"My 600-lb Life" Ashley R's Story

1 00:00:03,100 --> 00:00:06,100 Ashley: I LIVE IN THIS CONSTANT SHAME. 2 00:00:06,100 --> 00:00:09,033 HOW DO I FIX THIS? 3 00:00:09,033 --> 00:00:11,267 ** 4 00:00:15,367 --> 00:00:17,233 Man: NOT FOR ONE MINUTE THAT I THOUGHT MY LIFE 5 00:00:17,233 --> 00:00:18,933 WOULD END UP LIKE THIS. 6 00:00:18,933 --> 00:00:20,567 OW! MY LEGS! 7 00:00:20,567 --> 00:00:23,733 Ashley: I'M SO FAR GONE. 8 00:00:23,733 --> 00:00:26,533 Woman #2: I ABSOLUTELY NEED HELP, 9 00:00:26,533 --> 00:00:28,300 OR I AM GONNA DIE. 10 00:00:33,067 --> 00:00:35,400 -I CAN'T DO THIS. -I'M RIGHT UNDER YOU. 11 00:00:35,400 --> 00:00:39,033 -[ Crying ] I NEED OVER! -YOU'RE FINE. YOU'RE FINE. 12 00:00:43,900 --> 00:00:45,767 Woman #3: I FEEL LIKE I LET MY KIDS DOWN. 13 00:00:45,767 --> 00:00:47,333 INSTEAD OF ME TAKING CARE OF THEM, 14 00:00:47,333 --> 00:00:49,200 THEY'VE BEEN TAKING CARE OF ME. 15 00:00:49,200 --> 00:00:52,033 IT'S YOU -- YOU ARE THE ONE KILLING HIM. 16 00:00:56,300 --> 00:00:58,567 Ashley: I DON'T HAVE THE STRENGTH TO MOVE FORWARD. 17 00:00:58,567 --> 00:01:01,467 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE HAVE TO FIND OUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ASHLEY. 18 00:01:01,467 --> 00:01:03,967 HER LIFE COULD BE ON THE LINE. 19 00:01:11,633 --> 00:01:15,667 Ashley: SOMETIMES THE SAFEST-LOOKING PATH THROUGH LIFE 20 00:01:15,667 --> 00:01:18,900 CAN LEAD TO THE MOST DANGEROUS PLACES. 21 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:26,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 22 00:01:50,433 --> 00:01:52,533 WHEN I IMAGINED MY LIFE AT 30, 23 00:01:52,533 --> 00:01:55,633 I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE MY WHITE PICKET FENCE 24 00:01:55,633 --> 00:01:59,300 AND HAVE KIDS. 25 00:01:59,300 --> 00:02:03,600 BUT MY LIFE IS NOTHING LIKE THAT. 26 00:02:03,600 --> 00:02:06,067 IT'S A NIGHTMARE. 27 00:02:06,067 --> 00:02:09,633 MY ENTIRE BODY IS IN CONSTANT PAIN. 28 00:02:09,633 --> 00:02:12,067 I'M COMPLETELY MISERABLE. 29 00:02:14,067 --> 00:02:17,133 IT'S A STRUGGLE TO JUST MOVE AT THIS WEIGHT. 30 00:02:17,133 --> 00:02:19,867 YOU NEED ME TO HELP YOU UP? 31 00:02:19,867 --> 00:02:21,900 I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ON MY OWN, 32 00:02:21,900 --> 00:02:27,733 SO MY HUSBAND AND I HAVE TO LIVE WITH MY PARENTS AND MY SISTERS. 33 00:02:27,733 --> 00:02:31,733 I'M ASHAMED OF LIVING WITH MY PARENTS AT THIS AGE. 34 00:02:31,733 --> 00:02:36,500 THEY HELP TAKE CARE OF ME. 35 00:02:36,500 --> 00:02:39,167 I FEEL LIKE A 30-YEAR-OLD CHILD. 36 00:02:45,133 --> 00:02:49,867 WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR, I SEE A MONSTER. 37 00:02:49,867 --> 00:02:53,433 I SEE SOMEONE WHO'S HIDEOUS. 38 00:02:53,433 --> 00:02:55,833 I DON'T RESEMBLE A HUMAN FORM. 39 00:03:00,100 --> 00:03:04,067 I CANNOT STAND FOR MORE THAN FIVE MINUTES. 40 00:03:04,067 --> 00:03:07,967 SO EVEN WHEN I SHOWER, I HAVE TO SIT DOWN 41 00:03:07,967 --> 00:03:10,767 AND, LIKE WITH EVERYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE, 42 00:03:10,767 --> 00:03:12,433 I HAVE TO ASK FOR HELP. 43 00:03:16,333 --> 00:03:18,500 YEAH. 44 00:03:20,733 --> 00:03:25,333 IN ORDER TO NOT HAVE THE ROUGH PATCHES ON MY SKIN, 45 00:03:25,333 --> 00:03:27,633 MY MOM HAS TO SCRUB ME REALLY, REALLY HARD 46 00:03:27,633 --> 00:03:29,400 WITH AN ABRASIVE SPONGE. 47 00:03:29,400 --> 00:03:31,733 IT'S OKAY. 48 00:03:35,467 --> 00:03:37,667 I CRY IN THE SHOWER BECAUSE IT'S JUST PAINFUL. 49 00:03:37,667 --> 00:03:39,233 IT IS PAINFUL SITTING THERE. 50 00:03:39,233 --> 00:03:41,700 IT IS PAINFUL HOLDING MYSELF UP. 51 00:03:41,700 --> 00:03:44,400 IT IS PAINFUL WHEN MY MOM SCRUBS MY BACK. 52 00:03:47,167 --> 00:03:51,433 Blanca: IT'S REALLY HARD FOR ASHLEY TO TAKE A SHOWER. 53 00:03:51,433 --> 00:03:55,433 I HAVE TO HELP HER BECAUSE IF I'M NOT THERE, 54 00:03:55,433 --> 00:03:57,733 SHE HAS TO ASK HER HUSBAND TO DO IT. 55 00:03:57,733 --> 00:03:59,400 AND SHE DOESN'T WANT TO DO THAT. 56 00:04:05,833 --> 00:04:08,967 I THINK ASHLEY DESERVES A BETTER LIFE. 57 00:04:08,967 --> 00:04:11,067 THIS WEIGHT PROBLEM HAS KEPT HER 58 00:04:11,067 --> 00:04:13,700 FROM DOING EVERYTHING SHE WANTS TO DO. 59 00:04:19,200 --> 00:04:21,433 I CAN'T BELIEVE I WEIGH THIS MUCH. 60 00:04:21,433 --> 00:04:24,100 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS MY LIFE. THIS IS MY REALITY. 61 00:04:27,633 --> 00:04:29,900 I'M UNCOMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN. 62 00:04:29,900 --> 00:04:31,100 OKAY. 63 00:04:31,100 --> 00:04:34,833 I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. 64 00:04:34,833 --> 00:04:37,133 HOW DO I FIX THIS? 65 00:04:37,133 --> 00:04:39,767 I FEEL LIKE... 66 00:04:39,767 --> 00:04:42,667 I'M SO FAR GONE. 67 00:04:42,667 --> 00:04:45,900 I LIVE IN THIS CONSTANT SHAME. 68 00:04:45,900 --> 00:04:48,833 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT ANYMORE. 69 00:04:54,767 --> 00:04:56,067 WHEN I WAS LITTLE, 70 00:04:56,067 --> 00:05:00,867 I THOUGHT THINGS WOULD BE A LOT DIFFERENT FOR ME. 71 00:05:00,867 --> 00:05:03,167 I REMEMBER BEING A HAPPY TODDLER. 72 00:05:03,167 --> 00:05:04,833 I WAS ACTIVE AND RUNNING, 73 00:05:04,833 --> 00:05:09,067 JUMPING, PLAYING WITH MY FRIENDS. 74 00:05:09,067 --> 00:05:13,867 I DIDN'T REALIZE I WAS ALREADY A LITTLE OVERWEIGHT. 75 00:05:13,867 --> 00:05:18,067 I STARTED TO NOTICE ASHLEY'S WEIGHT PROBLEM 76 00:05:18,067 --> 00:05:20,700 WHEN SHE WAS IN KINDERGARTEN. 77 00:05:20,700 --> 00:05:24,600 SHE WAS THE CHUBBIEST IN THE CLASS. 78 00:05:24,600 --> 00:05:27,167 BUT I ALWAYS ASSUMED IT WAS BABY FAT, YOU KNOW? 79 00:05:27,167 --> 00:05:29,533 IT'S GONNA GO AWAY. 80 00:05:29,533 --> 00:05:31,400 Alan: BACK IN THE DAY, WE DIDN'T THINK 81 00:05:31,400 --> 00:05:33,400 THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ASHLEY. 82 00:05:33,400 --> 00:05:36,500 WE THOUGHT THAT WAS JUST PART OF LIFE, THAT SHE WAS HEALTHY. 83 00:05:39,200 --> 00:05:41,533 WE NEVER THOUGHT THAT THAT WAS GONNA BE A PROBLEM 84 00:05:41,533 --> 00:05:44,333 LATER ON IN HER LIFE. 85 00:05:44,333 --> 00:05:46,567 Ashley: I GAINED SOME WEIGHT AS I GOT OLDER, 86 00:05:46,567 --> 00:05:50,500 BUT I REALLY STARTED TO GAIN AROUND SEVENTH GRADE, 87 00:05:50,500 --> 00:05:53,367 BECAUSE WHEN I WAS 12 YEARS OLD, 88 00:05:53,367 --> 00:05:55,600 MY UNCLE SEXUALLY ASSAULTED ME. 89 00:05:58,900 --> 00:06:00,333 AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. 90 00:06:00,333 --> 00:06:02,467 I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL SAFE, 91 00:06:02,467 --> 00:06:06,200 SO I WOULD EAT TO GAIN BACK 92 00:06:06,200 --> 00:06:08,967 WHATEVER LITTLE HAPPINESS I COULD. 93 00:06:08,967 --> 00:06:13,867 FOOD FILLED THE VOID THAT I WAS FEELING ON THE INSIDE. 94 00:06:13,867 --> 00:06:16,767 AND AT FIRST, I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING 95 00:06:16,767 --> 00:06:19,400 BECAUSE I FELT LIKE AS LONG AS HE WAS DOING IT TO ME, 96 00:06:19,400 --> 00:06:21,533 HE WASN'T DOING IT TO MY SISTERS. 97 00:06:21,533 --> 00:06:27,533 I WASN'T GOING TO ALLOW ANYONE TO RUIN THEIR CHILDHOOD 98 00:06:27,533 --> 00:06:30,967 AND TAKE AWAY THE INNOCENCE THAT THEY HAD. 99 00:06:30,967 --> 00:06:35,100 WHEN I FINALLY TOLD MY MOM, SHE CONFRONTED MY UNCLE. 100 00:06:35,100 --> 00:06:37,167 Blanca: WHEN IT HAPPENED, I WENT OVER THERE. 101 00:06:37,167 --> 00:06:39,700 AND I SAID, "HOW DARE YOU BETRAY US? 102 00:06:39,700 --> 00:06:43,600 HOW DARE YOU DO THIS TO MY LITTLE ONE?" 103 00:06:43,600 --> 00:06:46,367 EVEN THOUGH I TRIED TO GET HELP FOR HER, 104 00:06:46,367 --> 00:06:49,967 IT WAS VERY HARD FOR HER. 105 00:06:49,967 --> 00:06:55,500 I THINK ASHLEY LOST CONTROL OVER HER EATING. 106 00:06:55,500 --> 00:06:59,267 MY WEIGHT BALLOONED. IT REALLY PILED ON. 107 00:06:59,267 --> 00:07:04,333 I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL AT ABOUT 350. 108 00:07:04,333 --> 00:07:08,300 AFTER THAT, I WENT TO SCHOOL TO BE A MEDICAL ASSISTANT. 109 00:07:08,300 --> 00:07:09,567 AND I GRADUATED, 110 00:07:09,567 --> 00:07:13,467 BUT NOBODY WOULD HIRE ME BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. 111 00:07:13,467 --> 00:07:17,167 BY THAT TIME, I WAS OVER 430 POUNDS. 112 00:07:19,167 --> 00:07:22,867 AND THEN I MET MY HUSBAND, DANIEL, AT A PARTY. 113 00:07:22,867 --> 00:07:26,933 AND WE GOT TO TALKING, LIKE TRULY TALKING TO EACH OTHER, 114 00:07:26,933 --> 00:07:30,367 AND I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM. 115 00:07:30,367 --> 00:07:31,833 Daniel: WHEN I FIRST MET HER, 116 00:07:31,833 --> 00:07:35,400 ASHLEY'S SIZE DID NOT BOTHER ME AT ALL. 117 00:07:35,400 --> 00:07:39,367 WHAT I REALLY LOVED ABOUT HER WAS HER SENSE OF HUMOR, 118 00:07:39,367 --> 00:07:43,833 HER CHARISMA, HER EYES. 119 00:07:43,833 --> 00:07:46,767 Ashley: WE DID THINGS. IT WAS LIKE A NORMAL COUPLE. 120 00:07:46,767 --> 00:07:49,733 BUT EACH YEAR, I KEPT GAINING MORE WEIGHT, 121 00:07:49,733 --> 00:07:52,600 SO WE HAD TO STOP OUR OUTINGS. 122 00:07:52,600 --> 00:07:55,300 WE HAD TO STOP DOING WHAT WE NORMALLY DO 123 00:07:55,300 --> 00:07:58,100 BECAUSE I WASN'T ABLE TO DO IT ANYMORE. 124 00:08:01,867 --> 00:08:06,167 UNFORTUNATELY, MY WEIGHT HAS NOW MADE HIM MY CARETAKER. 125 00:08:10,233 --> 00:08:12,400 HERE'S YOUR SODA. 126 00:08:12,400 --> 00:08:16,467 Daniel: SOMETIMES I FEEL HELPLESS, 127 00:08:16,467 --> 00:08:19,533 LIKE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY NO. 128 00:08:19,533 --> 00:08:23,900 I WANT TO MAKE HER COMFORTABLE AND HAPPY. 129 00:08:23,900 --> 00:08:27,867 WHAT MAKES ASHLEY HAPPY IS WHEN SHE'S ENJOYING FOOD. 130 00:08:27,867 --> 00:08:31,367 -THAT THE ONE YOU WANTED? -MM-HMM. THANK YOU. 131 00:08:31,367 --> 00:08:34,867 Ashley: IN MY FAMILY, WE ALL ENABLE EACH OTHER. 132 00:08:34,867 --> 00:08:37,833 WE ALL LIKE TO EAT. 133 00:08:37,833 --> 00:08:39,233 BUT IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE A CHOICE. 134 00:08:39,233 --> 00:08:43,067 I HAVE TO EAT. EVERYBODY HAS TO EAT. 135 00:08:43,067 --> 00:08:46,233 YOU CAN'T STARVE YOURSELF. 136 00:08:46,233 --> 00:08:49,967 BUT I KNOW THAT I EAT TOO MUCH. 137 00:08:49,967 --> 00:08:56,067 I FEEL GUILTY ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO SAY NO TO FOOD. 138 00:08:56,067 --> 00:08:58,833 BUT I STILL DO IT. 139 00:08:58,833 --> 00:09:04,300 AND THE LAST TWO YEARS, I PUT ON ANOTHER 150 POUNDS. 140 00:09:04,300 --> 00:09:06,600 AND WHEN WE GOT MARRIED LAST YEAR, 141 00:09:06,600 --> 00:09:11,567 I COULDN'T HAVE THE DRESS OF MY DREAMS. 142 00:09:11,567 --> 00:09:15,667 I DEFINITELY COULDN'T HAVE THE HONEYMOON OF MY DREAMS. 143 00:09:15,667 --> 00:09:18,733 SO I SETTLED FOR THE WEDDING THAT WE HAD. 144 00:09:20,633 --> 00:09:23,767 BECAUSE WHEN YOU'RE AS BIG AS I AM, 145 00:09:23,767 --> 00:09:29,100 YOU JUST HAVE TO GIVE UP ON MORE AND MORE OF YOUR LIFE. 146 00:09:29,100 --> 00:09:32,267 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I WEIGH AT THIS TIME, 147 00:09:32,267 --> 00:09:36,367 BUT I'M THINKING AROUND 650. 148 00:09:36,367 --> 00:09:41,933 SO I FEEL LIKE I DON'T GIVE HIM THE FULL EXPERIENCE OF A WIFE, 149 00:09:41,933 --> 00:09:44,800 OF A REGULAR, NORMAL WIFE 150 00:09:44,800 --> 00:09:47,367 BECAUSE HE'S TOO BUSY TAKING CARE OF ME. 151 00:09:50,933 --> 00:09:54,600 AND I HATE BEING A BURDEN TO ANYONE. 152 00:09:54,600 --> 00:09:59,533 SO I TRY TO MAINTAIN SOME INDEPENDENCE. 153 00:09:59,533 --> 00:10:04,833 BUT BEING OVER 600 POUNDS, I CAN'T DO VERY MUCH. 154 00:10:04,833 --> 00:10:09,733 SO I HAD TO GET A JOB THAT DOESN'T REQUIRE ME TO BE ACTIVE. 155 00:10:09,733 --> 00:10:12,467 I DO CUSTOMER SUPPORT ON THE PHONE ALL DAY 156 00:10:12,467 --> 00:10:14,800 SO I DON'T HAVE TO GET UP. 157 00:10:14,800 --> 00:10:19,633 THIS WORLD IS NOT MEANT FOR PEOPLE MY SIZE. 158 00:10:19,633 --> 00:10:22,100 I CAN BARELY FIT INTO MY CAR, 159 00:10:22,100 --> 00:10:24,633 AND DANIEL DOESN'T HAVE A LICENSE, 160 00:10:24,633 --> 00:10:27,900 SO IT'S THE ONLY WAY WE'RE ABLE TO GET AROUND. 161 00:10:30,100 --> 00:10:34,033 DRIVING IS ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS I CAN STILL DO ON MY OWN. 162 00:10:34,033 --> 00:10:38,167 BUT I'M SCARED I WON'T BE ABLE TO DO IT MUCH LONGER. 163 00:10:38,167 --> 00:10:40,300 I'M AFRAID OF EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. 164 00:10:40,300 --> 00:10:42,467 I'M AFRAID THAT -- IS THIS THE LAST TIME 165 00:10:42,467 --> 00:10:46,067 I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO COME INTO WORK? 166 00:10:46,067 --> 00:10:50,800 AND THE MORE STRESS I GET, 167 00:10:50,800 --> 00:10:52,800 THE MORE I WANT TO EAT. 168 00:10:52,800 --> 00:10:55,933 I WANT TO FEEL COMFORTED. 169 00:10:57,433 --> 00:11:00,700 CAN I GET A LARGE WAFFLE-CONE ICED CAPPUCCINO? 170 00:11:00,700 --> 00:11:05,667 AND THE SAUSAGE AND CHEDDAR BREAKFAST SANDWICH. 171 00:11:05,667 --> 00:11:08,100 EVEN THOUGH I'VE ALREADY HAD BREAKFAST, 172 00:11:08,100 --> 00:11:09,733 I STOP AND GET SOMETHING. 173 00:11:09,733 --> 00:11:12,267 -HERE YOU GO. THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 174 00:11:17,900 --> 00:11:21,067 I EAT SWEETS ABOUT FOUR TO FIVE TIMES A DAY. 175 00:11:22,967 --> 00:11:24,400 EATING CALMS ME. 176 00:11:24,400 --> 00:11:27,833 IT MAKES EVERYTHING OKAY, 177 00:11:27,833 --> 00:11:30,067 EVEN THOUGH I KNOW IT'S NOT. 178 00:11:30,067 --> 00:11:33,067 AS I'M EATING, I FEEL NUMB, 179 00:11:33,067 --> 00:11:36,067 AND IT'S BETTER THAN FEELING STRESSED. 180 00:11:42,867 --> 00:11:45,233 [ HORN HONKS ] 181 00:11:45,233 --> 00:11:47,533 EVERY TIME I GET OUT OF THE CAR, 182 00:11:47,533 --> 00:11:52,333 MY STOMACH IS SO LARGE THAT IT PRESSES ON THE HORN. 183 00:11:55,067 --> 00:11:57,333 I FEEL GUILTY FOR DOING THIS TO MYSELF, 184 00:11:57,333 --> 00:12:01,433 AND I'M ASHAMED OF WHAT I'VE BECOME. 185 00:12:01,433 --> 00:12:06,100 I'M BARELY EVEN MAKING IT TO WORK AT THIS POINT. 186 00:12:06,100 --> 00:12:10,833 AND I KNOW I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS SOON. 187 00:12:17,933 --> 00:12:21,300 MY FAMILY DOESN'T JUST EAT. WE FEAST. 188 00:12:21,300 --> 00:12:23,800 NO, I'M GOOD. 189 00:12:23,800 --> 00:12:27,067 Blanca: FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN A COMFORT FOR ALL OF US. 190 00:12:27,067 --> 00:12:31,567 I ALWAYS MAKE A TON OF FOOD BECAUSE THERE'S SO MANY OF US, 191 00:12:31,567 --> 00:12:34,933 AND THEN ASHLEY ALWAYS WANTS SECONDS. 192 00:12:38,067 --> 00:12:40,067 Ashley: EATING JUST SOOTHES ME. 193 00:12:40,067 --> 00:12:42,933 IT ALWAYS HAS. 194 00:12:42,933 --> 00:12:46,067 AND ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M REALLY STRESSED OUT AND I'M EMOTIONAL, 195 00:12:46,067 --> 00:12:48,667 I JUST WANT TO EAT. 196 00:12:48,667 --> 00:12:50,133 GOOD. 197 00:12:50,133 --> 00:12:53,300 Lindsay: I NEVER TALK TO ASHLEY ABOUT HER WEIGHT 198 00:12:53,300 --> 00:12:56,167 BECAUSE IT'S A SENSITIVE SUBJECT. 199 00:12:56,167 --> 00:12:58,900 BUT I AM SAD FOR HER. 200 00:12:58,900 --> 00:13:02,067 I FEEL LIKE ONE DAY, ASHLEY WON'T WAKE UP, 201 00:13:02,067 --> 00:13:05,167 AND I COULDN'T EVEN SAY BYE TO HER. 202 00:13:08,600 --> 00:13:11,233 Alexis: IT'S HARD TO WATCH ASHLEY GAIN MORE WEIGHT. 203 00:13:11,233 --> 00:13:13,700 IT'S NOT EVEN SO MUCH ABOUT WHAT SHE'S EATING. 204 00:13:13,700 --> 00:13:16,933 IT'S ABOUT HOW MUCH SHE'S EATING. 205 00:13:16,933 --> 00:13:18,467 IT'S GETTING TO THE POINT 206 00:13:18,467 --> 00:13:23,667 THAT I MIGHT NOT HAVE AN OLDER SISTER NEXT YEAR. 207 00:13:26,667 --> 00:13:31,267 I'M STARTING TO SEE A LOT OF SADNESS, 208 00:13:31,267 --> 00:13:33,433 A LOT OF PITY, 209 00:13:33,433 --> 00:13:38,333 A LOT OF HELPLESSNESS IN ALL OF THEIR EYES. 210 00:13:38,333 --> 00:13:43,067 MY ENTIRE FAMILY IS AFRAID OF ME DYING. 211 00:13:43,067 --> 00:13:47,900 I FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE I KNOW I'M HARMING MYSELF. 212 00:13:47,900 --> 00:13:52,700 I'M CUTTING THE TIME I GET TO SPEND WITH THEM SHORT. 213 00:13:52,700 --> 00:13:57,067 I KNOW I'M TRADING A FUTURE WITH THE PEOPLE THAT I LOVE FOR FOOD. 214 00:13:57,067 --> 00:13:59,900 THANK YOU, BABY. 215 00:14:03,767 --> 00:14:07,067 Daniel: I DON'T THINK ASHLEY REALIZES HOW MUCH SHE'S EATING. 216 00:14:07,067 --> 00:14:10,133 I FEEL THAT SHE'S CLOSE TO THE EDGE. 217 00:14:14,067 --> 00:14:16,300 Alan: FOOD IS KILLING MY DAUGHTER. 218 00:14:16,300 --> 00:14:18,100 IT IS VERY PAINFUL TO SEE MY DAUGHTER 219 00:14:18,100 --> 00:14:20,800 GETTING WORSE EVERY DAY. 220 00:14:20,800 --> 00:14:22,167 COME ON, BABE. CAN YOU HELP ME? 221 00:14:22,167 --> 00:14:25,800 Ashley: I FEEL COMPLETELY HELPLESS. 222 00:14:25,800 --> 00:14:29,267 I KNOW MY HUSBAND WORRIES ABOUT ME CONSTANTLY. 223 00:14:31,833 --> 00:14:34,600 IT'S BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME THAT HE'S TAKEN CARE OF ME 224 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:38,867 THAT I CAN'T GIVE BACK. 225 00:14:38,867 --> 00:14:40,300 I FEEL DISGUSTED BY MYSELF. 226 00:14:40,300 --> 00:14:42,700 AND HOW COULD HE NOT FEEL THAT FOR ME, TOO? 227 00:14:46,500 --> 00:14:49,167 IT STRAINS MY MARRIAGE THAT I CAN'T BE ROMANTIC WITH HIM, 228 00:14:49,167 --> 00:14:53,600 THAT WE CAN'T EXPRESS OUR LOVE THE WAY WE WANT TO. 229 00:14:53,600 --> 00:14:58,300 BUT I JUST DON'T WANT HIM TO SEE ME. 230 00:14:58,300 --> 00:15:03,267 ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS IS THAT HE IS GOING TO WAKE UP ONE DAY 231 00:15:03,267 --> 00:15:05,133 AND BE LIKE, "I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE. 232 00:15:05,133 --> 00:15:07,533 I DON'T WANT TO TAKE CARE OF HER LIKE SHE'S A PATIENT." 233 00:15:10,433 --> 00:15:13,133 GOOD NIGHT. 234 00:15:13,133 --> 00:15:16,200 Daniel: WE HAD PLANS ABOUT HAVING A FAMILY. 235 00:15:16,200 --> 00:15:19,633 BUT IF MY WIFE DOESN'T LOSE THE WEIGHT, 236 00:15:19,633 --> 00:15:24,800 ALL THOSE HOPES AND DREAMS ARE GONNA BE SHATTERED. 237 00:15:24,800 --> 00:15:27,500 Ashley: I WORRY IF I'M GONNA WAKE UP TOMORROW. 238 00:15:27,500 --> 00:15:31,533 I FEEL LIKE MY BODY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. 239 00:15:31,533 --> 00:15:34,933 BUT IF I GIVE UP, 240 00:15:34,933 --> 00:15:39,300 I'M NOT GONNA LIVE TO GROW OLD WITH MY HUSBAND. 241 00:15:49,567 --> 00:15:51,900 Ashley: I THINK THAT'S IT. 242 00:15:54,267 --> 00:15:56,800 I HOPE SO. 243 00:16:06,167 --> 00:16:09,267 Ashley: I FINALLY DECIDED TO MAKE A CHANGE IN MY LIFE, 244 00:16:09,267 --> 00:16:11,133 AND I'M SCARED. 245 00:16:11,133 --> 00:16:14,600 BUT I'M MORE SCARED OF WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I DON'T GO. 246 00:16:14,600 --> 00:16:16,600 MY HUSBAND AND MY SISTERS AND MY DAD 247 00:16:16,600 --> 00:16:18,200 ARE GOING TO BE STAYING BEHIND, 248 00:16:18,200 --> 00:16:20,067 AND JUST ME AND MY MOM ARE GONNA GO. 249 00:16:20,067 --> 00:16:22,733 DANIEL HAS TO STAY BEHIND AND WORK, 250 00:16:22,733 --> 00:16:26,300 AND WE'VE NEVER BEEN APART LIKE THIS. 251 00:16:26,300 --> 00:16:30,300 SO THIS IS ALL SO HARD TO DO, 252 00:16:30,300 --> 00:16:32,133 BUT I HAVE TO TRY. 253 00:16:32,133 --> 00:16:34,233 JUST WORRYING ABOUT THE TRIP, YOU KNOW? 254 00:16:34,233 --> 00:16:36,067 -I KNOW. -IT'S LONG. 255 00:16:36,067 --> 00:16:39,067 I HAVEN'T SEEN ASHLEY STAY IN A CAR 256 00:16:39,067 --> 00:16:44,067 FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME SINCE SHE WAS 16. 257 00:16:44,067 --> 00:16:45,700 HER BACK MIGHT GIVE OUT. 258 00:16:45,700 --> 00:16:47,933 HER LEGS ARE GONNA GET CRAMPS. 259 00:16:47,933 --> 00:16:53,367 AND IT'S SCARY BECAUSE MY MOM BY HERSELF, SHE CAN'T HELP HER. 260 00:16:53,367 --> 00:16:55,900 Ashley: IF I DON'T TAKE THIS RISK 261 00:16:55,900 --> 00:16:58,267 TO SEE THE DOCTOR SO THAT HE CAN HELP ME, 262 00:16:58,267 --> 00:17:01,800 I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I HAVE LEFT. 263 00:17:01,800 --> 00:17:06,333 NOTHING COMES EASY, BUT IT'S GONNA BE GOOD FOR HER. 264 00:17:06,333 --> 00:17:07,967 Ashley: I'VE LIVED LIKE THIS LONG ENOUGH 265 00:17:07,967 --> 00:17:12,933 FOR ME TO BE TIRED OF BEING LIKE THIS. 266 00:17:12,933 --> 00:17:15,267 Alexis: I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS BECAUSE I KNOW 267 00:17:15,267 --> 00:17:17,467 THIS IS THE LAST CHANCE FOR MY SISTER. 268 00:17:20,133 --> 00:17:22,067 Daniel: I'M GONNA MISS HER A LOT, 269 00:17:22,067 --> 00:17:26,533 AND I AM SCARED OF WHAT THE DOCTOR'S GONNA TELL HER. 270 00:17:26,533 --> 00:17:27,933 I HOPE THAT IT WILL BE 271 00:17:27,933 --> 00:17:30,967 A LIFE-CHANGING EXPERIENCE FOR HER. 272 00:17:30,967 --> 00:17:33,300 LOVE YOU. [ SMOOCHES ] 273 00:17:35,400 --> 00:17:39,233 IF I FEEL NERVOUS, I WONDER HOW YOU FEEL. 274 00:17:39,233 --> 00:17:42,767 MY STOMACH IS IN KNOTS. 275 00:17:42,767 --> 00:17:45,533 Ashley: THERE ARE NO OTHER OPTIONS. 276 00:17:45,533 --> 00:17:47,700 DIET AND EXERCISE ALONE 277 00:17:47,700 --> 00:17:51,333 IS NOT GONNA HELP THE SITUATION THAT I'M IN. 278 00:17:51,333 --> 00:17:53,500 I NEED THE MEDICAL INTERVENTION. 279 00:17:53,500 --> 00:17:56,333 I NEED TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 280 00:17:56,333 --> 00:17:58,767 I'M WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES, 281 00:17:58,767 --> 00:18:02,133 BUT IT'S AT LEAST A THREE-DAY TRIP TO HOUSTON, 282 00:18:02,133 --> 00:18:05,767 AND I'VE NEVER SPENT THAT MUCH TIME IN THE CAR. 283 00:18:05,767 --> 00:18:08,167 I DON'T KNOW HOW MY BODY'S GONNA HANDLE IT. 284 00:18:11,133 --> 00:18:12,833 -YOU'RE TIRED? -YEAH. 285 00:18:12,833 --> 00:18:14,300 YOU BARELY DID AN HOUR. 286 00:18:14,300 --> 00:18:17,267 MY NECK'S GETTING STIFF. MY BACK'S KIND OF ACHY. 287 00:18:19,800 --> 00:18:22,333 I'M SORRY, MOM. 288 00:18:26,533 --> 00:18:28,833 -YOU NEED ME TO HELP YOU? -KIND OF STIFF. 289 00:18:28,833 --> 00:18:31,567 YOU GOT IT? 290 00:18:31,567 --> 00:18:33,200 BE CAREFUL. 291 00:18:33,200 --> 00:18:35,067 Ashley: I'M KIND OF EMBARRASSED. 292 00:18:37,100 --> 00:18:39,167 I WANTED TO GET A LOT FURTHER TONIGHT, 293 00:18:39,167 --> 00:18:43,200 BUT MY BODY JUST WON'T LET ME. 294 00:18:43,200 --> 00:18:45,233 I FEEL HEAVY AND TIRED. 295 00:18:45,233 --> 00:18:49,400 AND MY BACK IS HURTING. 296 00:18:49,400 --> 00:18:52,900 I DON'T KNOW IF I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO DO THIS. 297 00:18:55,200 --> 00:18:57,967 AND I FEEL GUILTY THAT MY MOM HAS TO DO EVERYTHING. 298 00:18:57,967 --> 00:19:00,267 SHE ALWAYS DOES EVERYTHING. 299 00:19:03,267 --> 00:19:07,733 SO, TOMORROW, I'LL DRIVE THE FIRST COUPLE OF HOURS. 300 00:19:07,733 --> 00:19:09,433 BUT JUST LET ME KNOW IN CASE 301 00:19:09,433 --> 00:19:13,067 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU GETTING ANY CRAMPS OR ANYTHING. 302 00:19:13,067 --> 00:19:16,500 I'M REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT THIS TRIP. 303 00:19:16,500 --> 00:19:18,300 WE BARELY STARTED, 304 00:19:18,300 --> 00:19:20,933 AND I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. 305 00:19:23,233 --> 00:19:24,933 OKAY, MIJA, THE CAR'S PACKED UP. 306 00:19:24,933 --> 00:19:29,667 LET'S GO. CAREFUL. 307 00:19:29,667 --> 00:19:32,400 I'M GONNA SEE IF I'M ABLE TO SIT IN THE BACK SO I CAN RELAX. 308 00:19:32,400 --> 00:19:34,200 Ashley: OKAY. 309 00:19:34,200 --> 00:19:36,133 OW. 310 00:19:36,133 --> 00:19:38,367 I'M NERVOUS THAT I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO DRIVE 311 00:19:38,367 --> 00:19:39,733 AS LONG AS I THINK I CAN. 312 00:19:39,733 --> 00:19:42,300 AND I REALLY WANT TO HELP MY MOM DRIVE 313 00:19:42,300 --> 00:19:45,800 BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S A LONG, TEDIOUS ROAD. 314 00:19:45,800 --> 00:19:50,967 I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO DRIVE TO NOT FEEL SO HELPLESS. 315 00:19:55,667 --> 00:19:57,800 I'M AT A POINT WHERE IF I GET ANY BIGGER, 316 00:19:57,800 --> 00:19:59,600 I'M NOT GONNA BE FITTING INTO THIS CAR. 317 00:19:59,600 --> 00:20:02,333 SO I'M TRYING TO HOLD ONTO THE VERY LAST LITTLE BIT 318 00:20:02,333 --> 00:20:04,267 THAT I CAN OF INDEPENDENCE, 319 00:20:04,267 --> 00:20:08,533 SO IT'S IMPORTANT FOR ME TO JUST HELP. 320 00:20:11,000 --> 00:20:14,733 BECAUSE SOON I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO DO EVEN THAT. 321 00:20:17,400 --> 00:20:19,033 OW. 322 00:20:19,033 --> 00:20:21,200 I GOT TO PULL OVER. I'M GETTING A CRAMP. 323 00:20:25,400 --> 00:20:29,333 MY LEG'S KILLING ME. 324 00:20:29,333 --> 00:20:32,167 I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA BE ABLE TO DRIVE A LOT FURTHER, 325 00:20:32,167 --> 00:20:35,667 BUT I STARTED GETTING A CRAMP, SO I WASN'T GONNA RISK IT. 326 00:20:35,667 --> 00:20:37,467 I WAS LIKE, "OKAY, MOM, JUST TAKE OVER." 327 00:20:37,467 --> 00:20:40,767 WHEN I SIT TOO MUCH, I GET HORRIBLE CRAMPS. 328 00:20:40,767 --> 00:20:42,767 THEY HURT SO BAD. 329 00:20:42,767 --> 00:20:45,967 AND SOMETIMES MY LEGS GO COMPLETELY NUMB. 330 00:20:45,967 --> 00:20:48,267 AND I WAS JUST SCARED I WOULD WRECK THE CAR. 331 00:20:51,200 --> 00:20:52,567 Ashley: THANK YOU FOR TAKING OVER. 332 00:20:52,567 --> 00:20:54,167 YOU'RE WELCOME, MIJA. 333 00:20:54,167 --> 00:20:55,567 MY FOOT WAS NOT -- 334 00:20:55,567 --> 00:20:58,100 IT WAS STARTING TO HURT, AND I DIDN'T WANT TO PUSH IT. 335 00:20:58,100 --> 00:21:00,500 THE LAST THING I WANT TO DO IS HAVE AN ACCIDENT. 336 00:21:02,733 --> 00:21:06,467 I'M EMBARRASSED THAT I CAN'T HELP MY MOM MORE ON THIS TRIP. 337 00:21:06,467 --> 00:21:10,667 SOMETIMES IT SEEMS LIKE ALL I CAN REALLY DO ANYMORE IS EAT. 338 00:21:14,100 --> 00:21:16,500 WE SHOULD STOP AND GET SOMETHING TO EAT. 339 00:21:16,500 --> 00:21:18,333 YEAH. 340 00:21:20,067 --> 00:21:21,933 DO YOU WANT TO GO INSIDE? 341 00:21:21,933 --> 00:21:23,400 THERE'S TOO MANY PEOPLE. 342 00:21:23,400 --> 00:21:25,367 -YOU'RE NOT UP TO IT? -NO. 343 00:21:27,733 --> 00:21:30,500 NO, LET'S GO BY THE TREE. 344 00:21:30,500 --> 00:21:32,733 -THIS ONE? -YEAH, THIS ONE. 345 00:21:32,733 --> 00:21:35,167 THIS ONE'S YOURS. 346 00:21:35,167 --> 00:21:37,667 I DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO SEE ME EAT. 347 00:21:37,667 --> 00:21:40,400 WHEN I'M OUT IN PUBLIC, I FEEL LIKE I'M AT A CIRCUS 348 00:21:40,400 --> 00:21:43,367 AND I'M THE ONE BEHIND THE CAGE. 349 00:21:43,367 --> 00:21:45,600 I FEEL LIKE I'M AN ANIMAL. 350 00:21:45,600 --> 00:21:47,733 WE'VE GOT TO GO. 351 00:21:50,833 --> 00:21:53,767 I CAN'T KEEP LIVING THIS LIFE. 352 00:21:53,767 --> 00:21:55,567 I JUST WANT TO GET HELP. 353 00:22:04,467 --> 00:22:06,233 Ashley: WE'RE HERE, MOM. 354 00:22:06,233 --> 00:22:09,167 MY STOMACH HURTS. IT'S THE NERVES, MIJA. 355 00:22:09,167 --> 00:22:11,667 I KNOW. 356 00:22:14,533 --> 00:22:17,067 OH, MY GOD. 357 00:22:20,567 --> 00:22:24,067 Ashley: I'M SCARED TO SEE THE DOCTOR. 358 00:22:24,067 --> 00:22:26,433 I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE'S GOING TO SAY. 359 00:22:29,667 --> 00:22:31,667 WHAT IF I'VE COME ALL THIS WAY 360 00:22:31,667 --> 00:22:35,100 AND HE TELLS ME THAT HE CAN'T HELP ME? 361 00:22:35,100 --> 00:22:37,833 THERE REALLY IS NO PLAN "B." 362 00:22:37,833 --> 00:22:40,167 EVERYTHING IS RIDING ON THIS. 363 00:22:40,167 --> 00:22:42,333 MY ENTIRE LIFE IS AT STAKE. 364 00:22:53,167 --> 00:22:56,800 Ashley: I'M SEEING DR. NOW FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY. 365 00:22:56,800 --> 00:23:00,500 I'M NERVOUS AND ANXIOUS. 366 00:23:00,500 --> 00:23:03,600 I HAVEN'T BEEN ON A SCALE IN SUCH A LONG TIME. 367 00:23:03,600 --> 00:23:06,667 I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S GONNA READ, AND I'M AFRAID OF IT. 368 00:23:06,667 --> 00:23:08,200 Woman: 668. 369 00:23:13,367 --> 00:23:15,400 THAT'S A REALLY, REALLY HIGH NUMBER. 370 00:23:17,900 --> 00:23:22,067 HOW IS IT THAT I'M STILL ALIVE AT THIS POINT? 371 00:23:25,333 --> 00:23:28,300 I'M TERRIFIED NOW THAT I'M BEYOND HELP... 372 00:23:33,300 --> 00:23:36,633 ...THAT IF HE CAN'T HELP ME, I'M GONNA DIE. 373 00:23:50,067 --> 00:23:55,067 I KNEW IT WAS BAD, BUT I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS THAT BAD, ASHLEY. 374 00:23:55,067 --> 00:23:59,067 AND NOW I AM CERTAIN THAT IF YOU DON'T GET THE HELP, 375 00:23:59,067 --> 00:24:01,233 I WON'T HAVE YOU LONG. 376 00:24:01,233 --> 00:24:04,333 AND THAT SCARES ME. 377 00:24:04,333 --> 00:24:07,367 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, MOM. 378 00:24:11,933 --> 00:24:13,400 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 379 00:24:14,933 --> 00:24:16,667 -HELLO. -HELLO. 380 00:24:16,667 --> 00:24:19,800 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. YOU ARE ASHLEY, HUH? 381 00:24:19,800 --> 00:24:21,100 -YES. -ALL RIGHT. 382 00:24:21,100 --> 00:24:25,300 AND TODAY YOU WEIGH 668 POUNDS? 383 00:24:25,300 --> 00:24:26,467 -YES. -OKAY. 384 00:24:26,467 --> 00:24:28,633 WHAT IS THE HIGHEST WEIGHT YOU HAVE BEEN? 385 00:24:28,633 --> 00:24:30,400 THIS HAS BEEN MY HIGHEST WEIGHT. 386 00:24:30,400 --> 00:24:33,067 SO WHAT SEEMS TO BE BIGGEST CHALLENGE 387 00:24:33,067 --> 00:24:34,267 WITH YOUR EATING HABIT? 388 00:24:34,267 --> 00:24:37,100 I'M USUALLY JUST SNACKING ALL DAY LONG. 389 00:24:37,100 --> 00:24:39,067 SO WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT? 390 00:24:39,067 --> 00:24:40,600 'CAUSE I'M HUNGRY. 391 00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:42,967 I KNOW I SHOULDN'T EAT LIKE I DO. 392 00:24:42,967 --> 00:24:46,700 BUT EVERYTHING I EAT -- I FEEL SO GUILTY ABOUT EATING IT. 393 00:24:46,700 --> 00:24:48,167 YOU KNOW, I KNOW THAT I'M NOT 394 00:24:48,167 --> 00:24:51,833 SUPPOSED TO BE EATING SWEETS OR SUGARY THINGS, 395 00:24:51,833 --> 00:24:53,500 BUT I CRAVE THEM. 396 00:24:53,500 --> 00:24:54,867 AND AT THIS POINT, 397 00:24:54,867 --> 00:24:57,967 I KNOW THAT I NEED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 398 00:24:57,967 --> 00:24:59,633 SO YOU ALREADY FIGURED THE SOLUTION, 399 00:24:59,633 --> 00:25:03,233 BUT YOU NEED TO FIGURE OUT THE PROBLEM. 400 00:25:03,233 --> 00:25:05,667 THE SURGERY IS GONNA ONLY AFFECT 401 00:25:05,667 --> 00:25:07,333 HOW MUCH YOU'RE GONNA EAT AT ONE TIME. 402 00:25:07,333 --> 00:25:10,900 THE SURGERY WILL NOT AFFECT YOUR FREQUENCY OF EATING, 403 00:25:10,900 --> 00:25:13,400 WOULD NOT EFFECT THE TYPE OF FOOD THAT YOU EAT. 404 00:25:13,400 --> 00:25:15,933 AND UNLESS YOU HAVE A HANDLE ON THAT, 405 00:25:15,933 --> 00:25:19,233 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IS NOT GONNA BE A GOOD OPTION. 406 00:25:19,233 --> 00:25:21,667 Dr. Nowzaradan: ASHLEY'S SAYING THAT SHE HAS A PROBLEM, 407 00:25:21,667 --> 00:25:23,800 BUT ALSO SHE'S ACTING LIKE 408 00:25:23,800 --> 00:25:25,733 SURGERY IS GOING TO FIX EVERYTHING. 409 00:25:25,733 --> 00:25:27,933 THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS. 410 00:25:27,933 --> 00:25:30,933 SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO SHOW ME THAT SHE CAN DO THIS 411 00:25:30,933 --> 00:25:32,800 AND SHE'S WILLING TO WORK 412 00:25:32,800 --> 00:25:36,067 AND NOT JUST TRUST IN A MAGIC PILL. 413 00:25:36,067 --> 00:25:40,067 YOU ARE AT HOME WITH HER? OR WHO'S AT HOME WITH HER? 414 00:25:40,067 --> 00:25:42,333 EVENING IS THE ONLY TIME WE'RE TOGETHER. 415 00:25:42,333 --> 00:25:45,200 AND SO WE HAVE DINNER EVERY NIGHT. 416 00:25:45,200 --> 00:25:47,100 SO YOU ALL EAT THE SAME FOOD, 417 00:25:47,100 --> 00:25:50,100 AND YOU ALL SORT OF ENABLE EACH OTHER. 418 00:25:50,100 --> 00:25:51,900 AND THAT MAY BE VERY DIFFICULT 419 00:25:51,900 --> 00:25:54,333 TO BREAK THAT DYNAMIC IN THE HOUSEHOLD. 420 00:25:54,333 --> 00:25:57,167 BUT YOU HAVE TO BE PROACTIVE WITH YOURSELF 421 00:25:57,167 --> 00:25:59,767 AND YOU NEED TO ADJUST YOUR EATING HABITS 422 00:25:59,767 --> 00:26:04,500 BECAUSE OTHERWISE, YOU'RE NOT GONNA LAST TOO LONG. 423 00:26:04,500 --> 00:26:06,333 SO, NOW YOU'RE 30. 424 00:26:06,333 --> 00:26:08,500 WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN WHEN YOU'RE 40? 425 00:26:08,500 --> 00:26:11,967 I DON'T THINK I'M GONNA MAKE IT TO 40 IF I CONTINUE THIS WAY. 426 00:26:11,967 --> 00:26:13,300 YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY CORRECT. 427 00:26:13,300 --> 00:26:15,633 YOU'RE NOT GONNA MAKE IT TO 40. 428 00:26:15,633 --> 00:26:20,167 YOU'RE ACTUALLY KILLING YOURSELF WITH THE FOOD. 429 00:26:20,167 --> 00:26:21,833 Dr. Nowzaradan: ASHLEY HAS TO UNDERSTAND 430 00:26:21,833 --> 00:26:24,800 THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG, HARD PROCESS. 431 00:26:24,800 --> 00:26:26,733 SHE'S CLOSE TO 700 POUNDS, 432 00:26:26,733 --> 00:26:28,133 AND THE HUMAN BODY 433 00:26:28,133 --> 00:26:31,267 IS NOT DESIGNED TO OPERATE AT THAT WEIGHT. 434 00:26:31,267 --> 00:26:33,500 THERE'S NO WAY THAT SHE WILL SURVIVE 435 00:26:33,500 --> 00:26:36,700 A FEW MORE YEARS UNLESS SHE STARTS TO CHANGE NOW 436 00:26:36,700 --> 00:26:41,500 AND START TAKING DRASTIC ACTIONS TO SAVE HERSELF. 437 00:26:41,500 --> 00:26:44,600 YOU'RE 668 POUNDS. 438 00:26:44,600 --> 00:26:48,700 YOU'RE NOT A CANDIDATE FOR SURGERY, 439 00:26:48,700 --> 00:26:51,667 BUT YOU HAVE POTENTIAL FOR IT IF YOU SHOW ME 440 00:26:51,667 --> 00:26:55,100 THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR SITUATION 441 00:26:55,100 --> 00:26:56,833 AND TRY TO CHANGE. 442 00:26:56,833 --> 00:26:58,200 AT THIS POINT, YOUR PRIORITY 443 00:26:58,200 --> 00:27:01,100 IS THAT YOU'RE GONNA STICK TO A 1,200-CALORIE DIET. 444 00:27:01,100 --> 00:27:03,067 YOU'RE GONNA AVOID ALL THE HIGH-CALORIE 445 00:27:03,067 --> 00:27:05,200 AND CARBS IN YOUR DIET. 446 00:27:05,200 --> 00:27:08,067 AND YOU'RE GONNA START MAKING A DIFFERENCE 447 00:27:08,067 --> 00:27:09,367 IN YOUR EATING HABIT. 448 00:27:09,367 --> 00:27:12,633 START INCREASING YOUR ACTIVITY WITH WALKING. 449 00:27:12,633 --> 00:27:14,733 AND I WOULD EXPECT THAT YOU'LL BE ABLE 450 00:27:14,733 --> 00:27:17,467 TO LOSE 50 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH. 451 00:27:17,467 --> 00:27:18,967 OKAY? 452 00:27:18,967 --> 00:27:20,967 ALL RIGHT? NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS. 453 00:27:20,967 --> 00:27:24,533 NICE MEETING YOU. 454 00:27:24,533 --> 00:27:26,067 LET'S GO. 455 00:27:28,767 --> 00:27:33,833 Ashley: I'M DISAPPOINTED, BUT AT LEAST THERE'S HOPE. 456 00:27:33,833 --> 00:27:36,067 I THINK THAT I'VE CONDITIONED MYSELF 457 00:27:36,067 --> 00:27:39,067 TO ALWAYS EXPECT THE WORST OF EVERY SITUATION. 458 00:27:39,067 --> 00:27:41,567 SO FOR HIM TO AT LEAST GIVE ME THE HOPE THAT, 459 00:27:41,567 --> 00:27:43,067 "HEY, I CAN HELP YOU, 460 00:27:43,067 --> 00:27:46,333 AND WE CAN TOGETHER GO TO THE NEXT STEP," 461 00:27:46,333 --> 00:27:48,167 THAT'S REALLY NICE TO HEAR. 462 00:27:48,167 --> 00:27:49,733 AND EVEN THOUGH I'M KIND OF SAD 463 00:27:49,733 --> 00:27:52,400 THAT I WASN'T A CANDIDATE AT THIS TIME, 464 00:27:52,400 --> 00:27:57,833 I KNOW THAT I'M GONNA TRY REALLY, REALLY HARD. 465 00:27:57,833 --> 00:27:59,767 THIS IS A DO-OR-DIE SITUATION 466 00:27:59,767 --> 00:28:03,067 WHERE I DO IT OR IF I DON'T, I DIE. 467 00:28:16,833 --> 00:28:20,167 -YOU READY TO GO? -YEAH, LET'S GO. 468 00:28:20,167 --> 00:28:22,400 Ashley: I'VE BEEN HOME FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS, 469 00:28:22,400 --> 00:28:25,767 WORKING HARD TO LOSE WEIGHT. 470 00:28:25,767 --> 00:28:27,300 WE'LL BE BACK, YOU GUYS. 471 00:28:27,300 --> 00:28:29,967 OKAY. 472 00:28:29,967 --> 00:28:32,233 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO WALK EVERY DAY, 473 00:28:32,233 --> 00:28:36,533 AND EACH TIME I'M ABLE TO GO A LITTLE BIT FARTHER. 474 00:28:36,533 --> 00:28:38,200 MY SISTERS HAVE BEEN HELPING ME 475 00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:40,767 BECAUSE THEY REALLY WANT ME TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS 476 00:28:40,767 --> 00:28:42,900 AND GET SURGERY. 477 00:28:42,900 --> 00:28:45,633 -YOU GOOD? -YEAH. 478 00:28:45,633 --> 00:28:47,100 I'M SCARE OF DISAPPOINTING THEM, 479 00:28:47,100 --> 00:28:48,967 BUT I'M TRYING TO STAY FOCUSED 480 00:28:48,967 --> 00:28:51,067 ON WHAT I NEED TO DO FOR MYSELF. 481 00:28:54,333 --> 00:28:57,967 ONE STEP AT A TIME. IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW SMALL. 482 00:29:01,800 --> 00:29:03,333 I'M IN THIS MIND-SET NOW 483 00:29:03,333 --> 00:29:06,533 THAT I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY CAN 484 00:29:06,533 --> 00:29:09,467 TO GET TO MY GOAL. 485 00:29:11,667 --> 00:29:12,900 DON'T LET IT GO. 486 00:29:12,900 --> 00:29:16,067 I KNOW. I GOT IT. I GOT IT. 487 00:29:16,067 --> 00:29:17,433 10. 488 00:29:17,433 --> 00:29:20,733 I'M GOING TO DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN. 489 00:29:27,167 --> 00:29:31,600 BEING MORE ACTIVE, I KNOW I CAN DO LONG-TERM. 490 00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:33,100 I CAME TO HELP. 491 00:29:33,100 --> 00:29:37,633 CHANGING THE FOOD I EAT IS REALLY THE TOUGHER THING. 492 00:29:37,633 --> 00:29:39,067 EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY 493 00:29:39,067 --> 00:29:42,533 IS WILLING TO MAKE THIS CHANGE WITH ME. 494 00:29:42,533 --> 00:29:46,500 BUT I KNOW A LOT OF IT'S ON ME, TOO. 495 00:29:46,500 --> 00:29:48,800 -THANK YOU. -YEAH. 496 00:29:55,567 --> 00:29:58,600 SO SHE WON'T FEEL LEFT OUT. 497 00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:02,167 NO MORE SODA. NO MORE, YOU KNOW, SWEET STUFF. 498 00:30:02,167 --> 00:30:03,700 I'M GONNA START PLATING MINE, BABE. 499 00:30:03,700 --> 00:30:06,800 Ashley: STICKING TO 1,200 CALORIES A DAY 500 00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:10,533 IS GOING TO BE REALLY HARD. 501 00:30:10,533 --> 00:30:12,700 BUT I MEASURE OUT EVERYTHING I EAT. 502 00:30:15,700 --> 00:30:17,867 5.25. 503 00:30:17,867 --> 00:30:21,367 I'M GOING TO EAT WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO -- NO CARBS. 504 00:30:23,467 --> 00:30:25,600 IF I WORK THIS HARD, 505 00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:29,433 AM I REALLY GONNA THROW EVERYTHING AWAY FOR A COOKIE? 506 00:30:29,433 --> 00:30:33,900 I TAKE A LOOK BACK TO WHAT I WAS EATING BEFORE 507 00:30:33,900 --> 00:30:35,467 AND TO WHAT I EAT NOW, 508 00:30:35,467 --> 00:30:37,000 HOW I'M NOT SNACKING IN BETWEEN, 509 00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:40,667 HOW I'M NOT EATING ANY JUNK, 510 00:30:40,667 --> 00:30:42,600 AND I'M PROUD OF THE FACT 511 00:30:42,600 --> 00:30:45,500 THAT I HAVEN'T CHEATED AND I HAVEN'T GIVEN UP, 512 00:30:45,500 --> 00:30:50,133 NO MATTER HOW HARD IT'S BEEN, AND IT'S BEEN HARD. 513 00:30:50,133 --> 00:30:51,867 Blanca: I'M REALLY PROUD OF YOU. 514 00:30:51,867 --> 00:30:54,433 YOU'VE DONE VERY WELL. 515 00:30:54,433 --> 00:30:56,133 Blanca: IT'S A LIFESTYLE CHANGE -- 516 00:30:56,133 --> 00:30:58,567 NOT JUST FOR HER, IT'S FOR EVERYBODY. 517 00:30:58,567 --> 00:31:00,867 BECAUSE WE CAN'T SUPPORT HER 518 00:31:00,867 --> 00:31:04,067 IF WE'RE NOT GONNA CHANGE OURSELVES, EITHER. 519 00:31:04,067 --> 00:31:07,433 WE WILL TRY TO DO OUR BEST AS A FAMILY TO BE THERE FOR HER. 520 00:31:09,633 --> 00:31:11,067 HERE YOU GO, BUBBA. 521 00:31:11,067 --> 00:31:14,500 -IT'S PROTEIN. -IT'S PROTEIN. 522 00:31:14,500 --> 00:31:16,333 EVEN THE CAT'S ON A DIET. 523 00:31:16,333 --> 00:31:18,633 [ LAUGHTER ] 524 00:31:22,133 --> 00:31:25,200 THAT'S ONE. THAT'S DONE. 525 00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:28,367 TODAY, WE ARE PACKING UP TO MOVE TO HOUSTON. 526 00:31:30,767 --> 00:31:33,867 DANIEL AND I DECIDED WE HAVE TO MAKE THIS CHANGE 527 00:31:33,867 --> 00:31:36,800 IF I'M GOING TO BE FULLY COMMITTED. 528 00:31:36,800 --> 00:31:39,167 SO WE'RE GONNA LIVE IN HOUSTON FOR A WHILE 529 00:31:39,167 --> 00:31:42,067 TO BE CLOSE TO THE DOCTOR. 530 00:31:42,067 --> 00:31:44,633 THIS STUFF HERE IS GOOD TO GO. 531 00:31:44,633 --> 00:31:46,500 -ALL OF THIS? -YEAH. 532 00:31:48,867 --> 00:31:50,800 YEAH. 533 00:31:50,800 --> 00:31:53,167 I'M SAD 'CAUSE I HAVEN'T LEFT YET 534 00:31:53,167 --> 00:31:56,233 AND I'M ALREADY MISSING MY FAMILY. 535 00:31:56,233 --> 00:31:58,500 IN THE LONG RUN, I KNOW THIS IS THE BEST THING 536 00:31:58,500 --> 00:31:59,867 THAT COULD HAPPEN FOR ME, 537 00:31:59,867 --> 00:32:02,600 BUT RIGHT NOW 538 00:32:02,600 --> 00:32:05,533 I HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY AND I'M SCARED. 539 00:32:05,533 --> 00:32:06,967 AND I'M STRESSED OUT, 540 00:32:06,967 --> 00:32:10,400 AND I'M JUST REALLY SAD TO LEAVE. 541 00:32:13,167 --> 00:32:15,133 MY DAD'S GOING TO DRIVE US DOWN, 542 00:32:15,133 --> 00:32:20,633 BUT THEN HE HAS TO GO BACK AND LEAVE DANIEL AND ME ALONE. 543 00:32:20,633 --> 00:32:22,100 MY MOM AND MY SISTERS 544 00:32:22,100 --> 00:32:25,167 HAVE BEEN THE ONES WHO MOSTLY TAKE CARE OF ME. 545 00:32:25,167 --> 00:32:27,333 NOW IT'S GOING TO FALL ON DANIEL. 546 00:32:27,333 --> 00:32:29,667 YEAH, YOU CAN TAKE THAT. 547 00:32:29,667 --> 00:32:33,467 THERE ARE SOME THING I HAVE NOT WANTED HIM TO DO. 548 00:32:33,467 --> 00:32:37,867 IF I HAVE TO LET DANIEL HELP ME TAKE A SHOWER, 549 00:32:37,867 --> 00:32:39,200 I'M WORRIED THAT IT'S GONNA HAVE 550 00:32:39,200 --> 00:32:42,167 A NEGATIVE EFFECT ON OUR MARRIAGE. 551 00:32:42,167 --> 00:32:45,733 I'M CHANGING EVERYTHING I KNOW. 552 00:32:45,733 --> 00:32:50,067 THIS COULD BE GOODBYE FOR A WHILE. 553 00:32:50,067 --> 00:32:54,333 Blanca: THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT SHE'LL BE ON HER OWN, 554 00:32:54,333 --> 00:32:59,267 BUT I HONESTLY DO THINK IT'S HER LAST CHANCE. 555 00:32:59,267 --> 00:33:02,233 AND I REALLY HOPE THAT SHE SUCCEEDS. 556 00:33:02,233 --> 00:33:04,867 Alexis: IT'S JUST HARD TO HAVE TO LET HER GO. 557 00:33:04,867 --> 00:33:07,433 BUT IF I HAVE TO LOSE HER TEMPORARILY 558 00:33:07,433 --> 00:33:09,200 FOR HER, YOU KNOW, TO MOVE TO TEXAS, 559 00:33:09,200 --> 00:33:12,133 THAT'S BETTER THAN PERMANENTLY LOSING HER. 560 00:33:12,133 --> 00:33:15,067 [ SOBBING ] 561 00:33:16,433 --> 00:33:18,700 Lindsay: ME AND ASHLEY ARE VERY CLOSE, 562 00:33:18,700 --> 00:33:22,800 AND SHE DEPENDS ON OUR FAMILY SO MUCH 563 00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:25,867 FOR HER TO EVEN GET AROUND THE DAY. 564 00:33:25,867 --> 00:33:30,167 SO IT'S SCARY BECAUSE IT'S SO FAR AWAY. 565 00:33:30,167 --> 00:33:33,767 IT FEELS LIKE MY HEART IS BEING RIPPED IN TWO 566 00:33:33,767 --> 00:33:36,767 AND I'M LEAVING HALF OF IT BEHIND. 567 00:33:36,767 --> 00:33:40,467 AND NOT THAT DANIEL DOESN'T MAKE ME FEEL WHOLE, 568 00:33:40,467 --> 00:33:43,100 BUT IT'S DIFFERENT. 569 00:33:46,200 --> 00:33:48,067 I'M LEAVING EVERYTHING THAT I KNOW. 570 00:33:48,067 --> 00:33:50,633 AND WHAT IF I FAIL? 571 00:33:50,633 --> 00:33:53,800 WHAT IF I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS? 572 00:33:59,733 --> 00:34:03,133 Ashley: WHEN YOU WORK HARD TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING, 573 00:34:03,133 --> 00:34:04,733 YOU MAY NOT REALIZE 574 00:34:04,733 --> 00:34:08,933 WHAT YOU THOUGHT WAS THE GOAL WAS REALLY JUST THE FIRST STEP. 575 00:34:29,833 --> 00:34:31,933 FOR THE SECOND TIME IN ABOUT A MONTH, 576 00:34:31,933 --> 00:34:34,700 I'VE MADE THE TRIP BACK TO HOUSTON. 577 00:34:34,700 --> 00:34:38,400 MY DAD TOOK TIME OFF WORK TO HELP US DRIVE, 578 00:34:38,400 --> 00:34:41,433 SINCE I CAN'T DO THE WHOLE DRIVE ON MY OWN 579 00:34:41,433 --> 00:34:45,967 AND DANIEL DOESN'T HAVE A LICENSE. 580 00:34:45,967 --> 00:34:48,100 -RIGHT HERE? -RIGHT HERE. 581 00:34:48,100 --> 00:34:52,967 I THINK THAT THIS ROAD TRIP TOOK A TOLL ON MY BODY, ON MY MIND. 582 00:34:59,833 --> 00:35:02,200 IT WAS IMPORTANT FOR ME TO GET TO HOUSTON 583 00:35:02,200 --> 00:35:04,700 TO BE CLOSER TO THE DOCTOR. 584 00:35:04,700 --> 00:35:07,067 BUT WE LEFT EVERYTHING. 585 00:35:07,067 --> 00:35:10,933 WE LEFT OUR FAMILY. WE LEFT OUR FRIENDS. 586 00:35:10,933 --> 00:35:14,467 DANIEL AND I ARE TAKING A BIG GAMBLE, 587 00:35:14,467 --> 00:35:15,967 AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW 588 00:35:15,967 --> 00:35:18,900 IF DR. NOW IS GONNA APPROVE ME FOR SURGERY. 589 00:35:22,067 --> 00:35:24,433 AND I HOPE THIS PAYS OFF. 590 00:35:26,467 --> 00:35:28,767 THERE'S SO MANY UNKNOWNS AHEAD. 591 00:35:32,233 --> 00:35:36,100 AND PART OF ME IS WORRIED I'VE MADE A BIG MISTAKE. 592 00:35:38,100 --> 00:35:40,867 IT WORRIES ME THAT ASHLEY IS REALLY STRESSED OUT. 593 00:35:42,500 --> 00:35:46,167 WHEN SHE'S REALLY STRESSED OUT, THAT'S WHEN SHE EATS. 594 00:35:48,500 --> 00:35:51,067 UM, YOU GUYS CAN EAT. I'M NOT HUNGRY. 595 00:35:51,067 --> 00:35:55,233 DAD, REALLY, I'M NOT HUNGRY. 596 00:35:55,233 --> 00:35:56,567 Ashley: I AM COMPLETELY DRAINED. 597 00:35:56,567 --> 00:35:58,300 I AM EMOTIONALLY SPENT. 598 00:35:58,300 --> 00:36:01,933 I AM PHYSICALLY EXHAUSTED. 599 00:36:01,933 --> 00:36:06,600 AND ALL I WANT IS FOOD, BUT I CAN'T MESS THIS UP. 600 00:36:11,300 --> 00:36:13,600 MY OLD EATING HABITS WERE TO EAT WHATEVER I WANTED 601 00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:15,367 WHEN I WAS STRESSED TO COMFORT MYSELF 602 00:36:15,367 --> 00:36:17,067 AND MAKE IT BETTER. 603 00:36:17,067 --> 00:36:18,733 I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK 604 00:36:18,733 --> 00:36:20,867 INTO THE HABIT OF STRESSING OUT AND THEN EATING 605 00:36:20,867 --> 00:36:24,100 BECAUSE THIS IS WHERE IT GOT ME. 606 00:36:24,100 --> 00:36:26,133 WHAT A DAY TODAY. 607 00:36:28,900 --> 00:36:32,633 TOMORROW, MY FATHER FLIES BACK HOME, 608 00:36:32,633 --> 00:36:35,467 AND DANIEL AND I WILL BE ALONE. 609 00:36:35,467 --> 00:36:37,300 AND THEN WE GO SEE THE DOCTOR 610 00:36:37,300 --> 00:36:40,467 TO FIND OUT IF I'M APPROVED FOR SURGERY. 611 00:36:47,133 --> 00:36:48,433 -WE CAN GO. -OKAY. 612 00:36:48,433 --> 00:36:50,533 -ALL RIGHT? -YEAH. 613 00:36:50,533 --> 00:36:53,600 NOW THAT HE'S HELPED US MOVE AND GET SETTLED IN, 614 00:36:53,600 --> 00:36:55,867 MY DAD'S FLYING BACK HOME TODAY. 615 00:36:55,867 --> 00:36:57,300 Alan: JUST THINK... 616 00:37:03,367 --> 00:37:05,700 DANIEL'S GONNA BE HERE ALL THE TIME WITH YOU, YOU KNOW? 617 00:37:05,700 --> 00:37:08,700 -YEAH. -YOU CAN CALL US ANY TIME. 618 00:37:08,700 --> 00:37:10,333 YEAH, I KNOW. 619 00:37:10,333 --> 00:37:12,667 LIVING IN HOUSTON IS GONNA BE OKAY, 620 00:37:12,667 --> 00:37:14,833 BUT I THINK THAT AT THE BEGINNING, 621 00:37:14,833 --> 00:37:17,100 SHE'S GONNA MISS HER FAMILY. 622 00:37:17,100 --> 00:37:21,067 IT'S GONNA TAKE TIME FOR HER TO ADJUST. 623 00:37:21,067 --> 00:37:22,767 -WANT ME TO DRIVE? -YEAH. 624 00:37:28,100 --> 00:37:30,600 CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE LEAVING TODAY, DAD. 625 00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:33,300 Alan: ASHLEY -- THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SHE'S AWAY FROM HOME, 626 00:37:33,300 --> 00:37:37,067 AWAY FROM US, FROM THE FAMILY, FROM EVERYTHING. 627 00:37:37,067 --> 00:37:39,067 AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT'S MOST TOUGH FOR HER, 628 00:37:39,067 --> 00:37:42,433 TO LET GO OF US. 629 00:37:42,433 --> 00:37:45,133 -HAVE A SAFE FLIGHT. -ALL RIGHT. 630 00:37:45,133 --> 00:37:47,300 I'LL SEE YOU THEN. 631 00:37:47,300 --> 00:37:49,100 TAKE CARE, ALL RIGHT? 632 00:37:55,100 --> 00:37:57,233 Ashley: I MISS THEM. 633 00:37:57,233 --> 00:37:59,333 I MISS HOME. 634 00:37:59,333 --> 00:38:03,400 I AM SO FAR AWAY FROM MY COMFORT ZONE AT THIS POINT. 635 00:38:03,400 --> 00:38:06,900 BUT MY DAD SAID, YOU KNOW, THERE'S CERTAIN SACRIFICES 636 00:38:06,900 --> 00:38:11,067 THAT YOU HAVE TO DO IN ORDER TO GET WHERE YOU WANT TO GET. 637 00:38:11,067 --> 00:38:13,567 AND YOU JUST GOT TO BE STRONG. 638 00:38:23,133 --> 00:38:27,133 TODAY, WE ARE ON OUR WAY TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN 639 00:38:27,133 --> 00:38:30,067 TO CHECK ON MY PROGRESS AND THEN TO SEE 640 00:38:30,067 --> 00:38:34,100 IF I'M GOING TO BE A CANDIDATE FOR SURGERY OR NOT. 641 00:38:34,100 --> 00:38:35,967 I KNOW THAT I'VE BEEN DOING WELL, 642 00:38:35,967 --> 00:38:38,567 AND I KNOW THAT IT'S BEEN HARD. 643 00:38:38,567 --> 00:38:41,500 AND I'M NERVOUS TO SEE WHAT THE SCALE SAYS NOW. 644 00:38:45,500 --> 00:38:49,067 I NEED THE SURGERY SO BAD. 645 00:38:49,067 --> 00:38:52,700 THIS IS THE NEXT STEP IN THIS JOURNEY, 646 00:38:52,700 --> 00:38:55,633 AND HE HOLDS THE KEY TO THAT. 647 00:38:55,633 --> 00:38:58,167 THANKS, BABY. 648 00:38:58,167 --> 00:39:00,133 Woman: ASHLEY REYES? 649 00:39:00,133 --> 00:39:03,767 Ashley: THE DOCTOR TOLD ME 650 00:39:03,767 --> 00:39:06,733 I NEEDED TO LOSE 50 POUNDS TO BE A CANDIDATE FOR SURGERY. 651 00:39:06,733 --> 00:39:10,233 SO EVERYTHING DEPENDS ON THIS WEIGH-IN. 652 00:39:11,933 --> 00:39:13,833 Woman: 614. 653 00:39:19,967 --> 00:39:22,100 AT LEAST I MET THE 50 POUNDS 654 00:39:22,100 --> 00:39:26,067 THAT THE DOCTOR WANTED ME TO LOSE. 655 00:39:26,067 --> 00:39:29,400 BUT I'M NERVOUS IT'S NOT GOING TO BE ENOUGH. 656 00:39:29,400 --> 00:39:31,667 I WONDER WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY. 657 00:39:34,933 --> 00:39:39,400 YEAH, BUT IS IT GOOD ENOUGH? THAT'S THE QUESTION. 658 00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:44,367 -HELLO. -HI. 659 00:39:44,367 --> 00:39:46,067 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. 660 00:39:46,067 --> 00:39:49,733 -SO YOU LOST 54 POUNDS. -YES. 661 00:39:49,733 --> 00:39:53,100 SO HOW IS YOUR EATING HABIT NOW? 662 00:39:53,100 --> 00:39:55,467 I MEASURE EVERYTHING. I WEIGH EVERYTHING IN OUNCES, 663 00:39:55,467 --> 00:39:57,100 MAKE SURE THE PORTIONS ARE UNDER CONTROL. 664 00:39:57,100 --> 00:40:00,133 I ADD MORE PROTEIN, AND NOW I DON'T SNACK AT ALL. 665 00:40:00,133 --> 00:40:02,067 OKAY, SUPER. 666 00:40:02,067 --> 00:40:04,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: ASHLEY'S DONE WELL THIS MONTH. 667 00:40:04,067 --> 00:40:06,700 LOSING 54 POUNDS HAS DEMONSTRATED 668 00:40:06,700 --> 00:40:10,367 THAT SHE'S ABLE TO CONTROL HER EATING HABIT. 669 00:40:10,367 --> 00:40:13,933 SHE'S SHOWN ME THAT SHE'S WILLING TO WORK HARD FOR THIS 670 00:40:13,933 --> 00:40:17,300 AND NOT JUST TRUSTING IN THE MAGIC PILL. 671 00:40:17,300 --> 00:40:20,133 YOU'RE DOING GOOD, AND YOU LOST SOME WEIGHT. 672 00:40:20,133 --> 00:40:23,467 SO I'M GONNA APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 673 00:40:23,467 --> 00:40:25,333 Ashley: OKAY. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 674 00:40:25,333 --> 00:40:28,333 YOU FIGURED OUT HOW TO DEAL WITH THE PROBLEM. 675 00:40:28,333 --> 00:40:31,033 NOW THE SURGERY WILL HELP YOU EVEN MORE. 676 00:40:31,033 --> 00:40:34,800 I'M GOING TO SCHEDULE YOUR OPERATION FOR NEXT MONTH. 677 00:40:34,800 --> 00:40:36,900 UNTIL THEN, STICK WITH THE DIET 678 00:40:36,900 --> 00:40:39,767 SO YOU CAN LOSE EVEN MORE WEIGHT. 679 00:40:39,767 --> 00:40:41,700 IF YOU DON'T, WE WON'T BE ABLE 680 00:40:41,700 --> 00:40:44,133 TO MOVE FORWARD WITH YOUR SURGERY. 681 00:40:44,133 --> 00:40:47,000 SO KEEP AT IT. GOOD JOB. 682 00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:48,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS IS ENCOURAGING. 683 00:40:48,733 --> 00:40:50,067 IT'S NOT A GUARANTEE 684 00:40:50,067 --> 00:40:52,933 THAT SHE WILL BE COMPLETELY SUCCESSFUL, 685 00:40:52,933 --> 00:40:56,367 BUT HER HEAD SEEMS TO BE IN THE RIGHT PLACE. 686 00:40:56,367 --> 00:40:59,833 SHE'S SHOWN ME THAT SHE'S READY FOR THE NEXT STEP. 687 00:40:59,833 --> 00:41:01,233 ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 688 00:41:01,233 --> 00:41:02,467 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT. 689 00:41:02,467 --> 00:41:04,433 -THANK YOU SO MUCH, DOCTOR. -ALL RIGHT. 690 00:41:07,500 --> 00:41:08,900 FEELING GOOD? 691 00:41:08,900 --> 00:41:10,300 YEAH. 692 00:41:10,300 --> 00:41:13,067 Ashley: TO GET A YES FROM THE DOCTOR MEANS EVERYTHING. 693 00:41:13,067 --> 00:41:14,767 IT MEANS THAT ALL MY EFFORT -- 694 00:41:14,767 --> 00:41:16,700 THE MOVE, LEAVING MY FAMILY, 695 00:41:16,700 --> 00:41:19,400 LEAVING EVERYTHING THAT I KNOW BACK IN CALIFORNIA -- 696 00:41:19,400 --> 00:41:21,067 IT'S WORTH IT. 697 00:41:23,767 --> 00:41:26,133 I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL MY FAMILY THAT I'M APPROVED. 698 00:41:26,133 --> 00:41:31,067 I'M PROUD OF MYSELF THAT I DIDN'T WAVER 699 00:41:31,067 --> 00:41:32,767 AND I DIDN'T LET MYSELF DOWN 700 00:41:32,767 --> 00:41:34,733 BY GOING BACK TO MY OLD EATING HABITS 701 00:41:34,733 --> 00:41:38,533 WHEN THINGS GOT REALLY STRESSFUL OR REALLY BAD. 702 00:41:38,533 --> 00:41:41,267 I FINALLY GET TO SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. 703 00:41:49,633 --> 00:41:52,433 ** 704 00:42:06,067 --> 00:42:11,200 I'M EXCITED 'CAUSE MY FAMILY IS ARRIVING IN HOUSTON TODAY. 705 00:42:11,200 --> 00:42:14,567 IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE I'VE SEEN MY FAMILY. 706 00:42:16,833 --> 00:42:19,767 I'M THANKFUL I HAVE DANIEL HERE WITH ME. 707 00:42:22,133 --> 00:42:23,967 BUT I REALLY NEED THE SUPPORT 708 00:42:23,967 --> 00:42:28,667 OF MY WHOLE FAMILY GOING INTO SURGERY. 709 00:42:28,667 --> 00:42:30,633 I'M JUST REALLY SCARED. 710 00:42:34,200 --> 00:42:36,567 -HI! -ASHLEY! 711 00:42:36,567 --> 00:42:39,733 ASH! WE MISSED YOU. 712 00:42:39,733 --> 00:42:42,767 DANIEL! WHAT'S UP, DANIEL? 713 00:42:42,767 --> 00:42:44,300 YOU CAN SIT, MIJA. 714 00:42:44,300 --> 00:42:46,633 I'M TIRED OF SITTING DOWN, THOUGH. ALL THE WAY HERE. 715 00:42:46,633 --> 00:42:48,700 DUDE, YOUR FACE LOOKS SMALLER! 716 00:42:48,700 --> 00:42:50,167 -THANKS. -SHE LOOKS SO GOOD. 717 00:42:50,167 --> 00:42:51,900 I HAVEN'T NOTICED A DIFFERENCE YET. 718 00:42:51,900 --> 00:42:54,700 I'M SO EXCITED FOR THE LITTLE MINOR THINGS. 719 00:42:54,700 --> 00:42:56,533 SO, HOW LONG ARE YOU GOING TO BE IN THE HOSPITAL? 720 00:42:56,533 --> 00:42:58,833 -DID HE TELL YOU? -HE SAID ABOUT 3 TO 4 DAYS. 721 00:42:58,833 --> 00:43:01,667 AND THERE'S NO MORE TESTS THAT YOU NEED TO RUN OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT? OR THAT'S IT? 722 00:43:01,667 --> 00:43:04,800 NO, HE DID RUN A BUNCH OF TESTS ALREADY. 723 00:43:04,800 --> 00:43:06,067 -OH, YEAH? -YEAH. 724 00:43:06,067 --> 00:43:08,667 -AND THEY CAME OUT GOOD? -YEAH, THEY CAME OUT GOOD. 725 00:43:08,667 --> 00:43:11,533 -YOU KNOW, UM... -HOW'S THE BLOOD WORK? 726 00:43:11,533 --> 00:43:13,167 I'VE BEEN STRESSING OUT A LITTLE BIT, 727 00:43:13,167 --> 00:43:15,833 SO MY BLOOD PRESSURE WENT UP. 728 00:43:15,833 --> 00:43:18,567 Blanca: I DON'T WANT ASHLEY TO SEE ME WORRIED ABOUT HER, 729 00:43:18,567 --> 00:43:19,967 BUT I'M SCARED FOR HER. 730 00:43:19,967 --> 00:43:24,233 I'M SCARED FOR THE FACT THAT IT'S NOT A LITTLE SURGERY. 731 00:43:24,233 --> 00:43:25,733 IT'S A MAJOR SURGERY. 732 00:43:25,733 --> 00:43:29,700 BUT I JUST KEEP THINKING IT'S FOR HER OWN GOOD. 733 00:43:29,700 --> 00:43:31,100 I'M HAPPY, 734 00:43:31,100 --> 00:43:33,667 AFTER ALL THIS TIME, AFTER ALL THE SACRIFICES. 735 00:43:33,667 --> 00:43:36,700 BUT IT'S SCARY, AND I'M VERY NERVOUS. 736 00:43:36,700 --> 00:43:39,900 BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU'RE CLOSING THE BOOK 737 00:43:39,900 --> 00:43:42,367 ON THIS PART OF YOUR LIFE. 738 00:43:42,367 --> 00:43:46,133 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE A WHOLE NEW SET OF OPPORTUNITIES 739 00:43:46,133 --> 00:43:48,233 THAT YOU DIDN'T HAVE BEFORE. 740 00:43:48,233 --> 00:43:50,400 THAT'S WHAT MAKES THIS ALL WORTH IT. 741 00:43:50,400 --> 00:43:51,933 NOW WE'RE GETTING THE CHANCE 742 00:43:51,933 --> 00:43:54,700 AND ASHLEY'S GETTING THE CHANCE TO SEE A FUTURE FOR HERSELF. 743 00:43:54,700 --> 00:43:58,367 THAT'S WHAT I KEEP TELLING MYSELF. 744 00:43:58,367 --> 00:44:00,500 Ashley: I'M SO GLAD MY FAMILY'S HERE 745 00:44:00,500 --> 00:44:03,267 BECAUSE I'M REALLY SCARED ABOUT TOMORROW. 746 00:44:03,267 --> 00:44:06,633 AND I'M JUST NOT SURE IF I CAN DO IT WITHOUT THEM. 747 00:44:16,167 --> 00:44:18,367 TODAY I AM FINALLY GETTING 748 00:44:18,367 --> 00:44:20,633 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY AFTER SO LONG. 749 00:44:22,900 --> 00:44:25,067 I'M SCARED, BUT IT FEELS GOOD TO KNOW 750 00:44:25,067 --> 00:44:27,233 MY FAMILY WILL BE THERE WHEN I WAKE UP. 751 00:44:31,200 --> 00:44:35,067 I THINK I'M MORE NERVOUS THAN YOU. 752 00:44:35,067 --> 00:44:38,133 SEE YOU IN A BIT. LOVE YOU! 753 00:44:40,900 --> 00:44:45,433 Ashley: I AM REALLY NERVOUS. 754 00:44:45,433 --> 00:44:47,667 IF THERE WAS ANOTHER WAY, I WOULD'VE DONE THAT, 755 00:44:47,667 --> 00:44:50,633 BUT THERE'S NO OTHER CHOICE. 756 00:44:53,300 --> 00:44:54,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY WE ARE GOING TO TRY 757 00:44:54,733 --> 00:44:59,167 TO DO A GASTRIC BYPASS PROCEDURE ON ASHLEY. 758 00:44:59,167 --> 00:45:01,500 BUT I AM CONCERNED ABOUT 759 00:45:01,500 --> 00:45:04,400 HOW MUCH OF HER WEIGHT IS AROUND HER STOMACH. 760 00:45:04,400 --> 00:45:06,400 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE VERY DIFFICULT 761 00:45:06,400 --> 00:45:08,100 TO MANIPULATE THE INSTRUMENT. 762 00:45:08,100 --> 00:45:12,167 BUT ONCE I AM ABLE TO SEE INTO HER ABDOMEN, 763 00:45:12,167 --> 00:45:16,533 WE'LL SEE IF WE HAVE ROOM TO DO A GASTRIC BYPASS 764 00:45:16,533 --> 00:45:20,767 OR IF WE NEED TO DO ANOTHER PROCEDURE. 765 00:45:20,767 --> 00:45:23,667 GASTRIC BYPASS IS THE MOST EFFECTIVE TYPE 766 00:45:23,667 --> 00:45:25,833 OF WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 767 00:45:25,833 --> 00:45:29,067 AND IT'S A PROCEDURE THAT NOT ONLY REDUCES 768 00:45:29,067 --> 00:45:30,833 THE SIZE OF THE PATIENT'S STOMACH, 769 00:45:30,833 --> 00:45:33,567 BUT BYPASS SOME OF THE INTESTINES 770 00:45:33,567 --> 00:45:36,667 SO THEY WILL ABSORB FEWER CALORIES. 771 00:45:47,100 --> 00:45:50,967 I CAN'T WAIT FOR HER TO OPEN HER EYES AND BE OKAY. 772 00:45:50,967 --> 00:45:54,167 I DON'T KNOW HOW I WOULD LIVE WITHOUT HER. 773 00:45:54,167 --> 00:45:57,067 AND IT'S VERY SCARY TO THINK THAT THERE COULD BE 774 00:45:57,067 --> 00:45:59,833 A POSSIBILITY THAT THAT WOULD HAPPEN. 775 00:46:02,233 --> 00:46:04,333 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE DON'T HAVE ROOM IN THE ABDOMEN, 776 00:46:04,333 --> 00:46:07,867 SO WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO A SLEEVE. 777 00:46:07,867 --> 00:46:10,067 A GASTRIC SLEEVE IS AN OPERATION -- 778 00:46:10,067 --> 00:46:13,333 WE REMOVE THE MAJORITY OF THE STOMACH, 779 00:46:13,333 --> 00:46:17,667 LEAVING IN 20% TO 30% OF ORIGINAL STOMACH. 780 00:46:17,667 --> 00:46:20,700 THE BENEFIT AFTER GASTRIC SLEEVE SURGERY 781 00:46:20,700 --> 00:46:23,233 IS THAT THEY CAN EAT ONLY A SMALL AMOUNT 782 00:46:23,233 --> 00:46:25,767 AND THEY GET FULL REAL QUICK, 783 00:46:25,767 --> 00:46:28,667 WHICH WILL HELP THEM TO LOSE WEIGHT. 784 00:46:31,267 --> 00:46:36,367 SHE HAS A VERY BIG STOMACH. 785 00:46:36,367 --> 00:46:40,633 SO WE ARE REDUCING IT A GREAT DEAL. 786 00:46:40,633 --> 00:46:42,400 ALL RIGHT. ROOM LIGHT ON. 787 00:46:49,267 --> 00:46:52,400 ASHLEY'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 788 00:46:52,400 --> 00:46:54,267 MAKING HER STOMACH THIS SMALL 789 00:46:54,267 --> 00:46:57,367 WILL CAUSE HER TO EAT MUCH LESS. 790 00:46:57,367 --> 00:47:01,133 HOWEVER, IF SHE PUSH HERSELF TO OVEREAT, 791 00:47:01,133 --> 00:47:03,067 SHE CAN STRETCH HER STOMACH BACK OUT 792 00:47:03,067 --> 00:47:05,167 AND ESSENTIALLY UNDO THIS SURGERY. 793 00:47:05,167 --> 00:47:08,833 Woman: TIME TO WAKE UP. SURGERY'S ALL FINISHED. 794 00:47:08,833 --> 00:47:12,200 THE SURGERY IS A VERY EFFECTIVE TOOL. 795 00:47:12,200 --> 00:47:15,267 BUT FOR HER TO BE SUCCESSFUL LONG-TERM, 796 00:47:15,267 --> 00:47:17,667 SHE NEEDS TO MAKE SURE THE EMOTIONAL ISSUES 797 00:47:17,667 --> 00:47:21,500 THAT SHE USES FOOD TO AVOID ARE ADDRESSED. 798 00:47:23,767 --> 00:47:25,767 BUT RIGHT NOW SHE SHOULD BE ABLE 799 00:47:25,767 --> 00:47:30,433 TO LOSE 20 TO 30 POUNDS A MONTH ONCE SHE RECOVERS. 800 00:47:35,533 --> 00:47:38,100 Blanca: I FEEL A SENSE OF RELIEF THAT ASHLEY'S ALIVE, 801 00:47:38,100 --> 00:47:40,567 THAT SHE CAME OUT GOOD AFTER THE SURGERY, YOU KNOW? 802 00:47:40,567 --> 00:47:44,133 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I'M STILL NOT AT EASE. 803 00:47:44,133 --> 00:47:46,200 I'M HOPING THAT SHE'LL BE FINE. 804 00:47:50,400 --> 00:47:52,900 [ ASHLEY GROANING ] 805 00:47:56,833 --> 00:48:00,733 -WANT ME TO LIFT YOU UP? -PLEASE. 806 00:48:04,867 --> 00:48:07,400 Blanca: BREATHE. 807 00:48:16,800 --> 00:48:19,500 Ashley: YOU TRY TO PREPARE YOURSELF FOR THE PAIN 808 00:48:19,500 --> 00:48:22,300 'CAUSE YOU KNOW THERE'S GOING TO BE PAIN. 809 00:48:22,300 --> 00:48:25,367 BUT NOT UNTIL YOU'RE THERE DO YOU ACTUALLY REALIZE 810 00:48:25,367 --> 00:48:28,433 HOW MUCH PAIN IT WAS ACTUALLY GONNA BE. 811 00:48:28,433 --> 00:48:31,900 I'M SORRY, ASHLEY. I CAN'T STAY. 812 00:48:31,900 --> 00:48:34,167 WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? 813 00:48:36,067 --> 00:48:39,067 YOU KNOW WE CAN'T STAY ANY LONGER 'CAUSE WE HAVE TO DRIVE. 814 00:48:39,067 --> 00:48:41,867 IT'S A REALLY, REALLY FAR DRIVE. 815 00:48:44,500 --> 00:48:49,067 DON'T DO THAT. I CAN'T. I CAN'T GO LIKE THIS. 816 00:48:49,067 --> 00:48:53,067 IT'S JUST SO MUCH HARDER THAN I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE. 817 00:48:55,533 --> 00:48:58,767 I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO DO THIS WITHOUT THEM. 818 00:49:11,067 --> 00:49:14,800 Ashley: TRYING TO AVOID THE PAIN AND HURT IN OUR PAST 819 00:49:14,800 --> 00:49:18,133 CAN CONSUME US SO COMPLETELY, 820 00:49:18,133 --> 00:49:20,733 IT STARTS KILLING OFF THE FUTURE. 821 00:49:29,733 --> 00:49:31,933 Ashley: LET'S GO FOR A WALK. 822 00:49:31,933 --> 00:49:34,300 AND THAT WAY, I CAN STRETCH MYSELF OUT A LITTLE BIT. 823 00:49:34,300 --> 00:49:38,067 ONE, TWO... 824 00:49:38,067 --> 00:49:40,200 PULL. 825 00:49:40,200 --> 00:49:43,400 THAT'S MY GIRL. 826 00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:47,900 IT'S MY FOURTH DAY IN RECOVERY, AND I'M STILL REALLY SORE. 827 00:49:47,900 --> 00:49:51,833 IT'S BEEN HARD TRYING TO WALK AGAIN. 828 00:49:51,833 --> 00:49:55,633 BUT YOU GOT TO WALK THROUGH THE PAIN. 829 00:49:55,633 --> 00:49:58,067 I FEEL LIKE MY STOMACH'S COMPRESSED, 830 00:49:58,067 --> 00:50:03,200 AND WHEN I STAND UP, IT SLOWLY RELEASES. 831 00:50:03,200 --> 00:50:05,033 THAT'S GOOD. 832 00:50:05,033 --> 00:50:08,833 IT'S JUST I GUESS BABY STEPS AT THIS POINT. 833 00:50:08,833 --> 00:50:10,700 I WISH I HAD MY ENTIRE FAMILY HERE, 834 00:50:10,700 --> 00:50:14,800 BUT I HAVE DANIEL NEXT TO ME. 835 00:50:14,800 --> 00:50:17,333 WATER BREAK. 836 00:50:21,467 --> 00:50:25,033 I DON'T KNOW IF I COULD DO THIS WITHOUT HIM. 837 00:50:30,333 --> 00:50:32,333 LET ME GET SOME... 838 00:50:32,333 --> 00:50:35,033 HE LOVES ME SO MUCH. 839 00:50:35,033 --> 00:50:36,900 HE'S ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME. 840 00:50:39,300 --> 00:50:41,333 [ GROANS ] 841 00:50:43,733 --> 00:50:46,133 I WISH I COULD GUZZLE MY WATER, BUT I CAN'T. 842 00:50:48,633 --> 00:50:50,667 Daniel: ASHLEY NEEDS SOME HELP BASICALLY ON EVERYTHING NOW, 843 00:50:50,667 --> 00:50:54,900 BECAUSE I GOT TO PREPARE HER FOOD, 844 00:50:54,900 --> 00:50:58,433 MAKE SURE SHE DRINKS HER LIQUIDS THAT SHE NEEDS TO BE DRINKING. 845 00:50:58,433 --> 00:51:01,367 OH, IT'S BEEF. 846 00:51:01,367 --> 00:51:04,100 Ashley: RIGHT NOW I'M NOT CRAVING ANYTHING, 847 00:51:04,100 --> 00:51:06,100 I DON'T HAVE AN APPETITE. 848 00:51:06,100 --> 00:51:07,433 IT'S AN ODD SENSATION 849 00:51:07,433 --> 00:51:10,600 'CAUSE I EAT 'CAUSE I HAVE TO BUT NOT 'CAUSE I WANT TO. 850 00:51:16,067 --> 00:51:20,100 I NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE IN MY LIFE. 851 00:51:20,100 --> 00:51:23,767 I'M DONE WITH BROTH. 852 00:51:23,767 --> 00:51:26,233 Daniel: I'M GONNA BE IN CHARGE OF ASHLEY'S RECOVERY AT HOME, 853 00:51:26,233 --> 00:51:28,067 AND I'M WORRIED THAT WHEN SHE GETS HOME 854 00:51:28,067 --> 00:51:30,567 SHE'S GONNA BE IN PAIN. 855 00:51:32,600 --> 00:51:35,067 NOBODY WANTS TO SEE A LOVED ONE IN PAIN. 856 00:52:04,667 --> 00:52:07,900 Ashley: I'VE BEEN HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL ALMOST A MONTH, 857 00:52:07,900 --> 00:52:12,067 AND I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO GET BETTER A LOT SOONER. 858 00:52:12,067 --> 00:52:14,733 BUT THE PAIN REALLY TOOK ITS TOLL. 859 00:52:14,733 --> 00:52:17,567 AND I FELT REALLY SICK AND WEAK, 860 00:52:17,567 --> 00:52:20,333 AND I'M SCARED SOMETHING'S WRONG. 861 00:52:22,100 --> 00:52:24,667 OKAY. 862 00:52:24,667 --> 00:52:27,467 I'LL SEE IF I CAN HAVE A FEW BITES OF THAT. 863 00:52:30,067 --> 00:52:31,867 RIGHT NOW I'M STILL ON A LIQUID DIET, 864 00:52:31,867 --> 00:52:35,100 SO I'M MOSTLY JUST EATING SOUPS. 865 00:52:35,100 --> 00:52:38,867 I KNOW DANIEL FEELS GUILTY EATING SOLID FOOD OR NORMAL FOOD 866 00:52:38,867 --> 00:52:40,567 THAT WE USED TO EAT TOGETHER. 867 00:52:40,567 --> 00:52:42,500 BUT IT'S OKAY. I'M NOT HUNGRY. 868 00:52:50,800 --> 00:52:53,133 Daniel: I'M REALLY PROUD OF ASHLEY 'CAUSE IT'S BEEN HARD, 869 00:52:53,133 --> 00:52:55,667 BUT I SEE A LOT OF DETERMINATION IN ASHLEY 870 00:52:55,667 --> 00:52:58,400 THAT SHE WANTS TO DO THE BEST SHE CAN 871 00:52:58,400 --> 00:53:01,400 AND THAT SHE WILL... AS FAST AS SHE CAN, 872 00:53:01,400 --> 00:53:04,400 BUT I STILL WORRY ABOUT HER. 873 00:53:04,400 --> 00:53:06,800 -THAT IT? -THAT'S IT, BABY. 874 00:53:06,800 --> 00:53:11,200 I DON'T THINK I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO FINISH THAT, BUT THANK YOU. 875 00:53:11,200 --> 00:53:12,833 Ashley: I DON'T KNOW IF MAYBE THE FOOD 876 00:53:12,833 --> 00:53:16,100 THAT I'M EATING RIGHT NOW, I'M NOT ENJOYING IT 877 00:53:16,100 --> 00:53:18,400 BECAUSE IT'S THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND OVER. 878 00:53:22,400 --> 00:53:24,433 UM, NO. I JUST FEEL REALLY FULL. 879 00:53:24,433 --> 00:53:26,467 [ GROANS ] 880 00:53:31,533 --> 00:53:34,700 I'M JUST NOT FEELING THE ENERGY TO DO ANYTHING. 881 00:53:34,700 --> 00:53:37,067 YOU KNOW, BEFORE, I WANTED TO GO OUTSIDE AND WALK, 882 00:53:37,067 --> 00:53:41,333 I WANTED TO FEEL THE SUNSHINE, AND I WANTED TO BE MORE ACTIVE. 883 00:53:41,333 --> 00:53:44,733 NOW IT'S LIKE I WANT TO WALK, THE WANT IS THERE, 884 00:53:44,733 --> 00:53:47,400 BUT THE ABILITY TO DO SO IS HARD. 885 00:53:47,400 --> 00:53:48,833 OKAY. 886 00:53:48,833 --> 00:53:53,067 NOW IT'S LIKE EVEN IF I WANT TO, IS MY BODY ABLE TO HANDLE IT? 887 00:53:55,067 --> 00:53:58,467 I THINK I'M LOSING WEIGHT, BUT I'M STILL REALLY WORRIED 888 00:53:58,467 --> 00:54:02,900 THAT THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG FROM SURGERY. 889 00:54:02,900 --> 00:54:06,900 I WANT MY LIFE JUST TO BE BACK TO NORMAL -- 890 00:54:06,900 --> 00:54:10,500 YOU KNOW, WHATEVER "NORMAL" IS NOW THAT THE SURGERY IS HERE. 891 00:54:10,500 --> 00:54:13,167 I'M JUST READY TO FEEL GOOD AGAIN. 892 00:54:13,167 --> 00:54:14,633 I'M LIGHTHEADED. 893 00:54:26,133 --> 00:54:28,500 [ BREATHES DEEPLY ] 894 00:54:38,200 --> 00:54:39,600 -HELLO. -HEY, DOCTOR. 895 00:54:39,600 --> 00:54:42,767 -HOW ARE YOU DOING? -I'M, LIKE, QUEASY. 896 00:54:42,767 --> 00:54:46,433 SO, YOU'VE BEEN HAVING NAUSEA. 897 00:54:46,433 --> 00:54:47,933 AND HAVE YOU ACTUALLY VOMITED? 898 00:54:47,933 --> 00:54:50,067 YEAH, I VOMITED TODAY, BUT IT'S JUST FOAM. 899 00:54:50,067 --> 00:54:51,933 IT'S NOT FOOD OR ANYTHING. 900 00:54:51,933 --> 00:54:53,733 OKAY. YOU HAVEN'T EATEN ANYTHING? 901 00:54:53,733 --> 00:54:55,067 NO. 902 00:54:55,067 --> 00:54:58,400 OKAY, WE'RE GONNA GO DOWN AND DO AN ENDOSCOPY ON YOU, 903 00:54:58,400 --> 00:55:00,900 LOOK INSIDE THE STOMACH, MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY. 904 00:55:00,900 --> 00:55:02,800 FIGURE OUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR STOMACH. 905 00:55:02,800 --> 00:55:04,100 -PLEASE. -OKAY. 906 00:55:04,100 --> 00:55:06,533 -THANK YOU, DOCTOR. -ALL RIGHT. 907 00:55:06,533 --> 00:55:09,600 I'M REALLY WORRIED RIGHT NOW. 908 00:55:09,600 --> 00:55:12,533 MY WORST FEAR IS THAT THE DOCTOR'S GOING TO TELL ME 909 00:55:12,533 --> 00:55:15,600 THAT I NEED FURTHER SURGERY. 910 00:55:15,600 --> 00:55:17,933 I REALLY DON'T WANT SURGERY AGAIN. 911 00:55:21,333 --> 00:55:23,700 I DON'T WANT TO BE IN PAIN. 912 00:55:27,567 --> 00:55:31,400 I NEVER IMAGINED MY RECOVERY WOULD HEAD ME DOWN THIS PATH. 913 00:55:34,067 --> 00:55:38,867 BY NOW I THOUGHT I'D BE BETTER, IN MY NORMAL ROUTINE. 914 00:55:38,867 --> 00:55:40,500 WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME? 915 00:55:40,500 --> 00:55:43,700 AND IT SCARES ME 'CAUSE IT COULD BE ANYTHING. 916 00:55:43,700 --> 00:55:49,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: ASHLEY HAS BEEN FEELING WEAK AND NAUSEATED. 917 00:55:49,067 --> 00:55:53,667 THIS MAY BE ROUTINE DISCOMFORT FOR ASHLEY AFTER SURGERY. 918 00:55:53,667 --> 00:55:58,500 BUT SHE'S CONCERNED ENOUGH TO COME INTO THE HOSPITAL. 919 00:55:58,500 --> 00:56:02,067 WE NEED TO TAKE ANY LONG-TERM DISCOMFORT SERIOUSLY 920 00:56:02,067 --> 00:56:04,667 TO MAKE SURE THERE IS NO LIFE-THREATENING ISSUE 921 00:56:04,667 --> 00:56:07,400 THAT WE'RE NOT AWARE OF. 922 00:56:07,400 --> 00:56:11,133 SO WE'RE GONNA GO AHEAD AND DO ENDOSCOPY. 923 00:56:11,133 --> 00:56:13,200 ONE OF THE MOST DANGEROUS COMPLICATIONS 924 00:56:13,200 --> 00:56:15,433 OF GASTRIC SLEEVE SURGERY 925 00:56:15,433 --> 00:56:19,833 IS THE STOMACH LEAKING AT THE STAPLE LINE. 926 00:56:19,833 --> 00:56:23,600 THIS CAN LEAD TO THE INFLAMMATION OF THE ABDOMINAL WALL 927 00:56:23,600 --> 00:56:26,267 AND SEPSIS AND POTENTIALLY DEATH. 928 00:56:26,267 --> 00:56:31,100 WE HAVE TO FIND OUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH ASHLEY RIGHT NOW. 929 00:56:33,300 --> 00:56:35,533 HER LIFE COULD BE ON THE LINE. 930 00:56:44,733 --> 00:56:46,800 ** 931 00:56:53,233 --> 00:56:55,933 Dr. Nowzaradan: ASHLEY HAS BEEN WITH SOME NAUSEA 932 00:56:55,933 --> 00:56:59,167 AND NOT BEEN ABLE TO KEEP FLUID DOWN, 933 00:56:59,167 --> 00:57:01,433 SO WE'RE DOING AN ENDOSCOPY 934 00:57:01,433 --> 00:57:04,533 TO SEE WHAT'S GOING ON INSIDE OF HER STOMACH. 935 00:57:04,533 --> 00:57:07,600 WE HAVE TO MAKE SURE HER STOMACH IS INTACT 936 00:57:07,600 --> 00:57:09,967 AND THERE IS NO LEAKAGE AT THE STAPLE LINE 937 00:57:09,967 --> 00:57:14,067 THAT COULD POTENTIALLY DEVELOP INTO A FATAL CONDITION. 938 00:57:14,067 --> 00:57:15,967 CAN YOU LEVEL THE TABLE? 939 00:57:15,967 --> 00:57:18,833 COME ON THIS SIDE. LIGHT UP HERE. LIGHT UP HERE. 940 00:57:18,833 --> 00:57:19,967 OKAY, NOW HOLD. 941 00:57:19,967 --> 00:57:23,433 PULL IT BACK. PULL IT BACK ONE SECOND. 942 00:57:23,433 --> 00:57:26,700 OKAY, NOW YOU HOLD THIS. 943 00:57:26,700 --> 00:57:29,700 OKAY, ALL RIGHT, THAT'S GOOD. 944 00:57:29,700 --> 00:57:33,467 OKAY. WE'RE OKAY. 945 00:57:38,367 --> 00:57:40,467 ALL RIGHT. 946 00:57:43,100 --> 00:57:45,633 Man: ASHLEY, OPEN YOUR EYES. THERE YOU GO. 947 00:57:45,633 --> 00:57:47,433 OKAY. BREATHING TUBE'S COMING OUT. 948 00:57:47,433 --> 00:57:49,267 WE'RE ALL DONE. EVERYONE WENT WELL. 949 00:57:49,267 --> 00:57:51,733 IT ALL LOOKED GOOD, OKAY? 950 00:57:51,733 --> 00:57:54,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S GOOD THAT WE CHECKED TO MAKE SURE 951 00:57:54,067 --> 00:57:57,067 THERE'S NOTHING PHYSICALLY WRONG WITH ASHLEY. 952 00:57:57,067 --> 00:57:59,467 BUT WHAT'S HAPPENING IS SHE'S DEVELOPING 953 00:57:59,467 --> 00:58:02,133 PSYCHOSOMATIC SYMPTOMS, 954 00:58:02,133 --> 00:58:07,300 WHICH MEANS HER FEAR IS MAKING HER PHYSICALLY SICK RIGHT NOW. 955 00:58:07,300 --> 00:58:10,567 HER DISCOMFORT IS EMOTIONAL. 956 00:58:10,567 --> 00:58:13,567 SO FOR NOW I'M GOING TO SEND HER HOME 957 00:58:13,567 --> 00:58:15,600 TO KEEP WORKING ON HER DIET 958 00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:18,667 AND TRANSITIONING TO SOLID FOOD. 959 00:58:18,667 --> 00:58:22,133 BUT I THINK THAT SHE'S GOING TO NEED TO START THERAPY SOON 960 00:58:22,133 --> 00:58:24,900 AND START TO DEAL WITH HER EMOTIONS. 961 00:58:44,433 --> 00:58:46,833 Ashley: I WAS REALLY SURPRISED WHEN THE DOCTOR 962 00:58:46,833 --> 00:58:50,067 DIDN'T FIND ANYTHING WRONG WITH MY STOMACH. 963 00:58:50,067 --> 00:58:54,067 HE TOLD ME THAT I NEED TO START DEALING WITH MY EMOTIONS. 964 00:58:54,067 --> 00:58:58,567 I'M GETTING BACK TO EATING SOLID FOODS. 965 00:58:58,567 --> 00:59:00,800 LET'S GO. COME ON. 966 00:59:02,867 --> 00:59:06,067 I HAD PICTURED RECOVERY A WHOLE DIFFERENT WAY 967 00:59:06,067 --> 00:59:07,333 THAN IT ACTUALLY HAS BEEN. 968 00:59:07,333 --> 00:59:09,300 HI. 969 00:59:09,300 --> 00:59:12,400 ENH. I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO BE IN MY ROOM ANYMORE. 970 00:59:16,067 --> 00:59:17,500 I CAN KEEP FOOD DOWN NOW, 971 00:59:17,500 --> 00:59:19,800 BUT EVERYTHING MAKES ME NAUSEOUS. 972 00:59:19,800 --> 00:59:22,467 THE NAUSEA COMES IN WAVES, 973 00:59:22,467 --> 00:59:24,900 AND IT DOESN'T REALLY ANNOUNCE WHEN IT'S COMING. 974 00:59:24,900 --> 00:59:26,433 IT JUST COMES. 975 00:59:26,433 --> 00:59:28,467 OOH. I'M QUEASY. 976 00:59:32,700 --> 00:59:35,167 I KNOW THAT THE FOOD THAT I'M PUTTING INTO MY BODY 977 00:59:35,167 --> 00:59:36,533 IS FOR ENERGY. 978 00:59:36,533 --> 00:59:38,100 IT'S FOR NUTRIENTS. 979 00:59:38,100 --> 00:59:40,167 IT'S SOMETHING THAT -- IT'S GONNA HELP ME RECOVER. 980 00:59:43,200 --> 00:59:45,667 BUT I JUST DON'T ENJOY EATING ANYMORE. 981 00:59:45,667 --> 00:59:49,367 [ GROANS ] 982 00:59:49,367 --> 00:59:53,267 I FEEL LIKE I CAN NO LONGER PROCESS THE WORLD. 983 00:59:53,267 --> 00:59:56,533 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF. 984 00:59:56,533 --> 00:59:59,233 FOOD WAS A COMFORT AND A JOY. 985 00:59:59,233 --> 01:00:01,367 AND IT'S NOT THAT ANYMORE. 986 01:00:01,367 --> 01:00:06,067 AND I'VE GOT NOWHERE TO GO WITH MY EMOTIONS. 987 01:00:06,067 --> 01:00:08,067 AND I JUST FEEL LOST RIGHT NOW. 988 01:00:19,900 --> 01:00:21,767 Woman: ASHLEY REYES? 989 01:00:24,067 --> 01:00:27,533 Ashley: TODAY I'M GETTING A CHECKUP FROM DR. NOW. 990 01:00:27,533 --> 01:00:29,100 AND I HAVE BEEN TRYING REALLY HARD, 991 01:00:29,100 --> 01:00:32,467 BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE ENERGY TO EXERCISE MUCH. 992 01:00:32,467 --> 01:00:35,333 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH PROGRESS I'M MAKING. 993 01:00:35,333 --> 01:00:37,900 SO I DON'T REALLY WANT TO CHECK MY WEIGHT RIGHT NOW. 994 01:00:40,000 --> 01:00:42,333 Woman: 531. 995 01:00:43,667 --> 01:00:45,767 ENH. 996 01:00:48,300 --> 01:00:49,767 THANK YOU. 997 01:00:49,767 --> 01:00:52,300 I'M DISAPPOINTED WITH THAT. 998 01:00:52,300 --> 01:00:53,800 I KNOW AT THIS POINT 999 01:00:53,800 --> 01:00:56,867 I SHOULD BE AVERAGING ABOUT 30 POUNDS A MONTH. 1000 01:00:56,867 --> 01:01:00,233 I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M NOT MAKING THE PROGRESS I SHOULD. 1001 01:01:02,233 --> 01:01:04,300 -HELLO. -HI, DOCTOR. 1002 01:01:04,300 --> 01:01:05,600 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 1003 01:01:05,600 --> 01:01:07,267 -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? -DOING OKAY. 1004 01:01:07,267 --> 01:01:09,433 ALL RIGHT. 1005 01:01:09,433 --> 01:01:14,667 SO TODAY YOU ARE DOWN TO 531, HUH? 1006 01:01:14,667 --> 01:01:17,333 YOUR WEIGHT LOSS SHOULD BE 1007 01:01:17,333 --> 01:01:20,200 APPROXIMATELY ABOUT 30 POUNDS A MONTH. 1008 01:01:20,200 --> 01:01:22,167 AND OVER THE LAST TWO MONTHS, 1009 01:01:22,167 --> 01:01:24,467 YOU ONLY LOST 15 POUNDS PER MONTH. 1010 01:01:24,467 --> 01:01:26,133 SO HOW IS YOUR LEVEL OF ACTIVITY? 1011 01:01:26,133 --> 01:01:27,467 HOW MUCH YOU CAN DO? 1012 01:01:27,467 --> 01:01:29,467 I'VE BEEN DISAPPOINTED WITH MY OWN ACTIVITY LEVEL 1013 01:01:29,467 --> 01:01:32,267 JUST BECAUSE BEFORE THE SURGERY WHEN YOU HAD ME ON THE DIET 1014 01:01:32,267 --> 01:01:34,500 AND EXERCISE, I WAS DOING SO MUCH MORE. 1015 01:01:34,500 --> 01:01:37,800 AND NOW I'M THINKING I'VE LOST WEIGHT. 1016 01:01:37,800 --> 01:01:40,667 I SHOULD HAVE THE ENERGY AND THE ABILITY TO MOVE AROUND. 1017 01:01:40,667 --> 01:01:42,633 BUT I'VE JUST FELT SO TIRED. 1018 01:01:42,633 --> 01:01:45,267 EVERY DAY, EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO, 1019 01:01:45,267 --> 01:01:47,367 YOU NEED TO GET UP AND WALK. 1020 01:01:47,367 --> 01:01:48,867 OKAY. 1021 01:01:48,867 --> 01:01:51,800 EXERCISE IS CRITICAL TO YOUR CONTINUED WEIGHT LOSS. 1022 01:01:51,800 --> 01:01:53,900 YOU HAVE TO PUSH YOURSELF, OKAY? 1023 01:01:53,900 --> 01:01:57,300 YOU'RE LOSING WEIGHT ONLY BECAUSE THE SURGERY 1024 01:01:57,300 --> 01:02:00,800 IS LIMITING THE AMOUNT OF CALORIES YOU CAN TAKE IN. 1025 01:02:00,800 --> 01:02:04,067 A YEAR DOWN THE ROAD, IF YOU DON'T CHANGE THIS BEHAVIOR, 1026 01:02:04,067 --> 01:02:08,100 YOU WILL START GOING BACK TOWARD 600 POUNDS. 1027 01:02:08,100 --> 01:02:09,633 Dr. Nowzaradan: ASHLEY HAS DONE VERY WELL, 1028 01:02:09,633 --> 01:02:11,433 BUT HER WEIGHT LOSS HAS SLOWED 1029 01:02:11,433 --> 01:02:14,067 BECAUSE SHE'S HAVING TO DEAL WITH THE CORE ISSUES 1030 01:02:14,067 --> 01:02:15,667 OF HER EMOTIONS. 1031 01:02:15,667 --> 01:02:19,233 IT IS NOT UNTIL A COPING MECHANISM IS REMOVED 1032 01:02:19,233 --> 01:02:21,333 AND THAT LOSS IS FELT 1033 01:02:21,333 --> 01:02:25,233 BEFORE PATIENT IS READY TO START ADDRESSING THAT. 1034 01:02:25,233 --> 01:02:28,733 I WOULD LIKE YOU TO SEE A THERAPIST TO GET BACK ON TRACK. 1035 01:02:28,733 --> 01:02:29,933 OKAY. 1036 01:02:29,933 --> 01:02:31,500 GO AHEAD AND INCREASE YOUR PHYSICAL ACTIVITY. 1037 01:02:31,500 --> 01:02:33,433 AND IF YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEMS, CALL US. 1038 01:02:33,433 --> 01:02:35,600 WE'LL SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING IN ONE MONTH. 1039 01:02:35,600 --> 01:02:36,867 OKAY. SOUNDS GOOD. 1040 01:02:36,867 --> 01:02:39,067 -OKAY. NICE TO SEE YOU. -THANK YOU, DOCTOR. 1041 01:02:39,067 --> 01:02:40,333 THANK YOU. SEE YOU THEN. 1042 01:02:40,333 --> 01:02:43,667 Dr. Nowzaradan: ASHLEY'S AT A TURNING POINT. 1043 01:02:43,667 --> 01:02:46,100 FOR THIS TO BE A LONG-TERM SUCCESS, 1044 01:02:46,100 --> 01:02:48,067 SHE HAS TO WORK REALLY HARD 1045 01:02:48,067 --> 01:02:53,500 ON BOTH THE PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ASPECT OF THIS PROCESS. 1046 01:02:53,500 --> 01:02:54,767 IF SHE DOESN'T, 1047 01:02:54,767 --> 01:02:57,867 THE SURGERY MIGHT NOT BE SUCCESSFUL FOR ASHLEY. 1048 01:03:00,900 --> 01:03:04,633 Ashley: I FEEL LIKE I LET DR. NOW DOWN. 1049 01:03:04,633 --> 01:03:07,500 I KNOW I NEEDED TO BE MORE ACTIVE. 1050 01:03:07,500 --> 01:03:09,067 AND I KNOW THE DOCTOR'S RIGHT 1051 01:03:09,067 --> 01:03:12,367 WHEN HE TELLS ME TO PUSH MYSELF MORE. 1052 01:03:12,367 --> 01:03:15,067 IT'S HARD, BUT WHAT I REALLY DON'T WANT 1053 01:03:15,067 --> 01:03:19,600 TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH RIGHT NOW ARE MY EMOTIONS. 1054 01:03:19,600 --> 01:03:22,967 AND THAT SCARES ME. 1055 01:03:22,967 --> 01:03:27,067 BUT I'M WILLING TO TRY IF THAT'S WHAT I HAVE TO DO RIGHT NOW. 1056 01:03:36,233 --> 01:03:39,767 OKAY. HERE'S YOUR SWEATER. YOU READY? 1057 01:03:39,767 --> 01:03:43,433 YEAH. 1058 01:03:43,433 --> 01:03:45,733 Ashley: I'M TRYING TO PUSH MYSELF TO BE MORE ACTIVE 1059 01:03:45,733 --> 01:03:48,267 LIKE DR. NOW WANTED. 1060 01:03:48,267 --> 01:03:53,100 I'M GOING ON WALKS EVERY DAY, EVEN WHEN IT'S RAINING. 1061 01:03:53,100 --> 01:03:55,400 I'M HOPING, BY DOING MORE EXERCISE, 1062 01:03:55,400 --> 01:03:57,633 I CAN MAKE THE PROGRESS I NEED 1063 01:03:57,633 --> 01:04:02,433 BECAUSE I DON'T REALLY WANT TO GO TO A THERAPIST. 1064 01:04:02,433 --> 01:04:03,867 I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING 1065 01:04:03,867 --> 01:04:06,867 THAT STRESSES ME OUT RIGHT NOW 1066 01:04:06,867 --> 01:04:10,067 BECAUSE THAT MAKES ME WANT TO RUN TO FOOD. 1067 01:04:10,067 --> 01:04:12,833 AND I'M TRYING TO AVOID THAT. 1068 01:04:12,833 --> 01:04:16,733 OH, MY GOD! 1069 01:04:16,733 --> 01:04:19,767 SOMEONE DECIDED TO STEAL MY TIRES. 1070 01:04:21,533 --> 01:04:23,400 [ BLEEP ] 1071 01:04:23,400 --> 01:04:25,567 ALL FOUR OF THEM. 1072 01:04:28,467 --> 01:04:32,500 WE'RE BY OURSELVES, AND WE HAVE ONE CAR. 1073 01:04:32,500 --> 01:04:34,667 AND I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THAT NOW, 1074 01:04:34,667 --> 01:04:36,667 ON TOP OF EVERYTHING ELSE. 1075 01:04:36,667 --> 01:04:40,500 IT'S THE LAST THING WE NEED, DANIEL. [BLEEP] 1076 01:04:43,800 --> 01:04:45,200 OTHER THAN THE SURGERY, 1077 01:04:45,200 --> 01:04:49,433 NOTHING HAS GONE RIGHT SINCE WE'VE BEEN IN HOUSTON. 1078 01:04:49,433 --> 01:04:52,233 I THROW UP ALMOST EVERYTHING I EAT, 1079 01:04:52,233 --> 01:04:55,333 AND NOW WE DON'T EVEN FEEL SAFE IN OUR OWN HOME. 1080 01:04:55,333 --> 01:04:59,367 ALL RIGHT. I CAN'T. I CAN'T EVEN. 1081 01:04:59,367 --> 01:05:02,967 I'M GETTING STRESSED IN ALMOST EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE. 1082 01:05:02,967 --> 01:05:05,400 NO, I'M NOT OKAY. 1083 01:05:05,400 --> 01:05:09,200 OKAY. I GOT TO SIT DOWN. 1084 01:05:09,200 --> 01:05:11,133 I CANNOT DO THIS. 1085 01:05:11,133 --> 01:05:13,467 I HAVE ENOUGH STRESS GOING ON AS IT IS. 1086 01:05:21,067 --> 01:05:23,600 MAYBE I'M NOT MEANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL. 1087 01:05:31,700 --> 01:05:33,833 ** 1088 01:05:50,600 --> 01:05:52,667 Ashley: I'M IN A VERY DARK PLACE. 1089 01:05:55,200 --> 01:05:57,700 AND I KNOW MY WEIGHT LOSS IS SLOWING. 1090 01:05:57,700 --> 01:05:59,467 THANK YOU. 1091 01:05:59,467 --> 01:06:02,467 SO I'M GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST TODAY. 1092 01:06:04,733 --> 01:06:08,133 I'M HOPING THAT HE'S ABLE TO GUIDE ME 1093 01:06:08,133 --> 01:06:11,833 IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AS FAR AS FINDING WAYS 1094 01:06:11,833 --> 01:06:16,133 TO COPE WITH FEELINGS I HAVE ABOUT WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH. 1095 01:06:16,133 --> 01:06:17,500 BUT I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD 1096 01:06:17,500 --> 01:06:20,067 TO DISCUSSING THINGS I'VE BEEN AVOIDING. 1097 01:06:20,067 --> 01:06:22,100 Dr. Paradise: SO, WELCOME TO MY OFFICE. 1098 01:06:22,100 --> 01:06:24,300 TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOURSELF AND YOUR SITUATION 1099 01:06:24,300 --> 01:06:25,800 AND HOW YOU ENDED UP HERE. 1100 01:06:25,800 --> 01:06:29,833 WELL, I'VE BEEN BATTLING WITH MY WEIGHT MY ENTIRE LIFE. 1101 01:06:29,833 --> 01:06:32,100 AND I HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. OKAY. 1102 01:06:32,100 --> 01:06:34,367 HOW'S IT BEEN FOR YOU SINCE THE SURGERY? 1103 01:06:34,367 --> 01:06:37,067 I FEEL LIKE I'M DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF, IN MY BODY, 1104 01:06:37,067 --> 01:06:38,467 IN THE WAY THAT I'M RECOVERING 1105 01:06:38,467 --> 01:06:40,533 BECAUSE BEFORE MY SURGERY, 1106 01:06:40,533 --> 01:06:42,700 I WAS EXERCISING AND I WAS SO ENERGETIC. 1107 01:06:42,700 --> 01:06:43,833 SURE. 1108 01:06:43,833 --> 01:06:46,167 AND NOW I'M JUST REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE 1109 01:06:46,167 --> 01:06:48,100 WITH THE NAUSEA AND THE FATIGUE. 1110 01:06:48,100 --> 01:06:51,067 AND THAT MAKES EXERCISE ESPECIALLY HARD TO DO. 1111 01:06:51,067 --> 01:06:52,800 YEAH, AND THEN WHEN I GET SICK, 1112 01:06:52,800 --> 01:06:55,067 WHEN I EAT SOMETHING MY BODY DOESN'T LIKE, 1113 01:06:55,067 --> 01:06:56,867 IT'S LIKE I'LL GET SICK, I'LL VOMIT, WHATEVER, 1114 01:06:56,867 --> 01:06:58,800 AND IT JUST GOES BACK AND FORTH, BACK AND FORTH. 1115 01:06:58,800 --> 01:07:00,500 SO THAT'S TIRING. 1116 01:07:00,500 --> 01:07:02,767 I JUST DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE. 1117 01:07:02,767 --> 01:07:03,867 YEAH. 1118 01:07:03,867 --> 01:07:05,967 I DIDN'T EXPECT ALL THE COMPLICATIONS. 1119 01:07:05,967 --> 01:07:07,933 I DIDN'T EXPECT ALL THE MENTAL, 1120 01:07:07,933 --> 01:07:11,100 YOU KNOW, PROBLEMS WITH IT. 1121 01:07:11,100 --> 01:07:13,700 LET'S TALK ABOUT THE MENTAL STUFF. 1122 01:07:13,700 --> 01:07:16,533 I MEAN, MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD HAS CHANGED COMPLETELY. 1123 01:07:16,533 --> 01:07:17,800 BEFORE THE SURGERY, 1124 01:07:17,800 --> 01:07:20,700 WHETHER IT WAS FEELINGS OF HAPPINESS 1125 01:07:20,700 --> 01:07:23,100 OR I WAS SAD OR I WAS STRESSED OR I WAS ANGRY, 1126 01:07:23,100 --> 01:07:25,200 IT WAS ALWAYS STRAIGHT TO FOOD. 1127 01:07:25,200 --> 01:07:26,600 SO IT WAS YOUR GO-TO COMFORT. 1128 01:07:26,600 --> 01:07:28,433 -IT WAS MY GO-TO, YEAH. -OKAY. 1129 01:07:28,433 --> 01:07:30,600 NOW THERE'S NO ENJOYMENT IN EATING. 1130 01:07:30,600 --> 01:07:32,767 IT'S A TASK. IT'S SOMETHING THAT I HAVE TO DO 1131 01:07:32,767 --> 01:07:35,100 TO FUEL MY BODY SO THAT I DON'T GET SICK. 1132 01:07:35,100 --> 01:07:36,667 SO FOOD WAS LIKE A HUGE THING. 1133 01:07:36,667 --> 01:07:38,633 I MEAN, IT WAS LIKE LOVE FOR YOU, RIGHT? 1134 01:07:38,633 --> 01:07:39,900 MM-HMM. 1135 01:07:44,633 --> 01:07:46,500 I'M SORRY. 1136 01:07:46,500 --> 01:07:48,900 DON'T APOLOGIZE. 1137 01:07:48,900 --> 01:07:52,233 THIS IS A GOOD PLACE TO LET THINGS OUT. 1138 01:07:52,233 --> 01:07:55,100 AND I UNDERSTAND IF YOU CAN'T. 1139 01:07:55,100 --> 01:07:59,467 YOU KNOW, ONE OF THE THINGS THAT MIGHT MARK SUCCESS FOR YOU 1140 01:07:59,467 --> 01:08:02,800 IS FOCUSING MORE ON OTHER ASPECTS OF YOUR LIFE. 1141 01:08:02,800 --> 01:08:04,800 SO WHAT ARE GOOD THINGS IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW? 1142 01:08:04,800 --> 01:08:07,233 -MY HUSBAND. -WHAT'S YOUR HUSBAND'S NAME? 1143 01:08:07,233 --> 01:08:09,233 -DANIEL. -DANIEL, OKAY. 1144 01:08:09,233 --> 01:08:12,300 SO, LIKE, IF YOU WERE GONNA FOCUS ON YOUR RELATIONSHIP 1145 01:08:12,300 --> 01:08:15,567 AND YOUR MARRIAGE, WHAT WOULD YOUR GOALS BE THERE? 1146 01:08:15,567 --> 01:08:19,367 WHAT I WANT TO DO IS JUST BE MORE ACTIVE WITH HIM. 1147 01:08:19,367 --> 01:08:20,767 MM-HMM. 1148 01:08:20,767 --> 01:08:22,400 YOU KNOW, BECAUSE BEFORE, WHEN WE FIRST STARTED DATING, 1149 01:08:22,400 --> 01:08:24,800 WE WERE ALWAYS OUT -- WE WERE NEVER HOME -- 1150 01:08:24,800 --> 01:08:26,800 AND DOING FUN THINGS. 1151 01:08:26,800 --> 01:08:29,367 AND THROUGHOUT THE YEARS, THAT'S STOPPED. 1152 01:08:29,367 --> 01:08:30,567 YEAH. 1153 01:08:30,567 --> 01:08:33,067 WE WANT TO IMAGINE A DAY 1154 01:08:33,067 --> 01:08:34,767 WHERE HE DOESN'T HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU. 1155 01:08:34,767 --> 01:08:37,767 SO WHAT WOULD MAKE YOU MORE SUCCESSFUL? 1156 01:08:37,767 --> 01:08:41,233 JUST NOT FEELING SO BAD. YOU KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING? 1157 01:08:41,233 --> 01:08:45,467 AND HAVING CONTROL OVER HOW -- 1158 01:08:45,467 --> 01:08:47,133 MY ANXIETY, YOU KNOW? MM-HMM. 1159 01:08:47,133 --> 01:08:50,567 'CAUSE THAT'S ONE OF THE BIGGEST THINGS I THINK, RIGHT NOW, 1160 01:08:50,567 --> 01:08:52,133 YOU KNOW, AS FAR AS THE MENTAL ASPECT, 1161 01:08:52,133 --> 01:08:53,600 IS MY ANXIETY. 1162 01:08:53,600 --> 01:08:55,667 SO ONE THING WE WANT TO DO IS MAKE SURE 1163 01:08:55,667 --> 01:08:58,700 THAT YOU HAVE THE GREATEST SENSE OF CONTROL OVER THAT. 1164 01:08:58,700 --> 01:09:00,533 IT'S THE REASON THEY GIVE THE PEOPLE 1165 01:09:00,533 --> 01:09:02,700 THE BUTTONS TO ADMINISTER THEIR PAIN MEDICINE. 1166 01:09:02,700 --> 01:09:04,333 THEY DON'T GET ANY MORE MEDICINE 1167 01:09:04,333 --> 01:09:06,467 THAT THEY WOULD IF THE NURSE GAVE IT TO THEM, 1168 01:09:06,467 --> 01:09:08,533 BUT BY GIVING THEM CONTROL OVER IT, 1169 01:09:08,533 --> 01:09:10,267 IT SEEMS TO HELP. 1170 01:09:10,267 --> 01:09:12,433 SO ONE THING WE MIGHT WANT TO DO 1171 01:09:12,433 --> 01:09:13,833 IS FIGURE OUT WAYS FOR YOU 1172 01:09:13,833 --> 01:09:15,600 TO HAVE THE GREATEST SENSE OF CONTROL 1173 01:09:15,600 --> 01:09:19,067 IN DEALING WITH YOUR SYMPTOMS. 1174 01:09:19,067 --> 01:09:20,833 GOING OUT MORE, DOING MORE STUFF. 1175 01:09:20,833 --> 01:09:23,700 AND AS THE WEIGHT COMES OFF, THAT'LL BE EASIER AND EASIER, 1176 01:09:23,700 --> 01:09:25,167 RIGHT? YEAH. 1177 01:09:25,167 --> 01:09:27,600 SO A GOOD DAY MIGHT BE THE DAYS 1178 01:09:27,600 --> 01:09:29,767 WHEN YOU PUSH THROUGH. 1179 01:09:29,767 --> 01:09:32,633 AND I THINK YOU'RE GONNA FIND THAT YOU'RE GONNA PUSH THROUGH. 1180 01:09:32,633 --> 01:09:34,367 -IT WAS REALLY GOOD TO MEET YOU. -THANK YOU. 1181 01:09:34,367 --> 01:09:35,867 IT WAS REALLY GOOD TO MEET YOU, TOO. 1182 01:09:35,867 --> 01:09:38,400 -TAKE CARE. -THANK YOU. 1183 01:09:41,300 --> 01:09:45,500 Ashley: IT WAS HARD TO TALK ABOUT SOME OF MY ANXIETY. 1184 01:09:45,500 --> 01:09:48,800 I KNOW I RUN TO FOOD TO COPE. 1185 01:09:48,800 --> 01:09:51,867 BUT I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW DEPENDENT I WAS ON IT 1186 01:09:51,867 --> 01:09:54,067 AND HOW HARD IT WAS GOING TO BE 1187 01:09:54,067 --> 01:09:57,533 TO LOSE THAT FEELING OF HAPPINESS AND LOVE. 1188 01:09:57,533 --> 01:10:00,700 AND I THOUGHT DOING THAT ONLY DAMAGED MY BODY, 1189 01:10:00,700 --> 01:10:03,067 BUT I KNOW THAT THERE IS A LOT FROM MY PAST 1190 01:10:03,067 --> 01:10:04,933 I'M GOING TO HAVE TO FACE 1191 01:10:04,933 --> 01:10:08,500 IF I EVER WANT MY ANXIETY TO GET UNDER CONTROL. 1192 01:10:29,400 --> 01:10:32,267 I'VE BEEN WORKING THROUGH A LOT OF MY EMOTION 1193 01:10:32,267 --> 01:10:34,900 AND TRYING TO DO WHAT THE THERAPIST TOLD ME. 1194 01:10:34,900 --> 01:10:37,933 [ CHATTER ] 1195 01:10:42,367 --> 01:10:44,267 ONE OF THE BIGGEST THINGS 1196 01:10:44,267 --> 01:10:47,033 THAT I KNOW HAS AFFECTED ME MY WHOLE LIFE 1197 01:10:47,033 --> 01:10:50,567 IS GETTING HURT AS A CHILD. 1198 01:10:50,567 --> 01:10:52,833 RAISE IT UP! CONTROL! 1199 01:10:52,833 --> 01:10:54,300 EVER SINCE THAT MOMENT, 1200 01:10:54,300 --> 01:10:57,100 I'VE NOT FELT LIKE I'M IN CONTROL, 1201 01:10:57,100 --> 01:11:00,533 AND I'VE LIVED IN FEAR. 1202 01:11:00,533 --> 01:11:03,367 EVEN THOUGH I'M BIGGER, IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD, 1203 01:11:03,367 --> 01:11:05,367 I'M SCARED OF SOMEONE HURTING ME. 1204 01:11:07,800 --> 01:11:11,467 SO I'VE DECIDED I DON'T WANT TO FEEL WEAK AND SCARED ANYMORE, 1205 01:11:11,467 --> 01:11:15,233 SO I'M TAKING A SELF-DEFENSE CLASS. 1206 01:11:15,233 --> 01:11:17,800 YOU READY TO JUMP INTO A CLASS? 1207 01:11:17,800 --> 01:11:19,067 [ BOTH LAUGH ] 1208 01:11:19,067 --> 01:11:20,867 -HI, I'M MICHAEL BY THE WAY. -ASHLEY. 1209 01:11:20,867 --> 01:11:22,267 ASHLEY, NICE TO MEET YOU. 1210 01:11:22,267 --> 01:11:24,567 SO MICHAEL AND I HAVE BEEN TRAINING TOGETHER 1211 01:11:24,567 --> 01:11:26,300 FOR PROBABLY 10 YEARS. 1212 01:11:26,300 --> 01:11:29,333 AND A BIG PART OF BEING ABLE TO PUNCH AND KICK 1213 01:11:29,333 --> 01:11:31,600 AND DEFEND YOURSELF IS BEING FIT. 1214 01:11:31,600 --> 01:11:33,133 WOULD YOU LIKE US TO SHOW YOU 1215 01:11:33,133 --> 01:11:34,700 A FEW THINGS THAT YOU COULD DO AT HOME? 1216 01:11:34,700 --> 01:11:37,067 -AS LONG AS I DON'T OVERDO IT. -RIGHT. 1217 01:11:37,067 --> 01:11:39,167 -IT'S OVERWHELMING TO WATCH... -UH-HUH. 1218 01:11:39,167 --> 01:11:42,067 ...JUST 'CAUSE I'VE NEVER HAD THAT TYPE OF PHYSICAL ACTIVITY. 1219 01:11:42,067 --> 01:11:44,633 YOU KNOW, AND THAT'S STRONG, BUT IT'S -- 1220 01:11:44,633 --> 01:11:46,700 I MEAN, IT'S EMPOWERING AT THE SAME TIME. 1221 01:11:46,700 --> 01:11:48,100 ALL RIGHT, DO YOU HAVE ANY CLEARANCE 1222 01:11:48,100 --> 01:11:49,967 FROM YOUR DOCTORS 1223 01:11:49,967 --> 01:11:51,767 ON ANYTHING THAT YOU'RE ABLE TO DO? 1224 01:11:51,767 --> 01:11:54,533 I MEAN, I CAN PRETTY MUCH DO EVERYTHING. 1225 01:11:54,533 --> 01:11:56,433 STAIRS ARE A PROBLEM RIGHT NOW. 1226 01:11:56,433 --> 01:11:57,967 -LET'S GO. -ALL RIGHT, COOL. 1227 01:11:57,967 --> 01:11:59,700 -LET'S GIVE IT A SHOT. -OH, MAN. 1228 01:11:59,700 --> 01:12:02,467 SO BEING ABLE TO GET UP THE STAIRS -- 1229 01:12:02,467 --> 01:12:04,333 THAT'LL BE YOUR GOAL. 1230 01:12:04,333 --> 01:12:06,233 WANT ME TO GO WITH YOU? 1231 01:12:06,233 --> 01:12:07,300 OR DO YOU WANT TO GO BY YOURSELF? 1232 01:12:07,300 --> 01:12:10,067 -I WANT TO GO BY MYSELF. -OKAY. 1233 01:12:10,067 --> 01:12:13,667 ** 1234 01:12:21,567 --> 01:12:24,333 GOOD JOB! YOU'RE THERE! 1235 01:12:24,333 --> 01:12:27,533 I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT! 1236 01:12:27,533 --> 01:12:29,533 Ashley: I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER THE LAST TIME 1237 01:12:29,533 --> 01:12:31,467 I CLIMBED THAT MANY STAIRS. 1238 01:12:31,467 --> 01:12:33,433 IT'S BEEN TOO LONG. 1239 01:12:33,433 --> 01:12:35,300 I DON'T THINK I WOULD'VE EVER DONE THIS 1240 01:12:35,300 --> 01:12:37,267 HAD IT NOT BEEN FOR JUST THE PUSH SAYING, 1241 01:12:37,267 --> 01:12:39,100 "WHY DON'T YOU TRY?" 1242 01:12:39,100 --> 01:12:41,467 Woman: GO FORWARD. BOOM, RIGHT? 1243 01:12:41,467 --> 01:12:42,967 NOW GIVE ME A SCOWL. 1244 01:12:42,967 --> 01:12:44,900 MEAN FACE. -I CAN'T. 1245 01:12:44,900 --> 01:12:46,233 Woman: ALL RIGHT? OH, YOU GOT IT! 1246 01:12:46,233 --> 01:12:48,600 WE ARE GONNA SHIFT OUR WEIGHT BACK AND FORTH. 1247 01:12:48,600 --> 01:12:50,567 I WANT YOU TO JUST BEND YOUR KNEES 1248 01:12:50,567 --> 01:12:53,067 AND JUST SHIFT YOUR WEIGHT FROM SIDE TO SIDE. 1249 01:12:53,067 --> 01:12:59,167 AFTER THE STAIRS, YOU KNOW, IT'S WHAT ELSE SHOULD I TRY 1250 01:12:59,167 --> 01:13:02,300 THAT I THOUGHT I COULDN'T DO? 1251 01:13:02,300 --> 01:13:03,700 IF YOU'RE GONNA BE ELBOWING SOMEONE, 1252 01:13:03,700 --> 01:13:05,800 YOU NEED TO KNOW WHERE YOU NEED TO HIT THEM, RIGHT? 1253 01:13:05,800 --> 01:13:08,067 -BREATHE OUT LOUD. -REMEMBER TO BREATHE. 1254 01:13:08,067 --> 01:13:09,900 BREATHE OUT LOUD. 1255 01:13:09,900 --> 01:13:10,900 SHH! 1256 01:13:10,900 --> 01:13:12,633 -YES, GOOD! -GOOD! 1257 01:13:12,633 --> 01:13:14,567 LOOK AT THAT, YOU'RE KNOCKING ME OVER. 1258 01:13:14,567 --> 01:13:16,300 -SHH! -GOOD! 1259 01:13:16,300 --> 01:13:18,500 Ashley: I'M FEELING REALLY EMPOWERED. 1260 01:13:18,500 --> 01:13:21,933 I CAN PUNCH THINGS AND ACTUALLY MOVE. 1261 01:13:21,933 --> 01:13:23,633 HANDS UP. 1262 01:13:23,633 --> 01:13:27,400 I KNOW LEARNING SELF-DEFENSE DOESN'T CHANGE THE PAST, 1263 01:13:27,400 --> 01:13:29,167 BUT I FEEL LIKE THIS IS THE FIRST STEP 1264 01:13:29,167 --> 01:13:31,567 FOR ME TO FEEL EMPOWERED... 1265 01:13:31,567 --> 01:13:33,267 -OH, MY GOD! -THAT WAS GREAT! 1266 01:13:33,267 --> 01:13:34,667 GOOD JOB. GOOD JOB. 1267 01:13:34,667 --> 01:13:37,800 Ashley: ...AND LIKE I'M TAKING BACK CONTROL OF MY LIFE. 1268 01:13:39,100 --> 01:13:42,133 ** 1269 01:13:50,267 --> 01:13:52,533 [ Ringing ] 1270 01:13:52,533 --> 01:13:57,133 IT'S BEEN ABOUT FIVE MONTHS SINCE I'VE SEEN MY FAMILY. 1271 01:13:57,133 --> 01:14:00,567 I'VE NEVER BEEN AWAY FROM THEM SO LONG. 1272 01:14:00,567 --> 01:14:02,567 -Hi, mija. -HI, MOM! 1273 01:14:02,567 --> 01:14:05,367 Ashley: OOH, I LIKE YOUR HAIR, YOU CHANGED THE COLOR? 1274 01:14:05,367 --> 01:14:06,800 Yes! 1275 01:14:06,800 --> 01:14:09,600 -Give me your look. -CAN YOU SEE? 1276 01:14:09,600 --> 01:14:13,133 Oh, look at you! [ Whistles ] 1277 01:14:13,133 --> 01:14:15,433 You look good, mama. How've you been doing? 1278 01:14:15,433 --> 01:14:17,900 I'VE BEEN OKAY. I'M ABLE TO MOVE AROUND MORE, 1279 01:14:17,900 --> 01:14:19,767 COOK DINNER, WHICH IS REALLY GOOD. 1280 01:14:19,767 --> 01:14:21,400 YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ANYMORE. 1281 01:14:21,400 --> 01:14:24,100 Yeah, I was super, super worried about you. 1282 01:14:24,100 --> 01:14:25,300 I KNOW. 1283 01:14:25,300 --> 01:14:28,067 I wish I was there all the time, but I can't. 1284 01:14:28,067 --> 01:14:29,100 I KNOW. 1285 01:14:29,100 --> 01:14:30,400 WELL, I MEAN, NOT TO TAKE CARE OF ME, 1286 01:14:30,400 --> 01:14:32,933 BUT JUST FOR YOUR COMPANY. 1287 01:14:32,933 --> 01:14:35,067 -I know. -[ CHUCKLES ] 1288 01:14:35,067 --> 01:14:37,833 I am so, so proud of you, my love. 1289 01:14:37,833 --> 01:14:40,067 You've done a lot of things that are so hard, 1290 01:14:40,067 --> 01:14:43,167 and I'm so happy for you. 1291 01:14:43,167 --> 01:14:45,067 I'm thinking of you. Love you. 1292 01:14:45,067 --> 01:14:46,367 OKAY. LOVE YOU, TOO. 1293 01:14:46,367 --> 01:14:48,733 -Bye. -BYE. 1294 01:14:48,733 --> 01:14:51,567 Ashley: I MISS MY FAMILY SO MUCH. 1295 01:14:51,567 --> 01:14:55,233 BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, A SMALL PART OF ME 1296 01:14:55,233 --> 01:14:57,500 IS STARTING TO SEE THE POSSIBILITY 1297 01:14:57,500 --> 01:15:00,633 OF DANIEL AND ME HAVING A LIFE OF OUR OWN. 1298 01:15:00,633 --> 01:15:03,333 ** 1299 01:15:08,067 --> 01:15:10,067 OKAY. 1300 01:15:10,067 --> 01:15:12,067 ** 1301 01:15:12,067 --> 01:15:14,933 I DON'T WANT TO STAY IN HOUSTON LONG-TERM, 1302 01:15:14,933 --> 01:15:17,833 BUT DANIEL AND I HAVE NEVER REALLY HAD A CHANCE 1303 01:15:17,833 --> 01:15:20,533 TO HAVE A REAL MARRIAGE... 1304 01:15:20,533 --> 01:15:25,533 BECAUSE EVERYONE'S HAD TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 1305 01:15:25,533 --> 01:15:27,133 AND WITH THAT CHANGING, 1306 01:15:27,133 --> 01:15:29,633 I KNOW I NEED TO FOCUS ON OUR MARRIAGE 1307 01:15:29,633 --> 01:15:34,333 AND GET OVER MY FEARS OF INTIMACY. 1308 01:15:34,333 --> 01:15:36,200 I LOVE HIM. 1309 01:15:36,200 --> 01:15:39,567 AND MY SITUATION HAS NOT BEEN FAIR. 1310 01:15:39,567 --> 01:15:42,467 I WANT TO BECOME THE WIFE HE DESERVES... 1311 01:15:42,467 --> 01:15:44,067 AND THE WIFE I WANT TO BE. 1312 01:15:49,733 --> 01:15:53,367 ** 1313 01:15:53,367 --> 01:15:55,700 Ashley: SOMETIMES LETTING GO 1314 01:15:55,700 --> 01:15:58,533 OF WHAT YOU'VE HELD ON TO SO TIGHTLY 1315 01:15:58,533 --> 01:16:01,333 IS THE ONLY WAY TO MOVE FORWARD. 1316 01:16:04,200 --> 01:16:07,433 ** 1317 01:16:29,467 --> 01:16:32,833 TONIGHT, I'M GOING ON A DATE WITH DANIEL. 1318 01:16:32,833 --> 01:16:35,400 IN THE PAST, WE'D NEVER GO ON DATES 1319 01:16:35,400 --> 01:16:38,633 BECAUSE I WOULDN'T WANT TO GO OUT IN PUBLIC. 1320 01:16:38,633 --> 01:16:41,133 AND I COULDN'T WALK THAT FAR. 1321 01:16:41,133 --> 01:16:43,633 ** 1322 01:16:43,633 --> 01:16:47,233 AND I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH THE ANXIETY OF IT ALL. 1323 01:16:47,233 --> 01:16:50,100 SO I ASKED DANIEL IF WE COULD GO ON A DATE. 1324 01:16:50,100 --> 01:16:52,400 ** 1325 01:16:52,400 --> 01:16:54,533 I WANT US TO WORK ON OUR MARRIAGE, 1326 01:16:54,533 --> 01:16:57,533 AND I WANT US TO GROW CLOSER TOGETHER. 1327 01:16:57,533 --> 01:17:01,233 I'M REALLY HAPPY WE GOT TO GO OUT TONIGHT. 1328 01:17:01,233 --> 01:17:04,500 I'M STILL SCARED ABOUT SHOWING HIM MY BODY, 1329 01:17:04,500 --> 01:17:06,900 BUT I'M WORKING ON THAT. 1330 01:17:16,067 --> 01:17:18,800 CAN I HAVE THE GRILLED BIG PLATE? 1331 01:17:18,800 --> 01:17:22,433 AND THEN I'LL HAVE THE GRILLED CHICKEN BOWL. 1332 01:17:22,433 --> 01:17:24,100 I'M STICKING WITH THE DIET 1333 01:17:24,100 --> 01:17:27,067 AND WORKING HARDER THAN EVER TO BE ABLE TO -- 1334 01:17:27,067 --> 01:17:29,900 TO DO THIS. 1335 01:17:29,900 --> 01:17:32,200 I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT ELSE WE CAN DO. 1336 01:17:32,200 --> 01:17:33,533 IT'LL BE LIKE BEFORE. 1337 01:17:33,533 --> 01:17:35,533 CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO THE BEACH AGAIN. 1338 01:17:35,533 --> 01:17:40,900 I WANT TO GO TO A LAKE AND HAVE A PICNIC. 1339 01:17:40,900 --> 01:17:43,933 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD'VE DONE IF YOU WEREN'T HERE. 1340 01:17:43,933 --> 01:17:46,333 HONESTLY. 1341 01:17:46,333 --> 01:17:47,933 MY SISTERS AND MOM, EVERYBODY, 1342 01:17:47,933 --> 01:17:50,600 THEY'RE SUPPORTING ME FROM FAR AWAY, 1343 01:17:50,600 --> 01:17:53,600 BUT YOU HAVE TO PHYSICALLY HAVE SOMEONE THERE WITH YOU, 1344 01:17:53,600 --> 01:17:56,867 ESPECIALLY WHEN IT GETS REALLY, REALLY TOUGH. 1345 01:17:56,867 --> 01:17:57,967 YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 1346 01:17:57,967 --> 01:18:00,067 I COULDN'T IMAGINE YOU NOT BEING HERE. 1347 01:18:00,067 --> 01:18:02,633 THERE'S NO WAY. 1348 01:18:02,633 --> 01:18:06,400 ** 1349 01:18:06,400 --> 01:18:07,800 THANK YOU. 1350 01:18:07,800 --> 01:18:10,133 IT LOOKS DELICIOUS. THANK YOU. 1351 01:18:13,533 --> 01:18:17,567 I LOVE DANIEL, AND I'M SO HAPPY TO HAVE HIM IN MY LIFE. 1352 01:18:17,567 --> 01:18:19,300 SO I'M GOING TO WORK HARD 1353 01:18:19,300 --> 01:18:22,300 TO CHANGE EVERYTHING THAT I WANT TO CHANGE. 1354 01:18:24,300 --> 01:18:26,233 I'M OKAY. YEAH, I'M GOOD. 1355 01:18:26,900 --> 01:18:29,667 YEAH. 1356 01:18:29,667 --> 01:18:32,667 ** 1357 01:18:32,667 --> 01:18:36,467 I SAW A LITTLE SPARKLE IN HER EYE THAT SHE WAS HAPPY. 1358 01:18:36,467 --> 01:18:39,733 SO, YOU KNOW, AS LONG AS SHE'S HAPPY, I'M OKAY. 1359 01:18:39,733 --> 01:18:41,533 I'LL TAKE THIS. 1360 01:18:41,533 --> 01:18:42,800 YOU'LL TAKE IT FOR ME? OKAY, THANK YOU. 1361 01:18:42,800 --> 01:18:45,700 I'LL TAKE THIS ONE. I'LL TAKE YOUR BAG. 1362 01:18:45,700 --> 01:18:50,367 Ashley: A YEAR AGO, MY HUSBAND WAS MY CARETAKER. 1363 01:18:50,367 --> 01:18:54,067 NOW I'M NO LONGER HIS PATIENT. 1364 01:18:54,067 --> 01:18:57,867 AND IT FEELS MORE LIKE WE'RE A NORMAL MARRIED COUPLE. 1365 01:19:01,300 --> 01:19:03,233 HONESTLY, AT THIS POINT, I JUST LOOK FORWARD 1366 01:19:03,233 --> 01:19:05,733 TO ALL THE FUN THINGS THAT WE'RE GONNA DO TOGETHER NOW. 1367 01:19:15,667 --> 01:19:19,367 IT'S BEEN ALMOST A YEAR SINCE I'VE STARTED ON THIS JOURNEY. 1368 01:19:19,367 --> 01:19:22,567 IT'S BEEN HARDER THAN I COULD'VE IMAGINED, 1369 01:19:22,567 --> 01:19:25,067 BUT I'M SO GLAD I STUCK WITH IT. 1370 01:19:25,067 --> 01:19:28,467 ** 1371 01:19:28,467 --> 01:19:30,433 AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, 1372 01:19:30,433 --> 01:19:33,200 I'M ACTUALLY EXCITED TO GET ON THE SCALE. 1373 01:19:36,500 --> 01:19:39,400 DANIEL AND I HAVE GROWN EVEN CLOSER, 1374 01:19:39,400 --> 01:19:43,900 AND I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR HIM AS MUCH AS FOR ME. 1375 01:19:43,900 --> 01:19:47,633 ** 1376 01:19:58,300 --> 01:20:02,733 I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I WAS IN THE 400s. 1377 01:20:02,733 --> 01:20:05,033 THIS IS SO INCREDIBLE. 1378 01:20:05,033 --> 01:20:06,367 -HELLO. -HI. 1379 01:20:06,367 --> 01:20:08,000 -HI. -HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 1380 01:20:08,000 --> 01:20:10,400 -PRETTY GOOD, HOW ARE YOU? -ALL RIGHT. 1381 01:20:10,400 --> 01:20:13,900 ASHLEY, YOU'RE DOWN TO 462 POUNDS. 1382 01:20:13,900 --> 01:20:16,800 HOW DOES IT FEEL TO LOSE 200 POUNDS? 1383 01:20:16,800 --> 01:20:18,167 HONESTLY, I'M HAPPY, 1384 01:20:18,167 --> 01:20:21,300 BUT I FEEL LIKE MY RECOVERY HAS BEEN REALLY SLOW. 1385 01:20:21,300 --> 01:20:22,867 AND I JUST WISH IT WAS MORE. 1386 01:20:22,867 --> 01:20:24,100 [ LAUGHS ] 1387 01:20:24,100 --> 01:20:28,900 YOU DID NOT GAIN THIS WEIGHT TO BE 668 POUNDS 1388 01:20:28,900 --> 01:20:31,133 IN A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME. 1389 01:20:31,133 --> 01:20:35,533 SO IF YOU LOSE AT 30 POUNDS A MONTH, 1390 01:20:35,533 --> 01:20:38,100 IN A YEAR, THAT'S ALMOST 400 POUNDS. 1391 01:20:38,100 --> 01:20:40,267 WELL, IF YOU PUT IT THAT WAY, THEN IT MAKES IT -- 1392 01:20:40,267 --> 01:20:41,267 YOU SEE? 1393 01:20:41,267 --> 01:20:42,267 YEAH, IT MAKES IT BETTER. 1394 01:20:42,267 --> 01:20:43,933 ALL RIGHT, SO WITHIN THE NEXT YEAR, 1395 01:20:43,933 --> 01:20:46,633 YOU'RE GONNA BE UNDER 200. 1396 01:20:46,633 --> 01:20:48,700 -OH, THAT'S... -OKAY? 1397 01:20:48,700 --> 01:20:50,567 I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE IT. 1398 01:20:50,567 --> 01:20:52,200 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M REALLY PROUD OF ASHLEY. 1399 01:20:52,200 --> 01:20:55,833 WHEN I FIRST SAW HER, I KNEW THERE WERE A LOT OF ISSUES 1400 01:20:55,833 --> 01:20:57,600 THAT NEEDED TO BE ADDRESSED WITH HER. 1401 01:20:57,600 --> 01:21:00,567 BUT SHE'S CONSTANTLY FORGED AHEAD 1402 01:21:00,567 --> 01:21:02,567 AND DONE WHAT SHE NEEDS. 1403 01:21:02,567 --> 01:21:04,433 AND I HAVE GREAT CONFIDENCE 1404 01:21:04,433 --> 01:21:08,067 SHE'S GOING TO MAKE IT TO HER TARGET WEIGHT NEXT YEAR. 1405 01:21:08,067 --> 01:21:10,600 YOU'VE DONE VERY WELL, AND I'M PROUD OF YOU. 1406 01:21:10,600 --> 01:21:12,067 JUST STICK WITH THE PROGRAM, 1407 01:21:12,067 --> 01:21:16,433 AND YOU'RE GETTING VERY GOOD PROGRESS, OKAY? 1408 01:21:16,433 --> 01:21:18,300 I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 1409 01:21:18,300 --> 01:21:21,333 ** 1410 01:21:23,267 --> 01:21:26,833 Ashley: I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT MYSELF. 1411 01:21:26,833 --> 01:21:31,867 A YEAR AGO, MY FAMILY HAD TO HELP ME DO ALMOST EVERYTHING. 1412 01:21:31,867 --> 01:21:34,367 NOW I'M ABLE TO BE MORE INDEPENDENT, 1413 01:21:34,367 --> 01:21:38,200 AND I'M BUILDING THE LIFE I'VE ALWAYS WANTED. 1414 01:21:38,200 --> 01:21:43,200 THERE ARE SO MANY POSSIBILITIES THAT I CAN BELIEVE IN NOW. 1415 01:21:43,200 --> 01:21:46,200 AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. 1416 01:21:56,967 --> 01:22:00,567 ** 1417 01:22:03,067 --> 01:22:06,167 I'M REALLY PLEASED WITH THE WEIGHT I'VE LOST. 1418 01:22:06,167 --> 01:22:07,967 SO IN CELEBRATION, 1419 01:22:07,967 --> 01:22:11,733 TODAY, I'M TREATING MYSELF TO A MAKEOVER. 1420 01:22:11,733 --> 01:22:13,800 OH, MY GOD! OH, MY GOD! 1421 01:22:16,100 --> 01:22:17,333 [ GASPS ] 1422 01:22:17,333 --> 01:22:21,633 I JUST GOT OUT OF THE CAR, AND THE CAR DIDN'T HONK. 1423 01:22:21,633 --> 01:22:24,067 IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THAT'S HAPPENED. 1424 01:22:24,067 --> 01:22:25,433 YOU KNOW HOW LOUD THAT WOULD'VE BEEN BEFORE? 1425 01:22:25,433 --> 01:22:27,133 Daniel: YEAH. 1426 01:22:27,133 --> 01:22:31,333 I'VE BEEN PUSHING MYSELF AND FACING A LOT OF THE THINGS 1427 01:22:31,333 --> 01:22:33,333 THAT HAVE MADE ME FEEL OUT OF CONTROL 1428 01:22:33,333 --> 01:22:35,367 AND ANXIOUS ABOUT LIFE. 1429 01:22:35,367 --> 01:22:37,300 -YOU EXCITED FOR TODAY? -I AM. 1430 01:22:37,300 --> 01:22:38,800 AWESOME. WELL, WE'LL GET YOU STARTED. 1431 01:22:38,800 --> 01:22:39,967 WE'RE GONNA MAKE YOU LOOK WONDERFUL. 1432 01:22:39,967 --> 01:22:43,633 -THANK YOU. -COMFORTABLE HERE. 1433 01:22:43,633 --> 01:22:46,300 -I FIT! -YAY! 1434 01:22:46,300 --> 01:22:50,567 -ALL RIGHT. -AWESOME! 1435 01:22:50,567 --> 01:22:53,200 Ashley: I WANT TO BE THE PERSON THAT I SHOULD 1436 01:22:53,200 --> 01:22:55,633 FOR THE PEOPLE I LOVE. 1437 01:22:55,633 --> 01:22:57,400 AND I'VE NEVER BEEN PROUD OF MYSELF 1438 01:22:57,400 --> 01:23:03,067 FOR ANYTHING I'VE DONE -- OR FOR HOW I LOOK. 1439 01:23:03,067 --> 01:23:05,200 AND THAT'S CHANGING NOW. 1440 01:23:05,200 --> 01:23:09,067 ** 1441 01:23:12,067 --> 01:23:14,067 ALL RIGHT. EXCITED? 1442 01:23:14,067 --> 01:23:16,800 I'M EXCITED. I'M EXCITED. 1443 01:23:16,800 --> 01:23:18,367 LET'S DO THIS. 1444 01:23:18,367 --> 01:23:20,900 [ GASPS ] OH, MY GOD! 1445 01:23:22,533 --> 01:23:24,367 SOME NICE CURLS, SOME REALLY NICE MOVEMENT. 1446 01:23:24,367 --> 01:23:27,200 -WOW! -YOU'VE GOT BODY ON THE TOP. 1447 01:23:27,200 --> 01:23:29,133 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR LASHES? 1448 01:23:29,133 --> 01:23:31,667 -I HAVE LASHES! -I KNOW! 1449 01:23:31,667 --> 01:23:33,133 [ BOTH LAUGH ] 1450 01:23:33,133 --> 01:23:35,133 Ashley: I LOVE IT. 1451 01:23:36,433 --> 01:23:38,200 HI! [ LAUGHS ] 1452 01:23:38,200 --> 01:23:41,700 IT'S BEEN AWHILE SINCE DANIEL HAS SEEN ME LIKE THIS. 1453 01:23:41,700 --> 01:23:43,367 Woman: IT'S BEAUTIFUL, RIGHT? 1454 01:23:47,700 --> 01:23:49,233 THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH. 1455 01:23:49,233 --> 01:23:51,767 YOU'RE VERY MUCH WELCOME. 1456 01:24:00,267 --> 01:24:02,767 THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR IS SOMEONE THAT I'M FAMILIAR WITH 1457 01:24:02,767 --> 01:24:04,967 BUT I NEED TO GET TO KNOW. 1458 01:24:04,967 --> 01:24:07,300 SHE'S NEW. 1459 01:24:15,767 --> 01:24:18,267 I'VE NEVER WANTED TO TAKE PICTURES OF MYSELF, 1460 01:24:18,267 --> 01:24:20,733 BUT I'M STEPPING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE 1461 01:24:20,733 --> 01:24:22,667 AND WE'RE GETTING PORTRAITS MADE. 1462 01:24:22,667 --> 01:24:23,967 HI! 1463 01:24:23,967 --> 01:24:25,500 -I'M SHANNON. NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 1464 01:24:25,500 --> 01:24:27,633 -WELL, COME IN! -THANK YOU. 1465 01:24:27,633 --> 01:24:29,800 SO WHAT KIND OF PHOTOS ARE WE LOOKING FOR TODAY? 1466 01:24:29,800 --> 01:24:32,467 JUST, LIKE, REALLY FLATTERING, ROMANTIC TYPE OF... 1467 01:24:32,467 --> 01:24:34,500 OKAY! WELL, THEN, LET'S GET STARTED. 1468 01:24:34,500 --> 01:24:38,300 Ashley: THIS IS A TOTALLY NEW EXPERIENCE FOR ME. 1469 01:24:40,433 --> 01:24:42,600 IF YOU TOLD ME A YEAR AGO 1470 01:24:42,600 --> 01:24:46,167 THAT DANIEL AND I WOULD BE OUT ON A DATE GETTING PHOTOS DONE... 1471 01:24:46,167 --> 01:24:48,333 I LOVE THAT. AWESOME. 1472 01:24:48,333 --> 01:24:50,467 Ashley: ...I WOULD NEVER HAVE BELIEVED YOU. 1473 01:24:50,467 --> 01:24:54,600 DANIEL HAS BEEN BY MY SIDE AT MY ABSOLUTE WORST. 1474 01:24:54,600 --> 01:25:00,133 AND HE'S HERE NOW AS THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER, DAY BY DAY. 1475 01:25:00,133 --> 01:25:03,200 THERE'S NO WAY I COULD'VE DONE THIS WITHOUT HIM. 1476 01:25:03,200 --> 01:25:05,233 [ LAUGHS ] 1477 01:25:05,233 --> 01:25:09,167 I'M PROUD OF HOW I FEEL AND HOW I'M STARTING TO LOOK. 1478 01:25:09,167 --> 01:25:10,500 MY MOM IS GONNA LOVE THESE. 1479 01:25:10,500 --> 01:25:13,400 SHE HASN'T HAD PICTURES OF ME LIKE THIS IN LIKE YEARS. 1480 01:25:13,400 --> 01:25:15,167 Daniel: ASHLEY IS FEELING MORE COMFORTABLE, 1481 01:25:15,167 --> 01:25:18,333 AND SHE'S STARTING TO REALLY GO OUT INTO THE WORLD. 1482 01:25:18,333 --> 01:25:22,133 I DON'T REMEMBER HOW LONG I'VE SEEN HER SMILE LIKE THIS. 1483 01:25:22,133 --> 01:25:23,967 ** 1484 01:25:23,967 --> 01:25:25,967 Ashley: I'M FINALLY STARTING TO FEEL 1485 01:25:25,967 --> 01:25:28,933 LIKE I HAVE A MARRIAGE AND A LIFE. 1486 01:25:28,933 --> 01:25:32,367 I'M SO HAPPY, AND I JUST WANT TO SEE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. 1486 01:25:33,305 --> 01:26:33,694 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm