"My 600-lb Life" James B.'s Story

1 00:00:04,367 --> 00:00:06,700 L.B.: I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED, 2 00:00:06,700 --> 00:00:10,067 AND IT'S PRETTY MUCH LIFE FOR DEATH AT THIS POINT. 3 00:00:10,067 --> 00:00:16,867 ** 4 00:00:16,867 --> 00:00:19,667 [ GROANING ] 5 00:00:19,667 --> 00:00:22,967 Woman: MY LIFE IS WASTING AWAY, AND I HATE IT. 6 00:00:22,967 --> 00:00:24,233 Woman #2: I TRY TO CHANGE, 7 00:00:24,233 --> 00:00:26,633 BUT SOMETHING ALWAYS KNOCKS ME DOWN. 8 00:00:26,633 --> 00:00:34,067 ** 9 00:00:34,067 --> 00:00:35,967 MY LIFE, IT'S LIKE LIVING A DEATH SENTENCE. 10 00:00:35,967 --> 00:00:37,267 OH! 11 00:00:37,267 --> 00:00:38,933 OW [BLEEP] 12 00:00:38,933 --> 00:00:40,500 THIS IS NO LIFE FOR ANYONE. 13 00:00:40,500 --> 00:00:44,967 ** 14 00:00:44,967 --> 00:00:47,500 Woman #3: OH, JUST PRAY FOR ME. 15 00:00:47,500 --> 00:00:49,300 OW, MY LEG! 16 00:00:49,300 --> 00:00:50,567 SIT DOWN RIGHT THERE. 17 00:00:50,567 --> 00:00:51,700 YOU'RE MAKING ME MAD. 18 00:00:51,700 --> 00:00:54,000 THIS IS COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE. 19 00:00:54,000 --> 00:00:57,767 ** 20 00:00:57,767 --> 00:00:59,433 BUT I'M DOING THIS FOR YOU. 21 00:00:59,433 --> 00:01:01,800 I'M LEAVING EVERYTHING BEHIND. 22 00:01:01,800 --> 00:01:04,800 AND ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS BITCH AT ME. 23 00:01:04,800 --> 00:01:07,800 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 24 00:01:07,800 --> 00:01:10,800 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 25 00:01:10,800 --> 00:01:14,767 ** 26 00:01:14,767 --> 00:01:16,367 L.B.: THERE ARE TIMES WHERE YOU'LL FEEL LIKE 27 00:01:16,367 --> 00:01:18,933 YOU LOST ALL HOPE. 28 00:01:18,933 --> 00:01:20,100 BUT IT'S THERE, 29 00:01:20,100 --> 00:01:22,100 AND ALL YOU GOT TO DO IS GRAB AHOLD OF IT 30 00:01:22,100 --> 00:01:23,600 AND NOT LET IT GO. 31 00:01:23,600 --> 00:01:32,500 ** 32 00:01:32,500 --> 00:01:41,400 ** 33 00:01:41,400 --> 00:01:42,667 [ SIGHS ] 34 00:01:42,667 --> 00:01:45,067 NO ONE UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS 35 00:01:45,067 --> 00:01:49,300 TO BE OVER 600 POUNDS AND MISSING A LEG. 36 00:01:49,300 --> 00:01:52,500 [ GRUNTING ] 37 00:01:52,500 --> 00:01:54,667 THOSE TWO FACTORS COMBINED 38 00:01:54,667 --> 00:01:57,400 MAKE GETTING AROUND ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE. 39 00:02:00,133 --> 00:02:02,833 RIGHT NOW, THE PROSTHETIC LEG I USE 40 00:02:02,833 --> 00:02:05,633 IS BARELY ABLE TO HOLD MY WEIGHT. 41 00:02:05,633 --> 00:02:06,833 AND EVERY MORNING, 42 00:02:06,833 --> 00:02:10,933 I HAVE TO FIGHT TO PUT A LINER ON OVER MY STUMP. 43 00:02:10,933 --> 00:02:15,433 THEN I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO MAINTAIN MY OWN BALANCE. 44 00:02:15,433 --> 00:02:18,700 SO I GET SHORTNESS OF BREATH FROM DOING ALL THE SCOOTING 45 00:02:18,700 --> 00:02:22,467 AND LEANING UP AND ALL THAT. 46 00:02:22,467 --> 00:02:26,500 AND IT'S PRETTY MUCH IMPOSSIBLE TO IGNORE THE PAIN 47 00:02:26,500 --> 00:02:31,300 AND THE ACHING AND JUST THE OVERALL BAD FEELING 48 00:02:31,300 --> 00:02:33,700 BECAUSE MY KNEE'S KILLING ME, 49 00:02:33,700 --> 00:02:35,933 MY BACK'S KILLING ME. 50 00:02:35,933 --> 00:02:37,133 [ GRUNTS ] 51 00:02:37,133 --> 00:02:38,567 SO MY WEIGHT, 52 00:02:38,567 --> 00:02:40,900 IT'S KEEPING ME FROM HAVING A LIFE. 53 00:02:40,900 --> 00:02:46,533 ** 54 00:02:46,533 --> 00:02:49,867 I'VE LITERALLY LET MY WEIGHT JUST DRAG MY LIFE DOWN 55 00:02:49,867 --> 00:02:52,133 TO WHERE I'M AT NOW. 56 00:02:52,133 --> 00:02:55,900 I'M ALMOST 30 YEARS OLD, LIVING IN MY PARENTS' GARAGE, 57 00:02:55,900 --> 00:02:58,567 UNEMPLOYED AND HAVING TO RELY ON THEM. 58 00:03:01,733 --> 00:03:03,533 MY DAD WORKS ALL DAY, 59 00:03:03,533 --> 00:03:07,067 SO MY MOM'S THE ONE THAT TAKES CARE OF ME. 60 00:03:07,067 --> 00:03:08,333 [ GRUNTS ] 61 00:03:08,333 --> 00:03:12,100 SHE COMES OUT AND GETS MY LAUNDRY FOR ME. 62 00:03:12,100 --> 00:03:15,333 SHE COMES IN AND CLEANS MY HOUSE. 63 00:03:15,333 --> 00:03:18,067 WITHOUT MY MOM, I'D... 64 00:03:18,067 --> 00:03:19,833 I'D BE LOST... 65 00:03:19,833 --> 00:03:23,067 BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY I CAN STAY ON MY FEET LONG ENOUGH 66 00:03:23,067 --> 00:03:24,233 TO GET IT DONE. 67 00:03:24,233 --> 00:03:26,100 ** 68 00:03:26,100 --> 00:03:29,733 I DO EVERYTHING FOR L.B. BECAUSE HE'S MY BABY. 69 00:03:29,733 --> 00:03:31,400 HE'S MY YOUNGEST, 70 00:03:31,400 --> 00:03:35,133 AND I WOULD DO ANYTHING IN THE WORLD FOR MY SON. 71 00:03:35,133 --> 00:03:37,067 THAT'S HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM. 72 00:03:37,067 --> 00:03:38,900 ALL RIGHT. 73 00:03:38,900 --> 00:03:40,500 I GOT YOUR LAUNDRY. 74 00:03:44,300 --> 00:03:47,233 L.B.: THERE'S DAYS WHERE I FEEL SO WORTHLESS. 75 00:03:47,233 --> 00:03:50,267 I THINK I'D BE BETTER OFF IN THE GROUND. 76 00:03:50,267 --> 00:03:53,100 SO I JUST STAY HOME AND I DON'T GO OUT. 77 00:03:53,100 --> 00:03:56,900 BUT THE ONLY TIME I DO IS IF MY MOM MAKES ME GO HELP HER. 78 00:03:59,500 --> 00:04:02,233 YEAH. 79 00:04:02,233 --> 00:04:03,867 L.B.? WHAT? 80 00:04:03,867 --> 00:04:06,767 COME ON AND RIDE TO THE GROCERY STORE WITH ME. 81 00:04:06,767 --> 00:04:08,433 I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING. 82 00:04:08,433 --> 00:04:10,167 WELL, WE NEED TO GO GET A FEW THINGS, 83 00:04:10,167 --> 00:04:13,233 AND YOU NEED TO GET OUT THIS HOUSE. 84 00:04:13,233 --> 00:04:14,767 IT'S LIKE ONCE A MONTH, 85 00:04:14,767 --> 00:04:17,300 SHE REALLY GETS WORRIED THAT I'M JUST WASTING MY LIFE 86 00:04:17,300 --> 00:04:19,300 STAYING INDOORS. 87 00:04:19,300 --> 00:04:20,767 I GUESS I CAN GO. 88 00:04:20,767 --> 00:04:22,333 I'LL BE OUT THERE IN A MINUTE. 89 00:04:22,333 --> 00:04:24,333 I GOT THE CAR CRANKED UP, SO COME ON. 90 00:04:24,333 --> 00:04:27,067 ** 91 00:04:27,067 --> 00:04:28,567 BUT IT'S HARD ON ME. 92 00:04:28,567 --> 00:04:30,833 [ GRUNTS ] 93 00:04:30,833 --> 00:04:33,767 AND BARELY DOING ANYTHING LEAVES ME BREATHING 94 00:04:33,767 --> 00:04:37,400 LIKE I JUST GOT DONE RUNNING A 5K. 95 00:04:37,400 --> 00:04:38,800 AND I START TO SWEAT 96 00:04:38,800 --> 00:04:42,300 AFTER JUST TAKING A FEW STEPS OUT THE DOOR. 97 00:04:42,300 --> 00:04:43,833 I'LL DRIVE. 98 00:04:43,833 --> 00:04:46,100 I GOT THE AIR-CONDITIONING TURNED ON. 99 00:04:48,600 --> 00:04:51,067 AND MY PROSTHETIC LEG STARTS TO HURT A LOT 100 00:04:51,067 --> 00:04:54,133 IF I STAND ON IT FOR TOO LONG. 101 00:04:54,133 --> 00:04:59,067 SO I TRY TO GET THE TRIP OVER WITH AS QUICK AS POSSIBLE. 102 00:04:59,067 --> 00:05:01,967 I ALSO KNOW MY MOM'S GONNA START GETTING ON MY CASE 103 00:05:01,967 --> 00:05:04,567 IF I SPEND TOO MUCH TIME WITH HER. 104 00:05:04,567 --> 00:05:07,600 SO IT'S BEST TO TRY NOT TO FIGHT HER, 105 00:05:07,600 --> 00:05:10,367 BUT I HATE COMING TO GROCERY STORES. 106 00:05:10,367 --> 00:05:12,867 'CAUSE I FEEL LIKE 20 MINUTES AFTER I WALK IN, 107 00:05:12,867 --> 00:05:15,933 I'M GONNA HAVE A DAMN PANIC ATTACK. 108 00:05:15,933 --> 00:05:18,200 BECAUSE MY WHOLE LIFE, I'VE ALWAYS BEEN, YOU KNOW, 109 00:05:18,200 --> 00:05:20,767 ONE OF THE BIGGEST PEOPLE EVERYWHERE I WENT. 110 00:05:20,767 --> 00:05:22,833 THEN YOU ADD THE FAKE LEG INTO IT, 111 00:05:22,833 --> 00:05:26,200 AND I'M A 6'4" BALD PIRATE. 112 00:05:26,200 --> 00:05:28,533 OF COURSE PEOPLE ARE GONNA LOOK. 113 00:05:28,533 --> 00:05:31,233 BUT ONCE I START TO GET THE THINGS I WANT, 114 00:05:31,233 --> 00:05:34,100 I CAN CALM DOWN A BIT. 115 00:05:34,100 --> 00:05:36,667 Karen: WHEN L.B. WANTS TO GET SODAS AND SNACK CAKES 116 00:05:36,667 --> 00:05:39,900 AND POTATO CHIPS, IT MAKES ME FEEL AWFUL. 117 00:05:39,900 --> 00:05:42,633 WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO, TELL HIM NO? 118 00:05:42,633 --> 00:05:45,067 TO ME, THAT'S THE ONLY THING LEFT THAT HE HAS. 119 00:05:47,833 --> 00:05:51,300 L.B.: I KNOW MY MOM WANTS ME TO STOP EATING AS MUCH AS I DO. 120 00:05:53,667 --> 00:05:56,533 BUT IT'S FUNNY, IF I DON'T ASK FOR SOMETHING, 121 00:05:56,533 --> 00:05:58,467 SHE WON'T SAY ANYTHING, 122 00:05:58,467 --> 00:06:00,200 AND SHE GETS IT FOR ME. 123 00:06:00,200 --> 00:06:02,067 BUT IF I DO ASK FOR SOMETHING, 124 00:06:02,067 --> 00:06:04,467 SHE GIVES ME THIS LOOK OR THIS TONE. 125 00:06:04,467 --> 00:06:06,833 THEN SHE GETS PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE ABOUT IT. 126 00:06:06,833 --> 00:06:09,433 AND I DON'T NEED THAT FROM HER. 127 00:06:09,433 --> 00:06:14,400 WILL YOU GRAB A THING OF THE PEPPERONI PIZZA POCKETS? 128 00:06:14,400 --> 00:06:18,567 ** 129 00:06:18,567 --> 00:06:20,467 IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT? 130 00:06:20,467 --> 00:06:21,733 YOU DON'T HAVE TO TURN AROUND 131 00:06:21,733 --> 00:06:24,633 AND BE A SMART-ASS ABOUT IT LIKE THAT. 132 00:06:24,633 --> 00:06:25,967 [ LAUGHS ] ALL RIGHT. 133 00:06:25,967 --> 00:06:27,933 YOU READY? 134 00:06:27,933 --> 00:06:30,233 SO WHEN IT STARTS TO GET TO THAT POINT, 135 00:06:30,233 --> 00:06:35,400 I FIGURE IT'S JUST TIME TO GO HOME. 136 00:06:35,400 --> 00:06:37,500 Karen: I USUALLY DO THE GROCERY SHOPPING FOR HIM. 137 00:06:37,500 --> 00:06:38,867 I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR ME TO TRY 138 00:06:38,867 --> 00:06:41,500 TO GET HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE AND GO WITH ME TODAY. 139 00:06:41,500 --> 00:06:45,633 I DON'T KNOW IF IT WAS A GOOD IDEA FOR ME TO DO THAT OR NOT, 140 00:06:45,633 --> 00:06:50,067 BECAUSE I DON'T THINK HE'S TOO HAPPY WITH ME RIGHT NOW. 141 00:06:50,067 --> 00:06:52,667 AND I KNOW IT'S TIME FOR HIM TO GO 142 00:06:52,667 --> 00:06:54,733 'CAUSE HE'S SWEATING A LOT. 143 00:06:54,733 --> 00:06:58,433 HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S GETTING EXHAUSTED AND TIRED. 144 00:06:58,433 --> 00:07:00,133 ALL RIGHT, IF YOU WANT TO CRANK UP THE TRUCK, 145 00:07:00,133 --> 00:07:01,500 I'LL PUT THE BUGGY UP. 146 00:07:01,500 --> 00:07:04,633 ALL RIGHT. 147 00:07:04,633 --> 00:07:06,400 L.B.: IT'S JUST SO FRUSTRATING 148 00:07:06,400 --> 00:07:09,733 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE SHE MAKES THE WHOLE SITUATION WORSE, 149 00:07:09,733 --> 00:07:14,333 WHEN I COULD JUST STAY AT HOME AND AVOID ALL THIS. 150 00:07:14,333 --> 00:07:16,433 L.B.: I HATE COMING TO THE DAMN GROCERY STORE. 151 00:07:16,433 --> 00:07:19,767 Karen: I KNOW, AND I COULD TELL. 152 00:07:19,767 --> 00:07:21,667 IT MAKES ME FEEL BAD, TOO, L.B. 153 00:07:21,667 --> 00:07:24,967 I MEAN, I WISH I COULD CHANGE THINGS. 154 00:07:24,967 --> 00:07:26,600 EVERY TIME WE'VE TRIED TO TALK ABOUT THIS, 155 00:07:26,600 --> 00:07:27,800 THAT'S HOW YOU DO. 156 00:07:27,800 --> 00:07:30,067 YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT ANYTHING. 157 00:07:30,067 --> 00:07:32,500 I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT TO ANYBODY. 158 00:07:32,500 --> 00:07:34,067 SO THEN HOW DO YOU COPE WITH IT 159 00:07:34,067 --> 00:07:35,167 IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT? 160 00:07:35,167 --> 00:07:36,467 I DEAL WITH IT ON MY OWN. 161 00:07:36,467 --> 00:07:37,567 HOW DO YOU DO THAT? 162 00:07:37,567 --> 00:07:38,767 I JUST DO, MOM. 163 00:07:38,767 --> 00:07:40,867 THIS IS -- THIS IS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT. 164 00:07:40,867 --> 00:07:43,767 I DON'T WANT TO BE KEPT POKED AND PRODDED ABOUT IT. 165 00:07:43,767 --> 00:07:44,967 IF I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT, 166 00:07:44,967 --> 00:07:46,333 I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. 167 00:07:46,333 --> 00:07:49,067 IF I KNEW THAT A TRIP TO THE GROCERY STORE 168 00:07:49,067 --> 00:07:51,300 WAS GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL THIS WAY, 169 00:07:51,300 --> 00:07:53,433 I WOULD HAVE WENT MY DAMN ASS SELF. 170 00:07:53,433 --> 00:07:55,400 YOU'RE TAKING SOMETHING THAT'S THIS BIG 171 00:07:55,400 --> 00:07:57,100 THAT I CAN DEAL WITH ON MY OWN 172 00:07:57,100 --> 00:07:59,433 AND YOU KEEP POKING AND PRODDING AT IT, 173 00:07:59,433 --> 00:08:01,067 AND MAKING IT MORE AND MORE. 174 00:08:01,067 --> 00:08:03,900 AND IT'S TURNED SOMETHING THAT I WOULD HAVE DEALT WITH 175 00:08:03,900 --> 00:08:07,067 ON MY OWN AND BEEN OVER AND DONE WITH BY NOW, 176 00:08:07,067 --> 00:08:09,900 BUT YOU HAD TO KEEP, "WELL, WHY WON'T YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT IT? 177 00:08:09,900 --> 00:08:11,200 WHY WON'T YOU DO THIS?! 178 00:08:11,200 --> 00:08:12,733 WHY NOT THIS?!" L.B., YOU DON'T THINK I -- 179 00:08:12,733 --> 00:08:14,433 JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE ABOUT IT. 180 00:08:14,433 --> 00:08:16,067 YOU DON'T THINK I FELT YOUR ANXIETY 181 00:08:16,067 --> 00:08:17,200 IN THE DAMN GROCERY STORE? 182 00:08:17,200 --> 00:08:19,367 THEN YOU SHOULDN'T KEEP TRYING TO BRING IT UP. 183 00:08:19,367 --> 00:08:23,533 JUST STOP AT THE MAILBOX AND LET ME GET THE DAMN ASS MAIL. 184 00:08:23,533 --> 00:08:25,200 I PROBABLY NEED A BREATHER, 185 00:08:25,200 --> 00:08:27,800 IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE DAMN TRUTH. 186 00:08:27,800 --> 00:08:29,467 STOP THE DAMN CAR. 187 00:08:35,767 --> 00:08:37,800 L.B.: I DON'T WANT TO SIT THERE AND HAVE A CONVERSATION 188 00:08:37,800 --> 00:08:41,133 THE WHOLE WAY HOME ABOUT WHAT I WAS JUST UPSET ABOUT 189 00:08:41,133 --> 00:08:43,600 IN A STORE. 190 00:08:43,600 --> 00:08:45,267 AND SHE'S ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE 191 00:08:45,267 --> 00:08:47,600 THAT WANTS AN ANSWER TO EVERYTHING. 192 00:08:47,600 --> 00:08:49,367 AND I'M ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT DON'T WANT 193 00:08:49,367 --> 00:08:51,167 TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING. 194 00:08:53,500 --> 00:08:56,500 AND I GET SO EMOTIONAL THAT ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT 195 00:08:56,500 --> 00:08:59,767 IS GETTING SOMETHING TO DRINK AND EAT. 196 00:08:59,767 --> 00:09:04,200 SO THAT'S PRETTY MUCH HOW MOST DAYS GO FOR ME. 197 00:09:04,200 --> 00:09:07,967 THIS SHOULDN'T BE MY LIFE, AND THIS SHOULDN'T BE HER LIFE. 198 00:09:07,967 --> 00:09:11,500 ** 199 00:09:11,500 --> 00:09:14,067 AND IF I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND CHANGE THE THINGS 200 00:09:14,067 --> 00:09:18,067 THAT HAPPENED THAT LED ME HERE... 201 00:09:18,067 --> 00:09:19,833 I WOULD DO IT IN A HEARTBEAT. 202 00:09:19,833 --> 00:09:24,800 ** 203 00:09:24,800 --> 00:09:27,300 I WAS ADOPTED AS A NEWBORN, 204 00:09:27,300 --> 00:09:29,500 BECAUSE AFTER HAVING THREE GIRLS, 205 00:09:29,500 --> 00:09:31,900 MY PARENTS DECIDED TO ADOPT A BOY, 206 00:09:31,900 --> 00:09:34,300 AND SO THEY GOT ME. 207 00:09:34,300 --> 00:09:36,733 MY HUSBAND AND I ALWAYS WANTED A SON. 208 00:09:36,733 --> 00:09:40,567 SO WHEN WE ADOPTED HIM, WE FELT SO BLESSED TO BE HIS PARENTS. 209 00:09:42,867 --> 00:09:45,133 Buddy: EVERYBODY WANTS TO HAVE A SON, ESPECIALLY ME. 210 00:09:45,133 --> 00:09:47,900 THAT'S ALL I DREAMED OF, HAVING A BOY, GIVING HIM MY NAME, 211 00:09:47,900 --> 00:09:50,233 LET HIM CARRY ON MY LIFE. 212 00:09:50,233 --> 00:09:53,067 AND MY WHOLE FAMILY WANTED TO SHARE THIS, 213 00:09:53,067 --> 00:09:56,067 NOT JUST ME AND MY WIFE. 214 00:09:56,067 --> 00:09:59,233 L.B.: SINCE I WAS THE ONLY BOY IN OUR WHOLE FAMILY, 215 00:09:59,233 --> 00:10:02,300 I WAS THE ONE THAT WAS GONNA CONTINUE THE BONNER NAME. 216 00:10:02,300 --> 00:10:05,767 SO IT WAS LIKE EVERYONE WAS RAISING ME, INCLUDING MY AUNT. 217 00:10:05,767 --> 00:10:10,433 SO I SPENT A LOT OF TIME WITH MY UNCLE SAM AND MY AUNT DORA. 218 00:10:10,433 --> 00:10:14,667 I CALLED MA 2 AND DAD 2. 219 00:10:14,667 --> 00:10:17,800 I WAS ALWAYS EXCITED TO GO STAY WITH MY AUNT AND UNCLE, 220 00:10:17,800 --> 00:10:19,800 BECAUSE EVERY TIME I'D GET DOWN THERE, 221 00:10:19,800 --> 00:10:24,367 THE FIRST THING SHE'D DO WAS GO OPEN UP THE CABINETS AND SAY, 222 00:10:24,367 --> 00:10:25,833 "WHAT YOU WANT?" 223 00:10:25,833 --> 00:10:31,967 IT WAS ALWAYS BEEF STICKS OR PIG IN A BLANKETS OR SNACK CAKES. 224 00:10:31,967 --> 00:10:35,767 I GUESS THAT'S WHEN I STARTED ASSOCIATING THAT... 225 00:10:35,767 --> 00:10:39,533 THAT COMFORTED FEELING WITH FOOD. 226 00:10:39,533 --> 00:10:42,233 ** 227 00:10:42,233 --> 00:10:45,600 Karen: THEY SPOILED HIM BECAUSE WHATEVER HE WANTED AT NIGHT, 228 00:10:45,600 --> 00:10:48,467 IF IT WAS A PIECE OF CAKE, IF IT WAS ICE CREAM, 229 00:10:48,467 --> 00:10:50,100 WHATEVER IT WAS, 230 00:10:50,100 --> 00:10:51,733 DORA WOULD GET UP AND FIX IT. 231 00:10:51,733 --> 00:10:53,400 SO WHEN I WOULD FINALLY GET L.B. 232 00:10:53,400 --> 00:10:56,300 HOME AFTER A FEW DAYS, HE'S SCREAM AND HE'D CRY, 233 00:10:56,300 --> 00:10:57,433 AND HE'D WANT ICE CREAM. 234 00:10:57,433 --> 00:11:01,567 BUT HE WOULD NOT GET REST OR SLEEP 235 00:11:01,567 --> 00:11:04,433 UNTIL HE HAD WHAT HE WANTED TO HAVE. 236 00:11:04,433 --> 00:11:06,833 ** 237 00:11:06,833 --> 00:11:10,067 L.B.: OVER THE NEXT FEW YEARS OF GOING TO MY AUNT'S HOUSE, 238 00:11:10,067 --> 00:11:12,400 I GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT. 239 00:11:12,400 --> 00:11:17,300 AND BY THE TIME I WAS 8, I WAS ALREADY 150 POUNDS. 240 00:11:17,300 --> 00:11:19,567 BUT WHEN I WAS ALMOST 9, 241 00:11:19,567 --> 00:11:21,933 AUNT DORA GOT DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER, 242 00:11:21,933 --> 00:11:25,067 AND SHE ENDED UP PASSING AWAY. 243 00:11:25,067 --> 00:11:27,200 ** 244 00:11:27,200 --> 00:11:30,067 Karen: I'M TELLING YOU, WHEN HIS MA 2 DIED, 245 00:11:30,067 --> 00:11:33,533 IT'S LIKE THIS LITTLE BOY WAS JUST CRUSHED. 246 00:11:33,533 --> 00:11:37,200 IT WAS JUST LIKE HIS WHOLE WORLD FELL APART. 247 00:11:37,200 --> 00:11:40,200 L.B.: I'M 29 NOW, AND IT'S STILL THE HARDEST LOSS 248 00:11:40,200 --> 00:11:42,733 I'VE EVER WENT THROUGH. 249 00:11:42,733 --> 00:11:44,833 AND AFTER MY MA 2 DIED, 250 00:11:44,833 --> 00:11:49,300 I'D PROBABLY EAT A PACK OF HOT DOGS EVERY TWO DAYS. 251 00:11:49,300 --> 00:11:51,233 FOOD WAS THE ONLY THING THAT HELPED, 252 00:11:51,233 --> 00:11:53,067 BUT THE PAIN WOULD COME BACK. 253 00:11:53,067 --> 00:11:54,767 SO I'D START EATING AGAIN. 254 00:11:54,767 --> 00:12:00,067 AND ANY TIME I'D JUST KIND OF HAVE THAT BLAH, EMPTY FEELING, 255 00:12:00,067 --> 00:12:03,167 YOU KNOW, AFTER MY PARENTS WENT TO BED AT 8:00 OR 9:00, 256 00:12:03,167 --> 00:12:04,733 I'D GO INTO THE REFRIGERATOR, 257 00:12:04,733 --> 00:12:06,400 AND I'D EAT WHATEVER WAS IN THERE. 258 00:12:06,400 --> 00:12:10,133 SO I JUST KEPT GAINING. 259 00:12:10,133 --> 00:12:12,900 AND I HIT 200 WHEN I WAS 12. 260 00:12:12,900 --> 00:12:14,333 AND THAT'S WHEN MY WEIGHT STARTED 261 00:12:14,333 --> 00:12:17,667 PREVENTING ME FROM DOING NORMAL THINGS. 262 00:12:17,667 --> 00:12:20,733 I REMEMBER WE WENT TO SIGN ME UP FOR FOOTBALL, 263 00:12:20,733 --> 00:12:22,233 AND I WAS TOO BIG. 264 00:12:22,233 --> 00:12:24,767 I WAS OVER THE WEIGHT LIMIT. 265 00:12:24,767 --> 00:12:27,067 AND I COULD JUST SEE IN MY DAD'S FACE 266 00:12:27,067 --> 00:12:29,267 THAT I HAD DISAPPOINTED HIM. 267 00:12:29,267 --> 00:12:31,833 ** 268 00:12:31,833 --> 00:12:35,200 BUT IN HIGH SCHOOL, THERE WERE NO WEIGHT LIMITS FOR FOOTBALL. 269 00:12:35,200 --> 00:12:37,733 SO THAT'S WHEN I GOT REALLY INVOLVED. 270 00:12:37,733 --> 00:12:39,700 AND I MEAN, FROM THAT POINT FORWARD, 271 00:12:39,700 --> 00:12:42,533 IT WAS KIND OF ENCOURAGED FOR ME TO STAY 272 00:12:42,533 --> 00:12:45,333 AS ONE OF THE BIGGEST GUYS ON THE TEAM. 273 00:12:45,333 --> 00:12:47,600 AND I FEEL LIKE THE ONLY PROUD TIMES 274 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:52,667 MY DAD EVER HAD WAS DURING FOOTBALL GAMES. 275 00:12:52,667 --> 00:12:54,600 Buddy: L.B. WAS A GOOD PLAYER. 276 00:12:54,600 --> 00:12:56,933 AND WHEN HE WAS A SOPHOMORE IN HIGH SCHOOL, 277 00:12:56,933 --> 00:12:58,667 HE WON OFFENSIVE PLAYER OF THE YEAR, 278 00:12:58,667 --> 00:13:01,800 SO THAT'S A BIG ACHIEVEMENT FOR SOMEBODY BEING A SOPHOMORE. 279 00:13:01,800 --> 00:13:04,567 AND I WAS PROUD OF HIM. 280 00:13:04,567 --> 00:13:06,567 L.B.: BUT THAT COULDN'T LAST, BECAUSE I STARTED TO GET 281 00:13:06,567 --> 00:13:08,933 SO BIG IT AFFECTED MY HEALTH. 282 00:13:08,933 --> 00:13:12,967 I WAS 17 AND OVER 400 POUNDS AT THAT POINT. 283 00:13:12,967 --> 00:13:14,800 SO I QUIT FOOTBALL. 284 00:13:17,067 --> 00:13:19,600 AND I FELT LIKE I WAS LETTING EVERYBODY DOWN, 285 00:13:19,600 --> 00:13:22,067 ESPECIALLY MY DAD. 286 00:13:22,067 --> 00:13:25,567 I HAD A HUGE AMOUNT OF GUILT OVER IT. 287 00:13:25,567 --> 00:13:28,233 AND I JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT. 288 00:13:28,233 --> 00:13:30,733 SO A FEW WEEKS AFTER I QUIT FOOTBALL, 289 00:13:30,733 --> 00:13:33,600 ENDED UP DROPPING OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. 290 00:13:33,600 --> 00:13:36,067 I STARTED PARTYING A LITTLE BIT MORE. 291 00:13:36,067 --> 00:13:39,067 THAT'S PROBABLY ABOUT WHEN I STARTED KIND OF... 292 00:13:39,067 --> 00:13:43,100 DRINKING, THEN GOING TO EAT LATE-NIGHT, 293 00:13:43,100 --> 00:13:45,067 STUFF LIKE THAT. 294 00:13:45,067 --> 00:13:47,200 BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO DROWN OUT ALL THE PAIN 295 00:13:47,200 --> 00:13:50,067 AND GUILT I HAD. 296 00:13:50,067 --> 00:13:54,100 SO WHEN I WAS AROUND 19, I WAS APPROACHING 500 POUNDS. 297 00:13:56,100 --> 00:13:58,833 BUT I FELT HORRIBLE AT THAT POINT, ABOUT MY LIFE 298 00:13:58,833 --> 00:14:02,400 AND ALL THE WAYS I'D DISAPPOINTED MY FAMILY. 299 00:14:02,400 --> 00:14:04,733 BECAUSE THEY HAVE ALL THESE EXPECTATIONS 300 00:14:04,733 --> 00:14:06,567 OF WHAT THEY WERE GETTING, 301 00:14:06,567 --> 00:14:09,200 AND I DIDN'T MEET ANY OF THEM. 302 00:14:09,200 --> 00:14:11,933 AND EVER SINCE I QUIT PLAYING FOOTBALL, 303 00:14:11,933 --> 00:14:13,467 I JUST FEEL LIKE MY DAD'S 304 00:14:13,467 --> 00:14:16,700 NEVER HAD ANYTHING TO BE PROUD OF ME ABOUT. 305 00:14:16,700 --> 00:14:19,733 AND HIS BIG DREAM FOR ME WAS HE WANTED ME 306 00:14:19,733 --> 00:14:22,200 TO LEARN THE FLOORING BUSINESS, 307 00:14:22,200 --> 00:14:25,633 FOR HIM TO BE ABLE TO PASS THAT DOWN TO ME ONE DAY. 308 00:14:25,633 --> 00:14:29,233 MY WEIGHT WON'T LET ME LEARN FLOORING. 309 00:14:29,233 --> 00:14:31,333 BUT AS I WAS GAINING WEIGHT IN MY EARLY 20s, 310 00:14:31,333 --> 00:14:35,067 ONE OF THE DAYS THAT I REGRET THE MOST HAPPENED. 311 00:14:35,067 --> 00:14:38,467 I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AT A MOTHER'S DAY LUNCH, 312 00:14:38,467 --> 00:14:40,800 AND ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS, HE WANTED TO GO RIDE 313 00:14:40,800 --> 00:14:43,267 FOUR-WHEELERS THAT WEEKEND. 314 00:14:43,267 --> 00:14:46,500 I KNEW IT WASN'T A GOOD IDEA AT MY WEIGHT, 315 00:14:46,500 --> 00:14:49,167 BUT I WANTED TO HAVE SOME FUN. 316 00:14:49,167 --> 00:14:50,700 THE LAST TRAIL WE WERE ON 317 00:14:50,700 --> 00:14:53,167 IS WHERE I ENDED UP GETTING INTO MY ACCIDENT, 318 00:14:53,167 --> 00:14:55,867 SHATTERING A BUNCH OF STUFF IN MY FOOT. 319 00:14:55,867 --> 00:14:58,867 AND AFTER A FAILED SURGERY ATTEMPTED, 320 00:14:58,867 --> 00:15:01,633 I ENDED UP WITH A BONE INFECTION. 321 00:15:01,633 --> 00:15:03,833 AND IT LEFT ME WITH ONLY A FEW OPTIONS, 322 00:15:03,833 --> 00:15:09,067 AND THE OPTION WE WENT WITH WAS AMPUTATION. 323 00:15:09,067 --> 00:15:12,067 Karen: WHEN L.B. HURT HIS LEG AND THE SURGERY FAILED, 324 00:15:12,067 --> 00:15:13,300 IT WAS JUST TOO PAINFUL. 325 00:15:13,300 --> 00:15:15,767 AND HE SAID, "MOM, YOU KNOW, 326 00:15:15,767 --> 00:15:18,400 I'M GONNA BE BETTER OFF WITHOUT THE LEG." 327 00:15:18,400 --> 00:15:21,633 AND HE THOUGHT WHEN HE GOT IT AMPUTATED 328 00:15:21,633 --> 00:15:23,100 THAT IT WAS GONNA BE BETTER. 329 00:15:23,100 --> 00:15:25,333 BUT IT WAS HARD FOR HIM TO GET AROUND, 330 00:15:25,333 --> 00:15:28,167 AND IT WASN'T WHAT HE THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE. 331 00:15:28,167 --> 00:15:29,567 I WAS TIRED OF FEELING 332 00:15:29,567 --> 00:15:33,133 LIKE I MADE THE COMPLETE WRONG DECISION, 333 00:15:33,133 --> 00:15:35,900 BECAUSE MY PARENTS HAD TO START DOING EVERYTHING FOR ME 334 00:15:35,900 --> 00:15:40,833 AND TAKING CARE OF ME LIKE I WAS A KID AGAIN, ESPECIALLY MY MOM. 335 00:15:40,833 --> 00:15:43,400 SO I MOSTLY JUST STAY AT HOME AND LAY IN MY BED 336 00:15:43,400 --> 00:15:45,733 OR WATCH TV ON THE COUCH. 337 00:15:45,733 --> 00:15:48,233 AND I DON'T SEE A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE, 338 00:15:48,233 --> 00:15:52,200 EXCEPT WHEN MY FAMILY HAS OUR MONTHLY COOKOUT. 339 00:15:52,200 --> 00:15:54,500 BUT EVEN THEN, I DON'T REALLY WANT TO FACE ANYONE 340 00:15:54,500 --> 00:15:58,933 BECAUSE I JUST FEEL LIKE SUCH A HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT, LET-DOWN, 341 00:15:58,933 --> 00:16:02,433 AND I FEEL LIKE MY PARENTS COMPLETELY REGRET THE DAY 342 00:16:02,433 --> 00:16:06,533 THAT THEY SIGNED ADOPTION PAPERS ON ME. 343 00:16:08,333 --> 00:16:09,400 WELL, I THINK HE'S IN HIS ROOM. 344 00:16:09,400 --> 00:16:12,733 HE MUST BE UPSET. 345 00:16:12,733 --> 00:16:17,367 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON INSIDE OF L.B. 346 00:16:17,367 --> 00:16:19,567 IF HE CAN'T TELL ME. 347 00:16:19,567 --> 00:16:22,467 BUT HE NEVER OPENS UP TO ME. 348 00:16:22,467 --> 00:16:26,267 SO ALL I KNOW TO DO IS CONSTANTLY STAY ON HIM. 349 00:16:26,267 --> 00:16:29,567 DO NOT CHECK OUT ON LIFE. 350 00:16:29,567 --> 00:16:30,700 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 351 00:16:30,700 --> 00:16:32,600 -L.B.? -WHAT? 352 00:16:32,600 --> 00:16:34,300 COME ON OUTSIDE AND GET SOMETHING TO EAT. 353 00:16:34,300 --> 00:16:37,567 I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE BEING AROUND ANYBODY RIGHT NOW. 354 00:16:37,567 --> 00:16:39,633 WELL, WE WANT YOU TO COME OUT AND TRY TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT. 355 00:16:39,633 --> 00:16:41,433 CAN YOU EAT LEAST THINK ABOUT IT FOR A FEW MINUTES 356 00:16:41,433 --> 00:16:42,367 AND COME ON OUT? 357 00:16:42,367 --> 00:16:43,567 JUST GIVE ME A LITTLE BIT. 358 00:16:43,567 --> 00:16:45,300 IF NOT, I'M COMING BACK IN HERE. 359 00:16:45,300 --> 00:16:46,867 OKAY. 360 00:16:46,867 --> 00:16:48,400 ALL RIGHT. 361 00:16:48,400 --> 00:16:50,333 I'M GONNA GIVE YOU 10 MINUTES. 362 00:16:50,333 --> 00:16:52,533 CAN'T JUST LAY AROUND HERE ALL DAY. 363 00:16:52,533 --> 00:16:54,400 YOU KNOW, YOU NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS BEDROOM. 364 00:16:54,400 --> 00:16:55,733 YES, MOTHER. 365 00:16:55,733 --> 00:16:58,533 ** 366 00:16:58,533 --> 00:17:01,333 L.B.: I'M THANKFUL MY MOM TAKES CARE OF ME, 367 00:17:01,333 --> 00:17:03,400 BUT I'M MISERABLE HERE. 368 00:17:03,400 --> 00:17:07,200 I'M ALMOST BEING SMOTHERED HERE. 369 00:17:07,200 --> 00:17:10,667 THAT LITTLE BIT OF INDEPENDENCE THAT I STILL HAVE LEFT, 370 00:17:10,667 --> 00:17:14,300 I ALMOST FEEL LIKE IS BEING ENCROACHED ON. 371 00:17:14,300 --> 00:17:18,433 AND MY MOM WILL DO ANYTHING IN THE WORLD TO HELP ANYBODY. 372 00:17:18,433 --> 00:17:20,467 BUT SHE'S GONNA TAKE EVERY OPPORTUNITY 373 00:17:20,467 --> 00:17:24,167 SHE CAN TO REMIND YOU THAT SHE'S DONE IT FOR YOU. 374 00:17:24,167 --> 00:17:26,067 OH. DID YOU DECIDE TO COME OUT? 375 00:17:26,067 --> 00:17:29,100 YEAH. 376 00:17:29,100 --> 00:17:34,333 I JUST WISH SHE'D GIVE ME SOME SPACE AT TIMES AND LET UP 377 00:17:34,333 --> 00:17:37,367 BECAUSE SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO SECLUDE MYSELF 378 00:17:37,367 --> 00:17:39,067 SO I DON'T FEEL LIKE AN EMBARRASSMENT 379 00:17:39,067 --> 00:17:41,767 OR A BURDEN TO MY FAMILY. 380 00:17:41,767 --> 00:17:43,067 L.B., YOU WANT SOMETHING TO EAT? 381 00:17:43,067 --> 00:17:48,867 YEAH. JUST GIVE ME TWO HOT DOGS AND TWO HAMBURGERS. 382 00:17:48,867 --> 00:17:52,733 WHEN L.B. FINALLY COMES OUT OF HIS ROOM OR HIS HIDING, 383 00:17:52,733 --> 00:17:56,300 I GUESS WE ALL FEEL LIKE WE'RE TRYING TO COMFORT L.B., 384 00:17:56,300 --> 00:18:00,200 AND FOOD IS ONE OF THE WAYS THAT COMFORTS HIM. 385 00:18:00,200 --> 00:18:02,100 THANK YOU. 386 00:18:02,100 --> 00:18:05,433 L.B.: WHEN I'M IN A REAL DARK PLACE WHERE I TURN TO FOOD 387 00:18:05,433 --> 00:18:09,567 FOR KIND OF THAT SAFE, COMFORTED FEELING, 388 00:18:09,567 --> 00:18:11,733 IT'S NOT UNCOMMON FOR ME 389 00:18:11,733 --> 00:18:17,900 TO EAT THE PORTIONS OF TWO OR THREE GROWN MEN. 390 00:18:17,900 --> 00:18:20,167 AND I'LL KEEP EATING OR DRINKING UNTIL I GET THAT, 391 00:18:20,167 --> 00:18:23,233 LIKE, FULL FEELING. 392 00:18:23,233 --> 00:18:28,700 Tera: I THINK EMOTIONALLY, HE HAS JUST GIVEN UP ON LIFE. 393 00:18:28,700 --> 00:18:33,133 AND IF GIVING MY BROTHER FOOD IS THE ONLY THING 394 00:18:33,133 --> 00:18:35,733 THAT WILL MAKE HIM HAPPY AT THE POINT 395 00:18:35,733 --> 00:18:38,233 IN HIS LIFE NOW WHERE HE IS, 396 00:18:38,233 --> 00:18:42,867 THEN THAT'S WHAT WE ALL DO AS A FAMILY. 397 00:18:42,867 --> 00:18:45,233 Buddy: I NEVER THOUGHT ENABLING L.B. 398 00:18:45,233 --> 00:18:47,333 WOULD LEAD TO WHAT IT IS NOW. 399 00:18:47,333 --> 00:18:49,967 I FEEL LIKE HE'S NOT GONNA LIVE LONG. 400 00:18:49,967 --> 00:18:51,367 I WORRY ABOUT HIM EVERY NIGHT. 401 00:18:51,367 --> 00:18:53,533 MY WIFE HAS TO GET UP AND GO CHECK ON HIM EVERY MORNING, 402 00:18:53,533 --> 00:18:55,833 MAKE SURE HE'S ALIVE. 403 00:18:55,833 --> 00:18:57,333 'CAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW ONE MORNING OR THE NEXT 404 00:18:57,333 --> 00:19:00,667 IF HE'S GONNA BE THERE OR NOT. 405 00:19:00,667 --> 00:19:01,967 L.B.: I NEED HELP. 406 00:19:01,967 --> 00:19:06,233 AND IT'S PRETTY MUCH LIFE OR DEATH AT THIS POINT. 407 00:19:06,233 --> 00:19:10,133 AND IF I CAN'T FIND SOME WAY TO STOP ALL THIS AND CHANGE, 408 00:19:10,133 --> 00:19:12,300 IT WON'T BE LONG BEFORE I'M GONE. 409 00:19:18,067 --> 00:19:25,633 ** 410 00:19:25,633 --> 00:19:33,433 ** 411 00:19:33,433 --> 00:19:41,200 ** 412 00:19:41,200 --> 00:19:43,300 L.B.: MY MOM AND ME ARE GONNA FLY TO HOUSTON TO SEE 413 00:19:43,300 --> 00:19:45,433 DR. NOWZARADAN. 414 00:19:45,433 --> 00:19:47,433 AND IT'S ONLY A THREE-HOUR FLIGHT, 415 00:19:47,433 --> 00:19:49,533 BUT IT'S GONNA BE A LONG DAY, 416 00:19:49,533 --> 00:19:51,867 BECAUSE WE'RE GONNA DRIVE STRAIGHT FROM THE AIRPORT 417 00:19:51,867 --> 00:19:55,567 TO GET TO OUR APPOINTMENT ON TIME THIS AFTERNOON. 418 00:19:55,567 --> 00:19:58,233 AND WE'RE GONNA STAY THE NIGHT AND FLY BACK TOMORROW. 419 00:19:58,233 --> 00:20:02,333 SO IT'S GONNA BE A REALLY LONG TWO DAYS. 420 00:20:02,333 --> 00:20:03,967 I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS ABOUT IT 421 00:20:03,967 --> 00:20:07,800 BECAUSE I'M NOT USED TO GOING OUT IN PUBLIC. 422 00:20:07,800 --> 00:20:11,700 SO I'M GONNA HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY DURING ALL THIS. 423 00:20:11,700 --> 00:20:13,933 AND BEING WITH MY MOM IS PROBABLY NOT GONNA MAKE IT 424 00:20:13,933 --> 00:20:16,300 ANY BETTER. 425 00:20:16,300 --> 00:20:17,367 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 426 00:20:17,367 --> 00:20:20,833 L.B., YOU GOT EVERYTHING READY? 427 00:20:20,833 --> 00:20:23,000 I WAS GETTING ANXIOUS ABOUT DEALING WITH EVERYTHING 428 00:20:23,000 --> 00:20:24,833 AT THE AIRPORT AND THE PLANE 429 00:20:24,833 --> 00:20:26,333 AND ALL THAT STUFF. 430 00:20:26,333 --> 00:20:28,767 WELL, IF YOU DON'T THINK YOU CAN WALK THAT FAR, IF WE HAVE -- 431 00:20:28,767 --> 00:20:31,500 IT'S NOT THE WALKING PART THAT'S GOT ME WORRIED. 432 00:20:31,500 --> 00:20:33,900 WHAT'S GOT ME WORRIED IS I KNOW EVERYBODY'S GONNA BE 433 00:20:33,900 --> 00:20:35,200 LOOKING AT US LIKE, 434 00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:37,900 "WHY IS OLD FATTY NOT PAYING FOR TWO SEATS?" 435 00:20:37,900 --> 00:20:39,633 I LOOK AT IT LIKE THIS, L.B. 436 00:20:39,633 --> 00:20:41,133 YOU DON'T WANT TO GET YOUR MAMA FIRED UP 437 00:20:41,133 --> 00:20:42,367 'CAUSE SOMEBODY SAYS SOMETHING. 438 00:20:42,367 --> 00:20:44,967 SOMETIMES PEOPLE'S LOOKS ARE A LOT WORSE 439 00:20:44,967 --> 00:20:47,233 THAN IF THEY WERE ACTUALLY TO SAY SOMETHING. 440 00:20:47,233 --> 00:20:49,000 YOU KNOW NOBODY'S GONNA WALK UP AND SAY 441 00:20:49,000 --> 00:20:50,067 [BLEEP] TO ME. 442 00:20:50,067 --> 00:20:51,967 MM-HMM. DO ME A FAVOR. 443 00:20:51,967 --> 00:20:54,100 IF YOU CAN TELL I'M STARTING TO GET ANXIOUS, 444 00:20:54,100 --> 00:20:56,733 IF YOU CAN TELL THAT I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE, 445 00:20:56,733 --> 00:20:59,167 JUST DO THAT. LET IT BE AND LET ME GET THROUGH IT. 446 00:20:59,167 --> 00:21:02,067 LET'S JUST HOPE WE GET THERE EARLY AND ASK THEM 447 00:21:02,067 --> 00:21:03,633 IF WE CAN HAVE THE FRONT ROW. 448 00:21:03,633 --> 00:21:04,933 I DON'T THINK THAT'S HOW IT WORKS. 449 00:21:04,933 --> 00:21:07,333 YOU DON'T ASK THEM WHERE YOU'RE GONNA SIT. 450 00:21:07,333 --> 00:21:09,533 I'M GONNA TELL 'EM. OH. 451 00:21:09,533 --> 00:21:11,367 ALL RIGHT, SWEETIE. WE'LL GET THROUGH IT. 452 00:21:11,367 --> 00:21:12,833 I'LL GIVE YOU A FEW MINUTES. 453 00:21:12,833 --> 00:21:14,167 ALL RIGHT. I LOVE YOU. 454 00:21:14,167 --> 00:21:15,567 LOVE YOU. 455 00:21:15,567 --> 00:21:19,900 ** 456 00:21:19,900 --> 00:21:24,100 L.B.: AND NEITHER OF US ARE HAPPY THAT IT'S COME TO THIS. 457 00:21:24,100 --> 00:21:26,667 IT IS HARD TO REALIZE THAT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 458 00:21:26,667 --> 00:21:28,567 IS MY ONLY OPTION 459 00:21:28,567 --> 00:21:30,500 BECAUSE I WON'T STOP EATING. 460 00:21:32,933 --> 00:21:34,533 -I LOVE YOU, MAN. -LOVE YOU. 461 00:21:34,533 --> 00:21:37,567 GOOD LUCK. 462 00:21:37,567 --> 00:21:39,200 L.B.: AND I'M THANKFUL FOR THIS CHANCE, 463 00:21:39,200 --> 00:21:42,067 'CAUSE I KNOW I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME. 464 00:21:42,067 --> 00:21:44,133 I JUST HOPE WE BOTH SURVIVE BEING TOGETHER 465 00:21:44,133 --> 00:21:47,867 NONSTOP FOR TWO DAYS. 466 00:21:47,867 --> 00:21:50,533 WHAT YOU GONNA DO, TELL ME NOT TO TALK TO YOU? 467 00:21:50,533 --> 00:21:51,567 NO. 468 00:21:51,567 --> 00:21:55,100 I JUST GOT A LOT ON MY MIND RIGHT NOW. 469 00:21:55,100 --> 00:21:57,733 I'LL MAKE YOU A PROMISE IF YOU MAKE ME ONE. 470 00:21:57,733 --> 00:21:58,900 WHAT? 471 00:21:58,900 --> 00:22:01,667 IF YOU TRY TO BE NICE AND LOOK AFTER ME... 472 00:22:01,667 --> 00:22:05,267 EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE FINE AS LONG AS -- IF YOU -- 473 00:22:05,267 --> 00:22:07,133 YOU KNOW BETTER THAN ANYBODY 474 00:22:07,133 --> 00:22:10,333 WHEN MY ANXIETY STARTS GETTING UP. 475 00:22:10,333 --> 00:22:12,300 I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE POKED AND PRODDED 476 00:22:12,300 --> 00:22:14,400 LIKE YOU'RE BAD ABOUT DOING. 477 00:22:14,400 --> 00:22:18,067 ** 478 00:22:18,067 --> 00:22:22,933 MY GREATEST DREAM IS TO MAKE MY FAMILY PROUD OF ME ONE DAY. 479 00:22:22,933 --> 00:22:25,167 BUT IT'S HARD TO CONVINCE YOURSELF TO HAVE HOPE 480 00:22:25,167 --> 00:22:28,067 AND START TO BELIEVE IN THOSE THINGS. 481 00:22:28,067 --> 00:22:31,233 SO I'M JUST GONNA FOCUS ON WHAT'S IMMEDIATELY AHEAD, 482 00:22:31,233 --> 00:22:32,833 AND THAT'S FINDING A WAY TO LOSE WEIGHT 483 00:22:32,833 --> 00:22:35,833 BEFORE I HIT 700 POUNDS AND BECOME IMMOBILE. 484 00:22:35,833 --> 00:22:38,633 ** 485 00:22:38,633 --> 00:22:40,767 I'LL TAKE THE LUGGAGE UP HERE AND SIT AND WAIT ON IT, 486 00:22:40,767 --> 00:22:43,533 'CAUSE I CAN'T MAKE THE WALK FROM THE PARKING LOT. 487 00:22:43,533 --> 00:22:46,367 OKAY. 488 00:22:46,367 --> 00:22:48,067 MAN. 489 00:22:48,067 --> 00:22:53,367 ** 490 00:22:53,367 --> 00:22:55,200 I'M ALREADY KIND OF HITTING MY LIMIT. 491 00:22:55,200 --> 00:22:57,700 I JUST WANT TO GET THIS OVER WITH 492 00:22:57,700 --> 00:23:01,533 BECAUSE I CAN FEEL MY ANXIETY JUST STARTING TO CLIMB ALREADY. 493 00:23:01,533 --> 00:23:02,900 ALL RIGHT. 494 00:23:02,900 --> 00:23:04,367 I PARKED. 495 00:23:04,367 --> 00:23:07,167 WE JUST GOT TO CHECK IN AND GET OUR BOARDING PASSES. 496 00:23:07,167 --> 00:23:13,667 ** 497 00:23:13,667 --> 00:23:14,700 YES, MA'AM. 498 00:23:14,700 --> 00:23:15,733 ALL RIGHT. 499 00:23:19,100 --> 00:23:21,833 OKAY. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 500 00:23:21,833 --> 00:23:23,067 OKAY. 501 00:23:23,067 --> 00:23:29,900 ** 502 00:23:29,900 --> 00:23:31,833 I'M FEELING EXHAUSTED, AND I'M JUST READY 503 00:23:31,833 --> 00:23:35,167 FOR THIS TO BE OVER WITH. 504 00:23:35,167 --> 00:23:38,933 IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE BEEN AROUND THIS MANY PEOPLE, 505 00:23:38,933 --> 00:23:42,900 SO MY ANXIETY IS JUST GETTING WORSE. 506 00:23:42,900 --> 00:23:45,867 AND I'M REALLY READY TO JUST BE ON THE PLANE 507 00:23:45,867 --> 00:23:49,067 AND BE OUT OF VIEW FROM ALL THESE PEOPLE... 508 00:23:49,067 --> 00:23:51,067 BECAUSE I JUST FEEL LIKE A FREAK ON DISPLAY 509 00:23:51,067 --> 00:23:52,933 FOR EVERYBODY RIGHT NOW. 510 00:23:52,933 --> 00:23:55,967 ** 511 00:23:55,967 --> 00:23:58,367 YOU'RE SWEATING, L.B., SO BADLY. 512 00:23:58,367 --> 00:24:00,900 I FEEL LIKE I'M HAVING A [BLEEP] ANXIETY ATTACK. 513 00:24:03,267 --> 00:24:07,233 FEEL LIKE MY DAMN HEART'S ABOUT TO BEAT OUT MY CHEST. 514 00:24:07,233 --> 00:24:09,567 L.B.: I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS KIND OF HITTING ON THE WAY HERE, 515 00:24:09,567 --> 00:24:13,267 BUT NOW IT'S REALLY GETTING REAL NOW. 516 00:24:13,267 --> 00:24:15,700 SO NOW IT'S JUST A WAIT AND SEE WHAT IT'S LIKE 517 00:24:15,700 --> 00:24:19,600 ONCE WE'RE ON THE PLANE. 518 00:24:19,600 --> 00:24:20,933 BUT I THINK I'LL BE FINE, 519 00:24:20,933 --> 00:24:22,800 'CAUSE I'VE GOT TWO SEATS TO MYSELF 520 00:24:22,800 --> 00:24:26,400 AND MY MOM'S IN THE THIRD SEAT. 521 00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:29,433 BUT I NEED TO SIT ON THE AISLE BECAUSE I CAN'T BEND MY LEG. 522 00:24:29,433 --> 00:24:36,067 ** 523 00:24:36,067 --> 00:24:38,500 I THOUGHT IF I SAT BY THE AISLE WITH MY FAKE LEG, 524 00:24:38,500 --> 00:24:41,700 IT WOULD BE EASIER SINCE I CAN'T BEND IT. 525 00:24:41,700 --> 00:24:42,933 BUT IT'S FALLING IN THE AISLE, 526 00:24:42,933 --> 00:24:47,067 AND IT'S EXTREMELY PAINFUL TO HOLD IT IN. 527 00:24:47,067 --> 00:24:50,067 SO I HAVE TO MOVE. 528 00:24:50,067 --> 00:24:51,500 I CAN'T KEEP MY LEG OUT OF THE AISLE. 529 00:24:51,500 --> 00:24:53,400 I NEED TO SWITCH SEATS. 530 00:24:53,400 --> 00:25:03,133 ** 531 00:25:03,133 --> 00:25:12,767 ** 532 00:25:12,767 --> 00:25:15,667 I'M REALLY HURTING RIGHT NOW. 533 00:25:15,667 --> 00:25:18,733 THERE'S A LOT OF PRESSURE ON MY LEG AND MY WHOLE BODY. 534 00:25:18,733 --> 00:25:25,067 ** 535 00:25:25,067 --> 00:25:30,200 AND MY STUMP'S ABSOLUTELY KILLING ME RIGHT NOW. 536 00:25:30,200 --> 00:25:33,900 IMAGINE HAVING TWO BONES JUST SQUARED OFF 537 00:25:33,900 --> 00:25:35,633 AND HAVING JUST A PIECE OF MUSCLE 538 00:25:35,633 --> 00:25:38,067 AND A PIECE OF SKIN OVER THE END OF IT. 539 00:25:38,067 --> 00:25:41,367 AND IMAGINE HAVING 600 POUNDS COME DOWN ON IT. 540 00:25:41,367 --> 00:25:43,700 ** 541 00:25:43,700 --> 00:25:46,633 ON LIKE A ONE-TO-10 SCALE, IT'S LIKE AN EIGHT. 542 00:25:49,067 --> 00:25:52,233 BUT I THINK IF I JUST REST AND GET SOMETHING TO EAT, 543 00:25:52,233 --> 00:25:55,367 I'LL HAVE THE ENERGY TO MAKE IT. 544 00:25:55,367 --> 00:25:58,600 LET ME GET A LARGE NUMBER FIVE. 545 00:25:58,600 --> 00:26:01,367 SO I JUST NEED SOMETHING TO HELP ME DEAL WITH THE PAIN. 546 00:26:01,367 --> 00:26:03,867 ** 547 00:26:03,867 --> 00:26:05,433 Karen: I HAVE PROBABLY BEEN WITH L.B. 548 00:26:05,433 --> 00:26:07,900 MORE IN THE LAST DAY THAN WE USUALLY SPEND 549 00:26:07,900 --> 00:26:10,433 IN A WEEK TOGETHER. 550 00:26:10,433 --> 00:26:14,267 AND IT'S HARD TO SEE YOUR CHILD SUFFER LIKE THAT. 551 00:26:14,267 --> 00:26:17,367 ** 552 00:26:17,367 --> 00:26:18,733 L.B.: I KNOW I SHOULDN'T BE EATING 553 00:26:18,733 --> 00:26:21,067 RIGHT BEFORE I SEE THE DOCTOR, 554 00:26:21,067 --> 00:26:24,933 BUT I JUST NEED TO GET SOMETHING TO KEEP ME GOING, 555 00:26:24,933 --> 00:26:28,533 'CAUSE MY LEG HAS NEVER HURT THIS BAD. 556 00:26:28,533 --> 00:26:31,233 READY? 557 00:26:31,233 --> 00:26:34,267 I'M GETTING OLD. 558 00:26:34,267 --> 00:26:35,467 NOW I JUST WANT TO GET EVERYTHING 559 00:26:35,467 --> 00:26:37,967 AND GET TO MY APPOINTMENT AS FAST AS I CAN. 560 00:26:37,967 --> 00:26:41,333 ** 561 00:26:41,333 --> 00:26:44,433 BUT I FEEL LIKE THERE'S A LOT RIDING ON THE APPOINTMENT TODAY. 562 00:26:44,433 --> 00:26:47,067 ** 563 00:26:47,067 --> 00:26:49,200 AND IT'S GONNA BE BASICALLY WALKING 564 00:26:49,200 --> 00:26:51,167 INTO THE COMPLETE UNKNOWN. 565 00:26:51,167 --> 00:26:52,633 OH, GOODNESS. 566 00:26:52,633 --> 00:26:53,900 WHERE'S IT AT? 567 00:26:53,900 --> 00:26:56,733 AND I'M TRYING NOT TO LET THE EMOTIONS 568 00:26:56,733 --> 00:27:00,800 OF THE ACTUAL APPOINTMENT GET TO ME YET. 569 00:27:05,533 --> 00:27:08,233 I TELL YOU... 570 00:27:08,233 --> 00:27:09,467 YEAH. 571 00:27:09,467 --> 00:27:13,900 AND I'M EXCITED, I'M NERVOUS, ANXIOUS, SCARED. 572 00:27:13,900 --> 00:27:17,633 YOU KNOW, I WANT THINGS TO GO AS SMOOTH AS POSSIBLE AND... 573 00:27:17,633 --> 00:27:21,800 YOU KNOW, ME FIND OUT THAT TODAY IS GONNA BE THE FIRST DAY 574 00:27:21,800 --> 00:27:23,433 OF THE REST OF MY LIFE. 575 00:27:23,433 --> 00:27:25,667 LET'S JUST THINK POSITIVE. 576 00:27:25,667 --> 00:27:29,133 ** 577 00:27:29,133 --> 00:27:31,300 L.B.: I'M AN EMOTIONAL WRECK RIGHT NOW 578 00:27:31,300 --> 00:27:33,200 BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS AT STAKE FOR ME 579 00:27:33,200 --> 00:27:35,433 FOR THIS APPOINTMENT TODAY. 580 00:27:35,433 --> 00:27:39,067 AND IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I'VE BEEN ON A SCALE. 581 00:27:39,067 --> 00:27:40,967 I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S GONNA SAY. 582 00:27:43,167 --> 00:27:46,600 BUT THE THING THAT'S GOT ME THE MOST NERVOUS IS BEING REJECTED 583 00:27:46,600 --> 00:27:49,067 OR TOLD I'M NOT RIGHT FOR THE PROGRAM. 584 00:27:51,100 --> 00:27:52,833 JAMES BONNER. 585 00:27:52,833 --> 00:27:55,600 L.B.: THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE TO GET THE HELP AND THE TOOLS 586 00:27:55,600 --> 00:27:59,333 I NEED TO TURN IT AROUND. 587 00:27:59,333 --> 00:28:04,333 SO I'VE GOT EVERYTHING RIDING ON THIS APPOINTMENT RIGHT NOW. 588 00:28:04,333 --> 00:28:05,967 I'M JUST SCARED [BLEEP]-LESS. 589 00:28:10,333 --> 00:28:17,400 ** 590 00:28:17,400 --> 00:28:20,200 L.B.: IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE BEEN ON A SCALE, 591 00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:23,467 AND I DON'T WANT TO KNOW HOW BIG I'VE GOTTEN, 592 00:28:23,467 --> 00:28:26,433 SO I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING THAT NUMBER COME UP. 593 00:28:26,433 --> 00:28:30,800 ** 594 00:28:32,500 --> 00:28:35,333 SEEING THAT MAKES ME FEEL WORTHLESS. 595 00:28:35,333 --> 00:28:39,667 AND IT'S A VALIDATION OF HOW BAD I REALLY NEED THIS HELP. 596 00:28:41,767 --> 00:28:45,100 BECAUSE I'VE NEVER SEEN THAT NUMBER GO DOWN, 597 00:28:45,100 --> 00:28:47,433 AND I'M SO CLOSE TO GETTING TOO BIG FOR MY LEG 598 00:28:47,433 --> 00:28:49,933 AND BECOMING IMMOBILE. 599 00:28:49,933 --> 00:28:53,067 AND IT TAKES A LOT OUT OF YOU TO REALIZE YOU'RE AT A POINT 600 00:28:53,067 --> 00:28:55,500 WHERE, YOU KNOW, YOU'VE LOST CONTROL OF YOURSELF 601 00:28:55,500 --> 00:28:58,067 AND YOU GOT TO ASK FOR HELP. 602 00:28:58,067 --> 00:29:02,400 I CAN'T BELIEVE I'VE LET MYSELF GET UP THAT HIGH. 603 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:04,167 I CAN'T, EITHER, L.B. 604 00:29:04,167 --> 00:29:05,567 AND... 605 00:29:05,567 --> 00:29:07,400 [ SIGHS ] I JUST... 606 00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:09,533 THIS IS HARD TO BELIEVE. 607 00:29:09,533 --> 00:29:13,867 ** 608 00:29:13,867 --> 00:29:15,233 -JAMES? -YEP. 609 00:29:15,233 --> 00:29:16,933 HOW ARE YOU? -I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 610 00:29:16,933 --> 00:29:19,400 NICE TO MEET YOU. 611 00:29:19,400 --> 00:29:22,300 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -L.B.'s MOM KAREN. 612 00:29:22,300 --> 00:29:24,900 HI, HOW ARE YOU? YEAH, I GO BY L.B. 613 00:29:24,900 --> 00:29:26,500 WHAT DOES L.B. STAND FOR? 614 00:29:26,500 --> 00:29:28,800 MY DAD'S NAME'S BUDDY, AND WHEN THEY FOUND OUT 615 00:29:28,800 --> 00:29:30,167 THEY WERE ADOPTING A LITTLE BOY, 616 00:29:30,167 --> 00:29:32,300 HE TOLD EVERYBODY HE WAS FINALLY GONNA HAVE A LITTLE BUDDY 617 00:29:32,300 --> 00:29:33,533 TO HANG OUT WITH, SO... 618 00:29:33,533 --> 00:29:34,800 YOU'RE NOT LITTLE BY ANY MEANS. 619 00:29:34,800 --> 00:29:37,100 NO, NO. NO, MY HUSBAND IS, THOUGH. 620 00:29:37,100 --> 00:29:42,067 MY DAD IS ABOUT 5'5", ABOUT 140 POUNDS, SO... 621 00:29:42,067 --> 00:29:45,267 SO YOU'RE IN HOUSTON NOW TO SEE ME TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT. 622 00:29:45,267 --> 00:29:46,533 YES, SIR. 623 00:29:46,533 --> 00:29:49,167 I FINALLY ACCEPTED THE FACT THAT I NEED HELP -- 624 00:29:49,167 --> 00:29:51,067 BAD -- TO REGAIN MY LIFE. 625 00:29:51,067 --> 00:29:55,800 AND IF I DON'T GET HELP SOON, I DON'T THINK I'LL SEE 35 OR 40. 626 00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:57,133 I WOULD AGREE WITH THAT. 627 00:29:57,133 --> 00:30:00,133 YOU ARE ACTUALLY CLOSER TO 700 TODAY 628 00:30:00,133 --> 00:30:02,567 IF WE FACTOR IN WHAT YOUR LEG WOULD WEIGH. 629 00:30:02,567 --> 00:30:06,733 SO IF YOU KEEP GOING LIKE THIS, YOU'LL BE IN THE 800s SOON, 630 00:30:06,733 --> 00:30:09,467 AND YOU WON'T LAST MUCH LONGER AFTER THAT. 631 00:30:09,467 --> 00:30:11,033 OH, YEAH, I KNOW. 632 00:30:11,033 --> 00:30:13,500 SO HOW DID YOU END UP AT THIS POINT? 633 00:30:13,500 --> 00:30:17,867 I GOT A BAD HABIT OF BINGE EATING, BINGE DRINKING, 634 00:30:17,867 --> 00:30:19,400 EATING REAL LATE A NIGHT. 635 00:30:19,400 --> 00:30:21,700 SO WHAT DO YOU EAT WHEN YOU DO THAT? 636 00:30:21,700 --> 00:30:25,767 I EAT A LOT OF FRIED FOOD, A BURGER, WINGS. 637 00:30:25,767 --> 00:30:27,533 OKAY. DO YOU GET DRUNK? 638 00:30:27,533 --> 00:30:28,700 NO, SIR. 639 00:30:28,700 --> 00:30:31,167 OKAY, SO YOU'RE JUST GETTING BIGGER AND BIGGER. 640 00:30:31,167 --> 00:30:33,533 AND IT MUST BE DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO GET AROUND 641 00:30:33,533 --> 00:30:35,400 BECAUSE IT'S GONNA BE A LOT OF STRAIN 642 00:30:35,400 --> 00:30:37,200 ON THAT PROSTHETIC WITH YOUR WEIGHT. 643 00:30:37,200 --> 00:30:40,133 YEAH. THERE'S ONLY ONE COMPANY IN THE COUNTRY 644 00:30:40,133 --> 00:30:42,233 THAT WAS WILLING TO BUILD ME A FOOT, 645 00:30:42,233 --> 00:30:44,367 AND THEY'VE TOLD ME SEVERAL TIMES 646 00:30:44,367 --> 00:30:46,167 THAT IF I GAIN ANY MORE WEIGHT, 647 00:30:46,167 --> 00:30:48,767 THERE'S NOT GONNA BE A FOOT AVAILABLE FOR ME. 648 00:30:48,767 --> 00:30:50,367 SO IF YOU DON'T CHANGE NOW, 649 00:30:50,367 --> 00:30:53,100 IT'S GOING TO BE A MUCH WORSE SITUATION 650 00:30:53,100 --> 00:30:54,967 IF YOU ARE IMMOBILE. 651 00:30:54,967 --> 00:30:58,433 IF I DON'T TURN MY LIFE AROUND, I MEAN, I'M DOING NOTHING 652 00:30:58,433 --> 00:31:00,667 BUT, YOU KNOW, DESTROYING MYSELF 653 00:31:00,667 --> 00:31:05,167 AND DESTROYING MY FAMILY, AS WELL. 654 00:31:05,167 --> 00:31:07,367 Dr. Nowzaradan: L.B. HAS A UNIQUE SITUATION, 655 00:31:07,367 --> 00:31:12,067 BEING THE SIZE HE IS AND HAVING A PROSTHETIC LEG. 656 00:31:12,067 --> 00:31:15,067 SO IT'S IMPERATIVE THAT HE START TO LOSE WEIGHT 657 00:31:15,067 --> 00:31:17,433 AND AVOIDS BECOMING IMMOBILE. 658 00:31:17,433 --> 00:31:20,067 BECAUSE ONCE HE DOES, HIS BODY WILL START 659 00:31:20,067 --> 00:31:22,900 TO GET EVEN WORSE MUCH FASTER. 660 00:31:22,900 --> 00:31:24,267 OKAY, L.B., 661 00:31:24,267 --> 00:31:27,967 I'M GOING TO PUT YOU ON A LOW-CARB, HIGH-PROTEIN DIET 662 00:31:27,967 --> 00:31:30,400 THAT IS 1,200 CALORIES A DAY. 663 00:31:30,400 --> 00:31:33,800 IF YOU STICK TO THE DIET, THEN YOU SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM 664 00:31:33,800 --> 00:31:38,067 HITTING A WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL OF 50 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 665 00:31:38,067 --> 00:31:38,933 YES, SIR. 666 00:31:38,933 --> 00:31:41,600 AND WE'RE GONNA STOP DRINKING 667 00:31:41,600 --> 00:31:44,500 BECAUSE ALCOHOL IS NO LONGER ON THE LIST 668 00:31:44,500 --> 00:31:46,433 IF YOU WANT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 669 00:31:46,433 --> 00:31:47,500 OKAY? 670 00:31:47,500 --> 00:31:49,567 SO YOU NEED TO MAKE THAT CHANGE NOW. 671 00:31:49,567 --> 00:31:50,767 RIGHT. 672 00:31:50,767 --> 00:31:52,533 AND I KNOW IT'S HARD WITH YOUR PROSTHETIC 673 00:31:52,533 --> 00:31:54,433 HAVING ISSUES WITH YOUR WEIGHT, 674 00:31:54,433 --> 00:31:57,067 BUT YOU NEED TO WORK TO GET YOUR ACTIVITY UP. 675 00:31:57,067 --> 00:31:58,633 -RIGHT. RIGHT. -OKAY? 676 00:31:58,633 --> 00:32:01,867 OKAY, YOU DO ALL THIS, THEN WE'RE GONNA APPROVE YOU 677 00:32:01,867 --> 00:32:03,100 FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 678 00:32:03,100 --> 00:32:04,067 SOUNDS GOOD. 679 00:32:04,067 --> 00:32:05,600 OKAY? YES, SIR. 680 00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:07,433 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU ALL LATER. 681 00:32:07,433 --> 00:32:09,600 -THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 682 00:32:09,600 --> 00:32:17,067 ** 683 00:32:17,067 --> 00:32:18,800 L.B.: I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED RIGHT NOW 684 00:32:18,800 --> 00:32:20,767 BECAUSE I WAS HOPING THE DOCTOR WOULD TELL ME 685 00:32:20,767 --> 00:32:23,467 I WAS A CANDIDATE FOR SURGERY TODAY. 686 00:32:23,467 --> 00:32:24,833 YOU READY TO GET OUT OF HERE? 687 00:32:24,833 --> 00:32:26,700 YEAH. 688 00:32:26,700 --> 00:32:30,867 AND I'VE NEVER EVEN COME CLOSE TO LOSING 50 POUNDS AT ANY TIME. 689 00:32:30,867 --> 00:32:34,100 SO THAT HAS ME REALLY WORRIED. 690 00:32:34,100 --> 00:32:36,333 BUT IN ALL HONESTY, THE HARDEST THING 691 00:32:36,333 --> 00:32:40,300 IS GONNA BE LEAVING BOOZE ALONE. 692 00:32:40,300 --> 00:32:42,767 THERE'S A LOT OF HURDLES STILL AHEAD, 693 00:32:42,767 --> 00:32:46,133 BUT I'M UP FOR THE CHALLENGE 694 00:32:46,133 --> 00:32:49,933 BECAUSE THIS IS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT MONTHS OF MY LIFE, 695 00:32:49,933 --> 00:32:53,267 AND I KNOW I CAN'T KEEP GOING ON LIKE THIS MUCH LONGER. 696 00:32:53,267 --> 00:32:58,900 ** 697 00:32:58,900 --> 00:33:04,600 ** 698 00:33:04,600 --> 00:33:07,200 AFTER COMING HOME FROM SEEING DR. NOW, 699 00:33:07,200 --> 00:33:10,267 I CLEANED ALL THE BAD FOOD OUT FROM THE HOUSE, 700 00:33:10,267 --> 00:33:13,533 AND I GOT RID OF THE BEER. 701 00:33:13,533 --> 00:33:16,300 I DRANK SOME OF IT BECAUSE I COULDN'T WASTE IT, 702 00:33:16,300 --> 00:33:20,500 BUT IT'S GONE NOW, AND I'M STICKING TO THE DIET. 703 00:33:20,500 --> 00:33:22,067 BUT I'M WORRIED ABOUT GETTING MORE ACTIVE 704 00:33:22,067 --> 00:33:26,733 BECAUSE MY PROSTHETIC LEG'S BEEN MAKING NOISES WHEN I MOVE, 705 00:33:26,733 --> 00:33:29,900 AND I'M WORRIED IT'S ABOUT TO GIVE OUT. 706 00:33:29,900 --> 00:33:33,267 SO TODAY I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT WITH MY PROSTHESIS MAKER 707 00:33:33,267 --> 00:33:36,833 TO SEE IF HE CAN FIX WHATEVER IT IS. 708 00:33:36,833 --> 00:33:41,100 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, MY PROSTHETIC BREAKS A GOOD BIT. 709 00:33:41,100 --> 00:33:44,900 AND I FEEL LIKE MY CURRENT ONE IS ABOUT TO DO THE SAME. 710 00:33:44,900 --> 00:33:48,333 AND I DON'T WANT MY WORRY OF IT BREAKING OR ME FALLING 711 00:33:48,333 --> 00:33:52,667 TO HOLD ME BACK FROM DOING MY EXERCISES EVERY DAY. 712 00:33:52,667 --> 00:33:57,867 I GOT THIS FOOT MADE PROBABLY 100, 120 POUNDS AGO. 713 00:33:57,867 --> 00:33:59,167 AND SINCE I'VE BEEN GAINING WEIGHT, 714 00:33:59,167 --> 00:34:01,367 IT'S JUST CAUSING MORE AND MORE WEAR 715 00:34:01,367 --> 00:34:04,567 AND TEAR AT THREE TIMES THE PACE IT SHOULD. 716 00:34:06,600 --> 00:34:09,367 SO I KNOW IT'S PROBABLY AT ITS LIMIT RIGHT NOW, 717 00:34:09,367 --> 00:34:12,467 AND I'M HOPING IT CAN BE FIXED. 718 00:34:12,467 --> 00:34:14,667 L.B.? 719 00:34:16,200 --> 00:34:19,767 BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD FOR IT TO BREAK RIGHT NOW, 720 00:34:19,767 --> 00:34:23,467 WHEN I NEED TO BE MAKING PROGRESS. 721 00:34:23,467 --> 00:34:24,933 L.B. WHAT'S UP, MAN? 722 00:34:24,933 --> 00:34:26,333 HOW YOU DOING, BUDDY? 723 00:34:26,333 --> 00:34:28,400 CAN'T COMPLAIN. 724 00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:29,800 HOW YOU BEEN? 725 00:34:29,800 --> 00:34:32,900 ROUGH. THIS THING'S STILL DIGGING INTO ME PRETTY GOOD, 726 00:34:32,900 --> 00:34:34,733 AND NOW I GOT A SQUEAK. 727 00:34:34,733 --> 00:34:36,633 YEAH. WELL, HOW'S YOUR WEIGHT, DUDE? 728 00:34:36,633 --> 00:34:38,133 STILL PICKING UP? YEAH. 729 00:34:38,133 --> 00:34:40,700 IT'S UP THERE PRETTY GOOD. 730 00:34:40,700 --> 00:34:44,367 BUT I'M TRYING TO LOSE RIGHT NOW. 731 00:34:44,367 --> 00:34:46,333 ALL RIGHT. WHAT'S YOUR BODY WEIGHT NOW? 732 00:34:46,333 --> 00:34:47,667 642. 733 00:34:47,667 --> 00:34:48,800 WOW, DUDE. 734 00:34:48,800 --> 00:34:50,633 YOUR FOOT WAS ORDERED WHEN YOU WERE 735 00:34:50,633 --> 00:34:52,633 IN THE 500-POUND RANGE, RIGHT? 736 00:34:52,633 --> 00:34:54,200 YEP. 737 00:34:54,200 --> 00:34:56,633 SO YOU'RE TECHNICALLY WAY OVER THE WEIGHT LIMIT ON THIS FOOT, 738 00:34:56,633 --> 00:34:58,933 AND THAT'S PROBABLY WHERE THE SQUEAK'S COMING FROM. 739 00:34:58,933 --> 00:35:00,600 I WOULDN'T BE SURPRISED IF I TOOK IT BACK HERE 740 00:35:00,600 --> 00:35:02,200 AND TOOK IT APART AND IT'S BROKEN. 741 00:35:02,200 --> 00:35:03,500 SO YOU GET ANY HEAVIER, MAN, 742 00:35:03,500 --> 00:35:05,633 I MAY NOT EVEN BE ABLE TO GET A FOOT GOING. 743 00:35:05,633 --> 00:35:07,467 THIS IS GETTING TO THE POINT 744 00:35:07,467 --> 00:35:10,067 WHERE THIS IS GETTING PRETTY DAGGUM SERIOUS RIGHT NOW. 745 00:35:10,067 --> 00:35:11,467 YEAH. 746 00:35:11,467 --> 00:35:13,600 GIVE ME A FEW MINUTES, AND I'LL BE RIGHT BACK, OKAY? 747 00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:15,600 ALL RIGHT. 748 00:35:15,600 --> 00:35:18,067 THE FIRST TIME I MET L.B. BONNER, 749 00:35:18,067 --> 00:35:21,600 HE WAS PROBABLY AROUND 520, 525 POUNDS. 750 00:35:21,600 --> 00:35:23,867 FIRST THING WE TALKED ABOUT WITH L.B. 751 00:35:23,867 --> 00:35:26,833 WAS HE NEEDED TO GET THE WEIGHT DOWN. 752 00:35:26,833 --> 00:35:28,867 IT'S BEEN THREE AND A HALF, FOUR YEARS NOW. 753 00:35:28,867 --> 00:35:32,100 AND IF HE DOESN'T DO SOMETHING ABOUT HIS WEIGHT, 754 00:35:32,100 --> 00:35:34,900 IT'S GONNA GET TO WHERE I'M NOT EVEN GONNA BE ABLE TO HELP HIM. 755 00:35:34,900 --> 00:35:36,167 HOW'S IT LOOKING? 756 00:35:36,167 --> 00:35:38,233 ALL RIGHT, L.B... 757 00:35:38,233 --> 00:35:40,467 I CAN'T REALLY REINFORCE THIS PROSTHETIC 758 00:35:40,467 --> 00:35:42,500 TO DO ANYTHING TO HELP YOU OUT RIGHT NOW. 759 00:35:42,500 --> 00:35:44,467 EVERY STEP YOU TAKE, YOU'RE PUSHING DOWN THROUGH IT, 760 00:35:44,467 --> 00:35:46,067 IT'S BLOWING RIGHT THROUGH THE FOOT SHELL, 761 00:35:46,067 --> 00:35:48,733 AND YOU GOT SOME STRESS CRACKS IN THE CARBON. 762 00:35:48,733 --> 00:35:49,867 REMEMBER WHEN THAT FOOT BROKE? 763 00:35:49,867 --> 00:35:51,367 OH, YEAH. YOU WENT DOWN, DIDN'T YOU? 764 00:35:51,367 --> 00:35:52,800 YEAH. HARD. 765 00:35:52,800 --> 00:35:55,300 OKAY, SAME THING'S GONNA HAPPEN IF THE FOOT BREAKS AGAIN. 766 00:35:55,300 --> 00:35:56,500 I MEAN, IT'S... 767 00:35:56,500 --> 00:35:58,500 THERE'S REALLY NOTHING THAT CAN BE DONE. 768 00:35:58,500 --> 00:36:00,367 YOU JUST NEED A NEW ONE. 769 00:36:00,367 --> 00:36:02,700 THAT'S WHAT I WASN'T LOOKING FORWARD TO HEARING. 770 00:36:02,700 --> 00:36:04,533 AND THEY'RE NOT GONNA MAKE ONE FOR SOMEONE 771 00:36:04,533 --> 00:36:06,333 THAT'S OVER 600 POUNDS. 772 00:36:08,300 --> 00:36:09,533 I'D TAKE IT EASY. 773 00:36:09,533 --> 00:36:10,967 APPRECIATE IT, MAN. ALL RIGHT, MAN. 774 00:36:10,967 --> 00:36:12,667 JUST KEEP THAT ABOUT YOUR HEAD. 775 00:36:12,667 --> 00:36:13,933 I WILL. 776 00:36:13,933 --> 00:36:15,600 ALL RIGHT, MAN. 777 00:36:15,600 --> 00:36:17,133 ALL RIGHT, MAN. 778 00:36:17,133 --> 00:36:21,267 ** 779 00:36:21,267 --> 00:36:23,800 [ GRUNTS ] 780 00:36:23,800 --> 00:36:25,433 L.B.: RIGHT NOW, I'M FEELING PRETTY WORRIED 781 00:36:25,433 --> 00:36:28,167 AND KIND OF SCARED. 782 00:36:28,167 --> 00:36:31,733 I JUST WASN'T SURE IT WAS THAT BAD. 783 00:36:31,733 --> 00:36:35,500 I FINALLY HAVE THIS CHANCE TO TURN MY LIFE AROUND... 784 00:36:35,500 --> 00:36:39,100 BUT NOW I HAVE A CATCH-22. 785 00:36:39,100 --> 00:36:42,900 I NEED TO PUSH MYSELF TO DO MORE AND LOSE WEIGHT, 786 00:36:42,900 --> 00:36:46,200 BUT THAT COULD BREAK MY LEG. 787 00:36:46,200 --> 00:36:48,600 AND IF IT COMES APART WHILE I'M WALKING, 788 00:36:48,600 --> 00:36:50,933 THAT COULD BE REALLY BAD FOR ME. 789 00:36:50,933 --> 00:36:53,333 ** 790 00:36:53,333 --> 00:36:55,367 WHEN THIS FOOT BREAKS, IT'S NOT JUST LIKE 791 00:36:55,367 --> 00:36:57,733 YOU'RE STILL ABLE TO KIND OF LIMP AROUND. 792 00:36:57,733 --> 00:37:01,067 I WON'T BE ABLE TO WALK AT ALL WHEN IT BREAKS. 793 00:37:01,067 --> 00:37:03,967 AND IF I CAN'T HAVE THAT LITTLE BIT OF MOBILITY, 794 00:37:03,967 --> 00:37:05,700 THEN I'LL BE BEDRIDDEN. 795 00:37:05,700 --> 00:37:07,867 THAT'S GONNA CAUSE ME TO JUST GIVE UP. 796 00:37:10,067 --> 00:37:11,500 I KNOW IT AIN'T GOOD FOR ME, 797 00:37:11,500 --> 00:37:13,800 BUT WHENEVER I GET BAD NEWS LIKE THIS, 798 00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:15,600 THE FIRST THING I ALWAYS WANT TO DO 799 00:37:15,600 --> 00:37:18,333 IS GO GET SOMETHING TO EAT AND DRINK. 800 00:37:18,333 --> 00:37:20,500 ** 801 00:37:20,500 --> 00:37:21,867 YES, MA'AM. 802 00:37:21,867 --> 00:37:25,833 LET ME GET A BACON KING COMBO WITH A LARGE SWEET TEA. 803 00:37:25,833 --> 00:37:29,067 LET ME ADD A 10-PIECE NUGGET TO IT, TOO. 804 00:37:29,067 --> 00:37:33,200 AND I NEED AN ORDER OF CHICKEN FRIES, TOO. 805 00:37:33,200 --> 00:37:36,133 I FEEL LIKE IF I GO GET SOMETHING TO EAT OR DRINK, 806 00:37:36,133 --> 00:37:39,333 THEN IT'S GONNA TAKE THAT EDGE OFF OF FEELING 807 00:37:39,333 --> 00:37:42,600 SO DISAPPOINTED OR UPSET BY THE NEWS. 808 00:37:45,067 --> 00:37:48,400 THANK YOU, BUD. 809 00:37:48,400 --> 00:37:52,600 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE NO MATTER WHAT, I CAN NEVER GET AHEAD. 810 00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:56,100 SOMETHING ALWAYS GOES WRONG. 811 00:37:56,100 --> 00:37:57,867 I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, 812 00:37:57,867 --> 00:38:02,700 AND I'M WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES AND WORK HARD. 813 00:38:02,700 --> 00:38:04,733 BUT IT JUST SEEMS LIKE EVERY TIME I TRY, 814 00:38:04,733 --> 00:38:08,233 SOMETHING HAPPENS THAT SETS ME BACK. 815 00:38:08,233 --> 00:38:10,800 BECAUSE IF MY LEG IS THAT CLOSE TO GIVING OUT, 816 00:38:10,800 --> 00:38:12,433 THEN I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO 817 00:38:12,433 --> 00:38:13,833 OR HOW I'M GONNA MEET THE GOALS 818 00:38:13,833 --> 00:38:15,667 I NEED. 819 00:38:15,667 --> 00:38:18,067 AND THEN THERE'S NO WAY THAT I CAN LOSE THIS WEIGHT 820 00:38:18,067 --> 00:38:19,767 AND GET MY LIFE BACK. 821 00:38:19,767 --> 00:38:21,567 UGH. 822 00:38:21,567 --> 00:38:23,300 THAT SUCKS. 823 00:38:23,300 --> 00:38:30,100 ** 824 00:38:30,100 --> 00:38:32,400 IT'S ON THERE NOW. 825 00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:35,100 SO I'M JUST FEELING HOPELESS RIGHT NOW, 826 00:38:35,100 --> 00:38:38,467 BECAUSE I'M SCARED IT'S ALREADY TOO LATE FOR ME. 827 00:38:43,300 --> 00:38:49,333 ** 828 00:38:49,333 --> 00:38:51,933 L.B.: IT'S BEEN A FEW WEEKS SINCE I'VE SEEN DR. NOW 829 00:38:51,933 --> 00:38:54,300 FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT. 830 00:38:54,300 --> 00:38:55,533 I'VE HAD A FEW HICCUPS, 831 00:38:55,533 --> 00:38:59,133 BUT I'VE WORKED HARD TO GET BACK ON TRACK. 832 00:38:59,133 --> 00:39:01,267 AFTER GETTING THE BAD NEWS ABOUT MY PROSTHETIC, 833 00:39:01,267 --> 00:39:03,900 I WAS REALLY DEPRESSED. 834 00:39:03,900 --> 00:39:06,233 BUT MY SISTER SUGGESTED I COULD START DOING 835 00:39:06,233 --> 00:39:08,333 MY WALKING IN HER POOL, 836 00:39:08,333 --> 00:39:11,300 BECAUSE THAT WILL TAKE THE PRESSURE OFF MY LEG. 837 00:39:11,300 --> 00:39:12,633 SO EVERY MORNING, I'VE BEEN GOING OVER 838 00:39:12,633 --> 00:39:15,533 TO HER PLACE TO DO THAT. 839 00:39:15,533 --> 00:39:17,400 -HEY! -WHAT'S UP? 840 00:39:17,400 --> 00:39:18,567 Tera: HOW ARE YOU? 841 00:39:18,567 --> 00:39:19,533 GOOD. GOOD. 842 00:39:19,533 --> 00:39:20,867 YOU COME TO GET IN THE POOL? 843 00:39:20,867 --> 00:39:22,133 YEAH. 844 00:39:22,133 --> 00:39:23,167 ALL RIGHT, WELL, I'M PROBABLY GONNA HANG OUT 845 00:39:23,167 --> 00:39:24,200 AND WATCH YOU A LITTLE BIT. 846 00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:25,300 HOW'S THAT? 847 00:39:25,300 --> 00:39:26,800 FINE WITH ME. THANK YOU. 848 00:39:26,800 --> 00:39:28,100 YOU'RE WELCOME. I LOVE YOU. 849 00:39:28,100 --> 00:39:30,567 LOVE YOU. 850 00:39:32,933 --> 00:39:35,600 Tera: BEFORE L.B. STARTED THIS JOURNEY, 851 00:39:35,600 --> 00:39:38,267 ALL THAT I SAW, IT WAS A STATE OF DEPRESSION 852 00:39:38,267 --> 00:39:42,267 THAT L.B. WOULD NOT EVEN GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. 853 00:39:42,267 --> 00:39:45,533 WATCHING HIM GETTING UP AND GETTING OUT 854 00:39:45,533 --> 00:39:48,100 HAS BEEN QUITE REWARDING FOR ME. 855 00:39:48,100 --> 00:39:51,567 ** 856 00:39:51,567 --> 00:39:54,300 L.B.: I HAVE ONE MORE WEEK TILL I SEE DR. NOW. 857 00:39:54,300 --> 00:39:57,667 AND I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IT IS FOR ME TO HIT MY GOAL BY THEN. 858 00:40:00,033 --> 00:40:02,900 I DON'T WANT TO KEEP LETTING MY FAMILY DOWN. 859 00:40:02,900 --> 00:40:06,233 I WANT TO MAKE THEM PROUD. 860 00:40:06,233 --> 00:40:08,700 AND I KNOW MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING ARE DEPENDING ON ME 861 00:40:08,700 --> 00:40:09,833 DOING THIS. 862 00:40:09,833 --> 00:40:16,133 ** 863 00:40:16,133 --> 00:40:22,433 ** 864 00:40:22,433 --> 00:40:24,300 MY MOM AND ME ARE BACK IN HOUSTON 865 00:40:24,300 --> 00:40:27,500 FOR MY FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 866 00:40:27,500 --> 00:40:32,267 AND I'M OBVIOUSLY ANXIOUS TO SEE IF I HIT MY GOALS OR NOT. 867 00:40:32,267 --> 00:40:34,867 AND NOT KNOWING IS KILLING ME RIGHT NOW. 868 00:40:34,867 --> 00:40:39,200 ** 869 00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:41,867 Woman: L.B. 870 00:40:41,867 --> 00:40:44,933 MY GOAL WAS TO LOSE AT LEAST 50 POUNDS TODAY, 871 00:40:44,933 --> 00:40:49,133 SO IF I DID THAT, I'D BE AT OR BELOW 592 TODAY. 872 00:40:51,133 --> 00:40:53,500 AND I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT IF I DID THAT. 873 00:40:53,500 --> 00:41:02,533 ** 874 00:41:02,533 --> 00:41:07,233 I'M A LITTLE DISAPPOINTED THAT I MISSED IT BY A LITTLE BIT. 875 00:41:07,233 --> 00:41:11,933 BUT AT LEAST I'M MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 876 00:41:11,933 --> 00:41:15,067 AND I'M HOPING DR. NOW SEES HOW HARD I TRIED. 877 00:41:15,067 --> 00:41:17,767 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 878 00:41:17,767 --> 00:41:19,667 -HELLO. -HOW'S IT GOING? 879 00:41:19,667 --> 00:41:21,067 ALL RIGHT. HOW Y'ALL DOING? 880 00:41:21,067 --> 00:41:22,067 PRETTY GOOD. 881 00:41:22,067 --> 00:41:23,600 NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 882 00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:27,133 OKAY, L.B., YOU'RE JUST TWO POUNDS SHY OF 50 POUNDS. 883 00:41:27,133 --> 00:41:29,067 BUT 48 POUNDS IS CLOSE. 884 00:41:29,067 --> 00:41:30,133 YEP. THAT'S GOOD. 885 00:41:30,133 --> 00:41:31,667 AND I HAVEN'T HAD A DROP OF ALCOHOL 886 00:41:31,667 --> 00:41:33,733 SINCE BEFORE MY LAST APPOINTMENT, EITHER. 887 00:41:33,733 --> 00:41:35,233 WELL, YOU'VE SHOWN ME 888 00:41:35,233 --> 00:41:37,900 THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO WORK HARD TO DO THIS, 889 00:41:37,900 --> 00:41:40,433 SO I THINK YOU'RE READY, AND WE'LL GO AHEAD 890 00:41:40,433 --> 00:41:42,367 AND PREPARE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 891 00:41:42,367 --> 00:41:44,300 I DEFINITELY WASN'T EXPECTING TO HEAR THAT, 892 00:41:44,300 --> 00:41:45,767 BUT THAT'S AWESOME NEWS. 893 00:41:45,767 --> 00:41:48,267 SO WE'RE GONNA START DOING SOME TESTING ON YOU. 894 00:41:48,267 --> 00:41:51,900 AND IF EVERYTHING LOOKS GOOD, WE'LL GET YOU ON THE SCHEDULE. 895 00:41:51,900 --> 00:41:52,967 OKAY. 896 00:41:52,967 --> 00:41:54,900 ALL RIGHT, YOU'RE DOING GREAT, L.B. 897 00:41:54,900 --> 00:41:58,167 BUT KEEP LOSING WEIGHT AND GETTING ACTIVE. 898 00:41:58,167 --> 00:42:01,733 BUT IN THE MEANTIME, SOUTH CAROLINA IS TOO FAR 899 00:42:01,733 --> 00:42:03,600 FOR YOU TO COME AND GO 900 00:42:03,600 --> 00:42:06,367 IF YOU'RE GOING TO BE PART OF THIS PROGRAM. 901 00:42:06,367 --> 00:42:09,933 SO I NEED YOU TO GO AHEAD AND MAKE THE MOVE TO HOUSTON 902 00:42:09,933 --> 00:42:11,500 FOR AT LEAST THE NEXT YEAR. 903 00:42:11,500 --> 00:42:13,333 CAN YOU DO THAT? YES, SIR. 904 00:42:13,333 --> 00:42:15,767 THAT WOULD BE SUPER. 905 00:42:15,767 --> 00:42:18,767 L.B. COULD HAVE LOST MORE WEIGHT THIS PAST MONTH, 906 00:42:18,767 --> 00:42:21,567 BUT HE'S CLOSE ENOUGH TO HIS GOAL FOR ME 907 00:42:21,567 --> 00:42:24,467 TO SEE THAT HE'S WILLING TO WORK HARD, 908 00:42:24,467 --> 00:42:27,233 SO I FEEL HE'S READY FOR THE NEXT STEP. 909 00:42:27,233 --> 00:42:30,067 AND WITH BOTH FOOD AND ALCOHOL 910 00:42:30,067 --> 00:42:33,067 HAVING BEEN SUCH A BIG PART OF HIS LIFE, 911 00:42:33,067 --> 00:42:36,800 THIS WON'T BE AN EASY PROCESS FOR HIM. 912 00:42:36,800 --> 00:42:38,933 YOU'RE DOING GOOD. KEEP IT UP. 913 00:42:38,933 --> 00:42:40,767 AND I WILL SEE YOU BOTH SOON. 914 00:42:40,767 --> 00:42:42,400 L.B.: AWESOME. I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING. 915 00:42:42,400 --> 00:42:43,400 OKAY. 916 00:42:43,400 --> 00:42:44,667 ALL RIGHT. YOU HAVE A GOOD NIGHT. 917 00:42:44,667 --> 00:42:46,067 YOU, TOO. 918 00:42:46,067 --> 00:42:50,067 ** 919 00:42:50,067 --> 00:42:52,500 Karen: I'M REALLY PROUD OF L.B. 920 00:42:52,500 --> 00:42:54,500 BECAUSE I KNOW HOW HARD HE'S BEEN TRYING. 921 00:42:54,500 --> 00:42:58,700 SO I'M VERY EXCITED THAT L.B. GOT APPROVED FOR SURGERY TODAY. 922 00:42:58,700 --> 00:43:01,600 ** 923 00:43:01,600 --> 00:43:03,333 L.B.: I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 924 00:43:03,333 --> 00:43:07,133 KNOWING THAT I HAVE THIS CHANCE TO GET THIS HELP IS AWESOME. 925 00:43:07,133 --> 00:43:11,567 BUT I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT BEING AWAY FROM MY FAMILY FOR A YEAR. 926 00:43:11,567 --> 00:43:14,800 SO IT'S A LOT OF MIXED FEELINGS RIGHT NOW. 927 00:43:14,800 --> 00:43:17,267 I KNOW I STILL CAN'T BE ON MY OWN, THOUGH, 928 00:43:17,267 --> 00:43:19,400 SO IF I HAVE TO MOVE TO HOUSTON, 929 00:43:19,400 --> 00:43:22,067 MY MOM PROBABLY HAS TO MOVE WITH ME. 930 00:43:22,067 --> 00:43:23,433 AND IF THAT'S THE CASE, 931 00:43:23,433 --> 00:43:26,067 I JUST HOPE THAT WE BOTH CAN SURVIVE THAT. 932 00:43:26,067 --> 00:43:31,400 ** 933 00:43:31,400 --> 00:43:36,733 ** 934 00:43:36,733 --> 00:43:38,933 MY MOM AND I FOUND A PLACE IN GALVESTON 935 00:43:38,933 --> 00:43:41,167 RIGHT OUTSIDE HOUSTON, WHERE WE'RE GONNA BE MOVING 936 00:43:41,167 --> 00:43:44,067 TO BE CLOSER TO DR. NOW FOR THE NEXT YEAR. 937 00:43:46,167 --> 00:43:48,933 SO TODAY, WE'RE KIND OF HAVING KIND OF A FAREWELL PARTY 938 00:43:48,933 --> 00:43:52,067 FOR ME AND MOM. 939 00:43:52,067 --> 00:43:54,600 I KNOW THIS IS GONNA BE HARD ON EVERYONE. 940 00:43:54,600 --> 00:43:56,200 -HEY, L.B.! -WHAT'S UP? 941 00:43:56,200 --> 00:43:58,400 THERE HE IS! THERE HE IS! 942 00:43:58,400 --> 00:44:01,067 BECAUSE WITH MY MOM MOVING DOWN WITH ME, 943 00:44:01,067 --> 00:44:02,633 IT MEANS EVERYBODY ELSE HAS TO GO 944 00:44:02,633 --> 00:44:04,500 WITHOUT HER FOR THE NEXT YEAR. 945 00:44:04,500 --> 00:44:06,900 L.B.! WHAT'S UP? 946 00:44:06,900 --> 00:44:09,867 ** 947 00:44:09,867 --> 00:44:13,933 MY BIGGEST WORRY ABOUT MOM BEING DOWN THERE 948 00:44:13,933 --> 00:44:15,700 IS SHE'S GETTING PRETTY... 949 00:44:15,700 --> 00:44:18,567 PRETTY ANXIOUS AND EMOTIONAL ABOUT LEAVING. 950 00:44:18,567 --> 00:44:21,567 I THINK IT'S JUST THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN. 951 00:44:21,567 --> 00:44:24,067 YOU KNOW, SHE HATES NEW PLACES. 952 00:44:24,067 --> 00:44:25,100 WHERE IS MOM? 953 00:44:25,100 --> 00:44:27,067 Angela: I THINK SHE WENT UP TO THE HOUSE. 954 00:44:27,067 --> 00:44:28,700 I'M GONNA GO CHECK ON HER. Tera: I'LL GO WITH YOU. 955 00:44:28,700 --> 00:44:30,067 LET'S GO CHECK ON HER. 956 00:44:30,067 --> 00:44:34,300 ** 957 00:44:34,300 --> 00:44:37,667 IT'S IRONIC BECAUSE MY MOM IS MY BIGGEST SUPPORT. 958 00:44:37,667 --> 00:44:40,433 BUT SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THE STRESS FROM OUR RELATIONSHIP 959 00:44:40,433 --> 00:44:43,700 IS WHAT CAUSES ME TO GO TO FOOD THE MOST. 960 00:44:43,700 --> 00:44:47,533 SO THERE'S THE GOOD AND THE BAD TO OUR RELATIONSHIP. 961 00:44:47,533 --> 00:44:51,233 MAMA? 962 00:44:51,233 --> 00:44:52,767 WHY ARE YOU IN HERE BY YOURSELF? 963 00:44:52,767 --> 00:44:55,267 I'M SO WORRIED ABOUT YOUR DADDY. 964 00:44:55,267 --> 00:44:58,367 Y'ALL PROMISE ME THAT YOU WILL MAKE SURE HE'S OKAY. 965 00:44:58,367 --> 00:45:00,167 YOU PROMISE ME. YEAH. 966 00:45:00,167 --> 00:45:03,300 I'LL TRY TO GET YOUR BROTHER HEALTHY. 967 00:45:03,300 --> 00:45:06,300 EVERY TIME I GET AROUND... 968 00:45:06,300 --> 00:45:07,833 PEOPLE, I START CRYING. 969 00:45:07,833 --> 00:45:10,700 CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT I'M GONNA BE LIKE WEDNESDAY WHEN I LEAVE? 970 00:45:10,700 --> 00:45:12,367 YOU KNOW WHAT? 971 00:45:12,367 --> 00:45:15,133 A YEAR REALLY FLIES BY QUICK. 972 00:45:15,133 --> 00:45:19,567 IT'S GOING TO FLY BY QUICKER THAN YOU THINK, AND -- 973 00:45:19,567 --> 00:45:20,700 OH, I LOVE YOU GIRLS. 974 00:45:20,700 --> 00:45:22,367 AND WE'RE GOING TO GO OUT THERE AND EAT, 975 00:45:22,367 --> 00:45:24,367 'CAUSE EVERYBODY IS HERE, 976 00:45:24,367 --> 00:45:28,433 WAITING FOR YOU JUST AS MUCH AS L.B. 977 00:45:28,433 --> 00:45:31,533 L.B.: I FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR A LOT OF THE FEELINGS 978 00:45:31,533 --> 00:45:32,833 THAT SHE'S GOT GOING ON RIGHT NOW 979 00:45:32,833 --> 00:45:34,200 BECAUSE, I MEAN, SHE'S, YOU KNOW, 980 00:45:34,200 --> 00:45:38,600 BASICALLY LEAVING EVERYTHING BEHIND TO DO THIS FOR ME. 981 00:45:38,600 --> 00:45:41,633 ** 982 00:45:41,633 --> 00:45:44,867 I'M IN A LOSE-LOSE SITUATION. 983 00:45:44,867 --> 00:45:49,100 ON ONE HAND, I'M GETTING THE OPPORTUNITY OF A LIFETIME. 984 00:45:49,100 --> 00:45:53,200 BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, I'M PUTTING SO MUCH STRAIN 985 00:45:53,200 --> 00:45:57,267 ON MY FAMILY'S RELATIONSHIP. 986 00:45:57,267 --> 00:46:01,800 I KNOW MY MOM'S TAKING THIS LEAP TO BASICALLY SAVE MY LIFE. 987 00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:07,167 AND IF I DON'T COMPLETELY TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS OPPORTUNITY, 988 00:46:07,167 --> 00:46:13,100 THEN I'VE BASICALLY RUINED OUR FAMILY. 989 00:46:13,100 --> 00:46:15,167 AND WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW TIRED 990 00:46:15,167 --> 00:46:17,767 I AM OF FEELING LIKE A DISAPPOINTMENT. 991 00:46:23,167 --> 00:46:29,167 ** 992 00:46:29,167 --> 00:46:35,167 ** 993 00:46:35,167 --> 00:46:36,467 L.B.: MY MOM AND I ARE PACKING UP 994 00:46:36,467 --> 00:46:40,367 BECAUSE WE'RE MOVING TO THE HOUSTON AREA TOMORROW. 995 00:46:40,367 --> 00:46:43,600 SO I'M EXTREMELY STRESSED AND ANXIOUS 996 00:46:43,600 --> 00:46:47,300 AND WORRIED ABOUT THE MOVE BECAUSE THE REALITY 997 00:46:47,300 --> 00:46:51,367 OF EVERYTHING'S REALLY STARTING TO SET IN. 998 00:46:51,367 --> 00:46:52,933 I'M A LOT MORE EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT 999 00:46:52,933 --> 00:46:55,533 THAN I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA BE. 1000 00:46:55,533 --> 00:46:58,700 AND I CAN TELL IT'S ALL HARD FOR MY MOM, TOO. 1001 00:47:01,900 --> 00:47:04,133 Karen: IT'S JUST TOO DAMN MUCH [BLEEP] TO DEAL WITH. 1002 00:47:04,133 --> 00:47:07,600 NO, IT'S NOT. 1003 00:47:07,600 --> 00:47:09,333 I'M AT THE POINT I DON'T CARE. 1004 00:47:09,333 --> 00:47:11,800 I HAD IT IN HERE, IT FIT PERFECT. 1005 00:47:11,800 --> 00:47:14,500 Man: THE TABLE'S RIGHT OVER HERE. 1006 00:47:14,500 --> 00:47:17,300 DAD? 1007 00:47:17,300 --> 00:47:19,633 MOM'S ALREADY ON A RAMPAGE. 1008 00:47:19,633 --> 00:47:29,433 ** 1009 00:47:29,433 --> 00:47:31,967 YOU ALL RIGHT? NO! 1010 00:47:31,967 --> 00:47:33,833 WHAT'S GOING ON? 1011 00:47:33,833 --> 00:47:35,533 I'M DOING THIS FOR YOU. 1012 00:47:35,533 --> 00:47:38,067 YOU KNOW, I'M LEAVING EVERYTHING BEHIND. 1013 00:47:38,067 --> 00:47:41,167 I'M NOT GONNA HAVE MY DAUGHTERS, 1014 00:47:41,167 --> 00:47:43,967 AND ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS BITCH AT ME ALL THE TIME. 1015 00:47:43,967 --> 00:47:45,400 YOU DON'T WANT TO HELP ME. 1016 00:47:45,400 --> 00:47:46,700 THAT'S NOT THE CASE AT ALL. 1017 00:47:46,700 --> 00:47:48,733 YOU SAID THAT YOU KEEP TELLING ME -- 1018 00:47:48,733 --> 00:47:51,267 EVERYTHING I'VE SAID I WAS GONNA DO HAS GOTTEN DONE. 1019 00:47:51,267 --> 00:47:52,767 NO, L.B. 1020 00:47:52,767 --> 00:47:54,600 I JUST NEED HELP, AND I NEED -- 1021 00:47:54,600 --> 00:47:55,667 I'M TRYING TO HELP YOU, MOM, 1022 00:47:55,667 --> 00:47:57,800 BUT YOU'RE NOT EXACTLY HAVE BEEN EASY 1023 00:47:57,800 --> 00:47:59,233 TO DEAL WITH THROUGH THIS. 1024 00:47:59,233 --> 00:48:02,333 YOU KNOW, WORDS CAN'T EXPRESS HOW THANKFUL I AM 1025 00:48:02,333 --> 00:48:06,333 THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO MAKE THIS CHANGE FOR ME. 1026 00:48:06,333 --> 00:48:09,433 BUT YOU'VE GOT TO TRY TO RELAX A LITTLE BIT TO JUST -- 1027 00:48:09,433 --> 00:48:10,933 WELL, HONEY, YOU SEE WHAT TIME IT IS? 1028 00:48:10,933 --> 00:48:12,333 IT'S 1:30. OKAY. 1029 00:48:12,333 --> 00:48:14,100 IT IS -- WAIT A MINUTE, LET ME FINISH, 1030 00:48:14,100 --> 00:48:15,900 AND THEN YOU CAN SAY WHAT YOU'VE GOT TO SAY. 1031 00:48:15,900 --> 00:48:17,400 IT'S 1:30. 1032 00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:19,500 I STILL HAVE LAUNDRY TO DO, IRONING TO DO, 1033 00:48:19,500 --> 00:48:20,800 I HAVE TO FINISH PACKING. 1034 00:48:20,800 --> 00:48:22,900 I STILL HAVE TO GO OVER THINGS WITH YOUR FATHER AS FAR 1035 00:48:22,900 --> 00:48:25,200 AS THE BILLS AND WHAT COMES OUT EVERY MONTH, 1036 00:48:25,200 --> 00:48:26,900 AND ALL THE CODES AND THE PASSWORDS, 1037 00:48:26,900 --> 00:48:28,333 I HAVE TO TAKE TIME FOR THAT. 1038 00:48:28,333 --> 00:48:30,867 DO YOU UNDERSTAND I HAVE THINGS THAT I WANT TO DO? 1039 00:48:30,867 --> 00:48:32,633 JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YA, 1040 00:48:32,633 --> 00:48:34,700 AND I'M GONNA TAKE CARE OF YOU WHEN WE GET THERE. 1041 00:48:34,700 --> 00:48:36,067 A YEAR IS GONNA FLY BY. 1042 00:48:36,067 --> 00:48:39,067 L.B., I HAVE RAISED YOU FOR 29 YEARS. 1043 00:48:39,067 --> 00:48:41,233 SEE, THIS IS WHAT -- AND YOU AIN'T NEVER TOLD ME 1044 00:48:41,233 --> 00:48:42,367 YOU'RE GONNA TAKE CARE OF ME. 1045 00:48:42,367 --> 00:48:44,700 THIS IS WHAT PISSES ME AND DAD OFF. 1046 00:48:44,700 --> 00:48:46,233 YOU MAKE US OUT TO BE LIKE WE'RE [BLEEP] 1047 00:48:46,233 --> 00:48:48,167 DAMN WORTHLESS. 1048 00:48:48,167 --> 00:48:50,733 YOU BELITTLE US EVERY TIME WE TRY TO SAY SOMETHING 1049 00:48:50,733 --> 00:48:53,267 OR EVERY TIME WE OR EVERY TIME WE VOLUNTEER TO DO SOMETHING, 1050 00:48:53,267 --> 00:48:57,167 AND MAKE IT OUT TO BE LIKE WE CAN'T EVEN WASH OUR OWN ASSES. 1051 00:48:57,167 --> 00:48:59,067 [BLEEP] DAMN, I TRY TO COME IN HERE AND POUR MY [BLEEP] 1052 00:48:59,067 --> 00:49:01,333 EMOTIONS OUT, AND I GET THIS. 1053 00:49:01,333 --> 00:49:06,600 ** 1054 00:49:06,600 --> 00:49:08,433 L.B.: I TRIED TO GO IN AND TALK TO MY MOM 1055 00:49:08,433 --> 00:49:11,067 ABOUT JUST MAKING SURE SHE'S OKAY 1056 00:49:11,067 --> 00:49:12,467 AND JUST LETTING HER KNOW HOW MUCH 1057 00:49:12,467 --> 00:49:15,633 I APPRECIATE HER DOING THIS FOR ME, 1058 00:49:15,633 --> 00:49:18,133 AND IT JUST COMPLETELY WENT OFF TRACK 1059 00:49:18,133 --> 00:49:21,500 AND TURNED INTO AN ARGUMENT. 1060 00:49:21,500 --> 00:49:24,667 AND I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN TAKE A YEAR OF THIS, 1061 00:49:24,667 --> 00:49:27,300 SO I JUST NEED TO CALM DOWN RIGHT NOW. 1062 00:49:27,300 --> 00:49:32,600 ** 1063 00:49:32,600 --> 00:49:37,900 ** 1064 00:49:37,900 --> 00:49:40,700 MY MOM AND I HAVE COOLED DOWN SINCE YESTERDAY, 1065 00:49:40,700 --> 00:49:43,167 AND WE'RE GETTING READY TO GET ON THE ROAD. 1066 00:49:43,167 --> 00:49:44,567 ALL RIGHT, YOU GOT ALL YOUR STUFF? 1067 00:49:44,567 --> 00:49:46,800 YEAH, I GOT EVERYTHING. 1068 00:49:46,800 --> 00:49:49,100 TODAY, WE'RE JUST AGREEING TO TRY TO MAKE THIS DRIVE 1069 00:49:49,100 --> 00:49:51,433 TO TEXAS WITHOUT ARGUING, 1070 00:49:51,433 --> 00:49:54,067 BUT I'M NOT SURE IF THAT'S POSSIBLE. 1071 00:49:54,067 --> 00:49:59,233 WE STILL HAVE AT LEAST A 15-HOUR DRIVE AHEAD OF US... 1072 00:49:59,233 --> 00:50:02,300 AND I'M ALREADY WORRIED I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT ALL THE WAY. 1073 00:50:02,300 --> 00:50:05,167 SO I'M STILL NOT SURE HOW ALL THIS IS GONNA GO. 1074 00:50:07,167 --> 00:50:09,833 THERE AIN'T A MOMENT I'M NOT THANKFUL FOR THE SACRIFICE 1075 00:50:09,833 --> 00:50:12,967 MY MOM'S MAKING FOR ME. 1076 00:50:12,967 --> 00:50:14,900 BUT THAT STILL DOESN'T MEAN US BEING TOGETHER 1077 00:50:14,900 --> 00:50:17,633 CONSTANTLY IS THE BEST IDEA. 1078 00:50:17,633 --> 00:50:20,733 I'LL CALL YOU WHEN WE GET THERE TONIGHT, OKAY? 1079 00:50:20,733 --> 00:50:22,933 I'LL TAKE CARE OF HER. 1080 00:50:22,933 --> 00:50:26,867 -I LOVE YOU. -LOVE YOU. 1081 00:50:26,867 --> 00:50:30,833 L.B.: BUT THIS IS THE ONLY OPTION TO SAVE MY LIFE. 1082 00:50:30,833 --> 00:50:33,867 SO RIGHT NOW OUR FOCUS IS JUST TO GET THERE. 1083 00:50:33,867 --> 00:50:36,033 AND, HOPEFULLY, WE DON'T KILL EACH OTHER. 1084 00:50:36,033 --> 00:50:43,300 ** 1085 00:50:43,300 --> 00:50:47,433 WE'VE ALMOST MADE IT TO OUR NEW HOME FOR THE NEXT YEAR. 1086 00:50:47,433 --> 00:50:49,800 BUT MY MOM AND ME HAVEN'T BEEN TALKING MUCH. 1087 00:50:49,800 --> 00:50:52,233 WE JUST BEEN ENJOYING THE PEACE AND QUIET. 1088 00:50:52,233 --> 00:50:55,300 ** 1089 00:50:55,300 --> 00:50:57,733 SO I THINK MY BIOLOGICAL FATHER IS OUT OF JAIL 1090 00:50:57,733 --> 00:50:59,833 BECAUSE HE SENT ME A MESSAGE. 1091 00:50:59,833 --> 00:51:02,067 WHY DID HE SEND YOU A MESSAGE? 1092 00:51:02,067 --> 00:51:03,533 HE'S LIKE -- 1093 00:51:03,533 --> 00:51:06,133 I HOPE HE AIN'T PLANNING ON COMING UP HERE AND SEEING YOU. 1094 00:51:06,133 --> 00:51:07,067 NO, NO. 1095 00:51:07,067 --> 00:51:08,567 WATCH OUT FOR THIS TRUCK. 1096 00:51:08,567 --> 00:51:11,333 I PUT AN END TO THAT, QUICK-LIKE. 1097 00:51:11,333 --> 00:51:12,367 WHAT DID YOU SAY? 1098 00:51:12,367 --> 00:51:14,900 HE SAID, "I STUMBLED ON YOUR PROFILE, 1099 00:51:14,900 --> 00:51:17,067 AND I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT... 1100 00:51:17,067 --> 00:51:20,333 YOU KNOW, I KNOW YOU'VE HEARD A LOT ABOUT ME, 1101 00:51:20,333 --> 00:51:24,800 AND I'M A -- YOU KNOW, I'VE MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES, 1102 00:51:24,800 --> 00:51:27,933 BUT I'M STILL YOUR DAD," AND I WENT OFF. 1103 00:51:27,933 --> 00:51:31,167 I WAS LIKE, "ACTUALLY, YOU'RE NOT MY DAD. 1104 00:51:31,167 --> 00:51:33,233 I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. 1105 00:51:33,233 --> 00:51:37,367 YOU KNOW, YOU'RE A HORRIBLE EXCUSE FOR A HUMAN BEING." 1106 00:51:37,367 --> 00:51:39,900 WHAT DID HE GET ARRESTED FOR? 1107 00:51:39,900 --> 00:51:41,133 DRUG POSSESSION. 1108 00:51:41,133 --> 00:51:43,133 WELL, THERE'S ONE THING I'M THANKFUL FOR. 1109 00:51:43,133 --> 00:51:46,167 I'M THANKFUL THAT YOU NEVER GOT HOOKED ON DRUGS. 1110 00:51:46,167 --> 00:51:47,933 NO. 1111 00:51:47,933 --> 00:51:50,133 IF I WOULD HAVE DONE LIKE OTHER PEOPLE 1112 00:51:50,133 --> 00:51:53,300 IN MY BIOLOGICAL FAMILY, WITHOUT A DOUBT, 1113 00:51:53,300 --> 00:51:58,067 I'D EITHER BE IN PRISON OR DEAD BY NOW, 1114 00:51:58,067 --> 00:52:02,433 ESPECIALLY WITH HOW MY TEMPER CAN BE. 1115 00:52:02,433 --> 00:52:06,067 AND THAT'S SOMETHING MAYBE WHEN YOU GET THIS NEW LIFE STARTED, 1116 00:52:06,067 --> 00:52:11,600 THAT YOU WILL HAVE BETTER CONTROL OVER YOUR TEMPER. 1117 00:52:11,600 --> 00:52:15,533 IT'S DEFINITELY SOMETHING I NEED TO WORK ON. 1118 00:52:15,533 --> 00:52:17,800 LET ME ASK YOU THIS. 1119 00:52:17,800 --> 00:52:20,900 SOME OF THE CRAZY THINGS THAT YOU'VE DONE IN YOUR LIFE, 1120 00:52:20,900 --> 00:52:26,300 IS IT BECAUSE YOU FELT LIKE YOU WERE AN OUTSIDER OF THIS FAMILY? 1121 00:52:26,300 --> 00:52:29,967 I MEAN, WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY, DID ME OR DADDY EVER SHOW 1122 00:52:29,967 --> 00:52:34,567 YOU ANY DIFFERENCE IN OUR LOVE 1123 00:52:34,567 --> 00:52:37,733 FOR YOU AS WE DID FOR THE GIRLS? 1124 00:52:37,733 --> 00:52:39,733 IT'S NOT THAT Y'ALL -- 1125 00:52:39,733 --> 00:52:42,933 IT'S NOT THAT Y'ALL SHOWED A DIFFERENCE 1126 00:52:42,933 --> 00:52:44,733 OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. 1127 00:52:44,733 --> 00:52:46,700 IT'S JUST... 1128 00:52:46,700 --> 00:52:49,333 I GUESS CHOICES AND DECISIONS THAT I MADE 1129 00:52:49,333 --> 00:52:55,433 WHEN I WAS YOUNGER REALLY MADE ME FEEL LIKE... 1130 00:52:55,433 --> 00:53:00,800 REALLY MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS... 1131 00:53:00,800 --> 00:53:05,467 A DISAPPOINTMENT AND A REGRET TO Y'ALL. 1132 00:53:05,467 --> 00:53:08,067 AND I'VE SPENT A LOT OF MY LIFE 1133 00:53:08,067 --> 00:53:14,067 TRYING TO PUSH EVERYBODY AWAY FROM ME, 1134 00:53:14,067 --> 00:53:16,633 TO TRY TO MAKE Y'ALL NOT CARE. 1135 00:53:16,633 --> 00:53:19,867 ** 1136 00:53:19,867 --> 00:53:22,500 SO YOU WANTED US TO BE RID OF YOU. 1137 00:53:22,500 --> 00:53:24,367 TO BE RID OF ME, YEAH. 1138 00:53:24,367 --> 00:53:26,333 AND DO YOU KNOW THAT, L.B., 1139 00:53:26,333 --> 00:53:28,767 THAT PARENTS CAN'T DO THAT. 1140 00:53:28,767 --> 00:53:31,200 NO MATTER WHAT THEIR CHILDREN DO, THEY CAN'T DO THAT. 1141 00:53:31,200 --> 00:53:34,900 WELL, IN THE MIND-SET THAT I HAD, FOR THE LONGEST TIME, 1142 00:53:34,900 --> 00:53:38,200 I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T DESERVE TO BE A BONNER. 1143 00:53:38,200 --> 00:53:40,667 THE POINT ABOUT IT IS, L.B., 1144 00:53:40,667 --> 00:53:43,300 AS MUCH TROUBLE AS YOU GOT INTO, YOUR DADDY 1145 00:53:43,300 --> 00:53:45,333 AND I ALWAYS STOOD THERE BY YOU. 1146 00:53:45,333 --> 00:53:47,733 WE WOULD NEVER ABANDON YOU, AND I ALWAYS TOLD YOU THIS -- 1147 00:53:47,733 --> 00:53:50,067 "I'M GONNA LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT." 1148 00:53:50,067 --> 00:53:52,600 BUT YOU GOT TO LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF 1149 00:53:52,600 --> 00:53:54,967 BEFORE ANYBODY ELSE CAN LOVE YOU. 1150 00:53:54,967 --> 00:53:57,833 YOUR DADDY AND I WANT YOU JUST TO BE HAPPY. 1151 00:53:57,833 --> 00:54:00,467 THAT'S ALL WE'VE EVER WANTED FOR YOU. 1152 00:54:00,467 --> 00:54:03,867 AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT YOU HAVE EVER REALLY OPENED UP 1153 00:54:03,867 --> 00:54:05,433 AND REALLY SPOKE TO ME. 1154 00:54:05,433 --> 00:54:08,433 AND I'M PROUD OF YOU, YOU KNOW, FOR MAKING THIS CHANGE. 1155 00:54:08,433 --> 00:54:10,300 THAT'S ENOUGH EMOTIONAL [BLEEP] FOR NOW. 1156 00:54:10,300 --> 00:54:12,833 ALL RIGHT, LET'S JUST BE QUIET. 1157 00:54:12,833 --> 00:54:17,933 ** 1158 00:54:17,933 --> 00:54:23,067 ** 1159 00:54:23,067 --> 00:54:26,633 L.B.: I'M GLAD WE'RE FINALLY HERE. 1160 00:54:26,633 --> 00:54:29,700 IT FEELS AMAZING GETTING INTO GALVESTON. 1161 00:54:29,700 --> 00:54:33,133 YOU KNOW, IT'S BEEN A LONG RIDE. 1162 00:54:33,133 --> 00:54:35,967 I'M HURTING, BUT, YOU KNOW, IT'S -- 1163 00:54:35,967 --> 00:54:39,433 THIS IS ALL THE FIRST STEP OF A HUGE JOURNEY. 1164 00:54:41,533 --> 00:54:45,733 I KNOW THAT THERE'S GONNA BE SOME BUMPY TIMES IN THE ROAD, 1165 00:54:45,733 --> 00:54:49,333 BUT I'M REALLY GLAD AND THANKFUL THAT MY MOM'S WITH ME. 1166 00:54:49,333 --> 00:54:52,467 AND WE'VE HAD A LOT OF CONVERSATION, 1167 00:54:52,467 --> 00:54:56,333 THAT WE TALKED ABOUT THINGS WE'VE NEVER TALKED ABOUT BEFORE. 1168 00:54:56,333 --> 00:54:58,333 I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE WORTH IT, 1169 00:54:58,333 --> 00:54:59,900 AND I'M HOPING IN THE LONG RUN 1170 00:54:59,900 --> 00:55:02,867 THAT THIS IS GONNA MAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP BETTER. 1171 00:55:02,867 --> 00:55:05,467 ** 1172 00:55:05,467 --> 00:55:07,967 AND NOW THAT WE MOVED TO TEXAS, DR. NOW SAID 1173 00:55:07,967 --> 00:55:10,933 HE'D SCHEDULE MY SURGERY TO HAPPEN SOON. 1174 00:55:10,933 --> 00:55:13,067 SO IT'S COMING UP FAST, 1175 00:55:13,067 --> 00:55:15,633 AND I'M GETTING NERVOUS. 1176 00:55:15,633 --> 00:55:19,967 I KNOW THIS IS A DANGEROUS SURGERY AT MY WEIGHT... 1177 00:55:19,967 --> 00:55:23,900 LET'S TAKE A LOOK AT HOME, SWEET HOME FOR THE NEXT YEAR. 1178 00:55:23,900 --> 00:55:28,767 ...AND THAT THERE'S ALWAYS A POSSIBILITY I WON'T WAKE UP. 1179 00:55:28,767 --> 00:55:31,433 SO I'M TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW, 1180 00:55:31,433 --> 00:55:33,067 BECAUSE IF I THINK ABOUT IT TOO MUCH, 1181 00:55:33,067 --> 00:55:36,067 I MAY END UP CHICKENING OUT. 1182 00:55:36,067 --> 00:55:38,767 SO I'M FOCUSING ON THE GOOD THAT'S GONNA COME WITH THIS 1183 00:55:38,767 --> 00:55:42,133 INSTEAD OF THE WORST-CASE SCENARIO THAT COULD HAPPEN, 1184 00:55:42,133 --> 00:55:44,967 BECAUSE MY ONLY OTHER OPTION IS JUST TO LAY DOWN 1185 00:55:44,967 --> 00:55:47,167 AND ACCEPT MY FATE. 1186 00:55:47,167 --> 00:55:49,700 AND THAT'S NOT HOW I WANT TO GO OUT. 1187 00:55:49,700 --> 00:55:52,567 SO EITHER THIS WORKS OR I DIE TRYING. 1188 00:55:59,533 --> 00:56:07,267 ** 1189 00:56:07,267 --> 00:56:14,967 ** 1190 00:56:14,967 --> 00:56:17,967 L.B.: I'M NERVOUS RIGHT NOW. 1191 00:56:17,967 --> 00:56:21,267 I NEED THIS SURGERY TO BE ABLE TO MOVE FORWARD IN MY LIFE 1192 00:56:21,267 --> 00:56:25,200 AND CONTINUE TO GET HEALTHY AND LOSE WEIGHT. 1193 00:56:25,200 --> 00:56:27,067 BUT THE DIFFICULT PART OF IT 1194 00:56:27,067 --> 00:56:31,500 IS JUST TRY TO MENTALLY PREPARE MYSELF TO GO UNDER, 1195 00:56:31,500 --> 00:56:35,733 SO IT'S NICE TO HAVE FAMILY HERE TO BE WITH ME TODAY. 1196 00:56:35,733 --> 00:56:38,567 MY UNCLE FLEW DOWN, AND I'M THANKFUL HE'S HERE, 1197 00:56:38,567 --> 00:56:43,267 BECAUSE ALL THE SUPPORT I HAVE TODAY IS APPRECIATED. 1198 00:56:43,267 --> 00:56:45,967 -HELLO, HELLO. -YOU'RE READY TO TAKE HIM, HUH? 1199 00:56:45,967 --> 00:56:48,633 -YEAH. -I LOVE YOU. 1200 00:56:48,633 --> 00:56:51,333 LOVE YOU. 1201 00:56:51,333 --> 00:56:56,300 MY ANXIETY LEVEL IS DEFINITELY PRETTY HIGH RIGHT NOW, 1202 00:56:56,300 --> 00:56:58,833 BUT I'M READY FOR THIS. 1203 00:56:58,833 --> 00:57:03,500 AND I'M THANKFUL I HAVE THIS CHANCE TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 1204 00:57:03,500 --> 00:57:06,667 I'M JUST EXTREMELY ANXIOUS TO GET IT OVER WITH. 1205 00:57:06,667 --> 00:57:12,067 ** 1206 00:57:12,067 --> 00:57:14,433 Dr. Nowzaradan: L.B. HAS CONTINUED TO DO WELL 1207 00:57:14,433 --> 00:57:16,733 OVER THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS. 1208 00:57:16,733 --> 00:57:22,367 HE HAS LOST ANOTHER 74 POUNDS, BRINGING HIS WEIGHT DOWN TO 520. 1209 00:57:23,900 --> 00:57:27,400 SO TODAY, WE'RE DOING A GASTRIC SLEEVE ON L.B. 1210 00:57:27,400 --> 00:57:31,700 ** 1211 00:57:31,700 --> 00:57:35,933 HE ALSO HAS A HIATAL HERNIA THAT I'LL BE REPAIRING. 1212 00:57:35,933 --> 00:57:39,200 BUT HE'S STILL SEVERELY OVERWEIGHT. 1213 00:57:39,200 --> 00:57:42,567 WE CAN TURN THE ROOM LIGHT OFF. 1214 00:57:42,567 --> 00:57:46,433 SO HIS SURGERY IS HIGH-RISK TODAY. 1215 00:57:46,433 --> 00:57:47,900 AND ON TOP OF THAT, 1216 00:57:47,900 --> 00:57:51,433 L.B. HAS A VERY THICK ABDOMINAL WALL. 1217 00:57:51,433 --> 00:57:54,433 SO THAT'S GOING TO MAKE IT DIFFICULT TO MANEUVER 1218 00:57:54,433 --> 00:57:57,167 THE INSTRUMENT INSIDE HIS ABDOMEN. 1219 00:57:57,167 --> 00:58:02,633 ** 1220 00:58:02,633 --> 00:58:05,067 SO, HOPEFULLY, THERE'LL BE NO ISSUES 1221 00:58:05,067 --> 00:58:08,600 GETTING EVERYTHING WE INTEND DONE. 1222 00:58:08,600 --> 00:58:12,600 BUT IF THERE ARE ANY COMPLICATIONS, WE WILL STOP. 1223 00:58:12,600 --> 00:58:15,200 ** 1224 00:58:15,200 --> 00:58:17,900 Karen: IT'S VERY NERVE-WRACKING FOR ME, 1225 00:58:17,900 --> 00:58:20,600 'CAUSE ANYTHING CAN GO WRONG DURING SURGERY. 1226 00:58:20,600 --> 00:58:24,067 AND SOMETIMES L.B. HAS THE WORST COMPLICATIONS. 1227 00:58:24,067 --> 00:58:27,933 SO UNTIL I KNOW THAT HE'S OKAY, I'M GONNA BE A NERVOUS WRECK. 1228 00:58:27,933 --> 00:58:31,700 ** 1229 00:58:31,700 --> 00:58:35,367 Dr. Nowzaradan: L.B. HAS PUT HIS BODY THROUGH A LOT OF ABUSE. 1230 00:58:35,367 --> 00:58:39,767 BUT, HOPEFULLY TODAY, WE'LL BE ABLE TO TURN THAT TREND AROUND, 1231 00:58:39,767 --> 00:58:42,733 BECAUSE GASTRIC SLEEVE IS AN OPERATION 1232 00:58:42,733 --> 00:58:45,900 THAT REDUCES THE STOMACH BY 90%, 1233 00:58:45,900 --> 00:58:49,533 LEAVING A SKINNY AND LONG TUBE THAT LOOKS LIKE A SLEEVE 1234 00:58:49,533 --> 00:58:53,500 THAT CONNECTS THE ESOPHAGUS TO THE SMALL INTESTINE. 1235 00:58:55,567 --> 00:58:57,500 HOLD IT, HOLD IT. 1236 00:58:57,500 --> 00:59:00,767 OKAY, RIGHT THERE. 1237 00:59:00,767 --> 00:59:04,400 A GASTRIC SLEEVE WILL CHANGE THE METABOLISM TO SOME DEGREE 1238 00:59:04,400 --> 00:59:06,833 AND WILL GIVE THEM AN OPPORTUNITY 1239 00:59:06,833 --> 00:59:08,500 TO BEGIN LOSING WEIGHT, 1240 00:59:08,500 --> 00:59:10,700 BECAUSE THE PATIENT'S FOOD INTAKE 1241 00:59:10,700 --> 00:59:12,567 IS PHYSICALLY LIMITED. 1242 00:59:14,667 --> 00:59:17,100 ALL RIGHT, LOOKS GOOD. 1243 00:59:17,100 --> 00:59:19,333 ROOM LIGHT ON. 1244 00:59:19,333 --> 00:59:23,267 LET'S CLOSE IT UP. 1245 00:59:23,267 --> 00:59:26,933 ALL RIGHT, ALL FINISHED. 1246 00:59:26,933 --> 00:59:29,200 L.B.'s SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 1247 00:59:29,200 --> 00:59:34,300 HE HAD A GOOD SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY AND HIATAL HERNIA REPAIR. 1248 00:59:34,300 --> 00:59:39,800 SO WE WILL GET HIM TO RECOVER AND SEND HIM HOME IN A FEW DAYS. 1249 00:59:39,800 --> 00:59:42,367 L.B. HAS DONE WELL UP TO THIS POINT. 1250 00:59:42,367 --> 00:59:46,300 AND HE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 40 POUNDS THIS FIRST MONTH. 1251 00:59:46,300 --> 00:59:49,800 THEN 30 POUNDS EACH MONTH AFTER THAT. 1252 00:59:49,800 --> 00:59:53,967 BUT AS HE STARTS TO RECOVER AND REALIZES THAT OVEREATING 1253 00:59:53,967 --> 00:59:56,267 IS NOT EVEN AN OPTION 1254 00:59:56,267 --> 01:00:00,567 AND THAT COMFORT AND SECURITY BLANKET IS NOW GONE, 1255 01:00:00,567 --> 01:00:03,467 HE WILL HAVE TO START DEALING WITH HIS EMOTIONS, 1256 01:00:03,467 --> 01:00:05,800 OR THEY WILL GET THE BEST OF HIM. 1257 01:00:05,800 --> 01:00:09,100 BUT I'LL GIVE L.B. A COUPLE MONTHS TO SHOW ME 1258 01:00:09,100 --> 01:00:11,967 THAT HE'S WORKING THROUGH WHAT HE NEEDS. 1259 01:00:11,967 --> 01:00:16,400 IF NOT, HIS EMOTIONS WILL START TO GET OUT OF CONTROL, 1260 01:00:16,400 --> 01:00:18,667 AND WE'LL HAVE TO DEAL WITH THAT. 1261 01:00:18,667 --> 01:00:24,067 ** 1262 01:00:24,067 --> 01:00:29,467 ** 1263 01:00:29,467 --> 01:00:33,833 L.B.: IT'S BEEN A LITTLE OVER A MONTH SINCE I'VE BEEN HOME. 1264 01:00:33,833 --> 01:00:37,933 AND FOR THE FIRST COUPLE WEEKS, I HARDLY WANTED TO EAT. 1265 01:00:37,933 --> 01:00:40,233 BUT AS I RECOVERED MORE, SOME OF THE CRAVINGS 1266 01:00:40,233 --> 01:00:42,900 WERE STARTING TO COME BACK. 1267 01:00:42,900 --> 01:00:46,667 BUT MY BIGGEST FRUSTRATION AND STRUGGLE HAS BEEN WITH MY MOM, 1268 01:00:46,667 --> 01:00:49,000 BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE SHE UNDERSTANDS 1269 01:00:49,000 --> 01:00:54,033 HOW HARD THIS IS FOR ME TO BE ON THIS DIET RIGHT NOW. 1270 01:00:54,033 --> 01:00:55,933 AND INSTEAD OF SUPPORTING ME IN THAT STRUGGLE, 1271 01:00:55,933 --> 01:00:59,333 SHE'S BEEN BRINGING THINGS HOME THAT SHE WANTS TO EAT OR DRINK, 1272 01:00:59,333 --> 01:01:02,433 AND THAT'S A HUGE TEMPTATION FOR ME. 1273 01:01:02,433 --> 01:01:07,200 AND THAT MAKES IT SO MUCH HARDER FOR ME TO DO THIS. 1274 01:01:07,200 --> 01:01:09,133 WHAT YOU DRINKING? 1275 01:01:09,133 --> 01:01:11,200 Karen: WATERED-DOWN BEER. 1276 01:01:11,200 --> 01:01:15,133 WATERED-DOWN BEER, OR A BEER AND SOME ICE? 1277 01:01:15,133 --> 01:01:17,833 A LOT OF ICE AND BEER, WATERED-DOWN. 1278 01:01:19,433 --> 01:01:22,433 YOU DON'T THINK THAT SINCE I'M MAKING SOME CHANGES, 1279 01:01:22,433 --> 01:01:25,167 THAT MAYBE YOU SHOULD WORK ON MAKING SOME, TOO? 1280 01:01:25,167 --> 01:01:27,500 NO, I NEED A COUPLE BEERS IN THE EVENING OR A FEW. 1281 01:01:27,500 --> 01:01:29,100 IT MAKES ME STRESS-FREE. 1282 01:01:29,100 --> 01:01:30,800 I DON'T GO CRAZY WITH MINE. 1283 01:01:30,800 --> 01:01:33,900 WELL, I MEAN, I USED TO DRINK TO RELIEVE STRESS, TOO, 1284 01:01:33,900 --> 01:01:37,233 AND YOU LOOK AT WHAT IT TURNED INTO. 1285 01:01:37,233 --> 01:01:40,467 WELL, THAT'S THE ONE THING THAT I JUST ENJOY. 1286 01:01:40,467 --> 01:01:43,633 YOU DON'T EVER THINK ABOUT HOW IT MAKES ME FEEL, 1287 01:01:43,633 --> 01:01:46,100 COMING FROM THE FACT THAT I HAVE A DRINKING PROBLEM 1288 01:01:46,100 --> 01:01:47,967 FOR THERE TO BE BEER IN REFRIGERATOR. 1289 01:01:47,967 --> 01:01:51,200 I HAVE BEEN THROUGH AN AWFUL LOT OF STRESS OVER THE YEARS. 1290 01:01:51,200 --> 01:01:53,400 I'M JUST SAYING THAT THERE'S OTHER -- 1291 01:01:53,400 --> 01:01:55,800 LIKE, I'M HAVING TO FIND OTHER WAYS TO DEAL 1292 01:01:55,800 --> 01:01:57,833 WITH MY STRESS THAN -- WELL, I'M GLAD THAT YOU ARE. 1293 01:01:57,833 --> 01:02:00,267 BUT YOU HAVE TO CONTROL YOUR HABIT. 1294 01:02:00,267 --> 01:02:02,233 YOU'RE THE ALCOHOLIC, NOT ME. 1295 01:02:02,233 --> 01:02:04,533 SO YOU DO THINK I HAD A DRINKING PROBLEM. 1296 01:02:04,533 --> 01:02:05,967 OH, HELL, YOU DRINK LIQUOR. 1297 01:02:05,967 --> 01:02:07,467 I DRANK BEER, TOO. 1298 01:02:07,467 --> 01:02:10,067 BUT YOU DRANK GALLONS OF LIQUOR LIKE THIS AND TURNED THEM UP. 1299 01:02:10,067 --> 01:02:12,633 IT WASN'T JUST, YOU KNOW, A FEW BEERS. 1300 01:02:12,633 --> 01:02:15,667 YOU'D DRINK A GALLON OF LIQUOR. 1301 01:02:15,667 --> 01:02:17,100 LISTEN, I'M NOT EVEN GONNA WORRY 1302 01:02:17,100 --> 01:02:19,267 OR EITHER CARRY ON THIS CONVERSATION ANYMORE. 1303 01:02:19,267 --> 01:02:21,300 I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT. 1304 01:02:21,300 --> 01:02:22,467 OH, MY GOD. 1305 01:02:22,467 --> 01:02:24,067 I'M DONE. 1306 01:02:24,067 --> 01:02:27,133 ** 1307 01:02:27,133 --> 01:02:28,733 Karen: [ Voice breaking ] IT SEEMS LIKE THE MORE I DO FOR HIM, 1308 01:02:28,733 --> 01:02:31,167 THE MORE HE'S GOT TO FIND SOME DAMN WAY TO BITCH 1309 01:02:31,167 --> 01:02:33,867 ABOUT SOMETHING THAT I DO. 1310 01:02:33,867 --> 01:02:35,267 AND I GUARANTEE YOU 1311 01:02:35,267 --> 01:02:37,733 I'M THE ONLY DAMN ONE THAT DOES ANYTHING FOR HIM -- 1312 01:02:37,733 --> 01:02:39,800 THE ONLY ONE! 1313 01:02:39,800 --> 01:02:42,867 MOST MOTHERS WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP A LONG TIME AGO, 1314 01:02:42,867 --> 01:02:44,567 AND I'M STILL HERE. 1315 01:02:44,567 --> 01:02:49,200 ** 1316 01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:52,067 L.B.: I CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS. 1317 01:02:52,067 --> 01:02:54,833 THE LONGER MY MOM HAS TO STAY OUT HERE IN TEXAS, 1318 01:02:54,833 --> 01:02:58,367 THE WORSE IT IS FOR OUR RELATIONSHIP. 1319 01:02:58,367 --> 01:03:02,133 AND IF SHE DOESN'T AT LEAST TRY TO MEET ME IN THE MIDDLE, 1320 01:03:02,133 --> 01:03:03,767 THEN I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GONNA HAVE ANY CHANCE 1321 01:03:03,767 --> 01:03:06,400 AT STICKING TO THIS FOR A WHOLE YEAR. 1322 01:03:06,400 --> 01:03:08,233 AND I'M WORRIED I'M JUST GONNA GIVE IN. 1323 01:03:13,667 --> 01:03:19,833 ** 1324 01:03:19,833 --> 01:03:26,067 ** 1325 01:03:26,067 --> 01:03:27,700 L.B.: IT'S BEEN A BIT OF A ROUGH MONTH 1326 01:03:27,700 --> 01:03:32,067 BECAUSE THERE'S STILL A LOT OF TENSION BETWEEN ME AND MY MOM. 1327 01:03:32,067 --> 01:03:35,067 I STILL FEEL LIKE SHE'S JUST NOT VERY SUPPORTIVE OF THIS CHANGE 1328 01:03:35,067 --> 01:03:37,300 I'M TRYING TO MAKE... 1329 01:03:37,300 --> 01:03:39,533 BECAUSE SHE'S DRINKING EVEN MORE AROUND ME 1330 01:03:39,533 --> 01:03:40,933 AND STILL BRINGING IN THINGS 1331 01:03:40,933 --> 01:03:44,967 THAT ARE JUST A HUGE TEMPTATION FOR ME. 1332 01:03:44,967 --> 01:03:48,433 AND IF I BRING IT UP, WE JUST FIGHT ABOUT IT. 1333 01:03:48,433 --> 01:03:52,400 SO I'VE BEEN REALLY STRESSED OUT. 1334 01:03:52,400 --> 01:03:55,667 JAMES BONNER. 1335 01:03:55,667 --> 01:03:58,067 L.B.: DR. NOW TOLD ME I SHOULD LOSE 40 POUNDS 1336 01:03:58,067 --> 01:04:00,667 THE FIRST MONTH AFTER SURGERY, 1337 01:04:00,667 --> 01:04:04,067 AND THEN 30 POUNDS EVERY MONTH AFTER THAT. 1338 01:04:04,067 --> 01:04:06,600 SO I SHOULD BE AROUND 450 TODAY. 1339 01:04:06,600 --> 01:04:13,667 ** 1340 01:04:13,667 --> 01:04:17,800 IT'S NOT 70 POUNDS, BUT IT'S WEIGHT LOSS. 1341 01:04:17,800 --> 01:04:21,767 AND, HOPEFULLY, DR. NOW THINKS IT'S GOOD ENOUGH 1342 01:04:21,767 --> 01:04:25,267 BECAUSE I'M DOING THE BEST I CAN. 1343 01:04:25,267 --> 01:04:27,700 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1344 01:04:27,700 --> 01:04:28,800 HOW ARE YOU? 1345 01:04:28,800 --> 01:04:30,967 ALL RIGHT. HOW Y'ALL DOING? 1346 01:04:30,967 --> 01:04:32,867 WE'RE GOOD. ALL RIGHT. 1347 01:04:32,867 --> 01:04:36,200 SO, L.B., YOU ONLY LOST ABOUT HALF OF THE WEIGHT 1348 01:04:36,200 --> 01:04:37,233 YOU SHOULD HAVE. 1349 01:04:37,233 --> 01:04:39,733 SO HOW IS YOUR EATING HABIT COMING ALONG? 1350 01:04:39,733 --> 01:04:42,733 I THINK I'M DOING GOOD WITH IT. 1351 01:04:42,733 --> 01:04:45,633 SHE OVER-EXAGGERATES THE LITTLE AMOUNT 1352 01:04:45,633 --> 01:04:47,200 THAT I'M TAKING IN, BUT... 1353 01:04:47,200 --> 01:04:50,567 HE GETS ONE OF THOSE PROTEIN LITTLE MILK THINGS, 1354 01:04:50,567 --> 01:04:51,967 HE TAKES IT TO BED WITH HIM AT NIGHT. 1355 01:04:51,967 --> 01:04:54,067 I GO IN THERE, HE'S DRANK ABOUT THIS MUCH. 1356 01:04:54,067 --> 01:04:57,200 THAT'S ALL HE HAS EATEN ALL DAY LONG. 1357 01:04:57,200 --> 01:04:59,433 AND, DR. NOW, I'VE BEEN WITH HIM 24 HOURS A DAY, 1358 01:04:59,433 --> 01:05:01,600 AND I KNOW HE HAS NOT EATEN, 1359 01:05:01,600 --> 01:05:04,100 AND HE IS NOT DRINKING BUT THIS MUCH. 1360 01:05:04,100 --> 01:05:06,867 WELL, HE DIDN'T STAY ON TRACK, SO YOU'RE WRONG, 1361 01:05:06,867 --> 01:05:09,367 AND YOU DON'T NEED TO PUSH HIM TO EAT MORE. 1362 01:05:09,367 --> 01:05:12,067 SO GIVE HIM A LITTLE ROOM AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. 1363 01:05:12,067 --> 01:05:13,867 WELL, HE'S HAVING HEADACHES, TOO. 1364 01:05:13,867 --> 01:05:15,367 THE HEADACHES ARE BECAUSE OF YOU. 1365 01:05:15,367 --> 01:05:17,467 OH, IT IS NOT. 1366 01:05:17,467 --> 01:05:19,700 IT IS NOT BECAUSE WE'RE NOT EVEN TOGETHER DURING THE DAY. 1367 01:05:19,700 --> 01:05:20,800 YOU'RE ALWAYS IN YOUR ROOM. 1368 01:05:20,800 --> 01:05:22,300 YOU JUST SAID YOU'RE WITH ME 24/7. 1369 01:05:22,300 --> 01:05:23,533 YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TAKING. 1370 01:05:23,533 --> 01:05:24,700 BUT I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TAKING IN YOUR BEDROOM. 1371 01:05:24,700 --> 01:05:25,967 [BLEEP] DAMN. 1372 01:05:25,967 --> 01:05:27,500 ALL RIGHT, YOU'RE NOT DRINKING ANY ALCOHOL 1373 01:05:27,500 --> 01:05:28,533 OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT? 1374 01:05:28,533 --> 01:05:29,600 MNH-MNH. 1375 01:05:29,600 --> 01:05:30,533 THAT'S NOT PART OF YOUR LIQUID DIET. 1376 01:05:30,533 --> 01:05:32,067 THAT'S PART OF MINE NOW. 1377 01:05:32,067 --> 01:05:34,067 YEAH, THAT'S... 1378 01:05:34,067 --> 01:05:35,200 'CAUSE HE DRIVES ME THAT WAY. 1379 01:05:35,200 --> 01:05:37,367 HE DRIVES YOU TO DRINKING. 1380 01:05:37,367 --> 01:05:39,233 I GOT IT. OKAY. 1381 01:05:39,233 --> 01:05:41,967 SO, L.B., YOU'RE A PRETTY EMOTIONAL GUY, 1382 01:05:41,967 --> 01:05:46,067 AND YOUR MOM SEEMS TO THE SOURCE OF 98% OF THAT. 1383 01:05:46,067 --> 01:05:50,300 SO I THINK IT'S A GOOD TIME FOR YOU TO START SEEING A THERAPIST. 1384 01:05:50,300 --> 01:05:52,433 I'M A LITTLE HESITANT ABOUT THINGS LIKE THAT 1385 01:05:52,433 --> 01:05:54,133 BECAUSE I'VE NEVER... 1386 01:05:54,133 --> 01:05:55,200 NEVER DONE IT. 1387 01:05:55,200 --> 01:05:56,400 HERE'S THE SITUATION. 1388 01:05:56,400 --> 01:06:00,100 YOU KNOW, YOU WOULDN'T HAVE ENDED UP OVER 600 POUNDS 1389 01:06:00,100 --> 01:06:02,500 IF THERE WEREN'T EMOTIONAL ISSUES 1390 01:06:02,500 --> 01:06:05,567 DRIVING YOU TO USE FOOD FOR COMFORT. 1391 01:06:05,567 --> 01:06:06,733 OKAY. 1392 01:06:06,733 --> 01:06:09,700 SO WE NEED TO START TO PROCESS OF DEALING WITH THAT 1393 01:06:09,700 --> 01:06:11,333 BEFORE IT GETS WORSE. 1394 01:06:11,333 --> 01:06:12,433 OKAY. 1395 01:06:12,433 --> 01:06:17,433 ESPECIALLY SINCE YOU TWO HAVE SO MUCH FRICTION. 1396 01:06:17,433 --> 01:06:21,533 L.B.'s WEIGHT LOSS OVER THE PAST TWO MONTHS ISN'T BAD, 1397 01:06:21,533 --> 01:06:23,667 BUT IT'S CLEARLY STARTING TO SLOW, 1398 01:06:23,667 --> 01:06:27,667 WHICH MEANS HIS EMOTIONS ARE COMING TO THE SURFACE RIGHT NOW 1399 01:06:27,667 --> 01:06:30,900 BECAUSE SURGERY HAS CHANGED HIS DYNAMIC WITH FOOD. 1400 01:06:30,900 --> 01:06:34,467 SO HE NEEDS TO START DEALING WITH THOSE ISSUES, 1401 01:06:34,467 --> 01:06:38,367 AND THEY MOSTLY SEEM TO REVOLVE AROUND HIS MOTHER. 1402 01:06:38,367 --> 01:06:41,567 SO THEY NEED A LOT OF HELP BEFORE THINGS GET WORSE 1403 01:06:41,567 --> 01:06:44,800 BETWEEN THEM AND HE STARTS TO GAIN AGAIN. 1404 01:06:44,800 --> 01:06:46,300 SO LET'S SEE A THERAPIST, 1405 01:06:46,300 --> 01:06:48,433 BECAUSE THIS IS SOMETHING YOU NEED TO DO. 1406 01:06:48,433 --> 01:06:49,667 OKAY? OKAY. 1407 01:06:49,667 --> 01:06:51,800 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 1408 01:06:51,800 --> 01:06:54,967 AND YOU NEED TO BE 60 POUNDS LIGHTER BY THEM. 1409 01:06:54,967 --> 01:06:56,100 ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU. 1410 01:06:56,100 --> 01:06:57,300 YOU'RE WELCOME. 1411 01:06:57,300 --> 01:07:03,333 ** 1412 01:07:03,333 --> 01:07:06,133 L.B.: I'VE NEVER DONE THERAPY BEFORE, 1413 01:07:06,133 --> 01:07:09,633 AND THE THOUGHT OF IT DOESN'T APPEAL TO ME. 1414 01:07:09,633 --> 01:07:12,833 BUT THINGS ARE GETTING WORSE BETWEEN ME AND MY MOM, 1415 01:07:12,833 --> 01:07:15,067 AND I WANT TO CHANGE THAT. 1416 01:07:15,067 --> 01:07:16,500 SO I'LL DO WHAT I NEED. 1417 01:07:16,500 --> 01:07:18,467 AND, HOPEFULLY, IT GOES WELL. 1418 01:07:18,467 --> 01:07:23,833 ** 1419 01:07:23,833 --> 01:07:29,233 ** 1420 01:07:29,233 --> 01:07:31,767 TODAY I'M HEADING TO THERAPY. 1421 01:07:31,767 --> 01:07:33,633 I CHICKENED OUT ON MY FIRST APPOINTMENT, 1422 01:07:33,633 --> 01:07:37,333 SO DR. NOW SET ANOTHER ONE. 1423 01:07:37,333 --> 01:07:41,500 I KNOW I HAVE A LOT OF EMOTIONAL ISSUES TO DEAL WITH... 1424 01:07:41,500 --> 01:07:45,067 ESPECIALLY WITH MY MOM. 1425 01:07:45,067 --> 01:07:47,067 BUT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START. 1426 01:07:47,067 --> 01:07:53,533 ** 1427 01:07:53,533 --> 01:07:54,867 -L.B. -HOW ARE YOU? 1428 01:07:54,867 --> 01:07:55,800 FINE. I'M LOLA. 1429 01:07:55,800 --> 01:07:57,400 WHAT A PLEASURE. NICE TO MEET YA. 1430 01:07:57,400 --> 01:07:59,533 COME RIGHT ON IN. 1431 01:07:59,533 --> 01:08:01,867 AND HAVE A SEAT ANYWHERE YOU'RE COMFORTABLE. 1432 01:08:01,867 --> 01:08:04,700 ** 1433 01:08:04,700 --> 01:08:06,767 OKAY. 1434 01:08:06,767 --> 01:08:08,733 SO GLAD YOU COULD MAKE IT TODAY. 1435 01:08:08,733 --> 01:08:10,600 ME, TOO. YEAH? 1436 01:08:10,600 --> 01:08:13,067 TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOURSELF, L.B., 1437 01:08:13,067 --> 01:08:14,100 ABOUT HOW YOU GREW UP. 1438 01:08:14,100 --> 01:08:16,500 UH, I WAS... 1439 01:08:16,500 --> 01:08:18,567 ADOPTED AS A NEWBORN, 1440 01:08:18,567 --> 01:08:21,467 AND I'VE STRUGGLED A LOT MY WHOLE LIFE 1441 01:08:21,467 --> 01:08:23,433 WITH FEELING KIND OF LIKE A BURDEN 1442 01:08:23,433 --> 01:08:27,067 AND A DISAPPOINTMENT TO MY FAMILY IN GENERAL. 1443 01:08:27,067 --> 01:08:30,433 WHEN DID YOU FIRST BEGIN FEELING THAT WAY? 1444 01:08:30,433 --> 01:08:35,333 I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER FELT LIKE I WAS... 1445 01:08:35,333 --> 01:08:40,133 LIVING UP TO WHAT MY MOM AND DAD EXPECTED 1446 01:08:40,133 --> 01:08:41,667 OUT OF THEIR ONLY SON. 1447 01:08:41,667 --> 01:08:45,800 YOU KNOW, L.B., ADOPTION IS A SPECIAL THING, 1448 01:08:45,800 --> 01:08:49,067 BECAUSE IT MEANS YOU WERE CHOSEN. 1449 01:08:49,067 --> 01:08:51,333 YOU HELPED THEM EXPAND THEIR FAMILY 1450 01:08:51,333 --> 01:08:54,233 AND EXPAND THEIR LIVES AS A WHOLE. 1451 01:08:54,233 --> 01:08:58,267 BUT SOMEHOW, YOU DON'T VIEW YOURSELF 1452 01:08:58,267 --> 01:09:01,667 AS HAVING GIVEN THEM ANYTHING, 1453 01:09:01,667 --> 01:09:04,567 AND THAT HAS TO CHANGE. 1454 01:09:04,567 --> 01:09:07,333 WHAT'S YOUR HEART'S DESIRE? 1455 01:09:07,333 --> 01:09:09,667 TO GET APPROVAL FROM MY FAMILY. 1456 01:09:09,667 --> 01:09:11,500 THAT'S NOT A LIFE PLAN. 1457 01:09:11,500 --> 01:09:14,100 FIRST OF ALL, FOR SOME REASON, 1458 01:09:14,100 --> 01:09:17,200 YOU DON'T SEEM TO VALUE YOURSELF. 1459 01:09:17,200 --> 01:09:21,433 AND IF YOU'RE UNABLE TO SEE YOUR WORTH AND VALUE, 1460 01:09:21,433 --> 01:09:23,833 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE DIFFICULTY 1461 01:09:23,833 --> 01:09:26,133 EXPERIENCING OTHERS 1462 01:09:26,133 --> 01:09:27,833 PERCEIVING YOUR WORTH. 1463 01:09:27,833 --> 01:09:31,167 NOW, APPROVAL MAY NEVER COME. 1464 01:09:31,167 --> 01:09:35,567 BUT SELF-VALIDATION IS WHAT'S MOST MEANINGFUL. 1465 01:09:35,567 --> 01:09:37,967 I'VE NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT. 1466 01:09:37,967 --> 01:09:40,600 HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE THE QUALITY OF THE RELATIONSHIP 1467 01:09:40,600 --> 01:09:43,467 YOU HAVE WITH YOUR PARENTS TODAY? 1468 01:09:43,467 --> 01:09:46,067 I FEEL LIKE MY DAD CAN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME 1469 01:09:46,067 --> 01:09:50,567 AND MY MOM CONSTANTLY REMINDS ME 1470 01:09:50,567 --> 01:09:54,500 OF WHERE I SHOULD BE IN LIFE VERSUS WHERE I'M AT. 1471 01:09:54,500 --> 01:09:59,533 AND I LOVE HER TO DEATH, BUT WE CAN'T BE AROUND EACH OTHER 1472 01:09:59,533 --> 01:10:01,633 FOR AN EXTENDED AMOUNT OF TIME. 1473 01:10:01,633 --> 01:10:02,867 WHY IS THAT? 1474 01:10:02,867 --> 01:10:06,867 MY MOM KIND OF HARPS ON THINGS A LOT. 1475 01:10:06,867 --> 01:10:10,133 AND, YOU KNOW, IT'S GOT TO BE HER WAY 1476 01:10:10,133 --> 01:10:12,167 RIGHT THEN ALL THE TIME. 1477 01:10:12,167 --> 01:10:15,033 -HAS IT ALWAYS BEEN THAT WAY? -OH, YEAH. 1478 01:10:15,033 --> 01:10:17,967 BUT THAT'S WHERE YOU HAVE TO FIND YOUR VOICE AND SAY, 1479 01:10:17,967 --> 01:10:22,300 "OKAY, I HEAR YOU, BUT I'M SATISFIED, I'M HAPPY." 1480 01:10:22,300 --> 01:10:24,700 AND YOU HAVE IT WELL WITHIN YOUR RIGHT 1481 01:10:24,700 --> 01:10:28,133 TO INSTRUCT PEOPLE TO NOT CRITICIZE YOU. 1482 01:10:28,133 --> 01:10:31,467 YOU CAN SAY THAT. NOT TO HER. 1483 01:10:31,467 --> 01:10:33,533 WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF YOU SAID THAT TO HER? 1484 01:10:33,533 --> 01:10:37,067 THAT JUST MAKES IT 10 TIMES WORSE. 1485 01:10:37,067 --> 01:10:40,000 SHE'S A HANDFUL. 1486 01:10:40,000 --> 01:10:41,800 THAT CAN CHANGE. 1487 01:10:41,800 --> 01:10:45,500 YOU'RE FOCUSED AND YOU'RE AUTONOMOUS RIGHT NOW, 1488 01:10:45,500 --> 01:10:48,067 AND YOU'RE GOING TO TEACH YOUR MOM 1489 01:10:48,067 --> 01:10:51,100 TO RESPECT THAT INDEPENDENCE AND AUTONOMY. 1490 01:10:51,100 --> 01:10:56,400 AND IT'S OKAY TO SEPARATE YOURSELF FROM CIRCUMSTANCES 1491 01:10:56,400 --> 01:11:01,067 OR PEOPLE IF THOSE THINGS ARE UNHEALTHY FOR YOU. 1492 01:11:01,067 --> 01:11:03,600 BUT YOU'VE GOT TO LEARN TO EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS 1493 01:11:03,600 --> 01:11:04,967 AND ASSERT YOURSELF, 1494 01:11:04,967 --> 01:11:07,333 ESPECIALLY WITH THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE 1495 01:11:07,333 --> 01:11:12,100 THAT YOU FIND IT MOST DIFFICULT TO COMMUNICATE WITH. 1496 01:11:12,100 --> 01:11:14,067 OKAY. 1497 01:11:14,067 --> 01:11:16,067 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING HERE TODAY. 1498 01:11:16,067 --> 01:11:17,067 THANK YOU. 1499 01:11:17,067 --> 01:11:18,900 I DEFINITELY APPRECIATE YOU LISTENING. 1500 01:11:18,900 --> 01:11:20,067 OKAY. 1501 01:11:20,067 --> 01:11:22,067 AND I LOOK FORWARD TO THE NEXT APPOINTMENT. 1502 01:11:22,067 --> 01:11:23,067 I DO, AS WELL. 1503 01:11:23,067 --> 01:11:24,133 HAVE A GREAT REST OF YOUR DAY. 1504 01:11:24,133 --> 01:11:25,067 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. 1505 01:11:25,067 --> 01:11:26,667 BYE. 1506 01:11:26,667 --> 01:11:32,100 ** 1507 01:11:32,100 --> 01:11:35,767 L.B.: I DEFINITELY AM MORE OPEN TO THERAPY AFTER THIS SESSION 1508 01:11:35,767 --> 01:11:38,700 THAN I WAS BEFORE IT. 1509 01:11:38,700 --> 01:11:41,700 AND I THINK I NEEDED THIS KIND OF REALITY CHECK, 1510 01:11:41,700 --> 01:11:45,567 BECAUSE WHEN I FALL SHORT, I FEEL GUILTY. 1511 01:11:45,567 --> 01:11:48,333 AND IF ALWAYS HAVING MY MOM DO EVERYTHING FOR ME 1512 01:11:48,333 --> 01:11:51,600 IS THE BIGGEST SOURCE OF MY GUILT, 1513 01:11:51,600 --> 01:11:53,900 THEN MAYBE THE ONLY OPTION IS TO TELL MY MOM 1514 01:11:53,900 --> 01:11:57,167 TO GO BACK TO SOUTH CAROLINA, 1515 01:11:57,167 --> 01:11:59,533 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE'S GONNA TAKE THAT. 1516 01:12:02,100 --> 01:12:04,867 NO MATTER HOW SCARY OR HARD IT IS, 1517 01:12:04,867 --> 01:12:06,500 I THINK THIS IS WHAT I NEED TO DO. 1518 01:12:12,533 --> 01:12:22,533 ** 1519 01:12:22,533 --> 01:12:25,800 L.B.: A FEW DAYS AFTER I GOT HOME FROM MY THERAPY SESSION, 1520 01:12:25,800 --> 01:12:27,167 I TOLD MY MOM 1521 01:12:27,167 --> 01:12:30,600 I THINK SHE NEEDS TO MOVE BACK HOME TO SOUTH CAROLINA. 1522 01:12:30,600 --> 01:12:33,067 AND SHE WAS UPSET AT FIRST, 1523 01:12:33,067 --> 01:12:34,233 BUT AS WE TALKED ABOUT IT, 1524 01:12:34,233 --> 01:12:36,067 IT TURNED OUT TO BE A GOOD CONVERSATION, 1525 01:12:36,067 --> 01:12:38,700 BECAUSE SHE AGREED. 1526 01:12:38,700 --> 01:12:41,733 IT'S BEEN FIVE MONTHS SINCE WE'VE BEEN BACK HOME, 1527 01:12:41,733 --> 01:12:45,767 AND SHE KNOWS THAT THIS ISN'T WORKING AS MUCH AS I DO, 1528 01:12:45,767 --> 01:12:47,667 SO SHE'S GOING BACK TOMORROW. 1529 01:12:49,800 --> 01:12:52,400 BUT THE THERAPIST THOUGHT IT WOULD BE GOOD BEFORE SHE LEFT 1530 01:12:52,400 --> 01:12:55,100 THAT I TELL MY MOM THANK YOU AND SHARE HOW I FEEL. 1531 01:12:55,100 --> 01:12:57,600 ** 1532 01:12:57,600 --> 01:12:59,533 BUT I'M JUST HOPING IT DOESN'T TURN INTO 1533 01:12:59,533 --> 01:13:02,267 ANOTHER ARGUMENT OR FIGHT. 1534 01:13:02,267 --> 01:13:06,433 I WANT US TO PART ON GOOD TERMS. 1535 01:13:06,433 --> 01:13:08,433 MOM, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 1536 01:13:08,433 --> 01:13:10,567 I JUST GOT FINISHED CLEANING THE KITCHEN UP. 1537 01:13:10,567 --> 01:13:12,300 WHAT YOU DOING? 1538 01:13:12,300 --> 01:13:16,067 DO YOU WANT TO COME IN HERE AND TALK FOR A MINUTE? 1539 01:13:16,067 --> 01:13:18,600 WHAT'S UP? 1540 01:13:18,600 --> 01:13:19,967 ALL RIGHT. 1541 01:13:19,967 --> 01:13:23,267 I JUST WANT TO SAY A FEW THINGS AND YOU NOT SAY ANYTHING. 1542 01:13:23,267 --> 01:13:24,467 OKAY. 1543 01:13:24,467 --> 01:13:26,367 ALL RIGHT, FIRST OF ALL, 1544 01:13:26,367 --> 01:13:30,600 I'M REALLY THANKFUL THAT YOU TOOK TIME TO COME OUT HERE 1545 01:13:30,600 --> 01:13:32,833 AND HELP ME GET SITUATED 1546 01:13:32,833 --> 01:13:35,867 AND GET THROUGH MY SURGERY AND ALL THAT. 1547 01:13:35,867 --> 01:13:39,633 BUT I'VE STRUGGLED FOR A REALLY LONG TIME, 1548 01:13:39,633 --> 01:13:45,833 FEELING LIKE A DISAPPOINTMENT AND A LET-DOWN TO OUR FAMILY, 1549 01:13:45,833 --> 01:13:49,200 AND I STILL STRUGGLE WITH THAT. 1550 01:13:49,200 --> 01:13:51,800 AND I KNOW THAT I STILL DON'T FEEL LIKE 1551 01:13:51,800 --> 01:13:56,100 I'VE ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING FOR Y'ALL TO BE PROUD OF. 1552 01:13:56,100 --> 01:14:01,300 BUT I DON'T WANT OR INTEND TO HAVE TO RELY ON YOU 1553 01:14:01,300 --> 01:14:03,133 AND DAD ANYMORE. 1554 01:14:03,133 --> 01:14:05,533 I THINK ME BEING OUT HERE 1555 01:14:05,533 --> 01:14:09,300 AND GETTING KIND OF A FRESH LEASE ON LIFE 1556 01:14:09,300 --> 01:14:14,433 IS THE BEST THING FOR ME AND FOR OUR FAMILY IN GENERAL. 1557 01:14:14,433 --> 01:14:17,767 I LOVE YOU AND DAD TO DEATH AND ALL MY SISTERS. 1558 01:14:17,767 --> 01:14:22,967 I'M THANKFUL THAT I'VE HAD Y'ALL'S SUPPORT THIS FAR. 1559 01:14:22,967 --> 01:14:24,467 NOW CAN I SAY SOMETHING? 1560 01:14:24,467 --> 01:14:25,867 YEAH. 1561 01:14:25,867 --> 01:14:29,933 YOU ARE NO DIFFERENT TO ME 1562 01:14:29,933 --> 01:14:31,967 THAN YOUR SISTERS ARE, 1563 01:14:31,967 --> 01:14:36,133 AS IF I HAD GIVEN BIRTH TO YOU, YOU CARRY MY BLOOD. 1564 01:14:36,133 --> 01:14:38,867 WHEN YOU HURT OR WHEN YOUR LEG WAS 1565 01:14:38,867 --> 01:14:42,067 CUT OFF OR WHEN YOU'RE IN PAIN, 1566 01:14:42,067 --> 01:14:44,333 I FEEL THAT PAIN. 1567 01:14:44,333 --> 01:14:48,533 I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE MY SELF-WORTH 1568 01:14:48,533 --> 01:14:52,167 HAS BEEN DESERVING OF THOSE FEELINGS. 1569 01:14:52,167 --> 01:14:54,933 BUT THERE'S NOTHING IN THIS WORLD THAT YOU CAN DO THAT 1570 01:14:54,933 --> 01:14:56,433 I'M GONNA STOP LOVING YOU FOR. 1571 01:14:56,433 --> 01:14:59,067 I MEAN, THAT'S JUST THE BOND THAT I HAVE. 1572 01:14:59,067 --> 01:15:01,133 AND I CAN'T EVER GET THROUGH TO YOU 1573 01:15:01,133 --> 01:15:02,800 THAT YOU MEAN THAT MUCH TO ME. 1574 01:15:02,800 --> 01:15:06,667 AND I AM HAPPY THAT YOU HAVE MADE THIS CHANGE, L.B., 1575 01:15:06,667 --> 01:15:09,067 AND THAT YOU'RE READY TO STEP UP AND BE A MAN, 1576 01:15:09,067 --> 01:15:11,767 AND YOU'RE READY TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR OWN PROBLEMS. 1577 01:15:11,767 --> 01:15:14,933 ** 1578 01:15:14,933 --> 01:15:17,100 I KNOW THAT THEY ALWAYS SAY L.B. AND I 1579 01:15:17,100 --> 01:15:21,233 ARE LIKE OIL AND WATER AND WE FIGHT ALL THE TIME. 1580 01:15:21,233 --> 01:15:25,067 BUT I COULDN'T LOVE... 1581 01:15:25,067 --> 01:15:27,733 ANYBODY AS MUCH AS I LOVE HIM. 1582 01:15:27,733 --> 01:15:29,700 AND HE'S GIVEN ME MORE TROUBLE 1583 01:15:29,700 --> 01:15:32,167 THAN ALL OF MY CHILDREN TOGETHER, 1584 01:15:32,167 --> 01:15:35,900 BUT THE LOVE IS STILL THERE. 1585 01:15:35,900 --> 01:15:37,567 L.B.: I THINK THAT TALK WENT PRETTY GOOD, 1586 01:15:37,567 --> 01:15:41,433 AND IT FELT GOOD TO KIND OF CLEAR MY CHEST TO MY MOM 1587 01:15:41,433 --> 01:15:43,700 AND LET HER KNOW HOW I FELT ABOUT THINGS, 1588 01:15:43,700 --> 01:15:46,267 AND I KNOW IT PUT HER AT EASE TO KNOW 1589 01:15:46,267 --> 01:15:48,933 THAT I'M AT A MENTALLY GOOD PLACE FOR HER 1590 01:15:48,933 --> 01:15:51,533 TO GO BACK TO SOUTH CAROLINA. 1591 01:15:51,533 --> 01:15:58,667 ** 1592 01:15:58,667 --> 01:16:00,633 OKAY, I'M ALL PACKED. 1593 01:16:00,633 --> 01:16:03,233 YOU READY FOR YOUR FLIGHT? 1594 01:16:03,233 --> 01:16:05,400 YES, I AM. 1595 01:16:05,400 --> 01:16:09,100 I DO HAVE ONE FAVOR TO ASK OF YOU BEFORE YOU LEAVE, THOUGH. 1596 01:16:09,100 --> 01:16:10,733 CAN YOU THROW AWAY YOUR DOUGHNUTS 1597 01:16:10,733 --> 01:16:13,667 AND THE BREAD OUT OF THE CABINET? 1598 01:16:13,667 --> 01:16:15,333 MM-HMM, SURE. 1599 01:16:15,333 --> 01:16:24,700 ** 1600 01:16:24,700 --> 01:16:34,067 ** 1601 01:16:34,067 --> 01:16:37,100 I GUESS WHENEVER YOU GET BACK, JUST LET EVERYBODY KNOW 1602 01:16:37,100 --> 01:16:38,633 I MISS 'EM. 1603 01:16:38,633 --> 01:16:40,833 I JUST WANT YOU TO STAY STRONG, L.B. 1604 01:16:40,833 --> 01:16:43,267 IF YOU NEED ME, JUST CALL ME. 1605 01:16:43,267 --> 01:16:44,767 OKAY? 1606 01:16:44,767 --> 01:16:48,433 I'M 97% BACK TO NORMAL NOW. 1607 01:16:48,433 --> 01:16:50,733 58%. NO. 1608 01:16:50,733 --> 01:16:52,067 I'M GONNA MISS YOU. 1609 01:16:52,067 --> 01:16:53,100 I'M GONNA MISS YOU, TOO. 1610 01:16:53,100 --> 01:16:56,167 [ CAR HORN HONKS ] 1611 01:16:56,167 --> 01:16:59,400 CAB'S HERE. 1612 01:16:59,400 --> 01:17:00,400 ALL RIGHT. 1613 01:17:00,400 --> 01:17:02,800 I'LL GRAB YOUR BAG FOR YA. 1614 01:17:02,800 --> 01:17:10,133 ** 1615 01:17:10,133 --> 01:17:11,667 L.B.: THERE'S A LITTLE BIT OF LONELINESS 1616 01:17:11,667 --> 01:17:13,867 I FEEL RIGHT NOW. 1617 01:17:13,867 --> 01:17:16,733 AND THAT'S A LITTLE SCARY. 1618 01:17:16,733 --> 01:17:20,167 I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO DO THIS BY MYSELF, 1619 01:17:20,167 --> 01:17:24,700 AND THAT I DON'T END UP MAKING A MESS OF THINGS. 1620 01:17:24,700 --> 01:17:27,767 THIS IS MY CHANCE TO PROVE MYSELF. 1621 01:17:27,767 --> 01:17:32,867 AND EVEN THOUGH IT'S REALLY SCARY, IT FEELS GOOD. 1622 01:17:32,867 --> 01:17:34,533 ALL RIGHT, I LOVE YOU. 1623 01:17:34,533 --> 01:17:36,367 TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. I LOVE YOU, TOO. 1624 01:17:36,367 --> 01:17:38,333 I WILL. 1625 01:17:38,333 --> 01:17:41,100 ** 1626 01:17:41,100 --> 01:17:42,667 LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU MAKE IT HOME. 1627 01:17:42,667 --> 01:17:43,900 ALL RIGHT. 1628 01:17:43,900 --> 01:17:46,767 ** 1629 01:17:46,767 --> 01:17:49,233 BECAUSE I'M TIRED OF BEING A FAILURE AND A BURDEN 1630 01:17:49,233 --> 01:17:52,667 AND THE ONLY WAY TO CHANGE THAT IS TO DO THIS, 1631 01:17:52,667 --> 01:17:54,500 NO MATTER WHAT LIFE'S ABOUT TO THROW AT ME. 1632 01:18:01,067 --> 01:18:08,267 ** 1633 01:18:08,267 --> 01:18:15,667 ** 1634 01:18:15,667 --> 01:18:17,967 L.B.: IT'S BEEN ABOUT A MONTH SINCE MY MOM MOVED BACK 1635 01:18:17,967 --> 01:18:20,600 TO SOUTH CAROLINA. 1636 01:18:20,600 --> 01:18:23,533 AND I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A HANDLE ON THINGS. 1637 01:18:23,533 --> 01:18:25,500 I'M LOOKING AFTER MYSELF AND CLEANING UP 1638 01:18:25,500 --> 01:18:27,767 AND COOKING MY OWN MEALS. 1639 01:18:27,767 --> 01:18:30,600 AND I DEFINITELY FEEL MORE RELAXED 1640 01:18:30,600 --> 01:18:34,167 AND A LITTLE MORE MOTIVATED SINCE MY MOM'S NOT HERE. 1641 01:18:34,167 --> 01:18:36,200 I'VE MADE A COUPLE LITTLE MISTAKES 1642 01:18:36,200 --> 01:18:37,600 AND CHEATED A LITTLE BIT, 1643 01:18:37,600 --> 01:18:41,067 BUT IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT'S DERAILED ME. 1644 01:18:41,067 --> 01:18:42,767 BECAUSE WEIGHT'S STILL COMING OFF 1645 01:18:42,767 --> 01:18:46,733 AND I'M STILL GETTING MORE AND MORE ACTIVE EVERY DAY. 1646 01:18:46,733 --> 01:18:49,367 AND I'VE BEEN RIDING AN OLD BIKE I GOT 1647 01:18:49,367 --> 01:18:50,833 BECAUSE IT'S EASIER ON MY LEG, 1648 01:18:50,833 --> 01:18:53,233 AND IT HELPS ME GET MY HEART RATE UP. 1649 01:18:53,233 --> 01:18:56,367 BUT WHAT I'D REALLY LOVE TO DO IS START RUNNING AGAIN. 1650 01:18:56,367 --> 01:18:59,733 BUT I KNOW I NEED TO GET A NEW PROSTHETIC TO DO THAT. 1651 01:18:59,733 --> 01:19:02,433 I'D ALSO HAVE TO GO BACK TO MY GUY IN SOUTH CAROLINA 1652 01:19:02,433 --> 01:19:03,767 TO GET FITTED. 1653 01:19:03,767 --> 01:19:05,200 BUT HE SAID WHAT WOULD BE BEST 1654 01:19:05,200 --> 01:19:08,333 IS IF I MADE IT TO THE 400s FIRST. 1655 01:19:08,333 --> 01:19:10,467 SO I'M USING THAT AS A MOTIVATOR FOR ME TO 1656 01:19:10,467 --> 01:19:12,167 GET DOWN TO THAT WEIGHT. 1657 01:19:12,167 --> 01:19:13,900 WITH EVERYTHING GOING ON AND MY MOM LEAVING, 1658 01:19:13,900 --> 01:19:16,100 I MISSED MY LAST DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 1659 01:19:16,100 --> 01:19:18,600 DR. NOW TOLD ME THAT I HAD TO STAY ON TRACK 1660 01:19:18,600 --> 01:19:21,133 AND LOSE ANOTHER 30 POUNDS THIS MONTH. 1661 01:19:21,133 --> 01:19:23,467 SO I HAVE A BIG GOAL TO HIT WHEN I SEE HIM NEXT, 1662 01:19:23,467 --> 01:19:26,067 AND I'M WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN TO DO THAT. 1663 01:19:26,067 --> 01:19:34,067 ** 1664 01:19:34,067 --> 01:19:36,733 Woman: JAMES BONNER. 1665 01:19:36,733 --> 01:19:39,167 L.B.: TODAY I'M GONNA SEE WHERE MY PROGRESS IS AT 1666 01:19:39,167 --> 01:19:40,933 AND IF I HIT MY WEIGHT LOSS GOALS. 1667 01:19:40,933 --> 01:19:43,233 HE'S GETTING ME BELOW 392. 1668 01:19:43,233 --> 01:19:46,233 ** 1669 01:19:46,233 --> 01:19:49,500 I'M HAPPY WITH THAT. 1670 01:19:49,500 --> 01:19:50,900 I KNEW I WAS DOING WELL, 1671 01:19:50,900 --> 01:19:53,767 BUT THAT'S A LITTLE BETTER THAN I THOUGHT. 1672 01:19:53,767 --> 01:19:57,833 I'M GUESSING THE DOC'S GONNA BE HAPPY WITH THAT. 1673 01:19:57,833 --> 01:19:59,567 [ DOOR OPENS ] 1674 01:19:59,567 --> 01:20:01,033 HEY, L.B. 1675 01:20:01,033 --> 01:20:04,633 ALL RIGHT, YOU'VE LOST 102 POUNDS OVER THE LAST FEW MONTHS. 1676 01:20:04,633 --> 01:20:05,533 YEP. 1677 01:20:05,533 --> 01:20:07,067 THAT'S FANTASTIC. 1678 01:20:07,067 --> 01:20:09,033 I AM PROUD OF YOU. 1679 01:20:09,033 --> 01:20:10,900 WELL, I CAN'T THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR GIVING ME 1680 01:20:10,900 --> 01:20:12,167 THE TOOLS I NEEDED. 1681 01:20:12,167 --> 01:20:14,267 SO MY WHOLE OUTLOOK'S CHANGED. 1682 01:20:14,267 --> 01:20:17,533 I -- I KNOW FOR SURE I NEVER WANT TO BE THE PERSON 1683 01:20:17,533 --> 01:20:21,033 I USED TO BE WHEN IT COMES TO FOOD OR ALCOHOL AGAIN. 1684 01:20:21,033 --> 01:20:23,500 I NEVER WANT TO FALL BACK INTO THAT. 1685 01:20:23,500 --> 01:20:26,333 WELL, KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK, BECAUSE YOU'RE DOING GREAT. 1686 01:20:26,333 --> 01:20:27,700 I WILL. ALL RIGHT. 1687 01:20:27,700 --> 01:20:29,167 SEE YOU LATER. THANK YOU. 1688 01:20:29,167 --> 01:20:30,400 MM-HMM. 1689 01:20:30,400 --> 01:20:34,800 ** 1690 01:20:34,800 --> 01:20:38,567 I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT TODAY AND HOW IT WENT. 1691 01:20:38,567 --> 01:20:41,700 I DEFINITELY FEEL LIKE I'VE GOT ALL THE TOOLS 1692 01:20:41,700 --> 01:20:45,567 THAT I NEED TO WIN MY BATTLE WITH NOT ONLY MY WEIGHT, 1693 01:20:45,567 --> 01:20:47,933 BUT MY ALCOHOL ADDICTION. 1694 01:20:47,933 --> 01:20:50,700 SO I LOOK FORWARD TO PUSHING MYSELF 1695 01:20:50,700 --> 01:20:52,900 A LITTLE BIT MORE EVERY DAY 1696 01:20:52,900 --> 01:20:55,633 TO MAKE TODAY BETTER THAN YESTERDAY. 1697 01:20:55,633 --> 01:21:02,933 ** 1698 01:21:02,933 --> 01:21:10,167 ** 1699 01:21:10,167 --> 01:21:13,633 I'VE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR TWO DAYS NOW. 1700 01:21:13,633 --> 01:21:17,933 I DECIDED I WANTED TO GO HOME TO SOUTH CAROLINA FOR A VISIT. 1701 01:21:17,933 --> 01:21:20,567 AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE EVERYONE AND SHOW 'EM THE PROGRESS 1702 01:21:20,567 --> 01:21:21,833 I'VE MADE. 1703 01:21:21,833 --> 01:21:23,233 BUT I'M ALSO REALLY EXCITED 1704 01:21:23,233 --> 01:21:25,300 BECAUSE I'M GOING TO GET FITTED FOR A NEW LEG 1705 01:21:25,300 --> 01:21:26,833 WHILE I'M HERE. 1706 01:21:26,833 --> 01:21:29,967 AND I ALSO HAVE A SURPRISE FOR MY DAD. 1707 01:21:29,967 --> 01:21:32,533 SO THIS WHOLE TRIP IS A BIG DEAL. 1708 01:21:32,533 --> 01:21:37,067 ** 1709 01:21:37,067 --> 01:21:40,200 [ CHEERING ] 1710 01:21:40,200 --> 01:21:41,467 LOOK AT YOU! 1711 01:21:41,467 --> 01:21:43,633 -IT'S LIKE IN HIGH SCHOOL! -HEY, L.B.! 1712 01:21:43,633 --> 01:21:45,733 YOU LOOK SO YOUNG! 1713 01:21:45,733 --> 01:21:49,667 Karen: SEEING L.B. TODAY HAS MADE ME REALLY HAPPY. 1714 01:21:49,667 --> 01:21:52,367 HE LOOKS SO GOOD, I'M SO PROUD OF HIM. 1715 01:21:52,367 --> 01:21:59,567 ** 1716 01:21:59,567 --> 01:22:01,467 YOU LOOK SO GOOD! 1717 01:22:01,467 --> 01:22:04,667 STILL FAT, THERE'S JUST A LITTLE LESS OF ME. 1718 01:22:04,667 --> 01:22:06,100 -A LOT LESS. -A LOT LESS! 1719 01:22:06,100 --> 01:22:07,167 RIGHT. 1720 01:22:07,167 --> 01:22:10,467 I'VE HAD TO ADD THREE BELT LOOPS AND... 1721 01:22:11,333 --> 01:22:13,700 [ LAUGHTER ] 1722 01:22:13,700 --> 01:22:15,267 RIGHT. 1723 01:22:17,200 --> 01:22:18,600 Buddy: WAIT A MINUTE. 1724 01:22:18,600 --> 01:22:22,567 LOOKING GOOD, BUD. 1725 01:22:22,567 --> 01:22:24,400 L.B.: COMING HOME AND SEEING ALL THE SUPPORT 1726 01:22:24,400 --> 01:22:27,067 THAT MY FAMILY GAVE ME ABOUT THE WEIGHT 1727 01:22:27,067 --> 01:22:30,433 I'VE LOST SO FAR DEFINITELY MADE ME FEEL GOOD. 1728 01:22:30,433 --> 01:22:34,700 I EXPECTED IT TO BE OVER-EXAGGERATED 1729 01:22:34,700 --> 01:22:36,467 AND REALLY OVER THE TOP, 1730 01:22:36,467 --> 01:22:40,400 AND IT WAS A LOT MORE GENUINE THAN I WAS EXPECTING IT TO BE. 1731 01:22:40,400 --> 01:22:45,900 ** 1732 01:22:45,900 --> 01:22:51,433 ** 1733 01:22:51,433 --> 01:22:53,267 AND GRAB THAT STRETCHER OVER THERE. 1734 01:22:53,267 --> 01:22:57,167 ** 1735 01:22:57,167 --> 01:22:59,400 THIS MORNING, I SURPRISED MY DAD BY TELLING HIM 1736 01:22:59,400 --> 01:23:03,500 THAT I WANTED TO GO WITH HIM TO WORK AND GIVE HIM A HAND. 1737 01:23:03,500 --> 01:23:04,867 IT WAS REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME 1738 01:23:04,867 --> 01:23:07,467 THAT I SPEND SOME TIME WITH HIM ON THIS TRIP, 1739 01:23:07,467 --> 01:23:09,567 AND I WANTED TO AT LEAST DO THIS WITH HIM 1740 01:23:09,567 --> 01:23:13,133 TO SHOW HIM HOW MUCH MORE I CAN DO. 1741 01:23:13,133 --> 01:23:15,167 Buddy: I'M PROUD OF L.B. 1742 01:23:15,167 --> 01:23:18,367 AND ALL I WANT FOR MY SON IS TO BE HEALTHY AND HAPPY 1743 01:23:18,367 --> 01:23:20,100 AND LIVE A LONG LIFE. 1744 01:23:20,100 --> 01:23:22,633 AND I'M REALLY GLAD TO SEE THAT HAPPENING. 1745 01:23:22,633 --> 01:23:23,967 I LIKE HIS PROGRESS. 1746 01:23:23,967 --> 01:23:25,633 TO ME, HE'S DONE IT A LITTLE QUICKER THAN WE THOUGHT 1747 01:23:25,633 --> 01:23:26,900 HE WOULD DO IT. 1748 01:23:26,900 --> 01:23:28,300 USUALLY, THAT TAKES A LITTLE TIME TO LOSE THE WEIGHT 1749 01:23:28,300 --> 01:23:30,267 AND GET IN BETTER SHAPE, AND HE'S DONE IT QUICK. 1750 01:23:32,433 --> 01:23:34,367 L.B.: I KNOW HE'S ALWAYS HOPED AND DREAMED 1751 01:23:34,367 --> 01:23:38,533 THAT I'D TAKE OVER THE FAMILY BUSINESS SOME DAY. 1752 01:23:38,533 --> 01:23:41,600 AND I'M SHOWING HIM THAT MAYBE THAT'S POSSIBLE IN THE FUTURE. 1753 01:23:41,600 --> 01:23:49,300 ** 1754 01:23:49,300 --> 01:23:57,067 ** 1755 01:23:57,067 --> 01:24:00,767 MY NEW PROSTHETIC FINALLY CAME IN. 1756 01:24:00,767 --> 01:24:03,300 BECAUSE I'VE LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT, 1757 01:24:03,300 --> 01:24:05,733 I'M ABLE TO GET A SMALLER ONE THAT'S EASIER TO USE 1758 01:24:05,733 --> 01:24:08,767 AND DOESN'T CAUSE AS MANY ISSUES. 1759 01:24:08,767 --> 01:24:11,733 I CAN ALREADY TELL IT FEELS A LOT BETTER. 1760 01:24:11,733 --> 01:24:13,833 AND I'M HOPING I CAN DO SOMETHING TODAY 1761 01:24:13,833 --> 01:24:17,533 I HAVEN'T DONE IN AROUND 15 YEARS. 1762 01:24:17,533 --> 01:24:21,100 I'M HOPING I'LL BE ABLE TO START RUNNING. 1763 01:24:21,100 --> 01:24:25,933 AND IF I CAN, THAT WILL MEAN I CAN GET EVEN MORE ACTIVE, 1764 01:24:25,933 --> 01:24:29,767 AND, HOPEFULLY, MAKE PROGRESS EVEN FASTER. 1765 01:24:29,767 --> 01:24:32,933 BUT THIS IS A LITTLE SCARY. 1766 01:24:32,933 --> 01:24:36,433 BECAUSE IF I SLIP AND FALL, I CAN GET SERIOUSLY HURT. 1767 01:24:36,433 --> 01:24:45,567 ** 1768 01:24:45,567 --> 01:24:54,700 ** 1769 01:24:54,700 --> 01:24:58,133 I'M EXHAUSTED, BUT THAT WAS AWESOME. 1770 01:24:58,133 --> 01:25:02,767 I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE ABLE TO DO THAT AGAIN. 1771 01:25:02,767 --> 01:25:06,100 A YEAR AGO, I WAS LIVING IN MY PARENTS' GARAGE, 1772 01:25:06,100 --> 01:25:09,733 OVER 600 POUNDS, AND HARDLY EVER LEAVING THE COUCH. 1773 01:25:09,733 --> 01:25:12,167 ** 1774 01:25:12,167 --> 01:25:17,133 BUT I'M AMAZED AT HOW MUCH MY LIFE HAS CHANGED FOR THE BETTER. 1775 01:25:17,133 --> 01:25:21,233 THE DOC SAYS I'LL BE READY FOR MY SKIN REMOVAL SOON. 1776 01:25:21,233 --> 01:25:22,933 AND AFTER THAT, I'LL BE GETTING REALLY CLOSE 1777 01:25:22,933 --> 01:25:25,133 TO MY TARGET WEIGHT. 1778 01:25:25,133 --> 01:25:27,500 SO MY FUTURE AHEAD IS BRIGHT. 1779 01:25:27,500 --> 01:25:30,067 I'M EXCITED ABOUT IT. 1780 01:25:30,067 --> 01:25:32,300 AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT IT HOLDS FOR ME NOW.