"My 600-lb Life" Steven and Justin's Story Part 2

1 00:00:03,800 --> 00:00:06,800 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 2 00:00:06,800 --> 00:00:09,800 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 3 00:00:09,800 --> 00:00:13,600 ** 4 00:00:13,600 --> 00:00:17,600 Steven: NO ONE CAN HANDLE MY WEIGHT. 5 00:00:17,600 --> 00:00:21,100 SO MY DAD HAS BEEN TRYING TO MAKE THE ARRANGEMENTS FOR ME 6 00:00:21,100 --> 00:00:24,767 TO GO OUT TO HOUSTON AND SEE DR. NOWZARADAN. 7 00:00:24,767 --> 00:00:29,133 MY SON STEVEN IS GONNA BE TRANSPORTED IN A MEDICAL R.V. 8 00:00:29,133 --> 00:00:31,867 TO HOUSTON, AND I'M GONNA FOLLOW HIM. 9 00:00:31,867 --> 00:00:34,400 AND MY SON JUSTIN WANTS TO COME WITH ME. 10 00:00:34,400 --> 00:00:35,833 [ ENGINE STARTS ] 11 00:00:35,833 --> 00:00:37,500 I WANT TO MEET THE DOCTOR, AS WELL, 12 00:00:37,500 --> 00:00:40,200 BECAUSE I WANT HELP WITH MY WEIGHT, TOO. 13 00:00:40,200 --> 00:00:41,567 Dr. Nowzaradan: FROM WHAT I UNDERSTAND, 14 00:00:41,567 --> 00:00:46,200 STEVEN ASSANTI SUFFERS FROM SEVERE PSYCHOLOGICAL ISSUES 15 00:00:46,200 --> 00:00:48,967 SO HE'S GOING TO BE A UNIQUE CASE. 16 00:00:48,967 --> 00:00:51,933 THIS LOOKS REALLY YUMMY! 17 00:00:53,533 --> 00:00:54,933 Steven Sr.: GOING TO HOUSTON 18 00:00:54,933 --> 00:00:57,867 WILL BE STEVEN'S LAST CHANCE IN GETTING HIS HELP, 19 00:00:57,867 --> 00:01:01,867 AND I HOPE HE STICKS WITH IT 'CAUSE HIS LIFE DEPENDS ON IT. 20 00:01:03,700 --> 00:01:08,600 [ CELLPHONE RINGS ] [ GROANS ] OH, GOD. 21 00:01:08,600 --> 00:01:09,633 WHAT DO YOU WANT? 22 00:01:09,633 --> 00:01:13,067 WE NEED TO STOP SOON. I AM HUNG-A-RY. 23 00:01:15,700 --> 00:01:19,067 I am feeling very weak. 24 00:01:20,333 --> 00:01:22,533 AND IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME, YOU'RE GONNA BE VERY SORRY. 25 00:01:25,600 --> 00:01:29,400 IT SOUNDS LIKE A PERFECT STORM OF DYSFUNCTION IS COMING, 26 00:01:29,400 --> 00:01:33,167 AND WE MAY BE FACING THE HARDEST CHALLENGE YET 27 00:01:33,167 --> 00:01:34,700 WITH THE ASSANTIS. 28 00:01:34,700 --> 00:01:36,333 STEVE. -HI. 29 00:01:36,333 --> 00:01:38,733 -I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. -HI. HOW ARE YOU? 30 00:01:38,733 --> 00:01:41,200 OKAY. LET'S GET YOU IN AND CHECK YOU OUT. 31 00:01:41,200 --> 00:01:42,467 ** 32 00:01:42,467 --> 00:01:44,433 Steven: I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN, 33 00:01:44,433 --> 00:01:46,867 AND I CAN REALLY USE SOME PAIN MEDICINE. 34 00:01:48,400 --> 00:01:51,767 Dr. Nowzaradan: STEVEN IS CASUALLY ASKING FOR SOME PAIN MEDICATION, 35 00:01:51,767 --> 00:01:55,067 BUT HIS BODY LANGUAGE SHOWS THAT HE REALLY WANTS IT. 36 00:01:55,067 --> 00:01:56,567 THIS IS DILAUDID... 37 00:01:56,567 --> 00:01:57,867 YEAH. ...THE PAIN MEDICINES. 38 00:01:57,867 --> 00:01:59,767 HAVE YOU HAD THIS BEFORE? YEAH. 39 00:01:59,767 --> 00:02:01,133 Dr. Nowzaradan: SO WE ARE DEALING WITH 40 00:02:01,133 --> 00:02:05,633 A VERY ADDICTIVE AND PATHOLOGICAL PERSONALITY HERE. 41 00:02:05,633 --> 00:02:09,900 HOPEFULLY, HIS BROTHER, JUSTIN, IS NOT GOING TO BE THE SAME WAY. 42 00:02:09,900 --> 00:02:11,900 Dr. Nowzaradan: JUSTIN, I HEAR FROM YOUR FATHER 43 00:02:11,900 --> 00:02:15,533 THAT YOU NO LONGER ARE INTERESTED IN ANY HELP. 44 00:02:15,533 --> 00:02:18,200 HE'S LOOKING AT US THROUGH THE CAMERA. 45 00:02:18,200 --> 00:02:20,467 SO, WE'LL GET THE ECHOCARDIOGRAM 46 00:02:20,467 --> 00:02:22,800 AND SEE WHAT HIS HEART IS DOING. 47 00:02:22,800 --> 00:02:25,200 Steven Sr.: YEAH. AND THEN HE CAN GO HOME. 48 00:02:25,200 --> 00:02:27,533 JUST GET HIM -- MY OTHER ONE -- DOWN TO 250. 49 00:02:27,533 --> 00:02:28,700 Steven Sr.: SAY "BYE" TO YOUR BROTHER. 50 00:02:28,700 --> 00:02:30,633 BYE. 51 00:02:30,633 --> 00:02:32,567 BYE. 52 00:02:32,567 --> 00:02:34,667 Justin: I JUST WANT TO GET AS FAR AWAY FROM HIM 53 00:02:34,667 --> 00:02:36,167 AS POSSIBLE RIGHT NOW. 54 00:02:36,167 --> 00:02:37,533 ** 55 00:02:37,533 --> 00:02:39,367 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS WHOLE FAMILY IS 56 00:02:39,367 --> 00:02:43,367 IN A DOWNWARD DEATH SPIRAL TOGETHER. 57 00:02:43,367 --> 00:02:48,800 SO I HOPE THERE'S SOMETHING WE CAN DO BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 58 00:02:48,800 --> 00:02:52,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: ALL RIGHT. I'M GONNA CHECK YOUR WEIGHT 59 00:02:52,067 --> 00:02:53,300 730. 60 00:02:53,300 --> 00:02:54,900 OKAY, STEVEN, WE'RE GOING TO START YOU 61 00:02:54,900 --> 00:02:58,533 ON A CONTROLLED DIET HERE IN THE HOSPITAL. 62 00:02:58,533 --> 00:03:00,667 Steven: BUT I'M NOT GONNA LIE -- 63 00:03:00,667 --> 00:03:03,767 IF SOMEONE WOULD HAVE BROUGHT ME SOME FAST FOOD OR SOMETHING, 64 00:03:03,767 --> 00:03:05,900 I'D PROBABLY EAT IT... 65 00:03:05,900 --> 00:03:07,933 BECAUSE I'M A FAST-FOOD JUNKIE. 66 00:03:07,933 --> 00:03:12,167 ALL RIGHT, STEVEN, LET'S CHECK YOUR WEIGHT. 67 00:03:12,167 --> 00:03:16,067 YOU LOST OVER 100 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 68 00:03:16,067 --> 00:03:18,933 THAT'S REALLY GOOD, HUH? 69 00:03:18,933 --> 00:03:21,200 I NEED SOMEBODY IN MY ROOM IMMEDIATELY. 70 00:03:21,200 --> 00:03:22,867 I HAVE BEEN WAITING. 71 00:03:25,067 --> 00:03:26,467 I WANT THIS LIGHT OFF. 72 00:03:28,067 --> 00:03:29,900 Steven: IT'S RIDICULOUS WHAT I HAVE TO DO 73 00:03:29,900 --> 00:03:32,267 TO GET PEOPLE TO RESPOND AROUND HERE. 74 00:03:32,267 --> 00:03:35,233 I'M NOT TRYING TO BE MEAN. TRUST ME -- I'M NOT. 75 00:03:35,233 --> 00:03:38,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'RE STARTING TO DEVELOP SOME ISSUES WITH STEVEN. 76 00:03:38,067 --> 00:03:40,067 A LOT OF HIS PATHOLOGICAL BEHAVIOR 77 00:03:40,067 --> 00:03:41,567 HAS STARTED TO COME OUT. 78 00:03:41,567 --> 00:03:43,667 STEVEN. -HEY. 79 00:03:43,667 --> 00:03:45,767 -HOW ARE YOU TODAY? -OKAY. 80 00:03:45,767 --> 00:03:47,767 SO, YOU SEEM LIKE YOU HAVE AN ISSUE 81 00:03:47,767 --> 00:03:50,567 GETTING ALONG WITH HOSPITAL STAFF, 82 00:03:50,567 --> 00:03:52,733 AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR OF THIS AGAIN. 83 00:03:52,733 --> 00:03:53,833 YES. 84 00:03:53,833 --> 00:03:57,833 I'VE NEVER SEEN ANY PATIENT LIKE STEVEN. 85 00:03:57,833 --> 00:04:00,700 HE'S ASKING FOR PAIN MEDICINE EVERY 15 MINUTES, 86 00:04:00,700 --> 00:04:03,533 AND THEN HE SPILLED URINE ON THE FLOOR. 87 00:04:03,533 --> 00:04:05,933 I'M JUST REALLY UPSET, OKAY? 88 00:04:07,900 --> 00:04:10,067 YOU'RE DONE HERE. 89 00:04:10,067 --> 00:04:12,067 I'VE BEEN DOING GOOD AND EVERYTHING. PLEASE. 90 00:04:12,067 --> 00:04:14,233 UNLESS YOU HAVE AN EMERGENCY, 91 00:04:14,233 --> 00:04:16,567 YOU WILL NOT BE ADMITTED BACK. 92 00:04:16,567 --> 00:04:18,867 [ Voice breaking ] PLEASE. I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE. 93 00:04:18,867 --> 00:04:22,367 Dr. Nowzaradan: STEVEN WILL CRY AND HE'LL BEG, 94 00:04:22,367 --> 00:04:23,767 BUT THE REALITY IS, 95 00:04:23,767 --> 00:04:25,733 HE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT CHANGING. 96 00:04:27,533 --> 00:04:30,467 -HELLO. -Steven has been misbehaving. 97 00:04:30,467 --> 00:04:31,600 DR. NOWZARADAN: If you want him to stay 98 00:04:31,600 --> 00:04:33,133 in the program in Houston, 99 00:04:33,133 --> 00:04:37,600 then you need to get him set up at a residence of his own. 100 00:04:37,600 --> 00:04:38,733 Steven Sr.: I'LL TELL YOU THE TRUTH -- 101 00:04:38,733 --> 00:04:40,267 I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS IS GONNA TURN OUT. 102 00:04:40,267 --> 00:04:43,233 EITHER HE WANTS TO LIVE, OR HE DON'T WANT TO LIVE. 103 00:04:49,300 --> 00:04:51,467 ALL RIGHT, DAD. I WANT PIZZA. 104 00:04:51,467 --> 00:04:52,833 OH, MY GOD. 105 00:04:52,833 --> 00:04:55,733 IT'S THE ONLY TIME I WANT TO HAVE IT, SO... 106 00:04:55,733 --> 00:04:56,933 WELL, WHAT DO YOU WANT? 107 00:04:56,933 --> 00:04:58,833 JUST A LARGE PIZZA WITH CHEESE AND PEPPERONI 108 00:04:58,833 --> 00:05:00,633 AND A 2-LITER BOTTLE OF COKE. 109 00:05:01,833 --> 00:05:03,567 THERE. YOU HAPPY? YEP. 110 00:05:03,567 --> 00:05:06,067 -HAVE A PARTY. -I WILL. 111 00:05:06,067 --> 00:05:08,800 I KNOW YOU WILL. 112 00:05:08,800 --> 00:05:12,367 I'VE HAD A PERSONAL-CARE ASSISTANT HELP TAKE CARE OF ME, 113 00:05:12,367 --> 00:05:14,500 AND I LIKE PRINCESS SO FAR. 114 00:05:14,500 --> 00:05:18,400 SHE COMES OVER AND BATHES ME, PREPARES FOOD FOR ME, 115 00:05:18,400 --> 00:05:22,467 AND SHE MAKES SURE I'M DOING OKAY. 116 00:05:22,467 --> 00:05:25,867 TODAY, I'M GOING BACK TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN. 117 00:05:25,867 --> 00:05:30,400 BUT I'M NERVOUS BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I WEIGH. 118 00:05:30,400 --> 00:05:33,833 ** 119 00:05:33,833 --> 00:05:35,800 THAT IS NOT GOOD. 120 00:05:35,800 --> 00:05:38,367 STEVEN. 121 00:05:38,367 --> 00:05:41,267 YOU MANAGED TO GAIN 80 POUNDS. 122 00:05:41,267 --> 00:05:43,733 SO, IF THIS IS NOT WORKING FOR YOU, 123 00:05:43,733 --> 00:05:47,067 I'M NOT GONNA BE THE ONE TO WRITE YOUR DEATH CERTIFICATE. 124 00:05:47,067 --> 00:05:49,067 THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE. 125 00:05:49,067 --> 00:05:53,867 Dr. Nowzaradan: JUSTIN HAS BEEN REFUSING TREATMENT SO FAR, 126 00:05:53,867 --> 00:05:57,100 AND HIS FATHER HAS NOT GIVEN ME AN UPDATE ON HIS WEIGHT, 127 00:05:57,100 --> 00:05:59,733 WHICH MEANS THIS IS NOT IMPORTANT FOR THEM. 128 00:05:59,733 --> 00:06:01,933 [ SIREN WAILS ] 129 00:06:01,933 --> 00:06:05,267 STEVEN IS ABUSING THE SYSTEM TO GET PAINKILLERS. 130 00:06:05,267 --> 00:06:07,867 AND THAT BEHAVIOR IS NOT ACCEPTABLE 131 00:06:07,867 --> 00:06:11,400 BECAUSE RIGHT NOW HIS ADDICTION TO PAIN MEDICATION 132 00:06:11,400 --> 00:06:14,967 IS GOING TO KILL HIM BEFORE HIS OVEREATING DOES. 133 00:06:14,967 --> 00:06:17,733 STEVEN, YOU'RE LYING ABOUT EVERYTHING YOU'RE DOING, 134 00:06:17,733 --> 00:06:19,767 SO, HERE'S WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO. 135 00:06:19,767 --> 00:06:22,833 I'M SUSPENDING YOU FROM THE WEIGHT-LOSS PROGRAM, 136 00:06:22,833 --> 00:06:26,133 AND YOU'RE GOING FROM HERE TO A DRUG-ADDICTION PROGRAM 137 00:06:26,133 --> 00:06:27,567 BECAUSE, RIGHT NOW, 138 00:06:27,567 --> 00:06:30,200 THERE'S NOTHING WE CAN DO TO WAKE YOU UP. 139 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:31,367 I WISH YOU THE BEST. 140 00:06:31,367 --> 00:06:32,733 THANK YOU. 141 00:06:36,467 --> 00:06:39,433 ** 142 00:06:47,767 --> 00:06:49,433 I'M CURRENTLY ON MY WAY 143 00:06:49,433 --> 00:06:54,800 TO THE COUNCIL ON RECOVERY IN HOUSTON. 144 00:06:54,800 --> 00:06:57,200 DR. NOWZARADAN HAS ADVISED ME TO BE ADMITTED 145 00:06:57,200 --> 00:06:58,567 TO THEIR REHAB PROGRAM. 146 00:06:58,567 --> 00:07:01,900 SO I'M GONNA BE EVALUATED FOR THAT. 147 00:07:01,900 --> 00:07:04,433 AND I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. 148 00:07:07,400 --> 00:07:10,667 I KNOW DR. NOW IS RIGHT. 149 00:07:10,667 --> 00:07:12,500 AND I'VE BEEN ABUSING PAINKILLERS 150 00:07:12,500 --> 00:07:16,067 TO THE POINT THAT I'VE BEEN RISKING MY LIFE EVERY DAY. 151 00:07:16,067 --> 00:07:20,933 BUT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT, I STILL WANT THEM. 152 00:07:20,933 --> 00:07:23,567 IF I GET THE URGE OF WANTING A NARCOTIC AGAIN 153 00:07:23,567 --> 00:07:25,433 AND WANTING TO GET HIGH, 154 00:07:25,433 --> 00:07:27,400 I WILL GO BACK TO THE HOSPITAL 155 00:07:27,400 --> 00:07:31,067 AND TRY TO CON ANOTHER DOCTOR. 156 00:07:31,067 --> 00:07:34,167 AND I'M GOOD AT GETTING WHAT I WANT. 157 00:07:34,167 --> 00:07:36,933 BUT I'M DOING TOO MUCH DAMAGE TO MY BODY, 158 00:07:36,933 --> 00:07:39,833 AND IF IT'S NOT GONNA BE THE WEIGHT THAT'S GONNA KILL ME, 159 00:07:39,833 --> 00:07:41,700 IT'S GONNA BE THE DRUGS. 160 00:07:43,000 --> 00:07:49,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 161 00:07:50,967 --> 00:07:53,867 SOMEONE HAS TO HELP ME STOP. 162 00:07:53,867 --> 00:07:56,267 AAH! -YOU KNOW WHERE WE'RE GOING? 163 00:07:56,267 --> 00:07:59,133 WE ARE GOING IN THE GATES OF THE DRUG COUNCIL 164 00:07:59,133 --> 00:08:01,967 AND REHAB PLACE TO GO SEE THE DOCTOR. 165 00:08:01,967 --> 00:08:04,833 -THESE GATES? -YES, THOSE GATES -- 166 00:08:04,833 --> 00:08:07,733 THE GATES OF HELL. 167 00:08:07,733 --> 00:08:09,100 [ GRUNTS ] 168 00:08:09,100 --> 00:08:13,267 I'M HOPING THAT THIS IS THE DAY MY LIFE TURNS AROUND. 169 00:08:13,267 --> 00:08:14,733 SELFIE. 170 00:08:16,133 --> 00:08:18,267 I WANT TO GET BETTER. 171 00:08:18,267 --> 00:08:22,467 AND I'M HOPING I ACTUALLY GET HELP HERE. 172 00:08:22,467 --> 00:08:24,733 BUT THIS IS STILL ONE OF THE SCARIEST THINGS 173 00:08:24,733 --> 00:08:26,067 THAT I'VE EVER DONE. 174 00:08:26,067 --> 00:08:27,533 THANK YOU. 175 00:08:29,467 --> 00:08:31,067 HELLO, EVERYONE. I'M STEVEN. 176 00:08:31,067 --> 00:08:32,833 -HOW ARE YOU? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 177 00:08:32,833 --> 00:08:34,133 -GOOD TO SEE YOU. -THANK YOU. 178 00:08:34,133 --> 00:08:36,067 -THANKS FOR COMING IN TODAY. -YOU, TOO. 179 00:08:36,067 --> 00:08:37,533 Dr. Flowers: SO, WHAT'S GOING ON TODAY? 180 00:08:37,533 --> 00:08:41,733 OH, WELL, UH, I'M ADDICTED TO PAIN MEDICINE. 181 00:08:41,733 --> 00:08:45,300 OKAY, HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON? 182 00:08:45,300 --> 00:08:47,967 -YEARS. -YEAH? 183 00:08:47,967 --> 00:08:50,133 EVER SINCE MY GALLBLADDER SURGERY 184 00:08:50,133 --> 00:08:51,633 WHEN I WAS, LIKE, 25. 185 00:08:51,633 --> 00:08:55,067 THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME I EVER GOT ADMITTED 186 00:08:55,067 --> 00:08:56,800 TO ANY HOSPITAL BEFORE. 187 00:08:56,800 --> 00:08:59,333 AND THAT'S WHEN I FIRST GOT PAIN MEDICINE 188 00:08:59,333 --> 00:09:01,367 AND I REALIZED HOW GOOD IT FEELS 189 00:09:01,367 --> 00:09:03,400 AND HOW MUCH I WANTED MORE. 190 00:09:03,400 --> 00:09:04,533 SURE. 191 00:09:04,533 --> 00:09:06,733 SO, IT'S BEEN GOING ON FOR A WHILE. 192 00:09:06,733 --> 00:09:10,367 AND NOW I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGHT THE URGE 193 00:09:10,367 --> 00:09:13,533 OF GOING BACK TO, LIKE, AN E.R. FOR MORE. 194 00:09:13,533 --> 00:09:16,533 I JUST DON'T WANT TO END UP LIKE ALL THESE CELEBRITIES, 195 00:09:16,533 --> 00:09:17,933 LIKE PRINCE AND STUFF. 196 00:09:17,933 --> 00:09:19,767 -MM-HMM. -I DON'T WANT TO BE, LIKE, 197 00:09:19,767 --> 00:09:22,300 THE NEXT PERSON TO DIE. 198 00:09:22,300 --> 00:09:24,500 BUT I DON'T GET MY DRUGS ILLEGALLY. 199 00:09:24,500 --> 00:09:27,467 -RIGHT, THEY'RE ALL PRESCRIBED. -IT'S LEGAL. CORRECT. 200 00:09:27,467 --> 00:09:28,800 Dr. Flowers: SO, YOU UNDERSTAND, JUST BECAUSE 201 00:09:28,800 --> 00:09:30,400 A PHYSICIAN PRESCRIBES SOMETHING -- 202 00:09:30,400 --> 00:09:33,167 DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE NOT AN ADDICT. 203 00:09:33,167 --> 00:09:34,233 -THAT'S RIGHT. -RIGHT. 204 00:09:34,233 --> 00:09:36,567 SO, MOST OF YOUR USE HAS BEEN INTRAVENOUS 205 00:09:36,567 --> 00:09:38,567 AT A FACILITY. -CORRECT. 206 00:09:38,567 --> 00:09:40,567 I JUST CALL 207 00:09:40,567 --> 00:09:44,300 A NON-EMERGENCY AMBULANCE MAYBE 10 TIMES, 208 00:09:44,300 --> 00:09:45,633 15 TIMES A MONTH, 209 00:09:45,633 --> 00:09:47,833 AND THE HOSPITALS CAN'T TURN ME AWAY 210 00:09:47,833 --> 00:09:53,067 BECAUSE WHAT I USE FOR EXCUSE IS MY RIGHT LEG. 211 00:09:53,067 --> 00:09:55,533 SO, AS LONG AS I'D TELL THEM MY PAIN WAS OVER AN EIGHT 212 00:09:55,533 --> 00:09:58,733 ON A SCALE OF ONE TO 10, THEN THEY HAVE TO TREAT ME. 213 00:09:58,733 --> 00:10:01,000 AND WHEN THEY GIVE THE INJECTION 214 00:10:01,000 --> 00:10:04,167 THROUGH THE I.V., LIKE, I'M ON ANOTHER PLANET. 215 00:10:04,167 --> 00:10:06,000 IT JUST KIND OF TAKES YOUR FEELINGS AWAY. 216 00:10:06,000 --> 00:10:08,300 -YEAH, IT NUMBS EVERYTHING. -YEAH. MM-HMM. 217 00:10:08,300 --> 00:10:10,667 -NOT HAVE TO WORRY. -YEAH. NO WORRY. 218 00:10:10,667 --> 00:10:13,433 AND THEY MAYBE WOULD OR WOULDN'T GIVE YOU 219 00:10:13,433 --> 00:10:15,333 A PRESCRIPTION FOR CONTINUED PAIN MEDICATION. 220 00:10:15,333 --> 00:10:17,267 -CORRECT. -HOW MANY TABLETS 221 00:10:17,267 --> 00:10:18,767 WOULD YOU BE GIVEN? 222 00:10:18,767 --> 00:10:21,833 120, 7.5 MILLIGRAMS. 223 00:10:21,833 --> 00:10:23,467 SO, YOU'D GO HOME. 224 00:10:23,467 --> 00:10:24,900 A DAY OR TWO LATER, YOU'D CALL 225 00:10:24,900 --> 00:10:26,800 AND GO TO THE SAME FACILITY OR WHAT? 226 00:10:26,800 --> 00:10:29,233 I DON'T GO TO THE SAME FACILITY, NO, 227 00:10:29,233 --> 00:10:30,833 'CAUSE THEY ALREADY KNOW WHO I AM. 228 00:10:30,833 --> 00:10:33,033 AND I HAD TO GO TO A NEW PLACE EACH TIME. 229 00:10:33,033 --> 00:10:35,367 WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WENT TO AN E.R.? 230 00:10:35,367 --> 00:10:37,867 -MAYBE A COUPLE DAYS AGO. -OKAY. 231 00:10:37,867 --> 00:10:40,567 SO, YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH DETOX SYMPTOMS BEFORE 232 00:10:40,567 --> 00:10:42,867 IN BETWEEN GETTING TO THE E.R.? 233 00:10:42,867 --> 00:10:44,733 I MEAN, TELL ME ABOUT THAT. -YOU MEAN WHEN YOU'RE NOT 234 00:10:44,733 --> 00:10:46,633 ON THE OPIATES FOR A WHILE OR WHATEVER? 235 00:10:46,633 --> 00:10:47,633 YEAH, OF COURSE. 236 00:10:47,633 --> 00:10:49,467 YOU JUST FEEL LIKE YOU'RE GONNA DIE. 237 00:10:49,467 --> 00:10:50,667 Dr. Flowers: AND HOW ARE YOU FEELING NOW 238 00:10:50,667 --> 00:10:53,067 SINCE IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF DAYS? 239 00:10:53,067 --> 00:10:57,600 I FEEL OKAY, BUT I-I -- MY BRAIN'S STILL, LIKE, 240 00:10:57,600 --> 00:11:00,533 TELLING ME, "GO BACK FOR MORE." 241 00:11:00,533 --> 00:11:02,933 THERE'S NO QUESTION ABOUT IT THAT YOU'RE A DRUG ADDICT. 242 00:11:02,933 --> 00:11:03,933 YEAH, I AM. 243 00:11:03,933 --> 00:11:06,067 AND YOU NEED TREATMENT FOR THAT. 244 00:11:06,067 --> 00:11:07,600 WHAT WE'RE TRYING TO ASSESS HERE 245 00:11:07,600 --> 00:11:10,100 IS WHETHER YOU NEED MEDICAL DETOX... 246 00:11:10,100 --> 00:11:11,967 -MM-HMM. -...AND HOW MUCH OF IT YOU NEED. 247 00:11:11,967 --> 00:11:13,267 RIGHT. YEAH. 248 00:11:13,267 --> 00:11:16,067 SO, TELL ME ABOUT DEPRESSION. 249 00:11:16,067 --> 00:11:18,167 I DON'T THINK I'M DEPRESSED. 250 00:11:18,167 --> 00:11:21,467 -NO DEPRESSION AT ALL? -I DON'T FEEL DEPRESSED, NO. 251 00:11:21,467 --> 00:11:23,067 I REALLY AM, FOR THE MOST PART, 252 00:11:23,067 --> 00:11:24,633 A PRETTY HAPPY GUY. 253 00:11:24,633 --> 00:11:25,933 YOU SAY YOU'RE HAPPY. 254 00:11:25,933 --> 00:11:28,067 THIS ISN'T WHAT A HAPPY PERSON DOES TO THEMSELVES. 255 00:11:28,067 --> 00:11:30,967 YEAH. 256 00:11:30,967 --> 00:11:33,200 AS AN ADDICT, THE WAY YOU'VE BEEN DOING THINGS 257 00:11:33,200 --> 00:11:34,533 REALLY ISN'T WORKING. 258 00:11:34,533 --> 00:11:36,300 AND ONE THING WE WANT TO MAKE SURE 259 00:11:36,300 --> 00:11:39,400 BEFORE WE HELP YOU IS THAT WE GET A COMMITMENT FROM YOU 260 00:11:39,400 --> 00:11:41,467 THAT YOU'RE GONNA GO THROUGH AND FOLLOW THROUGH 261 00:11:41,467 --> 00:11:43,600 WITH OUR PROGRAM AND PARTICIPATE. 262 00:11:43,600 --> 00:11:45,867 SO, OUR PROGRAM STARTS OFF WITH DETOX. 263 00:11:45,867 --> 00:11:47,433 YOU WOULD THEN BE DOING INDIVIDUAL SESSIONS 264 00:11:47,433 --> 00:11:48,600 WITH OUR THERAPIST 265 00:11:48,600 --> 00:11:49,767 BECAUSE A LOT OF TIMES WITH ADDICTS, 266 00:11:49,767 --> 00:11:52,333 THERE'S CORE TRAUMA AND THINGS UNDERNEATH 267 00:11:52,333 --> 00:11:53,833 THAT WE'RE NOT -- YOU'RE NOT ADDRESSING -- 268 00:11:53,833 --> 00:11:55,933 BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT GETTING BETTER RIGHT NOW. 269 00:11:55,933 --> 00:11:57,733 AND SO IF WE DON'T ADDRESS THOSE THINGS... 270 00:11:57,733 --> 00:11:59,133 -YEAH. -...YOU'RE GONNA STAY 271 00:11:59,133 --> 00:12:02,967 IN THE SAME CYCLE, AND IT'S JUST A BRUTAL CYCLE TO BE IN, 272 00:12:02,967 --> 00:12:04,267 AS YOU KNOW. 273 00:12:04,267 --> 00:12:07,067 SO, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO TALK AND DO THE WORK 274 00:12:07,067 --> 00:12:09,533 BECAUSE YOU'RE GONNA DIE. -YEAH, I KNOW. 275 00:12:09,533 --> 00:12:12,133 AND THERE'S NO USE IN CONTINUING DOWN THIS PATH 276 00:12:12,133 --> 00:12:14,533 UNLESS YOU JUST WANT TO DIE. 277 00:12:14,533 --> 00:12:18,067 ST. JOSEPH HOSPITAL -- THEY'VE ACCEPTED YOU. 278 00:12:18,067 --> 00:12:20,200 THEY'RE WILLING TO TAKE YOU IF YOU'RE WILLING TO GO. 279 00:12:20,200 --> 00:12:22,733 HOW LONG IS THE STAY? 280 00:12:22,733 --> 00:12:24,500 SO, WE DON'T KNOW. 281 00:12:24,500 --> 00:12:27,267 IT COULD BE 3 DAYS, AND IT COULD BE 10 DAYS. 282 00:12:27,267 --> 00:12:30,667 YOU NEED 24-HOUR MEDICAL MONITORING 283 00:12:30,667 --> 00:12:32,600 TO GET YOU THROUGH THIS DETOX. 284 00:12:32,600 --> 00:12:34,733 IT'S NOT LOCKDOWN OR ANYTHING, RIGHT? 285 00:12:34,733 --> 00:12:36,433 -YES. -IT'S THE PSYCH FLOOR. 286 00:12:36,433 --> 00:12:39,100 Dr. Flowers: IT'S THE MED/PSYCH FLOOR, BUT IT IS A TRUE MEDICAL DETOX. 287 00:12:43,067 --> 00:12:45,700 AM I ALLOWED TO HAVE A PHONE? 288 00:12:45,700 --> 00:12:46,700 PROBABLY NOT. 289 00:12:46,700 --> 00:12:48,200 DO THEY HAVE INTERNET ACCESS 290 00:12:48,200 --> 00:12:51,067 AT ST. JOSEPH'S? -I DON'T KNOW. 291 00:12:51,067 --> 00:12:53,233 CAN YOU FIND OUT? 292 00:12:53,233 --> 00:12:55,467 THAT'S A SECONDARY CONCERN RIGHT NOW. 293 00:12:55,467 --> 00:12:56,667 UH, NOT FOR ME. 294 00:12:56,667 --> 00:12:58,933 I MEAN, I NEED TO CONTACT MY PEOPLE. 295 00:12:58,933 --> 00:13:01,067 ARE YOU ALLOWED TO HAVE YOUR iPAD? 296 00:13:01,067 --> 00:13:02,833 Dr. Flowers: YOUR iPAD AND YOUR iPHONE 297 00:13:02,833 --> 00:13:04,867 AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT 298 00:13:04,867 --> 00:13:07,233 SHOULD BE SECONDARY RIGHT NOW TO YOU. 299 00:13:07,233 --> 00:13:09,067 NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE BORED, EITHER. 300 00:13:09,067 --> 00:13:10,333 OH, YOU WON'T BE BORED. 301 00:13:10,333 --> 00:13:13,833 YOU'RE GONNA BE BUSY GETTING BETTER. 302 00:13:13,833 --> 00:13:16,200 RIGHT NOW, THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS 303 00:13:16,200 --> 00:13:18,933 IS SAVING YOUR LIFE, AND THIS IS SAVING YOUR LIFE. 304 00:13:18,933 --> 00:13:21,067 YOU REALLY NEED TO WORK ON YOU. 305 00:13:21,067 --> 00:13:23,567 THAT -- WELL, YEAH, I'M GONNA DO THAT, TOO. 306 00:13:23,567 --> 00:13:26,433 Dr. D'Aunno: YOU DON'T DICTATE YOUR DETOX, OKAY? 307 00:13:26,433 --> 00:13:29,333 THE PROFESSIONALS DICTATE YOUR TREATMENT AND YOUR DETOX. 308 00:13:29,333 --> 00:13:31,067 YOU DO NOT. 309 00:13:31,067 --> 00:13:34,567 THIS GAME ISN'T GONNA LAST VERY MUCH LONGER. 310 00:13:34,567 --> 00:13:38,067 SO, YOU NEED TO GO TO TREATMENT, AND YOU NEED TO DETOX. 311 00:13:38,067 --> 00:13:41,067 -ALL RIGHT, I'LL GO. -OKAY. 312 00:13:41,067 --> 00:13:42,200 GOOD. 313 00:13:42,200 --> 00:13:43,800 THAT'S THE BEST THING FOR -- CONGRATULATIONS. 314 00:13:43,800 --> 00:13:45,167 THAT'S THE BEST THING FOR YOU. 315 00:13:45,167 --> 00:13:47,067 -THANKS. -YEAH. 316 00:13:47,067 --> 00:13:48,767 Dr. Flowers: SO, I SEE A LITTLE BIT OF SADNESS IN YOUR EYES. 317 00:13:48,767 --> 00:13:49,933 WHAT'S GOING ON? -[ LAUGHS ] 318 00:13:49,933 --> 00:13:51,700 Green: IT'S A LITTLE SCARY, BUT IT'S OKAY. 319 00:13:51,700 --> 00:13:53,133 YEAH. 320 00:13:53,133 --> 00:13:55,100 YOU READY TO DO THIS? 321 00:13:55,100 --> 00:13:57,100 OKAY. -OKAY. 322 00:13:57,100 --> 00:13:59,633 -OKAY. -YEAH. 323 00:14:01,767 --> 00:14:04,100 Dr. Flowers: STEVEN'S PROBLEM IS EXTENSIVE. 324 00:14:04,100 --> 00:14:05,933 HE CAN'T HELP BUT BE IN THIS MUCH PAIN 325 00:14:05,933 --> 00:14:07,233 BECAUSE OF HIS WEIGHT. 326 00:14:07,233 --> 00:14:09,833 AND HE ADMITTED THAT HE DOES TAKE OPIATES 327 00:14:09,833 --> 00:14:11,233 BECAUSE IT NUMBS HIS FEELINGS. 328 00:14:11,233 --> 00:14:12,900 HE DOESN'T WANT TO FEEL. 329 00:14:12,900 --> 00:14:15,633 STEVEN WAS AS HONEST AS HE COULD BE, 330 00:14:15,633 --> 00:14:17,233 BUT I THINK THERE'S A LOT OF TRAUMA 331 00:14:17,233 --> 00:14:18,500 THAT HE'S NOT TALKING ABOUT. 332 00:14:18,500 --> 00:14:20,867 AND IF THAT TRAUMA ISN'T ADDRESSED IN TREATMENT, 333 00:14:20,867 --> 00:14:22,167 THEN IT'S NOT GONNA RESOLVE. 334 00:14:22,167 --> 00:14:25,267 GASTRIC BYPASS OR A SLEEVE IS NOT THE ANSWER. 335 00:14:25,267 --> 00:14:27,233 THE ANSWER IS GOING THROUGH DETOX, 336 00:14:27,233 --> 00:14:28,967 THEN GOING THROUGH A TREATMENT PROGRAM 337 00:14:28,967 --> 00:14:31,700 AND REMAINING FOR LIFE IN LONG-TERM THERAPY. 338 00:14:31,700 --> 00:14:33,400 SO, GOOD LUCK. ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 339 00:14:33,400 --> 00:14:35,133 YOU'RE WELCOME. TAKE CARE. -THANK YOU. 340 00:14:35,133 --> 00:14:37,667 UNFORTUNATELY, PAST FAILURE FOR STEVEN 341 00:14:37,667 --> 00:14:39,400 IS A BIG CONCERN MOVING FORWARD. 342 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:40,800 ALL RIGHT, SEE YOU SOON. 343 00:14:40,800 --> 00:14:42,500 YEAH, SEE YOU SOON. SEE YOU BOTH SOON. 344 00:14:42,500 --> 00:14:43,433 THANK YOU. -STEVEN HAS GOT 345 00:14:43,433 --> 00:14:44,800 TO BUY INTO THIS. 346 00:14:44,800 --> 00:14:48,333 HE'S GOT TO REALIZE THAT, "IF I DON'T COMPLETE THIS TIME, 347 00:14:48,333 --> 00:14:49,600 I'M GONNA DIE." 348 00:14:49,600 --> 00:14:51,800 AND IF HE DOESN'T BELIEVE THAT, 349 00:14:51,800 --> 00:14:53,667 THEN HE'S GONNA FAIL. 350 00:14:53,667 --> 00:14:57,133 GOT TO PUT IT ON SPEAKERPHONE. 351 00:14:57,133 --> 00:15:00,167 [ TELEPHONE RINGS ] THANK YOU, HONEY. 352 00:15:03,067 --> 00:15:05,067 [ DOOR CLOSES ] 353 00:15:05,067 --> 00:15:06,700 STEVEN SR.: Hello. I GOT TO LEAVE SOON. 354 00:15:06,700 --> 00:15:08,133 I FIGURED I'D GIVE YOU A QUICK CALL 355 00:15:08,133 --> 00:15:11,067 AND LET YOU KNOW I'M GONNA BE AT THE HOSPITAL 356 00:15:11,067 --> 00:15:12,167 IN THE PSYCH-WARD SECTION. 357 00:15:12,167 --> 00:15:13,800 SO, I DON'T KNOW IF THEY'RE GONNA ALLOW ME 358 00:15:13,800 --> 00:15:15,900 TO HAVE MY TABLET OR NOT. 359 00:15:15,900 --> 00:15:17,867 Okay, well, this is a good thing, 360 00:15:17,867 --> 00:15:19,933 and you need to do this, Steven. 361 00:15:19,933 --> 00:15:24,167 You're running out of chances. 362 00:15:24,167 --> 00:15:25,633 [ Voice breaking ] YEAH. 363 00:15:27,500 --> 00:15:28,633 JUST A LITTLE NERVOUS. 364 00:15:28,633 --> 00:15:30,533 Why are you nervous? 365 00:15:30,533 --> 00:15:33,167 There is no place better for you to be on this planet 366 00:15:33,167 --> 00:15:34,533 than where you're going. 367 00:15:34,533 --> 00:15:37,200 I KNOW I HAVE TO LOOK AT IT THAT WAY, RIGHT? 368 00:15:37,200 --> 00:15:38,667 It's one of the only places 369 00:15:38,667 --> 00:15:40,700 where you can't keep killing yourself 370 00:15:40,700 --> 00:15:41,733 like you have been. 371 00:15:41,733 --> 00:15:44,133 OKAY. Trust me. 372 00:15:44,133 --> 00:15:46,467 This is a very good place you're going, Steven. 373 00:15:46,467 --> 00:15:49,067 I TRUST YOU. I KNOW. OKAY. 374 00:15:49,067 --> 00:15:50,100 [ SNIFFLES ] 375 00:15:50,100 --> 00:15:52,233 All right. Bye. 376 00:15:52,233 --> 00:15:55,200 ** 377 00:15:58,433 --> 00:16:02,067 Steven: I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. 378 00:16:02,067 --> 00:16:05,467 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT OR HOW HARD THIS IS GONNA BE. 379 00:16:05,467 --> 00:16:07,567 BUT I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. 380 00:16:07,567 --> 00:16:11,300 EITHER I DO THIS, OR I'M GONNA DIE. 381 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:18,567 ** 382 00:16:25,400 --> 00:16:27,767 Steven: I'M STARTING MY DETOX NOW, 383 00:16:27,767 --> 00:16:29,333 AND I'M IN A DAZE. 384 00:16:29,333 --> 00:16:31,567 ** 385 00:16:31,567 --> 00:16:33,367 I'M JUST TRYING TO WRAP MY HEAD AROUND 386 00:16:33,367 --> 00:16:35,500 WHAT I'M ABOUT TO GO THROUGH MENTALLY 387 00:16:35,500 --> 00:16:38,433 AND PHYSICALLY AS I START THE WITHDRAWAL PROCESS. 388 00:16:43,367 --> 00:16:45,567 I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS AT ALL. 389 00:16:45,567 --> 00:16:48,200 BUT I KNOW IT'S THE RIGHT THING TO DO. 390 00:16:53,267 --> 00:16:54,833 ** 391 00:16:54,833 --> 00:17:00,367 MY FIRST DAY IN DETOX, AND THIS IS MY ROOM. 392 00:17:00,367 --> 00:17:04,167 AND THAT'S THE DOOR I CAME THROUGH. 393 00:17:04,167 --> 00:17:06,433 GIVE YOU A LITTLE TOUR HERE. 394 00:17:06,433 --> 00:17:09,300 THAT'S THE LIGHT, THE CHAIRS. THEY'RE VERY SMALL. 395 00:17:09,300 --> 00:17:11,567 MAYBE ONE DAY I CAN FIT IN CHAIRS LIKE THAT. 396 00:17:11,567 --> 00:17:13,067 IT WOULD BE NICE. 397 00:17:13,067 --> 00:17:17,267 AND UP HERE IS WHERE THE CAMERAS ARE. 398 00:17:17,267 --> 00:17:21,167 AND THAT LOOKS AT ME ALL DAY LONG. 399 00:17:21,167 --> 00:17:23,600 SO, I'M FEELING QUITE TIRED RIGHT NOW 400 00:17:23,600 --> 00:17:26,500 'CAUSE WE HAD A LONG DAY TODAY. 401 00:17:26,500 --> 00:17:30,467 I'M HOPING I CAN GET THROUGH THE FIRE 402 00:17:30,467 --> 00:17:34,100 AND BEAT THIS AND LEARN A LOT AND RECOVER. 403 00:17:34,100 --> 00:17:37,133 OTHERWISE, THINGS COULD GET WORSE, AND I CAN DIE. 404 00:17:37,133 --> 00:17:38,767 SO, I GOT TO FOCUS ON THE NOW, 405 00:17:38,767 --> 00:17:40,767 AND THE NOW IS, 406 00:17:40,767 --> 00:17:42,233 "AM I GONNA RECOVER OR NOT? 407 00:17:42,233 --> 00:17:45,300 OR AM I GONNA GIVE UP AND GO HOME?" 408 00:17:45,300 --> 00:17:49,767 I FEEL LIKE I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO DO THAT, BUT NOTHING'S EASY. 409 00:17:52,067 --> 00:17:55,067 ** 410 00:17:56,333 --> 00:18:02,367 THIS IS DAY 2 IN THE PSYCH WARD, DRUG REHAB IN THE HOSPITAL. 411 00:18:02,367 --> 00:18:03,767 PRETTY BAD NIGHT -- 412 00:18:03,767 --> 00:18:07,300 THEY KEPT COMING IN MY F'ing ROOM 413 00:18:07,300 --> 00:18:10,667 EVERY 15 F'ing MINUTES. 414 00:18:10,667 --> 00:18:13,900 I SWEAR I TURNED INTO THE SPAWN OF SATAN. 415 00:18:13,900 --> 00:18:15,267 I DON'T FEEL NORMAL 416 00:18:15,267 --> 00:18:19,733 WHEN I'M NOT ON VICODIN, DILAUDID, OR ANYTHING. 417 00:18:19,733 --> 00:18:22,467 JUST STARTED MY SUBOXONE TREATMENT. 418 00:18:22,467 --> 00:18:23,900 SO, THAT'S SUPPOSED TO WEAN ME 419 00:18:23,900 --> 00:18:27,067 OFF THE REALLY HARD-CORE PAIN MEDICINE. 420 00:18:27,067 --> 00:18:29,067 BUT WHAT I'M NOTICING WITH THE SUBOXONE 421 00:18:29,067 --> 00:18:32,400 IS THAT I FEEL NORMAL EVEN ON THAT. 422 00:18:32,400 --> 00:18:35,733 SO FAR, SO GOOD. YEAH. 423 00:18:35,733 --> 00:18:38,067 CROSSING MY FAT FINGERS. 424 00:18:42,167 --> 00:18:45,133 ** 425 00:18:51,400 --> 00:18:54,900 Justin: I FEEL THINGS HAVE BEEN BETTER FOR ME FOR THE PAST MONTH. 426 00:18:54,900 --> 00:18:57,833 AND I'M STILL GLAD STEVEN IS GONE. 427 00:19:00,067 --> 00:19:03,433 WHEN STEVEN WAS HERE, HE ALWAYS JUST PUT ME DOWN, 428 00:19:03,433 --> 00:19:07,767 AND ALL THE ATTENTION WENT TO HIM CONSTANTLY. 429 00:19:07,767 --> 00:19:10,100 SO, NOW I'VE STARTED TO FIGURE OUT 430 00:19:10,100 --> 00:19:11,933 WHAT I WANT TO DO IN LIFE. 431 00:19:11,933 --> 00:19:15,533 AND I'VE DECIDED TO OPEN A HOBBY SHOP. 432 00:19:15,533 --> 00:19:19,867 AND MY DAD IS GONNA HELP ME DO IT. 433 00:19:19,867 --> 00:19:22,600 MY SON STARTED GETTING INTO BUILDING MODELS. 434 00:19:22,600 --> 00:19:25,167 AND HE FIGURES HE CAN MAKE MONEY. 435 00:19:25,167 --> 00:19:26,367 AND I THINK IT'S A GOOD THING 436 00:19:26,367 --> 00:19:28,367 THAT HE WANTS TO START THIS STORE OF HIS 437 00:19:28,367 --> 00:19:31,200 SO HE CAN GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. 438 00:19:31,200 --> 00:19:34,100 HE WAS REALLY RECLUSIVE FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS, 439 00:19:34,100 --> 00:19:35,767 WOULD HARDLY LEAVE HIS ROOM, 440 00:19:35,767 --> 00:19:39,633 AND HE NEEDS TO GET OUT IN THE WORLD. 441 00:19:39,633 --> 00:19:42,667 SO, HOPEFULLY JUSTIN CAN TAKE THIS CHANCE 442 00:19:42,667 --> 00:19:45,667 TO START HIS OWN THING. 443 00:19:45,667 --> 00:19:47,767 I FEEL LIKE JUSTIN'S DOING A LOT BETTER 444 00:19:47,767 --> 00:19:50,067 NOW THAT HE'S AWAY FROM HIS BROTHER. 445 00:19:52,767 --> 00:19:55,267 I'M HAPPY STEVEN'S IN REHAB RIGHT NOW, 446 00:19:55,267 --> 00:20:00,033 AND I REALLY HOPE THIS TURNS THINGS AROUND FOR HIM. 447 00:20:00,033 --> 00:20:03,033 BUT HE'S THE MOST STUBBORN PERSON I EVER KNOWN. 448 00:20:03,033 --> 00:20:05,167 SO, I JUST HOPE THEY CAN BREAK HIM 449 00:20:05,167 --> 00:20:08,867 BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO. 450 00:20:08,867 --> 00:20:10,867 Justin: WITH EVERYTHING GOING ON, 451 00:20:10,867 --> 00:20:15,300 I REALLY HAVEN'T HAD A CHANCE TO FOCUS MUCH ON MY DIET... 452 00:20:15,300 --> 00:20:17,033 BECAUSE I HAVE TO FOCUS ON MY WORK 453 00:20:17,033 --> 00:20:19,933 AND SETTING UP MY STORE RIGHT NOW. 454 00:20:19,933 --> 00:20:21,367 AND I DON'T THINK I'VE GAINED ANY MORE, 455 00:20:21,367 --> 00:20:25,500 WHICH MEANS MY WEIGHT IS DOING OKAY. 456 00:20:25,500 --> 00:20:26,767 I'M NOT GETTING BIGGER, 457 00:20:26,767 --> 00:20:30,367 AND I CAN STAY MOBILE AND STILL GET AROUND. 458 00:20:30,367 --> 00:20:33,367 BECAUSE MY GOAL IS TO NOT END UP LIKE STEVEN. 459 00:20:37,367 --> 00:20:40,133 I KNOW DR. NOWZARADAN WANTS ME TO COME BACK FOR A CHECKUP 460 00:20:40,133 --> 00:20:44,200 TO SEE WHAT MY WEIGHT IS AND HOW I'M DOING. 461 00:20:44,200 --> 00:20:48,433 BUT RIGHT NOW I NEED TO FOCUS ON GETTING MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER. 462 00:20:48,433 --> 00:20:50,133 I DON'T WANT THIS. HERE, ROCKY, YOU CAN HAVE IT. 463 00:20:50,133 --> 00:20:52,133 GIVE IT TO HIM. LET HIM FINISH IT. 464 00:20:52,133 --> 00:20:54,100 THERE'S ONLY A COUPLE PIECES LEFT. 465 00:20:54,100 --> 00:20:55,900 Justin: SO, I'LL GET BACK TO DR. NOWZARADAN 466 00:20:55,900 --> 00:20:57,967 AND HIS DIET... -GOOD BOY. 467 00:20:57,967 --> 00:21:00,533 Justin: ...BUT NOT RIGHT NOW. 468 00:21:02,600 --> 00:21:05,567 ** 469 00:21:17,133 --> 00:21:18,267 Steven: Okay? 470 00:21:18,267 --> 00:21:20,067 Steven Sr.: Steven, calm down. 471 00:21:22,100 --> 00:21:24,233 You have to calm down. 472 00:21:29,533 --> 00:21:31,333 Stop acting like this. 473 00:21:31,333 --> 00:21:33,733 I'm gonna hang up if you don't calm down. 474 00:21:43,100 --> 00:21:44,533 Freak out all you want. 475 00:21:44,533 --> 00:21:46,800 You're not getting any more drugs. 476 00:21:50,267 --> 00:21:52,233 [ Sobs ] 477 00:21:54,633 --> 00:21:57,600 ** 478 00:22:06,533 --> 00:22:10,133 Steven: I'M FINALLY BEING RELEASED FROM THE DETOX PROGRAM. 479 00:22:10,133 --> 00:22:12,467 I'VE BEEN HERE FOR A WEEK. 480 00:22:12,467 --> 00:22:15,067 AND THEY SAY NOW THE DRUGS ARE OUT OF MY SYSTEM 481 00:22:15,067 --> 00:22:16,767 AND I'M FREE TO GO HOME. 482 00:22:21,467 --> 00:22:25,100 THIS IS ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS I'VE EVER DONE. 483 00:22:25,100 --> 00:22:27,833 THERE WERE MOMENTS WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE. 484 00:22:29,833 --> 00:22:32,267 I NEVER WANT TO GO THROUGH SOMETHING LIKE THAT AGAIN, 485 00:22:32,267 --> 00:22:34,767 AND I'M JUST GLAD IT'S FINALLY OVER. 486 00:22:40,233 --> 00:22:43,500 AND HOPEFULLY I CAN START LOOKING TO A BETTER FUTURE. 487 00:22:47,433 --> 00:22:49,733 AND I'M SUPPOSED TO STAY ON MY DETOX DRUG 488 00:22:49,733 --> 00:22:51,433 SO THAT THE WITHDRAWAL DOESN'T START UP 489 00:22:51,433 --> 00:22:54,233 WHEN I'M AT HOME. 490 00:22:54,233 --> 00:22:57,667 I WANT TO BE DRUG [BLEEP] FREE. 491 00:22:57,667 --> 00:22:59,233 * I WENT -- I WENT DRUG FREE * 492 00:22:59,233 --> 00:23:01,400 * I WENT DRUG -- I WENT FREE * 493 00:23:08,467 --> 00:23:11,067 PRINCESS HAS ALREADY PICKED UP MY CURRENT PRESCRIPTION 494 00:23:11,067 --> 00:23:14,200 AND SAID IT'LL BE AT MY APARTMENT WAITING FOR ME. 495 00:23:14,200 --> 00:23:16,200 SO, I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT URGES 496 00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:19,333 THAT WILL TEMPT ME TO TRY TO GET BACK ON PAIN MEDS. 497 00:23:22,633 --> 00:23:25,500 I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING HOME FINALLY. 498 00:23:25,500 --> 00:23:26,833 I WAS REALLY WORRIED, TOO, 499 00:23:26,833 --> 00:23:29,100 BECAUSE I GOT A CAT TO KEEP ME COMPANY 500 00:23:29,100 --> 00:23:30,467 RIGHT BEFORE I WENT TO THE CLINIC 501 00:23:30,467 --> 00:23:33,233 TO SEE DR. NOW, AND THEN I ENDED UP IN REHAB. 502 00:23:33,233 --> 00:23:36,133 SO, PRINCESS HAS BEEN TAKING CARE OF HER. 503 00:23:36,133 --> 00:23:39,100 ** 504 00:23:43,667 --> 00:23:46,133 [ SIGHS ] 505 00:23:46,133 --> 00:23:48,500 THERE'S NO SUBOXONE HERE WHATSOEVER. 506 00:23:48,500 --> 00:23:50,067 [ CAT MEOWS ] 507 00:23:50,067 --> 00:23:53,067 ** 508 00:23:53,067 --> 00:23:55,400 I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. 509 00:23:55,400 --> 00:23:58,667 PRINCESS DIDN'T DROP IT OFF LIKE SHE SAID. 510 00:23:58,667 --> 00:24:00,467 HOW DOES ANYONE EXPECT ME TO DO THIS 511 00:24:00,467 --> 00:24:03,933 IF I DON'T HAVE WHAT I NEED? 512 00:24:03,933 --> 00:24:07,133 I'M GONNA TELL HER JUST HOW UNACCEPTABLE THIS IS 513 00:24:07,133 --> 00:24:09,367 AND HOW DISAPPOINTED I AM 514 00:24:09,367 --> 00:24:12,533 AND FIND OUT WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON. 515 00:24:12,533 --> 00:24:17,667 PRINCESS IS TELLING ME NOW, "THE MEDICINE'S NOT READY. 516 00:24:17,667 --> 00:24:19,867 THEY NEED YOUR INSURANCE INFORMATION. 517 00:24:19,867 --> 00:24:24,267 RIGHT NOW YOU ARE LOOKING AT $150 TOTAL." 518 00:24:24,267 --> 00:24:29,367 FIRST THING, I'LL TRY TO ASK DAD AND SEE IF HE HAS $150. 519 00:24:29,367 --> 00:24:32,367 [ CHUCKLES ] THAT'S GONNA BE HIGHLY DOUBTFUL. 520 00:24:32,367 --> 00:24:34,600 Steven: HELLO? 521 00:24:34,600 --> 00:24:38,700 YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH, OKAY, 522 00:24:38,700 --> 00:24:40,167 IN THAT PSYCH WARD. 523 00:24:40,167 --> 00:24:42,700 HUH? 524 00:24:42,700 --> 00:24:44,067 WELL, YOU'RE GONNA HEAR ME, 525 00:24:44,067 --> 00:24:47,833 AND YOU'RE GONNA HEAR ME [BLEEP] NOW! 526 00:24:47,833 --> 00:24:52,067 AND YOU'RE GONNA HEAR ME LOUD AND [BLEEP] CLEAR! 527 00:24:52,067 --> 00:24:53,333 OKAY? 528 00:24:53,333 --> 00:24:57,067 CLEAN OUT YOUR [BLEEP] EARS AND CLEAN THEM OUT GOOD! 529 00:24:57,067 --> 00:25:02,133 I NEED $150 TO FILL MY TREATMENT MEDICINE. 530 00:25:02,133 --> 00:25:06,300 DO YOU GOT POTATOES IN YOUR [BLEEP] EARS? 531 00:25:06,300 --> 00:25:09,067 I WILL RELAPSE 532 00:25:09,067 --> 00:25:13,167 IF I DON'T HAVE THAT MEDICINE HERE! 533 00:25:13,167 --> 00:25:16,767 IS IT GOING OVER YOUR HEAD, WHAT I'M TELLING YOU? 534 00:25:16,767 --> 00:25:20,600 THE INSURANCE IS NOT COVERING MY [BLEEP] TREATMENT MEDICINE 535 00:25:20,600 --> 00:25:23,433 FOR SOME REASON THIS MONTH, OKAY? 536 00:25:25,633 --> 00:25:27,200 GOODBYE, FATHER. 537 00:25:27,200 --> 00:25:29,233 GOODBYE. 538 00:25:29,233 --> 00:25:30,700 [ RECEIVER CLICKS ] 539 00:25:32,200 --> 00:25:33,767 IF MY DAD OR PRINCESS 540 00:25:33,767 --> 00:25:36,300 DOESN'T GET MY PRESCRIPTION TO ME NOW 541 00:25:36,300 --> 00:25:37,833 AND I END UP BACK ON PAIN MEDS, 542 00:25:37,833 --> 00:25:40,467 IT'S BECAUSE OF THEM. 543 00:25:40,467 --> 00:25:45,100 AND THEN, WHEN I OVERDOSE, IT'S GONNA BE THEIR FAULT. 544 00:25:45,100 --> 00:25:47,333 OH, THIS IS JUST ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS 545 00:25:47,333 --> 00:25:48,600 WHEN YOU JUST WISH YOU WERE DEAD, 546 00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:52,233 LIKE, AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME RIGHT NOW. 547 00:25:52,233 --> 00:25:55,633 RIGHT NOW, SON. 548 00:25:55,633 --> 00:25:56,900 [ SIGHS ] 549 00:26:00,100 --> 00:26:03,067 ** 550 00:26:17,267 --> 00:26:19,933 Steven: IT'S BEEN A HARD MONTH. 551 00:26:19,933 --> 00:26:21,633 I'VE BEEN STAYING ON MY PRESCRIPTION 552 00:26:21,633 --> 00:26:23,667 TO FIGHT THE WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS, 553 00:26:23,667 --> 00:26:26,167 BUT IT'S STILL BEEN REALLY HARD 554 00:26:26,167 --> 00:26:28,067 BECAUSE I HAVE MY MOMENTS 555 00:26:28,067 --> 00:26:31,267 WHERE I WANT SOMETHING REALLY STRONG. 556 00:26:31,267 --> 00:26:33,933 AND I'M HAVING A HARD TIME RIGHT NOW 557 00:26:33,933 --> 00:26:36,333 BECAUSE I LOST MY TEMPER AT PRINCESS AGAIN 558 00:26:36,333 --> 00:26:38,867 WHEN SHE WAS TAKING A WHILE TO GET MY PRESCRIPTION. 559 00:26:38,867 --> 00:26:40,600 AND SHE TOLD ME SHE WAS GONNA RESIGN 560 00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:43,200 AS MY PERSONAL-CARE ASSISTANT. 561 00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:45,600 SO, I DON'T KNOW WHO'S GONNA GET MY PRESCRIPTION FOR ME NOW 562 00:26:45,600 --> 00:26:48,433 AND TAKE CARE OF ME. 563 00:26:48,433 --> 00:26:51,633 SHE'S COMING OVER RIGHT NOW, THOUGH, FOR HER LAST VISIT. 564 00:26:51,633 --> 00:26:54,100 SHE ALSO SAID SHE'S GONNA TAKE BACK MY TV SET 565 00:26:54,100 --> 00:26:56,367 SINCE IT BELONGS TO THE HEALTHCARE COMPANY 566 00:26:56,367 --> 00:26:58,233 AND THAT THEY LENT IT TO ME, 567 00:26:58,233 --> 00:27:01,433 BUT I'M NOT LETTING HER DO THAT. 568 00:27:01,433 --> 00:27:06,933 SHE CAN DROP OFF THE PILLS, GET ME SOMETHING TO EAT, AND GO. 569 00:27:06,933 --> 00:27:08,967 I'M SICK OF HER ANYWAY. 570 00:27:08,967 --> 00:27:12,200 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] COME IN. 571 00:27:12,200 --> 00:27:17,700 OKAY, ASSANTI, I PICKED UP SOME LAST-MINUTE STUFF FOR YOU. 572 00:27:17,700 --> 00:27:22,100 AFTER DETOX, STEVEN IS STILL UP TO HIS OLD WAYS. 573 00:27:22,100 --> 00:27:25,133 WHATEVER MEDICINE THE REHAB DOCTOR PUT HIM ON, 574 00:27:25,133 --> 00:27:26,267 HE LOVES IT. 575 00:27:26,267 --> 00:27:29,100 AND I JUST GOT HIM A SCRIP FOR 120 PILLS, 576 00:27:29,100 --> 00:27:31,067 AND I THINK THEY'RE ALL GONE. 577 00:27:31,067 --> 00:27:33,233 HIS MOOD SWINGS ARE WORSE THAN EVER, 578 00:27:33,233 --> 00:27:37,267 AND HIS BEHAVIOR IS PARTICULAR UNACCEPTABLE TOWARDS ME, 579 00:27:37,267 --> 00:27:40,933 SO I'M NO LONGER GOING TO BE TREATING HIM AFTER TODAY. 580 00:27:40,933 --> 00:27:43,367 TWO WEEKS WORTH OF FOOD YOU'LL GO THROUGH IN TWO DAYS. 581 00:27:43,367 --> 00:27:45,300 NOBODY'S GONNA BE HERE TO CHECK AND MAKE SURE 582 00:27:45,300 --> 00:27:46,667 YOU'RE TAKING IT IN PORTION. 583 00:27:46,667 --> 00:27:48,367 THAT'S GONNA BE UP TO ME NOW. 584 00:27:48,367 --> 00:27:49,767 IT IS. 585 00:27:49,767 --> 00:27:52,233 Princess: RIGHT NOW, STEVEN IS NOT STICKING TO HIS DIET. 586 00:27:52,233 --> 00:27:56,100 I'M TAKING OUT PIZZA BOXES, COOKIE BOXES, BROWNIE BOXES, 587 00:27:56,100 --> 00:27:58,733 AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT HIS DAD ORDERS HIM. 588 00:27:58,733 --> 00:28:00,833 HE'S NOT WORKING ON CHANGES RIGHT NOW. 589 00:28:00,833 --> 00:28:03,067 HE'S JUST TRANSFERRING HIS ADDICTION 590 00:28:03,067 --> 00:28:05,533 TO HIS NEW PRESCRIPTION, AND HE'S ABUSING IT. 591 00:28:05,533 --> 00:28:07,833 SO, THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO WITH THAT. 592 00:28:07,833 --> 00:28:09,733 I'VE BEEN VERY PATIENT WITH HIM, 593 00:28:09,733 --> 00:28:11,967 BUT STEVEN REFUSES TO LISTEN TO ME. 594 00:28:11,967 --> 00:28:14,933 SO I JUST CANNOT WORK LIKE THAT. 595 00:28:22,733 --> 00:28:24,400 Princess: OKAY, I'M GOING TO GET YOUR LAUNDRY. 596 00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:26,267 I'LL BE BACK. I'M GONNA GET YOUR LAUNDRY. 597 00:28:26,267 --> 00:28:28,100 ALL RIGHT. 598 00:28:36,900 --> 00:28:39,833 Steven: I NEED A POLICE OFFICER HERE IMMEDIATELY, PLEASE. 599 00:28:39,833 --> 00:28:44,500 MY PERSONAL-CARE ATTENDANT HERE BOUGHT ME A TV, OKAY? 600 00:28:44,500 --> 00:28:46,367 SHE BOUGHT IT AS A GIFT FOR ME, 601 00:28:46,367 --> 00:28:49,067 AND NOW SHE'S TRYING TO TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME. 602 00:28:49,067 --> 00:28:50,700 SHE'S MAD THAT SHE'S LOSING HER JOB. 603 00:28:50,700 --> 00:28:53,867 IT AIN'T MY PROBLEM SHE DIDN'T DO HER [BLEEP] JOB. 604 00:28:53,867 --> 00:28:56,200 STEVEN ASSANTI. 605 00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:58,867 Steven: THANK YOU. 606 00:28:58,867 --> 00:28:59,867 [ DOOR HANDLE RATTLES ] 607 00:28:59,867 --> 00:29:02,633 WHO IS IT? -ME. 608 00:29:02,633 --> 00:29:04,733 I'M INSTRUCTED NOT TO LET YOU IN YET, 609 00:29:04,733 --> 00:29:07,133 UNTIL THE POLICE GET HERE. -TILL THE POLICE GET HERE? 610 00:29:07,133 --> 00:29:09,067 YEAH, PRINCESS IS TRYING TO GET IN THE HOUSE. 611 00:29:09,067 --> 00:29:10,533 WHAT DO I DO? 612 00:29:10,533 --> 00:29:11,933 WHAT?! 613 00:29:11,933 --> 00:29:14,733 THE TV IS NOT BEING TAKEN OUT UNTIL WE SEE THE PROOF. 614 00:29:14,733 --> 00:29:17,200 OKAY, WELL, NO PROBLEM. I'LL WAIT TILL THEY GET HERE. 615 00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:18,333 YOU WANT TO WAIT? 616 00:29:18,333 --> 00:29:20,200 OF COURSE, 'CAUSE THAT TV COMING WITH ME. 617 00:29:20,200 --> 00:29:23,233 THE TV AIN'T GOING NOWHERE. IT WAS A GIFT. 618 00:29:23,233 --> 00:29:25,700 -IT WAS A LOANER. -IT WAS A GIFT. 619 00:29:25,700 --> 00:29:27,100 Princess: I'M GONNA CALL ANOTHER CAREGIVER 620 00:29:27,100 --> 00:29:28,833 AND HAVE THEM DEAL WITH YOU. 621 00:29:28,833 --> 00:29:31,600 WE WANT TO SEE THE PROOF! THAT'S ALL, BABY DOLL! 622 00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:34,300 GROW UP -- YOU AND YOUR DAD. HOW ABOUT THAT? 623 00:29:34,300 --> 00:29:36,700 HONESTLY, I BELIEVE THAT STEVEN PITCHED A FIT 624 00:29:36,700 --> 00:29:39,733 ABOUT THE TELEVISION BECAUSE HE DON'T WANT TO SEE ME GO. 625 00:29:39,733 --> 00:29:42,867 AND HE HAVE EXPRESSED THAT IN TEXT MESSAGES AND E-MAILS. 626 00:29:42,867 --> 00:29:45,833 IT'S NOT OPEN. -I NEED MY FOOD-STAMP CARD, 627 00:29:45,833 --> 00:29:47,300 AND I WANT YOU GONE. 628 00:29:47,300 --> 00:29:48,633 YOU CAN TAKE YOUR [BLEEP] TV. 629 00:29:48,633 --> 00:29:50,800 IT AIN'T EVEN YOURS, ANYWAY. -IT SURE AIN'T. 630 00:29:50,800 --> 00:29:53,267 IT'S THE COMPANY'S, SO... 631 00:29:53,267 --> 00:29:55,367 [ DEAD BOLT CLICKS ] COME IN. 632 00:30:02,933 --> 00:30:05,167 -[ SIGHS ] -TAKE THE GIFT. 633 00:30:05,167 --> 00:30:06,567 Steven: HOW ABOUT YOU JUST DO WHAT I SAY 634 00:30:06,567 --> 00:30:08,533 AND GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HAIR? 635 00:30:08,533 --> 00:30:10,267 Princess: WELL, I THOUGHT YOU CALLED THE POLICE. 636 00:30:10,267 --> 00:30:11,600 I DID CALL THE POLICE. 637 00:30:11,600 --> 00:30:14,600 SO NOW I GOT TO STAY HERE ANYWAY 'CAUSE THEY'RE COMING. 638 00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:15,867 SO, ARE YOU GONNA PUT YOUR CLOTHES UP, 639 00:30:15,867 --> 00:30:17,267 OR YOU WANT ME TO? 640 00:30:18,433 --> 00:30:20,667 [ SIGHS ] HUH, ASSANTI? 641 00:30:20,667 --> 00:30:22,767 IF YOU'RE GONNA RELEASE ME, THEN I CAN GO, 642 00:30:22,767 --> 00:30:24,767 BUT IF YOU DON'T WANT ME TO HELP YOU OR ASSIST YOU 643 00:30:24,767 --> 00:30:26,567 OR NOTHING -- -I AM CALLING THE POLICE BACK! 644 00:30:26,567 --> 00:30:28,467 HOLD ON! 645 00:30:28,467 --> 00:30:30,133 HELLO. 646 00:30:30,133 --> 00:30:33,067 I'M TRYING TO CALL THE POLICE AND CANCEL MY CALL. 647 00:30:33,067 --> 00:30:35,167 YEAH, THEY TOOK BACK THE GIFT. I DON'T GIVE A [BLEEP] 648 00:30:37,100 --> 00:30:40,533 MY FEARS FOR STEVEN IS THAT HE'S NOT GONNA GET ANY BETTER. 649 00:30:40,533 --> 00:30:43,367 HE'S GONNA GET WORSE, ESPECIALLY WITH THE PILLS, 650 00:30:43,367 --> 00:30:45,567 'CAUSE HE'S NOT MANAGING 651 00:30:45,567 --> 00:30:47,200 HOW MUCH IS IN HIS SYSTEM AT ONE TIME. 652 00:30:47,200 --> 00:30:48,700 IT'S EASY FOR HIM TO O.D. 653 00:30:48,700 --> 00:30:50,367 THEN, I TELL HIM EVERY TIME I COME, 654 00:30:50,367 --> 00:30:53,067 "I DON'T WANT TO OPEN THE DOOR AND YOU'RE NOT RESPONSIVE. 655 00:30:53,067 --> 00:30:57,100 I DON'T WANT TO DO IT." SO, I REFUSE TO WATCH HIM DIE. 656 00:30:57,100 --> 00:30:59,300 LAST DAY, YOU WANT TO CALL THE POLICE? 657 00:30:59,300 --> 00:31:01,533 ALL RIGHT, WHAT A NICE WAY TO SAY GOODBYE, STEVEN. 658 00:31:01,533 --> 00:31:03,233 ALL RIGHT. BYE-BYE. 659 00:31:07,567 --> 00:31:09,933 Steven: I DON'T NEED HER, AND I'M GLAD I DON'T HAVE 660 00:31:09,933 --> 00:31:11,500 TO DEAL WITH HER CRAP ANYMORE. 661 00:31:16,233 --> 00:31:19,233 [ SIREN WAILING ] 662 00:31:19,233 --> 00:31:22,200 ** 663 00:31:29,667 --> 00:31:32,400 [ SOBBING ] 664 00:31:35,167 --> 00:31:38,333 MY LEGS HURT. CAN YOU DO SOMETHING FOR ME? 665 00:31:39,367 --> 00:31:40,833 I NEED SOMETHING. 666 00:31:42,833 --> 00:31:44,433 MY LEG, OKAY? 667 00:31:44,433 --> 00:31:45,667 Woman: YES, SIR. 668 00:31:45,667 --> 00:31:48,367 WE'RE TRYING TO GET ORDERS FROM DR. FLOWERS. 669 00:31:48,367 --> 00:31:51,100 JUST TAKE SLOW, DEEP BREATHS, OKAY? 670 00:31:51,100 --> 00:31:53,867 I SEE SOMETHING. 671 00:31:53,867 --> 00:31:55,067 I DON'T KNOW. 672 00:31:55,067 --> 00:31:57,900 -I SEE SOMETHING. -HE WANTS SOME DILAUDID. 673 00:32:02,067 --> 00:32:03,067 STEVEN... 674 00:32:03,067 --> 00:32:05,067 YOU'RE GONNA BE FINE. -CAN YOU HELP ME? 675 00:32:09,267 --> 00:32:11,233 [ SOBBING ] 676 00:32:11,233 --> 00:32:14,067 WE'LL HELP YOU. CAN YOU GIVE HIM -- 677 00:32:14,067 --> 00:32:17,333 JUST GIVE HIM A 30-MILLIGRAM TORADOL I.V. 678 00:32:17,333 --> 00:32:19,167 -OKAY. -OKAY? 679 00:32:19,167 --> 00:32:21,100 WE'RE GONNA GIVE YOU SOME PAIN SHOT, OKAY? 680 00:32:21,100 --> 00:32:23,067 -YEAH. -ALL RIGHT. JUST RELAX. 681 00:32:23,067 --> 00:32:25,800 JUST TAKE IT EASY. YOU'RE GONNA BE ALL RIGHT. 682 00:32:28,900 --> 00:32:33,800 AND HE HAS NOT CHANGED IN HIS PAIN-MEDICATION ADDICTION. 683 00:32:33,800 --> 00:32:35,967 HE LOOKS BIGGER NOW THAN EVER, 684 00:32:35,967 --> 00:32:39,267 AND HE'S EVEN PULLING HIS HAIR OUT AGAIN. 685 00:32:44,667 --> 00:32:46,700 BUT WE CAN'T IGNORE THE POSSIBILITY 686 00:32:46,700 --> 00:32:49,400 THAT HIS LEG ACTUALLY IS HURTING. 687 00:32:49,400 --> 00:32:52,167 HE CRIES WOLF SO MANY TIME, 688 00:32:52,167 --> 00:32:55,300 YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT'S REAL WITH STEVEN. 689 00:32:55,300 --> 00:32:57,267 SO, WE'LL HAVE TO FIND OUT 690 00:32:57,267 --> 00:33:01,267 IF STEVEN'S LIFE IS IN DANGER RIGHT NOW. 691 00:33:01,267 --> 00:33:02,900 HIS BODY CAN GO TO SHOCK, 692 00:33:02,900 --> 00:33:05,333 WHERE HE WON'T BE ABLE TO SURVIVE. 693 00:33:05,333 --> 00:33:07,400 SO, THIS IS A VERY DANGEROUS SITUATION. 694 00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:10,933 BUT WE'RE GOING TO TRY TO HELP AND DO AS WE CAN. 695 00:33:10,933 --> 00:33:14,067 HE JUST HAS TO COOPERATE BECAUSE IF HE DOESN'T, 696 00:33:14,067 --> 00:33:15,800 HE'S NOT GOING TO SURVIVE. 697 00:33:15,800 --> 00:33:17,200 ** 698 00:33:20,533 --> 00:33:23,500 ** 699 00:33:30,767 --> 00:33:34,767 Steven: I'M BACK IN THE HOSPITAL AGAIN UNDER DR. NOWZARADAN'S CARE. 700 00:33:34,767 --> 00:33:36,367 AND THEY'VE BEEN CHECKING ON MY LEG 701 00:33:36,367 --> 00:33:39,367 TO SEE WHAT'S CAUSING THE PAIN. 702 00:33:39,367 --> 00:33:41,600 AND NOW THAT THEY'VE FINISHED THEIR TESTS ON ME 703 00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:44,067 AND GOT MY PAIN UNDER CONTROL, 704 00:33:44,067 --> 00:33:46,233 DR. NOWZARADAN WANTS TO CHECK MY WEIGHT 705 00:33:46,233 --> 00:33:48,867 AND SEE WHERE IT'S AT. 706 00:33:48,867 --> 00:33:51,233 BUT I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS TO FIND OUT. 707 00:33:52,833 --> 00:33:53,800 Steven: HEY. 708 00:33:56,067 --> 00:33:58,533 ALL RIGHTY, I ZEROED IT. 709 00:34:04,700 --> 00:34:07,567 Steven: OH, NO. 710 00:34:07,567 --> 00:34:11,200 I GAINED OVER 100 POUNDS BACK. 711 00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:13,733 I'M UPSET. 712 00:34:16,067 --> 00:34:19,967 I DON'T THINK DR. NOWZARADAN'S GONNA BE HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 713 00:34:19,967 --> 00:34:23,567 HE'S COMING IN LATER TO TELL ME ABOUT MY TEST RESULTS, 714 00:34:23,567 --> 00:34:25,967 AND I'M REALLY SCARED TO FACE HIM RIGHT NOW. 715 00:34:29,867 --> 00:34:31,667 -HI, STEVEN. -HEY. 716 00:34:31,667 --> 00:34:34,067 -HOW ARE YOU TODAY? -HEY. 717 00:34:34,067 --> 00:34:38,100 YOUR TEST RESULTS ARE BACK, AND HERE'S THE SITUATION. 718 00:34:38,100 --> 00:34:40,867 SO, YOU HAVE A NEW BLOOD CLOT IN YOUR LEFT LEG. 719 00:34:40,867 --> 00:34:43,400 YOU HAD THE PROBLEM WITH RIGHT LEG. 720 00:34:43,400 --> 00:34:45,633 NOW YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH BOTH LEGS. 721 00:34:45,633 --> 00:34:48,200 YOU KNOW, FROM DAY ONE THAT YOU ARRIVED HERE, 722 00:34:48,200 --> 00:34:51,867 YOU HAVE GONE SO FAR BACKWARD 723 00:34:51,867 --> 00:34:55,167 THAT IT'S UNBELIEVABLE. 724 00:34:55,167 --> 00:34:57,467 YOU GAINED 100 POUNDS, 725 00:34:57,467 --> 00:35:00,300 AND YOU'RE DEALING STILL WITH THE DRUG ADDICTION. 726 00:35:00,300 --> 00:35:03,333 AND YOU'RE STILL DEALING WITH THE FOOD ADDICTION. 727 00:35:03,333 --> 00:35:05,967 HOW IN THE WORLD DID THAT HAPPEN? 728 00:35:05,967 --> 00:35:07,867 I DON'T KNOW. 729 00:35:07,867 --> 00:35:10,067 SINCE PRINCESS QUIT, 730 00:35:10,067 --> 00:35:12,433 I BELIEVE EVERYTHING WENT DOWNHILL. 731 00:35:12,433 --> 00:35:16,067 LOOK, STEVEN, YOU NEED TO HAVE 732 00:35:16,067 --> 00:35:19,067 SOME SENSE OF YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY 733 00:35:19,067 --> 00:35:22,133 AND STOP BLAMING EVERYONE AROUND YOU. 734 00:35:22,133 --> 00:35:24,700 WE ARE THE ONES HELPING YOU. 735 00:35:24,700 --> 00:35:27,067 AND RIGHT NOW WE HAVE TO INTERVENE AGAIN 736 00:35:27,067 --> 00:35:30,067 SO YOU WON'T KILL YOURSELF. 737 00:35:30,067 --> 00:35:32,800 Dr. STEVEN HAS COMPLETELY GONE OFF THE RAILS 738 00:35:32,800 --> 00:35:34,800 SINCE I SAW HIM LAST. 739 00:35:34,800 --> 00:35:36,467 HIS DETOX FAILED, 740 00:35:36,467 --> 00:35:38,967 SO WE'LL HAVE TO HELP HIM THROUGH WITHDRAWAL 741 00:35:38,967 --> 00:35:41,600 TO SAVE HIS LIFE AND ALSO PUT HIM 742 00:35:41,600 --> 00:35:43,667 ON A CONTROLLED DIET FOR THE NEXT MONTH 743 00:35:43,667 --> 00:35:46,367 SO WE CAN GET HIS WEIGHT DOWN. 744 00:35:46,367 --> 00:35:48,167 STEVEN, I'M GOING TO ALLOW YOU 745 00:35:48,167 --> 00:35:50,067 TO GET BACK IN THE PROGRAM AGAIN 746 00:35:50,067 --> 00:35:53,067 BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T START TO LOSE YOUR WEIGHT NOW, 747 00:35:53,067 --> 00:35:54,200 YOU'RE GOING TO DIE. 748 00:35:54,200 --> 00:35:56,200 AND RIGHT NOW IT'S A TOSS-UP 749 00:35:56,200 --> 00:36:00,467 BETWEEN YOUR PAIN MEDICATION KILLING YOU OR YOUR WEIGHT. 750 00:36:00,467 --> 00:36:02,667 SO, YOU WANT TO DO THIS OR NOT? 751 00:36:02,667 --> 00:36:05,567 -YEAH. -OKAY, THEN I EXPECT YOU 752 00:36:05,567 --> 00:36:07,800 TO BE ON YOUR BEST BEHAVIOR. 753 00:36:07,800 --> 00:36:09,533 ALL RIGHT. SEE YOU LATER. 754 00:36:09,533 --> 00:36:11,367 -OKAY. -MM-HMM. 755 00:36:14,133 --> 00:36:16,167 NOT ONLY DO WE HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO WITH STEVEN, 756 00:36:16,167 --> 00:36:19,267 BUT THERE'S A LONGER ROAD NOW BECAUSE HE'S WORSE SHAPE 757 00:36:19,267 --> 00:36:22,800 AND HE'S BIGGER NOW THAN WHEN HE ARRIVED. 758 00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:24,933 HE'S KNOCKING AT DEATH'S DOOR. 759 00:36:24,933 --> 00:36:27,833 SO, IF HE DECIDED HE DOESN'T WANT TO DO THIS, 760 00:36:27,833 --> 00:36:31,633 THEN HE CAN TAKE THE RISK AND QUIT THE PROGRAM FOR GOOD. 761 00:36:42,567 --> 00:36:44,567 Justin: I'M REALLY EXCITED TODAY 762 00:36:44,567 --> 00:36:47,367 BECAUSE WE ARE FINALLY OPENING UP MY HOBBY STORE. 763 00:36:49,367 --> 00:36:51,200 I'VE LOVED COLLECTIBLES AND MODELS 764 00:36:51,200 --> 00:36:53,800 AND FIGURE THIS IS SOMETHING I REALLY KNOW. 765 00:36:53,800 --> 00:36:57,400 SO, WHY DON'T I DO IT FOR A LIVING? 766 00:36:57,400 --> 00:37:00,867 THE NAME OF MY STORE IS HOBBY HAVEN. 767 00:37:00,867 --> 00:37:02,533 AND MY DAD AND TWO OF MY FRIENDS -- 768 00:37:02,533 --> 00:37:06,133 TONI AND BRIANNA -- ARE COMING TO HELP ME SET UP... 769 00:37:08,300 --> 00:37:11,067 SO WE CAN FINALLY OPEN OUR DOORS TO THE PUBLIC. 770 00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:15,267 I'M READY FOR THIS. 771 00:37:15,267 --> 00:37:20,067 ** 772 00:37:20,067 --> 00:37:23,600 Steven Sr.: THIS IS A BIG DEAL FOR JUSTIN. 773 00:37:23,600 --> 00:37:26,067 HE'S BEEN WORKING REALLY HARD TO DO THIS 774 00:37:26,067 --> 00:37:28,867 AND GET IT ALL SET UP. 775 00:37:28,867 --> 00:37:32,500 AND WITH STEVEN NO LONGER HERE TO BULLY JUSTIN ALL DAY LONG, 776 00:37:32,500 --> 00:37:34,200 HE'S LEAVING HIS ROOM MORE, 777 00:37:34,200 --> 00:37:36,267 AND HE'S MADE TOW GOOD FRIENDS ALREADY. 778 00:37:36,267 --> 00:37:38,833 AND IT'S AMAZING THAT HE FOUND PEOPLE LIKE THIS 779 00:37:38,833 --> 00:37:40,700 IN HIS LIFE SO QUICK. 780 00:37:40,700 --> 00:37:43,100 A LITTLE BIT OF SPRAY PAINT, AND YOU SHOULD BE ALL GOLDEN. 781 00:37:43,100 --> 00:37:46,867 AND TONI -- I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW ATTACHED SHE GOT TO MY SON, 782 00:37:46,867 --> 00:37:48,367 LIKE IT'S HER OWN SON. 783 00:37:48,367 --> 00:37:50,067 I LOVE HER FOR THAT. 784 00:37:50,067 --> 00:37:53,200 IT'S LIKE HE'S GOT A MOTHER TELLING HIM WHAT TO DO 785 00:37:53,200 --> 00:37:55,400 THAT HE NEVER HAD. 786 00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:57,100 EVERYTHING'S WORKING WELL SO FAR. 787 00:37:57,100 --> 00:37:58,800 BUT IT'S GONNA TAKE TIME. 788 00:37:58,800 --> 00:38:01,400 IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT'S GONNA HAPPEN OVERNIGHT, 789 00:38:01,400 --> 00:38:06,233 BUT I THINK THE STORE IS GONNA HELP HIM A LOT. 790 00:38:06,233 --> 00:38:08,400 I WANT IT TO BE SUCCESSFUL FOR HIM. 791 00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:09,533 I REALLY DO, HONEY. 792 00:38:09,533 --> 00:38:11,900 I BELIEVE IN JUSTIN. 793 00:38:11,900 --> 00:38:16,067 AND WITH STEVEN GONE, I'M SEEING HIM THRIVE. 794 00:38:16,067 --> 00:38:19,433 I JUST HOPE STEVEN STARTS TO TURN THINGS AROUND, TOO, 795 00:38:19,433 --> 00:38:21,767 AND THEN BOTH MY SONS WILL BE ON THE RIGHT PATH 796 00:38:21,767 --> 00:38:24,933 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THEIR LIVES. 797 00:38:24,933 --> 00:38:26,133 IT'S GONNA BE A STEPPING STONE. 798 00:38:26,133 --> 00:38:28,067 IT'S GONNA MAKE HIM GET THAT CONFIDENCE 799 00:38:28,067 --> 00:38:30,500 AND THAT ABILITY TO GET OUT THERE AND DO 800 00:38:30,500 --> 00:38:32,300 AND BE PART OF PRODUCTIVE SOCIETY. 801 00:38:32,300 --> 00:38:34,933 HE'S A GOOD PERSON. HE REALLY IS A GREAT PERSON. 802 00:38:34,933 --> 00:38:36,200 ** 803 00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:37,967 Justin: IT FEELS REALLY GOOD TO START A CAREER 804 00:38:37,967 --> 00:38:41,500 AND A BUSINESS LIKE THIS. 805 00:38:41,500 --> 00:38:43,500 AND ONCE I START TO TURN MY LIFE AROUND, 806 00:38:43,500 --> 00:38:45,467 I CAN MAKE MORE TIME TO FOCUS ON STUFF 807 00:38:45,467 --> 00:38:47,600 LIKE MY DIET AND LOSING WEIGHT. 808 00:38:47,600 --> 00:38:51,933 BUT RIGHT NOW I FEEL GOOD, SO I'M PRETTY CONFIDENT 809 00:38:51,933 --> 00:38:54,467 I'M DOING WELL AND ON THE RIGHT TRACK. 810 00:38:58,967 --> 00:39:02,067 ** 811 00:39:08,667 --> 00:39:11,500 Steven: I'VE BEEN BACK IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A MONTH NOW, 812 00:39:11,500 --> 00:39:14,467 AND DR. NOW SAYS I'M GOING HOME TODAY. 813 00:39:14,467 --> 00:39:16,500 SO, HE'S COMING TO CHECK MY WEIGHT, 814 00:39:16,500 --> 00:39:19,100 AND THEN I'M SUPPOSED TO LEAVE. 815 00:39:19,100 --> 00:39:21,633 BUT I DON'T KNOW WHY THEY'RE KICKING ME OUT AGAIN 816 00:39:21,633 --> 00:39:24,900 BECAUSE I BEHAVED A LOT BETTER THIS TIME 817 00:39:24,900 --> 00:39:26,733 AND I STAYED ON THE CONTROLLED DIET 818 00:39:26,733 --> 00:39:28,333 LIKE I'M SUPPOSED TO. 819 00:39:28,333 --> 00:39:31,767 SO I DON'T THINK THIS IS FAIR. 820 00:39:31,767 --> 00:39:35,067 BUT HE DID SAY I CAN GO BACK ON THE WEIGHT-LOSS PROGRAM, 821 00:39:35,067 --> 00:39:38,833 SO I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 822 00:39:38,833 --> 00:39:42,333 ALL RIGHT, STEVEN, LET'S SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING. 823 00:39:42,333 --> 00:39:44,067 OKAY. 824 00:39:44,067 --> 00:39:46,500 DO YOU HAVE A GOWN ON OR ANYTHING? 825 00:39:46,500 --> 00:39:49,133 IT'S NOT LIKE YOU NEVER SEEN IT BEFORE. 826 00:39:49,133 --> 00:39:52,533 DOESN'T MEAN THAT EVERYBODY ELSE NEEDS TO. 827 00:39:52,533 --> 00:39:54,667 OH, OKAY. 828 00:40:04,700 --> 00:40:06,933 Dr. Nowzaradan: THAT'S REALLY GOOD. 829 00:40:06,933 --> 00:40:09,533 THAT'S ABOUT AN 80-POUND WEIGHT LOSS. 830 00:40:09,533 --> 00:40:12,267 HEY. [ CHUCKLES ] 831 00:40:12,267 --> 00:40:13,500 Dr. Nowzaradan: OVER THE PAST MONTH, 832 00:40:13,500 --> 00:40:16,000 WE HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GET STEVEN'S WEIGHT 833 00:40:16,000 --> 00:40:18,533 GOING BACK IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 834 00:40:18,533 --> 00:40:21,667 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, HE'S WORSE OFF AND HEAVIER 835 00:40:21,667 --> 00:40:24,933 THAN WHEN HE LEFT THE HOSPITAL FIVE MONTHS AGO. 836 00:40:24,933 --> 00:40:27,233 YOUR LEG IS DOING A LITTLE BIT BETTER, 837 00:40:27,233 --> 00:40:30,467 AND WE GOT YOU OFF THE PAIN MEDICATION, TOO. 838 00:40:30,467 --> 00:40:32,433 SO, WE'RE GONNA GET YOU GOING HOME. 839 00:40:32,433 --> 00:40:34,667 -OKAY. -AND WE'RE GONNA SEE 840 00:40:34,667 --> 00:40:37,000 IF WE CAN GET YOU BACK ON TRACK AGAIN. 841 00:40:37,000 --> 00:40:38,033 -OKAY. -OKAY? 842 00:40:38,033 --> 00:40:40,233 BUT HERE'S THE SITUATION. 843 00:40:40,233 --> 00:40:42,400 YOU'RE GOING TO FINALLY START SEEING 844 00:40:42,400 --> 00:40:45,200 THE THERAPIST I HAVE SENT TO YOU A NUMBER OF TIMES 845 00:40:45,200 --> 00:40:47,200 AND YOU AVOIDED. 846 00:40:47,200 --> 00:40:49,233 IF YOU WANT BACK ON THE PROGRAM, 847 00:40:49,233 --> 00:40:51,267 YOU NEED TO COMPLY WITH EVERYTHING. 848 00:40:51,267 --> 00:40:53,800 SO, YOU SEE THE THERAPIST IN A FEW DAYS. 849 00:40:53,800 --> 00:40:56,067 -OKAY. -YOU START MEETING WITH HIM, 850 00:40:56,067 --> 00:40:59,067 AND THEN YOU'RE GOING TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS 851 00:40:59,067 --> 00:41:00,400 WITH YOUR WEIGHT. 852 00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:03,233 AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE AT LEAST 40 POUNDS A MONTH. 853 00:41:03,233 --> 00:41:05,233 -WELL, I HAVE A QUESTION. -YEAH? 854 00:41:05,233 --> 00:41:06,733 YOU DID SAY YOU'RE GONNA SEND ME HOME 855 00:41:06,733 --> 00:41:09,067 WITH SOME HYDROCODONE, THOUGH, RIGHT? 856 00:41:09,067 --> 00:41:12,167 RIGHT NOW, YOU DON'T HAVE ANY REASON TO BE ON IT. 857 00:41:12,167 --> 00:41:14,700 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO CONTROL YOUR EATING HABIT YOURSELF. 858 00:41:14,700 --> 00:41:17,100 I'M -- I'M -- I'M -- ACTUALLY, 859 00:41:17,100 --> 00:41:20,233 I'M DONE TALKING NOW. 860 00:41:20,233 --> 00:41:23,100 I JUST WANT TO GO HOME, OKAY? 861 00:41:23,100 --> 00:41:25,200 WELL, YOU'RE NOT DONE LISTENING, THOUGH. 862 00:41:25,200 --> 00:41:27,633 YOU MAYBE -- -NO. I DISAGREE WITH THE PART -- 863 00:41:27,633 --> 00:41:29,233 YOU KNOW, I HAVE NOTHING AT HOME FOR PAIN. 864 00:41:29,233 --> 00:41:30,833 YOU HAVE A DRUG ADDICTION. 865 00:41:30,833 --> 00:41:33,967 WHAT PART OF THAT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, STEVEN? 866 00:41:33,967 --> 00:41:36,767 -OKAY. I DO. -EVERY DAY YOU LIVE RIGHT NOW 867 00:41:36,767 --> 00:41:38,067 IS A MIRACLE. 868 00:41:38,067 --> 00:41:40,567 THE MIRACLE OF YOUR LIFE WILL STOP 869 00:41:40,567 --> 00:41:42,167 NEXT TIME YOU DO THIS 870 00:41:42,167 --> 00:41:45,333 OR THE TIME AFTER THAT OR SHORTLY AFTER THAT. 871 00:41:45,333 --> 00:41:47,100 YOU KNOW WHAT MY JOB IS? 872 00:41:47,100 --> 00:41:49,067 TO MAKE SURE IT IS NOT SOON. 873 00:41:49,067 --> 00:41:51,367 LISTEN TO ME, YOU WILL LIVE. 874 00:41:51,367 --> 00:41:53,267 DON'T, YOU WILL DIE. 875 00:41:53,267 --> 00:41:55,567 SO, I WANT TO SEE YOU IN ONE MONTH. 876 00:41:55,567 --> 00:41:58,367 STAY OFF OF THE PAIN MEDICINE AND SEE THE THERAPIST 877 00:41:58,367 --> 00:42:02,067 AND LOSE 40 POUNDS IN THAT TIME FRAME, OKAY? 878 00:42:02,067 --> 00:42:03,767 -OKAY. -OKAY. 879 00:42:03,767 --> 00:42:05,233 THANK YOU. 880 00:42:06,933 --> 00:42:09,433 STEVEN DOESN'T LIKE AUTHORITY. 881 00:42:09,433 --> 00:42:13,667 EVERYTHING EXISTS FOR HIS USE AND ABUSE RIGHT NOW. 882 00:42:13,667 --> 00:42:16,400 THE CORE ISSUE IS THE BEHAVIORAL PROBLEM 883 00:42:16,400 --> 00:42:20,633 THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS BEFORE ANY CHANGES ARE POSSIBLE, 884 00:42:20,633 --> 00:42:23,067 WHICH MEANS A PSYCHOTHERAPIST HAS TO WORK 885 00:42:23,067 --> 00:42:24,167 A LITTLE BIT WITH HIM 886 00:42:24,167 --> 00:42:27,933 BEFORE WE CAN EXPECT ANY REAL CHANGES. 887 00:42:27,933 --> 00:42:31,667 SO, IF HE FAILS TO SEE A THERAPIST AGAIN THIS TIME, 888 00:42:31,667 --> 00:42:34,100 THEN THIS IS ALL GOING TO PLAY OUT 889 00:42:34,100 --> 00:42:36,233 LIKE IT HAS IN THE PAST, 890 00:42:36,233 --> 00:42:38,700 AND WE'RE GONNA LOSE STEVEN FOR GOOD. 891 00:42:38,700 --> 00:42:41,667 ** 892 00:42:46,467 --> 00:42:50,567 Steven: ADDICTION'S TOUGH -- FOOD ADDICTION, DRUG ADDICTION. 893 00:42:50,567 --> 00:42:54,300 BUT I'M NOT LONGER ADDICTED. 894 00:42:54,300 --> 00:42:57,100 AND RIGHT NOW I'M ACTUALLY IN A LOT OF PAIN. 895 00:42:57,100 --> 00:43:00,467 AND DR. NOW WON'T EVEN LISTEN TO ME ABOUT IT. 896 00:43:00,467 --> 00:43:03,200 HE DOESN'T BELIEVE I'M IN AS MUCH PAIN AS I AM. 897 00:43:03,200 --> 00:43:04,700 Man: TAKE ONE MORE FOOT THIS WAY. 898 00:43:04,700 --> 00:43:06,333 AND THAT'S NOT A GOOD DOCTOR. 899 00:43:06,333 --> 00:43:08,333 TRY TO GO THAT WAY. 900 00:43:08,333 --> 00:43:09,700 OKAY. 901 00:43:09,700 --> 00:43:12,067 I JUST NEED HELP WITH MY LEG. 902 00:43:12,067 --> 00:43:13,767 HOW CAN I DO WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO 903 00:43:13,767 --> 00:43:16,133 IF I DON'T EVEN HAVE WHAT I NEED TO DO IT? 904 00:43:18,100 --> 00:43:21,967 I WANT TO GET BETTER AND SHOW EVERYONE I CAN DO THIS. 905 00:43:21,967 --> 00:43:24,667 BUT HE WANTS ME TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT ON MY OWN 906 00:43:24,667 --> 00:43:28,167 AND START SEEING A THERAPIST. 907 00:43:28,167 --> 00:43:33,067 AND THAT'S A LOT TO EXPECT FOR ME OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 908 00:43:33,067 --> 00:43:35,300 BUT I DON'T WANT TO BLOW THIS. 909 00:43:37,733 --> 00:43:40,500 SO I'LL FORCE MYSELF TO ENDURE IT 910 00:43:40,500 --> 00:43:43,100 IF THAT'S WHAT I'LL TAKE TO MAKE THE DOCTOR HAPPY. 911 00:43:43,100 --> 00:43:44,067 ** 912 00:43:47,967 --> 00:43:52,067 ** 913 00:43:56,267 --> 00:43:57,767 Steven: TODAY, I'M SEEING THE THERAPIST 914 00:43:57,767 --> 00:44:00,600 THAT DR. NOWZARADAN WANTED ME TO START SEEING. 915 00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:03,533 I'VE NOT REALLY BEEN INTERESTED IN TALKING TO ANYONE, 916 00:44:03,533 --> 00:44:06,333 AND I'VE BEEN AVOIDING IT. 917 00:44:06,333 --> 00:44:08,300 BUT I'M GIVING IT A CHANCE 918 00:44:08,300 --> 00:44:11,667 BECAUSE DR. NOW HAS GIVEN ME ANOTHER CHANCE, 919 00:44:11,667 --> 00:44:15,067 AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE HIS HELP. 920 00:44:15,067 --> 00:44:17,267 SO, I'M JUST CLEANING UP A LITTLE 921 00:44:17,267 --> 00:44:19,533 AND MAKING THIS PLACE SMELL A LITTLE BETTER 922 00:44:19,533 --> 00:44:21,533 SO WE CAN HAVE A NICE SESSION. 923 00:44:21,533 --> 00:44:24,200 BUT I DON'T THINK TALKING ABOUT THINGS 924 00:44:24,200 --> 00:44:26,700 IS GONNA SOLVE A WHOLE LOT. 925 00:44:26,700 --> 00:44:28,400 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 926 00:44:28,400 --> 00:44:31,200 COME IN. 927 00:44:31,200 --> 00:44:32,867 HI. ARE YOU STEVEN? YEAH. HOW ARE YOU? 928 00:44:32,867 --> 00:44:34,200 HI, STEVEN. I'M DR. PARADISE. 929 00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:36,500 NICE TO MEET YOU. 930 00:44:36,500 --> 00:44:37,767 THANKS. 931 00:44:37,767 --> 00:44:39,200 CAN I SIT OVER THERE? 932 00:44:39,200 --> 00:44:40,700 YEAH, OF COURSE. 933 00:44:40,700 --> 00:44:42,533 SO, TELL ME HOW YOU'RE DOING. 934 00:44:42,533 --> 00:44:43,733 I'M ALIVE, SO, UM... 935 00:44:43,733 --> 00:44:47,200 TELL ME WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT MY BEING HERE. 936 00:44:47,200 --> 00:44:52,100 ABOUT MY ADDICTION TO FOOD? 937 00:44:52,100 --> 00:44:54,200 SO, I'M HERE TO WORK WITH YOU ON YOUR ADDICTION TO FOOD? 938 00:44:54,200 --> 00:44:56,500 PROBABLY MY PIZZA. OKAY. 939 00:44:56,500 --> 00:45:00,300 SO, LET ME TAKE YOU BACK TO -- TO YOUR HISTORY A LITTLE BIT. 940 00:45:00,300 --> 00:45:02,333 MM-HMM. WHERE DID THIS START? 941 00:45:02,333 --> 00:45:04,567 FOR THE MOST PART, I WAS CHUBBY EVEN AS A KID. 942 00:45:04,567 --> 00:45:05,833 OKAY. 943 00:45:05,833 --> 00:45:08,233 YOU WERE STEADILY GAINING WEIGHT THE WHOLE TIME. 944 00:45:08,233 --> 00:45:11,800 YEAH, THEN THINGS TOOK A TURN FOR THE WORSE WHEN I HIT 30. 945 00:45:11,800 --> 00:45:14,100 I JUST KNEW THAT WHEN YOU TURN 30, 946 00:45:14,100 --> 00:45:17,300 THAT'S WHEN YOU START FEELING YOUR BODY BREAKING DOWN. 947 00:45:17,300 --> 00:45:19,433 YOU HAD PAIN ASSOCIATED WITH YOUR SIZE? 948 00:45:19,433 --> 00:45:20,567 YEAH, I DO. 949 00:45:20,567 --> 00:45:23,533 RIGHT NOW THERE'S A BLOOD CLOT IN THIS LEG, 950 00:45:23,533 --> 00:45:26,167 AND THERE'S A BLOOD CLOT IN THIS LEG. 951 00:45:26,167 --> 00:45:27,933 THEY BOTH LOOK VERY PAINFUL. 952 00:45:27,933 --> 00:45:29,167 IT IS. 953 00:45:29,167 --> 00:45:30,333 OKAY. YEAH. 954 00:45:30,333 --> 00:45:32,467 SO, THOSE GOT PAINFUL. YEAH. 955 00:45:32,467 --> 00:45:34,833 AND YOU GOT PRESCRIPTION MEDICINE FOR IT. 956 00:45:34,833 --> 00:45:35,933 YEAH. 957 00:45:35,933 --> 00:45:38,800 I WAS ADDICTED TO THE I.V. DILAUDID STUFF. 958 00:45:38,800 --> 00:45:42,100 I WAS TAKING SO MUCH, IT COULD KILL ANYONE, 959 00:45:42,100 --> 00:45:45,267 SO I WENT TO A DRUG-AND-ALCOHOL REHABILITATION CENTER. 960 00:45:45,267 --> 00:45:47,300 HOW DO THE DRUGS COMPARE TO THE FOOD? 961 00:45:47,300 --> 00:45:49,100 THEY'RE BOTH ABOUT SELF-CONTROL, RIGHT? 962 00:45:49,100 --> 00:45:55,433 YEAH, AND I WISH I CAN GRASP ONTO THE FOOD ADDICTION 963 00:45:55,433 --> 00:45:57,500 LIKE I DID THE DRUGS. 964 00:45:57,500 --> 00:46:01,067 YOU FEEL LIKE THE DRUGS ARE NOT AN ADDICTION NOW? 965 00:46:01,067 --> 00:46:02,167 NO, THEY'RE NOT. 966 00:46:02,167 --> 00:46:04,567 I CONQUERED THAT, AND I WANT TO TRY TO AVOID 967 00:46:04,567 --> 00:46:07,400 BEING IN THE HOSPITAL AS MUCH AS I CAN NOW. 968 00:46:07,400 --> 00:46:09,800 SO, WHAT'S THE BIGGEST BARRIER TO THAT? 969 00:46:09,800 --> 00:46:12,867 THERE REALLY ISN'T ANY BARRIER. 970 00:46:12,867 --> 00:46:15,067 I JUST WANT YOU TO REMEMBER THAT. I WANT YOU TO REALLY -- 971 00:46:15,067 --> 00:46:17,067 OH, OKAY. I COULD ALSO WRITE THAT DOWN. 972 00:46:17,067 --> 00:46:18,767 SO, YOU'RE KIND OF A SMOOTH TALKER. 973 00:46:19,800 --> 00:46:22,200 YES. 974 00:46:22,200 --> 00:46:25,133 YEAH, I WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT SMOOTH-TALKING YOURSELF. 975 00:46:25,133 --> 00:46:26,867 [ LAUGHS ] YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 976 00:46:26,867 --> 00:46:28,167 YEAH, I KNOW. 977 00:46:28,167 --> 00:46:30,667 LIKE, YOU SEEM TO BE ABLE TO CONVINCE PEOPLE OF STUFF. 978 00:46:30,667 --> 00:46:33,667 YOU THINK THAT HAS HELPED YOU OR HURT YOU? 979 00:46:33,667 --> 00:46:37,200 OH, IT'S HURT ME, I THINK, MORE. 980 00:46:37,200 --> 00:46:39,600 YOU'RE CONVINCING YOURSELF OF STUFF THAT'S NOT TRUE, RIGHT? 981 00:46:39,600 --> 00:46:40,667 YEAH. 982 00:46:40,667 --> 00:46:42,733 AND I THINK OUR JOB IS TO FIGURE OUT 983 00:46:42,733 --> 00:46:44,967 THE CONDITIONS UNDER WHICH YOU SUCCEED... 984 00:46:44,967 --> 00:46:46,067 MM-HMM. 985 00:46:46,067 --> 00:46:47,600 ...AND THEN ALSO IDENTIFY THOSE PLACES 986 00:46:47,600 --> 00:46:49,967 WHERE YOU SEEM TO FALL OFF THE WAGON, RIGHT? 987 00:46:49,967 --> 00:46:51,133 OH, YEAH, DEFINITELY. 988 00:46:51,133 --> 00:46:52,200 WHERE YOU GO WRONG. 989 00:46:52,200 --> 00:46:53,567 YEAH. 990 00:46:53,567 --> 00:46:55,467 AND IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT, I GUESS, FEELING BETTER, RIGHT? 991 00:46:55,467 --> 00:46:57,633 IT'S A VERSION OF THAT -- THE FOOD? 992 00:46:57,633 --> 00:46:59,667 WHEN YOU LOST THE WEIGHT IN THE HOSPITAL, HOW DID THAT FEEL? 993 00:46:59,667 --> 00:47:00,733 REALLY GOOD. 994 00:47:00,733 --> 00:47:02,067 I FELT LIKE I WAS WALKING ON CLOUDS. 995 00:47:02,067 --> 00:47:04,233 I FELT LIGHTER. YOU WERE LIGHTER. 996 00:47:04,233 --> 00:47:05,467 I WAS LIGHTER. 997 00:47:05,467 --> 00:47:08,567 SO, TELL ME WHAT YOUR NEXT POTHOLE'S GONNA BE. 998 00:47:08,567 --> 00:47:12,233 WHAT'S THE NEXT THING THAT'S GONNA TRIP YOU UP? 999 00:47:12,233 --> 00:47:13,733 HOPEFULLY NOTHING. 1000 00:47:13,733 --> 00:47:16,100 OKAY, NOW, THAT'S THE SWEET TALKER. 1001 00:47:16,100 --> 00:47:18,400 YOU'RE EVEN SMILING, RIGHT? BUT BE STRAIGHT UP. 1002 00:47:18,400 --> 00:47:23,067 OBVIOUSLY, I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO EVENTUALLY SAY NO, 1003 00:47:23,067 --> 00:47:26,067 LIKE I CONQUERED THE DRUG ADDICTION, 1004 00:47:26,067 --> 00:47:27,733 JUST GAIN CONTROL. 1005 00:47:27,733 --> 00:47:29,100 RIGHT, AND YOU'VE HAD SUCCESS -- 1006 00:47:29,100 --> 00:47:31,233 BUT WITH THE PIZZA, I JUST -- YEAH, I HAVE HAD SUCCESS, 1007 00:47:31,233 --> 00:47:33,500 AND THAT'S WHAT I HAVE TO KEEP THINKING ABOUT. 1008 00:47:33,500 --> 00:47:34,733 LIKE, I HAVE DONE IT. 1009 00:47:34,733 --> 00:47:36,733 WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO BEFORE NEXT TIME... 1010 00:47:36,733 --> 00:47:38,133 MM-HMM. 1011 00:47:38,133 --> 00:47:40,233 ...IS TO REMEMBER THOSE TIMES WHEN YOU'VE HAD A SUCCESS. 1012 00:47:40,233 --> 00:47:41,500 YEAH. 1013 00:47:41,500 --> 00:47:44,567 AND I WANT YOU TO BE REALLY AWARE OF THOSE POTHOLES. 1014 00:47:44,567 --> 00:47:47,400 SO, SOMETIMES WHAT HAPPENS IS PEOPLE ARE WALKING INTO POTHOLES 1015 00:47:47,400 --> 00:47:48,767 AND THEY DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT. 1016 00:47:48,767 --> 00:47:49,967 MM-HMM. 1017 00:47:49,967 --> 00:47:51,233 AND THEN THE NEXT TIME, THEY WALK UP TO IT, 1018 00:47:51,233 --> 00:47:52,533 THEY SEE IT, AND THEY STILL FALL IN. 1019 00:47:52,533 --> 00:47:53,700 YEAH. 1020 00:47:53,700 --> 00:47:55,233 AND THEN THE NEXT TIME, THEY WALK UP TO IT 1021 00:47:55,233 --> 00:47:58,700 AND THEY SEE IT AND THEN THEY WALK AROUND IT. 1022 00:47:59,667 --> 00:48:01,700 SO, WE'VE GOT TO IDENTIFY YOUR POTHOLES... 1023 00:48:01,700 --> 00:48:03,100 YEAH. 1024 00:48:03,100 --> 00:48:05,467 ...AND IDENTIFY THOSE CONDITIONS WHERE YOU CAN BE A SUCCESS. 1025 00:48:05,467 --> 00:48:06,733 AND YOU'VE DONE IT, 1026 00:48:06,733 --> 00:48:08,067 AND I THINK YOU CAN DO IT OUTSIDE OF A HOSPITAL. 1027 00:48:08,067 --> 00:48:09,133 YEAH, TOTALLY. 1028 00:48:09,133 --> 00:48:10,600 IT WAS GOOD TO MEET YOU. 1029 00:48:10,600 --> 00:48:12,500 YOU, TOO. THANK YOU, DR. PARADISE. 1030 00:48:12,500 --> 00:48:13,667 THANKS. THANK YOU. 1031 00:48:13,667 --> 00:48:16,633 ** 1032 00:48:16,633 --> 00:48:20,067 Dr. Paradise: STEVEN TALKED A LOT ABOUT OVERCOMING HIS DRUG ADDICTION. 1033 00:48:20,067 --> 00:48:21,300 AND AT THIS POINT, 1034 00:48:21,300 --> 00:48:23,833 I DIDN'T CONFRONT HIM ABOUT THE ONGOING PAINKILLER USE 1035 00:48:23,833 --> 00:48:26,467 'CAUSE I WAS MOSTLY INVESTED IN ESTABLISHING TRUST 1036 00:48:26,467 --> 00:48:27,800 AND RAPPORT WITH HIM. 1037 00:48:27,800 --> 00:48:29,800 AND THAT CONFRONTATION COMES OVER TIME, 1038 00:48:29,800 --> 00:48:31,333 ESPECIALLY WITH SOMEBODY LIKE STEVEN. 1039 00:48:31,333 --> 00:48:35,167 ** 1040 00:48:39,867 --> 00:48:42,867 Steven: I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING GOOD OVER THE LAST WEEK. 1041 00:48:42,867 --> 00:48:44,133 I'M STICKING TO THE DIET, 1042 00:48:44,133 --> 00:48:46,500 AND I HAVEN'T GONE TO THE HOSPITAL FOR PAIN MEDS. 1043 00:48:46,500 --> 00:48:49,467 I HAVE FOUND A FEW AROUND HERE AND TOOK THEM, 1044 00:48:49,467 --> 00:48:51,267 BUT IT'S BEEN MINIMAL. 1045 00:48:51,267 --> 00:48:53,800 SO, I'M DOING GOOD. 1046 00:48:53,800 --> 00:48:55,833 AND I'M REALLY EXCITED RIGHT NOW 1047 00:48:55,833 --> 00:48:58,300 BECAUSE MY DAD FLEW INTO TOWN TODAY, 1048 00:48:58,300 --> 00:48:59,900 AND HE'S COMING TO SEE ME 1049 00:48:59,900 --> 00:49:02,400 AND HELP FIND ME A NEW PLACE TO LIVE 1050 00:49:02,400 --> 00:49:05,533 BECAUSE THIS ONE HAS JUST BECOME TOO EXPENSIVE TO STAY IN. 1051 00:49:05,533 --> 00:49:06,567 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1052 00:49:06,567 --> 00:49:08,167 Steven: HEY. 1053 00:49:08,167 --> 00:49:11,100 ** 1054 00:49:11,100 --> 00:49:13,333 Steven Sr.: OH, MY GOD! 1055 00:49:13,333 --> 00:49:15,833 Steven: WHAT? THIS PLACE IS DISGUSTING. 1056 00:49:15,833 --> 00:49:18,167 IT SMELLS LIKE CAT PISS. 1057 00:49:18,167 --> 00:49:21,333 THIS [BLEEP] HOUSE STINKS WICKED [BLEEP] BAD. 1058 00:49:21,333 --> 00:49:23,467 WHAT HAPPENED TO THIS FLOOR? 1059 00:49:23,467 --> 00:49:26,167 THIS [BLEEP] KITCHEN FLOOR IS FILTHY. 1060 00:49:26,167 --> 00:49:27,433 I DON'T KNOW. 1061 00:49:27,433 --> 00:49:30,367 WHEN I WALKED INTO STEVEN'S APARTMENT, 1062 00:49:30,367 --> 00:49:31,900 I EXPECT IT TO LOOK CLEAN, 1063 00:49:31,900 --> 00:49:36,433 BUT I DIDN'T HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WAS WALKING INTO HERE. 1064 00:49:36,433 --> 00:49:38,167 I WANT TO KILL HIM. 1065 00:49:38,167 --> 00:49:42,200 BETWEEN PAYING FOR HIS PLACE AND JUSTIN'S STORE, I'M GOING BROKE. 1066 00:49:42,200 --> 00:49:45,367 I AIN'T GONNA GET SUED FOR THIS [BLEEP] APARTMENT, TOO, 1067 00:49:45,367 --> 00:49:48,367 ON TOP OF IT, BEING SO [BLEEP] DIRTY. 1068 00:49:48,367 --> 00:49:49,700 [ COUGHS ] 1069 00:49:49,700 --> 00:49:51,433 [ CAT MEOWS ] IT'S OKAY. 1070 00:49:51,433 --> 00:49:53,533 I MEAN, WHAT'S IT TAKE TO MOP A [BLEEP] FLOOR? 1071 00:49:53,533 --> 00:49:54,767 TWO MINUTES? 1072 00:49:54,767 --> 00:49:56,433 I ALMOST LOST MY HOUSE 1073 00:49:56,433 --> 00:49:59,400 BECAUSE OF ALL THE [BLEEP] MONEY I'VE BEEN DISHING OUT 1074 00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:01,367 TO TRY TO KEEP THIS [BLEEP] IN -- 1075 00:50:01,367 --> 00:50:03,100 KEEP YOU IN THIS [BLEEP] APARTMENT. 1076 00:50:03,100 --> 00:50:06,367 Steven: MY DAD IS JUST VERY UPSET 1077 00:50:06,367 --> 00:50:09,200 AND FRUSTRATED AND SCARED. 1078 00:50:09,200 --> 00:50:12,533 BUT I KNOW HE LOVES ME. 1079 00:50:12,533 --> 00:50:15,033 AND I LOVE HIM, TOO. 1080 00:50:15,033 --> 00:50:16,933 I DIDN'T MEAN TO GET UPSET LIKE THAT. 1081 00:50:16,933 --> 00:50:18,067 Steven: ALL RIGHT. 1082 00:50:18,067 --> 00:50:20,433 ALL RIGHT? I'M GONNA TRY TO GET YOU AN APARTMENT. 1083 00:50:20,433 --> 00:50:21,433 OKAY. 1084 00:50:21,433 --> 00:50:22,700 IF I SEEN YOU DO THE RIGHT THING, 1085 00:50:22,700 --> 00:50:24,500 I WOULDN'T EVEN BE FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. 1086 00:50:24,500 --> 00:50:27,100 YEAH. 1087 00:50:27,100 --> 00:50:30,367 WHEN I CAME HERE TONIGHT, I THOUGHT I WOULD SEE YOU 1088 00:50:30,367 --> 00:50:32,867 A LITTLE THINNER THAN WHAT YOU WERE. 1089 00:50:32,867 --> 00:50:34,033 YEAH. 1090 00:50:34,033 --> 00:50:35,933 BUT YOU'RE STILL THE SAME. 1091 00:50:35,933 --> 00:50:37,733 YEP. 1092 00:50:37,733 --> 00:50:40,233 AND IF YOU KEEP PROLONGING THIS AND PROLONGING THIS, 1093 00:50:40,233 --> 00:50:42,367 YOU AIN'T GONNA BE HERE MUCH LONGER. 1094 00:50:42,367 --> 00:50:43,467 I KNOW IT. 1095 00:50:43,467 --> 00:50:47,067 AND THAT'S ANOTHER THING I GOT ON MY MIND. 1096 00:50:47,067 --> 00:50:49,667 HOW MUCH LONGER DO YOU GOT? 1097 00:50:50,700 --> 00:50:53,000 AND YOU LOOK HIGH. 1098 00:50:53,000 --> 00:50:54,533 ** 1099 00:50:54,533 --> 00:50:57,233 BUT I'M NOT ASKING ANY QUESTIONS RIGHT NOW 1100 00:50:57,233 --> 00:50:59,400 BECAUSE I CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH. 1101 00:50:59,400 --> 00:51:01,933 DO YOU EVER LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR? 1102 00:51:01,933 --> 00:51:03,067 BE HONEST. 1103 00:51:03,067 --> 00:51:05,567 ** 1104 00:51:05,567 --> 00:51:06,700 YEAH. 1105 00:51:06,700 --> 00:51:09,500 WHAT'S IT LOOK LIKE? 1106 00:51:09,500 --> 00:51:11,867 SHOULD YOU LOOK LIKE THAT? 1107 00:51:11,867 --> 00:51:13,533 NO, I -- NO. NO. NO. 1108 00:51:13,533 --> 00:51:15,267 NO. YOU SEE THIS? 1109 00:51:15,267 --> 00:51:16,500 SEE ALL THIS? 1110 00:51:16,500 --> 00:51:17,867 YEAH. 1111 00:51:17,867 --> 00:51:21,933 CAN YOU IMAGINE ALL THIS GONE AND IT'S ALL AS BIG AS THIS NOW? 1112 00:51:21,933 --> 00:51:23,100 NO. 1113 00:51:23,100 --> 00:51:24,867 COULD YOU IMAGINE IT? 1114 00:51:24,867 --> 00:51:27,467 NO. IT WOULD BE NICE, THOUGH. 1115 00:51:28,900 --> 00:51:30,633 IT WOULD BE, WOULDN'T IT? 1116 00:51:30,633 --> 00:51:33,700 Steven Sr.: STEVEN'S CHANCES HAVE JUST ABOUT RUN OUT 1117 00:51:33,700 --> 00:51:34,933 WITH EVERYONE ELSE, 1118 00:51:34,933 --> 00:51:37,500 AND THEY'RE ABOUT TO RUN OUT WITH ME, TOO, NOW 1119 00:51:37,500 --> 00:51:40,233 BECAUSE I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE OF THIS BULL[BLEEP] 1120 00:51:40,233 --> 00:51:43,100 AND THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO. 1121 00:51:43,100 --> 00:51:49,667 IF HE FAILS, I KNOW I DID MY PART, BUT HE DIDN'T DO HIS. 1122 00:51:49,667 --> 00:51:52,267 WELL, I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY. 1123 00:51:52,267 --> 00:51:55,700 I'M JUST HOPING I CAN FIND YOU A PLACE BY FRIGGIN' THURSDAY. 1124 00:51:57,933 --> 00:52:00,200 WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY? 1125 00:52:02,333 --> 00:52:05,167 IF I DON'T, I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL'S GONNA HAPPEN. 1126 00:52:05,167 --> 00:52:06,733 I REALLY DON'T. 1127 00:52:06,733 --> 00:52:09,333 I'LL BE BACK TOMORROW MORNING. 1128 00:52:09,333 --> 00:52:10,500 GOODBYE. 1129 00:52:10,500 --> 00:52:14,533 BYE-BYE. 1130 00:52:15,900 --> 00:52:18,933 ** 1131 00:52:23,367 --> 00:52:26,400 Steven Sr.: TODAY IS A VERY BUSY DAY FOR STEVEN AND ME. 1132 00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:28,067 WE ARE LOOKING AT APARTMENTS, 1133 00:52:28,067 --> 00:52:30,333 AND THEN HE HAS HIS THERAPY APPOINTMENT. 1134 00:52:33,133 --> 00:52:35,167 SO IT'S A LOT IN ONE DAY FOR HIM, 1135 00:52:35,167 --> 00:52:38,100 AND I CAN TELL HE'D RATHER BE AT HOME DOING NOTHING. 1136 00:52:39,167 --> 00:52:42,467 BUT HE HAS TO DO THIS SO HE CAN GET OVER IT. 1137 00:52:42,467 --> 00:52:43,967 ** 1138 00:52:45,067 --> 00:52:47,333 HERE'S MY SON. THAT'S THE PROPERTY MANAGER. 1139 00:52:47,333 --> 00:52:48,967 Steven: HI. HOW DO YOU DO, MY FRIEND? 1140 00:52:48,967 --> 00:52:50,533 GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? GOOD, GOOD. 1141 00:52:50,533 --> 00:52:52,300 WANT ME TO TRY AND PULL THE GOLF CART OVER HERE? 1142 00:52:52,300 --> 00:52:54,067 YEAH, I THINK YOU'RE BETTER OFF BACKING IT IN. 1143 00:52:54,067 --> 00:52:55,667 [ BEEPING ] 1144 00:52:55,667 --> 00:52:57,067 RIGHT HERE. 1145 00:52:57,067 --> 00:52:58,500 ** 1146 00:52:58,500 --> 00:53:00,067 YOU GUYS NEED A HAND? 1147 00:53:00,067 --> 00:53:03,367 Steven: I'M HAVING A HARD TIME MOVING AROUND AND DOING THIS, 1148 00:53:03,367 --> 00:53:06,067 SO I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL. 1149 00:53:06,067 --> 00:53:08,767 BUT I REALLY DON'T THINK THIS IS A GOOD IDEA. 1150 00:53:08,767 --> 00:53:10,433 ALL RIGHT, JUST HOLD ON. 1151 00:53:10,433 --> 00:53:12,067 ALL RIGHT. READY? 1152 00:53:12,067 --> 00:53:13,400 LET'S GO PLAY GOLF. 1153 00:53:13,400 --> 00:53:14,833 ALL RIGHT, LET'S DO THIS. 1154 00:53:14,833 --> 00:53:16,067 OH, MY GOD. 1155 00:53:16,067 --> 00:53:18,600 ALL RIGHT, IT'S GONNA BE A LITTLE -- LITTLE BUMPY. 1156 00:53:18,600 --> 00:53:21,200 AH, AH! OH, MY GOD. 1157 00:53:21,200 --> 00:53:22,467 OH, MY GOD. OH, MY GOD. 1158 00:53:22,467 --> 00:53:24,067 OH, MY GOD. YOU SHOULD BE OKAY. 1159 00:53:24,067 --> 00:53:25,067 OKAY. 1160 00:53:25,067 --> 00:53:26,233 ALL RIGHT, I'M GONNA GO UP 1161 00:53:26,233 --> 00:53:27,733 A LITTLE BIT OF A -- OF A CURB HERE. 1162 00:53:27,733 --> 00:53:29,900 I DON'T WANT YOU TO GET HURT. 1163 00:53:29,900 --> 00:53:31,800 OH! OH! WHOA, WHOA, WHOA. HOLD IT. 1164 00:53:31,800 --> 00:53:33,300 AHH! OHH! 1165 00:53:33,300 --> 00:53:35,367 YOU ALL RIGHT? 1166 00:53:35,367 --> 00:53:37,633 NO! OH, GOD! 1167 00:53:37,633 --> 00:53:39,100 [ GASPS ] NO! 1168 00:53:39,100 --> 00:53:41,233 OH, MAN. COME ON. 1169 00:53:41,233 --> 00:53:42,800 NO! GO! NO! 1170 00:53:42,800 --> 00:53:44,400 NO, I CAN'T. 1171 00:53:44,400 --> 00:53:45,767 YOU CAN GET UP. COME ON. 1172 00:53:45,767 --> 00:53:46,900 OHH, MY WHOLE BODY! 1173 00:53:46,900 --> 00:53:49,267 I CAN'T! NO! ARE YOU OKAY? 1174 00:53:49,267 --> 00:53:50,900 NO! 1175 00:53:53,067 --> 00:53:56,733 [ SOBS ] 1176 00:53:56,733 --> 00:53:58,100 YOU NEED A -- AMBULANCE. 1177 00:53:58,100 --> 00:53:59,400 YOU NEED AN AMBULANCE? 1178 00:53:59,400 --> 00:54:01,167 OH, GOD, YEAH. 1179 00:54:01,167 --> 00:54:03,167 OH, GOD. OHH. 1180 00:54:03,167 --> 00:54:05,567 Steven Sr.: I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. 1181 00:54:05,567 --> 00:54:07,967 I DON'T THINK HE FELL FOR REAL... 1182 00:54:07,967 --> 00:54:09,133 OH, GOD. 1183 00:54:09,133 --> 00:54:10,733 ...BUT I DON'T KNOW 1184 00:54:10,733 --> 00:54:14,067 BECAUSE STEVEN HAS DONE THIS SO MANY TIMES. 1185 00:54:14,067 --> 00:54:16,433 I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW. 1186 00:54:16,433 --> 00:54:17,867 OH, I CAN'T! 1187 00:54:17,867 --> 00:54:21,300 IF HE'S HURT AND I IGNORE IT, HE CAN END UP WITH AN EMERGENCY. 1188 00:54:21,300 --> 00:54:22,833 BUT IF HE'S FAKING, 1189 00:54:22,833 --> 00:54:26,200 THEN HE'LL GET MORE PAIN MEDS LIKE HE WANTS. 1190 00:54:26,200 --> 00:54:29,800 AND I FEEL LIKE EITHER CHOICE IS THE WRONG ONE RIGHT NOW. 1191 00:54:29,800 --> 00:54:30,967 OH, I GOT TO GO. 1192 00:54:30,967 --> 00:54:33,300 I GOT TO GO. IT HURTS. 1193 00:54:33,300 --> 00:54:34,567 OH, MY GOD. OH, GOD. 1194 00:54:39,067 --> 00:54:42,667 ** 1195 00:54:50,067 --> 00:54:52,200 Steven: OH, GOD! 1196 00:54:52,200 --> 00:54:55,300 [ GROANS ] OHH, I CAN'T. 1197 00:54:55,300 --> 00:54:56,833 IT HURTS. Steven Sr.: WHAT HURTS? 1198 00:54:56,833 --> 00:54:58,800 EVERYTHING. 1199 00:54:58,800 --> 00:55:01,600 MY BACK AND STUFF. DID THEY CALL? 1200 00:55:01,600 --> 00:55:03,833 YEAH. THEY'RE HERE NOW. THEY'RE HERE. THEY'RE HERE NOW. 1201 00:55:03,833 --> 00:55:05,200 OHH! 1202 00:55:05,200 --> 00:55:07,533 I GOT TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL. 1203 00:55:07,533 --> 00:55:09,900 MY WHOLE [BLEEP] BODY HURTS. 1204 00:55:09,900 --> 00:55:11,667 MY BACK AND MY LEGS. 1205 00:55:11,667 --> 00:55:14,733 YEAH. MORE MY BACK. 1206 00:55:14,733 --> 00:55:16,200 ** 1207 00:55:16,200 --> 00:55:18,067 Steven Sr.: YOU THINK THAT YOU COULD WALK OVER THERE? 1208 00:55:18,067 --> 00:55:19,867 YOU [BLEEP] KIDDING ME?! 1209 00:55:19,867 --> 00:55:21,867 WHY YOU YELLING? 1210 00:55:21,867 --> 00:55:23,733 'CAUSE I HIT THE [BLEEP] GROUND HARD, 1211 00:55:23,733 --> 00:55:25,500 AND YOU WANT ME TO MAKE A MIRACLE?! 1212 00:55:25,500 --> 00:55:27,267 ** 1213 00:55:27,267 --> 00:55:29,600 I NEED TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL. 1214 00:55:29,600 --> 00:55:31,833 Steven Sr.: I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. 1215 00:55:31,833 --> 00:55:34,200 I THINK STEVEN'S UP TO HIS OLD GAMES 1216 00:55:34,200 --> 00:55:36,067 AND THIS IS ALL JUST AN ACT. 1217 00:55:36,067 --> 00:55:38,367 HIS LEG EXCUSE DOES NOT WORK ANYMORE, 1218 00:55:38,367 --> 00:55:40,500 SO HE HAS TO COME UP WITH SOMETHING NEW. 1219 00:55:40,500 --> 00:55:43,067 AND I HAVE TO PUT AN END TO IT. 1220 00:55:43,067 --> 00:55:45,867 STEVEN, YOU'RE TOO BIG TO LIFT, 1221 00:55:45,867 --> 00:55:48,333 AND THEY CAN'T GET THE AMBULANCE OVER HERE. 1222 00:55:48,333 --> 00:55:49,733 I'M GONNA TELL YOU RIGHT NOW -- 1223 00:55:49,733 --> 00:55:52,767 WHAT I COULD DO IS PULL THE VAN UP OVER HERE. 1224 00:55:52,767 --> 00:55:54,333 Steven: YEAH, YEAH. 1225 00:55:54,333 --> 00:55:56,267 LET ME SEE. OH, GOD. 1226 00:55:56,267 --> 00:55:58,667 YEAH, NO PROBLEM. I'LL GET HIM INTO THE VAN. 1227 00:55:58,667 --> 00:56:00,767 YOUS GUYS HELP ME GET HIM UP. 1228 00:56:00,767 --> 00:56:03,833 THEN YOUS CAN GO. HE'LL BE OKAY. 1229 00:56:03,833 --> 00:56:07,300 ** 1230 00:56:09,267 --> 00:56:10,800 LET ME GET BEHIND HIM. 1231 00:56:12,233 --> 00:56:13,900 I DON'T KNOW, BUT... 1232 00:56:13,900 --> 00:56:14,900 OKAY. READY? 1233 00:56:14,900 --> 00:56:16,400 YEAH. GO. 1234 00:56:16,400 --> 00:56:18,300 COME ON. LIFT. 1235 00:56:19,733 --> 00:56:22,267 ALMOST THERE. 1236 00:56:23,800 --> 00:56:27,133 YEAH, ONCE HE'S STANDING UP, HE'S FINE. 1237 00:56:28,567 --> 00:56:32,800 ** 1238 00:56:37,800 --> 00:56:39,667 ARE WE READY? 1239 00:56:39,667 --> 00:56:43,500 ** 1240 00:56:43,500 --> 00:56:44,567 IT'LL GO AWAY. THE PAIN GOES AWAY. 1241 00:56:44,567 --> 00:56:46,633 SHUT THE [BLEEP] UP. 1242 00:56:46,633 --> 00:56:48,433 'CAUSE IF YOU WAS HURTING REAL BAD -- I'M GONNA EXPLAIN SOMETHING TO YOU... 1243 00:56:48,433 --> 00:56:50,133 YOU'RE A [BLEEP] 1244 00:56:50,133 --> 00:56:51,767 ...YOU WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO GET UP OFF THAT GROUND, AND YOU DID. 1245 00:56:51,767 --> 00:56:53,667 WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO -- STAY THERE? 1246 00:56:53,667 --> 00:56:55,433 ALL RIGHT, WHATEVER. THINGS HAPPEN. 1247 00:56:55,433 --> 00:56:59,600 DID I KNOW I WAS GONNA SLIP OFF THE [BLEEP] GOLF CART? NO. 1248 00:56:59,600 --> 00:57:02,233 DID I HAVE A FEELING? YES. 1249 00:57:02,233 --> 00:57:03,467 YOU LISTEN TO ME. 1250 00:57:03,467 --> 00:57:05,667 YOU'RE NOT MISSING YOUR THERAPIST APPOINTMENT. 1251 00:57:05,667 --> 00:57:07,400 I ALREADY CALLED HIM AND TOLD HIM 1252 00:57:07,400 --> 00:57:08,967 THAT WE WOULD BE THERE IN 10 MINUTES 1253 00:57:08,967 --> 00:57:10,700 AND HE NEEDS TO COME OUTSIDE AND GET YOU. 1254 00:57:10,700 --> 00:57:12,833 IF YOU STILL THINK YOU NEED A HOSPITAL AFTER THAT, 1255 00:57:12,833 --> 00:57:13,833 I'LL TAKE YOU. 1256 00:57:13,833 --> 00:57:15,500 I'M NOT TALKING TO DR. PARADISE. 1257 00:57:15,500 --> 00:57:17,833 WELL, IF YOU DON'T, YOU REALLY AIN'T GOING. 1258 00:57:17,833 --> 00:57:19,733 I'LL TAKE YOUR [BLEEP] RIGHT HOME. 1259 00:57:19,733 --> 00:57:21,233 THEN I'LL GO MY WAY. 1260 00:57:21,233 --> 00:57:23,267 YOU'RE FINE RIGHT NOW. DON'T PLAY GAMES. 1261 00:57:23,267 --> 00:57:24,833 YOU'RE NOT IN PAIN RIGHT NOW. 1262 00:57:24,833 --> 00:57:25,933 NO, I'M NOT! 1263 00:57:25,933 --> 00:57:28,300 NO, YOU'RE RIGHT! I'M NOT! 1264 00:57:28,300 --> 00:57:30,567 I'M NOT TALKING TO NOBODY. 1265 00:57:30,567 --> 00:57:31,967 YOU'RE NOT GONNA GET TO AVOID HIM. 1266 00:57:31,967 --> 00:57:32,967 YOU HEAR ME? 1267 00:57:32,967 --> 00:57:36,367 ** 1268 00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:40,633 IS THAT HIM? YEP. 1269 00:57:40,633 --> 00:57:42,667 STEVEN. Steven: HI. 1270 00:57:42,667 --> 00:57:44,167 HOW YOU DOING, MAN? 1271 00:57:44,167 --> 00:57:45,367 CRAPPY NOW. 1272 00:57:45,367 --> 00:57:47,600 WHY ARE YOU CRAPPY? I SLIPPED OFF THE GOLF CART 1273 00:57:47,600 --> 00:57:49,267 AND I HIT THE GROUND REALLY HARD. 1274 00:57:49,267 --> 00:57:50,533 I'M SORRY TO HEAR THAT. 1275 00:57:50,533 --> 00:57:52,200 IS THIS YOUR DAD? YES. 1276 00:57:52,200 --> 00:57:53,833 I'M DR. PARADISE. HOW ARE YOU? 1277 00:57:53,833 --> 00:57:55,067 HI. NICE TO MEET YOU. 1278 00:57:55,067 --> 00:57:56,367 YEAH. I'M STEVEN. 1279 00:57:56,367 --> 00:57:58,833 SO, MY HOPE IS THAT YOU WANT TO COME IN AND TALK TO ME. 1280 00:57:58,833 --> 00:58:01,500 YEAH, I'M NOT -- I CAN'T GO IN, BRO, NOT RIGHT NOW. 1281 00:58:01,500 --> 00:58:03,133 I HIT THE GROUND PRETTY HARD. 1282 00:58:03,133 --> 00:58:04,633 I NEED TO GET CHECKED OUT. 1283 00:58:04,633 --> 00:58:06,233 WE'VE GOT A SCHEDULED APPOINTMENT, 1284 00:58:06,233 --> 00:58:08,667 SO I'M GONNA MEET WITH YOU AND YOUR DAD TOGETHER... 1285 00:58:08,667 --> 00:58:09,733 UH... 1286 00:58:09,733 --> 00:58:11,067 ...OR I'M GONNA MEET WITH JUST YOUR DAD, 1287 00:58:11,067 --> 00:58:12,800 BUT I'D RATHER YOU BE THERE. 1288 00:58:12,800 --> 00:58:14,900 I CANNOT DO THAT TODAY, OKAY? 1289 00:58:14,900 --> 00:58:16,267 NO CHANCE? NO. 1290 00:58:16,267 --> 00:58:18,067 SO, YOU'RE GONNA WAIT IN THE VAN WHILE I TALK TO YOUR DAD? 1291 00:58:18,067 --> 00:58:20,267 NO. I NEED TO GET GOING TO THE HOSPITAL. 1292 00:58:20,267 --> 00:58:22,933 STEVEN, DO YOU WANT TO COME INTO MY OFFICE, MAN? 1293 00:58:24,400 --> 00:58:26,833 WE'RE NEAR THE HOSPITAL ANYWAY. THEY CAN DO IT. 1294 00:58:26,833 --> 00:58:28,733 STEVEN, THE BEST THING FOR YOUR SON RIGHT NOW 1295 00:58:28,733 --> 00:58:30,067 IS FOR YOU TO COME IN AND TALK TO ME. 1296 00:58:30,067 --> 00:58:31,900 CAN WE DO THAT? YEAH, I GUESS. 1297 00:58:31,900 --> 00:58:34,100 YEAH. WHY DON'T YOU COME IN? 1298 00:58:34,100 --> 00:58:35,900 JUST WAIT HERE. WE'LL BE OUT IN A HALF-HOUR. 1299 00:58:35,900 --> 00:58:38,067 YOU ARE WELCOME TO JOIN THE SESSION WHENEVER YOU WANT. 1300 00:58:38,067 --> 00:58:40,467 NO. NO, I'M NOT. I GOT TO GO. 1301 00:58:40,467 --> 00:58:43,067 DO WHAT YOU WANT. 1302 00:58:43,067 --> 00:58:44,133 GOOD TO MEET YOU. 1303 00:58:44,133 --> 00:58:45,867 LET'S TALK. YEAH, YOU, TOO. [ CHUCKLES ] 1304 00:58:45,867 --> 00:58:47,700 ** 1305 00:58:47,700 --> 00:58:49,733 YOU CAN COME IN AND HAVE A SEAT ON -- 1306 00:58:49,733 --> 00:58:51,500 GO STRAIGHT THROUGH THE WAITING ROOM. 1307 00:58:51,500 --> 00:58:54,433 SO, WHAT I SAW IN THE CAR THERE -- 1308 00:58:54,433 --> 00:58:56,100 IS THAT FAMILIAR, 1309 00:58:56,100 --> 00:58:58,733 HIM SORT OF DEMANDING SOMETHING FROM YOU 1310 00:58:58,733 --> 00:59:00,300 AND IT FEELS LIKE YOU CAN'T SAY NO? 1311 00:59:00,300 --> 00:59:02,767 OH, YEAH. IT'S BASICALLY WHAT HE DOES. 1312 00:59:02,767 --> 00:59:04,333 THE THING THAT I NOTICED, THOUGH, 1313 00:59:04,333 --> 00:59:05,533 IS HE'S VERY DEPENDENT 1314 00:59:05,533 --> 00:59:08,467 ON OTHER PEOPLE TO MAKE THOSE DEMANDS. 1315 00:59:08,467 --> 00:59:10,633 HE NEEDS YOUR HELP TO DO THIS STUFF. 1316 00:59:10,633 --> 00:59:11,667 YEAH. 1317 00:59:11,667 --> 00:59:14,467 HE NEEDS ACCOMPLICES IN THIS BEHAVIOR. 1318 00:59:14,467 --> 00:59:17,067 HE NEEDS DOCTORS TO PRESCRIBE THE MEDICINE. 1319 00:59:17,067 --> 00:59:19,667 HE NEEDS SOMEBODY TO TAKE HIM TO THE HOSPITAL. 1320 00:59:19,667 --> 00:59:22,267 AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT WE CAN WORK ON, 1321 00:59:22,267 --> 00:59:25,633 IS INCREASING OUR ABILITY TO TELL HIM NO. 1322 00:59:27,533 --> 00:59:28,967 I HAD A SPILL. 1323 00:59:28,967 --> 00:59:33,533 I FELL OFF A GOLF CART, AND I'M HURTING REALLY BAD. 1324 00:59:33,533 --> 00:59:35,800 YEAH, I SLIPPED OFF FROM THE BACK. 1325 00:59:35,800 --> 00:59:38,567 I HIT THE GROUND PRETTY HARD. 1326 00:59:38,567 --> 00:59:41,533 I THINK WHAT HIS PROBLEM IS, IS HE GETS -- 1327 00:59:41,533 --> 00:59:43,933 WHEN HE'S IN THE HOSPITAL, HE'S SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE. 1328 00:59:43,933 --> 00:59:47,133 YEAH. WHEN HE GOES HOME, 1329 00:59:47,133 --> 00:59:49,300 HE DON'T HAVE NOBODY THERE. YEAH. 1330 00:59:49,300 --> 00:59:52,467 SO, I THINK HE GETS A LOT OF DEPRESSION. 1331 00:59:52,467 --> 00:59:53,933 MM-HMM. AND THAT'S WHEN HE EATS 1332 00:59:53,933 --> 00:59:55,633 BECAUSE HE'S BY HIMSELF. 1333 00:59:55,633 --> 00:59:57,133 YEP. HE'S LONELY. 1334 00:59:57,133 --> 00:59:58,167 YEP. I WONDER IF THIS IS THE -- 1335 00:59:58,167 --> 00:59:59,433 [ SIREN WAILS ] 1336 00:59:59,433 --> 01:00:01,733 THIS MUST BE THE AMBULANCE RIGHT NOW, YOU THINK? 1337 01:00:01,733 --> 01:00:05,233 YEAH. 1338 01:00:05,233 --> 01:00:08,000 WE SHOULD COME UP WITH A PLAN RIGHT NOW 1339 01:00:08,000 --> 01:00:10,867 AND DECIDE WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO AND THEN JUST DO IT. 1340 01:00:10,867 --> 01:00:12,500 AND HE'LL TALK AND HEM AND HAW, 1341 01:00:12,500 --> 01:00:14,767 BUT IF THE PLAN IS THAT HE SHOULDN'T GO TO THE HOSPITAL, 1342 01:00:14,767 --> 01:00:17,567 I THINK WE HAVE TO CONSISTENTLY REPEAT TO HIM 1343 01:00:17,567 --> 01:00:20,300 THAT YOU'RE IN CHARGE. 1344 01:00:20,300 --> 01:00:23,800 I SLIPPED OFF A GOLF CART AS IT WAS DRIVING, 1345 01:00:23,800 --> 01:00:25,700 AND I HIT THE GROUND REALLY, REALLY HARD. 1346 01:00:25,700 --> 01:00:27,000 Man: WHAT'S HURTING ON YOU RIGHT NOW? 1347 01:00:27,000 --> 01:00:28,800 MY BACK AND MY LEGS. 1348 01:00:28,800 --> 01:00:31,133 YOUR BACK AND YOUR LEGS? ON A SCALE OF 1 TO 10? 1349 01:00:31,133 --> 01:00:32,400 DID YOU LOSE CONSCIOUSNESS AT ALL? 1350 01:00:32,400 --> 01:00:33,733 LIKE A 9. NO. 1351 01:00:33,733 --> 01:00:36,967 YOU DRIVE THE CAR. IT'S YOUR CELLPHONE. 1352 01:00:36,967 --> 01:00:39,667 HE CAN COMPLAIN, BUT IF HE GETS LIKE THAT, 1353 01:00:39,667 --> 01:00:42,000 I JUST WANT YOU TO PRETEND YOU DON'T HEAR HIM. 1354 01:00:42,000 --> 01:00:43,267 Steven Sr.: OKAY, I'LL GIVE IT A TRY. 1355 01:00:43,267 --> 01:00:47,900 ** 1356 01:00:49,733 --> 01:00:51,533 HE'S FINE. 1357 01:00:51,533 --> 01:00:53,367 YEAH. 1358 01:00:53,367 --> 01:00:54,767 HEY, CAPTAIN KUDI. 1359 01:00:56,800 --> 01:00:58,333 NO. OKAY. 1360 01:01:00,067 --> 01:01:01,800 YEAH. YOU GUYS HAVE GOT TO UNDERSTAND SOMETHING. 1361 01:01:01,800 --> 01:01:04,300 THIS IS BULL[BLEEP] HE'S ADDICTED TO A DRUG. 1362 01:01:04,300 --> 01:01:08,467 WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? HE WANTS THAT... 1363 01:01:08,467 --> 01:01:11,767 HE WANTS THAT DRUG SO HE CAN GET -- "AHH" -- 1364 01:01:11,767 --> 01:01:13,067 FLOATY. YEAH. 1365 01:01:13,067 --> 01:01:14,333 WHATEVER YOU SAY, BUDDY. 1366 01:01:14,333 --> 01:01:16,333 I SWEAR TO GOD, YOU GO WITH THESE GUYS, 1367 01:01:16,333 --> 01:01:17,733 I AM GOING BACK HOME, 1368 01:01:17,733 --> 01:01:19,900 AND YOU'RE GONNA BE HOMELESS 'CAUSE I'M -- 1369 01:01:19,900 --> 01:01:22,500 YOU'RE GONNA BE ALL DONE. 1370 01:01:22,500 --> 01:01:24,133 YOU GOT TO MAKE THAT DECISION YOURSELF. 1371 01:01:24,133 --> 01:01:26,067 YOU'RE GOING WITH THEM, GO. 1372 01:01:26,067 --> 01:01:30,133 I'M GOING BACK HOME, AND YOU'VE LOST EVERYTHING. 1373 01:01:30,133 --> 01:01:31,167 OKAY. WHATEVER. 1374 01:01:34,467 --> 01:01:36,100 NO. I'LL GO WITH MY DAD. 1375 01:01:36,100 --> 01:01:38,067 SO GET THAT OFF YOUR NECK. YOU DON'T NEED IT. 1376 01:01:38,067 --> 01:01:40,300 YOU DIDN'T HAVE IT ON ALL THIS TIME. 1377 01:01:44,067 --> 01:01:45,600 Dr. Paradise: SO, I'M GONNA SEE YOU NEXT WEEK? 1378 01:01:45,600 --> 01:01:47,200 YES. 1379 01:01:47,200 --> 01:01:48,500 FOR REAL? YEAH. 1380 01:01:48,500 --> 01:01:50,100 OKAY. FEEL BETTER. 1381 01:01:50,100 --> 01:01:52,533 I WANT THIS TO BE JUST LIKE A LITTLE SETBACK, OKAY? 1382 01:01:52,533 --> 01:01:54,533 OKAY. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? 1383 01:01:54,533 --> 01:01:56,867 AND REMEMBER, LIKE, EVERY TIME YOU TAKE THE PAINKILLER, 1384 01:01:56,867 --> 01:01:59,433 IT PUSHES YOU A LITTLE BIT FURTHER FROM YOUR GOAL. 1385 01:01:59,433 --> 01:02:00,833 OKAY. OKAY. 1386 01:02:00,833 --> 01:02:03,067 I'LL SEE YOU SOON, OKAY? OKAY. 1387 01:02:03,067 --> 01:02:06,200 ** 1388 01:02:10,367 --> 01:02:14,467 Steven Sr.: STEVEN'S GOT TO GET HIS ACT TOGETHER NOW. 1389 01:02:14,467 --> 01:02:17,267 I WANT TO HELP PUSH HIM IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 1390 01:02:17,267 --> 01:02:19,567 BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, 1391 01:02:19,567 --> 01:02:22,533 IF HE CAN'T CLEAN HIMSELF UP, HE'S GONNA DIE. 1392 01:02:22,533 --> 01:02:25,500 BUT THE CHOICE IS ALL HIS. 1393 01:02:30,300 --> 01:02:33,733 ** 1394 01:02:39,500 --> 01:02:41,300 Steven Sr.: AFTER A WEEK OF LOOKING EVERYWHERE, 1395 01:02:41,300 --> 01:02:43,733 WE FINALLY FOUND A NEW APARTMENT FOR STEVEN, 1396 01:02:43,733 --> 01:02:46,067 AND SO WE'RE MOVING HIM TODAY. 1397 01:02:46,067 --> 01:02:47,400 Steven Sr.: HELLO? 1398 01:02:47,400 --> 01:02:48,867 JUSTIN: When are you coming home? 1399 01:02:48,867 --> 01:02:50,267 WELL, ACCORDING TO THE FLIGHT THING, 1400 01:02:50,267 --> 01:02:53,067 IT SAYS I'M ARRIVING IN GREEN AIRPORT 1401 01:02:53,067 --> 01:02:55,633 LIKE AT 12:30, QUARTER TO 1:00. 1402 01:02:59,700 --> 01:03:02,833 I HAD TO GO HELP JOHN. I HAD NO CHOICE. 1403 01:03:08,367 --> 01:03:09,533 DON'T WORRY. I'LL BE -- I'LL BE -- 1404 01:03:09,533 --> 01:03:11,667 I'LL BE THERE ONE WAY OR ANOTHER TOMORROW. 1405 01:03:14,333 --> 01:03:15,533 BUH-BYE! 1406 01:03:15,533 --> 01:03:18,300 YOU'RE A [BLEEP] PAIN IN MY ASS. 1407 01:03:18,300 --> 01:03:20,700 YOU GOT TO MAKE SURE EMERGENCY ACCESS 1408 01:03:20,700 --> 01:03:22,833 WORKS ON THAT PHONE, TOO. 1409 01:03:22,833 --> 01:03:24,233 JOHN, DON'T EVEN START. 1410 01:03:24,233 --> 01:03:25,767 THEY'RE NOT GONNA WANT TO SEE AMBULANCES 1411 01:03:25,767 --> 01:03:27,167 THERE ALL THE TIME. NO. 1412 01:03:27,167 --> 01:03:30,633 I GOT TO MAKE SURE THAT EMERGENCY ACCESS WORKS 1413 01:03:30,633 --> 01:03:33,833 JUST IN CASE. 1414 01:03:33,833 --> 01:03:36,500 Steven Sr.: STEVEN'S GOT TO REALIZE THAT I'M AT AN AGE NOW 1415 01:03:36,500 --> 01:03:38,667 THAT HE CAN'T JUST KEEP AGGRAVATING ME 1416 01:03:38,667 --> 01:03:41,900 BECAUSE THE AGGRAVATION'S GONNA KILL ME. 1417 01:03:41,900 --> 01:03:44,233 NOW WHERE'S HE GONNA BE IF I'M NOT HERE? 1418 01:03:44,233 --> 01:03:48,500 ** 1419 01:03:51,800 --> 01:03:53,867 I'M HELPING STEVEN MOVE BECAUSE HE'S NOT CAPABLE. 1420 01:03:53,867 --> 01:03:56,067 HE'S HANDICAPPED. 1421 01:03:56,067 --> 01:03:59,733 AND HE COULDN'T LIFT UP A BOX IF HE WANTED TO, 1422 01:03:59,733 --> 01:04:03,167 SO I BASICALLY GOT TO DO EVERYTHING. 1423 01:04:03,167 --> 01:04:05,700 I'M GONNA TRY LIKE HELL TO GET ALL THIS DONE TONIGHT 1424 01:04:05,700 --> 01:04:08,233 SO I CAN GO BACK TO RHODE ISLAND TOMORROW MORNING... 1425 01:04:08,233 --> 01:04:09,667 OH, MY GOD. 1426 01:04:09,667 --> 01:04:14,100 ...BECAUSE I NEED TO GET BACK TO JUSTIN. 1427 01:04:14,100 --> 01:04:17,067 I WORRY ABOUT BOTH OF MY SONS, 1428 01:04:17,067 --> 01:04:21,967 BUT STEVEN MORE BECAUSE HE'S SO BAD OFF RIGHT NOW. 1429 01:04:21,967 --> 01:04:23,733 SO IT SCARES ME. 1430 01:04:23,733 --> 01:04:25,800 LIKE THIS, AGAINST THE WALL? 1431 01:04:25,800 --> 01:04:28,633 Steven: CORRECT. 1432 01:04:28,633 --> 01:04:31,967 Steven: I'M SAD TO SEE MY DAD GO. 1433 01:04:31,967 --> 01:04:34,067 AS MUCH AS WE FRUSTRATE EACH OTHER, 1434 01:04:34,067 --> 01:04:37,500 I LIKE HAVING HIM AROUND. 1435 01:04:37,500 --> 01:04:41,100 AND I KNOW HE JUST WANTS THE BEST FOR ME, 1436 01:04:41,100 --> 01:04:44,467 SO I WANT TO MAKE HIM PROUD. 1437 01:04:44,467 --> 01:04:47,100 BUT THERE ARE MOMENTS WHERE I JUST WANT PAINKILLERS 1438 01:04:47,100 --> 01:04:50,067 OR TO EAT THAT I CAN'T RESIST IT. 1439 01:04:50,067 --> 01:04:52,267 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THAT. 1440 01:04:52,267 --> 01:04:54,067 ALL RIGHT, MAN, I'M GONNA GO. 1441 01:04:54,067 --> 01:04:55,767 ALL RIGHT. BYE-BYE. 1442 01:04:55,767 --> 01:04:58,800 NEXT TIME I SEE YOU IS WHEN YOU GET THE OPERATION DONE. 1443 01:04:58,800 --> 01:05:00,500 ALL RIGHT. BYE. 1444 01:05:00,500 --> 01:05:01,667 DO THE RIGHT THING. 1445 01:05:01,667 --> 01:05:04,067 YEAH. ALL RIGHT. 1446 01:05:04,067 --> 01:05:07,500 SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. 1447 01:05:07,500 --> 01:05:10,533 ** 1448 01:05:20,767 --> 01:05:22,200 ** 1449 01:05:22,200 --> 01:05:26,133 IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE I LEFT THE HOSPITAL. 1450 01:05:26,133 --> 01:05:29,833 ** 1451 01:05:29,833 --> 01:05:33,300 AND NOW I'M SUPPOSED TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN FOR MY CHECKUP. 1452 01:05:33,300 --> 01:05:36,667 ** 1453 01:05:36,667 --> 01:05:40,500 BUT I DON'T REALLY WANT TO BECAUSE I'M NOT SURE 1454 01:05:40,500 --> 01:05:43,400 I'M GONNA HAVE MADE THE PROGRESS I WAS SUPPOSED TO. 1455 01:05:43,400 --> 01:05:45,967 ** 1456 01:05:45,967 --> 01:05:50,333 BUT I DON'T WANT TO MAKE HIM EVEN MORE UPSET BY SKIPPING. 1457 01:05:51,700 --> 01:05:53,833 ** 1458 01:05:53,833 --> 01:05:56,900 SO I'LL GO FACE THE MUSIC IF I HAVE TO. 1459 01:05:56,900 --> 01:05:58,333 ** 1460 01:05:59,367 --> 01:06:05,733 I WAS SUPPOSED TO LOSE AT LEAST 40 POUNDS AND GET UNDER 670. 1461 01:06:05,733 --> 01:06:09,133 HI. 1462 01:06:09,133 --> 01:06:12,133 AND I'M NOT SURE IF I DID THAT. 1463 01:06:12,133 --> 01:06:15,267 BUT I DO FEEL LIKE I MADE SOME PROGRESS. 1464 01:06:19,700 --> 01:06:23,733 THAT'S REALLY NOT GOOD. 1465 01:06:23,733 --> 01:06:26,300 I'VE GAINED SOME OF THE WEIGHT BACK AGAIN, 1466 01:06:26,300 --> 01:06:29,800 AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW THAT HAPPENED. 1467 01:06:29,800 --> 01:06:33,400 IF I DIDN'T THINK DR. NOWZARADAN WOULD BE ANGRIER IF I LEFT, 1468 01:06:33,400 --> 01:06:34,933 THEN I WOULD 1469 01:06:34,933 --> 01:06:39,167 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO FACE HIM RIGHT NOW. 1470 01:06:39,167 --> 01:06:41,567 HELLO. Steven: HI. 1471 01:06:41,567 --> 01:06:43,133 HOW YOU DOING, STEVEN? 1472 01:06:43,133 --> 01:06:45,400 WELL, FIRST LET ME SAY -- 1473 01:06:45,400 --> 01:06:47,800 'CAUSE I KNOW YOU'RE GONNA BRING IT UP -- 1474 01:06:47,800 --> 01:06:49,367 I GAINED 21 POUNDS 1475 01:06:49,367 --> 01:06:51,567 BECAUSE I SLIPPED UP A COUPLE TIMES. 1476 01:06:51,567 --> 01:06:52,733 BUT I'M BACK ON TRACK NOW. 1477 01:06:52,733 --> 01:06:54,400 HOWEVER -- NO. WAIT A MINUTE. 1478 01:06:54,400 --> 01:06:56,233 HOW MANY TIMES YOU BEEN BACK ON TRACK? 1479 01:06:56,233 --> 01:06:57,733 NO. I REALLY -- 1480 01:06:57,733 --> 01:07:00,067 NO. HOW MANY TIMES? WELL... 1481 01:07:00,067 --> 01:07:03,167 LET ME GIVE YOU SOME STATISTICS, OKAY? 1482 01:07:03,167 --> 01:07:05,433 YOU CAME TO HOUSTON 10 MONTHS AGO, 1483 01:07:05,433 --> 01:07:07,900 AND YOU WERE 730 POUNDS. 1484 01:07:07,900 --> 01:07:10,667 WE HELPED YOU TO LOSE 100 POUNDS. 1485 01:07:10,667 --> 01:07:13,300 THEN YOU GAIN IT ALL BACK AND MORE. 1486 01:07:13,300 --> 01:07:16,200 SO WE GOT YOU BACK TO 729. 1487 01:07:16,200 --> 01:07:19,167 NOW YOU GAINED 20 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH 1488 01:07:19,167 --> 01:07:21,500 WHEN YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO LOSE 40 POUNDS. 1489 01:07:21,500 --> 01:07:23,433 SO, YOU MADE NO PROGRESS, 1490 01:07:23,433 --> 01:07:27,667 AND WHEN WE DO HELP YOU, YOU IMMEDIATELY UNDO IT. 1491 01:07:27,667 --> 01:07:29,833 MM-HMM. AND WHAT DOES THAT TELL YOU? 1492 01:07:29,833 --> 01:07:32,067 ABSOLUTE FAILURE. MM-HMM. 1493 01:07:32,067 --> 01:07:33,200 ABSOLUTE FAILURE. 1494 01:07:33,200 --> 01:07:34,500 WELL, I CAN EXPLAIN -- 1495 01:07:34,500 --> 01:07:36,667 NEXT TIME, IT'S GONNA BE 800 POUNDS? 1496 01:07:36,667 --> 01:07:38,100 ABSOLUTELY NOT. 1497 01:07:38,100 --> 01:07:39,867 NEXT TIME, IT'S GONNA BE UNDER -- 1498 01:07:39,867 --> 01:07:42,267 PROBABLY 600 OR UNDER 600. 1499 01:07:42,267 --> 01:07:44,400 THAT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN, 1500 01:07:44,400 --> 01:07:46,567 AND YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT YOURSELF, EITHER. 1501 01:07:46,567 --> 01:07:48,767 I DO WANT TO COMMIT TO WORKING OUT NOW, 1502 01:07:48,767 --> 01:07:50,900 BUT I'M HAVING A HARD TIME 1503 01:07:50,900 --> 01:07:54,333 'CAUSE I OBVIOUSLY DON'T HAVE ANY MORE MEDICATION ANYMORE. 1504 01:07:54,333 --> 01:07:58,400 AND I JUST NEED, LIKE, YOU KNOW, 1505 01:07:58,400 --> 01:08:01,100 A REFILL TO HELP ME OUT, LIKE, WITH WORKING OUT. 1506 01:08:01,100 --> 01:08:03,833 YOU'RE ACTUALLY ASKING ME FOR PAIN MEDICATION? 1507 01:08:03,833 --> 01:08:06,067 YEAH. I WANT TO WORK OUT TWO TIMES A DAY. 1508 01:08:06,067 --> 01:08:07,733 ALL RIGHT. I REALLY DO. 1509 01:08:07,733 --> 01:08:10,700 I REALLY DO. STEVEN, IN THE PAST MONTH -- 1510 01:08:10,700 --> 01:08:11,900 I WANT TO COMMIT TO THIS, THOUGH. 1511 01:08:11,900 --> 01:08:13,067 EH. 1512 01:08:13,067 --> 01:08:14,967 I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME. IN THE PAST MONTH, 1513 01:08:14,967 --> 01:08:17,567 HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN TO EMERGENCY ROOM? 1514 01:08:17,567 --> 01:08:23,700 I HAVE BEEN TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM -- HMM -- 1515 01:08:23,700 --> 01:08:28,233 MAYBE FIVE TIMES, I THINK. 1516 01:08:28,233 --> 01:08:29,667 FIVE TIMES IN A MONTH. 1517 01:08:29,667 --> 01:08:31,967 AND SO YOU GO TO ONE HOSPITAL. 1518 01:08:31,967 --> 01:08:34,067 THEY RECOGNIZE THAT YOU'RE A DRUG ADDICT. 1519 01:08:34,067 --> 01:08:35,367 THEN YOU GO TO ANOTHER ONE. 1520 01:08:35,367 --> 01:08:38,367 LET ME JUST GIVE YOU SOMETHING. 1521 01:08:38,367 --> 01:08:41,300 THIS IS A PRESCRIPTION MONITORING PROGRAM 1522 01:08:41,300 --> 01:08:44,500 WITH THE STATE OF TEXAS. 1523 01:08:44,500 --> 01:08:51,867 YOU RECEIVED 39 PRESCRIPTIONS FROM 17 DIFFERENT DOCTORS. 1524 01:08:51,867 --> 01:08:54,667 MM-HMM. THAT RING A BELL? 1525 01:08:54,667 --> 01:08:57,233 WELL, OBVIOUSLY, I CAN SEE IT ON THE PAPER. 1526 01:08:57,233 --> 01:09:01,633 IT CAN'T BE A LIE. THEN YOU GO TO THE NEXT PAGE. 1527 01:09:01,633 --> 01:09:08,133 YOU HAVE RECEIVED TYLENOL AND CODEINE, 259 TABLETS. 1528 01:09:08,133 --> 01:09:14,067 YOU'VE RECEIVED TRAMADOL, 1,045 TABLETS, 1529 01:09:14,067 --> 01:09:19,200 HYDROCODONE, 970 TABLETS IN THE STATE OF TEXAS. 1530 01:09:19,200 --> 01:09:21,200 IF YOU HAVE PRESCRIPTION 1531 01:09:21,200 --> 01:09:23,867 FROM ANY OTHER DOCTOR THAN ONE DOCTOR, 1532 01:09:23,867 --> 01:09:27,067 WE ARE NOT ALLOWED TO PRESCRIBE YOU PAIN MEDICATION. 1533 01:09:27,067 --> 01:09:29,533 MM-HMM. SO, THIS IS THE END OF IT. 1534 01:09:29,533 --> 01:09:31,233 YOU HAVE EXHAUSTED 1535 01:09:31,233 --> 01:09:35,100 LIFETIME HOSPITAL PRIVILEGES TO BE ADMITTED. 1536 01:09:35,100 --> 01:09:38,233 SO YOUR DAYS OF ABUSING THE SYSTEM ARE OVER. 1537 01:09:38,233 --> 01:09:39,967 OKAY. THANK YOU. HAVE A NICE DAY. 1538 01:09:39,967 --> 01:09:41,567 I WANT TO LEAVE. YOU GOT THAT? 1539 01:09:41,567 --> 01:09:43,100 YES. I'M DONE. TAKE THIS. OKAY. 1540 01:09:43,100 --> 01:09:45,700 THIS INFORMATION IS GOING TO DATABANK. 1541 01:09:45,700 --> 01:09:46,933 OKAY. 1542 01:09:46,933 --> 01:09:49,167 AND ONCE I PUT THIS IN THE DATABASE, 1543 01:09:49,167 --> 01:09:51,800 THE NEXT TIME YOU DO THIS, YOU'LL BE ARRESTED. 1544 01:09:51,800 --> 01:09:53,267 I WANT TO LEAVE. I WANT TO LEAVE. 1545 01:09:53,267 --> 01:09:54,367 NO. 1546 01:09:54,367 --> 01:09:55,800 I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE. I WANT TO LEAVE. 1547 01:09:55,800 --> 01:09:59,200 AH, FEELING UNCOMFORTABLE. I WANT YOU TO COME WITH ME. 1548 01:09:59,200 --> 01:10:00,533 LET'S GO DOWN THE HALL. 1549 01:10:00,533 --> 01:10:02,067 WHERE? 1550 01:10:02,067 --> 01:10:03,300 JUST WALK WITH ME. 1551 01:10:03,300 --> 01:10:04,533 I'M GONNA SHOW YOU SOMETHING. 1552 01:10:04,533 --> 01:10:08,267 OKAY. 1553 01:10:08,267 --> 01:10:10,200 MAKING ME WALK. 1554 01:10:17,067 --> 01:10:18,633 Dr. Nowzaradan: COME ON IN. 1555 01:10:20,933 --> 01:10:23,633 NOW, STAND OVER HERE AND LOOK AT THAT MIRROR. 1556 01:10:23,633 --> 01:10:25,367 [ Chuckling ] WHY? 1557 01:10:25,367 --> 01:10:28,367 LOOK AT YOURSELF. LOOK. 1558 01:10:28,367 --> 01:10:30,767 LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO YOUR BODY. 1559 01:10:32,867 --> 01:10:34,800 TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE. 1560 01:10:34,800 --> 01:10:36,933 A BIG FAILURE. 1561 01:10:36,933 --> 01:10:38,567 YOU'RE NOT LOOKING AT YOURSELF. 1562 01:10:38,567 --> 01:10:40,900 COME ON. KEEP LOOKING AT YOURSELF. 1563 01:10:40,900 --> 01:10:44,133 OKAY. 1564 01:10:44,133 --> 01:10:46,333 YOU SEE YOURSELF THERE? 1565 01:10:46,333 --> 01:10:47,767 CAN I STEP AWAY FROM THE MIRROR? 1566 01:10:47,767 --> 01:10:50,800 YOU HAD ENOUGH? YOU LOOK ENOUGH AT YOURSELF? 1567 01:10:50,800 --> 01:10:53,100 YOU SEE WHAT YOU REALLY NEED TO SEE? 1568 01:10:53,100 --> 01:10:54,533 YEAH. I DON'T WANT TO LOOK ANYMORE. 1569 01:10:54,533 --> 01:10:56,300 LOOK AT YOUR BODY. 1570 01:10:56,300 --> 01:10:57,900 LOOK AT YOUR STOMACH. 1571 01:10:57,900 --> 01:11:00,867 WHEN YOU CAME, IT WASN'T HANGING THAT FAR. 1572 01:11:00,867 --> 01:11:02,567 NOW IT'S HANGING ALL DOWN. 1573 01:11:02,567 --> 01:11:04,500 MM-HMM. LOOK AT YOUR LEG -- 1574 01:11:04,500 --> 01:11:08,467 SWOLLEN, RED, LYMPHEDEMA IN BOTH OF THEM, 1575 01:11:08,467 --> 01:11:10,233 LOOK LIKE AN ELEPHANT'S LEG. 1576 01:11:10,233 --> 01:11:11,500 MM-HMM. 1577 01:11:11,500 --> 01:11:13,500 IT DOESN'T LOOK HUMAN ANYMORE 1578 01:11:13,500 --> 01:11:16,467 BECAUSE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE. MM. 1579 01:11:16,467 --> 01:11:20,133 YOU KNOW, YOU'RE NOT SEEING YOURSELF THE WAY YOU ARE. 1580 01:11:20,133 --> 01:11:22,500 YOU SEEN ANYBODY DO THAT TO THEIR BODY? 1581 01:11:22,500 --> 01:11:26,167 NO. YOU DID THAT ALL TO YOURSELF. 1582 01:11:26,167 --> 01:11:27,967 MM-HMM. I DON'T WANT TO LOOK ANYMORE. 1583 01:11:27,967 --> 01:11:32,067 WHAT'D IT TAKE TO REALIZE THAT YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF? 1584 01:11:32,067 --> 01:11:35,067 MM. NOW? 1585 01:11:35,067 --> 01:11:39,300 I NEVER LOOK IN THE MIRROR, SO, YEAH. 1586 01:11:39,300 --> 01:11:41,067 CAN I SIT ON THAT? 1587 01:11:41,067 --> 01:11:43,233 YES, YOU CAN SIT. 1588 01:11:43,233 --> 01:11:45,667 BACK IS GIVING OUT. 1589 01:11:45,667 --> 01:11:49,167 OKAY. 1590 01:11:49,167 --> 01:11:53,233 SO, YOU'RE NOT ABLE TO CONTROL ANY OF YOUR IMPULSES. 1591 01:11:53,233 --> 01:11:56,667 YOU'RE NOT INTERESTED IN GIVING UP YOUR DRUG HABIT. 1592 01:11:56,667 --> 01:11:59,633 AND I DON'T SEE ANY WAY OUT. 1593 01:11:59,633 --> 01:12:02,800 I DON'T KNOW HOW WE'RE GONNA SAVE YOU FROM YOURSELF. 1594 01:12:02,800 --> 01:12:05,500 I NEED HELP WITH -- NO. 1595 01:12:05,500 --> 01:12:08,100 YOU HAD ALL THE HELP YOU'RE GONNA GET. 1596 01:12:08,100 --> 01:12:10,067 THIS ADDICTION IS GONNA KILL YOU. 1597 01:12:10,067 --> 01:12:12,467 YOU NEED TO DECIDE TO GIVE UP YOUR FOOD ADDICTION 1598 01:12:12,467 --> 01:12:16,267 AND DRUG ADDICTION BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. 1599 01:12:16,267 --> 01:12:18,233 THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU SAW IN THE MIRROR. 1600 01:12:18,233 --> 01:12:21,100 IF YOU WANT THAT TO BE YOU, THAT'S FINE. 1601 01:12:21,100 --> 01:12:22,500 YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU WANT 1602 01:12:22,500 --> 01:12:24,800 AND FIND A WAY TO KILL YOURSELF ON YOUR OWN. 1603 01:12:24,800 --> 01:12:26,700 BUT IF YOU COME BACK HERE, 1604 01:12:26,700 --> 01:12:29,300 I EXPECT TO SEE YOU DOWN A GOOD AMOUNT OF WEIGHT. 1605 01:12:29,300 --> 01:12:31,900 IF NOT, WE'RE COMPLETELY DONE. 1606 01:12:31,900 --> 01:12:34,533 MM-HMM. 1607 01:12:34,533 --> 01:12:38,500 STEVEN IS AT A VERY IMPORTANT CROSSROADS RIGHT NOW. 1608 01:12:38,500 --> 01:12:40,833 HIS PAIN MEDICINE HAS BEEN SHUT OFF, 1609 01:12:40,833 --> 01:12:44,900 SO HE DOESN'T HAVE ANY CHOICE BUT TO GIVE UP THIS ADDICTION. 1610 01:12:44,900 --> 01:12:47,067 AND HE CAN EITHER GET WITH THE PROGRAM 1611 01:12:47,067 --> 01:12:48,233 AND WORK WITH US 1612 01:12:48,233 --> 01:12:50,400 TO GET ON THE RIGHT TRACK TO LIVE 1613 01:12:50,400 --> 01:12:52,400 OR HIS CHANCES ARE UP. 1614 01:12:52,400 --> 01:12:53,600 AFTER THIS, 1615 01:12:53,600 --> 01:12:56,700 THERE ARE NO MORE OPPORTUNITIES ON THIS PROGRAM. 1616 01:13:02,300 --> 01:13:04,733 ** 1617 01:13:09,433 --> 01:13:13,567 Steven: WHEN I GOT HOME AFTER SEEING DR. NOW LAST WEEK, 1618 01:13:13,567 --> 01:13:18,267 IT TOOK A LITTLE WHILE, BUT THE STUFF HE SAID SUNK IN. 1619 01:13:18,267 --> 01:13:21,067 ** 1620 01:13:21,067 --> 01:13:22,467 TWO... 1621 01:13:22,467 --> 01:13:24,533 IT WAS REALLY HARD AT FIRST 1622 01:13:24,533 --> 01:13:27,533 NOT HAVING ANY PAINKILLERS ANYMORE. 1623 01:13:27,533 --> 01:13:31,567 AND I'M STILL REALLY STRUGGLING. 1624 01:13:31,567 --> 01:13:34,233 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M WAKING UP A LITTLE, 1625 01:13:34,233 --> 01:13:38,700 LIKE SOME HAZE IS CLEARING IN MY HEAD. 1626 01:13:38,700 --> 01:13:41,633 I DON'T WANT WHO I SAW IN THE MIRROR TO BE ME, 1627 01:13:41,633 --> 01:13:44,267 SO I DECIDED TO MAKE A CHANGE. 1628 01:13:44,267 --> 01:13:45,967 AND I'M DOING IT BY THROWING OUT 1629 01:13:45,967 --> 01:13:49,067 ALL THE STUFF THAT'S BAD FOR ME. 1630 01:13:49,067 --> 01:13:54,367 GOT A LOT MORE SODA TO GO, A LOT MORE BAD STUFF. 1631 01:13:54,367 --> 01:13:57,800 ** 1632 01:13:57,800 --> 01:13:59,633 BY DOING THIS, 1633 01:13:59,633 --> 01:14:05,700 I'M ACTUALLY CONQUERING MY ADDICTION FOR ONCE. 1634 01:14:05,700 --> 01:14:07,633 IN YOU GO, ADDICTION. 1635 01:14:07,633 --> 01:14:11,067 SEE YOU. BYE. 1636 01:14:11,067 --> 01:14:13,767 DOWN THE DRAIN. BYE. 1637 01:14:13,767 --> 01:14:16,600 ** 1638 01:14:16,600 --> 01:14:18,667 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A WHILE, 1639 01:14:18,667 --> 01:14:23,333 I WANT TO LIVE MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE. 1640 01:14:23,333 --> 01:14:25,333 AND ONCE DR. NOW STARTED TO READ OFF 1641 01:14:25,333 --> 01:14:28,367 HOW MANY PAINKILLERS I HAD TAKEN IN JUST A MONTH, 1642 01:14:28,367 --> 01:14:31,567 I REALIZED HOW RISKY THIS HAS BEEN FOR ME... 1643 01:14:33,833 --> 01:14:36,233 ...BECAUSE IT WAS A LOT. 1644 01:14:36,233 --> 01:14:39,533 THIS IS MY HYDROCODONE BOTTLE -- 120. 1645 01:14:39,533 --> 01:14:41,800 AND I DON'T HAVE ANY MORE. 1646 01:14:41,800 --> 01:14:43,633 OH, WOW. 1647 01:14:43,633 --> 01:14:47,200 I DIDN'T REALIZE I TOOK THAT MANY. 1648 01:14:47,200 --> 01:14:48,767 WHOA. THAT'S SCARY. 1649 01:14:48,767 --> 01:14:52,767 I WANT MY LIFE TO CHANGE. 1650 01:14:52,767 --> 01:14:55,067 AND WHEN I GO BACK TO SEE DR. NOW, 1651 01:14:55,067 --> 01:14:57,300 I KNOW I HAVE TO HAVE LOST WEIGHT. 1652 01:15:03,067 --> 01:15:06,300 SO I'M EATING RIGHT AND TRYING TO STAY ACTIVE. 1653 01:15:06,300 --> 01:15:09,467 [ WHIMPERING ] 1654 01:15:09,467 --> 01:15:12,800 I'M OUT HERE IN THE FREEZING-COLD RAIN, 1655 01:15:12,800 --> 01:15:16,133 AND EACH STEP I TAKE, 1656 01:15:16,133 --> 01:15:18,867 MY FEET HAVE THIS BURNING SENSATION. 1657 01:15:18,867 --> 01:15:24,633 AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS GO BACK INSIDE. 1658 01:15:24,633 --> 01:15:29,567 BUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO TELL DR. NOWZARADAN 1659 01:15:29,567 --> 01:15:33,333 THAT I'M WALKING THROUGH THE FIRE THIS TIME 1660 01:15:33,333 --> 01:15:38,933 AND NOT BEING A FAILURE AND A LOSER. 1661 01:15:38,933 --> 01:15:44,733 I WANT TO SHOW EVERYBODY THAT IT'S POSSIBLE TO CHANGE. 1662 01:15:44,733 --> 01:15:47,200 AND MAYBE THAT COULD LEAD TO GOOD THINGS, 1663 01:15:47,200 --> 01:15:50,367 LIKE REPAIRING MY RELATIONSHIP WITH JUSTIN. 1664 01:15:54,067 --> 01:15:59,800 BUT I NOW I HAVE TO START TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR MYSELF 1665 01:15:59,800 --> 01:16:03,233 TO PROVE I CAN GET READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1666 01:16:15,867 --> 01:16:17,367 Justin: THE HOBBY STORE HAS BEEN A STRUGGLE 1667 01:16:17,367 --> 01:16:19,733 OVER THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. 1668 01:16:19,733 --> 01:16:21,500 AND I'VE BEEN THINKING THAT MAYBE I WANT 1669 01:16:21,500 --> 01:16:23,867 TO GO BACK TO HOUSTON SOMETIME SOON 1670 01:16:23,867 --> 01:16:26,200 TO TRY AND GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1671 01:16:26,200 --> 01:16:28,333 I HAVE A SKYPE APPOINTMENT TODAY WITH DR. NOW 1672 01:16:28,333 --> 01:16:32,167 BECAUSE I REACHED OUT TO HIM AND I WANTED TO TALK TO HIM. 1673 01:16:32,167 --> 01:16:34,100 IT'S BEEN LIKE 11 MONTHS SINCE I SAW HIM, 1674 01:16:34,100 --> 01:16:36,467 SO I'M NOT SURE WHAT HE'S GONNA THINK. 1675 01:16:36,467 --> 01:16:38,867 [ RINGING ] 1676 01:16:42,100 --> 01:16:44,433 HI, JUSTIN. HI, DR. NOW. 1677 01:16:44,433 --> 01:16:46,200 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? I'M DOING GOOD. 1678 01:16:46,200 --> 01:16:50,433 SO, ARE YOU CHECKING YOUR WEIGHT LIKE WE ASKED YOU TO? 1679 01:16:50,433 --> 01:16:52,467 BUT I DON'T REALLY LIKE THE SCALE. 1680 01:16:52,467 --> 01:16:54,133 WELL, YOU MAY NOT LIKE IT, 1681 01:16:54,133 --> 01:16:55,833 BUT YOU NEED TO LEARN HOW TO USE IT 1682 01:16:55,833 --> 01:16:58,467 IF YOU'RE GOING TO GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN. 1683 01:16:58,467 --> 01:17:00,333 SO, I NEED YOU TO START GETTING 1684 01:17:00,333 --> 01:17:02,767 ON THE SCALE AT LEAST ONCE A MONTH. 1685 01:17:02,767 --> 01:17:03,800 OKAY. 1686 01:17:03,800 --> 01:17:05,833 HOW ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR DIET? 1687 01:17:05,833 --> 01:17:07,700 I FELL OFF THE RAILS ONCE. 1688 01:17:07,700 --> 01:17:10,233 I HAD A LITTLE BIT OF RAVIOLI WITH MY FATHER. 1689 01:17:10,233 --> 01:17:13,667 SO, YOUR DIET ISN'T REALLY GOING WELL RIGHT NOW. 1690 01:17:13,667 --> 01:17:14,833 NOT AT ALL. 1691 01:17:14,833 --> 01:17:16,900 WELL, YOU DON'T WANT TO END UP 1692 01:17:16,900 --> 01:17:19,667 BEING LIKE YOUR BROTHER, STEVEN, THAT HAS -- 1693 01:17:19,667 --> 01:17:22,067 HIS WEIGHT IS OUT OF CONTROL. 1694 01:17:22,067 --> 01:17:23,900 I KNOW. IT'S JUST BEEN VERY STRESSFUL 1695 01:17:23,900 --> 01:17:25,700 SINCE OPENING THE STORE WITH MY FATHER. 1696 01:17:25,700 --> 01:17:27,833 STRESS IS PART OF LIFE, 1697 01:17:27,833 --> 01:17:31,767 BUT STRESS SHOULD NOT REFLECT ON OUR EATING HABIT. 1698 01:17:31,767 --> 01:17:33,533 IT'S JUST AN EXCUSE, I GUESS. 1699 01:17:33,533 --> 01:17:35,633 SO, DO YOU THINK SEEING A THERAPIST 1700 01:17:35,633 --> 01:17:37,667 IS GOING TO BE ANY HELP FOR YOU? 1701 01:17:37,667 --> 01:17:39,767 NOT AT ALL. WHY IS THAT? 1702 01:17:39,767 --> 01:17:42,167 I TRIED IT BEFORE WHEN I WAS A TEENAGER. 1703 01:17:42,167 --> 01:17:43,367 I DIDN'T LIKE IT. 1704 01:17:43,367 --> 01:17:45,733 MAYBE YOU NEED TO SEE A DIFFERENT THERAPIST. 1705 01:17:45,733 --> 01:17:47,867 NO, I FIGURED OUT HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ON MY OWN. 1706 01:17:47,867 --> 01:17:49,133 I HAVE COPING MECHANISMS. 1707 01:17:49,133 --> 01:17:51,533 WELL, SOMETIMES COPING MECHANISMS TRANSLATE 1708 01:17:51,533 --> 01:17:53,100 INTO GAINING WEIGHT, THOUGH. 1709 01:17:53,100 --> 01:17:55,400 WELL, MY COPING MECHANISM IS BASICALLY 1710 01:17:55,400 --> 01:17:57,433 JUST LISTENING TO MUSIC. 1711 01:17:57,433 --> 01:17:58,700 IF THAT WORKS FOR YOU, 1712 01:17:58,700 --> 01:18:00,433 YOU WOULD HAVE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT, 1713 01:18:00,433 --> 01:18:01,700 BUT YOU HAVEN'T. 1714 01:18:01,700 --> 01:18:03,367 I'M NOT GAINING ANY WEIGHT. 1715 01:18:03,367 --> 01:18:06,067 I DON'T THINK THAT'S COMPLETELY ACCURATE. 1716 01:18:06,067 --> 01:18:07,700 YOU'RE GAINING STILL. 1717 01:18:07,700 --> 01:18:10,533 NO ONE THAT IS OVER 600 POUNDS 1718 01:18:10,533 --> 01:18:13,067 HAS THEIR WEIGHT STAYED THE SAME. 1719 01:18:13,067 --> 01:18:15,200 YOU'RE EITHER GAINING OR LOSING. 1720 01:18:15,200 --> 01:18:19,933 SO, WHAT IS YOUR LINE OF THINKING 1721 01:18:19,933 --> 01:18:22,900 ABOUT HAVING SURGERY FOR WEIGHT LOSS? 1722 01:18:22,900 --> 01:18:25,300 I DO WANT IT. OKAY. 1723 01:18:25,300 --> 01:18:27,467 FOR THAT, YOU HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABITS 1724 01:18:27,467 --> 01:18:29,833 AND START LOSING 30 POUNDS EVERY MONTH 1725 01:18:29,833 --> 01:18:31,667 IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS, RIGHT? 1726 01:18:31,667 --> 01:18:32,967 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 1727 01:18:32,967 --> 01:18:36,067 BUT I NEED TO GET A STARTING WEIGHT FROM YOU, 1728 01:18:36,067 --> 01:18:38,967 AND YOU HAVE TO GET ON THE SCALE, OKAY? 1729 01:18:38,967 --> 01:18:40,067 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 1730 01:18:40,067 --> 01:18:41,200 LET'S START DOING THAT. 1731 01:18:41,200 --> 01:18:45,133 IN THE MEANTIME, I WANT YOU TO HAVE OPEN MIND 1732 01:18:45,133 --> 01:18:47,433 ABOUT SEEING A THERAPIST, OKAY? 1733 01:18:47,433 --> 01:18:49,433 I'LL TRY. STICK WITH THE PROGRAM, 1734 01:18:49,433 --> 01:18:51,433 AND I'LL BE IN TOUCH WITH YOU, OKAY? 1735 01:18:51,433 --> 01:18:52,533 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 1736 01:18:52,533 --> 01:18:53,600 I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 1737 01:18:53,600 --> 01:18:54,767 BYE, DR. NOW. BYE. 1738 01:18:54,767 --> 01:18:59,567 I THINK THE CALL WENT WELL. 1739 01:18:59,567 --> 01:19:01,867 I DON'T LIKE THE IDEA OF SEEING A THERAPIST 1740 01:19:01,867 --> 01:19:03,600 BECAUSE I THINK I CAN KEEP USING MUSIC 1741 01:19:03,600 --> 01:19:05,767 TO HELP ME DEAL WITH THINGS. 1742 01:19:05,767 --> 01:19:08,633 TO COPE WITH THE STRESS AND GET BACK ON THE PROGRAM, 1743 01:19:08,633 --> 01:19:12,767 I'M JUST GONNA CRANK UP THE MUSIC TO 11. 1744 01:19:12,767 --> 01:19:15,067 BUT I'LL CONSIDER EVERYTHING THAT DOCTOR'S TELLING ME 1745 01:19:15,067 --> 01:19:18,533 AND PROBABLY BE APPROVED BEFORE MY BROTHER IS. 1746 01:19:18,533 --> 01:19:21,200 ** 1747 01:19:29,067 --> 01:19:30,767 Steven: TODAY, I'M AT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE 1748 01:19:30,767 --> 01:19:33,867 TO SEE HOW MUCH WEIGHT I'VE LOST. 1749 01:19:33,867 --> 01:19:38,167 IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE I SAW DR. NOW LAST. 1750 01:19:38,167 --> 01:19:41,433 I'VE NOT HAD ANY PAIN MEDS, AND I'VE STUCK TO THE DIET. 1751 01:19:41,433 --> 01:19:42,667 Woman: STEVEN ASSANTI? 1752 01:19:42,667 --> 01:19:46,133 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M DOING BETTER. 1753 01:19:46,133 --> 01:19:50,100 BUT I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA IF I'VE MADE A LOT OF PROGRESS 1754 01:19:50,100 --> 01:19:52,400 OR JUST A LITTLE. 1755 01:19:52,400 --> 01:19:56,700 AND I'M SO NERVOUS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I KNOW 1756 01:19:56,700 --> 01:19:58,067 EVERYTHING IS RIDING ON WHAT THE SCALE IS ABOUT TO SAY. 1757 01:20:03,900 --> 01:20:07,333 ** 1758 01:20:08,500 --> 01:20:11,467 Steven: I'M SO NERVOUS RIGHT NOW. 1759 01:20:11,467 --> 01:20:15,433 I WAS AT 750 THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED IN, 1760 01:20:15,433 --> 01:20:18,467 AND DR. NOW TOLD ME TO LOSE A GOOD AMOUNT OF WEIGHT 1761 01:20:18,467 --> 01:20:20,367 ON MY OWN TO PROVE TO HIM 1762 01:20:20,367 --> 01:20:23,833 I'M FINALLY 100% COMMITTED TO THE PROGRAM. 1763 01:20:26,067 --> 01:20:29,300 OH! [ CHUCKLES ] 1764 01:20:29,300 --> 01:20:31,667 [ LAUGHS ] 1765 01:20:32,800 --> 01:20:34,900 I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 1766 01:20:34,900 --> 01:20:36,533 OOH! 1767 01:20:36,533 --> 01:20:39,667 ** 1768 01:20:39,667 --> 01:20:41,800 I JUST REALLY HOPE THIS IS ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW 1769 01:20:41,800 --> 01:20:46,200 TO THINK I'M READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1770 01:20:46,200 --> 01:20:47,700 HELLO. HI. 1771 01:20:47,700 --> 01:20:50,133 HOW YOU DOING, STEVEN? 1772 01:20:50,133 --> 01:20:52,167 WELL, GOOD. 1773 01:20:52,167 --> 01:20:56,133 OKAY, SO, YOU LOST 73 POUNDS IN A BIT OVER TWO MONTHS. 1774 01:20:56,133 --> 01:20:59,000 THAT IS A MOVE IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 1775 01:20:59,000 --> 01:21:00,600 SO I'M PROUD OF YOU. 1776 01:21:00,600 --> 01:21:02,267 YOU'VE SHOWN ME THAT IT IS POSSIBLE 1777 01:21:02,267 --> 01:21:04,067 FOR YOU TO CONTROL YOURSELF. 1778 01:21:04,067 --> 01:21:06,733 BUT I STILL NEED TO SEE MORE FROM YOU 1779 01:21:06,733 --> 01:21:10,433 BEFORE I KNOW YOU'RE READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 1780 01:21:10,433 --> 01:21:11,667 OKAY. 1781 01:21:11,667 --> 01:21:14,667 BUT IT'S IMPERATIVE TO KEEP SEEING THE THERAPIST. 1782 01:21:14,667 --> 01:21:17,100 BUT YOU'RE DOING GOOD. 1783 01:21:17,100 --> 01:21:19,533 STEVEN STILL HAS A LONG WAY TO GO, 1784 01:21:19,533 --> 01:21:23,067 BUT FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE HE HAS BEEN IN HERE, 1785 01:21:23,067 --> 01:21:24,633 I'M FEELING OPTIMISTIC 1786 01:21:24,633 --> 01:21:27,800 AND LIKE THERE IS A CHANCE TO HELP HIM RIGHT NOW. 1787 01:21:27,800 --> 01:21:30,133 SO, THIS IS A GOOD MOMENTUM, 1788 01:21:30,133 --> 01:21:33,867 AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE 40 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH, OKAY? 1789 01:21:33,867 --> 01:21:34,933 OKAY. 1790 01:21:34,933 --> 01:21:37,100 ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 1791 01:21:37,100 --> 01:21:41,400 THE CHANCES OF SUCCESS WITH STEVEN 1792 01:21:41,400 --> 01:21:43,200 ARE DEPENDING TOTALLY ON HIM, 1793 01:21:43,200 --> 01:21:46,767 AND HOPEFULLY, WE CAN TAKE A STEP-BY-STEP APPROACH 1794 01:21:46,767 --> 01:21:49,467 TO GETTING HIM TO BECOME A HEALTHY PERSON 1795 01:21:49,467 --> 01:21:55,400 SO HE CAN START TO LOSE WEIGHT AND CHANGE HIS LIFE. 1796 01:21:55,400 --> 01:22:00,167 Steven: THAT'S THE FIRST TIME I'VE SEEN DR. NOW SMILE AT ME. 1797 01:22:00,167 --> 01:22:02,067 I KNOW THIS CHANCE IS A GIFT, 1798 01:22:02,067 --> 01:22:04,800 AND I'M NOT GONNA DO ANYTHING TO SCREW IT UP. 1799 01:22:13,333 --> 01:22:16,933 AS I GET FURTHER AND FURTHER FROM MY DRUG ADDICTION, 1800 01:22:16,933 --> 01:22:19,467 I FEEL LIKE THINGS ARE GETTING CLEARER FOR ME, 1801 01:22:19,467 --> 01:22:22,133 AND ONE THING THAT'S REALLY BEEN ON MY MIND 1802 01:22:22,133 --> 01:22:25,933 IS MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BROTHER. 1803 01:22:25,933 --> 01:22:28,767 I THINK WHAT HURT THE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY BRO 1804 01:22:28,767 --> 01:22:33,500 IS I WAS A BIG BULLY AND I DROVE HIM INSANE. 1805 01:22:33,500 --> 01:22:35,433 ** 1806 01:22:35,433 --> 01:22:39,100 I KNOW I HAVEN'T BEEN GOOD TO HIM. 1807 01:22:39,100 --> 01:22:42,567 BUT I NEED HIM TO KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM. 1808 01:22:43,600 --> 01:22:45,800 AND I REALLY WANT HIM 1809 01:22:45,800 --> 01:22:49,567 TO TRY AND GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, TOO. 1810 01:22:49,567 --> 01:22:51,900 HI, JOHN. HI. 1811 01:22:51,900 --> 01:22:54,733 HOW'S YOUR STORE DOING, JUSTIN? VERY GOOD. 1812 01:22:54,733 --> 01:22:57,233 MADE A LOT OF $100s TODAY. 1813 01:22:57,233 --> 01:22:59,233 GOOD. SO, HOW MUCH DID YOU LOSE? 1814 01:22:59,233 --> 01:23:03,300 I WAS DOWN 73 POUNDS. ALL RIGHT. 1815 01:23:03,300 --> 01:23:06,233 SO, HAVE YOU BEEN WATCHING WHAT YOU'VE BEEN EATING? 1816 01:23:06,233 --> 01:23:09,067 HAVE YOU BEEN TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT? 1817 01:23:09,067 --> 01:23:10,267 YEAH. YEAH. 1818 01:23:10,267 --> 01:23:12,300 YEAH. I KNOW IT'S NOT EASY. 1819 01:23:12,300 --> 01:23:13,767 BELIEVE ME. I KNOW. 1820 01:23:13,767 --> 01:23:16,400 I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU 1821 01:23:16,400 --> 01:23:22,533 THAT I REALLY HOPE YOU GET THE SURGERY, AND... 1822 01:23:22,533 --> 01:23:24,500 I JUST WANT YOU TO DO THE RIGHT THING, ALL RIGHT? 1823 01:23:24,500 --> 01:23:29,267 AND I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I CARE ABOUT YOU. 1824 01:23:29,267 --> 01:23:31,367 UH... 1825 01:23:34,067 --> 01:23:35,633 [ Voice breaking ] I JUST WANT TO APOLOGIZE 1826 01:23:35,633 --> 01:23:40,067 ABOUT EVERYTHING I PUT YOU THROUGH IN THE PAST. 1827 01:23:40,067 --> 01:23:42,333 I'M NOT SOMEBODY YOU SAY THAT TO 1828 01:23:42,333 --> 01:23:44,167 AND YOU AUTOMATICALLY GET FORGIVENESS FROM ME. 1829 01:23:44,167 --> 01:23:46,400 YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT. NO, I UNDERSTAND, 1830 01:23:46,400 --> 01:23:48,133 AND I WILL EARN YOUR FORGIVENESS. 1831 01:23:48,133 --> 01:23:50,200 YOU HAVE TO. THAT'S THE ONLY WAY YOU'LL GET IT BACK. 1832 01:23:50,200 --> 01:23:53,233 JUST KEEP DOING THE RIGHT THING. 1833 01:23:53,233 --> 01:23:56,667 AND I LOVE YOU AS A BROTHER. 1834 01:23:56,667 --> 01:23:59,100 ALL RIGHT. 1835 01:23:59,100 --> 01:24:01,267 PLEASE DO THIS, OKAY? 1836 01:24:01,267 --> 01:24:03,600 I'M PLANNING ON GETTING THE SURGERY. 1837 01:24:03,600 --> 01:24:05,900 THAT'S AWESOME, JUSTIN. YEAH, OF COURSE. 1838 01:24:05,900 --> 01:24:07,667 I HAVE TO UPDATE MY WILL FIRST. 1839 01:24:07,667 --> 01:24:09,100 [ CHUCKLES ] 1840 01:24:09,100 --> 01:24:14,533 IT'S GONNA BE VERY EXCITING FOR THAT DAY TO COME FOR ME. 1841 01:24:14,533 --> 01:24:16,233 I'LL BE DOWN -- I'LL BE DOWN THERE SOON. 1842 01:24:16,233 --> 01:24:19,400 SO, HAVE A GOOD NIGHT. 1843 01:24:19,400 --> 01:24:21,400 YOU, TOO. 1844 01:24:21,400 --> 01:24:23,633 BYE. BYE. 1845 01:24:23,633 --> 01:24:27,933 ** 1846 01:24:31,900 --> 01:24:34,500 WHY DON'T YOU STAND IN THE SUN WHERE IT'S MORE -- 1847 01:24:34,500 --> 01:24:36,433 YOU FEEL THE HEAT BETTER. 1848 01:24:36,433 --> 01:24:38,733 Justin: I'M NOT SURE IF I CAN BELIEVE ANYTHING STEVEN SAYS 1849 01:24:38,733 --> 01:24:42,400 BECAUSE HE HAS MOOD SWINGS, HE HAS DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES. 1850 01:24:42,400 --> 01:24:45,067 IT DEPENDS ON WHICH STEVEN HE IS TODAY. 1851 01:24:45,067 --> 01:24:48,267 I KNOW RIGHT NOW HE IS MAKING BETTER CHOICES, 1852 01:24:48,267 --> 01:24:51,300 BUT STEVEN HAS TO KEEP DOING THE RIGHT THING 1853 01:24:51,300 --> 01:24:52,867 IF HE WANTS TO GET MY TRUST BACK. 1854 01:24:52,867 --> 01:24:54,767 AND THAT'S A HARD THING TO DO. 1855 01:24:54,767 --> 01:24:55,767 [ WHISTLES ] 1856 01:24:55,767 --> 01:24:57,300 STEVEN HAS TO EARN IT. 1857 01:24:57,300 --> 01:24:59,467 I MEAN, NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES, 1858 01:24:59,467 --> 01:25:01,867 HE STILL HAS TO EARN IT. 1859 01:25:01,867 --> 01:25:03,500 OH! I GOT IT. 1860 01:25:03,500 --> 01:25:05,700 AND DESPITE EVERYTHING THAT STEVEN HAS DONE TO ME, 1861 01:25:05,700 --> 01:25:08,267 I DO WANT THE BEST FOR HIM, NO MATTER WHAT. 1862 01:25:08,267 --> 01:25:12,800 ** 1863 01:25:15,433 --> 01:25:18,067 I LOVE MY BROTHER, AND ONE OF THE THINGS 1864 01:25:18,067 --> 01:25:23,467 I WANT THE MOST IS TO REPAIR MY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM. 1865 01:25:23,467 --> 01:25:26,433 AND I KNOW THAT IT'S GONNA TAKE TIME 1866 01:25:26,433 --> 01:25:29,733 AND THAT THERE'S A LOT TO PROVE. 1867 01:25:29,733 --> 01:25:31,900 SO, THAT'S WHAT I'M GONNA DO, NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES. 1867 01:25:32,305 --> 01:26:32,250 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm