359 00:21:41,533 --> 00:21:43,767 IT WENT AS WELL AS POSSIBLE 360 00:21:43,767 --> 00:21:46,067 WITH THE SITUATION THAT WE ENCOUNTERED. 361 00:21:46,067 --> 00:21:48,933 1, 2, 3. 362 00:21:51,500 --> 00:21:55,333 HER SURGERY DID NOT GO AS WE PLANNED. 363 00:21:55,333 --> 00:22:01,867 BUT WE ACCOMPLISHED SOME SORT OF WEIGHT-LOSS OPERATION. 364 00:22:01,867 --> 00:22:03,600 BUT UNDER THE CIRCUMSTANCES, 365 00:22:03,600 --> 00:22:06,400 THAT'S THE ONLY TOOL WE CAN OFFER FOR LAURA. 366 00:22:06,400 --> 00:22:08,167 SO SHE SHOULD RECOVER WELL, 367 00:22:08,167 --> 00:22:11,167 AND SHE SHOULD STILL START LOSING WEIGHT 368 00:22:11,167 --> 00:22:12,667 WHEN SHE GOES HOME. 369 00:22:34,133 --> 00:22:35,433 Carmen: GOOD MORNING. 370 00:22:35,433 --> 00:22:36,700 Laura: THIS PAST MONTH 371 00:22:36,700 --> 00:22:39,200 HASN'T BEEN AS EASY AS I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. 372 00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:42,433 I WAS REALLY UPSET WHEN I WOKE UP 373 00:22:42,433 --> 00:22:46,267 AND THE DOCTOR TOLD ME HE COULDN'T DO THE BYPASS. 374 00:22:49,200 --> 00:22:52,333 BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I WAS WORKING SO HARD FOR, 375 00:22:52,333 --> 00:22:54,900 AND IT FEELS LIKE IT WAS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME. 376 00:22:54,900 --> 00:22:58,067 I'M TRYING TO GET MY LIFE BACK, 377 00:22:58,067 --> 00:23:00,900 BUT I STILL HAVE CRAVINGS, 378 00:23:00,900 --> 00:23:03,600 SO IT'S HARD TO KNOW MY NEW LIMITS. 379 00:23:06,600 --> 00:23:08,267 I'VE BEEN THROWING UP A LOT 380 00:23:08,267 --> 00:23:11,267 BECAUSE I'M EATING MORE THAN MY STOMACH CAN HOLD. 381 00:23:11,267 --> 00:23:12,600 AND I DIDN'T KNOW 382 00:23:12,600 --> 00:23:15,933 IT WOULD BE TOUGH FOR ME TO KNOW WHEN TO STOP. 383 00:23:15,933 --> 00:23:18,167 YOU EAT YOUR EGG. 384 00:23:21,667 --> 00:23:24,100 DONE. 385 00:23:26,733 --> 00:23:28,333 AND I'M TRYING TO GET UP 386 00:23:28,333 --> 00:23:30,833 AND MOVE AROUND LIKE I'M SUPPOSED TO, 387 00:23:30,833 --> 00:23:33,667 BUT THAT'S BEEN TOUGH, TOO. 388 00:23:33,667 --> 00:23:35,667 NANA, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 389 00:23:35,667 --> 00:23:38,333 I HAVE TO WALK. 390 00:23:38,333 --> 00:23:44,267 I'VE BEEN FEELING REALLY RUN DOWN AND WINDED LATELY. 391 00:23:44,267 --> 00:23:46,500 MY LUNGS HURT A LOT. 392 00:23:46,500 --> 00:23:49,467 I KNOW I CAN DO THIS, 393 00:23:49,467 --> 00:23:54,433 AND I HAVE TO STAY STRONG FOR MY FAMILY AND MYSELF. 394 00:23:54,433 --> 00:23:57,200 I DON'T WANT TO FAIL AT THIS. 395 00:23:57,200 --> 00:24:01,167 I JUST DIDN'T REALIZE IT WOULD BE SO HARD. 396 00:24:16,733 --> 00:24:19,867 Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA'S FAMILY SAYS THAT SHE PASSED OUT, 397 00:24:19,867 --> 00:24:22,433 AND THEN THEY RUSHED HER TO A HOSPITAL. 398 00:24:22,433 --> 00:24:25,067 RIGHT NOW, SHE CAN'T BREATHE ON HER OWN, 399 00:24:25,067 --> 00:24:28,167 AND WE GOT HER ON A VENTILATOR. 400 00:24:28,167 --> 00:24:32,667 WE NEED TO FIND OUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH HER IMMEDIATELY. 401 00:24:34,667 --> 00:24:39,300 AND WE'RE GOING TO TRY TO GET HER THROUGH THIS. 402 00:24:39,300 --> 00:24:42,100 [ Voice breaking ] I'VE NEVER SEEN HER LIKE THIS. 403 00:24:46,633 --> 00:24:48,567 SHE'S GONNA GET THROUGH IT. 404 00:24:48,567 --> 00:24:50,767 SHE'S STRONG. I KNOW SHE IS. 405 00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:03,267 [ MONITOR BEEPING ] 406 00:25:20,433 --> 00:25:23,167 Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA'S FAMILY SAYS 407 00:25:23,167 --> 00:25:25,233 SHE HASN'T BEEN FEELING WELL 408 00:25:25,233 --> 00:25:27,067 BUT NEVER CAME TO THE HOSPITAL. 409 00:25:27,067 --> 00:25:30,433 AND IT LOOKS LIKE SHE HAS PNEUMONIA, 410 00:25:30,433 --> 00:25:32,633 AND IT IS PRETTY SEVERE. 411 00:25:34,300 --> 00:25:37,233 WE GOT HER JUST IN TIME TO KEEP HER ALIVE. 412 00:25:37,233 --> 00:25:42,233 BUT IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD RIGHT NOW. 413 00:25:42,233 --> 00:25:43,633 SHE'S VERY CLOSE TO DYING. 414 00:25:46,067 --> 00:25:48,633 Joey: THE EMOTIONS I'M FEELING RIGHT NOW 415 00:25:48,633 --> 00:25:49,967 IS JUST RUNNING WILD 416 00:25:49,967 --> 00:25:51,567 BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE TO SEE HER LIKE THAT. 417 00:25:54,067 --> 00:25:56,133 LAURA IS MY LIFE. 418 00:25:56,133 --> 00:25:59,467 SHE'S BEEN THERE WITH ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN. 419 00:25:59,467 --> 00:26:04,700 IT'S VERY SAD TO SEE HER IN THIS STATE. 420 00:26:04,700 --> 00:26:07,867 AND I CAN'T HELP HER. 421 00:26:07,867 --> 00:26:09,567 Dr. Nowzaradan: A PATIENT THIS SIZE 422 00:26:09,567 --> 00:26:14,167 CANNOT HANDLE ANY SORT OF SICKNESS. 423 00:26:14,167 --> 00:26:18,133 THEIR BODY HAS NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE. 424 00:26:18,133 --> 00:26:19,700 WE GOT TO DO WHAT WE CAN 425 00:26:19,700 --> 00:26:24,400 TO SEE IF WE'RE GONNA PULL HER THROUGH THIS. 426 00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:28,067 BUT RIGHT NOW, SHE'S BARELY HOLDING ON. 427 00:26:52,267 --> 00:26:54,367 Laura: BEING IN THE HOSPITAL, 428 00:26:54,367 --> 00:26:57,667 COMING THAT CLOSE TO DEATH WAS PRETTY SCARY. 429 00:26:57,667 --> 00:27:00,533 HANG ON. 430 00:27:03,200 --> 00:27:07,400 IT MADE ME REALIZE HOW MUCH OF MY LIFE I'VE WASTED. 431 00:27:07,400 --> 00:27:12,500 I'VE TAKEN ALL THIS PAIN AND BITTERNESS, 432 00:27:12,500 --> 00:27:16,433 AND ALL I DID WAS EAT INSTEAD OF DEALING WITH IT. 433 00:27:20,233 --> 00:27:24,267 I THOUGHT IF I LOST THE WEIGHT, THEN I WOULD START TO GET HAPPY, 434 00:27:24,267 --> 00:27:27,067 BUT IT'S REALLY JUST BEEN BRINGING EVERYTHING 435 00:27:27,067 --> 00:27:28,133 TO THE SURFACE, 436 00:27:28,133 --> 00:27:32,067 AND I DON'T WANT TO RUN FROM IT ANYMORE. 437 00:27:34,067 --> 00:27:36,267 I NEED GOD TO CHANGE MY HEART 438 00:27:36,267 --> 00:27:39,567 TOWARDS ALL THE PEOPLE THAT HAVE HURT ME. 439 00:27:40,933 --> 00:27:43,867 THE BITTERNESS HAS BEEN KILLING ME, 440 00:27:43,867 --> 00:27:46,067 AND I JUST WANT TO LET IT GO 441 00:27:46,067 --> 00:27:49,767 SO I CAN BE FREE TO LIVE MY LIFE AND BE HEALTHY. 442 00:27:53,733 --> 00:27:56,433 I WANT SO DESPERATELY TO HEAL. 443 00:27:56,433 --> 00:28:01,567 BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I'M STRONG ENOUGH TO DO IT. 444 00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:19,867 THERE'S SO MUCH GOING ON INSIDE ME. 445 00:28:19,867 --> 00:28:22,133 I JUST NEED HELP TO FIGURE IT OUT. 446 00:28:22,133 --> 00:28:23,500 Joey: YOU READY? 447 00:28:24,933 --> 00:28:29,500 A NEW BODY WON'T MATTER IF I STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY. 448 00:28:29,500 --> 00:28:33,067 SO I'M GONNA SEE A THERAPIST TODAY 449 00:28:33,067 --> 00:28:35,933 TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT MY PAST. 450 00:28:35,933 --> 00:28:37,633 HI, LAURA. 451 00:28:37,633 --> 00:28:41,633 I'M MOLLY. LET'S GO AHEAD AND GO BACK. 452 00:28:43,600 --> 00:28:46,067 I JUST KIND OF WANT TO GET TO KNOW YOU A LITTLE BIT, 453 00:28:46,067 --> 00:28:48,600 SO IF YOU COULD JUST SHARE A LITTLE BIT 454 00:28:48,600 --> 00:28:51,433 ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT ME TO KNOW ABOUT YOU... 455 00:28:51,433 --> 00:28:53,900 I'VE BEEN HEAVY ALL MY LIFE. 456 00:28:53,900 --> 00:28:55,067 MM-HMM. 457 00:28:55,067 --> 00:28:56,667 AND, UM, I WENT THROUGH A LOT. 458 00:28:56,667 --> 00:29:00,833 SOMETIMES WHEN I WAS YOUNG, I FELT LIKE I WASN'T PROTECTED. 459 00:29:00,833 --> 00:29:02,500 YEAH. 460 00:29:02,500 --> 00:29:06,400 [ Voice breaking ] ONE OF MY OLDER COUSINS MOLESTED ME. 461 00:29:06,400 --> 00:29:10,500 I WAS A LITTLE GIRL, 4 YEARS OLD, 462 00:29:10,500 --> 00:29:12,767 TILL PROBABLY 10. 463 00:29:12,767 --> 00:29:16,833 THAT'S A BIG AMOUNT OF TIME IN YOUR LIFE. 464 00:29:16,833 --> 00:29:18,067 YEAH. 465 00:29:18,067 --> 00:29:22,867 I HELD IT IN TILL I WAS 21 YEARS OLD. 466 00:29:22,867 --> 00:29:24,233 THAT'S A LONG TIME. 467 00:29:24,233 --> 00:29:25,533 I COULDN'T TELL NOBODY. 468 00:29:25,533 --> 00:29:30,100 'CAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS... 469 00:29:30,100 --> 00:29:32,567 MY FAULT. 470 00:29:32,567 --> 00:29:37,067 SO IT WAS JUST LIKE I WOULD EAT SOMETHING SWEET, 471 00:29:37,067 --> 00:29:39,233 AND I WOULD FEEL BETTER. 472 00:29:39,233 --> 00:29:42,133 WELL, THAT WAS YOUR COMFORT, RIGHT? 473 00:29:42,133 --> 00:29:45,233 THAT WAS THE ONE THING YOU COULD RELY ON. 474 00:29:45,233 --> 00:29:46,700 YEAH. 475 00:29:46,700 --> 00:29:50,567 DO YOU FEEL LIKE IT KIND OF FILLED A VOID IN YOUR LIFE? 476 00:29:50,567 --> 00:29:52,100 EVEN IF I WOULD EAT, 477 00:29:52,100 --> 00:29:54,700 THE PROBLEM WOULD STILL BE THERE. 478 00:29:54,700 --> 00:29:55,833 YEAH. 479 00:29:55,833 --> 00:29:58,233 SO I WOULD EAT AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. 480 00:29:58,233 --> 00:29:59,700 A VICIOUS CYCLE. 481 00:29:59,700 --> 00:30:03,767 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET GO OF STUFF. 482 00:30:03,767 --> 00:30:07,267 THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO YOU 483 00:30:07,267 --> 00:30:08,867 THAT WERE NOT OKAY, 484 00:30:08,867 --> 00:30:12,133 AND YOU CAN'T JUST BE OKAY WITH IT. 485 00:30:12,133 --> 00:30:15,333 BUT FORGIVING IS TO LET IT GO, 486 00:30:15,333 --> 00:30:19,867 AND IT RELEASES YOU FROM HOLDING ON TO ALL OF THAT. 487 00:30:19,867 --> 00:30:20,933 I PRAY AND PRAY, 488 00:30:20,933 --> 00:30:23,067 LIKE, "GOD, PLEASE, SOFTEN MY HEART. 489 00:30:23,067 --> 00:30:25,500 LET ME FORGIVE THE BAD THINGS." 490 00:30:25,500 --> 00:30:27,000 BUT I DON'T FORGIVE. 491 00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:31,233 BUT, YOU KNOW, FORGIVENESS IS NOT FOR EVERYONE ELSE. 492 00:30:31,233 --> 00:30:32,733 IT'S FOR YOU. 493 00:30:32,733 --> 00:30:35,067 FORGIVENESS ALLOWS THEM 494 00:30:35,067 --> 00:30:38,333 TO NOT HAVE THAT POWER OVER YOU ANYMORE. 495 00:30:38,333 --> 00:30:40,800 BECAUSE AS LONG AS YOU'RE HOLDING ON TO THAT, 496 00:30:40,800 --> 00:30:42,100 THEY STILL HAVE CONTROL. 497 00:30:42,100 --> 00:30:47,133 I HAVE TO FORGIVE SO I CAN MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE, 498 00:30:47,133 --> 00:30:50,033 SO I CAN BE HAPPY WITH MY NEW BODY... 499 00:30:50,033 --> 00:30:51,367 [ CHUCKLES ] 500 00:30:51,367 --> 00:30:53,267 ...AND MY NEW LIFE. 501 00:30:53,267 --> 00:30:55,767 SO I CAN MAKE NEW MEMORIES. 502 00:30:55,767 --> 00:30:58,333 YEAH. 503 00:30:58,333 --> 00:31:01,467 I WANT TO WORK ON THAT. 504 00:31:01,467 --> 00:31:05,300 I APPRECIATE SO MUCH WHAT YOU DID SHARE TODAY. 505 00:31:09,333 --> 00:31:13,100 Laura: IT'S EASY TO KNOW I NEED TO FORGIVE. 506 00:31:13,100 --> 00:31:16,200 BUT HOW DO YOU TAKE A LIFE OF PAIN 507 00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:18,433 AND JUST LET IT GO? 508 00:31:20,667 --> 00:31:21,800 IF I DON'T, 509 00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,767 I KNOW I'M NOT GONNA MAKE ANY MORE PROGRESS. 510 00:31:24,767 --> 00:31:30,067 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, AND I HAVE TO DO THIS. 511 00:31:34,867 --> 00:31:36,733 Laura: IT'S HARD TO REALIZE 512 00:31:36,733 --> 00:31:40,400 THE CHOICES YOU NEED TO MAKE TO TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND, 513 00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:43,567 BUT THE HARDEST PART IS FOLLOWING THROUGH 514 00:31:43,567 --> 00:31:45,567 AND MAKING THOSE CHOICES. 515 00:31:58,067 --> 00:32:00,933 WE'RE AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE TODAY 516 00:32:00,933 --> 00:32:03,833 TO SEE IF I'VE MADE ANY MORE PROGRESS. 517 00:32:03,833 --> 00:32:05,600 Woman: MS. PEREZ? 518 00:32:07,933 --> 00:32:10,667 IT'S BEEN AN EMOTIONAL FEW MONTHS, 519 00:32:10,667 --> 00:32:12,600 AND IT'S BEEN HARDER TO MAKE ALL THE RIGHT CHOICES 520 00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:14,900 AND TO EAT WHAT I SHOULD. 521 00:32:22,967 --> 00:32:24,867 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M REALLY CONCERNED 522 00:32:24,867 --> 00:32:27,467 ABOUT YOUR LACK OF PROGRESS. 523 00:32:27,467 --> 00:32:31,467 FOR YOUR HEIGHT, YOUR IDEAL BODY WEIGHT IS 120. 524 00:32:31,467 --> 00:32:36,067 SO, YOU'RE WAY OVER, OVER YOUR IDEAL BODY WEIGHT. 525 00:32:36,067 --> 00:32:37,667 I STILL HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO. 526 00:32:37,667 --> 00:32:41,700 YOU CANNOT START GAINING WEIGHT AGAIN, 527 00:32:41,700 --> 00:32:43,767 AND THAT'S THE NEXT STEP FROM HERE. 528 00:32:43,767 --> 00:32:47,433 Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA IS A VERY EMOTIONAL PERSON. 529 00:32:47,433 --> 00:32:48,933 BEFORE SURGERY, 530 00:32:48,933 --> 00:32:51,967 THERE WAS LESS OF A STRUGGLE WITH HER EMOTIONS, 531 00:32:51,967 --> 00:32:54,333 SO SHE MADE GOOD PROGRESS. 532 00:32:54,333 --> 00:32:57,767 NOW SHE HAS TO LEARN TO DEAL WITH EMOTIONS 533 00:32:57,767 --> 00:32:59,867 AND NOT USE FOOD FOR THAT. 534 00:32:59,867 --> 00:33:02,767 YOU NEED TO GET YOUR EATING UNDER CONTROL NOW. 535 00:33:02,767 --> 00:33:08,133 IF SHE DOESN'T, THE SURGERY WILL HAVE BEEN POINTLESS. 536 00:33:08,133 --> 00:33:09,733 WHOA. 537 00:33:09,733 --> 00:33:12,367 Laura: I HAVE TO DEAL WITH ALL THE PAIN THAT I HAVE 538 00:33:12,367 --> 00:33:16,267 AND KEEP MAKING PROGRESS WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS. 539 00:33:16,267 --> 00:33:20,300 THAT'S THE ONLY WAY I'M GONNA GET MY LIFE BACK. 540 00:33:40,567 --> 00:33:44,233 I'VE HAD SOME BITTERNESS TOWARDS MY MOM 541 00:33:44,233 --> 00:33:46,367 THAT I'VE NEVER FULLY LET GO OF. 542 00:33:48,833 --> 00:33:50,333 WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, 543 00:33:50,333 --> 00:33:54,067 I BLAMED HER FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. 544 00:33:54,067 --> 00:33:56,067 UM... 545 00:33:56,067 --> 00:34:00,633 I NEVER LET THAT GO, AND I WANT TO DO THAT. 546 00:34:00,633 --> 00:34:01,967 I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS, 547 00:34:01,967 --> 00:34:04,600 'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE'S GONNA REACT. 548 00:34:04,600 --> 00:34:07,167 I'LL TAKE THE CHILE RELLENO, THE BEEF. 549 00:34:07,167 --> 00:34:09,633 I LOVE MY MOM, AND HONESTLY, 550 00:34:09,633 --> 00:34:12,433 SHE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT RELATIONSHIP I HAVE IN MY LIFE, 551 00:34:12,433 --> 00:34:16,433 AND I THINK THE PAIN THAT'S BEEN THERE BETWEEN US 552 00:34:16,433 --> 00:34:19,733 HAS BEEN WHAT'S AFFECTING ME THE MOST. 553 00:34:19,733 --> 00:34:22,067 HERE WE ARE. 554 00:34:22,067 --> 00:34:24,067 OH, THAT LOOKS GOOD. 555 00:34:24,067 --> 00:34:27,800 I WANTED TO THANK YOU 556 00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:31,333 FOR ALWAYS TAKING CARE OF ME, 557 00:34:31,333 --> 00:34:33,333 AND WITHOUT YOU, EVERYBODY WOULD FALL APART. 558 00:34:33,333 --> 00:34:35,333 I GUESS, HONESTLY, 559 00:34:35,333 --> 00:34:36,700 AS YOU GOT OLDER, YOU THOUGHT THAT WAY, 560 00:34:36,700 --> 00:34:38,433 BUT WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG, YOU DIDN'T THINK THAT WAY. 561 00:34:38,433 --> 00:34:40,900 I BLAMED YOU. 562 00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:48,067 I GUESS YOU HAD SOME KIND OF HATE TOWARDS ME. 563 00:34:48,067 --> 00:34:49,067 IT WASN'T HATE. 564 00:34:49,067 --> 00:34:51,133 IT WAS JUST, LIKE, I NEVER FELT LIKE... 565 00:34:51,133 --> 00:34:54,100 AS YOU GOT OLDER, YOU REALIZED, YOU KNOW... 566 00:34:54,100 --> 00:34:55,567 THAT IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT. 567 00:34:58,133 --> 00:35:01,967 AND "SORRY," FOR ME, IS, LIKE, A HARD WORD, TOO. 568 00:35:01,967 --> 00:35:05,400 I'VE NEVER OPENED UP. 569 00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:08,500 DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE? I GUESS I WANT TO CHANGE THAT. 570 00:35:08,500 --> 00:35:09,833 I WANT TO CHANGE THAT. 571 00:35:09,833 --> 00:35:10,900 I JUST FELT LIKE 572 00:35:10,900 --> 00:35:13,567 YOU WERE DISAPPOINTED WITH ME ALL THE TIME. 573 00:35:13,567 --> 00:35:14,767 WHY? 574 00:35:18,333 --> 00:35:22,167 [ Voice breaking ] I WANTED YOU TO BE PROUD OF ME. 575 00:35:22,167 --> 00:35:24,867 YOU WALKED FROM THE CAR OVER HERE, 576 00:35:24,867 --> 00:35:27,967 YOU CAME DOWN THE STAIRS, NO WHEELCHAIR. 577 00:35:30,067 --> 00:35:31,300 I'M PROUD OF YOU. 578 00:35:31,300 --> 00:35:33,767 NOBODY IN THE WORLD, NOT EVEN YOUR DAD, 579 00:35:33,767 --> 00:35:36,400 YOUR BROTHERS, YOUR SISTERS, YOUR HUSBAND, 580 00:35:36,400 --> 00:35:38,133 IS GONNA LOVE YOU LIKE I DO. 581 00:35:43,067 --> 00:35:47,300 Laura: I'M SO THANKFUL TO START TO LET SOME OF THIS GO. 582 00:35:47,300 --> 00:35:50,600 I LOVE MY MOM SO MUCH. 583 00:35:50,600 --> 00:35:53,500 I ALWAYS HAVE, AND I ALWAYS WILL. 584 00:35:53,500 --> 00:35:57,967 I FEEL LIKE A WEIGHT HAS BEEN LIFTED. 585 00:35:57,967 --> 00:36:01,933 THIS HAS OPENED UP A NEW DOOR FOR US. 586 00:36:18,467 --> 00:36:19,533 Laura: WHAT DO I DO? 587 00:36:19,533 --> 00:36:21,367 SHOULD I COOK THE VEGETABLES FIRST? 588 00:36:21,367 --> 00:36:22,633 Joey: YEAH. AND THEN COOK THE STEAK? 589 00:36:22,633 --> 00:36:24,067 BECAUSE THE STEAK'S GONNA TAKE LONGER. 590 00:36:25,300 --> 00:36:28,667 I'M STARTING TO DO A LOT MORE FOR MYSELF. 591 00:36:30,133 --> 00:36:32,933 TODAY, YOU'RE GONNA SEE NANA COOKING. 592 00:36:34,367 --> 00:36:38,333 I WANT TO BECOME AS SELF-SUFFICIENT AS POSSIBLE. 593 00:36:38,333 --> 00:36:40,300 Girl: NANA, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 594 00:36:40,300 --> 00:36:43,300 I'M COOKING VEGETABLES. 595 00:36:43,300 --> 00:36:45,067 FOR SO MANY YEARS, 596 00:36:45,067 --> 00:36:49,767 JOEY AND MY MOM HAD TO DO EVERYTHING FOR ME. 597 00:36:49,767 --> 00:36:55,333 I WANT TO GIVE BACK AS MUCH AS I CAN. 598 00:36:57,300 --> 00:37:00,867 MY GOD. THIS COULD FEED AN ARMY. 599 00:37:00,867 --> 00:37:02,867 I'M LEARNING MORE AND MORE 600 00:37:02,867 --> 00:37:05,767 TO STOP GOING TO FOOD FOR COMFORT. 601 00:37:10,667 --> 00:37:13,467 Joey: THAT'S A STEAK RIGHT THERE. 602 00:37:13,467 --> 00:37:14,467 Girl: WOW. 603 00:37:14,467 --> 00:37:16,267 IT'S HARD WHEN I'M REALLY EMOTIONAL, 604 00:37:16,267 --> 00:37:18,300 BUT IT'S GETTING EASIER. 605 00:37:19,667 --> 00:37:23,967 IT JUST TAKES TIME TO MAKE THE CHANGES LAST. 606 00:37:23,967 --> 00:37:25,467 Joey: I'M PRETTY HAPPY FOR HER. 607 00:37:25,467 --> 00:37:27,933 SHE'S, LIKE, DOING EVERYTHING FOR HERSELF, 608 00:37:27,933 --> 00:37:29,333 AND I'M ALL LIKE, "WOW." 609 00:37:29,333 --> 00:37:30,467 SO NOW YOU'RE GONNA COOK FOR ME EVERY NIGHT? 610 00:37:30,467 --> 00:37:32,400 I'LL COOK FOR YOU EVERY NIGHT. 611 00:37:33,500 --> 00:37:35,600 Laura: I'M BREAKING MY ADDICTION TO FOOD. 612 00:37:35,600 --> 00:37:37,667 I'M FULL. 613 00:37:38,633 --> 00:37:42,300 I THINK WE DID A GOOD JOB, LIKE A TEAM. 614 00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:52,967 TODAY, I'M ON MY WAY TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN. 615 00:37:56,233 --> 00:37:57,833 OKAY. 616 00:37:59,333 --> 00:38:02,467 I'VE WORKED SO HARD FOR A YEAR, 617 00:38:02,467 --> 00:38:05,667 BUT REALLY, THE LAST FEW MONTHS, I'VE GIVEN IT MY ALL. 618 00:38:07,200 --> 00:38:10,500 IT WOULD BE REALLY HARD TO FIND OUT 619 00:38:10,500 --> 00:38:12,867 I HAVEN'T DONE WELL AGAIN. 620 00:38:14,500 --> 00:38:17,433 IT WOULD BE SO DEMORALIZING. 621 00:38:35,133 --> 00:38:38,267 Laura: I'VE WORKED SO HARD FOR A YEAR. 622 00:38:38,267 --> 00:38:40,867 IT WOULD BE REALLY HARD TO FIND OUT 623 00:38:40,867 --> 00:38:42,767 I HAVEN'T DONE WELL AGAIN. 624 00:38:45,767 --> 00:38:47,433 [ GASPS ] 625 00:38:47,433 --> 00:38:49,800 [ LAUGHS ] 626 00:38:49,800 --> 00:38:51,900 WOW. THAT WAS GOOD. 627 00:38:51,900 --> 00:38:53,100 I THOUGHT I MADE PROGRESS, 628 00:38:53,100 --> 00:38:55,067 BUT I DIDN'T THINK IT WAS GONNA BE THIS MUCH. 629 00:38:55,067 --> 00:38:56,267 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 630 00:38:56,267 --> 00:38:57,733 HELLO. HI, DOCTOR. 631 00:38:57,733 --> 00:39:00,500 HOW DOES IT FEEL LOSING ALL THAT WEIGHT? 632 00:39:00,500 --> 00:39:01,633 I FEEL GREAT. 633 00:39:01,633 --> 00:39:04,133 JUST I GET UP IN THE MORNING HAPPIER. 634 00:39:04,133 --> 00:39:07,933 WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU THAT YOU STUCK WITH THE PROGRAM. 635 00:39:07,933 --> 00:39:09,300 THANK YOU. 636 00:39:09,300 --> 00:39:10,333 AND YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY. 637 00:39:10,333 --> 00:39:11,667 Dr. Nowzaradan: LAURA HAS PROVEN 638 00:39:11,667 --> 00:39:15,600 THAT SHE CAN GET HER EMOTIONAL EATING UNDER CONTROL. 639 00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:17,267 WE JUST NEED TO MAKE SURE 640 00:39:17,267 --> 00:39:20,333 THAT WE KEEP THIS GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 641 00:39:20,333 --> 00:39:22,967 BUT FOR NOW, SHE'S DOING GREAT. 642 00:39:22,967 --> 00:39:25,367 CAN I GIVE YOU A HUG BECAUSE YOU SAVED MY LIFE? 643 00:39:25,367 --> 00:39:27,067 ABSOLUTELY. ALL RIGHT. 644 00:39:27,067 --> 00:39:29,333 THANK YOU SO MUCH. OH, YOU'RE WELCOME. 645 00:39:29,333 --> 00:39:30,700 OKAY. 646 00:39:30,700 --> 00:39:32,467 I'LL SEE YOU LATER. Joey: THANK YOU. 647 00:39:32,467 --> 00:39:33,733 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. 648 00:39:33,733 --> 00:39:35,133 THANK YOU. 649 00:39:35,133 --> 00:39:37,867 THANK YOU, DOCTOR, FOR EVERYTHING. 650 00:39:37,867 --> 00:39:40,367 HE'S PROUD OF ME. 651 00:39:41,600 --> 00:39:44,633 I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT TODAY. 652 00:39:44,633 --> 00:39:47,900 IT'S BEEN SO FREEING AND SO LIBERATING. 653 00:39:47,900 --> 00:39:51,533 DEALING WITH A LOT OF PAIN AND BITTERNESS 654 00:39:51,533 --> 00:39:53,100 THAT I HAD FROM MY PAST... 655 00:39:54,800 --> 00:39:59,733 ...IT FEELS LIKE EVERYTHING IS STARTING TO COME TOGETHER 656 00:39:59,733 --> 00:40:02,967 AND THAT I'M GONNA MAKE IT. 657 00:40:13,567 --> 00:40:16,233 I CAN DO SO MUCH MORE NOW. 658 00:40:16,233 --> 00:40:20,967 I CAN GET AROUND WITHOUT A WHEELCHAIR OR ANY OXYGEN. 659 00:40:20,967 --> 00:40:24,900 OH, THIS IS PRETTY. 660 00:40:24,900 --> 00:40:27,867 I FEEL LIKE A NEW PERSON. 661 00:40:27,867 --> 00:40:32,500 I CAN SHOP AT MORE PLACES LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE DO. 662 00:40:32,500 --> 00:40:36,767 I FEEL GREAT ABOUT MYSELF. 663 00:40:36,767 --> 00:40:38,667 I'M REALLY HAPPY. 664 00:40:38,667 --> 00:40:43,833 I'VE NEVER WORN A DRESS. THIS IS MY FIRST DRESS. 665 00:40:46,667 --> 00:40:47,833 A YEAR AGO, 666 00:40:47,833 --> 00:40:51,633 I WOULD'VE NEVER THOUGHT I'D MAKE IT THIS FAR. 667 00:40:51,633 --> 00:40:53,200 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 668 00:40:53,200 --> 00:40:56,900 GOD HAS HELPED ME, AND I'VE HAD OTHERS HELP ME. 669 00:40:56,900 --> 00:40:58,967 BYE-BYE. THANK YOU. 670 00:40:58,967 --> 00:41:01,400 AND I'M TRULY GRATEFUL. 671 00:41:10,200 --> 00:41:11,700 Y'ALL EXCITED? 672 00:41:11,700 --> 00:41:13,233 Girl: YEAH! 673 00:41:13,233 --> 00:41:15,267 'CAUSE NANA'S NOT IN HER WHEELCHAIR. 674 00:41:15,267 --> 00:41:17,267 YAY! YAY! 675 00:41:17,267 --> 00:41:20,400 Laura: I COULD NEVER SPEND A LOT OF TIME WITH MY NIECES 676 00:41:20,400 --> 00:41:25,600 OR A LOT OF TIME JUST BEING UP AND MOVING AROUND. 677 00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:30,400 NOW NOTHING IS HOLDING ME BACK LIKE IT WAS. 678 00:41:32,200 --> 00:41:33,800 THERE'S A KITTY OVER HERE, JULI. 679 00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:34,900 I WANT IT! 680 00:41:34,900 --> 00:41:37,067 SINCE THEY'VE BEEN BORN, 681 00:41:37,067 --> 00:41:40,600 I'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING WITH MY NIECES. 682 00:41:40,600 --> 00:41:42,067 ARE Y'ALL EXCITED? 683 00:41:42,067 --> 00:41:43,233 YES! 684 00:41:43,233 --> 00:41:45,633 Laura: I'M ACTUALLY PUSHING MYSELF 685 00:41:45,633 --> 00:41:49,867 BECAUSE I WANT THEM TO SEE ME ACCOMPLISHING THINGS. 686 00:41:49,867 --> 00:41:53,367 AND IT'S GREAT. 687 00:41:53,367 --> 00:41:55,633 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 688 00:41:55,633 --> 00:41:57,933 THEY MEAN THE WORLD TO ME. 689 00:42:03,100 --> 00:42:05,200 THEY'RE EXCITED ABOUT ME 690 00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:07,833 BECAUSE I'M DOING THINGS WITH THEM 691 00:42:07,833 --> 00:42:10,967 THAT I HAVE NEVER DONE. 692 00:42:10,967 --> 00:42:13,933 I KNOW THAT THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS OUT THERE 693 00:42:13,933 --> 00:42:15,933 THAT I HAVEN'T EXPERIENCED, 694 00:42:15,933 --> 00:42:18,367 AND I'M JUST TRYING TO TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME, 695 00:42:18,367 --> 00:42:19,867 BUT I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING AT ONE TIME. 696 00:42:19,867 --> 00:42:21,367 THANK YOU FOR COMING. 697 00:42:21,367 --> 00:42:23,267 IT WAS GREAT. 698 00:42:23,267 --> 00:42:26,867 I KNOW I HAVE A LOT MORE WORK TO DO, 699 00:42:26,867 --> 00:42:29,133 BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME, 700 00:42:29,133 --> 00:42:31,700 I HAVE NO DOUBT THAT I'M GONNA GET THERE. 700 00:42:32,305 --> 00:43:32,613 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org