"My 600-lb Life: Where Are They Now?" Erica

1 00:00:07,448 --> 00:00:10,586 Erica: SOME DAYS I FEEL LIKE A TICKING TIME BOMB. 2 00:00:10,586 --> 00:00:11,862 OW! 3 00:00:11,862 --> 00:00:13,586 Diana: I'M JUST HORRIFIED BY WHAT I LOOK LIKE. 4 00:00:13,586 --> 00:00:16,172 IT'S JUST A BLOB OF FAT. 5 00:00:16,172 --> 00:00:19,137 Ashley: WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR, I SEE A MONSTER. 6 00:00:19,137 --> 00:00:21,724 Nicole: I HAVE TO BE CLEANED OUTSIDE LIKE AN ANIMAL. 7 00:00:21,724 --> 00:00:26,620 AND IT'S VERY EMBARRASSING. 8 00:00:26,620 --> 00:00:29,068 Diana: I KNOW I DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT 9 00:00:29,068 --> 00:00:31,448 IF I DON'T TAKE DRASTIC ACTION. 10 00:00:31,448 --> 00:00:34,413 I LOVE YOU.Kids: I LOVE YOU, TOO. 11 00:00:34,413 --> 00:00:39,862 ♪♪ 12 00:00:39,862 --> 00:00:44,689 ♪♪ 13 00:00:44,689 --> 00:00:47,137 Ashley: I FEEL LIKE I'M TAKING BACK CONTROL OF MY LIFE. 14 00:00:47,137 --> 00:00:48,517 LOOK AT THAT! 15 00:00:48,517 --> 00:00:50,000 Woman: IT JUST GIVES ME MOTIVATION TO MOVE FORWARD, 16 00:00:50,000 --> 00:00:51,965 TO KNOW THAT I CAN DO THIS. 17 00:00:51,965 --> 00:00:53,034 Man: I FEEL GREAT. 18 00:00:53,034 --> 00:00:54,517 EVERY DAY IS SOMETHING NEW. 19 00:00:54,517 --> 00:00:58,689 ♪♪ 20 00:00:58,689 --> 00:01:00,517 Nicole: I'VE GOT A NEW LIFE AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE 21 00:01:00,517 --> 00:01:02,517 WHERE IT TAKES ME NEXT. 22 00:01:02,517 --> 00:01:05,620 Kirsten: I'M THANKFUL AND EXCITED ABOUT THE FUTURE. 23 00:01:05,620 --> 00:01:08,482 Woman: AND WE AREN'T GONNA STOP ANY TIME SOON. 24 00:01:08,482 --> 00:01:12,034 ♪♪ 25 00:01:12,034 --> 00:01:13,655 Erica: WITH JIMMY BACK IN MY LIFE, 26 00:01:13,655 --> 00:01:14,689 I'M SUPER MOTIVATED. 27 00:01:14,689 --> 00:01:16,068 GOOD. AGAIN. 28 00:01:16,068 --> 00:01:18,620 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 29 00:01:18,620 --> 00:01:21,620 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 30 00:01:21,620 --> 00:01:25,000 Erica: I AM COMPLETELY MISERABLE EVERY DAY. 31 00:01:25,000 --> 00:01:26,586 I FEEL LIKE ANY TIME 32 00:01:26,586 --> 00:01:28,896 THAT I CLOSE MY EYES AND GO TO SLEEP, 33 00:01:28,896 --> 00:01:30,517 I'M NOT GONNA WAKE UP. 34 00:01:30,517 --> 00:01:35,379 ♪♪ 35 00:01:35,379 --> 00:01:38,517 I HAVE A STOMACH THAT HANGS TO MY KNEES 36 00:01:38,517 --> 00:01:40,000 AND LYMPHEDEMA EVERYWHERE. 37 00:01:40,000 --> 00:01:42,344 [ GROANS ] 38 00:01:42,344 --> 00:01:47,034 AND MY FOOD ADDICTION IS ABSOLUTELY KILLING ME, 39 00:01:47,034 --> 00:01:51,241 SO I'M WORRIED THAT MY TIME IS RUNNING OUT. 40 00:01:51,241 --> 00:01:53,310 AND IF I CAN'T GET HELP RIGHT NOW, 41 00:01:53,310 --> 00:01:56,344 I KNOW I'M GONNA DIE SOON. 42 00:01:56,344 --> 00:01:59,448 I WANT TO GO TO HOUSTON TO TRY AND SEE DR. NOWZARADAN. 43 00:01:59,448 --> 00:02:01,620 BUT I CAN'T GO DOWN ON MY OWN. 44 00:02:01,620 --> 00:02:04,103 AND I CAN'T STAY THERE WITHOUT SOMEONE TO HELP ME. 45 00:02:04,103 --> 00:02:07,310 SO MY SISTER MOLLY IS MY ONLY HOPE. 46 00:02:07,310 --> 00:02:09,310 ERICA, I CAN'T LEAVE MY FAMILY. 47 00:02:09,310 --> 00:02:11,517 I KNOW, AND I KNOW. 48 00:02:11,517 --> 00:02:14,000 SO, THAT'S NOT HAPPENING. 49 00:02:14,000 --> 00:02:22,310 ♪♪ 50 00:02:22,310 --> 00:02:24,310 Molly: I HOPE THIS IS A CHANCE FOR HER TO FIX THINGS 51 00:02:24,310 --> 00:02:27,103 AND CHANGE THINGS, BUT I'M SKEPTICAL. 52 00:02:27,103 --> 00:02:29,724 EVEN IF WE GET THERE AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS, 53 00:02:29,724 --> 00:02:33,965 I DON'T TRUST THAT SHE WILL SUCCEED AT THIS MOMENT. 54 00:02:33,965 --> 00:02:35,310 Erica: HOW DID I GET TO THIS POINT 55 00:02:35,310 --> 00:02:37,344 WHERE I'M LIKE A SIDESHOW TO PEOPLE? 56 00:02:37,344 --> 00:02:40,068 THEY MADE ME BUY A WHOLE AISLE OF THREE SEATS 57 00:02:40,068 --> 00:02:42,620 BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 58 00:02:42,620 --> 00:02:44,310 AND I'M TERRIFIED. 59 00:02:44,310 --> 00:02:47,137 IT'S GONNA BE OVER THREE AND A HALF HOURS 60 00:02:47,137 --> 00:02:49,827 AND I KNOW IT'S DANGEROUS FOR SOMEONE MY SIZE 61 00:02:49,827 --> 00:02:51,275 TO TRAVEL IN THE AIR. 62 00:02:51,275 --> 00:02:57,172 ♪♪ 63 00:02:57,172 --> 00:03:00,827 YOU ARE IN TOO POOR A CONDITION TO BE ON YOUR OWN. 64 00:03:00,827 --> 00:03:03,310 SO WE'RE GONNA KEEP YOU HERE FOR A COUPLE WEEKS. 65 00:03:03,310 --> 00:03:05,655 TO HELP YOU RECOVER FROM TRAVEL. 66 00:03:05,655 --> 00:03:11,413 ♪♪ 67 00:03:11,413 --> 00:03:14,551 YOU ALREADY HAD ONE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 68 00:03:14,551 --> 00:03:15,862 AND THAT DIDN'T WORK, 69 00:03:15,862 --> 00:03:18,965 BUT UNLESS WE GET HANDLE ON EATING HABIT, 70 00:03:18,965 --> 00:03:21,793 THERE IS NO CHANCE THAT 71 00:03:21,793 --> 00:03:24,413 ANY KIND OF SURGERY IS GONNA BE PRODUCTIVE. 72 00:03:24,413 --> 00:03:27,379 SO I'M SENDING YOU BACK TO CALIFORNIA. 73 00:03:27,379 --> 00:03:29,206 AND YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 74 00:03:29,206 --> 00:03:32,724 AT LEAST 50 POUNDS IN FIRST MONTH. 75 00:03:32,724 --> 00:03:34,931 THIS IS GONNA BE THE MOST DIFFICULT THING 76 00:03:34,931 --> 00:03:37,758 I'VE EVER DONE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. 77 00:03:37,758 --> 00:03:40,482 BUT MY ONLY CHANCE IS TO LOSE THE 50 POUNDS 78 00:03:40,482 --> 00:03:42,965 DR. NOW SAYS I HAVE TO LOSE. 79 00:03:42,965 --> 00:03:49,241 ♪♪ 80 00:03:49,241 --> 00:03:51,206 Susan: ALRIGHT, SO I THINK TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR YOU, 81 00:03:51,206 --> 00:03:53,413 LET'S GET SOME OF THIS FOOD OUT OF THE HOUSE. 82 00:03:53,413 --> 00:03:54,793 PRETZELS. 83 00:03:54,793 --> 00:03:57,758 WE'VE GOT SOME FRIES. 84 00:03:57,758 --> 00:03:58,758 ALRIGHT. 85 00:03:58,758 --> 00:04:01,448 TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME. 86 00:04:01,448 --> 00:04:02,931 IT'S A LOT OF CHANGES TO MAKE. 87 00:04:02,931 --> 00:04:05,310 ♪♪ 88 00:04:05,310 --> 00:04:10,103 THE AGE OF 16, I HAD MY VERY FIRST BOYFRIEND 89 00:04:10,103 --> 00:04:15,275 AND I MADE THE DECISION TO SAY YES TO HIM. 90 00:04:15,275 --> 00:04:19,275 I DID NOT SAY YES TO HIS BEST FRIEND 91 00:04:19,275 --> 00:04:21,000 THAT WENT RIGHT AFTER HIM, 92 00:04:21,000 --> 00:04:22,172 OR HIS COUSIN, 93 00:04:22,172 --> 00:04:25,068 OR THE THREE THAT WENT AFTER THEM. 94 00:04:25,068 --> 00:04:26,241 Diana: THAT HAPPENED TO YOU, ERICA, 95 00:04:26,241 --> 00:04:27,793 AND IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT. 96 00:04:27,793 --> 00:04:36,448 ♪♪ 97 00:04:36,448 --> 00:04:38,413 [ GASPS ] 98 00:04:38,413 --> 00:04:39,620 ROB. 99 00:04:39,620 --> 00:04:40,448 LOOK. 100 00:04:40,448 --> 00:04:43,241 FROM 661. 101 00:04:43,241 --> 00:04:45,551 [ LAUGHS ] 102 00:04:45,551 --> 00:04:48,241 SO NOW YOU'RE AT IT. 103 00:04:48,241 --> 00:04:49,172 [ SNIFFLES ] 104 00:04:49,172 --> 00:04:55,206 ♪♪ 105 00:04:55,206 --> 00:04:57,517 MOLLY'S GONNA HELP ME MOVE DOWN THERE. 106 00:04:57,517 --> 00:05:01,517 BUT MY SISTER AND MY BROTHER STILL WON'T STAY WITH ME. 107 00:05:01,517 --> 00:05:03,758 I'M TRYING TO GET MY LIFE BACK AND I FEEL LIKE 108 00:05:03,758 --> 00:05:06,724 NO ONE REALLY SUPPORTS ME OR BELIEVES IN ME. 109 00:05:06,724 --> 00:05:08,482 AND THAT MAKES IT SO MUCH HARDER 110 00:05:08,482 --> 00:05:11,689 TO TRY AND DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS. 111 00:05:11,689 --> 00:05:13,965 Dr. Nowzaradan: SO, YOU HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT. 112 00:05:13,965 --> 00:05:16,034 YOU ARE FINALLY MAKING PROGRESS. 113 00:05:16,034 --> 00:05:17,689 AND I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR THAT. 114 00:05:17,689 --> 00:05:20,379 SO WE'RE GONNA SET YOU UP FOR AN ENDOSCOPY, 115 00:05:20,379 --> 00:05:22,724 LOOK INSIDE OF YOUR STOMACH, SEE WHAT OPTION WE GOT. 116 00:05:22,724 --> 00:05:30,344 ♪♪ 117 00:05:30,344 --> 00:05:33,931 SO, I'VE BEEN STUDYING YOUR ENDOSCOPY AND I THINK 118 00:05:33,931 --> 00:05:36,931 I FIGURED OUT HOW TO REMOVE YOUR STAPLES, 119 00:05:36,931 --> 00:05:39,034 FIX THE DAMAGE FROM THAT SURGERY, 120 00:05:39,034 --> 00:05:42,310 AND GIVE YOU WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ALL AT THE SAME TIME. 121 00:05:42,310 --> 00:05:44,689 SO I'M GONNA APPROVE YOU, OKAY? 122 00:05:44,689 --> 00:05:46,413 OKAY. 123 00:05:46,413 --> 00:05:50,344 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, I'M GOING TO DO A GASTRIC SLEEVE ON ERICA. 124 00:05:50,344 --> 00:05:53,655 ALRIGHT, ALL FINISHED. 125 00:05:53,655 --> 00:05:56,862 ERICA'S SURGERY WENT WELL. 126 00:05:56,862 --> 00:05:59,551 THIS IS GOING TO HELP ERICA TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT, 127 00:05:59,551 --> 00:06:02,862 BUT THIS IS REALLY JUST THE START OF HER JOURNEY. 128 00:06:02,862 --> 00:06:04,551 SHE HAS A LONG ROAD AHEAD 129 00:06:04,551 --> 00:06:09,689 AND SHE'S GOING TO NEED A LOT OF HELP TO GET THERE. 130 00:06:09,689 --> 00:06:11,620 Erica: IT'S BEEN ABOUT A MONTH SINCE MY SURGERY 131 00:06:11,620 --> 00:06:14,000 AND I'VE BEEN FEELING REALLY GOOD. 132 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:17,000 SO I'VE DECIDED I WANTED TO GO SOMEWHERE AND DO SOMETHING. 133 00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:20,000 LOOK AT THAT, THERE'S A PYTHON! 134 00:06:20,000 --> 00:06:21,931 A YEAR AGO, I WOULDN'T HAVE DREAMED 135 00:06:21,931 --> 00:06:24,000 I COULD GO OUT AND DO THIS. 136 00:06:24,000 --> 00:06:27,068 AND I NEVER THOUGHT I'D GET THIS CHANCE AT LIFE AGAIN. 137 00:06:27,068 --> 00:06:35,827 ♪♪ 138 00:06:35,827 --> 00:06:44,620 ♪♪ 139 00:06:44,620 --> 00:06:48,206 IT'S BEEN ALMOST TWO MONTHS SINCE MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 140 00:06:48,206 --> 00:06:51,896 MY SISTER MOLLY STAYED WITH ME TO HELP ME WHILE I RECOVERED. 141 00:06:51,896 --> 00:06:56,655 AND NOW THAT I AM, SHE'S GONE BACK HOME TO CALIFORNIA. 142 00:06:56,655 --> 00:07:00,689 AND ASIDE FROM BEING A LITTLE LONELY, I'M DOING GOOD. 143 00:07:00,689 --> 00:07:03,241 AND I CAN FEEL MY BODY CHANGING 144 00:07:03,241 --> 00:07:06,034 AND I CAN TELL THAT I'M LOSING WEIGHT. 145 00:07:06,034 --> 00:07:08,655 BECAUSE MY CLOTHES, ESPECIALLY MY SHIRTS, 146 00:07:08,655 --> 00:07:12,379 ARE SO MUCH BIGGER ON ME NOW. 147 00:07:12,379 --> 00:07:15,965 SO I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 148 00:07:15,965 --> 00:07:18,103 AND I'M STICKING TO THE DIET, 149 00:07:18,103 --> 00:07:20,172 AND I'VE BEEN EXERCISING EVERY DAY 150 00:07:20,172 --> 00:07:22,862 TO BUILD MY STRENGTH BACK. 151 00:07:22,862 --> 00:07:25,379 ♪♪ 152 00:07:25,379 --> 00:07:30,896 AND I DO LAPS BACK AND FORTH IN THE HOUSE, 153 00:07:30,896 --> 00:07:35,172 SO I'M TRYING TO BE AS TOUGH AS I CAN. 154 00:07:35,172 --> 00:07:40,000 I DO STANDING EXERCISES WHERE I TAP MY TOES, 155 00:07:40,000 --> 00:07:42,620 AND GET THE LEGS MOVING. 156 00:07:42,620 --> 00:07:44,413 ♪♪ 157 00:07:44,413 --> 00:07:46,241 AND I'VE NEVER WORKED THIS HARD 158 00:07:46,241 --> 00:07:49,448 IN MY ENTIRE LIFE FOR ANYTHING. 159 00:07:49,448 --> 00:07:52,655 BECAUSE THIS ISN'T EASY. 160 00:07:52,655 --> 00:07:58,206 AND MY CRAVINGS HAVE NOT GONE AWAY, THAT'S FOR SURE. 161 00:07:58,206 --> 00:08:02,793 BUT I'M NOT GIVING IN TO THEM SO I CAN KEEP MOVING AHEAD. 162 00:08:02,793 --> 00:08:06,655 BECAUSE I KNOW HOW BAD I NEED HELP. 163 00:08:06,655 --> 00:08:10,655 AT THIS POINT, I'VE LOST ALMOST 200 POUNDS, 164 00:08:10,655 --> 00:08:14,034 AND I KNOW I STILL HAVE HUNDREDS OF POUNDS TO GO, 165 00:08:14,034 --> 00:08:17,137 BUT NOW THAT I'VE HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 166 00:08:17,137 --> 00:08:22,000 I FEEL LIKE I'M FINALLY ON TRACK TO GETTING MY LIFE BACK. 167 00:08:22,000 --> 00:08:23,517 AND WHAT I'M REALLY HOPING IS THAT 168 00:08:23,517 --> 00:08:26,517 I CAN GET MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVAL SOON. 169 00:08:26,517 --> 00:08:28,379 I WANT TO TALK TO DR. NOW ABOUT IT 170 00:08:28,379 --> 00:08:30,965 AT MY NEXT APPOINTMENT WITH HIM. 171 00:08:30,965 --> 00:08:33,758 AND I KNOW IF HE'S EVEN GOING TO CONSIDER IT, 172 00:08:33,758 --> 00:08:38,103 I HAVE TO STAY ON TRACK AND KEEP LOSING LIKE I NEED. 173 00:08:38,103 --> 00:08:40,000 BUT I ALSO HAVE TO TELL HIM 174 00:08:40,000 --> 00:08:42,931 I HAVE TO MOVE BACK TO CALIFORNIA. 175 00:08:42,931 --> 00:08:45,793 AND I'M SCARED THAT HE'S GOING TO BE UPSET AND TELL ME 176 00:08:45,793 --> 00:08:49,724 THAT I CAN'T BE PART OF THE PROGRAM ANYMORE IF I'M NOT HERE. 177 00:08:49,724 --> 00:08:52,655 BUT I DON'T EVEN WANT TO MOVE BACK. 178 00:08:52,655 --> 00:08:54,931 I WASN'T SURE HOW ALL THIS WAS GONNA GO 179 00:08:54,931 --> 00:08:56,758 WHEN I MOVED DOWN HERE, 180 00:08:56,758 --> 00:09:00,965 SO I SIGNED A SIX-MONTH LEASE IN CASE I FAILED. 181 00:09:00,965 --> 00:09:04,172 AND MY RENT'S GOING UP AND I CAN'T AFFORD IT ANYMORE. 182 00:09:04,172 --> 00:09:08,068 SO I DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER OPTION EXCEPT TO MOVE BACK HOME. 183 00:09:08,068 --> 00:09:10,862 BUT I HAVE A LOT OF PANIC AND ANXIETY 184 00:09:10,862 --> 00:09:14,172 ABOUT GOING BACK TO CALIFORNIA. 185 00:09:14,172 --> 00:09:18,103 BECAUSE THAT'S WHERE I GOT UP TO OVER 600 POUNDS, 186 00:09:18,103 --> 00:09:20,586 AND IT BRINGS UP A LOT OF TRIGGERS FOR ME 187 00:09:20,586 --> 00:09:25,275 THAT MAKES ME WANT TO EAT CHOCOLATE FUDGE CAKE. 188 00:09:25,275 --> 00:09:28,517 BUT I FEEL LIKE IN HOUSTON I DON'T REALLY NEED 189 00:09:28,517 --> 00:09:31,068 TO USE FOOD AS AN EMOTIONAL CRUTCH. 190 00:09:31,068 --> 00:09:34,793 SO, IT'S REALLY BETTER FOR ME TO STAY HERE. 191 00:09:34,793 --> 00:09:36,000 I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SAY THAT, 192 00:09:36,000 --> 00:09:37,931 'CAUSE I NEVER WANTED TO COME HERE. 193 00:09:37,931 --> 00:09:39,896 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TAKE THE STRENGTH 194 00:09:39,896 --> 00:09:42,758 THAT I HAVE NOW HERE BACK HOME WITH ME. 195 00:09:42,758 --> 00:09:44,551 SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. 196 00:09:44,551 --> 00:09:50,413 ♪♪ 197 00:09:50,413 --> 00:09:55,896 ♪♪ 198 00:09:55,896 --> 00:09:59,862 I'M GOING TO SEE DR. NOW TODAY. 199 00:09:59,862 --> 00:10:03,413 BUT I HATE TAKING THE TAXI TO THE DOCTOR. 200 00:10:03,413 --> 00:10:06,724 ABSOLUTELY HATE IT. 201 00:10:06,724 --> 00:10:09,896 FEELING A LITTLE NERVOUS, ANXIOUS, 202 00:10:09,896 --> 00:10:13,413 BECAUSE I HAVE TO TELL HIM I CAN'T STAY IN HOUSTON. 203 00:10:13,413 --> 00:10:15,344 AND I DON'T KNOW IF HE'S GOING TO TELL ME 204 00:10:15,344 --> 00:10:18,620 THAT I CAN'T BE ON THE PROGRAM ANYMORE IF I DO THAT. 205 00:10:18,620 --> 00:10:22,206 BUT I REALLY WANT MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED. 206 00:10:22,206 --> 00:10:25,551 BECAUSE NOW THAT I CAN DO MORE AND GET MORE ACTIVE, 207 00:10:25,551 --> 00:10:29,655 IT'S REALLY IN THE WAY AND HURTS EVEN MORE. 208 00:10:29,655 --> 00:10:31,413 ERICA WALL? 209 00:10:31,413 --> 00:10:33,310 AND I'M HOPING IF I'M AT LEAST LOSING 210 00:10:33,310 --> 00:10:36,344 A GOOD AMOUNT OF WEIGHT, THEN DR. NOW WILL CONSIDER IT 211 00:10:36,344 --> 00:10:39,103 EVEN THOUGH I CAN'T STAY IN HOUSTON. 212 00:10:39,103 --> 00:10:41,103 BUT IF I'M NOT ON TRACK, 213 00:10:41,103 --> 00:10:45,206 STAYING ON THE PROGRAM WON'T EVEN BE AN OPTION FOR ME. 214 00:10:45,206 --> 00:10:47,586 SO A LOT IS RIDING ON THIS WEIGH-IN. 215 00:10:47,586 --> 00:10:50,724 ♪♪ 216 00:10:52,413 --> 00:11:00,620 ♪♪ 217 00:11:00,620 --> 00:11:03,551 Erica: I'M BACK AT DR. NOW'S FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT 218 00:11:03,551 --> 00:11:06,448 AND I'M HOPING IT ALL GOES WELL TODAY. 219 00:11:06,448 --> 00:11:09,448 BECAUSE I'M TELLING HIM I HAVE TO MOVE BACK HOME, 220 00:11:09,448 --> 00:11:13,758 BUT I STILL WANT SURGERY AND TO STAY ON THE PROGRAM. 221 00:11:13,758 --> 00:11:16,448 AND I'M REALLY WORRIED HE'S NOT EVEN GOING TO CONSIDER ME 222 00:11:16,448 --> 00:11:20,172 IF I'M NOT LOSING THE WEIGHT I NEED. 223 00:11:20,172 --> 00:11:23,517 I WAS 471 AT MY APPOINTMENT TWO MONTHS AGO. 224 00:11:23,517 --> 00:11:26,862 AND I'M SUPPOSED TO BE LOSING 20 POUNDS A MONTH. 225 00:11:26,862 --> 00:11:30,862 SO THAT MEANS I NEED TO BE DOWN TO 431 TODAY 226 00:11:30,862 --> 00:11:32,172 AND I HOPE I DID THAT. 227 00:11:32,172 --> 00:11:35,068 ♪♪ 228 00:11:35,068 --> 00:11:37,896 [ LAUGHS ] 229 00:11:37,896 --> 00:11:40,689 SHUT UP! 230 00:11:40,689 --> 00:11:42,586 I'M REALLY HAPPY WITH THAT 231 00:11:42,586 --> 00:11:46,034 BECAUSE I'VE BEEN TRYING MY HARDEST. 232 00:11:46,034 --> 00:11:49,517 BUT I WAS STILL WORRIED I WASN'T GONNA DO WELL. 233 00:11:49,517 --> 00:11:51,137 SO I THINK THAT'S GREAT PROGRESS 234 00:11:51,137 --> 00:11:53,379 AND I'M FEELING GOOD RIGHT NOW. 235 00:11:53,379 --> 00:11:55,172 AND I'M HOPING DR. NOW TELLS ME 236 00:11:55,172 --> 00:11:56,931 I CAN GET SURGERY FOR MY LEG. 237 00:11:56,931 --> 00:11:58,137 [ KNOCKING ON DOOR ] 238 00:11:58,137 --> 00:12:00,655 ♪♪ 239 00:12:00,655 --> 00:12:02,724 -HELLO. -HI, DR. NOW. 240 00:12:02,724 --> 00:12:03,758 HOW ARE YOU? 241 00:12:03,758 --> 00:12:05,620 FINE, THANK YOU, HOW ARE YOU? 242 00:12:05,620 --> 00:12:07,206 I'M GOOD, THANK YOU. 243 00:12:07,206 --> 00:12:10,758 ALRIGHT, SO YOUR WEIGHT LOSS IS LOOKING GOOD RIGHT NOW. 244 00:12:10,758 --> 00:12:13,206 YOU'RE DOWN TO 423 POUNDS. 245 00:12:13,206 --> 00:12:16,206 SO YOU LOST ALMOST 25 POUNDS A MONTH 246 00:12:16,206 --> 00:12:17,724 OVER THE LAST TWO MONTHS. 247 00:12:17,724 --> 00:12:19,241 YES. 248 00:12:19,241 --> 00:12:21,586 SO YOU ARE DOING REALLY WELL. 249 00:12:21,586 --> 00:12:23,655 I TAKE IT YOU'RE DOING YOUR EXERCISES 250 00:12:23,655 --> 00:12:25,793 AND GETTING AROUND WELL STILL? 251 00:12:25,793 --> 00:12:26,827 I DO, YES. 252 00:12:26,827 --> 00:12:28,206 OKAY, ALRIGHT. 253 00:12:28,206 --> 00:12:30,034 WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU. 254 00:12:30,034 --> 00:12:32,551 IF YOU KEEP THIS UP, YOU WILL BE BELOW 250 255 00:12:32,551 --> 00:12:34,517 IN TWO MONTHS OR SO. 256 00:12:34,517 --> 00:12:37,448 AND AT THAT POINT, YOU WILL PROBABLY EITHER BE READY 257 00:12:37,448 --> 00:12:39,965 FOR EXTRA SKIN REMOVAL OR THE REMOVAL 258 00:12:39,965 --> 00:12:42,241 OF THE LYMPHEDEMA FROM YOUR LEG. 259 00:12:42,241 --> 00:12:43,793 THAT WOULD BE EXCITING. 260 00:12:43,793 --> 00:12:46,206 I WANT TO HAVE MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED FIRST FROM MY LEG 261 00:12:46,206 --> 00:12:50,137 BECAUSE THERE'S A LOT OF LYMPHEDEMA ON THIS RIGHT SIDE. 262 00:12:50,137 --> 00:12:51,793 BUT I'M SCARED YOU'RE GOING TO SAY NO 263 00:12:51,793 --> 00:12:54,310 BECAUSE I HAVE TO MOVE BACK HOME TO CALIFORNIA. 264 00:12:54,310 --> 00:12:56,793 SO WHY ARE YOU MOVING BACK? 265 00:12:56,793 --> 00:12:59,689 BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD TO STAY HERE ON MY OWN. 266 00:12:59,689 --> 00:13:00,551 I SEE. 267 00:13:00,551 --> 00:13:02,620 WELL, THIS ISN'T IDEAL. 268 00:13:02,620 --> 00:13:05,620 YOU STILL STAYING IN HOUSTON FOR HOW LONG? 269 00:13:05,620 --> 00:13:07,344 MY LEASE IS UP IN TWO MONTHS. 270 00:13:07,344 --> 00:13:08,896 OKAY. 271 00:13:08,896 --> 00:13:11,482 WELL IT'S THREE MONTHS SINCE YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 272 00:13:11,482 --> 00:13:14,137 SO, YOU'RE THROUGH THE MOST IMPORTANT PERIOD 273 00:13:14,137 --> 00:13:16,931 I NEED TO MONITOR YOU AFTER SURGERY. 274 00:13:16,931 --> 00:13:18,172 OKAY. 275 00:13:18,172 --> 00:13:21,172 BUT CALIFORNIA IS A LONG WAY AWAY. 276 00:13:21,172 --> 00:13:23,620 SO IT'S NOT GOING TO BE FEASIBLE FOR YOU 277 00:13:23,620 --> 00:13:26,517 TO MAKE YOUR APPOINTMENTS EVERY TWO MONTHS. 278 00:13:26,517 --> 00:13:29,620 BUT DO YOU THINK YOU CAN COME HERE EVERY FOUR MONTHS? 279 00:13:29,620 --> 00:13:30,586 I CAN DO THAT. 280 00:13:30,586 --> 00:13:32,068 OKAY. 281 00:13:32,068 --> 00:13:34,896 AGAIN, IT'S NOT IDEAL, BECAUSE THAT IS A LONG TIME 282 00:13:34,896 --> 00:13:38,172 IF YOU START TO GET OFF TRACK BEFORE WE CAN INTERVENE. 283 00:13:38,172 --> 00:13:40,482 BUT AS LONG AS YOU'RE STICKING WITH THE PROGRAM, 284 00:13:40,482 --> 00:13:43,655 AND WORKING HARD, WE WILL TRY TO WORK WITH YOU. 285 00:13:43,655 --> 00:13:45,103 OKAY. 286 00:13:45,103 --> 00:13:47,068 AND I'M GOING TO INCREASE YOUR MONTHLY GOAL 287 00:13:47,068 --> 00:13:49,172 TO WHAT YOU LOST THE PAST TWO MONTHS. 288 00:13:49,172 --> 00:13:52,241 SO WE CAN MAXIMIZE YOUR PROGRESS 289 00:13:52,241 --> 00:13:55,103 SINCE I'M NOT GOING TO SEE YOU AS OFTEN. 290 00:13:55,103 --> 00:13:56,586 OKAY. 291 00:13:56,586 --> 00:14:00,379 ALRIGHT, SO YOUR GOAL WILL BE TO LOSE 25 POUNDS EACH MONTH, 292 00:14:00,379 --> 00:14:02,241 AND THEN IN FOUR MONTHS, 293 00:14:02,241 --> 00:14:05,758 YOU SHOULD BE IN THE RANGE OF THE LOWER 300s. 294 00:14:05,758 --> 00:14:09,310 AND IF YOU DO THAT, AT THAT TIME, THEN MAY BE POSSIBLE 295 00:14:09,310 --> 00:14:12,862 TO DO THE REMOVAL OF THE LYMPHEDEMA ON YOUR LEG. 296 00:14:12,862 --> 00:14:16,413 BUT YOU NEED TO STAY FOCUSED WITH A HIGH-PROTEIN DIET, 297 00:14:16,413 --> 00:14:19,758 INCREASE YOUR ACTIVITY, MAINTAIN GOOD NUTRITION, 298 00:14:19,758 --> 00:14:22,724 AND FOCUS ON A ROUTINE TO MAKE IT STICK 299 00:14:22,724 --> 00:14:24,137 WHEN YOU'RE BACK THERE. 300 00:14:24,137 --> 00:14:28,241 SO YOU DON'T FALL BACK INTO OLD HABITS, OKAY? 301 00:14:28,241 --> 00:14:30,000 OKAY, THANK YOU. 302 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:31,482 ALRIGHT, WE'LL SET THAT APPOINTMENT 303 00:14:31,482 --> 00:14:34,379 FOR FOUR MONTHS FROM NOW AND I HOPE WE'LL SEE YOU THEN. 304 00:14:34,379 --> 00:14:35,344 YES. 305 00:14:35,344 --> 00:14:37,517 ALRIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 306 00:14:37,517 --> 00:14:38,620 CAN I GIVE YOU A HUG? 307 00:14:38,620 --> 00:14:40,586 -ABSOLUTELY. -OKAY. 308 00:14:40,586 --> 00:14:41,586 ALRIGHT. 309 00:14:41,586 --> 00:14:43,068 THANK YOU FOR SAVING MY LIFE. 310 00:14:43,068 --> 00:14:44,689 THAT'S MY JOB. 311 00:14:44,689 --> 00:14:46,827 WELL, THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU. 312 00:14:46,827 --> 00:14:48,896 YOU'RE WELCOME. 313 00:14:48,896 --> 00:14:53,034 ♪♪ 314 00:14:53,034 --> 00:14:55,517 Dr. Nowzaradan: ERICA HAS SLOWLY STARTED DOING WELL. 315 00:14:55,517 --> 00:14:58,206 AND HAS BEEN MAKING GOOD PROGRESS RECENTLY, 316 00:14:58,206 --> 00:15:00,448 ESPECIALLY LAST TWO MONTHS. 317 00:15:00,448 --> 00:15:03,241 AND I AGREE WITH HER, THAT THAT'S IN LARGE PART 318 00:15:03,241 --> 00:15:06,310 BECAUSE SHE'S BEEN ABLE TO BE DOWN HERE IN HOUSTON. 319 00:15:06,310 --> 00:15:10,586 SO I SHARE HER CONCERN ABOUT RETURNING HOME RIGHT NOW. 320 00:15:10,586 --> 00:15:13,827 GOING HOME IS GOING TO MAKE IT MUCH HARDER FOR HER 321 00:15:13,827 --> 00:15:16,965 TO RESIST FALLING BACK INTO OLD HABITS. 322 00:15:16,965 --> 00:15:19,137 BUT WE WILL WORK TO ARRANGE A PLACE 323 00:15:19,137 --> 00:15:21,241 THAT SHE WILL BE ABLE TO CHECK HER WEIGHT. 324 00:15:21,241 --> 00:15:23,896 AND MAYBE GET HER A SCALE THAT CAN GET UP 325 00:15:23,896 --> 00:15:25,896 TO THE WEIGHT SHE NEEDS. 326 00:15:25,896 --> 00:15:28,413 AS WELL AS PROVIDE HER WITH PHYSICAL THERAPY 327 00:15:28,413 --> 00:15:32,000 AND PSYCHOTHERAPY SO THAT SHE CAN CONTINUE WORKING 328 00:15:32,000 --> 00:15:35,793 ON ALL OF THE ISSUES SHE NEED TO MAKE PROGRESS. 329 00:15:35,793 --> 00:15:38,517 BUT UNFORTUNATELY, IF SHE STARTS TO SLIP, 330 00:15:38,517 --> 00:15:41,586 WE WON'T BE ABLE TO INTERVENE LIKE WE NEED. 331 00:15:41,586 --> 00:15:43,724 IN ORDER FOR US TO PREVENT HER 332 00:15:43,724 --> 00:15:46,241 FROM GETTING TOO FAR OFF TRACK. 333 00:15:46,241 --> 00:15:49,379 SO, THIS IS AN UNFORTUNATE SCENARIO FOR ERICA. 334 00:15:49,379 --> 00:15:52,310 ESPECIALLY WHEN SHE'S BEEN DOING SO WELL. 335 00:15:52,310 --> 00:15:55,034 [ HEAVY BREATHING ] 336 00:15:55,034 --> 00:15:56,586 Erica: I WAS SO SCARED COMING HERE, 337 00:15:56,586 --> 00:15:59,000 AND I FEEL A LOT BETTER NOW. 338 00:15:59,000 --> 00:16:02,103 BECAUSE I'M REALLY GLAD WITH HOW EVERYTHING WENT. 339 00:16:02,103 --> 00:16:05,482 AND IT'S A HUGE RELIEF. 340 00:16:05,482 --> 00:16:07,655 AND I'M EXCITED THAT I CAN DO THE PROGRAM 341 00:16:07,655 --> 00:16:10,034 EVEN THOUGH I'M GOING BACK TO CALIFORNIA. 342 00:16:10,034 --> 00:16:13,103 AND THAT DR. NOW IS STILL GONNA WORK WITH ME. 343 00:16:13,103 --> 00:16:15,448 SO ASIDE FROM WHEN I GOT MY SURGERY APPROVAL, 344 00:16:15,448 --> 00:16:19,379 I THINK THIS IS THE BEST APPOINTMENT I'VE HAD SO FAR. 345 00:16:19,379 --> 00:16:21,793 AND I'M STAYING DETERMINED TO GET BELOW 350 346 00:16:21,793 --> 00:16:24,931 SO I CAN GET MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED. 347 00:16:24,931 --> 00:16:27,034 I KNOW IT WON'T BE EASY TO DO THIS, 348 00:16:27,034 --> 00:16:30,413 WITH MOVING AND BEING BACK IN MY OLD ENVIRONMENT. 349 00:16:30,413 --> 00:16:32,172 BUT I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO DO 350 00:16:32,172 --> 00:16:34,275 WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO SO I CAN COME BACK 351 00:16:34,275 --> 00:16:36,655 AND HAVE ANOTHER APPOINTMENT LIKE I HAD TODAY. 352 00:16:36,655 --> 00:16:42,931 ♪♪ 353 00:16:42,931 --> 00:16:49,206 ♪♪ 354 00:16:49,206 --> 00:16:52,827 TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY IN TEXAS. 355 00:16:52,827 --> 00:16:55,655 I LEAVE TOMORROW MORNING TO FLY HOME TO CALIFORNIA 356 00:16:55,655 --> 00:16:58,000 WHETHER I'M READY OR NOT. 357 00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:02,655 BUT I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT BECAUSE I WANT TO STAY. 358 00:17:02,655 --> 00:17:06,034 I WOULD LIKE TO STAY IN HOUSTON UNTIL I HIT MY GOAL WEIGHT, 359 00:17:06,034 --> 00:17:12,551 BUT I CAN'T AFFORD THE RENT IN TWO DIFFERENT HOUSES. 360 00:17:12,551 --> 00:17:16,413 I GOT HELP FROM MY FAMILY TO MOVE TO HOUSTON FOR A WHILE, 361 00:17:16,413 --> 00:17:20,206 BUT I KNEW I WASN'T GONNA BE ABLE TO STAY HERE FOREVER. 362 00:17:20,206 --> 00:17:24,551 I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT TO HAVE TO BE DOING THIS SO SOON. 363 00:17:24,551 --> 00:17:29,448 SO I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL, AND I HATE THIS. 364 00:17:29,448 --> 00:17:31,655 AND I HATE PACKING. 365 00:17:31,655 --> 00:17:33,137 PACKING SUCKS. 366 00:17:33,137 --> 00:17:36,241 ♪♪ 367 00:17:36,241 --> 00:17:38,620 ONCE I GOT WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, I WAS PLANNING 368 00:17:38,620 --> 00:17:41,482 ON BEING HERE FOR AWHILE. 369 00:17:41,482 --> 00:17:43,896 BUT THIS GOT TOO EXPENSIVE, 370 00:17:43,896 --> 00:17:46,137 BECAUSE I ONLY DID A SIX-MONTH LEASE HERE 371 00:17:46,137 --> 00:17:48,137 AND KEPT MY OLD APARTMENT 372 00:17:48,137 --> 00:17:50,793 BECAUSE I WAS SCARED THERE WAS A REALLY BIG CHANCE 373 00:17:50,793 --> 00:17:55,068 I WOULD FAIL AND I WOULD HAVE NOWHERE TO GO AT THAT POINT. 374 00:17:55,068 --> 00:17:57,000 SO I ONLY DID A SHORT LEASE HERE, 375 00:17:57,000 --> 00:18:00,413 NOT EXPECTING MY RENT TO GO UP. 376 00:18:00,413 --> 00:18:03,241 AND I STILL HAVE TO PAY FOR MY OLD APARTMENT IN CALIFORNIA 377 00:18:03,241 --> 00:18:06,827 SINCE I KEPT THAT TOO. 378 00:18:06,827 --> 00:18:08,517 BUT NOW THAT I'M DOING SO WELL, 379 00:18:08,517 --> 00:18:11,103 I REALLY REGRET MAKING THOSE CHOICES OUT OF FEAR 380 00:18:11,103 --> 00:18:14,310 BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN'T STAY NOW. 381 00:18:14,310 --> 00:18:18,862 AND IT JUST SEEMS LIKE BACK HOME IS CHAOS, AND MESSY, 382 00:18:18,862 --> 00:18:22,137 AND STRESSFUL, AND DRAMA. 383 00:18:22,137 --> 00:18:24,137 BECAUSE I KNOW IT'S GOING TO BE A LOT HARDER 384 00:18:24,137 --> 00:18:26,620 TO STICK TO THE DIET THERE. 385 00:18:26,620 --> 00:18:35,379 ♪♪ 386 00:18:35,379 --> 00:18:37,931 GOING BACK HOME, I'M WORRIED I WON'T HAVE 387 00:18:37,931 --> 00:18:40,275 AS MUCH SELF CONTROL. 388 00:18:40,275 --> 00:18:43,448 AND I'M GONNA GO BACK TO THE SAME DYSFUNCTIONAL WAYS 389 00:18:43,448 --> 00:18:45,206 OF DOING THINGS. 390 00:18:45,206 --> 00:18:48,034 BECAUSE THERE'S SO MANY TRIGGERS THERE. 391 00:18:48,034 --> 00:18:51,586 AND IT'S EASIER HERE TO CONTROL MY CRAVINGS 392 00:18:51,586 --> 00:18:53,206 AND STAY ON TRACK. 393 00:18:53,206 --> 00:18:55,620 BECAUSE I DON'T KEEP ANY OF THE FOOD 394 00:18:55,620 --> 00:18:57,931 THAT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE IN THE HOUSE. 395 00:18:57,931 --> 00:19:00,241 IT'S JUST NOT HERE. 396 00:19:00,241 --> 00:19:03,068 AND I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE HARD TO START A NEW ROUTINE THERE 397 00:19:03,068 --> 00:19:06,000 LIKE DR. NOW TOLD ME TO DO. 398 00:19:06,000 --> 00:19:08,655 BECAUSE I'M GOING BACK TO WHERE I GAINED ALL MY WEIGHT 399 00:19:08,655 --> 00:19:11,793 AND GOT UP TO 600 POUNDS. 400 00:19:11,793 --> 00:19:14,724 ALL I DID IN THAT APARTMENT WAS EAT AND SLEEP. 401 00:19:14,724 --> 00:19:17,724 ♪♪ 402 00:19:17,724 --> 00:19:20,034 THERE'S NOTHING BETTER THAN TO HAVE 403 00:19:20,034 --> 00:19:23,896 THAT SOMETHING SWEET FIRST THING IN THE MORNING. 404 00:19:23,896 --> 00:19:27,206 FEELS SO GOOD. 405 00:19:27,206 --> 00:19:30,034 JUST LETS ME KNOW THAT MY DAY IS GONNA BE OKAY. 406 00:19:30,034 --> 00:19:33,137 ♪♪ 407 00:19:33,137 --> 00:19:34,965 I'M TERRIFIED ONCE I GET BACK THERE, 408 00:19:34,965 --> 00:19:38,586 THAT THAT'S ALL I'M GONNA DO AGAIN. 409 00:19:38,586 --> 00:19:43,448 AND RUN THE RISK OF LOSING ALL THE PROGRESS I HAVE SO FAR. 410 00:19:43,448 --> 00:19:47,931 SO I DON'T KNOW IF I'M MENTALLY STRONG ENOUGH TO GO BACK. 411 00:19:47,931 --> 00:19:50,379 AND I'M SO SCARED RIGHT NOW LEAVING HERE MEANS 412 00:19:50,379 --> 00:19:53,000 THAT I'M GOING TO START TO SLIP AND I'LL EVENTUALLY 413 00:19:53,000 --> 00:19:57,241 END UP LIKE I NEVER EVEN CAME DOWN TO HOUSTON. 414 00:19:57,241 --> 00:19:59,620 AND I DON'T WANT ALL OF THE WORK THAT I'VE DONE 415 00:19:59,620 --> 00:20:01,275 TO BE FOR NOTHING. 416 00:20:01,275 --> 00:20:04,172 ♪♪ 417 00:20:06,448 --> 00:20:14,206 ♪♪ 418 00:20:14,206 --> 00:20:21,758 ♪♪ 419 00:20:21,758 --> 00:20:24,241 Erica: I'M BACK HOME IN CALIFORNIA. 420 00:20:24,241 --> 00:20:26,793 AND I'M NOT DOING WELL. 421 00:20:26,793 --> 00:20:30,000 BECAUSE IT'S REALLY HARD TO BE BACK HERE. 422 00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:32,517 I HAVE PUT SOME OF MY STUFF IN STORAGE, 423 00:20:32,517 --> 00:20:34,655 BUT I LEFT A LOT OF STUFF HERE 424 00:20:34,655 --> 00:20:38,827 AND IT'S ALL JUST BEEN WAITING HERE FOR ME IN THE SAME PLACE. 425 00:20:38,827 --> 00:20:41,827 AND IT'S JUST ALL CLUTTERED. 426 00:20:41,827 --> 00:20:45,137 INCLUDING A LOT OF THE BAD FOOD I HAD HERE IN MY APARTMENT 427 00:20:45,137 --> 00:20:47,931 AND HIDDEN ALL OVER THE PLACE, 428 00:20:47,931 --> 00:20:50,275 AND I HAVE THIS FEAR THAT I'M JUST GOING TO START 429 00:20:50,275 --> 00:20:52,965 TO SETTLE BACK INTO MY OLD LIFE HERE. 430 00:20:52,965 --> 00:20:56,586 AND START DOING ALL THE SAME THINGS OVER AGAIN. 431 00:20:56,586 --> 00:21:00,172 AND SEEING ALL THIS CLUTTER IS OVERWHELMING. 432 00:21:00,172 --> 00:21:01,482 BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE 433 00:21:01,482 --> 00:21:03,862 I'M LIVING JUST LIKE I WAS BEFORE, 434 00:21:03,862 --> 00:21:05,517 WHEN I WAS TOO BIG TO KEEP UP 435 00:21:05,517 --> 00:21:08,172 WITH ALL THE CLEANING AND ORGANIZING. 436 00:21:08,172 --> 00:21:11,206 BUT MY BIGGER CONCERN IS ALL THE FOOD THAT I LEFT HERE. 437 00:21:11,206 --> 00:21:14,965 AND I'M ALREADY FEELING ALL THAT TEMPTATION. 438 00:21:14,965 --> 00:21:18,103 I'VE WASTED SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE. 439 00:21:18,103 --> 00:21:22,965 AND MY FOOD ADDICTION IS ABSOLUTELY KILLING ME, 440 00:21:22,965 --> 00:21:28,034 A VERY SLOW, AGONIZING, PAINFUL DEATH. 441 00:21:28,034 --> 00:21:30,034 SO I KNOW I HAVE TO CLEAN ALL THAT OUT 442 00:21:30,034 --> 00:21:31,517 WITHOUT EATING ANY OF IT. 443 00:21:31,517 --> 00:21:39,241 ♪♪ 444 00:21:39,241 --> 00:21:42,827 TODAY I'M GOING THROUGH ALL OF THE EXTRA FOOD IN THE HOUSE 445 00:21:42,827 --> 00:21:45,931 THAT I CAN'T REALLY EAT ANYMORE. 446 00:21:45,931 --> 00:21:49,172 SO I GOT SOME BOXES AND MY PLAN IS TO JUST PUT 447 00:21:49,172 --> 00:21:52,448 ALL THE BAD FOOD IN HERE AND GET IT OUT OF MY PLACE. 448 00:21:52,448 --> 00:21:55,103 I THOUGHT SOME OF THESE THINGS WERE GOOD FOR ME. 449 00:21:55,103 --> 00:21:57,034 BUT IT TURNS OUT THEY'RE NOT. 450 00:21:57,034 --> 00:21:59,724 SO I NEED TO EITHER GIVE THE FOOD AWAY 451 00:21:59,724 --> 00:22:01,965 OR THROW THE FOOD AWAY. 452 00:22:01,965 --> 00:22:05,448 THIS WHOLE CART RIGHT HERE IS FULL OF READY-MADE MEALS 453 00:22:05,448 --> 00:22:09,000 THAT ARE VERY EASY, YOU JUST PUT THEM IN THE MICROWAVE. 454 00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:13,379 BUT DR. NOW AND THE NUTRITIONIST TOLD ME THAT THIS FOOD 455 00:22:13,379 --> 00:22:16,586 THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE HEALTHY AND GOOD FOR ME, 456 00:22:16,586 --> 00:22:21,034 IT ACTUALLY HAS QUITE A BIT OF CARBS IN IT. 457 00:22:21,034 --> 00:22:24,551 AND IF I GET STRESSED AND FEEL LIKE I NEED TO BINGE EAT, 458 00:22:24,551 --> 00:22:27,206 THEN I'M GIVING IN TO ALL THIS STUFF. 459 00:22:27,206 --> 00:22:28,793 BUT EVEN DOING THIS IS HARD 460 00:22:28,793 --> 00:22:31,689 BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO EAT SOME OF IT. 461 00:22:31,689 --> 00:22:34,310 BUT I'M NOT GIVING IN. 462 00:22:34,310 --> 00:22:37,931 BECAUSE I KNOW THE CONSEQUENCES IF I DO. 463 00:22:37,931 --> 00:22:39,517 BUT I'M REALLY SCARED RIGHT NOW 464 00:22:39,517 --> 00:22:41,793 I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO HOLD ON AND DO THIS 465 00:22:41,793 --> 00:22:44,724 BECAUSE IT'S ALREADY REALLY HARD. 466 00:22:44,724 --> 00:22:47,137 BUT I DON'T WANT TO START GAINING AGAIN 467 00:22:47,137 --> 00:22:49,275 AND WASTE ALL THE HARD WORK I'VE PUT IN 468 00:22:49,275 --> 00:22:51,931 TO GETTING TO WHERE I AM AND MESS THIS ALL UP. 469 00:22:51,931 --> 00:22:58,965 ♪♪ 470 00:22:58,965 --> 00:23:06,103 ♪♪ 471 00:23:06,103 --> 00:23:09,724 I'M EXCITED BECAUSE TODAY I'M SEEING MY THERAPIST AGAIN. 472 00:23:09,724 --> 00:23:11,689 AND I HAVEN'T SEEN HER SINCE BEFORE 473 00:23:11,689 --> 00:23:15,275 I LEFT FOR TEXAS LAST YEAR. 474 00:23:15,275 --> 00:23:18,344 WITH ALL OF MY CONSTANT ANXIETY, DR. NOW SAID HE WANTED 475 00:23:18,344 --> 00:23:23,551 TO MAKE SURE I START BACK UP DOING PSYCHOTHERAPY HERE. 476 00:23:23,551 --> 00:23:26,517 IN THE PAST, I HAVEN'T LIKED THE IDEA OF DOING ANY THERAPY 477 00:23:26,517 --> 00:23:30,103 BECAUSE I LIKED TO BURY MY [BLEEP]. 478 00:23:30,103 --> 00:23:36,206 BUT WITHOUT THERAPY, I MAY SLIP BACK INTO MY OLD WAYS. 479 00:23:36,206 --> 00:23:38,344 SO, I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO DO IT 480 00:23:38,344 --> 00:23:40,896 AND TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS. 481 00:23:40,896 --> 00:23:43,034 AND I LIKE DIANA BECAUSE SHE KNOWS A LOT 482 00:23:43,034 --> 00:23:46,172 ABOUT PATIENTS WHO HAVE HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 483 00:23:46,172 --> 00:23:49,034 SO, I ACTUALLY WAS REFERRED TO YOU BY DR. NOWZARADAN. 484 00:23:49,034 --> 00:23:51,620 WHY DO YOU THINK HE REFERRED ME TO YOU? 485 00:23:51,620 --> 00:23:53,172 I'M NOT SURE. 486 00:23:53,172 --> 00:23:55,310 WOULD IT BE SURPRISING IF I TOLD YOU I HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY? 487 00:23:55,310 --> 00:23:56,551 YES. 488 00:23:56,551 --> 00:23:58,241 I DID. I HAD THE GASTRIC BYPASS. 489 00:23:58,241 --> 00:24:01,931 SO I KNOW WHOLEHEARTEDLY HOW THIS FEELS. 490 00:24:01,931 --> 00:24:03,724 AND I'M ALSO EXCITED TO SHOW HER 491 00:24:03,724 --> 00:24:05,551 HOW FAR I'VE COME. 492 00:24:05,551 --> 00:24:07,862 AND I'M HOPING SHE'S PROUD OF ME FOR THAT. 493 00:24:07,862 --> 00:24:08,827 [ KNOCKING ON DOOR ] 494 00:24:08,827 --> 00:24:10,034 COME IN.[ DOOR OPENS ] 495 00:24:10,034 --> 00:24:17,655 ♪♪ 496 00:24:17,655 --> 00:24:19,413 OH MY GOD, YOU'RE STANDING UP. 497 00:24:19,413 --> 00:24:20,551 LOOK AT YOU! 498 00:24:20,551 --> 00:24:23,482 [ LAUGHS ] 499 00:24:23,482 --> 00:24:24,586 YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL. 500 00:24:24,586 --> 00:24:26,034 YOU DIDN'T GREET ME LIKE THIS BEFORE! 501 00:24:26,034 --> 00:24:27,551 NO, I COULDN'T. 502 00:24:27,551 --> 00:24:28,413 TELL ME EVERYTHING. 503 00:24:28,413 --> 00:24:30,379 TELL YOU EVERY-- LOOK AT YOU! 504 00:24:30,379 --> 00:24:31,586 -YOU'RE DROWNING IN THAT. -I KNOW. 505 00:24:31,586 --> 00:24:33,034 WHY ARE YOU EVEN WEARING THAT? YOU'RE DROWNING IN IT? 506 00:24:33,034 --> 00:24:34,655 -I KNOW. -SO HAVE YOU BEEN ABLE TO WRAP 507 00:24:34,655 --> 00:24:36,724 YOUR BRAIN AROUND THE PHYSICAL CHANGES? 508 00:24:36,724 --> 00:24:38,000 NO. 509 00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:39,827 NO, DID YOU KNOW THAT IT TAKES A LONG TIME 510 00:24:39,827 --> 00:24:42,620 FOR YOUR PSYCHE TO CATCH UP WITH THE PHYSICAL CHANGES? 511 00:24:42,620 --> 00:24:43,896 LIKE, YEARS. 512 00:24:43,896 --> 00:24:46,137 I HAVE PATIENTS WHO ARE, LIKE, THIN, 513 00:24:46,137 --> 00:24:47,724 BUT THEY WERE HEAVY THEIR WHOLE LIVES, 514 00:24:47,724 --> 00:24:49,793 SO IT TAKES THEM FOREVER TO, LIKE, 515 00:24:49,793 --> 00:24:51,310 SEE THIN GIRL IN THE MIRROR. 516 00:24:51,310 --> 00:24:54,034 SO, I DON'T WANT YOU TO GET DOWN IF THAT HAPPENS TO YOU. 517 00:24:54,034 --> 00:24:56,172 IS SKIN REMOVAL IN YOUR FUTURE? 518 00:24:56,172 --> 00:24:57,655 YES. 519 00:24:57,655 --> 00:25:01,000 I HOPE THAT SKIN REMOVAL AND LYMPHEDEMA MASS REMOVAL 520 00:25:01,000 --> 00:25:04,034 AND NEW [BLEEP] AND NEW EVERYTHING ARE IN MY FUTURE. 521 00:25:04,034 --> 00:25:05,620 [BLEEP], I LOVE IT. 522 00:25:05,620 --> 00:25:08,034 ONE THING I NOTICED WHEN I WALKED THROUGH THE LIVING ROOM, 523 00:25:08,034 --> 00:25:11,000 IT LOOKED SIMILAR TO WHEN I WAS HERE A YEAR AGO. 524 00:25:11,000 --> 00:25:11,931 NO WAY. 525 00:25:11,931 --> 00:25:13,379 TELL ME HOW IT'S DIFFERENT. 526 00:25:13,379 --> 00:25:15,482 THERE'S A LOT OF STUFF, YES, BUT THERE'S LESS STUFF 527 00:25:15,482 --> 00:25:17,206 AND THERE'S A LOT MORE SPACE. 528 00:25:17,206 --> 00:25:18,413 OKAY. 529 00:25:18,413 --> 00:25:20,000 IT'S WAY DIFFERENT THAN WHEN YOU WERE HERE. 530 00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:20,827 SO YOU'VE BEEN WORKING ON IT? 531 00:25:20,827 --> 00:25:22,344 YES. 532 00:25:22,344 --> 00:25:23,758 IF YOU WANT TO INCREASE YOUR CHANCES AT WINNING AT THIS, 533 00:25:23,758 --> 00:25:25,241 AND FINALLY CONQUERING THIS, 534 00:25:25,241 --> 00:25:27,931 IT'S ABOUT DOING DEEP WORK SO THAT YOU CAN COPE 535 00:25:27,931 --> 00:25:30,034 WITH THE FEELINGS THAT YOU'RE REFUSING TO DEAL WITH. 536 00:25:30,034 --> 00:25:34,000 THAT HAVE CAUSED YOU TO PUT ON THIS MUCH WEIGHT. 537 00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:35,206 'CAUSE YOU'RE IN JEOPARDY. 538 00:25:35,206 --> 00:25:36,965 YOU'RE IN THE STAGE NOW WHERE THE HARD WORK STARTS. 539 00:25:36,965 --> 00:25:39,482 YOU KNOW ABOUT MY PAST AND WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. 540 00:25:39,482 --> 00:25:41,586 WHEN I WAS 16 I WAS RAPED. 541 00:25:41,586 --> 00:25:43,896 I GAINED 100 POUNDS RIGHT AFTER THAT HAPPENED. 542 00:25:43,896 --> 00:25:48,034 AND THEN I DIDN'T WANT ANY ATTENTION FROM MEN 543 00:25:48,034 --> 00:25:52,724 AND SO I CREATED THIS PROTECTOR WALL THAT IS MY FAT, 544 00:25:52,724 --> 00:25:55,758 SO THAT MEN MAYBE WOULD NOT WANT ME. 545 00:25:55,758 --> 00:25:57,965 AND I THINK IN HOUSTON I COULD PRETEND 546 00:25:57,965 --> 00:25:59,344 THAT I WAS THIS NEW PERSON. 547 00:25:59,344 --> 00:26:01,551 BUT BEING HERE, I CAN'T PRETEND. 548 00:26:01,551 --> 00:26:04,379 IT'S LIKE THIS IS THE PLACE THAT REMINDS ME OF ALL THAT 549 00:26:04,379 --> 00:26:07,000 AND I CAN'T RUN FROM IT, AND IT'S MAKING ME STRUGGLE, 550 00:26:07,000 --> 00:26:08,586 SO I KNOW I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT. 551 00:26:08,586 --> 00:26:11,137 BECAUSE I CREATED THIS PROTECTION FROM MEN, 552 00:26:11,137 --> 00:26:12,655 THAT MADE ME FEEL SAFE. 553 00:26:12,655 --> 00:26:14,793 I GUESS I WENT TO THE EXTREME TO WHERE THEY DON'T WANT ME, 554 00:26:14,793 --> 00:26:17,103 PERIOD, AT ALL. 555 00:26:17,103 --> 00:26:20,862 AND WHEN I LOSE MORE WEIGHT, MAYBE A MAN 556 00:26:20,862 --> 00:26:24,517 WILL FIND ME ATTRACTIVE AGAIN. 557 00:26:24,517 --> 00:26:27,241 AND I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO HANDLE THAT. 558 00:26:27,241 --> 00:26:29,482 I HAVE A LOT OF FEAR AND I'M MESSED UP RIGHT NOW 559 00:26:29,482 --> 00:26:31,034 AND I'M SCARED. 560 00:26:31,034 --> 00:26:33,034 THIS IS WHY I WANT YOU TO CONTINUE TO DO MORE WORK. 561 00:26:33,034 --> 00:26:36,000 BECAUSE THAT BIG GIRL, SHE PROTECTED YOU. 562 00:26:36,000 --> 00:26:37,551 SHE KEPT THOSE MEN AWAY. 563 00:26:37,551 --> 00:26:38,931 THAT BIG GIRL DID THAT FOR YOU. 564 00:26:38,931 --> 00:26:40,586 AND YOU MIGHT NOT FEEL IT NOW, 565 00:26:40,586 --> 00:26:42,758 BUT I'M TELLING YOU, IF YOU CONTINUE TO DO MORE 566 00:26:42,758 --> 00:26:44,344 OF THE EMOTIONAL WORK, YOU'LL BE ABLE TO FIGURE 567 00:26:44,344 --> 00:26:46,931 THESE THINGS OUT BEFORE YOU EAT YOUR WAY BACK UP. 568 00:26:46,931 --> 00:26:48,551 SOME PEOPLE CAN READ SELF-HELP BOOKS, 569 00:26:48,551 --> 00:26:50,137 SOME PEOPLE CAN DO IT ON THEIR OWN. 570 00:26:50,137 --> 00:26:53,862 BUT THE TRAUMA YOU'VE EXPERIENCED USUALLY TAKES THERAPY. 571 00:26:53,862 --> 00:26:55,724 -[ SIGHS ] -YOU'RE DOING SO WELL. 572 00:26:55,724 --> 00:26:56,965 I DON'T CARE IF IT'S WITH ME, 573 00:26:56,965 --> 00:26:58,379 I DON'T CARE IF IT'S WITH ANYBODY ELSE, 574 00:26:58,379 --> 00:27:00,137 YOU'VE GOTTA JUST PUSH A LITTLE BIT FURTHER. 575 00:27:00,137 --> 00:27:03,068 YOU CAN ONLY PUT OFF THERAPY FOR SO LONG, I PROMISE YOU. 576 00:27:03,068 --> 00:27:04,586 OKAY. 577 00:27:04,586 --> 00:27:06,689 ALRIGHT, I'M EXCITED. 578 00:27:06,689 --> 00:27:07,620 CAN'T WAIT. 579 00:27:07,620 --> 00:27:08,689 OKAY. 580 00:27:08,689 --> 00:27:12,206 [ DEEP SIGHS ] 581 00:27:12,206 --> 00:27:15,655 ♪♪ 582 00:27:15,655 --> 00:27:18,034 I KNOW I STILL HAVE A LOT TO DEAL WITH. 583 00:27:18,034 --> 00:27:19,931 AND DIANA HAD STARTED ME JOURNALING 584 00:27:19,931 --> 00:27:22,551 TO DEAL WITH MY EMOTIONS. 585 00:27:22,551 --> 00:27:25,310 BUT I THINK FOR THE SIX MONTHS I WAS IN HOUSTON, 586 00:27:25,310 --> 00:27:29,000 I WAS ABLE TO PRETEND I WAS SOMEONE DIFFERENT. 587 00:27:29,000 --> 00:27:31,310 AND I COULD JUST IGNORE THAT PART OF MY PAST 588 00:27:31,310 --> 00:27:33,689 AS IF IT NEVER HAPPENED. 589 00:27:33,689 --> 00:27:37,586 AND I KNEW COMING BACK HERE WOULD CAUSE ME TO FACE THAT. 590 00:27:37,586 --> 00:27:40,275 BUT YOU CAN'T RUN FOREVER. 591 00:27:40,275 --> 00:27:43,758 AND I KNOW IT'S TIME I START TO DEAL WITH IT LIKE I NEED. 592 00:27:43,758 --> 00:27:45,551 -YOU GOT THE GATE? -YEAH. 593 00:27:45,551 --> 00:27:48,896 Erica: SO I'LL PICK BACK UP WITH THE JOURNALING. 594 00:27:48,896 --> 00:27:52,586 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO START GAINING AGAIN. 595 00:27:52,586 --> 00:27:55,310 AND I DON'T WANT TO USE MY WEIGHT TO HIDE. 596 00:27:55,310 --> 00:27:58,275 I WANT TO GET HEALTHY TO HAVE A LIFE. 597 00:27:58,275 --> 00:28:01,241 AND TO MAYBE MEET SOMEONE. 598 00:28:01,241 --> 00:28:03,448 BUT I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO EITHER 599 00:28:03,448 --> 00:28:05,448 IF I DON'T DO THIS. 600 00:28:05,448 --> 00:28:08,172 SO, I HAVE NO CHOICE. 601 00:28:08,172 --> 00:28:10,965 THERE'S NO MORE PRETENDING OR AVOIDING. 602 00:28:10,965 --> 00:28:13,620 THAT TIME IS UP. 603 00:28:13,620 --> 00:28:17,517 ♪♪ 604 00:28:20,310 --> 00:28:26,931 ♪♪ 605 00:28:26,931 --> 00:28:33,689 ♪♪ 606 00:28:33,689 --> 00:28:36,827 Erica: THIS PAST MONTH HAS BEEN BETTER. 607 00:28:36,827 --> 00:28:40,896 IT'S STILL BEEN REALLY EMOTIONAL AND A STRUGGLE AT TIMES. 608 00:28:40,896 --> 00:28:42,310 BUT I'M DOING MY JOURNALING 609 00:28:42,310 --> 00:28:45,172 AND TRYING TO WORK THROUGH MY EMOTIONS. 610 00:28:45,172 --> 00:28:49,172 BUT IT'S NOT A QUICK PROCESS, AND THERE HAVE BEEN MOMENTS 611 00:28:49,172 --> 00:28:50,896 WHERE I'VE SLIPPED A LITTLE 612 00:28:50,896 --> 00:28:53,344 AND EATEN SOMETHING I SHOULDN'T HAVE. 613 00:28:53,344 --> 00:28:55,344 BUT I'VE CORRECTED MYSELF IMMEDIATELY 614 00:28:55,344 --> 00:28:58,310 AND GOTTEN BACK ON TRACK EACH TIME. 615 00:28:58,310 --> 00:29:01,931 AND I'M DOING A LOT OF OTHER THINGS TO HELP ME, TOO. 616 00:29:01,931 --> 00:29:04,793 I'VE STARTED THE PROCESS OF GETTING MY PLACE DECLUTTERED 617 00:29:04,793 --> 00:29:06,827 AND CLEANED UP. 618 00:29:06,827 --> 00:29:09,689 SO, I'M WORKING TO MAKE MY WORLD A BETTER PLACE 619 00:29:09,689 --> 00:29:12,448 THAT I CAN ENJOY. 620 00:29:12,448 --> 00:29:14,551 AND I'M EVEN DRIVING MYSELF AROUND 621 00:29:14,551 --> 00:29:17,137 AND THAT'S A HUGE DEAL FOR ME. 622 00:29:17,137 --> 00:29:18,793 AND ON TOP OF ALL THAT, 623 00:29:18,793 --> 00:29:21,137 I DECIDED TO TAKE MY P.T. UP A NOTCH 624 00:29:21,137 --> 00:29:23,965 TO GET EVEN MORE EXERCISE. 625 00:29:23,965 --> 00:29:27,172 SO I JOINED A LOCAL BOOTCAMP. 626 00:29:27,172 --> 00:29:30,310 BUT AS HARD AS IT IS, I REALLY LIKE THE FEELING 627 00:29:30,310 --> 00:29:35,793 OF PUSHING MYSELF REALLY HARD TO SEE WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF. 628 00:29:35,793 --> 00:29:39,000 IT MAKES ME FEEL VERY EMPOWERED 629 00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:43,689 AND LIKE I CAN DO ANYTHING WHEN I PUSH MYSELF LIKE THIS. 630 00:29:43,689 --> 00:29:46,034 AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A BADASS. 631 00:29:46,034 --> 00:29:47,551 I [ BLEEPING ] LOVE IT. 632 00:29:47,551 --> 00:29:48,758 HOW ARE YOU? 633 00:29:48,758 --> 00:29:49,413 READY. 634 00:29:49,413 --> 00:29:50,413 READY, GOOD! 635 00:29:50,413 --> 00:29:51,551 I LOVE THAT. 636 00:29:51,551 --> 00:29:52,758 HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY? 637 00:29:52,758 --> 00:29:53,896 IT'S ALL ABOUT GETTING STRONGER AND STRONGER 638 00:29:53,896 --> 00:29:56,896 AND STRONGER EVERY SINGLE TIME I COME. 639 00:29:56,896 --> 00:30:00,103 AND IT'S THE MOST EXERCISE I'VE EVER DONE. 640 00:30:00,103 --> 00:30:02,344 SO MY WHOLE LIFE IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT 641 00:30:02,344 --> 00:30:04,896 THAN IT WAS A YEAR AGO. 642 00:30:04,896 --> 00:30:10,137 AS SOON AS I GET UP, MY BACK HURTS, MY LEGS HURT. 643 00:30:10,137 --> 00:30:13,517 I FEEL LIKE A TICKING TIME BOMB 644 00:30:13,517 --> 00:30:18,275 BECAUSE OF HOW EXCRUCIATING THE PAIN IS. 645 00:30:18,275 --> 00:30:19,620 ALL RIGHT, LET'S GET YOU IN. 646 00:30:19,620 --> 00:30:20,793 LET'S GO 15. 647 00:30:20,793 --> 00:30:22,793 OKAY, SO FEET WIDER. 648 00:30:22,793 --> 00:30:24,000 BIT LOWER. 649 00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:25,965 WHAT HAPPENED TO ME WHEN I WAS A KID 650 00:30:25,965 --> 00:30:28,310 BASICALLY ENDED MY LIFE AT THAT TIME 651 00:30:28,310 --> 00:30:32,793 BECAUSE I JUST STOPPED LIVING AND STARTED EATING AND EATING. 652 00:30:32,793 --> 00:30:35,275 ALL RIGHT, EXCELLENT. STOP. 653 00:30:35,275 --> 00:30:37,655 BUT I'M GETTING BACK TO LIFE NOW. 654 00:30:37,655 --> 00:30:41,103 I'M WORKING TO BE THE PERSON I WANT AND JUST STOP TRYING 655 00:30:41,103 --> 00:30:43,862 TO HIDE FROM EVERYTHING. 656 00:30:43,862 --> 00:30:47,000 BUT IT'S NOT EASY BECAUSE THERE'S A LOT OF FEAR AND PAIN. 657 00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:49,379 BUT THAT'S WHAT I'M WORKING ON FACING, 658 00:30:49,379 --> 00:30:51,379 AND I'M STARTING TO FEEL LIKE I CAN DO THIS 659 00:30:51,379 --> 00:30:54,000 EVEN IF I'M BACK HERE. 660 00:30:54,000 --> 00:30:56,620 BECAUSE EVERYDAY I FACE SOME OF MY FEARS 661 00:30:56,620 --> 00:30:58,724 AND THE EMOTIONS FROM MY PAST. 662 00:30:58,724 --> 00:31:00,103 LAST ONE, GOOD. LET'S GO ACROSS... 663 00:31:00,103 --> 00:31:02,896 THAT TAKE A STEP TOWARD GETTING TO WHERE I WANT TO BE. 664 00:31:02,896 --> 00:31:05,103 ALL RIGHT, VERY GOOD. 665 00:31:05,103 --> 00:31:07,206 JENNY, CAN YOU BRING THAT BOXING BAG? 666 00:31:07,206 --> 00:31:09,862 ♪♪ 667 00:31:09,862 --> 00:31:11,655 DR. NOW WANTED ME TO COME BACK 668 00:31:11,655 --> 00:31:14,206 FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT IN A MONTH, 669 00:31:14,206 --> 00:31:17,344 BUT IT'S GONNA TAKE ME A LITTLE LONGER. 670 00:31:17,344 --> 00:31:19,517 SO HE'S ARRANGING FOR A SCALE TO BE SENT TO ME 671 00:31:19,517 --> 00:31:23,896 THAT CAN WEIGH ME SO I CAN TELL HIM MY PROGRESS. 672 00:31:23,896 --> 00:31:26,551 AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO FINDING OUT MY WEIGHT, 673 00:31:26,551 --> 00:31:29,344 BECAUSE I KNOW I'M WORKING REALLY HARD. 674 00:31:29,344 --> 00:31:30,827 YOU'RE DOING GREAT. 675 00:31:30,827 --> 00:31:32,000 ARE YOU KIDDING ME? 676 00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:33,482 AND I'M REALLY HOPING THAT I'M ABLE 677 00:31:33,482 --> 00:31:36,379 TO FINALLY GET MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED. 678 00:31:36,379 --> 00:31:37,620 AH, DON'T SLOW DOWN, ERICA. 679 00:31:37,620 --> 00:31:38,793 GO. 680 00:31:38,793 --> 00:31:41,310 DON'T RUSH. GIVE ME HARD. 681 00:31:41,310 --> 00:31:47,103 ♪♪ 682 00:31:47,103 --> 00:31:52,896 ♪♪ 683 00:31:52,896 --> 00:31:55,413 THINGS HAVE BEEN REALLY GOOD LATELY. 684 00:31:55,413 --> 00:31:58,517 NOT JUST BECAUSE I FEEL GOOD ABOUT MY PROGRESS. 685 00:31:58,517 --> 00:32:01,482 THAT'S BECAUSE I'VE BEEN REALLY WORKING ON CHANGING MY LIFE 686 00:32:01,482 --> 00:32:04,758 IN ALL THE WAYS I WANT. 687 00:32:04,758 --> 00:32:07,482 I'VE BEEN ABLE TO GO THROUGH ALL MY STUFF IN MY APARTMENT, 688 00:32:07,482 --> 00:32:10,724 ORGANIZE IT AND PUT IT AWAY. 689 00:32:10,724 --> 00:32:13,655 AND IT'S BEEN REALLY NICE HAVING A CLEAN PLACE. 690 00:32:13,655 --> 00:32:17,482 SO I'M REALLY HAPPY ABOUT THAT. 691 00:32:17,482 --> 00:32:19,620 BUT THE BIGGEST, MOST AMAZING CHANGE IN MY LIFE 692 00:32:19,620 --> 00:32:23,758 OVER THE PAST MONTH HAS BEEN THAT I HAVE SOMEONE NEW IN IT. 693 00:32:23,758 --> 00:32:27,517 A MAN I HAD LOST TOUCH WITH A LONG TIME AGO. 694 00:32:27,517 --> 00:32:31,896 HIS NAME IS JIMMY, AND WE DATED FOR YEARS WHEN I WAS YOUNGER 695 00:32:31,896 --> 00:32:35,103 BUT WITH ALL THE TRAUMA FROM MY CHILDHOOD, I THOUGHT 696 00:32:35,103 --> 00:32:37,931 I WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR SOMEONE LIKE HIM. 697 00:32:37,931 --> 00:32:41,206 SO I LEFT HIM BECAUSE OF ALL OF MY ISSUES 698 00:32:41,206 --> 00:32:44,068 AND ME AND JIMMY LOST TOUCH. 699 00:32:44,068 --> 00:32:47,448 BUT AFTER I BROKE UP WITH HIM, HE JOINED THE ARMY. 700 00:32:47,448 --> 00:32:51,275 AND THAT WAS THE LAST TIME I TALKED TO HIM IN 20 YEARS. 701 00:32:51,275 --> 00:32:54,379 AND I HAD FOUND HIM ONLINE YEARS AGO. 702 00:32:54,379 --> 00:32:56,275 HE HAD GOTTEN MARRIED. 703 00:32:56,275 --> 00:32:59,862 BUT RECENTLY, I LOOKED HIM UP, AND IT SAID SINGLE. 704 00:32:59,862 --> 00:33:03,586 I WAS FEELING MORE CONFIDENT AND BRAVE 705 00:33:03,586 --> 00:33:07,172 AND DOING WHAT MY THERAPIST DIANA HAS TAUGHT ME TO DO, 706 00:33:07,172 --> 00:33:09,931 GETTING COMFORTABLE WITH BEING UNCOMFORTABLE. 707 00:33:09,931 --> 00:33:11,758 SO, I WENT FOR IT. 708 00:33:11,758 --> 00:33:17,379 I MESSAGED HIM, AND HE RESPONDED WITHIN 45 MINUTES. 709 00:33:17,379 --> 00:33:20,482 AND WE HAVE BEEN INSEPARABLE ON THE PHONE. 710 00:33:20,482 --> 00:33:25,310 TEXTING, TALKING EVERY DAY ALL DAY, ALL NIGHT. 711 00:33:25,310 --> 00:33:26,931 HI. 712 00:33:26,931 --> 00:33:28,000 Hi. 713 00:33:28,000 --> 00:33:29,137 HOW YOU DOING? 714 00:33:29,137 --> 00:33:30,344 I'm pretty good. 715 00:33:30,344 --> 00:33:32,586 -PRETTY GOOD? -Mm-hmm. 716 00:33:32,586 --> 00:33:36,000 Erica: JIMMY SAYS THAT HE STILL LOVES ME AND I BELIEVE HIM. 717 00:33:36,000 --> 00:33:40,344 BUT I DON'T KNOW IF THAT'S GONNA CHANGE WHEN HE SEES ME 718 00:33:40,344 --> 00:33:44,137 BECAUSE THE LAST TIME HE SAW ME I WAS 250 POUNDS. 719 00:33:44,137 --> 00:33:48,517 SO, JIMMY DOES NOT KNOW SINCE THAT TIME THAT I GOT UP 720 00:33:48,517 --> 00:33:53,862 TO 661 POUNDS AT MY HEAVIEST WEIGHT. 721 00:33:53,862 --> 00:33:56,379 SO, I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU, 722 00:33:56,379 --> 00:33:59,896 BUT THERE'S SOMETHING THAT YOU SHOULD KNOW. 723 00:33:59,896 --> 00:34:01,586 What should I know? 724 00:34:01,586 --> 00:34:05,172 SO, MY MOM WAS KILLED A FEW YEARS AGO, 725 00:34:05,172 --> 00:34:06,724 AND... 726 00:34:09,241 --> 00:34:12,448 THINGS GOT KINDA OUTTA CONTROL WITH MY LIFE 727 00:34:12,448 --> 00:34:14,896 AND MY FOOD ADDICTION, 728 00:34:14,896 --> 00:34:19,827 AND I GOT UP TO THE HIGHEST WEIGHT OF 661 POUNDS. 729 00:34:22,275 --> 00:34:23,517 MM-HMM. 730 00:34:23,517 --> 00:34:25,655 You don't look like you're 661 pounds. 731 00:34:25,655 --> 00:34:28,413 BECAUSE I'M NOT ANYMORE. 732 00:34:28,413 --> 00:34:29,655 That's good. 733 00:34:29,655 --> 00:34:31,241 YEAH, THAT'S REALLY GOOD. 734 00:34:31,241 --> 00:34:35,000 AND I'VE LOST ALMOST 300 POUNDS. 735 00:34:35,000 --> 00:34:36,310 That's like a whole person. 736 00:34:36,310 --> 00:34:39,448 YEAH, IT IS. 737 00:34:39,448 --> 00:34:42,275 I HAVE A LOT OF SAGGING SKIN 738 00:34:42,275 --> 00:34:45,586 AND I HAVE SOMETHING CALLED LYMPHEDEMA. 739 00:34:45,586 --> 00:34:48,413 THE BUILD UP OF FLUIDS IN THE LYMPHATIC SYSTEM 740 00:34:48,413 --> 00:34:52,413 BECAUSE THINGS AREN'T MOVING CORRECTLY. 741 00:34:52,413 --> 00:34:57,103 AND I'M, LIKE, SUPER NERVOUS AND SCARED TO SEE YOU. 742 00:34:57,103 --> 00:34:58,586 I like what I see so far. 743 00:34:58,586 --> 00:35:02,310 [ LAUGHS ] 744 00:35:02,310 --> 00:35:03,551 THAT'S GOOD. 745 00:35:03,551 --> 00:35:06,344 Do you remember we used to hop in your big truck 746 00:35:06,344 --> 00:35:07,655 and head up to the mountains? 747 00:35:07,655 --> 00:35:09,689 I SURE DO. 748 00:35:09,689 --> 00:35:11,482 THAT WAS FUN. 749 00:35:11,482 --> 00:35:12,586 It was fun. 750 00:35:12,586 --> 00:35:16,137 THE HEALTHIER I GET, THE MORE FUN WE'LL HAVE. 751 00:35:16,137 --> 00:35:18,586 LOTS OF FUN ADVENTURES. 752 00:35:18,586 --> 00:35:20,517 -I agree. -MM-HMM. 753 00:35:20,517 --> 00:35:23,896 So, I would drive 1,300 miles to come see you 754 00:35:23,896 --> 00:35:27,413 and help you through this journey. 755 00:35:27,413 --> 00:35:29,103 REALLY? 756 00:35:29,103 --> 00:35:31,172 Yes, I would. 757 00:35:31,172 --> 00:35:33,172 Yeah, so do you want a sidekick? 758 00:35:33,172 --> 00:35:35,275 I'll be your sidekick. 759 00:35:35,275 --> 00:35:36,586 I'D LOVE TO HAVE A SIDEKICK. 760 00:35:36,586 --> 00:35:38,862 I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT IT'S BEEN 20 YEARS 761 00:35:38,862 --> 00:35:40,655 SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU. 762 00:35:40,655 --> 00:35:41,758 THAT'S CRAZY. 763 00:35:41,758 --> 00:35:43,448 It's been a long time. 764 00:35:43,448 --> 00:35:45,275 IT HAS. 765 00:35:45,275 --> 00:35:50,724 Erica: SINCE JIMMY'S BEEN BACK IN MY LIFE, I'M SUPER MOTIVATED, 766 00:35:50,724 --> 00:35:53,862 I'M SUPER EXCITED AND HAPPY ABOUT LIFE, 767 00:35:53,862 --> 00:35:58,172 AND WHAT'S WAITING FOR ME AT THE FINISH LINE. 768 00:35:58,172 --> 00:36:00,344 NO ONE CAN PREDICT WHAT HAPPENS TOMORROW, 769 00:36:00,344 --> 00:36:03,965 BUT WHAT IF HE REALLY DOES LOVE ME ENOUGH TO STICK WITH ME 770 00:36:03,965 --> 00:36:07,655 AND BE MY SIDEKICK. 771 00:36:07,655 --> 00:36:10,172 SO, JIMMY, I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU SINCE YOU'VE BEEN BACK 772 00:36:10,172 --> 00:36:12,689 IN MY LIFE AND WE'VE BEEN TALKING EVERY DAY, 773 00:36:12,689 --> 00:36:15,758 YOU'VE BEEN REALLY, REALLY GOOD FOR ME. 774 00:36:15,758 --> 00:36:19,931 HELPING ME BE MOTIVATED, STAY MOTIVATED, STAY POSITIVE 775 00:36:19,931 --> 00:36:22,241 AND HAPPY, LIKE, ALL THE TIME. 776 00:36:22,241 --> 00:36:23,931 That's the way you should be. 777 00:36:23,931 --> 00:36:25,551 I KNOW. 778 00:36:25,551 --> 00:36:27,206 When I come to California, it'll be a lot better for you. 779 00:36:27,206 --> 00:36:28,034 I KNOW. 780 00:36:28,034 --> 00:36:29,517 OH, I CAN'T WAIT. 781 00:36:29,517 --> 00:36:32,310 BEING WITH YOU MAKES IT EASY FOR ME TO SAY NO 782 00:36:32,310 --> 00:36:34,103 TO CHOCOLATE FUDGE CAKE. 783 00:36:34,103 --> 00:36:35,448 I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THAT. 784 00:36:35,448 --> 00:36:36,724 [ LAUGHS ] 785 00:36:36,724 --> 00:36:38,137 More for me. 786 00:36:38,137 --> 00:36:40,655 [ LAUGHTER ] 787 00:36:40,655 --> 00:36:42,379 YES. 788 00:36:42,379 --> 00:36:43,482 I LOVE YOU. 789 00:36:43,482 --> 00:36:44,724 I love you, too, babe. 790 00:36:44,724 --> 00:36:47,586 BYE. 791 00:36:47,586 --> 00:36:51,586 [ SIGHS ] 792 00:36:51,586 --> 00:36:54,275 A YEAR AGO, I WOULD'VE NEVER DREAMED THAT I WOULD'VE COME 793 00:36:54,275 --> 00:36:57,448 THIS FAR AND THAT MY LIFE WOULD BE GETTING THIS GOOD. 794 00:36:57,448 --> 00:36:59,862 I WAS JUST SPENDING MY DAYS IN BED AND EATING 795 00:36:59,862 --> 00:37:01,689 AND WAITING TO DIE. 796 00:37:01,689 --> 00:37:03,758 AND IT'S JUST AMAZING TO BE HERE NOW 797 00:37:03,758 --> 00:37:05,551 AND WITH JIMMY BACK IN MY LIFE. 798 00:37:05,551 --> 00:37:07,000 ♪♪ 799 00:37:10,275 --> 00:37:13,482 ♪♪ 800 00:37:13,482 --> 00:37:15,965 [ CRICKETS CHIRPING ] 801 00:37:15,965 --> 00:37:20,689 ♪♪ 802 00:37:20,689 --> 00:37:24,965 Erica: THIS LAST MONTH HAS BEEN JUST AS GOOD AS THE ONE BEFORE IT. 803 00:37:24,965 --> 00:37:27,310 I'M STILL WORKING EXTRA HARD ON MY DIET 804 00:37:27,310 --> 00:37:30,344 AND EXERCISE PROGRAM. 805 00:37:30,344 --> 00:37:32,862 I KNOW I'M LOSING MORE WEIGHT BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH 806 00:37:32,862 --> 00:37:35,689 MY SKIN IS STARTING TO SAG. 807 00:37:35,689 --> 00:37:39,965 AND THINGS ARE STILL GOING WONDERFULLY WITH JIMMY. 808 00:37:39,965 --> 00:37:42,310 WE DECIDED THAT WE'RE OFFICIALLY DATING 809 00:37:42,310 --> 00:37:46,172 AND HE PROPOSED THE IDEA OF US MOVING TO HOUSTON TOGETHER. 810 00:37:46,172 --> 00:37:49,448 SO I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THAT. 811 00:37:49,448 --> 00:37:53,724 BUT WE KNOW THAT'S GONNA TAKE SOME TIME TO ARRANGE AND PLAN 812 00:37:53,724 --> 00:37:55,827 AND WE WANT TO MEET UP FIRST. 813 00:37:55,827 --> 00:37:58,448 SO, JIMMY IS WORKING ON GETTING TIME OFF OF WORK 814 00:37:58,448 --> 00:38:01,689 SO THAT HE CAN DRIVE TO MEET ME. 815 00:38:01,689 --> 00:38:05,034 BUT I KNOW ALL THESE PLANS DEPEND ON ME STAYING ON TRACK 816 00:38:05,034 --> 00:38:08,068 AND LOSING THE WEIGHT I'M SUPPOSED TO BE LOSING 817 00:38:08,068 --> 00:38:12,551 SO THAT DR. NOW WILL KEEP WORKING WITH ME. 818 00:38:12,551 --> 00:38:14,965 I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO BACK TO HOUSTON HERE SOON 819 00:38:14,965 --> 00:38:17,551 FOR MY FOUR MONTH FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT, 820 00:38:17,551 --> 00:38:19,758 BUT I HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT MY TRAVEL DAY YET, 821 00:38:19,758 --> 00:38:23,034 SO I ASKED HIM FOR MORE TIME. 822 00:38:23,034 --> 00:38:24,862 AND HE SAID I NEED TO MAKE IT BACK SOON 823 00:38:24,862 --> 00:38:27,931 SO HE CAN SEE HOW I'M DOING. 824 00:38:27,931 --> 00:38:31,448 BUT IN THE MEANTIME, HE NEEDS TO KNOW MY WEIGHT. 825 00:38:31,448 --> 00:38:34,310 SO HE SENT ME A PORTABLE LARGE-CAPACITY SCALE 826 00:38:34,310 --> 00:38:39,379 THAT'S SUPPOSED TO GO HIGH ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO WEIGH ME. 827 00:38:39,379 --> 00:38:41,275 AND DR. NOW SAID THAT HE WANTS ME 828 00:38:41,275 --> 00:38:44,965 TO BE LOSING 25 POUNDS A MONTH, 829 00:38:44,965 --> 00:38:48,275 WHICH IS WHAT I WAS LOSING IN HOUSTON. 830 00:38:48,275 --> 00:38:52,103 AND THE LAST TIME I WAS WEIGHED, I WAS 423. 831 00:38:52,103 --> 00:38:54,931 SO THAT MEANS I SHOULD'VE LOST 100 POUNDS 832 00:38:54,931 --> 00:38:57,137 TO GET BELOW 323 TODAY. 833 00:38:57,137 --> 00:39:02,517 ♪♪ 834 00:39:02,517 --> 00:39:05,137 I DON'T THINK THAT'S BAD. 835 00:39:05,137 --> 00:39:08,241 IT MEANS I'M STILL MAKING PROGRESS, 836 00:39:08,241 --> 00:39:12,965 AND I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I WAS UNDER 400. 837 00:39:12,965 --> 00:39:15,965 IT'S NOT AS MUCH AS DR. NOW WANTED ME TO BE MAKING, 838 00:39:15,965 --> 00:39:20,758 BUT I'M HOPING MY LOSS IS GOOD ENOUGH TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD 839 00:39:20,758 --> 00:39:23,862 BECAUSE ALL OUR PLANS AND EVERYTHING I REALLY WANT 840 00:39:23,862 --> 00:39:26,275 DEPEND ON THAT. 841 00:39:26,275 --> 00:39:29,344 I HAVE A VIDEO-CALL APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW TOMORROW 842 00:39:29,344 --> 00:39:31,655 AND I'M HOPING THAT WHEN I TELL HIM MY PROGRESS 843 00:39:31,655 --> 00:39:33,586 HE'S AS HAPPY AS I AM. 844 00:39:33,586 --> 00:39:38,724 ♪♪ 845 00:39:38,724 --> 00:39:43,896 ♪♪ 846 00:39:43,896 --> 00:39:46,482 TODAY, I'M HAVING A VIDEO CALL WITH DR. NOW 847 00:39:46,482 --> 00:39:49,551 AND I FEEL EXTREMELY NERVOUS. 848 00:39:49,551 --> 00:39:52,586 I'M ALWAYS NERVOUS TO TALK TO THE DOC. 849 00:39:52,586 --> 00:39:55,034 I LOVE IT WHEN HE'S PROUD OF ME, BUT IT'S HARD TO HEAR 850 00:39:55,034 --> 00:39:57,482 WHEN HE'S DISAPPOINTED. 851 00:39:57,482 --> 00:39:58,931 WHAT DO YOU USUALLY EAT? 852 00:39:58,931 --> 00:40:02,068 A LOT OF CARBS AND SUGAR, ALL DAY EVERY DAY. 853 00:40:02,068 --> 00:40:05,379 AND SO WHY ARE YOU DOING THAT IF IT'S KILLING YOU? 854 00:40:05,379 --> 00:40:07,689 I'M A HARDCORE FOOD ADDICT. 855 00:40:07,689 --> 00:40:09,482 IT'S OUT OF CONTROL. 856 00:40:09,482 --> 00:40:10,758 WHAT DO YOU MEAN OUT OF CONTROL? 857 00:40:10,758 --> 00:40:12,275 THIS IS A CHOICE YOU'RE MAKING. 858 00:40:12,275 --> 00:40:13,758 I KNOW IT IS. 859 00:40:13,758 --> 00:40:15,275 WHAT DO YOU MEAN OUT OF CONTROL? 860 00:40:15,275 --> 00:40:17,379 FOOD ADDICTION IS A CHOICE, AND IF SHE DON'T WANT TO BE 861 00:40:17,379 --> 00:40:20,482 600 POUNDS, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO MAKE THE CHANGES. 862 00:40:20,482 --> 00:40:24,275 AND IT'S BEEN FOUR MONTHS SINCE I'VE SEEN HIM. 863 00:40:24,275 --> 00:40:28,793 AND I KNOW I HAVEN'T HIT THE GOAL HE WANTED FOR ME. 864 00:40:28,793 --> 00:40:30,896 BUT I'M HOPING HE'S PROUD OF ME FOR THE FACT 865 00:40:30,896 --> 00:40:32,827 THAT I'M LOSING WEIGHT HERE IN CALIFORNIA 866 00:40:32,827 --> 00:40:36,172 AND I'M DOING A LOT BETTER. 867 00:40:36,172 --> 00:40:39,344 ALL THE JUNK FOOD IS OUT OF THE HOUSE AND I'M EXERCISING 868 00:40:39,344 --> 00:40:43,482 LIKE A BEAST AND FOLLOWING THE DIET PERFECTLY. 869 00:40:43,482 --> 00:40:45,655 BUT I'LL GUESS WE'LL SEE WHAT HE HAS TO SAY. 870 00:40:45,655 --> 00:40:49,655 ♪♪ 871 00:40:49,655 --> 00:40:51,241 Dr. Nowzaradan: Hi, Erica. 872 00:40:51,241 --> 00:40:53,103 HI DR. NOW, HOW ARE YOU? 873 00:40:53,103 --> 00:40:54,689 I'm doing okay, how about you? 874 00:40:54,689 --> 00:40:56,344 I'M GOOD, THANKS. 875 00:40:56,344 --> 00:40:57,586 So you're doing well? 876 00:40:57,586 --> 00:41:00,034 WELL, I'VE BEEN CONSISTENTLY LOSING. 877 00:41:00,034 --> 00:41:02,275 What is your weight now? 878 00:41:02,275 --> 00:41:04,931 IT'S NOT AS MUCH AS YOU WANTED, BUT I'M DOWN TO 361, 879 00:41:04,931 --> 00:41:09,206 SO THAT'S A 62 POUND WEIGHT LOSS SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT. 880 00:41:09,206 --> 00:41:11,793 62 pound weight loss isn't bad. 881 00:41:11,793 --> 00:41:14,862 It is a little bit over 15 pounds a month, 882 00:41:14,862 --> 00:41:17,000 but you should have lost more than that. 883 00:41:17,000 --> 00:41:19,206 So what's going on with the eating habits? 884 00:41:19,206 --> 00:41:21,862 HAD A COUPLE OF ROUGH MONTHS WHERE I'VE SLIPPED UP 885 00:41:21,862 --> 00:41:23,931 AND COULDN'T KEEP MY EMOTIONS IN CHECK, 886 00:41:23,931 --> 00:41:25,896 BUT I WOULD ALWAYS GET RIGHT BACK ON TRACK. 887 00:41:25,896 --> 00:41:28,034 BUT ANY TIME THAT I DID SLIP UP, 888 00:41:28,034 --> 00:41:30,793 IT USUALLY WAS THE CARBS THAT GOT ME. 889 00:41:30,793 --> 00:41:34,103 BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY ON TRACK. 890 00:41:34,103 --> 00:41:36,034 I'M DOING EVERYTHING PERFECTLY 891 00:41:36,034 --> 00:41:38,448 AND I'M EXERCISING FIVE DAYS A WEEK. 892 00:41:38,448 --> 00:41:42,034 Well, you do realize that you're down to 361, 893 00:41:42,034 --> 00:41:44,931 That's exactly 300 pound weight loss. 894 00:41:44,931 --> 00:41:47,862 SO THAT IS A BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT. 895 00:41:47,862 --> 00:41:51,137 Any extra skin is an issue for you? 896 00:41:51,137 --> 00:41:55,965 THE LYMPHEDEMA MASSES ARE A VERY SERIOUS ISSUE RIGHT NOW 897 00:41:55,965 --> 00:41:57,482 AND VERY HEAVY. 898 00:41:57,482 --> 00:42:02,310 AND THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE ABDOMEN IS SAGGING 899 00:42:02,310 --> 00:42:03,689 ALL THE WAY TO THE KNEES. 900 00:42:03,689 --> 00:42:05,206 Okay. 901 00:42:05,206 --> 00:42:07,448 Maybe I can take a look at your skin and your abdomen. 902 00:42:07,448 --> 00:42:08,758 OKAY. 903 00:42:08,758 --> 00:42:11,379 DID YOU WANT TO SEE THE LYMPHEDEMA MASSES, TOO? 904 00:42:11,379 --> 00:42:12,344 Sure. 905 00:42:12,344 --> 00:42:13,689 Let me see how everything looks. 906 00:42:13,689 --> 00:42:15,103 OKAY. 907 00:42:17,000 --> 00:42:23,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 908 00:42:27,206 --> 00:42:29,862 You need to lose a little bit more before you're ready 909 00:42:29,862 --> 00:42:32,379 to have any of that removed. 910 00:42:32,379 --> 00:42:35,172 So let me see that lymphedema in the leg. 911 00:42:40,379 --> 00:42:41,862 All right. 912 00:42:41,862 --> 00:42:43,241 THEN THERE'S ANOTHER ONE ON THE BACK 913 00:42:43,241 --> 00:42:45,965 OF THE LEFT LEG, RIGHT THERE, SEE? 914 00:42:45,965 --> 00:42:48,275 Yeah, I think taking out those masses 915 00:42:48,275 --> 00:42:51,448 on the leg will be the first thing to do. 916 00:42:51,448 --> 00:42:55,931 And once your weight down to around 300, then taking off 917 00:42:55,931 --> 00:42:59,551 That skin in the abdomen is gonna help you out. 918 00:42:59,551 --> 00:43:01,965 That's gonna be about 40, 50 pound 919 00:43:01,965 --> 00:43:03,310 of the skin coming 920 00:43:03,310 --> 00:43:04,379 off of that, 921 00:43:04,379 --> 00:43:06,586 and that's gonna be really helpful 922 00:43:06,586 --> 00:43:11,724 to get some weight off of you and increase your mobility 923 00:43:11,724 --> 00:43:16,931 and perhaps help you to stay more on track 924 00:43:16,931 --> 00:43:18,379 and try to lose more weight. 925 00:43:18,379 --> 00:43:22,448 But lymphedema will probably be 5 to 10 pounds. 926 00:43:22,448 --> 00:43:24,965 But it'll be most beneficial for you because of where 927 00:43:24,965 --> 00:43:28,827 it pulls on you, making it difficult to get around. 928 00:43:28,827 --> 00:43:30,965 YES, I THINK SO, TOO. 929 00:43:30,965 --> 00:43:34,379 So what is the hold up from coming to Texas? 930 00:43:34,379 --> 00:43:36,793 You were supposed to be back here right now 931 00:43:36,793 --> 00:43:38,310 for your appointment. 932 00:43:38,310 --> 00:43:42,310 I WAS ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT MAYBE MOVING THERE. 933 00:43:42,310 --> 00:43:44,379 I THINK IT WOULD BE REALLY GOOD FOR ME 934 00:43:44,379 --> 00:43:47,655 AND BENEFICIAL FOR ME TO BE AS CLOSE TO YOU AS POSSIBLE. 935 00:43:47,655 --> 00:43:49,000 I agree so. 936 00:43:49,000 --> 00:43:53,310 That's gonna be a good thing for you 'cause you're gonna be 937 00:43:53,310 --> 00:43:57,551 away from the environment that got you to be 600 pounds. 938 00:43:57,551 --> 00:44:00,000 Just seems like you're getting more independent, 939 00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:03,275 and you can handle it on your own. 940 00:44:03,275 --> 00:44:05,862 WELL, ACTUALLY, DR. NOW, I WOULDN'T BE BY MYSELF. 941 00:44:05,862 --> 00:44:08,103 I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. 942 00:44:08,103 --> 00:44:09,379 okay. 943 00:44:09,379 --> 00:44:11,620 That's even better, okay. 944 00:44:11,620 --> 00:44:13,172 [ LAUGHS ] 945 00:44:13,172 --> 00:44:16,275 By all means, you and your boyfriend can come to Texas 946 00:44:16,275 --> 00:44:20,000 and stick with the program and make your life even better. 947 00:44:20,000 --> 00:44:23,931 YOU'RE READY TO SEE ME NOW FOR THE RIGHT LEG 948 00:44:23,931 --> 00:44:26,206 LYMPHEDEMA MASS REMOVAL? 949 00:44:26,206 --> 00:44:27,344 Yes. 950 00:44:27,344 --> 00:44:28,620 OKAY. 951 00:44:28,620 --> 00:44:29,896 I'm glad to hear from you 952 00:44:29,896 --> 00:44:33,275 and I hope we'll see you in Texas soon. 953 00:44:33,275 --> 00:44:34,793 OKAY, DR. NOW. 954 00:44:34,793 --> 00:44:37,034 IT WAS GREAT TALKING TO YOU AND I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 955 00:44:37,034 --> 00:44:38,103 All right, you take care. 956 00:44:38,103 --> 00:44:39,655 YOU, TOO. THANK YOU. 957 00:44:39,655 --> 00:44:42,827 -Bye-bye. -BYE. 958 00:44:42,827 --> 00:44:44,758 HOLY CATFISH. 959 00:44:44,758 --> 00:44:47,965 THAT'S HUGE. 960 00:44:47,965 --> 00:44:52,172 Erica: I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 961 00:44:52,172 --> 00:44:53,965 TO HEAR THAT I'M PRETTY MUCH APPROVED 962 00:44:53,965 --> 00:44:57,068 AT THIS POINT IS INCREDIBLE NEWS 963 00:44:57,068 --> 00:44:59,206 AND I CAN'T WAIT TO TELL JIMMY ABOUT IT 964 00:44:59,206 --> 00:45:02,310 BECAUSE WE NEED TO HURRY UP AND MOVE TO HOUSTON 965 00:45:02,310 --> 00:45:06,206 BECAUSE I WANT THIS LYMPHEDEMA OFF AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. 966 00:45:06,206 --> 00:45:07,310 ♪♪ 967 00:45:11,206 --> 00:45:19,172 ♪♪ 968 00:45:19,172 --> 00:45:27,241 ♪♪ 969 00:45:27,241 --> 00:45:30,827 Erica: TODAY, MY BOYFRIEND JIMMY IS COMING TO VISIT ME. 970 00:45:30,827 --> 00:45:33,482 ONCE HE GOT TIME OFF OF WORK, 971 00:45:33,482 --> 00:45:35,965 HE DROVE ALL THE WAY FROM WYOMING, 972 00:45:35,965 --> 00:45:37,965 PRETTY MUCH STRAIGHT THROUGH, 973 00:45:37,965 --> 00:45:41,241 TO GET HERE AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. 974 00:45:41,241 --> 00:45:43,827 I'M WORKING TO MY GOAL AS FAST AS I CAN 975 00:45:43,827 --> 00:45:47,758 AND I'M STILL ON A GOOD TRAJECTORY. 976 00:45:47,758 --> 00:45:51,689 AND I LOST ANOTHER 32 POUNDS OVER THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS 977 00:45:51,689 --> 00:45:55,448 AND I HAD ANOTHER CALL WITH DR. NOW WHERE I TOLD HIM 978 00:45:55,448 --> 00:45:58,551 I WAS DOWN TO 329. 979 00:45:58,551 --> 00:46:01,862 HE'S GLAD I'M STILL LOSING, BUT HE SAYS I NEED TO WORK 980 00:46:01,862 --> 00:46:04,275 TO GET BACK TO HOUSTON. 981 00:46:04,275 --> 00:46:06,517 SO ME AND JIMMY, WE'RE GETTING EVERYTHING IN PLACE 982 00:46:06,517 --> 00:46:10,586 TO MOVE DOWN THERE TOGETHER IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS 983 00:46:10,586 --> 00:46:12,965 SO I CAN GET SURGERY AND KEEP GETTING EVEN CLOSER 984 00:46:12,965 --> 00:46:14,724 TO MY TARGET WEIGHT. 985 00:46:14,724 --> 00:46:18,034 SO THERE'S A LOT WE HAVE PLANNED. 986 00:46:18,034 --> 00:46:21,586 BUT THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT IS REALLY SCARED 987 00:46:21,586 --> 00:46:24,206 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN OVER 20 YEARS SINCE I'VE SEEN HIM 988 00:46:24,206 --> 00:46:26,448 AND IT'S HARD NOT TO HAVE THAT INSECURITY 989 00:46:26,448 --> 00:46:29,655 ABOUT HOW BIG I'VE BEEN. 990 00:46:29,655 --> 00:46:33,862 AND THE WORST-CASE SCENARIO IS THAT JIMMY WILL WALK IN 991 00:46:33,862 --> 00:46:36,724 AND LOOK AT ME 992 00:46:36,724 --> 00:46:39,275 AND ALL OF THE SELF DESTRUCTION THAT HAS OCCURRED 993 00:46:39,275 --> 00:46:43,551 FROM THE MASSIVE WEIGHT GAIN AND NOW MASSIVE WEIGHT LOSS 994 00:46:43,551 --> 00:46:46,413 AND MAYBE TURN RIGHT BACK AROUND 995 00:46:46,413 --> 00:46:48,758 AND WALK BACK OUT THE DOOR, GET IN HIS CAR, AND LEAVE, 996 00:46:48,758 --> 00:46:52,689 AND NEVER SEE OR TALK TO HIM AGAIN. 997 00:46:52,689 --> 00:46:54,689 AND I'M DEFINITELY FEELING THE NERVES. 998 00:46:54,689 --> 00:46:56,965 [ KNOCKING ON DOOR ] 999 00:46:56,965 --> 00:47:00,793 BUT THE JOY AND THE HAPPINESS AND THE EXCITEMENT IS 1000 00:47:00,793 --> 00:47:02,965 MORE POWERFUL THAN THE NERVES. 1001 00:47:02,965 --> 00:47:04,793 [ KNOCKING ON DOOR ] 1002 00:47:04,793 --> 00:47:08,206 ♪♪ 1003 00:47:08,206 --> 00:47:09,206 [ LAUGHS ] 1004 00:47:09,206 --> 00:47:10,620 Jimmy: HI! 1005 00:47:10,620 --> 00:47:11,931 IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU, BABE. 1006 00:47:11,931 --> 00:47:13,172 YOU TOO, BABE. 1007 00:47:13,172 --> 00:47:14,551 [ KISSING ] 1008 00:47:19,931 --> 00:47:21,172 HOW WAS YOUR DRIVE? 1009 00:47:21,172 --> 00:47:22,068 LONG. 1010 00:47:22,068 --> 00:47:23,241 LONG? 1011 00:47:23,241 --> 00:47:24,103 MM-HMM, BUT WORTH IT. 1012 00:47:24,103 --> 00:47:25,241 -WORTH IT? -MM-HMM. 1013 00:47:25,241 --> 00:47:27,275 HMM. 1014 00:47:27,275 --> 00:47:28,275 OKAY. 1015 00:47:28,275 --> 00:47:33,241 SHUT THE DOOR, LET'S HAVE A SEAT. 1016 00:47:33,241 --> 00:47:34,862 I LIKE YOUR PLACE. 1017 00:47:34,862 --> 00:47:38,931 -THANKS. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 1018 00:47:38,931 --> 00:47:41,482 COME SIT NEXT TO ME. 1019 00:47:41,482 --> 00:47:43,241 LET'S GET CLOSE. 1020 00:47:43,241 --> 00:47:45,068 AND COZY. 1021 00:47:45,068 --> 00:47:47,241 [ SIGHING ] 1022 00:47:48,758 --> 00:47:50,724 I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE HERE. 1023 00:47:50,724 --> 00:47:52,655 IT'S BEEN 20 YEARS SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU. 1024 00:47:52,655 --> 00:47:54,137 YOU LOOK THE SAME. 1025 00:47:54,137 --> 00:47:56,241 THANKS. 1026 00:47:56,241 --> 00:47:59,068 -STILL PERFECT. -IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU, TOO. 1027 00:47:59,068 --> 00:48:03,379 I'M SO HAPPY THAT I WAS BRAVE ENOUGH TO FIND YOU NOW 1028 00:48:03,379 --> 00:48:07,482 BECAUSE IF I WOULD'VE TRIED TO FIND YOU A YEAR AGO, 1029 00:48:07,482 --> 00:48:10,413 I DON'T THINK THAT IT WOULD'VE GONE SO WELL, 1030 00:48:10,413 --> 00:48:12,689 'CAUSE I WAS ALMOST... 1031 00:48:12,689 --> 00:48:15,000 PRETTY MUCH... 1032 00:48:15,000 --> 00:48:16,655 DEAD. 1033 00:48:16,655 --> 00:48:18,517 PRETTY CLOSE. 1034 00:48:18,517 --> 00:48:19,448 YEAH. 1035 00:48:19,448 --> 00:48:20,965 WELL, I'M GLAD YOU'RE NOT. 1036 00:48:20,965 --> 00:48:23,344 YOU DESERVE THE VERY BEST OUT OF ME. 1037 00:48:23,344 --> 00:48:25,724 FROM DAY ONE. 1038 00:48:25,724 --> 00:48:27,931 AND THAT'S WHAT I WANT TO GIVE YOU. 1039 00:48:27,931 --> 00:48:31,275 SO, THERE'S NO WAY I COULD'VE DONE THIS A YEAR AGO. 1040 00:48:31,275 --> 00:48:33,965 BUT I FEEL LIKE I CAN NOW. 1041 00:48:33,965 --> 00:48:36,482 WELL, I'M HERE TO HELP YOU ACHIEVE THOSE GOALS. 1042 00:48:36,482 --> 00:48:37,793 THANK YOU. 1043 00:48:37,793 --> 00:48:39,000 MM-HMM. 1044 00:48:39,000 --> 00:48:39,965 GET TO THE FINISH LINE TOGETHER? 1045 00:48:39,965 --> 00:48:41,517 OH, YEAH. 1046 00:48:41,517 --> 00:48:42,586 YOU ARE MY FINISH LINE. 1047 00:48:42,586 --> 00:48:44,551 -I AM YOUR FINISH LINE. -YOU ARE. 1048 00:48:44,551 --> 00:48:47,172 YOU SO WANT TO KISS ME RIGHT NOW, DON'T YOU? 1049 00:48:47,172 --> 00:48:47,931 I DO. 1050 00:48:47,931 --> 00:48:49,931 MM-KAY, WELL GO FOR IT. 1051 00:48:49,931 --> 00:48:51,413 [ KISSING ] 1052 00:48:54,862 --> 00:48:58,793 [ SIGHING ] 1053 00:48:58,793 --> 00:49:01,413 I JUST CAN'T STOP LOOKING AT HIM. 1054 00:49:01,413 --> 00:49:03,827 I HAVEN'T SEEN HIM IN 20 YEARS. 1055 00:49:03,827 --> 00:49:06,172 I CAN TELL YOU WHEN HE HOLDS ME OR HUGS ME, 1056 00:49:06,172 --> 00:49:11,275 I NEVER HAVE EVER FELT MORE SECURE AND SAFE 1057 00:49:11,275 --> 00:49:14,034 AND JUST AT EASE 1058 00:49:14,034 --> 00:49:19,241 AND RELAXED AND COMFORTABLE, LIKE IT'S RIGHT. 1059 00:49:19,241 --> 00:49:24,758 BUT I KNOW THERE'S A LONG WAYS TO GO BEFORE I'M PHYSICALLY 1060 00:49:24,758 --> 00:49:27,206 WHERE I WANT TO BE WITH MY APPEARANCE 1061 00:49:27,206 --> 00:49:28,827 AND THAT KIND OF STUFF. 1062 00:49:28,827 --> 00:49:32,275 BUT AS FAR AS MY HEART IS CONCERNED, 1063 00:49:32,275 --> 00:49:35,931 AND THE LOVE THAT I CAN GIVE HIM, 1064 00:49:35,931 --> 00:49:38,068 WHICH SHOULD BE THE MOST IMPORTANT THING ANYWAY 1065 00:49:38,068 --> 00:49:39,965 IN A RELATIONSHIP, AND THE RESPECT 1066 00:49:39,965 --> 00:49:45,000 THAT I CAN GIVE HIM, THAT IS AT ITS HIGHEST LEVEL. 1067 00:49:45,000 --> 00:49:48,517 SO, AS FAR AS I'M CONCERNED, IT'S THE PERFECT TIME, 1068 00:49:48,517 --> 00:49:51,896 BECAUSE I'VE NEVER FELT STRONGER AND MORE MOTIVATED 1069 00:49:51,896 --> 00:49:53,827 AND MORE DETERMINED. 1070 00:49:53,827 --> 00:49:58,275 EVERYTHING ELSE THAT HAS TO DO WITH THE PHYSICAL PART OF IT, 1071 00:49:58,275 --> 00:50:01,655 I HAVE A FEELING HE IS STRONG ENOUGH AND THAT HE'S 1072 00:50:01,655 --> 00:50:05,103 GONNA SEE ME TO THE FINISH LINE, 1073 00:50:05,103 --> 00:50:09,379 'CAUSE HE'S MY SOLDIER, AND THAT'S WHAT SOLDIERS DO. 1074 00:50:09,379 --> 00:50:12,448 SO, HOPEFULLY HERE SOON, WE CAN MOVE TO HOUSTON 1075 00:50:12,448 --> 00:50:14,827 SO I CAN GET SURGERY AND ME AND JIMMY CAN START 1076 00:50:14,827 --> 00:50:16,655 OUR NEW LIFE TOGETHER. 1077 00:50:16,655 --> 00:50:24,896 ♪♪ 1078 00:50:24,896 --> 00:50:33,137 ♪♪ 1079 00:50:33,137 --> 00:50:36,344 TODAY, JIMMY AND I ARE PACKING UP AND GETTING READY 1080 00:50:36,344 --> 00:50:40,448 TO DRIVE TO HOUSTON TO SEE DR. NOW. 1081 00:50:40,448 --> 00:50:44,965 BUT INSTEAD OF FLYING DOWN, JIMMY'S GONNA DRIVE ME THERE. 1082 00:50:44,965 --> 00:50:47,379 AND EVERY OTHER TIME I'VE GONE TO HOUSTON, 1083 00:50:47,379 --> 00:50:50,137 I'VE ALWAYS FLOWN BACK AND FORTH. 1084 00:50:50,137 --> 00:50:53,931 BUT THIS TRIP, FOR THE FIRST SKIN SURGERY, 1085 00:50:53,931 --> 00:50:57,310 WE'RE GONNA BE THERE ABOUT A MONTH, JIMMY AND I. 1086 00:50:57,310 --> 00:51:01,344 NOW WE'RE DRIVING SO THAT JIMMY HAS HIS VEHICLE WITH HIM 1087 00:51:01,344 --> 00:51:04,413 TO GO OUT AND LOOK FOR WORK AND A PLACE TO LIVE FOR US 1088 00:51:04,413 --> 00:51:09,241 BECAUSE DR. NOW WOULD LIKE US TO MOVE-MOVE TO HOUSTON 1089 00:51:09,241 --> 00:51:11,965 AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. 1090 00:51:11,965 --> 00:51:15,482 SO WE NEED THE CAR IN HOUSTON TO CHECK THINGS OUT 1091 00:51:15,482 --> 00:51:20,206 AND TO SEE IF EVERYTHING'S GONNA WORK FOR US TO DO THAT. 1092 00:51:20,206 --> 00:51:22,034 SO, THIS WILL BE THE FIRST TIME IN MANY, MANY, 1093 00:51:22,034 --> 00:51:25,862 MANY YEARS THAT I'VE DONE A ROAD TRIP LIKE THIS. 1094 00:51:25,862 --> 00:51:28,241 AND IT'S REALLY EXCITING. 1095 00:51:28,241 --> 00:51:29,965 AND IF IT WAS THIS TIME LAST YEAR, 1096 00:51:29,965 --> 00:51:33,241 I WOULDN'T BE LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AT ALL 1097 00:51:33,241 --> 00:51:36,551 BECAUSE I COULD ONLY FIT IN THE BACK OF A VEHICLE. 1098 00:51:36,551 --> 00:51:37,689 JUST GET IN. 1099 00:51:37,689 --> 00:51:40,965 [BLEEP], [BLEEP] 1100 00:51:40,965 --> 00:51:43,758 [ GROANING ] 1101 00:51:43,758 --> 00:51:44,448 GET YOUR FOOT IN. 1102 00:51:44,448 --> 00:51:46,655 I C-- 1103 00:51:46,655 --> 00:51:49,137 I'M GONNA -- OW! 1104 00:51:49,137 --> 00:51:50,965 KEEP GOING. 1105 00:51:50,965 --> 00:51:54,413 [ GROANING ] 1106 00:51:54,413 --> 00:51:57,137 BUT WITH WHERE I'M AT NOW AND HOW MUCH WEIGHT I'VE LOST, 1107 00:51:57,137 --> 00:51:58,896 I CAN SIT UP FRONT AND I CAN HAVE 1108 00:51:58,896 --> 00:52:01,896 THIS ADVENTURE WITH JIMMY. 1109 00:52:01,896 --> 00:52:03,379 YOU ALL PACKED? 1110 00:52:03,379 --> 00:52:04,862 JUST ABOUT. 1111 00:52:04,862 --> 00:52:07,206 THIS IS ALL YOU HAVE AND I HAVE LIKE 10 BAGS. 1112 00:52:07,206 --> 00:52:08,620 UH-HUH. 1113 00:52:08,620 --> 00:52:10,793 YOU'RE A TRICK, HUH? 1114 00:52:10,793 --> 00:52:11,931 ARE YOU NERVOUS ABOUT ME-- 1115 00:52:11,931 --> 00:52:13,379 YOU'RE NERVOUS ENOUGH FOR BOTH OF US. 1116 00:52:13,379 --> 00:52:14,862 YES. 1117 00:52:14,862 --> 00:52:17,137 YOU NERVOUS ABOUT ME HAVING SURGERY? 1118 00:52:17,137 --> 00:52:19,448 YES. 1119 00:52:19,448 --> 00:52:21,344 BUT YOU'LL BE ALL RIGHT. 1120 00:52:21,344 --> 00:52:22,896 BUT YOU KNOW I'M IN GOOD HANDS WITH DR. NOW? 1121 00:52:22,896 --> 00:52:24,448 YES. 1122 00:52:24,448 --> 00:52:26,310 SO I'M IN YOUR HANDS, WHICH ARE GOOD HANDS, 1123 00:52:26,310 --> 00:52:28,758 AND THEN I'M IN DR. NOW'S HANDS, WHICH ARE-- 1124 00:52:28,758 --> 00:52:29,724 CORRECT. 1125 00:52:29,724 --> 00:52:32,862 SO, I'LL BE FINE. 1126 00:52:32,862 --> 00:52:34,206 [ KISSING ] 1127 00:52:34,206 --> 00:52:36,379 I'M GONNA GO PUT MY SHOES ON AND THEN WE'LL BE READY TO GO. 1128 00:52:36,379 --> 00:52:37,965 SWEET. 1129 00:52:37,965 --> 00:52:39,413 JUST LIKE YOU. 1130 00:52:39,413 --> 00:52:41,172 CLOSER. 1131 00:52:41,172 --> 00:52:42,586 [ KISSING ] 1132 00:52:42,586 --> 00:52:46,344 AFTER JIMMY DROVE DOWN LAST TIME, HE STAYED FOR A WEEK, 1133 00:52:46,344 --> 00:52:48,827 AND IT WASN'T LONG ENOUGH FOR ME, 1134 00:52:48,827 --> 00:52:51,758 BUT HE HAD TO GO BACK BECAUSE OF WORK. 1135 00:52:51,758 --> 00:52:53,517 AND TO KEEP GETTING EVERYTHING SET UP 1136 00:52:53,517 --> 00:52:56,758 FOR US BOTH TO BE ABLE TO MOVE TO HOUSTON. 1137 00:52:56,758 --> 00:52:58,620 SO, HE'S BEEN WORKING ON WHAT HE NEEDS, 1138 00:52:58,620 --> 00:53:01,448 AND I'VE BEEN GETTING READY TO MOVE EVERYTHING I OWN 1139 00:53:01,448 --> 00:53:05,000 TO HOUSTON BECAUSE I'M NOT MAKING THE SAME MISTAKES 1140 00:53:05,000 --> 00:53:08,517 THIS TIME THAT I DID LAST TIME. 1141 00:53:08,517 --> 00:53:12,000 WHICH MEANS GIVING UP MY APARTMENT, LEAVING CALIFORNIA, 1142 00:53:12,000 --> 00:53:16,344 BUT IT'S NECESSARY BECAUSE THIS TIME I'M NOT MAKING 1143 00:53:16,344 --> 00:53:19,482 DECISIONS BASED OUT OF FEAR. 1144 00:53:19,482 --> 00:53:22,724 BECAUSE THERE'S A WHOLE NEW LIFE WAITING FOR ME, 1145 00:53:22,724 --> 00:53:26,517 AND RIGHT NOW, I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO GET THERE. 1146 00:53:26,517 --> 00:53:28,724 AND I KNOW THAT THE ONLY THING THAT'S GOING 1147 00:53:28,724 --> 00:53:33,689 TO BE HOLDING ME BACK IS MY WEIGHT AND FINISHING MY JOURNEY 1148 00:53:33,689 --> 00:53:37,793 BECAUSE SOMEDAY I WANT TO GET MARRIED AND HAVE A FAMILY. 1149 00:53:37,793 --> 00:53:41,172 AND I'D GOTTEN TO THE POINT WHERE I'D GIVEN UP ON THAT. 1150 00:53:41,172 --> 00:53:43,827 I COULDN'T EVEN GO TO HOUSTON WITHOUT MY SISTER DOING 1151 00:53:43,827 --> 00:53:46,586 EVERYTHING AND THAT WAS DESTROYING OUR RELATIONSHIP 1152 00:53:46,586 --> 00:53:50,827 BECAUSE ALL WE DID WAS FIGHT ALL THE TIME. 1153 00:53:50,827 --> 00:53:53,413 SO I WANT TO HIT MY TARGET AS SOON AS I CAN 1154 00:53:53,413 --> 00:53:56,172 SO I CAN MOVE AHEAD WITH MY LIFE 1155 00:53:56,172 --> 00:54:00,586 WITHOUT BEING INSECURE ABOUT MY BODY AT ALL. 1156 00:54:00,586 --> 00:54:04,620 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HOLD ANYTHING BACK WITH JIMMY. 1157 00:54:04,620 --> 00:54:07,000 BUT I NEED TO GET TO MY TARGET BEFORE I CAN FEEL 1158 00:54:07,000 --> 00:54:11,517 LIKE I CAN TRULY DO THAT AND JUST BE WITH HIM. 1159 00:54:11,517 --> 00:54:14,172 SO THE NEXT BIG STEP FOR ME TO DO THAT IS TO HAVE 1160 00:54:14,172 --> 00:54:16,724 MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVAL. 1161 00:54:16,724 --> 00:54:18,482 AND I'M HOPING WHEN I GET TO HOUSTON 1162 00:54:18,482 --> 00:54:22,172 THAT THERE ARE NO ISSUES WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS. 1163 00:54:22,172 --> 00:54:25,413 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO STOP ME FROM BEING ABLE 1164 00:54:25,413 --> 00:54:29,137 TO GET TO THE LIFE I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO. 1165 00:54:29,137 --> 00:54:31,517 ESPECIALLY BEING SO CLOSE TO BEING THERE. 1166 00:54:31,517 --> 00:54:33,551 ♪♪ 1167 00:54:40,344 --> 00:54:45,689 ♪♪ 1168 00:54:45,689 --> 00:54:51,137 ♪♪ 1169 00:54:51,137 --> 00:54:54,310 Erica: IT WAS A LONG DRIVE, BUT AFTER THREE DAYS ON THE ROAD, 1170 00:54:54,310 --> 00:54:56,896 WE FINALLY MADE IT TO HOUSTON. 1171 00:54:56,896 --> 00:55:00,758 BUT THIS TRIP WOULD'VE BEEN IMPOSSIBLE WITHOUT JIMMY. 1172 00:55:00,758 --> 00:55:03,793 I WOULD'VE BEEN ABLE TO FLY, I THINK. 1173 00:55:03,793 --> 00:55:06,448 BUT TO BE ABLE TO DO A ROAD TRIP ALL THE WAY FROM CALIFORNIA 1174 00:55:06,448 --> 00:55:07,931 TO HOUSTON, TEXAS? 1175 00:55:07,931 --> 00:55:09,758 THAT'S QUITE SOMETHING. 1176 00:55:09,758 --> 00:55:14,655 AND I WAS ABLE TO DO IT BECAUSE I HAVE JIMMY 1177 00:55:14,655 --> 00:55:17,862 AS MY SIDEKICK. 1178 00:55:17,862 --> 00:55:19,896 RIGHT? 1179 00:55:19,896 --> 00:55:21,620 BUT WE'VE BEEN HERE FOR ABOUT A WEEK 1180 00:55:21,620 --> 00:55:25,241 AND WE FOUND SOME APARTMENTS THAT ARE GOOD OPTIONS FOR US. 1181 00:55:25,241 --> 00:55:29,379 AND NOW, WE ARE ON OUR WAY TO SEE DR. NOW 1182 00:55:29,379 --> 00:55:33,689 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A VERY LONG TIME. 1183 00:55:33,689 --> 00:55:36,068 AND I'VE BEEN STICKING TO THE PROGRAM AND WORKING OUT 1184 00:55:36,068 --> 00:55:38,034 REALLY, REALLY HARD. 1185 00:55:38,034 --> 00:55:41,103 SO I HOPE MY PROGRESS IS STILL GOOD. 1186 00:55:41,103 --> 00:55:43,448 AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE HIM BUT I'M STILL NERVOUS 1187 00:55:43,448 --> 00:55:45,172 ABOUT WHAT HE COULD SAY. 1188 00:55:45,172 --> 00:55:49,689 ♪♪ 1189 00:55:49,689 --> 00:55:50,827 ERICA WALL. 1190 00:55:50,827 --> 00:55:54,551 ♪♪ 1191 00:55:54,551 --> 00:55:56,758 Erica: I HAD MY LAST VIDEO CALL WITH DR. NOW 1192 00:55:56,758 --> 00:56:00,965 TWO MONTHS AGO AND I WAS DOWN TO 329. 1193 00:56:00,965 --> 00:56:04,724 BUT HE DIDN'T REALLY GIVE ME A GOAL. 1194 00:56:04,724 --> 00:56:06,689 HE JUST WANTED ME TO KEEP LOSING. 1195 00:56:06,689 --> 00:56:10,344 ♪♪ 1196 00:56:10,344 --> 00:56:11,586 GOOD JOB, BABE. 1197 00:56:11,586 --> 00:56:13,931 THANKS, BABE. 1198 00:56:13,931 --> 00:56:15,655 IT'S PRETTY GOOD, HUH? 1199 00:56:15,655 --> 00:56:18,103 ♪♪ 1200 00:56:18,103 --> 00:56:21,655 OH, MY GOSH, THAT'S AMAZING. 1201 00:56:21,655 --> 00:56:25,379 IT IS THE LOWEST THAT I'VE WEIGHED IN A VERY LONG TIME, 1202 00:56:25,379 --> 00:56:28,000 MAYBE 10 TO 15 YEARS. 1203 00:56:28,000 --> 00:56:30,655 BUT I NEVER KNOW WHAT DR. NOW IS GONNA SAY. 1204 00:56:30,655 --> 00:56:33,896 HE MIGHT BE DISAPPOINTED THAT I HAVEN'T LOST 1205 00:56:33,896 --> 00:56:37,068 AS MUCH WEIGHT AS HE WOULD'VE LIKED ME TO, 1206 00:56:37,068 --> 00:56:41,586 OR HE MIGHT BE PROUD OF ME, 'CAUSE MAYBE HE COULD TELL 1207 00:56:41,586 --> 00:56:43,896 THAT I'VE BEEN TRYING REALLY HARD. 1208 00:56:43,896 --> 00:56:48,896 BUT DR. NOW HAD APPROVED ME ON THE VIDEO CHAT FOR SURGERY 1209 00:56:48,896 --> 00:56:51,034 BUT HE WANTED TO SEE ME IN PERSON. 1210 00:56:51,034 --> 00:56:54,413 SO, JUST WONDERING IF IT'S GONNA BE THE SAME ANSWER 1211 00:56:54,413 --> 00:56:55,862 ONCE HE SEES ME. 1212 00:56:55,862 --> 00:56:58,931 ♪♪ 1213 00:56:58,931 --> 00:56:59,931 HELLO. 1214 00:56:59,931 --> 00:57:00,931 HI, DR. NOW. 1215 00:57:00,931 --> 00:57:02,344 HI, ERICA, HOW ARE YOU DOING? 1216 00:57:02,344 --> 00:57:03,586 I'M GOOD, HOW ARE YOU? 1217 00:57:03,586 --> 00:57:05,000 I'M GOOD. 1218 00:57:05,000 --> 00:57:06,172 IT IS GOOD TO SEE YOU. 1219 00:57:06,172 --> 00:57:07,000 THANK YOU. 1220 00:57:07,000 --> 00:57:08,241 WHO'S YOUR FRIEND? 1221 00:57:08,241 --> 00:57:10,413 THIS IS JIMMY, MY BOYFRIEND, DR. NOW. 1222 00:57:10,413 --> 00:57:11,827 DR. NOW, THIS IS JIMMY. 1223 00:57:11,827 --> 00:57:13,172 NICE TO MEET YOU, DOCTOR. 1224 00:57:13,172 --> 00:57:15,344 I'D LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR SAVING MY DARLING'S LIFE. 1225 00:57:15,344 --> 00:57:17,344 OH, YEAH. YOU'RE WELCOME, THAT'S MY JOB. 1226 00:57:17,344 --> 00:57:18,379 [ LAUGHS ] 1227 00:57:18,379 --> 00:57:19,655 OKAY, NICE TO MEET YOU, TOO. 1228 00:57:19,655 --> 00:57:21,758 ALL RIGHT, IT'S BEEN ABOUT EIGHT MONTHS 1229 00:57:21,758 --> 00:57:23,275 SINCE YOU'VE BEEN HERE. 1230 00:57:23,275 --> 00:57:24,482 MM-HMM. 1231 00:57:24,482 --> 00:57:26,517 BUT WE HAD A VIDEO CALL A COUPLE MONTHS AGO 1232 00:57:26,517 --> 00:57:29,137 AND YOU SAID YOU WERE DOWN TO 329 THEN. 1233 00:57:29,137 --> 00:57:31,896 AND NOW, YOUR WEIGHT IS 297. 1234 00:57:31,896 --> 00:57:32,827 YES. 1235 00:57:32,827 --> 00:57:35,103 SO YOU HAVE LOST 126 POUNDS 1236 00:57:35,103 --> 00:57:37,034 SINCE YOU HAVE BEEN IN CALIFORNIA. 1237 00:57:37,034 --> 00:57:38,482 YES. 1238 00:57:38,482 --> 00:57:40,896 AND YOU'VE PRETTY MUCH MAINTAINED 15 POUND A MONTH 1239 00:57:40,896 --> 00:57:43,448 WEIGHT LOSS SINCE YOU MOVED BACK TO CALIFORNIA. 1240 00:57:43,448 --> 00:57:44,724 MM-HMM. 1241 00:57:44,724 --> 00:57:46,034 WHICH ISN'T AS MUCH AS YOU SHOULD BE, 1242 00:57:46,034 --> 00:57:48,137 BUT YOU STAY CONSISTENT. 1243 00:57:48,137 --> 00:57:49,655 AND YOU'RE GETTING TO WHERE YOU NEED, 1244 00:57:49,655 --> 00:57:51,931 SO I THINK THIS IS PRETTY GOOD, 1245 00:57:51,931 --> 00:57:53,931 AND YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY. 1246 00:57:53,931 --> 00:57:55,103 OVER A YEAR AGO, 1247 00:57:55,103 --> 00:57:58,310 YOU WERE DEPENDANT ON EVERYBODY TO HELP YOU. 1248 00:57:58,310 --> 00:57:59,896 Molly: DO YOU WANT THE HEAD UP? 1249 00:57:59,896 --> 00:58:01,896 I GUESS. 1250 00:58:01,896 --> 00:58:04,689 DO YOU WANT THE RAILING DOWN? 1251 00:58:04,689 --> 00:58:08,172 THIS IS WHY I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THIS. 1252 00:58:08,172 --> 00:58:12,000 THEN LET'S GO HOME. 1253 00:58:12,000 --> 00:58:13,551 YOU WANT TO GO HOME? 1254 00:58:13,551 --> 00:58:17,758 BUT DON'T EVER ASK ME TO DO ANYTHING ELSE, EVER. 1255 00:58:17,758 --> 00:58:19,793 I'M DONE WITH THIS CRAP. 1256 00:58:19,793 --> 00:58:22,620 BUT NOW YOU'RE BECOMING INTO SOMEBODY 1257 00:58:22,620 --> 00:58:24,482 REALLY SELF-SUFFICIENT, RIGHT? 1258 00:58:24,482 --> 00:58:25,482 YES. 1259 00:58:25,482 --> 00:58:27,000 AND TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF. 1260 00:58:27,000 --> 00:58:29,344 MUCH MORE INDEPENDENT, MUCH STRONGER EMOTIONALLY, 1261 00:58:29,344 --> 00:58:31,275 MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY, YES. 1262 00:58:31,275 --> 00:58:32,862 HOW IS YOUR LYMPHEDEMA DOING? 1263 00:58:32,862 --> 00:58:36,655 THERE'S TWO LYMPHEDEMA SACS, ONE ON EACH LEG. 1264 00:58:36,655 --> 00:58:41,413 THERE'S THIS ONE ON THE RIGHT, 1265 00:58:41,413 --> 00:58:44,896 AND THEN THERE'S THIS ONE ON THE LEFT. 1266 00:58:44,896 --> 00:58:46,965 OKAY. 1267 00:58:46,965 --> 00:58:50,206 CAN WE TAKE A LOOK AT THE SKIN ON THE ABDOMEN? 1268 00:58:56,000 --> 00:58:59,344 ALL RIGHT, THAT'S A LOT OF EXTRA SKIN, 1269 00:58:59,344 --> 00:59:02,000 BUT IT'S A LOT OF EXTRA FAT AS WELL. 1270 00:59:02,000 --> 00:59:04,172 SO IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR US TO WAIT FOR YOU 1271 00:59:04,172 --> 00:59:07,517 TO LOSE A LITTLE BIT MORE BEFORE WE REMOVE THAT. 1272 00:59:07,517 --> 00:59:12,344 BUT YOUR LYMPHEDEMA IN YOUR RIGHT LEG IS GOING TO BE 1273 00:59:12,344 --> 00:59:15,689 MOST IMPORTANT RIGHT NOW TO TAKE OFF 1274 00:59:15,689 --> 00:59:18,275 BECAUSE THAT IS PULLING ON YOUR KNEE. 1275 00:59:18,275 --> 00:59:20,551 SO WE CAN GO AHEAD AND SET YOU UP 1276 00:59:20,551 --> 00:59:23,344 TO REMOVE THAT MASS IN THE RIGHT LEG, 1277 00:59:23,344 --> 00:59:26,655 AND THEN THE NEXT STEP WILL BE TO TAKE THE MASS OF OFF 1278 00:59:26,655 --> 00:59:29,758 THE LEFT THIGH, AND BY THE TIME WE DO THAT, 1279 00:59:29,758 --> 00:59:33,034 THEY'RE BOTH HEALED, YOU'RE GONNA BE ABLE TO DO MUCH BETTER 1280 00:59:33,034 --> 00:59:35,137 ACTIVITY WITH WALKING AND EXERCISE, 1281 00:59:35,137 --> 00:59:38,379 AND THEN WILL BE YOUR ABDOMEN, WE'LL TAKE THAT OFF. 1282 00:59:38,379 --> 00:59:39,517 OKAY. 1283 00:59:39,517 --> 00:59:41,517 BUT IF YOU HAVEN'T PLANNED TO MOVE HERE YET, 1284 00:59:41,517 --> 00:59:44,827 YOU WILL NEED TO BE HERE FOR THE FIRST PART OF RECOVERY. 1285 00:59:44,827 --> 00:59:46,931 JIMMY AND I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT A LOT, 1286 00:59:46,931 --> 00:59:49,206 WE'RE MOVING DOWN TO HOUSTON IN TWO MONTHS. 1287 00:59:49,206 --> 00:59:52,620 WELL, THAT WILL BE GOOD AND I'M HAPPY FOR YOU. 1288 00:59:52,620 --> 00:59:55,413 ERICA, NICE TO SEE YOU, AND-- 1289 00:59:55,413 --> 00:59:56,344 CAN I GIVE YOU A HUG? 1290 00:59:56,344 --> 00:59:57,793 I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN FOREVER. 1291 00:59:57,793 --> 01:00:00,551 -ALL RIGHT. -THANK YOU. 1292 01:00:00,551 --> 01:00:02,448 ALL RIGHT, NICE TO MEET YOU AGAIN. 1293 01:00:02,448 --> 01:00:03,931 NICE TO MEET YOU TOO, DOCTOR. 1294 01:00:03,931 --> 01:00:05,206 ALL RIGHT I'LL SEE YOU ALL IN THE HOSPITAL, OKAY? 1295 01:00:05,206 --> 01:00:06,172 OKAY. 1296 01:00:06,172 --> 01:00:07,034 ALL RIGHT. 1297 01:00:07,034 --> 01:00:10,034 -THANK YOU. -YOU'RE WELCOME. 1298 01:00:10,034 --> 01:00:13,931 Dr. Nowzaradan: EVEN THOUGH ERICA HASN'T STUCK TO LOSING 25 POUNDS A MONTH, 1299 01:00:13,931 --> 01:00:16,551 I THINK HER PROGRESS HAS BEEN CONSISTENT 1300 01:00:16,551 --> 01:00:18,344 AND SHE'S DONE WELL, 1301 01:00:18,344 --> 01:00:22,517 AND SHE'S BECOMING A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON. 1302 01:00:22,517 --> 01:00:24,965 SHE'S GROWING BECAUSE SHE'S CLEARLY FACING 1303 01:00:24,965 --> 01:00:28,000 AND WORKING THROUGH HER EMOTIONAL ISSUES. 1304 01:00:28,000 --> 01:00:32,517 AND BECAUSE OF THAT, HER LIFE IS IMPROVING IN A NUMBER OF WAYS, 1305 01:00:32,517 --> 01:00:35,275 AND I'M REALLY HAPPY TO SEE THAT SHE HAS SOMEONE 1306 01:00:35,275 --> 01:00:36,793 WHO CAN BE A GREAT SUPPORT 1307 01:00:36,793 --> 01:00:39,413 AND HELP HER TO BE HERE IN HOUSTON. 1308 01:00:39,413 --> 01:00:41,689 SO I AM ENCOURAGED TO SEE ALL THE WAYS 1309 01:00:41,689 --> 01:00:44,068 HER LIFE IS CHANGING FOR THE BETTER. 1310 01:00:44,068 --> 01:00:47,896 ♪♪ 1311 01:00:47,896 --> 01:00:51,068 Erica: I FEEL LIKE I JUST HAD A REALLY GOOD APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, 1312 01:00:51,068 --> 01:00:54,931 AND I'M SUPER STOKED AND SUPER EXCITED. 1313 01:00:54,931 --> 01:00:57,034 HE DID NOT SAY THE WORDS "I'M PROUD OF YOU," 1314 01:00:57,034 --> 01:01:00,448 BUT HE SMILED A LOT AND HE LAUGHED A LITTLE, 1315 01:01:00,448 --> 01:01:02,310 SO THAT'S ALWAYS GOOD, 1316 01:01:02,310 --> 01:01:04,896 AND I'M PRETTY SURE HE IS PROUD OF ME. 1317 01:01:04,896 --> 01:01:07,275 SO, IT WAS A GOOD APPOINTMENT, 1318 01:01:07,275 --> 01:01:10,379 AND I'M REALLY GLAD AND THANKFUL THAT JIMMY'S HERE, 1319 01:01:10,379 --> 01:01:12,379 BECAUSE AS WE GET CLOSER TO THE SURGERY, 1320 01:01:12,379 --> 01:01:16,241 HE'S GONNA BE TAKING MY MIND OFF OF ALL THAT STUFF. 1321 01:01:16,241 --> 01:01:20,551 HE'S KEEPING ME COOL, CALM, AND COLLECTED HOPEFULLY. 1322 01:01:20,551 --> 01:01:29,689 ♪♪ 1323 01:01:29,689 --> 01:01:38,862 ♪♪ 1324 01:01:38,862 --> 01:01:41,586 TODAY, I'M GETTING MY LYMPHEDEMA REMOVED, 1325 01:01:41,586 --> 01:01:44,827 AND I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS RIGHT NOW. 1326 01:01:44,827 --> 01:01:47,689 THE PART THAT MAKES ME NERVOUS IS GOING UNDER, 1327 01:01:47,689 --> 01:01:49,896 'CAUSE ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN, 1328 01:01:49,896 --> 01:01:53,137 BUT MY BOYFRIEND JIMMY IS HERE WITH ME TODAY 1329 01:01:53,137 --> 01:01:57,000 AND IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME TO HAVE JIMMY HERE WITH ME 1330 01:01:57,000 --> 01:01:59,310 'CAUSE I'M A THOUSAND TIMES CALMER 1331 01:01:59,310 --> 01:02:02,172 THAN I WOULD BE IF HE WAS NOT HERE. 1332 01:02:02,172 --> 01:02:09,068 ♪♪ 1333 01:02:09,068 --> 01:02:10,068 HOW YOU FEELING? 1334 01:02:10,068 --> 01:02:11,689 I'M NERVOUS. 1335 01:02:11,689 --> 01:02:13,482 WHY? 1336 01:02:13,482 --> 01:02:17,413 'CAUSE SURGERY MAKES ME NERVOUS AND SCARED. 1337 01:02:17,413 --> 01:02:21,379 YOU'RE NOT NERVOUS? 1338 01:02:21,379 --> 01:02:22,827 MAYBE. 1339 01:02:22,827 --> 01:02:25,206 ♪♪ 1340 01:02:25,206 --> 01:02:27,689 GIVE ME A KISS. 1341 01:02:27,689 --> 01:02:28,862 GOOD LUCK. 1342 01:02:28,862 --> 01:02:31,862 -I LOVE YOU. -I LOVE YOU TOO. 1343 01:02:31,862 --> 01:02:35,034 Erica: I KNOW THIS IS RISKY SURGERY, 1344 01:02:35,034 --> 01:02:38,827 BUT THIS IS AS IMPORTANT TO ME AS MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1345 01:02:38,827 --> 01:02:41,931 BECAUSE THIS MASS HAS BEEN HOLDING ME BACK, 1346 01:02:41,931 --> 01:02:43,827 AND IT PULLS ON ME A WHOLE LOT MORE 1347 01:02:43,827 --> 01:02:46,793 NOW THAT I'VE LOST WEIGHT BECAUSE IT SAGS LOWER, 1348 01:02:46,793 --> 01:02:50,551 AND IT CAN GET EXCRUCIATING SOME DAYS. 1349 01:02:50,551 --> 01:02:52,724 SO, NO MATTER HOW RISKY IT IS, 1350 01:02:52,724 --> 01:02:55,620 OR HOW PAINFUL IT IS TO RECOVER FROM, 1351 01:02:55,620 --> 01:02:57,827 I HAVE TO GET IT. 1352 01:02:57,827 --> 01:03:02,448 SO, THIS IS AN IMPORTANT STEP, AND IT'S NOT MY LAST EITHER, 1353 01:03:02,448 --> 01:03:05,344 BUT I'VE BEEN WAITING A LONG TIME FOR THIS, 1354 01:03:05,344 --> 01:03:06,862 SO I'M READY. 1355 01:03:06,862 --> 01:03:11,482 ♪♪ 1356 01:03:11,482 --> 01:03:13,793 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY WE'RE DOING LYMPHEDEMA REMOVAL 1357 01:03:13,793 --> 01:03:16,931 OF A LARGE MASS AROUND ERICA'S LEG. 1358 01:03:16,931 --> 01:03:20,068 SHE HAS HAD IT THERE FOR ABOUT 15 YEARS 1359 01:03:20,068 --> 01:03:23,034 AND IT HAS CAUSED HER A LOT OF PAIN AND DISCOMFORT, 1360 01:03:23,034 --> 01:03:26,517 ESPECIALLY SINCE SHE HAS BEEN LOSING WEIGHT. 1361 01:03:26,517 --> 01:03:28,931 AND THEY'RE STARTING TO PULL ON HER KNEES 1362 01:03:28,931 --> 01:03:31,137 AND CAUSING A LOT OF PAIN. 1363 01:03:34,310 --> 01:03:37,206 LYMPHEDEMA IS CAUSED BY EXCESS WEIGHT GAIN 1364 01:03:37,206 --> 01:03:40,620 WHERE THE BODY STORE EXCESS FAT AND A LOT OF FLUID 1365 01:03:40,620 --> 01:03:43,068 THAT GRAVITY CONTINUES TO PULL DOWN, 1366 01:03:43,068 --> 01:03:47,103 CREATING MORE ROOM, AND THEN FILLS UP WITH MORE FLUID. 1367 01:03:47,103 --> 01:03:51,000 AND OVER TIME IT STARTS TO HARDEN AND CREATE THESE MASSES 1368 01:03:51,000 --> 01:03:53,517 AND SACS THAT ARE VERY UNCOMFORTABLE, 1369 01:03:53,517 --> 01:03:57,793 AND THAT ARE PERMANENT UNLESS THEY ARE SURGICALLY REMOVED. 1370 01:04:00,344 --> 01:04:04,448 THIS LYMPHEDEMA MASS ONLY WEIGHS 5 TO 10 POUNDS, 1371 01:04:04,448 --> 01:04:06,620 BUT RIGHT NOW IT WILL HELP HER A GREAT DEAL 1372 01:04:06,620 --> 01:04:11,206 TO HAVE IT FINALLY REMOVED BECAUSE OF WHERE IT'S LOCATED. 1373 01:04:11,206 --> 01:04:14,344 BUT SINCE THERE IS A LOT OF FLUID IN THESE MASSES, 1374 01:04:14,344 --> 01:04:17,862 THAT MAKES IT EXTREMELY DIFFICULT TO MANAGE. 1375 01:04:17,862 --> 01:04:20,344 SO, JUST LIKE EXCESS-SKIN SURGERY, 1376 01:04:20,344 --> 01:04:24,724 THERE IS GOING TO HUNDREDS OF BLOOD VESSELS TO TIE OFF. 1377 01:04:24,724 --> 01:04:26,482 SO, WE HAVE TO BE CAREFUL 1378 01:04:26,482 --> 01:04:29,862 BECAUSE WE CAN'T MISS ANYTHING, 1379 01:04:29,862 --> 01:04:32,172 AND EVEN ONE SMALL VESSEL 1380 01:04:32,172 --> 01:04:35,689 CAN BECOME A BIG ISSUE AND LIFE THREATENING. 1381 01:04:35,689 --> 01:04:39,172 ♪♪ 1382 01:04:39,172 --> 01:04:42,482 Jimmy: IT IS A LITTLE NERVERACKING TO WAIT FOR THE NEWS 1383 01:04:42,482 --> 01:04:44,551 'CAUSE ERICA MEANS THE WORLD TO ME, 1384 01:04:44,551 --> 01:04:46,482 AND IF I WERE TO LOSE ERICA AT THIS POINT, 1385 01:04:46,482 --> 01:04:48,586 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO. 1386 01:04:48,586 --> 01:04:51,448 ♪♪ 1387 01:04:51,448 --> 01:04:54,034 Dr. Nowzaradan: ONCE WE ARE DONE WITH THIS PROCEDURE, 1388 01:04:54,034 --> 01:04:57,793 ERICA SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET UP AND WALK VERY SOON, 1389 01:04:57,793 --> 01:05:00,000 BUT IT WILL BE A SLOW PROCESS FOR HER 1390 01:05:00,000 --> 01:05:02,724 TO GET EXACTLY WHERE SHE WAS AGAIN, 1391 01:05:02,724 --> 01:05:05,241 BUT SHE SHOULD BE ABLE TO RECOVER HERE 1392 01:05:05,241 --> 01:05:08,448 ABOUT FOUR TO SIX WEEKS. 1393 01:05:08,448 --> 01:05:14,034 ALL RIGHT, THIS IS THE MASS WE'VE TAKEN OUT. 1394 01:05:14,034 --> 01:05:17,931 OKAY, WE CAN START TO SUTURE HER UP. 1395 01:05:17,931 --> 01:05:21,517 PUT A FEW MORE STITCHES AND WE'LL BE ALL DONE. 1396 01:05:21,517 --> 01:05:23,689 OKAY, WE'RE FINISHED. 1397 01:05:23,689 --> 01:05:28,000 ALL RIGHT, ERICA'S SURGERY WENT WELL TODAY. 1398 01:05:28,000 --> 01:05:32,827 SO WE TOOK OFF THE MASS THAT WAS HANGING ON HER KNEE. 1399 01:05:32,827 --> 01:05:34,965 ALL RIGHT, LET'S WEIGH IT. 1400 01:05:34,965 --> 01:05:37,275 ♪♪ 1401 01:05:37,275 --> 01:05:41,517 WE WERE ABLE TO TAKE ANOTHER 6 POUNDS FROM HER KNEE, 1402 01:05:41,517 --> 01:05:45,275 AND THAT IS GOING TO HELP HER SIGNIFICANTLY. 1403 01:05:45,275 --> 01:05:47,655 AND WHEN SHE HEALS, IT'S GOING TO HELP HER 1404 01:05:47,655 --> 01:05:51,103 TO BE FAR MORE ACTIVE AND GET AROUND MUCH EASIER, 1405 01:05:51,103 --> 01:05:53,379 WITHOUT THAT WEIGHT TUGGING ON HER 1406 01:05:53,379 --> 01:05:56,896 AND CAUSING ALL THAT PAIN AND IRRITATION. 1407 01:05:56,896 --> 01:06:02,448 AND ONCE ERICA RECOVERS AND CONTINUES TO MAKE PROGRESS, 1408 01:06:02,448 --> 01:06:03,793 WE WILL START DISCUSSING 1409 01:06:03,793 --> 01:06:06,448 EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL AROUND HER ABDOMEN, 1410 01:06:06,448 --> 01:06:10,206 WHICH WOULD BE THE NEXT BIG STEP FOR HER. 1411 01:06:10,206 --> 01:06:12,620 BUT SHE'S DOING GREAT AND I HAVE NO DOUBT 1412 01:06:12,620 --> 01:06:16,827 SHE WILL CONTINUE TO DO WELL AND MAKE IT TO WHERE SHE NEEDS. 1413 01:06:16,827 --> 01:06:21,482 ♪♪ 1414 01:06:21,482 --> 01:06:23,724 Jimmy: HEY BABE. 1415 01:06:23,724 --> 01:06:25,310 HOW YOU FEELING? 1416 01:06:26,655 --> 01:06:28,068 YOU DO? [ LAUGHS ] 1417 01:06:28,068 --> 01:06:29,862 KISS. 1418 01:06:29,862 --> 01:06:33,448 ♪♪ 1419 01:06:33,448 --> 01:06:35,068 I TEXTED EVERYBODY AND LET THEM KNOW. 1420 01:06:35,068 --> 01:06:36,379 YEAH? 1421 01:06:36,379 --> 01:06:37,206 YEAH, TALKED TO DR. NOW. 1422 01:06:37,206 --> 01:06:38,620 6 POUNDS. 1423 01:06:38,620 --> 01:06:39,551 MM-HMM. 1424 01:06:39,551 --> 01:06:40,724 THEY TOOK 6 POUNDS. 1425 01:06:40,724 --> 01:06:42,103 LIKE A BABY BOY. 1426 01:06:42,103 --> 01:06:43,620 [ LAUGHTER ] 1427 01:06:43,620 --> 01:06:45,310 A BABY BOY. 1428 01:06:45,310 --> 01:06:48,206 I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THING WAS 6 POUNDS. 1429 01:06:48,206 --> 01:06:49,689 IS THAT GOOD OR BAD? 1430 01:06:49,689 --> 01:06:50,827 IT'S PRETTY GOOD. 1431 01:06:50,827 --> 01:06:54,000 YOU LOST 6 POUNDS IN, LIKE, A COUPLE HOURS. 1432 01:06:54,000 --> 01:06:55,379 [ CHUCKLES ] 1433 01:06:55,379 --> 01:06:58,896 ONE DOWN, SEVERAL MORE TO GO. 1434 01:06:58,896 --> 01:06:59,931 YEAH, RIGHT. 1435 01:06:59,931 --> 01:07:02,344 ♪♪ 1436 01:07:02,344 --> 01:07:04,137 Jimmy: IT FEELS REALLY GOOD TO SEE HER OUT OF SURGERY, 1437 01:07:04,137 --> 01:07:07,068 AND IT'S A RELIEF SEEING HER WITH MY OWN EYES. 1438 01:07:07,068 --> 01:07:08,586 SHE LOOKS LIKE SHE'S IN A LITTLE BIT OF PAIN, 1439 01:07:08,586 --> 01:07:11,068 BUT SHE'S STRONG AND I'M READY, 1440 01:07:11,068 --> 01:07:14,206 WILLING, AND ABLE TO HELP HER ALONG THE WAY. 1441 01:07:14,206 --> 01:07:19,551 ♪♪ 1442 01:07:19,551 --> 01:07:24,931 ♪♪ 1443 01:07:24,931 --> 01:07:27,620 Erica: I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW. 1444 01:07:27,620 --> 01:07:29,344 I DON'T FEEL THE PAIN YET, 1445 01:07:29,344 --> 01:07:32,758 BUT I KNOW IT'S NOT GOING TO BE AN EASY RECOVERY. 1446 01:07:32,758 --> 01:07:35,517 BUT WITH HOW STRONG AND CONFIDENT I FEEL NOW, 1447 01:07:35,517 --> 01:07:38,172 AND WITH JIMMY BY MY SIDE SUPPORTING ME, 1448 01:07:38,172 --> 01:07:40,655 I FEEL LIKE NOTHING'S GONNA HOLD ME BACK. 1449 01:07:45,482 --> 01:07:51,551 ♪♪ 1450 01:07:51,551 --> 01:07:57,689 ♪♪ 1451 01:07:57,689 --> 01:07:59,827 Erica: I'VE BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL FOR A FEW DAYS NOW 1452 01:07:59,827 --> 01:08:02,586 AND I'M SLOWLY RECOVERING, 1453 01:08:02,586 --> 01:08:05,931 AND JIMMY'S BEEN HERE THE ENTIRE TIME. 1454 01:08:05,931 --> 01:08:09,758 AND I'M REALLY THANKFUL TO HAVE HIM. 1455 01:08:09,758 --> 01:08:11,689 LAST TIME I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL, 1456 01:08:11,689 --> 01:08:16,517 I WAS HERE ALL BY MYSELF FOR A VERY LONG TIME. 1457 01:08:16,517 --> 01:08:19,586 Dr. Nowzaradan: ERICA CAME TO THE HOSPITAL A FEW WEEKS AGO, 1458 01:08:19,586 --> 01:08:24,103 AND WE MANAGED TO GET HER INFECTION UNDER CONTROL, 1459 01:08:24,103 --> 01:08:26,448 BUT SHE HAS A LONG ROAD AHEAD 1460 01:08:26,448 --> 01:08:31,206 AND SHE'S GOING TO NEED A LOT OF HELP TO GET THERE. 1461 01:08:31,206 --> 01:08:33,862 Erica: IT'S VERY, VERY DIFFERENT THIS TIME, 1462 01:08:33,862 --> 01:08:36,448 WHICH IS REALLY NICE, 1463 01:08:36,448 --> 01:08:40,448 BUT TODAY I'M FEELING QUITE A BIT OF PAIN. 1464 01:08:40,448 --> 01:08:44,034 THERE'S THROBBING AND THERE'S DISCOMFORT IN THE LEG 1465 01:08:44,034 --> 01:08:46,758 WHERE THE SURGERY WAS PERFORMED, 1466 01:08:46,758 --> 01:08:49,448 BUT I STILL PUSH MYSELF THROUGH THE PAIN 1467 01:08:49,448 --> 01:08:51,724 TO GET UP AND GO WALK IN THE HALLWAYS 1468 01:08:51,724 --> 01:08:54,379 BECAUSE I KNOW THAT I NEED TO DO IT. 1469 01:08:54,379 --> 01:08:57,000 ♪♪ 1470 01:08:57,000 --> 01:08:58,551 [ SIGHS ] YOU READY TO GO FOR A WALK, BABE? 1471 01:08:58,551 --> 01:08:59,448 READY WHEN YOU ARE. 1472 01:08:59,448 --> 01:09:01,103 I'M READY. 1473 01:09:01,103 --> 01:09:02,344 [ GROANS ] 1474 01:09:02,344 --> 01:09:05,448 BUT HAVING JIMMY HERE HAS BEEN A BIG HELP. 1475 01:09:05,448 --> 01:09:07,413 HE HAS NOT LEFT MY SIDE, 1476 01:09:07,413 --> 01:09:09,758 AND HE'S BEEN TAKING REALLY GOOD CARE OF ME 1477 01:09:09,758 --> 01:09:13,241 AND GOING ON ALL OF MY WALKS WITH ME. 1478 01:09:13,241 --> 01:09:17,103 HE'S BEEN REALLY, REALLY WONDERFUL. 1479 01:09:17,103 --> 01:09:19,758 BUT I GET TO GO HOME TOMORROW 1480 01:09:19,758 --> 01:09:24,310 AND IT'LL BE NICE TO GET OUT OF THE HOSPITAL. 1481 01:09:24,310 --> 01:09:28,172 OUR PLAN RIGHT NOW IS TO HEAD BACK TO CALIFORNIA SOON 1482 01:09:28,172 --> 01:09:31,413 SO I CAN FINISH MOVING OUT OF MY APARTMENT, 1483 01:09:31,413 --> 01:09:33,758 AND SO THAT I CAN SAY GOODBYE TO MY FAMILY 1484 01:09:33,758 --> 01:09:37,172 SINCE I WON'T SEE THEM FOR A WHILE AFTER I MOVE. 1485 01:09:37,172 --> 01:09:38,413 HEY, BABE. 1486 01:09:38,413 --> 01:09:39,413 IS IT OPEN? 1487 01:09:39,413 --> 01:09:40,413 IT WAS A LITTLE BIT, YEAH. 1488 01:09:40,413 --> 01:09:41,241 OH WELL. 1489 01:09:41,241 --> 01:09:43,586 IT'S JUST YOUR BACK. 1490 01:09:43,586 --> 01:09:48,068 AND THEN JIMMY'S GONNA GO BACK TO WYOMING AND DO THE SAME, 1491 01:09:48,068 --> 01:09:53,034 SO THAT WE BOTH CAN MOVE BACK DOWN HERE FOR GOOD THIS TIME. 1492 01:09:53,034 --> 01:09:55,172 SO IT'S GOING TO BE BITTERSWEET SINCE IT MEANS 1493 01:09:55,172 --> 01:09:59,000 I'M OFFICIALLY LEAVING CALIFORNIA, 1494 01:09:59,000 --> 01:10:03,482 BUT I'M STARTING THE LIFE I WANT HERE IN HOUSTON. 1495 01:10:03,482 --> 01:10:08,413 SO, I'M SAD ABOUT SOME THINGS, BUT MOSTLY EXCITED. 1496 01:10:08,413 --> 01:10:11,310 AND DR. NOW SAID AS SOON AS I GET BACK DOWN HERE, 1497 01:10:11,310 --> 01:10:17,068 AS LONG AS I'M LOSING WEIGHT, WE'LL DO MY NEXT SURGERY, 1498 01:10:17,068 --> 01:10:21,344 AND I CAN'T WAIT BECAUSE THIS TIME NEXT MONTH, 1499 01:10:21,344 --> 01:10:23,551 JIMMY AND ME WILL BE LIVING TOGETHER 1500 01:10:23,551 --> 01:10:26,931 AND I'LL BE STARTING A WHOLE NEW CHAPTER IN MY LIFE. 1501 01:10:26,931 --> 01:10:33,482 ♪♪ 1502 01:10:33,482 --> 01:10:40,000 ♪♪ 1503 01:10:40,000 --> 01:10:44,241 I'M BACK IN CALIFORNIA, AND JIMMY IS IN WYOMING RIGHT NOW, 1504 01:10:44,241 --> 01:10:46,758 BUT HE'LL BE BACK HERE TO PICK ME UP 1505 01:10:46,758 --> 01:10:50,034 AND TAKE ME TO HOUSTON SOON. 1506 01:10:50,034 --> 01:10:53,827 I'VE RECOVERED ENOUGH FROM MY SURGERY TO GO OUT. 1507 01:10:53,827 --> 01:10:56,000 THERE ARE TIMES WHEN I AM IN QUITE A BIT OF PAIN, 1508 01:10:56,000 --> 01:10:59,034 BUT MY LEG DEFINITELY FEELS SMALLER 1509 01:10:59,034 --> 01:11:05,448 AND THE MOBILITY ISSUE IS A LOT BETTER NOW. 1510 01:11:05,448 --> 01:11:07,827 WHILE I'M HERE IN CALIFORNIA, 1511 01:11:07,827 --> 01:11:09,689 I'M PLANNING ON SPENDING SOME GOOD TIME 1512 01:11:09,689 --> 01:11:12,137 WITH MY FAMILY TO SAY GOODBYE TO THEM 1513 01:11:12,137 --> 01:11:14,275 BECAUSE I WANT THEM TO BE PROUD OF ME, 1514 01:11:14,275 --> 01:11:16,551 AND I ALSO WANT TO BE ABLE TO PAY THEM BACK 1515 01:11:16,551 --> 01:11:18,172 FOR ALL THEY'VE DONE. 1516 01:11:18,172 --> 01:11:21,275 ♪♪ 1517 01:11:21,275 --> 01:11:23,965 ESPECIALLY MY NIECE JESSIE, 1518 01:11:23,965 --> 01:11:26,793 BECAUSE SHE'S ALWAYS HAD TO COME TAKE CARE OF ME 1519 01:11:26,793 --> 01:11:29,965 AND I'VE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO DO ANYTHING FOR HER. 1520 01:11:29,965 --> 01:11:33,310 AND A YEAR AGO, I WOULD HAVE TO RELY ON HER FOR EVERYTHING. 1521 01:11:33,310 --> 01:11:35,551 ♪♪ 1522 01:11:35,551 --> 01:11:39,275 I'VE ALWAYS BEEN CONCERNED ABOUT ERICA'S WEIGHT. 1523 01:11:39,275 --> 01:11:41,896 BASICALLY, SHE'S DEPENDENT ON ME, 1524 01:11:41,896 --> 01:11:45,379 BUT I REALLY WANT ERICA TO GET ON TRACK 1525 01:11:45,379 --> 01:11:50,034 AND BECOME HEALTHY BECAUSE HER BODY CAN'T GET MUCH BIGGER. 1526 01:11:50,034 --> 01:11:54,310 AND I'M AT MY BREAKING POINT WITH THIS. 1527 01:11:54,310 --> 01:11:57,965 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU NEXT WEEK. 1528 01:11:57,965 --> 01:11:58,896 NEXT WEEK? 1529 01:11:58,896 --> 01:12:00,137 YES. 1530 01:12:00,137 --> 01:12:03,586 I CAN'T BE A PART OF HER SLOWLY DYING ANY MORE. 1531 01:12:03,586 --> 01:12:06,862 ♪♪ 1532 01:12:06,862 --> 01:12:08,068 SO I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO 1533 01:12:08,068 --> 01:12:10,724 SHOWING MY FAMILY HOW FAR I'VE COME. 1534 01:12:10,724 --> 01:12:12,379 SO TODAY I'M TAKING MY NIECE 1535 01:12:12,379 --> 01:12:17,827 TO THE QUICKSILVER RANCH MINIATURE HORSE THERAPY FARM. 1536 01:12:17,827 --> 01:12:19,655 I THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD BE SOMETHING FUN 1537 01:12:19,655 --> 01:12:23,172 FOR US TO DO TOGETHER. 1538 01:12:23,172 --> 01:12:27,655 I'M VERY EXCITED AND JESSIE HASN'T SEEN ME DRIVE IN YEARS, 1539 01:12:27,655 --> 01:12:30,000 SO I KNOW SHE'S GOING TO BE EXCITED. 1540 01:12:30,000 --> 01:12:32,689 ♪♪ 1541 01:12:32,689 --> 01:12:34,448 BUT I'M A LITTLE BIT WORRIED ABOUT TODAY 1542 01:12:34,448 --> 01:12:37,379 BECAUSE ONE THING JESSIE AND I USED TO LOVE TO DO TOGETHER 1543 01:12:37,379 --> 01:12:42,448 WAS GO OUT AND EAT, BUT I'M ON A PATH, AND A PROGRAM, 1544 01:12:42,448 --> 01:12:47,275 AND A JOURNEY, AND THEY ARE NOT AN OPTION, PERIOD. 1545 01:12:47,275 --> 01:12:51,517 ♪♪ 1546 01:12:51,517 --> 01:12:53,206 AND MY FRIEND. 1547 01:12:53,206 --> 01:12:56,896 ♪♪ 1548 01:12:56,896 --> 01:12:58,206 HEY. 1549 01:12:58,206 --> 01:12:59,586 HI. 1550 01:12:59,586 --> 01:13:01,551 LOOK AT YOU. 1551 01:13:01,551 --> 01:13:02,586 I KNOW. 1552 01:13:04,344 --> 01:13:05,103 WOW. 1553 01:13:05,103 --> 01:13:06,896 [ LAUGHS ] 1554 01:13:06,896 --> 01:13:09,551 'CAUSE MY BIG BUTT USED TO PUSH ME FORWARD, 1555 01:13:09,551 --> 01:13:11,206 AND NOW THE BUTT IS SMALLER. 1556 01:13:11,206 --> 01:13:13,413 YOUR BACK IS MORE TOWARDS THE ACTUAL BACK, 1557 01:13:13,413 --> 01:13:14,931 AND YOU'RE NOT HAVING A BIG GAP. 1558 01:13:14,931 --> 01:13:16,655 YES, THANK YOU. 1559 01:13:16,655 --> 01:13:18,068 ARE YOU READY TO GO? 1560 01:13:18,068 --> 01:13:18,896 YEP. 1561 01:13:18,896 --> 01:13:19,827 OKAY. 1562 01:13:19,827 --> 01:13:21,448 LET'S GO SEE SOME MINI HORSES! 1563 01:13:21,448 --> 01:13:27,620 ♪♪ 1564 01:13:27,620 --> 01:13:29,551 BELT ON. 1565 01:13:29,551 --> 01:13:33,620 ♪♪ 1566 01:13:33,620 --> 01:13:37,413 I WANTED TO BRING MY SISTER MOLLY ALONG AS WELL, 1567 01:13:37,413 --> 01:13:41,034 BUT SHE'S NOT COMING AROUND WHILE I'M BEING FILMED. 1568 01:13:41,034 --> 01:13:44,310 THE LAST TIME PEOPLE SAID MEAN THINGS ABOUT HER, 1569 01:13:44,310 --> 01:13:48,103 BUT MY SISTER ALWAYS HAS AND STILL SUPPORTS ME. 1570 01:13:48,103 --> 01:13:50,862 [ SIGHS ] 1571 01:13:50,862 --> 01:13:52,068 LOOK, JESSIE. 1572 01:13:52,068 --> 01:14:00,896 ♪♪ 1573 01:14:00,896 --> 01:14:02,827 LIKE A NORMAL PERSON. 1574 01:14:02,827 --> 01:14:05,206 NO MORE ONE LEG AT A TIME. 1575 01:14:05,206 --> 01:14:06,655 I AM IMPRESSED. 1576 01:14:06,655 --> 01:14:08,103 LOOK AT THAT. 1577 01:14:08,103 --> 01:14:09,448 WOW. 1578 01:14:09,448 --> 01:14:11,931 Jessie: IT WAS REALLY NICE TO SEE ERICA DRIVING. 1579 01:14:11,931 --> 01:14:13,379 IT REMINDED ME OF WHEN I WAS LITTLE 1580 01:14:13,379 --> 01:14:15,413 AND WE USED TO GO PLACES TOGETHER, 1581 01:14:15,413 --> 01:14:16,965 AND SHE SEEMS REALLY HAPPY 1582 01:14:16,965 --> 01:14:21,551 TO BE ABLE TO HAVE SOME INDEPENDENCE BACK. 1583 01:14:21,551 --> 01:14:23,965 Erica: I GREW UP ON A 10-ACRE FARM. 1584 01:14:23,965 --> 01:14:26,655 WE HAD ANY FARM ANIMAL THAT YOU COULD THINK OF, 1585 01:14:26,655 --> 01:14:29,241 AND IT JUST BRINGS ME BACK 1586 01:14:29,241 --> 01:14:32,034 TO A MUCH HAPPIER TIME IN MY LIFE. 1587 01:14:32,034 --> 01:14:34,965 COME SAY HI. 1588 01:14:34,965 --> 01:14:36,551 YOU CAN COME AND SAY HI. 1589 01:14:36,551 --> 01:14:38,758 HI. 1590 01:14:38,758 --> 01:14:40,137 YEAH. 1591 01:14:40,137 --> 01:14:44,206 OH, MY GOD. 1592 01:14:44,206 --> 01:14:47,241 OH, MY GOD, JESSIE. 1593 01:14:47,241 --> 01:14:49,206 OH, THEY'RE SO CUTE. 1594 01:14:49,206 --> 01:14:50,068 THEY'RE CUTE. 1595 01:14:50,068 --> 01:14:51,413 AND JUST LETS YOU HUG HER. 1596 01:14:51,413 --> 01:14:53,724 YES. [ GIGGLING ] 1597 01:14:53,724 --> 01:14:56,482 ONE OF MY GOALS HAS ALWAYS BEEN TO SPEND TIME 1598 01:14:56,482 --> 01:15:00,344 WITH ANIMALS AGAIN BECAUSE WHEN I WAS OVER 600 POUNDS, 1599 01:15:00,344 --> 01:15:04,689 I WASN'T ABLE TO DO ANY OF THIS AND I WOULD LOVE TO BE ABLE 1600 01:15:04,689 --> 01:15:07,275 TO BE AROUND ANIMALS EVERY DAY, ALL DAY. 1601 01:15:07,275 --> 01:15:08,827 IT'S UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, 1602 01:15:08,827 --> 01:15:12,000 IT'S JUST EVERYTHING PERFECT IN LIFE. 1603 01:15:12,000 --> 01:15:16,482 YOU CAN'T EAT MY DRESS, NO. 1604 01:15:16,482 --> 01:15:19,793 OH, MY GOODNESS. 1605 01:15:19,793 --> 01:15:22,000 JESSIE USED TO BE MY ENABLER 1606 01:15:22,000 --> 01:15:25,586 AND WE HAD A CODEPENDENT RELATIONSHIP, 1607 01:15:25,586 --> 01:15:28,586 AND NOW I CAN SHOW HER EXPERIENCES 1608 01:15:28,586 --> 01:15:31,034 THAT MAKE HER HAPPY, TOO. 1609 01:15:31,034 --> 01:15:34,482 IT'S JUST SO WONDERFUL. 1610 01:15:34,482 --> 01:15:37,482 Jessie: IT'S REALLY COOL TO BE ABLE TO GO SOMEWHERE WITH ERICA 1611 01:15:37,482 --> 01:15:41,379 AND NOT JUST BE CONFINED TO HER HOUSE. 1612 01:15:41,379 --> 01:15:43,931 BUT NOW THAT SHE HAS A BODY THAT'S HELPING HER 1613 01:15:43,931 --> 01:15:46,172 BE ABLE TO DO SOME OF THOSE THINGS, 1614 01:15:46,172 --> 01:15:49,517 SHE'S GOT THE WORLD IN FRONT OF HER. 1615 01:15:49,517 --> 01:15:54,482 Erica: IT'S STILL HARD AND VERY PAINFUL TO WALK AROUND SO MUCH, 1616 01:15:54,482 --> 01:15:56,896 BUT THE HORSES MAKE IT ALL WORTH IT. 1617 01:15:56,896 --> 01:16:03,965 ♪♪ 1618 01:16:03,965 --> 01:16:07,000 I KNOW YOU'RE SMILING 'CAUSE I CAN DO IT ALL BY MYSELF NOW. 1619 01:16:07,000 --> 01:16:09,931 I KNOW, STOP LAUGHING. 1620 01:16:09,931 --> 01:16:12,275 ♪♪ 1621 01:16:12,275 --> 01:16:13,758 UH-HUH. 1622 01:16:13,758 --> 01:16:15,551 IT'S SO NICE TO STAND UP AND HUG YOU. 1623 01:16:15,551 --> 01:16:17,068 I KNOW, ISN'T IT? 1624 01:16:17,068 --> 01:16:18,379 MM-HMM. 1625 01:16:18,379 --> 01:16:20,689 YOU CAN PRETTY MUCH ALMOST GET YOUR ARMS AROUND ME NOW. 1626 01:16:20,689 --> 01:16:22,724 MM-HMM. 1627 01:16:22,724 --> 01:16:23,586 I LOVE YOU. 1628 01:16:23,586 --> 01:16:24,793 I LOVE YOU, TOO. 1629 01:16:24,793 --> 01:16:28,241 OKAY, YOU READY? 1630 01:16:28,241 --> 01:16:30,689 ME AND JIMMY WILL BE BACK IN HOUSTON FOR GOOD 1631 01:16:30,689 --> 01:16:32,896 IN A FEW WEEKS. 1632 01:16:32,896 --> 01:16:34,379 WE'LL BE LIVING TOGETHER 1633 01:16:34,379 --> 01:16:38,551 AND I'LL BE STARTING A WHOLE NEW CHAPTER OF MY LIFE. 1634 01:16:38,551 --> 01:16:40,448 AND I'M HOPING TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD 1635 01:16:40,448 --> 01:16:43,379 AND TO GET MY NEXT SKIN SURGERY BY THEN, 1636 01:16:43,379 --> 01:16:44,448 BUT I'LL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE. 1637 01:16:50,137 --> 01:16:57,724 ♪♪ 1638 01:16:57,724 --> 01:17:05,448 ♪♪ 1639 01:17:05,448 --> 01:17:09,793 Erica: JIMMY AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY MOVED BACK TO HOUSTON. 1640 01:17:09,793 --> 01:17:14,413 SO IT'S REALLY HAPPENING AND PART OF ME CAN'T BELIEVE IT. 1641 01:17:14,413 --> 01:17:16,620 AND RIGHT NOW I'M BACK AT DR. NOW'S 1642 01:17:16,620 --> 01:17:19,241 FOR MY NEXT APPOINTMENT, 1643 01:17:19,241 --> 01:17:21,068 AND I'M HOPING I'M STILL LOSING. 1644 01:17:21,068 --> 01:17:23,379 ♪♪ 1645 01:17:23,379 --> 01:17:25,172 ERICA WALL? 1646 01:17:25,172 --> 01:17:28,655 Erica: BECAUSE I KNOW IF I GET TO ANY POINT WHERE I'M NOT, 1647 01:17:28,655 --> 01:17:32,482 THEN EVERYTHING WILL START TO FALL APART FROM THERE. 1648 01:17:32,482 --> 01:17:35,896 THE LAST TIME I WAS HERE, I WAS AT 297, 1649 01:17:35,896 --> 01:17:39,482 AND DR. NOW SAID MY WEIGHT LOSS WOULD START TO SLOW 1650 01:17:39,482 --> 01:17:42,137 AS I GET TO MY TARGET WEIGHT, 1651 01:17:42,137 --> 01:17:45,034 BUT I'M HOPING I'M GETTING CLOSER TO 250. 1652 01:17:45,034 --> 01:17:52,620 ♪♪ 1653 01:17:52,620 --> 01:17:56,517 I CAN'T REMEMBER BEING THIS SMALL, 1654 01:17:56,517 --> 01:18:00,103 AND I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 1655 01:18:00,103 --> 01:18:03,206 AND I'M HOPING DR. NOW IS HAPPY, TOO. 1656 01:18:03,206 --> 01:18:07,517 ♪♪S 1657 01:18:07,517 --> 01:18:08,655 HELLO. 1658 01:18:08,655 --> 01:18:11,068 HI, DR. NOW. 1659 01:18:11,068 --> 01:18:12,827 HOW YOU ALL DOING? 1660 01:18:12,827 --> 01:18:14,413 GOOD, HOW ARE YOU?PRETTY GOOD. 1661 01:18:14,413 --> 01:18:17,517 ALL RIGHT, ERICA, SO YOU'RE DOWN TO 272. 1662 01:18:17,517 --> 01:18:21,068 SO THAT IS A TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS OF 389. 1663 01:18:21,068 --> 01:18:22,310 YES. 1664 01:18:22,310 --> 01:18:25,793 SO YOU'RE DOING GOOD, BUT NOW THAT YOU'RE IN 200s, 1665 01:18:25,793 --> 01:18:29,413 YOU ONLY WILL BE LOSING ABOUT 5 TO 10 POUNDS A MONTH, 1666 01:18:29,413 --> 01:18:31,206 AND IT WILL GET A LITTLE HARDER 1667 01:18:31,206 --> 01:18:33,862 AS YOU GET CLOSER TO YOUR TARGET WEIGHT. 1668 01:18:33,862 --> 01:18:35,103 OKAY. 1669 01:18:35,103 --> 01:18:37,275 AND YOU HAVE AROUND 40 TO 50 POUNDS 1670 01:18:37,275 --> 01:18:39,689 OF EXTRA SKIN AROUND YOUR ABDOMEN. 1671 01:18:39,689 --> 01:18:41,034 OKAY. 1672 01:18:41,034 --> 01:18:44,172 SO, IN REALITY, YOU ONLY HAVE 50 TO 60 POUNDS LEFT TO LOSE 1673 01:18:44,172 --> 01:18:47,620 THIS NEXT YEAR TO GET TO YOUR TARGET WEIGHT. 1674 01:18:47,620 --> 01:18:48,827 THAT'S AWESOME. 1675 01:18:48,827 --> 01:18:51,551 ALL RIGHT, HOW TALL ARE YOU? 1676 01:18:51,551 --> 01:18:53,000 WELL, I SHRUNK. 1677 01:18:53,000 --> 01:18:54,551 I WAS 5'6" AND A HALF, 1678 01:18:54,551 --> 01:18:57,172 BUT WHEN THEY MEASURED ME THE OTHER DAY IN YOUR CLINIC, 1679 01:18:57,172 --> 01:18:59,758 I WENT TO 5'5". 1680 01:18:59,758 --> 01:19:04,517 SO, YOU'RE GONNA BE IDEAL BODY WEIGHT IS GONNA BE 170. 1681 01:19:04,517 --> 01:19:06,034 OKAY. 1682 01:19:06,034 --> 01:19:08,310 OKAY, SO YOU'RE VERY CLOSE AND YOU SHOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM 1683 01:19:08,310 --> 01:19:10,103 GETTING THERE THIS NEXT YEAR. 1684 01:19:10,103 --> 01:19:11,551 OKAY. 1685 01:19:11,551 --> 01:19:14,724 I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN BECAUSE I USED TO BE 6 FEET. 1686 01:19:14,724 --> 01:19:19,241 [ LAUGHTER ] 1687 01:19:19,241 --> 01:19:21,275 YOU SHRUNK, TOO? 1688 01:19:21,275 --> 01:19:22,620 [ LAUGHS ] 1689 01:19:22,620 --> 01:19:24,206 WELL, YOU'RE DOING GOOD, 1690 01:19:24,206 --> 01:19:28,103 SO, STAY FOCUSED WITH YOUR DIET, DO YOUR ACTIVITY, 1691 01:19:28,103 --> 01:19:31,034 AND WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU FOR NEXT SURGERY, OKAY? 1692 01:19:31,034 --> 01:19:32,275 AWESOME. 1693 01:19:32,275 --> 01:19:34,310 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER, OKAY? 1694 01:19:34,310 --> 01:19:37,413 OKAY, THANK YOU.BYE DOCTOR, THANK YOU. 1695 01:19:37,413 --> 01:19:39,896 Dr. Nowzaradan: I THINK ERICA HAS DONE REALLY WELL. 1696 01:19:39,896 --> 01:19:42,517 SHE MAINTAINED HER WEIGHT LOSS THIS WHOLE YEAR 1697 01:19:42,517 --> 01:19:45,137 DESPITE ALL SHE HAS HAD TO DEAL WITH, 1698 01:19:45,137 --> 01:19:47,310 SO I'M REALLY PROUD OF HER. 1699 01:19:47,310 --> 01:19:49,310 AND NOW THAT SHE'S MOVED DOWN HERE 1700 01:19:49,310 --> 01:19:51,517 AND HAS JIMMY TO SUPPORT HER, 1701 01:19:51,517 --> 01:19:54,655 I'M CONFIDENT SHE'S GOING TO STAY ON TRACK. 1702 01:19:54,655 --> 01:19:57,034 SO, I THINK NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP HER 1703 01:19:57,034 --> 01:20:00,655 FROM GETTING TO HER TARGET WEIGHT THIS NEXT YEAR. 1704 01:20:00,655 --> 01:20:04,448 ♪♪ 1705 01:20:04,448 --> 01:20:09,827 Erica: TO HEAR DR. NOW SAY HE'S PROUD OF ME FEELS AMAZING, 1706 01:20:09,827 --> 01:20:11,655 AND I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW 1707 01:20:11,655 --> 01:20:16,586 BECAUSE I DIDN'T THINK I'D BE ABLE TO DO THIS A YEAR AGO, 1708 01:20:16,586 --> 01:20:21,655 BECAUSE NO ONE BELIEVED IN ME, INCLUDING MYSELF. 1709 01:20:21,655 --> 01:20:25,413 Molly: I'M SKEPTICAL. 1710 01:20:25,413 --> 01:20:28,068 EVEN IF WE GET THERE AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS, 1711 01:20:28,068 --> 01:20:30,896 I DON'T TRUST THAT SHE WILL SUCCEED AT THIS MOMENT. 1712 01:20:30,896 --> 01:20:35,068 ♪♪ 1713 01:20:35,068 --> 01:20:38,689 BUT NOW I'VE PROVED EVERYONE WRONG, INCLUDING MYSELF, 1714 01:20:38,689 --> 01:20:41,379 SO I FEEL EXTREMELY GOOD RIGHT NOW. 1715 01:20:41,379 --> 01:20:43,620 ♪♪ 1716 01:20:43,620 --> 01:20:46,724 I KNOW I STILL HAVE A GOOD AMOUNT OF WORK AHEAD, 1717 01:20:46,724 --> 01:20:50,034 BUT I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT THE FUTURE RIGHT NOW, 1718 01:20:50,034 --> 01:20:53,793 AND I CAN'T WAIT TO GO FURTHER AND DO EVEN MORE. 1719 01:20:53,793 --> 01:20:56,172 IT'S JUST AN AMAZING FEELING. 1720 01:20:56,172 --> 01:21:06,206 ♪♪ 1721 01:21:06,206 --> 01:21:16,206 ♪♪ 1722 01:21:16,206 --> 01:21:21,551 TODAY, JIMMY AND I ARE GOING ON ANOTHER ADVENTURE. 1723 01:21:21,551 --> 01:21:23,724 SO, WE ARE IN SAN ANTONIO 1724 01:21:23,724 --> 01:21:25,206 TO GO TO THE ZOO HERE 1725 01:21:25,206 --> 01:21:27,724 ♪♪ 1726 01:21:27,724 --> 01:21:29,275 BECAUSE I LOVE ANIMALS 1727 01:21:29,275 --> 01:21:32,275 AND THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE ONE OF THE BEST ZOOS AROUND, 1728 01:21:32,275 --> 01:21:34,103 AND GOING TO A ZOO IS SOMETHING 1729 01:21:34,103 --> 01:21:36,586 I'D DO EVERY WEEKEND IF I COULD. 1730 01:21:36,586 --> 01:21:38,482 LOOK AT HIM, HE'S COOL. 1731 01:21:38,482 --> 01:21:40,827 ERICA GENUINELY LOVES TO BE HERE AT THE ZOO. 1732 01:21:40,827 --> 01:21:43,413 ♪♪ 1733 01:21:43,413 --> 01:21:45,103 THE MORE ERICA IS LOSING WEIGHT, 1734 01:21:45,103 --> 01:21:48,551 THE MORE SHE GETS OUT AROUND PEOPLE. 1735 01:21:48,551 --> 01:21:51,172 ERICA'S A LOT MORE MOTIVATED AND SHE'S A LOT MORE CONFIDENT 1736 01:21:51,172 --> 01:21:53,931 TO BE OUT IN THE WORLD AND EXPERIENCE THINGS. 1737 01:21:53,931 --> 01:21:57,241 IT'S AWESOME. 1738 01:21:57,241 --> 01:22:00,137 Erica: WE DECIDED THAT AT LEAST ONCE EVERY COUPLE WEEKS 1739 01:22:00,137 --> 01:22:04,344 WE SHOULD TAKE AN ADVENTURE TOGETHER ON THE WEEKENDS. 1740 01:22:04,344 --> 01:22:07,000 EITHER AROUND HOUSTON OR TO KEEP TAKING ROAD TRIPS 1741 01:22:07,000 --> 01:22:09,896 BECAUSE JIMMY LOVES THEM, AND I LOVE BEING WITH HIM 1742 01:22:09,896 --> 01:22:12,827 AND EXPLORING THE WORLD AND NEW THINGS WITH HIM. 1743 01:22:12,827 --> 01:22:16,862 ♪♪ 1744 01:22:16,862 --> 01:22:21,241 BUT I FEEL LIKE MY WHOLE LIFE IS A WONDERFUL ADVENTURE NOW, 1745 01:22:21,241 --> 01:22:24,758 AND I COULDN'T HAVE IMAGINED A BETTER CO-PILOT THAN JIMMY. 1746 01:22:24,758 --> 01:22:26,344 DID YOU ALL WANT TO FEED SOME GIRAFFES TODAY? 1747 01:22:26,344 --> 01:22:27,172 YES, SIR. 1748 01:22:27,172 --> 01:22:29,482 OKAY. 1749 01:22:29,482 --> 01:22:31,448 WHEN I WAS OVER 600 POUNDS, 1750 01:22:31,448 --> 01:22:34,758 I FELT AS IF I WAS TRAPPED. 1751 01:22:34,758 --> 01:22:40,241 SOME DAYS I FEEL LIKE A TICKING TIME BOMB 1752 01:22:40,241 --> 01:22:46,172 BECAUSE OF HOW EXCRUCIATING THE PAIN IS. 1753 01:22:46,172 --> 01:22:47,965 MY BACK HURTS. 1754 01:22:47,965 --> 01:22:52,724 MY LEGS HURT AND I HAVE A STOMACH THAT HANGS TO MY KNEES, 1755 01:22:52,724 --> 01:22:58,068 AND LYMPHEDEMA EVERYWHERE. 1756 01:22:58,068 --> 01:23:02,137 SO WALKING IS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME, 1757 01:23:02,137 --> 01:23:06,482 AND THE ONLY PLACES THAT I CAN GO IN MY HOUSE 1758 01:23:06,482 --> 01:23:09,689 ARE MY BED, THE TOILET, AND THE KITCHEN. 1759 01:23:09,689 --> 01:23:11,862 ♪♪ 1760 01:23:11,862 --> 01:23:14,172 BUT MY LIFE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED 1761 01:23:14,172 --> 01:23:17,448 AND THINGS ARE SO GOOD RIGHT NOW. 1762 01:23:17,448 --> 01:23:18,724 WATCH HIM STICK OUT THE TONGUE FOR YA. 1763 01:23:18,724 --> 01:23:20,448 BYE, BRAYDEN. 1764 01:23:20,448 --> 01:23:22,517 [ LAUGHS ] 1765 01:23:22,517 --> 01:23:23,724 THANK YOU. 1766 01:23:23,724 --> 01:23:25,862 YEAH, THANK YOU. [ LAUGHS ] 1767 01:23:25,862 --> 01:23:30,689 AND I'M GETTING MY STOMACH SKIN REMOVAL HERE SOON. 1768 01:23:30,689 --> 01:23:33,758 SO MY LIFE IS ONLY GETTING BETTER AND BETTER, 1769 01:23:33,758 --> 01:23:36,896 AND I KNOW AS LONG AS I STAY DETERMINED AND WORK HARD, 1770 01:23:36,896 --> 01:23:40,724 IT'S GOING TO STAY THAT WAY. 1771 01:23:40,724 --> 01:23:43,344 AND ONCE I HIT MY TARGET WEIGHT, 1772 01:23:43,344 --> 01:23:44,448 I KNOW MY LIFE WILL BE 1773 01:23:44,448 --> 01:23:47,551 ONE WONDERFUL ADVENTURE AFTER ANOTHER 1774 01:23:47,551 --> 01:23:49,827 BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT, I'M GONNA BE WITH JIMMY 1775 01:23:49,827 --> 01:23:52,137 AND LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST. 1776 01:23:52,137 --> 01:24:01,448 ♪♪ 1777 01:24:01,448 --> 01:24:03,482 MY WHOLE LIFE IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT 1778 01:24:03,482 --> 01:24:06,862 THAN IT WAS A YEAR AGO. 1779 01:24:06,862 --> 01:24:08,827 I WOULD'VE NEVER BELIEVED I WOULD BE ABLE 1780 01:24:08,827 --> 01:24:13,965 TO DO ANYTHING LIKE THIS AND THAT I'D COME THIS FAR, 1781 01:24:13,965 --> 01:24:16,551 AND JIMMY AND I ARE THINKING ABOUT A FUTURE NOW 1782 01:24:16,551 --> 01:24:20,034 BEYOND MY WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY, 1783 01:24:20,034 --> 01:24:23,034 MAYBE INCLUDING MARRIAGE AND KIDS SOON. 1784 01:24:23,034 --> 01:24:25,551 WE HAVE ARRIVED. 1785 01:24:25,551 --> 01:24:30,551 ♪♪ 1786 01:24:30,551 --> 01:24:33,931 AND IT'S TRULY A DREAM COME TRUE. 1787 01:24:33,931 --> 01:24:36,896 IT'S LIKE I'VE BEEN GIVEN A SECOND CHANCE TO FIX 1788 01:24:36,896 --> 01:24:42,103 MOST OF THE REGRETS IN MY LIFE, AND I'VE DONE THAT. 1789 01:24:42,103 --> 01:24:45,689 AND MY LIFE IS INFINITELY BETTER THAN IT WAS BEFORE. 1790 01:24:45,689 --> 01:24:47,034 -HOW MANY? -FOR TWO. 1791 01:24:47,034 --> 01:24:48,448 Erica: INSTEAD OF BEING AFRAID 1792 01:24:48,448 --> 01:24:52,103 OF WHAT LIFE WILL BE FOR ME TOMORROW, 1793 01:24:52,103 --> 01:24:56,413 AND LIVING IN CONSTANT FEAR THAT I'M GONNA DIE, 1794 01:24:56,413 --> 01:25:01,965 I WAKE UP EVERY DAY EXCITED TO SEE WHAT IT HOLDS FOR ME 1795 01:25:01,965 --> 01:25:04,068 AND WHAT NEW THINGS I'LL BE ABLE TO DO, 1796 01:25:04,068 --> 01:25:07,620 OR THAT I'LL HAVE IN MY LIFE. 1797 01:25:07,620 --> 01:25:09,689 I AM MORE THANKFUL THAN I CAN DESCRIBE 1798 01:25:09,689 --> 01:25:12,965 THAT I'VE HAD THIS SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE. 1799 01:25:12,965 --> 01:25:17,655 SO, I CAN'T WAIT TO FIND OUT WHAT MY NEXT ADVENTURE IS, 1800 01:25:17,655 --> 01:25:19,724 AND AS LONG AS I'M DOING IT WITH JIMMY, 1801 01:25:19,724 --> 01:25:22,103 THEN I'M READY TO GO. 1802 01:25:22,103 --> 01:25:23,793 AND TOGETHER, WE'RE GONNA MAKE SURE 1803 01:25:23,793 --> 01:25:25,689 I'M LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST 1804 01:25:25,689 --> 01:25:29,103 AND THAT I DON'T MISS OUT ON ANOTHER WONDERFUL THING 1805 01:25:29,103 --> 01:25:31,655 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT, NO MATTER WHAT, EVER AGAIN. 1805 01:25:32,305 --> 01:26:32,250 Do you want subtitles for any video? -=[ ai.OpenSubtitles.com ]=-