"My 600-lb Life: Where Are They Now?" Bettie Jo and Susan

1 00:00:02,344 --> 00:00:06,620 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 2 00:00:06,620 --> 00:00:08,551 Milla: I CAN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. 3 00:00:08,551 --> 00:00:11,448 MY CHILDREN HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING FOR ME. 4 00:00:11,448 --> 00:00:13,965 Charity: I FEEL LIKE SOME MONSTER. 5 00:00:13,965 --> 00:00:16,275 Nikki: I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. 6 00:00:16,275 --> 00:00:19,034 [ Crying ] IT'S MISERABLE. 7 00:00:19,034 --> 00:00:22,689 Brittani: MY BODY IS THE MOST DISGUSTING THING IN THE WORLD. 8 00:00:22,689 --> 00:00:25,206 ♪♪ 9 00:00:25,206 --> 00:00:26,965 Woman: I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW. 10 00:00:26,965 --> 00:00:30,931 June: I'M RISKING MY LIFE FOR A BETTER LIFE. 11 00:00:30,931 --> 00:00:32,965 I LOVE YOU, MOMMY. 12 00:00:34,000 --> 00:00:40,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 13 00:00:43,551 --> 00:00:46,172 -OOH, CHILD! -PULL. GOOD. THERE YOU GO! 14 00:00:46,172 --> 00:00:47,689 GOOD JOB. 15 00:00:47,689 --> 00:00:51,310 Teretha: I'M GETTING STRONGER, BUT I KNOW I HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO. 16 00:00:51,310 --> 00:00:53,965 Paula: I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. 17 00:00:53,965 --> 00:00:57,620 ♪♪ 18 00:00:57,620 --> 00:01:02,275 Susan: I AM NOW EXPRESSING MYSELF AND LIVING MY OWN TRUTH. 19 00:01:02,275 --> 00:01:04,862 Milla: I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THE PROGRESS I'VE MADE. 20 00:01:04,862 --> 00:01:10,310 June: I AM LIVING LIFE, AND I'M LOVING EVERY SECOND OF IT. 21 00:01:10,310 --> 00:01:13,793 Bettie Jo: WHEN JOSH FIRST HELD HIM, THAT WAS A PRETTY PERFECT SIGHT. 22 00:01:13,793 --> 00:01:15,068 YES. 23 00:01:15,068 --> 00:01:18,034 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 24 00:01:19,689 --> 00:01:27,137 BEING THIS SIZE IS MISERABLE, AND I AM ALWAYS IN PAIN. 25 00:01:27,137 --> 00:01:30,172 I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ON MY OWN, 26 00:01:30,172 --> 00:01:32,551 AND BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, MY HUSBAND, 27 00:01:32,551 --> 00:01:36,620 JOSH, HAS TO BE THE CARETAKER. 28 00:01:36,620 --> 00:01:39,137 IT'S HUMILIATING. 29 00:01:43,620 --> 00:01:47,551 MY WEIGHT IS KILLING ME, 30 00:01:47,551 --> 00:01:51,482 AND I'M THIS WAY BECAUSE OF FOOD. 31 00:01:51,482 --> 00:01:53,448 Josh: I KNOW I'M HELPING KILL HER. 32 00:01:53,448 --> 00:01:55,620 I DON'T WANT HER TO DIE ON ME, 33 00:01:55,620 --> 00:01:59,344 BUT MY BIGGEST FEAR IS, IF SHE LOSES THIS WEIGHT, 34 00:01:59,344 --> 00:02:01,517 SHE'S NOT GOING TO NEED ME NO MORE. 35 00:02:01,517 --> 00:02:07,482 I HATE THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE, AND I KNOW, IF I DON'T CHANGE, 36 00:02:07,482 --> 00:02:09,000 I'M GOING TO DIE. 37 00:02:19,034 --> 00:02:22,068 I'M A LITTLE SCARED TO SEE THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE 38 00:02:22,068 --> 00:02:26,689 BECAUSE I'M NOT SURE HOW MUCH I'VE GAINED OVER THE LAST YEAR. 39 00:02:26,689 --> 00:02:28,448 Dr. Nowzaradan: YOU'RE 650 POUNDS. 40 00:02:28,448 --> 00:02:31,896 YOUR IDEAL BODY WEIGHT IS 120, 41 00:02:31,896 --> 00:02:36,068 SO I NEED YOU TO LOSE 30 POUND OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS, 42 00:02:36,068 --> 00:02:38,206 AND I NEED YOU TO HELP HER. 43 00:02:38,206 --> 00:02:40,620 YOU GOT THAT? 44 00:02:40,620 --> 00:02:42,931 I'M TRYING TO EAT RIGHT, 45 00:02:42,931 --> 00:02:45,275 AND I'VE ALSO BEEN TRYING TO EXERCISE 46 00:02:45,275 --> 00:02:47,206 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE 47 00:02:47,206 --> 00:02:52,000 BECAUSE I HAVE TO BREAK A LOT OF OLD HABITS. 48 00:02:52,000 --> 00:02:55,965 BETTIE JO SEEMS TO HAVE BEEN ABLE TO CONTROL HER DIET 49 00:02:55,965 --> 00:02:58,931 AND GET SUPPORT FROM HER HUSBAND WITH THAT. 50 00:02:58,931 --> 00:03:01,413 ARE YOU READY FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY? 51 00:03:03,827 --> 00:03:06,344 BETTIE JO IS HAVING HER GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY. 52 00:03:06,344 --> 00:03:09,241 THE RISK OF OPERATION IS HIGH BUT IS NOT AS HIGH 53 00:03:09,241 --> 00:03:11,965 AS NOT DOING ANY PROCEDURE ON HER. 54 00:03:11,965 --> 00:03:14,793 BETTIE JO'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL, 55 00:03:14,793 --> 00:03:20,793 AND I WOULD ASSUME, IN 3 MONTHS, SHE SHOULD LOSE OVER 200 POUNDS. 56 00:03:25,620 --> 00:03:27,413 Bettie Jo: I'VE BEEN HOME FOR A MONTH, 57 00:03:27,413 --> 00:03:30,034 AND IT HASN'T BEEN AS EASY AS I HOPED. 58 00:03:30,034 --> 00:03:34,275 JOSH IS THE ONE THAT IS PRETTY MUCH PREPARING MEALS, 59 00:03:34,275 --> 00:03:38,103 AND HE DOESN'T NECESSARILY WANT TO FOLLOW THE DOCTOR'S DIET. 60 00:03:38,103 --> 00:03:40,586 SO YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT. 61 00:03:40,586 --> 00:03:41,793 WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THAT? 62 00:03:41,793 --> 00:03:44,793 HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT WHEN MY HUSBAND 63 00:03:44,793 --> 00:03:47,068 DOESN'T WANT TO DO IT WITH ME? 64 00:03:47,068 --> 00:03:52,448 I CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT SOMEBODY TO HELP ME SAY NO. 65 00:03:52,448 --> 00:03:55,931 Dr. Nowzaradan: I WANT BETTIE JO TO GO SEE A THERAPIST NEXT MONTH 66 00:03:55,931 --> 00:03:59,103 TO TRY TO ADDRESS SOME OF THESE BIG ISSUES 67 00:03:59,103 --> 00:04:02,344 THAT ARE DRIVING HER TO EAT. 68 00:04:02,344 --> 00:04:06,655 SO YOU'RE AFRAID THAT, SOMEHOW, YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS DEPENDENT 69 00:04:06,655 --> 00:04:09,034 ON THE WEIGHT AND THE NEED, 70 00:04:09,034 --> 00:04:12,551 AND IF THAT WAS TO GO AWAY, WHAT WOULD BE LEFT? 71 00:04:25,448 --> 00:04:27,000 Bettie Jo: JOSH'S AUNT AND UNCLE 72 00:04:27,000 --> 00:04:28,965 ARE LETTING US STAY IN THEIR BASEMENT 73 00:04:28,965 --> 00:04:30,793 WHILE WE GET OUR FEET ON THE GROUND. 74 00:04:30,793 --> 00:04:33,482 GIVE ME KISSES. 75 00:04:33,482 --> 00:04:38,103 THERE'S STILL SOME HARD DAYS, BUT BEING AROUND SO MUCH FAMILY 76 00:04:38,103 --> 00:04:41,137 HAS HELPED PULL ME OUT OF A DARK PLACE. 77 00:04:41,137 --> 00:04:43,344 JOSH AND I FOUND OUT THAT I'M PREGNANT, 78 00:04:43,344 --> 00:04:45,827 AND WE'RE GOING IN FOR AN ULTRASOUND. 79 00:04:45,827 --> 00:04:47,517 IT'S A BOY. 80 00:04:47,517 --> 00:04:48,862 HA. IS IT? 81 00:04:48,862 --> 00:04:50,689 AW.THAT'S AMAZING. 82 00:04:50,689 --> 00:04:54,517 I RECENTLY WENT TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM BECAUSE I WAS SICK, 83 00:04:54,517 --> 00:04:57,862 AND THEY NOTICED A LARGE MASS ON MY SPINE. 84 00:04:57,862 --> 00:05:00,793 BECAUSE I'M PREGNANT, THE BIGGER THE BABY GETS, 85 00:05:00,793 --> 00:05:04,310 THE MORE HE PRESSES ON THE BONE MASS ON MY SPINE. 86 00:05:04,310 --> 00:05:07,413 THERE'S A CHANCE I COULD BECOME PARALYZED. 87 00:05:07,413 --> 00:05:09,827 I'D RATHER HAVE A BABY THAN ANYTHING. 88 00:05:09,827 --> 00:05:13,379 WELL, YOU ALREADY KNOW I BACK YOU, WHATEVER YOUR CHOICE IS. 89 00:05:13,379 --> 00:05:17,862 I CAN'T RISK LOSING THE BABY BY UNDERGOING SURGERY NOW. 90 00:05:17,862 --> 00:05:22,724 HIS LIFE IS MORE IMPORTANT TO ME THAN HAVING THE USE OF MY LEGS. 91 00:05:22,724 --> 00:05:26,689 I KNOW WE STILL HAVE A LOT AHEAD IN THE COMING MONTHS, 92 00:05:26,689 --> 00:05:29,103 BUT I JUST KNOW WE'LL COME OUT ON TOP. 93 00:05:29,103 --> 00:05:31,206 MY JOURNEY IS FAR FROM OVER. 94 00:05:31,206 --> 00:05:33,379 IT'S REALLY JUST BEGINNING. 95 00:05:41,137 --> 00:05:48,310 ♪♪ 96 00:05:48,310 --> 00:05:52,068 THINGS HAVE BEEN GOING WELL FOR JOSH AND ME LATELY. 97 00:05:52,068 --> 00:05:55,517 WE'RE STILL LIVING WITH JOSH'S AUNT AND UNCLE, 98 00:05:55,517 --> 00:06:00,172 AND I'M ABOUT 7 MONTHS INTO MY PREGNANCY, 99 00:06:00,172 --> 00:06:02,551 AND THINGS ARE GOING ALL RIGHT. 100 00:06:02,551 --> 00:06:04,827 WE DEFINITELY NEED TO GET SOME... 101 00:06:04,827 --> 00:06:06,724 DIAPERS AND WIPES 102 00:06:06,724 --> 00:06:10,000 AND STUFF. MM-HMM. 103 00:06:10,000 --> 00:06:13,034 BUT I'M STILL REALLY WORRIED ABOUT WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN 104 00:06:13,034 --> 00:06:16,137 WHEN THEY DELIVER MY BABY. 105 00:06:16,137 --> 00:06:18,068 I'VE BEEN LOSING ALL THIS WEIGHT, 106 00:06:18,068 --> 00:06:21,310 AND I GOT TO WHERE I WAS COOKING FOR EVERYONE 107 00:06:21,310 --> 00:06:22,931 AND HELPING WITH HOUSE STUFF 108 00:06:22,931 --> 00:06:26,517 AND DOING EVERYTHING ON MY OWN PRETTY MUCH, 109 00:06:26,517 --> 00:06:28,965 BUT THAT ALL CHANGED A COUPLE DAYS AGO 110 00:06:28,965 --> 00:06:31,379 WHEN I HAD TO GO ON BED REST 111 00:06:31,379 --> 00:06:34,551 TO MINIMIZE THE PRESSURE ON MY SPINE 112 00:06:34,551 --> 00:06:37,137 WHERE I HAVE A BONE GROWTH 113 00:06:37,137 --> 00:06:41,448 BECAUSE, IF IT GETS WORSE, I COULD END UP PARALYZED, 114 00:06:41,448 --> 00:06:44,068 BUT THEY CAN'T OPERATE ON IT TO TREAT IT 115 00:06:44,068 --> 00:06:46,689 OR REMOVE IT WHILE I'M PREGNANT. 116 00:06:46,689 --> 00:06:48,689 YOU WANT TO COME OUT AND GET SOME AIR? 117 00:06:48,689 --> 00:06:52,172 YEAH. COME ON. 118 00:06:52,172 --> 00:06:57,379 SO I'M ONLY ALLOWED TO GET UP ONCE A DAY 119 00:06:57,379 --> 00:07:03,103 TO PREVENT FROM DEVELOPING A BLOOD CLOT THAT COULD KILL ME. 120 00:07:03,103 --> 00:07:06,103 BUT EVEN THOUGH IT'S BEEN HARD FOR ME 121 00:07:06,103 --> 00:07:09,862 WITH ALL MY PHYSICAL ISSUES, 122 00:07:09,862 --> 00:07:13,724 PREPARING FOR A BABY HAS BROUGHT JOSH AND ME CLOSE, 123 00:07:13,724 --> 00:07:17,034 AND I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 124 00:07:17,034 --> 00:07:18,586 WILL YOU GO GET MY WATER? 125 00:07:18,586 --> 00:07:21,275 YEAH. 126 00:07:21,275 --> 00:07:24,793 BUT I'M STILL SO SCARED RIGHT NOW 127 00:07:24,793 --> 00:07:27,172 BECAUSE I CAN FEEL MY BACK GETTING WORSE 128 00:07:27,172 --> 00:07:29,241 AND WORSE EVERY DAY, 129 00:07:29,241 --> 00:07:31,862 AND NOW MY LEGS ARE STARTING TO GIVE OUT, 130 00:07:31,862 --> 00:07:35,517 AND I'M PRETTY NUMB FROM THE WAIST DOWN, 131 00:07:35,517 --> 00:07:36,793 AND I'M SO SCARED 132 00:07:36,793 --> 00:07:40,275 THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO WALK SOON... 133 00:07:40,275 --> 00:07:41,689 READY TO GO DOWNSTAIRS?YEAH. 134 00:07:41,689 --> 00:07:43,758 I'M READY TO GO BACK IN. 135 00:07:43,758 --> 00:07:45,000 ...BECAUSE THAT WILL MEAN 136 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:49,620 I'M LIKELY GOING TO START GAINING AGAIN, 137 00:07:49,620 --> 00:07:54,172 AND THEN I COULD END UP BACK AT 600 POUNDS OR MORE, 138 00:07:54,172 --> 00:07:56,551 AND I SPENT THE LAST 2 YEARS OF MY LIFE 139 00:07:56,551 --> 00:07:58,551 FIGHTING TO CHANGE THAT... 140 00:08:00,551 --> 00:08:03,275 ...BUT AT THE SAME TIME, 141 00:08:03,275 --> 00:08:07,068 I'LL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO PROTECT MY CHILD. 142 00:08:07,068 --> 00:08:08,896 WANT ME TO GO CHECK ON DINNER? 143 00:08:08,896 --> 00:08:10,724 YEAH. YOU CAN GO SEE IF IT'S DONE. 144 00:08:10,724 --> 00:08:12,827 OKAY. I'LL BE BACK. 145 00:08:15,517 --> 00:08:19,275 BUT I'M READY TO GET THROUGH THIS PREGNANCY 146 00:08:19,275 --> 00:08:24,275 AND THEN GET MY OPERATION TO HAVE THE BONE MASS REMOVED 147 00:08:24,275 --> 00:08:27,310 AND GET BACK TO MY WEIGHT LOSS, 148 00:08:27,310 --> 00:08:30,137 BUT THE DOCTORS HERE DON'T WANT ME ON A DIET 149 00:08:30,137 --> 00:08:34,793 WHILE I'M PREGNANT BECAUSE THEY DON'T BELIEVE THAT'S HEALTHY. 150 00:08:34,793 --> 00:08:39,482 SO I'M OFF DR. NOW'S DIET AND IN BED ALL DAY, 151 00:08:39,482 --> 00:08:44,241 SO FOR RIGHT NOW, ALL I CAN DO IS MAKE SURE I DON'T OVERDO IT. 152 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:52,793 AND I REALLY HOPE NOTHING GOES REALLY WRONG DURING DELIVERY... 153 00:08:56,034 --> 00:09:00,793 ...THAT THE WORST-CASE SCENARIO ISN'T GOING TO HAPPEN 154 00:09:00,793 --> 00:09:03,724 AND THAT THESE ARE MY LAST FEW MONTHS 155 00:09:03,724 --> 00:09:07,310 EVEN BEING ABLE TO WALK. 156 00:09:07,310 --> 00:09:11,827 SO I'M JUST PRAYING EVERYTHING ENDS UP OKAY IN THE END. 157 00:09:11,827 --> 00:09:16,275 ♪♪ 158 00:09:16,275 --> 00:09:18,620 Susan: LIFE IS MISERABLE. 159 00:09:18,620 --> 00:09:24,413 I HURT ALL THE TIME, AND I DON'T LIKE LOOKING AT MYSELF. 160 00:09:24,413 --> 00:09:27,965 ALL I SEE IS A FAT GLOB. 161 00:09:35,034 --> 00:09:38,000 Nita: SUSAN HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY BABY. 162 00:09:38,000 --> 00:09:40,586 SHE'S NEVER LIVED ON HER OWN, 163 00:09:40,586 --> 00:09:44,551 AND I'VE ALWAYS HAD TO TAKE CARE OF HER. 164 00:09:44,551 --> 00:09:49,068 I DO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT HOW SHE WAS RAISED 165 00:09:49,068 --> 00:09:52,379 AND WHAT I FELT LIKE I DID TO HER, 166 00:09:52,379 --> 00:09:55,137 SO I TRY TO GIVE HER WHAT SHE WANTS. 167 00:09:55,137 --> 00:09:57,586 I'M JUST MORE DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF RIGHT NOW 168 00:09:57,586 --> 00:10:00,620 BECAUSE I'VE LET MYSELF GET TO THIS POINT. 169 00:10:00,620 --> 00:10:04,034 I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING TO GET MYSELF BETTER 170 00:10:04,034 --> 00:10:07,068 BECAUSE I KNOW I'M KILLING MYSELF. 171 00:10:13,965 --> 00:10:17,310 RIGHT NOW, I'M CONCERNED THAT THE SURGERY IS TOO MUCH 172 00:10:17,310 --> 00:10:19,551 FOR HER BODY TO HANDLE. 173 00:10:19,551 --> 00:10:23,172 SOMETHING MINOR CAN PUSH HER BODY OVER, AND SHE CAN DIE. 174 00:10:23,172 --> 00:10:26,103 IT IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU TO LOSE 100 POUNDS 175 00:10:26,103 --> 00:10:28,000 BEFORE WE CAN DO YOUR SURGERY. 176 00:10:28,000 --> 00:10:31,241 I'M WILLING TO DO ANYTHING. 177 00:10:31,241 --> 00:10:35,551 SURGERY IS MY ONLY HOPE, AND IT'S MY MOTIVATION RIGHT NOW 178 00:10:35,551 --> 00:10:40,275 BECAUSE IT MEANS THAT I CAN HAVE A CHANCE AT A NORMAL LIFE. 179 00:10:40,275 --> 00:10:43,034 YOU LOST 150 POUNDS. 180 00:10:43,034 --> 00:10:44,551 YOU'VE DONE VERY WELL, 181 00:10:44,551 --> 00:10:47,655 SO I'M GOING TO APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY. 182 00:10:47,655 --> 00:10:49,172 YES. 183 00:10:49,172 --> 00:10:53,896 I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST HOPE TO BECOME NORMAL. 184 00:10:53,896 --> 00:10:56,448 AFTER THIS, SHE'LL BE ABLE TO EAT LESS, 185 00:10:56,448 --> 00:10:59,206 AND HER FOOD OBSESSION SHOULD GO AWAY. 186 00:11:06,758 --> 00:11:10,310 THIS WEIGHT GAIN IS UNACCEPTABLE. 187 00:11:10,310 --> 00:11:11,758 LET ME SEE HOW YOU WALK. 188 00:11:11,758 --> 00:11:14,241 Nita: JUST RELAX, AND YOU'LL DO IT. 189 00:11:14,241 --> 00:11:16,482 WHEN YOU GET UPSET, YOU CAN'T. 190 00:11:16,482 --> 00:11:19,379 THIS IS A PATHOLOGICAL SITUATION THAT, 191 00:11:19,379 --> 00:11:22,448 IF SHE DOESN'T TAKE IT VERY SERIOUSLY, 192 00:11:22,448 --> 00:11:26,206 SHE'S GOING BACK TO HER ORIGINAL WEIGHT VERY QUICKLY. 193 00:11:26,206 --> 00:11:28,689 SHE HAS TO MAKE A CHANGE NOW. 194 00:11:32,344 --> 00:11:34,931 Susan: THE PAST MONTH, I'VE SET OUT TO DO EVERYTHING 195 00:11:34,931 --> 00:11:38,379 I CAN FOR MYSELF WITHOUT MY MOTHER'S HELP. 196 00:11:38,379 --> 00:11:41,896 IT HASN'T BEEN EASY, BUT I'M SLOWLY GETTING BACK MY MOBILITY, 197 00:11:41,896 --> 00:11:44,448 AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, 198 00:11:44,448 --> 00:11:47,413 I FEEL LIKE I'M AN INDEPENDENT PERSON. 199 00:11:47,413 --> 00:11:50,448 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY HAPPY WITH SUSAN. 200 00:11:50,448 --> 00:11:54,241 SHE'S STOPPED WITH THE EXCUSES, AND SHE'S STAYING ON TRACK. 201 00:11:54,241 --> 00:11:56,241 I THINK IT'LL BE GOOD TO GO AHEAD 202 00:11:56,241 --> 00:11:59,379 AND REMOVE THE EXTRA SKIN FROM YOUR STOMACH. 203 00:11:59,379 --> 00:12:02,068 IF ALL GOES WELL AFTER THE SURGERY, 204 00:12:02,068 --> 00:12:05,172 SHE'LL BE ABLE TO WALK BETTER AND BE MORE ACTIVE, 205 00:12:05,172 --> 00:12:08,068 BUT WE'RE EXPOSING A LOT OF TISSUE, 206 00:12:08,068 --> 00:12:12,620 SO THE BIGGEST CONCERN IS POTENTIAL FOR INFECTION. 207 00:12:12,620 --> 00:12:15,827 APPARENTLY, SUSAN STARTED HAVING PROBLEM WITH HER INCISION 208 00:12:15,827 --> 00:12:17,103 5 DAYS AGO, 209 00:12:17,103 --> 00:12:20,068 BUT SHE DIDN'T NOTIFY ME OR THE STAFF, 210 00:12:20,068 --> 00:12:23,068 SO SHE DEVELOPED SERIOUS INFECTION IN HER WOUND, 211 00:12:23,068 --> 00:12:26,275 AND NOW PART OF THE WOUND HAS BECOME OPEN. 212 00:12:26,275 --> 00:12:29,413 THIS IS A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION. 213 00:12:29,413 --> 00:12:32,655 WE'RE GOING TO PARTIALLY CLOSE THE WOUND AND PLACE A WOUND VAC, 214 00:12:32,655 --> 00:12:34,448 WHICH IS ESSENTIALLY A SPONGE 215 00:12:34,448 --> 00:12:36,586 THAT PROMOTES HEALING THE WOUND. 216 00:12:42,310 --> 00:12:44,068 YOU SHOULD BE PROUD OF YOURSELF. 217 00:12:44,068 --> 00:12:45,862 Susan: I APPRECIATE YOU HELPING ME. 218 00:12:45,862 --> 00:12:47,586 WELL, THAT'S OUR JOB. 219 00:12:47,586 --> 00:12:48,931 YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY, 220 00:12:48,931 --> 00:12:52,000 AND YOU ARE ALMOST AT YOUR TARGET WEIGHT. 221 00:12:52,000 --> 00:12:53,137 I'M PROUD OF YOU. 222 00:13:04,448 --> 00:13:13,793 ♪♪ 223 00:13:13,793 --> 00:13:17,379 Susan: IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND A HALF SINCE MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 224 00:13:17,379 --> 00:13:21,758 AND I'M STILL AMAZED HOW COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MY LIFE IS. 225 00:13:21,758 --> 00:13:25,655 I'VE LOST ALMOST 400 POUNDS, AND EVERY DAY, 226 00:13:25,655 --> 00:13:29,517 IT SEEMS LIKE I CAN DO MORE AND MORE. 227 00:13:29,517 --> 00:13:36,310 AND ME AND MY MOM, TODAY WE ARE GETTING OUR NEW HOME, 228 00:13:36,310 --> 00:13:42,172 AND SO WE ARE TAKING ALL THE STUFF OUT OF THE OLD HOME 229 00:13:42,172 --> 00:13:45,103 AND THEN TRANSFERRING IT OVER TO THE NEW HOME, 230 00:13:45,103 --> 00:13:47,103 AND I'M NOT STRUGGLING OR GETTING OUT OF BREATH 231 00:13:47,103 --> 00:13:48,655 FOR ANY OF IT. 232 00:13:48,655 --> 00:13:51,586 IT SEEMS LIKE I'VE GOT A NEW LEASE ON LIFE, 233 00:13:51,586 --> 00:13:54,275 AND I'M MORE MOBILE THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN, 234 00:13:54,275 --> 00:13:57,827 SO I'M JUST EXCITED ABOUT ALL I CAN DO NOW, 235 00:13:57,827 --> 00:14:00,896 BUT IT'S NOT LIKE I DON'T STRUGGLE. 236 00:14:00,896 --> 00:14:04,896 THE TEMPTATION AND THAT DESIRE TO EAT WHAT I SHOULDN'T 237 00:14:04,896 --> 00:14:08,068 OR TO RUN TO FOOD AT TIMES IS ALWAYS GOING TO BE THERE. 238 00:14:10,862 --> 00:14:12,551 AND I KNOW, RECENTLY, 239 00:14:12,551 --> 00:14:16,758 I'VE HAD MY BAD DAYS WHERE I HAVEN'T BEEN AS FOCUSED. 240 00:14:16,758 --> 00:14:18,689 MY MIND HAS BEEN ELSEWHERE. 241 00:14:18,689 --> 00:14:23,344 I HAVEN'T BEEN DOING WHAT I REALLY, REALLY NEED TO BE DOING. 242 00:14:23,344 --> 00:14:26,172 I'VE STARTED TO MAKE TOO MANY COMPROMISES 243 00:14:26,172 --> 00:14:27,517 WITH WHAT I'M EATING, 244 00:14:27,517 --> 00:14:29,551 AND I KNOW I'M STILL NOT CONTROLLING IT 245 00:14:29,551 --> 00:14:33,586 TOO WELL RIGHT NOW, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. 246 00:14:33,586 --> 00:14:36,862 AND I'M ALWAYS CONCERNED IF MY NEXT WEIGH-IN 247 00:14:36,862 --> 00:14:39,620 IS GOING TO SHOW MY PROGRESS HAS SLOWED 248 00:14:39,620 --> 00:14:42,620 OR THAT I'VE GAINED. 249 00:14:42,620 --> 00:14:47,103 BUT I SEE DR. NOW AGAIN IN A MONTH, 250 00:14:47,103 --> 00:14:50,758 AND NOW THAT I'M IN THE LOWER 200s, 251 00:14:50,758 --> 00:14:54,551 I CAN ACTUALLY USE REGULAR SCALES, 252 00:14:54,551 --> 00:14:57,310 BUT I DON'T BECAUSE I'M TOO SCARED. 253 00:14:57,310 --> 00:15:00,793 I HAVEN'T GOT ON A SCALE, AND I DON'T GET ON A SCALE 254 00:15:00,793 --> 00:15:03,103 UNTIL I GO TO THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE. 255 00:15:03,103 --> 00:15:06,482 DR. NOW GAVE ME A GOAL FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT 256 00:15:06,482 --> 00:15:09,482 IF I WANT TO GET SKIN-REMOVAL SURGERY, 257 00:15:09,482 --> 00:15:13,137 BUT NOW THAT I'M HAVING A HARDER TIME STICKING TO MY DIET, 258 00:15:13,137 --> 00:15:16,000 IT'S STARTING TO WORRY ME A LOT MORE, 259 00:15:16,000 --> 00:15:20,551 SO I'M JUST NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO MY NEXT APPOINTMENT 260 00:15:20,551 --> 00:15:22,551 BECAUSE I CAN'T MESS THIS ALL UP. 261 00:15:26,517 --> 00:15:34,172 ♪♪ 262 00:15:34,172 --> 00:15:36,448 Bettie Jo: I'VE BEEN ADMITTED TO THE HOSPITAL 263 00:15:36,448 --> 00:15:37,793 BECAUSE I STARTED HAVING 264 00:15:37,793 --> 00:15:41,379 REALLY SEVERE HEADACHES AND STOMACH PAIN, 265 00:15:41,379 --> 00:15:45,931 AND MY EYES ARE BLURRY, AND MY HEART HAS BEEN RACING, 266 00:15:45,931 --> 00:15:49,482 AND I HAVE SOME PAIN IN THE UPPER PART OF MY BELLY. 267 00:15:51,620 --> 00:15:53,620 BUT WHAT'S REALLY SCARING ME 268 00:15:53,620 --> 00:15:55,862 IS THAT I HAVEN'T FELT MY BABY PRESS 269 00:15:55,862 --> 00:15:58,689 AND MOVE IN A COUPLE HOURS, 270 00:15:58,689 --> 00:16:01,586 AND I'M REALLY SCARED SOMETHING IS WRONG, 271 00:16:01,586 --> 00:16:05,275 SO WE'RE JUST GOING TO CHECK HIM AND SEE IF HE'S OKAY. 272 00:16:10,655 --> 00:16:13,965 Josh: WHEN BETTIE JO TOLD ME THAT SHE HADN'T FELT PRESTON MOVE, 273 00:16:13,965 --> 00:16:17,413 IT SCARED THE HOLY CRAP OUT OF ME. 274 00:16:21,103 --> 00:16:25,793 Bettie Jo: I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT WILL MEAN IF THEY CAN'T FIND THE HEARTBEAT 275 00:16:25,793 --> 00:16:29,034 OR IF THEY'LL HAVE TO DO ANY EMERGENCY SURGERY. 276 00:16:31,172 --> 00:16:34,310 I'M JUST HOPING THERE IS NOTHING SERIOUSLY WRONG. 277 00:16:39,172 --> 00:16:47,275 ♪♪ 278 00:16:47,275 --> 00:16:49,379 Bettie Jo: I'M IN THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW 279 00:16:49,379 --> 00:16:52,034 BECAUSE THEY'VE BEEN RUNNING TESTS TO SEE IF MY BABY, 280 00:16:52,034 --> 00:16:58,344 PRESTON, IS OKAY, AND I HAVEN'T FELT HIM MOVE FOR AWHILE. 281 00:16:58,344 --> 00:17:02,931 THEY'RE CHECKING FOR A HEARTBEAT RIGHT NOW, AND I'M SCARED. 282 00:17:05,275 --> 00:17:15,275 ♪♪ 283 00:17:18,724 --> 00:17:22,000 YEAH. 284 00:17:22,000 --> 00:17:25,000 IT'S A RELIEF TO HEAR THAT HEARTBEAT, 285 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:30,206 BUT I HAVE ANOTHER MONTH UNTIL THE BABY IS DUE, 286 00:17:30,206 --> 00:17:34,793 AND I REALLY HOPE THAT THERE'S NO MORE COMPLICATIONS. 287 00:17:34,793 --> 00:17:36,482 Josh: ALL THE TESTS CAME BACK GOOD TODAY, 288 00:17:36,482 --> 00:17:39,551 SO BETTIE JO IS GOING TO GET DISCHARGED AND GET TO GO HOME, 289 00:17:39,551 --> 00:17:43,103 WHICH MAKES ME HAPPY BUT A LITTLE WORRIED AT THE SAME TIME 290 00:17:43,103 --> 00:17:46,103 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT NOTHING TO GO WRONG. 291 00:17:48,482 --> 00:17:51,344 Bettie Jo: I KNOW BEING SO OVERWEIGHT FOR SO LONG 292 00:17:51,344 --> 00:17:55,310 HAS DAMAGED MY BODY A GREAT DEAL, 293 00:17:55,310 --> 00:17:59,068 BUT MY BABY DOESN'T DESERVE TO SUFFER OR HAVE COMPLICATIONS 294 00:17:59,068 --> 00:18:03,551 BECAUSE OF THAT, SO WHATEVER IT TAKES, 295 00:18:03,551 --> 00:18:07,551 MY BABY'S HEALTH IS MY HIGHEST PRIORITY 296 00:18:07,551 --> 00:18:11,655 EVEN IF THE WORST-CASE SCENARIO COSTS ME MY LIFE. 297 00:18:11,655 --> 00:18:21,344 ♪♪ 298 00:18:21,344 --> 00:18:24,241 Susan: RIGHT NOW, MY MOM AND ME ARE HEADED TO SEE DR. NOW 299 00:18:24,241 --> 00:18:26,206 FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT, 300 00:18:26,206 --> 00:18:29,310 AND I FEEL GOOD ABOUT MY PROGRESS, 301 00:18:29,310 --> 00:18:30,586 BUT I'M NOT GOING TO LIE TO YOU. 302 00:18:30,586 --> 00:18:32,034 I'M NOT PERFECT. 303 00:18:32,034 --> 00:18:34,275 I CHEAT FROM TIME TO TIME. 304 00:18:34,275 --> 00:18:39,034 SO I DON'T KNOW IF I'M CLOSE TO MY GOAL OR NOT, 305 00:18:39,034 --> 00:18:43,965 BUT LAST TIME I WAS HERE, I WAS AT 210 POUNDS, 306 00:18:43,965 --> 00:18:45,310 AND DR. NOW 307 00:18:45,310 --> 00:18:48,689 WANTED ME TO GET DOWN TO 190 POUNDS BY THIS VISIT, 308 00:18:48,689 --> 00:18:51,724 BUT I'M REALLY HOPING THAT I'VE AT LEAST 309 00:18:51,724 --> 00:18:54,689 MADE IT DOWN TO UNDER 200, 310 00:18:54,689 --> 00:18:57,448 AND THAT WILL BE ENOUGH FOR DR. NOW TO APPROVE ME 311 00:18:57,448 --> 00:18:59,344 FOR SKIN-REMOVAL SURGERY. 312 00:19:02,931 --> 00:19:04,275 Woman: 216. 313 00:19:04,275 --> 00:19:06,344 MM. 314 00:19:06,344 --> 00:19:08,862 DON'T EVEN. 315 00:19:11,000 --> 00:19:15,103 I'M JUST UPSET WITH MYSELF BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS ALL 316 00:19:15,103 --> 00:19:17,965 BECAUSE I'M LETTING MYSELF GO, 317 00:19:17,965 --> 00:19:21,931 BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT DR. NOW IS GOING TO SAY TO ME. 318 00:19:21,931 --> 00:19:26,620 IT PROBABLY WON'T BE GOOD, BUT IF HE'S HARSH, HE'S HARSH. 319 00:19:26,620 --> 00:19:28,689 THAT'S WHAT I NEED. 320 00:19:28,689 --> 00:19:31,965 I MAY NOT LIKE IT, BUT IT'S WHAT I NEED. 321 00:19:35,000 --> 00:19:35,689 HELLO. 322 00:19:35,689 --> 00:19:36,551 HELLO. HELLO. 323 00:19:36,551 --> 00:19:39,068 HOW Y'ALL DOING? GOOD. 324 00:19:39,068 --> 00:19:41,689 I'M GOOD, COULD BE BETTER. 325 00:19:41,689 --> 00:19:44,689 ALL RIGHT. SO HOW YOU GETTING ALONG? 326 00:19:44,689 --> 00:19:46,034 I'M GETTING ALONG. 327 00:19:46,034 --> 00:19:47,965 MY EATING HABITS ARE BAD, THOUGH. 328 00:19:47,965 --> 00:19:50,793 YOU WERE DOING SO WELL, SO WHAT'S GOING ON? 329 00:19:50,793 --> 00:19:56,206 OKAY. MY THING IS, I DON'T EAT THE QUANTITY LIKE I USED TO, 330 00:19:56,206 --> 00:19:58,172 BUT I'M NOT EATING THE RIGHT FOOD. 331 00:19:58,172 --> 00:20:01,034 THIS IS NOT JUST A MATTER OF SLIPPING UP. 332 00:20:01,034 --> 00:20:03,586 IT SIGNALS A SIGNIFICANT INCREASE 333 00:20:03,586 --> 00:20:05,862 TO THE LIKELIHOOD OF FAILURE. 334 00:20:05,862 --> 00:20:08,241 BEAR IN MIND, WHEN YOU'RE 600 POUNDS, 335 00:20:08,241 --> 00:20:13,896 THE FAILURE OF A SURGERY IS 95%, 336 00:20:13,896 --> 00:20:18,241 SO THE LIKELIHOOD THAT YOU'RE GOING TO BE BACK TO 400, 337 00:20:18,241 --> 00:20:21,137 500 POUNDS IS VERY HIGH. 338 00:20:21,137 --> 00:20:23,206 HONESTLY, I DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH ALL THIS 339 00:20:23,206 --> 00:20:25,275 AND REVERT BACK TO THE -- 340 00:20:25,275 --> 00:20:27,000 BECAUSE THAT WAS NOT A LIFE. 341 00:20:27,000 --> 00:20:29,517 WELL, I KNOW, BUT THE BALL 342 00:20:29,517 --> 00:20:31,000 IS IN YOUR COURT.I KNOW. 343 00:20:31,000 --> 00:20:36,137 AND YOU NEED TO GET BACK ON TRACK BEFORE YOU GAIN ANY MORE. 344 00:20:36,137 --> 00:20:39,620 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS PAST YEAR, SUSAN HAS LOST OVER 100 POUNDS 345 00:20:39,620 --> 00:20:42,275 AND HAS BEEN DOING WELL, 346 00:20:42,275 --> 00:20:44,275 BUT I AM VERY CONCERNED RIGHT NOW 347 00:20:44,275 --> 00:20:47,103 ABOUT HER SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR. 348 00:20:47,103 --> 00:20:50,172 THERE HAS TO BE SIGNIFICANT EMOTIONAL ISSUES 349 00:20:50,172 --> 00:20:51,931 THAT ARE COMING TO THE SURFACE 350 00:20:51,931 --> 00:20:54,482 AND THAT ARE AT THE ROOT OF THIS. 351 00:20:54,482 --> 00:20:58,172 SO ANY OTHER BAD HABIT, ANY ALCOHOL, ANY TOBACCO? 352 00:20:58,172 --> 00:20:59,137 NO. 353 00:20:59,137 --> 00:21:00,689 WELL, TOBACCO, YES. 354 00:21:00,689 --> 00:21:03,724 WHY ARE YOU SMOKING AGAIN? 355 00:21:03,724 --> 00:21:06,758 SMOKING IS GOING TO BE MOST DEVASTATING THING 356 00:21:06,758 --> 00:21:09,206 FOR DEVELOPING CARDIOVASCULAR DISEASE. 357 00:21:09,206 --> 00:21:12,310 OKAY.SO WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT? 358 00:21:12,310 --> 00:21:14,000 WHO BUYS THE CIGARETTES? 359 00:21:14,000 --> 00:21:14,931 ME. 360 00:21:14,931 --> 00:21:16,172 WHY? 361 00:21:18,551 --> 00:21:19,689 WHAT IS GOING ON? 362 00:21:19,689 --> 00:21:22,068 ARE YOU IN YOUR SELF-DESTRUCTIVE MODE? 363 00:21:22,068 --> 00:21:25,931 ARE YOU MAD AT YOURSELF, OR ARE YOU PUNISHING YOURSELF? 364 00:21:25,931 --> 00:21:27,310 I DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER FOR YOU. 365 00:21:27,310 --> 00:21:34,275 DO YOU THINK YOU SHOULD SEE A THERAPIST AND FIGURE THAT OUT? 366 00:21:34,275 --> 00:21:35,689 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU. 367 00:21:35,689 --> 00:21:37,931 WELL, YOU NEED TO FIGURE THAT OUT, 368 00:21:37,931 --> 00:21:40,241 SO I'M SENDING YOU BACK TO THE THERAPIST 369 00:21:40,241 --> 00:21:42,758 BECAUSE YOU NEED TO GET BACK ON TRACK. 370 00:21:42,758 --> 00:21:44,275 OKAY? YES. 371 00:21:44,275 --> 00:21:46,517 SO WE'RE GOING TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT. 372 00:21:46,517 --> 00:21:47,931 WE'RE GOING TO STOP SMOKING. 373 00:21:47,931 --> 00:21:49,310 YOU'RE GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST, 374 00:21:49,310 --> 00:21:51,000 AND WE'RE GOING TO SEE YOU IN 2 MONTHS, 375 00:21:51,000 --> 00:21:53,310 AND IF YOU LOSE 25 POUNDS, 376 00:21:53,310 --> 00:21:57,827 THEN WE'LL DO SKIN SURGERY ON YOUR UPPER ARMS AND CHEST. 377 00:21:57,827 --> 00:22:01,586 OKAY? BUT THERE IS NO WAY YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE SKIN SURGERY 378 00:22:01,586 --> 00:22:03,068 AS LONG AS YOU SMOKE. 379 00:22:03,068 --> 00:22:04,655 OKAY. OKAY? 380 00:22:04,655 --> 00:22:08,482 I PROMISED MY GRANDSON THAT I WAS GOING TO QUIT, 381 00:22:08,482 --> 00:22:10,689 SO I TOLD HER SHE CAN QUIT WITH ME. 382 00:22:10,689 --> 00:22:13,034 YOU HAVEN'T QUIT, TOO?THAT WAY WE CAN BOTH DO IT. 383 00:22:13,034 --> 00:22:16,206 I HAVEN'T QUIT.SHE NEVER QUIT. 384 00:22:16,206 --> 00:22:19,965 SUSAN'S OTHER BIG STRUGGLE IS HER MOTHER. 385 00:22:19,965 --> 00:22:23,689 SHE HAS BEEN AN ENABLER FOR YEARS OF HER LIFE, 386 00:22:23,689 --> 00:22:27,241 AND NOW SHE'S HELPING SUSAN SABOTAGE HERSELF, 387 00:22:27,241 --> 00:22:32,000 AND THERE IS A DYNAMIC THERE THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS AS WELL. 388 00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:34,827 SO YOU BOTH HAVE SOME WORK TO DO. 389 00:22:34,827 --> 00:22:38,344 QUIT SMOKING, AND THAT GOES FOR MOM, TOO. 390 00:22:38,344 --> 00:22:39,689 YES, SIR.ALL RIGHT. 391 00:22:39,689 --> 00:22:42,000 I'LL SEE Y'ALL LATER.OKAY. THANK YOU. 392 00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:43,517 THANK YOU.ALL RIGHT. 393 00:22:43,517 --> 00:22:47,896 AND I'M SORRY THIS WASN'T THE BEST WAY IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE. 394 00:22:47,896 --> 00:22:49,137 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO WORK ON IT. 395 00:22:49,137 --> 00:22:50,206 YEAH.OKAY? ALL RIGHT. 396 00:22:50,206 --> 00:22:52,379 I'LL SEE YOU THEN. 397 00:22:52,379 --> 00:22:56,793 ♪♪ 398 00:22:56,793 --> 00:22:59,275 DR. NOW WASN'T TOO HARD ON ME, 399 00:22:59,275 --> 00:23:03,034 BUT I WASN'T EXPECTING HIM TO SEND ME BACK TO THERAPY. 400 00:23:03,034 --> 00:23:05,344 IT JUST FEELS LIKE A BIG STEP BACK 401 00:23:05,344 --> 00:23:09,758 BECAUSE I THOUGHT I'D BE GETTING READY FOR MY SKIN SURGERY, 402 00:23:09,758 --> 00:23:11,344 BUT THE THOUGHT OF THE POSSIBILITY 403 00:23:11,344 --> 00:23:16,172 THAT I'M STARTING TO SABOTAGE MYSELF SCARES ME TO DEATH 404 00:23:16,172 --> 00:23:20,103 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE PART OF THE 95%, 405 00:23:20,103 --> 00:23:23,344 SO AS MUCH AS THIS FEELS LIKE A SETBACK, 406 00:23:23,344 --> 00:23:26,137 IF THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO PREVENT THAT, 407 00:23:26,137 --> 00:23:28,310 THEN I'M DOING IT. 408 00:23:40,137 --> 00:23:42,137 YOU HAVE TWO SO THAT THEY'RE NOT ALWAYS IN. 409 00:23:42,137 --> 00:23:44,103 Bettie Jo: JOSH AND ME ARE BACK AT THE HOSPITAL 410 00:23:44,103 --> 00:23:46,206 BECAUSE THEY WANT TO RUN SOME TESTS ON ME 411 00:23:46,206 --> 00:23:49,344 TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING IS OKAY. 412 00:23:49,344 --> 00:23:52,586 THEY'RE JUST CONCERNED BECAUSE I'VE BEEN SWELLING A WHOLE LOT, 413 00:23:52,586 --> 00:23:54,482 AND THEY'RE JUST GOING TO KEEP ME OVERNIGHT 414 00:23:54,482 --> 00:23:58,862 SO WE CAN GET INDUCED IN THE MORNING IF THINGS ARE GOOD. 415 00:23:58,862 --> 00:24:03,517 SO I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW THAT SOMETHING IS GOING TO GO WRONG, 416 00:24:03,517 --> 00:24:08,758 AND MY BABY COULD BE HURT OR THAT I'LL END UP PARALYZED 417 00:24:08,758 --> 00:24:13,758 OR THAT I WON'T SURVIVE THE DELIVERY LIKE THEY SAID. 418 00:24:13,758 --> 00:24:17,310 BUT THEY'RE STILL CONCERNED THAT THE BONE MASS ON MY SPINE 419 00:24:17,310 --> 00:24:21,448 WILL PUT TOO MUCH PRESSURE ON IT DURING DELIVERY, 420 00:24:21,448 --> 00:24:23,206 SO THEY'RE GOING TO TRY TO PREPARE ME 421 00:24:23,206 --> 00:24:25,655 FOR THE BEST POSSIBLE OUTCOME. 422 00:24:28,000 --> 00:24:30,793 BUT THEY THINK THE ONLY WAY FOR THAT TO HAPPEN 423 00:24:30,793 --> 00:24:33,517 IS IF I HAVE A C-SECTION 424 00:24:33,517 --> 00:24:37,793 AND THAT THERE'S NO WAY I CAN DELIVER NATURALLY SAFELY, 425 00:24:37,793 --> 00:24:42,896 SO THE NEXT 24 HOURS ARE GOING TO BE THE SCARIEST OF MY LIFE. 426 00:24:42,896 --> 00:24:49,344 ♪♪ 427 00:24:53,551 --> 00:24:59,000 ♪♪ 428 00:25:06,310 --> 00:25:07,275 -YEAH. -OKAY. 429 00:25:07,275 --> 00:25:09,793 WELL, LET'S GET MOVING. 430 00:25:13,310 --> 00:25:16,206 Bettie Jo: THE DOCTORS HAVE BEEN DISCUSSING THE OPTIONS, 431 00:25:16,206 --> 00:25:19,724 AND THEY DECIDED THAT MY SIZE IS GOING TO MAKE IT TOO RISKY 432 00:25:19,724 --> 00:25:23,344 TO SAFELY DO A C-SECTION, 433 00:25:23,344 --> 00:25:26,965 SO THEY'RE GOING TO LET ME DELIVER NATURALLY, 434 00:25:26,965 --> 00:25:30,344 BUT I'M REALLY SCARED BECAUSE I KNOW THIS OPTION 435 00:25:30,344 --> 00:25:33,551 MEANS I HAVE A GREATER CHANCE OF HAVING AN ISSUE, 436 00:25:33,551 --> 00:25:39,241 OR THE WORST CASE IS I WON'T EVEN SURVIVE THE DELIVERY. 437 00:25:39,241 --> 00:25:41,275 Josh: THE FIRST GLIMPSE OF THE O.R., 438 00:25:41,275 --> 00:25:45,758 IT WAS AN OVERWHELMING FEELING OF NERVES, 439 00:25:45,758 --> 00:25:51,103 WORRY AND HAPPY -- A WHOLE LOT OF DIFFERENT EMOTIONS. 440 00:25:51,103 --> 00:25:52,655 BETTIE JO, WHO ELSE IS IN THE ROOM? 441 00:25:52,655 --> 00:25:53,896 YOUR HUSBAND AND WHO'S BACK THERE? 442 00:25:53,896 --> 00:25:55,896 HIS -- MY AUNT, THE GRANDMA, HIS MOM. 443 00:25:55,896 --> 00:25:57,586 OH, OKAY. GREAT. OKAY. 444 00:25:57,586 --> 00:26:00,448 MAMA, LET'S TALK ABOUT PUSHING. 445 00:26:00,448 --> 00:26:03,310 Josh: MY MAIN FOCUS IN THE OPERATING ROOM 446 00:26:03,310 --> 00:26:07,206 IS TO KEEP BETTIE JO CONFIDENT AND CALM 447 00:26:07,206 --> 00:26:08,862 AND TO GET OUR SON HERE. 448 00:26:08,862 --> 00:26:09,793 -SEVEN. -LITTLE MORE. LITTLE MORE. 449 00:26:09,793 --> 00:26:10,551 -EIGHT. -LITTLE MORE. 450 00:26:10,551 --> 00:26:11,620 -NINE. -GOOD. 451 00:26:11,620 --> 00:26:14,241 -THERE YOU GO. -DOING GOOD, BABY. 452 00:26:14,241 --> 00:26:15,827 Dr. Marcrander: WHENEVER YOU'RE READY, I'M GOING TO PLAY 453 00:26:15,827 --> 00:26:16,896 TUG-OF-WAR WITH YOU, OKAY? 454 00:26:16,896 --> 00:26:18,482 SO I WANT YOU TO GIVE IT ALL YOU GOT. 455 00:26:18,482 --> 00:26:20,379 THE BABY'S HEART RATE IS DOWN A LITTLE BIT, 456 00:26:20,379 --> 00:26:22,586 SO NEXT TIME YOU HAVE A CONTRACTION, 457 00:26:22,586 --> 00:26:24,137 WANT YOU TO GIVE IT ALL YOU GOT. 458 00:26:24,137 --> 00:26:25,344 COME ON, BABE. YOU CAN DO IT. 459 00:26:25,344 --> 00:26:26,275 -PUSH DOWN HARD. -FOUR. 460 00:26:26,275 --> 00:26:27,551 -COME ON. COME ON NOW. -SO... 461 00:26:27,551 --> 00:26:28,965 PUSH, PUSH, PUSH, PUSH, PUSH, PUSH, PUSH, PUSH. 462 00:26:28,965 --> 00:26:29,896 -COME ON. -DEEP BREATHS. 463 00:26:29,896 --> 00:26:31,034 THERE YOU GO. COME ON, BABY. 464 00:26:31,034 --> 00:26:32,310 COME ON. -YOU'RE DOING IT. 465 00:26:32,310 --> 00:26:33,517 -ONE MORE -COME ON. 466 00:26:33,517 --> 00:26:35,241 -KEEP GOING! -GOOD, GOOD, GOOD! 467 00:26:35,241 --> 00:26:38,482 -GO! -KEEP GOING, KEEP GOING! 468 00:26:38,482 --> 00:26:42,310 -HERE HE COMES. -COME ON, BABY. COME ON. 469 00:26:42,310 --> 00:26:44,103 -HERE HE IS. -YAY! 470 00:26:44,103 --> 00:26:47,310 [ INDISTINCT CHATTERING ] 471 00:26:47,310 --> 00:26:50,068 -CAN WE BRING DAD AROUND? -YES. 472 00:26:50,068 --> 00:26:51,896 OH, LITTLE PRESTON, KEEP YOUR HAND UP. 473 00:26:51,896 --> 00:26:55,551 GOOD JOB. 474 00:26:55,551 --> 00:26:57,482 -ALL RIGHT. -OKAY. LAURIE? 475 00:26:57,482 --> 00:27:00,793 Josh: CUTTING THE UMBILICAL CORD WAS REALLY EXCITING, 476 00:27:00,793 --> 00:27:04,241 LET ME REALIZE THAT I HAVE A SON, 477 00:27:04,241 --> 00:27:05,965 AND HE'S NOW HERE. 478 00:27:05,965 --> 00:27:08,068 FIVE POUNDS, 7 OUNCES, HONEY. 479 00:27:08,068 --> 00:27:11,275 -AW. -AW. LITTLE PEANUT. 480 00:27:11,275 --> 00:27:14,206 Bettie Jo: I'M VERY EXCITED THAT HE'S HERE. 481 00:27:14,206 --> 00:27:16,655 IT'S KIND OF TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE RIGHT NOW. 482 00:27:16,655 --> 00:27:18,517 IT'S KIND OF HARD TO BELIEVE. 483 00:27:18,517 --> 00:27:20,724 HE'S GOT MY NOSE AND MY EARS, 484 00:27:20,724 --> 00:27:22,793 AND THEN THE REST LOOKS LIKE JOSH. 485 00:27:22,793 --> 00:27:25,517 I THINK HE'S PRETTY PERFECT-LOOKING. 486 00:27:25,517 --> 00:27:29,482 -HERE WE GO. -AW. 487 00:27:29,482 --> 00:27:31,793 HEY THERE, SON. 488 00:27:31,793 --> 00:27:34,517 IN THE OPERATING ROOM WHEN JOSH FIRST HELD HIM, 489 00:27:34,517 --> 00:27:38,551 THAT IS SOMETHING I'VE ALWAYS DREAMED OF SEEING. 490 00:27:38,551 --> 00:27:41,827 IT WAS A PRETTY PERFECT SIGHT. 491 00:27:41,827 --> 00:27:45,137 IT MADE ME, LIKE, THE HAPPIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD. 492 00:27:50,413 --> 00:27:52,793 THANK YOU. 493 00:27:52,793 --> 00:27:53,827 Dr. Marcrander: WHAT JUST HAPPENED WAS GREAT. 494 00:27:53,827 --> 00:27:56,655 BETTIE JO HAD A VAGINAL DELIVERY. 495 00:27:56,655 --> 00:27:59,344 SHE DID AMAZING, AND PRESTON IS DOING GREAT, 496 00:27:59,344 --> 00:28:01,551 AND WE'RE REALLY HAPPY WITH THE RESULTS. 497 00:28:03,896 --> 00:28:08,241 Bettie Jo: I WAITED FOR THIS DAY FOR SO LONG. 498 00:28:08,241 --> 00:28:11,862 I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW THAT EVERYTHING WENT OKAY 499 00:28:11,862 --> 00:28:15,310 AND THAT MY BABY IS HEALTHY AND THAT I'M HEALTHY. 500 00:28:15,310 --> 00:28:20,827 ♪♪ 501 00:28:20,827 --> 00:28:26,413 ♪♪ 502 00:28:26,413 --> 00:28:29,482 Susan: I'VE BEEN REALLY SCARED AT THE THOUGHT OF GETTING TO A PLACE 503 00:28:29,482 --> 00:28:31,103 WHERE I'M SELF-SABOTAGING 504 00:28:31,103 --> 00:28:33,620 BECAUSE OF ANY EMOTIONAL ISSUE. 505 00:28:36,310 --> 00:28:38,931 AS SOON AS DR. NOW BROUGHT UP THAT POSSIBILITY, 506 00:28:38,931 --> 00:28:41,482 IT JUST SENT THESE CHILLS UP MY SPINE. 507 00:28:41,482 --> 00:28:45,103 ♪♪ 508 00:28:45,103 --> 00:28:48,586 SO I'M HEADED BACK TO THERAPY AGAIN. 509 00:28:48,586 --> 00:28:50,517 I CAN'T LET THIS HAPPEN. 510 00:28:53,034 --> 00:28:55,068 IF THERE'S EVEN A SMALL POSSIBILITY 511 00:28:55,068 --> 00:28:57,275 THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING, 512 00:28:57,275 --> 00:28:59,206 I WANT TO FIGURE IT OUT BEFORE MY WEIGHT GAIN 513 00:28:59,206 --> 00:29:02,758 STARTS TO GET OUT OF HAND. 514 00:29:02,758 --> 00:29:06,793 I THOUGHT I'D BEEN DEALING WITH ALL MY EMOTIONAL ISSUES, 515 00:29:06,793 --> 00:29:09,586 BUT I KNOW THE TEMPTATIONS AND THE STRUGGLE 516 00:29:09,586 --> 00:29:13,448 TO STAY ON TRACK HAS BEEN GETTING HARDER, 517 00:29:13,448 --> 00:29:16,206 AND THERE HAS TO BE A REASON FOR THAT. 518 00:29:16,206 --> 00:29:19,758 SO I'M ANXIOUS TO TALK TODAY AND FIGURE THIS OUT. 519 00:29:19,758 --> 00:29:22,724 SUSAN, HI. 520 00:29:22,724 --> 00:29:25,448 LET'S GO ON BACK. 521 00:29:25,448 --> 00:29:28,689 AFTER YOU. 522 00:29:28,689 --> 00:29:30,655 SO HOW ARE YOU FEELING? 523 00:29:31,793 --> 00:29:33,034 A LITTLE NERVOUS. 524 00:29:33,034 --> 00:29:34,689 A LITTLE NERVOUS? 525 00:29:34,689 --> 00:29:36,931 WELL, IT HAS BEEN A MINUTE SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU. 526 00:29:36,931 --> 00:29:39,172 YEAH.WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON? 527 00:29:39,172 --> 00:29:41,241 WHEN I WENT TO MY DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT, 528 00:29:41,241 --> 00:29:47,000 I ENDED UP GAINING THIS MONTH, AND I'VE LOST FOCUS ON MYSELF. 529 00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,241 BECAUSE YOU'RE IN RECOVERY, 530 00:29:49,241 --> 00:29:52,103 YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT YOUR EATING 531 00:29:52,103 --> 00:29:55,724 AND YOUR ACTIVITY LEVEL DAILY. 532 00:29:55,724 --> 00:29:57,137 OKAY. 533 00:29:57,137 --> 00:30:01,551 YOU'VE WORKED TOO HARD AND GOTTEN TOO FAR. 534 00:30:01,551 --> 00:30:06,689 I DO NOT, NOT WANT TO REVERT BACK TO WHERE I WAS 535 00:30:06,689 --> 00:30:09,241 BECAUSE THAT WAS NOT A LIFE. 536 00:30:09,241 --> 00:30:14,000 THAT'S WHY FOCUS IS SO INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT RIGHT NOW. 537 00:30:14,000 --> 00:30:16,344 I LIKE WHERE I'M AT, BUT I'M NOT GOING TO LIE. 538 00:30:16,344 --> 00:30:20,620 I'M SCARED, AND I WANT OTHER SURGERIES, 539 00:30:20,620 --> 00:30:23,517 BUT I'M SCARED THERE MIGHT BE MORE COMPLICATIONS 540 00:30:23,517 --> 00:30:25,482 FROM THE LAST TWO SURGERIES. 541 00:30:25,482 --> 00:30:27,000 AND I KNOW YOU'VE MADE THE DECISION 542 00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:31,103 TO KEEP SMOKING FOR NOW. 543 00:30:31,103 --> 00:30:34,310 TRYING TO STOP, BUT IT'S HARD. 544 00:30:34,310 --> 00:30:35,793 I'M NOT GOING TO LIE. 545 00:30:35,793 --> 00:30:38,655 IT'S GOING TO BE NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU 546 00:30:38,655 --> 00:30:42,758 TO GET ANY ADDITIONAL SURGERIES AS LONG AS YOU'RE SMOKING. 547 00:30:42,758 --> 00:30:43,931 AND I THINK THAT'S ONE REASON 548 00:30:43,931 --> 00:30:46,896 I'M SELF-SABOTAGING MYSELF AS WELL. 549 00:30:46,896 --> 00:30:49,758 YOU DON'T HAVE TO SELF-SABOTAGE. 550 00:30:49,758 --> 00:30:52,275 IT'S OKAY FOR YOU TO LOVE YOURSELF 551 00:30:52,275 --> 00:30:54,758 JUST AS YOU ARE RIGHT NOW 552 00:30:54,758 --> 00:30:57,379 BUT TO STILL TAKE REALLY GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF 553 00:30:57,379 --> 00:30:59,758 AND MAINTAIN YOUR HEALTH. 554 00:30:59,758 --> 00:31:02,482 I DO, BUT THEN I DON'T BECAUSE I'M SCARED. 555 00:31:04,517 --> 00:31:06,034 WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? 556 00:31:12,241 --> 00:31:14,241 SCARED OF DYING. 557 00:31:14,241 --> 00:31:16,965 I'M SCARED OF EVERYTHING. 558 00:31:16,965 --> 00:31:21,206 THERE ARE RISKS ASSOCIATED WITH SURGERIES, 559 00:31:21,206 --> 00:31:25,758 BUT DON'T SABOTAGE YOUR OWN PROGRESS. 560 00:31:28,965 --> 00:31:31,068 SO, SUSAN, LET'S TAKE SOME TIME 561 00:31:31,068 --> 00:31:34,034 AND TALK ABOUT 562 00:31:34,034 --> 00:31:37,172 SIGNIFICANT RELATIONSHIPS IN YOUR LIFE. 563 00:31:39,172 --> 00:31:41,689 I THINK THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MY MOM AND ME... 564 00:31:41,689 --> 00:31:43,206 THEY'VE CHANGED. 565 00:31:43,206 --> 00:31:44,620 YEAH? 566 00:31:44,620 --> 00:31:47,758 WE FIGHT A LOT NOW. 567 00:31:47,758 --> 00:31:51,137 DO YOU FEEL LIKE SHE MISSES 568 00:31:51,137 --> 00:31:52,758 THE WAY THINGS USED TO BE 569 00:31:52,758 --> 00:31:55,344 WITH YOU BEING SO DEPENDENT ON HER? 570 00:31:55,344 --> 00:32:01,448 I THINK SHE DOES MISS ME NOT NEEDING HER AS MUCH. 571 00:32:01,448 --> 00:32:04,586 ARE YOU GETTING SUPPORT IN THE WAY THAT YOU NEED IT? 572 00:32:04,586 --> 00:32:08,000 WHEN THERE'S FOOD AROUND, DOES SHE MAKE CERTAIN 573 00:32:08,000 --> 00:32:11,620 THAT THERE ARE GOOD CHOICES AROUND FOR YOU? 574 00:32:11,620 --> 00:32:14,137 NOPE. 575 00:32:16,655 --> 00:32:18,103 HOW DOES THAT HURT YOU? 576 00:32:18,103 --> 00:32:20,137 TO ME, IT'S A CONSTANT BATTLE. 577 00:32:22,517 --> 00:32:24,275 IT'S NOT EASY. 578 00:32:24,275 --> 00:32:27,000 YOU'VE GOT TO SET SOME BOUNDARIES 579 00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:31,344 REGARDING YOUR EATING AS A PRIORITY. 580 00:32:31,344 --> 00:32:34,172 AND IT'S UP TO YOU TO VERBALIZE 581 00:32:34,172 --> 00:32:38,931 HOW IMPORTANT HEALTHY EATING IS FOR YOU. 582 00:32:38,931 --> 00:32:41,827 SO DEFINITELY MAKE A POINT TO HAVE THAT CONVERSATION 583 00:32:41,827 --> 00:32:43,206 WITH YOUR MOM, 584 00:32:43,206 --> 00:32:46,724 BUT YOU'VE REALLY GOT TO FOCUS ON YOURSELF. 585 00:32:46,724 --> 00:32:53,241 CAN YOU MAKE IT A GOAL TO ATTEMPT TO STOP BURYING? 586 00:32:53,241 --> 00:32:54,517 YEAH. 587 00:32:54,517 --> 00:32:59,793 AND WHEN YOU FIND YOURSELF SELF-SABOTAGING, 588 00:32:59,793 --> 00:33:03,034 CALL YOURSELF OUT ON IT ALOUD. 589 00:33:03,034 --> 00:33:04,551 CONFRONT YOURSELF. 590 00:33:04,551 --> 00:33:07,620 SAY, "SUSAN, WHY ARE YOU STANDING 591 00:33:07,620 --> 00:33:10,172 IN THE WAY OF YOUR FUTURE? 592 00:33:10,172 --> 00:33:12,103 STOP IT." 593 00:33:12,103 --> 00:33:16,241 AND YOU BLOCK THE THOUGHT, AND YOU BLOCK THE BEHAVIOR. 594 00:33:16,241 --> 00:33:17,689 AND THAT WORKS? 595 00:33:17,689 --> 00:33:21,413 YES, WITH PRACTICE. 596 00:33:21,413 --> 00:33:23,310 SO SOME THINGS TO WORK ON, RIGHT? 597 00:33:23,310 --> 00:33:24,448 YUP. 598 00:33:24,448 --> 00:33:26,344 THANKS FOR COMING TODAY. 599 00:33:26,344 --> 00:33:30,655 ♪♪ 600 00:33:30,655 --> 00:33:34,586 I HAVE SO MUCH FEAR THAT I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER FACED, 601 00:33:34,586 --> 00:33:39,551 AND THERE'S A PART OF ME THAT'S DETERMINED TO GET TO MY GOAL. 602 00:33:39,551 --> 00:33:41,827 THEN THERE'S A PART OF ME THAT'S SCARED OF THE PAIN 603 00:33:41,827 --> 00:33:45,310 AND WHAT IT'S GOING TO TAKE, 604 00:33:45,310 --> 00:33:47,689 AND I REALLY AM SABOTAGING MYSELF, 605 00:33:47,689 --> 00:33:50,310 AND THAT MAKES ME SCARED TO THINK 606 00:33:50,310 --> 00:33:53,655 THAT I STILL MAY NOT SEE WHEN I'M DOING IT. 607 00:33:53,655 --> 00:33:56,965 SO I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHAT TO DO 608 00:33:56,965 --> 00:33:58,620 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO FIGURE IT OUT 609 00:33:58,620 --> 00:34:00,310 AFTER I'VE GAINED A LOT MORE. 610 00:34:06,103 --> 00:34:16,103 ♪♪ 611 00:34:16,103 --> 00:34:18,034 Susan: OVER THE LAST MONTH, 612 00:34:18,034 --> 00:34:20,827 I'VE BEEN WORKING AND TRYING TO DO BETTER, 613 00:34:20,827 --> 00:34:24,172 SO TODAY I'M ABOUT TO GO WALK. 614 00:34:24,172 --> 00:34:26,758 WALKING IS A PART OF MY DAILY ROUTINE NOW. 615 00:34:28,931 --> 00:34:31,310 AND I'M REMINDING MYSELF THAT IT'S A GIFT 616 00:34:31,310 --> 00:34:34,034 TO BE ABLE TO DO THIS... 617 00:34:34,034 --> 00:34:36,379 I GOT TO SIT DOWN FOR A MINUTE ON THE STEPS. 618 00:34:36,379 --> 00:34:38,275 SIT DOWN. 619 00:34:38,275 --> 00:34:39,758 Susan: ...BECAUSE 2 YEARS AGO, 620 00:34:39,758 --> 00:34:43,655 I COULD BARELY WALK EVEN 10 FEET WITHOUT HAVING TO SIT DOWN. 621 00:34:45,689 --> 00:34:48,034 NOW I CAN WALK 2 TO 3 MILES 622 00:34:48,034 --> 00:34:51,758 WITHOUT EVEN HAVING TO TAKE A BREAK, 623 00:34:51,758 --> 00:34:55,310 BUT IT'S BEEN GETTING HARDER TO GO AS FAR 624 00:34:55,310 --> 00:34:56,655 BECAUSE WHEN I'M WALKING, 625 00:34:56,655 --> 00:35:00,241 I CAN FEEL THE EXCESS SKIN RUBBING ON MY LEGS, 626 00:35:00,241 --> 00:35:03,379 SO WHEN THE PAIN OF THE CHAFING STARTS, 627 00:35:03,379 --> 00:35:08,379 IT'S MY DAILY REMINDER HOW BAD I WANT THIS EXCESS SKIN OFF OF ME. 628 00:35:08,379 --> 00:35:10,517 IT BOTHERS ME. I WANT IT ALL GONE. 629 00:35:10,517 --> 00:35:14,862 I WANT MY TURKEY NECK GONE AND THE FLAB UNDER MY ARMS. 630 00:35:14,862 --> 00:35:18,379 SO I'M STAYING ACTIVE DESPITE THE PAIN. 631 00:35:18,379 --> 00:35:24,586 ♪♪ 632 00:35:24,586 --> 00:35:28,310 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO STICK TO MY DIET, 633 00:35:28,310 --> 00:35:31,068 BUT THAT HASN'T BEEN AS EASY 634 00:35:31,068 --> 00:35:35,379 BECAUSE I STILL WANT TO GO TOWARDS STUFF I DON'T NEED. 635 00:35:35,379 --> 00:35:39,000 I STILL LIKE THE ENERGY DRINKS WITH THE COFFEE IN IT. 636 00:35:41,413 --> 00:35:46,517 I STILL EAT, LIKE, CRACKERS AND CHIPS, 637 00:35:46,517 --> 00:35:51,379 BREAD, ANYTHING SWEET. 638 00:35:51,379 --> 00:35:55,034 SO I KNOW MY DIET IS STILL NOT WHAT IT NEEDS TO BE, 639 00:35:55,034 --> 00:35:57,793 BUT THE THERAPIST SAID I'M NOT GOING 640 00:35:57,793 --> 00:36:00,620 TO GET CONTROL OF THE SITUATION 641 00:36:00,620 --> 00:36:02,965 UNTIL I START CALLING MYSELF OUT, 642 00:36:02,965 --> 00:36:06,241 AND I'M TRYING TO DO THAT. 643 00:36:06,241 --> 00:36:10,034 BUT WHEN YOU'RE MAKING A BAD DECISION IN THE MOMENT, 644 00:36:10,034 --> 00:36:12,517 YOU JUSTIFY IT MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE. 645 00:36:14,827 --> 00:36:17,000 AND I KNOW I STILL NEED TO CONFRONT MY MOM 646 00:36:17,000 --> 00:36:19,551 WITH SOME ISSUES TOO, 647 00:36:19,551 --> 00:36:23,448 PARTICULARLY HOW SHE JUST ALWAYS MAKES ME FEEL BAD. 648 00:36:23,448 --> 00:36:25,551 AND WHEN SHE EATS JUNK FOOD AROUND ME, 649 00:36:25,551 --> 00:36:28,482 I DON'T SEE HOW SHE DOESN'T GET 650 00:36:28,482 --> 00:36:31,482 THAT IT'S GOING TO MAKE ME STRUGGLE EVEN MORE, 651 00:36:31,482 --> 00:36:34,103 BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING, 652 00:36:34,103 --> 00:36:38,137 SO I'M JUST TRYING TO MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICES RIGHT NOW. 653 00:36:38,137 --> 00:36:39,517 BUT IT'S HARD. 654 00:36:39,517 --> 00:36:42,931 I'M NOT GOING TO LIE. IT'S HARD. 655 00:36:42,931 --> 00:36:46,206 IF I DON'T CHOOSE BETTER OPTIONS, 656 00:36:46,206 --> 00:36:48,758 THEN I WILL REVERT BACK TO MY OLD WAYS, 657 00:36:48,758 --> 00:36:55,448 AND I WILL BE 600 POUNDS, WHICH IS NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE. 658 00:36:55,448 --> 00:36:57,068 I WANT TO DO THIS. 659 00:36:57,068 --> 00:36:59,413 I WANT MORE SURGERY. 660 00:36:59,413 --> 00:37:02,310 I WANT TO MEET MY GOALS, BUT I'M NOT GOING TO LIE. 661 00:37:02,310 --> 00:37:04,448 I'M SCARED. 662 00:37:04,448 --> 00:37:09,103 I THINK THIS IS A BIG PART OF WHY I'M SABOTAGING MYSELF. 663 00:37:09,103 --> 00:37:12,310 I WANT TO DO THIS FOR ME AND FOR DR. NOW. 664 00:37:12,310 --> 00:37:14,344 [ Voice breaking ] THAT MAN NEVER GAVE UP ON ME, 665 00:37:14,344 --> 00:37:17,862 AND I'M NOT GIVING UP ON HIM. 666 00:37:17,862 --> 00:37:22,068 I MAY MAKE BAD CHOICES, BUT THAT MAN, 667 00:37:22,068 --> 00:37:27,758 HE TOOK A CHANCE ON SAVING MY LIFE WHEN NOBODY ELSE WOULD. 668 00:37:27,758 --> 00:37:29,862 AND I'M NOT PERFECT, 669 00:37:29,862 --> 00:37:32,241 AND I'M GOING TO MESS UP FROM TIME TO TIME. 670 00:37:35,103 --> 00:37:40,448 BUT GET BACK TO THE BASICS FROM WHERE I STARTED FROM, 671 00:37:40,448 --> 00:37:44,448 MAKING TIME FOR MY EXERCISE, EATING HEALTHY, 672 00:37:44,448 --> 00:37:46,413 BECAUSE I'M NOT GIVING UP. 673 00:37:46,413 --> 00:37:52,931 ♪♪ 674 00:37:52,931 --> 00:37:59,482 ♪♪ 675 00:37:59,482 --> 00:38:02,724 Bettie Jo: THIS PAST MONTH HAS BEEN TIRING, AND RIGHT NOW, 676 00:38:02,724 --> 00:38:06,862 I'M JUST LEARNING HOW TO BE A FULL-TIME MOM. 677 00:38:06,862 --> 00:38:09,965 WE HAVE BEEN LIVING WITH FAMILY FOR THE PAST YEAR, 678 00:38:09,965 --> 00:38:12,310 SO NOW THAT BABY PRESTON IS BORN, 679 00:38:12,310 --> 00:38:15,448 WE DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO MOVE BACK OUT ON OUR OWN 680 00:38:15,448 --> 00:38:18,137 AND BE A LITTLE FAMILY. 681 00:38:18,137 --> 00:38:20,551 SO JOSH'S AUNT AND UNCLE LENT US SOME MONEY 682 00:38:20,551 --> 00:38:23,482 TO FIND A PLACE OF OUR OWN, 683 00:38:23,482 --> 00:38:27,931 AND RIGHT NOW, WE'RE FINALLY MOVING IN TO OUR OWN APARTMENT, 684 00:38:27,931 --> 00:38:30,586 AND MY BEST FRIEND NATHAN AND HIS FIANCéE, 685 00:38:30,586 --> 00:38:33,793 MIKYLA, ARE HELPING US MOVE TODAY... 686 00:38:33,793 --> 00:38:36,448 -HEY. -HI. 687 00:38:36,448 --> 00:38:38,241 ...BECAUSE I STILL CAN'T DO MUCH 688 00:38:38,241 --> 00:38:41,724 WITH THAT BONE MASS STILL ON MY SPINE. 689 00:38:41,724 --> 00:38:45,206 AND ASIDE FROM NOT GETTING MUCH SLEEP WITH A NEWBORN, 690 00:38:45,206 --> 00:38:47,862 THE ONLY REALLY HARD THING HAS BEEN THE TENSION 691 00:38:47,862 --> 00:38:50,586 BETWEEN ME AND JOSH. 692 00:38:50,586 --> 00:38:53,862 JOSH AND I HAVE NOT BEEN HAVING AN EASY TIME LATELY. 693 00:38:53,862 --> 00:38:56,206 WE'VE BEEN ARGUING AND STUFF, 694 00:38:56,206 --> 00:39:01,551 AND I CAN'T REALLY STAND BEING AROUND HIM RIGHT NOW. 695 00:39:01,551 --> 00:39:07,137 SO I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO DO ABOUT THAT BECAUSE WHEN HE LOSES IT, 696 00:39:07,137 --> 00:39:11,275 HE HAS TO MAKE EVERYONE ELSE JUST AS UPSET, 697 00:39:11,275 --> 00:39:15,172 AND THE TENSION IS MAKING IT REALLY HARD RIGHT NOW. 698 00:39:15,172 --> 00:39:16,482 JOSH, YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO STOP 699 00:39:16,482 --> 00:39:19,793 WHAT YOU'RE DOING AND FEED HIM. 700 00:39:19,793 --> 00:39:20,827 YOU CAN STOP, AND FEED HIM. 701 00:39:20,827 --> 00:39:21,965 Josh: WELL, THAT'S FINE. 702 00:39:21,965 --> 00:39:23,068 EVERYONE CAN STOP WHAT THEY'RE DOING. 703 00:39:23,068 --> 00:39:25,586 I CAN FEED HIM. YOU CAN EAT. 704 00:39:25,586 --> 00:39:27,896 Bettie Jo: I ONLY NEED SOMETHING TO TAKE THIS MEDICINE. 705 00:39:27,896 --> 00:39:29,172 OKAY.MY BACK IS KILLING ME. 706 00:39:29,172 --> 00:39:30,724 OKAY. 707 00:39:30,724 --> 00:39:33,241 EVERYONE STOP. 708 00:39:33,241 --> 00:39:36,344 ♪♪ 709 00:39:36,344 --> 00:39:39,689 WITH A NEWBORN AND ALL THIS STRESS, 710 00:39:39,689 --> 00:39:43,517 I'M WORRIED IT'S GOING TO BE EVEN MORE DIFFICULT 711 00:39:43,517 --> 00:39:46,413 TO RESIST THE TEMPTATION OF RUNNING TO FOOD 712 00:39:46,413 --> 00:39:49,206 TO DEAL WITH ALL OF IT RIGHT NOW. 713 00:39:49,206 --> 00:39:51,827 SO I'M TRYING TO MAKE SURE I DON'T FALL BACK 714 00:39:51,827 --> 00:39:54,034 INTO ANY OLD HABITS, 715 00:39:54,034 --> 00:39:57,000 NO MATTER HOW STRESSFUL THINGS ARE, 716 00:39:57,000 --> 00:39:59,344 BECAUSE NOW THAT MY PREGNANCY IS OVER, 717 00:39:59,344 --> 00:40:02,068 I CAN START TO GET BACK TO MY WEIGHT LOSS. 718 00:40:02,068 --> 00:40:05,068 ♪♪ 719 00:40:05,068 --> 00:40:09,931 SO I PLAN TO REACH OUT TO DR. NOW TO START HIS PROGRAM AGAIN. 720 00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:14,241 WHEN I LEFT THE HOSPITAL LAST MONTH, 721 00:40:14,241 --> 00:40:17,758 THEY WEIGHED ME, AND I WAS 422, 722 00:40:17,758 --> 00:40:22,034 AND THAT'S 20 POUNDS LESS THAN I WAS WHEN I GOT PREGNANT, 723 00:40:22,034 --> 00:40:24,758 SO I WAS GLAD THAT THE BYPASS IS STILL WORKING 724 00:40:24,758 --> 00:40:28,689 AND THAT I STILL LOST SOME WEIGHT DURING THE PREGNANCY, 725 00:40:28,689 --> 00:40:32,689 BUT I STILL HAVE THAT BONE MASS ON MY SPINE. 726 00:40:32,689 --> 00:40:36,448 SO I'M SUPPOSED TO GO IN FOR MORE TESTS HERE SOON, 727 00:40:36,448 --> 00:40:40,931 SO THE DOCTORS HERE CAN FIGURE OUT THE BEST COURSE OF ACTION, 728 00:40:40,931 --> 00:40:44,551 AND I JUST HOPE JOSH AND I ARE ABLE TO START FIGURING OUT 729 00:40:44,551 --> 00:40:48,413 HOW TO IMPROVE THINGS BETWEEN US AGAIN 730 00:40:48,413 --> 00:40:50,758 BECAUSE I HAVE SOME HARD MONTHS AHEAD, 731 00:40:50,758 --> 00:40:53,241 AND WE CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS. 732 00:40:53,241 --> 00:41:03,103 ♪♪ 733 00:41:03,103 --> 00:41:04,758 Susan: MY MOM AND ME ARE HEADED TO THE CLINIC 734 00:41:04,758 --> 00:41:07,551 FOR MY NEXT DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT, 735 00:41:07,551 --> 00:41:09,965 AND I'M EXTREMELY NERVOUS 736 00:41:09,965 --> 00:41:13,965 BECAUSE I'M REALLY HOPING I'M DOING BETTER. 737 00:41:13,965 --> 00:41:18,344 BUT I KNOW I STILL HAVEN'T FIGURED MUCH OUT EMOTIONALLY, 738 00:41:18,344 --> 00:41:21,172 AND THAT'S WHAT SCARES ME THE MOST RIGHT NOW. 739 00:41:21,172 --> 00:41:24,137 THIS IS MY ONLY CHANCE TO SAVE MY LIFE, 740 00:41:24,137 --> 00:41:26,931 AND IF I START MESSING IT UP NOW, 741 00:41:26,931 --> 00:41:29,413 THERE ISN'T GOING TO BE ANOTHER CHANCE AFTER THIS. 742 00:41:29,413 --> 00:41:32,034 Woman: ALL RIGHT. STEP UP. 743 00:41:32,034 --> 00:41:35,241 THERE'S NO OTHER OPTIONS FOR ME, 744 00:41:35,241 --> 00:41:37,689 SO I HAVE TO DO THIS TO SAVE MY LIFE. 745 00:41:45,172 --> 00:41:50,931 ♪♪ 746 00:41:50,931 --> 00:41:53,586 Susan: I'M AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE TO FIND OUT 747 00:41:53,586 --> 00:41:56,793 IF I'M MAKING PROGRESS AGAIN OR NOT. 748 00:41:56,793 --> 00:42:01,413 LAST TIME, I HAD GAINED, AND I WAS UP TO 216, 749 00:42:01,413 --> 00:42:04,344 AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DOWN TO 190 POUNDS TODAY 750 00:42:04,344 --> 00:42:08,275 IF I WANT TO GET MY SKIN SURGERY APPROVAL. 751 00:42:08,275 --> 00:42:09,758 Woman: 216. 752 00:42:09,758 --> 00:42:12,137 OKAY. 753 00:42:12,137 --> 00:42:14,793 SO BY THAT, YOU HAVEN'T GAINED ANYTHING. 754 00:42:14,793 --> 00:42:16,034 BUT I HAVEN'T LOST ANYTHING. 755 00:42:16,034 --> 00:42:17,965 NO. 756 00:42:17,965 --> 00:42:21,413 THE SCALE DIDN'T SHOW A LOSS OR A GAIN. 757 00:42:21,413 --> 00:42:26,413 IT STILL MAINTAINED, SO I'M STILL WORRIED 758 00:42:26,413 --> 00:42:29,172 BECAUSE THAT MEANS I STILL HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT 759 00:42:29,172 --> 00:42:32,482 WHAT'S BEEN DRIVING ME TO EAT. 760 00:42:32,482 --> 00:42:34,931 Nita: ARE YOU UPSET? 761 00:42:34,931 --> 00:42:36,551 YOU'VE BEEN MAKING THAT COFFEE EVERY NIGHT, 762 00:42:36,551 --> 00:42:40,379 AND YOU PUT QUITE A BIT OF SUGAR IN THOSE, 763 00:42:40,379 --> 00:42:43,862 SO I KNOW THAT'S NOT HELPING ANY. 764 00:42:43,862 --> 00:42:45,206 WELL, I'M NOT GOING TO LIE TO YOU. 765 00:42:45,206 --> 00:42:46,758 IT'S TRUE. 766 00:42:46,758 --> 00:42:49,896 IT'S FUNNY YOU'RE SAYING IT NOW AND NEVER SAID ANYTHING AT HOME. 767 00:42:49,896 --> 00:42:51,068 NO. I SAID IT AT HOME. 768 00:42:51,068 --> 00:42:52,034 NO. NO. 769 00:42:52,034 --> 00:42:53,517 I SAID IT AT HOME. NO. 770 00:42:53,517 --> 00:42:54,517 AND YOU JUST... 771 00:42:54,517 --> 00:42:56,068 NO, YOU WANT TO WAIT UNTIL WE GET... 772 00:42:56,068 --> 00:42:58,586 NO. MNH-MNH. 773 00:43:00,896 --> 00:43:02,482 HELLO. HELLO. 774 00:43:02,482 --> 00:43:05,586 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 775 00:43:05,586 --> 00:43:07,206 I'M HERE. 776 00:43:07,206 --> 00:43:10,241 WELL, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? 777 00:43:10,241 --> 00:43:12,448 I'M HERE. 778 00:43:12,448 --> 00:43:17,448 I'M KIND OF BUMMED BECAUSE I DIDN'T LOSE, BUT I DIDN'T GAIN. 779 00:43:17,448 --> 00:43:19,172 WE CALL THAT PLATEAU. 780 00:43:19,172 --> 00:43:21,586 SO IT'S GOOD THAT YOU DIDN'T GAIN, 781 00:43:21,586 --> 00:43:24,655 BUT YOUR OUTLOOK IS NOT MUCH BETTER RIGHT NOW. 782 00:43:24,655 --> 00:43:25,827 RIGHT. 783 00:43:25,827 --> 00:43:28,620 AND IT IS BECAUSE YOUR EMOTIONAL ISSUES 784 00:43:28,620 --> 00:43:31,517 ARE LEADING YOU TO OVEREAT STILL, 785 00:43:31,517 --> 00:43:35,862 AND I'M GUESSING YOU HAVE YOUR OTHER BAD HABITS TOO. 786 00:43:35,862 --> 00:43:39,137 YOU ARE SMOKING STILL? 787 00:43:39,137 --> 00:43:40,793 TRYING TO QUIT, YES. 788 00:43:40,793 --> 00:43:42,620 YOU KNOW THE AUTHOR MARK TWAIN? 789 00:43:42,620 --> 00:43:43,931 YES. 790 00:43:43,931 --> 00:43:46,413 HE SAID, "GIVING UP SMOKING IS EASY. 791 00:43:46,413 --> 00:43:49,068 I'VE DONE IT HUNDREDS OF TIMES." 792 00:43:49,068 --> 00:43:53,344 HIS POINT WAS GIVING UP THE BAD HABIT WAS EASY, 793 00:43:53,344 --> 00:43:56,206 NOT GOING BACK IS THE HARD PART. 794 00:43:56,206 --> 00:43:59,931 SO YOU'RE NOT DOING THE HARD PART YET, AND YOU NEED TO. 795 00:43:59,931 --> 00:44:01,275 RIGHT. 796 00:44:01,275 --> 00:44:04,344 NICOTINE CAUSES POOR CIRCULATION, 797 00:44:04,344 --> 00:44:07,448 WHICH GUARANTEES A POOR RECOVERY. 798 00:44:07,448 --> 00:44:08,931 NOW HERE'S THE DEAL. 799 00:44:08,931 --> 00:44:12,000 IF YOU WANT THIS SKIN SURGERY, NUMBER ONE -- 800 00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:15,344 YOU HAVE TO BE TOBACCO FREE, OKAY? 801 00:44:15,344 --> 00:44:18,862 NUMBER TWO -- YOU NEED TO GET DOWN TO 190. 802 00:44:18,862 --> 00:44:19,965 OKAY. 803 00:44:19,965 --> 00:44:21,448 SO YOU NEED TO MAKE THOSE THINGS HAPPEN, 804 00:44:21,448 --> 00:44:27,310 SO RIGHT NOW, SKIN SURGERY IS NOT A GOOD OPTION FOR YOU, OKAY? 805 00:44:27,310 --> 00:44:29,586 Dr. Nowzaradan: SUSAN IS CLEARLY STILL DEALING 806 00:44:29,586 --> 00:44:32,344 WITH ALL THE SAME EMOTIONAL ISSUES 807 00:44:32,344 --> 00:44:34,206 THAT SHE HAS BEEN. 808 00:44:34,206 --> 00:44:36,103 SHE DIDN'T GAIN, BUT THE FACT 809 00:44:36,103 --> 00:44:38,172 THAT SHE'S NOT MAKING ANY PROGRESS 810 00:44:38,172 --> 00:44:40,965 STILL INDICATES LIKELIHOOD OF FAILURE 811 00:44:40,965 --> 00:44:43,206 WITH HER WEIGHT LOSS LONG TERM 812 00:44:43,206 --> 00:44:46,793 AND THAT SHE'S STILL SABOTAGING HERSELF. 813 00:44:46,793 --> 00:44:49,827 AND HER MOM LOOKS TO STILL BE GAINING, 814 00:44:49,827 --> 00:44:53,275 SO SHE'S STILL A NEGATIVE INFLUENCE ON SUSAN 815 00:44:53,275 --> 00:44:55,137 THAT NEEDS TO BE ADDRESSED. 816 00:44:55,137 --> 00:44:59,137 HOW'S MOM DOING WITH HER HABITS? 817 00:44:59,137 --> 00:45:03,000 HAVE YOU BEEN CHANGING YOUR SMOKING AND YOUR EATING HABITS? 818 00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:04,827 I'M TRYING TO QUIT SMOKING. 819 00:45:07,137 --> 00:45:10,241 I HAVEN'T, BUT I'VE BEEN VAPORING TODAY. 820 00:45:10,241 --> 00:45:12,586 YOU'RE A BAD EXAMPLE TO HER, 821 00:45:12,586 --> 00:45:16,482 AND SHE'S FOLLOWING YOUR EXAMPLE. 822 00:45:16,482 --> 00:45:18,275 OH, WELL. 823 00:45:18,275 --> 00:45:21,379 IF YOU HAVE SOMEONE WHO IS TRYING TO QUIT A DRUG, 824 00:45:21,379 --> 00:45:23,827 WHAT KIND OF EFFECT DO YOU THINK IT HAS 825 00:45:23,827 --> 00:45:27,655 IF YOU KEEP BRINGING THE DRUG INTO THE HOUSE WITH THEM? 826 00:45:27,655 --> 00:45:30,586 BUT SHE'S THE ONE GOING THROUGH IT, NOT ME. 827 00:45:30,586 --> 00:45:33,689 I'M JUST GAINING THE WEIGHT SHE'S LOSING. 828 00:45:33,689 --> 00:45:37,310 YOU'RE THE MOM, AND YOU NEED TO RECOGNIZE THE INFLUENCE 829 00:45:37,310 --> 00:45:38,827 YOU HAVE ON SUSAN 830 00:45:38,827 --> 00:45:42,689 AND HOW THAT CAN EITHER BE FOR BETTER OR WORSE. 831 00:45:42,689 --> 00:45:44,827 SUSAN, KEEP GOING TO THERAPY. 832 00:45:44,827 --> 00:45:46,068 OKAY. 833 00:45:46,068 --> 00:45:50,000 AND MOM, YOU HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR LIFE, TOO, OKAY? 834 00:45:50,000 --> 00:45:51,206 OKAY. 835 00:45:51,206 --> 00:45:53,620 YOU HAVE TO BE BETTER EXAMPLE FOR HER. 836 00:45:53,620 --> 00:45:54,965 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 837 00:45:54,965 --> 00:45:57,275 I'LL SEE YOU BOTH SOON. 838 00:45:57,275 --> 00:46:01,551 ♪♪ 839 00:46:01,551 --> 00:46:07,241 I'M LAUGHING BECAUSE OF HIM GETTING ONTO ME. 840 00:46:07,241 --> 00:46:09,379 YOU'RE KIND OF LIKE ME. 841 00:46:09,379 --> 00:46:11,310 WHEN YOU DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH CERTAIN THINGS, 842 00:46:11,310 --> 00:46:13,655 INSTEAD OF CRYING ABOUT, SHE'S GOING TO LAUGH ABOUT IT, 843 00:46:13,655 --> 00:46:15,689 AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT SHE'S DOING. 844 00:46:15,689 --> 00:46:21,758 ♪♪ 845 00:46:21,758 --> 00:46:24,000 IT'S OKAY. 846 00:46:24,000 --> 00:46:25,724 IT WAS TRUE. 847 00:46:25,724 --> 00:46:29,000 YOU'RE LAUGHING ABOUT INSTEAD OF HAVING TO CRY ABOUT IT. 848 00:46:31,241 --> 00:46:34,172 HE'S BEEN DOING IT EVERY TIME YOU COME. 849 00:46:34,172 --> 00:46:36,517 HE'S ONLY DOING IT TO HELP YOU. 850 00:46:38,655 --> 00:46:41,344 YOU KNOW, I'VE GOT A DOCTOR, THOUGH. 851 00:46:41,344 --> 00:46:43,379 I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS. 852 00:46:43,379 --> 00:46:44,482 I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT... 853 00:46:44,482 --> 00:46:47,034 I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS CRAP. 854 00:46:47,034 --> 00:46:50,206 I JUST WANT TO GO. 855 00:46:50,206 --> 00:46:53,413 I HAVEN'T HAD THE COURAGE TO CONFRONT MY MOM, 856 00:46:53,413 --> 00:46:55,482 BUT DR. NOW DID IT FOR ME. 857 00:46:55,482 --> 00:46:56,862 YOU READY? MM-HMM. 858 00:46:56,862 --> 00:46:59,344 LET'S GO. 859 00:46:59,344 --> 00:47:02,206 MY MOM AVOIDS THINGS LIKE I DO, 860 00:47:02,206 --> 00:47:06,482 SO I'M NOT SURE HOW WE START GETTING PAST THAT, 861 00:47:06,482 --> 00:47:10,034 BUT RIGHT NOW, I KNOW THAT IF MY MOM CAN'T SUPPORT ME, 862 00:47:10,034 --> 00:47:15,172 THEN IT MIGHT BE TIME FOR ME TO START LIVING ON MY OWN. 863 00:47:15,172 --> 00:47:18,655 I LOVE MY MOM, AND I DON'T WANT THAT, 864 00:47:18,655 --> 00:47:21,103 BUT IF SHE DOESN'T WANT TO CHANGE, 865 00:47:21,103 --> 00:47:23,103 I MAY HAVE NO CHOICE. 866 00:47:23,103 --> 00:47:29,517 ♪♪ 867 00:47:29,517 --> 00:47:36,000 ♪♪ 868 00:47:36,000 --> 00:47:40,172 Bettie Jo: I FINALLY GOT AROUND TO SETTING A VIDEO CALL WITH DR. NOW, 869 00:47:40,172 --> 00:47:41,827 SO HE CAN SEE HOW I'M DOING, 870 00:47:41,827 --> 00:47:44,103 AND I CAN GET BACK ON THE PROGRAM, 871 00:47:46,689 --> 00:47:50,103 BUT I'M ACTUALLY NOT SURE HOW MUCH I CAN DO RIGHT NOW 872 00:47:50,103 --> 00:47:53,275 BECAUSE THE DOCTORS HAVE BEEN STUDYING MY BONE MASS 873 00:47:53,275 --> 00:47:55,931 TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO REMOVE IT... 874 00:47:58,965 --> 00:48:01,793 ...AND THEY'VE DISCOVERED IT'S CANCEROUS. 875 00:48:04,310 --> 00:48:07,379 AND THEY TOLD ME THAT I CAN'T STRAIN MYSELF TOO MUCH 876 00:48:07,379 --> 00:48:10,172 AND THAT I CAN NO LONGER LIFT ANYTHING, 877 00:48:10,172 --> 00:48:13,137 AND THAT INCLUDES PRESTON, 878 00:48:13,137 --> 00:48:16,379 SO I CAN'T EVEN HOLD MY BABY ANYMORE, 879 00:48:16,379 --> 00:48:19,862 BUT I'M HOPEFUL EVERYTHING IS GOING TO TURN OUT OKAY, 880 00:48:19,862 --> 00:48:22,310 AND WHEN IT DOES, I WANT TO HAVE STAYED ON TRACK 881 00:48:22,310 --> 00:48:24,103 AND LOST THE WEIGHT I NEED. 882 00:48:26,103 --> 00:48:29,000 SO I'M JUST HOPING DR. NOW UNDERSTANDS 883 00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:32,103 AND IS ABLE TO HELP ME. 884 00:48:32,103 --> 00:48:34,482 Bettie Jo: HELLO.Hey, Bettie Jo. 885 00:48:34,482 --> 00:48:35,827 HI. How are you? 886 00:48:35,827 --> 00:48:37,344 I'M DOING OKAY. HOW ARE YOU? 887 00:48:37,344 --> 00:48:39,172 I'm doing good. 888 00:48:39,172 --> 00:48:41,413 So what's going on with you? 889 00:48:41,413 --> 00:48:43,241 A LOT OF THINGS. 890 00:48:43,241 --> 00:48:46,413 THIS HAS BEEN A REALLY HARD TIME IN MY LIFE. 891 00:48:46,413 --> 00:48:48,551 I WENT TO AN ONCOLOGIST, 892 00:48:48,551 --> 00:48:53,379 AND I HAVE SOME BONE CANCER IN MY BACK, 893 00:48:53,379 --> 00:48:57,000 SO HE'S GOING TO SEND ME TO A SURGEON TO SEE 894 00:48:57,000 --> 00:48:59,896 IF THE SURGEON CAN REMOVE IT, 895 00:48:59,896 --> 00:49:04,241 BUT IF HE CAN'T, THEN I HAVE TO DO RADIATION TREATMENTS. 896 00:49:04,241 --> 00:49:07,965 And did they do a biopsy on it and find out it was cancer, 897 00:49:07,965 --> 00:49:09,896 or just speculating? 898 00:49:09,896 --> 00:49:12,034 LAST YEAR, THEY DID A BIOPSY, 899 00:49:12,034 --> 00:49:14,551 BUT THIS TIME HE SAID IT WAS DIFFERENT, 900 00:49:14,551 --> 00:49:18,241 SO THEY'RE DOING ALL OF THAT OVER AGAIN. 901 00:49:18,241 --> 00:49:20,827 Okay. There are a lot of things going on with you, 902 00:49:20,827 --> 00:49:23,241 so I want you to come down to Houston 903 00:49:23,241 --> 00:49:25,206 to see me for an appointment. 904 00:49:25,206 --> 00:49:26,758 OKAY. 905 00:49:26,758 --> 00:49:29,793 So how is your weight doing? 906 00:49:29,793 --> 00:49:33,413 I'M STILL KIND OF JUST STUCK IN LIKE A RUT. 907 00:49:33,413 --> 00:49:37,931 I KEEP GOING, YOU KNOW, UP AND DOWN IN A 15-POUND RUT. 908 00:49:37,931 --> 00:49:40,344 Yeah. When was the last time you weighed yourself? 909 00:49:40,344 --> 00:49:44,379 I WEIGHED MYSELF EARLIER. 910 00:49:44,379 --> 00:49:46,862 I WAS RIGHT ABOUT 400. 911 00:49:46,862 --> 00:49:49,000 400 pounds? YEAH. 912 00:49:49,000 --> 00:49:51,379 What were you after the baby was born? 913 00:49:51,379 --> 00:49:55,931 I GOT DOWN TO 385, AND NOW I'M BACK UP TO 400. 914 00:49:55,931 --> 00:49:57,689 So you're gaining again. 915 00:49:57,689 --> 00:49:59,793 YEAH, LIKE I JUST... 916 00:49:59,793 --> 00:50:01,965 IT'S KIND OF JUST GOING UP AND DOWN. 917 00:50:01,965 --> 00:50:05,310 Bettie Jo, it does go up and down, and this is going up. 918 00:50:05,310 --> 00:50:07,275 Where is your extra calorie coming in? 919 00:50:07,275 --> 00:50:09,275 I'M STILL EATING SMALL PORTIONS. 920 00:50:09,275 --> 00:50:12,896 I'M STILL EATING MEAT AND PROTEIN AND STUFF. 921 00:50:12,896 --> 00:50:14,448 That makes no sense. 922 00:50:14,448 --> 00:50:18,310 If that were true, you wouldn't be at the weight you are now. 923 00:50:18,310 --> 00:50:19,793 You're still overeating, 924 00:50:19,793 --> 00:50:23,000 so I want you to cut your portions in half, 925 00:50:23,000 --> 00:50:25,689 and I want to set an appointment with you 926 00:50:25,689 --> 00:50:27,344 for next month. 927 00:50:27,344 --> 00:50:29,172 Okay? OKAY. 928 00:50:29,172 --> 00:50:32,551 And I want to learn more about your current diagnosis 929 00:50:32,551 --> 00:50:34,275 when you're down here. 930 00:50:34,275 --> 00:50:38,172 Because a lot of what you're saying doesn't make sense, 931 00:50:38,172 --> 00:50:40,482 and we can discuss everything then. 932 00:50:40,482 --> 00:50:41,827 OKAY. All right. 933 00:50:41,827 --> 00:50:44,206 So I will see you here soon. 934 00:50:44,206 --> 00:50:46,965 And I want you to keep working to lose at least 935 00:50:46,965 --> 00:50:49,482 15 pounds a month right now. 936 00:50:49,482 --> 00:50:51,344 Okay? OKAY. 937 00:50:51,344 --> 00:50:52,551 I'll see you soon. 938 00:50:52,551 --> 00:50:53,620 BYE. 939 00:50:53,620 --> 00:50:59,620 ♪♪ 940 00:50:59,620 --> 00:51:02,344 I JUST DON'T THINK DR. NOW UNDERSTANDS 941 00:51:02,344 --> 00:51:05,827 WHAT I'M DEALING WITH RIGHT NOW. 942 00:51:05,827 --> 00:51:08,275 I'M NOT WHERE EVERYBODY ELSE IS, 943 00:51:08,275 --> 00:51:10,965 AND AS MUCH AS I BEAT MYSELF UP ABOUT IT, 944 00:51:10,965 --> 00:51:13,965 EVERYBODY GOES AND TELLS ME, "IT'S OKAY," LIKE, 945 00:51:13,965 --> 00:51:16,931 "YOU'VE HAD A LOT OF THINGS HAPPENING TO YOU," YOU KNOW? 946 00:51:16,931 --> 00:51:18,862 LIKE, "YOU'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH EVERYTHING," 947 00:51:18,862 --> 00:51:23,103 BUT, YOU KNOW, APPARENTLY EVEN IF I GO THROUGH EVERYTHING, 948 00:51:23,103 --> 00:51:29,758 I'M SUPPOSED TO BE A TINY PERSON RIGHT NOW, I GUESS. 949 00:51:29,758 --> 00:51:31,896 BUT I KNOW I'M GOING TO WANT SKIN SURGERY 950 00:51:31,896 --> 00:51:33,551 WHEN I LOSE MORE WEIGHT, 951 00:51:33,551 --> 00:51:37,310 SO I DON'T WANT TO LOSE THE CHANCE TO BE IN HIS PROGRAM. 952 00:51:37,310 --> 00:51:40,206 SO I'LL TRY AND GO, BUT I'M NOT SURE 953 00:51:40,206 --> 00:51:42,758 IF IT WILL DO ANY GOOD OR HELP AT ALL. 954 00:51:48,586 --> 00:51:54,103 ♪♪ 955 00:51:54,103 --> 00:51:59,655 ♪♪ 956 00:51:59,655 --> 00:52:02,068 Susan: SINCE DR. NOW CALLED MY MOM OUT, 957 00:52:02,068 --> 00:52:05,275 THINGS HAVE BEEN A LITTLE STRAINED BETWEEN US, 958 00:52:05,275 --> 00:52:08,862 AND I KNOW IT'S BECAUSE HE HIT A NERVE WITH MY MOM 959 00:52:08,862 --> 00:52:14,206 WHEN HE CONFRONTED HER ABOUT HOW HER CHOICES ARE HURTING ME, 960 00:52:14,206 --> 00:52:16,862 AND AS MUCH AS I WANT HER TO UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING 961 00:52:16,862 --> 00:52:22,379 DR. NOW SAID, I DON'T WANT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO GET WORSE. 962 00:52:22,379 --> 00:52:25,482 SO I FIGURED I'D MAKE THE FIRST STEP 963 00:52:25,482 --> 00:52:28,344 TO TRY AND REPAIR THINGS BETWEEN US 964 00:52:28,344 --> 00:52:32,034 AND TRYING TO ENGAGE HER AND REACH OUT. 965 00:52:33,896 --> 00:52:36,034 I'M GOING TO GO WALK. 966 00:52:36,034 --> 00:52:37,931 DO YOU WANT TO GO WALK WITH ME? 967 00:52:37,931 --> 00:52:39,965 YEAH. LET'S GO. 968 00:52:39,965 --> 00:52:42,758 I DON'T WANT US TO BE LIKE THIS, 969 00:52:42,758 --> 00:52:45,655 BUT I KNOW IF SHE DOESN'T START TO CHANGE, 970 00:52:45,655 --> 00:52:47,068 THEN I MAY HAVE NO CHOICE 971 00:52:47,068 --> 00:52:51,206 BUT TO START TO SEPARATE FROM HER EVEN MORE. 972 00:52:51,206 --> 00:52:54,137 I'M JUST HOPING WHAT DR. NOW SAID TO HER 973 00:52:54,137 --> 00:52:58,103 HAS HELPED HER UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I NEED HER, 974 00:52:58,103 --> 00:53:01,689 AND I HATE HOW WE'RE AVOIDING EACH OTHER IN ALL OF THIS, 975 00:53:01,689 --> 00:53:05,448 SO I WANT IT TO STOP RIGHT NOW. 976 00:53:05,448 --> 00:53:07,620 I REMEMBER WHEN YOU COULDN'T EVEN WALK... 977 00:53:07,620 --> 00:53:09,827 I KNOW....OUT TO THE CAR. 978 00:53:09,827 --> 00:53:13,551 NOW I'M GETTING LIKE THAT, BUT THAT'S JUST MY OLD AGE. 979 00:53:13,551 --> 00:53:15,620 BECAUSE THERE'S JUST A LOT OF EMOTION 980 00:53:15,620 --> 00:53:18,965 I KNOW WE BOTH NEED TO LET OUT, 981 00:53:18,965 --> 00:53:22,724 SO I'M HOPING THAT WE CAN AT LEAST START THAT TODAY. 982 00:53:22,724 --> 00:53:25,896 IT'S OKAY. IT'S OKAY. 983 00:53:25,896 --> 00:53:27,241 IT'S OKAY. CALM DOWN. 984 00:53:27,241 --> 00:53:29,551 [ SOBS ] 985 00:53:29,551 --> 00:53:32,379 I KNOW MY MOM WANTS ME TO BE WELL. 986 00:53:32,379 --> 00:53:37,206 IT'S JUST THAT WE BOTH HAVE ISSUES THAT MAKE IT HARDER 987 00:53:37,206 --> 00:53:39,344 TO GET TO A BETTER PLACE, 988 00:53:39,344 --> 00:53:43,551 BUT I KNOW IF WE WORK AT IT, WE BOTH CAN GET THERE. 989 00:53:43,551 --> 00:53:47,586 ♪♪ 990 00:53:47,586 --> 00:53:51,620 IT'S HARD. 991 00:53:51,620 --> 00:53:53,482 I APPRECIATE YOU WALKING WITH ME 992 00:53:53,482 --> 00:53:55,517 TO HELP SUPPORT ME GETTING HEALTHY 993 00:53:55,517 --> 00:53:58,586 LIKE I NEED. 994 00:53:58,586 --> 00:54:00,827 THAT MEANS A LOT. 995 00:54:00,827 --> 00:54:02,241 I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. 996 00:54:02,241 --> 00:54:03,931 I REALLY AM...I KNOW. 997 00:54:03,931 --> 00:54:06,965 ...BECAUSE YOU'VE DONE GREAT. 998 00:54:06,965 --> 00:54:10,310 I KNOW, AND I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING YOU DO FOR ME, 999 00:54:10,310 --> 00:54:13,172 BUT IT'S HARD WHEN I FEEL LIKE YOU DON'T SUPPORT ME 1000 00:54:13,172 --> 00:54:16,689 BECAUSE YOU BRING FAST FOOD HOME, YOU KNOW, 1001 00:54:16,689 --> 00:54:18,931 OR YOU START SMOKING IN FRONT OF ME. 1002 00:54:18,931 --> 00:54:22,620 SO I JUST NEED YOU TO TRY AND REALIZE THOSE THINGS, OKAY? 1003 00:54:22,620 --> 00:54:23,758 OKAY. 1004 00:54:23,758 --> 00:54:28,275 [ SOBS ] I LOVE YOU. 1005 00:54:28,275 --> 00:54:30,482 I'M JUST TRYING. 1006 00:54:30,482 --> 00:54:35,068 TO SEE YOU WALKING 1007 00:54:35,068 --> 00:54:37,241 AND GETTING OUT AND DOING THINGS 1008 00:54:37,241 --> 00:54:41,241 I DIDN'T THINK I'D EVER SEE... 1009 00:54:41,241 --> 00:54:45,413 I AM VERY GRATEFUL THAT YOU'VE BEEN HERE FOR ME. 1010 00:54:45,413 --> 00:54:47,655 YOU'VE BEEN HERE FROM THE GET-GO. 1011 00:54:47,655 --> 00:54:50,586 I MEAN, YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN HERE FOR ME. 1012 00:54:50,586 --> 00:54:53,000 WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, YOU KNOW, AND SEVERAL DIETS, 1013 00:54:53,000 --> 00:54:56,862 GOING TO MANY DOCTORS, BACK THEN, 1014 00:54:56,862 --> 00:55:00,517 I WASN'T READY FOR IT, BUT NOW I AM, 1015 00:55:00,517 --> 00:55:03,758 AND YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN THERE THROUGH EVERYTHING, 1016 00:55:03,758 --> 00:55:07,206 AND I'M VERY APPRECIATIVE FOR IT. 1017 00:55:07,206 --> 00:55:10,482 AND I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU NO MATTER WHAT. 1018 00:55:10,482 --> 00:55:12,586 I'M A LATE BLOOMER. 1019 00:55:12,586 --> 00:55:16,896 YOU MAY BE 40 YEARS OLD, BUT YOU'RE STILL MY BABY. 1020 00:55:16,896 --> 00:55:18,827 YOU'LL ALWAYS BE. I LOVE YOU... 1021 00:55:18,827 --> 00:55:20,724 I LOVE YOU....AND I ALWAYS WILL. 1022 00:55:20,724 --> 00:55:25,689 ♪♪ 1023 00:55:25,689 --> 00:55:28,413 I LOVE YOU, TOO. 1024 00:55:28,413 --> 00:55:37,000 ♪♪ 1025 00:55:37,000 --> 00:55:41,000 Josh: YOU GOT THE KEYS, MOM? 1026 00:55:41,000 --> 00:55:44,517 Bettie Jo: TODAY WE ARE HEADED ON A PLANE TO HOUSTON 1027 00:55:44,517 --> 00:55:47,344 TO GO SEE DR. NOW. 1028 00:55:47,344 --> 00:55:48,655 WE GOT EVERYTHING? 1029 00:55:48,655 --> 00:55:51,310 WE'RE GOOD TO GO. 1030 00:55:51,310 --> 00:55:53,172 I'M KIND OF EXCITED AND NERVOUS 1031 00:55:53,172 --> 00:55:58,206 JUST BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN TO TEXAS IN 2 YEARS, 1032 00:55:58,206 --> 00:56:01,413 BUT I'M A LITTLE WORRIED ABOUT SEEING DR. NOW. 1033 00:56:01,413 --> 00:56:05,137 ♪♪ 1034 00:56:05,137 --> 00:56:08,068 THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER GOING ON A PLANE, 1035 00:56:08,068 --> 00:56:12,344 SO I'M VERY, VERY NERVOUS. 1036 00:56:12,344 --> 00:56:13,827 BUT ONCE WE GET DOWN THERE 1037 00:56:13,827 --> 00:56:16,103 AND HE ACTUALLY LOOKS AT MY BODY, 1038 00:56:16,103 --> 00:56:21,344 MAYBE HE'LL REALIZE THAT I HAVE BEEN WORKING VERY HARD WITH, 1039 00:56:21,344 --> 00:56:24,379 YOU KNOW, EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH. 1040 00:56:24,379 --> 00:56:26,172 Denina: YOU KNOW, YOU'VE HAD A BABY. 1041 00:56:26,172 --> 00:56:27,931 YOU WERE ON BED REST FOR 8 MONTHS, 1042 00:56:27,931 --> 00:56:31,000 SO YOU'VE HAD A LOT OF HURDLES TO OVERCOME, 1043 00:56:31,000 --> 00:56:33,206 SO DON'T THINK THAT YOU'RE NOT DOING THE PROGRAM 1044 00:56:33,206 --> 00:56:35,103 OR THAT DR. NOW IS TELLING YOU 1045 00:56:35,103 --> 00:56:37,241 YOU WERE EATING 3,000 CALORIES A DAY 1046 00:56:37,241 --> 00:56:38,310 BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU'RE NOT. 1047 00:56:38,310 --> 00:56:40,379 AND YOUR WHOLE FAMILY KNOWS YOU'RE NOT. 1048 00:56:40,379 --> 00:56:42,655 WHEN I WAS PREGNANT AND THEY'RE MAKING ME 1049 00:56:42,655 --> 00:56:44,655 EAT MORE OFTEN AND STUFF, 1050 00:56:44,655 --> 00:56:47,137 I GOT BACK INTO THE HABIT WHERE IT WAS CONSTANTLY 1051 00:56:47,137 --> 00:56:50,620 THINKING ABOUT IT, YOU KNOW, AND WANTING TO EAT ALL THE TIME, 1052 00:56:50,620 --> 00:56:53,517 AND I WASN'T REALLY WATCHING WHAT I WAS EATING. 1053 00:56:53,517 --> 00:56:56,827 AND YOU CAN'T GO AND EXERCISE LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE 1054 00:56:56,827 --> 00:56:59,827 WITH YOUR BACK BEING THE WAY IT IS. 1055 00:56:59,827 --> 00:57:03,965 BUT WITH THE GROWTH ON MY SPINE, I KNOW I CAN'T DRIVE DOWN, 1056 00:57:03,965 --> 00:57:07,068 AND I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO JUST TELL DR. NOW 1057 00:57:07,068 --> 00:57:11,827 I COULDN'T MAKE IT AND HAVE TO QUIT HIS PROGRAM. 1058 00:57:11,827 --> 00:57:15,068 BUT JOSH'S MOM SAID SHE'D GET US TICKETS TO GO, 1059 00:57:15,068 --> 00:57:17,862 SO I AM, BUT I'M SCARED 1060 00:57:17,862 --> 00:57:21,275 BECAUSE I'M STILL NOT SUPPOSED TO DO ANYTHING STRENUOUS 1061 00:57:21,275 --> 00:57:23,689 OR EVEN LIFT ANYTHING, 1062 00:57:23,689 --> 00:57:26,655 SO I CAN'T CARRY PRESTON AT ALL STILL. 1063 00:57:26,655 --> 00:57:29,965 ♪♪ 1064 00:57:29,965 --> 00:57:34,758 SO I KNOW I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL BECAUSE MY SPINE CAN ONLY TAKE 1065 00:57:34,758 --> 00:57:39,206 SO MUCH PRESSURE BEFORE SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS, 1066 00:57:39,206 --> 00:57:43,724 SO I'M JUST HOPING THIS ISN'T A BAD EXPERIENCE FOR ME. 1067 00:57:43,724 --> 00:57:48,241 I'VE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT, BUT I'M STILL 400 POUNDS, 1068 00:57:48,241 --> 00:57:51,551 AND THAT'S STILL PRETTY BIG. 1069 00:57:51,551 --> 00:57:53,551 SO MY BIGGEST FEAR RIGHT NOW 1070 00:57:53,551 --> 00:57:56,517 IS THAT I'M STILL TOO BIG TO FIT ON A PLANE, 1071 00:57:56,517 --> 00:57:59,758 AND MY OTHER FEAR IS PEOPLE STARING AT ME, 1072 00:57:59,758 --> 00:58:02,896 SO I'M REALLY SCARED RIGHT NOW. 1073 00:58:02,896 --> 00:58:04,137 -THANKS, GUYS. -THANKS, GUYS. 1074 00:58:04,137 --> 00:58:07,137 OH, MY GOD. 1075 00:58:07,137 --> 00:58:09,275 I'M FLYING. I'M STARTING TO FREAK OUT. 1076 00:58:09,275 --> 00:58:10,793 YOU'RE OKAY, HONEY. 1077 00:58:10,793 --> 00:58:12,896 TAKE A DEEP BREATH.I'M TRYING. 1078 00:58:12,896 --> 00:58:16,000 TAKE A BREATH. -RIGHT HERE. 1079 00:58:16,000 --> 00:58:18,310 Josh: I DON'T THINK THIS PLANE RIDE WILL BE THAT TOUGH. 1080 00:58:18,310 --> 00:58:20,448 IT'S ONLY A 2-HOUR FLIGHT. 1081 00:58:20,448 --> 00:58:21,586 OH, MY GOODNESS. 1082 00:58:21,586 --> 00:58:23,068 HONEY. 1083 00:58:23,068 --> 00:58:24,620 OH. YOU'RE FINE. 1084 00:58:24,620 --> 00:58:27,310 I'M BEHIND YOU. -WHAT'S WRONG? 1085 00:58:27,310 --> 00:58:28,689 -NOTHING. -WHAT'S WRONG? 1086 00:58:28,689 --> 00:58:31,448 -I'M, LIKE... -HONEY, YOU'RE OKAY. 1087 00:58:31,448 --> 00:58:35,448 COME ON. YOU'RE OKAY. 1088 00:58:35,448 --> 00:58:37,344 IF YOU SAY SO. 1089 00:58:37,344 --> 00:58:39,034 I DO SAY SO. 1090 00:58:39,034 --> 00:58:41,655 THEY'RE NOT BIG ENOUGH FOR THE... 1091 00:58:41,655 --> 00:58:43,103 DO YOU GUYS HAVE, LIKE, SEATBELT EXTENDERS? 1092 00:58:43,103 --> 00:58:44,655 -OF COURSE WE DO. -OKAY. 1093 00:58:44,655 --> 00:58:47,551 -BE RIGHT BACK. -IT'S IN THE... 1094 00:58:47,551 --> 00:58:48,965 THANK YOU. 1095 00:58:48,965 --> 00:58:53,103 ♪♪ 1096 00:58:53,103 --> 00:58:57,275 IT'S A BIT OF A RELIEF TO SIT DOWN AND TO KNOW I CAN FIT... 1097 00:58:57,275 --> 00:59:00,724 ♪♪ 1098 00:59:00,724 --> 00:59:05,344 ...BUT THIS IS ALL JUST A BIT OVERWHELMING, 1099 00:59:05,344 --> 00:59:07,068 AND I JUST WANT TO GET TO HOUSTON 1100 00:59:07,068 --> 00:59:09,137 AND GET THIS ALL OVER WITH. 1101 00:59:09,137 --> 00:59:17,137 ♪♪ 1102 00:59:17,137 --> 00:59:20,000 Woman: WE ARE SCHEDULED TO ARRIVE AT 8:45. 1103 00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:26,758 ♪♪ 1104 00:59:26,758 --> 00:59:29,586 Bettie Jo: I AM VERY PROUD I ACTUALLY GOT ON THE PLANE 1105 00:59:29,586 --> 00:59:33,241 AND MADE THE TRIP INSTEAD OF CHICKENING OUT. 1106 00:59:33,241 --> 00:59:38,241 ♪♪ 1107 00:59:38,241 --> 00:59:43,551 SO NOW THE ONLY THING I'M WORRIED ABOUT IS SEEING DR. NOW. 1108 00:59:43,551 --> 00:59:46,931 MY APPOINTMENT IS FIRST THING IN THE MORNING, 1109 00:59:46,931 --> 00:59:50,172 BUT I'M PROUD OF MYSELF FOR DOING THIS TODAY, 1110 00:59:50,172 --> 00:59:56,000 AND I'M GOING TO JUST BLOCK OUT ANY STRESS ABOUT SEEING DR. NOW, 1111 00:59:56,000 --> 00:59:58,620 AND I'M REMINDING MYSELF THAT NO MATTER WHAT, 1112 00:59:58,620 --> 01:00:02,206 I KNOW I'M DOING GOOD AND WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN. 1113 01:00:04,827 --> 01:00:10,034 SO I'M NOT GOING TO LET HIM TELL ME I SHOULD BE DOING MORE, 1114 01:00:10,034 --> 01:00:11,793 AND IF DR. NOW TRIES, 1115 01:00:11,793 --> 01:00:16,793 I KNOW JOSH WILL BE THERE FOR ME TO STEP IN AND DEFEND ME. 1116 01:00:16,793 --> 01:00:20,551 SO NO MATTER HOW UPSET DR. NOW GETS AT ME OR TELLS ME 1117 01:00:20,551 --> 01:00:23,275 I'M NOT DOING WHAT I NEED, I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE IT. 1118 01:00:28,965 --> 01:00:35,689 ♪♪ 1119 01:00:35,689 --> 01:00:42,068 Bettie Jo: TODAY I AM SEEING DR. NOWZARADAN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 YEARS, 1120 01:00:42,068 --> 01:00:43,827 AND I'M SCARED HE'S GOING TO TELL ME 1121 01:00:43,827 --> 01:00:46,689 THAT I'M NOT DOING WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO 1122 01:00:46,689 --> 01:00:50,000 WHEN I'M TRYING AS HARD AS I CAN. 1123 01:00:50,000 --> 01:00:54,551 SO I'M WORRIED ABOUT HOW TODAY IS GOING TO GO, 1124 01:00:54,551 --> 01:00:56,172 BUT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, 1125 01:00:56,172 --> 01:00:58,413 I'M NOT GOING TO LET IT GET ME DOWN. 1126 01:00:58,413 --> 01:01:01,827 ♪♪ 1127 01:01:01,827 --> 01:01:05,551 I'M HOPING DR. NOW REALIZES THERE'S GOING TO ONLY BE 1128 01:01:05,551 --> 01:01:10,965 SO MUCH I CAN DO BECAUSE OF THE BONE MASS ON MY SPINE, 1129 01:01:10,965 --> 01:01:12,862 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW ACTIVE I CAN BE 1130 01:01:12,862 --> 01:01:16,827 NOW THAT I HAVE CANCER. 1131 01:01:16,827 --> 01:01:19,034 BUT I WAS DOWN TO 385, 1132 01:01:19,034 --> 01:01:21,310 AND THEN I GAINED THIS PAST MONTH 1133 01:01:21,310 --> 01:01:24,827 AND WAS BACK UP TO ABOUT 403. 1134 01:01:24,827 --> 01:01:28,413 BUT I'M HOPING THAT THE SCALE AT LEAST SHOWS 1135 01:01:28,413 --> 01:01:30,724 THAT I AM BACK IN THE 300s. 1136 01:01:32,655 --> 01:01:36,103 Woman: 402. 1137 01:01:36,103 --> 01:01:39,206 THE SAME AS IT WAS. I DIDN'T GAIN AND DIDN'T LOSE. 1138 01:01:43,137 --> 01:01:45,448 THAT'S A LITTLE DISAPPOINTING. 1139 01:01:47,482 --> 01:01:51,034 BUT I'M GLAD I AT LEAST DIDN'T GAIN, 1140 01:01:51,034 --> 01:01:53,758 BUT I'M NOT SURE DR. NOW IS GOING TO THINK 1141 01:01:53,758 --> 01:01:56,206 THERE'S ANYTHING GOOD ABOUT THAT. 1142 01:01:56,206 --> 01:02:01,137 ♪♪ 1143 01:02:01,137 --> 01:02:05,551 SO I'M JUST HOPING THIS DOESN'T GO REALLY BAD. 1144 01:02:05,551 --> 01:02:08,137 COME IN. 1145 01:02:08,137 --> 01:02:09,137 HELLO. HELLO. 1146 01:02:09,137 --> 01:02:10,827 HOW ARE YOU DOING? HI, BETTIE JO. 1147 01:02:10,827 --> 01:02:12,965 HI, JOSH. HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 1148 01:02:12,965 --> 01:02:14,517 THIS ONE IS PRESTON. 1149 01:02:14,517 --> 01:02:16,413 HI. ALL RIGHT. 1150 01:02:16,413 --> 01:02:18,172 NOW YOU GOT THE BABY HERE, HUH? 1151 01:02:18,172 --> 01:02:19,103 YEAH. 1152 01:02:19,103 --> 01:02:21,655 SO HOW ARE YOU DOING? 1153 01:02:21,655 --> 01:02:23,137 I'M HANGING IN THERE. 1154 01:02:23,137 --> 01:02:26,482 ALL RIGHT. SO YOU ARE 403 POUNDS? 1155 01:02:26,482 --> 01:02:29,758 BUT RECENTLY YOU GAINED AROUND 15 POUNDS, 1156 01:02:29,758 --> 01:02:33,068 AND AT THIS POINT, YOU SHOULD BE AROUND 200, 1157 01:02:33,068 --> 01:02:34,413 SO WHAT'S GOING ON? 1158 01:02:34,413 --> 01:02:36,620 WELL, I DON'T KNOW WITH MY EATING HABIT. 1159 01:02:36,620 --> 01:02:40,793 I MEAN, MY THING IS, IS I REALLY DON'T EXERCISE. 1160 01:02:40,793 --> 01:02:42,724 WELL, WE'VE GONE THROUGH THAT BEFORE. 1161 01:02:42,724 --> 01:02:43,758 YEAH. 1162 01:02:43,758 --> 01:02:46,310 EXERCISE HELPS, BUT WEIGHT LOSS 1163 01:02:46,310 --> 01:02:48,896 IS PRIMARILY ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE EATING. 1164 01:02:48,896 --> 01:02:51,172 I STILL ONLY EAT A LITTLE BIT. 1165 01:02:51,172 --> 01:02:55,965 USUALLY, I WILL EAT, LIKE, A PROTEIN MEAL-REPLACEMENT BAR. 1166 01:02:55,965 --> 01:02:59,413 HOW MANY CALORIE IS IN IT? 1167 01:02:59,413 --> 01:03:01,000 I DON'T KNOW ABOUT CALORIES. 1168 01:03:01,000 --> 01:03:03,931 I KNOW IT HAS, LIKE, 12 GRAMS OF PROTEIN. 1169 01:03:03,931 --> 01:03:06,689 SO YOU'RE CLEARLY OVEREATING BECAUSE THE SCALE 1170 01:03:06,689 --> 01:03:08,103 IS TELLING YOU THAT, 1171 01:03:08,103 --> 01:03:10,034 SO YOU NEED TO LOOK AT THE CALORIE CONTENT 1172 01:03:10,034 --> 01:03:11,965 THAT YOU TAKE IN A DAY, 1173 01:03:11,965 --> 01:03:13,655 AND YOU NEED TO REDUCE THAT. 1174 01:03:13,655 --> 01:03:17,862 IF YOU MAKE ADJUSTMENT, YOU CAN EASILY LOSE 20 POUND A MONTH. 1175 01:03:17,862 --> 01:03:21,068 SO WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR BACK? 1176 01:03:21,068 --> 01:03:24,068 WELL, I FOUND OUT RIGHT BEFORE I KNEW 1177 01:03:24,068 --> 01:03:27,931 I WAS PREGNANT THAT I HAD A BONE MASS. 1178 01:03:27,931 --> 01:03:34,517 THEN, WHEN I HAD HIM, THEY FOUND CANCER ON PART OF THE MASS. 1179 01:03:34,517 --> 01:03:39,172 OKAY. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S REALITY OR NOT, 1180 01:03:39,172 --> 01:03:43,689 BUT WHAT YOUR MRI HAS SHOWED THAT YOU GOT WHAT WE CALL 1181 01:03:43,689 --> 01:03:46,896 A HETEROTOPIC BONE FORMATION AND CARTILAGE. 1182 01:03:46,896 --> 01:03:49,931 THAT IS OLD. THAT IS NOT NEW INFORMATION. 1183 01:03:49,931 --> 01:03:53,103 YES. I KNOW YOU KNOW THIS, BUT MY POINT IS, 1184 01:03:53,103 --> 01:03:55,862 THIS IS A CONGENITAL CONDITION. 1185 01:03:55,862 --> 01:03:58,620 IT'S BEEN THERE SINCE BIRTH. 1186 01:03:58,620 --> 01:04:02,034 THIS IS NOT SOMETHING THAT HAS DEVELOPED SUDDENLY, 1187 01:04:02,034 --> 01:04:06,379 AND IT'S NOT ANYTHING THAT I WOULD CONSIDER CANCER. 1188 01:04:06,379 --> 01:04:09,310 THE ONLY TEST THAT WILL DETERMINE BONE CANCER 1189 01:04:09,310 --> 01:04:11,344 IS DOING A BIOPSY. 1190 01:04:11,344 --> 01:04:16,068 THERE'S NO WAY TO DIAGNOSE IT WITHOUT DOING THAT. 1191 01:04:16,068 --> 01:04:17,827 IT IS CANCER. 1192 01:04:17,827 --> 01:04:19,068 OKAY. 1193 01:04:19,068 --> 01:04:22,689 IS A BIOPSY WAS SHOWING THAT IT'S CANCER? 1194 01:04:22,689 --> 01:04:24,482 IS A BIOPSY SHOWING IT WAS CANCER? 1195 01:04:24,482 --> 01:04:28,517 I'M JUST -- I'M DONE TALKING. 1196 01:04:28,517 --> 01:04:33,275 I'M SHUTTING UP BEFORE I LOSE MY TEMPER. 1197 01:04:33,275 --> 01:04:35,965 OKAY. I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYBODY TOLD YOU. 1198 01:04:35,965 --> 01:04:38,103 CANCER IS NOT A CANCER UNLESS YOU SEE IT 1199 01:04:38,103 --> 01:04:41,862 UNDER MICROSCOPE, OKAY? 1200 01:04:41,862 --> 01:04:44,862 AND SHE HAD THAT LESION THERE A LONG TIME, 1201 01:04:44,862 --> 01:04:47,000 AND IF SHE HAD CANCER, 1202 01:04:47,000 --> 01:04:50,517 THEY WOULD BE TREATING HER IMMEDIATELY, 1203 01:04:50,517 --> 01:04:54,482 BUT THE REASON THEY ARE EVEN RUNNING CANCER TESTS ON YOU 1204 01:04:54,482 --> 01:04:57,068 IS THAT YOU WENT TO A CANCER DOCTOR 1205 01:04:57,068 --> 01:05:00,000 AND YOU TOLD THEM THAT YOU WANTED THAT. 1206 01:05:00,000 --> 01:05:03,103 I CALLED YOUR DOCTOR THERE, AND THEY HAVE TOLD ME 1207 01:05:03,103 --> 01:05:06,034 THEY HAVEN'T GIVEN YOU A CANCER DIAGNOSIS, 1208 01:05:06,034 --> 01:05:08,620 SO YOU'RE MAKING ALL THIS UP. 1209 01:05:08,620 --> 01:05:10,482 EXCUSE ME. MM-HMM. 1210 01:05:10,482 --> 01:05:13,655 ♪♪ 1211 01:05:13,655 --> 01:05:16,551 WHEN BETTIE JO WAS OVER 600 POUNDS, 1212 01:05:16,551 --> 01:05:18,551 HER WEIGHT WAS HER EXCUSE 1213 01:05:18,551 --> 01:05:21,724 TO HAVE EVERYONE DO EVERYTHING FOR HER. 1214 01:05:21,724 --> 01:05:24,379 NOW THAT SHE'S ABLE TO GET AROUND, 1215 01:05:24,379 --> 01:05:27,724 SHE'S MAKING UP NEW REASONS FOR OTHER PEOPLE 1216 01:05:27,724 --> 01:05:29,517 TO STILL TAKE CARE OF HER. 1217 01:05:29,517 --> 01:05:32,172 EVEN RIGHT NOW, WHEN THE BABY CRIES, 1218 01:05:32,172 --> 01:05:34,103 SHE BARELY LOOKS OVER AT HIM. 1219 01:05:34,103 --> 01:05:36,379 SHE DOESN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH THIS STUFF, 1220 01:05:36,379 --> 01:05:41,862 SO SHE HAS CREATED A REASON SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO. 1221 01:05:41,862 --> 01:05:44,206 I GET THAT HE'S SAYING IT CAN'T BE PROVEN 1222 01:05:44,206 --> 01:05:45,620 UNLESS IT'S UNDER A TELESCOPE, 1223 01:05:45,620 --> 01:05:48,724 AND I GET THAT, AND A BIOPSY HAS NOT BEEN DONE YET, 1224 01:05:48,724 --> 01:05:51,620 BUT FOR HIM TO SIT THERE AND DISPUTE IT WITH ME 1225 01:05:51,620 --> 01:05:53,655 AND TRY TO ARGUE IT OUT, 1226 01:05:53,655 --> 01:05:56,896 YES, IT PISSED ME OFF. 1227 01:05:56,896 --> 01:05:59,137 SO WHAT'S THE REALITY WITH YOU? 1228 01:05:59,137 --> 01:06:02,862 I'VE HAD MY DEPRESSION AND STUFF GOING ON. 1229 01:06:02,862 --> 01:06:06,275 I'VE PRETTY MUCH GAVE UP ON LIFE FOR A WHILE. 1230 01:06:06,275 --> 01:06:09,931 BETTIE JO, YOU'RE SAYING THAT YOU'RE SO DEPRESSED NOW 1231 01:06:09,931 --> 01:06:12,724 THAT YOU GAVE UP ON LIFE. 1232 01:06:12,724 --> 01:06:16,931 LOOK. YOU WANT MY HELP, THIS IS WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO DO. 1233 01:06:16,931 --> 01:06:19,655 YOU'RE GOING TO GO TO THERAPY TOMORROW 1234 01:06:19,655 --> 01:06:22,000 TO START TALKING ABOUT THINGS. 1235 01:06:22,000 --> 01:06:24,275 YOU CAN START WITH YOUR DEPRESSION, 1236 01:06:24,275 --> 01:06:27,896 AND THEN I'M GOING TO SET YOU WITH A THERAPIST IN MISSOURI 1237 01:06:27,896 --> 01:06:30,034 SO YOU CAN CONTINUE THERE. 1238 01:06:30,034 --> 01:06:32,931 ON TOP OF THAT, I WANT YOU TO GET BACK ON TRACK 1239 01:06:32,931 --> 01:06:34,310 WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS. 1240 01:06:34,310 --> 01:06:38,655 YOU NEED TO START LOSING 20 POUNDS A MONTH RIGHT NOW. 1241 01:06:38,655 --> 01:06:40,172 NICE TO SEE YOU, BETTIE.YOU, TOO. 1242 01:06:40,172 --> 01:06:41,206 ALL RIGHT. TAKE CARE. 1243 01:06:41,206 --> 01:06:42,793 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE ME A CALL. 1244 01:06:42,793 --> 01:06:45,310 I WILL. 1245 01:06:48,103 --> 01:06:51,413 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS IS A CLASSIC CASE OF MANIPULATION 1246 01:06:51,413 --> 01:06:55,000 FROM A PERSON THAT HAS A FICTITIOUS DISORDER, 1247 01:06:55,000 --> 01:06:57,379 ALSO CALLED MUNCHAUSEN, 1248 01:06:57,379 --> 01:07:03,965 WHERE THEY MAKE UP ILLNESSES AND LIE FOR ATTENTION AND CARE, 1249 01:07:03,965 --> 01:07:06,413 SO PSYCHOTHERAPY WILL HAVE TO WORK 1250 01:07:06,413 --> 01:07:09,793 TO TURN AROUND THIS DISORDER OVER TIME, 1251 01:07:09,793 --> 01:07:11,448 BUT IT'S NOT AN EASY 1252 01:07:11,448 --> 01:07:14,551 PSYCHOLOGICAL CONDITION TO CORRECT, 1253 01:07:14,551 --> 01:07:17,275 AND IT WILL TAKE TIME. 1254 01:07:17,275 --> 01:07:21,896 AND UNTIL THEN, WE ALSO WORK TO KEEP HER WEIGHT LOSS ON TRACK 1255 01:07:21,896 --> 01:07:26,241 SO SHE DOESN'T START GAINING AGAIN. 1256 01:07:26,241 --> 01:07:28,551 Bettie Jo: I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE. 1257 01:07:28,551 --> 01:07:31,689 I JUST WANT TO GO RIGHT NOW, 1258 01:07:31,689 --> 01:07:35,551 AND IF DR. NOW DOESN'T WANT TO BELIEVE ME, THEN OH, WELL. 1259 01:07:35,551 --> 01:07:38,517 I DON'T CARE... 1260 01:07:38,517 --> 01:07:40,827 BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME 1261 01:07:40,827 --> 01:07:44,034 AND WHAT I CAN DO AND WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING, 1262 01:07:44,034 --> 01:07:46,931 AND THIS WAS ALL A BAD IDEA. 1263 01:07:46,931 --> 01:07:56,241 ♪♪ 1264 01:07:56,241 --> 01:07:58,758 Susan: I'M HEADED TO MY NEXT APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW... 1265 01:08:00,965 --> 01:08:02,827 ...AND I'M JUST HOPING I'VE FINALLY 1266 01:08:02,827 --> 01:08:06,827 BEEN ABLE TO GET BACK ON TRACK, 1267 01:08:06,827 --> 01:08:09,275 BUT I'M TERRIFIED I DIDN'T, 1268 01:08:09,275 --> 01:08:13,862 AND I JUST DON'T WANT TO FACE THE SCALE RIGHT NOW. 1269 01:08:13,862 --> 01:08:18,137 I'VE BEEN DOING EVERYTHING I CAN TO GET BACK ON TRACK, 1270 01:08:18,137 --> 01:08:21,379 AND IF I HAVEN'T DONE IT THIS TIME, 1271 01:08:21,379 --> 01:08:25,034 I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MORE I CAN DO. 1272 01:08:25,034 --> 01:08:27,068 SUSAN FARMER? 1273 01:08:27,068 --> 01:08:28,172 AND I'M GOING TO FEEL LIKE 1274 01:08:28,172 --> 01:08:31,586 I'M ABSOLUTELY HOPELESS AT THIS POINT. 1275 01:08:31,586 --> 01:08:34,862 I HAVE TO START LOSING AGAIN 1276 01:08:34,862 --> 01:08:38,413 BECAUSE I JUST CAN'T MESS IT UP NOW, 1277 01:08:38,413 --> 01:08:39,137 NOT LIKE THIS. 1278 01:08:45,344 --> 01:08:51,517 ♪♪ 1279 01:08:51,517 --> 01:08:53,172 Susan: I'M HERE TO SEE DR. NOW 1280 01:08:53,172 --> 01:08:57,310 AND TO FIND OUT IF I'M FINALLY MAKING PROGRESS AGAIN. 1281 01:08:57,310 --> 01:09:01,379 I'VE BEEN AT 216 POUNDS FOR 5 MONTHS NOW, 1282 01:09:01,379 --> 01:09:03,586 AND I'M SUPPOSED TO GET DOWN TO 190 1283 01:09:03,586 --> 01:09:06,724 TO GET APPROVED FOR SKIN-REMOVAL SURGERY, 1284 01:09:06,724 --> 01:09:08,551 BUT I'VE BEEN WORKING SO HARD, 1285 01:09:08,551 --> 01:09:10,827 AND I'M JUST HOPING FOR ANY WEIGHT LOSS. 1286 01:09:13,000 --> 01:09:17,344 Woman: 219. 1287 01:09:17,344 --> 01:09:21,379 I CAN'T BELIEVE I GAINED... 1288 01:09:21,379 --> 01:09:23,137 BECAUSE I'M TRYING HARD, 1289 01:09:23,137 --> 01:09:26,379 AND I DON'T KNOW WHY THIS IS STILL HAPPENING, 1290 01:09:26,379 --> 01:09:28,517 SO I'M JUST STARTING TO FEEL HOPELESS. 1291 01:09:28,517 --> 01:09:31,655 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1292 01:09:31,655 --> 01:09:33,241 HELLO. HELLO. 1293 01:09:33,241 --> 01:09:37,620 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 1294 01:09:37,620 --> 01:09:39,275 I WAS GOOD UNTIL I GOT ON THAT SCALE. 1295 01:09:39,275 --> 01:09:43,172 SO WHAT WAS DIFFERENT ABOUT THAT SCALE? 1296 01:09:43,172 --> 01:09:45,586 IT SHOWED A GAIN INSTEAD OF A LOSS. 1297 01:09:45,586 --> 01:09:47,793 IT DID BECAUSE YOU'RE OVEREATING. 1298 01:09:47,793 --> 01:09:51,931 YOU HAVE ALL THE TOOLS THAT YOU NEED TO CORRECT EVERYTHING, 1299 01:09:51,931 --> 01:09:54,551 BUT YOU'RE NOT USING IT, 1300 01:09:54,551 --> 01:09:58,241 AND YOU'RE STILL SMOKING, AREN'T YOU? 1301 01:09:58,241 --> 01:09:59,517 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU. 1302 01:09:59,517 --> 01:10:01,206 I'M NOT GOING TO LIE TO YOU. 1303 01:10:01,206 --> 01:10:02,758 WELL, THAT'S THE ISSUE. 1304 01:10:02,758 --> 01:10:05,413 YOU'VE REFUSED TO ANALYZE THE SITUATION, 1305 01:10:05,413 --> 01:10:08,103 AND YOU WALK AWAY AND SAY, "I DON'T KNOW." 1306 01:10:08,103 --> 01:10:09,724 YES. YOU DO KNOW. 1307 01:10:09,724 --> 01:10:12,448 HAVE YOU SEEN THE THERAPIST? 1308 01:10:12,448 --> 01:10:14,724 YES. IS IT HELPING YOU? 1309 01:10:14,724 --> 01:10:15,862 I DON'T KNOW. 1310 01:10:15,862 --> 01:10:18,103 IF YOU'RE NOT MAKING ANY PROGRESS, 1311 01:10:18,103 --> 01:10:20,000 WHY DO YOU THINK THAT IS? 1312 01:10:20,000 --> 01:10:22,793 AT THIS POINT, I DON'T REALLY KNOW YET. 1313 01:10:22,793 --> 01:10:24,344 I'M SCARED. 1314 01:10:24,344 --> 01:10:26,827 SCARED OF WHAT? 1315 01:10:29,517 --> 01:10:34,275 LIKE, I WANT... 1316 01:10:34,275 --> 01:10:37,068 MORE SURGERY, 1317 01:10:37,068 --> 01:10:40,827 BUT I'M SCARED BECAUSE OF ALL THE COMPLICATIONS 1318 01:10:40,827 --> 01:10:44,310 FROM THE LAST TWO SURGERIES. 1319 01:10:44,310 --> 01:10:46,655 YOU KNOW THAT ALL THE COMPLICATION OF SKIN SURGERY 1320 01:10:46,655 --> 01:10:48,689 IS RELATED TO SMOKING. 1321 01:10:48,689 --> 01:10:50,482 ONE OF THE EFFECTS OF NICOTINE 1322 01:10:50,482 --> 01:10:53,620 IS THAT IT CAUSES POOR BLOOD FLOW, 1323 01:10:53,620 --> 01:10:55,689 AND WHEN YOU HAVE POOR BLOOD FLOW, 1324 01:10:55,689 --> 01:10:57,724 YOU CAN'T HEAL LIKE YOU NEED TO, 1325 01:10:57,724 --> 01:11:01,206 SO QUIT SMOKING AND GET DOWN TO 190 1326 01:11:01,206 --> 01:11:03,448 BY YOUR NEXT APPOINTMENT.OKAY. 1327 01:11:03,448 --> 01:11:05,862 OR YOU'RE GOING TO START GAINING MORE AND MORE 1328 01:11:05,862 --> 01:11:08,551 UNTIL IT'S OUT OF CONTROL. 1329 01:11:08,551 --> 01:11:11,275 IT'S NOW OR NEVER, SUSAN. 1330 01:11:11,275 --> 01:11:13,448 SO COME BACK IN 2 MONTHS? 1331 01:11:13,448 --> 01:11:14,655 IF YOU MAKE THE CHANGES. 1332 01:11:14,655 --> 01:11:15,965 IF NOT... NO. 1333 01:11:15,965 --> 01:11:18,275 I'M GOING TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES. 1334 01:11:18,275 --> 01:11:23,000 IF NOT, IT'S GOING TO BE THE SAME THING, OKAY? 1335 01:11:23,000 --> 01:11:24,068 ALL RIGHT. 1336 01:11:24,068 --> 01:11:31,827 ♪♪ 1337 01:11:31,827 --> 01:11:35,413 I'M FEELING REALLY DISCOURAGED RIGHT NOW. 1338 01:11:35,413 --> 01:11:36,862 I WANT SKIN SURGERY, 1339 01:11:36,862 --> 01:11:41,448 AND IT KILLS ME TO THINK THAT I'M LETTING DR. NOW DOWN, 1340 01:11:41,448 --> 01:11:43,827 AND I'M JUST DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF 1341 01:11:43,827 --> 01:11:46,620 WITH THIS WHOLE SITUATION 1342 01:11:46,620 --> 01:11:49,965 BECAUSE I NEVER WANT TO GO BACK TO WHERE I WAS, 1343 01:11:49,965 --> 01:11:53,000 BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT MORE I CAN DO AT THIS POINT. 1344 01:11:53,000 --> 01:11:59,413 ♪♪ 1345 01:11:59,413 --> 01:12:06,000 ♪♪ 1346 01:12:06,000 --> 01:12:09,379 TODAY, I'M GOING TO GO HAVE A COUNSELING SESSION. 1347 01:12:09,379 --> 01:12:13,827 I WAS REALLY UPSET AFTER MY LAST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 1348 01:12:13,827 --> 01:12:16,344 AND I STILL KIND OF AM. 1349 01:12:18,586 --> 01:12:20,310 AND GOING TO THERAPY IS NOT 1350 01:12:20,310 --> 01:12:24,689 WHAT I REALLY WANT TO BE DOING RIGHT NOW, 1351 01:12:24,689 --> 01:12:26,620 BUT IF I WANT TO KEEP SKIN SURGERY 1352 01:12:26,620 --> 01:12:31,551 AN OPTION AND WORK WITH DR. NOW, THEN I HAVE TO. 1353 01:12:31,551 --> 01:12:34,586 BUT HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION... 1354 01:12:37,000 --> 01:12:40,448 ...SO IT'S JUST FRUSTRATING. 1355 01:12:40,448 --> 01:12:41,448 HI. I'M DR. PARADISE. 1356 01:12:41,448 --> 01:12:42,551 HI. I'M BETTIE JO. 1357 01:12:42,551 --> 01:12:43,413 NICE TO MEET YOU, BETTIE JO. 1358 01:12:43,413 --> 01:12:44,655 COME ON IN. HAVE A SEAT. 1359 01:12:44,655 --> 01:12:47,172 I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE. 1360 01:12:47,172 --> 01:12:50,517 SO TELL ME WHERE YOU'RE AT WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS. 1361 01:12:50,517 --> 01:12:51,793 HOW ARE YOU DOING? 1362 01:12:51,793 --> 01:12:55,241 I'VE LOST A LITTLE BIT MORE THAN 250 POUNDS, 1363 01:12:55,241 --> 01:12:59,275 BUT RIGHT NOW I'M KIND OF JUST AT A STALL. 1364 01:12:59,275 --> 01:13:02,137 LIKE, I HAVEN'T BEEN LOSING, AND I HAVEN'T BEEN GAINING. 1365 01:13:02,137 --> 01:13:03,862 I'VE KIND OF BEEN STUCK BETWEEN. 1366 01:13:03,862 --> 01:13:05,724 SO YOU'RE AT A PLATEAU.YEAH. 1367 01:13:05,724 --> 01:13:09,448 BUT I ALSO HAVE THIS ISSUE WITH MY BACK WHERE I HAVE A GROWTH 1368 01:13:09,448 --> 01:13:11,482 ON IT THAT IS CANCEROUS, 1369 01:13:11,482 --> 01:13:14,379 BUT DR. NOW DOESN'T THINK IT'S CANCEROUS, 1370 01:13:14,379 --> 01:13:16,586 SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK. 1371 01:13:16,586 --> 01:13:18,172 I CANNOT PICK UP MY SON. 1372 01:13:18,172 --> 01:13:21,344 I CANNOT BEND OVER AND STUFF LIKE THAT. 1373 01:13:21,344 --> 01:13:25,241 LIKE, I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO DO TOO MUCH RIGHT NOW. 1374 01:13:25,241 --> 01:13:30,034 SO WHEN I WENT FOR MY VISIT WITH DR. NOW, WELL, 1375 01:13:30,034 --> 01:13:35,344 HE THINKS THAT I SHOULD STILL BE LOSING 20 POUNDS A MONTH 1376 01:13:35,344 --> 01:13:38,689 AND THAT EXERCISE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT. 1377 01:13:38,689 --> 01:13:40,413 WHAT ARE THE BARRIERS TO YOUR EATING THE WAY 1378 01:13:40,413 --> 01:13:42,137 DR. NOW WOULD HAVE YOU EAT? 1379 01:13:42,137 --> 01:13:45,448 HE THINKS I EAT AT LEAST 3,000 CALORIES OR MORE 1380 01:13:45,448 --> 01:13:48,034 BECAUSE I'M MAINTAINING A WEIGHT. 1381 01:13:48,034 --> 01:13:50,448 HOW MANY CALORIES ARE YOU EATING? 1382 01:13:50,448 --> 01:13:54,275 I DON'T NECESSARILY KEEP TRACK OF MY CALORIES ANYMORE. 1383 01:13:54,275 --> 01:13:58,482 I DO NOT EAT BREAKFAST AND LUNCH BECAUSE I HAVE A 9-MONTH-OLD. 1384 01:13:58,482 --> 01:14:00,551 IF IT WAS UP TO DR. NOW, 1385 01:14:00,551 --> 01:14:02,206 HE WOULD PROBABLY HAVE YOU EATING BREAKFAST 1386 01:14:02,206 --> 01:14:03,689 AND LUNCH, RIGHT? LIKE, HE... 1387 01:14:03,689 --> 01:14:06,172 YEAH. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO. 1388 01:14:06,172 --> 01:14:09,827 YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO EAT THREE, LIKE, THREE SMALL MEALS. 1389 01:14:09,827 --> 01:14:11,344 WHAT'S KEEPING YOU FROM DOING THAT? 1390 01:14:11,344 --> 01:14:13,379 I'VE BEEN REALLY DEPRESSED BECAUSE 1391 01:14:13,379 --> 01:14:16,068 I DON'T GET TO GO TO THE GYM ANYMORE. 1392 01:14:16,068 --> 01:14:20,034 I DON'T FEEL LIKE A MOM BECAUSE I CAN'T PICK UP MY SON. 1393 01:14:20,034 --> 01:14:22,862 I DON'T FEEL LIKE A WIFE BECAUSE I CAN'T DO -- 1394 01:14:22,862 --> 01:14:24,137 SO I'M GOING TO STOP YOU RIGHT THERE. 1395 01:14:24,137 --> 01:14:26,551 DO YOU NOTICE YOU'RE GOING DOWN, IN A SENSE, 1396 01:14:26,551 --> 01:14:28,206 AND IT'S SAD? DO YOU SEE? 1397 01:14:28,206 --> 01:14:30,931 LIKE, THAT'S A FAMILIAR PATH FOR YOU, ISN'T IT, 1398 01:14:30,931 --> 01:14:32,827 TO TALK ABOUT THE LIMITATIONS? 1399 01:14:32,827 --> 01:14:34,344 YOU SOUND SO PESSIMISTIC. 1400 01:14:34,344 --> 01:14:35,551 YEAH. 1401 01:14:35,551 --> 01:14:37,586 I WAS ALWAYS TOLD I WAS NEVER GOING TO BE 1402 01:14:37,586 --> 01:14:39,103 GOOD ENOUGH AND STUFF. 1403 01:14:39,103 --> 01:14:41,517 SO IT'S FAMILIAR TO YOU TO FEEL 1404 01:14:41,517 --> 01:14:43,137 LIKE YOU'RE NOT DOING GOOD ENOUGH 1405 01:14:43,137 --> 01:14:45,931 OR YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE WHAT SOMEBODY WANTS YOU TO BE? 1406 01:14:45,931 --> 01:14:47,413 YEP. 1407 01:14:47,413 --> 01:14:50,034 AND YOU'RE A SUCCESS. 1408 01:14:50,034 --> 01:14:53,241 YOU'VE LOST 250 POUNDS. 1409 01:14:53,241 --> 01:14:55,241 THAT'S WHY IT BOTHERS ME SO MUCH. 1410 01:14:55,241 --> 01:14:57,931 LIKE, THIS DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT THAT I HAD, 1411 01:14:57,931 --> 01:15:01,103 I THOUGHT MAYBE HIM SEEING ME IN PERSON 1412 01:15:01,103 --> 01:15:03,275 AND ACTUALLY LOOKING AT MY BODY 1413 01:15:03,275 --> 01:15:06,206 AND SEEING HOW HARD, LIKE, I'VE WORKED 1414 01:15:06,206 --> 01:15:09,586 EVEN THROUGH EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH, 1415 01:15:09,586 --> 01:15:13,413 THAT HE WOULD BE LIKE, "YOU HAVE DONE REALLY WELL." 1416 01:15:13,413 --> 01:15:15,379 YEAH. YEAH. AND HE DIDN'T. 1417 01:15:15,379 --> 01:15:18,551 SO NOW, LIKE, I DO FEEL LIKE A FAILURE, 1418 01:15:18,551 --> 01:15:22,379 AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO JUST NOT EAT EVER. 1419 01:15:22,379 --> 01:15:24,862 YOU CAN RECEIVE THE FEEDBACK AS, 1420 01:15:24,862 --> 01:15:28,275 "THAT MEANS I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH," RIGHT? 1421 01:15:28,275 --> 01:15:32,172 BUT SOME PEOPLE SEE FEEDBACK AS CONFIDENCE. 1422 01:15:32,172 --> 01:15:36,551 HE MAY BE JUST ASSERTING THAT HE THINKS YOU CAN DO IT. 1423 01:15:36,551 --> 01:15:37,965 YEAH. I GUESS SO. 1424 01:15:37,965 --> 01:15:42,413 YEAH, SO I SUSPECT DR. NOW THINKS YOU CAN DO IT. 1425 01:15:42,413 --> 01:15:43,965 YOU'RE A SUCCESS. 1426 01:15:43,965 --> 01:15:45,724 YEAH. YEAH. 1427 01:15:45,724 --> 01:15:48,862 LET'S TALK ABOUT SOME GOALS THAT YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE WITH TODAY 1428 01:15:48,862 --> 01:15:51,068 WITH REGARDS TO THE DEPRESSION 1429 01:15:51,068 --> 01:15:54,379 TO MAYBE PAY LESS ATTENTION TO THE DEPRESSION 1430 01:15:54,379 --> 01:15:56,068 BECAUSE I THINK IT'S TELLING YOU 1431 01:15:56,068 --> 01:16:00,689 THAT YOU CAN'T DO THINGS EVEN WHEN YOU CAN. 1432 01:16:00,689 --> 01:16:01,965 YOU DESERVE A LOT OF CREDIT. 1433 01:16:01,965 --> 01:16:03,310 YOU'VE ALREADY LOST. 1434 01:16:03,310 --> 01:16:05,551 YOU'RE MORE THAN HALFWAY THERE. 1435 01:16:05,551 --> 01:16:08,275 I WANT TO HEAR ABOUT YOU AT 200 POUNDS. 1436 01:16:08,275 --> 01:16:09,965 OKAY. 1437 01:16:09,965 --> 01:16:11,241 GREAT, OKAY. 1438 01:16:11,241 --> 01:16:13,172 THANKS FOR COMING. 1439 01:16:13,172 --> 01:16:15,103 THANKS FOR HAVING ME.GOOD TO SEE YOU. 1440 01:16:17,379 --> 01:16:22,310 AFTER TALKING TO DR. PARADISE, I FEEL BETTER. 1441 01:16:22,310 --> 01:16:26,068 I HADN'T BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT LIKE HE SAID, 1442 01:16:26,068 --> 01:16:31,206 THAT HOW I SHOULD SEE IT IS THAT DR. NOW BELIEVES IN ME, 1443 01:16:31,206 --> 01:16:34,379 AND SO THAT MAKES ME A LITTLE HAPPIER. 1444 01:16:34,379 --> 01:16:37,275 HI, BABY. 1445 01:16:37,275 --> 01:16:40,241 SO I'M GLAD I DID THIS TODAY. 1446 01:16:40,241 --> 01:16:50,275 ♪♪ 1447 01:16:50,275 --> 01:16:54,241 Susan: I'M GOING TO BACK TO SEE LOLA, MY THERAPIST, TODAY. 1448 01:16:54,241 --> 01:16:56,965 I'VE BEEN SEEING HER AGAIN FOR 7 MONTHS NOW. 1449 01:16:59,310 --> 01:17:02,482 AND SHE'S BEEN HELPING ME WORK THROUGH MY FEARS. 1450 01:17:04,896 --> 01:17:08,620 BUT TODAY, SHE'S GOING TO BE DOING SOME HYPNOTHERAPY ON ME 1451 01:17:08,620 --> 01:17:11,827 TO HELP ME KICK MY SMOKING HABIT 1452 01:17:11,827 --> 01:17:15,862 BECAUSE I'M TRYING TO QUIT IT ONCE AND FOR ALL. 1453 01:17:15,862 --> 01:17:18,172 WHEN I GAVE UP FOOD TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 1454 01:17:18,172 --> 01:17:21,827 I STARTED SMOKING TO HELP ME DEAL WITH THINGS, 1455 01:17:21,827 --> 01:17:24,310 AND I DIDN'T REALIZE AT THE TIME 1456 01:17:24,310 --> 01:17:28,172 I WAS JUST TRADING ONE ADDICTION FOR ANOTHER, 1457 01:17:28,172 --> 01:17:33,172 AND NOW I'M FALLING BACK INTO BOTH ADDICTIONS, 1458 01:17:33,172 --> 01:17:35,862 AND I KNOW I'VE BEEN IGNORING THE REAL ISSUES 1459 01:17:35,862 --> 01:17:38,172 AND MAKING EXCUSES 1460 01:17:38,172 --> 01:17:40,551 AND THAT DR. NOW WAS RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING 1461 01:17:40,551 --> 01:17:43,379 HE SAID AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT. 1462 01:17:43,379 --> 01:17:44,931 HI, SUSAN. 1463 01:17:44,931 --> 01:17:47,517 HELLO.LET'S GO ON BACK. 1464 01:17:47,517 --> 01:17:48,827 BUT I NEED TO GIVE IT UP 1465 01:17:48,827 --> 01:17:51,689 JUST LIKE I GAVE UP MY OTHER ADDICTION, 1466 01:17:51,689 --> 01:17:55,241 SO I'M HOPING I CAN AT LEAST START THE PROCESS 1467 01:17:55,241 --> 01:17:58,551 IN KICKING THE HABIT TODAY. 1468 01:17:58,551 --> 01:18:00,344 OKAY. 1469 01:18:02,896 --> 01:18:05,655 SO, SUSAN, HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? 1470 01:18:05,655 --> 01:18:07,448 I'M GOOD. OKAY. 1471 01:18:07,448 --> 01:18:11,448 I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU'RE INTERESTED NOW 1472 01:18:11,448 --> 01:18:14,448 IN TRYING HYPNOSIS FOR YOUR SMOKING. 1473 01:18:14,448 --> 01:18:16,551 CAN YOU TELL ME ABOUT THAT? 1474 01:18:16,551 --> 01:18:21,724 I'VE HEARD IT CAN BE SUCCESSFUL TO HELP QUIT SMOKING. 1475 01:18:21,724 --> 01:18:25,000 YES. SO, SUSAN, I DEFINITELY WANT YOU TO UNDERSTAND 1476 01:18:25,000 --> 01:18:28,655 THAT HYPNOSIS WILL ONLY WORK IF YOU'RE COMPLETELY OPEN TO IT. 1477 01:18:28,655 --> 01:18:32,965 IT'S NOT ABOUT A THERAPIST'S ABILITY TO HYPNOTIZE YOU. 1478 01:18:32,965 --> 01:18:33,965 OKAY. 1479 01:18:33,965 --> 01:18:36,965 SO DO YOU FEEL READY? 1480 01:18:36,965 --> 01:18:38,379 I'M WILLING TO GIVE IT A TRY. 1481 01:18:38,379 --> 01:18:40,275 OKAY. 1482 01:18:40,275 --> 01:18:43,620 I WANT YOU TO LEAN BACK ON THE COUCH, 1483 01:18:43,620 --> 01:18:45,689 AND PUT BOTH FEET FLAT ON THE FLOOR 1484 01:18:45,689 --> 01:18:50,137 AND YOUR HANDS RESTING ON YOUR THIGHS, OKAY? 1485 01:18:50,137 --> 01:18:52,000 TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE EXPERIENCING RIGHT NOW 1486 01:18:52,000 --> 01:18:54,758 BECAUSE I WANT TO HELP YOU ANY WAY I CAN. 1487 01:18:54,758 --> 01:18:57,620 I'M JUST SCARED. 1488 01:18:57,620 --> 01:19:02,689 THE ONLY BARRIERS TO YOUR SUCCESS OR HAPPINESS 1489 01:19:02,689 --> 01:19:06,862 ARE THE ONES THAT YOU'LL CREATE FOR YOURSELF. 1490 01:19:06,862 --> 01:19:09,379 YOU FEEL YOUR EYES GETTING A LITTLE HEAVY... 1491 01:19:11,793 --> 01:19:14,586 ...AND ALLOW THEM TO CLOSE, SUSAN. 1492 01:19:14,586 --> 01:19:17,344 LISTEN TO MY VOICE. 1493 01:19:17,344 --> 01:19:19,586 YOU HAVE THE POWER. 1494 01:19:19,586 --> 01:19:21,965 [ BELL CHIMES ] 1495 01:19:21,965 --> 01:19:26,413 I REALLY HOPE TODAY HELPS TO QUIT SMOKING, 1496 01:19:26,413 --> 01:19:29,586 BUT I'M GUESSING I'LL FOUND OUT HOW EFFECTIVE IT WAS 1497 01:19:29,586 --> 01:19:32,275 WHEN I GO BACK TO SEE DR. NOW SOON 1498 01:19:32,275 --> 01:19:32,758 BECAUSE THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 1499 01:19:39,689 --> 01:19:49,724 ♪♪ 1500 01:19:49,724 --> 01:19:52,068 Susan: I'M HEADED BACK TO SEE DR. NOW, 1501 01:19:52,068 --> 01:19:55,206 AND I CAN'T EVEN THINK STRAIGHT RIGHT NOW. 1502 01:19:55,206 --> 01:19:59,724 I'M JUST TERRIFIED ABOUT WHAT THE SCALE IS GOING TO SAY 1503 01:19:59,724 --> 01:20:03,482 AND THAT EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN TRYING HASN'T BEEN ENOUGH. 1504 01:20:05,482 --> 01:20:10,241 BUT I HAVEN'T HAD A CIGARETTE IN OVER A MONTH NOW. 1505 01:20:10,241 --> 01:20:15,103 MY WEIGHT WAS AT 219 LAST TIME, AND MY GOAL IS STILL 190. 1506 01:20:17,344 --> 01:20:20,448 SO I'M GOING TO FEEL UTTERLY HOPELESS 1507 01:20:20,448 --> 01:20:22,620 IF THAT NUMBER HAS GONE UP. 1508 01:20:25,137 --> 01:20:27,379 Woman: 206. 1509 01:20:27,379 --> 01:20:28,517 YES. 1510 01:20:28,517 --> 01:20:30,517 YES! YES. 1511 01:20:30,517 --> 01:20:32,137 YES.GOOD, SEE? 1512 01:20:32,137 --> 01:20:35,448 I'M JUST SO GLAD IT SHOWED A LOSS. 1513 01:20:35,448 --> 01:20:39,137 I AM SO RELIEVED AND HAPPY RIGHT NOW, 1514 01:20:39,137 --> 01:20:40,655 AND I'M HOPING THAT DR. NOW 1515 01:20:40,655 --> 01:20:44,206 IS GLAD THAT HE HAD FAITH IN ME THIS WHOLE TIME 1516 01:20:44,206 --> 01:20:47,103 AND SEES THAT IT'S STARTING TO FINALLY PAY OFF. 1517 01:20:47,103 --> 01:20:49,724 ♪♪ 1518 01:20:49,724 --> 01:20:51,724 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 1519 01:20:51,724 --> 01:20:53,413 HELLO.HELLO. 1520 01:20:53,413 --> 01:20:54,586 HOW Y'ALL DOING? 1521 01:20:54,586 --> 01:20:55,862 GOOD. 1522 01:20:55,862 --> 01:20:58,896 SO HOW ARE YOU COMING ALONG TODAY? 1523 01:20:58,896 --> 01:21:02,586 I'M GOOD BECAUSE AT FIRST I WAS SCARED. 1524 01:21:02,586 --> 01:21:06,103 I'M JUST GLAD BECAUSE I'VE STARTED GOING TO THE GYM, 1525 01:21:06,103 --> 01:21:08,344 WORKING OUT, AND THEN WHEN I'M NOT WORKING OUT, 1526 01:21:08,344 --> 01:21:11,517 I'M WALKING AND TRYING TO EAT RIGHT. 1527 01:21:11,517 --> 01:21:13,896 WELL, I'M GLAD TO SEE YOU LOSING AGAIN. 1528 01:21:13,896 --> 01:21:19,034 16 POUNDS IS REALLY GOOD, AND I AM PROUD OF YOU. 1529 01:21:19,034 --> 01:21:21,103 HOW ARE WE DOING WITH THE SMOKING HABIT? 1530 01:21:21,103 --> 01:21:24,000 I HAVEN'T HAD A CIGARETTE IN ABOUT 6 WEEKS, 1531 01:21:24,000 --> 01:21:28,310 AND I'VE SWITCHED TO A VAPOR STICK WITH ZERO NICOTINE IN IT. 1532 01:21:28,310 --> 01:21:32,000 YOU NEED TO GET RID OF YOUR ADDICTION COMPLETELY EVENTUALLY. 1533 01:21:32,000 --> 01:21:33,551 OKAY.BUT FOR NOW, 1534 01:21:33,551 --> 01:21:37,137 AS LONG AS THERE'S NO NICOTINE, THAT'S FINE. 1535 01:21:37,137 --> 01:21:42,793 OKAY, AND LET ME SEE HOW YOUR EXTRA SKIN IS DOING. 1536 01:21:42,793 --> 01:21:47,655 THE FACT THAT SUSAN IS LOSING AGAIN IS A VERY POSITIVE SIGN 1537 01:21:47,655 --> 01:21:51,344 THAT SHE'S ABLE TO TAKE BACK CONTROL OF HER SITUATION 1538 01:21:51,344 --> 01:21:55,034 AND THAT SHE'S ADMITTING SOME ISSUES TO HERSELF 1539 01:21:55,034 --> 01:21:58,517 AND DEALING WITH THEM, AND I'M FEELING HOPEFUL 1540 01:21:58,517 --> 01:22:02,827 THAT SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO CONTINUE IN THIS DIRECTION. 1541 01:22:02,827 --> 01:22:06,000 YOU'RE DOING GOOD, BUT YOU'RE STILL NOT QUITE READY 1542 01:22:06,000 --> 01:22:09,241 FOR EXTRA SKIN REMOVAL. 1543 01:22:09,241 --> 01:22:15,206 SO IF YOU CAN LOSE ANOTHER 16 POUNDS AGAIN IN NEXT 2 MONTHS, 1544 01:22:15,206 --> 01:22:18,379 THEN YOU'LL BE 190, AND YOU SHOULD BE READY, 1545 01:22:18,379 --> 01:22:20,137 AND I'LL APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY. 1546 01:22:20,137 --> 01:22:23,793 AND I'M GRATEFUL.OKAY, SUSAN. 1547 01:22:23,793 --> 01:22:27,448 YOU'RE DOING WELL, AND I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR DEALING WITH ISSUES 1548 01:22:27,448 --> 01:22:29,344 THAT YOU NEED TO DO THIS. 1549 01:22:29,344 --> 01:22:30,896 I APPRECIATE IT.ALL RIGHT. 1550 01:22:30,896 --> 01:22:33,172 KEEP IT UP, AND I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 1551 01:22:35,862 --> 01:22:39,034 I WAS HOPING THERE FOR A MOMENT THAT I WOULD BE ABLE 1552 01:22:39,034 --> 01:22:41,689 TO GET SKIN-REMOVAL SURGERY, 1553 01:22:41,689 --> 01:22:46,448 AND NOW THAT I'M TAKING BACK MORE CONTROL OF MY SITUATION, 1554 01:22:46,448 --> 01:22:49,379 I'M NOT LETTING ANYTHING GET IN THE WAY OF ME 1555 01:22:49,379 --> 01:22:51,551 GETTING THAT APPROVAL. 1556 01:22:51,551 --> 01:22:55,310 I'VE LOST SO MUCH IN THE PAST 3 YEARS. 1557 01:22:55,310 --> 01:22:59,620 I WAS SO MISERABLE, AND I HAD NO LIFE, 1558 01:22:59,620 --> 01:23:05,068 AND NOW I HAVE SO MUCH TO LOOK FORWARD TO EVERY DAY. 1559 01:23:05,068 --> 01:23:08,344 SO I'M EXCITED RIGHT NOW ABOUT WHAT'S TO COME 1560 01:23:08,344 --> 01:23:11,620 AND TO START THE NEXT STAGE OF MY JOURNEY SOON. 1561 01:23:11,620 --> 01:23:19,310 ♪♪ 1562 01:23:19,310 --> 01:23:27,000 ♪♪ 1563 01:23:27,000 --> 01:23:29,206 Bettie Jo: JOSH AND ME HAVE BEEN BACK HOME IN MISSOURI 1564 01:23:29,206 --> 01:23:32,000 FOR A LITTLE OVER A MONTH NOW. 1565 01:23:32,000 --> 01:23:34,448 ALTHOUGH I DON'T AGREE, DR. NOW SAID 1566 01:23:34,448 --> 01:23:36,655 I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE SICK 1567 01:23:36,655 --> 01:23:39,965 AND THAT NOTHING IS REALLY WRONG WITH ME. 1568 01:23:39,965 --> 01:23:42,448 I'VE STILL BEEN TRYING TO WORK HARD TO MEET THE GOALS 1569 01:23:42,448 --> 01:23:45,068 HE WANTS ME TO MEET, 1570 01:23:45,068 --> 01:23:47,344 AND THE DOCTORS HAVE DISCOVERED NOW 1571 01:23:47,344 --> 01:23:50,655 THE BONE MASS IS NOT CANCEROUS, 1572 01:23:50,655 --> 01:23:54,275 SO I'VE BEEN TRYING TO BE PROACTIVE ABOUT MY WEIGHT LOSS 1573 01:23:54,275 --> 01:23:58,172 AND TO MAKE THE PROGRESS DR. NOW WANTS ME TO MAKE. 1574 01:23:58,172 --> 01:24:01,344 SO I FORMED AN ONLINE WEIGHT-LOSS GROUP, 1575 01:24:01,344 --> 01:24:04,827 AND I'VE LOST ABOUT 6 POUNDS SO FAR, 1576 01:24:04,827 --> 01:24:07,379 AND I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT, 1577 01:24:07,379 --> 01:24:10,448 AND EVEN THOUGH THERE WAS A LOT TO DEAL WITH THIS PAST YEAR, 1578 01:24:10,448 --> 01:24:14,655 I'VE STILL LOST AROUND 50 POUNDS, 1579 01:24:14,655 --> 01:24:18,758 AND IF I HADN'T LOST 250 POUNDS ON MY JOURNEY, 1580 01:24:18,758 --> 01:24:22,068 I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GET PREGNANT AND HAD PRESTON. 1581 01:24:22,068 --> 01:24:24,379 HI, BABY BOY. 1582 01:24:24,379 --> 01:24:27,379 AND NOW I HAVE THE CHANCE TO START LIVING LIFE, 1583 01:24:29,517 --> 01:24:32,241 AND I TOLD JOSH I WANT TO HAVE A REMINDER 1584 01:24:32,241 --> 01:24:36,172 OF THAT MOTIVATION EVERY DAY, 1585 01:24:36,172 --> 01:24:39,310 SO JOSH TOOK US TO TAKE SOME PHOTOS, 1586 01:24:39,310 --> 01:24:42,931 AND WE'RE GOING TO GET ONE FRAMED AND HANG IT IN OUR ROOM 1587 01:24:42,931 --> 01:24:46,896 SO IT'S THE FIRST THING I SEE EVERY DAY. 1588 01:24:46,896 --> 01:24:50,448 I LOVE THESE PICTURES BECAUSE THEY ARE REALLY CUTE, 1589 01:24:50,448 --> 01:24:53,448 AND PRESTON IS VERY HAPPY IN THEM. 1590 01:24:53,448 --> 01:24:56,344 Josh: THAT IS BEAUTIFUL. 1591 01:24:56,344 --> 01:25:00,000 I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO A LOT MORE FAMILY THINGS, 1592 01:25:00,000 --> 01:25:03,137 GOING ON VACATION AND TAKING PRESTON 1593 01:25:03,137 --> 01:25:07,931 TO DO ALL KINDS OF THINGS THAT I DIDN'T NECESSARILY GET TO DO. 1594 01:25:07,931 --> 01:25:11,551 I DESPERATELY WANT TO KEEP LOSING WEIGHT, 1595 01:25:11,551 --> 01:25:14,931 SO I'M WORKING HARD NOW TO DO THIS FOR ALL OF US. 1596 01:25:14,931 --> 01:25:16,413 ALL RIGHT. THANKS, GUYS. 1597 01:25:16,413 --> 01:25:17,448 -THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 1598 01:25:17,448 --> 01:25:18,827 Y'ALL HAVE A GREAT WEEK. 1599 01:25:18,827 --> 01:25:20,793 Bettie Jo: AND I'M HOPING THAT I CAN GET THE BONE MASS 1600 01:25:20,793 --> 01:25:22,793 IN MY BACK ADDRESSED. 1601 01:25:22,793 --> 01:25:25,379 AND THEN LOSE ENOUGH FOR MY FIRST SKIN REMOVAL 1602 01:25:25,379 --> 01:25:27,965 IN THE NEXT 6 MONTHS. 1603 01:25:27,965 --> 01:25:30,896 I KNOW THAT'S GOING TO TAKE A LOT OF WORK, 1604 01:25:30,896 --> 01:25:31,965 AND WITH MY FAMILY, I KNOW I CAN DO IT. 1604 01:25:32,305 --> 01:26:32,250