The Science of Fear

1 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:12,074 Do you want subtitles for any video? -=[ ai.OpenSubtitles.com ]=- 2 00:00:37,320 --> 00:00:40,625 I couldn't heal the darkness of my own heart, 3 00:00:43,583 --> 00:00:45,717 so I drowned in another's need. 4 00:00:53,502 --> 00:00:57,740 I haven't been touched like that a long time, Crystal. 5 00:00:57,741 --> 00:00:59,658 Nothing's gonna happen. 6 00:01:05,586 --> 00:01:06,836 I was a fool. 7 00:01:11,595 --> 00:01:14,428 Crystal, I'm here to help. 8 00:01:20,593 --> 00:01:22,093 I made mistakes. 9 00:01:34,980 --> 00:01:35,980 Mistakes. 10 00:01:37,920 --> 00:01:39,633 We all make mistakes, Crystal. 11 00:01:40,500 --> 00:01:41,553 It's a journey. 12 00:01:44,456 --> 00:01:48,623 ♪ Highs and lows, I'm coming down ♪ 13 00:01:55,063 --> 00:01:59,813 ♪ You'd think I'd know the secret by now ♪ 14 00:02:06,267 --> 00:02:09,517 ♪ This skin, this skin ♪ 15 00:02:14,794 --> 00:02:16,764 You did good, baby? 16 00:02:16,765 --> 00:02:18,598 I did good, sweetie. 17 00:02:23,266 --> 00:02:25,412 ♪ This skin ♪ 18 00:02:25,413 --> 00:02:26,763 It's not about the money. 19 00:02:28,226 --> 00:02:30,886 I want you to trust me. 20 00:02:30,887 --> 00:02:33,783 I want you to honor what I need. 21 00:02:35,220 --> 00:02:36,570 That's what makes me happy. 22 00:02:40,311 --> 00:02:43,144 ♪ I know you well ♪ 23 00:02:46,260 --> 00:02:47,403 Promise me, baby. 24 00:02:49,432 --> 00:02:50,682 The night's not over yet. 25 00:02:51,630 --> 00:02:53,980 Did you please him like you're gonna please me? 26 00:03:07,350 --> 00:03:08,350 Crystal? 27 00:03:09,810 --> 00:03:12,293 Looking a little rough around the edges, Crystal. 28 00:03:13,440 --> 00:03:14,440 Didn't sleep. 29 00:03:17,550 --> 00:03:18,483 Well, put it another way then. 30 00:03:18,484 --> 00:03:20,159 Then you're married. 31 00:03:20,160 --> 00:03:22,169 What does that have to do with it? 32 00:03:22,170 --> 00:03:23,519 That you're married? 33 00:03:23,520 --> 00:03:25,050 Do you think he's unaware? 34 00:03:25,051 --> 00:03:25,884 No. No, no. 35 00:03:25,885 --> 00:03:28,919 He's, he's not that stupid. 36 00:03:28,920 --> 00:03:30,813 He just doesn't care. 37 00:03:32,910 --> 00:03:34,710 That's why I'm doing what I'm doing. 38 00:03:35,850 --> 00:03:37,233 Not that simple, Crystal. 39 00:03:40,632 --> 00:03:42,299 - No? - No, it's not. 40 00:05:25,137 --> 00:05:26,733 Why do we love the wrong one? 41 00:05:29,220 --> 00:05:30,570 Where did that come from? 42 00:05:31,500 --> 00:05:32,519 I don't know. 43 00:05:32,520 --> 00:05:34,220 That's not good enough, Crystal. 44 00:05:35,550 --> 00:05:37,169 Mike's picking me up at 6:00. 45 00:05:37,170 --> 00:05:40,649 No, no, you're not letting that go. 46 00:05:40,650 --> 00:05:42,000 You're not letting that go. 47 00:05:43,860 --> 00:05:45,310 What do you want me to say? 48 00:05:47,550 --> 00:05:50,050 That I'm in loveless marriage 49 00:05:51,030 --> 00:05:53,699 and I don't know where I'm going with this thing? 50 00:05:53,700 --> 00:05:54,700 Yeah. 51 00:07:46,158 --> 00:07:48,408 You like surprises? - Yeah. 52 00:07:49,832 --> 00:07:52,361 Uh, well, I have one. 53 00:07:52,362 --> 00:07:53,862 Okay. Let's see. 54 00:07:54,840 --> 00:07:56,404 I'm pregnant. 55 00:07:56,405 --> 00:07:58,390 - You are pregnant? - Yes. 56 00:07:58,391 --> 00:08:00,977 We're gonna have a baby? 57 00:08:00,978 --> 00:08:02,535 Yes. 58 00:08:02,536 --> 00:08:03,869 - Really? - Yes. 59 00:08:06,370 --> 00:08:07,453 Sweetheart! 60 00:08:10,351 --> 00:08:12,018 Oh, I want a girl. 61 00:09:08,730 --> 00:09:12,063 I dreamed last night I was holding our baby. 62 00:09:14,070 --> 00:09:17,583 I could smell the sweetness of her skin, 63 00:09:19,140 --> 00:09:20,790 how soft she was when I held her. 64 00:09:22,050 --> 00:09:23,450 Look at me. Did you hear me? 65 00:09:25,290 --> 00:09:26,939 I heard you. 66 00:09:26,940 --> 00:09:29,009 That's done, over. 67 00:09:29,010 --> 00:09:30,419 You held a dead baby. 68 00:09:30,420 --> 00:09:31,980 It was our baby. 69 00:09:34,920 --> 00:09:37,619 You remember, I remember. 70 00:09:37,620 --> 00:09:39,179 And I don't want to go back there. 71 00:09:39,180 --> 00:09:41,819 I can't forget what it carried my womb. 72 00:09:41,820 --> 00:09:44,039 Even if you can bury that memory, 73 00:09:44,040 --> 00:09:46,870 even though you hide in your work, that memory 74 00:09:47,760 --> 00:09:49,289 is still here between us. 75 00:09:49,290 --> 00:09:50,819 Yeah, you're right. 76 00:09:50,820 --> 00:09:54,717 That death rests between us and it always will. 77 00:09:56,250 --> 00:09:57,210 Don't wait up for me. 78 00:09:57,211 --> 00:09:58,660 I have meetings back to back. 79 00:10:02,250 --> 00:10:03,950 To my loving child. 80 00:10:05,656 --> 00:10:10,656 My baby, my inspiration, my love and hope. 81 00:10:13,590 --> 00:10:17,367 In my heart you will always be, 82 00:10:18,456 --> 00:10:20,956 always be living in my memory. 83 00:10:22,680 --> 00:10:27,303 I will always be your mother, and you, my baby daughter. 84 00:10:47,140 --> 00:10:48,390 Are you okay? 85 00:10:53,350 --> 00:10:54,767 You are not okay. 86 00:11:10,050 --> 00:11:11,883 What I did for love. 87 00:11:32,520 --> 00:11:33,520 You following me? 88 00:11:35,580 --> 00:11:37,469 You live in the neighborhood? 89 00:11:37,470 --> 00:11:38,470 No. 90 00:11:42,330 --> 00:11:43,580 Would you like to walk? 91 00:11:48,690 --> 00:11:49,690 Had a hard day? 92 00:11:52,470 --> 00:11:55,109 Maybe I should ask what your day was like. 93 00:11:55,110 --> 00:11:59,163 You could, but I'd still like to hear more about yours. 94 00:12:04,380 --> 00:12:06,303 Yes. It was a hard day. 95 00:12:09,750 --> 00:12:14,137 Your eyes, beautiful but sad. 96 00:12:22,175 --> 00:12:23,175 I'm intrigued by you. 97 00:12:27,535 --> 00:12:29,452 Would you like to walk? 98 00:12:48,582 --> 00:12:53,582 ♪ Sometimes I feel ♪ 99 00:12:56,063 --> 00:13:01,063 ♪ Sometimes I feel ♪ 100 00:13:03,266 --> 00:13:08,266 ♪ Like a motherless child ♪ 101 00:13:11,557 --> 00:13:15,474 ♪ And I'm a long way from home ♪ 102 00:13:33,997 --> 00:13:38,997 ♪ Sometimes I feel like I'm almost done, almost done ♪ 103 00:13:48,010 --> 00:13:49,299 I'll give you a lift home? 104 00:13:49,300 --> 00:13:51,084 ♪ Almost done ♪ 105 00:13:51,085 --> 00:13:53,183 Do you want to go home? 106 00:13:53,184 --> 00:13:55,434 I don't know what I want. 107 00:14:01,824 --> 00:14:03,579 I don't care. 108 00:14:43,893 --> 00:14:46,310 That was pretty cool. 109 00:14:51,782 --> 00:14:53,579 Hey, that's. 110 00:14:53,580 --> 00:14:54,959 That's why they called me the king. 111 00:14:54,960 --> 00:14:56,511 Okay. Okay. 112 00:14:56,512 --> 00:14:57,621 Good game, bro. 113 00:15:09,090 --> 00:15:10,090 You okay? 114 00:15:12,080 --> 00:15:13,619 Yeah. 115 00:15:13,620 --> 00:15:14,620 My mom called. 116 00:15:16,154 --> 00:15:17,254 Her friend needs help. 117 00:15:18,180 --> 00:15:19,180 It's pretty bad. 118 00:15:21,570 --> 00:15:23,699 I met her when I was a kid. 119 00:15:23,700 --> 00:15:26,519 I don't think she even recognized me now, Tony. 120 00:15:26,520 --> 00:15:28,833 I want to help. It's serious. 121 00:15:33,150 --> 00:15:34,850 Sure that's a good idea, Julian? 122 00:15:36,450 --> 00:15:39,963 Remember what happened with your mom, your dad, your sis? 123 00:15:45,120 --> 00:15:46,970 Couldn't do shit to help my sister. 124 00:15:47,970 --> 00:15:48,989 When my dad was beating mom, 125 00:15:48,990 --> 00:15:50,740 I couldn't do anything then either. 126 00:15:54,060 --> 00:15:55,260 You can't change that. 127 00:15:59,580 --> 00:16:01,433 Why do you think I do the work that I do? 128 00:16:12,060 --> 00:16:13,060 Mom? 129 00:16:14,370 --> 00:16:15,370 - Hey you. - Hey. 130 00:16:17,280 --> 00:16:18,809 When did you get in, Julian? 131 00:16:18,810 --> 00:16:19,740 Oh, just this morning. 132 00:16:19,741 --> 00:16:20,849 Just stopped by to see how things are going 133 00:16:20,850 --> 00:16:21,683 with the new guy. 134 00:16:21,684 --> 00:16:23,793 It's burger day. Want a burger? 135 00:16:24,836 --> 00:16:25,886 Don't mind if I do. 136 00:16:36,210 --> 00:16:37,649 Burgers on. 137 00:16:37,650 --> 00:16:39,209 I got someone you should meet. 138 00:16:39,210 --> 00:16:40,210 Oh? 139 00:16:42,240 --> 00:16:43,073 - Hey. - Hey! 140 00:16:43,073 --> 00:16:43,906 Heard a lot about you, man. 141 00:16:43,907 --> 00:16:45,029 Heard about you too. 142 00:16:45,030 --> 00:16:46,349 You taking good care of my mom? 143 00:16:46,350 --> 00:16:48,749 When she lets me. 144 00:16:48,750 --> 00:16:50,761 Hey, you're letting these burgers go. 145 00:16:50,762 --> 00:16:55,289 Oh! 146 00:16:55,290 --> 00:16:56,999 So, you're welcome to stay as long as you like. 147 00:16:57,000 --> 00:16:58,199 Yeah. Thanks. 148 00:16:58,200 --> 00:16:59,789 I'd like that. 149 00:16:59,790 --> 00:17:01,019 What you been up to? 150 00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:05,579 Oh, I'm a part of a program that that helps people deal 151 00:17:05,580 --> 00:17:07,109 with violent circumstances. 152 00:17:07,110 --> 00:17:08,579 Oh, thanks. 153 00:17:08,580 --> 00:17:10,019 Good stuff. 154 00:17:10,020 --> 00:17:11,913 Yeah, it definitely can be. Thanks. 155 00:17:13,110 --> 00:17:14,999 That reminds me, you had something 156 00:17:15,000 --> 00:17:16,400 you wanted to tell me about? 157 00:17:18,540 --> 00:17:19,540 Yeah, I do. 158 00:17:20,760 --> 00:17:22,919 I could use your help, Julian. 159 00:17:22,920 --> 00:17:24,270 I'm concerned for a friend. 160 00:17:25,589 --> 00:17:26,969 Okay. 161 00:17:26,970 --> 00:17:30,183 Well, in the meantime, at least he's a good cook. 162 00:17:31,020 --> 00:17:32,383 I'm more than that, boy. 163 00:17:49,280 --> 00:17:50,960 Yeah, no, I'm just getting a bite to eat. 164 00:17:59,280 --> 00:18:00,677 We need to talk, kiddo. 165 00:18:03,510 --> 00:18:04,510 It's Crystal. 166 00:18:05,310 --> 00:18:06,310 You remember her? 167 00:18:07,410 --> 00:18:08,410 No. 168 00:18:09,090 --> 00:18:10,263 Just before you left. 169 00:18:12,180 --> 00:18:13,409 She more than likely won't remember 170 00:18:13,410 --> 00:18:14,710 you either, which is good. 171 00:18:15,990 --> 00:18:17,643 Is it her husband? 172 00:18:18,930 --> 00:18:19,930 It's worse. 173 00:18:21,480 --> 00:18:22,949 It's this narcissistic bastard 174 00:18:22,950 --> 00:18:24,573 who's probably done this before. 175 00:18:27,450 --> 00:18:28,950 She's trapped in this, Julian. 176 00:18:30,840 --> 00:18:34,023 She is completely lost. 177 00:18:35,520 --> 00:18:37,799 I can't figure out if he's completely controlling her 178 00:18:37,800 --> 00:18:40,953 emotionally or something even worse. 179 00:18:42,870 --> 00:18:44,970 I think her marriage is falling apart too. 180 00:18:45,840 --> 00:18:47,009 They don't leave on the first try, Mom. 181 00:18:47,010 --> 00:18:48,010 You know that. 182 00:18:51,876 --> 00:18:53,459 How are you? 183 00:18:53,460 --> 00:18:55,173 It's like it was just yesterday. 184 00:18:57,870 --> 00:19:00,993 Sometimes I could still smell her clothes and laundry. 185 00:19:04,410 --> 00:19:05,810 I don't wanna forget Rachel. 186 00:19:10,050 --> 00:19:13,323 Hey. We won't forget Rachel. 187 00:19:14,852 --> 00:19:17,733 Crystal reminds me of her. 188 00:19:32,310 --> 00:19:33,310 You're bold. 189 00:19:34,290 --> 00:19:38,034 I like that about you. 190 00:19:38,035 --> 00:19:40,031 You mean, like this? 191 00:19:40,032 --> 00:19:42,924 Yeah. 192 00:19:42,925 --> 00:19:45,839 Most women like you don't seem to give a shit. 193 00:19:45,840 --> 00:19:46,840 More of a challenge. 194 00:19:48,360 --> 00:19:49,410 I like the challenge. 195 00:19:57,389 --> 00:19:59,472 My father died, you know. 196 00:20:02,319 --> 00:20:06,449 I'm so sorry. 197 00:20:06,450 --> 00:20:07,450 I know about loss, 198 00:20:09,047 --> 00:20:12,050 about when your heart stays broken in pieces. 199 00:20:14,248 --> 00:20:18,331 We have the same. 200 00:20:19,697 --> 00:20:21,220 I know you're married. 201 00:20:23,665 --> 00:20:24,665 It's okay. 202 00:20:26,024 --> 00:20:27,024 I trust you. 203 00:20:28,470 --> 00:20:30,020 I trust you'll never betray me. 204 00:20:33,394 --> 00:20:35,183 You won't betray me, will you, Crystal? 205 00:20:40,071 --> 00:20:41,071 No. 206 00:20:42,502 --> 00:20:47,502 Good. 207 00:21:01,451 --> 00:21:05,420 ♪ Don't be scared ♪ 208 00:21:05,421 --> 00:21:08,288 ♪ I am right beside you ♪ 209 00:21:08,289 --> 00:21:12,365 ♪ Even if I'm not there ♪ 210 00:21:12,366 --> 00:21:17,366 ♪ I'll be coming home soon ♪ 211 00:21:17,421 --> 00:21:20,928 ♪ Don't be frightened ♪ 212 00:21:20,929 --> 00:21:25,929 ♪ I will slay the monsters in the closet ♪ 213 00:21:26,610 --> 00:21:31,610 ♪ I'm a giant when I put my mind to ♪ 214 00:21:33,127 --> 00:21:36,812 ♪ It's such a scary feeling ♪ 215 00:21:36,813 --> 00:21:41,813 ♪ The hum that's in the air ♪ 216 00:21:42,534 --> 00:21:45,617 ♪ So close your eyes ♪ 217 00:21:52,880 --> 00:21:54,243 He left already? 218 00:21:55,470 --> 00:21:56,520 Morning, Jo. 219 00:22:09,750 --> 00:22:12,063 Hey honey, do we have any more bacon? 220 00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:14,869 We forgot it at the store, babe. 221 00:22:14,870 --> 00:22:16,919 Oh yes, sweet. 222 00:22:16,920 --> 00:22:18,449 Better go out and get some more. 223 00:22:18,450 --> 00:22:20,564 Can't live without bacon, maybe just me. 224 00:22:26,107 --> 00:22:28,046 - Oh, oh, hi! - Hi. 225 00:22:28,047 --> 00:22:28,880 Hi. 226 00:22:28,881 --> 00:22:30,281 Honey, your little friend's here. 227 00:22:32,910 --> 00:22:35,360 Uh, we ain't got no bacon if you want some, girl. 228 00:22:36,840 --> 00:22:38,639 Come on in. 229 00:22:38,640 --> 00:22:40,192 Coffee's already on. 230 00:22:40,193 --> 00:22:41,026 Black? 231 00:22:41,026 --> 00:22:41,859 Yeah, black. 232 00:22:41,859 --> 00:22:42,859 Black it is. 233 00:23:01,231 --> 00:23:04,199 Sorry, sorry, forgot my wallet. 234 00:23:04,200 --> 00:23:06,333 In the sugar container, honey. 235 00:23:06,334 --> 00:23:07,334 - Yeah. - Yeah... 236 00:23:15,300 --> 00:23:17,133 Do you know what love means? 237 00:23:18,600 --> 00:23:21,723 Yes. Yes, I do. 238 00:23:24,786 --> 00:23:27,873 I was married and it wasn't a good one. 239 00:23:29,430 --> 00:23:31,139 Joe Joe and me love each other, Crystal. 240 00:23:31,140 --> 00:23:32,403 It works between us. 241 00:23:37,440 --> 00:23:38,440 Then you know. 242 00:23:45,837 --> 00:23:50,170 I was in love deeply and then it just wasn't good. 243 00:24:15,932 --> 00:24:18,099 You wanna make me happy? 244 00:24:23,430 --> 00:24:25,180 Yeah. You know what makes me happy? 245 00:24:29,460 --> 00:24:30,460 I don't want that. 246 00:24:42,107 --> 00:24:46,190 You know, my father gave everything to my mother? 247 00:24:47,220 --> 00:24:48,320 Bought her everything. 248 00:24:49,860 --> 00:24:52,743 He sold his house to get her this fucking apartment. 249 00:24:56,310 --> 00:24:57,460 She still betrayed him. 250 00:24:59,340 --> 00:25:00,340 She still left. 251 00:25:03,150 --> 00:25:04,150 She betrayed me. 252 00:25:06,520 --> 00:25:07,820 But now everything's mine. 253 00:25:12,540 --> 00:25:14,490 You won't betray me, will you, Crystal? 254 00:25:27,150 --> 00:25:31,473 Crystal, when did you lose your virginity? 255 00:25:35,940 --> 00:25:36,940 I was 15. 256 00:25:40,769 --> 00:25:42,669 You think you're beautiful, Crystal? 257 00:25:44,610 --> 00:25:46,062 No, I wasn't. 258 00:25:46,063 --> 00:25:47,279 I wasn't then in high school. 259 00:25:47,280 --> 00:25:48,873 - You weren't popular. - Yeah. 260 00:25:58,929 --> 00:25:59,929 There. 261 00:26:03,060 --> 00:26:04,060 That's better. 262 00:26:05,490 --> 00:26:07,739 Why are you hiding your body from me, Crystal? 263 00:26:07,740 --> 00:26:08,740 I'm not. 264 00:26:10,562 --> 00:26:11,562 Take it off. 265 00:26:28,875 --> 00:26:31,739 You have such a beautiful body, Crystal. 266 00:26:31,740 --> 00:26:33,090 Do you wanna make me happy? 267 00:26:34,620 --> 00:26:35,620 Yes. 268 00:26:36,390 --> 00:26:37,799 Then don't hide from me, Crystal. 269 00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:39,183 I have no intention to. 270 00:26:44,154 --> 00:26:45,503 Do you want to feel alive? 271 00:26:47,970 --> 00:26:50,823 Do you wanna be popular? 272 00:26:51,900 --> 00:26:52,900 Yes. 273 00:27:04,470 --> 00:27:06,817 I wanna watch you be with other men. 274 00:27:13,346 --> 00:27:15,846 I don't think I can do that. 275 00:27:16,753 --> 00:27:18,173 Don't you wanna make me happy? 276 00:27:22,050 --> 00:27:23,050 Make me happy. 277 00:27:25,770 --> 00:27:28,979 Look at me. Do you love me? 278 00:27:28,980 --> 00:27:30,899 I'll be here, Crystal. 279 00:27:30,900 --> 00:27:32,050 Nothing's gonna happen. 280 00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:34,720 You can let go. 281 00:27:39,570 --> 00:27:40,570 Look at me. 282 00:27:42,840 --> 00:27:43,840 You love me? 283 00:27:45,264 --> 00:27:46,264 Yes. 284 00:27:52,270 --> 00:27:53,733 Feels good, doesn't it? 285 00:27:58,515 --> 00:27:59,348 I know you haven't been touched like that 286 00:27:59,349 --> 00:28:00,813 in a long time, Crystal. 287 00:28:09,930 --> 00:28:10,930 He's waiting. 288 00:28:15,870 --> 00:28:16,870 Don't disappoint. 289 00:29:01,830 --> 00:29:04,709 I need a little tender care. 290 00:29:04,710 --> 00:29:06,010 You ready for some action? 291 00:29:08,520 --> 00:29:09,520 You get my meaning? 292 00:29:14,670 --> 00:29:16,017 Why you so sad, baby? 293 00:29:24,113 --> 00:29:25,833 This is not what I paid for. 294 00:29:26,970 --> 00:29:30,243 Your coldness is still a turn on. 295 00:29:31,704 --> 00:29:34,704 You're going to give me what I want. 296 00:30:33,903 --> 00:30:35,570 You made me happy. 297 00:30:59,528 --> 00:31:01,361 I'm not going crazy. 298 00:31:03,217 --> 00:31:04,612 Look at me! 299 00:31:04,613 --> 00:31:06,663 Don't you give a shit? 300 00:31:10,710 --> 00:31:12,453 I can't even cry anymore. 301 00:31:13,890 --> 00:31:16,743 I can't even cry the tears you refuse to shed. 302 00:31:23,400 --> 00:31:24,850 Where's your wedding dream? 303 00:31:52,138 --> 00:31:53,135 Can you hear me? 304 00:31:53,136 --> 00:31:54,509 Hey, do you mind? 305 00:31:54,510 --> 00:31:56,069 I am in the kitchen doing some stuff. 306 00:31:56,070 --> 00:31:58,103 Can I put you on speaker? - Yeah. 307 00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:06,903 Can you hear me now? 308 00:32:08,310 --> 00:32:10,439 Yeah. What's up? 309 00:32:10,440 --> 00:32:11,440 How's Mike doing? 310 00:32:12,660 --> 00:32:14,943 I don't know. I can't reach him. 311 00:32:17,940 --> 00:32:19,409 Losing a child is the hardest thing 312 00:32:19,410 --> 00:32:20,860 that can go through, Crystal. 313 00:32:21,840 --> 00:32:24,959 You couldn't get pregnant for the longest time. 314 00:32:24,960 --> 00:32:27,843 You know, I can't talk about that. 315 00:32:29,100 --> 00:32:31,150 When you are ready, I am here, Crystal. 316 00:32:35,460 --> 00:32:37,019 Are you there? 317 00:32:37,020 --> 00:32:38,763 Crystal, Crystal? 318 00:32:45,270 --> 00:32:47,050 Something happened to me, Mary 319 00:32:49,200 --> 00:32:51,102 Crystal, I remember when we first met. 320 00:32:51,103 --> 00:32:52,546 I was... 321 00:32:52,547 --> 00:32:57,329 It was such a messed up, my ex dealing with, you know, 322 00:32:57,330 --> 00:32:59,403 having to hide the bruises, the shit. 323 00:33:03,437 --> 00:33:05,703 I didn't have a clue who I was anymore. 324 00:33:08,310 --> 00:33:11,370 Raising two kids and then losing one to that, that monster. 325 00:33:14,291 --> 00:33:17,182 Someone who finally killed one of my kids. 326 00:33:17,183 --> 00:33:19,529 I know, I understand more than you think I do about 327 00:33:19,530 --> 00:33:21,093 what it feels like to be lost. 328 00:33:25,020 --> 00:33:27,839 Crystal, I remember you so full of life, 329 00:33:27,840 --> 00:33:29,249 so happy in your design business. 330 00:33:29,250 --> 00:33:30,393 And when you met Mike, 331 00:33:31,290 --> 00:33:33,240 you finally felt like somebody got you. 332 00:33:35,820 --> 00:33:37,980 Being adopted and not fitting in, 333 00:33:37,981 --> 00:33:41,159 it was hard on you, visibly not being accepted. 334 00:33:41,160 --> 00:33:42,710 I understood all that, Crystal. 335 00:33:44,250 --> 00:33:45,250 Crystal? 336 00:33:46,050 --> 00:33:47,549 Mary, I have to go. 337 00:33:47,550 --> 00:33:48,839 I have to go. 338 00:33:48,840 --> 00:33:50,040 Are you crying? 339 00:33:53,370 --> 00:33:55,079 I have to go, Mary. 340 00:33:55,080 --> 00:33:56,759 Okay. Okay. 341 00:33:56,760 --> 00:33:58,053 We will talk later. 342 00:34:11,970 --> 00:34:12,970 Your thoughts? 343 00:34:14,550 --> 00:34:15,950 I think you're right, mom. 344 00:34:19,530 --> 00:34:22,443 - How can we help? - I have to get to her. 345 00:34:27,630 --> 00:34:28,630 This is crazy. 346 00:34:29,550 --> 00:34:31,773 Make some coffee. We'll talk. 347 00:34:42,360 --> 00:34:43,563 Babe, I need you. 348 00:34:47,430 --> 00:34:48,513 All the others left. 349 00:34:53,160 --> 00:34:55,110 You got to understand, you're my world. 350 00:34:56,670 --> 00:35:00,153 The rest of them, they didn't even know what love is. 351 00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:17,183 My own mother didn't even know how to love me. 352 00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:29,200 Drink. 353 00:35:30,174 --> 00:35:32,413 Pick it up. Pick it up. 354 00:35:59,186 --> 00:36:01,186 Do you know how to love? 355 00:36:03,002 --> 00:36:04,335 Yes. 356 00:36:14,879 --> 00:36:15,879 Do you? 357 00:37:20,190 --> 00:37:21,329 Come on, baby. 358 00:37:21,330 --> 00:37:24,543 Gimme that sweet of yours. 359 00:37:50,801 --> 00:37:53,378 Girl, it's so early in the morning. 360 00:37:53,379 --> 00:37:55,251 You been up to? 361 00:37:55,252 --> 00:37:56,563 Maybe I should... 362 00:37:56,564 --> 00:37:57,981 Can I see Mary? 363 00:37:58,852 --> 00:38:00,359 Are you okay, dear? 364 00:38:00,360 --> 00:38:01,360 Yeah. Yeah. 365 00:38:03,330 --> 00:38:05,376 I think you better come in. 366 00:38:05,377 --> 00:38:06,929 I, I'm, I'm okay. 367 00:38:06,930 --> 00:38:08,090 I'm really... 368 00:38:09,210 --> 00:38:10,739 Mary just stepped out for a minute. 369 00:38:10,740 --> 00:38:12,144 I don't know where she'll be back, 370 00:38:12,145 --> 00:38:12,978 but she will be back, Crystal. 371 00:38:12,978 --> 00:38:13,907 I think it's better for you to come... 372 00:38:13,908 --> 00:38:15,303 I need to see Mary. 373 00:38:16,470 --> 00:38:17,879 Crystal, she just went around the corner. 374 00:38:17,880 --> 00:38:19,553 I think it's better if you come in. 375 00:38:21,060 --> 00:38:22,060 Crystal, wait! 376 00:38:37,560 --> 00:38:39,110 Was that Crystal up the road? 377 00:38:40,980 --> 00:38:42,976 Yeah. She was asking for you. 378 00:38:42,977 --> 00:38:45,767 She, she looked like she really wanted to talk to you. 379 00:38:48,353 --> 00:38:52,270 She's where I was, Joe Joe, before I met you. 380 00:38:59,606 --> 00:39:00,939 Don't do that. 381 00:39:04,500 --> 00:39:05,500 Come here. 382 00:39:19,680 --> 00:39:22,293 You have such a deep capacity to love, don't you? 383 00:39:27,045 --> 00:39:28,577 I need that from you right now. 384 00:39:40,512 --> 00:39:41,512 No. 385 00:39:46,938 --> 00:39:48,058 What are you thinking about? 386 00:39:49,980 --> 00:39:51,130 You thinking about him? 387 00:39:56,250 --> 00:39:57,250 Just curious. 388 00:40:08,430 --> 00:40:09,930 I don't give a shit about him. 389 00:40:12,150 --> 00:40:13,150 Do you? 390 00:40:22,620 --> 00:40:23,770 Does he do this to you? 391 00:40:36,537 --> 00:40:39,093 Now you need to learn how to please not just me. 392 00:40:42,330 --> 00:40:44,279 Haven't I been doing that? 393 00:40:44,280 --> 00:40:45,903 Haven't I been making you happy? 394 00:40:47,310 --> 00:40:49,478 Pleased? 395 00:40:49,479 --> 00:40:53,099 I, I, I want... 396 00:40:53,100 --> 00:40:54,663 You want to make me happy. 397 00:40:56,580 --> 00:40:57,580 I'll teach you. 398 00:41:00,120 --> 00:41:02,220 I'll teach you to be how I know you to be. 399 00:42:02,276 --> 00:42:03,943 Sit down, Crystal. 400 00:42:14,725 --> 00:42:16,203 Do you think I'm that stupid? 401 00:42:17,160 --> 00:42:18,573 I can smell his sex on you. 402 00:42:23,880 --> 00:42:25,863 You changed after the baby's dead. 403 00:42:27,330 --> 00:42:28,979 We changed. 404 00:42:28,980 --> 00:42:30,963 I went to work. You didn't. 405 00:42:32,250 --> 00:42:35,943 You became more isolated and we lost each other. 406 00:42:42,030 --> 00:42:46,173 I can't stand by and accept a half marriage. 407 00:42:50,040 --> 00:42:52,340 I realize you never got over our baby's death. 408 00:42:54,810 --> 00:42:56,163 Honestly, I didn't either. 409 00:43:05,040 --> 00:43:06,640 There's nothing for me to say. 410 00:43:11,028 --> 00:43:12,914 Is this what you want? 411 00:43:12,915 --> 00:43:15,498 Is this what you want, Crystal? 412 00:43:27,510 --> 00:43:28,710 I can't do this anymore. 413 00:43:31,590 --> 00:43:33,390 I'm leaving for the states for a job 414 00:43:35,310 --> 00:43:36,560 and I am not coming back. 415 00:43:57,960 --> 00:43:59,403 Did you love me, Crystal? 416 00:44:15,576 --> 00:44:17,576 This is how I see you. 417 00:44:18,600 --> 00:44:20,050 This is how I want you to be. 418 00:44:22,020 --> 00:44:24,767 This is how I need you to be for me. 419 00:44:31,438 --> 00:44:34,188 This how I need you to be for me. 420 00:44:41,409 --> 00:44:44,659 This is how you will remain in my eyes. 421 00:44:45,690 --> 00:44:49,323 Hold me. I wanna be held. 422 00:44:50,190 --> 00:44:52,679 I want to be touched with care. 423 00:44:52,680 --> 00:44:55,863 I wanna know I'm real in your eyes, Clive. 424 00:44:57,990 --> 00:44:59,843 You wanna do something for me, baby? 425 00:45:02,580 --> 00:45:03,580 Walk for me. 426 00:45:11,940 --> 00:45:12,940 Please? 427 00:45:17,190 --> 00:45:21,930 Please, please what? 428 00:45:29,530 --> 00:45:31,530 I don't wanna do this. 429 00:45:39,780 --> 00:45:41,080 See what you made me do? 430 00:45:46,740 --> 00:45:49,019 You don't want me to hurt you, do you? 431 00:45:49,020 --> 00:45:50,020 I love you. 432 00:45:52,530 --> 00:45:53,530 Make me happy. 433 00:45:58,230 --> 00:46:01,413 You will do this for me. 434 00:46:05,206 --> 00:46:09,013 You will make me happy. 435 00:47:03,205 --> 00:47:04,205 Hello. 436 00:47:05,895 --> 00:47:06,935 How'd you get this number? 437 00:47:08,220 --> 00:47:09,573 Frank Port. 438 00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:12,509 You new in town, bro? 439 00:47:12,510 --> 00:47:13,960 Yeah. I'm looking. 440 00:47:15,090 --> 00:47:16,090 What's your taste? 441 00:47:18,660 --> 00:47:19,960 Small waist. 442 00:47:20,910 --> 00:47:24,959 Maybe you could say a new flavor of vanilla if you got one. 443 00:47:24,960 --> 00:47:26,849 You into the exotic? 444 00:47:26,850 --> 00:47:29,399 Yeah, man. She does anything special. 445 00:47:29,400 --> 00:47:30,233 I like a little extra. 446 00:47:30,234 --> 00:47:33,288 And by the way, Boulder's okay. 447 00:47:33,289 --> 00:47:34,122 Okay. 448 00:47:34,123 --> 00:47:36,929 Well, it depends on what you mean by special. 449 00:47:36,930 --> 00:47:39,839 That's what I'm clueing in on. It's extra. 450 00:47:39,840 --> 00:47:42,389 - How much are we talking? - 600. 451 00:47:42,390 --> 00:47:44,189 Whoa, that's a bit much, man. 452 00:47:44,190 --> 00:47:47,759 Hey man, that pussy's worth it. 453 00:47:47,760 --> 00:47:49,559 She won't disappoint. 454 00:47:49,560 --> 00:47:51,560 She'll do anything your dick wants, man. 455 00:47:53,016 --> 00:47:54,743 Well, hold up. 456 00:47:54,744 --> 00:47:56,889 Steve has five bills. 457 00:47:56,890 --> 00:47:59,279 Yeah, I haven't got no complaints so far, man. 458 00:47:59,280 --> 00:48:02,009 So she's worth it. 459 00:48:02,010 --> 00:48:05,219 And believe me, if I got some complaints, 460 00:48:05,220 --> 00:48:07,383 and if I did, she'd pay for it. 461 00:48:09,082 --> 00:48:10,319 Okay. 462 00:48:10,320 --> 00:48:12,179 That special. Cool. 463 00:48:12,180 --> 00:48:15,213 Hey bro, she's clean. I promise. 464 00:48:17,070 --> 00:48:19,383 Any way you wanna fuck is good by her. 465 00:48:21,330 --> 00:48:22,330 We have a deal? 466 00:48:23,250 --> 00:48:24,250 Yeah. 467 00:48:25,380 --> 00:48:26,380 That's cash. 468 00:48:29,100 --> 00:48:32,293 9:00 PM Pine Valley Hotel, Room 15. 469 00:48:43,943 --> 00:48:48,943 It's time for your next hookup, baby. 470 00:49:27,474 --> 00:49:29,324 You know, he heard how good you were. 471 00:49:31,418 --> 00:49:34,936 It's... - Fucking? 472 00:49:34,937 --> 00:49:39,857 Yeah. 473 00:49:39,858 --> 00:49:42,142 You know what to do. 474 00:49:42,143 --> 00:49:43,383 Wait in 15. 475 00:50:30,971 --> 00:50:33,638 Hey sweetie. You wanna get in? 476 00:50:34,616 --> 00:50:36,124 Ready for a good time? 477 00:50:36,125 --> 00:50:38,249 I'm ready for whatever you got. 478 00:50:38,250 --> 00:50:39,700 Ready to show me a good time? 479 00:50:50,250 --> 00:50:51,935 What are you looking at? 480 00:50:51,936 --> 00:50:53,769 Oh, nothing but you. 481 00:50:59,723 --> 00:51:01,893 This guy, I know he's watching. 482 00:51:03,450 --> 00:51:06,243 Let's just play along and give him what he wants. 483 00:51:15,494 --> 00:51:18,333 Who are you really? 484 00:51:36,957 --> 00:51:38,543 - Are you cold? - Yeah. 485 00:51:48,609 --> 00:51:52,409 Look, you're gonna have to stay the night, Crystal. 486 00:51:52,410 --> 00:51:55,113 Look, I know all about you Crystal. 487 00:51:57,060 --> 00:51:58,413 I'm Mary B's son. 488 00:52:01,601 --> 00:52:03,929 That was so long ago. 489 00:52:03,930 --> 00:52:07,383 Yeah. She knew you needed help, Crystal. 490 00:52:09,210 --> 00:52:11,459 So I tracked you down and I made a deal with your guy. 491 00:52:11,460 --> 00:52:13,709 That guy. - I can't stay here. 492 00:52:13,710 --> 00:52:15,119 We had hurt you. 493 00:52:15,120 --> 00:52:17,069 - Yes. - I know. 494 00:52:17,070 --> 00:52:18,749 It's no worries. 495 00:52:18,750 --> 00:52:21,719 I put up a bit of change for your services for the night, 496 00:52:21,720 --> 00:52:24,149 but now you need to make a decision. 497 00:52:24,150 --> 00:52:25,649 I'm afraid. 498 00:52:25,650 --> 00:52:26,825 Of him? 499 00:52:26,826 --> 00:52:29,883 Yes. I can't stay here. 500 00:52:31,826 --> 00:52:34,139 Like I said, I paid for the night. 501 00:52:34,140 --> 00:52:36,179 You're safe here for now, Crystal. 502 00:52:36,180 --> 00:52:38,999 In the morning, you can decide what you want to do. 503 00:52:39,000 --> 00:52:42,157 I'll get you something warm and also something to eat, okay? 504 00:52:47,310 --> 00:52:48,460 Wanna know something? 505 00:52:54,720 --> 00:52:59,720 Every time he touched me, every time he made me have sex, 506 00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:07,683 I imagined my husband was touching me. 507 00:53:09,330 --> 00:53:10,330 I... 508 00:53:12,240 --> 00:53:14,193 I imagined my husband was loving me. 509 00:53:27,900 --> 00:53:28,900 Hm... 510 00:53:32,580 --> 00:53:34,469 Hey, morning. 511 00:53:34,470 --> 00:53:35,823 Mind if I sit here? 512 00:53:36,684 --> 00:53:38,021 Yeah. 513 00:53:38,022 --> 00:53:39,599 Did you, uh, did you sleep? 514 00:53:39,600 --> 00:53:40,600 Just a little. 515 00:53:42,030 --> 00:53:44,819 I made a little breakfast if you like. 516 00:53:44,820 --> 00:53:46,229 Just a coffee. 517 00:53:46,230 --> 00:53:48,539 Okay, well, let's not make any definite plans 518 00:53:48,540 --> 00:53:49,949 yet Crystal, okay? 519 00:53:49,950 --> 00:53:51,449 My mom's gonna get me all the details to make sure 520 00:53:51,450 --> 00:53:53,463 that you're safe. 521 00:54:10,220 --> 00:54:14,553 Hey, Crystal, could you come over here for a second? 522 00:54:36,780 --> 00:54:39,303 - What's this for? - It's to keep you safe. 523 00:54:50,070 --> 00:54:51,719 I was a fool. 524 00:54:51,720 --> 00:54:53,763 Hey, we all make mistakes. 525 00:54:57,030 --> 00:55:02,030 I was never liked. So how could I expect to be loved? 526 00:55:06,510 --> 00:55:08,510 I knew it was wrong to be be with Clive. 527 00:55:11,550 --> 00:55:15,573 There's nothing wrong, Crystal, with wanting to be loved. 528 00:55:28,260 --> 00:55:29,343 I can't lose you. 529 00:55:33,330 --> 00:55:35,943 You'll never betray me, will you Crystal? 530 00:56:09,847 --> 00:56:11,597 I'm intrigued by you. 531 00:56:16,612 --> 00:56:19,445 Did you love me, Crystal? 532 00:56:29,599 --> 00:56:33,899 We have the same hurt, the same. 533 00:56:33,900 --> 00:56:36,790 ♪ Motherless child ♪ 534 00:56:36,791 --> 00:56:41,791 ♪ Ooh, sometimes I feel like a motherless child ♪ 535 00:56:43,164 --> 00:56:44,497 Don't lie to me. 536 00:56:48,381 --> 00:56:51,559 ♪ Sometimes I feel like a mother ♪ 537 00:56:53,343 --> 00:56:58,343 ♪ Motherless child ♪ 538 00:56:58,703 --> 00:57:01,953 ♪ A long way from home ♪ 539 00:57:17,192 --> 00:57:22,109 ♪ Sometimes I feel like a motherless child ♪ 540 00:57:27,477 --> 00:57:32,394 ♪ Sometimes I feel like a motherless child ♪ 541 00:57:35,856 --> 00:57:37,177 Want to make me happy? 542 00:57:37,178 --> 00:57:41,261 ♪ Sometimes I feel like a mother ♪ 543 00:58:09,510 --> 00:58:11,669 Baby, where are you? 544 00:58:11,670 --> 00:58:13,319 This is not like you. 545 00:58:13,320 --> 00:58:14,913 I need you baby. Babe. 546 00:58:15,870 --> 00:58:17,249 Don't you love me? 547 00:58:17,250 --> 00:58:18,300 You better answer me. 548 00:58:44,891 --> 00:58:46,992 Did you hear me? - I did. 549 00:58:46,993 --> 00:58:47,993 I missed you. 550 00:58:50,640 --> 00:58:52,140 I missed everything about you. 551 00:58:54,720 --> 00:58:55,720 I love you. 552 00:58:58,740 --> 00:58:59,740 You the same? 553 00:59:11,370 --> 00:59:14,699 Your silence is not making me happy, baby. 554 00:59:14,700 --> 00:59:19,683 Why, what? 555 00:59:22,110 --> 00:59:24,689 There's a contract to our relationship. 556 00:59:24,690 --> 00:59:25,859 What? 557 00:59:25,860 --> 00:59:27,430 You making me into your sex slave 558 00:59:27,431 --> 00:59:29,033 and I'm supposed to be happy with that? 559 00:59:33,360 --> 00:59:34,810 This isn't making me happy. 560 00:59:36,360 --> 00:59:37,660 I'm not liking this, baby. 561 00:59:54,540 --> 00:59:55,913 You're not making me happy. 562 01:00:12,408 --> 01:00:13,241 You have to. 563 01:00:13,242 --> 01:00:15,633 I own you. I own everything. 564 01:00:16,862 --> 01:00:19,941 I own your body, own your soul! 565 01:00:25,090 --> 01:00:26,507 I own everything. 566 01:00:39,840 --> 01:00:40,840 You betrayed me. 567 01:00:43,952 --> 01:00:44,952 Ah! 568 01:00:49,048 --> 01:00:51,798 I don't need your love anymore. 569 01:02:01,947 --> 01:02:06,530 Help me, help me. 570 01:02:41,084 --> 01:02:42,084 Crystal? 571 01:03:00,903 --> 01:03:02,070 There you go. 572 01:03:09,642 --> 01:03:13,142 Hey, it's okay, come on, come on, come on. 573 01:03:18,726 --> 01:03:22,304 I know, I know, I know, shhh, go ahead. 574 01:03:22,305 --> 01:03:24,055 It's okay, it's okay. 575 01:03:39,696 --> 01:03:40,696 Shit! 576 01:03:41,451 --> 01:03:42,851 I'll get some, I'll get some water. 577 01:03:47,447 --> 01:03:49,082 Right, right. 578 01:03:49,915 --> 01:03:50,748 I know, I know. I'm sorry. 579 01:03:50,748 --> 01:03:51,748 I know it hurts. 580 01:03:57,990 --> 01:03:59,249 It's my fault. 581 01:03:59,250 --> 01:04:00,993 No, Crystal. It's on him. 582 01:04:03,600 --> 01:04:04,713 It's okay. I'm sorry. 583 01:04:05,550 --> 01:04:07,139 Look, there are people who are willing to help you. 584 01:04:07,140 --> 01:04:08,140 Okay? 585 01:04:09,030 --> 01:04:10,856 There's nothing to be ashamed of. 586 01:04:10,857 --> 01:04:15,449 Why do, why do we hate ourselves so much 587 01:04:15,450 --> 01:04:17,073 that we break our own hearts? 588 01:04:18,150 --> 01:04:19,500 Do you want this to stop? 589 01:04:22,200 --> 01:04:23,223 I loved him. 590 01:04:24,060 --> 01:04:25,310 You think this is love? 591 01:04:26,190 --> 01:04:27,467 I did. I did. 592 01:04:29,010 --> 01:04:33,483 I wanted love so much that I, that it caused this. 593 01:04:36,330 --> 01:04:37,880 I'm making the call, Crystal, 594 01:04:41,820 --> 01:04:43,613 I'm glad you're here for this, Joe. 595 01:04:49,140 --> 01:04:51,003 And this is a hard thing, Mary. 596 01:04:52,230 --> 01:04:53,630 I can tell you love Crystal. 597 01:04:54,570 --> 01:04:55,920 She needs to know that now. 598 01:04:58,140 --> 01:04:59,190 It's hard to think. 599 01:05:01,419 --> 01:05:03,216 I mean, in reality, 600 01:05:03,217 --> 01:05:05,217 I don't think she's ever been cared for. 601 01:05:07,080 --> 01:05:08,543 You know what I'm going to say. 602 01:05:12,600 --> 01:05:15,350 Crystal has never in her life felt like she belonged. 603 01:05:16,449 --> 01:05:18,059 The baby was a chance for her to be connected in a way 604 01:05:18,060 --> 01:05:19,143 she's never felt. 605 01:05:21,870 --> 01:05:25,113 When it was lost, she spiraled down into that, 606 01:05:26,891 --> 01:05:29,369 that desperation to be validated by any means, Jo, 607 01:05:29,370 --> 01:05:30,693 and I feel so guilty. 608 01:05:31,800 --> 01:05:33,573 I couldn't do anything to stop it. 609 01:05:35,010 --> 01:05:36,460 You did everything you can. 610 01:05:50,040 --> 01:05:51,153 Good night. 611 01:05:51,154 --> 01:05:52,154 , Jo. 612 01:05:52,950 --> 01:05:53,950 Please be careful. 613 01:06:08,670 --> 01:06:10,679 I have a message for you. 614 01:06:10,680 --> 01:06:12,963 Leave Crystal alone. 615 01:06:29,580 --> 01:06:32,399 All right, let's head inside. 616 01:06:32,400 --> 01:06:33,991 Mom wants to have a little talk. 617 01:06:36,024 --> 01:06:37,024 - Okay. - Okay. 618 01:07:04,590 --> 01:07:05,613 Come in, Crystal. 619 01:07:12,360 --> 01:07:15,750 Crystal, you need to know. 620 01:07:46,830 --> 01:07:48,483 He's not coming back, Crystal. 621 01:07:53,160 --> 01:07:55,593 I got on that plane and he's not coming back. 622 01:08:03,420 --> 01:08:07,679 Life keeps moving forward, and you can't stop 623 01:08:07,680 --> 01:08:09,123 and be left in the dust. 624 01:08:19,230 --> 01:08:20,973 We never stopped caring. 625 01:08:23,340 --> 01:08:24,963 We never stopped loving you. 626 01:08:34,536 --> 01:08:36,437 I'm lost, Mary. 627 01:08:36,438 --> 01:08:37,688 You are definitely not. 628 01:08:39,540 --> 01:08:44,540 I tried so hard to find the love I wanted. 629 01:08:50,850 --> 01:08:53,973 I kept hoping he loved me, Mike. 630 01:08:55,680 --> 01:08:58,593 I didn't really know myself enough. 631 01:08:59,820 --> 01:09:03,093 I guess I didn't really understand what love is. 632 01:09:21,840 --> 01:09:24,190 My mom called me because she cared about you. 633 01:09:26,520 --> 01:09:29,070 I did some of the things that you've done, Crystal, 634 01:09:30,540 --> 01:09:33,963 continuing the hurt after my sister died. 635 01:09:36,030 --> 01:09:40,383 Continuing the pain to, to try and escape. 636 01:09:42,450 --> 01:09:44,050 I learned my mistakes from that. 637 01:09:46,380 --> 01:09:48,193 It's time for you to do the same. 638 01:09:55,493 --> 01:09:58,263 Crystal, there's something I need you to understand. 639 01:09:59,460 --> 01:10:01,799 No matter what happens out there, 640 01:10:01,800 --> 01:10:04,649 whenever you step foot in this house, I want you to know 641 01:10:04,650 --> 01:10:07,413 that you are loved, that you're cared for. 642 01:10:10,230 --> 01:10:11,230 Are you ready? 643 01:10:12,900 --> 01:10:14,073 What should I do now? 644 01:10:31,110 --> 01:10:34,019 It's your choice, Crystal. 645 01:10:34,020 --> 01:10:35,220 Hope again without fear. 646 01:10:37,620 --> 01:10:38,913 Can he find me here? 647 01:10:40,380 --> 01:10:44,913 He's gone from your life, but we're not going anywhere. 648 01:10:46,530 --> 01:10:47,530 We're here for you. 649 01:10:49,170 --> 01:10:51,770 You can stay here until you find your footing again. 650 01:10:53,100 --> 01:10:57,989 People here, they've dealt with the same fear, 651 01:10:57,990 --> 01:10:58,990 the same pain. 652 01:11:00,272 --> 01:11:01,272 But you can too. 653 01:11:03,240 --> 01:11:04,790 They'll help you to heal again. 654 01:11:07,050 --> 01:11:09,093 You are never alone, Crystal. 655 01:11:10,860 --> 01:11:13,229 We don't choose who we love, but we choose how we can 656 01:11:13,230 --> 01:11:14,793 and will love ourselves. 657 01:11:15,930 --> 01:11:19,897 I love you, Crystal. 658 01:11:30,805 --> 01:11:32,722 You are loved, Crystal. 659 01:11:35,430 --> 01:11:36,483 It's a fresh start. 660 01:11:39,960 --> 01:11:44,960 My dad was an abuser, is an abuser. 661 01:11:46,860 --> 01:11:48,123 That's why we understand. 662 01:11:50,880 --> 01:11:54,003 Every life we save is a testament to my sister's life. 663 01:11:58,290 --> 01:11:59,763 I had a daughter once. 664 01:12:03,630 --> 01:12:04,630 We lost her. 665 01:12:05,820 --> 01:12:07,533 I didn't wanna lose a friend too. 666 01:12:09,556 --> 01:12:13,118 I'm so sorry. I didn't know, Mary. 667 01:12:13,119 --> 01:12:16,202 I'm your friend and always will be. 668 01:12:18,066 --> 01:12:20,609 You are loved so much more than you ever realized. 669 01:12:20,610 --> 01:12:23,283 Now you need to know that for yourself. 670 01:12:27,614 --> 01:12:28,614 Okay. 671 01:12:40,830 --> 01:12:41,853 Don't look back. 672 01:12:46,620 --> 01:12:48,333 It's a long walk back from fear. 673 01:13:04,080 --> 01:13:06,363 Crystal, do you know what love is? 674 01:13:08,760 --> 01:13:11,369 When you love yourself enough 675 01:13:11,370 --> 01:13:12,917 to then love another. 676 01:14:59,912 --> 01:15:01,037 Crystal. 677 01:15:01,038 --> 01:15:05,650 What do you see? 678 01:15:05,651 --> 01:15:06,901 I see beauty. 679 01:15:08,872 --> 01:15:11,705 I see a woman who knows her worth. 680 01:15:13,886 --> 01:15:15,303 Can you see me? 681 01:15:24,850 --> 01:15:29,683 Crystal, I'll never tell you what you need to be for me. 682 01:15:36,526 --> 01:15:38,776 I love you for who you are. 683 01:15:51,632 --> 01:15:52,715 I love you. 684 01:15:53,305 --> 01:16:53,195