"My 600-lb Life" Susan's Story

1 00:00:02,467 --> 00:00:05,400 Susan: I DON'T LIKE LOOKING AT MYSELF. 2 00:00:05,400 --> 00:00:10,067 [ Voice breaking ] ALL I SEE IS A FAT GLOB. 3 00:00:13,800 --> 00:00:16,033 I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE. 4 00:00:16,033 --> 00:00:19,833 I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON MY WORST ENEMY. 5 00:00:19,833 --> 00:00:23,667 I HATE THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE. 6 00:00:31,900 --> 00:00:34,633 DON'T YOU DARE PUT IT ALL OFF ON ME! 7 00:00:34,633 --> 00:00:37,800 SHE IS GOING TO DIE, PERIOD. 8 00:00:37,800 --> 00:00:39,600 MOM, JUST STOP! 9 00:00:42,267 --> 00:00:44,200 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE GOT TO CORRECT THIS PROBLEM. 10 00:00:44,200 --> 00:00:47,900 OTHERWISE, SURGERY WOULD NOT BE USEFUL FOR YOU. 11 00:00:47,900 --> 00:00:50,200 [ Voice breaking ] I CAN'T DO THIS 12 00:00:50,200 --> 00:00:52,667 WITHOUT SOMEBODY TO HELP ME SAY "NO." 13 00:00:56,400 --> 00:00:58,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'RE NOT 100% SURE WHAT'S WRONG, 14 00:00:58,733 --> 00:01:00,533 BUT SHE MAY END UP PARALYZED. 15 00:01:00,533 --> 00:01:03,733 [ Voice breaking ] IT SCARES THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME! 16 00:01:03,733 --> 00:01:05,867 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 17 00:01:05,867 --> 00:01:08,067 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 18 00:01:11,367 --> 00:01:14,700 Susan: IT'S A LOT HARDER TO CHANGE THAN YOU EVER REALIZED. 19 00:01:14,700 --> 00:01:17,867 YOU JUST HAVE TO HOPE IT'S NOT TOO LATE 20 00:01:17,867 --> 00:01:19,833 AND TRY AS HARD AS YOU CAN TO DO IT. 21 00:01:21,000 --> 00:01:27,074 Do you want subtitles for any video? -=[ ai.OpenSubtitles.com ]=- 22 00:01:30,867 --> 00:01:32,967 [ MATTRESS CREAKING ] 23 00:01:32,967 --> 00:01:35,700 LIFE IS MISERABLE. 24 00:01:40,167 --> 00:01:45,367 I HURT ALL THE TIME, SO I DON'T GET UP MUCH. 25 00:01:45,367 --> 00:01:50,733 WITH ME HAVING THIS BIG STOMACH, IT PULLS ON ME SO BAD, 26 00:01:50,733 --> 00:01:55,367 AND IT FEELS LIKE MY SKIN IS ON FIRE 27 00:01:55,367 --> 00:01:58,467 AND IT'S JUST GONNA MELT. 28 00:01:58,467 --> 00:02:01,767 I HAVE TROUBLE BREATHING, ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M WALKING. 29 00:02:01,767 --> 00:02:04,067 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 30 00:02:06,900 --> 00:02:10,867 I HAVE TO TAKE BABY STEPS BECAUSE I'M AFRAID OF FALLING. 31 00:02:10,867 --> 00:02:12,167 [ COUGHS ] 32 00:02:12,167 --> 00:02:16,867 AND IF I FELL, THERE'S NOTHING ANYBODY COULD DO FOR ME. 33 00:02:19,233 --> 00:02:23,200 I DON'T LIKE LOOKING AT MYSELF, 34 00:02:23,200 --> 00:02:25,600 SO I DON'T LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR. 35 00:02:28,167 --> 00:02:29,667 [ WATER RUNNING ] 36 00:02:29,667 --> 00:02:32,100 TO ME, I'M FAT AND UGLY. 37 00:02:37,700 --> 00:02:42,967 [ Voice breaking ] ALL I SEE IS A FAT GLOB. 38 00:02:42,967 --> 00:02:44,733 [ SNIFFLES ] 39 00:02:49,333 --> 00:02:52,700 I'M JUST DISGUSTED OF THE WAY I LOOK. 40 00:02:59,667 --> 00:03:02,067 I HATE MYSELF. 41 00:03:07,200 --> 00:03:09,400 MY WEIGHT IS GETTING TO A POINT 42 00:03:09,400 --> 00:03:12,500 WHERE I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF MYSELF ANYMORE. 43 00:03:12,500 --> 00:03:15,700 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 44 00:03:15,700 --> 00:03:17,200 I LIVE WITH MY MOTHER, 45 00:03:17,200 --> 00:03:20,367 AND SHE HAS TO TAKE CARE OF ME MOST OF THE TIME. 46 00:03:20,367 --> 00:03:23,600 [ Breathlessly ] OKAY. I NEED YOU TO PUT THOSE ON. 47 00:03:23,600 --> 00:03:26,500 Nita: SUSAN'S ALWAYS BEEN MY BABY. 48 00:03:26,500 --> 00:03:28,533 SHE'S NEVER LIVED ON HER OWN. 49 00:03:28,533 --> 00:03:30,433 SHE'S ALWAYS LIVED WITH ME. 50 00:03:30,433 --> 00:03:34,233 AND I'VE ALWAYS HAD TO TAKE CARE OF HER. 51 00:03:36,733 --> 00:03:38,967 YOU GOT YOUR SHOES? 52 00:03:38,967 --> 00:03:41,467 GROWING UP, SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN OVERWEIGHT. 53 00:03:41,467 --> 00:03:43,567 I KEPT THINKING AS SHE GOT OLDER, 54 00:03:43,567 --> 00:03:44,733 SHE WOULD LOSE IT. 55 00:03:44,733 --> 00:03:46,067 BUT SHE DIDN'T. 56 00:03:46,067 --> 00:03:50,200 SHE JUST KEPT ON AND KEPT ON AND JUST GOT BIGGER. 57 00:03:51,333 --> 00:03:55,067 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 58 00:03:55,067 --> 00:03:56,400 I WOULD JUST EAT. 59 00:03:56,400 --> 00:03:59,600 I DON'T KNOW IF I WAS EATING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. 60 00:03:59,600 --> 00:04:03,633 I JUST ATE 'CAUSE THE FOOD WAS THERE. 61 00:04:03,633 --> 00:04:06,967 Nita: WHEN SUSAN WAS ABOUT 4 OR 5, 62 00:04:06,967 --> 00:04:09,400 ME AND HER DAD STARTED FIGHTING A LOT. 63 00:04:09,400 --> 00:04:11,733 HE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC. 64 00:04:11,733 --> 00:04:16,833 HE WOULD COME HOME DRUNK, AND SOMEBODY WAS GONNA GET HIT. 65 00:04:16,833 --> 00:04:18,833 IT WAS EITHER ME OR SUSAN. 66 00:04:18,833 --> 00:04:23,600 Stephanie: I THINK THAT SUSAN WAS UNHAPPY GROWING UP. 67 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:27,600 SHE PROBABLY WANTED MORE FROM MY DAD THAN WHAT SHE GOT. 68 00:04:27,600 --> 00:04:31,233 Nita: WHEN SUSAN WOULD GET UPSET, 69 00:04:31,233 --> 00:04:32,667 I WOULD GO TO THE STORE. 70 00:04:32,667 --> 00:04:35,433 IF SHE WANTED ICE CREAM OR IF SHE WANTED CANDY, 71 00:04:35,433 --> 00:04:36,767 I'D GO BUY IT FOR HER. 72 00:04:36,767 --> 00:04:39,067 FOOD WAS HER COMFORT. 73 00:04:39,067 --> 00:04:41,067 THAT WAS HER WAY OF ESCAPING. 74 00:04:43,700 --> 00:04:45,733 Susan: AS I GOT OLDER, 75 00:04:45,733 --> 00:04:48,933 I JUST STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT. 76 00:04:48,933 --> 00:04:54,067 BUT IT ALL GOT WORSE WHEN I WAS 17. 77 00:04:54,067 --> 00:04:56,733 Nita: HER DAD WAS DRUNK. 78 00:04:56,733 --> 00:04:58,400 [ SNIFFLES ] 79 00:04:58,400 --> 00:05:00,500 AND HE STARTED YELLING AND SCREAMING AT ME. 80 00:05:00,500 --> 00:05:03,200 HE GOT HIS RIFLE. 81 00:05:03,200 --> 00:05:06,333 SUSAN AND STEPHANIE GOT IN THE MIDDLE AND TOLD HIM, 82 00:05:06,333 --> 00:05:08,367 "DAD, IF YOU SHOOT, YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO SHOOT ME." 83 00:05:08,367 --> 00:05:11,333 [ SOBS ] 84 00:05:11,333 --> 00:05:14,533 [ Voice breaking ] SO HE PUT THE GUN DOWN, AND HE LEFT. 85 00:05:16,567 --> 00:05:21,300 THAT'S WHEN I WENT AHEAD AND FILED FOR DIVORCE. 86 00:05:21,300 --> 00:05:24,900 Susan: WHEN MY PARENTS DIVORCED, IT WAS HARD. 87 00:05:24,900 --> 00:05:30,500 AND [SIGHS] I DID START PUTTING ON MORE WEIGHT. 88 00:05:30,500 --> 00:05:33,233 Stephanie: THAT HURT SUSAN 89 00:05:33,233 --> 00:05:37,200 WORSE THAN PROBABLY ANYTHING HAS EVER HURT HER. 90 00:05:37,200 --> 00:05:40,400 IT WAS ABSOLUTELY A BREAKING POINT FOR HER. 91 00:05:40,400 --> 00:05:42,567 I NEED TWO BURGERS, 92 00:05:42,567 --> 00:05:45,300 AND THEN A SPICY CHICKEN SANDWICH. 93 00:05:45,300 --> 00:05:47,333 Woman: OKAY. A REGULAR FRY. 94 00:05:47,333 --> 00:05:50,767 IT'S BEEN OVER 20 YEARS, 95 00:05:50,767 --> 00:05:55,600 AND SHE HAS JUST BEEN ANGRY -- ANGRY AT THE WORLD. 96 00:05:57,067 --> 00:05:58,200 THANK YOU. 97 00:05:58,200 --> 00:05:59,767 CAN I ASK WHY IT WAS SO LONG? 98 00:05:59,767 --> 00:06:00,967 I'M SORRY? 99 00:06:00,967 --> 00:06:02,100 CAN I ASK WHY IT WAS SO LONG? 100 00:06:02,100 --> 00:06:03,600 'CAUSE YOU HAVE OTHER PEOPLE BEHIND THERE. 101 00:06:03,600 --> 00:06:04,633 [ HORN HONKS ] 102 00:06:04,633 --> 00:06:07,667 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. 103 00:06:07,667 --> 00:06:09,900 UNBELIEVABLE. 104 00:06:09,900 --> 00:06:11,300 [ LAUGHS ] 105 00:06:11,300 --> 00:06:14,067 Susan: WHEN MY DAD LEFT MY MOM... 106 00:06:14,067 --> 00:06:16,767 I WAS MAD, AND I WAS...HURT. 107 00:06:18,100 --> 00:06:20,233 [ Voice breaking ] I WAS SAD. 108 00:06:22,133 --> 00:06:26,733 NOW I THINK I AM USING FOOD TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. 109 00:06:26,733 --> 00:06:29,167 Nita: SUSAN STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT, 110 00:06:29,167 --> 00:06:31,600 AND SHE JUST HASN'T STOPPED. 111 00:06:31,600 --> 00:06:34,067 SHE JUST KEEPS GETTING BIGGER AND BIGGER. 112 00:06:35,600 --> 00:06:38,600 Stephanie: EVERY DAY HAS GOTTEN A LITTLE BIT WORSE. 113 00:06:38,600 --> 00:06:41,767 I FEEL LIKE, EVEN NOW, SHE'S JUST WAITING. 114 00:06:41,767 --> 00:06:43,500 MAYBE THEY'LL GET BACK TOGETHER. 115 00:06:43,500 --> 00:06:46,633 MAYBE, YOU KNOW, SHE'LL HAVE HER FAMILY BACK. 116 00:06:46,633 --> 00:06:50,067 SOMETIMES, I LOOK AT HER LIKE SHE'S LIVING LIKE A KID 117 00:06:50,067 --> 00:06:52,733 BECAUSE SHE HAS NOT MOVED PAST THAT. 118 00:06:52,733 --> 00:06:54,400 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 119 00:06:54,400 --> 00:06:55,833 Stephanie: IT'S ALMOST LIKE 120 00:06:55,833 --> 00:06:58,100 SHE STOPPED LIVING HER LIFE AT THAT POINT. 121 00:06:58,100 --> 00:07:00,767 [ Voice breaking ] I'M AFRAID THAT, 122 00:07:00,767 --> 00:07:03,167 IF SUSAN DOESN'T GET SOME HELP, 123 00:07:03,167 --> 00:07:07,100 SHE'S NOT GONNA BE WITH US AND SHE'S GONNA DIE. 124 00:07:19,600 --> 00:07:22,067 YOU NEED HELP? MNH-MNH. 125 00:07:22,067 --> 00:07:26,133 Susan: I DON'T LIKE GOING OUT MUCH ANYMORE. 126 00:07:30,167 --> 00:07:33,333 I ONLY GO OUT TO GET FOOD OR IF I HAVE TO. 127 00:07:40,067 --> 00:07:42,133 AND I CAN ONLY WALK ENOUGH 128 00:07:42,133 --> 00:07:45,300 TO GET TO THE NEXT PLACE AND SIT DOWN. 129 00:07:45,300 --> 00:07:46,500 DO Y'ALL HAVE AN ELECTRIC CART? 130 00:07:50,800 --> 00:07:54,600 [ Voice breaking ] I CANNOT WALK AROUND THIS DAMN STORE. 131 00:07:54,600 --> 00:07:57,400 IT GOT TO SIT DOWN. I'M SORRY. 132 00:08:00,367 --> 00:08:02,767 [ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ] 133 00:08:02,767 --> 00:08:05,167 [ CRYING ] 134 00:08:07,933 --> 00:08:10,500 Susan: I GOT TO HAVE SOMEWHERE TO SIT DOWN. 135 00:08:10,500 --> 00:08:12,800 IF NOT, I JUST -- I START PANICKING... 136 00:08:12,800 --> 00:08:15,700 [ HYPERVENTILATING ] 137 00:08:15,700 --> 00:08:18,467 ...BECAUSE MY KNEES AND MY BACK WILL GIVE OUT. 138 00:08:18,467 --> 00:08:21,967 IF YOU HOLD ON TO THE BASKET, JUST TRY A LITTLE. 139 00:08:21,967 --> 00:08:23,767 [ SOBS ] 140 00:08:23,767 --> 00:08:26,067 I CANNOT WALK AROUND THIS [BLEEP] STORE. 141 00:08:26,067 --> 00:08:27,667 I'M TELLING YOU RIGHT NOW. 142 00:08:27,667 --> 00:08:28,700 [ SOBS ] 143 00:08:28,700 --> 00:08:30,200 I CAN'T DO IT. 144 00:08:30,200 --> 00:08:32,067 WHAT IF I COME UP HERE AND GET YOU A CHAIR? 145 00:08:32,067 --> 00:08:33,133 THAT WAY, IF WE NEED IT, 146 00:08:33,133 --> 00:08:34,833 WE CAN JUST PULL IT OUT AND YOU CAN SIT THERE. 147 00:08:34,833 --> 00:08:35,833 OKAY? 148 00:08:35,833 --> 00:08:38,067 WILL THAT BE BETTER? YEAH. 149 00:08:38,067 --> 00:08:41,600 HOW ABOUT THAT? 150 00:08:41,600 --> 00:08:45,600 WHAT KIND OF CAKE DO YOU WANT? 151 00:08:45,600 --> 00:08:47,100 YOU WANT THOSE? 152 00:08:48,633 --> 00:08:51,267 Stephanie: SUSAN AND MY MOM, 153 00:08:51,267 --> 00:08:53,100 THEY'RE VERY CLOSE, AND THEY'VE GOT EACH OTHER. 154 00:08:53,100 --> 00:08:55,233 NACHO? 155 00:08:55,233 --> 00:08:56,667 YEAH. 156 00:08:56,667 --> 00:09:01,633 MY MOM IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN SUSAN'S LIFE. 157 00:09:01,633 --> 00:09:05,900 SHE IS ALSO THE BIGGEST ENABLER. 158 00:09:09,800 --> 00:09:11,200 [ Breathlessly ] I NEED TO S-- 159 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:13,200 SIT DOWN. 160 00:09:13,200 --> 00:09:15,967 YOU WANTED THE OATMEAL? 161 00:09:18,167 --> 00:09:21,233 SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TELL HER "NO." 162 00:09:21,233 --> 00:09:23,300 SHE DOESN'T WANT TO HURT HER. THAT'S HER BABY GIRL. 163 00:09:23,300 --> 00:09:26,067 BUT IT'S KILLING HER. 164 00:09:26,067 --> 00:09:29,100 AND SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE. 165 00:09:29,100 --> 00:09:32,667 AND I KNOW THAT, AT THIS POINT, 166 00:09:32,667 --> 00:09:36,167 EVERY PLATE OF FOOD THAT WE HAND HER IS POISON. 167 00:09:36,167 --> 00:09:38,067 YOU'LL HAVE TO SIT THAT BACK, MOM. 168 00:09:38,067 --> 00:09:40,067 Nita: I WILL. 169 00:09:40,067 --> 00:09:41,267 GET THAT IN. 170 00:09:43,667 --> 00:09:49,267 MY MOM IS GONNA HAVE TO BE THE ONE TO HELP HER THE MOST. 171 00:09:49,267 --> 00:09:51,333 AND RIGHT NOW, THAT'S NOT HAPPENING. 172 00:09:51,333 --> 00:09:53,400 [ GRUNTS ] 173 00:09:53,400 --> 00:09:55,433 Nita: [ Voice breaking ] I DO FEEL GUILTY 174 00:09:55,433 --> 00:09:57,933 ABOUT HOW SHE WAS RAISED 175 00:09:57,933 --> 00:10:01,000 AND WHAT I FELT LIKE I DID TO HER. 176 00:10:01,000 --> 00:10:03,700 SO I TRY TO GIVE HER WHAT SHE WANTS. 177 00:10:06,600 --> 00:10:10,467 Susan: I WANT TO MAKE MY FAMILY PROUD. 178 00:10:10,467 --> 00:10:13,333 I DON'T WANT THEM TO FEEL LIKE I'M A BURDEN 179 00:10:13,333 --> 00:10:15,667 AND THEY HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 180 00:10:15,667 --> 00:10:20,067 I'M JUST MORE DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF RIGHT NOW 181 00:10:20,067 --> 00:10:22,833 BECAUSE I'VE LET MYSELF GET TO THIS POINT. 182 00:10:22,833 --> 00:10:25,467 I'M GONNA MAKE THOSE DUCK NOODLES. 183 00:10:25,467 --> 00:10:27,167 IS THAT OKAY? YEAH. 184 00:10:27,167 --> 00:10:28,400 I AM AFRAID OF DYING. 185 00:10:32,467 --> 00:10:35,733 I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING TO GET MYSELF BETTER 186 00:10:35,733 --> 00:10:40,433 BECAUSE I KNOW I'M KILLING MYSELF. 187 00:10:48,167 --> 00:10:50,233 [ Voice breaking ] I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 188 00:11:02,533 --> 00:11:05,300 Susan: WHEN YOU'RE AT A PLACE IN YOUR LIFE THAT YOU HATE, 189 00:11:05,300 --> 00:11:09,600 YOU HAVE TO DEAL WITH HOW YOU GOT THERE TO CHANGE IT. 190 00:11:20,067 --> 00:11:23,200 MY WORST FEAR IS GOING TO HIM 191 00:11:23,200 --> 00:11:26,133 AND HE'S NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO HELP ME AT ALL. 192 00:11:26,133 --> 00:11:29,167 AND I NEED HELP. 193 00:11:29,167 --> 00:11:32,867 I'M VERY SCARED ABOUT WHAT HE'S GONNA SAY. 194 00:11:32,867 --> 00:11:35,067 [ TURN SIGNAL CLICKING ] 195 00:11:36,500 --> 00:11:40,067 I'M A LITTLE NERVOUS WHAT THE SCALE'S GONNA SAY. 196 00:11:40,067 --> 00:11:42,833 [ GRUNTS ] 197 00:11:46,300 --> 00:11:48,933 I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I WEIGH. 198 00:11:48,933 --> 00:11:50,900 Woman: MS. FARMER? 199 00:11:50,900 --> 00:11:54,067 AND I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN STAND LONG ENOUGH 200 00:11:54,067 --> 00:11:56,200 TO GET MY WEIGHT ON THE SCALE. 201 00:11:56,200 --> 00:11:59,567 [ GRUNTING ] 202 00:11:59,567 --> 00:12:02,533 I NEED [CHUCKLES] 203 00:12:02,533 --> 00:12:05,100 [ GRUNTS ] 204 00:12:05,100 --> 00:12:07,633 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 205 00:12:12,067 --> 00:12:14,867 [ Gasping ] MY LEGS... ARE GONNA GIVE... 206 00:12:20,200 --> 00:12:23,800 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 207 00:12:23,800 --> 00:12:26,467 Susan: I DIDN'T KNOW I GAINED SO MUCH. 208 00:12:26,467 --> 00:12:29,300 [ KNOCKS ON DOOR ] 209 00:12:29,300 --> 00:12:32,067 HELLO. I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 210 00:12:32,067 --> 00:12:33,700 I'M SUSAN. NICE TO MEET YOU. 211 00:12:33,700 --> 00:12:37,233 AND SO, YOU WEIGHED HOW MUCH? 600 POUNDS. 212 00:12:37,233 --> 00:12:41,433 SO, YOUR SIZE IS HANDICAPPING YOU QUITE A BIT. 213 00:12:41,433 --> 00:12:42,733 YES, SIR. OKAY. 214 00:12:42,733 --> 00:12:44,800 AND WE'RE GONNA DO SOME TESTS TODAY 215 00:12:44,800 --> 00:12:48,733 AND SEE WHERE YOU STAND WITH YOUR GENERAL HEALTH, 216 00:12:48,733 --> 00:12:53,067 AND THEN DECIDE WHAT'S GONNA BE YOUR RISK FACTOR, OKAY? 217 00:12:53,067 --> 00:12:54,667 OKAY. 218 00:12:54,667 --> 00:12:56,200 NOW, THIS SKIN -- 219 00:12:56,200 --> 00:12:58,233 IS THERE ANY WAY I CAN TAKE A LOOK AT IT? 220 00:12:58,233 --> 00:13:00,400 YEAH. 221 00:13:02,500 --> 00:13:03,900 UM... 222 00:13:03,900 --> 00:13:07,733 [ Strained voice ] I WANT TO...LIFT THIS UP. 223 00:13:09,767 --> 00:13:12,267 YOU GOT SOME INFECTION. ALL RIGHT. 224 00:13:12,267 --> 00:13:16,333 WE GOT -- WE GOT A LOT OF WORK TO DO TO GET YOU WELL. 225 00:13:16,333 --> 00:13:17,433 OKAY. 226 00:13:17,433 --> 00:13:19,967 RIGHT NOW, I'M CONCERNED 227 00:13:19,967 --> 00:13:23,567 THAT SURGERY IS TOO MUCH FOR HER BODY TO HANDLE. 228 00:13:23,567 --> 00:13:25,633 SOMETHING MINOR CAN PUSH HER BODY OVER, 229 00:13:25,633 --> 00:13:27,767 AND SHE CAN DIE. 230 00:13:27,767 --> 00:13:29,567 WE HAVE TO GET TO THE POINT 231 00:13:29,567 --> 00:13:32,500 THAT SURGERY IS GONNA BE A SAFE THING TO DO. 232 00:13:32,500 --> 00:13:34,333 WHO LIVES WITH YOU? 233 00:13:34,333 --> 00:13:36,667 I LIVE WITH MY MOM. OKAY. 234 00:13:36,667 --> 00:13:41,367 SO, WE HAVE TO GET MOM TO SORT OF WATCH YOU, HUH? 235 00:13:41,367 --> 00:13:44,100 ARE YOU A GOOD WATCHER, OR ARE YOU AN ENABLER? 236 00:13:44,100 --> 00:13:46,733 I'VE BEEN AN ENABLER. 237 00:13:46,733 --> 00:13:49,833 I FIGURED THAT OUT. 238 00:13:49,833 --> 00:13:54,133 YOU SHORTENED HER LIFE, AND THAT'S NOT LOVE. 239 00:13:54,133 --> 00:13:58,100 I'M GOING TO NEED SUSAN TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC. 240 00:13:58,100 --> 00:14:02,067 SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO LOSE A GREAT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT. 241 00:14:02,067 --> 00:14:05,167 NEED TO GET HER INFECTION UNDER CONTROL. 242 00:14:05,167 --> 00:14:09,867 HER DIET SHOULD CONSIST OF ZERO CARB, ZERO FAT, 243 00:14:09,867 --> 00:14:12,900 AND PROTEIN AND SOME FIBER. 244 00:14:12,900 --> 00:14:16,267 WHEN I WANT TO DO IS SEE YOU IN A COUPLE MONTHS 245 00:14:16,267 --> 00:14:19,067 AND SEE WHAT THE DIET IS DOING FOR YOU. 246 00:14:21,767 --> 00:14:25,267 SO, IT IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU TO LOSE 100 POUNDS 247 00:14:25,267 --> 00:14:27,533 BEFORE WE CAN DO YOUR SURGERY. 248 00:14:27,533 --> 00:14:30,433 [ Voice breaking ] I'M WILLING TO DO ANYTHING. 249 00:14:30,433 --> 00:14:32,067 ALL RIGHT, LET ME SOME GET SOME TESTS DONE, 250 00:14:32,067 --> 00:14:34,167 AND WE'LL COME BACK AND TALK TO YOU. 251 00:14:34,167 --> 00:14:35,900 ALL RIGHT. 252 00:14:35,900 --> 00:14:37,900 IT IS NOT GOING TO BE EASY FOR HER. 253 00:14:39,533 --> 00:14:43,367 IT'S CLEAR THAT HER MOTHER IS ENABLING HER LIFE. 254 00:14:43,367 --> 00:14:46,400 SHE'S GOING TO HAVE TO CHANGE THE SITUATION 255 00:14:46,400 --> 00:14:49,067 IF SHE'S GOING TO SUCCEED. 256 00:14:49,067 --> 00:14:51,867 SHE'S SCARED. SHE JUST IS SCARED. 257 00:14:51,867 --> 00:14:53,067 IT'S HARD TO HEAR. 258 00:14:53,067 --> 00:14:55,300 IT'S NOT THAT -- YEAH, IT'S HARD TO HEAR. 259 00:14:55,300 --> 00:14:58,200 BUT IT'S HARD TO JUST... 260 00:14:58,200 --> 00:15:01,333 PUT IT DOWN AND QUIT LIKE IT AIN'T NOTHING. 261 00:15:01,333 --> 00:15:04,533 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR MIND-SET, TOO, 262 00:15:04,533 --> 00:15:06,367 OR THIS WON'T WORK FOR HER. 263 00:15:06,367 --> 00:15:09,233 [ Voice breaking ] IF SHE'S GONNA LIVE WITH YOU 264 00:15:09,233 --> 00:15:11,500 AND YOU DON'T CHANGE YOUR MIND-SET, 265 00:15:11,500 --> 00:15:14,800 SHE'S GOING TO DIE, PERIOD! 266 00:15:14,800 --> 00:15:16,133 PERIOD! 267 00:15:16,133 --> 00:15:19,400 ENOUGH, ENOUGH, ENOUGH! STOP! 268 00:15:19,400 --> 00:15:20,867 I'M NOT SAYING THAT I'M NOT. 269 00:15:20,867 --> 00:15:23,167 BUT DO YOU THINK I'M GONNA BUY HER ANYTHING ELSE? 270 00:15:23,167 --> 00:15:26,067 DON'T PUT IT ALL ON ME. DON'T YOU DARE. 271 00:15:26,067 --> 00:15:27,667 OH, MY GOD. MOM, ENOUGH. 272 00:15:27,667 --> 00:15:29,167 YOU'RE NOT LISTENING. 273 00:15:29,167 --> 00:15:32,133 YOUR ATTITUDE IS AS IMPORTANT AS HERS. 274 00:15:32,133 --> 00:15:34,833 YOU HAVE TO THINK DIFFERENTLY. 275 00:15:34,833 --> 00:15:36,833 I'LL BE THERE FOR HER BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT. 276 00:15:36,833 --> 00:15:37,967 NO! 277 00:15:37,967 --> 00:15:40,067 DON'T MAKE ME OUT TO BE THE VILLAIN! 278 00:15:40,067 --> 00:15:41,967 BOTH OF YOU, STOP! JUST STOP! 279 00:15:41,967 --> 00:15:43,433 I'M NOT GONNA DO THIS. 280 00:15:43,433 --> 00:15:45,533 [ SOBBING ] 281 00:16:01,633 --> 00:16:06,133 Susan: THE DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT LAST MONTH WAS A WAKE-UP CALL. 282 00:16:06,133 --> 00:16:10,233 I'VE BEEN STICKING TO THE DIET THAT HE'S GIVEN ME, 283 00:16:10,233 --> 00:16:11,600 BUT IT'S HARD. 284 00:16:13,500 --> 00:16:16,400 I DO WANT TO GO GET A BURGER OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT, 285 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:18,833 BUT I JUST GOT TO STAY DISCIPLINED. 286 00:16:18,833 --> 00:16:22,300 REFRIGERATOR -- IT'S KIND OF BARE. 287 00:16:22,300 --> 00:16:25,533 IT'S GOT YOGURTS FOR MY BREAKFAST. 288 00:16:25,533 --> 00:16:26,833 WE GOT EGGS. 289 00:16:26,833 --> 00:16:30,533 I KNEW THIS PROCESS WAS GONNA BE HARD, 290 00:16:30,533 --> 00:16:33,267 BUT I DIDN'T REALIZE IT WAS GONNA BE THIS HARD. 291 00:16:33,267 --> 00:16:37,600 [ Voice breaking ] I'VE GIVEN UP A LOT OF THINGS... 292 00:16:37,600 --> 00:16:40,467 [SOBS] 293 00:16:40,467 --> 00:16:42,967 ...THAT'S NORMAL TO ME. 294 00:16:45,533 --> 00:16:47,667 I WANT TO EAT WHAT I CRAVE, 295 00:16:47,667 --> 00:16:49,867 BUT I'M NOT GIVING IN RIGHT NOW. 296 00:16:52,133 --> 00:16:55,633 I'VE JUST GOT TO LEARN HOW TO RESIST IT 297 00:16:55,633 --> 00:16:59,067 BECAUSE I CAN'T STAY THIS WAY. 298 00:16:59,067 --> 00:17:03,767 I TOLD THE DOCTOR I WOULD DO ANYTHING, AND I AM. 299 00:17:03,767 --> 00:17:06,933 SO I'VE BEEN WALKING A LITTLE BIT MORE EACH DAY. 300 00:17:12,100 --> 00:17:17,467 I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I'VE BEEN ABLE TO WALK THIS FAR. 301 00:17:17,467 --> 00:17:21,533 BUT THE HARDEST CHANGE HAS BEEN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY MOM. 302 00:17:21,533 --> 00:17:22,833 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 303 00:17:22,833 --> 00:17:25,233 [ SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY ] 304 00:17:25,233 --> 00:17:29,333 SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN THERE TO GIVE ME WHAT I WANT, 305 00:17:29,333 --> 00:17:31,533 AND WE BOTH KNOW IT'S KILLING ME. 306 00:17:31,533 --> 00:17:34,567 IF YOU NEED TO LEAN ON ME, LEAN ON ME. 307 00:17:34,567 --> 00:17:37,300 I WASN'T SURE IF WE WOULD BE ABLE TO CHANGE THAT 308 00:17:37,300 --> 00:17:38,633 ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP. 309 00:17:38,633 --> 00:17:42,100 BUT MY MOM HASN'T BROUGHT ME ANYTHING BAD, 310 00:17:42,100 --> 00:17:45,633 AND SHE'S BEEN A SUPPORT TO ME OVER THE LAST MONTH. 311 00:17:45,633 --> 00:17:48,967 I GOT TO SIT DOWN FOR A MINUTE ON THE STEPS. 312 00:17:48,967 --> 00:17:50,433 SIT DOWN. 313 00:17:50,433 --> 00:17:52,200 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 314 00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:55,067 SURGERY'S MY ONLY HOPE. 315 00:17:55,067 --> 00:17:58,100 AND IT'S MY MOTIVATION RIGHT NOW... 316 00:17:58,100 --> 00:18:00,300 SEE? YOU DID IT. YOU PROUD OF YOURSELF? 317 00:18:00,300 --> 00:18:01,867 YEAH. OKAY. 318 00:18:01,867 --> 00:18:04,600 ...BECAUSE IT MEANS I GET TO LIVE 319 00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:07,733 AND THAT I CAN HAVE A CHANCE AT A NORMAL LIFE. 320 00:18:09,667 --> 00:18:12,367 I DO WANT TO MAKE MY FAMILY PROUD, 321 00:18:12,367 --> 00:18:16,167 AND I DON'T WANT THEM TO FEEL LIKE I'M A BURDEN. 322 00:18:17,633 --> 00:18:20,633 NOTHING'S GONNA STOP ME FROM DOING THIS. 323 00:18:32,433 --> 00:18:33,767 IT'S BEEN A FEW MONTHS, 324 00:18:33,767 --> 00:18:36,200 AND WE'RE GOING TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE 325 00:18:36,200 --> 00:18:38,067 FOR A FOLLOW-UP VISIT. 326 00:18:38,067 --> 00:18:40,567 HOPEFULLY GET SOME GOOD NEWS. 327 00:18:44,133 --> 00:18:48,067 I KNOW I'M STILL TOO BIG FOR A REGULAR SCALE, 328 00:18:48,067 --> 00:18:50,533 SO I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO CHECK MY WEIGHT. 329 00:18:50,533 --> 00:18:51,933 Woman: MS. FARMER. 330 00:18:51,933 --> 00:18:54,533 I JUST HOPE I'VE LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT 331 00:18:54,533 --> 00:18:57,733 TO BE APPROVED FOR THE SURGERY. 332 00:19:02,700 --> 00:19:04,533 OH, MY GOSH. 333 00:19:07,933 --> 00:19:10,333 I'M SO EXCITED. 334 00:19:10,333 --> 00:19:11,633 I'VE COME SO FAR, 335 00:19:11,633 --> 00:19:14,200 AND I WANT THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING. 336 00:19:14,200 --> 00:19:16,567 I'M HOPING TO GET GOOD NEWS. 337 00:19:16,567 --> 00:19:18,133 HELLO. 338 00:19:18,133 --> 00:19:19,267 Susan: HELLO. 339 00:19:19,267 --> 00:19:21,867 SO, YOU LOST 150 POUNDS. 340 00:19:21,867 --> 00:19:23,067 YEP. 341 00:19:23,067 --> 00:19:24,933 CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE? 342 00:19:24,933 --> 00:19:26,500 YEAH. A LITTLE BIT. [ LAUGHS ] 343 00:19:26,500 --> 00:19:29,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: SUSAN HAS DONE VERY WELL. 344 00:19:29,067 --> 00:19:32,267 SHE HAS EXCEEDED MY EXPECTATION. 345 00:19:32,267 --> 00:19:35,067 HOW'S THE HANGING SKIN ON THE LOWER ABDOMEN? 346 00:19:36,600 --> 00:19:38,167 THE SORES ARE HEALING, SO... 347 00:19:38,167 --> 00:19:39,233 MM. 348 00:19:39,233 --> 00:19:42,667 HER SKIN INFECTION HAS GOT BETTER, 349 00:19:42,667 --> 00:19:46,700 SO THINK SHE DEFINITELY IS READY FOR SURGERY. 350 00:19:46,700 --> 00:19:49,100 YOU HAVE DONE VERY WELL, 351 00:19:49,100 --> 00:19:51,400 AND SO I'M GOING TO APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY. 352 00:19:51,400 --> 00:19:53,900 YES! OKAY. 353 00:19:53,900 --> 00:19:55,833 YOU EXCITED? YES, SIR. 354 00:19:55,833 --> 00:19:57,167 ALL RIGHT, SUPER. 355 00:19:58,900 --> 00:20:01,867 Susan: I'VE DREAMED OF GETTING THIS HELP. 356 00:20:01,867 --> 00:20:05,000 I'M SO EXCITED THIS IS HAPPENING. 357 00:20:05,000 --> 00:20:08,367 THIS MEANS I HAVE A CHANCE OF HAVING A NORMAL LIFE. 358 00:20:10,533 --> 00:20:12,767 AND I CAN'T WAIT. 359 00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:31,600 I COULDN'T SLEEP AT ALL LAST NIGHT. 360 00:20:31,600 --> 00:20:35,200 THIS IS THE BIGGEST THING I'VE EVER DONE FOR MYSELF. 361 00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:37,600 I KNOW I'M A GROWN ADULT, 362 00:20:37,600 --> 00:20:40,967 BUT I'M STILL JUST -- I'M JUST SCARED. 363 00:20:42,433 --> 00:20:45,567 [ CRYING ] 364 00:20:45,567 --> 00:20:47,667 SHH. 365 00:20:47,667 --> 00:20:49,500 THIS IS THE WORST PART. 366 00:20:49,500 --> 00:20:50,500 YEAH. 367 00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:51,900 I LOVE YOU. 368 00:20:51,900 --> 00:20:54,333 Nita: SHE'LL BE OKAY. 369 00:20:54,333 --> 00:20:57,600 I'M JUST DOING A LOT OF PRAYING THAT EVERYTHING'S OKAY. 370 00:20:57,600 --> 00:21:03,100 Susan: THIS IS A LOT SCARIER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. 371 00:21:03,100 --> 00:21:06,667 I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW. 372 00:21:06,667 --> 00:21:10,267 I KNOW THIS IS MY LAST HOPE TO BECOME NORMAL. 373 00:21:13,633 --> 00:21:16,333 Dr. Nowzaradan: PATIENTS THIS SIZE 374 00:21:16,333 --> 00:21:17,833 ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO PUT TO SLEEP 375 00:21:17,833 --> 00:21:22,500 BECAUSE THESE PEOPLE HAVE DIFFICULTY BREATHING. 376 00:21:45,733 --> 00:21:49,200 Dr. Nowzaradan: SUSAN IS HAVING HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY. 377 00:21:49,200 --> 00:21:53,167 GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY IS AN OPERATION 378 00:21:53,167 --> 00:21:56,800 THAT REDUCES THE STOMACH TO A MUCH SMALLER SIZE. 379 00:21:56,800 --> 00:21:58,867 OKAY. THAT SECTION. 380 00:21:58,867 --> 00:22:00,100 BY DOING THAT, 381 00:22:00,100 --> 00:22:02,200 THE PATIENT WILL BE ABLE TO EAT A SMALL AMOUNT 382 00:22:02,200 --> 00:22:03,633 AND GET FULL REAL QUICK. 383 00:22:03,633 --> 00:22:06,600 SO THEY'RE ABLE TO EAT LESS AND THEY'RE NOT HUNGRY, 384 00:22:06,600 --> 00:22:09,633 AND THEIR FOOD OBSESSION SHOULD GO AWAY. 385 00:22:09,633 --> 00:22:11,167 YOU CAN TURN THE ROOM LIGHT ON. 386 00:22:13,300 --> 00:22:15,933 ALL RIGHT, THAT'S ALL. 387 00:22:18,067 --> 00:22:20,433 SUSAN'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 388 00:22:20,433 --> 00:22:24,467 IT WAS A LITTLE BIT CHALLENGING BECAUSE OF HER SIZE, 389 00:22:24,467 --> 00:22:27,433 BUT EVERYTHING WENT FINE. 390 00:22:27,433 --> 00:22:29,067 DON'T MOVE, THOUGH. YOU'RE STILL IN -- 391 00:22:29,067 --> 00:22:32,433 [ GROWLS ] SUSAN, RELAX. 392 00:22:32,433 --> 00:22:34,733 TOMORROW, WE START HER ON A LIQUID DIET. 393 00:22:34,733 --> 00:22:36,467 WE'RE GONNA KEEP HER ABOUT THREE OR FOUR DAYS, 394 00:22:36,467 --> 00:22:38,067 MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY. 395 00:22:38,067 --> 00:22:42,367 I THINK SHE CAN LOSE 30 TO 40 POUNDS THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS 396 00:22:42,367 --> 00:22:44,533 IF SHE KEEPS UP THE ACTIVITY. 397 00:22:44,533 --> 00:22:46,067 GOT TO RELAX, OKAY? 398 00:22:46,067 --> 00:22:50,067 SHE HAS TO STAY MOTIVATED AND ACTIVE TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS. 399 00:22:50,067 --> 00:22:51,133 DEEP BREATH. 400 00:22:51,133 --> 00:22:52,600 [ EXHALES SHARPLY ] 401 00:23:08,400 --> 00:23:10,333 Nita: READY TO GO SEE WHAT IT SAYS? 402 00:23:10,333 --> 00:23:11,467 Susan: YEAH. 403 00:23:11,467 --> 00:23:12,733 SINCE SURGERY, 404 00:23:12,733 --> 00:23:15,633 IT'S BEEN A LOT HARDER TO GET UP AND MOVE AROUND. 405 00:23:15,633 --> 00:23:19,300 IT HURTS SO BAD JUST GOING A SHORT DISTANCE. 406 00:23:19,300 --> 00:23:21,600 I NEED YOU OVER HERE. 407 00:23:24,067 --> 00:23:27,367 BUT I'M HOPING FOR SOME WEIGHT LOSS TODAY. 408 00:23:27,367 --> 00:23:30,300 I'M JUST -- I'M SCARED. 409 00:23:30,300 --> 00:23:32,067 GAIN'S NEVER A GOOD THING. 410 00:23:32,067 --> 00:23:33,267 Woman: MS. FARMER? 411 00:23:42,467 --> 00:23:44,833 OKAY. 412 00:23:47,133 --> 00:23:49,867 WITH HOW HARD IT'S BEEN TO EXERCISE, 413 00:23:49,867 --> 00:23:52,667 I'M HAPPY WITH THAT LOSS. 414 00:23:52,667 --> 00:23:54,300 HELLO. HELLO. 415 00:23:54,300 --> 00:23:56,200 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? GOOD. 416 00:23:56,200 --> 00:23:59,067 SO, YOU LOST A LITTLE BIT MORE WEIGHT. 417 00:23:59,067 --> 00:24:02,267 NOT AS MUCH AS I WAS HOPING, 418 00:24:02,267 --> 00:24:04,600 BUT YOU'RE GOING THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 419 00:24:04,600 --> 00:24:07,067 ANY SHORTNESS OF BREATH OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT? 420 00:24:07,067 --> 00:24:09,267 YEAH. WHEN I WAS WALKING IN HERE, 421 00:24:09,267 --> 00:24:11,533 I FELT LIKE MY LEGS WERE GONNA GIVE OUT. 422 00:24:11,533 --> 00:24:13,067 MM-HMM. 423 00:24:13,067 --> 00:24:15,933 BUT I HAVEN'T EXERCISED AS MUCH AS I LIKE. 424 00:24:15,933 --> 00:24:19,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: SUSAN'S DECREASE IN ACTIVITY IS A SMALL CONCERN. 425 00:24:19,067 --> 00:24:22,600 THERE IS NO REASON FOR HER TO HAVE LESS ENERGY. 426 00:24:22,600 --> 00:24:26,767 IT MAY BE IN HER HEAD OR MAY BE SOMETHING ELSE. 427 00:24:26,767 --> 00:24:28,533 HAVE TO KEEP AN EYE ON HER AND SEE. 428 00:24:28,533 --> 00:24:31,100 FOCUS ON BEING ACTIVE. 429 00:24:31,100 --> 00:24:33,567 IF YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEM, LET ME KNOW. 430 00:24:33,567 --> 00:24:35,567 OKAY. 431 00:24:35,567 --> 00:24:37,900 [ GRUNTS ] 432 00:24:37,900 --> 00:24:40,900 Susan: I JUST NEED TO GO HOME, REST, 433 00:24:40,900 --> 00:24:43,167 AND SEE IF I CAN GET MY STRENGTH BACK. 434 00:24:43,167 --> 00:24:44,500 YOU FEEL BETTER NOW? 435 00:24:44,500 --> 00:24:46,067 YEAH. 436 00:24:46,067 --> 00:24:48,533 I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT OF GOING BACK TO WHERE I WAS. 437 00:24:48,533 --> 00:24:50,067 NEED ME TO HELP YOU GET DOWN? 438 00:24:50,067 --> 00:24:52,167 NO. 439 00:24:52,167 --> 00:24:54,700 SO I KNOW I CAN DO THIS. 440 00:25:13,067 --> 00:25:14,500 Nita: SUSAN? 441 00:25:14,500 --> 00:25:15,533 YEAH. 442 00:25:15,533 --> 00:25:17,333 YOU READY TO GET UP AND GET READY? 443 00:25:17,333 --> 00:25:18,467 YEAH. 444 00:25:27,333 --> 00:25:28,867 Susan: THIS PAST MONTH 445 00:25:28,867 --> 00:25:31,767 HASN'T BEEN GOING AS WELL AS I WISH IT HAD. 446 00:25:31,767 --> 00:25:34,533 I'VE BEEN HAVING TROUBLE WALKING, 447 00:25:34,533 --> 00:25:36,667 AND IT'S GETTING WORSE. 448 00:25:39,867 --> 00:25:42,067 IT'S JUST HARD TO DO IT RIGHT NOW, 449 00:25:42,067 --> 00:25:43,300 AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. 450 00:25:51,067 --> 00:25:53,333 YOU THINK IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT WALKING AS MUCH? 451 00:25:53,333 --> 00:25:54,733 YEAH. 452 00:25:54,733 --> 00:25:56,433 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT. 453 00:25:56,433 --> 00:25:59,900 Susan: IT'S ALMOST LIKE IT WAS BEFORE I LOST THE WEIGHT, 454 00:25:59,900 --> 00:26:01,933 AND THAT SCARES ME. 455 00:26:01,933 --> 00:26:06,633 I DON'T KNOW WHY THAT IS OR WHAT'S GOING ON. 456 00:26:06,633 --> 00:26:08,733 I KNOW I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT, 457 00:26:08,733 --> 00:26:11,200 OR I'LL START GAINING THE WEIGHT AGAIN. 458 00:26:27,533 --> 00:26:30,667 THIS MORNING, I JUST FELL TO THE GROUND. 459 00:26:30,667 --> 00:26:33,133 IT JUST HAPPENED ALL OF A SUDDEN. 460 00:26:34,567 --> 00:26:39,567 I COULDN'T GET THE STRENGTH TO GET UP, 461 00:26:39,567 --> 00:26:44,133 AND I HAD TO CRAWL AND HAVE MY MOM HELP ME GET INTO BED. 462 00:26:44,133 --> 00:26:46,300 Nita: SHE COULDN'T STAND. 463 00:26:46,300 --> 00:26:50,433 SHE SAID SHE COULDN'T FEEL ANYTHING IN HER LEGS. 464 00:26:50,433 --> 00:26:52,633 HER LEGS HAVE BEEN GOING NUMB. 465 00:26:54,467 --> 00:26:56,233 HI, SUSAN. HOW YOU DOING? 466 00:26:56,233 --> 00:26:57,500 HELLO. 467 00:26:57,500 --> 00:26:59,200 HOW YOU FEEL? 468 00:26:59,200 --> 00:27:00,400 I FEEL OKAY, 469 00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:03,433 EXCEPT FOR I JUST DON'T HAVE STRENGTH IN MY LEGS. 470 00:27:03,433 --> 00:27:06,467 LET ME TAKE A LOOK AT YOUR LEG, SEE WHAT'S GOING ON. 471 00:27:06,467 --> 00:27:08,067 IT FEELS NUMB. 472 00:27:08,067 --> 00:27:09,900 FEEL NUMB? YEAH. 473 00:27:09,900 --> 00:27:11,567 CAN YOU RAISE YOUR LEG UP? 474 00:27:11,567 --> 00:27:13,700 OKAY. 475 00:27:13,700 --> 00:27:16,267 WE'RE NOT 100% SURE WHAT'S WRONG WITH SUSAN, 476 00:27:16,267 --> 00:27:19,567 BUT I'VE CALLED A SPECIALIST TO SEE HER. 477 00:27:19,567 --> 00:27:22,067 WE'RE GONNA SEE WHAT THE NEUROLOGIST SAYS 478 00:27:22,067 --> 00:27:23,700 AFTER EXAMINING YOU, OKAY? 479 00:27:23,700 --> 00:27:26,300 IF IT IS WHAT I'M CONCERNED IT MAY BE, 480 00:27:26,300 --> 00:27:30,533 WE NEED TO TREAT IT IMMEDIATELY OR SHE MAY END UP PARALYZED. 481 00:27:30,533 --> 00:27:32,100 [ CRYING ] 482 00:27:32,100 --> 00:27:35,133 ARE YOU OKAY? 483 00:27:35,133 --> 00:27:40,200 [ Sobbing] IT SCARES ME NOT TO BE ABLE TO BE MOVING AROUND. 484 00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:41,533 BUT YOU WILL BE. 485 00:27:41,533 --> 00:27:43,233 I DON'T WANT TO BE IN A WHEELCHAIR. 486 00:27:43,233 --> 00:27:47,700 AND IT JUST SCARES THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME. 487 00:28:03,100 --> 00:28:04,233 [ ELEVATOR BELL DINGS ] 488 00:28:04,233 --> 00:28:07,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: A SPECIALIST SAW SUSAN, 489 00:28:07,067 --> 00:28:10,667 AND SHE'S BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH A CONDITION CALLED NEUROPATHY. 490 00:28:10,667 --> 00:28:13,700 THIS CONDITION IS NERVE DAMAGE 491 00:28:13,700 --> 00:28:17,600 THAT CAN BE A RESULT OF BEING OBESE FOR A LONG TIME. 492 00:28:17,600 --> 00:28:18,867 SUSAN IS LOSING WEIGHT, 493 00:28:18,867 --> 00:28:20,500 BUT SHE'S STILL GOING TO SUFFER 494 00:28:20,500 --> 00:28:23,567 FROM THE EFFECT OF BEING SO HEAVY FOR SO LONG. 495 00:28:23,567 --> 00:28:26,167 HOW'S YOUR DAY GOING? 496 00:28:26,167 --> 00:28:27,567 EARLIER, WHEN I STOOD UP, 497 00:28:27,567 --> 00:28:32,333 I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T HAVE ANY STRENGTH IN MY THIGHS. 498 00:28:32,333 --> 00:28:35,567 YOU GOT WHAT WE CALL A PERIPHERAL NEUROPATHY. 499 00:28:35,567 --> 00:28:37,600 THIS IS A PROGRESSIVE CONDITION, 500 00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:40,367 AND WE NEED SOME REHAB PROGRAM TO WORK WITH IT. 501 00:28:40,367 --> 00:28:44,067 IT CAN BE PERMANENT IF NOT TREATED IMMEDIATELY, 502 00:28:44,067 --> 00:28:48,467 SO WE HAVE TO GET SUSAN TO REHAB TO REVERSE THIS CONDITION 503 00:28:48,467 --> 00:28:50,400 BEFORE IT BECOMES PERMANENT. 504 00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:52,833 WE NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU DON'T LOSE ANY MUSCLE. 505 00:28:52,833 --> 00:28:54,067 OKAY. 506 00:28:54,067 --> 00:28:58,300 THIS WON'T BE EASY, BUT YOU CAN DO IT. 507 00:28:58,300 --> 00:29:00,167 AND WE'LL SEE HOW THINGS GO, OKAY? 508 00:29:00,167 --> 00:29:01,900 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 509 00:29:01,900 --> 00:29:04,800 Susan: I'VE BEEN DOING EVERYTHING TO GET BETTER, 510 00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:07,067 AND THIS DOESN'T FEEL FAIR AT ALL. 511 00:29:07,067 --> 00:29:10,200 BUT I WILL NOT END UP IN A WHEELCHAIR. 512 00:29:31,467 --> 00:29:32,700 SO, TODAY, WE'RE JUST GONNA DO 513 00:29:32,700 --> 00:29:34,533 THE REST OF OUR THINGS THAT WE TALKED ABOUT YESTERDAY, 514 00:29:34,533 --> 00:29:36,833 SO WALKING AND STAIRS. 515 00:29:36,833 --> 00:29:38,067 YOU READY? YEAH. 516 00:29:42,300 --> 00:29:45,333 I'VE BEEN AT THE REHAB FACILITY FOR A MONTH NOW. 517 00:29:45,333 --> 00:29:48,533 IT'S BEEN HARD LEARNING HOW TO WALK AGAIN. 518 00:29:48,533 --> 00:29:51,967 MY MOM HAS STAYED THE WHOLE TIME, HELPING ME. 519 00:29:51,967 --> 00:29:55,600 AND IT'S BEEN NICE KNOWING THAT SHE'S THERE. 520 00:29:58,133 --> 00:30:02,200 I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT BEING IN A WHEELCHAIR... 521 00:30:02,200 --> 00:30:03,800 SO, I'M GONNA TAKE HER WALKER, MOM, 522 00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:05,833 AND I'M GONNA PUT IT AT THE TOP OF THE STAIRS. 523 00:30:05,833 --> 00:30:08,400 ...AND USING THAT AS MOTIVATION TO KEEP GOING. 524 00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:10,067 WHEN SHE GETS UP THERE, IT'S READY FOR HER. 525 00:30:10,067 --> 00:30:11,333 OKAY. 526 00:30:11,333 --> 00:30:14,033 AND THEN, I JUST STAND BEHIND HER ON THE WAY UP. 527 00:30:14,033 --> 00:30:16,133 AGAIN, MY STANCE IS KIND OF WIDE, 528 00:30:16,133 --> 00:30:18,667 AND I'M JUST HERE AT HER HIPS IN CASE SHE NEEDS ME. 529 00:30:18,667 --> 00:30:21,967 THE SURGERY WAS MY SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE. 530 00:30:23,467 --> 00:30:26,133 AND I'M NOT GONNA LET A SETBACK LIKE THIS 531 00:30:26,133 --> 00:30:28,467 TAKE THAT FROM ME. 532 00:30:28,467 --> 00:30:29,933 [ GRUNTS ] 533 00:30:29,933 --> 00:30:31,633 I'M GONNA FIGHT. 534 00:30:31,633 --> 00:30:32,633 OKAY. 535 00:30:32,633 --> 00:30:34,000 SO, I'M LOOKING BACKWARDS. 536 00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:38,267 I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY CAN TO GET BETTER. 537 00:30:39,033 --> 00:30:40,733 NICE JOB, SUSAN. 538 00:30:40,733 --> 00:30:42,467 WHOO-HOO! 539 00:30:42,467 --> 00:30:43,867 OKAY. 540 00:30:43,867 --> 00:30:45,400 WE'RE JUST GONNA GO TO THAT GRAY CYCLE 541 00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:46,533 RIGHT THERE IN THE CORNER. 542 00:30:46,533 --> 00:30:49,667 EVEN THOUGH I'M BACK AT SQUARE ONE, 543 00:30:49,667 --> 00:30:51,300 I'M NOT GIVING UP. 544 00:30:51,300 --> 00:30:54,300 IF I LOSE MY ABILITY TO WALK, 545 00:30:54,300 --> 00:30:56,733 I'M GONNA END UP GAINING EVERYTHING BACK. 546 00:30:56,733 --> 00:31:01,267 AND THEN I'LL JUST BE WAITING TO DIE. 547 00:31:03,433 --> 00:31:06,400 IT'S MY LIFE THAT'S AT STAKE. 548 00:31:20,800 --> 00:31:22,533 OKAY, NOW WE'RE READY. 549 00:31:22,533 --> 00:31:25,500 IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF MONTHS, AND I'M GOING HOME. 550 00:31:26,700 --> 00:31:30,300 I CAN GET AROUND WITH A WALKER RIGHT NOW. 551 00:31:30,300 --> 00:31:33,167 BUT MY GOAL IS TO BE COMPLETELY INDEPENDENT 552 00:31:33,167 --> 00:31:35,233 OF ANYONE AND ANYTHING. 553 00:31:35,233 --> 00:31:36,433 THIS WAY. THIS WAY? 554 00:31:36,433 --> 00:31:37,733 YES. 555 00:31:37,733 --> 00:31:40,400 Nita: SUSAN, I'M GONNA GO GET THE CAR REAL QUICK. 556 00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:43,267 I'M A LITTLE CONCERNED AT MAKING THE SAME PROGRESS AT HOME. 557 00:31:43,267 --> 00:31:46,267 BUT I'M JUST GONNA TAKE IT A DAY AT A TIME. 558 00:31:47,900 --> 00:31:50,433 SEE? WHEN SHE CAME, SHE COULDN'T DO THAT. 559 00:31:50,433 --> 00:31:51,633 [ LAUGHS ] 560 00:31:56,067 --> 00:31:58,567 TRYING TO THINK OF SOMETHING YOU COULD EAT. 561 00:31:58,567 --> 00:32:01,100 YOU WANT A CHICKEN SALAD? 562 00:32:04,333 --> 00:32:06,767 I NEED A CHICKEN SALAD, 563 00:32:06,767 --> 00:32:08,533 AND THEN I WANT A 12-PIECE NUGGET. 564 00:32:08,533 --> 00:32:11,967 THANK YOU. 565 00:32:11,967 --> 00:32:14,667 Susan: IT'S BEEN A HARD COUPLE OF MONTHS, 566 00:32:14,667 --> 00:32:17,133 AND I'M HAVING MOMENTS WHERE I'M GIVING IN A LITTLE. 567 00:32:17,133 --> 00:32:18,600 TAKE LITTLE BITES. 568 00:32:18,600 --> 00:32:20,767 I KNOW. 569 00:32:20,767 --> 00:32:23,867 THE ONLY THING THAT'S BAD IN IT IS THE MAYONNAISE. 570 00:32:23,867 --> 00:32:26,067 IT'S PROBABLY NOT LOW-FAT. 571 00:32:26,067 --> 00:32:27,267 I'M NOT PERFECT. 572 00:32:27,267 --> 00:32:30,167 I'M GONNA MESS UP EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE. 573 00:32:30,167 --> 00:32:31,700 I CHEAT A LITTLE, 574 00:32:31,700 --> 00:32:34,467 BUT IT HELPS ME COPE WITH EVERYTHING GOING ON. 575 00:32:34,467 --> 00:32:38,133 THE KEY IS FINDING BALANCE. 576 00:32:38,133 --> 00:32:40,800 I JUST CAN'T OVERDO IT. 577 00:32:48,733 --> 00:32:51,700 I'M GOING TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE, 578 00:32:51,700 --> 00:32:53,267 AND I'M A LITTLE SCARED TO SEE 579 00:32:53,267 --> 00:32:55,067 IF I'VE MADE ANY PROGRESS OR NOT. 580 00:32:58,333 --> 00:33:02,233 I'VE HAD MOMENTS WHERE MY EMOTIONS GET THE BEST OF ME 581 00:33:02,233 --> 00:33:04,233 AND I ATE WHAT I SHOULDN'T HAVE. 582 00:33:04,233 --> 00:33:06,267 Woman: MS. FARMER? 583 00:33:06,267 --> 00:33:09,367 SO I'M NOT SURE HOW MUCH PROGRESS I'VE MADE. 584 00:33:10,933 --> 00:33:14,233 I JUST HOPE I HAVEN'T GAINED. 585 00:33:21,267 --> 00:33:23,500 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 586 00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:27,400 I KNOW. 587 00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:29,567 HELLO. HI. 588 00:33:29,567 --> 00:33:31,633 SO, WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU? 589 00:33:31,633 --> 00:33:34,500 I WANT MY LEG STRENGTH BACK LIKE IT WAS, BUT... 590 00:33:34,500 --> 00:33:36,800 HOW IS YOUR NUTRITION? 591 00:33:36,800 --> 00:33:38,600 I'M KIND OF SCARED TO TELL YOU. 592 00:33:38,600 --> 00:33:40,333 WHEW. 593 00:33:40,333 --> 00:33:43,633 UM... I'VE BEEN EATING CRACKERS 594 00:33:43,633 --> 00:33:46,967 AND OTHER STUFF THAT I'M NOT REALLY SUPPOSED TO. 595 00:33:46,967 --> 00:33:49,400 Nita: SHE HAD CHIPS AND A CUPCAKE 596 00:33:49,400 --> 00:33:53,067 AT MY GRANDSON'S BIRTHDAY PARTY HERE. 597 00:33:53,067 --> 00:33:54,733 THE REASON YOU CAN'T WALK 598 00:33:54,733 --> 00:33:57,367 BECAUSE YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT AND YOU'RE MALNOURISHED. 599 00:33:57,367 --> 00:34:01,367 OKAY, THIS WEIGHT GAIN IS UNACCEPTABLE. 600 00:34:01,367 --> 00:34:04,233 YOU SHOULD BE WALKING WITHOUT A WALKER. 601 00:34:04,233 --> 00:34:08,233 YOU SHOULD MAKING MORE PROGRESS BY NOW. 602 00:34:08,233 --> 00:34:10,900 LET ME SEE HOW YOU WALK. 603 00:34:10,900 --> 00:34:13,467 UM, I'M GONNA HAVE TO GET YOU UP. 604 00:34:13,467 --> 00:34:17,467 UNLESS I HAVE ARMS ON THE CHAIR, I CAN'T. 605 00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:30,400 SUSAN, SHE SHOULDN'T STILL NEED A WALKER. 606 00:34:30,400 --> 00:34:34,967 AND SHE'S USING THE SITUATION AS AN EXCUSE. 607 00:34:34,967 --> 00:34:38,967 SHE'S GOING BACK TO THE SAME OLD HABITS. 608 00:34:38,967 --> 00:34:40,167 Nita: CALM DOWN. 609 00:34:40,167 --> 00:34:42,633 JUST RELAX AND YOU'LL DO IT. 610 00:34:42,633 --> 00:34:44,633 WHEN YOU GET UPSET, YOU CAN'T. 611 00:34:44,633 --> 00:34:47,467 Dr. Nowzaradan: HER MOTHER BABYING HER 612 00:34:47,467 --> 00:34:49,933 LIKE A 10-YEAR-OLD KID, 613 00:34:49,933 --> 00:34:52,167 AND THIS IS A PATHOLOGICAL SITUATION 614 00:34:52,167 --> 00:34:56,067 THAT, IF SHE DOESN'T TAKE IT VERY SERIOUSLY, 615 00:34:56,067 --> 00:34:59,900 SHE'S GOING BACK TO HER ORIGINAL WEIGHT VERY QUICKLY. 616 00:34:59,900 --> 00:35:02,867 HER CONDITION MIGHT BECOME WORSE AND EVEN PERMANENT. 617 00:35:02,867 --> 00:35:04,433 PUSH YOURSELF UP. 618 00:35:04,433 --> 00:35:06,067 I CAN'T. 619 00:35:06,067 --> 00:35:08,900 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] LIKE YOU DO ON THE COUCH. 620 00:35:08,900 --> 00:35:11,800 SHE HAS TO MAKE A CHANGE NOW. 621 00:35:19,367 --> 00:35:21,567 Susan: CHANGING WHAT YOU NEED TO IN LIFE 622 00:35:21,567 --> 00:35:24,067 CAN BE ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS YOU EVER DO. 623 00:35:24,067 --> 00:35:28,300 AND SOMETIMES, IT'S TOO HARD TO DO IT ON YOUR OWN. 624 00:35:38,567 --> 00:35:43,333 AFTER THE DOCTOR'S VISIT, I WAS PRETTY UPSET. 625 00:35:43,333 --> 00:35:48,133 BUT I REALIZED THAT I DO HAVE TO STOP MAKING EXCUSES. 626 00:35:50,433 --> 00:35:54,067 I KNOW THERE'S A LOT GOING ON INSIDE ME 627 00:35:54,067 --> 00:35:57,200 THAT LEADS ME TO EAT. 628 00:35:57,200 --> 00:36:03,067 AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I THOUGHT I COULD AVOID ALL THAT. 629 00:36:03,067 --> 00:36:06,367 SO I'M GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST TODAY. 630 00:36:07,900 --> 00:36:11,067 HI, LADIES. 631 00:36:11,067 --> 00:36:12,567 COME RIGHT ON BACK. 632 00:36:14,067 --> 00:36:17,767 SO, TELL ME WHAT BRINGS YOU THERAPY AT THIS POINT IN TIME. 633 00:36:17,767 --> 00:36:19,933 I DON'T KNOW. 634 00:36:19,933 --> 00:36:22,833 [ Voice breaking ] I'M JUST SCARED. 635 00:36:22,833 --> 00:36:25,267 ALL OF THESE CHANGES ARE SCARY, SUSAN. 636 00:36:25,267 --> 00:36:28,867 IT'S REASONABLE THAT YOU WOULD FEEL A LOT OF FEAR RIGHT NOW. 637 00:36:28,867 --> 00:36:32,333 I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE'S SO SCARED. 638 00:36:32,333 --> 00:36:34,067 DO YOU WANT TO LOOK AT YOUR MOM 639 00:36:34,067 --> 00:36:35,800 AND TELL HER WHAT YOU'RE AFRAID OF? 640 00:36:35,800 --> 00:36:39,167 IT'S SCARY FOR YOU TO BE IN CONTROL. 641 00:36:39,167 --> 00:36:41,067 YEAH. 642 00:36:41,067 --> 00:36:43,833 I JUST GOT TO QUIT RELYING ON YOU SO MUCH 643 00:36:43,833 --> 00:36:46,167 INSTEAD OF... 644 00:36:46,167 --> 00:36:47,500 I DON'T KNOW. 645 00:36:47,500 --> 00:36:49,767 SO, SUSAN, EXPRESS TO YOUR MOM -- 646 00:36:49,767 --> 00:36:51,933 WHAT ARE THINGS THAT YOU NEED, 647 00:36:51,933 --> 00:36:54,833 AND WHAT ARE SOME THINGS THAT MAY BE CRIPPLING YOU 648 00:36:54,833 --> 00:36:56,067 THAT YOU DON'T NEED? 649 00:36:56,067 --> 00:36:59,300 I GUESS WHAT WOULD BE CRIPPLING ME IS 650 00:36:59,300 --> 00:37:03,800 YOU HAVING TO DO MY LAUNDRY, COOKING FOR ME. 651 00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:08,067 MISS NITA, ARE YOU WILLING TO MAKE CHANGES IN THE HOUSEHOLD 652 00:37:08,067 --> 00:37:09,800 TO SUPPORT SUSAN'S GOALS? 653 00:37:09,800 --> 00:37:12,900 I CAN BACK OFF, IF THAT'S WHAT SHE NEEDS. 654 00:37:12,900 --> 00:37:14,733 DO YOU NEED ME TO STAND BACK 655 00:37:14,733 --> 00:37:18,600 AND LET YOU DO THE WASHING AND DO YOUR COOKING? 656 00:37:21,067 --> 00:37:22,467 YES. 657 00:37:22,467 --> 00:37:26,167 SUSAN, YOU'VE REALLY DONE EXTREMELY WELL 658 00:37:26,167 --> 00:37:29,067 EXPRESSING YOURSELF. 659 00:37:29,067 --> 00:37:31,067 WELL, LADIES, THANK YOU. 660 00:37:31,067 --> 00:37:32,867 [ CRYING ] 661 00:37:35,333 --> 00:37:38,333 Susan: THIS GOING TO BE HARD. 662 00:37:38,333 --> 00:37:40,500 I'VE SPENT TOO LONG BEING DEPENDENT ON OTHERS. 663 00:37:42,967 --> 00:37:45,467 I'M AFRAID I CAN'T DO IT ON MY OWN. 664 00:37:45,467 --> 00:37:50,133 SOMETHING ALWAYS GIVES ME AN EXCUSE NOT TO. 665 00:37:50,133 --> 00:37:55,300 I JUST HAVE TO START DOING IT AND PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I CAN. 666 00:38:19,867 --> 00:38:21,900 THE PAST MONTH, 667 00:38:21,900 --> 00:38:24,600 I'VE SLOWLY BEEN TAKING ON THE CHORES AROUND THE HOUSE. 668 00:38:24,600 --> 00:38:27,800 I'VE SET OUT TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN FOR MYSELF 669 00:38:27,800 --> 00:38:31,067 WITHOUT MY MOTHER'S HELP. 670 00:38:31,067 --> 00:38:33,500 I'VE BEEN DOING THE LAUNDRY... 671 00:38:36,467 --> 00:38:38,433 ...AND WASHING THE DISHES 672 00:38:38,433 --> 00:38:43,900 AND TRYING TO WALK AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE WITHOUT MY WALKER. 673 00:38:43,900 --> 00:38:48,400 I DIDN'T NEED IT AS MUCH AS I THOUGHT. 674 00:38:48,400 --> 00:38:49,967 IT HASN'T BEEN EASY, 675 00:38:49,967 --> 00:38:53,067 BUT I'M SLOWLY GETTING BACK MY MOBILITY. 676 00:38:53,067 --> 00:38:54,267 I'VE LIVED FOR SO LONG 677 00:38:54,267 --> 00:38:56,433 TELLING MYSELF I COULDN'T TAKE CARE OF MYSELF 678 00:38:56,433 --> 00:39:00,800 AND LIVING IN THAT FEAR AND THAT EXCUSE. 679 00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:04,100 AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, 680 00:39:04,100 --> 00:39:06,300 I FEEL LIKE I'M AN INDEPENDENT PERSON. 681 00:39:07,933 --> 00:39:10,200 IT'S BEEN A GREAT FEELING. 682 00:39:18,500 --> 00:39:22,533 I'VE BEEN DOING SO WELL, I THOUGHT I'D TREAT MYSELF. 683 00:39:22,533 --> 00:39:25,167 SO I'M GETTING MY HAIR CUT AT A SALON. 684 00:39:25,167 --> 00:39:29,467 IT CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I DID SOMETHING LIKE THIS. 685 00:39:29,467 --> 00:39:32,767 IT FEELS LIKE THE WHOLE WORLD IS OPENING UP TO ME. 686 00:39:35,700 --> 00:39:38,967 I'M ACTUALLY LIVING LIFE. 687 00:39:38,967 --> 00:39:40,933 AND IT LOOKS REALLY EASY TO STYLE, 688 00:39:40,933 --> 00:39:42,667 AND IT'LL JUST BE NICE. 689 00:39:42,667 --> 00:39:45,967 I'M WORKING HARD TO KEEP GOING. 690 00:39:45,967 --> 00:39:48,667 I HAVE A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT NEXT MONTH, 691 00:39:48,667 --> 00:39:51,700 AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT I WEIGH. 692 00:39:51,700 --> 00:39:53,100 I LOST 150 POUNDS 693 00:39:53,100 --> 00:39:56,800 THE LAST TIME I PUSHED MYSELF OVER THREE MONTHS. 694 00:39:58,267 --> 00:39:58,800 I HOPE I'VE DONE THAT AGAIN. 695 00:40:03,800 --> 00:40:06,800 Susan: YOU HAVE TO GET TO A PLACE WHERE YOU'RE JUST BROKEN 696 00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:09,867 TO BE DESPERATE ENOUGH TO CHANGE. 697 00:40:15,467 --> 00:40:19,000 TODAY, I HAVE ANOTHER DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 698 00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:23,267 I'VE BEEN DOING EVERYTHING I CAN TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS. 699 00:40:25,833 --> 00:40:28,033 AND I'M DOING IT, AND I'M DOING IT WELL. 700 00:40:33,967 --> 00:40:36,733 I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT. 701 00:40:37,967 --> 00:40:39,833 HELLO. Susan: HI. 702 00:40:39,833 --> 00:40:42,267 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 703 00:40:42,267 --> 00:40:43,967 I SEE YOU LOST SOME MORE WEIGHT. 704 00:40:43,967 --> 00:40:45,933 I'M GLAD TO SEE THAT YOU'RE MAKING GOOD PROGRESS. 705 00:40:45,933 --> 00:40:47,100 YEAH. 706 00:40:47,100 --> 00:40:49,000 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY HAPPY WITH SUSAN. 707 00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:51,100 SHE'S DONE EXCELLENT LATELY. 708 00:40:51,100 --> 00:40:53,867 SHE STOPPED WITH THE EXCUSES, 709 00:40:53,867 --> 00:40:57,233 AND SHE'S RECOVERING NICELY, AND SHE'S STAYING ON TRACK. 710 00:40:57,233 --> 00:41:00,167 I'M PROUD OF YOU. YOU'VE DONE VERY WELL. 711 00:41:03,333 --> 00:41:07,067 Susan: I'M VERY PROUD OF THE PROGRESS I'VE MADE SO FAR. 712 00:41:08,633 --> 00:41:12,300 A YEAR AGO, I WAS BARELY WALKING. 713 00:41:12,300 --> 00:41:15,633 RIGHT NOW, MY WORLD HAS CHANGED. 714 00:41:15,633 --> 00:41:19,533 AND I'M STARTING TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 715 00:41:23,867 --> 00:41:26,467 IT'S MY 38th BIRTHDAY, 716 00:41:26,467 --> 00:41:31,200 SO MY FAMILY DECIDED TO HAVE A PARTY FOR ME THIS YEAR. 717 00:41:31,200 --> 00:41:34,367 A LOT OF MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS HAVEN'T SEEN ME IN A WHILE. 718 00:41:36,333 --> 00:41:39,200 I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO SPENDING SOME TIME WITH THEM. 719 00:41:39,200 --> 00:41:41,867 [ CHEERS AND APPLAUSE ] 720 00:41:41,867 --> 00:41:43,200 IT'S BEEN OVER 20 YEARS 721 00:41:43,200 --> 00:41:45,167 SINCE I'VE CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY 722 00:41:45,167 --> 00:41:48,567 WITH MY FAMILY LIKE THIS. 723 00:41:48,567 --> 00:41:52,467 Stephanie: BEFORE THE SURGERY, SHE WAS JUST BARELY LIVING. 724 00:41:52,467 --> 00:41:54,633 BUT I FEEL LIKE SHE'S BACK. 725 00:41:54,633 --> 00:41:56,167 SHE'S HAPPY AGAIN. 726 00:41:56,167 --> 00:41:58,900 AND I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD. 727 00:41:58,900 --> 00:42:03,067 WITHOUT THIS SURGERY, SHE WOULDN'T BE ALIVE. 728 00:42:03,067 --> 00:42:07,833 THIS HAS GIVEN HER A NEW CHANCE AT LIFE. 729 00:42:07,833 --> 00:42:11,067 IT'S LIKE A NEW BEGINNING FOR HER. 730 00:42:11,067 --> 00:42:14,067 THIS YEAR HAS BEEN THE MOST DIFFICULT OF MY LIFE. 731 00:42:14,067 --> 00:42:17,300 BUT EVERYTHING I'VE GONE THROUGH IN LOSING THIS WEIGHT 732 00:42:17,300 --> 00:42:18,467 HAS BEEN WORTH IT. 733 00:42:18,467 --> 00:42:20,700 I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO THE WAY I WAS. 734 00:42:20,700 --> 00:42:22,400 I'VE COME TOO FAR. 735 00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:24,967 I'M ENJOYING LIFE, 736 00:42:24,967 --> 00:42:28,400 AND I'M HAPPIER THAN I'VE BEEN IN A LONG TIME. 737 00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:32,567 IT FEELS SO GOOD TO HAVE A REASON TO SMILE AGAIN. 737 00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545