"My 600-lb Life" Milla's Story

1 00:00:02,300 --> 00:00:04,267 Milla: I'M SO MISERABLE. 2 00:00:04,267 --> 00:00:06,800 I NEVER THOUGHT IN A MILLION YEARS 3 00:00:06,800 --> 00:00:08,933 THIS IS WHAT MY LIFE WOULD BE LIKE. 4 00:00:15,500 --> 00:00:16,833 Man: [ MOANING ] 5 00:00:16,833 --> 00:00:19,600 MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME A DEATH SENTENCE. 6 00:00:19,600 --> 00:00:23,033 Nikki: THE THING I RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS 7 00:00:23,033 --> 00:00:24,667 IS WHAT'S KILLING ME. 8 00:00:31,233 --> 00:00:33,267 IT'S BROKEN! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? 9 00:00:33,267 --> 00:00:35,200 I DON'T KNOW. I CAN'T GET OFF. 10 00:00:35,200 --> 00:00:36,967 DON'T LET ME GO, PLEASE. I'M NOT. 11 00:00:41,800 --> 00:00:43,867 Chad: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER FROM A CHAIR. 12 00:00:43,867 --> 00:00:45,867 [ GRUNTS ] THANK YOU, HONEY. 13 00:00:45,867 --> 00:00:48,867 I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS. 14 00:00:48,867 --> 00:00:51,633 IF YOU WERE SERIOUS, YOU'D MAKE CHANGES. 15 00:00:54,800 --> 00:00:57,133 Milla: I HAVE TO STAND UP. 16 00:00:57,133 --> 00:01:00,333 IF I DON'T, I'M GONNA LOSE EVERYTHING. 17 00:01:00,333 --> 00:01:02,133 [ GRUNTS ] I CAN'T. 18 00:01:02,133 --> 00:01:03,400 I'M SO SORRY. 19 00:01:03,400 --> 00:01:05,533 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 20 00:01:05,533 --> 00:01:07,667 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 21 00:01:07,667 --> 00:01:11,233 ** 22 00:01:11,233 --> 00:01:14,700 LIFE IS SUCH A PRECIOUS THING. 23 00:01:14,700 --> 00:01:17,833 AND NO MATTER HOW BAD OFF IT GETS, 24 00:01:17,833 --> 00:01:21,633 IT'S ALWAYS WORTH FIGHTING FOR. 25 00:01:26,600 --> 00:01:29,900 ** 26 00:01:35,267 --> 00:01:40,067 EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE IS MISERABLE. 27 00:01:40,067 --> 00:01:43,067 I'VE BEEN TRAPPED WITHIN THESE FOUR WALLS 28 00:01:43,067 --> 00:01:45,567 FOR MORE THAN TWO YEARS. 29 00:01:45,567 --> 00:01:50,533 DURING THAT TIME, I HAVE NOT STOOD NOT ONE TIME. 30 00:01:52,067 --> 00:01:56,233 ALL I CAN DO IS EAT AND SLEEP. 31 00:01:56,233 --> 00:01:57,533 AND EVERY NIGHT, 32 00:01:57,533 --> 00:02:00,300 I FALL ASLEEP THINKING THAT I'M NOT GONNA WAKE UP. 33 00:02:01,833 --> 00:02:06,767 AND THEN, WHEN I WAKE UP, I'M THINKING, "I MADE IT." 34 00:02:06,767 --> 00:02:08,600 YOU GOT TO MAKE THE BUS. 35 00:02:08,600 --> 00:02:09,933 LET'S GO. 36 00:02:09,933 --> 00:02:13,300 I'M TRAPPED HERE, AND I CAN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. 37 00:02:13,300 --> 00:02:17,667 SO MY CHILDREN HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING FOR ME. 38 00:02:17,667 --> 00:02:19,300 ** 39 00:02:19,300 --> 00:02:22,100 EVERY MORNING, THE KIDS GET UP BEFORE SUNRISE 40 00:02:22,100 --> 00:02:26,833 TO COME IN HERE AND BATHE ME BECAUSE I CAN'T DO IT MYSELF. 41 00:02:26,833 --> 00:02:30,933 IT'S SUCH A HUMILIATING PLACE TO BE AS A PARENT, 42 00:02:30,933 --> 00:02:32,600 BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE. 43 00:02:32,600 --> 00:02:34,733 1, 2, 3. 44 00:02:34,733 --> 00:02:39,633 [ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ] 45 00:02:39,633 --> 00:02:45,300 MY HUSBAND HAS MEDICAL ISSUES OF HIS OWN, SO HE CAN'T DO IT. 46 00:02:46,767 --> 00:02:51,733 MY YOUNGEST ONE, JOSHUA, IS 10, AND HE'S TOO LITTLE TO HELP OUT. 47 00:02:51,733 --> 00:02:55,167 HE'S NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO HOLD ME. 48 00:02:55,167 --> 00:03:00,700 SO MY THREE LITTLE CHILDREN -- HANNAH AND CALEB, WHO ARE 15, 49 00:03:00,700 --> 00:03:04,700 AND JACOB, WHO IS 16, HAVE TO CLEAN ME EVERYWHERE 50 00:03:04,700 --> 00:03:07,667 SO I DON'T DEVELOP ANY INFECTIONS. 51 00:03:07,667 --> 00:03:09,200 ** 52 00:03:09,200 --> 00:03:14,067 AND WHILE HANNAH IS WASHING MY PRIVATE PARTS, 53 00:03:14,067 --> 00:03:18,200 JACOB IS USUALLY HOLDING MY LYMPHEDEMA. 54 00:03:18,200 --> 00:03:20,100 BECAUSE IT'S SO HEAVY, 55 00:03:20,100 --> 00:03:24,233 SHE CANNOT HOLD THAT AND WASH ME AT THE SAME TIME. 56 00:03:24,233 --> 00:03:28,467 ** 57 00:03:29,500 --> 00:03:30,667 CHILDREN THEIR AGE 58 00:03:30,667 --> 00:03:33,233 SHOULD NOT HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF THEIR PARENTS. 59 00:03:33,233 --> 00:03:36,133 I SHOULD BE TAKING CARE OF THEM. 60 00:03:36,133 --> 00:03:39,667 Hannah: I'M DEPRESSED. 61 00:03:39,667 --> 00:03:43,500 LIKE, REAL DEPRESSED THAT SHE CAN'T GET OUT THE BED. 62 00:03:43,500 --> 00:03:46,167 AND I DO HAVE A LOT OF RESPONSIBILITY. 63 00:03:46,167 --> 00:03:50,533 SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE IT'S TOO MUCH, 64 00:03:50,533 --> 00:03:54,567 BUT I LOVE MY MOM TO THE TIP OF THE WORLD AND BACK. 65 00:03:54,567 --> 00:03:55,933 2, 3. 66 00:03:55,933 --> 00:03:59,800 Jacob: IT'S HARD TO HAVE TO HELP CLEAN MY MOM UP EVERY DAY. 67 00:03:59,800 --> 00:04:02,500 BUT I LOVE HER, AND I JUST WANT HER TO BE OKAY. 68 00:04:03,533 --> 00:04:05,067 GOT IT THERE? 69 00:04:05,067 --> 00:04:06,767 MM-HMM. OKAY. 70 00:04:06,767 --> 00:04:10,533 OKAY, WE GOT FIVE MORE MINUTES. 71 00:04:10,533 --> 00:04:14,767 Milla: I FEEL LIKE I AM ROBBING MY CHILDREN OF THEIR CHILDHOOD. 72 00:04:16,067 --> 00:04:17,133 THIS SHOULDN'T BE 73 00:04:17,133 --> 00:04:18,600 HOW MY CHILDREN HAVE TO START THEIR DAY. 74 00:04:18,600 --> 00:04:20,633 BUS WILL BE HERE IN 10 MINUTES. 75 00:04:20,633 --> 00:04:23,433 ESAU, GET ME IN THE BED. 76 00:04:23,433 --> 00:04:24,933 ** 77 00:04:24,933 --> 00:04:28,267 I'M THE PERSON THAT TAKES CARE OF EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE, 78 00:04:28,267 --> 00:04:29,267 YOU KNOW. 79 00:04:29,267 --> 00:04:30,600 I'M THE OLDEST SON. 80 00:04:30,600 --> 00:04:32,133 MAKES ME SAD 'CAUSE I KNOW 81 00:04:32,133 --> 00:04:34,467 IF MY MOM SITS IN THE BED FOR THAT LONG 82 00:04:34,467 --> 00:04:37,067 AND SHE DOESN'T GET THE HELP THAT SHE'S GETTING, 83 00:04:37,067 --> 00:04:38,433 SHE WOULD DIE IN THE BED, YOU KNOW? 84 00:04:38,433 --> 00:04:40,733 [ DOOR CLOSES ] 85 00:04:42,100 --> 00:04:46,200 BRING ME A PLATE AND MY ORANGE JUICE OUT THE REFRIGERATOR. 86 00:04:46,200 --> 00:04:48,733 Milla: I'M NOT A MOM TO THEM RIGHT NOW. 87 00:04:48,733 --> 00:04:49,967 I'M JUST A BURDEN. 88 00:04:49,967 --> 00:04:52,067 AND I KNOW I'M DOING THIS TO THEM 89 00:04:52,067 --> 00:04:55,267 BECAUSE I WON'T STOP EATING. 90 00:04:55,267 --> 00:04:57,067 LOVE YOU. 91 00:04:57,067 --> 00:04:59,100 DRIVE SAFE. 92 00:04:59,100 --> 00:05:01,067 JACOB, PUT A JACKET ON. 93 00:05:01,067 --> 00:05:03,467 Hannah: THE BUS IS HERE. 94 00:05:03,467 --> 00:05:05,900 I'VE TOLD ALL OF THEM I'M SORRY 95 00:05:05,900 --> 00:05:09,333 THAT I LET MYSELF GET INTO THIS SITUATION, 96 00:05:09,333 --> 00:05:14,200 BUT I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO STOP EATING. 97 00:05:14,200 --> 00:05:16,067 ** 98 00:05:16,067 --> 00:05:18,967 AND I NEVER THOUGHT, IN A MILLION YEARS, 99 00:05:18,967 --> 00:05:21,600 THIS IS WHAT MY LIFE WOULD BE LIKE. 100 00:05:21,600 --> 00:05:24,800 ** 101 00:05:26,833 --> 00:05:28,733 I WAS ABOUT 3 YEARS OLD 102 00:05:28,733 --> 00:05:31,967 WHEN OTHER KIDS STARTED CALLING ME FAT, 103 00:05:31,967 --> 00:05:36,467 AND I STARTED TO REALIZE JUST HOW BIG I WAS. 104 00:05:36,467 --> 00:05:40,333 I DIDN'T EVEN ASSOCIATE FOOD WITH MY WEIGHT, 105 00:05:40,333 --> 00:05:44,333 AND I WAS TOO YOUNG TO UNDERSTAND THAT FULLY. 106 00:05:45,933 --> 00:05:49,667 BUT MY FATHER WAS NEVER AROUND WHEN I WAS YOUNG, 107 00:05:49,667 --> 00:05:52,767 SO I ONLY HAD MY MOTHER AND MY SISTERS. 108 00:05:52,767 --> 00:05:57,100 AND MY MOM NEVER REALLY KNEW HOW TO TELL US SHE LOVED US. 109 00:05:57,100 --> 00:06:01,133 SHE NEVER SAID IT, SHE NEVER HUGGED ME OR KISSED ME, 110 00:06:01,133 --> 00:06:03,900 BUT WHAT SHE WOULD DO IS FEED US. 111 00:06:06,333 --> 00:06:08,533 GIVING US FOOD WAS THE ONLY WAY 112 00:06:08,533 --> 00:06:11,167 MY MOTHER KNEW TO SHOW HER LOVE FOR US, 113 00:06:11,167 --> 00:06:15,200 AND IF WE DIDN'T TAKE THAT FOOD, MY MOTHER SAW IT AS A REJECTION. 114 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:17,533 AND WE WOULD GET A WHUPPING. 115 00:06:17,533 --> 00:06:22,067 BUT MY SISTER WAS SMALL, AND SHE COULD NOT FINISH HER PLATE. 116 00:06:22,067 --> 00:06:25,567 AND I WOULD SNEAK AND HELP HER WITH HER PLATE 117 00:06:25,567 --> 00:06:27,700 SO THEY WOULDN'T GET PUNISHED. 118 00:06:27,700 --> 00:06:31,567 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, FOOD WAS MY MOTHER'S LOVE TO ME. 119 00:06:31,567 --> 00:06:34,367 SO I JUST ATE EVERYTHING I WAS GIVEN, 120 00:06:34,367 --> 00:06:38,433 AND I JUST WANTED MORE AND MORE. 121 00:06:38,433 --> 00:06:41,233 I DO SOMETIMES BLAME MYSELF FOR MILLA BEING THE WAY SHE IS. 122 00:06:41,233 --> 00:06:45,067 BUT AT THE TIME, I THOUGHT IT WAS FINE THAT SHE ATE THAT MUCH, 123 00:06:45,067 --> 00:06:46,800 BECAUSE WHEN I WAS COMING UP, 124 00:06:46,800 --> 00:06:49,867 IT WASN'T LIKE WE HAD A TON OF FOOD ALL THE TIME. 125 00:06:49,867 --> 00:06:51,200 AND SO I JUST ALWAYS FELT LIKE 126 00:06:51,200 --> 00:06:53,167 I WANT TO SEE A CHILD EATING TILL THEY GET ENOUGH. 127 00:06:54,200 --> 00:06:59,133 Milla: SO I KEPT GAINING, AND I JUST KEPT GETTING BIGGER. 128 00:06:59,133 --> 00:07:03,433 WHEN I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL, I WAS PUSHING 350, 129 00:07:03,433 --> 00:07:05,300 AND THEY DID NOT HAVE A GOWN TO FIT ME. 130 00:07:05,300 --> 00:07:07,867 I WAS SO EMBARRASSED. 131 00:07:08,933 --> 00:07:12,067 SHORTLY AFTER THAT, I MET MY HUSBAND, ELROY. 132 00:07:12,067 --> 00:07:15,433 I THINK EVERYONE WAS SURPRISED WHEN I GOT MARRIED 133 00:07:15,433 --> 00:07:18,700 BECAUSE I WAS SO FAT, AND THEY'D PROBABLY THINK 134 00:07:18,700 --> 00:07:21,567 THAT NO ONE WOULD WANT SOMEONE THAT BIG. 135 00:07:21,567 --> 00:07:26,467 BECAUSE BY THAT TIME, I WAS OVER 400 POUNDS. 136 00:07:27,933 --> 00:07:31,333 I GUESS WE KIND OF HIT IT OFF [CHUCKLES] RIGHT OFF THE BAT. 137 00:07:31,333 --> 00:07:35,400 AND THE WEIGHT REALLY WASN'T A PROBLEM TO ME. 138 00:07:35,400 --> 00:07:40,667 I WAS SO IN LOVE WITH ELROY, I FORGOT I WAS FAT FOR A MINUTE. 139 00:07:40,667 --> 00:07:46,533 AND SOON AFTER WE GOT MARRIED, WE HAD OUR FIRST CHILD, ESAU. 140 00:07:46,533 --> 00:07:49,100 IT WAS A DREAM COME TRUE, 141 00:07:49,100 --> 00:07:51,400 BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED KIDS. 142 00:07:51,400 --> 00:07:55,100 I WANTED TO HAVE A BIG FAMILY WITH AS MANY KIDS AS POSSIBLE. 143 00:07:56,633 --> 00:08:00,567 BUT AFTER HAVING ESAU, I WAS GETTING CLOSE TO 500 POUNDS, 144 00:08:00,567 --> 00:08:03,867 AND I WAS JUST TOO HEAVY TO HAVE ANOTHER CHILD. 145 00:08:06,233 --> 00:08:07,767 SO WE HAD TO ADOPT. 146 00:08:07,767 --> 00:08:11,900 THERE WERE CHILDREN FROM HOMES OF DRUG-ADDICTED PARENTS, 147 00:08:11,900 --> 00:08:14,067 AND MY HEART BROKE FOR THEM. 148 00:08:14,067 --> 00:08:17,500 SO WE STARTED BY ADOPTING JACOB WHEN I WAS 30. 149 00:08:18,733 --> 00:08:23,333 AND WITHIN THE NEXT TWO YEARS, WE ADOPTED HANNAH AND CALEB. 150 00:08:23,333 --> 00:08:26,567 THEN, WHEN I WAS 38, WE ADOPTED JOSHUA. 151 00:08:26,567 --> 00:08:29,067 AND THAT'S HOW I GOT MY BABIES. 152 00:08:30,467 --> 00:08:34,400 BUT WHEN I WAS 40, I STARTED TO DEVELOP LYMPHEDEMA, 153 00:08:34,400 --> 00:08:38,633 AND IT MADE IT VERY DIFFICULT TO GET UP AND DO ANYTHING. 154 00:08:38,633 --> 00:08:42,867 AS IT GOT BIGGER AND BIGGER, IT BECAME THIS HUGE WEIGHT, 155 00:08:42,867 --> 00:08:44,867 AND IT JUST HELD ME DOWN. 156 00:08:45,900 --> 00:08:50,733 AND ONE DAY, IT GOT SO BIG, I COULDN'T GET UP ANYMORE. 157 00:08:50,733 --> 00:08:53,533 SO I HAVE NO IDEA HOW BIG I AM. 158 00:08:56,333 --> 00:09:01,267 ALL I KNOW IS I'M TOO BIG TO GET UP ANYMORE. 159 00:09:03,767 --> 00:09:06,900 SO I'M TRAPPED HERE, AND I CAN'T GO ANYWHERE. 160 00:09:06,900 --> 00:09:10,067 I CAN'T DO ANYTHING UNLESS IT'S IN THIS BED. 161 00:09:12,400 --> 00:09:18,100 SO MOST OF EVERYTHING AROUND THIS HOUSE FALLS ON MY CHILDREN. 162 00:09:19,467 --> 00:09:21,267 THEY HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING 163 00:09:21,267 --> 00:09:23,367 BECAUSE ELROY STARTED TO HAVE HEALTH ISSUES 164 00:09:23,367 --> 00:09:26,600 A COUPLE YEARS AGO, AND HE'S GOTTEN WORSE. 165 00:09:26,600 --> 00:09:28,067 HEY, HEY. HEY. 166 00:09:28,067 --> 00:09:31,733 BUT HE CAN GET AROUND WITH HIS WALKER STILL, 167 00:09:31,733 --> 00:09:35,100 BUT HE MOSTLY HAS TO BE IN HIS WHEELCHAIR. 168 00:09:35,100 --> 00:09:38,700 I HAVE A LOT OF HEALTH ISSUES GOING ON MYSELF. 169 00:09:38,700 --> 00:09:41,967 I'M IN END-STAGE RENAL FAILURE, 170 00:09:41,967 --> 00:09:44,100 AND I HAVE CONGESTIVE HEART FAILURE. 171 00:09:44,100 --> 00:09:47,300 IT TOOK A TOLL, SO I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. 172 00:09:47,300 --> 00:09:51,767 HE USED TO BE THE ONE WHO TOOK CARE OF ME AND FED ME. 173 00:09:51,767 --> 00:09:54,900 BUT NOW THE KIDS HAVE TO DO THAT. 174 00:09:54,900 --> 00:09:58,900 THEY HAVE TO, YOU KNOW, DO EVERYTHING FOR ME. 175 00:09:58,900 --> 00:10:02,967 EVERYTHING FALLS ON THEM. 176 00:10:02,967 --> 00:10:05,100 HANNAH, I NEED YOU TO COME. 177 00:10:05,100 --> 00:10:08,033 LET'S GO OVER THIS GROCERY LIST, PLEASE. 178 00:10:08,033 --> 00:10:09,267 ** 179 00:10:09,267 --> 00:10:12,400 THEY HAVE TO RUN ALL THE ERRANDS AND DO EVERYTHING. 180 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:15,133 YOU CAN GET A 12-PACK OF THE PEACH SODAS. 181 00:10:15,133 --> 00:10:17,033 TWO 12-PACKS WOULD BE FINE. 182 00:10:17,033 --> 00:10:18,467 ICE-CREAM BARS, PLEASE. 183 00:10:18,467 --> 00:10:20,367 OKAY. 184 00:10:20,367 --> 00:10:24,900 I FEEL BAD, BUT AT THE SAME TIME, SOMEONE HAS TO DO IT. 185 00:10:24,900 --> 00:10:26,300 Caleb: BYE, MOM. I LOVE YOU. 186 00:10:26,300 --> 00:10:28,100 BYE, MOM. I LOVE YOU. [ CHUCKLES ] 187 00:10:28,100 --> 00:10:31,900 ** 188 00:10:31,900 --> 00:10:36,900 I DO MOSTLY ALL THE GROCERY SHOPPING NOW. 189 00:10:36,900 --> 00:10:38,600 ** 190 00:10:38,600 --> 00:10:41,633 SINCE MY DAD CAN'T WALK IN STORES. 191 00:10:41,633 --> 00:10:43,533 I DON'T USUALLY SEE MY FRIENDS GROCERY SHOP 192 00:10:43,533 --> 00:10:45,100 UNLESS THEY'RE WITH THEIR PARENTS. 193 00:10:45,100 --> 00:10:46,400 THEY DON'T DO IT BY THEMSELVES. 194 00:10:46,400 --> 00:10:48,700 LET'S GO TO THE CANDY AISLE. 195 00:10:48,700 --> 00:10:50,033 CHOCOLATE CLUSTERS. 196 00:10:51,200 --> 00:10:53,100 NO, SHE DON'T. 197 00:10:53,100 --> 00:10:55,900 WE DON'T WANT TO BRING MY MOM 198 00:10:55,900 --> 00:10:58,400 SOME OF THE STUFF THAT SHE ASKS US TO BRING HER, 199 00:10:58,400 --> 00:10:59,633 BUT WE HAVE TO. 200 00:10:59,633 --> 00:11:01,933 SHE'LL BE MAD IF WE DON'T. 201 00:11:01,933 --> 00:11:02,967 ** 202 00:11:02,967 --> 00:11:04,600 [ SCANNER BEEPS ] 203 00:11:05,633 --> 00:11:08,433 I DO FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR MY MOM'S WEIGHT 204 00:11:08,433 --> 00:11:11,267 BECAUSE SHE CAN'T GET UP AND GET IT. 205 00:11:11,267 --> 00:11:16,800 IT'S JUST HARD TO KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN SHE WANTS FOOD, 206 00:11:16,800 --> 00:11:18,833 BECAUSE WE FEEL BAD FOR HER BECAUSE SHE'S IN THE BED. 207 00:11:18,833 --> 00:11:20,867 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 208 00:11:20,867 --> 00:11:24,300 Milla: OH, HOW Y'ALL EATING CHOCOLATE AND DIDN'T OFFER ME ANY? 209 00:11:24,300 --> 00:11:26,933 Milla: WHEN I WANT THEM TO BRING ME SOMETHING I CRAVE, 210 00:11:26,933 --> 00:11:31,333 I KNOW THAT THAT'S WHAT'S KEEPING ME IN THIS BED 211 00:11:31,333 --> 00:11:33,100 AND FROM BEING THEIR MOM. 212 00:11:33,100 --> 00:11:34,967 WHAT DID YOU EAT TODAY? 213 00:11:34,967 --> 00:11:36,167 CHOCOLATE. 214 00:11:36,167 --> 00:11:39,167 BUT I JUST CAN'T STOP EATING. 215 00:11:39,167 --> 00:11:42,067 ONCE I START INTO A BAG OF JUNK FOOD, 216 00:11:42,067 --> 00:11:43,900 THERE IS NO STOPPING IT. 217 00:11:46,533 --> 00:11:48,067 [ LAUGHS ] 218 00:11:48,067 --> 00:11:52,267 WHEN I'M EATING WHAT I CRAVE, IT IS SUCH AN INCREDIBLE FEELING. 219 00:11:52,267 --> 00:11:55,067 AND I'M HAPPY. 220 00:11:55,067 --> 00:11:59,067 BUT THEN, I START TO COME DOWN FROM IT. 221 00:11:59,067 --> 00:12:05,133 AND I COME BACK TO REALITY AND NEED THE KIDS TO HELP ME AGAIN. 222 00:12:06,233 --> 00:12:07,233 HUH? 223 00:12:07,233 --> 00:12:09,433 AND I FEEL AWFUL. 224 00:12:09,433 --> 00:12:11,167 LET'S GO, CALEB! 225 00:12:11,167 --> 00:12:12,600 JOSHUA, COME ON! 226 00:12:12,600 --> 00:12:15,200 STEP BACK. 227 00:12:15,200 --> 00:12:16,533 ** 228 00:12:16,533 --> 00:12:19,833 HOLD UP, HANNAH. 229 00:12:19,833 --> 00:12:21,567 JUST A MINUTE. 230 00:12:21,567 --> 00:12:23,100 OKAY, DONE. 231 00:12:23,100 --> 00:12:26,433 UM... 232 00:12:26,433 --> 00:12:28,900 I KNOW IT'S HORRIBLE FOR THEM. 233 00:12:28,900 --> 00:12:31,067 AND IF I'M GONNA DO ANYTHING FOR THEM... 234 00:12:31,067 --> 00:12:33,200 1, 2, 3. 235 00:12:33,200 --> 00:12:35,700 ...I HAVE TO DO IT FROM THIS BED. 236 00:12:35,700 --> 00:12:38,067 HURRY, HANNAH, HURRY. THANK YOU. 237 00:12:39,400 --> 00:12:40,867 ALL RIGHT, TABLE. 238 00:12:40,867 --> 00:12:42,400 ** 239 00:12:42,400 --> 00:12:45,367 BUT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE BROUGHT TO ME. 240 00:12:45,367 --> 00:12:46,833 ** 241 00:12:46,833 --> 00:12:51,367 CAN'T BLAME THE KIDS FOR OBEYING MILLA. 242 00:12:51,367 --> 00:12:53,500 [ GASPS ] THE MACARONI CHEESE. 243 00:12:53,500 --> 00:12:55,900 GO BOIL THE NOODLES. 244 00:12:55,900 --> 00:12:58,567 SHE SAID, "DO IT," SO YOU'RE OBLIGATED TO DO IT. 245 00:13:00,167 --> 00:13:03,167 YOU KNOW, WE BRING HER THE FOOD BECAUSE WE LOVE HER, 246 00:13:03,167 --> 00:13:05,200 BUT I KNOW WE'RE HARMING HER. 247 00:13:05,200 --> 00:13:07,967 SO BASICALLY, I KIND OF BLAME MYSELF. 248 00:13:07,967 --> 00:13:10,567 GREEN BEANS NOT AS GOOD. 249 00:13:12,000 --> 00:13:18,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 250 00:13:20,067 --> 00:13:21,067 [ Voice breaking ] I'M KILLING MY WIFE. 251 00:13:21,067 --> 00:13:23,200 ** 252 00:13:24,233 --> 00:13:27,067 Milla: FOOD IS EVERYTHING TO ME. 253 00:13:27,067 --> 00:13:28,833 MM-HMM. 254 00:13:28,833 --> 00:13:34,100 AND FOOD IS THE LAST THING I THINK ABOUT BEFORE I GO TO BED 255 00:13:34,100 --> 00:13:35,533 AND THE FIRST THING I THINK ABOUT 256 00:13:35,533 --> 00:13:36,667 WHEN I GET UP IN THE MORNING. 257 00:13:36,667 --> 00:13:37,800 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 258 00:13:39,100 --> 00:13:40,300 [ Ringing ] 259 00:13:40,300 --> 00:13:42,733 MAN: How can I help you? 260 00:13:42,733 --> 00:13:44,067 ARE YOU OPEN? 261 00:13:44,067 --> 00:13:45,633 No, ma'am, we are not yet. 262 00:13:45,633 --> 00:13:47,067 WHAT TIME DO YOU OPEN? 263 00:13:47,067 --> 00:13:48,600 We open at 10:30. OH, OKAY. 264 00:13:48,600 --> 00:13:50,433 CAN I PLACE AN ORDER FOR PICKUP? 265 00:13:50,433 --> 00:13:51,667 Yes, ma'am. 266 00:13:51,667 --> 00:13:53,067 ** 267 00:13:53,067 --> 00:13:54,333 ESAU? 268 00:13:54,333 --> 00:13:55,333 MM-HMM? 269 00:13:55,333 --> 00:13:56,600 WILL YOU PICK THIS PIZZA UP FOR ME? 270 00:13:56,600 --> 00:13:57,667 [ CHUCKLES ] WHY? 271 00:13:57,667 --> 00:13:59,333 'CAUSE YOU ALREADY KNOW, MOM. 272 00:13:59,333 --> 00:14:00,467 WHY DO YOU DO THAT? 273 00:14:00,467 --> 00:14:03,067 GO AND PICK UP MY PIZZA RIGHT NOW. 274 00:14:03,067 --> 00:14:04,300 I'LL THINK ABOUT IT. I'LL LET YOU KNOW. 275 00:14:04,300 --> 00:14:05,833 NO, RIGHT NOW. 276 00:14:05,833 --> 00:14:07,700 GO GET THE PIZZA RIGHT NOW. 277 00:14:07,700 --> 00:14:10,300 Milla: I KNOW I'M KILLING MYSELF. 278 00:14:10,300 --> 00:14:14,167 I FEEL LIKE I'M JUST OUT OF CONTROL WITH MY EATING HABITS. 279 00:14:14,167 --> 00:14:15,667 ** 280 00:14:15,667 --> 00:14:18,167 OH. 281 00:14:18,167 --> 00:14:21,900 AND I KNOW EVERY TIME I TAKE A BITE OF FOOD, 282 00:14:21,900 --> 00:14:26,067 IT'S GETTING ME THAT MUCH CLOSER TO DEATH. 283 00:14:27,400 --> 00:14:29,867 AND THAT'S MY NIGHTMARE RIGHT NOW, 284 00:14:29,867 --> 00:14:32,800 THAT I'M GONNA GO TO SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP 285 00:14:32,800 --> 00:14:35,067 BECAUSE MY BODY JUST GAVE OUT. 286 00:14:35,067 --> 00:14:36,867 JOSHUA. Joshua: WHAT? 287 00:14:36,867 --> 00:14:38,800 BRING ME A SODA, BABE. 288 00:14:38,800 --> 00:14:43,700 ELROY IS NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF THEM BY HIMSELF, 289 00:14:43,700 --> 00:14:48,133 SO IF I DIE, I'M GOING TO BE LEAVING MY KIDS ALL ALONE. 290 00:14:48,133 --> 00:14:49,500 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 291 00:14:49,500 --> 00:14:51,167 Esau: IF SHE EVER PASS AWAY... 292 00:14:55,400 --> 00:14:57,667 NONE OF US WANTS TO LOSE OUR PARENTS, 293 00:14:57,667 --> 00:15:00,433 AND IT REALLY HURTS TO KNOW THAT... 294 00:15:06,467 --> 00:15:08,600 ** 295 00:15:08,600 --> 00:15:12,367 I THINK SHE'S TRYING TO KILL HERSELF WITH FOOD. 296 00:15:12,367 --> 00:15:15,800 AND I'M WORRIED THAT SHE'S NOT GONNA MAKE IT. 297 00:15:15,800 --> 00:15:17,433 ** 298 00:15:17,433 --> 00:15:20,133 Milla: I DON'T WANT TO DIE LIKE THIS. 299 00:15:20,133 --> 00:15:24,267 THIS IS NOT THE MEMORY THAT I WANT FOR MY CHILDREN TO HAVE... 300 00:15:27,300 --> 00:15:31,700 ...THAT I ATE MYSELF INTO A GRAVE. 301 00:15:41,367 --> 00:15:44,233 ** 302 00:15:44,233 --> 00:15:46,400 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 303 00:15:46,400 --> 00:15:48,533 Milla: TODAY, ME AND MY WHOLE FAMILY 304 00:15:48,533 --> 00:15:51,167 ARE PACKING UP TO MOVE TO TEXAS. 305 00:15:51,167 --> 00:15:55,500 THERE'S A DOCTOR THERE WHO HAS AGREED TO SEE ME, 306 00:15:55,500 --> 00:15:58,933 SO MY ENTIRE FAMILY IS COMING WITH ME -- 307 00:15:58,933 --> 00:16:03,433 MY HUSBAND, MY FIVE CHILDREN, AND MY SON'S GIRLFRIEND. 308 00:16:04,633 --> 00:16:07,100 YOU READY FOR THIS MOVE? 309 00:16:07,100 --> 00:16:08,300 I GUESS SO. 310 00:16:08,300 --> 00:16:10,700 Elroy: I'M SCARED ABOUT THIS TRIP DOWN 311 00:16:10,700 --> 00:16:13,133 BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S NOT GONNA BE EASY. 312 00:16:13,133 --> 00:16:16,133 MILLA HASN'T BEEN OUT OF THAT BED IN 2 1/2 YEARS, 313 00:16:16,133 --> 00:16:18,967 SO RIDING IN A CAR IS GONNA BE TOUGH ON HER. 314 00:16:18,967 --> 00:16:23,067 JUST PRAYING THAT SHE'LL BE OKAY. 315 00:16:23,067 --> 00:16:25,200 ** 316 00:16:25,200 --> 00:16:27,367 Milla: EVERYONE IS PUTTING THEIR LIVES ON HOLD 317 00:16:27,367 --> 00:16:29,667 JUST SO I'LL HAVE THIS CHANCE, 318 00:16:29,667 --> 00:16:32,467 AND I'M NOT TAKING IT FOR GRANTED. 319 00:16:32,467 --> 00:16:33,500 HOW YOU DOING? 320 00:16:33,500 --> 00:16:35,400 AS WELL AS TO BE EXPECTED. 321 00:16:35,400 --> 00:16:37,200 OKAY, 1, 2, 3. 322 00:16:37,200 --> 00:16:39,067 OKAY, I GOT IT. I GOT IT. 323 00:16:39,067 --> 00:16:43,867 BUT I KNOW THIS ISN'T GONNA BE EASY FOR US TO DO. 324 00:16:43,867 --> 00:16:45,133 READY TO GO, GUYS? YEP. 325 00:16:45,133 --> 00:16:47,267 OKAY. OKAY, OKAY. 326 00:16:47,267 --> 00:16:49,133 WE GOT YOU, OKAY? 327 00:16:49,133 --> 00:16:50,700 GONNA GET IT. 328 00:16:51,733 --> 00:16:52,733 OKAY. 329 00:16:52,733 --> 00:16:54,067 1, 2, 3. 330 00:16:54,067 --> 00:16:57,900 ** 331 00:16:57,900 --> 00:16:59,100 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 332 00:16:59,100 --> 00:17:01,333 I FEEL ASHAMED THAT IT'S COME TO THIS. 333 00:17:03,667 --> 00:17:07,067 Hannah: I KNOW MY MOM IS SCARED ABOUT THIS DRIVE. 334 00:17:07,067 --> 00:17:09,433 SHE'S NOT SURE SHE'S GONNA MAKE IT. 335 00:17:09,433 --> 00:17:10,833 ** 336 00:17:10,833 --> 00:17:12,267 WE'RE THERE. 337 00:17:12,267 --> 00:17:13,533 THANK YOU! 338 00:17:13,533 --> 00:17:14,667 THANK YOU! 339 00:17:14,667 --> 00:17:17,433 ** 340 00:17:17,433 --> 00:17:20,433 I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA BE CARRIED OUT OF THERE DEAD. 341 00:17:22,467 --> 00:17:24,133 BUT I'M NOT. 342 00:17:24,133 --> 00:17:25,833 [ SNIFFLES ] 343 00:17:25,833 --> 00:17:27,133 I LOVE Y'ALL! 344 00:17:27,133 --> 00:17:29,167 Hannah: LOVE Y'ALL! 345 00:17:29,167 --> 00:17:31,333 ** 346 00:17:31,333 --> 00:17:33,800 I'M SCARED ABOUT THE NEXT 20 HOURS 347 00:17:33,800 --> 00:17:36,600 AND WHAT IT'S GONNA TAKE TO GET TO HOUSTON TO MAKE THIS CHANGE. 348 00:17:36,600 --> 00:17:38,200 [ HORN HONKS ] Man: OH! 349 00:17:38,200 --> 00:17:39,300 [ TIRES SCREECH ] 350 00:17:39,300 --> 00:17:40,500 MY LEG! MY LEG! 351 00:17:40,500 --> 00:17:41,867 MY LEG! I'M SORRY. 352 00:17:41,867 --> 00:17:43,267 DID I HURT MY BABY? 353 00:17:43,267 --> 00:17:45,433 DID -- DID I HURT YOU? OH, MY GOD. 354 00:17:45,433 --> 00:17:47,167 I HURT MY BABY'S LEG. 355 00:17:47,167 --> 00:17:48,967 DID I HURT YOU? 356 00:17:49,867 --> 00:17:51,433 I'M SORRY, BABY. MAMA'S SORRY. 357 00:17:51,433 --> 00:17:53,233 Woman: I DON'T THINK HE EVEN SAW ME. 358 00:17:53,233 --> 00:17:55,400 [ HORN HONKS ] WE NEED TO GET OUT THE STREET. 359 00:17:55,400 --> 00:17:57,200 CALL ESAU AND TELL THEM TO PULL OVER 360 00:17:57,200 --> 00:17:59,267 WHEREVER THEY ARE ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD. 361 00:18:00,767 --> 00:18:02,400 IS IT? HOLD ON. LET ME GET OVER. 362 00:18:02,400 --> 00:18:04,500 WHAT IF I HAD HURT YOU? 363 00:18:06,067 --> 00:18:11,067 Milla: I CAN'T BELIEVE WE WERE JUST ALMOST IN AN ACCIDENT. 364 00:18:11,067 --> 00:18:14,167 I THOUGHT I HURT MY CHILD. 365 00:18:14,167 --> 00:18:16,933 I WAS TRULY SCARED. 366 00:18:16,933 --> 00:18:20,233 ** 367 00:18:20,233 --> 00:18:21,933 I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS. 368 00:18:21,933 --> 00:18:24,200 THIS IS SO MUCH TOUGHER THAN I THOUGHT, 369 00:18:24,200 --> 00:18:27,233 AND I JUST WANT TO GET TO HOUSTON. 370 00:18:30,533 --> 00:18:33,833 WE HAVE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR ABOUT 20 HOURS, 371 00:18:33,833 --> 00:18:35,667 AND WHEN I GET TO THE HOSPITAL, 372 00:18:35,667 --> 00:18:38,267 I'M GONNA MEET THE DOCTOR WHO HAS AGREED TO SEE ME. 373 00:18:38,267 --> 00:18:40,833 THAT MAKES ME A LITTLE NERVOUS. 374 00:18:40,833 --> 00:18:43,067 AND I'M HOPING HE CAN HELP ME. 375 00:18:45,067 --> 00:18:47,867 WE'RE EXPECTING MILLA'S ARRIVAL RIGHT NOW. 376 00:18:47,867 --> 00:18:51,433 IT'S VERY DANGEROUS FOR A PATIENT HER SIZE 377 00:18:51,433 --> 00:18:54,733 TO TRAVEL DOWN WITHOUT ANY MEDICAL SUPERVISION, 378 00:18:54,733 --> 00:18:56,700 SO WE WANT TO GET HER IN IMMEDIATELY 379 00:18:56,700 --> 00:18:58,933 AND SEE IF SHE'S OKAY. HELLO. 380 00:18:58,933 --> 00:19:00,800 HI, DR. NOWZARADAN. 381 00:19:00,800 --> 00:19:02,767 HOW ARE YOU? I'M FINE. 382 00:19:02,767 --> 00:19:06,500 HOW IS YOUR ABILITY TO MOVE AROUND OR STAND UP OR DO THINGS? 383 00:19:06,500 --> 00:19:07,967 I'M NOT ABLE TO STAND AT ALL, DOCTOR. 384 00:19:07,967 --> 00:19:10,400 ALL RIGHT, SO WE NEED TO GET YOU OUT OF HERE, 385 00:19:10,400 --> 00:19:12,967 AND LET ME GO MAKE ARRANGEMENTS FOR THAT, OKAY? 386 00:19:12,967 --> 00:19:14,633 YES, SIR. MM-HMM. THANK YOU. 387 00:19:14,633 --> 00:19:16,167 COME ON THIS SIDE. 388 00:19:16,167 --> 00:19:17,900 Man: 1, 2, 3. 389 00:19:17,900 --> 00:19:20,067 OKAY. 390 00:19:20,067 --> 00:19:21,433 WE'RE GETTING THERE. Milla: OKAY. 391 00:19:21,433 --> 00:19:25,967 I'M GLAD TO FINALLY BE OUT OF THAT CAR AND IN A BED. 392 00:19:25,967 --> 00:19:28,300 IT WAS GETTING SO PAINFUL. 393 00:19:29,733 --> 00:19:31,267 YOU DOING OKAY? [ SNIFFLES ] 394 00:19:31,267 --> 00:19:33,267 I'M JUST SO GRATEFUL AND EMBARRASSED. 395 00:19:33,267 --> 00:19:35,167 GRATEFUL, EMBARRASSED -- WHATEVER. 396 00:19:35,167 --> 00:19:37,167 I'M JUST HAPPY TO BE HERE. THANK YOU. 397 00:19:37,167 --> 00:19:41,100 AND TELL ME, WHAT SORT OF CARE ARE YOU GETTING AT HOME? 398 00:19:41,100 --> 00:19:44,967 I'VE BEEN IN A BED TWO YEARS AND FOUR MONTHS. 399 00:19:44,967 --> 00:19:47,100 AND MY CHILDREN -- THEY REALLY TAKE CARE OF ME. 400 00:19:47,100 --> 00:19:49,333 HOW MANY PEOPLE LIVE IN YOUR HOUSE? 401 00:19:49,333 --> 00:19:50,667 I HAVE FIVE CHILDREN. 402 00:19:50,667 --> 00:19:51,767 FIVE CHILDREN? 403 00:19:51,767 --> 00:19:54,167 UH-HUH, 20-YEAR-OLD AND TWO 16-YEAR-OLDS, 404 00:19:54,167 --> 00:19:57,100 A 15-YEAR-OLD, AND A 10-YEAR-OLD, AND MY HUSBAND. 405 00:19:57,100 --> 00:19:59,300 SOME OF THOSE KIDS ARE VERY YOUNG. 406 00:19:59,300 --> 00:20:01,333 AND THEY BRING YOU FOOD, 407 00:20:01,333 --> 00:20:03,367 THEY'RE RESPONDING TO YOUR DEMAND, RIGHT? 408 00:20:03,367 --> 00:20:05,833 THEY JUST LOVE ME SO MUCH, THEY JUST BRING IT TO ME. 409 00:20:05,833 --> 00:20:09,800 THEY LOVE YOU SO MUCH, THEY KILL YOU WITH THE LOVE, RIGHT? 410 00:20:09,800 --> 00:20:11,233 YES, I G-- YES. 411 00:20:11,233 --> 00:20:12,967 WHAT ABOUT YOUR HUSBAND? 412 00:20:12,967 --> 00:20:16,100 MY HUSBAND IS SICK, SO HE CAN'T TAKE CARE OF ME. 413 00:20:16,100 --> 00:20:19,000 MILLA'S DYNAMIC AT HOME IS CONCERNING TO ME. 414 00:20:19,000 --> 00:20:22,567 SHE HAS A LOT OF YOUNG KIDS THAT BRING HER FOOD. 415 00:20:22,567 --> 00:20:24,267 AT THEIR AGE, THEY DON'T KNOW ANY BETTER, 416 00:20:24,267 --> 00:20:28,400 SO MILLA HAS CREATED A VERY BAD SITUATION FOR HERSELF. 417 00:20:28,400 --> 00:20:31,567 LET'S CHECK YOUR WEIGHT REAL QUICK. 418 00:20:31,567 --> 00:20:32,833 OKAY. 419 00:20:32,833 --> 00:20:35,600 YOU'RE JUST ABOUT 750 POUNDS. 420 00:20:35,600 --> 00:20:38,833 MILLA HAS A LOT OF ISSUES THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS 421 00:20:38,833 --> 00:20:42,133 BEFORE SHE'S READY FOR ANY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 422 00:20:42,133 --> 00:20:47,100 WE NEED TO GET HER OUT OF THAT BED AND WALKING, BUT TO DO THAT, 423 00:20:47,100 --> 00:20:49,667 WE NEED TO ADDRESS THE LYMPHEDEMA MASS ON HER LEG. 424 00:20:49,667 --> 00:20:53,667 IT'S MAKING IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR HER TO WALK. 425 00:20:53,667 --> 00:20:56,467 SO ADDRESSING HER LYMPHEDEMA IS MY PRIORITY. 426 00:20:56,467 --> 00:21:00,900 AND WE NEED TO GET HER WEIGHT GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION 427 00:21:00,900 --> 00:21:04,967 BEFORE WE TRY TO DO SURGERY AND REMOVE HER LYMPHEDEMA. 428 00:21:04,967 --> 00:21:07,067 WE'RE GONNA PUT YOU ON A HIGH-PROTEIN, 429 00:21:07,067 --> 00:21:09,233 HIGH-FIBER DIET WITH THE CALORIE CONTROL. 430 00:21:09,233 --> 00:21:12,400 THERE WILL BE NO EXTRA FOOD ANYBODY WILL BRING IN FOR YOU, 431 00:21:12,400 --> 00:21:14,300 YOUR FAMILY AND ALL THAT, OKAY? 432 00:21:14,300 --> 00:21:15,700 IF THEY BROUGHT IT, I WOULDN'T EAT IT. 433 00:21:15,700 --> 00:21:17,133 I'M READY. OKAY. 434 00:21:17,133 --> 00:21:20,367 WE'LL SEE IF WE CAN GET YOU SITUATED AND DO SOME TESTING. 435 00:21:20,367 --> 00:21:21,867 I NEED TO SEE WHAT'S GOING ON, OKAY? 436 00:21:21,867 --> 00:21:23,867 WE'RE GOING TO TAKE CARE OF YOU. 437 00:21:23,867 --> 00:21:26,067 THANK YOU, DR. NOWZARADAN. 438 00:21:26,067 --> 00:21:30,500 ** 439 00:21:32,667 --> 00:21:34,667 Milla: I'VE BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL ON THIS CONTROLLED DIET 440 00:21:34,667 --> 00:21:36,300 FOR A COUPLE WEEKS NOW. 441 00:21:36,300 --> 00:21:37,800 THIS IS GOOD. 442 00:21:37,800 --> 00:21:42,500 AT FIRST, THE CRAVINGS WERE PRETTY OVERWHELMING. 443 00:21:42,500 --> 00:21:46,633 BUT I DIDN'T HAVE ANY OPTIONS BUT TO EAT WHAT THEY GAVE ME. 444 00:21:46,633 --> 00:21:49,700 AND NOW I'M GETTING USED TO IT. 445 00:21:49,700 --> 00:21:51,500 ** 446 00:21:51,500 --> 00:21:54,700 I KNOW I HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO. 447 00:21:54,700 --> 00:21:56,633 BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, 448 00:21:56,633 --> 00:21:59,067 I'M LOSING WEIGHT, AND IT FEELS REALLY GOOD. 449 00:21:59,067 --> 00:22:02,100 ** 450 00:22:08,700 --> 00:22:10,567 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 451 00:22:10,567 --> 00:22:12,700 HI, MILLA. 452 00:22:12,700 --> 00:22:14,133 HI, DR. NOWZARADAN. HOW ARE YOU? 453 00:22:14,133 --> 00:22:15,300 SO FAR, SO GOOD. 454 00:22:15,300 --> 00:22:17,533 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS PAST MONTH, WE HAVE BEEN ABLE 455 00:22:17,533 --> 00:22:20,067 TO GET MILLA'S WEIGHT GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION 456 00:22:20,067 --> 00:22:21,300 WITH THE CONTROLLED DIET. 457 00:22:21,300 --> 00:22:23,533 LET'S CHECK YOUR WEIGHT. 458 00:22:23,533 --> 00:22:24,533 OKAY. 459 00:22:24,533 --> 00:22:26,200 SHE'S LOST AROUND 50 POUNDS. 460 00:22:26,200 --> 00:22:28,467 OKAY. YOU'RE DOWN TO 700. 461 00:22:28,467 --> 00:22:32,100 THAT'S GOOD PROGRESS SINCE YOU FIRST STARTED. 462 00:22:32,100 --> 00:22:34,800 BUT I WANT HER TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS 463 00:22:34,800 --> 00:22:38,933 BEFORE I FEEL SHE'S READY FOR LYMPHEDEMA-REMOVAL SURGERY. 464 00:22:38,933 --> 00:22:42,133 IF SHE LOSES A TOTAL OF 100 POUNDS, 465 00:22:42,133 --> 00:22:44,567 IT WILL HELP REDUCE HER LYMPHEDEMA 466 00:22:44,567 --> 00:22:48,333 TO BE SOMEWHERE BETWEEN 40 TO 60 POUNDS. 467 00:22:48,333 --> 00:22:53,367 THE SMALLER IT IS, THE LESS RISKY THE PROCEDURE WILL BE. 468 00:22:53,367 --> 00:22:55,300 Dr. Nowzaradan: NOW WE'RE GONNA SEND YOU HOME 469 00:22:55,300 --> 00:22:57,300 TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS ON YOUR OWN. 470 00:22:57,300 --> 00:22:58,367 OKAY. 471 00:22:58,367 --> 00:23:00,700 AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS 472 00:23:00,700 --> 00:23:02,833 OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS. 473 00:23:02,833 --> 00:23:06,167 IT WILL SHOW ME THAT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ARE READY 474 00:23:06,167 --> 00:23:09,167 TO MAKE CHANGES YOU NEED TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 475 00:23:09,167 --> 00:23:11,633 ONCE WE GET YOU UP AND WALKING. 476 00:23:11,633 --> 00:23:12,900 IF MILLA GOES HOME 477 00:23:12,900 --> 00:23:15,967 AND WE DON'T DO ANYTHING TO HELP CHANGE THE DYNAMIC, 478 00:23:15,967 --> 00:23:20,067 THEN THEY'RE GOING TO FALL BACK INTO THEIR OLD HABITS. 479 00:23:20,067 --> 00:23:22,533 NOW, I WANT YOUR FAMILY TO COME HERE 480 00:23:22,533 --> 00:23:25,733 SO WE CAN TEACH THEM SOME THINGS ABOUT NUTRITION 481 00:23:25,733 --> 00:23:28,467 SO THEY WILL HAVE A BETTER UNDERSTANDING 482 00:23:28,467 --> 00:23:31,067 OF WHAT THEY SHOULD OR SHOULDN'T BRING YOU. 483 00:23:31,067 --> 00:23:32,767 THAT WOULD BE GREAT. OKAY? 484 00:23:32,767 --> 00:23:34,100 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 485 00:23:34,100 --> 00:23:36,333 IF THE FAMILY DOESN'T UNDERSTAND 486 00:23:36,333 --> 00:23:38,867 HOW TO START HELPING HER BY SAYING NO, 487 00:23:38,867 --> 00:23:42,600 THEN MILLA IS GOING TO START GAINING AGAIN AT HOME. 488 00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:45,733 IF THAT HAPPENS, IT'S NOT GOING TO BE LONG 489 00:23:45,733 --> 00:23:49,067 BEFORE HER HEART OR HER BODY JUST GIVES OUT. 490 00:23:49,067 --> 00:23:51,600 ** 491 00:23:55,233 --> 00:23:59,400 ** 492 00:24:01,433 --> 00:24:03,467 Milla: I'VE BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A MONTH NOW, 493 00:24:03,467 --> 00:24:06,667 AND I'M PROUD OF THE PROGRESS I'VE MADE. 494 00:24:06,667 --> 00:24:08,833 HEY. 495 00:24:08,833 --> 00:24:12,067 I'VE LOST 50 POUNDS, AND THE DOCTOR'S SENDING ME HOME 496 00:24:12,067 --> 00:24:14,467 TO LOSE THE NEXT 50 POUNDS ON MY OWN. 497 00:24:14,467 --> 00:24:17,500 AND I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE THE REAL TEST FOR ME. 498 00:24:17,500 --> 00:24:20,400 JOSHUA, NO MORE. 499 00:24:21,200 --> 00:24:23,133 JUST FIVE MORE? 500 00:24:23,133 --> 00:24:25,067 OKAY. NO MORE. 501 00:24:25,067 --> 00:24:27,533 I'VE HAD MY KIDS BRING ME WHATEVER I WANT, 502 00:24:27,533 --> 00:24:30,100 AND THAT PUTS THEM IN A DIFFICULT POSITION. 503 00:24:30,100 --> 00:24:33,833 SO THE DOCTOR WANTS MY CHILDREN TO HEAR FROM THE NUTRITIONIST 504 00:24:33,833 --> 00:24:35,467 BEFORE HE LETS ME GO HOME. 505 00:24:35,467 --> 00:24:38,467 HE WANTS THEM TO UNDERSTAND HEALTHY EATING 506 00:24:38,467 --> 00:24:41,467 AND WHAT THEY SHOULD AND SHOULDN'T GIVE ME 507 00:24:41,467 --> 00:24:42,600 SO THAT WE CAN WORK TOGETHER AS A TEAM. 508 00:24:42,600 --> 00:24:44,700 MRS. CLARK. 509 00:24:44,700 --> 00:24:45,967 Milla: HELLO. HEY, THERE. 510 00:24:45,967 --> 00:24:47,433 I'M KINSEY. I'M THE DIETITIAN. 511 00:24:47,433 --> 00:24:48,867 I SEE YOUR WONDERFUL FAMILY'S HERE. 512 00:24:48,867 --> 00:24:50,233 YEAH. 513 00:24:50,233 --> 00:24:51,967 Dr. Davidson: SO YOU GUYS ARE GONNA BE HER SUPPORT SYSTEM 514 00:24:51,967 --> 00:24:53,533 BEHIND ALL THIS, RIGHT? 515 00:24:53,533 --> 00:24:55,067 BECAUSE THE MORE SUPPORT THAT SHE'S GOT, 516 00:24:55,067 --> 00:24:56,667 THE BETTER OFF SHE'S GONNA BE. 517 00:24:56,667 --> 00:25:00,367 OKAY, SO, WHAT WE'VE GOT YOU ON IS THE HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB, 518 00:25:00,367 --> 00:25:02,367 NO FRUIT, NO FRUIT JUICE DIET. 519 00:25:02,367 --> 00:25:04,933 YOU WANT TO BUILD YOUR MEALS AROUND YOUR PROTEIN, 520 00:25:04,933 --> 00:25:07,500 EAT THE PROTEIN FIRST, THEN GO FOR THOSE VEGGIES. 521 00:25:07,500 --> 00:25:11,267 SO SOME GOOD LEAN MEATS -- GRILLED CHICKEN, FISH, TURKEY. 522 00:25:11,267 --> 00:25:13,800 SHE CAN HAVE A DECENT SERVING SIZE. 523 00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:16,200 IT'S JUST WHAT WE'RE SERVING HER. 524 00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:18,267 WE GOT TO GET RID OF THE JUNK FOOD. 525 00:25:18,267 --> 00:25:19,700 WE GOT TO GET RID OF ALL THAT FROM THE HOUSE. 526 00:25:19,700 --> 00:25:22,900 NO SODA, NO POTATOES, NO STARCHES. 527 00:25:22,900 --> 00:25:24,267 IF Y'ALL GO OUT AND GET SOMETHING, 528 00:25:24,267 --> 00:25:26,200 DON'T BRING IT BACK AND BE EATING IT IN FRONT OF HER. 529 00:25:26,200 --> 00:25:29,167 IT'S JUST GONNA MAKE HER WANT IT. 530 00:25:29,167 --> 00:25:31,067 Milla: I'M SAD THAT THEY HAVE TO MAKE 531 00:25:31,067 --> 00:25:33,533 SUCH A HUGE CHANGE IN THEIR LIFE JUST FOR ME RIGHT NOW. 532 00:25:33,533 --> 00:25:35,300 IT'S GONNA BE AN INCREDIBLE JOURNEY, 533 00:25:35,300 --> 00:25:36,767 BUT IT'S GONNA BE KIND OF TOUGH. 534 00:25:36,767 --> 00:25:39,567 Milla: BUT IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THIS, 535 00:25:39,567 --> 00:25:41,933 I HAVE TO HAVE THEIR STRENGTH AND SUPPORT. 536 00:25:41,933 --> 00:25:44,067 WHAT ARE YOU WANTING TO DO THIS FOR? 537 00:25:44,067 --> 00:25:46,767 SO I CAN BECOME INDEPENDENT AND TAKE CARE OF MYSELF 538 00:25:46,767 --> 00:25:49,167 AND YOU ALL WILL NOT HAVE TO DO IT ANYMORE. 539 00:25:49,167 --> 00:25:50,267 OKAY? 540 00:25:50,267 --> 00:25:51,700 AND THAT'S WHAT YOU ALL WANT, TOO, RIGHT? 541 00:25:51,700 --> 00:25:54,500 THIS IS HER CHANCE, RIGHT? 542 00:25:54,500 --> 00:25:57,833 Y'ALL, IT IS SO VITALLY IMPORTANT 543 00:25:57,833 --> 00:26:00,767 THAT SHE FOLLOWS THIS DIET. 544 00:26:00,767 --> 00:26:03,600 I NEED MY FAMILY TO HELP ME FIGHT FOR THIS 545 00:26:03,600 --> 00:26:06,400 IF I'M GONNA HAVE A CHANCE. 546 00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:09,800 THIS IS A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH FOR ME RIGHT NOW. 547 00:26:15,233 --> 00:26:17,133 Crystal: HERE'S DINNER, MOM. 548 00:26:17,133 --> 00:26:19,233 OKAY, BABY, THANK YOU. 549 00:26:19,233 --> 00:26:21,300 THIS PAST MONTH HAS BEEN HARD, 550 00:26:21,300 --> 00:26:26,267 BUT I'VE STAYED WITH MY DIET AND WHAT I SHOULD BE EATING. 551 00:26:26,267 --> 00:26:28,967 I HAVE HAD A LITTLE HUNGER, 552 00:26:28,967 --> 00:26:32,267 BUT I'M LOOKING AT HUNGER PAINS AS MELTING OFF THE FAT. 553 00:26:32,267 --> 00:26:34,567 Crystal: CALEB, HANNAH, JACOB, IT'S TIME TO EAT. 554 00:26:34,567 --> 00:26:36,333 Milla: IT'S BEEN HARD FOR THE KIDS 555 00:26:36,333 --> 00:26:38,600 TO ADAPT TO A HEALTHIER DIET. 556 00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:42,067 THEY'RE STILL EATING A LOT OF FRIED FOODS AND CARBS. 557 00:26:42,067 --> 00:26:43,433 ** 558 00:26:43,433 --> 00:26:45,567 SO THE RULE IS, THEY CAN HAVE IT 559 00:26:45,567 --> 00:26:48,400 AS LONG AS IT DOESN'T COME IN MY ROOM. 560 00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:53,100 I'M VERY PROUD OF HER FOR WHAT SHE HAS ACCOMPLISHED, 561 00:26:53,100 --> 00:26:54,700 AND SHE'S SHOWING ALL OF US 562 00:26:54,700 --> 00:26:57,100 THAT SHE CAN EAT LIKE SHE'S SUPPOSED TO 563 00:26:57,100 --> 00:26:58,100 AND NOT SNACK. 564 00:26:58,100 --> 00:27:00,467 Milla: I HAVE ONE MORE MONTH 565 00:27:00,467 --> 00:27:04,167 BEFORE I GO BACK TO THE DOCTOR AND SEE MY PROGRESS, 566 00:27:04,167 --> 00:27:07,067 SO I'M PUSHING MYSELF AND DOING EVERYTHING I HAVE TO 567 00:27:07,067 --> 00:27:09,700 TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS AND GET THE SURGERY. 568 00:27:12,500 --> 00:27:17,667 THE KIDS HAVE BEEN TAKING TURNS DOING PHYSICAL THERAPY WITH ME. 569 00:27:17,667 --> 00:27:19,367 OKAY. 570 00:27:19,367 --> 00:27:20,967 Jacob: SINCE MAMA'S BEEN HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL, 571 00:27:20,967 --> 00:27:22,300 WE HELP HER WORK OUT EVERY DAY. 572 00:27:22,300 --> 00:27:26,300 I'M PROUD OF HER, OF THE COMMITMENT SHE'S PUTTING FORTH. 573 00:27:26,300 --> 00:27:27,833 I'M PRETTY EXCITED ABOUT IT. 574 00:27:27,833 --> 00:27:31,433 Milla: JUST HAVING THEM HERE TO ENCOURAGE ME AND HELP PUSH ME, 575 00:27:31,433 --> 00:27:33,900 THERE'S NO GREATER MOTIVATION THAN THAT. 576 00:27:33,900 --> 00:27:35,367 Caleb: I'M IMPRESSED 577 00:27:35,367 --> 00:27:37,400 'CAUSE SHE'S BEEN DOING HER EXERCISE EVERY DAY. 578 00:27:37,400 --> 00:27:39,067 THIS IS A GOOD CHANGE FOR OUR FAMILY. 579 00:27:39,067 --> 00:27:41,300 YOU PUSH WITH ALL YOUR WEIGHT. 580 00:27:41,300 --> 00:27:43,733 YOU DON'T LET ME PUSH YOU AT ALL. 581 00:27:43,733 --> 00:27:45,100 OKAY, Y'ALL READY? 582 00:27:45,100 --> 00:27:47,567 Milla: THIS IS LITERALLY MY LAST CHANCE, 583 00:27:47,567 --> 00:27:51,233 SO NOTHING IS GONNA STOP ME FROM GETTING SURGERY 584 00:27:51,233 --> 00:27:53,333 AND GETTING UP OUT OF THIS BED. 585 00:27:53,333 --> 00:27:55,067 GAVE ME A WORKOUT. 586 00:27:55,067 --> 00:27:57,867 I HAVE TO DO THIS. 587 00:28:04,733 --> 00:28:07,567 I'VE BEEN HOME FOR TWO MONTHS, 588 00:28:07,567 --> 00:28:09,900 TRYING TO MAKE THE PROGRESS THE DOCTOR WANTED 589 00:28:09,900 --> 00:28:11,800 SO I CAN GET MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED. 590 00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:13,633 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 591 00:28:13,633 --> 00:28:14,967 Man: ON 3. 1, 2, 3. 592 00:28:14,967 --> 00:28:19,067 Milla: AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH PROGRESS I'VE MADE. 593 00:28:19,067 --> 00:28:20,533 HOW YOU FEELING? 594 00:28:20,533 --> 00:28:23,767 ** 595 00:28:23,767 --> 00:28:25,433 I FEEL LIKE I'VE MADE A LOT, 596 00:28:25,433 --> 00:28:29,700 BUT WITHOUT A SCALE TO KNOW, I'M JUST NOT SURE. 597 00:28:29,700 --> 00:28:30,967 ** 598 00:28:30,967 --> 00:28:32,767 I HAVE TO GET THE SURGERY. 599 00:28:34,067 --> 00:28:37,800 SO I'M SCARED ABOUT WHAT THE SCALE'S GONNA SAY. 600 00:28:37,800 --> 00:28:41,467 I KNOW THAT IF I HAVE NOT MADE THE PROGRESS I NEED... 601 00:28:41,467 --> 00:28:43,067 Man: 1, 2, 3. 602 00:28:43,067 --> 00:28:46,067 Milla: ...THEN I'M ABOUT TO LOSE MY LAST CHANCE TO LIVE. 603 00:28:51,333 --> 00:28:55,867 ** 604 00:28:57,400 --> 00:29:00,767 Milla: I'M REALLY NERVOUS RIGHT NOW. 605 00:29:00,767 --> 00:29:05,067 DR. NOW SENT ME HOME TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS ON MY OWN 606 00:29:05,067 --> 00:29:07,467 AND GET BELOW 650. 607 00:29:07,467 --> 00:29:10,800 IF I'VE DONE IT, I GET MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED. 608 00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:15,067 IF I HAVEN'T LOST ENOUGH, I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN. 609 00:29:16,100 --> 00:29:19,233 WITHOUT THAT SURGERY, I CAN'T GET OUT OF THIS BED, 610 00:29:19,233 --> 00:29:22,233 SO EVERYTHING'S RIDING ON THIS RIGHT NOW. 611 00:29:22,233 --> 00:29:23,400 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 612 00:29:23,400 --> 00:29:24,900 HELLO. 613 00:29:24,900 --> 00:29:26,567 HOW ARE YOU? I'M FINE. 614 00:29:26,567 --> 00:29:28,900 SO, ARE YOU STICKING TO YOUR DIET? 615 00:29:28,900 --> 00:29:30,100 I SURE DID. 616 00:29:30,100 --> 00:29:32,133 ANY DIFFICULTY FOR YOUR FAMILY 617 00:29:32,133 --> 00:29:34,900 NOT TO BRING YOU A LOT OF HIGH-CALORIE FOOD? 618 00:29:34,900 --> 00:29:36,900 NO, WE HAD TO EAT WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO. 619 00:29:36,900 --> 00:29:39,300 I'M JUST READY TO TAKE THAT OFF, I HOPE. 620 00:29:39,300 --> 00:29:41,200 WELL, LET'S SEE HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH NOW. 621 00:29:41,200 --> 00:29:43,200 ** 622 00:29:43,200 --> 00:29:44,467 [ KEYPAD BEEPS ] 623 00:29:44,467 --> 00:29:48,733 644, SO YOU LOST ABOUT 60 POUNDS. 624 00:29:48,733 --> 00:29:50,733 OKAY, THAT'S GOOD. 625 00:29:50,733 --> 00:29:52,567 Dr. Nowzaradan: MILLA HAS DONE WELL. 626 00:29:52,567 --> 00:29:55,067 SHE LOST THE WEIGHT SHE NEEDED, SO AT THIS TIME, 627 00:29:55,067 --> 00:29:59,100 I'M GOING TO APPROVE HER FOR LYMPHEDEMA SURGERY. 628 00:29:59,100 --> 00:30:01,933 THIS IS A GREAT IMPROVEMENT FOR HER, 629 00:30:01,933 --> 00:30:03,900 BECAUSE EVERYBODY IN HER HOUSEHOLD 630 00:30:03,900 --> 00:30:06,533 WAS ACCUSTOMED TO BRINGING HER HIGH-CALORIE FOOD. 631 00:30:06,533 --> 00:30:10,733 WE'RE GONNA GO AHEAD AND SET YOU UP FOR TAKING THIS MASS OFF. 632 00:30:10,733 --> 00:30:12,867 OKAY. THANK YOU. 633 00:30:12,867 --> 00:30:16,900 REMOVING THIS MASS IS GOING TO BE A HUGE CHANGE FOR MILLA. 634 00:30:16,900 --> 00:30:20,233 IT'S WHAT KEPT HER IMMOBILE FOR ALMOST THREE YEARS NOW. 635 00:30:20,233 --> 00:30:25,133 WITH IT REMOVED, SHE'LL BE ABLE TO FINALLY TRY TO STAND AGAIN. 636 00:30:25,133 --> 00:30:28,267 BUT SHE HAS A LOT TO DO TO REHABILITATE HER LEG. 637 00:30:28,267 --> 00:30:31,267 AFTER YOUR LYMPHEDEMA SURGERY, 638 00:30:31,267 --> 00:30:34,767 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO WORK TOWARDS STANDING UP, 639 00:30:34,767 --> 00:30:37,767 AND ONCE YOU'RE STANDING UP AND YOU CAN WALK, 640 00:30:37,767 --> 00:30:40,733 THEN WE QUALIFY YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 641 00:30:40,733 --> 00:30:41,967 OKAY. 642 00:30:41,967 --> 00:30:43,933 I'LL SEE YOU FOR YOUR SURGERY SOON. 643 00:30:43,933 --> 00:30:45,833 THANK YOU, SIR. OKAY. 644 00:30:48,267 --> 00:30:50,267 I'M VERY EXCITED TO HAVE MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED. 645 00:30:50,267 --> 00:30:52,233 I'VE HAD IT FOR 10 YEARS. 646 00:30:52,233 --> 00:30:53,967 I'M VERY, VERY HAPPY. 647 00:30:53,967 --> 00:30:57,300 IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I HAD ANY HOPE LIKE THIS 648 00:30:57,300 --> 00:30:58,800 OF GETTING OUT OF MY BED. 649 00:30:58,800 --> 00:31:02,167 IT'S JUST AN INCREDIBLE FEELING. 650 00:31:05,667 --> 00:31:08,100 ** 651 00:31:08,100 --> 00:31:13,200 TODAY, WE'RE DOING A LYMPHEDEMA REMOVAL ON MILLA. 652 00:31:13,200 --> 00:31:15,600 THE MASS ON HER LEG IS EXTREMELY HEAVY, 653 00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:17,433 AND IT'S BEEN LIKE AN ANCHOR, 654 00:31:17,433 --> 00:31:20,633 PREVENTING HER FROM GETTING UP AND WALKING AROUND. 655 00:31:20,633 --> 00:31:26,167 SO THIS REMOVAL TODAY IS GOING TO BE THE MOST SIGNIFICANT STEP 656 00:31:26,167 --> 00:31:27,800 IN REGAINING HER MOBILITY 657 00:31:27,800 --> 00:31:30,100 AND ALLOWING HER TO GET TO A PLACE 658 00:31:30,100 --> 00:31:32,867 WHERE SHE'S READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 659 00:31:32,867 --> 00:31:35,800 SHE HAS A LONG WAY TO GO, 660 00:31:35,800 --> 00:31:38,933 AND THIS IS A FIRST BIG STEP TO GET THERE. 661 00:31:38,933 --> 00:31:42,833 ** 662 00:31:44,667 --> 00:31:46,600 WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL TODAY. 663 00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:50,967 REMOVING A MASS LIKE THIS CAN BE VERY DANGEROUS. 664 00:31:50,967 --> 00:31:54,267 THERE WILL BE LOTS OF FLUID AND HUNDREDS OF BLOOD VESSELS 665 00:31:54,267 --> 00:31:55,667 THAT WE HAVE TO TIE UP. 666 00:31:55,667 --> 00:32:00,400 IF WE MISS EVEN ONE, SHE CAN BLEED OUT. 667 00:32:00,400 --> 00:32:02,767 I'M KIND OF NERVOUS, THEN I'M EXCITED 668 00:32:02,767 --> 00:32:05,367 THAT SHE'S GETTING THE LYMPHEDEMA CUT OFF 669 00:32:05,367 --> 00:32:07,167 SO SHE CAN HAVE HER LIFE BACK. 670 00:32:07,167 --> 00:32:08,867 ** 671 00:32:08,867 --> 00:32:11,967 WE'RE READY TO TAKE THIS OFF. 672 00:32:17,833 --> 00:32:19,400 [ MONITOR BEEPING ] 673 00:32:19,400 --> 00:32:21,433 WE'RE ALMOST FINISHED. 674 00:32:21,433 --> 00:32:23,833 WITH A COUPLE MORE STITCHES, WE'RE GONNA BE DONE. 675 00:32:23,833 --> 00:32:25,367 [ BEEPING CONTINUES ] 676 00:32:25,367 --> 00:32:26,900 EVERYTHING LOOKED GOOD. 677 00:32:26,900 --> 00:32:29,267 SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 678 00:32:29,267 --> 00:32:32,733 WITH THE 5 POUNDS OF FLUID THAT WE LOST, 679 00:32:32,733 --> 00:32:35,833 WE REMOVED 43 POUNDS FROM HER BODY. 680 00:32:35,833 --> 00:32:38,500 TAKE SOME DEEP BREATHS, OKAY? 681 00:32:38,500 --> 00:32:42,833 MILLA'S GOT A NUMBER OF CHALLENGES AHEAD OF HER. 682 00:32:42,833 --> 00:32:45,933 THIS KIND OF OPERATION, UNFORTUNATELY, 683 00:32:45,933 --> 00:32:48,167 CAN TAKE A LONG TIME TO HEAL, 684 00:32:48,167 --> 00:32:49,867 AND SHE HASN'T WALKED FOR SEVERAL YEARS. 685 00:32:49,867 --> 00:32:53,600 SHE HAS LOST A LOT OF MUSCLE STRENGTH IN HER LOWER BODY. 686 00:32:53,600 --> 00:32:57,200 WE NEED TO DO PHYSICAL THERAPY TO GET HER STRENGTH UP, 687 00:32:57,200 --> 00:32:59,267 AND THIS WILL BE PAINFUL FOR HER, 688 00:32:59,267 --> 00:33:01,100 BUT SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO GET UP 689 00:33:01,100 --> 00:33:05,133 AND OUT OF HER BED IF SHE WANTS WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 690 00:33:09,233 --> 00:33:11,467 ** 691 00:33:11,467 --> 00:33:14,167 Milla: I'VE BEEN WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN 692 00:33:14,167 --> 00:33:17,267 THESE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS TO BUILD UP MY LEG STRENGTH. 693 00:33:18,400 --> 00:33:20,800 IT WAS REALLY ROUGH RIGHT AFTER SURGERY, 694 00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:24,433 BUT AFTER A COUPLE OF WEEKS, THE PAIN STARTED GOING AWAY 695 00:33:24,433 --> 00:33:27,267 AND I COULD START TO TRY AND MOVE MY LEG AGAIN. 696 00:33:27,267 --> 00:33:30,833 SO THIS IS THE DAY THE DOCTOR WANTS ME TO TRY AND STAND UP. 697 00:33:30,833 --> 00:33:35,100 BUT I'M SCARED I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO DO IT. 698 00:33:35,100 --> 00:33:38,133 DO WHAT YOU CAN DO, AND LET US KNOW WHEN YOU NEED THE HELP. 699 00:33:38,133 --> 00:33:39,133 OKAY. 700 00:33:39,133 --> 00:33:41,333 CAN I START NOW? YEAH. 701 00:33:41,333 --> 00:33:42,667 ** 702 00:33:42,667 --> 00:33:43,767 WE GOT YOU. THERE YOU GO. 703 00:33:43,767 --> 00:33:44,767 DOING GOOD, MS. CLARK. 704 00:33:44,767 --> 00:33:46,067 ** 705 00:33:46,067 --> 00:33:48,167 I WANT SO BADLY TO GET OUT THIS BED, 706 00:33:48,167 --> 00:33:50,467 BUT IT'S BEEN YEARS SINCE I USED MY LEGS. 707 00:33:50,467 --> 00:33:51,767 THERE YOU GO, GIRL. 708 00:33:51,767 --> 00:33:53,267 THERE YOU GO. GOOD JOB. 709 00:33:53,267 --> 00:33:54,567 THERE YOU GO, GIRL. 710 00:33:54,567 --> 00:33:56,600 [ LAUGHTER ] 711 00:33:56,600 --> 00:33:58,267 LET'S SEE IF I CAN STAND BY MYSELF NOW. 712 00:33:58,267 --> 00:33:59,267 ALL RIGHT. 713 00:33:59,267 --> 00:34:01,633 I JUST REALLY HOPE I CAN DO THIS 714 00:34:01,633 --> 00:34:04,467 AND THAT I DON'T END UP ON THE FLOOR. 715 00:34:04,467 --> 00:34:07,067 YOU NEED TO BREATHE IN THROUGH YOUR NOSE, BREATHE OUT YOUR MOUTH. 716 00:34:07,067 --> 00:34:09,067 LET ME SEE YOUR HAND. 717 00:34:09,067 --> 00:34:11,700 NO. 718 00:34:13,100 --> 00:34:14,133 IT'S OKAY. 719 00:34:17,300 --> 00:34:18,367 Woman: ALL RIGHT, READY? 720 00:34:18,367 --> 00:34:20,667 ALL RIGHT. 721 00:34:20,667 --> 00:34:22,500 THERE YOU GO. 722 00:34:22,500 --> 00:34:24,067 DON'T HELP ME, DON'T HELP ME. 723 00:34:24,067 --> 00:34:25,200 NO. LITTLE BIT MORE. 724 00:34:25,200 --> 00:34:26,467 NEED A LITTLE BIT MORE. 725 00:34:26,467 --> 00:34:28,233 Milla: I'M GETTING BACK IN THIS BED ON MY OWN. 726 00:34:28,233 --> 00:34:29,933 1, 2... 727 00:34:29,933 --> 00:34:32,500 THERE YOU GO! 728 00:34:32,500 --> 00:34:33,867 I MADE IT. 729 00:34:33,867 --> 00:34:35,233 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 730 00:34:35,233 --> 00:34:36,633 IT'S HARD NOT TO BE FRUSTRATED 731 00:34:36,633 --> 00:34:38,467 AND DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF RIGHT NOW. 732 00:34:38,467 --> 00:34:40,400 BYE-BYE. 733 00:34:40,400 --> 00:34:43,500 I KNOW I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THIS BED, 734 00:34:43,500 --> 00:34:46,967 ESPECIALLY IF I WANT TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 735 00:34:51,867 --> 00:34:54,100 ** 736 00:34:54,100 --> 00:34:57,200 THERE ARE TIMES IN LIFE THAT YOU FEEL LIKE 737 00:34:57,200 --> 00:35:02,800 THINGS HAVE GOTTEN SO BAD THAT YOU JUST WANT TO GIVE UP HOPE. 738 00:35:05,667 --> 00:35:08,767 THAT'S THE MOMENT YOU EITHER FIND THE INSPIRATION 739 00:35:08,767 --> 00:35:15,633 TO TURN IT ALL AROUND... OR YOU SPIRAL OUT OF CONTROL. 740 00:35:20,233 --> 00:35:23,767 ** 741 00:35:23,767 --> 00:35:26,400 Y'ALL READY? 742 00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:30,433 THE DOCTOR SAID HE WAS HAPPY TO SEE ME MAKING SOME PROGRESS 743 00:35:30,433 --> 00:35:33,933 BUT THAT I STILL HAVE TO PUSH MYSELF TO GET UP OUT OF MY BED. 744 00:35:33,933 --> 00:35:35,600 GET MY WALKER OUT THE CLOSET, CALEB. 745 00:35:35,600 --> 00:35:38,800 BUT NO MATTER HOW BAD I WANT THIS 746 00:35:38,800 --> 00:35:40,767 OR HOW HARD I PUSH MYSELF... 747 00:35:40,767 --> 00:35:42,067 I'M UP. 748 00:35:42,067 --> 00:35:43,733 I'M UP. 749 00:35:43,733 --> 00:35:49,933 ...I GET TO THE EDGE OF THE BED, AND I THINK, "I CAN'T DO THIS." 750 00:35:49,933 --> 00:35:52,067 I GET SCARED THAT MY LEGS ARE STILL TOO WEAK 751 00:35:52,067 --> 00:35:55,633 AND THAT I'M GONNA FALL. 752 00:35:55,633 --> 00:35:57,500 I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HOLDING ME BACK. 753 00:35:57,500 --> 00:36:01,300 SO THE DOCTOR SAID HE'S SENDING A THERAPIST 754 00:36:01,300 --> 00:36:03,300 TO TRY AND HELP ME GET PAST THIS. 755 00:36:03,300 --> 00:36:04,667 ** 756 00:36:04,667 --> 00:36:06,333 1, 2, 3. 757 00:36:06,333 --> 00:36:10,667 I'M NERVOUS, BUT I'M WILLING TO DO ANYTHING AT THIS POINT. 758 00:36:10,667 --> 00:36:11,833 PERFECT. 759 00:36:11,833 --> 00:36:12,900 ** 760 00:36:12,900 --> 00:36:15,933 I JUST HOPE IT HELPS. 761 00:36:18,867 --> 00:36:22,200 ** 762 00:36:23,500 --> 00:36:26,167 DR. NOWZARADAN HAS BROUGHT ME BACK TO THE HOSPITAL 763 00:36:26,167 --> 00:36:28,233 TO TRY AND STAND HERE. 764 00:36:28,233 --> 00:36:32,467 HE SAYS FROM NOW ON, I'M ONLY GETTING MY WEIGHT CHECKED 765 00:36:32,467 --> 00:36:35,700 ON A REGULAR SCALE AND NOT A BED SCALE. 766 00:36:37,067 --> 00:36:39,500 IF I WANT TO CHART MY PROGRESS, I HAVE TO GET UP 767 00:36:39,500 --> 00:36:43,700 AND PUT MY WEIGHT ON MY LEGS FOR AT LEAST A MOMENT. 768 00:36:43,700 --> 00:36:45,200 HI, THERE. 769 00:36:45,200 --> 00:36:46,300 GOOD MORNING. 770 00:36:46,300 --> 00:36:47,400 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 771 00:36:47,400 --> 00:36:48,467 I'M DOING FINE. AND YOU? 772 00:36:48,467 --> 00:36:49,733 ALL RIGHT. 773 00:36:49,733 --> 00:36:52,300 WHAT I'M GONNA DO IS GONNA BRING THE SCALE HERE 774 00:36:52,300 --> 00:36:54,233 AND SOME HELP AND SEE IF WE CAN'T GET YOU UP. 775 00:36:54,233 --> 00:36:56,133 OKAY? OKAY, OKAY. 776 00:36:56,133 --> 00:36:58,067 ** 777 00:36:58,067 --> 00:37:01,467 EVERY TIME I FAIL, IT'S SUCH A DEFEAT. 778 00:37:01,467 --> 00:37:05,433 AND IT'S SO HARD TO EXPERIENCE THAT OVER AND OVER. 779 00:37:05,433 --> 00:37:08,633 ** 780 00:37:08,633 --> 00:37:10,433 PUT SOME PRESSURE ON YOUR FEET 781 00:37:10,433 --> 00:37:11,600 AND PUSHING AGAINST THE SCALE. 782 00:37:11,600 --> 00:37:13,233 ON THE COUNT OF 3. 783 00:37:13,233 --> 00:37:14,467 1... 784 00:37:14,467 --> 00:37:16,900 2... 785 00:37:16,900 --> 00:37:18,400 3. 786 00:37:18,400 --> 00:37:21,067 I CAN'T EVEN MOVE. 787 00:37:21,067 --> 00:37:23,133 ** 788 00:37:23,133 --> 00:37:24,200 YOU OKAY? LET'S TRY IT AGAIN. 789 00:37:24,200 --> 00:37:25,700 I WANT TO TRY AGAIN. ALL RIGHT. 790 00:37:25,700 --> 00:37:27,067 1... 791 00:37:27,067 --> 00:37:28,567 2... 792 00:37:28,567 --> 00:37:29,767 3. 793 00:37:31,567 --> 00:37:33,633 I CAN'T. I CAN'T, NO. 794 00:37:33,633 --> 00:37:35,767 I'M SO SORRY. Man: IT'S OKAY. 795 00:37:35,767 --> 00:37:37,267 IT'S ALL RIGHT. IT'S OKAY. 796 00:37:37,267 --> 00:37:38,567 Dr. Nowzaradan: OKAY? 797 00:37:38,567 --> 00:37:39,633 YEAH, I'M OKAY. 798 00:37:39,633 --> 00:37:41,400 I'M SORRY, Y'ALL. I CAN'T DO IT. 799 00:37:41,400 --> 00:37:45,767 MILLA IS REALLY TRYING AND PUTTING FORTH A LOT OF EFFORT 800 00:37:45,767 --> 00:37:48,233 AND HAS BEEN EXERCISING TO THE POINT 801 00:37:48,233 --> 00:37:51,800 THAT HER LEGS ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO STAND. 802 00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:53,233 BUT WHEN SHE HAS TO PUT WEIGHT ON HER LEGS, 803 00:37:53,233 --> 00:37:56,267 SHE JUST CAN'T GET HERSELF TO DO IT. 804 00:37:56,267 --> 00:38:01,267 SO WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO FIND A DIFFERENT WAY TO MOTIVATE HER. 805 00:38:01,267 --> 00:38:04,833 Dr. Nowzaradan: MILLA, HERE'S WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO. 806 00:38:04,833 --> 00:38:08,633 THE PLAN WILL BE THAT WE GET YOU GOING HOME, 807 00:38:08,633 --> 00:38:10,767 AND WE'RE GONNA SEND AN E.M.T. TO YOUR HOME 808 00:38:10,767 --> 00:38:12,267 EVERY DAY FOR THE NEXT MONTH 809 00:38:12,267 --> 00:38:14,533 TO SEE IF WE CAN GET YOU UP IN A WHEELCHAIR 810 00:38:14,533 --> 00:38:17,300 AND EVERY DAY GO OUTSIDE, OKAY? 811 00:38:17,300 --> 00:38:21,067 I WANT YOU TO START TO SEE WHAT IT'S GONNA BE LIKE 812 00:38:21,067 --> 00:38:23,067 TO GET OUT OF THIS BED. 813 00:38:23,067 --> 00:38:25,967 I'M HOPING ONCE YOU SEE WHAT THIS IS LIKE, 814 00:38:25,967 --> 00:38:29,100 YOU WILL WANT IT ENOUGH TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN. 815 00:38:29,100 --> 00:38:30,100 Milla: OKAY. 816 00:38:30,100 --> 00:38:31,867 I WANT TO START HER ON A DAILY HABIT 817 00:38:31,867 --> 00:38:33,500 OF GETTING UP AND OUT OF THE BED. 818 00:38:33,500 --> 00:38:35,633 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 819 00:38:35,633 --> 00:38:37,067 OKAY. THANK YOU. 820 00:38:37,067 --> 00:38:40,067 THE NEXT TIME WE TRY TO GET HER OUT OF THE BED, 821 00:38:40,067 --> 00:38:43,200 IT WILL BE A YEAR SINCE WE STARTED THIS JOURNEY. 822 00:38:43,200 --> 00:38:45,200 IF SHE WON'T BE ABLE TO STAND, 823 00:38:45,200 --> 00:38:48,067 THEN WE WON'T BE ABLE TO DO MUCH FOR HER. 824 00:38:48,067 --> 00:38:51,700 THIS IS THE LAST CHANCE WE'RE GIVING HER TO DO THIS. 825 00:38:56,133 --> 00:38:57,800 ** 826 00:39:01,067 --> 00:39:03,233 [ BIRDS CHIRPING ] 827 00:39:03,233 --> 00:39:04,733 NERVOUS. I NEVER DONE THIS BEFORE. 828 00:39:04,733 --> 00:39:05,733 WE GOT YOU. 829 00:39:05,733 --> 00:39:07,600 [ INDISTINCT CONVERSATION ] 830 00:39:16,200 --> 00:39:18,733 ** 831 00:39:18,733 --> 00:39:20,633 THERE WE GO. Milla: THERE WE GO. 832 00:39:20,633 --> 00:39:21,667 ARE YOU ON THERE? 833 00:39:21,667 --> 00:39:23,567 YEAH, I'M ON THE CHAIR. THANK YOU. 834 00:39:23,567 --> 00:39:24,967 SEE? Milla: YEAH. 835 00:39:24,967 --> 00:39:26,233 I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M IN A WHEELCHAIR. 836 00:39:26,233 --> 00:39:27,667 I HAVEN'T BEEN IN A WHEELCHAIR IN YEARS. 837 00:39:27,667 --> 00:39:32,500 IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE JUST BEEN ABLE TO GO OUTSIDE. 838 00:39:32,500 --> 00:39:35,567 I LIKE SEEING MY MOM UP LIKE THIS. GIVES ME HOPE. 839 00:39:35,567 --> 00:39:37,433 RIGHT ABOUT THERE. THAT'S IT. 840 00:39:37,433 --> 00:39:39,067 LOCK HER. OH, THANK YOU. 841 00:39:39,067 --> 00:39:41,800 [ LAUGHTER ] 842 00:39:43,500 --> 00:39:45,667 YOU'RE GOOD, YOU'RE GOOD. 843 00:39:45,667 --> 00:39:49,167 JUST TO SIT AND FEEL THE SUN AND THE FRESH AIR 844 00:39:49,167 --> 00:39:53,200 AND JUST ENJOY THIS MOMENT WITH MY KIDS IS SO, SO WONDERFUL. 845 00:39:53,200 --> 00:39:55,333 GIVE ME THE BALL. 846 00:39:57,567 --> 00:40:00,067 [ CHUCKLES ] YOU SURE YOU CAN CATCH? 847 00:40:01,167 --> 00:40:03,133 OKAY, I SEE YOU. 848 00:40:03,133 --> 00:40:04,500 I'D FORGOTTEN WHAT IT WAS LIKE 849 00:40:04,500 --> 00:40:07,067 JUST TO SEE THEM AS KIDS HAVING FUN. 850 00:40:07,067 --> 00:40:09,200 [ LAUGHS ] 851 00:40:09,200 --> 00:40:13,700 THEY DESERVE TO HAVE A MOM WHO'S WITH THEM LIKE THIS EVERY DAY. 852 00:40:13,700 --> 00:40:17,833 I'M GONNA FIGHT TO STAND AND GET MY LIFE BACK 853 00:40:17,833 --> 00:40:19,500 AND BE THERE WITH MY FAMILY AGAIN. 854 00:40:19,500 --> 00:40:21,667 ** 855 00:40:27,233 --> 00:40:29,967 I'M DOING THIS TODAY. 856 00:40:29,967 --> 00:40:32,567 I DON'T CARE IF IT NEARLY KILLS ME. 857 00:40:32,567 --> 00:40:36,033 I'M PUTTING MY WEIGHT ON MY OWN TWO LEGS, FINALLY. 858 00:40:36,033 --> 00:40:37,533 ** 859 00:40:37,533 --> 00:40:40,567 BEING OUTSIDE, TASTING THE LIFE I'VE BEEN MISSING 860 00:40:40,567 --> 00:40:43,400 HAS BEEN SUCH AN EYE-OPENING EXPERIENCE FOR ME. 861 00:40:43,400 --> 00:40:45,167 YEAH, BRING THE SCALE IN. 862 00:40:45,167 --> 00:40:47,200 Milla: I'M NOT MISSING ANOTHER DAY. 863 00:40:47,200 --> 00:40:50,667 MY PAST IS NOT GONNA DICTATE MY FUTURE ANYMORE. 864 00:40:50,667 --> 00:40:52,733 HI. [ SIGHS ] 865 00:40:52,733 --> 00:40:54,633 Man: WHENEVER YOU'RE READY. JUST LIKE WE PRACTICED, OKAY? 866 00:40:54,633 --> 00:40:56,367 YEAH. 867 00:40:56,367 --> 00:40:57,833 I'M SCARED. I'M GETTING SCARED NOW. 868 00:40:57,833 --> 00:40:59,333 DON'T GET SCARED, MILLA. WE GOT YOU. 869 00:40:59,333 --> 00:41:04,233 1...2...3. 870 00:41:04,233 --> 00:41:05,567 I'M DOING A LITTLE. 871 00:41:05,567 --> 00:41:06,933 JUST STRAIGHTEN UP. 872 00:41:08,467 --> 00:41:10,733 THAT'S VERY GOOD. 873 00:41:10,733 --> 00:41:13,200 LET ME GO, LET ME GO, I GOT IT. I GOT IT, I GOT IT. 874 00:41:13,200 --> 00:41:15,633 OKAY. YOU'RE DOWN TO 600 POUNDS. 875 00:41:15,633 --> 00:41:17,133 GOOD WORK. 876 00:41:17,133 --> 00:41:18,133 OKAY. 877 00:41:18,133 --> 00:41:19,300 THIS IS VERY GOOD. 878 00:41:19,300 --> 00:41:21,300 ** 879 00:41:21,300 --> 00:41:22,767 OKAY. 880 00:41:22,767 --> 00:41:24,800 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S BEEN 12 MONTHS, 881 00:41:24,800 --> 00:41:28,267 AND MILLA IS FINALLY ABLE TO PUT WEIGHT ON HER LEGS. 882 00:41:28,267 --> 00:41:31,867 AND SO I'M GOING TO APPROVE HER FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 883 00:41:31,867 --> 00:41:34,100 AND SCHEDULE HER FOR NEXT MONTH. 884 00:41:34,100 --> 00:41:36,233 NOW THAT YOU CAN STAND UP, 885 00:41:36,233 --> 00:41:38,433 WE'RE GONNA APPROVE YOU FOR YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 886 00:41:38,433 --> 00:41:39,967 I'M SO HAPPY. I'M REALLY READY. 887 00:41:39,967 --> 00:41:41,400 YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED. 888 00:41:41,400 --> 00:41:43,067 I'M NOT GONNA BE DISAPPOINTED. 889 00:41:43,067 --> 00:41:44,533 [ CHUCKLES ] THANK YOU. 890 00:41:44,533 --> 00:41:46,200 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 891 00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:47,533 THAT'S GOOD, THAT'S GOOD. 892 00:41:47,533 --> 00:41:48,533 [ MILLA LAUGHS ] 893 00:41:48,533 --> 00:41:52,933 ** 894 00:41:52,933 --> 00:41:55,233 Milla: I'M REALLY EXCITED TO TELL MY FAMILY 895 00:41:55,233 --> 00:41:56,800 THAT I'M GETTING THE BYPASS SOON, 896 00:41:56,800 --> 00:41:59,467 BECAUSE THIS IS SOMETHING WE DID TOGETHER. 897 00:41:59,467 --> 00:42:01,767 [ LAUGHS ] READY FOR GOOD NEWS? 898 00:42:01,767 --> 00:42:03,067 YEAH! 899 00:42:03,067 --> 00:42:05,667 THE DOCTOR APPROVED ME FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 900 00:42:05,667 --> 00:42:07,167 OH! 901 00:42:07,167 --> 00:42:08,333 YEAH, HE DID. 902 00:42:08,333 --> 00:42:10,133 [ ALL CHEERING ] 903 00:42:10,133 --> 00:42:11,433 [ LAUGHTER ] 904 00:42:11,433 --> 00:42:15,167 Hannah: THIS IS A VERY EXCITING TIME FOR EVERYBODY. 905 00:42:15,167 --> 00:42:17,600 IT'S GONNA GET A LOT BETTER FROM HERE ON OUT. 906 00:42:17,600 --> 00:42:19,633 Milla: EVERY TIME I WANTED TO GIVE UP HOPE, 907 00:42:19,633 --> 00:42:22,767 I'VE THOUGHT OF MY KIDS, AND THAT GAVE ME THE MOTIVATION 908 00:42:22,767 --> 00:42:25,100 TO KEEP PUSHING AND TO KEEP DOING THIS. 909 00:42:25,100 --> 00:42:27,600 NOW THAT I'M FINALLY ABLE TO START TO STAND 910 00:42:27,600 --> 00:42:29,333 AND GET GASTRIC BYPASS, 911 00:42:29,333 --> 00:42:31,967 MY WHOLE FUTURE FEELS LIKE IT'S OPENING UP TO ME. 912 00:42:31,967 --> 00:42:32,133 [ LAUGHS ] 912 00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545