"My 600-lb Life" Nikki

1 00:00:02,300 --> 00:00:05,300 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 2 00:00:05,300 --> 00:00:07,933 ** 3 00:00:07,933 --> 00:00:09,867 Milla: I CAN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. 4 00:00:09,867 --> 00:00:12,767 MY CHILDREN HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING FOR ME. 5 00:00:12,767 --> 00:00:15,300 Charity: I FEEL LIKE SOME MONSTER. 6 00:00:15,300 --> 00:00:17,600 Nikki: I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. 7 00:00:17,600 --> 00:00:20,333 [ Crying ] IT'S MISERABLE. 8 00:00:20,333 --> 00:00:24,033 Brittani: MY BODY IS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING IN THE WORLD. 9 00:00:24,033 --> 00:00:26,533 ** 10 00:00:26,533 --> 00:00:28,267 Woman: I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW. 11 00:00:28,267 --> 00:00:32,267 June: I'M RISKING MY LIFE FOR A BETTER LIFE. 12 00:00:32,267 --> 00:00:34,300 I LOVE YOU, MOMMY. 13 00:00:36,000 --> 00:00:42,074 Do you want subtitles for any video? -=[ ai.OpenSubtitles.com ]=- 14 00:00:44,867 --> 00:00:47,500 -OOH, CHILD! -PULL. GOOD. THERE YOU GO! 15 00:00:47,500 --> 00:00:49,000 GOOD JOB. 16 00:00:49,000 --> 00:00:52,633 Teretha: I'M GETTING STRONGER, BUT I KNOW I HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO. 17 00:00:52,633 --> 00:00:55,300 Paula: I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. 18 00:00:55,300 --> 00:00:58,933 ** 19 00:00:58,933 --> 00:01:03,600 Susan: I AM NOW EXPRESSING MYSELF AND LIVING MY OWN TRUTH. 20 00:01:03,600 --> 00:01:06,167 Milla: I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THE PROGRESS I'VE MADE. 21 00:01:06,167 --> 00:01:11,100 June: I AM LIVING LIFE, AND I'M LOVING EVERY SECOND OF IT. 22 00:01:11,100 --> 00:01:14,933 Nikki: WORDS LIKE "AMAZING" AND "FANTASTIC" AND "FABULOUS," 23 00:01:14,933 --> 00:01:17,333 THEY JUST DON'T SEEM STRONG ENOUGH. 24 00:01:17,333 --> 00:01:20,333 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 25 00:01:20,333 --> 00:01:25,767 WHEN I WAKE UP, THE PAIN THAT I FEEL IS OVERWHELMING. 26 00:01:25,767 --> 00:01:28,067 I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED 27 00:01:28,067 --> 00:01:33,433 BECAUSE IT'S JUST DIFFICULT TO MOVE MY BODY. 28 00:01:33,433 --> 00:01:36,967 BUT THE HARDEST THING FOR ME TO LIVE WITH IS MY STOMACH. 29 00:01:36,967 --> 00:01:40,067 IT GETS IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING. 30 00:01:40,067 --> 00:01:41,767 IT'S MISERABLE. 31 00:01:45,833 --> 00:01:47,400 WHEN I START MY DAY, 32 00:01:47,400 --> 00:01:50,733 MY DAD WILL MAKE ME A PLATE AND SEND IT UP TO ME 33 00:01:50,733 --> 00:01:54,100 SO I DON'T HAVE TO GO DOWNSTAIRS. 34 00:01:54,100 --> 00:01:55,433 THERE WERE MANY TIMES 35 00:01:55,433 --> 00:01:58,433 THAT I WOULD TALK TO HER ABOUT HER EATING HABITS, 36 00:01:58,433 --> 00:01:59,567 BUT NIKKI HAS TOLD ME, 37 00:01:59,567 --> 00:02:02,300 "FOOD IS ONE THING I HAVE CONTROL OVER. 38 00:02:02,300 --> 00:02:05,067 IT HURTS MY FEELINGS WHEN YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT IT." 39 00:02:05,067 --> 00:02:07,233 FINALLY, I'D SAY, "OKAY, YOU KNOW WHAT? 40 00:02:07,233 --> 00:02:08,933 NIKKI, I DON'T CARE." 41 00:02:08,933 --> 00:02:12,833 FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN AN ADDICTION FOR ME. 42 00:02:12,833 --> 00:02:17,833 AND MY ADDICTION TO IT IS KILLING ME. 43 00:02:17,833 --> 00:02:19,900 BUT I'VE DONE THIS TO MYSELF, 44 00:02:19,900 --> 00:02:22,467 AND IT FEELS LIKE EVERY DAY, 45 00:02:22,467 --> 00:02:26,100 I CAN DO LESS AND LESS. 46 00:02:26,100 --> 00:02:30,567 AFTER COLLEGE, I MOVED BACK HOME WITH MY MOM 47 00:02:30,567 --> 00:02:33,067 AND MY DAD AND MY BROTHER, CHRIS, 48 00:02:33,067 --> 00:02:37,867 BECAUSE LIVING ON MY OWN IS JUST TOO DIFFICULT. 49 00:02:37,867 --> 00:02:42,267 BUT CHRIS HAS CEREBRAL PALSY, AND IN MANY INSTANCES, 50 00:02:42,267 --> 00:02:45,767 MY LIMITATIONS FAR EXCEED HIS, 51 00:02:45,767 --> 00:02:47,433 AND THAT'S A BIG STATEMENT, 52 00:02:47,433 --> 00:02:50,300 BECAUSE I NEED TO BE THERE FOR HIM. 53 00:02:59,300 --> 00:03:02,133 THIS IS MY ROCK BOTTOM AND MY LAST CHANCE, 54 00:03:02,133 --> 00:03:06,233 AND IF THIS DOCTOR CAN'T DO ANYTHING FOR ME, 55 00:03:06,233 --> 00:03:09,767 I WOULD PROBABLY FEEL LIKE IT WAS A DEATH SENTENCE. 56 00:03:09,767 --> 00:03:11,867 Woman: 649. 57 00:03:11,867 --> 00:03:14,833 THIS IS THE HIGHEST I'VE EVER WEIGHED. 58 00:03:14,833 --> 00:03:18,100 Dr. Nowzaradan: NIKKI IS EATING 5 TO 6 TIMES A DAY. 59 00:03:18,100 --> 00:03:21,067 SOME OF THAT IS ENABLED BY HER FAMILY. 60 00:03:21,067 --> 00:03:22,600 THEY'RE HELPING KILL HER. 61 00:03:22,600 --> 00:03:26,600 I'M GOING TO START YOU ON 1,200 CALORIE A DAY DIET. 62 00:03:26,600 --> 00:03:29,867 THEN YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 50 POUNDS OVER NEXT MONTH. 63 00:03:29,867 --> 00:03:31,267 OH, MY GOSH. 64 00:03:31,267 --> 00:03:34,133 THAT SOUNDS LIKE A LOT OF WEIGHT. 65 00:03:34,133 --> 00:03:38,300 Nikki: THIS IS A LITTLE OVERWHELMING. 66 00:03:38,300 --> 00:03:41,067 BUT I HAVE NO DOUBT THAT THIS IS SOMETHING 67 00:03:41,067 --> 00:03:42,800 THAT I HAVE TO DO, 68 00:03:42,800 --> 00:03:47,700 BECAUSE I CAN FEEL MY BODY DETERIORATING. 69 00:03:47,700 --> 00:03:51,767 SO I KNOW THIS IS A RACE AGAINST THE CLOCK. 70 00:03:51,767 --> 00:03:53,967 I'M REALLY SCARED 71 00:03:53,967 --> 00:03:56,300 THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE UNDER 600 POUNDS 72 00:03:56,300 --> 00:04:00,300 TO QUALIFY FOR SURGERY. 73 00:04:00,300 --> 00:04:03,967 I SEE YOU LOST 63 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH. 74 00:04:03,967 --> 00:04:05,567 -YES. -YOU DONE VERY WELL, 75 00:04:05,567 --> 00:04:08,100 BUT I NEED TO RUN SOME TESTS TO BE SURE 76 00:04:08,100 --> 00:04:10,400 THAT YOU ARE READY FOR SURGERY NOW. 77 00:04:10,400 --> 00:04:11,867 -OKAY? -OKAY. 78 00:04:11,867 --> 00:04:14,833 Dr. Nowzaradan: SHE CARRY MOST OF HER WEIGHT IN THE ABDOMEN, 79 00:04:14,833 --> 00:04:18,233 WHICH CAN COMPROMISE HER RESPIRATORY SYSTEM OR HEART. 80 00:04:18,233 --> 00:04:19,733 SO I NEED TO MAKE SURE 81 00:04:19,733 --> 00:04:22,400 THAT HER BODY CAN HANDLE SURGERY, 82 00:04:22,400 --> 00:04:26,267 OR SHE WOULD LIKELY NOT SURVIVE THE PROCEDURE. 83 00:04:26,267 --> 00:04:29,967 Nikki: I'M NOT SURE WHAT THE DOCTOR IS LOOKING FOR, 84 00:04:29,967 --> 00:04:33,267 BUT I'VE WORKED REALLY HARD TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 85 00:04:33,267 --> 00:04:34,467 AND I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW 86 00:04:34,467 --> 00:04:37,200 THAT'S ALL GOING TO HAVE BEEN FOR NOTHING. 87 00:04:37,200 --> 00:04:40,200 NIKKI STILL HAVE A LOT OF WEIGHT PUSHING ON HER HEART. 88 00:04:40,200 --> 00:04:44,500 THE ONLY WAY TO FIX IT IS FOR HER TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT. 89 00:04:44,500 --> 00:04:46,433 I WANT YOU TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS 90 00:04:46,433 --> 00:04:48,267 OVER NEXT COUPLE MONTHS 91 00:04:48,267 --> 00:04:50,900 AND TRY TO ADDRESS THIS ISSUE. 92 00:04:50,900 --> 00:04:54,700 I WORKED SO HARD. 93 00:04:54,700 --> 00:04:59,333 I JUST FEEL HOPELESS RIGHT NOW. 94 00:04:59,333 --> 00:05:02,367 BUT I WANT TO LIVE. 95 00:05:02,367 --> 00:05:05,633 I DID IT ONCE. I KNOW I CAN DO IT AGAIN. 96 00:05:08,400 --> 00:05:11,900 AND I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME IF I DON'T DO THIS. 97 00:05:11,900 --> 00:05:14,867 EVERYTHING LOOKING GOOD. I THINK WE'RE GOING TO GO AHEAD 98 00:05:14,867 --> 00:05:17,133 AND APPROVE YOUR SURGERY AT THIS POINT. 99 00:05:17,133 --> 00:05:19,433 EXCELLENT. 100 00:05:19,433 --> 00:05:22,100 I'M GLAD THIS DAY HAS COME, 101 00:05:22,100 --> 00:05:26,300 BUT I FEEL TERRIFIED ABOUT WHAT CAN HAPPEN. 102 00:05:26,300 --> 00:05:28,900 -I LOVE YOU. -I LOVE YOU, TOO. 103 00:05:28,900 --> 00:05:32,267 I'M RISKING MY LIFE TO HAVE A LIFE. 104 00:05:32,267 --> 00:05:35,633 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE GOING TO DO GASTRIC BYPASS ON NIKKI. 105 00:05:35,633 --> 00:05:37,533 AND SURGERY IS GOING TO HELP HER 106 00:05:37,533 --> 00:05:39,467 MAKE EVEN MORE PROGRESS. 107 00:05:39,467 --> 00:05:43,433 THE BOWEL IS JUST SO FAR AWAY FROM STOMACH. 108 00:05:43,433 --> 00:05:47,133 IT'S GOING TO BE IMPOSSIBLE TO BRING IT UP THAT DISTANCE. 109 00:05:53,133 --> 00:05:56,667 IT CAN BE JUST AS EFFECTIVE AS BYPASS. 110 00:05:56,667 --> 00:05:59,533 I'M GOING TO GO AHEAD AND CLOSE HER UP. 111 00:05:59,533 --> 00:06:01,567 ALL RIGHT. 112 00:06:01,567 --> 00:06:03,467 WE HAD SOME CHANGE OF PLAN, 113 00:06:03,467 --> 00:06:05,267 BUT EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL. 114 00:06:05,267 --> 00:06:08,933 THE SLEEVE IS GOING TO HELP HER TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT. 115 00:06:08,933 --> 00:06:11,100 Nikki: I'M PROUD OF HOW FAR I'VE COME, 116 00:06:11,100 --> 00:06:15,367 BUT MY CRAVINGS ARE SLOWLY COMING BACK. 117 00:06:15,367 --> 00:06:18,733 SO I'M GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST TODAY. 118 00:06:18,733 --> 00:06:21,167 Woman: IT'S IMPORTANT TO DEAL WITH THE EMOTIONAL ISSUES 119 00:06:21,167 --> 00:06:23,700 THAT CAUSED THE WEIGHT GAIN IN THE FIRST PLACE. 120 00:06:23,700 --> 00:06:25,967 AND ONCE YOU'RE ABLE TO LET GO OF THAT, 121 00:06:25,967 --> 00:06:29,533 THEN IT BECOMES EASIER TO KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF. 122 00:06:29,533 --> 00:06:33,200 I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO TALK TO MY MOM. 123 00:06:33,200 --> 00:06:36,667 I THINK I FELT LIKE I WAS JUST NEVER GOOD ENOUGH. 124 00:06:36,667 --> 00:06:38,767 I HATE THAT YOU EVER FELT THAT WAY. 125 00:06:38,767 --> 00:06:40,933 I HOPE I DON'T EVER HURT YOUR FEELINGS. 126 00:06:40,933 --> 00:06:43,300 I LOVE YOU, BABY. 127 00:06:43,300 --> 00:06:49,067 MY GOAL HAS BEEN TO HIT 449 POUNDS WITHIN A YEAR. 128 00:06:49,067 --> 00:06:52,100 -443. -WHAT?! NO. [ LAUGHS ] 129 00:06:52,100 --> 00:06:54,233 YOU LOST 200 POUNDS. 130 00:06:54,233 --> 00:06:57,200 -THAT'S VERY GOOD. -THANK YOU. 131 00:06:57,200 --> 00:06:59,433 I'M STARTING TO BE ABLE TO DO MORE, 132 00:06:59,433 --> 00:07:04,133 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M GETTING MY LIFE BACK. 133 00:07:04,133 --> 00:07:05,800 HERE WE GO. 134 00:07:05,800 --> 00:07:09,133 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME, 135 00:07:09,133 --> 00:07:11,067 I BELIEVE IN MYSELF. 136 00:07:15,967 --> 00:07:19,067 ** 137 00:07:26,800 --> 00:07:30,833 I'M STARTING TO LOVE MY LIFE NOW. 138 00:07:30,833 --> 00:07:34,233 I USED TO RUN TO FOOD WHEN I FELT STRESSED OR UPSET, 139 00:07:34,233 --> 00:07:38,067 AND I DIDN'T CARE WHAT IT DID TO ME OR MY BODY. 140 00:07:38,067 --> 00:07:40,333 AND NOW I'M NOT DOING THAT. 141 00:07:40,333 --> 00:07:44,100 FOOD IS NOT MY EMOTIONAL CRUTCH ANYMORE. 142 00:07:44,100 --> 00:07:47,600 IT'S STILL A STRUGGLE, BUT I'M DEALING WITH THINGS. 143 00:07:47,600 --> 00:07:52,133 AND NOW MY HEALTH IS THE PRIORITY IN MY LIFE. 144 00:07:52,133 --> 00:07:54,467 IT'S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING, 145 00:07:54,467 --> 00:07:58,867 AND SO EVERYTHING KIND OF REVOLVES AROUND THAT. 146 00:07:58,867 --> 00:08:02,367 AND I'VE NEVER FELT BETTER. 147 00:08:02,367 --> 00:08:06,633 I'M LOSING MORE AND MORE WEIGHT EVERY DAY. 148 00:08:06,633 --> 00:08:09,600 AND I'M AMAZED AT HOW MUCH I'M ABLE TO DO NOW. 149 00:08:13,233 --> 00:08:15,167 [ CHUCKLES ] 150 00:08:15,167 --> 00:08:16,800 NOW YOU ARE. [ CHUCKLES ] 151 00:08:16,800 --> 00:08:20,867 BEFORE, MY PARENTS HAD TO DO ALMOST EVERYTHING FOR ME 152 00:08:20,867 --> 00:08:23,733 EVEN JUST 6 MONTHS AGO. 153 00:08:23,733 --> 00:08:24,900 YOU READY TO GET OUT OF BED? 154 00:08:24,900 --> 00:08:27,233 -MM-HMM. -OKAY. 155 00:08:27,233 --> 00:08:31,433 AND ONE OF MY BIGGEST GOALS IN MY JOURNEY TO GET HEALTHY 156 00:08:31,433 --> 00:08:33,667 WAS TO HELP TAKE CARE OF MY BROTHER, CHRIS, 157 00:08:33,667 --> 00:08:36,633 WHO SUFFERS FROM CEREBRAL PALSY. 158 00:08:36,633 --> 00:08:41,100 NOW I'M ABLE TO PHYSICALLY MOVE CHRIS AROUND. 159 00:08:41,100 --> 00:08:43,733 IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT. 160 00:08:43,733 --> 00:08:46,133 I'M ABLE TO WALK HIM WITH EASE. 161 00:08:46,133 --> 00:08:51,067 AND BEFORE, IT WOULD FEEL LIKE I WAS GOING TO PASS OUT. 162 00:08:51,067 --> 00:08:53,967 AND IT JUST WASN'T SAFE FOR ME TO DO THAT. 163 00:08:53,967 --> 00:08:55,333 YOU HAVE YOUR WATCH ON, DON'T YOU? 164 00:08:55,333 --> 00:08:58,067 -MM-HMM. -I'LL GO GET YOU SOME SOCKS 165 00:08:58,067 --> 00:08:59,767 AND YOUR GLASSES AND YOUR RAZOR. 166 00:08:59,767 --> 00:09:03,300 -OKAY. -OKAY. 167 00:09:03,300 --> 00:09:06,867 IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY TO BE ABLE TO HELP HIM 168 00:09:06,867 --> 00:09:09,800 GET READY FOR THE DAY, 169 00:09:09,800 --> 00:09:11,300 BUT IT ALSO MAKES ME HAPPY 170 00:09:11,300 --> 00:09:14,600 TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT TO HELP MY PARENTS, 171 00:09:14,600 --> 00:09:16,100 BECAUSE FOR YEARS, 172 00:09:16,100 --> 00:09:19,833 THEY HAD TO TAKE CARE OF ME CONSTANTLY, 173 00:09:19,833 --> 00:09:22,933 PREVENTING CHRIS FROM GETTING ALL THE CARE THAT HE NEEDED. 174 00:09:25,167 --> 00:09:27,767 AND SO, I THINK IT REASSURES THEM 175 00:09:27,767 --> 00:09:30,767 THAT I GOT THIS THIS. LIKE, I CAN TAKE CARE OF HIM. 176 00:09:30,767 --> 00:09:32,267 OH, YOU FOUND YOUR GLASSES. 177 00:09:32,267 --> 00:09:34,067 -YEAH. -STINKER. 178 00:09:34,067 --> 00:09:35,900 AND HAVING WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY 179 00:09:35,900 --> 00:09:38,867 FINALLY ENABLED ME TO DO THAT. 180 00:09:38,867 --> 00:09:41,567 AND THAT IS WHAT I'M MOST THANKFUL FOR SO FAR 181 00:09:41,567 --> 00:09:44,100 WITH HOW MY LIFE HAS CHANGED. 182 00:09:44,100 --> 00:09:45,733 ALL RIGHT. SO, YOU WANT A WAFFLE? 183 00:09:45,733 --> 00:09:47,667 -TWO WAFFLES? -YEAH. 184 00:09:47,667 --> 00:09:49,700 OKAY. AWESOME. 185 00:09:49,700 --> 00:09:51,400 AS MY PARENTS AGE, 186 00:09:51,400 --> 00:09:55,800 I KNOW THAT I'LL BE AROUND TO TAKE CARE OF HIM NOW, 187 00:09:55,800 --> 00:09:58,900 AND MY PARENTS KNOW THAT. 188 00:09:58,900 --> 00:10:02,167 AND I KNOW THAT THAT GIVES THEM COMFORT. 189 00:10:04,200 --> 00:10:07,133 SO I'M PROUD OF HOW FAR I'VE COME. 190 00:10:07,133 --> 00:10:11,033 AND I'M GLAD I'M TAKING ON ALL THE NEW RESPONSIBILITY I HAVE. 191 00:10:20,933 --> 00:10:22,867 I KNOW I STILL HAVE A WAYS TO GO 192 00:10:22,867 --> 00:10:26,300 TO GET TO MY TARGET WEIGHT OF 165. 193 00:10:26,300 --> 00:10:29,233 SO I'M WORKING TO STAY ON TRACK. 194 00:10:29,233 --> 00:10:33,333 AND MY FAMILY HAS BEEN A HUGE SUPPORT FOR ME. 195 00:10:33,333 --> 00:10:35,667 AND ANY TIME THAT I'M STARTING TO STRUGGLE, 196 00:10:35,667 --> 00:10:38,167 I KNOW THAT I CAN RELY ON THEM FOR STRENGTH. 197 00:10:38,167 --> 00:10:39,400 Terry: THANK THEE FOR OUR BLESSINGS. 198 00:10:39,400 --> 00:10:41,767 WE'RE GRATEFUL TO BE TOGETHER THIS EVENING. 199 00:10:41,767 --> 00:10:43,767 AMEN. 200 00:10:43,767 --> 00:10:46,700 Nikki: BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I KNOW NOW THAT I'M LOSING THE WEIGHT. 201 00:10:46,700 --> 00:10:48,300 IT MEANS THERE'S NO EXCUSE FOR ME 202 00:10:48,300 --> 00:10:51,100 TO NOT START TO FIND A PLACE OF MY OWN. 203 00:10:51,100 --> 00:10:53,633 BUT IT'S BITTERSWEET TO THINK ABOUT. 204 00:10:53,633 --> 00:10:55,233 I'M NOT QUITE THERE YET, 205 00:10:55,233 --> 00:10:58,900 BUT I KNOW THAT THAT'S SOMETHING I'M GOING TO NEED TO DO SOON. 206 00:10:58,900 --> 00:11:03,367 DR. NOWZARADAN SAID THAT I NEED THREE SKIN SURGERIES -- 207 00:11:03,367 --> 00:11:05,733 ONE FOR MY STOMACH, ONE FOR MY ARMS, 208 00:11:05,733 --> 00:11:08,500 AND THEN MY LEGS. 209 00:11:08,500 --> 00:11:11,567 I KNOW THOSE SURGERIES ARE HARD TO RECOVER FROM. 210 00:11:11,567 --> 00:11:12,867 AND MY FAMILY AND I DECIDED 211 00:11:12,867 --> 00:11:15,300 THAT AFTER THOSE LAST OPERATIONS, 212 00:11:15,300 --> 00:11:17,300 THAT THAT'S WHEN I'LL BE READY TO START LOOKING 213 00:11:17,300 --> 00:11:19,233 FOR A PLACE ON MY OWN 214 00:11:19,233 --> 00:11:22,600 AND POSSIBLY TAKE MY BROTHER WITH ME. 215 00:11:22,600 --> 00:11:24,100 THERE YOU GO. 216 00:11:24,100 --> 00:11:26,500 YEAH, THAT'S WHERE YOU HOLD IT. [ CHUCKLES ] 217 00:11:28,500 --> 00:11:30,367 SO RIGHT NOW, I'M WORKING REALLY HARD 218 00:11:30,367 --> 00:11:31,500 TO HIT THAT GOAL 219 00:11:31,500 --> 00:11:34,300 TO TRY AND GET MY FIRST SKIN SURGERY 220 00:11:34,300 --> 00:11:36,400 BY MY NEXT DOCTOR'S VISIT. 221 00:11:44,400 --> 00:11:46,867 AND MY DAD IS HELPING ME STAY ACCOUNTABLE 222 00:11:46,867 --> 00:11:50,900 TO MY WORKOUT REGIMEN BY BEING MY WORKOUT PARTNER. 223 00:11:50,900 --> 00:11:52,533 HE'S ALWAYS BEEN MY BIGGEST SUPPORTER 224 00:11:52,533 --> 00:11:55,067 AND THE PERSON THAT, NO MATTER WHAT, 225 00:11:55,067 --> 00:11:57,333 HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME. 226 00:11:57,333 --> 00:12:00,167 I THINK THE BEST THING ABOUT THIS WORKOUT ROOM 227 00:12:00,167 --> 00:12:02,367 IS GOING TO BE THE AIR CONDITIONING. 228 00:12:02,367 --> 00:12:05,433 YEAH. [ LAUGHS ] 229 00:12:05,433 --> 00:12:07,267 Terry: WALKING DOWN TO THE CLUBHOUSE -- 230 00:12:07,267 --> 00:12:09,067 IT'S A GREAT EXPERIENCE WITH NIKKI, 231 00:12:09,067 --> 00:12:13,500 BECAUSE WE HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT IN YEARS. 232 00:12:13,500 --> 00:12:15,067 AND JUST BEING IN HER COMPANY 233 00:12:15,067 --> 00:12:17,667 AND BEING ABLE TO TALK WHILE WE WALK, 234 00:12:17,667 --> 00:12:23,933 IT'S REALLY QUITE AMAZING TO SEE HOW FAR SHE HAS COME. 235 00:12:23,933 --> 00:12:26,233 Nikki: HOW MUCH MY LIFE HAS CHANGED IN THE LAST YEAR -- 236 00:12:26,233 --> 00:12:29,633 IT'S WHAT DRIVES ME TO EXERCISE THROUGHOUT THE WEEK, 237 00:12:29,633 --> 00:12:33,567 BECAUSE I KNOW THERE'S SO MUCH MORE FOR ME TO EXPERIENCE 238 00:12:33,567 --> 00:12:35,333 AND TO LIVE FOR. 239 00:12:35,333 --> 00:12:40,467 OKAY, WELL, I'M GONNA GO GET ON THE TREADMILL FOR A LITTLE BIT. 240 00:12:40,467 --> 00:12:42,067 OH, I'M GOING TO GET ON THE CRUNCHES. 241 00:12:42,067 --> 00:12:44,233 OKAY. [ LAUGHS ] 242 00:12:44,233 --> 00:12:46,600 GOT TO GET THAT STOMACH GOING. 243 00:12:46,600 --> 00:12:48,967 MY DAD IS ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS, 244 00:12:48,967 --> 00:12:52,067 AND I DON'T WANT THAT TO CHANGE. 245 00:12:52,067 --> 00:12:53,600 BUT FOR SO MANY YEARS, 246 00:12:53,600 --> 00:12:56,333 I JUST COULDN'T GO OUT AND DO ANYTHING. 247 00:12:56,333 --> 00:12:59,367 NOW I WANT TO START TO MEET OTHER PEOPLE, 248 00:12:59,367 --> 00:13:02,067 BECAUSE BEING 600 POUNDS FOR SO LONG, 249 00:13:02,067 --> 00:13:04,633 I DIDN'T REALLY HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS. 250 00:13:04,633 --> 00:13:08,067 AND THE ONES I DO HAVE I MADE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, 251 00:13:08,067 --> 00:13:10,667 BUT I DON'T SEE ANY OF THEM EVER 252 00:13:10,667 --> 00:13:12,767 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN TOO BIG TO GO OUT 253 00:13:12,767 --> 00:13:15,267 AND SPEND TIME WITH THEM. 254 00:13:15,267 --> 00:13:17,300 WE STILL STAY CONNECTED AND TALK ON THE PHONE 255 00:13:17,300 --> 00:13:18,900 WHEN WE CAN, 256 00:13:18,900 --> 00:13:20,600 AND THE ONES THAT I'M CLOSEST TO 257 00:13:20,600 --> 00:13:23,567 ARE MY FRIENDS MARC AND MICHAEL. 258 00:13:23,567 --> 00:13:26,533 MICHAEL'S MY BEST FRIEND BECAUSE HE'S JUST A LOT OF FUN 259 00:13:26,533 --> 00:13:29,233 AND WE CAN RELATE TO EACH OTHER'S LIVES, 260 00:13:29,233 --> 00:13:32,600 BECAUSE HE STRUGGLES WITH HIS WEIGHT JUST LIKE ME. 261 00:13:32,600 --> 00:13:34,800 HE'S ALMOST 400 POUNDS, 262 00:13:34,800 --> 00:13:37,800 AND HE'S LOOKING TO GET WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY. 263 00:13:37,800 --> 00:13:39,100 SO WE'VE BEEN TALKING A LOT, 264 00:13:39,100 --> 00:13:41,233 BECAUSE HE WANTS TO KNOW WHAT IT'S BEEN LIKE 265 00:13:41,233 --> 00:13:44,467 AND HAS ALL THESE QUESTIONS ABOUT MY WEIGHT LOSS. 266 00:13:44,467 --> 00:13:46,633 AND IT'S BEEN NICE KIND OF MENTORING HIM 267 00:13:46,633 --> 00:13:48,767 THROUGH THIS PROCESS 268 00:13:48,767 --> 00:13:52,100 AS HE PREPARES TO TRY AND GET HIS LIFE BACK, TOO. 269 00:13:52,100 --> 00:13:55,667 SO, I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO MAYBE EVEN GETTING OUT THERE TOGETHER, 270 00:13:55,667 --> 00:13:57,300 BECAUSE HAVING SOMEONE WHO CAN RELATE 271 00:13:57,300 --> 00:13:58,567 TO WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH 272 00:13:58,567 --> 00:14:00,767 AND KNOWS HOW TO BE THERE FOR YOU 273 00:14:00,767 --> 00:14:03,167 CAN MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE. 274 00:14:05,600 --> 00:14:07,933 BECAUSE NOTHING ABOUT HAVING WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY 275 00:14:07,933 --> 00:14:12,133 AND LOSING HUNDREDS OF POUNDS IS EASY. 276 00:14:12,133 --> 00:14:15,567 AND NOW THAT I HAVE A MORE ACTIVE LIFESTYLE, 277 00:14:15,567 --> 00:14:18,567 MY EXCESS SKIN MAKES IT EVEN MORE DIFFICULT 278 00:14:18,567 --> 00:14:21,433 BECAUSE IT DOES WEIGH ME DOWN. 279 00:14:21,433 --> 00:14:25,067 IT DOES STILL MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M 600 POUNDS, 280 00:14:25,067 --> 00:14:28,767 EVEN THOUGH I'VE LOST ALMOST 300 POUNDS. 281 00:14:28,767 --> 00:14:30,167 IT'S FRUSTRATING. 282 00:14:30,167 --> 00:14:32,700 AND I'M SCARED I'M GOING TO BE OUT DOING SOMETHING 283 00:14:32,700 --> 00:14:36,733 AND HIT MY LIMIT AND NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME. 284 00:14:36,733 --> 00:14:39,833 SO I'M WORKING REALLY HARD TO INCREASE MY STAMINA 285 00:14:39,833 --> 00:14:43,267 SO THAT I CAN GO OUT AND NOT WORRY ABOUT HITTING A WALL, 286 00:14:43,267 --> 00:14:46,200 BUT IT'S SO PAINFUL AND HARD TO MOVE AROUND 287 00:14:46,200 --> 00:14:48,567 WITH IT HANGING OVER MY LEGS. 288 00:14:48,567 --> 00:14:52,433 AND I HAVE TO GET IT REMOVED AS SOON AS I CAN. 289 00:14:52,433 --> 00:14:54,800 -I'M DONE. ARE YOU READY? -ALL RIGHT. YEP. I AM. 290 00:14:54,800 --> 00:14:56,567 -I BROKE A SWEAT. -I'M NICE AND SWEATY. 291 00:14:56,567 --> 00:14:58,333 'COURSE, I BROKE THE SWEAT WALKING DOWN HERE. 292 00:14:58,333 --> 00:15:00,533 I WAS ABOUT TO SAY. 293 00:15:00,533 --> 00:15:02,200 SO I'M JUST TRYING TO KEEP GOING 294 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:04,567 AND MAKE THE PROGRESS I NEED. 295 00:15:04,567 --> 00:15:06,833 AND I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO DO WHAT I CAN 296 00:15:06,833 --> 00:15:09,067 BY MY NEXT DOCTOR'S VISIT, 297 00:15:09,067 --> 00:15:11,967 BECAUSE MY CONFIDENCE AND MY ABILITY TO GET AROUND 298 00:15:11,967 --> 00:15:13,467 ARE JUST GOING TO GET WORSE, 299 00:15:13,467 --> 00:15:16,167 THE WORSE MY EXCESS SKIN GETS. 300 00:15:21,067 --> 00:15:24,633 I WANT TO JUST BE A NORMAL GIRL. 301 00:15:24,633 --> 00:15:27,767 I KIND OF FEEL LIKE, EVEN THOUGH 302 00:15:27,767 --> 00:15:31,067 I KNOW I'M OBVIOUSLY STILL A BIG GIRL, 303 00:15:31,067 --> 00:15:33,967 I FEEL LIKE MY STOMACH 304 00:15:33,967 --> 00:15:38,533 JUST KIND OF SWALLOWS ME. 305 00:15:38,533 --> 00:15:41,367 I KNOW THAT I'M A LOT MORE THAN THIS. 306 00:15:41,367 --> 00:15:43,867 I KNOW THAT I'M A LOT MORE OF A PERSON THAN THIS, 307 00:15:43,867 --> 00:15:47,500 [ Voice breaking ] BUT THIS -- IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE 308 00:15:47,500 --> 00:15:49,400 THIS IS ALL I AM. 309 00:15:49,400 --> 00:15:51,633 AND I KNOW THAT THAT'S NOT TRUE, 310 00:15:51,633 --> 00:15:56,167 BUT WHEN IT'S SUCH A HINDRANCE IN YOUR LIFE 311 00:15:56,167 --> 00:15:59,500 AND IN YOUR EMOTIONAL LIFE, 312 00:15:59,500 --> 00:16:02,833 THEN IT'S HARD TO GET OVER. 313 00:16:02,833 --> 00:16:06,900 IT'S HARD TO BE OKAY WITH IT. IT'S HARD TO COME TO TERMS WITH. 314 00:16:06,900 --> 00:16:11,100 IT IS THE BIGGEST SYMBOL OF BEING IMMOBILE 315 00:16:11,100 --> 00:16:13,700 AND SAD 316 00:16:13,700 --> 00:16:18,333 AND NOT IN CONTROL OF ANYTHING I DID 317 00:16:18,333 --> 00:16:19,733 AND SHUTTING PEOPLE OUT. 318 00:16:19,733 --> 00:16:23,733 LIKE, IT IS THE SYMBOL OF ALL THOSE THINGS THAT I FELT 319 00:16:23,733 --> 00:16:27,567 AND ALL THOSE THINGS THAT I WENT THROUGH. 320 00:16:27,567 --> 00:16:29,200 AND IT'S TIME TO GET RID OF IT. 321 00:16:29,200 --> 00:16:32,333 IT'S TIME FOR ME TO GET RID OF IT. 322 00:16:32,333 --> 00:16:35,967 AND I KNOW THAT NO AMOUNT 323 00:16:35,967 --> 00:16:39,267 OF WEIGHT LOSS 324 00:16:39,267 --> 00:16:41,133 WILL GET RID OF IT. 325 00:16:41,133 --> 00:16:44,500 MY SPIRIT FEELS FREE, 326 00:16:44,500 --> 00:16:46,667 BUT I WANT MY BODY TO FEEL FREE. 327 00:16:46,667 --> 00:16:48,700 I WANT THOSE THINGS TO MATCH. 328 00:16:48,700 --> 00:16:50,767 AND SKIN SURGERY -- 329 00:16:50,767 --> 00:16:53,967 THAT'S REALLY THE ONLY WAY FOR THAT TO HAPPEN. 330 00:17:09,867 --> 00:17:11,500 Nikki: SINCE MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 331 00:17:11,500 --> 00:17:14,200 ONE OF THE BIGGEST WAYS IT'S CHANGED MY DAY-TO-DAY LIFE 332 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:15,600 IS AT WORK. 333 00:17:15,600 --> 00:17:17,533 I'M STILL THE ASSISTANT COSTUME DESIGNER 334 00:17:17,533 --> 00:17:20,233 AT THE ARKANSAS ART CENTER CHILDREN'S THEATER. 335 00:17:20,233 --> 00:17:24,167 AND I DO THE DESIGN AND CONSTRUCTION OF COSTUMES, 336 00:17:24,167 --> 00:17:27,967 BUT SINCE LOSING THE WEIGHT, I CAN TAKE ON SO MUCH MORE. 337 00:17:27,967 --> 00:17:29,667 AND I'M LOVING IT -- 338 00:17:29,667 --> 00:17:31,667 TO HAVE A PLACE WHERE I'M NEEDED, 339 00:17:31,667 --> 00:17:35,167 WHEN BEFORE, I NEEDED PEOPLE TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 340 00:17:35,167 --> 00:17:37,667 I CAN FINALLY REALLY CONTRIBUTE, AND I FEEL LIKE 341 00:17:37,667 --> 00:17:40,967 I'M ACCOMPLISHING SOMETHING EVERYDAY. 342 00:17:40,967 --> 00:17:45,600 DO Y'ALL NEED UNDERSHIRTS OR SOCKS OR TIGHTS? 343 00:17:45,600 --> 00:17:48,433 DO YOU HAVE AN EXTRA PAIR OF TIGHTS? 344 00:17:48,433 --> 00:17:49,867 I WILL SEE WHAT I CAN DO. 345 00:17:49,867 --> 00:17:51,167 -THANK YOU. -THANK YOU, NIKKI. 346 00:17:51,167 --> 00:17:52,200 I WILL MEET Y'ALL IN THE DRESSING ROOM. 347 00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:54,067 -BYE. -[ LAUGHS ] 348 00:17:54,067 --> 00:17:56,133 BEFORE, IT TOOK EVERYTHING I HAD 349 00:17:56,133 --> 00:17:58,400 JUST TO GET HERE AND GET TO MY CHAIR. 350 00:17:58,400 --> 00:18:01,333 I JUST SAT IN ONE PLACE ONLY DOING WHAT I COULD FROM THERE, 351 00:18:01,333 --> 00:18:04,800 AND THAT WAS EXTREMELY LIMITING FOR MY JOB. 352 00:18:04,800 --> 00:18:07,067 AND IF I HAD TO GET UP FOR SOMETHING, 353 00:18:07,067 --> 00:18:09,567 I WASN'T EVEN SURE THAT I COULD MAKE IT. 354 00:18:09,567 --> 00:18:11,933 BUT THE WORST PART ABOUT BEING SO BIG 355 00:18:11,933 --> 00:18:14,133 WAS TRYING TO GO DOWN THE SPIRAL STAIRCASE 356 00:18:14,133 --> 00:18:16,433 THAT LED TO THE COSTUME STOCK, 357 00:18:16,433 --> 00:18:19,067 BECAUSE THERE WAS NO WAY I COULD FIT, 358 00:18:19,067 --> 00:18:22,067 AND THAT WAS VERY EMBARRASSING. 359 00:18:22,067 --> 00:18:24,100 AND NOW I CAN DO IT WITH EASE. 360 00:18:24,100 --> 00:18:26,733 I DON'T EVEN HAVE TO SQUEEZE OR TURN SIDEWAYS. 361 00:18:26,733 --> 00:18:28,967 I CAN JUST WALK DOWN IT. 362 00:18:28,967 --> 00:18:31,267 BEFORE, I COULD HARDLY DO ANYTHING, 363 00:18:31,267 --> 00:18:32,933 AND I WOULD COME TO WORK, 364 00:18:32,933 --> 00:18:35,733 AND I WOULDN'T EVEN SEE MOST OF THE PEOPLE I WORK WITH 365 00:18:35,733 --> 00:18:38,567 BECAUSE I COULDN'T GET AROUND. 366 00:18:38,567 --> 00:18:42,233 AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I'M PART OF THE TEAM. 367 00:18:42,233 --> 00:18:47,067 I'M CONTRIBUTING JUST AS MUCH AS ANYONE ELSE. 368 00:18:47,067 --> 00:18:51,067 AND THAT MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY. 369 00:18:51,067 --> 00:18:53,600 -HEY. -HELLO. HELLO. 370 00:18:53,600 --> 00:18:55,067 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -GOOD. 371 00:18:55,067 --> 00:18:57,167 OKAY, I HAVE SOME NEW TIGHTS FOR YOU, SHARON. 372 00:18:57,167 --> 00:19:00,067 THANKS! THANK YOU, 'CAUSE THE ONES I HAD DIDN'T FIT, BUT... 373 00:19:00,067 --> 00:19:01,433 OKAY. 374 00:19:01,433 --> 00:19:02,867 ARE YOU GOOD WITH YOUR COSTUME? 375 00:19:02,867 --> 00:19:03,967 I THINK SO. 376 00:19:07,900 --> 00:19:12,100 LIKE, WOULD YOU RATHER HAVE, LIKE, A SNAP? 377 00:19:12,100 --> 00:19:14,100 -YOU'RE SUCH A DIVA. -I CAN'T HELP IT. 378 00:19:14,100 --> 00:19:15,433 [ LAUGHTER ] 379 00:19:15,433 --> 00:19:16,467 -ALL RIGHT. SEE Y'ALL. -BYE. 380 00:19:16,467 --> 00:19:19,167 -THANK YOU, NIKKI. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 381 00:19:19,167 --> 00:19:21,467 NOW I'M LOVING EVERY DAY AT MY JOB, 382 00:19:21,467 --> 00:19:25,633 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M MAKING UP FOR LOST TIME, 383 00:19:25,633 --> 00:19:28,133 ALL THE TIME THAT I MISSED 384 00:19:28,133 --> 00:19:30,933 BEING ABLE TO FULLY ENJOY MY JOB, 385 00:19:30,933 --> 00:19:32,333 BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING THAT I LOVE. 386 00:19:32,333 --> 00:19:34,933 IT'S SOMETHING THAT I LOVE TO DO. 387 00:19:34,933 --> 00:19:37,567 AND I'M NOT TAKING THE OPPORTUNITY I HAVE TO DO THIS 388 00:19:37,567 --> 00:19:39,867 FOR GRANTED AT ALL. 389 00:19:39,867 --> 00:19:42,333 AGAIN, THE ONLY THING THAT'S HOLDING ME BACK 390 00:19:42,333 --> 00:19:48,067 AND MAKING IT HARDER TO STAY ACTIVE IS THE EXCESS SKIN. 391 00:19:48,067 --> 00:19:50,400 I SEE DR. NOW IN A FEW WEEKS 392 00:19:50,400 --> 00:19:53,200 AND I'M GOING TO ASK HIM IF I'VE MADE ENOUGH PROGRESS 393 00:19:53,200 --> 00:19:56,933 TO HAVE THE EXCESS SKIN AROUND MY STOMACH REMOVED. 394 00:19:56,933 --> 00:20:00,533 HE HASN'T GIVEN ME A WEIGHT LOSS GOAL FOR THAT. 395 00:20:00,533 --> 00:20:02,367 BUT I'M HOPING I'M GOING TO BE CLOSE 396 00:20:02,367 --> 00:20:04,600 TO BEING BELOW 400 POUNDS AND THAT HE'LL THINK 397 00:20:04,600 --> 00:20:08,533 THAT THAT'S ENOUGH TO QUALIFY ME FOR SURGERY. 398 00:20:08,533 --> 00:20:11,100 I DON'T WANT ANYTHING ABOUT THE DIRECTION OF MY LIFE 399 00:20:11,100 --> 00:20:13,067 TO CHANGE NOW, 400 00:20:13,067 --> 00:20:15,933 BECAUSE I FOUGHT TO GET HERE. 401 00:20:15,933 --> 00:20:17,167 SO, I JUST REALLY HOPE 402 00:20:17,167 --> 00:20:21,200 MY NEXT APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW IS A GOOD ONE 403 00:20:21,200 --> 00:20:25,033 AND THAT I CAN GET THIS EXCESS SKIN REMOVED REALLY SOON. 404 00:20:38,767 --> 00:20:43,000 SO, I'M ON MY WAY TO SEE DR. NOW. 405 00:20:43,000 --> 00:20:46,700 AND LIKE ALWAYS, I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS, 406 00:20:46,700 --> 00:20:50,500 BUT I'M HOPING THIS IS GOING TO BE A BIG DAY FOR ME. 407 00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:56,133 I WAS AT 443 POUNDS LAST TIME I SAW HIM A COUPLE MONTHS AGO. 408 00:20:56,133 --> 00:20:59,767 I'M HOPING TO NOT ONLY BE UNDER 400 POUNDS, 409 00:20:59,767 --> 00:21:03,067 BUT THAT IT WILL BE ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW TO THINK 410 00:21:03,067 --> 00:21:06,467 THAT I'M READY FOR SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY. 411 00:21:06,467 --> 00:21:08,733 HE HASN'T GIVEN ME A GOAL TO HIT FOR IT, 412 00:21:08,733 --> 00:21:11,433 BUT IT'S GETTING SO MISERABLE. 413 00:21:11,433 --> 00:21:12,600 BEFORE I LOST THE WEIGHT, 414 00:21:12,600 --> 00:21:15,833 MY STOMACH DIDN'T HANG AND PULL ON ME. 415 00:21:15,833 --> 00:21:17,767 IT WAS JUST BIG. 416 00:21:17,767 --> 00:21:22,100 BUT LOSING THE WEIGHT IS LIKE DEFLATING A BALLOON. 417 00:21:22,100 --> 00:21:25,600 AND NOW IT JUST PULLS AND HANGS ON MY BODY 418 00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:29,867 IN A WAY THAT IS SO MUCH MORE PAINFUL THAN ANYTHING BEFORE. 419 00:21:33,833 --> 00:21:38,167 THAT'S NOT BAD. I'LL TAKE THAT. 420 00:21:38,167 --> 00:21:40,567 ALL RIGHT. 421 00:21:40,567 --> 00:21:44,733 I WISH I HAD LOST A LITTLE MORE BY NOW, 422 00:21:44,733 --> 00:21:47,133 BECAUSE I WAS HOPING TO BE UNDER 400 POUNDS 423 00:21:47,133 --> 00:21:49,567 AND SEE THAT 3 AT THE BEGINNING OF MY WEIGHT 424 00:21:49,567 --> 00:21:53,800 WHEN I ASK DR. NOW IF I CAN HAVE SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY. 425 00:21:53,800 --> 00:21:56,433 BUT I HOPE HE THINKS I'M CLOSE ENOUGH TODAY. 426 00:21:56,433 --> 00:21:59,067 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 427 00:21:59,067 --> 00:22:00,567 -HELLO. -HI. 428 00:22:00,567 --> 00:22:03,200 -HOW ARE YOU TODAY? -GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 429 00:22:03,200 --> 00:22:04,533 -ALL RIGHT. -GOOD. 430 00:22:04,533 --> 00:22:06,267 -SO, HOW YOU GETTING AROUND? -IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU. 431 00:22:06,267 --> 00:22:07,700 I'M DOING PRETTY GOOD. 432 00:22:07,700 --> 00:22:11,767 SO, TODAY, YOU LOST AROUND 250 POUNDS. 433 00:22:11,767 --> 00:22:13,333 -REALLY? -CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE 434 00:22:13,333 --> 00:22:15,433 BETWEEN DAY 1 TO NOW? 435 00:22:15,433 --> 00:22:17,167 YES. [ CHUCKLES ] YEAH, I DIDN'T -- 436 00:22:17,167 --> 00:22:19,633 I DIDN'T THINK -- I DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT WAS THAT MUCH. 437 00:22:19,633 --> 00:22:22,067 -250 POUNDS. -THAT'S A LOT OF WEIGHT. 438 00:22:22,067 --> 00:22:24,067 I CAN DEFINITELY TELL A DIFFERENCE. 439 00:22:24,067 --> 00:22:27,867 MY LIFE IS A LOT MORE ACTIVE THAN IT HAS BEEN 440 00:22:27,867 --> 00:22:29,333 -IN FOREVER. -OKAY. 441 00:22:29,333 --> 00:22:32,733 LIKE, I JUST HAVE MORE ENERGY, AND I MOVE AROUND A LOT MORE, 442 00:22:32,733 --> 00:22:34,800 AND I PARK FARTHER AWAY. 443 00:22:34,800 --> 00:22:38,367 OKAY, BUT YOUR WEIGHT LOSS IS SLOWING DOWN SOME. 444 00:22:38,367 --> 00:22:40,533 -I'M CONCERNED ABOUT THAT. -MM-HMM. 445 00:22:40,533 --> 00:22:42,267 AND YOU SHOULD BE LOSING 446 00:22:42,267 --> 00:22:45,333 AT LEAST 25 POUNDS A MONTH RIGHT NOW. 447 00:22:45,333 --> 00:22:47,500 IF I DO THAT, ANY CHANCE YOU THINK 448 00:22:47,500 --> 00:22:50,100 I'M CLOSE TO GETTING MY SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY? 449 00:22:50,100 --> 00:22:52,467 YOU KNOW, GET UNDER 300 POUNDS, 450 00:22:52,467 --> 00:22:55,200 AND THEN POSSIBILITY OF SKIN SURGERY 451 00:22:55,200 --> 00:22:57,667 WILL BE MUCH MORE REALISTIC. 452 00:22:57,667 --> 00:22:59,533 I REALLY WANT IT REMOVED SOON 453 00:22:59,533 --> 00:23:02,733 BEFORE IT HAS A CHANCE TO GET EVEN WORSE. 454 00:23:02,733 --> 00:23:06,067 LET ME TAKE A LOOK AT YOUR STOMACH. 455 00:23:06,067 --> 00:23:08,067 ALL RIGHT. YEAH, PULL IT UP LITTLE BIT MORE, 456 00:23:08,067 --> 00:23:11,833 AND I CAN SEE. ALL RIGHT. 457 00:23:11,833 --> 00:23:15,900 NIKKI HAS AN UNFORTUNATE COMBINATION OF ISSUES 458 00:23:15,900 --> 00:23:18,500 WITH THE EXCESS SKIN AROUND HER STOMACH. 459 00:23:18,500 --> 00:23:20,767 SHE HAS A LARGE COLLECTION OF FAT, 460 00:23:20,767 --> 00:23:22,233 AND ON TOP OF THAT, 461 00:23:22,233 --> 00:23:24,833 THE SKIN THERE IS VERY DISTENDED 462 00:23:24,833 --> 00:23:27,067 AND HAS CAUSED A LOT OF DAMAGE. 463 00:23:27,067 --> 00:23:28,467 WITHOUT THOSE ISSUES, 464 00:23:28,467 --> 00:23:31,333 SHE WOULD BE READY FOR SKIN REMOVAL NOW. 465 00:23:31,333 --> 00:23:33,300 BUT WITH THOSE FACTORS, 466 00:23:33,300 --> 00:23:36,567 IT'S NOT GOING TO BE SAFE FOR US TO REMOVE ANYTHING 467 00:23:36,567 --> 00:23:38,633 AROUND THERE RIGHT NOW. 468 00:23:38,633 --> 00:23:39,967 AM I READY? 469 00:23:39,967 --> 00:23:41,533 RIGHT NOW, IT LOOKS LIKE 470 00:23:41,533 --> 00:23:43,667 YOU NEED TO MAKE MUCH MORE PROGRESS 471 00:23:43,667 --> 00:23:46,267 BEFORE YOU'RE READY FOR SKIN SURGERY. 472 00:23:46,267 --> 00:23:50,367 AND I KNOW IT'S STARTING TO BECOME EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE 473 00:23:50,367 --> 00:23:52,900 AND YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT HOW IT LOOKS, 474 00:23:52,900 --> 00:23:55,333 BUT YOU'RE JUST NOT THERE YET. 475 00:23:55,333 --> 00:23:57,333 -OKAY. -SO, IT'S VERY IMPORTANT 476 00:23:57,333 --> 00:23:59,133 YOU LOSE ENOUGH WEIGHT 477 00:23:59,133 --> 00:24:01,333 SO IT CAN HEAL PROPERTY. 478 00:24:01,333 --> 00:24:03,567 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO LOSE A LOT, 479 00:24:03,567 --> 00:24:07,700 AND GET UNDER 300 POUNDS BEFORE YOU'LL BE READY. 480 00:24:07,700 --> 00:24:09,900 -OKAY. -IF YOU STAY ON TRACK, 481 00:24:09,900 --> 00:24:12,067 YOU CAN BE THERE IN FOUR MONTHS. 482 00:24:12,067 --> 00:24:13,367 YEAH? OKAY. 483 00:24:13,367 --> 00:24:16,200 BUT IT'S VERY IMPORTANT THAT WE WAIT 484 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:19,067 UNTIL IT'S SAFE TO DO THE REMOVAL. 485 00:24:19,067 --> 00:24:23,067 SO, I'LL SEE YOU FOR YOUR NEXT APPOINTMENT IN TWO MONTHS. 486 00:24:23,067 --> 00:24:27,333 AND IF YOU'RE ON TRACK, YOU'LL BE DOWN IN 350s. 487 00:24:27,333 --> 00:24:30,167 IF THAT THING GIVE YOU ANY TROUBLE, COME BACK SOONER. 488 00:24:30,167 --> 00:24:31,333 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT. 489 00:24:31,333 --> 00:24:34,067 -THANK YOU VERY MUCH, DR. NOW. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 490 00:24:37,067 --> 00:24:39,133 WE HAVE TO BE SAFE WITH NIKKI, 491 00:24:39,133 --> 00:24:42,567 BECAUSE HER SKIN REMOVAL AROUND HER STOMACH 492 00:24:42,567 --> 00:24:45,533 IS GOING TO BE AS COMPLICATED AS IT GETS 493 00:24:45,533 --> 00:24:48,300 FOR A PROCEDURE LIKE THIS. 494 00:24:48,300 --> 00:24:51,200 SHE HAS TO STAY ON TRACK A LOT LONGER 495 00:24:51,200 --> 00:24:54,667 BEFORE THAT OBSTACLE CAN BE ADDRESSED FOR HER. 496 00:24:54,667 --> 00:24:56,533 IT IS UNFORTUNATE FOR HER 497 00:24:56,533 --> 00:24:59,767 BUT IS THE REALITY OF HER SITUATION. 498 00:25:04,067 --> 00:25:06,833 Nikki: IT WAS A HUGE SHOCK TO HEAR DR. NOWZARADAN SAY 499 00:25:06,833 --> 00:25:08,633 THAT I'M STILL 100 POUNDS AWAY 500 00:25:08,633 --> 00:25:11,300 FROM BEING APPROVED FOR SKIN REMOVAL. 501 00:25:11,300 --> 00:25:12,767 MY HEART JUST SANK. 502 00:25:12,767 --> 00:25:15,533 BUT IF IT'S NOT SAFE TO DO BEFORE THEN, 503 00:25:15,533 --> 00:25:18,200 THEN I CAN'T BE TOO UPSET. 504 00:25:18,200 --> 00:25:20,333 SO I JUST HAVE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT I NEED. 505 00:25:20,333 --> 00:25:25,967 AND I NEED TO DO IT FAST TO HIT MY GOAL IN FOUR MONTHS OR LESS. 506 00:25:25,967 --> 00:25:28,567 SO I'M GOING TO WORK EVEN HARDER, 507 00:25:28,567 --> 00:25:31,533 BECAUSE I DESPERATELY NEED THIS. 508 00:25:35,400 --> 00:25:38,433 ** 509 00:25:45,267 --> 00:25:48,967 I'M REALLY HAVING A HARD TIME RIGHT NOW. 510 00:25:48,967 --> 00:25:52,233 I JUST HEARD THAT MY BEST FRIEND MICHAEL PASSED AWAY, 511 00:25:52,233 --> 00:25:54,533 AND I'M DEVASTATED. 512 00:25:54,533 --> 00:25:59,600 HE WENT IN FOR HIS GASTRIC BYPASS AND HAD THE OPERATION. 513 00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:03,367 BUT THERE WERE COMPLICATIONS BECAUSE OF HIS WEIGHT, 514 00:26:03,367 --> 00:26:06,800 AND HE JUST DIDN'T MAKE IT. 515 00:26:06,800 --> 00:26:08,933 HE WAS MY CLOSEST FRIEND, 516 00:26:08,933 --> 00:26:11,900 AND HE DIED BECAUSE HE WANTED TO CHANGE HIS LIFE 517 00:26:11,900 --> 00:26:14,367 JUST LIKE I DID. 518 00:26:14,367 --> 00:26:16,467 MICHAEL WAS A FORCE TO BE RECKONED WITH. 519 00:26:16,467 --> 00:26:18,100 HE HAD A BIG VOICE, HAD A BIG LAUGH, 520 00:26:18,100 --> 00:26:19,400 HAD A BIG HEART. 521 00:26:19,400 --> 00:26:23,433 HE WAS JUST SO CHARISMATIC AND WONDERFUL, 522 00:26:23,433 --> 00:26:26,500 AND I CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S GONE NOW. 523 00:26:26,500 --> 00:26:30,100 I WAS SO PROUD OF HIM FOR TRYING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 524 00:26:30,100 --> 00:26:31,833 AND HE KNEW THE RISK, 525 00:26:31,833 --> 00:26:35,500 BUT IT'S EASY TO FORGET HOW DANGEROUS THIS OPERATION IS 526 00:26:35,500 --> 00:26:38,233 WHEN YOU'RE AS BIG AS WE ARE. 527 00:26:38,233 --> 00:26:41,400 BUT I WAS LUCKY TO HAVE DR. NOW AS MY SURGEON, 528 00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:43,433 A DOCTOR WHO IS REALLY EXPERIENCED 529 00:26:43,433 --> 00:26:45,800 IN TREATING HIGH-RISK PATIENTS. 530 00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:48,867 AND NOT EVERYONE GETS THAT. 531 00:26:48,867 --> 00:26:50,167 WE WERE BOTH LOOKING FORWARD 532 00:26:50,167 --> 00:26:52,767 TO THIS LIFE OF LOSING THE WEIGHT TOGETHER 533 00:26:52,767 --> 00:26:55,133 AND GETTING OUR LIVES BACK. 534 00:26:55,133 --> 00:26:57,767 AND AFTER SURGERY, HE WAS ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE 535 00:26:57,767 --> 00:27:00,367 TO GO OUT WITH ME TO CELEBRATE. 536 00:27:00,367 --> 00:27:03,067 Michael: I THINK THAT A YEAR FROM NOW, YOU'RE GOING TO LOOK BACK, 537 00:27:03,067 --> 00:27:05,833 AND YOU'RE NOT EVEN GOING TO FEEL LIKE THE SAME PERSON. 538 00:27:05,833 --> 00:27:08,600 I HOPE SO. [ CHUCKLES ] 539 00:27:08,600 --> 00:27:11,533 Michael: THEN WHEN WE'RE FABULOUS-LOOKING AND SKINNY 540 00:27:11,533 --> 00:27:13,967 AND, LIKE, YOU KNOW, 541 00:27:13,967 --> 00:27:16,100 WEARING TAILOR-FIT CLOTHES -- 542 00:27:16,100 --> 00:27:18,300 I'M NOT EVEN WORRIED ABOUT, LIKE, BEING SKINNY, 543 00:27:18,300 --> 00:27:20,233 I'M LIKE, IF I CAN JUST, LIKE, 544 00:27:20,233 --> 00:27:22,267 WALK INTO THE GROCERY STORE -- [ LAUGHS ] 545 00:27:22,267 --> 00:27:25,067 I WILL THROW YOU A PARTY AT THE GROCERY STORE. 546 00:27:25,067 --> 00:27:26,600 I WILL GET, LIKE, STREAMERS. 547 00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:28,100 I'LL GET THOSE LITTLE POPPING THINGS, 548 00:27:28,100 --> 00:27:29,600 THE FIREWORK THINGS YOU HAVE TO -- 549 00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:31,500 I'M GONNA THROW AT YOUR FEET. WE GOT STUFF TO DO. 550 00:27:31,500 --> 00:27:33,500 -WE GOT TO GO TRAVEL. -WE GOT STUFF TO DO. 551 00:27:33,500 --> 00:27:35,733 WE'RE GOING TO DO THIS TOGETHER. WE ALWAYS DO IT TOGETHER. 552 00:27:35,733 --> 00:27:37,800 THAT'S RIGHT. WE DO. 553 00:27:37,800 --> 00:27:41,067 HE WAS SUCH A HUGE ENCOURAGEMENT, 554 00:27:41,067 --> 00:27:44,400 AND I COULD ALWAYS DEPEND ON HIM TO BE THERE FOR ME. 555 00:27:47,100 --> 00:27:50,567 I ALREADY MISS HIM SO MUCH. 556 00:27:50,567 --> 00:27:53,767 AND MY LIFE ISN'T GOING TO BE THE SAME WITHOUT HIM. 557 00:27:55,800 --> 00:27:59,467 WE HAD SO MANY PLANS, AND I STILL HAVE THOSE PLANS, 558 00:27:59,467 --> 00:28:03,333 BUT IT'S BETTER WITH HIM. 559 00:28:03,333 --> 00:28:05,933 LIFE SHOULDN'T BE LIKE THIS. 560 00:28:05,933 --> 00:28:08,967 I SHOULD NOT GET TO LIVE THROUGH THIS LIFE WITHOUT HIM. 561 00:28:11,433 --> 00:28:15,233 THIS IS A REMINDER TO ME OF HOW FRAGILE LIFE CAN BE. 562 00:28:15,233 --> 00:28:18,533 AND I WAS LIVING ON THE EDGE FOR SO MANY YEARS, 563 00:28:18,533 --> 00:28:22,500 AND I STILL HAVE A WAYS TO GO BEFORE I'M WHERE I NEED TO BE. 564 00:28:22,500 --> 00:28:26,967 BUT I'VE BEEN GIVEN THIS SECOND CHANCE THAT OTHERS DON'T GET. 565 00:28:26,967 --> 00:28:30,300 AND I REALIZE HOW IT COULD'VE BEEN ME THAT DIDN'T MAKE IT, 566 00:28:30,300 --> 00:28:34,533 SO I CAN'T TAKE A SINGLE DAY I HAVE FOR GRANTED. 567 00:28:34,533 --> 00:28:37,100 I HAVE A RESPONSIBILITY TO NOT WASTE THIS CHANCE 568 00:28:37,100 --> 00:28:39,233 TO LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE, 569 00:28:39,233 --> 00:28:41,233 BECAUSE THERE ARE SO MANY OTHER PEOPLE 570 00:28:41,233 --> 00:28:45,067 THAT WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE THIS OPPORTUNITY. 571 00:28:45,067 --> 00:28:47,467 SO WHEN I HAVE MOMENTS I START TO STRUGGLE 572 00:28:47,467 --> 00:28:49,900 OR WANT TO GIVE IN TO MY CRAVINGS, 573 00:28:49,900 --> 00:28:54,867 I'M GOING TO THINK OF MICHAEL FOR INSPIRATION TO KEEP GOING. 574 00:28:54,867 --> 00:28:57,067 I'M NOT GOING TO FAIL. 575 00:28:57,067 --> 00:28:59,533 I OWE THAT TO MYSELF AND TO MICHAEL 576 00:28:59,533 --> 00:29:02,867 AND TO ANYONE ELSE WHO'S BEEN WHERE I'VE BEEN. 577 00:29:02,867 --> 00:29:05,333 AND I'M NOT GOING TO LET ANY OF US DOWN. 578 00:29:21,700 --> 00:29:23,233 Nikki: I'M HERE AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE 579 00:29:23,233 --> 00:29:27,067 TO SEE IF I'VE STAYED ON TRACK THESE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. 580 00:29:27,067 --> 00:29:29,333 NIKKI WEBSTER. 581 00:29:29,333 --> 00:29:32,367 THE GOAL HE GAVE ME WAS TO GET DOWN UNDER 300 POUNDS 582 00:29:32,367 --> 00:29:37,067 IN FOUR MONTHS TO GET APPROVED FOR MY EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL. 583 00:29:37,067 --> 00:29:39,800 AND IF I STAYED ON TRACK OVER THE PAST TWO MONTHS, 584 00:29:39,800 --> 00:29:42,600 I SHOULD BE DOWN TO 350 POUNDS TODAY. 585 00:29:42,600 --> 00:29:45,667 SO THAT'S THE NUMBER I'M HOPING TO SEE. 586 00:29:57,067 --> 00:30:00,500 THAT'S ABOUT WHERE I'M SUPPOSED TO BE, SO I'M HAPPY WITH THAT. 587 00:30:00,500 --> 00:30:03,633 AND I'M HOPING TODAY THAT MAYBE THERE'S A CHANCE 588 00:30:03,633 --> 00:30:07,267 HAVING LOST ANOTHER 50 POUNDS MADE THE DIFFERENCE I NEED 589 00:30:07,267 --> 00:30:09,567 TO GET MY EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL. 590 00:30:09,567 --> 00:30:13,100 AND MAYBE TODAY HE'LL ACTUALLY CONSIDER ME FOR APPROVAL. 591 00:30:13,100 --> 00:30:15,500 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 592 00:30:15,500 --> 00:30:17,200 -HI. -HELLO. 593 00:30:17,200 --> 00:30:18,967 -HOW ARE YOU? -I'M DOING OKAY. 594 00:30:18,967 --> 00:30:20,733 -HOW ABOUT YOU? -GOOD. 595 00:30:20,733 --> 00:30:24,267 SO, YOU'RE DOWN TO ABOUT 350 POUNDS, 596 00:30:24,267 --> 00:30:26,500 WHICH MEANS YOU'RE STAYING ON TRACK. 597 00:30:26,500 --> 00:30:27,900 THAT'S GOOD. 598 00:30:27,900 --> 00:30:32,333 SO, YOU DOING OKAY WITH YOUR EATING HABIT? 599 00:30:32,333 --> 00:30:33,733 I HAD A COUPLE OF ROUGH MONTHS, 600 00:30:33,733 --> 00:30:36,133 BUT I FEEL LIKE MY WEIGHT'S STILL GOING DOWN. 601 00:30:36,133 --> 00:30:39,100 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, YOU HAD A COUPLE OF ROUGH MONTHS? 602 00:30:39,100 --> 00:30:41,100 WELL, I HAD, UM... 603 00:30:43,167 --> 00:30:45,433 MY BEST FRIEND PASSED AWAY, 604 00:30:45,433 --> 00:30:48,933 AND I JUST GOT KIND OF DISTRACTED. 605 00:30:48,933 --> 00:30:50,500 I'M SORRY TO HEAR THAT. 606 00:30:50,500 --> 00:30:52,067 THAT HAD TO BE HARD, 607 00:30:52,067 --> 00:30:54,867 BUT I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR STAYING ON TRACK. 608 00:30:54,867 --> 00:30:57,467 SO WITH ALL MY GOOD PROGRESS, IS THERE ANY CHANCE 609 00:30:57,467 --> 00:31:00,667 I'M READY FOR MY EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL NOW? 610 00:31:00,667 --> 00:31:02,067 LET ME TAKE A LOOK AT YOUR SKIN 611 00:31:02,067 --> 00:31:04,067 TO SEE WHAT OPTION WE GOT FOR YOU. 612 00:31:04,067 --> 00:31:07,900 OKAY. MY STOMACH HANGS REALLY LOW, 613 00:31:07,900 --> 00:31:09,900 AND I JUST FEEL LIKE IT JUST KIND OF, LIKE -- 614 00:31:09,900 --> 00:31:12,967 -IT JUST, LIKE, COVERS ME UP. -OKAY. 615 00:31:12,967 --> 00:31:16,433 I DON'T KNOW IF YOU WANT ME TO -- 616 00:31:16,433 --> 00:31:18,200 Dr. Nowzaradan: NIKKI IS VERY ANXIOUS 617 00:31:18,200 --> 00:31:22,533 TO HAVE HER FIRST EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL AROUND HER ABDOMEN. 618 00:31:22,533 --> 00:31:24,367 AND THAT'S VERY UNDERSTANDABLE, 619 00:31:24,367 --> 00:31:28,100 BECAUSE SHE HAS 50 TO 60 POUNDS OF SKIN 620 00:31:28,100 --> 00:31:29,867 PULLING ON HER STOMACH. 621 00:31:29,867 --> 00:31:32,067 AND THAT IS VERY PAINFUL FOR HER, 622 00:31:32,067 --> 00:31:34,167 BUT SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT 623 00:31:34,167 --> 00:31:39,967 UNTIL SHE HAS LOST ENOUGH FAT AROUND HER STOMACH. 624 00:31:39,967 --> 00:31:42,467 YOU'RE NOT QUITE READY YET. 625 00:31:42,467 --> 00:31:45,300 YOU KNOW, I SEE YOU GOT A LOT OF EXTRA SKIN 626 00:31:45,300 --> 00:31:47,300 -BUT YOU GOT A LOT OF FAT. -RIGHT. 627 00:31:47,300 --> 00:31:48,700 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE AN ISSUE 628 00:31:48,700 --> 00:31:50,733 WITH THE HEALING OF THESE WOUNDS. 629 00:31:50,733 --> 00:31:53,267 USUALLY, TYPICALLY, THEY TAKE ABOUT TWO MONTHS TO HEAL. 630 00:31:53,267 --> 00:31:55,700 -MM-HMM. -SO THE NEXT 50 POUNDS 631 00:31:55,700 --> 00:31:58,867 SHOULD GET YOU THERE, BUT IT'S NOT SAFE TO DO YET. 632 00:31:58,867 --> 00:32:01,067 I CAN DO THAT. 633 00:32:01,067 --> 00:32:04,700 -ALL RIGHT. -I CAN LOSE THAT. 634 00:32:04,700 --> 00:32:06,167 YOU NEED TO BE PATIENT, 635 00:32:06,167 --> 00:32:08,567 BECAUSE EVEN BELOW 300 POUNDS, 636 00:32:08,567 --> 00:32:11,967 THIS IS GOING TO BE A HARD SURGERY TO RECOVER FROM 637 00:32:11,967 --> 00:32:14,200 BECAUSE OF THE SHEER AMOUNT OF SKIN 638 00:32:14,200 --> 00:32:16,467 -THAT HAS TO BE REMOVED. -OKAY. 639 00:32:16,467 --> 00:32:19,800 STAY ON TRACK AND LOSE 25 POUNDS A MONTH, 640 00:32:19,800 --> 00:32:22,067 AND IF YOU DO THAT, WHEN I SEE YOU 641 00:32:22,067 --> 00:32:24,867 FOR YOUR NEXT APPOINTMENT IN TWO MONTHS, 642 00:32:24,867 --> 00:32:26,767 YOU SHOULD BE READY THEN. 643 00:32:26,767 --> 00:32:28,433 OKAY? 644 00:32:28,433 --> 00:32:29,933 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 645 00:32:29,933 --> 00:32:31,433 -THANK YOU, DR. NOW. -ALL RIGHT. 646 00:32:31,433 --> 00:32:34,600 YOU'RE WELCOME. 647 00:32:34,600 --> 00:32:37,267 WHEN NIKKI WAS OVER 600 POUNDS, 648 00:32:37,267 --> 00:32:39,567 SHE CARRIED A LARGE PORTION OF HER WEIGHT 649 00:32:39,567 --> 00:32:41,533 IN HER LOWER ABDOMEN. 650 00:32:41,533 --> 00:32:42,800 AND OVER THE YEARS, 651 00:32:42,800 --> 00:32:45,867 THAT HAS CAUSED A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF DAMAGE 652 00:32:45,867 --> 00:32:48,167 TO THAT AREA OF HER BODY. 653 00:32:48,167 --> 00:32:49,567 SO NO MATTER WHAT, 654 00:32:49,567 --> 00:32:52,567 IT'S GOING TO BE VERY DIFFICULT TO REPAIR. 655 00:32:52,567 --> 00:32:54,167 AND IF WE DO IT TOO EARLY, 656 00:32:54,167 --> 00:32:57,367 IT'S GOING TO INCREASE HER RISK OF ISSUES 657 00:32:57,367 --> 00:33:01,600 AND INFECTIONS SIGNIFICANTLY. 658 00:33:01,600 --> 00:33:05,067 Nikki: I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED. I REALLY GOT MY HOPES UP 659 00:33:05,067 --> 00:33:07,833 THAT IT MIGHT BE POSSIBLE TO GET MY EXCESS SKIN REMOVED 660 00:33:07,833 --> 00:33:09,567 A LITTLE EARLY. 661 00:33:09,567 --> 00:33:12,700 BUT IF I'M NOT READY, THEN I'M NOT READY, 662 00:33:12,700 --> 00:33:14,933 BUT I'M NOT GOING TO LET IT GET ME DOWN 663 00:33:14,933 --> 00:33:17,767 OR CONTINUE TO DISCOURAGE ME, 664 00:33:17,767 --> 00:33:19,067 BECAUSE I WANT THIS, 665 00:33:19,067 --> 00:33:20,967 AND IF I HAVE TO WORK HARDER FOR IT, 666 00:33:20,967 --> 00:33:23,300 THEN THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO DO. 667 00:33:36,333 --> 00:33:39,133 I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT MICHAEL A LOT LATELY. 668 00:33:41,300 --> 00:33:45,133 I THINK WHAT I MISS MOST ABOUT HIM IS NO MATTER WHAT, 669 00:33:45,133 --> 00:33:48,467 HE JUST GOT OUT THERE AND DID HIS THING. 670 00:33:48,467 --> 00:33:49,833 AND HE WAS ALWAYS THERE 671 00:33:49,833 --> 00:33:52,067 TO ENCOURAGE ME TO PUSH MYSELF HARDER 672 00:33:52,067 --> 00:33:54,467 OR TO SEE THINGS FROM A DIFFERENT ANGLE. 673 00:33:57,067 --> 00:33:59,233 AND I FEEL LIKE THESE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS, 674 00:33:59,233 --> 00:34:01,933 I HEARD HIS VOICE IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD 675 00:34:01,933 --> 00:34:04,500 ENCOURAGING ME NOT TO LET MY EXCESS SKIN 676 00:34:04,500 --> 00:34:06,133 OR ANYTHING HOLD ME BACK 677 00:34:06,133 --> 00:34:08,600 AND TO START LIVING LIFE AGAIN. 678 00:34:08,600 --> 00:34:12,267 SO THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING. 679 00:34:12,267 --> 00:34:16,333 I'M NOT WAITING TO GET OUT THERE AND START LIVING AGAIN. 680 00:34:16,333 --> 00:34:17,800 SO TONIGHT, I'M GOING OUT TO HANG OUT 681 00:34:17,800 --> 00:34:21,633 WITH A FEW OF MY OLD FRIENDS I HAVEN'T SEEN IN A WHILE. 682 00:34:21,633 --> 00:34:24,333 I'M NOT HIDING IN THIS HOUSE ANY LONGER. 683 00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:28,900 I'VE DONE THAT FOR YEARS, AND THERE'S NO REASON 684 00:34:28,900 --> 00:34:32,900 I SHOULDN'T BE GOING AND DOING WHAT I WANT RIGHT NOW. 685 00:34:32,900 --> 00:34:35,833 AND I CAN JUST HEAR MICHAEL'S VOICE IN MY HEAD 686 00:34:35,833 --> 00:34:39,067 TELLING ME ALL THESE THINGS. 687 00:34:39,067 --> 00:34:40,733 AND AS UNCOMFORTABLE AS IT IS, 688 00:34:40,733 --> 00:34:43,500 I'M JUST GOING TO TRY TO IGNORE MY EXCESS SKIN 689 00:34:43,500 --> 00:34:45,100 AND BE A NORMAL PERSON -- 690 00:34:45,100 --> 00:34:48,100 OUT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. 691 00:34:48,100 --> 00:34:51,500 I HAVE NOTHING TO HIDE OR BE ASHAMED OF. 692 00:34:51,500 --> 00:34:52,533 HEY, Y'ALL. 693 00:34:52,533 --> 00:34:53,933 -HEY, NIKKI! -HEY! 694 00:34:53,933 --> 00:34:56,300 -HOW ARE Y'ALL? -WE'RE GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 695 00:34:56,300 --> 00:34:58,067 -GOOD. -WE ARE HUNGRY. 696 00:34:58,067 --> 00:34:59,800 -OH, ME, TOO. -FINALLY. 697 00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:02,967 I KNOW, GIRL. 698 00:35:02,967 --> 00:35:04,367 Nikki: BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL 699 00:35:04,367 --> 00:35:07,067 NOT TO FALL BACK INTO OLD HABITS. 700 00:35:07,067 --> 00:35:10,200 WHO I AM AT THE CORE, I LOOK AT THIS MENU, AND I'M LIKE, 701 00:35:10,200 --> 00:35:12,400 "I WANT THE GRILLED SHRIMP PIZZA," 702 00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:13,667 BUT I WOULD GET A WHOLE PIZZA, 703 00:35:13,667 --> 00:35:15,500 AND THEN I WOULD PROBABLY EAT THAT PIZZA, 704 00:35:15,500 --> 00:35:19,100 AND THAT WOULD NOT BE GOOD, SO I WON'T DO THAT. 705 00:35:19,100 --> 00:35:22,767 BEFORE, I ALWAYS ATE BEHIND CLOSED DOORS 706 00:35:22,767 --> 00:35:24,067 SO NO ONE WOULD JUDGE ME 707 00:35:24,067 --> 00:35:26,400 AND SEE HOW MUCH I WAS EATING. 708 00:35:26,400 --> 00:35:29,567 SO IT'S A BIG DEAL THAT I'M EATING IN PUBLIC NOW. 709 00:35:29,567 --> 00:35:32,233 BUT I DON'T EAT THE SAME WAY ANYMORE. 710 00:35:32,233 --> 00:35:35,067 -I'LL GET THE GRILLED SALMON. -THANK YOU. 711 00:35:35,067 --> 00:35:39,100 IT WAS A REALLY LONELY LIFE BEING AS BIG AS I WAS. 712 00:35:39,100 --> 00:35:42,200 AND I'VE REALLY MISSED JUST HANGING OUT 713 00:35:42,200 --> 00:35:45,100 AND BEING ABLE TO JUST TALK. 714 00:35:45,100 --> 00:35:46,900 WHEN YOU'RE OVER 600 POUNDS, 715 00:35:46,900 --> 00:35:48,933 THAT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU WOULD DO, 716 00:35:48,933 --> 00:35:52,100 BECAUSE I WOULDN'T HAVE THE ENERGY TO WALK IN HERE. 717 00:35:52,100 --> 00:35:54,233 AND THEN I WOULDN'T FIT IN THIS BOOTH, 718 00:35:54,233 --> 00:35:58,433 AND EVERYONE WOULD BE STARING AT ME. 719 00:35:58,433 --> 00:36:00,867 I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW. 720 00:36:00,867 --> 00:36:04,233 AND I'M GLAD I'M GETTING OUT THERE AND DOING THIS. 721 00:36:06,433 --> 00:36:11,467 NOT ONLY THAT, BUT I'VE DECIDED TO TAKE AN EVEN BIGGER STEP, 722 00:36:11,467 --> 00:36:14,300 BECAUSE MY FRIEND MARC ASKED ME OUT, 723 00:36:14,300 --> 00:36:17,067 SO I'LL BE GOING OUT ON A REAL DATE FOR THE FIRST TIME 724 00:36:17,067 --> 00:36:20,067 IN A REALLY LONG TIME. 725 00:36:20,067 --> 00:36:23,067 AND I'M EXCITED... Y'ALL HAVE FUN TOMORROW. 726 00:36:23,067 --> 00:36:27,467 ...BECAUSE I'M NOT LETTING ANYTHING HOLD ME BACK ANYMORE. 727 00:36:27,467 --> 00:36:30,067 SEE YOU LATER, ALLIGATOR. 728 00:36:35,633 --> 00:36:37,467 A COUPLE YEARS AGO, I NEVER THOUGHT 729 00:36:37,467 --> 00:36:39,367 THAT I'D BE GOING ON A DATE. 730 00:36:39,367 --> 00:36:42,100 -WHAT UP? -HEY. 731 00:36:42,100 --> 00:36:43,533 IT STILL FEELS WEIRD FOR ME, 732 00:36:43,533 --> 00:36:45,600 BECAUSE ALL THOSE INSECURITIES I HAD 733 00:36:45,600 --> 00:36:50,333 WHEN I WAS 600 POUNDS JUST DON'T GO AWAY OVERNIGHT. 734 00:36:57,367 --> 00:36:59,167 BUT I'M NOT GOING TO LET THAT FEAR 735 00:36:59,167 --> 00:37:01,933 AND INSECURITY HOLD ME BACK, 736 00:37:01,933 --> 00:37:04,900 AND I'M GOING TO WORK THROUGH IT AS MUCH AS I CAN. 737 00:37:09,400 --> 00:37:11,633 MARC AND I HAVE BEEN FRIENDS, 738 00:37:11,633 --> 00:37:14,433 BUT TO THINK OF MYSELF DIFFERENTLY, 739 00:37:14,433 --> 00:37:16,933 THAT SOMEONE SEES ME AS ATTRACTIVE, 740 00:37:16,933 --> 00:37:18,467 IS A BIG SHIFT 741 00:37:18,467 --> 00:37:22,600 THAT I STILL CAN'T REALLY WRAP MY HEAD AROUND. 742 00:37:22,600 --> 00:37:24,933 TWO. 743 00:37:24,933 --> 00:37:27,100 Nikki: SO I KNOW IT'S GOING TO TAKE ME A WHILE 744 00:37:27,100 --> 00:37:29,367 TO START SEE MYSELF IN THAT LIGHT 745 00:37:29,367 --> 00:37:33,500 AND TO REALIZE THAT I'M NOT THAT 600 POUND GIRL ANYMORE. 746 00:37:33,500 --> 00:37:35,067 THIS PLACE IS FUN. 747 00:37:35,067 --> 00:37:36,467 YEAH. 748 00:37:36,467 --> 00:37:38,267 I'M LIVING A DIFFERENT LIFE NOW, 749 00:37:38,267 --> 00:37:41,500 AND I KNOW THAT I STILL HAVE A WAYS TO GO. 750 00:37:41,500 --> 00:37:44,533 I THINK I'M GOING TO HAVE THE PAN-ROASTED RED SNAPPER. 751 00:37:44,533 --> 00:37:47,067 -THE SNAPPER? -MM-HMM. 752 00:37:47,067 --> 00:37:49,067 BUT NOW THERE'S THIS LIFE 753 00:37:49,067 --> 00:37:53,433 THAT'S POSSIBLE FOR ME THAT WASN'T BEFORE. 754 00:37:53,433 --> 00:37:58,167 I CAN ACTUALLY HAVE A FAMILY OF MY OWN ONE DAY AND CHILDREN. 755 00:37:58,167 --> 00:38:01,200 AND THAT'S AN INCREDIBLE FEELING WHEN YOU WERE AT A POINT 756 00:38:01,200 --> 00:38:04,200 WHERE YOU GAVE UP ALL THOSE HOPES AND DREAMS. 757 00:38:06,733 --> 00:38:08,800 -OH, BOY. -THERE YOU GO. 758 00:38:08,800 --> 00:38:10,300 -LOOK AT IT. -OH, MY GOODNESS. 759 00:38:10,300 --> 00:38:11,933 YOU CAN HAVE A BITE, RIGHT? JUST A BITE? 760 00:38:11,933 --> 00:38:14,467 -I CAN HAVE A BITE, YEAH. -OKAY, JUST A BITE. 761 00:38:14,467 --> 00:38:16,100 I HAVE MY NEXT DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT 762 00:38:16,100 --> 00:38:18,867 IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS, 763 00:38:18,867 --> 00:38:23,233 AND I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO HIT MY 300 POUND GOAL, 764 00:38:23,233 --> 00:38:27,567 AND FINALLY GET MY EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL APPROVED, 765 00:38:27,567 --> 00:38:29,400 BECAUSE I KNOW THAT'S THE NEXT BIG STEP 766 00:38:29,400 --> 00:38:33,200 I NEED TO TAKE ON MY JOURNEY TO THIS NEW LIFE. 767 00:38:33,200 --> 00:38:35,633 AND I'M DETERMINED TO HIT IT. 768 00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:40,633 ** 769 00:38:46,800 --> 00:38:49,067 I'M HEADED TO DR. NOW'S OFFICE 770 00:38:49,067 --> 00:38:50,800 TO SEE IF I HIT MY WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL 771 00:38:50,800 --> 00:38:54,767 AND FINALLY GET APPROVED FOR MY EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL. 772 00:38:57,733 --> 00:39:01,900 AND I'M REALLY HOPING TODAY'S THE DAY IT FINALLY HAPPENS. 773 00:39:04,667 --> 00:39:07,967 THIS WEIGHT ON MY STOMACH HAS BECOME SO MISERABLE 774 00:39:07,967 --> 00:39:11,900 AND SO PAINFUL. 775 00:39:11,900 --> 00:39:13,933 THERE ARE DAYS I FEEL LIKE I DID 776 00:39:13,933 --> 00:39:16,633 WHEN I WAS OVER 600 POUNDS 777 00:39:16,633 --> 00:39:19,433 AND I'M NOT SURE I WANT TO GET UP, 778 00:39:19,433 --> 00:39:23,467 BUT I PUSH MYSELF TO. 779 00:39:23,467 --> 00:39:27,067 SO IT WILL CHANGE MY LIFE TO FINALLY GET THE SURGERY. 780 00:39:27,067 --> 00:39:30,067 BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN WAIT ANOTHER TWO MONTHS. 781 00:39:30,067 --> 00:39:32,867 IT'S SO PAINFUL, 782 00:39:32,867 --> 00:39:35,133 AND I JUST NEED IT GONE NOW. 783 00:39:48,533 --> 00:39:50,933 Nikki: I'M HEADED TO DR. NOW'S OFFICE. 784 00:39:50,933 --> 00:39:53,933 I JUST REALLY HOPE I HIT MY GOAL TODAY 785 00:39:53,933 --> 00:39:55,933 AND I REACHED THE 300-POUND MARK 786 00:39:55,933 --> 00:39:59,800 SO I CAN FINALLY GET APPROVED FOR MY SKIN REMOVAL. 787 00:40:02,867 --> 00:40:05,067 ARE YOU SURE THAT'S RIGHT? [ CHUCKLES ] 788 00:40:07,533 --> 00:40:11,367 THAT'S SO DISAPPOINTING. 789 00:40:11,367 --> 00:40:14,067 I ONLY LOST 8 POUNDS. 790 00:40:14,067 --> 00:40:16,200 THAT'S NOT GOOD. 791 00:40:16,200 --> 00:40:18,867 THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'VE WEIGHED IN 792 00:40:18,867 --> 00:40:21,400 AND HAVE FELT FRUSTRATED 793 00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:24,033 AND ANGRY. 794 00:40:24,033 --> 00:40:25,467 I JUST FEEL VERY ANXIOUS, 795 00:40:25,467 --> 00:40:29,067 BECAUSE I DON'T THINK DR. NOW IS GOING TO BE HAPPY AT ALL. 796 00:40:29,067 --> 00:40:31,167 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 797 00:40:31,167 --> 00:40:33,067 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 798 00:40:33,067 --> 00:40:34,300 HOW ARE YOU? 799 00:40:34,300 --> 00:40:36,133 DOING PRETTY GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 800 00:40:36,133 --> 00:40:37,367 I'M DOING OKAY. 801 00:40:37,367 --> 00:40:41,767 BUT YOU'RE AT 345 POUNDS, WHICH IS NOT GOOD. 802 00:40:41,767 --> 00:40:45,133 THAT'S ONLY 4 POUNDS A MONTH THAT YOU'RE LOSING. 803 00:40:45,133 --> 00:40:48,400 YOU SHOULD BE LOSING 25 POUNDS A MONTH STILL. 804 00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:50,433 -IN A MONTH. -SO WHAT'S GOING ON 805 00:40:50,433 --> 00:40:51,833 WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS? 806 00:40:51,833 --> 00:40:56,133 I THINK THAT MAYBE IT'S IN MY CHOICES OF WHAT I EAT. 807 00:40:56,133 --> 00:40:58,133 WHAT ARE YOU CHOOSING TO EAT, THEN? 808 00:40:58,133 --> 00:41:01,300 MAYBE I'M EATING MORE CARBS THAN I'M SUPPOSED TO BE EATING. 809 00:41:01,300 --> 00:41:04,100 ARE YOU EATING AT HOME, OR ARE YOU EATING OUT? 810 00:41:04,100 --> 00:41:06,067 WELL, YEAH, THAT'S THE OTHER THING. 811 00:41:06,067 --> 00:41:09,933 I DO GO OUT MORE SOCIALLY NOW 812 00:41:09,933 --> 00:41:11,800 THAN I DID BEFORE. 813 00:41:11,800 --> 00:41:13,667 I'M SPENDING MORE TIME WITH FRIENDS, 814 00:41:13,667 --> 00:41:16,667 AND MOST OF THE TIME, WE EAT OUT WHEN WE'RE TOGETHER. 815 00:41:16,667 --> 00:41:20,367 WHEN YOU'RE TALKING TO PEOPLE AND HAVING FUN, THAT'S GOOD. 816 00:41:20,367 --> 00:41:22,967 BUT YOU CAN'T FORGET PORTION CONTROL 817 00:41:22,967 --> 00:41:25,300 AND IGNORE YOUR EATING HABITS. 818 00:41:25,300 --> 00:41:26,400 YEAH. 819 00:41:26,400 --> 00:41:28,600 OBVIOUSLY, YOU HAVE THE IMPRESSION 820 00:41:28,600 --> 00:41:30,100 THAT YOU DON'T EAT VERY MUCH, 821 00:41:30,100 --> 00:41:33,367 BUT THE SCALE DOESN'T AGREE WITH THAT. 822 00:41:33,367 --> 00:41:36,567 NIKKI'S LACK OF PROGRESS THESE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS 823 00:41:36,567 --> 00:41:38,100 IS VERY CONCERNING. 824 00:41:38,100 --> 00:41:40,167 SHE WAS DOING SO WELL, 825 00:41:40,167 --> 00:41:44,333 BUT NOW SHE'S GOING OUT TO SPEND TIME WITH FRIENDS, 826 00:41:44,333 --> 00:41:46,367 AND THAT'S A GOOD THING, 827 00:41:46,367 --> 00:41:48,600 BUT THAT'S WHERE IT'S HARDEST 828 00:41:48,600 --> 00:41:51,433 NOT TO MAKE EASY COMPROMISES, 829 00:41:51,433 --> 00:41:53,433 LIKE HAVING ANOTHER DRINK 830 00:41:53,433 --> 00:41:55,533 OR EATING SOME CHIPS 831 00:41:55,533 --> 00:41:59,467 OR EATING MORE BECAUSE THE PORTIONS ARE A LOT BIGGER. 832 00:41:59,467 --> 00:42:03,600 SO, SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO LEARN TO MAKE THIS ADJUSTMENT 833 00:42:03,600 --> 00:42:06,700 AND STILL KEEP TRACK OF HER EATING HABITS. 834 00:42:06,700 --> 00:42:08,333 I KNOW YOU WERE HOPING 835 00:42:08,333 --> 00:42:11,133 TO GET APPROVED FOR EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL, 836 00:42:11,133 --> 00:42:13,733 AND THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN NOW. 837 00:42:13,733 --> 00:42:15,967 -OKAY. -BUT YOU LEARNED SOMETHING, 838 00:42:15,967 --> 00:42:20,067 AND NOW IT'S TIME TO FACE WHAT YOU DID. 839 00:42:20,067 --> 00:42:22,300 SO, LET'S TRY AGAIN, OKAY? 840 00:42:22,300 --> 00:42:25,467 OVER NEXT TWO MONTHS, LOSE 50 POUNDS, 841 00:42:25,467 --> 00:42:29,533 AND HOPEFULLY WE CAN APPROVE YOU FOR SKIN SURGERY. 842 00:42:29,533 --> 00:42:31,600 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU. 843 00:42:31,600 --> 00:42:34,133 -ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU, DR. NOW. -ALL RIGHT. 844 00:42:34,133 --> 00:42:38,267 ** 845 00:42:38,267 --> 00:42:42,300 Nikki: IT'S A WAKE-UP CALL TO HEAR DR. NOW SAY THINGS 846 00:42:42,300 --> 00:42:46,467 LIKE YOU HAVE THE POTENTIAL OF GAINING YOUR WEIGHT BACK. 847 00:42:46,467 --> 00:42:49,100 I MEAN, THAT'S HEART WRENCHING. 848 00:42:49,100 --> 00:42:51,667 THAT'S LIKE HAVING THIS NEW LIFE 849 00:42:51,667 --> 00:42:56,133 AND HAVING THE PROMISE OF AN EVEN BETTER LIFE, 850 00:42:56,133 --> 00:42:59,100 AND HAVING IT RIPPED AWAY FROM YOU. 851 00:42:59,100 --> 00:43:03,533 AND I KNOW THAT I HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME BUT MYSELF RIGHT NOW. 852 00:43:03,533 --> 00:43:06,567 I DIDN'T HIT MY GOAL, AND THAT'S DEVASTATING, 853 00:43:06,567 --> 00:43:09,533 BECAUSE I DESPERATELY WANT THIS SURGERY. 854 00:43:09,533 --> 00:43:11,300 AND NOW IT'S MY RESPONSIBILITY 855 00:43:11,300 --> 00:43:14,133 TO GET BACK ON TRACK AND HIT THE GOAL I WANT. 856 00:43:17,100 --> 00:43:20,133 ** 857 00:43:24,100 --> 00:43:26,400 I LOVE WORKING OUT WITH MY DAD. 858 00:43:26,400 --> 00:43:28,867 BUT I KNOW THAT WHEN WE WORK OUT ON OUR OWN, 859 00:43:28,867 --> 00:43:31,833 THAT I'M NOT REALLY PUSHING MYSELF AS HARD AS I NEED. 860 00:43:31,833 --> 00:43:35,500 SO TODAY, I AM GOING TO MEET UP 861 00:43:35,500 --> 00:43:37,500 WITH MY NEW TRAINER, AMY, 862 00:43:37,500 --> 00:43:40,633 AND WE'RE GONNA WORK OUT. 863 00:43:40,633 --> 00:43:43,600 I'VE COME A LONG WAY FROM WHERE I WAS, 864 00:43:43,600 --> 00:43:44,933 BECAUSE I COULD BARELY MAKE IT 865 00:43:44,933 --> 00:43:47,167 UP THE STAIRS AT MY HOUSE BEFORE. 866 00:43:47,167 --> 00:43:51,067 AND I HAD TO REST BY THE TIME I MADE IT TO THE TOP. 867 00:43:51,067 --> 00:43:53,700 AND I CAN DO SO MUCH MORE NOW. 868 00:43:53,700 --> 00:43:56,267 BUT I'M NOT REALLY SEEING MY STAMINA AND ENERGY 869 00:43:56,267 --> 00:43:57,933 INCREASE ANYMORE. 870 00:43:57,933 --> 00:44:02,067 SO, WHAT WE'VE GOT TODAY -- WE'VE GOT A CIRCUIT TO DO. 871 00:44:02,067 --> 00:44:03,967 -ALL RIGHT, READY? -YES. 872 00:44:03,967 --> 00:44:06,600 ALL RIGHT. SO, LET'S GO FOR 2 MINUTES HERE. 873 00:44:06,600 --> 00:44:10,867 PICK IT UP JUST A LITTLE BIT FOR 40 SECONDS. 874 00:44:10,867 --> 00:44:12,367 GOOD. KEEP THAT UP. 875 00:44:12,367 --> 00:44:14,900 3, 2, 1. 876 00:44:14,900 --> 00:44:16,300 NICE. GOOD. 877 00:44:16,300 --> 00:44:18,100 -FELT THAT? -I DID. 878 00:44:18,100 --> 00:44:20,400 OKAY, YOU GOT TO PUSH THE SLED. 879 00:44:22,400 --> 00:44:26,367 I CAN DEFINITELY SAY THAT I HAVE NEVER PUSHED MYSELF THIS HARD. 880 00:44:26,367 --> 00:44:28,933 BUT I'M DOING THIS TO GET STRONGER. 881 00:44:28,933 --> 00:44:30,467 GRAB THE ROPES. 882 00:44:30,467 --> 00:44:31,700 I'M STICKING TO MY DIET 883 00:44:31,700 --> 00:44:34,733 AND NOT MAKING A SINGLE COMPROMISE RIGHT NOW. 884 00:44:34,733 --> 00:44:37,367 3, 2, CHECK. 885 00:44:37,367 --> 00:44:41,133 IT FEELS GOOD TO GET THROUGH A HARD WORKOUT. 886 00:44:41,133 --> 00:44:43,800 AND THERE'S A PART OF ME THAT LIKES THAT. 887 00:44:43,800 --> 00:44:46,900 I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S WEIRD, BUT I LIKE GOING PAST MY LIMITS 888 00:44:46,900 --> 00:44:50,100 AND DOING MORE THAN I THOUGHT I COULD. 889 00:44:50,100 --> 00:44:52,400 I'M GOING TO BE DOING THIS 3 TIMES A WEEK, 890 00:44:52,400 --> 00:44:54,433 AND I AM NOT LETTING UP. 891 00:44:54,433 --> 00:44:56,767 I'M HITTING MY GOAL NO MATTER WHAT. 892 00:45:09,367 --> 00:45:12,233 SO, I'M HEADED BACK TO DR. NOW AGAIN. 893 00:45:12,233 --> 00:45:13,900 AND I'M GOING TO SEE IF I HIT MY GOAL 894 00:45:13,900 --> 00:45:17,200 OF GETTING BELOW 300 POUNDS. 895 00:45:17,200 --> 00:45:22,433 I HAD 45 POUNDS TO LOSE IN 2 MONTHS TO DO THIS. 896 00:45:22,433 --> 00:45:26,467 AND TO SAY I'M NERVOUS WOULD BE AN UNDERSTATEMENT RIGHT NOW, 897 00:45:26,467 --> 00:45:28,267 BECAUSE I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE SCARED 898 00:45:28,267 --> 00:45:31,967 OF GETTING ON THE SCALE IN MY LIFE, 899 00:45:31,967 --> 00:45:34,100 ESPECIALLY AFTER THE SHOCK OF LAST TIME, 900 00:45:34,100 --> 00:45:37,933 WHEN I DIDN'T MAKE MUCH PROGRESS. 901 00:45:37,933 --> 00:45:40,567 SO I'M REALLY HOPING THAT ALL OF MY HARD WORK 902 00:45:40,567 --> 00:45:44,233 THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS IS ABOUT TO PAY OFF 903 00:45:44,233 --> 00:45:45,900 AND I HIT THE 300-POUND MARK 904 00:45:45,900 --> 00:45:50,767 TO FINALLY GET MY EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL APPROVED. 905 00:45:50,767 --> 00:45:52,300 Woman: 301. 906 00:45:54,467 --> 00:45:56,867 OKAY. 907 00:45:56,867 --> 00:45:58,100 I'M -- OKAY. 908 00:45:58,100 --> 00:45:59,700 THAT'S GOOD. [ LAUGHS ] 909 00:45:59,700 --> 00:46:01,967 OKAY. EXCELLENT. 910 00:46:01,967 --> 00:46:03,067 OKAY, THANKS. 911 00:46:03,067 --> 00:46:04,633 I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 912 00:46:04,633 --> 00:46:07,267 I'M REALLY EXCITED RIGHT NOW. 913 00:46:07,267 --> 00:46:10,233 I WANT TO BE APPROVED, AND I WANT SKIN SURGERY. 914 00:46:10,233 --> 00:46:14,567 LIKE, THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. 915 00:46:14,567 --> 00:46:17,267 BUT I'M STILL NERVOUS WHETHER HE'LL APPROVE ME. 916 00:46:17,267 --> 00:46:21,400 PRIMARILY BECAUSE I'M SO CLOSE TO THAT LINE. 917 00:46:21,400 --> 00:46:23,700 BUT I DESPERATELY HOPE HE DOES. 918 00:46:23,700 --> 00:46:25,700 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 919 00:46:25,700 --> 00:46:28,067 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 920 00:46:28,067 --> 00:46:29,800 HEY. HOW ARE YOU? 921 00:46:29,800 --> 00:46:31,767 I'M DOING WELL. HOW ARE YOU? 922 00:46:31,767 --> 00:46:33,167 I'M DOING GOOD. 923 00:46:33,167 --> 00:46:36,167 SO, YOU HAVE LOST 350 POUNDS, 924 00:46:36,167 --> 00:46:40,800 AND YOU ARE SMALLER THAN HALF OF WHAT YOU USED TO BE. 925 00:46:40,800 --> 00:46:42,600 [ Chuckling ] THAT'S INSANE. 926 00:46:42,600 --> 00:46:44,433 I DON'T THINK I UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT MEANS. 927 00:46:44,433 --> 00:46:49,633 THAT MEANS THAT YOU'RE MOTIVATED TO HAVE SKIN SURGERY, RIGHT? 928 00:46:49,633 --> 00:46:51,900 I AM MOTIVATED TO HAVE SKIN SURGERY. 929 00:46:51,900 --> 00:46:54,667 SO, LET'S SEE IF THAT WAS ENOUGH. 930 00:46:54,667 --> 00:46:58,067 OKAY. 931 00:46:58,067 --> 00:47:01,267 ALL RIGHT. YOU DO HAVE A LOT OF EXTRA SKIN 932 00:47:01,267 --> 00:47:02,733 THAT NEEDS TO COME OFF. 933 00:47:02,733 --> 00:47:04,367 SO, WE'RE GONNA GO AHEAD 934 00:47:04,367 --> 00:47:06,867 AND REMOVE THIS PORTION OF IT, 935 00:47:06,867 --> 00:47:08,800 BECAUSE WE NEED TO PULL THIS DOWN. 936 00:47:08,800 --> 00:47:09,800 OKAY. 937 00:47:09,800 --> 00:47:11,833 AND WE HAVE TO TAKE ALL THIS OUT. 938 00:47:11,833 --> 00:47:14,200 -RIGHT. -OKAY? 939 00:47:14,200 --> 00:47:18,500 I'M HAPPY TO SEE THAT NIKKI GOT BACK ON TRACK. 940 00:47:18,500 --> 00:47:19,933 SHE'S IN A GOOD PLACE 941 00:47:19,933 --> 00:47:23,067 WHERE SHE LOST ENOUGH FAT ON HER STOMACH 942 00:47:23,067 --> 00:47:26,400 TO MAKE THE PROCEDURE SAFE ENOUGH TO PERFORM. 943 00:47:26,400 --> 00:47:29,467 BUT IT'S STILL GOING TO BE A VERY DIFFICULT 944 00:47:29,467 --> 00:47:31,333 AND LONG RECOVERY FOR HER, 945 00:47:31,333 --> 00:47:34,800 BECAUSE OF THE SHEER AMOUNT OF SKIN WE NEED TO REMOVE 946 00:47:34,800 --> 00:47:38,767 AND THE DEGREE OF REPAIR THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. 947 00:47:38,767 --> 00:47:42,100 ALL RIGHT, SO, THIS IS A LOT OF EXCESS SKIN, 948 00:47:42,100 --> 00:47:43,833 AND IT IS A LOT OF DAMAGE 949 00:47:43,833 --> 00:47:45,233 -TO TRY TO REPAIR. -RIGHT. 950 00:47:45,233 --> 00:47:48,833 AND SO WE'LL SET YOU UP FOR SURGERY. 951 00:47:48,833 --> 00:47:52,300 BUT THIS RECOVERY IS GOING TO BE VERY DIFFICULT FOR YOU, 952 00:47:52,300 --> 00:47:55,133 SO YOU NEED TO BE PREPARED FOR THAT. 953 00:47:55,133 --> 00:47:58,267 BUT WE'LL GET YOU FIXED UP, OKAY? 954 00:47:58,267 --> 00:47:59,467 THANK YOU. 955 00:47:59,467 --> 00:48:02,367 AND YOU'VE DONE VERY GOOD, OKAY? THANKS, DR. NOW. 956 00:48:02,367 --> 00:48:05,433 SEE YOU SOON. 957 00:48:05,433 --> 00:48:08,700 SO, THIS WILL BE A POSITIVE CHANGE FOR NIKKI, 958 00:48:08,700 --> 00:48:12,900 BUT THE ROAD TO GET THERE IS GOING TO BE VERY DIFFICULT. 959 00:48:15,167 --> 00:48:18,067 Nikki: I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. 960 00:48:18,067 --> 00:48:21,067 THIS IS GOING TO TOTALLY CHANGE MY LIFE. 961 00:48:21,067 --> 00:48:23,067 COMING IN HERE THAT VERY FIRST DAY, 962 00:48:23,067 --> 00:48:25,667 BEING TERRIFIED AND BARELY ABLE TO BREATHE 963 00:48:25,667 --> 00:48:28,600 AND WEIGHING 650 POUNDS -- 964 00:48:28,600 --> 00:48:31,300 THIS SURGERY BEING APPROVED TODAY 965 00:48:31,300 --> 00:48:34,800 MAKES THIS WHOLE EXPERIENCE COME FULL CIRCLE. 966 00:48:34,800 --> 00:48:37,300 AND ALTHOUGH I AM NOT DONE, 967 00:48:37,300 --> 00:48:39,633 ALTHOUGH I KNOW I HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO, 968 00:48:39,633 --> 00:48:43,367 ESPECIALLY THROUGH SURGERY, I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED, 969 00:48:43,367 --> 00:48:47,167 AND THAT IS AN AMAZING FEELING TO HAVE. 970 00:49:06,533 --> 00:49:09,267 Terry: LET'S GO. 971 00:49:09,267 --> 00:49:10,467 GRAB MY PURSE. 972 00:49:10,467 --> 00:49:14,067 TODAY, MY FAMILY AND I ARE HEADED TO HOUSTON 973 00:49:14,067 --> 00:49:17,500 FOR MY SKIN SURGERY. 974 00:49:17,500 --> 00:49:19,633 IT'S SOMETHING THAT HAS NEEDED TO HAPPEN, 975 00:49:19,633 --> 00:49:22,700 AND I'M GLAD THE DAY IS FINALLY HERE. 976 00:49:22,700 --> 00:49:25,733 ** 977 00:49:28,067 --> 00:49:31,433 NO MATTER THE RISK, I HAVE TO GET THIS SURGERY. 978 00:49:33,833 --> 00:49:36,900 DR. NOW TOLD ME I COULD DEVELOP COMPLICATIONS 979 00:49:36,900 --> 00:49:40,700 LIKE BLEEDING TOO MUCH OR ISSUES HEALING. 980 00:49:40,700 --> 00:49:45,433 BUT I HAVE A LOT OF SUPPORT, ESPECIALLY WITH MY FAMILY. 981 00:49:45,433 --> 00:49:46,900 Nikki: THANKS FOR DOING THIS WITH ME. 982 00:49:46,900 --> 00:49:48,633 YOU BET. 983 00:49:48,633 --> 00:49:52,100 -I LOVE YOU. -I LOVE YOU, TOO, DAD. 984 00:49:52,100 --> 00:49:54,433 BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS, 985 00:49:54,433 --> 00:49:57,133 BECAUSE I CAN'T KEEP LIVING WITH THE MISERABLE PAIN 986 00:49:57,133 --> 00:49:59,633 FROM THIS SKIN HANGING OFF OF ME. 987 00:50:08,533 --> 00:50:12,767 SKIN REMOVAL IS KIND OF LIKE A REBIRTH FOR ME. 988 00:50:12,767 --> 00:50:18,033 I FEEL LIKE IT'S GETTING RID OF BAGGAGE. 989 00:50:18,033 --> 00:50:24,033 I FEEL LIKE IT'S GETTING RID OF THINGS FROM MY PAST. 990 00:50:24,033 --> 00:50:30,333 IT'S GETTING RID OF THINGS THAT I'VE DEALT WITH THIS LAST YEAR. 991 00:50:30,333 --> 00:50:33,000 AND I FEEL LIKE IT'S JUST STARTING OVER. 992 00:50:36,100 --> 00:50:38,967 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE GOING TO REMOVE THE SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT 993 00:50:38,967 --> 00:50:43,533 OF EXCESS SKIN NIKKI HAS AROUND HER ABDOMEN. 994 00:50:43,533 --> 00:50:47,500 THIS IS GOING TO BE AN EXTREMELY DIFFICULT OPERATION. 995 00:50:47,500 --> 00:50:48,933 ALL THE SKIN IN THAT AREA 996 00:50:48,933 --> 00:50:51,433 PROBABLY WEIGHS CLOSE TO 60 POUNDS, 997 00:50:51,433 --> 00:50:56,033 WHICH MAKES IT HARD TO MANEUVER AND WORK AROUND. 998 00:50:56,033 --> 00:50:57,967 AND NIKKI HAS CARRIED THAT WEIGHT 999 00:50:57,967 --> 00:51:00,267 IN HER ABDOMEN FOR SO MANY YEARS 1000 00:51:00,267 --> 00:51:04,867 THAT IT HAS CAUSED SEVERE DAMAGE IN HER BODY AND THAT AREA. 1001 00:51:07,467 --> 00:51:09,267 SO THERE WILL BE A LOT OF REPAIR 1002 00:51:09,267 --> 00:51:11,667 THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE TO STITCH HER UP 1003 00:51:11,667 --> 00:51:14,700 AND MAKE HER BODY PROPORTIONATE AGAIN. 1004 00:51:14,700 --> 00:51:17,067 THIS SKIN REMOVAL IS GOING TO BE 1005 00:51:17,067 --> 00:51:20,067 AS COMPLICATED AS IT GETS, 1006 00:51:20,067 --> 00:51:23,100 AND THE RISKS ARE VERY HIGH, TOO. 1007 00:51:23,100 --> 00:51:27,367 SO THIS SURGERY WILL ALSO TAKE A VERY LONG TIME, 1008 00:51:27,367 --> 00:51:29,533 BECAUSE OF THE AMOUNT OF BLOOD VESSELS 1009 00:51:29,533 --> 00:51:31,900 THAT WE NEED TO TIE OFF. 1010 00:51:31,900 --> 00:51:34,900 BUT WE HAVE A GOOD TEAM, AND WE'RE GOING TO MAKE SURE 1011 00:51:34,900 --> 00:51:36,300 SHE COMES OUT OF THIS 1012 00:51:36,300 --> 00:51:39,533 WITH AS LITTLE COMPLICATION AS POSSIBLE. 1013 00:51:42,067 --> 00:51:44,600 AS A PARENT, SITTING IN THE WAITING ROOM 1014 00:51:44,600 --> 00:51:46,733 IS VERY, VERY DIFFICULT. 1015 00:51:46,733 --> 00:51:48,167 THERE'S ALWAYS A CONCERN, 1016 00:51:48,167 --> 00:51:50,900 GOING THROUGH A SURGERY LIKE THIS, OF LOSING HER, 1017 00:51:50,900 --> 00:51:53,900 AND THAT WOULD BE JUST DEVASTATING. 1018 00:51:53,900 --> 00:51:57,167 SO I'M DOING MY VERY BEST TO LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, 1019 00:51:57,167 --> 00:52:00,300 AND I HOPE SURGERY'S GOING TO GO WELL. 1020 00:52:03,433 --> 00:52:06,633 Dr. Nowzaradan: OKAY, THIS IS GOING TO BE EXTREMELY HEAVY. 1021 00:52:06,633 --> 00:52:09,233 -DO YOU HAVE IT? -TWO, THREE. 1022 00:52:09,233 --> 00:52:13,333 NOW CHECK THE WEIGHT AND SEE HOW MUCH SKIN WE TOOK OFF. 1023 00:52:13,333 --> 00:52:14,800 ALL RIGHT. HOW MUCH IT WEIGHED? 1024 00:52:14,800 --> 00:52:16,533 Man: 56.5. 1025 00:52:16,533 --> 00:52:20,100 -HOW MUCH? -56.5 POUNDS. 1026 00:52:20,100 --> 00:52:21,700 56 1/2? 1027 00:52:21,700 --> 00:52:23,133 ALL RIGHT, SUPER. 1028 00:52:23,133 --> 00:52:27,067 OKAY. WE NEED TO CLOSE HER UP NOW. 1029 00:52:27,067 --> 00:52:30,400 THERE HAS TO BE SO MUCH REPAIR DONE TO HER BODY, 1030 00:52:30,400 --> 00:52:34,133 THAT IT WILL TAKE MONTHS FOR HER TO FULLY HEAL FROM THIS. 1031 00:52:34,133 --> 00:52:37,700 ONCE SHE DOES, SHE'S GOING TO FEEL SO MUCH BETTER. 1032 00:52:37,700 --> 00:52:41,467 BUT IT'S GOING TO BE A HARD 2 TO 3 MONTHS FOR HER, 1033 00:52:41,467 --> 00:52:45,733 ASSUMING THERE ARE NO UNEXPECTED COMPLICATIONS. 1034 00:52:55,700 --> 00:52:57,800 AND WE'RE DONE. 1035 00:52:57,800 --> 00:53:00,067 NIKKI'S SURGERY WAS VERY DIFFICULT, 1036 00:53:00,067 --> 00:53:02,900 AND IT TOOK 6 HOURS TO COMPLETE. 1037 00:53:02,900 --> 00:53:04,967 Woman: YOU'RE ALL DONE, JUST WAKING UP. 1038 00:53:04,967 --> 00:53:09,067 BUT EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL, AND THERE WERE NO COMPLICATIONS. 1039 00:53:09,067 --> 00:53:11,733 SO NOW WE WILL GET HER TO RECOVERY, 1040 00:53:11,733 --> 00:53:14,633 BUT SHE'S STILL IN A VERY DELICATE PLACE 1041 00:53:14,633 --> 00:53:16,500 FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS. 1042 00:53:16,500 --> 00:53:18,433 THERE WERE HUNDREDS OF BLOOD VESSELS 1043 00:53:18,433 --> 00:53:19,967 WE TIED OFF TODAY, 1044 00:53:19,967 --> 00:53:22,567 AND IF EVEN ONE OF THEM OPENS UP, 1045 00:53:22,567 --> 00:53:25,267 IT COULD BECOME A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION 1046 00:53:25,267 --> 00:53:27,967 IF WE DON'T ADDRESS IT IN TIME. 1047 00:53:27,967 --> 00:53:31,067 FOR AN OPERATION AS EXTENSIVE AS NIKKI'S, 1048 00:53:31,067 --> 00:53:34,267 THERE IS A GOOD CHANCE SHE MAY DEVELOP A BLEEDER. 1049 00:53:34,267 --> 00:53:37,267 IF SHE DOES, SHE MAY START TO FEEL SICK, 1050 00:53:37,267 --> 00:53:39,767 AND HER BLOOD PRESSURE WILL DROP. 1051 00:53:39,767 --> 00:53:42,367 SO WE WILL NEED TO KEEP AN EYE ON HER, 1052 00:53:42,367 --> 00:53:45,200 AND IF SHE DEVELOPS ANY OF THOSE SYMPTOMS, 1053 00:53:45,200 --> 00:53:47,767 WE WILL NEED TO CHECK HER FOR THAT. 1054 00:53:47,767 --> 00:53:50,067 BUT FOR NOW, SHE NEEDS TO REST, 1055 00:53:50,067 --> 00:53:53,100 AND THEN WE TRY TO GET HER UP IN A DAY OR SO 1056 00:53:53,100 --> 00:53:55,967 AND SEE HOW SHE'S DOING. 1057 00:53:55,967 --> 00:53:59,567 SHE HAS A LONG ROAD OF RECOVERY AHEAD OF HER, 1058 00:53:59,567 --> 00:54:03,833 AND WE'LL HELP HER THROUGH IT TO GET HER TO THE OTHER SIDE. 1059 00:54:06,567 --> 00:54:09,600 ** 1060 00:54:12,633 --> 00:54:15,667 Nikki: IT'S BEEN A COUPLE DAYS SINCE MY SURGERY. 1061 00:54:15,667 --> 00:54:19,500 AND I'M TRYING TO SLOWLY RECOVER. 1062 00:54:19,500 --> 00:54:21,067 I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN, 1063 00:54:21,067 --> 00:54:24,433 AND I'M TRYING TO SLOWLY MOVE AROUND AGAIN, 1064 00:54:24,433 --> 00:54:27,233 BUT I CAN'T DO MUCH, 1065 00:54:27,233 --> 00:54:31,067 BECAUSE THERE'S JUST TOO MUCH PAIN. 1066 00:54:31,067 --> 00:54:34,967 AND IT FEELS SCARY TO BE STUCK LIKE THIS RIGHT NOW, 1067 00:54:34,967 --> 00:54:36,767 THINKING ABOUT ALL THE THINGS 1068 00:54:36,767 --> 00:54:40,067 THAT COULD GO WRONG WITH THIS RECOVERY. 1069 00:54:40,067 --> 00:54:44,067 THIS FEAR AND THIS ANXIETY 1070 00:54:44,067 --> 00:54:47,600 THAT I HAVE OF BEING ABLE TO MOVE 1071 00:54:47,600 --> 00:54:51,867 AND BEING ABLE TO GET OUT OF THE HOSPITAL 1072 00:54:51,867 --> 00:54:53,900 AND RECOVER SAFELY. 1073 00:54:53,900 --> 00:54:58,900 AND WHAT IF I CAN'T RECOVER? WHAT WOULD I DO THEN? 1074 00:54:58,900 --> 00:55:03,200 BUT THEN I LOOK DOWN AND SEE ALL THAT MISERABLE SKIN IS GONE. 1075 00:55:03,200 --> 00:55:05,967 AND THAT MAKES ME SEE WHAT I'M WORKING FOR. 1076 00:55:05,967 --> 00:55:08,567 SO I'M TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT THE THINGS 1077 00:55:08,567 --> 00:55:10,533 THAT MAKE ME AFRAID 1078 00:55:10,533 --> 00:55:13,800 AND FOCUS ON THE THINGS I'M THANKFUL FOR RIGHT NOW. 1079 00:55:17,167 --> 00:55:21,067 -HI. -HEY, LAURA. 1080 00:55:21,067 --> 00:55:24,467 I THINK I'M GONNA HEAD TO THE BATHROOM. 1081 00:55:24,467 --> 00:55:27,167 I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS ABOUT IT. [ CHUCKLES ] 1082 00:55:32,833 --> 00:55:36,067 I'M GONNA SIT HERE FOR A MINUTE. SURE. GO AHEAD. 1083 00:55:36,067 --> 00:55:37,933 A LITTLE BIT. 1084 00:55:37,933 --> 00:55:41,067 I'M GONNA GET UP ON THE COUNT OF THREE. 1085 00:55:41,067 --> 00:55:43,233 1, 2 -- 1086 00:55:46,567 --> 00:55:49,667 ALL RIGHT. LOOK AT YOU. 1087 00:55:49,667 --> 00:55:53,067 -WOW. -DON'T FAINT ON US. 1088 00:55:53,067 --> 00:55:55,067 IT'S JUST A DIFFERENT -- 1089 00:55:55,067 --> 00:55:56,500 IT'S A DIFFERENT FEELING. 1090 00:55:56,500 --> 00:55:59,367 I'LL BET IT IS, ISN'T IT? 1091 00:55:59,367 --> 00:56:01,267 OH, MY GOSH. 1092 00:56:01,267 --> 00:56:03,300 YOU NEED A WALKER? 1093 00:56:03,300 --> 00:56:06,467 YEAH, I'M USED TO HAVING, LIKE, A -- 1094 00:56:06,467 --> 00:56:08,800 60-POUND STOMACH RIGHT HERE, 1095 00:56:08,800 --> 00:56:12,633 SO IT'S VERY STRANGE. 1096 00:56:12,633 --> 00:56:15,333 I FEEL VERY DIZZY. 1097 00:56:15,333 --> 00:56:17,633 I FEEL VERY, VERY DIZZY. 1098 00:56:19,867 --> 00:56:22,433 YEAH, I'M VERY DIZZY. 1099 00:56:22,433 --> 00:56:25,467 ** 1100 00:56:32,900 --> 00:56:35,067 OKAY. YEAH. 1101 00:56:35,067 --> 00:56:37,200 I FEEL REALLY DIZZY. 1102 00:56:40,567 --> 00:56:42,233 OKAY. 1103 00:56:46,667 --> 00:56:48,567 I'M GETTING REALLY SCARED, 1104 00:56:48,567 --> 00:56:52,500 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO BE WRONG WITH ME. 1105 00:56:52,500 --> 00:56:57,600 I KNOW I COULD HAVE ANY NUMBER OF ISSUES GO WRONG RIGHT NOW. 1106 00:56:57,600 --> 00:57:00,167 AND WHAT IF IT'S SOMETHING REALLY BAD, 1107 00:57:00,167 --> 00:57:01,500 OR IT'S SOMETHING THEY CAN'T FIX? 1108 00:57:01,500 --> 00:57:05,167 FEEL LIKE I CAN'T BREATHE. 1109 00:57:05,167 --> 00:57:06,733 OKAY. 1110 00:57:14,767 --> 00:57:16,333 YEAH, THAT IS LOW. 1111 00:57:18,800 --> 00:57:20,833 OKAY. 1112 00:57:36,733 --> 00:57:37,767 -OHH. -I'M SORRY. 1113 00:57:37,767 --> 00:57:38,833 -YOU OKAY? -YEAH. 1114 00:57:38,833 --> 00:57:41,700 -THAT'S JUST THE PAINFUL PART. -OKAY. 1115 00:57:41,700 --> 00:57:44,300 I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW. 1116 00:57:44,300 --> 00:57:45,800 I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 1117 00:57:59,900 --> 00:58:02,700 Nikki: I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME RIGHT NOW, 1118 00:58:02,700 --> 00:58:05,733 AND I'M REALLY SCARED. 1119 00:58:05,733 --> 00:58:08,833 DR. NOW THINKS THAT I MAY HAVE SOME INTERNAL BLEEDING 1120 00:58:08,833 --> 00:58:11,500 AND THAT I NEED TO GO BACK TO SURGERY. 1121 00:58:11,500 --> 00:58:13,167 AND I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW 1122 00:58:13,167 --> 00:58:14,533 THAT SOMETHING ELSE COULD HAPPEN 1123 00:58:14,533 --> 00:58:17,900 OR THAT IT'S GOING TO GET WORSE. 1124 00:58:17,900 --> 00:58:19,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'RE GOING TO TAKE NIKKI 1125 00:58:19,733 --> 00:58:22,700 INTO EMERGENCY SURGERY RIGHT NOW. 1126 00:58:22,700 --> 00:58:26,367 EARLIER TODAY, SHE DEVELOPED AN INTERNAL BLEED, 1127 00:58:26,367 --> 00:58:28,767 AND I WAS CONCERNED ABOUT THIS. 1128 00:58:28,767 --> 00:58:33,833 BUT IT'S NOT LIFE-THREATENING IF WE ADDRESS IT IMMEDIATELY. 1129 00:58:33,833 --> 00:58:36,267 OKAY. LET'S BEGIN. 1130 00:58:36,267 --> 00:58:42,067 I'M OPENING THE SUTURES NOW TO LOCATE THE BLEEDER. 1131 00:58:42,067 --> 00:58:43,633 I FOUND IT. 1132 00:58:43,633 --> 00:58:46,800 SO WE'RE GOING TO TIE THE BLEEDER OFF AGAIN, 1133 00:58:46,800 --> 00:58:49,300 CLEAN OUT THE DRY BLOOD INTERNALLY, 1134 00:58:49,300 --> 00:58:52,667 AND SUTURE HER UP SO SHE CAN FULLY RECOVER. 1135 00:58:52,667 --> 00:58:55,133 SUCTION, SUCTION, SUCTION. 1136 00:58:59,100 --> 00:59:01,067 THERE IS A LOT OF BLOOD HERE, 1137 00:59:01,067 --> 00:59:04,267 SO WE NEED TO SUCTION ALL THIS OUT 1138 00:59:04,267 --> 00:59:07,133 AND CLEAN UP THE SUTURES. 1139 00:59:07,133 --> 00:59:09,667 IT'S TIED OFF NOW. 1140 00:59:09,667 --> 00:59:12,400 OKAY, EVERYTHING IS LOOKING GOOD. 1141 00:59:12,400 --> 00:59:15,200 NOW WE'RE CLOSING THE INCISION. 1142 00:59:15,200 --> 00:59:18,333 ALL RIGHT. A COUPLE MORE STITCHES, AND WE'LL BE DONE. 1143 00:59:18,333 --> 00:59:21,667 ** 1144 00:59:21,667 --> 00:59:24,067 NICOLE'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 1145 00:59:24,067 --> 00:59:26,533 SO WE'RE GONNA KEEP HER UNDER WATCH IN ICU 1146 00:59:26,533 --> 00:59:27,767 FOR A FEW DAYS 1147 00:59:27,767 --> 00:59:31,133 AND MAKE SURE THAT THERE IS NOT ANOTHER OCCURRENCE. 1148 00:59:31,133 --> 00:59:34,200 AND AFTER SHE GETS PAST THE NEXT 72 HOURS, 1149 00:59:34,200 --> 00:59:35,933 IF EVERYTHING GOES WELL 1150 00:59:35,933 --> 00:59:38,367 AND THERE ARE NO FURTHER COMPLICATIONS, 1151 00:59:38,367 --> 00:59:42,333 WE'LL WORK ON GETTING HER UP AND MOVING HER AROUND AGAIN. 1152 00:59:42,333 --> 00:59:45,600 IT'S GOING TO BE A HARD COUPLE MONTHS FOR HER, 1153 00:59:45,600 --> 00:59:49,200 BUT NIKKI IS STRONG, AND I THINK SHE CAN HANDLE IT. 1154 00:59:52,233 --> 00:59:55,267 ** 1155 00:59:58,500 --> 01:00:02,567 Nikki: IT'S BEEN FOUR DAYS SINCE MY EMERGENCY SURGERY. 1156 01:00:02,567 --> 01:00:06,733 AND I HAVEN'T DEVELOPED ANY MORE ISSUES. 1157 01:00:06,733 --> 01:00:08,533 AND DR. NOW SAYS THE POSSIBILITY 1158 01:00:08,533 --> 01:00:12,267 OF DEVELOPING ANY MORE BLEEDERS IS BEHIND ME. 1159 01:00:12,267 --> 01:00:14,500 SO NOW I NEED TO FOCUS ON GETTING UP 1160 01:00:14,500 --> 01:00:16,500 AND MOVING AROUND AGAIN, 1161 01:00:16,500 --> 01:00:19,933 BUT I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN RIGHT NOW. 1162 01:00:19,933 --> 01:00:24,333 SO I KNOW THIS ISN'T GOING TO BE EASY. 1163 01:00:24,333 --> 01:00:28,067 THIS HAS ALREADY BEEN A LOT HARDER THAN I THOUGHT, 1164 01:00:28,067 --> 01:00:31,500 BUT I'M STILL GLAD I DID IT. 1165 01:00:31,500 --> 01:00:34,000 GETTING SKIN REMOVAL ON MY BELLY, 1166 01:00:34,000 --> 01:00:35,633 I FEEL LIKE IT WAS A NECESSARY EVIL. 1167 01:00:35,633 --> 01:00:37,867 A LOT OF SCARY THINGS HAPPENED. 1168 01:00:37,867 --> 01:00:41,400 TRAUMATIZING, BUT I CANNOT 1169 01:00:41,400 --> 01:00:44,033 GO FORWARD IN MY LIFE WITH THAT STOMACH. 1170 01:00:46,033 --> 01:00:48,700 -HELLO. -HI. 1171 01:00:48,700 --> 01:00:50,500 HOW'S THE PAIN AND DISCOMFORT? 1172 01:00:50,500 --> 01:00:53,167 I HAVEN'T EXPERIENCED PAIN LIKE THIS BEFORE. 1173 01:00:53,167 --> 01:00:56,100 SO, THIS TAKE ABOUT A COUPLE MONTHS TO HEAL. 1174 01:00:56,100 --> 01:00:58,867 -RIGHT. -AND WE CAN GET YOU 1175 01:00:58,867 --> 01:01:01,567 UP AND WALKING, BUT NOT DOING TOO MUCH, OKAY? 1176 01:01:01,567 --> 01:01:03,100 THAT SOUNDS GOOD TO ME. 1177 01:01:03,100 --> 01:01:06,733 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO GET USED TO NOT HAVING ALL THAT 1178 01:01:06,733 --> 01:01:10,167 60 POUNDS OF TIRE AROUND YOU. 1179 01:01:10,167 --> 01:01:11,600 I KNOW. 1180 01:01:11,600 --> 01:01:15,267 I FEEL KIND OF LIKE A TODDLER LEARNING HOW TO WALK AGAIN. 1181 01:01:15,267 --> 01:01:17,867 I FEEL VERY LIGHT ON MY FEET, 1182 01:01:17,867 --> 01:01:21,367 NOT HAVING THAT GRAVITY PULL ME DOWN. 1183 01:01:21,367 --> 01:01:23,533 Dr. Nowzaradan: NIKKI IS RECOVERING WELL, 1184 01:01:23,533 --> 01:01:26,300 BUT HER BALANCE IS GOING TO BE COMPLETELY OFF 1185 01:01:26,300 --> 01:01:28,933 UNTIL SHE LEARNS TO ADJUST. 1186 01:01:28,933 --> 01:01:30,967 AND SHE WILL NEED TO BE CAREFUL 1187 01:01:30,967 --> 01:01:34,100 WITH HER SUTURES AND HOW SHE MOVES. 1188 01:01:34,100 --> 01:01:36,467 IN A COUPLE WEEKS, ALL THE FLUIDS ARE GONNA GO AROUND, 1189 01:01:36,467 --> 01:01:41,333 AND YOU SHOULD BE AROUND PROBABLY 240. 1190 01:01:41,333 --> 01:01:43,933 I'LL BELIEVE THAT WHEN I SEE IT. [ LAUGHS ] 1191 01:01:43,933 --> 01:01:46,067 -ALL RIGHT. SEE Y'ALL LATER. -THANK YOU, DR. NOW. 1192 01:01:46,067 --> 01:01:48,867 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHTY. 1193 01:01:48,867 --> 01:01:51,400 Dr. Nowzaradan: THE SKIN AROUND HER STOMACH IS WEAK, 1194 01:01:51,400 --> 01:01:54,733 AND HER SUTURES ARE GOING TO OPEN UP OCCASIONALLY, 1195 01:01:54,733 --> 01:01:57,067 BECAUSE THERE WAS AN EXTENSIVE AMOUNT 1196 01:01:57,067 --> 01:02:00,267 OF DAMAGE TO THE AREA AROUND THE STOMACH. 1197 01:02:00,267 --> 01:02:03,267 SO THERE ARE GOING TO BE GAPS IN THE SUTURES 1198 01:02:03,267 --> 01:02:07,133 THAT WILL DEVELOP, AND WE NEED TO TREAT TO CLOSE. 1199 01:02:07,133 --> 01:02:09,133 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE NORMAL, 1200 01:02:09,133 --> 01:02:11,367 BUT WE HAVE TO WORK TO NOT DO ANYTHING 1201 01:02:11,367 --> 01:02:13,633 TO INCREASE THOSE GAPS. 1202 01:02:13,633 --> 01:02:16,267 BUT I'M GOING TO REQUIRE HER TO STAY IN HOUSTON 1203 01:02:16,267 --> 01:02:18,767 FOR AT LEAST 2 MONTHS SO WE CAN TREAT HER 1204 01:02:18,767 --> 01:02:22,833 UNTIL SHE'S HEALED ENOUGH TO GO HOME. 1205 01:02:22,833 --> 01:02:26,067 OH, WOW. MY BODY FEELS REALLY DIFFERENT. 1206 01:02:26,067 --> 01:02:28,433 IF YOU NEED TO GO BACK, WE'LL TURN AROUND. 1207 01:02:33,100 --> 01:02:34,400 Nikki: DR. NOW IS RIGHT. 1208 01:02:34,400 --> 01:02:36,200 IT DOES FEEL LIKE I'M HAVING TO LEARN 1209 01:02:36,200 --> 01:02:38,900 HOW TO WALK RIGHT AGAIN. 1210 01:02:38,900 --> 01:02:41,500 MY CENTER OF GRAVITY WAS MY STOMACH, 1211 01:02:41,500 --> 01:02:45,867 'CAUSE IT WAS SO LARGE, AND IT PULLED ME DOWN, 1212 01:02:45,867 --> 01:02:47,600 LIKE, A CERTAIN PART OF MY BODY, 1213 01:02:47,600 --> 01:02:50,467 AND I JUST GOT USED TO WALKING THAT WAY. 1214 01:02:50,467 --> 01:02:52,467 BUT I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME 1215 01:02:52,467 --> 01:02:55,067 I COULD STAND UP STRAIGHT LIKE THIS. 1216 01:02:55,067 --> 01:02:59,500 AND I CAN ALREADY TELL THIS IS A BIG IMPROVEMENT FOR ME. 1217 01:02:59,500 --> 01:03:01,733 I JUST HOPE I CAN STAY STRONG 1218 01:03:01,733 --> 01:03:04,667 AND, WITH MY FAMILY'S SUPPORT, MAKE IT THROUGH THIS. 1219 01:03:24,067 --> 01:03:27,233 Nikki: IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE MY SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY. 1220 01:03:27,233 --> 01:03:29,067 AND ABOUT A WEEK AGO, DR. NOW SAID 1221 01:03:29,067 --> 01:03:32,767 I WAS HEALING ENOUGH TO BE DISCHARGED, 1222 01:03:32,767 --> 01:03:34,400 BUT THAT I HAD TO STAY IN HOUSTON 1223 01:03:34,400 --> 01:03:36,800 FOR ANOTHER 6 WEEKS AT LEAST 1224 01:03:36,800 --> 01:03:39,367 SO THAT HE CAN MONITOR MY RECOVERY, 1225 01:03:39,367 --> 01:03:41,300 BECAUSE IF THERE'S ONE LITTLE ISSUE 1226 01:03:41,300 --> 01:03:43,433 THAT DOESN'T GET TREATED IN TIME, 1227 01:03:43,433 --> 01:03:47,333 HE SAID IT COULD END UP SERIOUSLY DELAYING MY RECOVERY. 1228 01:03:47,333 --> 01:03:50,200 AND I DON'T WANT THAT, SO MY MOM AND I ARE RENTING 1229 01:03:50,200 --> 01:03:52,367 THE SAME LAKE HOUSE I RECOVERED IN 1230 01:03:52,367 --> 01:03:54,667 AFTER MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1231 01:03:54,667 --> 01:03:58,167 AND IT'S A LITTLE WEIRD BEING BACK HERE. 1232 01:03:58,167 --> 01:04:02,200 IT'S JUST MOM AND I HERE, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE COUNTRY. 1233 01:04:02,200 --> 01:04:03,833 AND I'M FEELING LIKE I DID THEN, 1234 01:04:03,833 --> 01:04:06,533 JUST CUT OFF FROM THE WORLD SOME. 1235 01:04:06,533 --> 01:04:10,700 SO IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M BACK TO THE WAY I WAS BEFORE, 1236 01:04:10,700 --> 01:04:13,100 WHEN I WAS 600 POUNDS. 1237 01:04:15,500 --> 01:04:19,100 BUT I KNOW I NEED TO TAKE THE TIME TO HEAL PROPERLY. 1238 01:04:19,100 --> 01:04:22,567 DR. NOW TOLD ME THERE COULD BE A LOT OF ISSUES, 1239 01:04:22,567 --> 01:04:24,233 AND ONE OF THEM IS THAT THE SUTURES 1240 01:04:24,233 --> 01:04:27,300 MAY HAVE TROUBLE STAYING CLOSED. 1241 01:04:27,300 --> 01:04:28,667 AND THEY HAVE TO BE TREATED, 1242 01:04:28,667 --> 01:04:31,667 SO I HAVE THIS WOUND VAC THING ON ME. 1243 01:04:31,667 --> 01:04:34,067 IT'S THIS SPONGE THAT HELPS REMOVE SWELLING 1244 01:04:34,067 --> 01:04:36,700 AND SLOWLY CLOSES ANY OPENINGS 1245 01:04:36,700 --> 01:04:38,567 WITH THIS SUCTION PRESSURE. 1246 01:04:38,567 --> 01:04:40,633 IT'S LIKE A TIGHT VACUUM SEAL. 1247 01:04:40,633 --> 01:04:42,433 AND ATTACH THIS HOSE. 1248 01:04:42,433 --> 01:04:44,567 IT JUST [SLURPS] 1249 01:04:44,567 --> 01:04:48,067 SUCKS OUT ALL OF THE NASTINESS. 1250 01:04:48,067 --> 01:04:50,733 WHAT IT FEELS LIKE IS ALL OF MY INSIDES 1251 01:04:50,733 --> 01:04:52,100 ARE BEING SUCKED OUT. 1252 01:04:52,100 --> 01:04:55,433 AND THIS ONE HURTS. LIKE, THIS HURTS TO TOUCH IT. 1253 01:04:55,433 --> 01:04:57,233 IT'S GONNA TAKE A LONG TIME FOR ME TO HEAL 1254 01:04:57,233 --> 01:05:00,433 AND FOR MY SKIN TO GET BACK TO NORMAL. 1255 01:05:00,433 --> 01:05:02,967 IT'S VERY TIGHT. IT FEELS LIKE A CORSET. 1256 01:05:02,967 --> 01:05:06,933 AND I HAVE TO KEEP IT ON ME ALL THE TIME. 1257 01:05:06,933 --> 01:05:09,600 SO RECOVERING FROM THIS SURGERY IS SO MUCH HARDER 1258 01:05:09,600 --> 01:05:11,667 THAN THE LAST ONE. 1259 01:05:11,667 --> 01:05:14,900 I THOUGHT THAT I WAS PREPARED FOR THIS SURGERY, 1260 01:05:14,900 --> 01:05:20,067 AND IT JUST HIT ME LIKE A MACK TRUCK. 1261 01:05:20,067 --> 01:05:22,333 AND IT HAS DAMPENED MY SPIRIT. 1262 01:05:22,333 --> 01:05:25,367 ** 1263 01:05:29,667 --> 01:05:34,300 I HAD A LOT OF APPREHENSION COMING INTO SURGERY, 1264 01:05:34,300 --> 01:05:36,333 BECAUSE MY FRIEND MICHAEL DIED 1265 01:05:36,333 --> 01:05:38,933 AFTER HAVING GASTRIC BYPASS, 1266 01:05:38,933 --> 01:05:43,600 SO I'VE BEEN SCARED FROM THE BEGINNING. 1267 01:05:43,600 --> 01:05:45,667 AND EVERY TIME I HAD A COMPLICATION 1268 01:05:45,667 --> 01:05:49,167 OR IT FELT LIKE SOMETHING WAS GOING WRONG, 1269 01:05:49,167 --> 01:05:52,067 I THOUGHT, "COULD THIS BE WHAT LEADS ME TO A PLACE 1270 01:05:52,067 --> 01:05:54,533 WHERE I WON'T MAKE IT?" 1271 01:05:54,533 --> 01:05:58,533 SO THIS HAS BEEN A SCARY TIME FOR ME. 1272 01:05:58,533 --> 01:06:02,600 AND I STILL HAVE ANOTHER MONTH HERE IN HOUSTON. 1273 01:06:02,600 --> 01:06:07,433 SO I'M TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE. 1274 01:06:07,433 --> 01:06:10,667 BUT I'M REALLY READY FOR ALL THIS TO BE OVER 1275 01:06:10,667 --> 01:06:15,367 AND TO GET HOME AND BACK TO MY LIFE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. 1276 01:06:19,067 --> 01:06:22,067 ** 1277 01:06:26,533 --> 01:06:27,867 RECENTLY, I FEEL LIKE 1278 01:06:27,867 --> 01:06:30,533 I'M STARTING TO TURN A CORNER WITH MY RECOVERY. 1279 01:06:30,533 --> 01:06:34,700 I'M FEELING BETTER, AND A LOT OF THE PAIN IS GOING AWAY. 1280 01:06:34,700 --> 01:06:38,633 AND I'M HAVING AN EASIER TIME GETTING AROUND, 1281 01:06:38,633 --> 01:06:43,667 SO I KNOW I'M HEALING A LOT MORE. 1282 01:06:43,667 --> 01:06:45,333 MY MOM AND I HAVE BEEN IN HOUSTON 1283 01:06:45,333 --> 01:06:48,667 FOR ALMOST TWO MONTHS NOW. 1284 01:06:48,667 --> 01:06:50,067 AND I'M HOPING THAT WE'LL BE ABLE 1285 01:06:50,067 --> 01:06:53,067 TO GO BACK TO LITTLE ROCK SOON. 1286 01:06:53,067 --> 01:06:55,267 BUT AS HARD AS THIS RECOVERY IS, 1287 01:06:55,267 --> 01:06:58,733 AND AS MUCH AS I WANT TO GET HOME AND BACK TO MY LIFE, 1288 01:06:58,733 --> 01:07:00,933 I'VE BEEN REALLY THANKFUL FOR THE TIME 1289 01:07:00,933 --> 01:07:03,600 I'VE BEEN ABLE TO SPEND WITH MY MOM HERE. 1290 01:07:03,600 --> 01:07:06,300 HEY, GIRL! I'M HOME. 1291 01:07:06,300 --> 01:07:07,700 -HI, MOM. -GOT GROCERIES. 1292 01:07:07,700 --> 01:07:11,300 SHE HAS BEEN AMAZING. 1293 01:07:11,300 --> 01:07:12,933 OH, I HAD THIS GREAT IDEA FOR DINNER. 1294 01:07:12,933 --> 01:07:16,367 I SAW THIS RECIPE THE OTHER DAY THAT I KEPT, 1295 01:07:16,367 --> 01:07:18,200 AND YOU MAKE, LIKE, AN OMELET, 1296 01:07:18,200 --> 01:07:20,533 AND YOU PUT ONIONS IN IT, AND YOU LET IT COOK, 1297 01:07:20,533 --> 01:07:22,200 AND THEN YOU PUT ALL THE BLACK BEANS 1298 01:07:22,200 --> 01:07:23,900 AND THE TOMATOES 1299 01:07:23,900 --> 01:07:26,167 AND AVOCADO ON TOP OF THAT, AND YOU ROLL IT UP. 1300 01:07:26,167 --> 01:07:28,067 -THAT SOUNDS FUN. -THAT SOUNDS GOOD AND HEALTHY, 1301 01:07:28,067 --> 01:07:29,767 -DOESN'T IT? -SOUNDS GOOD. 1302 01:07:29,767 --> 01:07:31,200 I FEEL LIKE OUR RELATIONSHIP 1303 01:07:31,200 --> 01:07:34,067 HAS GROWN A LOT, EVEN OVER THE PAST YEAR. 1304 01:07:34,067 --> 01:07:36,100 YOU WANT TO COME CHOP? YOU FEEL LIKE IT? 1305 01:07:36,100 --> 01:07:38,233 -NO, I CAN. I CAN DO IT. -OKAY. 1306 01:07:38,233 --> 01:07:40,933 WE'VE HAD A HARD RELATIONSHIP IN THE PAST, 1307 01:07:40,933 --> 01:07:42,567 AND TO GET PAST WHAT WAS DRIVING ME 1308 01:07:42,567 --> 01:07:44,533 TO EAT ALL THESE YEARS, 1309 01:07:44,533 --> 01:07:46,133 I HAD TO ADDRESS 1310 01:07:46,133 --> 01:07:48,267 HOW I NEVER FELT GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY MOTHER 1311 01:07:48,267 --> 01:07:50,867 AND HOW I FELT JUDGED BY HER. 1312 01:07:50,867 --> 01:07:53,733 AND WE FINALLY TALKED ABOUT THAT AND LET THAT GO. 1313 01:07:53,733 --> 01:07:56,367 I THINK I FELT LIKE I WAS JUST NEVER GOOD ENOUGH. 1314 01:07:56,367 --> 01:07:58,467 I HATE THAT YOU EVER FELT THAT WAY. 1315 01:07:58,467 --> 01:08:00,700 I HOPE I DON'T EVER HURT YOUR FEELINGS. 1316 01:08:00,700 --> 01:08:03,067 I LOVE YOU, BABY. 1317 01:08:03,067 --> 01:08:05,700 BUT AFTER THAT, I FEEL LIKE IT'S NOT ONLY ENABLED ME 1318 01:08:05,700 --> 01:08:09,233 TO MAKE MORE PROGRESS, BUT IT'S ALSO ALLOWED US 1319 01:08:09,233 --> 01:08:12,800 TO START HAVING A CLOSER RELATIONSHIP. 1320 01:08:12,800 --> 01:08:14,500 IT'S BEEN ENJOYABLE FOR NIKKI AND I 1321 01:08:14,500 --> 01:08:15,967 JUST TO BE HERE BY OURSELVES. 1322 01:08:15,967 --> 01:08:18,667 WE'VE HAD A GREAT TIME JUST BEING TOGETHER. 1323 01:08:18,667 --> 01:08:20,733 WE DON'T EVER HAVE THAT KIND OF TIME 1324 01:08:20,733 --> 01:08:25,500 JUST TO TALK WITH EACH OTHER AND ENJOY EACH OTHER'S COMPANY. 1325 01:08:25,500 --> 01:08:27,133 Nikki: SO, AS HARD AS IT'S BEEN, 1326 01:08:27,133 --> 01:08:30,167 I WOULDN'T TRADE THIS TIME FOR THE WORLD, 1327 01:08:30,167 --> 01:08:33,667 BUT I KNOW WE'RE BOTH LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK HOME 1328 01:08:33,667 --> 01:08:36,167 AND OUR DAY-TO-DAY LIVES. 1329 01:08:36,167 --> 01:08:38,467 I WANT TO GET BACK AND SEE MY FRIENDS, 1330 01:08:38,467 --> 01:08:41,767 GO BACK TO WORK, AND SEE MARC AGAIN. 1331 01:08:41,767 --> 01:08:45,400 AFTER OUR FIRST DATE, MARC AND I WENT OUT A COUPLE MORE TIMES. 1332 01:08:45,400 --> 01:08:47,567 SO WE'RE SORT OF DATING RIGHT NOW. 1333 01:08:47,567 --> 01:08:50,933 IT'S NOT TOO SERIOUS, BUT IT MAY BE HEADED IN THAT DIRECTION. 1334 01:08:50,933 --> 01:08:53,900 SO I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING HIM AGAIN, 1335 01:08:53,900 --> 01:08:58,133 BUT IT ALL DEPENDS ON IF DR. NOW CLEARS ME TO FINALLY GO HOME 1336 01:08:58,133 --> 01:09:02,900 AT MY NEXT APPOINTMENT IN A COUPLE WEEKS. 1337 01:09:02,900 --> 01:09:04,200 THERE ARE JUST SO MANY THINGS 1338 01:09:04,200 --> 01:09:06,100 I FEEL DISCONNECTED FROM RIGHT NOW, 1339 01:09:06,100 --> 01:09:09,133 AND I'M JUST VERY ANXIOUS TO GET BACK HOME. 1340 01:09:09,133 --> 01:09:10,633 THERE'S A PART OF ME THAT'S AFRAID 1341 01:09:10,633 --> 01:09:12,600 I'M GOING TO LOSE ALL THE NEW THINGS 1342 01:09:12,600 --> 01:09:15,967 AND PEOPLE IN MY LIFE IF I'M AWAY FOR TOO LONG. 1343 01:09:15,967 --> 01:09:18,133 AND I KNOW THAT'S CRAZY. 1344 01:09:18,133 --> 01:09:21,700 IT'S JUST HARD TO BE AWAY FROM YOUR LIFE FOR 2 MONTHS. 1345 01:09:21,700 --> 01:09:24,567 SO I JUST NEED TO GET BACK. 1346 01:09:46,533 --> 01:09:49,967 Nikki: I'M HERE AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE FOR MY NEXT DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT, 1347 01:09:49,967 --> 01:09:54,633 AND I'M HOPING HE CLEARS ME TO GO HOME TODAY. 1348 01:09:54,633 --> 01:09:58,067 I FEEL LIKE I'M RECOVERING WELL, BUT I STILL HAVE A GAP 1349 01:09:58,067 --> 01:10:00,400 IN MY SUTURES THAT NEEDS CLOSING. 1350 01:10:00,400 --> 01:10:02,500 AND AS GROSS AS THAT IS, 1351 01:10:02,500 --> 01:10:05,533 IT'S STILL HEALING AND GETTING BETTER EVERY DAY. 1352 01:10:05,533 --> 01:10:07,200 NIKKI WEBSTER? 1353 01:10:07,200 --> 01:10:09,967 I'M ALSO CURIOUS TO SEE WHAT MY WEIGHT IS NOW. 1354 01:10:09,967 --> 01:10:12,767 BECAUSE WHEN I LEFT THE HOSPITAL ABOUT 6 WEEKS AGO, 1355 01:10:12,767 --> 01:10:16,767 I WAS JUST UNDER 240 POUNDS. 1356 01:10:16,767 --> 01:10:18,300 SO I'M EXCITED TO SEE 1357 01:10:18,300 --> 01:10:23,233 IF I'M CLOSE TO BEING UNDER 200 POUNDS NOW. 1358 01:10:23,233 --> 01:10:26,800 236. 1359 01:10:26,800 --> 01:10:28,967 KIND OF STAYED THE SAME. 1360 01:10:28,967 --> 01:10:32,400 -I DON'T SEE HOW. -I KNOW. I DON'T GET IT. 1361 01:10:32,400 --> 01:10:35,133 THAT'S EXTREMELY DISAPPOINTING. 1362 01:10:35,133 --> 01:10:37,500 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M ABOUT TO LET THE DOCTOR DOWN 1363 01:10:37,500 --> 01:10:40,567 AFTER GETTING MY SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY. 1364 01:10:40,567 --> 01:10:42,367 BUT HOPEFULLY MY WEIGHT TODAY 1365 01:10:42,367 --> 01:10:44,967 DOESN'T PLAY INTO WHETHER OR NOT I CAN GO HOME. 1366 01:10:44,967 --> 01:10:47,133 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1367 01:10:47,133 --> 01:10:49,000 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 1368 01:10:49,000 --> 01:10:51,567 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -I'M DOING ALL RIGHT. 1369 01:10:51,567 --> 01:10:54,233 YOU ARE 236 TODAY. 1370 01:10:54,233 --> 01:10:57,800 THAT'S PRETTY MUCH THE WEIGHT YOU WERE AT A COUPLE MONTHS AGO. 1371 01:10:57,800 --> 01:11:00,200 -I KNOW. -SO YOU LOST NOTHING 1372 01:11:00,200 --> 01:11:03,300 IN THE PAST 2 MONTHS, SO WHAT'S GOING ON NOW? 1373 01:11:03,300 --> 01:11:07,967 WELL, I WAS REALLY SICK FOR A WHILE, 1374 01:11:07,967 --> 01:11:10,933 AND I COULDN'T HOLD ANYTHING DOWN FOR LIKE A WEEK. 1375 01:11:10,933 --> 01:11:14,367 AND SO I GOT BETTER, 1376 01:11:14,367 --> 01:11:15,967 AND NOW I CAN EAT, 1377 01:11:15,967 --> 01:11:18,133 AND I'VE GAINED THAT WEIGHT. 1378 01:11:18,133 --> 01:11:21,333 YOU HAVE THE SAME CYCLE OVER AND OVER. 1379 01:11:21,333 --> 01:11:23,500 YOU GET AMBITIOUS. YOU STOP LOSING. 1380 01:11:23,500 --> 01:11:25,400 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO START WORKING 1381 01:11:25,400 --> 01:11:28,400 ON KEEPING YOUR HEALTHY CHOICES CONSISTENT. 1382 01:11:28,400 --> 01:11:31,233 SO YOU HAVE TO GET OUT OF THIS PATTERN. 1383 01:11:31,233 --> 01:11:32,600 I AGREE WITH YOU. 1384 01:11:32,600 --> 01:11:35,533 YOU'RE STILL 80 POUNDS FROM YOUR TARGET WEIGHT. 1385 01:11:35,533 --> 01:11:37,767 NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO SLOW DOWN. 1386 01:11:37,767 --> 01:11:38,800 OKAY. 1387 01:11:38,800 --> 01:11:40,967 OKAY, SO LET ME GET YOU ON THE TABLE. 1388 01:11:40,967 --> 01:11:43,733 WE CAN CHECK YOUR INCISIONS AND SEE HOW THINGS ARE. 1389 01:11:43,733 --> 01:11:45,533 OKAY. 1390 01:11:54,133 --> 01:11:56,967 ALL RIGHT. I CAN TELL THAT YOU'RE PUTTING 1391 01:11:56,967 --> 01:11:59,067 A LITTLE BIT TOO MUCH TAPE ON THE SKIN. 1392 01:11:59,067 --> 01:12:00,233 OKAY. [ CHUCKLES ] 1393 01:12:00,233 --> 01:12:02,700 SO YOU NEED TO SORT OF TONE IT DOWN. 1394 01:12:02,700 --> 01:12:04,900 [ Laughing ] OKAY. 1395 01:12:04,900 --> 01:12:06,067 ALL RIGHT. 1396 01:12:06,067 --> 01:12:07,967 THESE ARE ALL HEALING NICE. 1397 01:12:07,967 --> 01:12:12,100 I'M GONNA PUT SOME SILVER NITRATE ON SOME OF THOSE AREAS. 1398 01:12:12,100 --> 01:12:15,267 AND THESE WOUNDS ARE TRADITIONALLY DIFFICULT TO HEAL. 1399 01:12:15,267 --> 01:12:18,333 SOMETIMES IT'S NOT UNUSUAL THAT MAY OPEN UP, 1400 01:12:18,333 --> 01:12:21,133 BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT'S HEALING VERY WELL. 1401 01:12:21,133 --> 01:12:23,800 IT SHOULD BE ABLE TO CLOSE UP COMPLETELY 1402 01:12:23,800 --> 01:12:26,800 AND HEAL IN THE NEXT MONTH. 1403 01:12:26,800 --> 01:12:28,533 Dr. Nowzaradan: NIKKI IS HEALING WELL, 1404 01:12:28,533 --> 01:12:30,900 BUT SHE HAS A PATTERN OF STAYING ON TRACK 1405 01:12:30,900 --> 01:12:33,533 FOR A FEW MONTHS, THEN GETTING DISTRACTED. 1406 01:12:33,533 --> 01:12:36,067 AND THAT IS SOMETHING THAT SHE'S GOING TO NEED 1407 01:12:36,067 --> 01:12:37,800 TO GET A HANDLE ON. 1408 01:12:37,800 --> 01:12:40,233 BECAUSE IF SHE STARTS TO GAIN WEIGHT NOW, 1409 01:12:40,233 --> 01:12:43,200 THAT WILL PREVENT HER FROM HEALING CORRECTLY 1410 01:12:43,200 --> 01:12:45,633 AND MAY CAUSE SOME SERIOUS ISSUES 1411 01:12:45,633 --> 01:12:49,733 THAT SIGNIFICANTLY DELAY HER RECOVERY. 1412 01:12:49,733 --> 01:12:52,400 ALL RIGHT, NIKKI, YOU CAN GO BACK TO ARKANSAS. 1413 01:12:52,400 --> 01:12:53,933 KEEP YOUR SUTURE CLEAN 1414 01:12:53,933 --> 01:12:56,600 AND MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT TAPING IT TOO TIGHT 1415 01:12:56,600 --> 01:12:58,767 SO YOUR OPENING CAN BREATHE. 1416 01:12:58,767 --> 01:13:00,733 AND START LOSING WEIGHT AGAIN 1417 01:13:00,733 --> 01:13:02,867 AND MAKE SURE YOU'RE NOT GAINING. 1418 01:13:02,867 --> 01:13:05,067 ALL RIGHTY. 1419 01:13:05,067 --> 01:13:06,433 THE PART OF HER STOMACH 1420 01:13:06,433 --> 01:13:09,200 THAT HAS BEEN DAMAGED BY HER WEIGHT THE MOST 1421 01:13:09,200 --> 01:13:12,633 IS TAKING LONGER TO HEAL AND CLOSE. 1422 01:13:12,633 --> 01:13:14,833 BUT SHE SHOULD CONTINUE TO HEAL WELL 1423 01:13:14,833 --> 01:13:17,467 AS LONG AS SHE KEEPS HER SUTURE CLEAN 1424 01:13:17,467 --> 01:13:19,667 AND DOESN'T IRRITATE IT TOO MUCH. 1425 01:13:19,667 --> 01:13:21,333 OKAY. WE'LL SEE YOU SOON. 1426 01:13:21,333 --> 01:13:23,367 THANK YOU, DR. NOW. 1427 01:13:23,367 --> 01:13:25,067 ALL RIGHT. THANKS. 1428 01:13:27,733 --> 01:13:30,333 SO? [ SIGHS ] 1429 01:13:30,333 --> 01:13:33,900 WHAT DO YOU THINK? 1430 01:13:33,900 --> 01:13:35,200 I GET TO GO HOME. 1431 01:13:35,200 --> 01:13:37,400 I KNOW! 1432 01:13:37,400 --> 01:13:39,900 Nikki: I'M EXCITED RIGHT NOW. 1433 01:13:39,900 --> 01:13:41,667 AND I CAN'T WAIT TO GET BACK 1434 01:13:41,667 --> 01:13:45,133 AND PICK UP RIGHT WHERE I LEFT OFF WITH EVERYONE. 1435 01:13:45,133 --> 01:13:46,367 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, 1436 01:13:46,367 --> 01:13:48,467 I'M NOT ANY LESS DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF 1437 01:13:48,467 --> 01:13:51,767 FOR NOT LOSING ANY WEIGHT DURING THIS TIME. 1438 01:13:51,767 --> 01:13:53,733 I KNOW I HAVE TO GET CONTROL OF THAT AGAIN 1439 01:13:53,733 --> 01:13:57,833 AND DO LIKE DR. NOW SAYS AND NOT GET DISTRACTED BY LIFE 1440 01:13:57,833 --> 01:14:01,500 OR WHAT I'M DEALING WITH WHEN IT COMES TO MY HEALTH. 1441 01:14:01,500 --> 01:14:03,867 MY HEALTH IS STILL MY HIGHEST PRIORITY, 1442 01:14:03,867 --> 01:14:06,433 AND WHEN I'M MESS UP LIKE THIS, 1443 01:14:06,433 --> 01:14:09,333 I'LL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO FIX IT. 1444 01:14:12,167 --> 01:14:17,067 ** 1445 01:14:17,067 --> 01:14:20,967 LOOK AT HARLEY. SHE THINKS SHE'S GOING. YOU'RE NOT GOING! 1446 01:14:20,967 --> 01:14:23,400 I'VE BEEN BACK HOME FOR A FEW DAYS, 1447 01:14:23,400 --> 01:14:24,767 AND I TOLD MY BROTHER, 1448 01:14:24,767 --> 01:14:27,100 TO MAKE UP FOR BEING GONE SO LONG, 1449 01:14:27,100 --> 01:14:30,833 I'LL TAKE HIM TO DO WHATEVER HE WANTS TO DO. 1450 01:14:30,833 --> 01:14:33,400 AND HE SAID HE WANTS TO GO PAINT WITH ME, 1451 01:14:33,400 --> 01:14:36,700 SO I'M TAKING HIM TO THIS POTTERY PLACE I HEARD ABOUT. 1452 01:14:39,267 --> 01:14:40,900 I'M STILL A LITTLE SWOLLEN, 1453 01:14:40,900 --> 01:14:44,900 AND I CAN'T GET AROUND COMPLETELY LIKE I DID, 1454 01:14:44,900 --> 01:14:47,100 BUT I KNOW I'LL BE THERE SOON. 1455 01:14:51,833 --> 01:14:53,100 I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED 1456 01:14:53,100 --> 01:14:55,500 THAT I STILL HAVEN'T REACHED ALL MY GOALS, 1457 01:14:55,500 --> 01:14:57,933 LIKE GETTING TO MY TARGET WEIGHT IN A YEAR. 1458 01:14:57,933 --> 01:14:59,400 -HELLO! -HI! 1459 01:14:59,400 --> 01:15:00,933 -HI. -HOW ARE YOU? 1460 01:15:00,933 --> 01:15:03,200 ALL THE POTTERY IS ALONG THE WALL. 1461 01:15:03,200 --> 01:15:04,633 FEEL FREE TO WALK AROUND. 1462 01:15:04,633 --> 01:15:07,067 PICK OUT WHAT YOU WANT TO PAINT. 1463 01:15:07,067 --> 01:15:09,833 Nikki: AND A BIG FUTURE GOAL IS FINDING A PLACE OF MY OWN 1464 01:15:09,833 --> 01:15:13,133 WHERE BOTH ME AND MY BROTHER, CHRIS, CAN LIVE SOMEDAY. 1465 01:15:13,133 --> 01:15:14,933 BUT MY FAMILY AND I DECIDED 1466 01:15:14,933 --> 01:15:18,200 I WOULDN'T MOVE OUT UNTIL MY FINAL SKIN REMOVAL. 1467 01:15:20,267 --> 01:15:22,067 RIGHT NOW, MY NEXT GOALS 1468 01:15:22,067 --> 01:15:24,233 ARE TO GET BACK ON TRACK WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS 1469 01:15:24,233 --> 01:15:26,667 AND TRY TO MAKE IT UNDER THE 200-POUND MARK 1470 01:15:26,667 --> 01:15:28,700 IN A FEW WEEKS 1471 01:15:28,700 --> 01:15:32,300 AND TO ALSO GO GET SOME PANTS. 1472 01:15:32,300 --> 01:15:34,167 IT'S BEEN OVER A DECADE SINCE I'VE BEEN ABLE 1473 01:15:34,167 --> 01:15:35,933 TO EVEN WEAR PANTS, 1474 01:15:35,933 --> 01:15:37,267 BECAUSE ALL THE SKIN 1475 01:15:37,267 --> 01:15:39,533 AND EVERYTHING HANGING OVER MY STOMACH 1476 01:15:39,533 --> 01:15:41,700 JUST MADE IT IMPOSSIBLE. 1477 01:15:41,700 --> 01:15:44,067 SO I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT. 1478 01:15:46,267 --> 01:15:47,800 IT'S ONE OF MY FAVORITE QUOTES. 1479 01:15:47,800 --> 01:15:51,533 -UH-HUH. -YEAH. 1480 01:15:51,533 --> 01:15:53,833 THAT LOOKS REALLY GOOD! 1481 01:15:53,833 --> 01:15:57,900 AND I STILL PLAN TO FINISH THIS YEAR STRONG. 1482 01:15:57,900 --> 01:15:59,667 THERE MIGHT ONLY BE A MONTH LEFT, 1483 01:15:59,667 --> 01:16:02,067 BUT I INTEND TO HIT A LOT OF GOALS 1484 01:16:02,067 --> 01:16:03,567 AND SEE HOW FAR I MAKE IT IN THAT TIME. 1485 01:16:16,667 --> 01:16:21,267 TODAY, I'M HEADED TO A LITTLE BOUTIQUE. 1486 01:16:21,267 --> 01:16:22,600 AND I'M GOING TO TRY ON PANTS 1487 01:16:22,600 --> 01:16:27,133 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OVER 10 YEARS. 1488 01:16:27,133 --> 01:16:32,433 AND WHAT I REALLY WANT TO TRY ARE BLUE JEANS. 1489 01:16:32,433 --> 01:16:36,967 SO I'M HOPING THE SWELLING HAS GONE DOWN WITH MY SUTURES. 1490 01:16:36,967 --> 01:16:40,467 BUT I WENT TO A LOCAL DOCTOR TO GET SOME NEW BANDAGES, 1491 01:16:40,467 --> 01:16:44,067 AND THEY PUT A WOUND VAC BACK ON ME. 1492 01:16:44,067 --> 01:16:47,067 BUT I'M NOT LETTING THAT HOLD ME BACK TODAY. 1493 01:16:47,067 --> 01:16:49,367 I'M GONNA FIND A PAIR OF JEANS THAT WILL FIT, 1494 01:16:49,367 --> 01:16:51,233 AND I'M TRYING THEM ON. 1495 01:16:51,233 --> 01:16:54,367 AND IF I LOOK AS GOOD AS I HOPE IN THEM, 1496 01:16:54,367 --> 01:16:56,900 I'M BUYING THEM. 1497 01:16:56,900 --> 01:17:01,600 I CURRENTLY DON'T OWN A SINGLE PAIR OF PANTS. 1498 01:17:01,600 --> 01:17:04,700 AND I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY FOREVER. 1499 01:17:04,700 --> 01:17:08,200 ** 1500 01:17:08,200 --> 01:17:11,767 I NEVER, EVER REALLY BELIEVED 1501 01:17:11,767 --> 01:17:14,533 THAT I WOULD BE AT THIS POINT, 1502 01:17:14,533 --> 01:17:16,800 AND I AM. 1503 01:17:16,800 --> 01:17:18,367 I LOOK CUTE. 1504 01:17:18,367 --> 01:17:21,333 [ LAUGHS ] 1505 01:17:21,333 --> 01:17:23,067 I FEEL GOOD IN THEM. 1506 01:17:23,067 --> 01:17:25,833 I FEEL WOMANLY AND SASSY. 1507 01:17:25,833 --> 01:17:29,200 IT TAKES A LOT FOR ME TO FEEL SASSY. 1508 01:17:29,200 --> 01:17:32,800 WHEN I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR, 1509 01:17:32,800 --> 01:17:35,233 SOMETIMES IT'S HARD FOR ME. 1510 01:17:35,233 --> 01:17:38,867 I HAVE TO KIND OF, LIKE, READJUST MY EYES 1511 01:17:38,867 --> 01:17:43,667 BECAUSE I DON'T BELIEVE THAT I'M SEEING WHAT I'M SEEING. 1512 01:17:43,667 --> 01:17:47,767 BUT TO BE ABLE TO START TO RESEMBLE 1513 01:17:47,767 --> 01:17:50,333 WHAT I FELT LIKE ON THE INSIDE, 1514 01:17:50,333 --> 01:17:53,700 IT'S EXTREMELY POWERFUL. 1515 01:17:53,700 --> 01:17:57,500 THAT CONFIDENCE IS SOMETHING TO FIGHT FOR. 1516 01:17:57,500 --> 01:18:02,267 I'M EXCITED TO WAKE UP EVERY DAY AND PUT ON NEW CLOTHES. 1517 01:18:02,267 --> 01:18:04,067 HERE ARE YOUR NEW PANTS AND YOUR TOP, GIRL. 1518 01:18:04,067 --> 01:18:05,600 -YAY! -THANKS FOR COMING IN. 1519 01:18:05,600 --> 01:18:06,867 THANKS SO MUCH. SEE YOU LATER. 1520 01:18:06,867 --> 01:18:09,267 -I'LL SEE YOU LATER. -BYE. 1521 01:18:09,267 --> 01:18:13,300 SO, I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW ABOUT EVERYTHING, 1522 01:18:13,300 --> 01:18:17,133 ABOUT HOW MY BODY IS STARTING TO LOOK, 1523 01:18:17,133 --> 01:18:19,467 ABOUT HOW I FEEL, ABOUT ALL THE NEW 1524 01:18:19,467 --> 01:18:23,067 AND EXCITING THINGS I HAVE IN MY LIFE, 1525 01:18:23,067 --> 01:18:26,067 AND ABOUT ALL THE POSSIBILITIES THAT I HAVE NOW. 1526 01:18:30,400 --> 01:18:34,633 ** 1527 01:18:34,633 --> 01:18:38,400 TONIGHT, I'M HEADED TO BRUNO'S LITTLE ITALY, 1528 01:18:38,400 --> 01:18:41,533 IT'S A LITTLE ITALIAN RESTAURANT DOWNTOWN. 1529 01:18:41,533 --> 01:18:44,333 AND I'M GONNA SPEND THE EVENING WITH MARC. 1530 01:18:44,333 --> 01:18:47,933 AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE HIM. 1531 01:18:47,933 --> 01:18:50,067 I WAS AWAY FOR SO LONG, 1532 01:18:50,067 --> 01:18:52,067 AND I HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN ABLE TO SEE HIM 1533 01:18:52,067 --> 01:18:54,733 AND SPEND SOME GOOD TIME WITH HIM. 1534 01:18:54,733 --> 01:18:59,233 SO I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS. 1535 01:18:59,233 --> 01:19:01,367 HEY, BOO! LOOK AT YOU ALL DOLLED UP. 1536 01:19:01,367 --> 01:19:02,767 AWW, YOU'RE SWEET. 1537 01:19:02,767 --> 01:19:04,200 MM. HOW'S IT GOING? 1538 01:19:04,200 --> 01:19:06,733 -GOOD. -HOW WAS PARKING? 1539 01:19:06,733 --> 01:19:09,367 [ LAUGHS ] 1540 01:19:09,367 --> 01:19:11,800 THINGS HAVE BEEN GOING REALLY WELL BETWEEN US, 1541 01:19:11,800 --> 01:19:13,700 AND I LIKE HIM A LOT. 1542 01:19:13,700 --> 01:19:15,467 IT ALL NEEDS BUTTER. 1543 01:19:15,467 --> 01:19:16,633 HE'S A REALLY GOOD GUY, 1544 01:19:16,633 --> 01:19:19,300 AND I HAVE A LOT OF FUN WHEN I'M WITH HIM. 1545 01:19:19,300 --> 01:19:21,067 -THANK YOU! -[ CHUCKLES ] 1546 01:19:21,067 --> 01:19:23,333 AND THE MORE TIME WE SPEND TOGETHER, 1547 01:19:23,333 --> 01:19:26,167 THE MORE I CAN SEE THE POSSIBILITY 1548 01:19:26,167 --> 01:19:28,967 OF A FUTURE BETWEEN US. 1549 01:19:28,967 --> 01:19:34,233 AND THAT ALONE IS INCREDIBLE TO EVEN BE ABLE TO THINK. 1550 01:19:34,233 --> 01:19:36,800 TWO YEARS AGO, WHEN I STARTED THIS JOURNEY, 1551 01:19:36,800 --> 01:19:40,200 I JUST COMPLETELY SHUT DOWN ROMANCE, LOVE. 1552 01:19:40,200 --> 01:19:43,667 I JUST HAD ACCEPTED THE FACT THAT IT WAS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN. 1553 01:19:43,667 --> 01:19:46,133 LIKE, I DON'T KNOW WHERE THINGS ARE GONNA GO WITH MARC, 1554 01:19:46,133 --> 01:19:48,633 BUT THE FEELINGS THAT I'M HAVING, 1555 01:19:48,633 --> 01:19:51,933 THE LOVE AND AFFECTION I FEEL FROM HIM, 1556 01:19:51,933 --> 01:19:53,633 THAT'S WHAT I WANT. 1557 01:19:53,633 --> 01:19:56,933 THAT'S THE PART OF MYSELF THAT I COVERED UP FOR SO LONG, 1558 01:19:56,933 --> 01:20:00,333 AND I'M SO THANKFUL THAT LOSING THIS WEIGHT, 1559 01:20:00,333 --> 01:20:01,600 HAVING SURGERY, 1560 01:20:01,600 --> 01:20:04,433 HAS HELPED ME ACHIEVE ALL OF THAT. 1561 01:20:04,433 --> 01:20:06,200 AND I'M ABLE TO FEEL THOSE THINGS. 1562 01:20:06,200 --> 01:20:10,067 AND I WOULD NOT TRADE WHO I AM RIGHT NOW, 1563 01:20:10,067 --> 01:20:12,233 IN THIS MOMENT, FOR ANYTHING IN THE WORLD. 1564 01:20:14,267 --> 01:20:17,300 ** 1565 01:20:21,667 --> 01:20:24,600 I'M ABOUT TO HEAD TO HOUSTON FOR MY NEXT DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 1566 01:20:24,600 --> 01:20:26,367 AND NOW THAT I'M SO SMALL, 1567 01:20:26,367 --> 01:20:29,467 I DECIDED I CAN MAKE THESE TRIPS DOWN ON MY OWN 1568 01:20:29,467 --> 01:20:31,933 AND THAT I CAN FLY ON MY OWN NOW. 1569 01:20:31,933 --> 01:20:33,833 IT'S BEEN A REALLY LONG TIME SINCE I'VE FLOWN, 1570 01:20:33,833 --> 01:20:36,700 AND SO, JUST THE LOGISTICS STRESSES ME OUT. 1571 01:20:36,700 --> 01:20:37,900 -CHAUFFEUR'S HERE. -HEY! 1572 01:20:37,900 --> 01:20:39,833 [ LAUGHS ] CHAUFFEUR'S HERE. 1573 01:20:39,833 --> 01:20:42,800 HOW ARE YOU, MARC? 1574 01:20:42,800 --> 01:20:43,867 -GOODBYE, GUYS. -ALL RIGHT. 1575 01:20:43,867 --> 01:20:45,967 -SEE Y'ALL LATER. -BYE. 1576 01:20:45,967 --> 01:20:49,033 EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I CAN DO THIS NOW, 1577 01:20:49,033 --> 01:20:51,867 I'M STILL REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT IT. 1578 01:20:54,000 --> 01:20:57,033 I STILL THINK OF MYSELF, IN A LOT OF WAYS, 1579 01:20:57,033 --> 01:20:59,867 IN A 600-POUND BODY. 1580 01:20:59,867 --> 01:21:04,667 SO THE FEAR OF "WILL I FIT INTO THE SEAT?" IS VERY REAL. 1581 01:21:04,667 --> 01:21:07,067 BUT I KNOW I'M READY TO DO THIS. 1582 01:21:09,533 --> 01:21:11,600 CLOSE SIZE. 1583 01:21:11,600 --> 01:21:12,767 LOOK AT THAT. 1584 01:21:12,767 --> 01:21:15,067 AND I EVEN HAD TO TIGHTEN IT. 1585 01:21:15,067 --> 01:21:16,800 NOW THAT I'M HERE, AND I FIT IN THE SEAT 1586 01:21:16,800 --> 01:21:20,500 WITH NO PROBLEM, I'M JUST EXCITED. 1587 01:21:20,500 --> 01:21:24,067 THIS IS AN INCREDIBLE FEELING. 1588 01:21:24,067 --> 01:21:27,367 AND, IN A WAY, THIS OPENS THE WHOLE WORLD TO ME, 1589 01:21:27,367 --> 01:21:29,800 BECAUSE NOW I AM PHYSICALLY ABLE TO TRAVEL 1590 01:21:29,800 --> 01:21:32,533 ALMOST ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD. 1591 01:21:34,567 --> 01:21:37,067 SO THIS IS JUST A START FOR ME. 1592 01:21:41,700 --> 01:21:43,167 AND I'VE WORKED SO HARD 1593 01:21:43,167 --> 01:21:45,567 TO GET BACK ON TRACK THESE PAST TWO MONTHS. 1594 01:21:45,567 --> 01:21:49,533 YEAH, THAT'S PERFECT. 1595 01:21:49,533 --> 01:21:53,133 ANY MY GOAL WAS TO FINALLY GET UNDER 200 POUNDS. 1596 01:21:53,133 --> 01:21:55,067 AND I'M HOPING I DID THAT. 1597 01:22:04,333 --> 01:22:08,400 THAT'S INCREDIBLE! 1598 01:22:08,400 --> 01:22:11,767 I'M LIKE 30 POUNDS FROM MY TARGET WEIGHT NOW 1599 01:22:11,767 --> 01:22:14,633 AND TWO SKIN SURGERIES AWAY FROM MY GOAL. 1600 01:22:14,633 --> 01:22:18,600 AND THAT'S AMAZING FOR ME TO EVEN THINK ABOUT. 1601 01:22:18,600 --> 01:22:20,667 -HELLO! -HI, DR. NOW. 1602 01:22:20,667 --> 01:22:22,367 -HOW ARE YOU TODAY? -I'M GOOD. 1603 01:22:22,367 --> 01:22:24,267 -HOW ARE YOU? -GREAT. 1604 01:22:24,267 --> 01:22:28,100 AND YOU ARE DOWN TO 194 POUNDS. 1605 01:22:28,100 --> 01:22:31,500 THAT'S 455-POUND WEIGHT LOSS. 1606 01:22:31,500 --> 01:22:33,833 THAT NUMBER IS BREATHTAKING TO ME. 1607 01:22:33,833 --> 01:22:35,967 I'M PROUD OF YOU. YOU'RE DOING GREAT. 1608 01:22:35,967 --> 01:22:38,400 NIKKI IS BACK TO MAKING GOOD PROGRESS, 1609 01:22:38,400 --> 01:22:41,067 AND SHE'S VERY CLOSE TO HER TARGET WEIGHT. 1610 01:22:41,067 --> 01:22:43,200 BUT I'M CONCERNED ABOUT THE TREATMENT 1611 01:22:43,200 --> 01:22:45,600 SHE RECEIVED ON HER SUTURES. 1612 01:22:45,600 --> 01:22:47,567 SO, LET'S TAKE A LOOK AT YOU NOW... 1613 01:22:47,567 --> 01:22:48,733 OKAY. 1614 01:22:48,733 --> 01:22:51,200 ...AND DEAL WITH THIS WOUND VAC YOU MENTIONED. 1615 01:23:02,133 --> 01:23:03,700 OKAY. THIS IS ALL WRONG 1616 01:23:03,700 --> 01:23:05,767 AND IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD. 1617 01:23:05,767 --> 01:23:07,867 AND SEE THIS STUFF IN HERE -- 1618 01:23:07,867 --> 01:23:10,167 -WOUND VAC DON'T PICK THAT UP. -MM-HMM. 1619 01:23:10,167 --> 01:23:13,233 THIS NEEDS TO BE PICKED UP WITH THE GAUZE. 1620 01:23:13,233 --> 01:23:14,400 -OKAY. -YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE 1621 01:23:14,400 --> 01:23:16,833 A WOUND VAC ON YOU AT THIS POINT, 1622 01:23:16,833 --> 01:23:20,433 AND YOU'RE NOT HEALING BECAUSE OF IT. 1623 01:23:20,433 --> 01:23:23,967 IT LOOKS LIKE NIKKI WENT TO SOME LOCAL DOCTORS 1624 01:23:23,967 --> 01:23:26,333 AND GOT VERY BAD MEDICAL TREATMENT 1625 01:23:26,333 --> 01:23:29,067 THAT HAS PREVENTED HER WOUND FROM CLOSING. 1626 01:23:29,067 --> 01:23:33,300 SO I HAVE REMOVED THE WOUND VAC AND CLEANED UP THAT AREA. 1627 01:23:33,300 --> 01:23:36,500 IF SHE DOESN'T IRRITATE IT AND KEEPS IT CLEAN, 1628 01:23:36,500 --> 01:23:39,233 THEN THE OPENING WILL CLOSE AND HEAL 1629 01:23:39,233 --> 01:23:40,700 WITHIN A MONTH OR SO. 1630 01:23:40,700 --> 01:23:42,433 BUT SHE'S STILL DOING WELL, 1631 01:23:42,433 --> 01:23:44,600 AND I THINK WE CAN GET HER THERE. 1632 01:23:44,600 --> 01:23:46,233 -I'M PROUD OF YOU, OKAY? -THANK YOU. 1633 01:23:46,233 --> 01:23:47,667 -ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU SO MUCH, DR. NOW. 1634 01:23:47,667 --> 01:23:49,967 -I WILL SEE YOU LATER, OKAY? -I APPRECIATE IT. I'LL DO IT. 1635 01:23:49,967 --> 01:23:51,233 -ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU SO MUCH. 1636 01:23:51,233 --> 01:23:52,767 OKAY. 1637 01:23:52,767 --> 01:23:55,467 I THINK SHE'LL BE ABLE TO HIT HER TARGET WEIGHT 1638 01:23:55,467 --> 01:23:57,200 WITHIN A COUPLE MONTHS. 1639 01:23:57,200 --> 01:24:01,067 ONCE SHE HEALS FROM HER FIRST SKIN SURGERY, 1640 01:24:01,067 --> 01:24:04,300 WE CAN DISCUSS HER FINAL SKIN REMOVALS, 1641 01:24:04,300 --> 01:24:07,900 AND THEN SHE'LL BE COMPLETELY DONE. 1642 01:24:07,900 --> 01:24:09,700 Nikki: I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED TO FIND OUT 1643 01:24:09,700 --> 01:24:11,800 THAT I GOT MEDICAL ADVICE THAT WASN'T GOOD 1644 01:24:11,800 --> 01:24:13,300 AND THAT SET ME BACK, 1645 01:24:13,300 --> 01:24:16,833 AND THAT I COULD BE COMPLETELY HEALED AT THIS POINT. 1646 01:24:16,833 --> 01:24:19,733 BUT I'M GLAD TO HAVE THAT WHOLE THING OFF ME. 1647 01:24:19,733 --> 01:24:23,833 I WAS SO UPSET WHEN THEY PUT IT BACK ON. 1648 01:24:23,833 --> 01:24:25,333 BUT I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK AGAIN, 1649 01:24:25,333 --> 01:24:27,633 AND I'M JUST GOING TO FOCUS ON HOW FAR I AM 1650 01:24:27,633 --> 01:24:30,200 AND HOW MUCH I HAVE TO BE GRATEFUL FOR. 1651 01:24:30,200 --> 01:24:32,433 I'VE COME SUCH A LONG WAY IN 2 YEARS, 1652 01:24:32,433 --> 01:24:35,933 AND I'M ALMOST THERE. 1653 01:24:35,933 --> 01:24:39,800 ** 1654 01:24:39,800 --> 01:24:42,500 TODAY I'M MEETING MY FRIEND CEANNE, 1655 01:24:42,500 --> 01:24:44,100 AND WE'RE GOING TO RENT SOME BIKES, 1656 01:24:44,100 --> 01:24:46,400 AND I'M GOING TO RIDE A BIKE AGAIN, 1657 01:24:46,400 --> 01:24:49,567 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 25 YEARS. 1658 01:24:49,567 --> 01:24:51,800 -HEY! -YOU READY FOR THIS? 1659 01:24:51,800 --> 01:24:53,567 -[ GROANS ] -[ CHUCKLES ] 1660 01:24:53,567 --> 01:24:56,633 I JUST HOPE I CAN REMEMBER HOW TO DO IT. 1661 01:24:56,633 --> 01:24:58,800 THEY SAY ONCE YOU LEARN, YOU NEVER FORGET, 1662 01:24:58,800 --> 01:25:01,067 SO I HOPE THEY'RE RIGHT. 1663 01:25:03,067 --> 01:25:04,967 I TRULY LOVE MY LIFE NOW 1664 01:25:04,967 --> 01:25:09,633 AND HOW IT IS JUST GETTING BETTER AND BETTER EVERY DAY. 1665 01:25:09,633 --> 01:25:12,267 SO I'M JUST AMAZED AT WHAT I CAN DO NOW, 1666 01:25:12,267 --> 01:25:14,667 AND HOW FAR I'VE COME. 1667 01:25:14,667 --> 01:25:16,300 AND I'M EXCITED ABOUT THE NEXT YEAR 1668 01:25:16,300 --> 01:25:20,067 AND ALL I'M GOING TO ACCOMPLISH. 1669 01:25:20,067 --> 01:25:24,733 AND I FEEL SO BLESSED TO HAVE THIS CHANCE. 1670 01:25:24,733 --> 01:25:27,900 I'M KEEPING MY HEALTH A PERMANENT PRIORITY, 1671 01:25:27,900 --> 01:25:31,200 AND I'M GRABBING AHOLD OF LIFE NOW WITH BOTH HANDS, 1672 01:25:31,200 --> 01:25:32,167 AND I'M NOT LETTING GO. 1672 01:25:33,305 --> 01:26:33,694 Do you want subtitles for any video? -=[ ai.OpenSubtitles.com ]=-