"My 600-lb Life" Sarah's Story

1 00:00:04,379 --> 00:00:06,724 Woman #1: I KNOW I'M GETTING TO A BREAKING POINT, 2 00:00:06,724 --> 00:00:09,620 AND I'M JUST WAITING TO DIE. 3 00:00:09,620 --> 00:00:11,413 [ SIGHS ] 4 00:00:11,413 --> 00:00:16,275 ♪♪ 5 00:00:16,275 --> 00:00:19,275 AH, GOD. AH. 6 00:00:19,275 --> 00:00:22,620 Woman #2: MY LIFE IS WASTING AWAY, AND I HATE IT. 7 00:00:22,620 --> 00:00:26,448 Woman #3: I TRY TO CHANGE, BUT SOMETHING ALWAYS KNOCKS ME DOWN. 8 00:00:26,448 --> 00:00:30,000 ♪♪ 9 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:33,551 ♪♪ 10 00:00:33,551 --> 00:00:35,965 MY LIFE, IT'S LIKE LIVING A DEATH SENTENCE. 11 00:00:35,965 --> 00:00:37,310 AH! OH! 12 00:00:37,310 --> 00:00:38,758 OW! [BLEEP] 13 00:00:38,758 --> 00:00:44,586 THIS IS NO LIFE FOR ANYONE. 14 00:00:44,586 --> 00:00:46,655 Woman #4: OH, JUST PRAY FOR ME. 15 00:00:46,655 --> 00:00:47,482 [ CRYING ] 16 00:00:47,482 --> 00:00:49,000 OW, MY LEG! 17 00:00:49,000 --> 00:00:50,206 -SIT DOWN RIGHT THERE. -WAIT. 18 00:00:50,206 --> 00:00:51,310 YOU'RE MAKING ME MAD. 19 00:00:51,310 --> 00:00:53,379 ALL RIGHT. THIS IS COMPLETELY UNACCEPTABLE. 20 00:00:53,379 --> 00:00:57,413 [ DOOR SLAMS ] 21 00:00:57,413 --> 00:00:58,827 Sarah: I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT 22 00:00:58,827 --> 00:01:00,482 IF I'VE LOST MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 23 00:01:00,482 --> 00:01:03,206 DIDN'T I TELL YOU IF YOU GAINED WEIGHT, 24 00:01:03,206 --> 00:01:04,827 YOUR SURGERY WOULD BE OFF? 25 00:01:04,827 --> 00:01:07,827 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 26 00:01:07,827 --> 00:01:10,793 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 27 00:01:10,793 --> 00:01:13,275 ♪♪ 28 00:01:13,275 --> 00:01:17,137 EXAMINING YOUR LIFE TO SEE THE WRONG CHOICES 29 00:01:17,137 --> 00:01:20,586 THAT HAVE SLOWLY LED YOU TO THE LIFE YOU NOW HAVE 30 00:01:20,586 --> 00:01:24,275 CAN FEEL LIKE THE HARDEST THING YOU'LL EVER DO, 31 00:01:24,275 --> 00:01:25,896 BUT IT'S EVEN HARDER TO START 32 00:01:25,896 --> 00:01:29,034 MAKING THE CHOICES TO CHANGE THAT. 33 00:01:29,034 --> 00:01:34,241 ♪♪ 34 00:01:34,241 --> 00:01:39,413 ♪♪ 35 00:01:39,413 --> 00:01:44,655 ♪♪ 36 00:01:44,655 --> 00:01:49,862 ♪♪ 37 00:01:49,862 --> 00:01:55,103 ♪♪ 38 00:01:55,103 --> 00:01:59,896 THE LIFE THAT I'M LIVING RIGHT NOW IS MISERABLE, 39 00:01:59,896 --> 00:02:04,275 AND JUST WALKING HURTS BECAUSE OF ALL THE STRAIN ON MY BODY. 40 00:02:04,275 --> 00:02:06,000 ♪♪ 41 00:02:06,000 --> 00:02:08,517 MY KNEES HURT. MY BACK HURTS. 42 00:02:08,517 --> 00:02:11,103 MY ANKLES STING. 43 00:02:11,103 --> 00:02:14,103 [ SIGHS ] EVEN MY SHOULDERS HURT 44 00:02:14,103 --> 00:02:15,413 FROM ALL THE WEIGHT I'M CARRYING, 45 00:02:15,413 --> 00:02:17,344 AND IT'S GOTTEN TO THE POINT 46 00:02:17,344 --> 00:02:22,068 WHERE IT'S GETTING UNBEARABLE TO GO UP THE STAIRS. 47 00:02:22,068 --> 00:02:26,206 LIKE, I HAVE TO LITERALLY CRAWL UP THE STAIRS, LIKE AN ANIMAL. 48 00:02:26,206 --> 00:02:28,068 ♪♪ 49 00:02:28,068 --> 00:02:30,344 SO I DON'T DO MUCH ANYMORE 50 00:02:30,344 --> 00:02:32,896 EXCEPT TRY TO GET UP TO STAY CLEAN, 51 00:02:32,896 --> 00:02:35,862 WHICH IS THE ONLY REASON I GO UPSTAIRS. 52 00:02:35,862 --> 00:02:41,379 ♪♪ 53 00:02:41,379 --> 00:02:44,655 BUT THE MOST DIFFICULT PART OF MY MORNING ROUTINE 54 00:02:44,655 --> 00:02:48,275 WOULD BE SHOWERING 55 00:02:48,275 --> 00:02:53,275 BECAUSE MY MOBILITY IS CHANGING FOR THE WORSE, 56 00:02:53,275 --> 00:02:58,896 AND I CAN'T STAND FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME. 57 00:02:58,896 --> 00:03:01,482 MY MOM HAS TO HELP ME WITH EVERYTHING. 58 00:03:03,000 --> 00:03:09,074 Do you want subtitles for any video? -=[ ai.OpenSubtitles.com ]=- 59 00:03:12,896 --> 00:03:17,344 -YOU GOT IT? -YEAH. I GOT IT. 60 00:03:17,344 --> 00:03:19,344 ABOUT A YEAR AGO, IT GOT TO THE POINT 61 00:03:19,344 --> 00:03:20,620 I COULDN'T SHOWER BY MYSELF. 62 00:03:20,620 --> 00:03:24,206 I HAD TO HAVE SOMEBODY THERE DOING IT FOR ME. 63 00:03:24,206 --> 00:03:27,379 AND IT'S EMBARRASSING TO BE A GROWN ADULT WHO STILL NEEDS 64 00:03:27,379 --> 00:03:30,724 TO BE BATHED BY THEIR MOM, 65 00:03:30,724 --> 00:03:32,310 BUT WHAT'S EVEN WORSE IS, 66 00:03:32,310 --> 00:03:35,620 I KNOW SOON, I WON'T EVEN BE ABLE TO MAKE IT UP THE STAIRS, 67 00:03:35,620 --> 00:03:37,793 AND AT THAT POINT, SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO BATHE ME 68 00:03:37,793 --> 00:03:40,344 ON A TARP IN THE LAWN, 69 00:03:40,344 --> 00:03:43,448 AND I DREAD THAT, BUT I KNOW THAT I'M MONTHS AWAY 70 00:03:43,448 --> 00:03:46,482 OF IT GETTING THAT BAD BECAUSE IT'S JUST TOO DIFFICULT 71 00:03:46,482 --> 00:03:50,103 AT THIS POINT. 72 00:03:50,103 --> 00:03:53,758 I AM VERY TIRED OF LIVING LIKE THIS, 73 00:03:53,758 --> 00:03:58,586 AND I FEEL BAD BECAUSE MY MOM IS DOING EVERYTHING FOR ME, 74 00:03:58,586 --> 00:04:04,068 AND AT THIS POINT, I'M JUST TRYING TO SURVIVE 75 00:04:04,068 --> 00:04:07,068 BECAUSE TO CARRY ALL THIS WEIGHT 76 00:04:07,068 --> 00:04:08,413 IS PHYSICALLY 77 00:04:08,413 --> 00:04:12,137 AND EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTING. 78 00:04:12,137 --> 00:04:15,758 AND I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN AFTER MY SHOWER, 79 00:04:15,758 --> 00:04:17,862 BUT I'M SCARED THAT AT SOME POINT, 80 00:04:17,862 --> 00:04:20,241 I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO MAKE IT. 81 00:04:20,241 --> 00:04:25,793 I JUST WANT TO GET BACK TO MY CHAIR AND EAT. 82 00:04:25,793 --> 00:04:27,724 AFTER MY MOM HELPS ME IN THE SHOWER, 83 00:04:27,724 --> 00:04:31,241 I WANT HER TO GO START MAKING ME BREAKFAST 84 00:04:31,241 --> 00:04:34,068 BECAUSE I CAN'T WAIT TO EAT. 85 00:04:34,068 --> 00:04:36,586 IF I GET DRESSED AS FAST AS I CAN, 86 00:04:36,586 --> 00:04:39,965 BUT THEN I HAVE TO TRY AND MAKE IT BACK DOWNSTAIRS, 87 00:04:39,965 --> 00:04:44,068 AND IT'S THE SCARIEST PART OF MY DAY BECAUSE I'M TERRIFIED 88 00:04:44,068 --> 00:04:46,413 I'M GOING TO FALL. 89 00:04:46,413 --> 00:04:51,620 ♪♪ 90 00:04:51,620 --> 00:04:56,310 SO I'M JUST WAITING FOR THE DAY THE WORST HAPPENS. 91 00:04:56,310 --> 00:05:01,000 IT'S GOING TO BE REALLY BAD AT THAT POINT. 92 00:05:01,000 --> 00:05:05,310 SO I CAREFULLY TRY AND MAKE IT DOWN THE STAIRS 93 00:05:05,310 --> 00:05:09,241 BECAUSE ALL I WANT TO DO IS GET IN MY CHAIR AND EAT. 94 00:05:09,241 --> 00:05:12,689 ♪♪ 95 00:05:12,689 --> 00:05:15,379 FOOD IS WHAT I'M LIVING FOR, 96 00:05:15,379 --> 00:05:17,862 AND I LITERALLY CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE MY MOM 97 00:05:17,862 --> 00:05:21,655 BRING ME SOMETHING TO EAT. 98 00:05:21,655 --> 00:05:26,000 I STILL MAKE SARAH'S FOOD. I MAKE HER PLATE FOR HER. 99 00:05:26,000 --> 00:05:28,103 I KNOW I PUT TOO MUCH FOOD ON THE PLATE, 100 00:05:28,103 --> 00:05:33,482 BUT IF I DON'T, SHE'LL BADGER ME UNTIL I PUT MORE ON THERE, 101 00:05:33,482 --> 00:05:37,827 AND I'M NOT EVEN SURE WHY I DO IT. 102 00:05:37,827 --> 00:05:42,586 I THINK IT'S BECAUSE I FEEL GUILTY. 103 00:05:42,586 --> 00:05:46,827 FOOD GIVES ME A FEELING THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN. 104 00:05:46,827 --> 00:05:50,758 FROM THE MOMENT I WAKE UP, THAT'S ALL I'M WAITING FOR, 105 00:05:50,758 --> 00:05:52,586 AND FOR A BRIEF MOMENT, ALL THE PAIN 106 00:05:52,586 --> 00:05:55,758 AND ALL THE MISERY OF MY LIFE IS GONE, 107 00:05:55,758 --> 00:06:01,206 AND IT'S JOY, EXCITEMENT, HAPPINESS ALL WRAPPED UP IN ONE. 108 00:06:01,206 --> 00:06:04,379 AND AS MUCH AS I KNOW THIS IS WHAT'S KILLING ME, 109 00:06:04,379 --> 00:06:08,379 I LITERALLY CAN'T EAT ENOUGH. 110 00:06:08,379 --> 00:06:11,379 Barbara: SO DIFFICULT TO SEE YOUR CHILD GO THROUGH THIS. 111 00:06:11,379 --> 00:06:13,413 IT TEARS YOUR HEART OUT. 112 00:06:13,413 --> 00:06:16,931 ♪♪ 113 00:06:16,931 --> 00:06:19,827 I HAD A HARD TIME GETTING ALL THAT FOOD ON THAT PLATE. 114 00:06:19,827 --> 00:06:22,275 -REALLY? -YEAH. 115 00:06:22,275 --> 00:06:28,034 WELL, IT WORKED. 116 00:06:28,034 --> 00:06:30,827 Sarah: FOOD IS EVERYTHING FOR ME. 117 00:06:30,827 --> 00:06:32,965 IT'S MY PURPOSE FOR LIVING, 118 00:06:32,965 --> 00:06:36,448 AND I THINK ABOUT IT UNTIL I GO TO SLEEP. 119 00:06:36,448 --> 00:06:39,482 AND THE SECOND I WAKE UP, IT'S ALL I WANT, 120 00:06:39,482 --> 00:06:42,241 AND FOR AS FAR BACK AS I CAN EVEN REMEMBER, 121 00:06:42,241 --> 00:06:44,862 THAT'S HOW IT'S ALWAYS BEEN. 122 00:06:44,862 --> 00:06:48,586 ♪♪ 123 00:06:48,586 --> 00:06:52,379 ♪♪ 124 00:06:52,379 --> 00:06:56,413 MY MOM TELLS ME I WOULD OVEREAT FROM MY EARLIEST AGE, 125 00:06:56,413 --> 00:07:01,931 AND I THINK IT STARTED WHEN I WAS AROUND 3. 126 00:07:01,931 --> 00:07:03,862 I HAD THREE SIBLINGS -- 127 00:07:03,862 --> 00:07:06,034 AN OLDER BROTHER, AN OLDER SISTER, 128 00:07:06,034 --> 00:07:08,517 THEN ONE YOUNGER SISTER, 129 00:07:08,517 --> 00:07:11,586 AND I'M THE ONLY BIG ONE. 130 00:07:11,586 --> 00:07:16,482 AND I THINK EATING WAS A WAY FOR ME TO COPE WITH MY WORLD 131 00:07:16,482 --> 00:07:18,862 BECAUSE MY DAD HAD A DRINKING PROBLEM 132 00:07:18,862 --> 00:07:22,206 THAT LED TO A LOT OF FIGHTS BETWEEN HIM AND MY MOM, 133 00:07:22,206 --> 00:07:24,965 AND, SO, SHE DIVORCED HIM. 134 00:07:24,965 --> 00:07:27,827 IT WAS A STRESSFUL TIME IN MY FAMILY 135 00:07:27,827 --> 00:07:32,310 BECAUSE MY MOM WAS TRYING TO RAISE FOUR KIDS BEING SINGLE, 136 00:07:32,310 --> 00:07:35,517 AND SHE WAS NOT FINANCIALLY STABLE, 137 00:07:35,517 --> 00:07:40,724 SO IT WAS A HARD TIME. 138 00:07:40,724 --> 00:07:43,275 AND WE COULDN'T AFFORD A LOT, 139 00:07:43,275 --> 00:07:46,068 SO MY MOM HAD A LIMIT TO WHAT I COULD EAT, 140 00:07:46,068 --> 00:07:48,379 AND SHE WOULD NEVER LET ME HAVE MORE THAN A SECOND PLATE, 141 00:07:48,379 --> 00:07:51,206 UNLESS I WAS TO GET UP AND SNEAK IT REAL QUICK 142 00:07:51,206 --> 00:07:53,551 WHILE SHE WAS IN THE LIVING ROOM, 143 00:07:53,551 --> 00:07:56,068 SO THAT'S WHAT I STARTED DOING, 144 00:07:56,068 --> 00:07:58,758 AND I WOULD JUST EAT IT ALL BECAUSE I COULDN'T 145 00:07:58,758 --> 00:08:02,068 GET CAUGHT WITH IT, AND THE MORE I SNUCK FOOD, 146 00:08:02,068 --> 00:08:04,137 THE BETTER I GOT AT IT. 147 00:08:04,137 --> 00:08:09,620 AND I HIT 200 POUNDS BY THE TIME I WAS 8. 148 00:08:09,620 --> 00:08:12,896 AND AROUND THAT TIME, MY MOM STARTED DATING SOMEONE 149 00:08:12,896 --> 00:08:15,827 WHO WOULD BECOME MY FIRST STEPDAD, 150 00:08:15,827 --> 00:08:18,551 AND WHEN THAT WAS GOING ON, SHE WAS MORE DISTRACTED, 151 00:08:18,551 --> 00:08:22,517 SO I COULD JUST EAT WHENEVER I WANTED, 152 00:08:22,517 --> 00:08:26,413 BUT WITH HOW BIG I WAS GETTING, SHE STARTED TO CATCH ON. 153 00:08:26,413 --> 00:08:30,862 Barbara: I WOULD FIND WRAPPERS AND DISHES 154 00:08:30,862 --> 00:08:32,862 THAT SHE LEFT BEHIND, 155 00:08:32,862 --> 00:08:37,068 AND THAT'S WHEN I REALIZED SHE WAS SNEAKING AT NIGHT. 156 00:08:37,068 --> 00:08:40,413 Sarah: BUT AT THAT POINT, MY MOM DIDN'T TRY TO STOP ME 157 00:08:40,413 --> 00:08:42,034 BECAUSE SHE GOT MARRIED, 158 00:08:42,034 --> 00:08:47,482 AND WE JUST DIDN'T SPEND ANY TIME TOGETHER. 159 00:08:47,482 --> 00:08:50,137 I FELT AT THAT TIME THAT I LOST MY MOM, 160 00:08:50,137 --> 00:08:53,137 AND I WANTED HER ALL TO MYSELF, 161 00:08:53,137 --> 00:08:55,206 AND I FELT LIKE 162 00:08:55,206 --> 00:09:01,068 HE CAME IN AND TOOK HER AWAY. 163 00:09:01,068 --> 00:09:04,000 Barbara: SARAH DID NOT GET ALONG WITH HER STEPDAD AT ALL, 164 00:09:04,000 --> 00:09:06,896 AND THEN I THINK SHE STARTED EATING MORE 165 00:09:06,896 --> 00:09:10,758 WHEN HE CAME INTO THE PICTURE. 166 00:09:10,758 --> 00:09:14,551 Sarah: BUT TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE, WHEN HE MOVED IN WITH US, 167 00:09:14,551 --> 00:09:17,965 HE STARTED TO BECOME EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE. 168 00:09:17,965 --> 00:09:22,103 HE DID WEIRD, BIZARRE THINGS, 169 00:09:22,103 --> 00:09:26,379 AND I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING CRAZY, 170 00:09:26,379 --> 00:09:29,068 TRYING TO TELL PEOPLE, 171 00:09:29,068 --> 00:09:32,655 BUT DIDN'T BELIEVE ME. 172 00:09:32,655 --> 00:09:37,000 LIKE, ONE TIME HIM AND MY MOM GOT INTO AN ARGUMENT, 173 00:09:37,000 --> 00:09:39,310 AND MY MOM LEFT, 174 00:09:39,310 --> 00:09:43,103 AND HE CAME AND SAT DOWN 175 00:09:43,103 --> 00:09:45,724 NEXT TO ME ON THE COUCH 176 00:09:45,724 --> 00:09:47,586 AND PULLED OUT A POCKET KNIFE 177 00:09:47,586 --> 00:09:52,413 AND SLIT FROM HIS ANKLE TO HIS KNEE 178 00:09:52,413 --> 00:09:57,206 LIKE NOTHING WAS WRONG WITH THAT. 179 00:09:57,206 --> 00:10:01,172 SO I TOOK ALL THAT LONELINESS AND PAIN, AND I JUST ATE, 180 00:10:01,172 --> 00:10:05,137 AND I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS 11, I GOT ON A SCALE, 181 00:10:05,137 --> 00:10:08,724 AND IT SAID THAT I WEIGHED 345 POUNDS, 182 00:10:08,724 --> 00:10:11,379 AND I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT. 183 00:10:11,379 --> 00:10:15,965 IT WAS UNREAL. 184 00:10:15,965 --> 00:10:19,896 I WASN'T EVEN A TEENAGER, AND I WAS ALMOST 400 POUNDS, 185 00:10:19,896 --> 00:10:24,172 AND THAT SCARED ME, BUT NOT ENOUGH TO STOP EATING. 186 00:10:24,172 --> 00:10:26,724 BUT WHEN I WAS 12, I THOUGHT THINGS WERE GOING TO GET 187 00:10:26,724 --> 00:10:30,310 A LITTLE BETTER BECAUSE MY MOM AND MY FIRST STEPDAD SPLIT, 188 00:10:30,310 --> 00:10:34,793 AND WHEN MY MOM AND MY STEPDAD BROKE UP AND HE LEFT, 189 00:10:34,793 --> 00:10:39,482 I FELT REALLY RELIEVED. 190 00:10:39,482 --> 00:10:42,448 BUT THAT RELIEF DIDN'T LAST LONG 191 00:10:42,448 --> 00:10:44,827 BECAUSE MY MOM GOT REMARRIED TO MY OTHER STEPDAD 192 00:10:44,827 --> 00:10:49,517 WITHIN MONTHS OF MY FIRST STEPDAD LEAVING. 193 00:10:49,517 --> 00:10:54,517 I FELT ANGRY BECAUSE 194 00:10:54,517 --> 00:10:57,620 I DIDN'T WANT TO GO THROUGH 195 00:10:57,620 --> 00:11:00,000 WHAT I WENT THROUGH WITH THE FIRST STEPDAD. 196 00:11:00,000 --> 00:11:04,620 IT WAS A FEAR, AND I ALSO 197 00:11:04,620 --> 00:11:07,551 HAD GOTTEN MY MOM BACK FOR A LITTLE WHILE, 198 00:11:07,551 --> 00:11:10,517 AND NOW... 199 00:11:10,517 --> 00:11:14,034 SHE'S GOT ANOTHER HUSBAND. 200 00:11:14,034 --> 00:11:17,000 BUT IT WAS EVEN WORSE WITH MY NEW STEPDAD 201 00:11:17,000 --> 00:11:20,034 BECAUSE MY MOM SEEMED TO FIND GUYS THAT DIDN'T WORK 202 00:11:20,034 --> 00:11:22,620 AND WERE EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE. 203 00:11:22,620 --> 00:11:26,448 HER NEW HUSBAND WAS WORSE THAN THE LAST ONE. 204 00:11:26,448 --> 00:11:28,689 I WAS SO DEPRESSED AT THAT POINT, 205 00:11:28,689 --> 00:11:33,344 I JUST DIDN'T STOP EATING, 206 00:11:33,344 --> 00:11:37,034 AND I GAINED ANOTHER 100 POUNDS IN 3 MONTHS. 207 00:11:37,034 --> 00:11:39,275 I JUST FELT SO ALONE, 208 00:11:39,275 --> 00:11:43,068 AND FOOD WAS THE ONLY THING THAT MADE ME FEEL BETTER. 209 00:11:43,068 --> 00:11:47,275 I TRIED TALKING TO MY MOM, AND SHE NEVER REALLY LISTENED, 210 00:11:47,275 --> 00:11:52,517 BUT MY MOM KNEW HOW THE STEPDADS TREATED ME, TO AN EXTENT. 211 00:11:52,517 --> 00:11:55,137 A LOT OF IT WAS MY SAY, 212 00:11:55,137 --> 00:11:58,689 AND I DON'T THINK SHE WANTED TO BELIEVE ME, 213 00:11:58,689 --> 00:12:00,275 BUT SHE COULDN'T IGNORE IT FOREVER 214 00:12:00,275 --> 00:12:03,344 BECAUSE IT ALL EVENTUALLY WOULD GET SO BAD, 215 00:12:03,344 --> 00:12:04,965 IT WOULD JUST BLOW UP, 216 00:12:04,965 --> 00:12:09,620 AND THAT HAPPENED WHEN I WAS 16. 217 00:12:09,620 --> 00:12:11,586 I WAS GETTING READY TO GO TO SCHOOL, 218 00:12:11,586 --> 00:12:13,896 BUT I WASN'T GETTING DRESSED FAST ENOUGH, 219 00:12:13,896 --> 00:12:16,379 SO MY STEPDAD TOLD ME TO JUST WEAR MY NIGHTGOWN, 220 00:12:16,379 --> 00:12:17,931 AND I SAID, "NO." 221 00:12:17,931 --> 00:12:21,413 AND ALL OF A SUDDEN, HE HELD ME DOWN ON THE BED, 222 00:12:21,413 --> 00:12:23,689 AND HE WAS PUSHING ME AND SHAKING ME, 223 00:12:23,689 --> 00:12:26,000 AND HE WAS JUST SO ANGRY, 224 00:12:26,000 --> 00:12:27,965 AND MY BROTHER KEEGAN ENDED UP COMING UPSTAIRS 225 00:12:27,965 --> 00:12:29,310 AND, LIKE, PUSHING HIM OFF OF ME, 226 00:12:29,310 --> 00:12:30,620 AND THE COPS CAME AND EVERYTHING, 227 00:12:30,620 --> 00:12:34,793 AND HE HAD RIPPED MY SHIRT OFF, LIKE, HALFWAY OFF, 228 00:12:34,793 --> 00:12:39,344 AND I WAS CALLING FOR MY MOM, AND SHE WOULDN'T COME. 229 00:12:39,344 --> 00:12:43,275 AND I WAS SO SCARED, BUT SHE DID NOTHING, 230 00:12:43,275 --> 00:12:47,896 AND THAT'S WHAT HURT THE MOST, THAT I WASN'T IMPORTANT ENOUGH, 231 00:12:47,896 --> 00:12:52,448 OR MY MOM DIDN'T CARE ENOUGH TO EVEN TRY AND PROTECT ME. 232 00:12:52,448 --> 00:12:56,172 ♪♪ 233 00:12:56,172 --> 00:12:58,482 SO I WANTED TO LEAVE, 234 00:12:58,482 --> 00:13:03,000 AND I DROPPED OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL MY SENIOR YEAR. 235 00:13:03,000 --> 00:13:06,896 I MOVED OUT OF THE HOUSE AND AWAY FROM MY STEPDAD, 236 00:13:06,896 --> 00:13:12,758 BUT AFTER THAT, MY MOM AND MY STEPDAD SPLIT UP. 237 00:13:12,758 --> 00:13:16,448 I GOT A JOB WORKING AT A FAST-FOOD RESTAURANT, 238 00:13:16,448 --> 00:13:18,482 BUT THAT DIDN'T LAST LONG 239 00:13:18,482 --> 00:13:23,413 BECAUSE I WAS 18 AND CLOSE TO 450 POUNDS, 240 00:13:23,413 --> 00:13:28,689 SO I JUST PHYSICALLY COULDN'T DO IT. 241 00:13:28,689 --> 00:13:30,827 I WAS STILL EATING AND GAINING, 242 00:13:30,827 --> 00:13:35,379 SO IT DIDN'T TAKE ME LONG TO REACH 500 POUNDS. 243 00:13:35,379 --> 00:13:37,068 WHEN I HIT THAT WEIGHT, 244 00:13:37,068 --> 00:13:40,689 THAT'S WHEN I STARTED HAVING TROUBLE TAKING CARE OF MYSELF, 245 00:13:40,689 --> 00:13:46,000 AND I HAD TO MOVE BACK IN WITH MY MOM AND MY SISTER. 246 00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:48,448 BUT RIGHT AFTER I MOVED BACK IN, 247 00:13:48,448 --> 00:13:50,310 MY MOTHER CONFESSED TO ME SOMETHING SHE'S BEEN 248 00:13:50,310 --> 00:13:52,758 DEALING WITH SINCE WE WERE CHILDREN. 249 00:13:52,758 --> 00:13:57,103 SHE SAID SHE'S BEEN BATTLING DRUG ADDICTION FOR 16 YEARS. 250 00:13:57,103 --> 00:13:59,655 WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER, IT WAS VICODIN, 251 00:13:59,655 --> 00:14:02,275 AND THEN IT GREW FROM THERE TO WHERE NOW, 252 00:14:02,275 --> 00:14:04,931 SHE WAS STRUGGLING WITH HEROIN, 253 00:14:04,931 --> 00:14:07,827 AND THAT PUT ME... 254 00:14:07,827 --> 00:14:12,068 [ Voice breaking ] IN A STATE OF SHOCK AT FIRST. 255 00:14:12,068 --> 00:14:14,827 BUT THE REASON MY MOM WAS TELLING ME THIS WAS THAT 256 00:14:14,827 --> 00:14:18,620 SHE SAID SHE WAS DONE AND SHE WAS LEAVING IN 2 HOURS 257 00:14:18,620 --> 00:14:20,551 FOR A REHAB FACILITY. 258 00:14:20,551 --> 00:14:23,793 SO, MY MOM WAS AT THE CLINIC FOR SIX MONTHS, 259 00:14:23,793 --> 00:14:26,413 AND THEN SHE CAME BACK CLEAN, 260 00:14:26,413 --> 00:14:31,655 AND SHE'S STAYED THAT WAY FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS NOW. 261 00:14:31,655 --> 00:14:33,655 BUT I KEPT GAINING. 262 00:14:33,655 --> 00:14:35,448 AND WHEN I WAS 23, 263 00:14:35,448 --> 00:14:38,965 MY WEIGHT SKYROCKETED INTO THE 600s. 264 00:14:38,965 --> 00:14:42,896 AND NOW MY MOM HAS TO DO ALMOST EVERYTHING FOR ME, 265 00:14:42,896 --> 00:14:45,517 AND I'M NOT SURE WHAT MY WEIGHT IS NOW. 266 00:14:45,517 --> 00:14:49,413 I JUST KNOW I'M AT A POINT WHERE I CAN'T GO ON LIKE THIS. 267 00:14:49,413 --> 00:14:53,103 ♪♪ 268 00:14:53,103 --> 00:14:59,068 -ARE YOU HUNGRY? -STARVING. 269 00:14:59,068 --> 00:15:03,103 THERE IS NEVER A MOMENT I DON'T WANT TO EAT. 270 00:15:03,103 --> 00:15:06,482 I SIT HERE UNTIL I GET IT, 271 00:15:06,482 --> 00:15:11,206 AND THAT'S PRETTY MUCH WHAT MY MOM DOES FOR ME ALL DAY. 272 00:15:11,206 --> 00:15:15,172 AND IF MY FAMILY OR ANYONE TRIES TO GET ME TO STOP, 273 00:15:15,172 --> 00:15:18,482 I GET VERY UPSET. 274 00:15:18,482 --> 00:15:21,896 THEN IT MAKES IT WORSE, AND I WANT TO EAT EVEN MORE. 275 00:15:21,896 --> 00:15:27,620 ♪♪ 276 00:15:27,620 --> 00:15:30,551 I JUST CRAVE EVERYTHING ALL DAY LONG. 277 00:15:30,551 --> 00:15:34,965 ♪♪ 278 00:15:34,965 --> 00:15:37,655 AND AS SOON AS ONE MEAL IS DONE, 279 00:15:37,655 --> 00:15:40,344 I NEED A SNACK. 280 00:15:40,344 --> 00:15:44,379 THEN IT'S TIME FOR ANOTHER MEAL. 281 00:15:44,379 --> 00:15:47,000 SO MY EATING NEVER STOPS. 282 00:15:47,000 --> 00:15:51,965 IT NEVER EVEN SLOWS DOWN. 283 00:15:51,965 --> 00:15:56,379 SARAH HAS TO HAVE SNACK CAKES, COOKIES, ICE CREAM, 284 00:15:56,379 --> 00:16:00,344 THINGS OF THAT NATURE, ALWAYS SOMETHING WITH SUGAR, 285 00:16:00,344 --> 00:16:02,379 THINGS THAT ARE NOT GOOD FOR HER. 286 00:16:02,379 --> 00:16:03,862 JUST -- IT SEEMS LIKE THE WORSE IT IS FOR HER, 287 00:16:03,862 --> 00:16:06,482 THE MORE SHE LIKES IT. 288 00:16:06,482 --> 00:16:09,965 ♪♪ 289 00:16:09,965 --> 00:16:13,448 ♪♪ 290 00:16:13,448 --> 00:16:15,241 Barbara: WANT ANYTHING ELSE? 291 00:16:15,241 --> 00:16:17,103 Sarah: I NEED SOMETHING SALTY. 292 00:16:17,103 --> 00:16:21,137 I DON'T CARE WHAT IT IS. 293 00:16:21,137 --> 00:16:24,310 Sarah: I KNOW I'M GETTING TO A BREAKING POINT. 294 00:16:24,310 --> 00:16:27,034 I CAN FEEL MY BODY GETTING WORSE, 295 00:16:27,034 --> 00:16:28,448 AND TO A POINT WHERE SOON, 296 00:16:28,448 --> 00:16:32,379 I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO GO ON, 297 00:16:32,379 --> 00:16:35,655 AND I KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN. 298 00:16:35,655 --> 00:16:38,275 I'M GOING TO GO TO SLEEP ONE NIGHT 299 00:16:38,275 --> 00:16:41,689 AND I'M NOT GOING TO WAKE UP, 300 00:16:41,689 --> 00:16:45,689 SO I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO STOP THAT FROM HAPPENING. 301 00:16:45,689 --> 00:16:50,137 BUT I'M SCARED I CAN'T, AND THAT NO MATTER WHAT, 302 00:16:50,137 --> 00:16:53,275 I'M STILL GOING TO END UP DYING IN THIS CHAIR 303 00:16:53,275 --> 00:16:55,379 BECAUSE I ATE MYSELF TO DEATH. 304 00:16:55,379 --> 00:16:57,793 ♪♪ 305 00:17:00,965 --> 00:17:05,448 ♪♪ 306 00:17:05,448 --> 00:17:10,034 ♪♪ 307 00:17:10,034 --> 00:17:14,586 ♪♪ 308 00:17:14,586 --> 00:17:19,206 ♪♪ 309 00:17:19,206 --> 00:17:22,586 I SET AN APPOINTMENT TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN TOMORROW, 310 00:17:22,586 --> 00:17:25,620 AND I'M PACKING FOR THE TRIP RIGHT NOW, 311 00:17:25,620 --> 00:17:28,206 BUT IT'S A LITTLE DIFFICULT BECAUSE I HAVE TO HAVE MY MOM 312 00:17:28,206 --> 00:17:31,241 BRING ME EVERYTHING TO CHOOSE WHAT I WANT TO TAKE. 313 00:17:31,241 --> 00:17:35,275 DO YOU HAVE EVERYTHING? 314 00:17:35,275 --> 00:17:39,344 [ SIGHS ] YEAH, I THINK. WILL YOU HELP ME CLOSE IT? 315 00:17:39,344 --> 00:17:41,724 Barbara: I'M CONCERNED ABOUT SARAH GOING TO HOUSTON, 316 00:17:41,724 --> 00:17:44,689 BUT SHE NEEDS TO CHANGE HER LIFE COMPLETELY, 317 00:17:44,689 --> 00:17:48,413 SO I'M REALLY HOPING THAT THIS WORKS FOR HER 318 00:17:48,413 --> 00:17:51,896 BECAUSE I DON'T THINK SHE'LL BE ABLE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT 319 00:17:51,896 --> 00:17:56,896 ON HER OWN, SO WE'RE ALL ANXIOUS TO GET THIS GOING. 320 00:17:56,896 --> 00:17:58,620 Barbara: IS THAT EVERYTHING? 321 00:18:02,137 --> 00:18:03,379 ALL RIGHT. I'M PACKED. 322 00:18:03,379 --> 00:18:06,758 ALL RIGHT. WELL, HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE TRIP? 323 00:18:06,758 --> 00:18:07,620 EXCITED. 324 00:18:07,620 --> 00:18:08,344 ARE YOU? MM-HMM. 325 00:18:08,344 --> 00:18:11,137 I'M EXCITED FOR YOU. 326 00:18:11,137 --> 00:18:13,413 I'M NERVOUS TO GET ON THE PLANE, THOUGH, BUT... 327 00:18:13,413 --> 00:18:17,068 YOU'LL BE FINE. THERE'S NOTHING TO IT. 328 00:18:17,068 --> 00:18:19,413 YEAH. 329 00:18:19,413 --> 00:18:23,379 I HAVEN'T GONE ON A TRIP IN I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY YEARS, 330 00:18:23,379 --> 00:18:27,379 AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE BEFORE. 331 00:18:27,379 --> 00:18:31,827 I'M JUST NERVOUS ABOUT HOW MY BODY IS GOING TO HANDLE IT, 332 00:18:31,827 --> 00:18:34,758 AND SO I'M JUST REALLY HOPING IT ALL GOES WELL, 333 00:18:34,758 --> 00:18:38,344 AND THAT IT'S WORTH GOING THROUGH ALL THIS. 334 00:18:38,344 --> 00:18:39,724 -HEY. -HEY. 335 00:18:39,724 --> 00:18:41,034 -HEY. -BIG DAY? 336 00:18:41,034 --> 00:18:42,758 YEAH. 337 00:18:42,758 --> 00:18:45,551 BUT THANKFULLY, I DON'T HAVE TO GO BY MYSELF 338 00:18:45,551 --> 00:18:48,517 BECAUSE MY OLDER SISTER HEATHER IS FLYING DOWN TO HOUSTON 339 00:18:48,517 --> 00:18:50,482 WITH ME TO HELP ME GET THERE, 340 00:18:50,482 --> 00:18:54,137 AND I KNOW I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO MAKE THIS TRIP ON MY OWN. 341 00:18:54,137 --> 00:18:56,931 I'D PROBABLY JUST INSTANTLY HAVE A PANIC ATTACK 342 00:18:56,931 --> 00:18:59,137 BEING IN PUBLIC ALONE, 343 00:18:59,137 --> 00:19:03,241 SO I'M THANKFUL SHE'LL DO THIS FOR ME. 344 00:19:03,241 --> 00:19:05,172 WE'RE BOTH GOING TO BE GOING DOWN THERE TOGETHER, 345 00:19:05,172 --> 00:19:08,827 BUT IT IS TEMPORARILY PUTTING MY LIFE ON HOLD, 346 00:19:08,827 --> 00:19:12,758 BUT IT'S NECESSARY BECAUSE IF SARAH DOESN'T DO THIS, 347 00:19:12,758 --> 00:19:14,448 THIS MIGHT BE HER LAST CHANCE, 348 00:19:14,448 --> 00:19:16,724 AND SHE'S NOT GOING TO HAVE A REAL LIFE 349 00:19:16,724 --> 00:19:17,931 IF SHE DOESN'T LOSE WEIGHT, 350 00:19:17,931 --> 00:19:19,965 SO IT'S SOMETHING I'M WILLING TO DO. 351 00:19:19,965 --> 00:19:25,310 ♪♪ 352 00:19:25,310 --> 00:19:27,655 Sarah: I KNOW THIS IS A BIG SACRIFICE FOR HER, 353 00:19:27,655 --> 00:19:32,344 TAKING TIME AWAY FROM HER LIFE TO DO THIS FOR ME, 354 00:19:32,344 --> 00:19:33,724 BUT WHAT'S EVEN BIGGER IS, 355 00:19:33,724 --> 00:19:36,620 THAT I TOLD HER IF DR. NOW ACCEPTS ME INTO HIS PROGRAM, 356 00:19:36,620 --> 00:19:38,689 AND I GET SURGERY, 357 00:19:38,689 --> 00:19:42,275 HE NEEDS YOU TO STAY IN HOUSTON FOR A YEAR AFTER THE OPERATION 358 00:19:42,275 --> 00:19:43,689 BECAUSE HE SAYS THE FOLLOW-UP 359 00:19:43,689 --> 00:19:46,862 IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE ACTUAL SURGERY, 360 00:19:46,862 --> 00:19:50,689 AND YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME SUPPORT WITH YOU. 361 00:19:50,689 --> 00:19:53,275 SO IF HE APPROVES ME FOR SURGERY, 362 00:19:53,275 --> 00:19:56,413 THEN MY SISTER HAS AGREED TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON WITH ME, 363 00:19:56,413 --> 00:19:58,689 AND THAT'S HUGE. 364 00:19:58,689 --> 00:20:01,931 ♪♪ 365 00:20:10,344 --> 00:20:13,344 ♪♪ 366 00:20:13,344 --> 00:20:15,689 Barbara: I'M WORRIED ABOUT HOW SARAH IS GOING TO DO AT THE AIRPORT. 367 00:20:15,689 --> 00:20:18,551 SHE'S NEVER EXPERIENCED ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE, 368 00:20:18,551 --> 00:20:21,379 BUT I'M PROUD OF SARAH FOR TAKING THIS STEP. 369 00:20:21,379 --> 00:20:25,206 FOR A LONG TIME, SHE WOULDN'T DO ANYTHING TO HELP HERSELF, 370 00:20:25,206 --> 00:20:29,551 SO I HOPE THIS TRIP TO TEXAS GOES WELL. 371 00:20:29,551 --> 00:20:31,724 WE'RE HERE. 372 00:20:31,724 --> 00:20:33,689 ♪♪ 373 00:20:33,689 --> 00:20:36,551 SO MUCH IS RIDING ON THIS, 374 00:20:36,551 --> 00:20:39,310 AND MY WHOLE FAMILY IS SACRIFICING SO MUCH 375 00:20:39,310 --> 00:20:40,724 TO HELP ME DO THIS. 376 00:20:40,724 --> 00:20:42,793 -ALL RIGHT. -HEATHER, CAN YOU GET THAT? 377 00:20:42,793 --> 00:20:44,206 LOVE YOU. 378 00:20:44,206 --> 00:20:49,551 Sarah: SO I DON'T WANT TO LET EVERYONE DOWN. 379 00:20:49,551 --> 00:20:53,827 AND I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW. 380 00:20:53,827 --> 00:20:57,517 I DON'T LIKE TO GO OUT IN PUBLIC BECAUSE EVERYBODY STARES AT ME, 381 00:20:57,517 --> 00:21:01,620 AND I FEEL LIKE THEY'RE ALL JUDGING ME CONSTANTLY, 382 00:21:01,620 --> 00:21:04,482 SO I JUST NEED TO GET THROUGH ALL THIS AS FAST AS POSSIBLE. 383 00:21:04,482 --> 00:21:07,862 DO YOU HAVE YOUR I.D.? HAVE IT HANDY. 384 00:21:07,862 --> 00:21:11,172 ♪♪ 385 00:21:13,000 --> 00:21:16,206 HI. 386 00:21:16,206 --> 00:21:18,517 Heather: SARAH HAS NEVER FLOWN BEFORE. 387 00:21:18,517 --> 00:21:19,620 THIS IS SOMETHING THAT'S GOING TO BE 388 00:21:19,620 --> 00:21:21,103 A TOTALLY NEW EXPERIENCE FOR HER, 389 00:21:21,103 --> 00:21:22,862 AND I KNOW THAT SHE HAS A LOT OF ANXIETY 390 00:21:22,862 --> 00:21:24,862 ABOUT ACTUALLY GETTING ON THE PLANE, 391 00:21:24,862 --> 00:21:26,034 FITTING THROUGH THE AISLE, 392 00:21:26,034 --> 00:21:28,379 SO WE BOTH HAVE SOME ANXIETY ABOUT THAT, 393 00:21:28,379 --> 00:21:30,034 BUT SHE'S GOING TO DO IT ANYWAY 394 00:21:30,034 --> 00:21:31,310 BECAUSE GETTING TO HOUSTON 395 00:21:31,310 --> 00:21:32,931 IS VERY, VERY IMPORTANT FOR HER HEALTH, 396 00:21:32,931 --> 00:21:35,724 SO WE'RE GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN. 397 00:21:38,137 --> 00:21:40,862 THAT MIGHT BE WHY THERE'S AN EXTRA SEAT BOOKED. 398 00:21:40,862 --> 00:21:43,310 -YES. -OKAY. 399 00:21:43,310 --> 00:21:45,517 WE'LL BE SITTING DOWN SOON ENOUGH. 400 00:21:45,517 --> 00:21:48,620 ARE YOU STARTING TO BE, LIKE, IN PAIN, LIKE, FOR REAL, 401 00:21:48,620 --> 00:21:51,482 OR JUST DISCOMFORT? 402 00:21:51,482 --> 00:21:54,413 OKAY, GOOD. 403 00:21:54,413 --> 00:21:55,724 I DON'T KNOW. SARAH? 404 00:21:55,724 --> 00:21:57,586 I'M NOT SURE IF I CAN PUSH YOU. 405 00:22:01,931 --> 00:22:03,241 Woman: WHEN YOU GET UP TO THE GATE, 406 00:22:03,241 --> 00:22:05,068 I'LL HAVE THEM REPRINTED FOR YOU. 407 00:22:05,068 --> 00:22:06,827 HERE'S YOUR I.D., SWEETHEART. 408 00:22:06,827 --> 00:22:08,137 -YES. -OKAY. 409 00:22:08,137 --> 00:22:09,551 YOU'RE DEFINITELY GOING TO BE ABLE TO PREBOARD. 410 00:22:09,551 --> 00:22:11,310 THANK YOU. 411 00:22:11,310 --> 00:22:13,413 Sarah: THIS IS HUMILIATING. 412 00:22:13,413 --> 00:22:14,758 WE'LL BE UP THERE. 413 00:22:14,758 --> 00:22:18,517 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH FURTHER I CAN MAKE IT. 414 00:22:18,517 --> 00:22:20,965 WHEN I'VE PUSHED MY BODY TOO HARD IN THE PAST, 415 00:22:20,965 --> 00:22:22,655 AND I HIT MY LIMIT, 416 00:22:22,655 --> 00:22:25,827 IT'S NOT LIKE I CAN REST A BIT AND RECOVER. 417 00:22:25,827 --> 00:22:27,448 I'M DONE FOR THE DAY. 418 00:22:27,448 --> 00:22:29,103 USE THIS. 419 00:22:29,103 --> 00:22:33,758 SO I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW THAT I'M NOT GOING TO MAKE IT. 420 00:22:39,724 --> 00:22:42,137 ALL RIGHT. 421 00:22:42,137 --> 00:22:43,793 [ SIGHS ] 422 00:22:43,793 --> 00:22:45,241 OH. 423 00:22:45,241 --> 00:22:47,586 OKAY. GET A LITTLE BREAK. 424 00:22:49,379 --> 00:22:50,793 GO UP ONE. I NEED TO LEAN. 425 00:22:50,793 --> 00:22:53,000 GO UP. DON'T KNOCK ME DOWN. 426 00:22:53,000 --> 00:22:55,172 DON'T KNOCK ME DOWN. 427 00:22:55,172 --> 00:22:56,379 [BLEEP] 428 00:22:56,379 --> 00:22:57,551 ARE YOU OKAY? 429 00:22:57,551 --> 00:23:00,206 I DON'T LIKE HEIGHTS. 430 00:23:00,206 --> 00:23:02,758 [ SIGHS ] OKAY. 431 00:23:02,758 --> 00:23:04,000 WHERE IS IT? 432 00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:05,517 Heather: IT'S THAT WAY. 433 00:23:05,517 --> 00:23:07,896 I'M NOT DOING WELL. 434 00:23:07,896 --> 00:23:09,551 I'M TRYING NOT TO GET OVERWHELMED 435 00:23:09,551 --> 00:23:11,793 AND MAKE IT THERE WITHOUT PASSING OUT. 436 00:23:11,793 --> 00:23:12,896 -HI. -HELLO. 437 00:23:12,896 --> 00:23:15,206 HI. DO YOU NEED OUR BOARDING PASSES? 438 00:23:15,206 --> 00:23:16,931 AND WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE PREBOARDING. 439 00:23:16,931 --> 00:23:18,965 OKAY. 440 00:23:21,310 --> 00:23:22,413 -OKAY. -OKAY. 441 00:23:22,413 --> 00:23:23,724 PERFECT. OKAY. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 442 00:23:23,724 --> 00:23:27,000 WHERE IS IT? 443 00:23:27,000 --> 00:23:28,896 ♪♪ 444 00:23:28,896 --> 00:23:33,655 THANK GOODNESS THEY'RE BOARDING. 445 00:23:33,655 --> 00:23:38,896 RIGHT NOW, MY BIGGEST WORRY IS GETTING ON THE PLANE 446 00:23:38,896 --> 00:23:41,965 BECAUSE I'M AFRAID THAT MAYBE I WON'T BE ABLE 447 00:23:41,965 --> 00:23:44,137 TO FIT THROUGH THE AISLES AND THE SEATS WELL, 448 00:23:44,137 --> 00:23:46,344 AND PEOPLE IS GOING TO BE STARING AT ME. 449 00:23:46,344 --> 00:23:50,758 ♪♪ 450 00:23:50,758 --> 00:23:55,206 ♪♪ 451 00:23:55,206 --> 00:23:57,482 THANK GOODNESS. 452 00:23:57,482 --> 00:24:02,344 ♪♪ 453 00:24:02,344 --> 00:24:05,586 I'M MISERABLE, AND I JUST WANT TO GET TO HOUSTON, 454 00:24:05,586 --> 00:24:08,551 BUT I JUST HAVE TO MAKE IT FOR THE NEXT 5 HOURS 455 00:24:08,551 --> 00:24:11,068 AND THEN GET TO THE HOTEL AND TRY AND REST. 456 00:24:11,068 --> 00:24:15,241 ♪♪ 457 00:24:15,241 --> 00:24:19,379 ♪♪ 458 00:24:19,379 --> 00:24:23,551 ♪♪ 459 00:24:23,551 --> 00:24:28,448 WE MADE IT, AND I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN, 460 00:24:28,448 --> 00:24:33,758 AND IT FEELS LIKE I HAVEN'T EATEN IN FOREVER. 461 00:24:33,758 --> 00:24:37,965 THIS TRIP HAS JUST ABOUT PUSHED ME TO MY LIMIT, 462 00:24:37,965 --> 00:24:41,931 BUT I'M NOT REGRETTING IT. 463 00:24:41,931 --> 00:24:43,551 I JUST NEED SOMETHING TO CALM ME DOWN 464 00:24:43,551 --> 00:24:46,793 AND HELP ME DEAL WITH THIS WHOLE DAY 465 00:24:46,793 --> 00:24:49,344 BECAUSE MY NERVES ARE FRAZZLED. 466 00:24:49,344 --> 00:24:54,310 ♪♪ 467 00:24:54,310 --> 00:24:56,862 Heather: SARAH, YOU JUST YELL ACROSS WHAT YOU WANT TO ORDER. 468 00:24:56,862 --> 00:24:58,482 -OKAY. -I DON'T WANT TO TALK. 469 00:24:58,482 --> 00:25:02,068 CAN I GET A NUMBER ONE WITH A MEDIUM FRY? 470 00:25:02,068 --> 00:25:03,310 -AN ADDITIONAL? -YEAH. 471 00:25:03,310 --> 00:25:06,206 -AND THAT'S IT? -YES, PLEASE. 472 00:25:06,206 --> 00:25:09,275 -$8.75, FIRST WINDOW. -OKAY. THANK YOU. 473 00:25:09,275 --> 00:25:14,034 HE WAS VERY SHOCKED THAT YOU WANTED A SECOND FRY. 474 00:25:14,034 --> 00:25:17,137 ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 475 00:25:17,137 --> 00:25:19,758 I KNOW JUNK FOOD ISN'T THE BEST OPTION. 476 00:25:19,758 --> 00:25:22,793 ♪♪ 477 00:25:24,068 --> 00:25:28,344 ♪♪ 478 00:25:28,344 --> 00:25:31,206 IT'S GOING TO BE A LONG NIGHT, 479 00:25:31,206 --> 00:25:35,689 SO I JUST WANT THIS STAY AND THIS TRIP TO BE OVER WITH. 480 00:25:35,689 --> 00:25:37,206 ALL RIGHT. 481 00:25:37,206 --> 00:25:42,379 BUT I'M HOPING TOMORROW, THIS ALL TURNS OUT TO BE WORTH IT. 482 00:25:42,379 --> 00:25:44,793 AND I CAN'T SLEEP IN THE BED 483 00:25:44,793 --> 00:25:48,517 BECAUSE MY WEIGHT WILL STOP ME FROM BREATHING IF I LAY DOWN. 484 00:25:48,517 --> 00:25:51,551 WE'RE HERE. 485 00:25:51,551 --> 00:25:54,724 I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO DO WHAT I NEED TO GET HELP, 486 00:25:54,724 --> 00:25:58,620 AND THAT I DON'T DO SOMETHING TO MESS THIS ALL UP 487 00:25:58,620 --> 00:26:02,413 AND LOSE THE ONLY CHANCE I HAVE TO SAVE MY LIFE. 488 00:26:02,413 --> 00:26:05,862 ♪♪ 489 00:26:09,310 --> 00:26:12,620 ♪♪ 490 00:26:12,620 --> 00:26:16,034 ♪♪ 491 00:26:16,034 --> 00:26:19,965 Sarah: WE'RE HEADED TO MY FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 492 00:26:19,965 --> 00:26:25,000 AND MY EMOTIONS ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE 493 00:26:25,000 --> 00:26:26,551 BECAUSE WHAT HAPPENS TODAY 494 00:26:26,551 --> 00:26:30,068 IS GOING TO DETERMINE MY WHOLE LIFE, 495 00:26:30,068 --> 00:26:32,758 AND IT'S SCARY NOT KNOWING WHAT TO EXPECT. 496 00:26:32,758 --> 00:26:36,448 ♪♪ 497 00:26:36,448 --> 00:26:40,413 AND I DON'T WANT TO KNOW WHERE MY WEIGHT IS AT NOW, 498 00:26:40,413 --> 00:26:44,482 BUT I'M HERE TO TRY AND CHANGE MY LIFE. 499 00:26:44,482 --> 00:26:47,034 SARAH NEELEY? 500 00:26:47,034 --> 00:26:50,896 Sarah: I KNOW IT'S THE ONLY OPTION I HAVE LEFT, 501 00:26:50,896 --> 00:26:53,827 SO WHATEVER IT TAKES TODAY, I HAVE TO DO IT. 502 00:26:53,827 --> 00:26:58,793 ♪♪ 503 00:26:58,793 --> 00:27:03,793 ♪♪ 504 00:27:03,793 --> 00:27:08,793 ♪♪ 505 00:27:08,793 --> 00:27:11,517 SEEING THAT NUMBER IS HUMILIATING, 506 00:27:11,517 --> 00:27:14,965 ESPECIALLY WITH MY SISTER HERE. 507 00:27:14,965 --> 00:27:17,241 I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT MY WEIGHT, 508 00:27:17,241 --> 00:27:21,448 AND I NEED TO DO IT, LIKE, NOW. 509 00:27:21,448 --> 00:27:25,379 SO I JUST HOPE I'M ABOUT TO GET THE HELP I NEED. 510 00:27:25,379 --> 00:27:27,931 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 511 00:27:27,931 --> 00:27:29,517 -HELLO. -HI. 512 00:27:29,517 --> 00:27:30,517 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 513 00:27:30,517 --> 00:27:32,517 GOOD. 514 00:27:32,517 --> 00:27:33,620 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 515 00:27:33,620 --> 00:27:34,689 I'M SARAH. 516 00:27:34,689 --> 00:27:37,034 NICE TO MEET YOU, SARAH. AND YOU ARE? 517 00:27:37,034 --> 00:27:38,482 I'M SARAH'S SISTER. 518 00:27:38,482 --> 00:27:39,689 SISTER? YEAH. 519 00:27:39,689 --> 00:27:42,206 FOR A SISTER, YOU TWO LOOK QUITE DIFFERENT. 520 00:27:42,206 --> 00:27:43,655 -YEAH. -ALL RIGHT. 521 00:27:43,655 --> 00:27:46,793 SARAH, YOU ARE 642 POUNDS, 522 00:27:46,793 --> 00:27:49,724 AND YOU'RE ONLY 25 YEARS OLD.YES. 523 00:27:49,724 --> 00:27:52,241 AT THIS RATE, YOU'LL BE 800 POUNDS 524 00:27:52,241 --> 00:27:54,206 BY THE TIME YOU ARE 30, 525 00:27:54,206 --> 00:27:57,103 AND I SEE, ACCORDING TO YOUR CHART, 526 00:27:57,103 --> 00:27:59,310 YOU ARE ON A BLOOD-PRESSURE MEDICATION 527 00:27:59,310 --> 00:28:03,689 AND SOME INHALER AND SOME ANTI-INFLAMMATORIES. 528 00:28:03,689 --> 00:28:06,000 YES.WELL, THESE ARE MEDICINE 529 00:28:06,000 --> 00:28:09,862 WE USUALLY ONLY SEE PEOPLE IN 40s AND 50s, NOT 20s. 530 00:28:09,862 --> 00:28:11,137 YEAH. 531 00:28:11,137 --> 00:28:15,034 SO IF YOU HAVE A BODY OF SOMEONE TWICE YOUR AGE, 532 00:28:15,034 --> 00:28:18,586 NOW IN YOUR 20s, YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. 533 00:28:18,586 --> 00:28:22,551 YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO SURVIVE MUCH INTO YOUR 30s, 534 00:28:22,551 --> 00:28:25,827 AND IT SAYS IN YOUR CHART, YOU'RE ALSO HAVING TROUBLE 535 00:28:25,827 --> 00:28:28,172 GETTING AROUND AND STAYING MOBILE, 536 00:28:28,172 --> 00:28:31,655 SO NOW IT'S A TIME TO TURN THINGS AROUND, 537 00:28:31,655 --> 00:28:33,379 NOT WHEN IT'S TOO LATE. 538 00:28:33,379 --> 00:28:34,689 OKAY. 539 00:28:34,689 --> 00:28:37,034 SO YOU NEED TO MAKE COMPLETE CHANGE OF LIFESTYLE, 540 00:28:37,034 --> 00:28:39,034 STARTING WITH YOUR EATING HABITS. 541 00:28:39,034 --> 00:28:40,172 OKAY. 542 00:28:40,172 --> 00:28:43,000 TELL ME, HOW DO YOU THINK YOU GOT TO THIS POINT? 543 00:28:43,000 --> 00:28:44,137 MY MEALS. 544 00:28:44,137 --> 00:28:45,344 LIKE, I'LL, LIKE, COOK A CASSEROLE, 545 00:28:45,344 --> 00:28:47,000 AND I'LL EAT, LIKE, A LOT OF THAT CASSEROLE, 546 00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:48,551 LIKE, THROUGHOUT THE DAY. 547 00:28:48,551 --> 00:28:49,965 BUT NO SNACKING? 548 00:28:49,965 --> 00:28:53,689 LIKE, I DO SNACK, I GUESS, BUT I EAT A LOT OF FOOD, 549 00:28:53,689 --> 00:28:54,965 AND I CAN'T STOP. 550 00:28:54,965 --> 00:28:57,344 WELL, WHO BRINGS YOU ALL THIS FOOD? 551 00:28:57,344 --> 00:28:58,172 MY MOM. 552 00:28:58,172 --> 00:29:00,137 SO WHY ISN'T SHE HERE? 553 00:29:00,137 --> 00:29:02,068 SHE COULDN'T MAKE THE TRIP. 554 00:29:02,068 --> 00:29:05,448 I SEE. WELL, YOUR DYNAMIC WITH YOUR MOM 555 00:29:05,448 --> 00:29:08,517 IS GOING TO BE PART OF THIS CHANGE, TOO, 556 00:29:08,517 --> 00:29:09,827 AND THAT HAS TO START NOW. 557 00:29:09,827 --> 00:29:11,137 -OKAY? -OKAY. 558 00:29:11,137 --> 00:29:12,793 WHAT ABOUT YOUR ACTIVITY? 559 00:29:12,793 --> 00:29:14,275 WELL, I WAS GOING FOR WALKS, 560 00:29:14,275 --> 00:29:17,689 AND THEN I STARTED GETTING SICK WITH MY C.O.P.D., 561 00:29:17,689 --> 00:29:19,689 AND THAT KIND OF PUT A STALL ON THINGS, 562 00:29:19,689 --> 00:29:21,137 BUT I WALK. 563 00:29:21,137 --> 00:29:24,793 OKAY. WITH C.O.P.D., YOU HAVE INFLAMED LUNGS, 564 00:29:24,793 --> 00:29:28,413 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE AN ISSUE THAT CAN PREVENT YOU 565 00:29:28,413 --> 00:29:32,413 FROM HAVING SURGERY IF WE DON'T GET THEM TO A HEALTHIER PLACE. 566 00:29:32,413 --> 00:29:35,655 SO WE NEED TO START WITH GETTING YOUR WEIGHT DOWN. 567 00:29:35,655 --> 00:29:38,068 SO WE'LL GIVE YOU SOME EXERCISES, 568 00:29:38,068 --> 00:29:40,448 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE A BIG FACTOR 569 00:29:40,448 --> 00:29:43,965 TO GET YOU TO A HEALTHIER PLACE TO HAVE SURGERY, 570 00:29:43,965 --> 00:29:45,793 AND THEN I WANT YOU TO LOSE 571 00:29:45,793 --> 00:29:49,413 AT LEAST 30 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH, OKAY? 572 00:29:49,413 --> 00:29:53,448 SO YOU'RE GOING TO NEED TO FOLLOW A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY, 573 00:29:53,448 --> 00:29:57,000 HIGH-PROTEIN, LOW-CARB DIET, THAT I WILL GIVE YOU TODAY. 574 00:29:57,000 --> 00:29:58,379 -OKAY. -OKAY? 575 00:29:58,379 --> 00:30:02,344 AND YOU'RE GOING TO NEED TO FOLLOW IT, AND NO MORE SNACKING. 576 00:30:02,344 --> 00:30:04,000 -GOT IT? -YES. 577 00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:07,827 GREAT, AND IF YOU DO THAT AND YOUR LUNGS ARE OKAY, 578 00:30:07,827 --> 00:30:10,551 THEN I'LL APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 579 00:30:10,551 --> 00:30:13,931 BUT THEN YOU'RE GOING TO NEED TO MOVE TO HOUSTON 580 00:30:13,931 --> 00:30:16,896 IF YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THIS PROGRAM, 581 00:30:16,896 --> 00:30:20,482 AND YOU WILL NEED SOMEONE WITH YOU TO SUPPORT YOU, 582 00:30:20,482 --> 00:30:23,206 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE YOUR SISTER? 583 00:30:23,206 --> 00:30:23,965 YEP. 584 00:30:23,965 --> 00:30:25,000 WE'RE WORKING ON IT. 585 00:30:25,000 --> 00:30:27,413 OKAY. WE'LL SEE YOU IN A MONTH 586 00:30:27,413 --> 00:30:29,862 AND HOPEFULLY 30 POUNDS LIGHTER. 587 00:30:29,862 --> 00:30:30,724 OKAY. 588 00:30:30,724 --> 00:30:31,931 -ALL RIGHT. -OKAY. 589 00:30:31,931 --> 00:30:33,034 NICE TO MEET YOU, SARAH. 590 00:30:33,034 --> 00:30:34,137 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 591 00:30:34,137 --> 00:30:35,310 -AND NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. -THANK YOU. 592 00:30:35,310 --> 00:30:36,379 ALL RIGHT. WE'LL SEE Y'ALL LATER. 593 00:30:36,379 --> 00:30:41,379 -OKAY. -OKAY. 594 00:30:41,379 --> 00:30:44,482 SARAH IS AT A CROSSROADS RIGHT NOW. 595 00:30:44,482 --> 00:30:47,379 SHE CAN EITHER DO WHAT SHE NEEDS NOW 596 00:30:47,379 --> 00:30:52,517 OR THINGS ARE ABOUT TO GET MUCH WORSE FOR HER VERY FAST. 597 00:30:52,517 --> 00:30:54,862 BUT SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO CHANGE 598 00:30:54,862 --> 00:30:57,655 THE WHOLE DYNAMIC OF HER LIFE TO DO THIS, 599 00:30:57,655 --> 00:30:59,275 SO THIS WON'T BE EASY, 600 00:30:59,275 --> 00:31:01,137 BUT SHE HAS TO DO IT 601 00:31:01,137 --> 00:31:03,862 IF SHE WANTS TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND. 602 00:31:03,862 --> 00:31:06,344 ♪♪ 603 00:31:06,344 --> 00:31:11,344 Sarah: IT'S A HUGE RELIEF TO KNOW DR. NOW IS GOING TO HELP ME, 604 00:31:11,344 --> 00:31:15,103 BUT I FEEL OVERWHELMED... 605 00:31:15,103 --> 00:31:17,448 I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO GET IN THAT CAR. 606 00:31:17,448 --> 00:31:19,896 WE'LL MOVE IT. 607 00:31:19,896 --> 00:31:23,620 ...BECAUSE NOT ONLY TO I NEED TO LOSE 30 POUNDS IN A MONTH, 608 00:31:23,620 --> 00:31:25,586 I HAVE TO START DOING THESE EXERCISES 609 00:31:25,586 --> 00:31:27,862 TO GET MY LUNGS IN BETTER SHAPE 610 00:31:27,862 --> 00:31:32,724 BECAUSE I CAN'T BLOW THIS CHANCE AND MESS THIS UP. 611 00:31:32,724 --> 00:31:37,241 ♪♪ 612 00:31:37,241 --> 00:31:41,689 ♪♪ 613 00:31:41,689 --> 00:31:46,206 ♪♪ 614 00:31:46,206 --> 00:31:49,275 IT'S BEEN A BIT OF A HARD MONTH. 615 00:31:49,275 --> 00:31:51,758 WHEN I GOT BACK HOME AFTER SEEING DR. NOW, 616 00:31:51,758 --> 00:31:54,620 I HAD A FALLING OUT WITH MY SISTER. 617 00:31:54,620 --> 00:31:56,172 I HAD JUST STARTED TO DIET, 618 00:31:56,172 --> 00:31:59,965 BUT SHE FELT I WASN'T TRYING HARD ENOUGH, 619 00:31:59,965 --> 00:32:03,482 SO SHE SAID SHE WASN'T GOING TO MOVE TO HOUSTON WITH ME, 620 00:32:03,482 --> 00:32:07,482 AND THAT WAS DEVASTATING. 621 00:32:07,482 --> 00:32:11,172 THINGS GOT PRETTY HEATED BETWEEN ALL OF US, 622 00:32:11,172 --> 00:32:13,275 AND MY MOM SIDED WITH ME 623 00:32:13,275 --> 00:32:15,068 AND TOLD HEATHER IT WASN'T RIGHT TO DO THIS 624 00:32:15,068 --> 00:32:20,413 AND MESS UP MY CHANCES TO GET SURGERY. 625 00:32:20,413 --> 00:32:23,586 SO WE ALL DECIDED WE NEEDED SOME TIME APART, 626 00:32:23,586 --> 00:32:26,793 AND MY MOM AND ME CAME TO STAY AT MY GRANDMOTHER'S, 627 00:32:26,793 --> 00:32:30,275 WHO LIVES A COUPLE HOURS AWAY FROM US 628 00:32:30,275 --> 00:32:32,965 SO I CAN FOCUS AND DO WHAT I NEED TO MAKE PROGRESS 629 00:32:32,965 --> 00:32:35,344 WITHOUT GETTING DISTRACTED BY ALL THE DRAMA. 630 00:32:35,344 --> 00:32:38,724 ♪♪ 631 00:32:38,724 --> 00:32:40,517 Maryann: I FIXED YOU SOME JELL-O. 632 00:32:40,517 --> 00:32:43,068 YOU KNOW, THAT DOESN'T HAVE ANY CALORIES. 633 00:32:43,068 --> 00:32:45,655 IT'S THE SUGAR-FREE, 634 00:32:45,655 --> 00:32:50,344 SO THAT'LL GIVE YOU A LITTLE BIT OF SOMETHING SWEET TO EAT. 635 00:32:50,344 --> 00:32:53,724 LIVING WITH MY GRANDMA IS CHALLENGING, 636 00:32:53,724 --> 00:32:56,482 AS SHE'S CONSTANTLY WATCHING WHAT I PUT ON MY FOOD 637 00:32:56,482 --> 00:33:00,172 AND WHAT KIND OF FOOD I'M EATING. 638 00:33:00,172 --> 00:33:05,241 I AM EATING MOSTLY LEAN MEATS AND VEGETABLES, 639 00:33:05,241 --> 00:33:08,655 BUT MY GRANDMA KNOWS A LOT ABOUT WEIGHT LOSS. 640 00:33:08,655 --> 00:33:13,241 SHE'S EVEN BEEN HELPING ME WITH MY EXERCISES. 641 00:33:13,241 --> 00:33:16,034 HOW DO YOU THINK THE DIET HAS BEEN GOING? 642 00:33:16,034 --> 00:33:18,482 I THINK IT'S GOING GOOD, BUT IT'S TOUGH. 643 00:33:18,482 --> 00:33:21,172 SO YOU FEEL PRETTY SATISFIED? 644 00:33:21,172 --> 00:33:24,034 YEAH. I FEEL LIKE I'M DOING A GOOD JOB. 645 00:33:24,034 --> 00:33:28,103 YEAH. I THINK YOU ARE. 646 00:33:28,103 --> 00:33:30,275 I THINK MY GRANDMA THINKS I CAN LOSE THE WEIGHT, 647 00:33:30,275 --> 00:33:33,448 BUT SHE'S WORRIED THAT MAYBE I'M NOT GOING TO 648 00:33:33,448 --> 00:33:35,517 TRY AS HARD AS I SHOULD 649 00:33:35,517 --> 00:33:39,241 BECAUSE THERE'S A FEAR IN THE BACK OF HER MIND. 650 00:33:39,241 --> 00:33:40,448 ARE YOU READY? 651 00:33:40,448 --> 00:33:41,586 YEAH. 652 00:33:41,586 --> 00:33:47,000 LET'S DO IT. 653 00:33:47,000 --> 00:33:51,034 I'M STILL NERVOUS ABOUT SEEING THE DOCTOR AGAIN. 654 00:33:51,034 --> 00:33:53,448 I WASN'T ABLE TO MAKE IT TO MY LAST APPOINTMENT, 655 00:33:53,448 --> 00:33:56,931 SO I CALLED AND ASKED IF I COULD HAVE A LITTLE MORE TIME. 656 00:33:56,931 --> 00:34:01,862 HE ASKED ME WHAT WAS GOING ON, AND I TOLD HIM, 657 00:34:01,862 --> 00:34:03,724 AND HE'S CONCERNED ABOUT MY LACK OF SUPPORT 658 00:34:03,724 --> 00:34:07,000 IF I MOVE TO HOUSTON, 659 00:34:07,000 --> 00:34:10,068 AND HE TOLD ME I COULD WAIT ANOTHER MONTH, 660 00:34:10,068 --> 00:34:12,344 BUT THAT I NEED TO LOSE ANOTHER 30 POUNDS 661 00:34:12,344 --> 00:34:17,137 TO SHOW HIM I AM STAYING ON TRACK. 662 00:34:17,137 --> 00:34:21,862 SO I SHOULD BE DOWN 60 POUNDS WHEN I COME BACK, 663 00:34:21,862 --> 00:34:25,965 AND I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW 664 00:34:25,965 --> 00:34:28,241 BECAUSE IF MY SISTER WON'T MOVE WITH ME, 665 00:34:28,241 --> 00:34:31,206 THEN THE ONLY OTHER OPTION IS MY MOM, 666 00:34:31,206 --> 00:34:35,931 AND I DON'T KNOW IF SHE CAN. 667 00:34:35,931 --> 00:34:38,620 SEE? YOU'RE GETTING BETTER, THERE. 668 00:34:38,620 --> 00:34:44,103 ♪♪ 669 00:34:44,103 --> 00:34:47,379 THESE PAST FEW WEEKS HAVE BEEN MORE OF A STRUGGLE FOR ME. 670 00:34:47,379 --> 00:34:49,655 I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M UNDER A LOT OF PRESSURE RIGHT NOW 671 00:34:49,655 --> 00:34:55,275 TO FIGURE SO MUCH OUT, AND WHAT CALMS ME DOWN IS FOOD. 672 00:34:55,275 --> 00:34:59,758 SO I KNOW I'VE GIVEN IN A FEW TIMES, BUT I TALKED TO MY MOM, 673 00:34:59,758 --> 00:35:01,793 AND SHE WASN'T TOO HAPPY AT THE IDEA 674 00:35:01,793 --> 00:35:04,000 OF MOVING DOWN THERE WITH ME FOR A YEAR, 675 00:35:04,000 --> 00:35:06,413 BUT SHE AGREED. 676 00:35:06,413 --> 00:35:09,758 -GOT YOUR STUFF? -YEAH. I THINK SO. 677 00:35:09,758 --> 00:35:13,068 I MIGHT HAVE A FEW THINGS LEFT. 678 00:35:13,068 --> 00:35:14,586 I GUESS I SHOULD GO AHEAD AND START PUTTING EVERYTHING 679 00:35:14,586 --> 00:35:16,517 IN THE CAR. 680 00:35:16,517 --> 00:35:19,620 I FEEL LIKE A BURDEN BECAUSE I KNOW THAT MY MOM 681 00:35:19,620 --> 00:35:20,965 REALLY DOESN'T WANT TO GO, 682 00:35:20,965 --> 00:35:22,551 BUT SHE'S GOING BECAUSE SHE KNOWS 683 00:35:22,551 --> 00:35:24,620 THIS IS GOING TO SAVE MY LIFE. 684 00:35:24,620 --> 00:35:27,931 I HAVE MY NEXT APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW IN A WEEK, 685 00:35:27,931 --> 00:35:30,241 BUT I'M NOT GOING BY PLANE AGAIN. 686 00:35:30,241 --> 00:35:33,655 THE LAST TIME WAS TOO UNPLEASANT, 687 00:35:33,655 --> 00:35:35,655 SO ME AND MY MOM ARE DRIVING, 688 00:35:35,655 --> 00:35:40,931 AND I'M NERVOUS BECAUSE IT'S GOING TO BE A LONG DRIVE. 689 00:35:40,931 --> 00:35:43,068 Barbara: HEATHER PUT ME IN A PRETTY AWKWARD SITUATION 690 00:35:43,068 --> 00:35:46,448 BECAUSE I REALLY DID NOT WANT TO GO. 691 00:35:46,448 --> 00:35:49,793 I'VE NEVER BEEN IN A CAR WITH SARAH FOR MORE THAN 3 HOURS, 692 00:35:49,793 --> 00:35:53,275 AND THIS IS ABOUT A 16-HOUR DRIVE. 693 00:35:53,275 --> 00:35:54,620 I DON'T KNOW HOW WELL ME AND SARAH 694 00:35:54,620 --> 00:35:57,931 ARE GOING TO GET ALONG COOPED UP IN A CAR FOR 2 DAYS, 695 00:35:57,931 --> 00:36:02,379 BUT IF I SAID NO, I WOULD BE A SELFISH MOM, 696 00:36:02,379 --> 00:36:05,724 AND I THINK IF SOMETHING'S NOT DONE TO CHANGE HER LIFESTYLE, 697 00:36:05,724 --> 00:36:08,793 THAT SHE WON'T LIVE ANOTHER FIVE YEARS. 698 00:36:08,793 --> 00:36:14,172 ♪♪ 699 00:36:14,172 --> 00:36:17,482 Sarah: I'M JUST NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS. 700 00:36:17,482 --> 00:36:21,482 I JUST HOPE I CAN MAKE IT. 701 00:36:21,482 --> 00:36:23,344 Barbara: MY CAR IS ABOUT 20 YEARS OLD, 702 00:36:23,344 --> 00:36:26,827 AND THE PASSENGER-SIDE DOOR WILL NOT OPEN, 703 00:36:26,827 --> 00:36:29,724 SO SARAH HAS TO GET IN THROUGH THE DRIVER'S SIDE 704 00:36:29,724 --> 00:36:31,000 AND SLIDE ALL THE WAY OVER, 705 00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:34,379 WHICH IS REALLY DIFFICULT FOR HER. 706 00:36:34,379 --> 00:36:36,413 Sarah: THESE SEAT BELT THINGS ARE IN THE WAY. 707 00:36:36,413 --> 00:36:37,689 I KNOW. 708 00:36:37,689 --> 00:36:39,862 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO CLIMB OVER THEM. 709 00:36:39,862 --> 00:36:42,413 OKAY. I'M TRYING. 710 00:36:42,413 --> 00:36:45,724 [ GRUNTING ] 711 00:36:45,724 --> 00:36:47,206 [ CHUCKLES ] MOM! 712 00:36:47,206 --> 00:36:48,344 GOD! 713 00:36:48,344 --> 00:36:49,551 Maryann: YOU COULD BREAK THAT STEERING WHEEL! 714 00:36:49,551 --> 00:36:50,793 OKAY. 715 00:36:50,793 --> 00:36:54,551 THIS IS HUMILIATING. 716 00:36:54,551 --> 00:36:57,413 LOVE YOU. 717 00:36:57,413 --> 00:37:00,724 Barbara: WILL YOU GET MY CANDY OFF THE DASHBOARD? 718 00:37:00,724 --> 00:37:04,413 -CAN'T REALLY REACH IT. -THEY'RE A DISTRACTION. 719 00:37:04,413 --> 00:37:07,137 ♪♪ 720 00:37:07,137 --> 00:37:09,931 Sarah: WITH HOW HARD THIS IS ON ME GOING BACK AND FORTH 721 00:37:09,931 --> 00:37:11,379 ON ALL THESE TRIPS, 722 00:37:11,379 --> 00:37:14,862 MY MOM AND ME PLAN TO STAY DOWN THERE THIS TIME, 723 00:37:14,862 --> 00:37:19,103 AND WE FOUND A PLACE TO STAY, BUT WE BOTH HAVEN'T SEEN IT, 724 00:37:19,103 --> 00:37:21,758 SO WE DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT, 725 00:37:21,758 --> 00:37:23,206 AND RIGHT NOW, 726 00:37:23,206 --> 00:37:26,068 I'M JUST NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS WHOLE TRIP. 727 00:37:26,068 --> 00:37:28,586 ♪♪ 728 00:37:33,517 --> 00:37:36,793 DON'T START BITCHING ABOUT MY DRIVING ALREADY. 729 00:37:36,793 --> 00:37:39,103 WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 730 00:37:39,103 --> 00:37:40,620 YOU'RE MAKING ME NERVOUS. CAN I DRIVE? 731 00:37:40,620 --> 00:37:42,000 NO. 732 00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:43,172 I'M DRIVING. 733 00:37:43,172 --> 00:37:44,344 WELL, YOU'RE NOT DOING A REALLY GOOD JOB AT IT. 734 00:37:44,344 --> 00:37:46,827 WELL, THE SUN IS RIGHT IN MY EYES. 735 00:37:46,827 --> 00:37:47,896 LOOK AT THE ROAD! 736 00:37:47,896 --> 00:37:49,827 I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING. 737 00:37:49,827 --> 00:37:51,413 THAT'S IT. LET ME DRIVE. 738 00:37:51,413 --> 00:37:53,034 SARAH, STOP. YOU'RE MAKING ME NERVOUS. 739 00:37:53,034 --> 00:37:56,482 -JUST STOP. -HOW AM I MAKING YOU NERVOUS? 740 00:37:56,482 --> 00:37:59,275 A LOT OF THE TENSION IN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY MOM 741 00:37:59,275 --> 00:38:02,896 HAS LED TO A LOT OF ME EATING IN THE PAST, 742 00:38:02,896 --> 00:38:05,620 SO BEING WITH HER MAKES MY STRUGGLES WITH CRAVING 743 00:38:05,620 --> 00:38:07,965 AND EATING MUCH, MUCH WORSE. 744 00:38:12,034 --> 00:38:16,551 ♪♪ 745 00:38:16,551 --> 00:38:21,137 ♪♪ 746 00:38:21,137 --> 00:38:25,689 ♪♪ 747 00:38:25,689 --> 00:38:28,034 Sarah: IT'S BEEN TWO LONG DAYS ON THE ROAD, 748 00:38:28,034 --> 00:38:31,310 AND I THINK ME AND MY MOM ARE BOTH READY TO BE THERE 749 00:38:31,310 --> 00:38:33,206 AND GET OUT OF THIS CAR AND AWAY FROM EACH OTHER 750 00:38:33,206 --> 00:38:35,827 FOR A LITTLE BIT. 751 00:38:35,827 --> 00:38:37,448 Barbara: IT'S RIGHT OVER THERE. 752 00:38:37,448 --> 00:38:38,344 SARAH, STOP. 753 00:38:38,344 --> 00:38:39,793 -WHERE? -OVER THERE. 754 00:38:39,793 --> 00:38:42,275 Sarah: OKAY, WHERE IS, "OVER THERE," MOTHER? 755 00:38:42,275 --> 00:38:43,689 I'M GOING TO IT, AND YOU KEEP TELLING -- 756 00:38:43,689 --> 00:38:44,862 LOOK TO YOUR RIGHT. 757 00:38:44,862 --> 00:38:47,172 [ SIGHS ] [BLEEP] 758 00:38:47,172 --> 00:38:49,931 -IT'S RIGHT DOWN THERE. -YOU MEAN MY LEFT? 759 00:38:49,931 --> 00:38:51,758 GOD, I SAW IT. 760 00:38:51,758 --> 00:38:56,206 I DIDN'T KNOW YOU SAW IT. YOU DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING. 761 00:38:56,206 --> 00:38:58,275 Barbara: I DON'T THINK I WAS THE BEST CHOICE 762 00:38:58,275 --> 00:39:02,206 TO COME DOWN HERE AND LIVE WITH SARAH FOR A YEAR. 763 00:39:02,206 --> 00:39:05,000 WE'RE TRYING TO GET ALONG SINCE WE'RE IN SUCH CLOSE QUARTERS, 764 00:39:05,000 --> 00:39:09,620 AND WE'RE GOING TO BE TOGETHER FOR THE NEXT YEAR, AT LEAST, 765 00:39:09,620 --> 00:39:11,379 BUT WE HAVE OUR MOMENTS, 766 00:39:11,379 --> 00:39:14,551 AND SHE TAKES ALL OF HER ANGER AND FRUSTRATION OUT ON ME. 767 00:39:14,551 --> 00:39:16,620 SHE ALWAYS HAS. 768 00:39:16,620 --> 00:39:19,413 ♪♪ 769 00:39:19,413 --> 00:39:21,310 Sarah: THANK GOD WE'RE HERE. 770 00:39:21,310 --> 00:39:24,517 I JUST WANT TO GET TO OUR APARTMENT AND REST. 771 00:39:24,517 --> 00:39:26,655 DO THEY FEEL STURDY ENOUGH? 772 00:39:26,655 --> 00:39:27,655 YEAH. 773 00:39:27,655 --> 00:39:30,172 WHY ARE THEY SHAKING? [BLEEP] 774 00:39:30,172 --> 00:39:31,551 THEY'RE FINE. 775 00:39:31,551 --> 00:39:33,310 [ PANTING ] 776 00:39:33,310 --> 00:39:35,034 I AM EXHAUSTED. 777 00:39:35,034 --> 00:39:37,551 I'M ALREADY COMPLETELY OUT OF BREATH. 778 00:39:37,551 --> 00:39:39,965 MY KNEES HURT. MY BACK HURTS. 779 00:39:39,965 --> 00:39:44,586 MY ANKLES, EVERYTHING KIND OF ACHES. 780 00:39:44,586 --> 00:39:47,655 BUT AT THIS POINT, I JUST NEED TO GET IN A COMFY CHAIR 781 00:39:47,655 --> 00:39:51,310 LIKE THE ONE I HAD AT HOME AND REST. 782 00:39:51,310 --> 00:39:53,137 ME AND MY MOM WENT ONLINE LAST WEEK 783 00:39:53,137 --> 00:39:55,793 AND BOUGHT SOME FROM A FURNITURE STORE HERE IN HOUSTON, 784 00:39:55,793 --> 00:39:57,931 TO HAVE THEM DELIVERED WHEN WE ARRIVED, 785 00:39:57,931 --> 00:40:00,758 BUT THEY'RE STILL NOT HERE YET. 786 00:40:00,758 --> 00:40:04,068 OKAY, SO, I GUESS I CALL THEM. 787 00:40:04,068 --> 00:40:05,137 [ Ringing ] 788 00:40:05,137 --> 00:40:05,827 This is Robert. 789 00:40:05,827 --> 00:40:07,551 HEY, THIS IS SARAH. 790 00:40:07,551 --> 00:40:10,448 WE ARE READY FOR THE FURNITURE. 791 00:40:10,448 --> 00:40:12,068 162. 792 00:40:12,068 --> 00:40:13,379 160-- okay. 793 00:40:13,379 --> 00:40:15,448 162, YEAH. 794 00:40:15,448 --> 00:40:18,586 ♪♪ 795 00:40:18,586 --> 00:40:21,206 THANK GOD THEY'RE HERE 796 00:40:21,206 --> 00:40:25,068 BECAUSE I JUST NEED TO SIT DOWN. 797 00:40:25,068 --> 00:40:27,413 WHERE ARE WE GOING TO PUT IT? 798 00:40:27,413 --> 00:40:30,000 WE'LL HAVE TO PUT THEM OVER THERE. 799 00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:34,000 Sarah: I JUST NEED TO REST AND GET MY STRENGTH BACK, 800 00:40:34,000 --> 00:40:36,482 AND I'M HOPING THIS ALL ISN'T FOR NOTHING, 801 00:40:36,482 --> 00:40:39,137 BECAUSE IF I CAN'T GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY SOON, 802 00:40:39,137 --> 00:40:41,655 THEN MY MOM SAYS WE'RE GOING BACK. 803 00:40:41,655 --> 00:40:43,724 -THANK YOU. -NO PROBLEM. 804 00:40:43,724 --> 00:40:46,551 ♪♪ 805 00:40:46,551 --> 00:40:51,137 I HAVE THREE DAYS UNTIL I SEE DR. NOW FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT, 806 00:40:51,137 --> 00:40:55,241 AND I HAVE TO TRY AND STICK WITH MY DIET UNTIL THEN, 807 00:40:55,241 --> 00:40:59,655 BUT THE TRIP DOWN MADE IT HARD NOT TO EAT FAST FOOD, 808 00:40:59,655 --> 00:41:05,620 SO I KNOW I NEED TO WORK HARD TO UNDO THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS. 809 00:41:05,620 --> 00:41:07,758 WHERE DO YOU WANT TO PUT EVERYTHING? 810 00:41:07,758 --> 00:41:09,068 I DON'T KNOW. 811 00:41:09,068 --> 00:41:10,655 WE'LL FIGURE IT OUT. 812 00:41:10,655 --> 00:41:13,965 I'M GOING TO GO AHEAD AND START BRINGING EVERYTHING UP. 813 00:41:13,965 --> 00:41:15,655 OKAY. 814 00:41:15,655 --> 00:41:17,931 HONESTLY, I DON'T THINK IT BOTHERS SARAH 815 00:41:17,931 --> 00:41:20,344 THAT I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING. 816 00:41:20,344 --> 00:41:22,827 I DON'T THINK IT BOTHERS HER AT ALL. 817 00:41:22,827 --> 00:41:26,241 SARAH HAS BEEN DEPENDENT ON ME HER WHOLE LIFE. 818 00:41:26,241 --> 00:41:27,413 I'M KIND OF USED TO IT, 819 00:41:27,413 --> 00:41:29,655 BUT IT'S STILL A LITTLE ANNOYING SOMETIMES 820 00:41:29,655 --> 00:41:31,793 BECAUSE SHE CAN'T HELP ME DO ANYTHING. 821 00:41:31,793 --> 00:41:34,896 I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING. 822 00:41:34,896 --> 00:41:37,931 BUT SARAH'S THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN LOSE THE WEIGHT. 823 00:41:37,931 --> 00:41:39,586 NOBODY CAN DO IT FOR HER. 824 00:41:39,586 --> 00:41:43,206 SHE HAS TO CHANGE HER LIFESTYLE, AND SHE HAS TO WORK REALLY HARD, 825 00:41:43,206 --> 00:41:45,724 AND SHE HAS TO BE THE ONE TO DO IT, YOU KNOW? 826 00:41:45,724 --> 00:41:48,206 IF I COULD DO IT FOR HER, I WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALREADY. 827 00:41:48,206 --> 00:41:53,034 ♪♪ 828 00:41:53,034 --> 00:41:55,551 Sarah: I'M SCARED ABOUT WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN 829 00:41:55,551 --> 00:41:58,344 AND THAT EITHER DR. NOW WILL GIVE UP ON ME 830 00:41:58,344 --> 00:42:03,724 OR MY MOM WILL BECAUSE I KNOW SHE'S ALREADY READY TO GO BACK. 831 00:42:03,724 --> 00:42:06,482 ALL WE'VE DONE IS FIGHT THE WHOLE WAY HERE, 832 00:42:06,482 --> 00:42:08,068 AND NEITHER OF US ARE LOOKING FORWARD 833 00:42:08,068 --> 00:42:11,275 TO BEING HERE TOGETHER FOR A YEAR, 834 00:42:11,275 --> 00:42:12,758 BUT THIS IS WHAT I NEED, 835 00:42:12,758 --> 00:42:16,137 AND I KNOW IT'S ALL RIDING ON MY WEIGH-IN IN A FEW DAYS. 836 00:42:16,137 --> 00:42:21,724 ♪♪ 837 00:42:21,724 --> 00:42:25,034 [ SIGHS ] WOW. 838 00:42:25,034 --> 00:42:27,586 Barbara: IT'S NOT A GOOD SIGN THAT WE JUST GOT TO HOUSTON, 839 00:42:27,586 --> 00:42:31,862 I'M ALREADY FINDING BAGS OF CANDY AND COOKIES. 840 00:42:31,862 --> 00:42:34,689 EVERYBODY IS BENDING OVER BACKWARDS TO HELP HER OUT. 841 00:42:34,689 --> 00:42:38,379 SHE NEEDS TO DO HER PART. 842 00:42:38,379 --> 00:42:40,000 LOOK WHAT I JUST FOUND. 843 00:42:40,000 --> 00:42:42,137 YES. I GOT THAT LAST NIGHT AT THE HOTEL 844 00:42:42,137 --> 00:42:43,448 BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW -- 845 00:42:43,448 --> 00:42:45,310 LIKE, FOUR, FIVE BAGS OF CANDY AND TWO BAGS OF COOKIES. 846 00:42:45,310 --> 00:42:47,827 BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW HOW LONG WE WOULDN'T HAVE FOOD HERE. 847 00:42:47,827 --> 00:42:49,896 YOU KNEW WE WERE GOING TO THE STORE TODAY. 848 00:42:49,896 --> 00:42:54,344 AND YOU KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO EAT MOST OF THAT ANYWAYS. 849 00:42:54,344 --> 00:42:56,482 YOU DIDN'T TELL ME YOU HAD ALL THIS. 850 00:42:56,482 --> 00:42:58,551 I TOLD YOU I GOT SNACKS LAST NIGHT. 851 00:42:58,551 --> 00:42:59,793 NO. YOU DIDN'T. 852 00:42:59,793 --> 00:43:01,551 YES, I DID. 853 00:43:01,551 --> 00:43:03,379 WELL, I'M JUST GOING TO THROW IT AWAY. 854 00:43:03,379 --> 00:43:05,068 NO YOU WON'T. YOU'LL KEEP IT IN YOUR DRAWER. 855 00:43:05,068 --> 00:43:06,241 NO. I WILL. I AM. 856 00:43:06,241 --> 00:43:11,827 OKAY. THAT'S A LIE. 857 00:43:11,827 --> 00:43:14,586 SARAH COMPLETELY IGNORES EVERYTHING I SAY TO HER, 858 00:43:14,586 --> 00:43:16,413 OR SHE ARGUES, 859 00:43:16,413 --> 00:43:19,551 OR SHE'LL SAY SOME NASTY COMMENT AND THEN DO WHAT SHE WANTS. 860 00:43:19,551 --> 00:43:21,068 I GUESS, TO HELP SARAH, 861 00:43:21,068 --> 00:43:23,379 I'M GOING TO HAVE TO PROBABLY CHANGE EVERYTHING 862 00:43:23,379 --> 00:43:25,758 ABOUT THE WAY I EAT, ALSO, BECAUSE I DON'T THINK 863 00:43:25,758 --> 00:43:30,000 I CAN EAT THE WAY I DO AND SARAH NOT BE TEMPTED, 864 00:43:30,000 --> 00:43:33,827 BUT I THINK SHE NEEDS TO TAKE IT WAY MORE SERIOUSLY THAN SHE DOES 865 00:43:33,827 --> 00:43:36,344 BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T, SHE'S GOING TO FAIL. 866 00:43:36,344 --> 00:43:40,689 ♪♪ 867 00:43:40,689 --> 00:43:45,103 ♪♪ 868 00:43:45,103 --> 00:43:48,793 Sarah: I'M HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW FOR MY FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT, 869 00:43:48,793 --> 00:43:53,103 AND I'M EXTREMELY NERVOUS. 870 00:43:53,103 --> 00:43:57,724 SO MUCH IS RIDING ON THIS, 871 00:43:57,724 --> 00:44:00,482 AND I JUST KNOW WITH ALL THE TENSION BETWEEN ME AND MY MOM 872 00:44:00,482 --> 00:44:03,758 AND HOW HARD IT IS FOR HER TO BE DOWN HERE 873 00:44:03,758 --> 00:44:07,620 THAT SHE'S NOT GOING TO STAY IF I'M NOT DOING THIS. 874 00:44:07,620 --> 00:44:10,172 SO I'M REALLY HOPING THIS WEIGH-IN ISN'T BAD 875 00:44:10,172 --> 00:44:13,137 AND THAT I CAN GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY. 876 00:44:13,137 --> 00:44:15,068 SARAH NEELEY? 877 00:44:15,068 --> 00:44:18,413 BUT I NEED TO BE AT OR BELOW 582, 878 00:44:18,413 --> 00:44:21,862 AND I REALLY HOPE I'M AT LEAST CLOSE TO THAT. 879 00:44:21,862 --> 00:44:26,275 ♪♪ 880 00:44:26,275 --> 00:44:30,655 ♪♪ 881 00:44:30,655 --> 00:44:33,206 THAT'S DISAPPOINTING, 882 00:44:33,206 --> 00:44:35,448 AND I'M GUESSING THIS APPOINTMENT IS PROBABLY 883 00:44:35,448 --> 00:44:37,965 NOT GOING TO GO WELL. 884 00:44:37,965 --> 00:44:43,896 I JUST HOPE I DIDN'T MESS THIS ALL UP. 885 00:44:43,896 --> 00:44:45,586 -HELLO. -HI. 886 00:44:45,586 --> 00:44:46,482 HOW ARE YOU DOING? 887 00:44:46,482 --> 00:44:47,931 -GOOD. -AND WHO IS THIS? 888 00:44:47,931 --> 00:44:49,931 -THIS IS MY MOM. -NICE TO MEET YOU. I'M BARB. 889 00:44:49,931 --> 00:44:51,206 NICE TO MEET YOU. 890 00:44:51,206 --> 00:44:54,896 SO YOU TOOK TWO MONTHS TO GET BACK HERE... 891 00:44:54,896 --> 00:44:56,344 YES. 892 00:44:56,344 --> 00:44:59,344 ...AND NOT ONLY DID YOU MISS YOUR 60-POUND WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL, 893 00:44:59,344 --> 00:45:01,931 BUT YOU GAINED 11 POUNDS, AND THAT'S... 894 00:45:01,931 --> 00:45:05,034 -NO. I KNOW. I MESSED UP. -...SIGNIFICANT. 895 00:45:05,034 --> 00:45:06,620 SO WHAT HAPPENED? 896 00:45:06,620 --> 00:45:07,965 WE'VE BEEN EATING OUT A LOT. 897 00:45:07,965 --> 00:45:10,000 YOU KNOW, BECAUSE WE'VE, YOU KNOW, 898 00:45:10,000 --> 00:45:11,827 BEEN TRAVELING THESE LAST FEW DAYS, BUT... 899 00:45:11,827 --> 00:45:14,000 YOU KNOW THAT'S NO EXCUSE, 900 00:45:14,000 --> 00:45:17,137 AND THAT HASN'T BEEN THE CASE IN PAST TWO MONTHS. 901 00:45:17,137 --> 00:45:18,827 YOU JUST MOVED DOWN HERE. 902 00:45:18,827 --> 00:45:19,793 I KNOW. 903 00:45:19,793 --> 00:45:21,448 BUT I'M ALSO CONCERNED ABOUT THAT 904 00:45:21,448 --> 00:45:23,551 BECAUSE INSTEAD OF BRINGING YOUR SISTER, 905 00:45:23,551 --> 00:45:25,206 YOU BROUGHT YOUR ENABLER. 906 00:45:25,206 --> 00:45:26,827 WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR SISTER? 907 00:45:26,827 --> 00:45:29,137 SHE DIDN'T THINK I WAS TRYING HARD ENOUGH. 908 00:45:29,137 --> 00:45:32,172 SHE FREAKED OUT AND DIDN'T WANT TO COME ANYMORE, 909 00:45:32,172 --> 00:45:33,344 SO NOW MY MOM IS WITH ME. 910 00:45:33,344 --> 00:45:36,827 SO NOW MOM IS GOING TO KEEP YOU ON TRACK? 911 00:45:36,827 --> 00:45:37,793 YES. 912 00:45:37,793 --> 00:45:39,689 BECAUSE, ACCORDING TO SARAH, 913 00:45:39,689 --> 00:45:42,034 THAT HAS NOT BEEN THE CASE IN THE PAST. 914 00:45:42,034 --> 00:45:44,689 YOU'RE THE ONE WHO BRINGS HER THE FOOD, 915 00:45:44,689 --> 00:45:47,068 SO YOU'RE GOING TO HELP HER TO LOSE WEIGHT NOW? 916 00:45:47,068 --> 00:45:48,551 I'M GOING TO TRY TO HELP HER. 917 00:45:48,551 --> 00:45:51,103 Y'ALL GOING TO COOK AT HOME, OR ARE YOU GOING TO EAT OUT? 918 00:45:51,103 --> 00:45:52,551 WE'RE GOING TO COOK AT HOME. 919 00:45:52,551 --> 00:45:55,586 OKAY, I'M GONNA GIVE YOU A COPY OF THE DIET, TOO, 920 00:45:55,586 --> 00:45:57,103 AND I WANT YOU TO LEARN IT, 921 00:45:57,103 --> 00:46:00,275 AND I WANT TO ENCOURAGE BOTH OF YOU TO GO ON IT, 922 00:46:00,275 --> 00:46:03,068 BUT AT A MINIMUM, YOU NEED TO HELP SARAH 923 00:46:03,068 --> 00:46:05,724 STICK WITH IT WITH WHAT YOU PREPARE. 924 00:46:05,724 --> 00:46:07,724 IF YOU DON'T, YOU'RE GOING TO BE 925 00:46:07,724 --> 00:46:10,551 BURYING YOUR DAUGHTER IN NEAR FUTURE. 926 00:46:10,551 --> 00:46:11,827 DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 927 00:46:11,827 --> 00:46:13,310 YEAH, DEFINITELY. 928 00:46:13,310 --> 00:46:16,793 YOU TWO NEED TO CHANGE YOUR DYNAMIC NOW. 929 00:46:16,793 --> 00:46:18,965 SO TO MAKE SURE THAT'S HAPPENING, 930 00:46:18,965 --> 00:46:21,896 I'M SENDING YOU BOTH TO START PSYCHOTHERAPY 931 00:46:21,896 --> 00:46:23,655 TOGETHER IMMEDIATELY... 932 00:46:23,655 --> 00:46:25,793 -OKAY. -...SO WE CAN ADDRESS THIS 933 00:46:25,793 --> 00:46:28,862 BEFORE YOUR SITUATION GETS WORSE. 934 00:46:28,862 --> 00:46:33,068 SARAH, DO YOU REMEMBER HOW SERIOUS YOUR SITUATION IS? 935 00:46:33,068 --> 00:46:36,758 YOU'RE 25, BUT YOU GOT THE DISEASES OF PEOPLE 936 00:46:36,758 --> 00:46:38,482 IN 40s AND 50s. 937 00:46:38,482 --> 00:46:39,655 MM-HMM. 938 00:46:39,655 --> 00:46:42,413 SO YOUR LIFE SPAN IS NOT VERY LONG RIGHT NOW. 939 00:46:42,413 --> 00:46:43,586 YEAH. 940 00:46:43,586 --> 00:46:46,137 SO YOU NEED TO GET CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE, 941 00:46:46,137 --> 00:46:47,896 AND YOU NEED TO MOTIVATE YOURSELF. 942 00:46:47,896 --> 00:46:50,103 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO MAKE SOME DECISIONS, 943 00:46:50,103 --> 00:46:52,517 AND YOU'VE GOT TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALL THE CHOICES 944 00:46:52,517 --> 00:46:54,310 YOU'RE MAKING. YOU UNDERSTAND ME? 945 00:46:54,310 --> 00:46:56,862 -OKAY. -SO I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU 946 00:46:56,862 --> 00:47:00,137 TWO MONTHS AGAIN, AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE 60 POUNDS. 947 00:47:00,137 --> 00:47:02,103 IF YOU STICK WITH THE 1,200-CALORIE, 948 00:47:02,103 --> 00:47:04,241 YOU CAN EASILY DO THAT, OKAY? 949 00:47:04,241 --> 00:47:06,655 AND YOU NEED TO DO YOUR EXERCISES, 950 00:47:06,655 --> 00:47:10,103 SOME AEROBIC, UPPER-BODY, AND THEN WALKING 951 00:47:10,103 --> 00:47:12,862 AT LEAST 20, 30 MINUTES TWICE A DAY. 952 00:47:12,862 --> 00:47:15,137 YOU THINK YOU CAN MAKE ALL THOSE CHANGES? 953 00:47:15,137 --> 00:47:16,344 YES. I CAN. 954 00:47:16,344 --> 00:47:18,413 THAT'S GOOD, BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO DO THIS. 955 00:47:18,413 --> 00:47:19,965 I'M GOING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT. 956 00:47:19,965 --> 00:47:22,965 ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU BOTH IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS. 957 00:47:22,965 --> 00:47:24,034 SOUNDS GOOD. 958 00:47:24,034 --> 00:47:25,896 IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, CALL ME. 959 00:47:25,896 --> 00:47:27,620 -I'LL SEE YOU LATER. -THANK YOU. 960 00:47:27,620 --> 00:47:29,137 -NICE TO MEET YOU. -THANK YOU, YOU TOO. 961 00:47:29,137 --> 00:47:32,310 ALL RIGHT. 962 00:47:32,310 --> 00:47:36,620 SARAH IS NOT TAKING HER SITUATION SERIOUSLY, 963 00:47:36,620 --> 00:47:40,689 AND A LOT NEEDS TO HAPPEN FOR HER TO GET ON TRACK, 964 00:47:40,689 --> 00:47:43,206 BUT THE FACT THAT SHE'S MAKING EXCUSES 965 00:47:43,206 --> 00:47:45,827 MAKES ME CONCERNED THAT SHE'S EXPECTING 966 00:47:45,827 --> 00:47:48,620 AN EASY FIX TO HER SITUATION. 967 00:47:48,620 --> 00:47:51,448 SO IF SHE DOESN'T START TAKING THE RESPONSIBILITY 968 00:47:51,448 --> 00:47:54,965 FOR HER OWN CHOICES AND HER ACTIONS, 969 00:47:54,965 --> 00:47:59,206 THEN SHE'S PLAYING WITH AN OUTCOME SHE MAY NOT SURVIVE. 970 00:47:59,206 --> 00:48:00,758 ♪♪ 971 00:48:05,482 --> 00:48:10,793 ♪♪ 972 00:48:10,793 --> 00:48:13,413 Sarah: RIGHT NOW, MY MOM AND ME ARE GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST 973 00:48:13,413 --> 00:48:18,344 TOGETHER BECAUSE DR. NOW WANTS US TO START TO TALK ABOUT THINGS 974 00:48:18,344 --> 00:48:22,793 AND WORK TO HAVE A HEALTHIER DYNAMIC, 975 00:48:22,793 --> 00:48:25,275 BUT ME AND MY MOM HAVE NEVER REALLY TALKED ABOUT 976 00:48:25,275 --> 00:48:28,827 ANY OF THE ISSUES OR PAST BETWEEN US. 977 00:48:28,827 --> 00:48:31,344 AND THERE'S SO MUCH FROM MY CHILDHOOD 978 00:48:31,344 --> 00:48:34,551 THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO EVEN START, 979 00:48:34,551 --> 00:48:39,000 BUT I'M WILLING TO GIVE THIS ALL A TRY AND SEE HOW IT GOES. 980 00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:40,344 -HEY, THERE. -HI. 981 00:48:40,344 --> 00:48:41,689 HI. WHY DON'T YOU COME ON BACK? 982 00:48:41,689 --> 00:48:46,448 OKAY. 983 00:48:46,448 --> 00:48:48,034 [ SIGHS ] 984 00:48:48,034 --> 00:48:49,965 I THOUGHT MAYBE WE COULD START WITH YOU 985 00:48:49,965 --> 00:48:52,310 JUST SHARING WITH ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT 986 00:48:52,310 --> 00:48:57,000 YOUR EARLY EXPERIENCES AND THE ROLE OF FOOD 987 00:48:57,000 --> 00:48:58,551 AND HOW THAT PLAYED INTO YOUR LIFE 988 00:48:58,551 --> 00:48:59,965 WHEN YOU WERE YOUNGER. 989 00:48:59,965 --> 00:49:03,620 FOOD WAS A BIG, BIG THING FOR ME IN MY LIFE RIGHT THEN. 990 00:49:03,620 --> 00:49:04,862 MM-HMM. 991 00:49:04,862 --> 00:49:09,931 BECAUSE MY MOM HAD JUST GOTTEN MARRIED TO THIS GUY, 992 00:49:09,931 --> 00:49:11,655 AND HE WAS WEIRD, 993 00:49:11,655 --> 00:49:13,862 AND I DIDN'T LIKE HOW MY MOM WAS, 994 00:49:13,862 --> 00:49:15,827 LIKE, GIVING HIM ATTENTION... 995 00:49:15,827 --> 00:49:17,448 -OH, OKAY. -...AND, LIKE, NOT ME. 996 00:49:17,448 --> 00:49:19,413 I DIDN'T WANT TO SHARE HER. 997 00:49:19,413 --> 00:49:23,137 SO YOU FOUND YOURSELF FINDING A LOT OF COMFORT IN FOOD? 998 00:49:23,137 --> 00:49:24,000 YEAH. YEAH. 999 00:49:24,000 --> 00:49:25,206 YEAH. 1000 00:49:25,206 --> 00:49:27,586 WELL, A LOT OF TIMES FOOD CAN BECOME A WAY 1001 00:49:27,586 --> 00:49:30,620 THAT WE JUST DEAL WITH OUR ENVIRONMENT, 1002 00:49:30,620 --> 00:49:32,137 AND ESPECIALLY AS A CHILD, 1003 00:49:32,137 --> 00:49:34,068 IT'S A LEARNED WAY OF COPING OR RESPONDING 1004 00:49:34,068 --> 00:49:37,172 TO WHAT WAS GOING ON AT THAT TIME FOR YOU 1005 00:49:37,172 --> 00:49:38,275 THAT WAS STRESSFUL. 1006 00:49:38,275 --> 00:49:40,103 SO THINGS CHANGED? 1007 00:49:40,103 --> 00:49:42,275 HE WAS THERE UNTIL I WAS ABOUT 12. 1008 00:49:42,275 --> 00:49:43,724 -WOW, OKAY. -YEAH. 1009 00:49:43,724 --> 00:49:47,344 LITERALLY RIGHT AFTER HE LEFT, HER THIRD HUSBAND MOVES IN. 1010 00:49:47,344 --> 00:49:49,758 -OH. -YEAH, SO IT WAS FREAKY. 1011 00:49:49,758 --> 00:49:50,655 NO TIME WITH MOM? 1012 00:49:50,655 --> 00:49:52,482 NO, CRAZY. MM-HMM. 1013 00:49:52,482 --> 00:49:56,724 SO TELL ME ABOUT YOUR EXPERIENCES WITH HIM. 1014 00:49:56,724 --> 00:49:59,655 HE WAS JUST AS BAD AS MY FIRST STEPDAD. 1015 00:49:59,655 --> 00:50:03,896 THE WORST INCIDENT WAS ONE TIME HE SAID 1016 00:50:03,896 --> 00:50:05,862 THAT I'D HAVE TO WEAR MY NIGHTGOWN TO SCHOOL, 1017 00:50:05,862 --> 00:50:10,724 AND IT ENDED UP WITH HIM ON TOP OF ME, HOLDING ME DOWN. 1018 00:50:10,724 --> 00:50:14,137 HE, LIKE, RIPPED MY SHIRT, 1019 00:50:14,137 --> 00:50:16,551 AND I WAS SCREAMING FOR MY MOM. 1020 00:50:16,551 --> 00:50:18,724 MY MOM WAS LITERALLY, LIKE, IN THE NEXT ROOM... 1021 00:50:18,724 --> 00:50:19,586 WOW. 1022 00:50:19,586 --> 00:50:20,724 ...JUST SCREAMING FOR MY MOM. 1023 00:50:20,724 --> 00:50:24,827 SHE DIDN'T COME. 1024 00:50:24,827 --> 00:50:26,034 [ SNIFFLING ] 1025 00:50:26,034 --> 00:50:28,172 I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE SHE DIDN'T COME FOR ME 1026 00:50:28,172 --> 00:50:30,655 WHEN I WAS SCREAMING HER NAME. 1027 00:50:30,655 --> 00:50:33,172 YEAH. 1028 00:50:33,172 --> 00:50:34,896 THAT'S ALWAYS BUGGED ME. 1029 00:50:34,896 --> 00:50:38,517 I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER FORGIVE MY MOM FOR WHAT... 1030 00:50:38,517 --> 00:50:40,931 -YEAH. -...SHE PUT US ALL THROUGH. 1031 00:50:40,931 --> 00:50:43,310 I DON'T THINK I CAN FORGIVE HER. 1032 00:50:43,310 --> 00:50:45,275 SO HOW HAVE YOU RECONCILED THAT? 1033 00:50:45,275 --> 00:50:47,862 I MEAN, YOU'RE LIVING WITH MOM NOW. 1034 00:50:47,862 --> 00:50:50,103 YEAH. I MEAN, LIKE, WE'VE GOTTEN INTO ARGUMENTS, 1035 00:50:50,103 --> 00:50:53,275 AND I'VE THROWN IT UP IN HER FACE, 1036 00:50:53,275 --> 00:50:55,965 AND THEN AFTER I DO IT, I FEEL SO BAD ABOUT IT. 1037 00:50:55,965 --> 00:50:59,413 SO YOU DON'T REALLY GET WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING FOR, THEN? 1038 00:50:59,413 --> 00:51:01,448 BUT IT'S GOING TO CONTINUE TO COME OUT, 1039 00:51:01,448 --> 00:51:02,896 AND MAYBE IT DOESN'T COME OUT. 1040 00:51:02,896 --> 00:51:07,137 MAYBE YOU KEEP IT INSIDE, AND IT'S ALL PART OF THAT. 1041 00:51:07,137 --> 00:51:09,379 "THIS IS WHY I GO TO FOOD." 1042 00:51:09,379 --> 00:51:10,793 AND THE REALITY IS, 1043 00:51:10,793 --> 00:51:13,689 THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS THAT ARE COMING UP IN THE PRESENT, 1044 00:51:13,689 --> 00:51:17,689 AND IT'S TRIGGERING THE PAST. 1045 00:51:17,689 --> 00:51:19,689 -YEAH. -MOM IS HERE TODAY. 1046 00:51:19,689 --> 00:51:21,793 -MM-HMM. -SO LET'S BRING HER IN. 1047 00:51:21,793 --> 00:51:23,310 OKAY. 1048 00:51:23,310 --> 00:51:26,172 HEY. LOOK. WOULD YOU BE WILLING TO JOIN US IN YOUR SESSION? 1049 00:51:26,172 --> 00:51:27,965 -OH, SURE. -OKAY. 1050 00:51:27,965 --> 00:51:31,517 -HI. -HEY. HOW'S IT GOING? 1051 00:51:31,517 --> 00:51:33,275 WELL, THANK YOU, MOM, FOR JOINING US. 1052 00:51:33,275 --> 00:51:37,206 WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT LIFE AND FAMILY EXPERIENCES, 1053 00:51:37,206 --> 00:51:40,137 AND THERE WERE SEVERAL EXPERIENCES THAT SHE HAD 1054 00:51:40,137 --> 00:51:43,965 THAT IT MAY BENEFIT HER TO HAVE VALIDATION FROM YOU. 1055 00:51:43,965 --> 00:51:47,896 SO, SARAH, WE HAD TALKED ABOUT JUST YOUR EXPERIENCE 1056 00:51:47,896 --> 00:51:52,965 OF HAVING DIFFERENT MEN IN AND OUT OF YOUR LIFE 1057 00:51:52,965 --> 00:51:57,344 AND WANTING MOM TO BETTER UNDERSTAND ASPECTS OF THAT. 1058 00:51:57,344 --> 00:52:00,344 I GUESS THAT I FELT LIKE YOU THINK 1059 00:52:00,344 --> 00:52:05,172 THAT I DESTROYED BOTH RELATIONSHIPS. 1060 00:52:05,172 --> 00:52:07,137 NO. I'VE NEVER THOUGHT THAT. 1061 00:52:07,137 --> 00:52:09,103 THAT NEVER EVEN CROSSED MY MIND. 1062 00:52:09,103 --> 00:52:11,931 DO YOU ADMIT TO SEEING THINGS THAT THEY DID 1063 00:52:11,931 --> 00:52:13,275 AND NOT SAYING ANYTHING ABOUT THEM? 1064 00:52:13,275 --> 00:52:16,413 YES, BUT I'VE NEVER CONSIDERED EVEN FOR A SECOND 1065 00:52:16,413 --> 00:52:17,758 THAT YOU HAD ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT. 1066 00:52:17,758 --> 00:52:20,758 BUT I'VE ALWAYS WONDERED WHY YOU NEVER DID ANYTHING? 1067 00:52:20,758 --> 00:52:22,275 ABOUT WHAT? 1068 00:52:22,275 --> 00:52:25,586 LIKE THE TIME HE ATTACKED ME AND I WAS SCREAMING FOR YOU, 1069 00:52:25,586 --> 00:52:26,689 AND YOU NEVER CAME. 1070 00:52:26,689 --> 00:52:28,827 YOU WERE LITERALLY, LIKE, RIGHT NEXT DOOR. 1071 00:52:28,827 --> 00:52:30,689 I DON'T REMEMBER THAT. 1072 00:52:30,689 --> 00:52:31,931 IT HAPPENED. 1073 00:52:31,931 --> 00:52:34,379 I DON'T HAVE ANY MEMORY OF THAT WHATSOEVER. 1074 00:52:34,379 --> 00:52:35,862 MM-HMM. 1075 00:52:35,862 --> 00:52:38,413 LET'S ASSUME THAT IT DID HAPPEN 1076 00:52:38,413 --> 00:52:40,241 AND THAT WAS HER PERSPECTIVE. 1077 00:52:40,241 --> 00:52:43,586 WHAT DO YOU WANT HER TO KNOW ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL, 1078 00:52:43,586 --> 00:52:47,379 AND WHAT DO YOU THINK SHE WAS GOING THROUGH 1079 00:52:47,379 --> 00:52:49,448 AS SHE WAS EXPERIENCING ALL THAT? 1080 00:52:49,448 --> 00:52:54,275 I'M SURE SHE WAS PROBABLY UPSET AND SCARED, AND I'M SORRY. 1081 00:52:54,275 --> 00:52:56,931 YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'RE A LITTLE UPSET THAT MOM DOESN'T REMEMBER. 1082 00:52:56,931 --> 00:52:58,655 YEAH. I'M NOT EXAGGERATING. 1083 00:52:58,655 --> 00:53:00,551 I'M NOT SAYING IT DIDN'T. I'M NOT CALLING YOU A LIAR. 1084 00:53:00,551 --> 00:53:02,758 I'M JUST SAYING, I DON'T REMEMBER, 1085 00:53:02,758 --> 00:53:04,379 AND IF I WAS THERE AND DIDN'T DO ANYTHING, 1086 00:53:04,379 --> 00:53:08,758 I'M SORRY, BUT I DON'T REMEMBER. 1087 00:53:08,758 --> 00:53:11,241 SO YOU WOULD HAVE LIKED TO THINK THAT YOU 1088 00:53:11,241 --> 00:53:12,379 WOULD HAVE RESPONDED IF YOU... 1089 00:53:12,379 --> 00:53:13,931 WELL, I'D LIKE TO THINK SO, YEAH. 1090 00:53:13,931 --> 00:53:15,137 -YEAH. -YEAH. 1091 00:53:15,137 --> 00:53:17,517 I'VE ALWAYS LOVED YOU. I THOUGHT YOU KNEW THAT. 1092 00:53:17,517 --> 00:53:21,344 YEAH, AND WE'VE ALWAYS HAD A ROCKY RELATIONSHIP, 1093 00:53:21,344 --> 00:53:24,413 BUT I'VE ALWAYS BEEN OBSESSED WITH HER, TOO. 1094 00:53:24,413 --> 00:53:26,275 OBSESSED IN TERMS OF JUST WANTING HER 1095 00:53:26,275 --> 00:53:29,172 TO BE CLOSE TO YOU... -YEAH. 1096 00:53:29,172 --> 00:53:31,172 ...AND HAVE A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP? 1097 00:53:31,172 --> 00:53:32,689 YEAH, I GUESS. YEAH. 1098 00:53:32,689 --> 00:53:34,758 -LIKE... -YEAH, WHICH IS REALLY NORMAL, 1099 00:53:34,758 --> 00:53:37,137 ESPECIALLY IF YOU FELT LIKE YOU DIDN'T HAVE THAT AS A CHILD. 1100 00:53:37,137 --> 00:53:38,379 WHAT'S PROBABLY HAPPENED, 1101 00:53:38,379 --> 00:53:40,379 WHICH IS REALLY NORMAL IN SITUATIONS 1102 00:53:40,379 --> 00:53:43,000 WHERE THERE'S BEEN JUST A LOT OF TRAUMA 1103 00:53:43,000 --> 00:53:45,620 AND ATTACHMENT ISSUES IS THAT, YEAH, 1104 00:53:45,620 --> 00:53:48,310 WE WENT FROM YOU NOT FEELING ATTACHED AT ALL TO MOM 1105 00:53:48,310 --> 00:53:51,137 TO NOW IT'S ALL MOM, ABOUT MOM. 1106 00:53:51,137 --> 00:53:53,310 "I HAVE MOM IN MY LIFE, AND, MOM, WHERE YOU GOING? 1107 00:53:53,310 --> 00:53:55,310 WHO YOU WITH? WHAT TIME YOU GOING TO BE HOME?" 1108 00:53:55,310 --> 00:53:57,068 -MM-HMM. -"I NEED THIS FROM YOU. 1109 00:53:57,068 --> 00:53:59,689 I NEED THAT FROM YOU." AND SO, YOU KNOW, TO BE HONEST, 1110 00:53:59,689 --> 00:54:03,034 WHERE WE WOULD WANT TO MOVE TO A HEALTHY PLACE 1111 00:54:03,034 --> 00:54:05,586 IS FOR YOU TO BE ABLE, MOM, TO BE OF SUPPORT 1112 00:54:05,586 --> 00:54:07,931 AND TO STILL BE MOM AND TO STILL BE PRESENT, 1113 00:54:07,931 --> 00:54:11,482 BUT TO MOVE AWAY, A LITTLE BIT, FROM THAT PLACE 1114 00:54:11,482 --> 00:54:14,034 OF RESPONDING ALL THE TIME TO THAT, 1115 00:54:14,034 --> 00:54:16,034 ESPECIALLY IF IT'S NOT IN HEALTHY WAYS, 1116 00:54:16,034 --> 00:54:18,689 AND ESPECIALLY IN THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY. 1117 00:54:18,689 --> 00:54:21,137 IT'S, "HOW CAN I BE OF SUPPORT? 1118 00:54:21,137 --> 00:54:24,482 BUT I DON'T WANT TO ENABLE YOU IN THINGS THAT AREN'T HEALTHY." 1119 00:54:24,482 --> 00:54:29,379 YEAH. I WOULD LIKE TO BECOME LESS... 1120 00:54:29,379 --> 00:54:30,758 DEPENDENT. 1121 00:54:30,758 --> 00:54:32,517 OKAY, BECAUSE WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR 1122 00:54:32,517 --> 00:54:35,310 IS FOR YOU ALL TO FEEL LOVE AND SUPPORTED BY ONE ANOTHER 1123 00:54:35,310 --> 00:54:37,862 IN HEALTHIER WAYS SO THAT YOU CAN STILL 1124 00:54:37,862 --> 00:54:39,551 STAY ATTACHED AND CONNECTED, 1125 00:54:39,551 --> 00:54:42,724 BUT YET, BOTH HAVE YOUR INDEPENDENT LIVES, 1126 00:54:42,724 --> 00:54:44,172 AND YOU TOUCH IN A WAY 1127 00:54:44,172 --> 00:54:46,896 THAT YOU BOTH AGREE UPON THAT'S HEALTHY. 1128 00:54:46,896 --> 00:54:48,172 -OKAY. -OKAY. 1129 00:54:48,172 --> 00:54:49,965 WELL, I LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING YOU GUYS AGAIN. 1130 00:54:49,965 --> 00:54:53,379 -YES, DEFINITELY. -YEAH. 1131 00:54:53,379 --> 00:54:56,172 Sarah: I'M A LITTLE SHOCKED THAT MY MOM DOESN'T EVEN REMEMBER 1132 00:54:56,172 --> 00:54:58,413 THE MOST PAINFUL MEMORY I HAVE, 1133 00:54:58,413 --> 00:55:02,655 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH THAT. 1134 00:55:02,655 --> 00:55:04,689 THERE IS JUST A LOT OF DAMAGE FROM THE PAST 1135 00:55:04,689 --> 00:55:09,413 THAT'S BEEN EATING AWAY AT ME FOR SO LONG, 1136 00:55:09,413 --> 00:55:12,413 AND IF FIXING ALL THAT IS EVEN POSSIBLE AT THIS POINT, 1137 00:55:12,413 --> 00:55:16,000 IT'S NOT GOING TO BE EASY AT ALL, 1138 00:55:16,000 --> 00:55:17,931 BUT FOR RIGHT NOW, I KNOW I HAVE TO LEARN 1139 00:55:17,931 --> 00:55:19,586 TO START BEING MORE INDEPENDENT 1140 00:55:19,586 --> 00:55:21,793 AND DOING THINGS ON MY OWN. 1141 00:55:21,793 --> 00:55:25,931 ♪♪ 1142 00:55:25,931 --> 00:55:30,034 ♪♪ 1143 00:55:30,034 --> 00:55:34,172 ♪♪ 1144 00:55:34,172 --> 00:55:36,793 THIS PAST MONTH, I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO 1145 00:55:36,793 --> 00:55:39,448 WHAT THE THERAPIST TOLD ME TO DO 1146 00:55:39,448 --> 00:55:42,827 AND START DOING THINGS ON MY OWN, 1147 00:55:42,827 --> 00:55:46,551 AND THE BIGGEST THING I'VE STARTED DOING IS COOKING. 1148 00:55:46,551 --> 00:55:52,310 I'VE BEEN COOKING HIGH-PROTEIN FOODS AND STICKING TO MY DIET, 1149 00:55:52,310 --> 00:55:55,586 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING WEIGHT AND I'M ABLE TO DO MORE. 1150 00:55:55,586 --> 00:55:58,413 ♪♪ 1151 00:55:58,413 --> 00:56:00,586 ARE YOU HUNGRY? 1152 00:56:00,586 --> 00:56:03,379 NO, NOT REALLY, BUT I'LL SIT WITH YOU. 1153 00:56:03,379 --> 00:56:07,448 Barbara: SARAH HAS MADE A HUGE CHANGE, AND I THINK IT'S GREAT. 1154 00:56:07,448 --> 00:56:11,275 I'M GLAD TO SEE HER FINALLY STICKING TO SOMETHING. 1155 00:56:11,275 --> 00:56:14,620 SARAH DOESN'T NEED NEARLY AS MUCH HELP AS SHE USED TO. 1156 00:56:14,620 --> 00:56:16,827 SHE DOES HER OWN COOKING. 1157 00:56:16,827 --> 00:56:19,620 SHE WASHES HER OWN DISHES, 1158 00:56:19,620 --> 00:56:21,758 AND I DON'T REALLY HAVE TO DO MUCH OF ANYTHING 1159 00:56:21,758 --> 00:56:23,655 LIKE THAT FOR HER RIGHT NOW. 1160 00:56:23,655 --> 00:56:25,241 I HAVE A COUPLE THINGS I NEED TO WASH. 1161 00:56:25,241 --> 00:56:27,827 DO YOU WANT ME TO WASH ANYTHING OF YOURS? 1162 00:56:27,827 --> 00:56:31,931 YOU CAN WASH MY WORK UNIFORMS. 1163 00:56:31,931 --> 00:56:35,896 Sarah: THINGS HAVE BEEN A LITTLE BETTER BETWEEN ME AND MY MOM. 1164 00:56:35,896 --> 00:56:39,413 IT'S BEEN A LITTLE AWKWARD AT TIMES, 1165 00:56:39,413 --> 00:56:44,034 BUT WE'RE GETTING PAST IT, AND MY TAKING CARE OF MYSELF, 1166 00:56:44,034 --> 00:56:47,344 IT'S A COMPLETE CHANGE IN OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP, 1167 00:56:47,344 --> 00:56:49,724 SO WE BOTH KNOW IT'S GOING TO BE A PROCESS 1168 00:56:49,724 --> 00:56:52,344 AS WE CONTINUE TO WORK THROUGH THINGS... 1169 00:56:52,344 --> 00:56:56,862 ALL RIGHT. SO YOUR WORK UNIFORM? 1170 00:56:56,862 --> 00:57:01,689 ...BECAUSE WE BOTH WANT THINGS TO BE BETTER BETWEEN US, 1171 00:57:01,689 --> 00:57:04,172 BUT WE KNOW WE STILL HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO. 1172 00:57:04,172 --> 00:57:07,793 ♪♪ 1173 00:57:07,793 --> 00:57:13,068 IT HASN'T BEEN EASY, BUT I'M WORKING REALLY HARD NOW. 1174 00:57:13,068 --> 00:57:15,965 I'M GETTING UP AND WALKING AROUND MORE THAN THE 30 MINUTES 1175 00:57:15,965 --> 00:57:17,965 A DAY THE DOCTOR WANTED. 1176 00:57:17,965 --> 00:57:21,862 ♪♪ 1177 00:57:21,862 --> 00:57:25,724 I AM JUST GOING AROUND OUR APARTMENT COMPLEX, 1178 00:57:25,724 --> 00:57:27,068 AND THE LAUNDRY IS DOWNSTAIRS, 1179 00:57:27,068 --> 00:57:32,931 SO IT FORCES ME TO GET SOME EXERCISE, 1180 00:57:32,931 --> 00:57:34,724 BUT I'M AMAZED AT HOW MUCH EASIER 1181 00:57:34,724 --> 00:57:39,586 IT'S BEEN TO GO UP AND DOWN THE STAIRS, 1182 00:57:39,586 --> 00:57:42,241 AND AS OUT OF BREATH AS I AM SOMETIMES... 1183 00:57:42,241 --> 00:57:47,103 ♪♪ 1184 00:57:47,103 --> 00:57:50,655 I FEEL REALLY GOOD RIGHT NOW. 1185 00:57:50,655 --> 00:57:54,344 I SEE DR. NOW IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS, 1186 00:57:54,344 --> 00:57:56,310 AND I'M WORKING REALLY HARD TO MAKE SURE 1187 00:57:56,310 --> 00:57:59,689 I HIT MY GOAL THIS TIME. 1188 00:57:59,689 --> 00:58:03,620 I KNOW I'M PROBABLY NOT GETTING ANOTHER CHANCE AFTER THIS, 1189 00:58:03,620 --> 00:58:08,724 SO I'M TAKING IT SERIOUSLY AND DOING ALL THAT I CAN TO MAKE IT. 1190 00:58:08,724 --> 00:58:13,275 ♪♪ 1191 00:58:13,275 --> 00:58:17,827 ♪♪ 1192 00:58:17,827 --> 00:58:19,689 ME AND MY MOM ARE GOING TO SEE DR. NOW 1193 00:58:19,689 --> 00:58:22,379 FOR MY THIRD APPOINTMENT, 1194 00:58:22,379 --> 00:58:26,965 AND I'M MORE NERVOUS THAN EVER. 1195 00:58:26,965 --> 00:58:28,344 I KNOW I'M DOING BETTER 1196 00:58:28,344 --> 00:58:32,965 THAN ALL THE PREVIOUS TIMES I'VE COME IN, 1197 00:58:32,965 --> 00:58:36,448 BUT TO LOSE 60 POUNDS IS A LOT, 1198 00:58:36,448 --> 00:58:40,517 SO MY ONLY FEAR IS THAT IT'S NOT GOING TO BE ENOUGH, 1199 00:58:40,517 --> 00:58:44,034 AND I'VE WORKED AS HARD AS I CAN. 1200 00:58:44,034 --> 00:58:47,758 SO I'M SCARED IF I DON'T MAKE IT THIS TIME, 1201 00:58:47,758 --> 00:58:50,586 THEN IT MAY MEAN THE HELP I NEED 1202 00:58:50,586 --> 00:58:55,034 IS ALREADY OUT OF MY REACH 1203 00:58:55,034 --> 00:58:58,310 BECAUSE I'M JUST TOO FAR GONE AND I JUST DON'T KNOW IT YET. 1204 00:59:03,827 --> 00:59:07,448 ♪♪ 1205 00:59:07,448 --> 00:59:11,206 ♪♪ 1206 00:59:11,206 --> 00:59:14,172 Sarah: I'M AT DR. NOW'S FOR MY THIRD APPOINTMENT, 1207 00:59:14,172 --> 00:59:19,689 AND HE SAID I NEEDED TO LOSE 60 POUNDS TO BE BELOW 593 TODAY, 1208 00:59:19,689 --> 00:59:23,551 AND I KNOW THAT THIS MAY BE MY LAST CHANCE. 1209 00:59:23,551 --> 00:59:26,379 ♪♪ 1210 00:59:26,379 --> 00:59:28,620 AHH, YES. 1211 00:59:28,620 --> 00:59:30,275 -YAY. -YAY. 1212 00:59:30,275 --> 00:59:32,413 -THAT'S GREAT. -YEAH. 1213 00:59:32,413 --> 00:59:35,965 I'M SO EXCITED AND PROUD OF MYSELF. 1214 00:59:35,965 --> 00:59:38,758 PART OF ME WASN'T SURE THAT IT WAS EVEN POSSIBLE FOR ME 1215 00:59:38,758 --> 00:59:41,862 TO LOSE THAT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT, 1216 00:59:41,862 --> 00:59:46,724 SO TO SEE ALL MY HARD WORK PAY OFF IS A REALLY GOOD FEELING, 1217 00:59:46,724 --> 00:59:49,827 AND I REALLY HOPE I'M ABOUT TO GET MY APPROVAL. 1218 00:59:49,827 --> 00:59:51,793 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 1219 00:59:51,793 --> 00:59:52,827 -HELLO. -HI. 1220 00:59:52,827 --> 00:59:54,413 -HI. -HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 1221 00:59:54,413 --> 00:59:56,310 -GOOD. -GOOD. 1222 00:59:56,310 --> 01:00:01,310 ALL RIGHT. SO YOU'RE DOWN TO 589, HUH? 1223 01:00:01,310 --> 01:00:04,103 -YES. -YOU LOST 64 POUNDS. 1224 01:00:04,103 --> 01:00:05,586 -THAT'S GREAT. -THANK YOU. 1225 01:00:05,586 --> 01:00:09,655 YOU'RE IN 500s RIGHT NOW. SO DO YOU FEEL A LOT BETTER? 1226 01:00:09,655 --> 01:00:10,862 I DO. 1227 01:00:10,862 --> 01:00:14,034 HAVE YOU BEEN DOING YOUR BREATHING EXERCISES? 1228 01:00:14,034 --> 01:00:16,724 -YES. -AND YOU TWO MUST BE 1229 01:00:16,724 --> 01:00:21,068 WORKING ON FIXING YOUR DYSFUNCTIONAL DYNAMIC. 1230 01:00:21,068 --> 01:00:23,034 OKAY. SO WE'LL RUN SOME TESTS 1231 01:00:23,034 --> 01:00:25,310 AND MAKE SURE EVERYTHING LOOKS GOOD, 1232 01:00:25,310 --> 01:00:29,103 AND IF IT IS, I'M APPROVING YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1233 01:00:29,103 --> 01:00:29,931 -OKAY. -OKAY? 1234 01:00:29,931 --> 01:00:31,034 OKAY. 1235 01:00:31,034 --> 01:00:32,758 SO WE'LL GET YOU SCHEDULED FOR NEXT WEEK. 1236 01:00:32,758 --> 01:00:34,517 -OKAY. -BUT IN THE MEANTIME, 1237 01:00:34,517 --> 01:00:37,275 DON'T LET YOUR GUARD DOWN AND START EATING AGAIN 1238 01:00:37,275 --> 01:00:39,793 BECAUSE IF YOU SHOW UP FOR SURGERY 1239 01:00:39,793 --> 01:00:42,620 AND YOUR WEIGHT LOSS HAS SLOWED DOWN OR YOU GAIN, 1240 01:00:42,620 --> 01:00:44,827 THEN I'LL CANCEL IT. OKAY? 1241 01:00:44,827 --> 01:00:46,034 -OKAY. -OKAY. 1242 01:00:46,034 --> 01:00:49,241 SO STICK TO YOUR DIET AND DO YOUR EXERCISE, 1243 01:00:49,241 --> 01:00:52,034 AS WELL AS YOUR BREATHING EXERCISES, 1244 01:00:52,034 --> 01:00:53,896 AND I'LL SEE YOU BOTH IN A WEEK. 1245 01:00:53,896 --> 01:00:55,448 -OKAY. THANK YOU. -ALL RIGHT. 1246 01:00:55,448 --> 01:00:56,517 NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 1247 01:00:56,517 --> 01:00:57,724 -NICE TO SEE YOU. -ALL RIGHT. 1248 01:00:57,724 --> 01:01:01,000 ALL RIGHT. WE'LL SEE YOU THEN. 1249 01:01:01,000 --> 01:01:05,517 I AM VERY HAPPY TO SEE THE PROGRESS SARAH HAS MADE. 1250 01:01:05,517 --> 01:01:09,655 SHE HAS SHOWN ME THAT SHE'S WILLING TO STOP MAKING EXCUSES 1251 01:01:09,655 --> 01:01:12,137 AND THAT SHE CAN WORK HARD, 1252 01:01:12,137 --> 01:01:14,862 BUT WE STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO WITH HER, 1253 01:01:14,862 --> 01:01:17,379 AND THERE IS LIKELY A LOT MORE ISSUES 1254 01:01:17,379 --> 01:01:20,965 BETWEEN HER AND HER MOM THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS, 1255 01:01:20,965 --> 01:01:24,206 BUT FOR NOW WITH HER WEIGHT GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 1256 01:01:24,206 --> 01:01:29,137 I THINK SHE'S READY TO TAKE THIS NEXT STEP. 1257 01:01:29,137 --> 01:01:33,103 I'M SO EXCITED RIGHT NOW, BUT I'M ALSO FEELING ANXIOUS 1258 01:01:33,103 --> 01:01:35,931 KNOWING I HAVE A BIG OPERATION COMING, 1259 01:01:35,931 --> 01:01:39,689 SO I'M JUST GOING TO BE A BUNDLE OF NERVES UNTIL I GET IT DONE, 1260 01:01:39,689 --> 01:01:44,000 BUT I KNOW I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED LIKE DR. NOW SAID. 1261 01:01:44,000 --> 01:01:47,827 I'VE WORKED SO HARD TO GET HERE, 1262 01:01:47,827 --> 01:01:50,275 AND I DON'T WANT TO MESS IT UP NOW. 1263 01:01:50,275 --> 01:01:53,310 ♪♪ 1264 01:01:53,310 --> 01:01:56,344 ♪♪ 1265 01:01:56,344 --> 01:01:58,000 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, 1266 01:01:58,000 --> 01:02:00,068 DR. NOW APPROVED ME FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1267 01:02:00,068 --> 01:02:03,068 IF I PASSED MY MEDICAL TEST, 1268 01:02:03,068 --> 01:02:07,551 AND I WENT FOR THOSE, AND I JUST FOUND OUT I'M ALL CLEARED. 1269 01:02:07,551 --> 01:02:12,758 AND I'M SO EXCITED, BUT I'M STILL NERVOUS, TOO, 1270 01:02:12,758 --> 01:02:16,103 BECAUSE I HAVE MY SURGERY COMING UP IN 5 DAYS, 1271 01:02:16,103 --> 01:02:19,000 BUT I KNOW THAT AFTER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1272 01:02:19,000 --> 01:02:23,172 I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO PHYSICALLY HANDLE SOME FOODS, 1273 01:02:23,172 --> 01:02:24,827 AND I'M WORRIED I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO EAT 1274 01:02:24,827 --> 01:02:28,482 MY FAVORITE MEAL AFTER THE SURGERY, 1275 01:02:28,482 --> 01:02:31,655 WHICH IS TATER-TOT CASSEROLE, 1276 01:02:31,655 --> 01:02:33,758 AND I'VE BEEN THINKING THAT I'VE EARNED THE RIGHT 1277 01:02:33,758 --> 01:02:37,103 TO CELEBRATE JUST A LITTLE. 1278 01:02:37,103 --> 01:02:41,172 TATER-TOT CASSEROLE IS TATER TOTS, CHEESE, 1279 01:02:41,172 --> 01:02:42,655 CREAM OF CHICKEN SOUP 1280 01:02:42,655 --> 01:02:45,482 AND A BUNCH OF OTHER STUFF THROWN TOGETHER, 1281 01:02:45,482 --> 01:02:49,103 AND IT'S JUST REALLY GOOD. 1282 01:02:49,103 --> 01:02:52,103 I THINK THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO MAKE THIS TATER-TOT CASSEROLE 1283 01:02:52,103 --> 01:02:54,482 AND BE ABLE TO ENJOY A LITTLE BIT OF IT 1284 01:02:54,482 --> 01:02:59,827 AND HAVE IT ONE LAST TIME BEFORE SURGERY 1285 01:02:59,827 --> 01:03:02,655 BECAUSE THIS IS A FOOD THAT I KNOW 1286 01:03:02,655 --> 01:03:06,517 I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO EAT PROBABLY EVER AGAIN. 1287 01:03:06,517 --> 01:03:10,862 ♪♪ 1288 01:03:10,862 --> 01:03:14,103 I THINK THAT SINCE I'VE BEEN APPROVED FOR SURGERY 1289 01:03:14,103 --> 01:03:18,517 AND I'VE LEARNED HOW TO CONTROL MY EATING 1290 01:03:18,517 --> 01:03:21,586 THAT I DON'T THINK A LITTLE BIT OF IT WILL HURT ME. 1291 01:03:21,586 --> 01:03:25,103 ♪♪ 1292 01:03:25,103 --> 01:03:28,586 ♪♪ 1293 01:03:28,586 --> 01:03:30,724 BUT I'M GOING TO REALLY ENJOY THIS. 1294 01:03:30,724 --> 01:03:34,586 ♪♪ 1295 01:03:34,586 --> 01:03:38,517 ♪♪ 1296 01:03:38,517 --> 01:03:42,551 I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHY I'M SO OBSESSED WITH THIS DISH. 1297 01:03:42,551 --> 01:03:47,448 I'VE BEEN OBSESSED WITH IT SINCE I WAS 12 YEARS OLD. 1298 01:03:47,448 --> 01:03:49,482 LIKE, I ALWAYS WANTED MY MOM TO MAKE IT. 1299 01:03:49,482 --> 01:03:52,068 LIKE, EVERY DAY, I WOULD ASK FOR IT, 1300 01:03:52,068 --> 01:03:56,655 BUT WHEN SHE WOULD MAKE IT, I WOULD GET SO HAPPY. 1301 01:03:56,655 --> 01:03:57,724 TO ME, IT'S AMAZING -- 1302 01:03:57,724 --> 01:04:00,172 THE TEXTURE, THE TASTE, THE SMELL. 1303 01:04:00,172 --> 01:04:04,068 ♪♪ 1304 01:04:04,068 --> 01:04:07,655 I GET REALLY EXCITED, AND I JUST... 1305 01:04:07,655 --> 01:04:10,551 I'M EATING IT, AND I'M JUST HAPPY WHEN I'M EATING IT. 1306 01:04:10,551 --> 01:04:13,586 ♪♪ 1307 01:04:13,586 --> 01:04:16,689 ♪♪ 1308 01:04:16,689 --> 01:04:22,000 IT REALLY COMFORTS ME, FOR SOME REASON. 1309 01:04:22,000 --> 01:04:25,137 SO I KNOW THIS IS THE MEAL I'M GOING TO MISS THE MOST. 1310 01:04:25,137 --> 01:04:29,965 ♪♪ 1311 01:04:29,965 --> 01:04:34,827 ♪♪ 1312 01:04:34,827 --> 01:04:39,620 AFTER EATING THE CASSEROLE, I'VE JUST FELT SO SICK. 1313 01:04:39,620 --> 01:04:42,517 I WAS SO FULL. 1314 01:04:42,517 --> 01:04:45,137 I JUST STARTED EATING, AND I THOUGHT I COULD HANDLE IT, 1315 01:04:45,137 --> 01:04:47,586 BUT I KNOW I OVERATE, 1316 01:04:47,586 --> 01:04:52,517 AND I KEPT DOING IT FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF DAYS, 1317 01:04:52,517 --> 01:04:55,379 BUT I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT CAME OVER ME. 1318 01:04:55,379 --> 01:04:59,517 IT'S LIKE I WAS TEMPORARILY INSANE OR SOMETHING, 1319 01:04:59,517 --> 01:05:03,689 AND I FINALLY REALIZED HOW MUCH I WAS OVEREATING. 1320 01:05:03,689 --> 01:05:07,931 I STARTED FREAKING OUT AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, 1321 01:05:07,931 --> 01:05:11,965 SO I CALLED DR. NOW AND TOLD HIM I MESSED UP, 1322 01:05:11,965 --> 01:05:14,310 SO HE SAID HE WANTED ME TO COME TO HIS OFFICE 1323 01:05:14,310 --> 01:05:18,724 TO SEE IF I'VE GAINED WEIGHT. 1324 01:05:18,724 --> 01:05:22,931 SO I'M SCARED OUT OF MY MIND RIGHT NOW 1325 01:05:22,931 --> 01:05:28,655 BECAUSE I'M TERRIFIED I'VE LOST MY SURGERY 1326 01:05:28,655 --> 01:05:32,206 AND THAT I LITERALLY JUST MADE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE. 1327 01:05:32,206 --> 01:05:32,344 ♪♪ 1328 01:05:38,034 --> 01:05:42,241 ♪♪ 1329 01:05:42,241 --> 01:05:46,482 ♪♪ 1330 01:05:46,482 --> 01:05:49,172 I'M ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW 1331 01:05:49,172 --> 01:05:53,689 BECAUSE I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT IF I LOST MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1332 01:05:53,689 --> 01:05:54,827 ♪♪ 1333 01:05:54,827 --> 01:05:56,931 Barbara: SARAH IS FEELING VERY NERVOUS 1334 01:05:56,931 --> 01:06:00,793 BECAUSE SHE CHEATED ON HER DIET A COUPLE OF TIMES, 1335 01:06:00,793 --> 01:06:04,034 AND EVEN IF SHE DIDN'T GAIN ANY WEIGHT, 1336 01:06:04,034 --> 01:06:06,275 I'M SURE SHE DIDN'T LOSE ANY EITHER, 1337 01:06:06,275 --> 01:06:08,206 SO I REALLY DON'T THINK THIS APPOINTMENT 1338 01:06:08,206 --> 01:06:13,827 IS GOING TO GO VERY WELL AT ALL. 1339 01:06:13,827 --> 01:06:17,344 SARAH NEELEY? 1340 01:06:17,344 --> 01:06:20,344 Sarah: I JUST WANT TO GET THIS OVER WITH. 1341 01:06:20,344 --> 01:06:24,379 ♪♪ 1342 01:06:24,379 --> 01:06:28,413 ♪♪ 1343 01:06:28,413 --> 01:06:32,448 ♪♪ 1344 01:06:32,448 --> 01:06:34,137 I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW 1345 01:06:34,137 --> 01:06:36,344 DR. NOW IS GOING TO TELL ME THIS IS ALL OVER. 1346 01:06:36,344 --> 01:06:38,241 ♪♪ 1347 01:06:38,241 --> 01:06:40,241 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 1348 01:06:40,241 --> 01:06:42,413 ALL RIGHT, SARAH. 1349 01:06:42,413 --> 01:06:47,068 SO YOU GAINED 14 POUNDS IN JUST A FEW DAYS, 1350 01:06:47,068 --> 01:06:50,413 AND YOU'RE BACK UP OVER 600 POUNDS AGAIN. 1351 01:06:50,413 --> 01:06:51,965 SO TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED. 1352 01:06:51,965 --> 01:06:55,931 I ATE SOME THINGS THIS WEEK I SHOULDN'T HAVE EATEN. 1353 01:06:55,931 --> 01:06:57,620 AND WHY IS THAT? 1354 01:06:57,620 --> 01:06:59,448 I JUST LOST CONTROL. 1355 01:06:59,448 --> 01:07:03,034 DIDN'T I TELL YOU IF YOU DIDN'T LOSE OR YOU GAINED WEIGHT, 1356 01:07:03,034 --> 01:07:04,931 YOUR SURGERY WOULD BE OFF? 1357 01:07:04,931 --> 01:07:06,241 YEAH. 1358 01:07:06,241 --> 01:07:09,137 WELL, AT LEAST YOU DIDN'T TRY TO HIDE IT FROM ME. 1359 01:07:09,137 --> 01:07:10,758 YOU WERE HONEST WITH ME, 1360 01:07:10,758 --> 01:07:13,586 WHICH SHOWS PROGRESS WITH YOUR PATHOLOGY. 1361 01:07:13,586 --> 01:07:15,344 SO THIS IS WHAT I WILL DO. 1362 01:07:15,344 --> 01:07:18,689 YOUR SURGERY WAS SCHEDULED FOR A FEW DAYS FROM NOW. 1363 01:07:18,689 --> 01:07:20,103 I'M NOT GOING TO CANCEL IT, 1364 01:07:20,103 --> 01:07:22,724 BUT I'M GOING TO RESCHEDULE IT FOR A MONTH FROM NOW. 1365 01:07:22,724 --> 01:07:23,862 OKAY. 1366 01:07:23,862 --> 01:07:25,482 AND WHEN YOU SHOW UP FOR YOUR SURGERY, 1367 01:07:25,482 --> 01:07:28,344 I WANT YOU TO HAVE LOST ANOTHER 40 POUNDS. 1368 01:07:28,344 --> 01:07:29,586 OKAY. 1369 01:07:29,586 --> 01:07:31,896 WE WILL WEIGH YOU WHEN YOU GET TO THE HOSPITAL, 1370 01:07:31,896 --> 01:07:33,172 AND IF YOU HIT THIS GOAL, 1371 01:07:33,172 --> 01:07:35,275 WE WILL MOVE AHEAD WITH THE SURGERY. 1372 01:07:35,275 --> 01:07:37,275 IF YOU DON'T, WE WILL SEND YOU BACK HOME. 1373 01:07:37,275 --> 01:07:38,482 SOUND FAIR? 1374 01:07:38,482 --> 01:07:40,172 -YEAH. -OKAY. 1375 01:07:40,172 --> 01:07:41,793 THIS IS YOUR SECOND CHANCE. 1376 01:07:41,793 --> 01:07:44,827 YOU CAN EITHER PICK YOURSELF UP AND DO THIS, 1377 01:07:44,827 --> 01:07:46,586 OR LOSE THIS CHANCE. 1378 01:07:46,586 --> 01:07:47,758 -OKAY. -OKAY. 1379 01:07:47,758 --> 01:07:49,344 YOU CAN DO THIS, SARAH. 1380 01:07:49,344 --> 01:07:53,103 I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 1381 01:07:53,103 --> 01:07:57,655 IT'S DISAPPOINTING TO SEE SARAH MAKE THE CHOICES SHE HAS MADE, 1382 01:07:57,655 --> 01:08:00,379 ESPECIALLY RIGHT AFTER APPROVAL, 1383 01:08:00,379 --> 01:08:02,793 BUT MOST PEOPLE WOULD TRY TO HIDE IT 1384 01:08:02,793 --> 01:08:05,206 UNTIL THE DAY OF THE SURGERY. 1385 01:08:05,206 --> 01:08:07,586 SHE WAS AT LEAST HONEST WITH ME, 1386 01:08:07,586 --> 01:08:09,620 AND I CAN WORK WITH THAT, 1387 01:08:09,620 --> 01:08:11,862 BUT THIS IS HER FINAL CHANCE. 1388 01:08:11,862 --> 01:08:14,310 ♪♪ 1389 01:08:14,310 --> 01:08:18,000 Sarah: I'M DISAPPOINTED, BUT MOSTLY IN MYSELF, 1390 01:08:18,000 --> 01:08:22,448 BUT I'M ALSO RELIEVED DR. NOW IS GIVING ME A SECOND CHANCE, 1391 01:08:22,448 --> 01:08:27,689 BUT LOST 40 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH SEEMS DAUNTING. 1392 01:08:27,689 --> 01:08:31,551 I THOUGHT I WORKED MY HARDEST WHEN I MET THE LAST GOAL, 1393 01:08:31,551 --> 01:08:34,620 BUT IF THIS IS THE CHALLENGE DR. NOW IS GIVING ME, 1394 01:08:34,620 --> 01:08:36,482 THEN IT MEANS I CAN DO IT. 1395 01:08:36,482 --> 01:08:40,862 SO NO MATTER HOW IMPOSSIBLE IT FEELS, I HAVE TO DO BETTER, 1396 01:08:40,862 --> 01:08:43,551 BECAUSE I CAN'T ALLOW MYSELF TO FAIL AT THIS. 1397 01:08:43,551 --> 01:08:47,793 ♪♪ 1398 01:08:47,793 --> 01:08:52,068 ♪♪ 1399 01:08:52,068 --> 01:08:55,137 SINCE SEEING THE DOCTOR A COUPLE WEEKS AGO, 1400 01:08:55,137 --> 01:08:58,482 I'VE GOTTEN RID OF ANY BAD FOOD IN THE HOUSE, 1401 01:08:58,482 --> 01:09:01,965 SO THE ONLY OPTIONS ARE HEALTHY FOOD 1402 01:09:01,965 --> 01:09:05,655 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO TAKE ANY RISKS, 1403 01:09:05,655 --> 01:09:07,931 BUT I CAN'T DELUDE MYSELF INTO THINKING 1404 01:09:07,931 --> 01:09:12,344 I'M AS STRONG AS I THINK I AM RIGHT NOW. 1405 01:09:12,344 --> 01:09:15,241 SO I CAN'T BE AROUND ANY BAD FOOD, 1406 01:09:15,241 --> 01:09:18,241 AND I'M MAKING SURE I KNOW HOW MUCH IS IN EVERY BITE 1407 01:09:18,241 --> 01:09:22,241 I TAKE RIGHT NOW. 1408 01:09:22,241 --> 01:09:27,517 TONIGHT, I'M HAVING CARROTS, WHICH HAS 90 CALORIES IN IT, 1409 01:09:27,517 --> 01:09:31,586 WITH SOME HUMMUS, AND THAT HAS 60 CALORIES, 1410 01:09:31,586 --> 01:09:36,103 AND THEN I'M HAVING ALMOND BUTTER, AND THAT HAS 95. 1411 01:09:36,103 --> 01:09:38,827 AND I'M NOT LETTING MYSELF GO OVER 1 SINGLE CALORIE 1412 01:09:38,827 --> 01:09:42,413 OF 1,200 IN A DAY. 1413 01:09:42,413 --> 01:09:45,827 I FEEL GOOD THAT I MADE THAT GOOD, HEALTHY DECISION, 1414 01:09:45,827 --> 01:09:49,862 BUT IT STILL SUCKS THAT I CAN'T EAT LIKE A NORMAL PERSON 1415 01:09:49,862 --> 01:09:55,586 AND MAINTAIN A HEALTHY WEIGHT. 1416 01:09:55,586 --> 01:09:59,551 I KNOW I'M LUCKY TO HAVE THIS CHANCE, 1417 01:09:59,551 --> 01:10:01,896 SO I'M 100 PERCENT COMMITTED 1418 01:10:01,896 --> 01:10:06,137 AND DETERMINED TO DOING THIS NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES. 1419 01:10:06,137 --> 01:10:08,068 I NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT I WAS CAPABLE 1420 01:10:08,068 --> 01:10:11,413 OF STICKING TO A DIET LIKE THIS, 1421 01:10:11,413 --> 01:10:16,275 SO I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF, 1422 01:10:16,275 --> 01:10:20,586 AND NEXT WEEK, I'M TAKING IT TO A WHOLE NEW LEVEL 1423 01:10:20,586 --> 01:10:24,275 BECAUSE I'M GETTING A TRAINER AND GOING TO A GYM, 1424 01:10:24,275 --> 01:10:25,758 AND I'VE NEVER DONE THAT, 1425 01:10:25,758 --> 01:10:28,137 BUT IF THAT'S WHAT IT'S GOING TO TAKE TO DO THIS, 1426 01:10:28,137 --> 01:10:30,620 THEN THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO. 1427 01:10:30,620 --> 01:10:33,551 I KNOW I MESSED UP, AND NOW I HAVE TO FIX IT, 1428 01:10:33,551 --> 01:10:36,931 AND I'M MAKING SURE I DO THAT NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES. 1429 01:10:36,931 --> 01:10:40,034 ♪♪ 1430 01:10:40,034 --> 01:10:43,206 ♪♪ 1431 01:10:43,206 --> 01:10:46,241 I'M STARTING SOMETHING NEW TODAY THAT'S COMPLETELY FOREIGN 1432 01:10:46,241 --> 01:10:49,103 TO MY WAY OF LIFE RIGHT NOW. 1433 01:10:49,103 --> 01:10:51,620 I'M GOING TO WORK OUT AT THE GYM, 1434 01:10:51,620 --> 01:10:53,965 AND I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO BE PAINFUL 1435 01:10:53,965 --> 01:10:55,931 AND REALLY HARD, 1436 01:10:55,931 --> 01:10:58,068 BUT THIS IS SOMETHING I NEED TO DO 1437 01:10:58,068 --> 01:11:00,034 AND SOMETHING I'M PROBABLY GOING TO HAVE TO GET 1438 01:11:00,034 --> 01:11:02,758 MORE COMFORTABLE WITH, 1439 01:11:02,758 --> 01:11:05,137 AND I KNOW THAT ALL THE THINGS I'M DOING 1440 01:11:05,137 --> 01:11:09,068 AND HOW HARD I'M WORKING ARE NOT JUST TEMPORARY. 1441 01:11:09,068 --> 01:11:11,068 I HAVE TO START DOING THINGS LIKE THIS 1442 01:11:11,068 --> 01:11:14,068 CONSISTENTLY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. 1443 01:11:14,068 --> 01:11:18,103 SO I'M GOING TO DO EVERY EXERCISE THE TRAINER TELLS ME, 1444 01:11:18,103 --> 01:11:21,586 AND I'M GOING TO DO IT AS HARD AS I POSSIBLY CAN. 1445 01:11:21,586 --> 01:11:22,689 -HOW YOU DOING? -HI. 1446 01:11:22,689 --> 01:11:23,758 GOOD. I'M SARAH. 1447 01:11:23,758 --> 01:11:25,068 -DERRICK. -NICE TO MEET YOU. 1448 01:11:25,068 --> 01:11:26,758 NICE TO MEET YOU. SO YOU READY TO GET TO WORK? 1449 01:11:26,758 --> 01:11:28,103 -YEAH. -OKAY. 1450 01:11:28,103 --> 01:11:29,793 SO WE'RE GOING TO START ON THESE ROPES OVER HERE. 1451 01:11:29,793 --> 01:11:30,724 HAVE YOU EVER SEEN THESE? 1452 01:11:30,724 --> 01:11:32,758 -YEAH. -ALL RIGHT. COME ON. 1453 01:11:32,758 --> 01:11:34,206 YOU GOT IT? ALL RIGHT. 1454 01:11:34,206 --> 01:11:36,379 SQUAT DOWN JUST A LITTLE BIT, AND JUST COUNT. 1455 01:11:36,379 --> 01:11:39,551 THERE YOU GO. THERE YOU GO. 1456 01:11:39,551 --> 01:11:41,931 EIGHTEEN, 19, 20, GOOD. PUT IT DOWN. 1457 01:11:41,931 --> 01:11:43,931 NOW WE'RE GOING TO COME OVER HERE TO THE BAR. 1458 01:11:43,931 --> 01:11:45,689 THERE YOU GO. COME ON. 1459 01:11:45,689 --> 01:11:47,206 SO THERE YOU GO. YOU DOING GOOD. 1460 01:11:47,206 --> 01:11:49,137 THERE YOU GO. THREE, GOOD. 1461 01:11:49,137 --> 01:11:51,793 9, 10, AND RELAX. 1462 01:11:51,793 --> 01:11:53,275 THERE YOU GO. 1463 01:11:53,275 --> 01:11:55,379 ALL RIGHT. SO NOW WE'RE GOING TO COME OVER HERE TO THE BOXING. 1464 01:11:55,379 --> 01:11:57,310 WE'RE GOING TO DO A LITTLE PUNCHING. 1465 01:11:57,310 --> 01:11:58,655 THERE YOU GO. OKAY? 1466 01:11:58,655 --> 01:12:00,310 GET YOUR RIGHT HAND ON THERE, OKAY? 1467 01:12:00,310 --> 01:12:01,379 COME ON. 1468 01:12:01,379 --> 01:12:03,034 ONE, THERE YOU GO, TWO, THREE. 1469 01:12:03,034 --> 01:12:07,275 DOING THESE EXERCISES MAKES ME FEEL STRONGER MENTALLY 1470 01:12:07,275 --> 01:12:10,862 AND PHYSICALLY BECAUSE I AM DOING AND ACCOMPLISHING THINGS 1471 01:12:10,862 --> 01:12:12,896 THAT I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD BE ABLE TO DO. 1472 01:12:12,896 --> 01:12:15,310 NOW WE'RE GOING TO PUSH THE SLED. 1473 01:12:15,310 --> 01:12:16,517 THERE YOU GO. 1474 01:12:16,517 --> 01:12:17,793 I WAS EXPECTING TO COME IN HERE AND BE LIKE, 1475 01:12:17,793 --> 01:12:21,448 "NO. I CAN'T DO THIS," BUT I DID IT. 1476 01:12:21,448 --> 01:12:24,517 I DID SOMETHING I THOUGHT I WASN'T GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO. 1477 01:12:24,517 --> 01:12:25,827 KEEP GOING. KEEP GOING. 1478 01:12:25,827 --> 01:12:27,965 AND I FEEL REALLY INSPIRED BECAUSE I KNOW 1479 01:12:27,965 --> 01:12:31,068 THAT I CAN DO ANYTHING I PUT MY MIND TO. 1480 01:12:31,068 --> 01:12:33,724 MY SURGERY IS SCHEDULED IN TWO WEEKS, 1481 01:12:33,724 --> 01:12:36,482 AND WHEN I SHOW UP AND STAND ON THAT SCALE, 1482 01:12:36,482 --> 01:12:38,758 I WANT TO KNOW THAT I DID EVERYTHING POSSIBLE 1483 01:12:38,758 --> 01:12:41,310 TO GET THAT NUMBER AS LOW AS I COULD. 1484 01:12:41,310 --> 01:12:43,413 I JUST REALLY HOPE IT'S GOING TO BE ENOUGH 1485 01:12:43,413 --> 01:12:46,068 TO KEEP ME FROM LOSING MY SURGERY. 1486 01:12:46,068 --> 01:12:51,000 ♪♪ 1487 01:12:51,000 --> 01:12:55,931 ♪♪ 1488 01:12:55,931 --> 01:13:00,931 ♪♪ 1489 01:13:00,931 --> 01:13:05,862 ♪♪ 1490 01:13:05,862 --> 01:13:08,931 I'M A NERVOUS WRECK RIGHT NOW. 1491 01:13:08,931 --> 01:13:12,275 I'M JUST WAITING FOR DR. NOW TO COME AND GET MY WEIGHT CHECK 1492 01:13:12,275 --> 01:13:15,931 AND FIND OUT IF WE'RE MOVING AHEAD TODAY OR NOT, 1493 01:13:15,931 --> 01:13:19,034 BUT I KNOW THIS IS A BIG GOAL TO HIT, 1494 01:13:19,034 --> 01:13:23,482 SO I REALLY HOPE I GET TO MOVE AHEAD WITH SURGERY, 1495 01:13:23,482 --> 01:13:26,068 BUT I'M STILL REALLY SCARED THAT MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1496 01:13:26,068 --> 01:13:28,862 WILL BE CANCELED, 1497 01:13:28,862 --> 01:13:31,793 AND IF THAT HAPPENS, I'M GOING TO BE DEVASTATED. 1498 01:13:39,586 --> 01:13:45,172 ♪♪ 1499 01:13:45,172 --> 01:13:50,724 ♪♪ 1500 01:13:50,724 --> 01:13:56,310 ♪♪ 1501 01:13:56,310 --> 01:13:59,448 Sarah: I'M A WRECK RIGHT NOW. 1502 01:13:59,448 --> 01:14:01,241 I JUST WANT TO FIND OUT MY WEIGHT 1503 01:14:01,241 --> 01:14:04,448 AND THAT I'M STILL GETTING SURGERY TODAY. 1504 01:14:04,448 --> 01:14:05,862 -GOOD MORNING. -GOOD MORNING. 1505 01:14:05,862 --> 01:14:07,241 -GOOD MORNING. -HOW Y'ALL DOING? 1506 01:14:07,241 --> 01:14:10,137 -GOOD. -SO YOU REMEMBER WE HAD A DEAL. 1507 01:14:10,137 --> 01:14:12,068 YOU LOSE 40 POUNDS, WE'LL DO YOUR SURGERY. 1508 01:14:12,068 --> 01:14:13,931 IF NOT, WE'RE GOING TO SEND YOU HOME. 1509 01:14:13,931 --> 01:14:15,172 OKAY. 1510 01:14:15,172 --> 01:14:17,172 DON'T THINK JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN PREPPED 1511 01:14:17,172 --> 01:14:20,034 THAT WE WON'T CANCEL YOUR SURGERY, OKAY? 1512 01:14:20,034 --> 01:14:21,172 OKAY. 1513 01:14:21,172 --> 01:14:24,034 SO LET'S GET YOU DOWN TO THE SCALE. 1514 01:14:24,034 --> 01:14:29,965 ♪♪ 1515 01:14:29,965 --> 01:14:35,413 THIS IS A WEIRD SCALE. 1516 01:14:35,413 --> 01:14:37,551 YOU WERE BACK UP TO 603. 1517 01:14:37,551 --> 01:14:42,482 SO YOUR GOAL TODAY IS TO BE AT OR BELOW 563. 1518 01:14:42,482 --> 01:14:45,551 ♪♪ 1519 01:14:45,551 --> 01:14:48,379 SO YOU DID IT. GOOD JOB. 1520 01:14:48,379 --> 01:14:50,896 WE WILL MOVE AHEAD WITH YOUR SURGERY TODAY. 1521 01:14:50,896 --> 01:14:53,517 -GREAT. -OKAY. 1522 01:14:53,517 --> 01:14:55,413 [ SIGHS ] 1523 01:14:55,413 --> 01:14:57,758 I'M SO RELIEVED I DID THIS 1524 01:14:57,758 --> 01:15:01,275 AND THAT I'M ABOUT TO GET THE SURGERY I NEED. 1525 01:15:01,275 --> 01:15:05,551 ALL RIGHT. SARAH, LET'S GET YOU STARTED AND GET YOU TO SURGERY. 1526 01:15:05,551 --> 01:15:07,034 YOU THINK I'M GOING TO BE OKAY? 1527 01:15:07,034 --> 01:15:08,793 YEAH. YOU'LL BE JUST FINE. 1528 01:15:08,793 --> 01:15:10,241 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT? 1529 01:15:10,241 --> 01:15:15,620 -THANK YOU. -ALL RIGHT. 1530 01:15:15,620 --> 01:15:18,551 -OOH, YOU LOOK GOOD! -DO I? 1531 01:15:18,551 --> 01:15:21,413 YES, YOU DO! 1532 01:15:21,413 --> 01:15:23,000 I HOPE I MAKE IT THROUGH THIS. 1533 01:15:23,000 --> 01:15:24,862 OH. YOU'LL MAKE IT THROUGH THIS. 1534 01:15:24,862 --> 01:15:26,000 Heather: THERE'S NO REASON FOR YOU NOT TO. 1535 01:15:26,000 --> 01:15:28,379 YES. 1536 01:15:28,379 --> 01:15:31,413 Heather: I'M JUST EXCITED THAT THIS IS FINALLY HAPPENING. 1537 01:15:31,413 --> 01:15:34,068 WE'RE ALL TRYING TO TELL HER THAT SHE'S GOING TO BE FINE, 1538 01:15:34,068 --> 01:15:35,931 BUT THERE'S NO WAY TO REALLY GET RID OF THAT FEAR 1539 01:15:35,931 --> 01:15:38,965 UNTIL SHE COMES OUT OF THE SURGERY, 1540 01:15:38,965 --> 01:15:40,655 BUT SHE KNOWS THAT SHE NEEDS THIS, TOO, 1541 01:15:40,655 --> 01:15:45,793 JUST AS MUCH AS EVERYONE ELSE. 1542 01:15:45,793 --> 01:15:48,000 YOU'LL BE ALL RIGHT. 1543 01:15:49,310 --> 01:15:51,655 NO. YOU'RE FINE. YOU'RE FINE. 1544 01:15:51,655 --> 01:15:52,758 CALM DOWN. 1545 01:15:52,758 --> 01:15:54,620 HONEY, YOU'RE GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT. 1546 01:15:54,620 --> 01:15:57,034 Barbara: SARAH IS ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED. 1547 01:15:57,034 --> 01:15:59,793 HER ANXIETY LEVEL IS THROUGH THE ROOF 1548 01:15:59,793 --> 01:16:02,793 BECAUSE SHE'S AFRAID THAT SHE'S GOING TO DIE ON THE TABLE. 1549 01:16:02,793 --> 01:16:04,517 WE'LL BE PRAYING FOR YOU. 1550 01:16:04,517 --> 01:16:07,586 SO I'VE BEEN TRYING TO REASSURE HER ABOUT THAT AND TELL HER 1551 01:16:07,586 --> 01:16:11,482 THAT WE'RE PRAYING FOR HER. 1552 01:16:11,482 --> 01:16:14,620 Sarah: I'M AFRAID THAT MY HEART IS GOING TO STOP BEATING 1553 01:16:14,620 --> 01:16:17,482 OR I'M JUST NOT GOING TO WAKE UP. 1554 01:16:17,482 --> 01:16:19,275 BUT NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP ME 1555 01:16:19,275 --> 01:16:21,758 FROM MOVING AHEAD AND DOING THIS. 1556 01:16:21,758 --> 01:16:24,931 I KNOW THAT I DON'T HAVE A LIFE WITHOUT THIS, 1557 01:16:24,931 --> 01:16:28,068 SO NO MATTER WHAT, I'M GOING UNDER. 1558 01:16:28,068 --> 01:16:31,206 ♪♪ 1559 01:16:31,206 --> 01:16:34,379 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE ARE DOING A GASTRIC-SLEEVE PROCEDURE 1560 01:16:34,379 --> 01:16:36,551 ON SARAH. 1561 01:16:36,551 --> 01:16:38,793 THIS WILL HELP HER TO CONTROL HER EATING 1562 01:16:38,793 --> 01:16:41,000 AND STAY ON TRACK EVEN MORE. 1563 01:16:43,758 --> 01:16:47,655 BUT DOING SURGERY ON ANYONE THAT'S SUPER MORBIDLY OBESE 1564 01:16:47,655 --> 01:16:49,620 IS VERY HIGH-RISK. 1565 01:16:49,620 --> 01:16:51,896 ALL RIGHT. BRING THE LIGHT DOWN. 1566 01:16:51,896 --> 01:16:55,482 THE STRAIN OF OPERATION OR EVEN ANESTHESIA 1567 01:16:55,482 --> 01:16:58,275 CAN PUSH HER BODY OVER THE LIMIT, 1568 01:16:58,275 --> 01:17:01,758 AND ANY NUMBER OF THINGS CAN CREATE AN ISSUE 1569 01:17:01,758 --> 01:17:05,586 THAT WILL PREVENT US FROM FINISHING THE OPERATION. 1570 01:17:05,586 --> 01:17:07,965 SO WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL 1571 01:17:07,965 --> 01:17:10,000 NOT TO PUSH HER BODY TOO HARD. 1572 01:17:12,448 --> 01:17:15,655 BECAUSE IF ANY PART OF HER BODY STARTS TO GIVE OUT, 1573 01:17:15,655 --> 01:17:17,827 LIKE HER HEART OR LUNGS, 1574 01:17:17,827 --> 01:17:20,655 THEN WE MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO SAVE HER. 1575 01:17:25,448 --> 01:17:27,931 BUT IF WE ARE ABLE TO COMPLETE THE OPERATION 1576 01:17:27,931 --> 01:17:30,137 SUCCESSFULLY TODAY, 1577 01:17:30,137 --> 01:17:34,034 THIS SURGERY IS GOING TO BE A BIG HELP TO SARAH 1578 01:17:34,034 --> 01:17:37,034 BECAUSE THE SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY IS AN OPERATION 1579 01:17:37,034 --> 01:17:40,896 THAT WE REMOVE 80 TO 90 PERCENT OF THE STOMACH 1580 01:17:40,896 --> 01:17:45,862 AND LEAVE A LONG, SKINNY TUBE THAT IS SHAPED LIKE A SLEEVE. 1581 01:17:45,862 --> 01:17:49,724 THE SURGERY WILL ALSO ALTER THE DIGESTIVE SYSTEM 1582 01:17:49,724 --> 01:17:51,655 AND METABOLISM OF A PERSON 1583 01:17:51,655 --> 01:17:54,413 SO THAT THE PATIENT IS LESS HUNGRY 1584 01:17:54,413 --> 01:17:57,586 AND CAN GET FULL REALLY QUICK. 1585 01:17:57,586 --> 01:18:00,413 ♪♪ 1586 01:18:00,413 --> 01:18:03,448 Barbara: WAITING IS HARD. I'M KIND OF ANXIOUS. 1587 01:18:03,448 --> 01:18:05,862 ALL KINDS OF THINGS GO THROUGH MY MIND. 1588 01:18:05,862 --> 01:18:07,896 YOU KNOW, IS SHE OKAY? 1589 01:18:07,896 --> 01:18:09,689 I'M TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE, 1590 01:18:09,689 --> 01:18:12,448 AND I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER FOR HER. 1591 01:18:13,482 --> 01:18:14,344 [ MACHINE BEEPS ] 1592 01:18:22,206 --> 01:18:25,103 KEEP PULLING. GOOD. 1593 01:18:30,068 --> 01:18:32,655 OKAY. CAN YOU TURN THE ROOM LIGHT ON? 1594 01:18:37,827 --> 01:18:40,965 OKAY. ALL FINISHED. 1595 01:18:40,965 --> 01:18:43,724 Dr. Nowzaradan: SARAH'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 1596 01:18:43,724 --> 01:18:46,896 SO WE WILL GET HER TO RECOVERY. 1597 01:18:46,896 --> 01:18:48,724 FOR THE FIRST MONTH AFTER SURGERY, 1598 01:18:48,724 --> 01:18:51,172 SHE WILL BE ON A LIQUID DIET, 1599 01:18:51,172 --> 01:18:52,965 AND SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 1600 01:18:52,965 --> 01:18:55,689 ABOUT 25 POUNDS IN THIS NEXT MONTH, 1601 01:18:55,689 --> 01:18:58,793 AND AFTER THAT, 15 TO 20 POUNDS A MONTH 1602 01:18:58,793 --> 01:19:02,241 UNTIL SHE GETS CLOSER TO HER TARGET WEIGHT. 1603 01:19:02,241 --> 01:19:04,413 BUT WE NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT SHE WILL STICK 1604 01:19:04,413 --> 01:19:07,586 TO HER THERAPY APPOINTMENTS WITH HER MOM 1605 01:19:07,586 --> 01:19:09,517 BECAUSE SARAH WILL NEED TO CONTINUE 1606 01:19:09,517 --> 01:19:11,448 WORKING ON HER CORE ISSUES 1607 01:19:11,448 --> 01:19:13,482 THAT HAVE BEEN DRIVING HER TO EAT 1608 01:19:13,482 --> 01:19:16,620 THAT MOSTLY REVOLVE AROUND HER MOM, 1609 01:19:16,620 --> 01:19:19,724 AND THE CONSEQUENCES IF SHE DOESN'T 1610 01:19:19,724 --> 01:19:23,103 IS THAT SHE WILL EVENTUALLY START TO GAIN AGAIN, 1611 01:19:23,103 --> 01:19:23,827 AND WE CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN. 1612 01:19:30,448 --> 01:19:35,068 ♪♪ 1613 01:19:35,068 --> 01:19:39,655 ♪♪ 1614 01:19:39,655 --> 01:19:44,310 ♪♪ 1615 01:19:44,310 --> 01:19:46,551 READY? 1616 01:19:46,551 --> 01:19:49,241 Sarah: IT'S BEEN A COUPLE MONTHS SINCE MY SURGERY, 1617 01:19:49,241 --> 01:19:52,586 AND THE FIRST WEEK WAS REALLY ROUGH, 1618 01:19:52,586 --> 01:19:55,172 BUT AFTER THAT, THINGS GOT BETTER. 1619 01:19:55,172 --> 01:19:57,275 SO I'M FEELING GREAT, AND I'M STARTING TO BE ABLE 1620 01:19:57,275 --> 01:20:00,034 TO DO NEW THINGS THAT I'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE. 1621 01:20:00,034 --> 01:20:03,793 OH, MY GOD. LOOK AT IT. 1622 01:20:03,793 --> 01:20:07,413 WOW. I LOVE IT. 1623 01:20:07,413 --> 01:20:10,448 I KNEW YOU WOULD. 1624 01:20:10,448 --> 01:20:13,241 RIGHT NOW, I AM AT THE BEACH SEEING THE OCEAN 1625 01:20:13,241 --> 01:20:18,862 FOR THE FIRST TIME, AND IT FEELS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. 1626 01:20:18,862 --> 01:20:21,413 I HONESTLY THOUGHT THAT I WOULD NEVER MAKE IT TO THE BEACH, 1627 01:20:21,413 --> 01:20:25,482 SO TO BE HERE RIGHT NOW STEPPING IN THE OCEAN, 1628 01:20:25,482 --> 01:20:29,862 IT'S A DREAM COME TRUE. 1629 01:20:29,862 --> 01:20:32,344 AND I THINK THERE WAS A PART OF ME THAT JUST GAVE UP ON LIFE, 1630 01:20:32,344 --> 01:20:34,172 SO I DIDN'T EVEN TRY TO DO ANYTHING, 1631 01:20:34,172 --> 01:20:37,793 BUT NOW THAT I CAN, IT'S JUST A WHOLE NEW WORLD TO ME. 1632 01:20:37,793 --> 01:20:40,448 I WANT TO GO FURTHER. 1633 01:20:40,448 --> 01:20:43,000 SO I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW, AND I THINK THE BIGGEST, 1634 01:20:43,000 --> 01:20:44,482 MOST IMPORTANT CHANGE IN MY LIFE 1635 01:20:44,482 --> 01:20:47,586 IS HOW MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY MOTHER IS IMPROVING. 1636 01:20:47,586 --> 01:20:48,965 IT'S NICE BEING OUT HERE WITH MY MOM 1637 01:20:48,965 --> 01:20:51,448 BECAUSE WE'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING LIKE THIS TOGETHER 1638 01:20:51,448 --> 01:20:55,000 THE WHOLE TIME I'VE BEEN ALIVE. 1639 01:20:55,000 --> 01:20:56,724 WE'RE STILL GOING TO THERAPY TOGETHER, 1640 01:20:56,724 --> 01:20:59,103 AND WE BOTH KNOW WE STILL HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO, 1641 01:20:59,103 --> 01:21:00,517 BUT I FEEL LIKE OUR RELATIONSHIP 1642 01:21:00,517 --> 01:21:02,379 IS GETTING TO A REALLY GOOD PLACE, 1643 01:21:02,379 --> 01:21:05,655 AND THAT'S WHAT I'M MOST EXCITED ABOUT BECAUSE I LOVE MY MOM, 1644 01:21:05,655 --> 01:21:09,586 AND I'VE WANTED US TO BE IN A BETTER PLACE FOR SO LONG. 1645 01:21:09,586 --> 01:21:12,827 IT'S VERY IMPORTANT TO ME THAT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH SARAH 1646 01:21:12,827 --> 01:21:14,689 IS BETTER THAN IT USED TO BE. 1647 01:21:14,689 --> 01:21:18,241 AS A MOTHER, IT BREAKS YOUR HEART 1648 01:21:18,241 --> 01:21:20,896 TO NOT BE ABLE TO COMMUNICATE WITH YOUR KIDS 1649 01:21:20,896 --> 01:21:23,827 AND GET ACROSS WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO SAY, 1650 01:21:23,827 --> 01:21:28,827 BUT SHE LISTENS MORE TO ME NOW, AND IT JUST MEANS EVERYTHING. 1651 01:21:28,827 --> 01:21:30,793 I AM PROUD OF YOU, AND I LOVE YOU. 1652 01:21:30,793 --> 01:21:32,620 THANKS. I LOVE YOU. 1653 01:21:32,620 --> 01:21:35,793 GIVE ME A HUG. 1654 01:21:35,793 --> 01:21:37,689 Sarah: I'M JUST SO THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING 1655 01:21:37,689 --> 01:21:40,413 AND HOW MUCH PROGRESS I'VE MADE. 1656 01:21:40,413 --> 01:21:44,793 ♪♪ 1657 01:21:44,793 --> 01:21:49,172 ♪♪ 1658 01:21:49,172 --> 01:21:50,827 I'M FEELING REALLY GOOD, 1659 01:21:50,827 --> 01:21:54,068 AND I'M MOVING BETTER THAN I HAVE IN YEARS. 1660 01:21:54,068 --> 01:21:56,896 I'M BREATHING BETTER THAN I HAVE IN YEARS. 1661 01:21:56,896 --> 01:22:02,517 I'M JUST DOING GOOD OVERALL, MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY. 1662 01:22:02,517 --> 01:22:07,310 OH, MY GOD. THAT'S GREAT. YAY! 1663 01:22:07,310 --> 01:22:10,793 I SEE THE PROGRESS I'M MAKING EACH MONTH, 1664 01:22:10,793 --> 01:22:16,068 AND IT MAKES ME MORE CONFIDENT EVERY TIME I SEE THAT. 1665 01:22:16,068 --> 01:22:16,862 -HELLO. -HI. 1666 01:22:16,862 --> 01:22:18,758 -HI. -HOW Y'ALL DOING? 1667 01:22:18,758 --> 01:22:20,034 -GOOD. -DOING GOOD. 1668 01:22:20,034 --> 01:22:23,413 ALL RIGHT. YOU ARE AT 458 TODAY. 1669 01:22:23,413 --> 01:22:24,310 YES. 1670 01:22:24,310 --> 01:22:25,655 SARAH, YOU'RE DOING GREAT. 1671 01:22:25,655 --> 01:22:26,896 HOW DO YOU FEEL? 1672 01:22:26,896 --> 01:22:28,103 GOOD. 1673 01:22:28,103 --> 01:22:30,758 YOU'RE FEELING YOU CAN GET AROUND BETTER? 1674 01:22:30,758 --> 01:22:35,172 I CAN LIFT MY LEG AND HOLD IT. 1675 01:22:35,172 --> 01:22:37,137 SHE'S NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT BEFORE. 1676 01:22:37,137 --> 01:22:40,689 THOSE LITTLE THINGS, ONE BY ONE, WILL SURPRISE YOU EVERY DAY, 1677 01:22:40,689 --> 01:22:43,724 AND EVERY DAY, YOU'RE GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO SOMETHING NEW. 1678 01:22:43,724 --> 01:22:45,068 -OKAY. -ALL RIGHT. 1679 01:22:45,068 --> 01:22:46,793 SO IF YOU STICK WITH IT, 1680 01:22:46,793 --> 01:22:51,689 THE GOAL WILL BE FOR YOU TO BE 190 POUNDS WITHIN A YEAR. 1681 01:22:51,689 --> 01:22:53,620 -OKAY. THAT'S CRAZY. -WOW. 1682 01:22:53,620 --> 01:22:54,620 -THAT IS. -YEAH. 1683 01:22:54,620 --> 01:22:56,793 AND ONCE YOU GET IN THE 300s, 1684 01:22:56,793 --> 01:22:59,551 I THINK YOU'LL BE READY FOR SKIN REMOVAL. 1685 01:22:59,551 --> 01:23:02,241 SO KEEP IT UP, AND I'M PROUD OF YOU. 1686 01:23:02,241 --> 01:23:03,000 -OKAY. -OKAY? 1687 01:23:03,000 --> 01:23:04,034 THANK YOU. 1688 01:23:04,034 --> 01:23:05,586 ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH. 1689 01:23:05,586 --> 01:23:06,241 -OKAY. -BYE. 1690 01:23:06,241 --> 01:23:08,344 -BYE. -BYE-BYE. 1691 01:23:08,344 --> 01:23:11,103 Barbara: 190, THAT'S GOING TO BE GREAT. 1692 01:23:11,103 --> 01:23:12,206 -SKIN SURGERY. -WOW. 1693 01:23:12,206 --> 01:23:14,310 WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MYSELF? 1694 01:23:14,310 --> 01:23:17,655 ANYTHING YOU WANT. 1695 01:23:17,655 --> 01:23:19,275 ANYTHING YOU WANT. 1696 01:23:19,275 --> 01:23:21,827 THIS IS EXCITING. 1697 01:23:21,827 --> 01:23:25,275 AFTER A ROCKY START, SARAH IS DOING VERY WELL 1698 01:23:25,275 --> 01:23:28,586 AND STAYING ON TRACK, SO I'M REALLY PROUD OF HER. 1699 01:23:28,586 --> 01:23:32,344 THE KEY HAS BEEN ADDRESSING THE RELATIONSHIP AND DYNAMIC 1700 01:23:32,344 --> 01:23:34,310 BETWEEN HER AND HER MOM, 1701 01:23:34,310 --> 01:23:37,758 SO AS LONG AS THEY KEEP GOING TO THERAPY TOGETHER 1702 01:23:37,758 --> 01:23:39,862 AND WORKING ON THINGS, 1703 01:23:39,862 --> 01:23:43,827 THEN I'M CONFIDENT THAT WE CAN GET HER TO HER GOAL WEIGHT. 1704 01:23:43,827 --> 01:23:47,620 ♪♪ 1705 01:23:47,620 --> 01:23:51,448 ♪♪ 1706 01:23:51,448 --> 01:23:55,275 ♪♪ 1707 01:23:55,275 --> 01:23:58,172 I FINALLY MADE IT UNDER 400, 1708 01:23:58,172 --> 01:24:00,758 SO ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS FROM EVER SINCE 1709 01:24:00,758 --> 01:24:04,172 I WAS REALLY YOUNG CAME TO SEE ME AND CELEBRATE WITH ME, 1710 01:24:04,172 --> 01:24:08,793 AND WE WENT AND GOT OUR HAIR AND MAKEUP DONE. 1711 01:24:08,793 --> 01:24:11,931 OH, MY GOD. I LOVE IT! 1712 01:24:11,931 --> 01:24:16,586 ♪♪ 1713 01:24:16,586 --> 01:24:18,000 READY? 1714 01:24:18,000 --> 01:24:21,172 I SEE MY FUTURE NOW AS SOMETHING WITH ALL THIS POSSIBILITY 1715 01:24:21,172 --> 01:24:23,206 BECAUSE I'M STARTING TO DISCOVER THE HOPES 1716 01:24:23,206 --> 01:24:26,103 AND DREAMS I NEVER LET MYSELF HAVE, 1717 01:24:26,103 --> 01:24:29,241 AND I'VE NEVER BEEN ON A DATE EVER. 1718 01:24:29,241 --> 01:24:31,034 I HAD NO SELF-ESTEEM, AND I FIGURED 1719 01:24:31,034 --> 01:24:33,241 NO ONE WOULD DATE THE BIG GIRL, 1720 01:24:33,241 --> 01:24:35,758 BUT NOW, I'M FEELING GOOD ABOUT MYSELF, 1721 01:24:35,758 --> 01:24:38,551 AND I'M FEELING A LOT MORE CONFIDENT, 1722 01:24:38,551 --> 01:24:42,172 SO CHINA TALKED ME INTO SIGNING UP TO A DATING WEBSITE. 1723 01:24:42,172 --> 01:24:44,724 -I'LL BE RIGHT OUT. -OKAY. 1724 01:24:44,724 --> 01:24:48,724 IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I HAVE FELT 1725 01:24:48,724 --> 01:24:51,551 REMOTELY THIS GOOD ABOUT MYSELF. 1726 01:24:51,551 --> 01:24:54,655 AND I'M DISCOVERING MYSELF THROUGH THIS PROCESS, 1727 01:24:54,655 --> 01:24:57,379 AND NOT ONLY AM I LIKING THE PERSON I'M FINDING, 1728 01:24:57,379 --> 01:24:59,034 I THINK SHE HAS A LOT MORE POTENTIAL 1729 01:24:59,034 --> 01:25:01,655 THAN I EVER GAVE HER CREDIT FOR. 1730 01:25:01,655 --> 01:25:04,827 WHICH BEST DESCRIBES YOUR BODY TYPE, SLENDER, AVERAGE, 1731 01:25:04,827 --> 01:25:06,758 ATHLETIC, TONED, HEAVYSET? 1732 01:25:06,758 --> 01:25:08,000 JUST PUT SLENDER. 1733 01:25:08,000 --> 01:25:10,310 [ LAUGHS ] 1734 01:25:10,310 --> 01:25:11,517 THIS ONE? 1735 01:25:11,517 --> 01:25:13,448 OH, THAT ONE IS CUTE. 1736 01:25:13,448 --> 01:25:16,413 I WANT TO DO THINGS AND GO PLACES AND MEET SOMEONE 1737 01:25:16,413 --> 01:25:18,517 AND HAVE A FAMILY ONE DAY. 1738 01:25:18,517 --> 01:25:22,034 A YEAR AGO, I WASN'T GOING TO LIVE MUCH LONGER, 1739 01:25:22,034 --> 01:25:24,344 AND NOW I HAVE A WHOLE LIFE AND A FUTURE AHEAD OF ME 1740 01:25:24,344 --> 01:25:27,758 THAT I CAN'T WAIT FOR BECAUSE I'M IN CONTROL 1741 01:25:27,758 --> 01:25:30,896 OF MY LIFE AND FULFILLING THE DREAMS I HAVE NOW 1742 01:25:30,896 --> 01:25:32,241 AND ENJOYING EVERY SECOND OF IT. 1742 01:25:33,305 --> 01:26:33,694 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org