"My 600-lb Life" Nikki's Story

1 00:00:02,400 --> 00:00:04,967 Nikki: I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED. 2 00:00:04,967 --> 00:00:07,433 [ Voice breaking ] MY BODY SHOULDN'T LOOK LIKE THIS. 3 00:00:07,433 --> 00:00:08,967 I HATE IT. 4 00:00:15,533 --> 00:00:17,467 [ GROANING ] 5 00:00:17,467 --> 00:00:20,167 Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME A DEATH SENTENCE. 6 00:00:20,167 --> 00:00:23,200 Nikki: THE THING I RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS 7 00:00:23,200 --> 00:00:25,200 IS WHAT'S KILLING ME. 8 00:00:31,867 --> 00:00:33,867 -IT'S BROKEN! -WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? 9 00:00:33,867 --> 00:00:35,833 I DON'T KNOW! I CAN'T GET UP! 10 00:00:35,833 --> 00:00:37,533 DON'T MAKE ME GO. PLEASE. 11 00:00:41,967 --> 00:00:44,500 Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER FROM A CHAIR. 12 00:00:44,500 --> 00:00:46,333 [ GROANS ] THANK YOU, HONEY. 13 00:00:46,333 --> 00:00:48,967 I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS. 14 00:00:48,967 --> 00:00:52,100 AND IF YOU WERE SERIOUS, YOU'D MAKE CHANGES. 15 00:00:55,267 --> 00:00:59,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'RE HAVING SOME DIFFICULTY GETTING EXPOSURE. 16 00:00:59,067 --> 00:01:01,933 MY HOPE WAS TO DO BYPASS ON NIKKI, 17 00:01:01,933 --> 00:01:04,067 BUT IT'S NOT GOING TO BE POSSIBLE. 18 00:01:04,067 --> 00:01:07,067 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 19 00:01:07,067 --> 00:01:10,100 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 20 00:01:10,100 --> 00:01:13,267 Nikki: LIFE DOESN'T EVER GO LIKE YOU PLAN. 21 00:01:13,267 --> 00:01:17,467 BUT THERE ARE MOMENTS WHERE YOU SEE THE CONSEQUENCES 22 00:01:17,467 --> 00:01:21,200 OF NOT CHANGING WHAT YOU KNOW IS HURTING YOU. 23 00:01:23,000 --> 00:01:29,074 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org 24 00:01:41,100 --> 00:01:43,067 WHEN I WAKE UP, 25 00:01:43,067 --> 00:01:45,933 THE PAIN THAT I FEEL IS OVERWHELMING. 26 00:01:48,300 --> 00:01:53,800 EVERY BONE IN MY BEING IS TELLING ME TO LAY BACK DOWN. 27 00:01:53,800 --> 00:01:55,533 [ Voice breaking ] IT'S MISERABLE. 28 00:01:55,533 --> 00:01:58,700 I FEEL LIKE I'M TRAPPED 29 00:01:58,700 --> 00:02:04,567 BECAUSE IT'S JUST DIFFICULT TO MOVE MY BODY. 30 00:02:08,233 --> 00:02:11,333 I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN. 31 00:02:11,333 --> 00:02:14,533 I CAN'T STAND FOR VERY LONG AT ALL. 32 00:02:20,333 --> 00:02:24,367 BUT THE HARDEST THING FOR ME TO LIVE WITH IS MY STOMACH. 33 00:02:32,433 --> 00:02:35,500 IT IS SO HEAVY 34 00:02:35,500 --> 00:02:38,900 THAT IT GETS IN THE WAY OF EVERYTHING. 35 00:02:42,200 --> 00:02:46,300 EVEN GETTING IN AND OUT OF THE SHOWER IS EXHAUSTING. 36 00:02:51,133 --> 00:02:58,200 TO JUST SQUEEZE MYSELF IN THERE TAKES ALL MY BREATH AWAY. 37 00:03:10,333 --> 00:03:15,167 AND I RARELY LOOK AT MYSELF NAKED IN THE MIRROR. 38 00:03:17,333 --> 00:03:20,233 [ Voice breaking ] MY BODY SHOULDN'T LOOK LIKE THIS. 39 00:03:26,467 --> 00:03:29,667 LIVING IN THIS BODY IS PAINFUL. 40 00:03:31,433 --> 00:03:34,067 I HATE IT. 41 00:03:34,067 --> 00:03:37,900 THERE'S NO BETTER WORD TO DESCRIBE IT OTHER THAN HATE. 42 00:03:42,367 --> 00:03:45,800 BUT I'VE DONE THIS TO MYSELF. 43 00:03:45,800 --> 00:03:49,400 FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN AN ADDICTION FOR ME. 44 00:03:49,400 --> 00:03:56,200 AND MY ADDICTION TO IT IS KILLING ME. 45 00:03:56,200 --> 00:04:00,867 WHEN I START MY DAY, I CAN'T WAIT TO START EATING. 46 00:04:00,867 --> 00:04:02,233 OKAY, SWEETIE. I'M GONNA SEND IT UP. 47 00:04:02,233 --> 00:04:04,067 ALL RIGHTY. 48 00:04:04,067 --> 00:04:07,467 MY DAD WILL MAKE ME A PLATE AND SEND IT UP TO ME 49 00:04:07,467 --> 00:04:11,733 SO I DON'T HAVE TO GO DOWNSTAIRS AGAIN UNTIL BREAKFAST. 50 00:04:16,267 --> 00:04:19,267 Llewellyn: NIKKI HAS ALWAYS HAD PROBLEMS 51 00:04:19,267 --> 00:04:21,567 WITH HER FOOD ADDICTION. 52 00:04:21,567 --> 00:04:22,767 THERE WERE MANY TIMES 53 00:04:22,767 --> 00:04:25,467 THAT I WOULD TALK TO HER ABOUT HER EATING HABITS, 54 00:04:25,467 --> 00:04:26,767 BUT NIKKI HAS TOLD ME, 55 00:04:26,767 --> 00:04:29,600 "FOOD IS ONE THING I HAVE CONTROL OVER. 56 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:32,167 IT HURTS MY FEELINGS WHEN YOU TALK TO ME ABOUT IT." 57 00:04:32,167 --> 00:04:34,400 FINALLY, I'D SAY, "OKAY, YOU KNOW WHAT? 58 00:04:34,400 --> 00:04:35,600 NIKKI, I DON'T CARE." 59 00:04:35,600 --> 00:04:39,900 SO, I JUST GIVE HER WHAT SHE WANTS. 60 00:04:39,900 --> 00:04:43,167 Nikki: I KNOW I OVEREAT. 61 00:04:43,167 --> 00:04:46,233 BUT FOOD MAKES ME HAPPY. 62 00:04:46,233 --> 00:04:50,167 AND I FEEL THE MOST AT EASE WITH MY EATING 63 00:04:50,167 --> 00:04:52,500 WHEN I'M EATING BY MYSELF. 64 00:04:52,500 --> 00:04:56,167 'CAUSE THERE'S NO ONE THERE TO JUDGE ME. 65 00:04:56,167 --> 00:04:58,967 THAT'S MY HAPPY PLACE. 66 00:05:02,333 --> 00:05:05,067 Terry: WE NOTICED AT A VERY YOUNG AGE 67 00:05:05,067 --> 00:05:07,267 THAT NIKKI WANTED WHAT SHE WANTED 68 00:05:07,267 --> 00:05:08,500 AND SHE WANTED IT THEN. 69 00:05:08,500 --> 00:05:11,133 SHE LEARNED HOW TO WORK US PRETTY QUICKLY. 70 00:05:11,133 --> 00:05:16,700 IN MANY WAYS, WE WAIT ON NIKKI LIKE YOU WOULD AN INVALID. 71 00:05:19,133 --> 00:05:21,400 AND I'VE ASKED MYSELF SO MANY TIMES, 72 00:05:21,400 --> 00:05:24,733 "WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ENABLING AND HELPING? 73 00:05:24,733 --> 00:05:27,533 WHEN AM I ENABLING HER AND WHEN AM I HELPING HER?" 74 00:05:27,533 --> 00:05:30,267 I DON'T REALLY KNOW THE ANSWER. 75 00:05:30,267 --> 00:05:34,833 I JUST KNOW THAT I'M LOSING MY DAUGHTER A POUND AT A TIME 76 00:05:34,833 --> 00:05:38,200 BECAUSE SHE HAS BECOME A DIFFERENT PERSON, 77 00:05:38,200 --> 00:05:39,633 IN MANY RESPECTS, 78 00:05:39,633 --> 00:05:42,600 THAN MY VIVACIOUS, ENERGETIC DAUGHTER. 79 00:05:42,600 --> 00:05:45,967 AND THAT -- THAT'S JUST -- 80 00:05:45,967 --> 00:05:48,533 THAT'S JUST HEARTBREAKING. 81 00:05:50,933 --> 00:05:53,600 Nikki: I WAS A HAPPY KID. 82 00:05:53,600 --> 00:05:56,567 BUT I KNOW THAT I STARTED GAINING WEIGHT 83 00:05:56,567 --> 00:05:58,067 WHEN I WAS ABOUT 4. 84 00:05:58,067 --> 00:06:01,533 AND BY THE TIME I WAS 10 YEARS OLD, 85 00:06:01,533 --> 00:06:05,067 I WEIGHED 140 POUNDS. 86 00:06:05,067 --> 00:06:11,533 THAT'S WHEN I STARTED TO NOTICE THAT I WASN'T LIKE EVERYONE ELSE 87 00:06:11,533 --> 00:06:14,133 AND I DON'T FIT IN MY DESK 88 00:06:14,133 --> 00:06:17,067 AS WELL AS THE GIRL SITTING NEXT TO ME. 89 00:06:17,067 --> 00:06:20,867 EVEN THOUGH I HAD A HAPPY FACE, 90 00:06:20,867 --> 00:06:26,633 INTERNALLY, I FELT LIKE, "I DON'T BELONG HERE." 91 00:06:26,633 --> 00:06:32,067 SO, MY PARENTS TRIED, PROBABLY HUNDREDS OF ATTEMPTS, 92 00:06:32,067 --> 00:06:34,133 TO HELP ME LOSE WEIGHT, 93 00:06:34,133 --> 00:06:37,367 AND IT WAS JUST DEPRESSING AND SAD TO ME. 94 00:06:37,367 --> 00:06:42,500 PART OF ME FELT LIKE, "WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME? 95 00:06:42,500 --> 00:06:45,267 QUIT TRYING TO FIX ME." 96 00:06:45,267 --> 00:06:49,100 Llewellyn: NIKKI TRIED LOTS OF DIFFERENT WAYS TO LOSE WEIGHT. 97 00:06:49,100 --> 00:06:53,767 THEY WOULD WORK FOR A WHILE, AND THEN THEY WOULDN'T. 98 00:06:53,767 --> 00:06:58,100 Nikki: I FELT LIKE A FAILURE, 99 00:06:58,100 --> 00:07:04,300 AND I DIDN'T MEASURE UP TO BE THE DAUGHTER THAT MY MOM WANTED. 100 00:07:04,300 --> 00:07:07,667 Terry: NIKKI AND HER MOM HAVE HAD 101 00:07:07,667 --> 00:07:11,767 WHAT I MIGHT CALL MORE OF A STORMY RELATIONSHIP. 102 00:07:11,767 --> 00:07:15,500 Nikki: I HAVE TWO SISTERS AND A BROTHER. 103 00:07:15,500 --> 00:07:18,200 BUT GROWING UP, 104 00:07:18,200 --> 00:07:22,800 I FEEL LIKE I WASN'T WHAT MY MOM NEEDED. 105 00:07:22,800 --> 00:07:24,433 NIKKI AND I WERE NOT VERY CLOSE. 106 00:07:24,433 --> 00:07:26,200 WE JUST DIDN'T HAVE THAT BOND TOGETHER. 107 00:07:26,200 --> 00:07:27,833 SHE WOULD TELL ME SOMETIMES, 108 00:07:27,833 --> 00:07:30,133 "MOM, YOU SPEND MORE TIME WITH HEIDI," 109 00:07:30,133 --> 00:07:32,067 OR, "YOU SPEND MORE TIME WITH COURTNEY." 110 00:07:32,067 --> 00:07:34,567 AND SHE WAS VERY JEALOUS OF THAT. 111 00:07:34,567 --> 00:07:36,500 Nikki: WHEN I WAS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL, 112 00:07:36,500 --> 00:07:41,267 MY SISTERS GOT MARRIED WITHIN LIKE SIX MONTHS OF EACH OTHER. 113 00:07:41,267 --> 00:07:44,067 AND THEN WITH THAT CAME, LIKE, GRANDKIDS. 114 00:07:44,067 --> 00:07:47,900 AND MY MOM WAS SO ENAMORED AND ENTHRALLED 115 00:07:47,900 --> 00:07:49,933 WITH WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH MY SISTERS. 116 00:07:49,933 --> 00:07:54,800 OUR RELATIONSHIP SEEMED TO DRIFT EVEN MORE. 117 00:07:54,800 --> 00:07:58,433 I FELT SOMEWHAT INVISIBLE, 118 00:07:58,433 --> 00:08:03,533 WHICH ALLOWED ME TO INVISIBLY GO INTO THE KITCHEN AND EAT. 119 00:08:06,067 --> 00:08:08,367 SO BY THE TIME I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL, 120 00:08:08,367 --> 00:08:10,967 I WEIGHED ALMOST 300 POUNDS, 121 00:08:10,967 --> 00:08:13,533 AND I JUST CONTINUED TO GAIN. 122 00:08:13,533 --> 00:08:18,867 BY THE TIME THAT I LEFT COLLEGE, I HAD REACHED 500 POUNDS. 123 00:08:18,867 --> 00:08:23,767 AND THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED WAS A YEAR AGO. 124 00:08:23,767 --> 00:08:27,600 I WEIGHED 636. 125 00:08:27,600 --> 00:08:32,067 NOW I HAVE NO IDEA HOW HIGH I'M UP TO. 126 00:08:32,067 --> 00:08:33,133 HOW'S THAT? 127 00:08:33,133 --> 00:08:34,200 PERFECT. 128 00:08:34,200 --> 00:08:38,700 AFTER COLLEGE, I MOVED BACK HOME 129 00:08:38,700 --> 00:08:41,967 WITH MY MOM AND MY DAD AND MY BROTHER, CHRIS, 130 00:08:41,967 --> 00:08:46,600 BECAUSE LIVING ON MY OWN IS JUST TOO DIFFICULT. 131 00:08:46,600 --> 00:08:50,200 CHRIS HAS CEREBRAL PALSY, 132 00:08:50,200 --> 00:08:56,333 AND IN MANY INSTANCES, MY LIMITATIONS FAR EXCEED HIS. 133 00:08:56,333 --> 00:09:00,567 AND THAT'S A BIG STATEMENT. 134 00:09:00,567 --> 00:09:03,467 A CONDITION THAT HE WAS BORN WITH 135 00:09:03,467 --> 00:09:07,567 IS EXCEEDED BY A CONDITION THAT I'VE PUT UPON MYSELF. 136 00:09:07,567 --> 00:09:10,333 I FEEL LIKE MY PARENTS 137 00:09:10,333 --> 00:09:12,800 PROBABLY WORRY MORE ABOUT ME THAN CHRIS. 138 00:09:12,800 --> 00:09:17,767 [ Voice breaking ] AND IT MAKES ME FEEL GUILT. 139 00:09:17,767 --> 00:09:21,633 I FEEL LIKE I'M LETTING HIM DOWN. 140 00:09:21,633 --> 00:09:23,967 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 141 00:09:25,500 --> 00:09:28,467 [ Crying ] AND I NEED TO BE THERE FOR HIM. 142 00:09:30,167 --> 00:09:32,633 [ Normal voice ] HE DESERVES THAT. 143 00:09:35,467 --> 00:09:38,300 EVEN THOUGH I CAN BARELY GET AROUND, 144 00:09:38,300 --> 00:09:40,267 I STILL TRY TO WORK. 145 00:09:42,633 --> 00:09:44,767 IT'S THE ONLY TIME I LEAVE THE HOUSE, 146 00:09:44,767 --> 00:09:48,500 AND IT GIVES ME A CHANCE TO EAT MORE WITHOUT ANYONE KNOWING. 147 00:09:48,500 --> 00:09:52,067 CAN I GET TWO GLAZED, TWO CHOCOLATE ICED, 148 00:09:52,067 --> 00:09:53,800 AND DOUGHNUT HOLES? 149 00:09:53,800 --> 00:09:55,500 THANK YOU. 150 00:09:55,500 --> 00:09:59,300 MY REWARD FOR GETTING UP AND BEING A HUMAN BEING 151 00:09:59,300 --> 00:10:01,167 IS THAT I GET DOUGHNUTS. 152 00:10:01,167 --> 00:10:04,167 WHEN I HAVE THIS BAG OF DOUGHNUTS 153 00:10:04,167 --> 00:10:05,633 AND MY CHOCOLATE MILK, 154 00:10:05,633 --> 00:10:08,733 THEN IT'S LIKE PARTY TIME, U.S.A. 155 00:10:10,300 --> 00:10:12,933 BUT I DON'T WANT PEOPLE KNOWING 156 00:10:12,933 --> 00:10:15,767 THAT I'M EATING DOUGHNUTS EVERY MORNING, 157 00:10:15,767 --> 00:10:18,700 SO I ALWAYS GO THROUGH HERE 158 00:10:18,700 --> 00:10:22,267 AND THROW AWAY MY TRASH ON MY WAY TO WORK. 159 00:10:24,600 --> 00:10:28,833 I AM AN ASSISTANT COSTUME DESIGNER AT A THEATER, 160 00:10:28,833 --> 00:10:34,000 AND TO WALK BACK TO WHERE WE WORK IS A VERY LONG WAY. 161 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:37,367 AND SO, I HAVE TO PARK IN THE LOADING DOCK. 162 00:10:37,367 --> 00:10:41,467 AND I'LL HAVE SOMEONE OPEN THE DOOR FOR ME. 163 00:10:41,467 --> 00:10:43,833 [ Voice breaking ] IT'S GETTING MORE AND MORE DIFFICULT 164 00:10:43,833 --> 00:10:45,900 TO GO TO WORK 165 00:10:45,900 --> 00:10:50,167 BECAUSE JUST MEASURING SOMEBODY, 166 00:10:50,167 --> 00:10:54,600 YOU'VE GOT TO BE ABLE TO STAND ON YOUR FEET. 167 00:10:54,600 --> 00:11:00,067 AND SO, THAT TASK, WHICH SHOULD BE MINE, 168 00:11:00,067 --> 00:11:02,067 IS PLACED ON SOMEONE ELSE. 169 00:11:04,400 --> 00:11:09,200 IT FEELS LIKE EVERY DAY, I CAN DO LESS AND LESS. 170 00:11:09,200 --> 00:11:12,267 I'VE GOTTEN SO BIG NOW 171 00:11:12,267 --> 00:11:15,967 I CAN'T PHYSICALLY GO DOWN THE SPIRAL STAIRCASE 172 00:11:15,967 --> 00:11:18,200 WHERE OUR COSTUME STOCK IS. 173 00:11:20,367 --> 00:11:24,633 I FEEL VERY CLOSE TO NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THIS JOB. 174 00:11:24,633 --> 00:11:28,533 MY WEIGHT HAS DEFINITELY CHANGED THE OUTSIDE ME, 175 00:11:28,533 --> 00:11:33,867 BUT NOW IT HAS LEAKED INTO MY CORE SELF 176 00:11:33,867 --> 00:11:37,367 AND CHANGED ME INTO A PERSON THAT I DON'T RECOGNIZE. 177 00:11:42,133 --> 00:11:46,067 I KNOW THAT THE THING THAT I GO TO FOR COMFORT, 178 00:11:46,067 --> 00:11:49,567 THE THING I'VE RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS, 179 00:11:49,567 --> 00:11:52,367 IS WHAT'S KILLING ME. 180 00:11:52,367 --> 00:11:54,867 I'M A TICKING TIME BOMB. 181 00:11:54,867 --> 00:11:59,500 AND IF I DON'T LOSE THIS WEIGHT, I'LL DIE. 182 00:12:01,067 --> 00:12:03,767 I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A FUNERAL PLANNED 183 00:12:03,767 --> 00:12:05,900 MORE THAN I HAVE A WEDDING PLANNED. 184 00:12:05,900 --> 00:12:10,367 AND YOU SHOULDN'T FEEL THAT WAY AT 33 YEARS OLD. 185 00:12:10,367 --> 00:12:14,600 I'M AT THAT POINT WHERE I HAVE NO WHERE ELSE TO GO. 186 00:12:14,600 --> 00:12:18,067 IF I DON'T LOSE THIS WEIGHT, IT'S GONNA KILL ME. 187 00:12:22,600 --> 00:12:24,300 Nikki: THE BIGGEST STEPS OF FAITH 188 00:12:24,300 --> 00:12:27,067 ARE THE ONES THAT ARE NOT ONLY HARD 189 00:12:27,067 --> 00:12:31,067 BUT COME WITH NO GUARANTEES. 190 00:12:39,467 --> 00:12:42,167 IT'LL BE ALL RIGHT. IT'LL BE GOOD. 191 00:12:42,167 --> 00:12:43,533 I LOVE YOU. 192 00:12:43,533 --> 00:12:44,733 I LOVE YOU, TOO. 193 00:12:52,833 --> 00:12:54,833 Terry: THERE IS A GREAT DEAL OF ANXIETY 194 00:12:54,833 --> 00:12:57,600 IN TERMS OF WHETHER SHE'LL ACTUALLY BE ACCEPTED 195 00:12:57,600 --> 00:12:59,400 IN THE PROGRAM. 196 00:12:59,400 --> 00:13:01,767 IF NIKKI ISN'T ACCEPTED, 197 00:13:01,767 --> 00:13:04,300 I DON'T THINK SHE'S GOING TO LIVE MUCH LONGER. 198 00:13:07,700 --> 00:13:10,900 Nikki: THIS IS MY ROCK BOTTOM AND MY LAST CHANCE, 199 00:13:10,900 --> 00:13:14,500 AND IF THIS DOCTOR CAN'T DO ANYTHING FOR ME, 200 00:13:14,500 --> 00:13:17,600 I WOULD PROBABLY FEEL LIKE IT WAS A DEATH SENTENCE. 201 00:13:17,600 --> 00:13:21,100 SO, NOW THAT WE'RE ACTUALLY ON THE ROAD, 202 00:13:21,100 --> 00:13:22,867 ARE YOU A LITTLE BIT NERVOUS? 203 00:13:22,867 --> 00:13:26,467 I THINK I'LL BE MORE NERVOUS ONCE WE GET INTO HOUSTON. 204 00:13:26,467 --> 00:13:27,733 THEN, ALL OF A SUDDEN, IT'S REAL. 205 00:13:27,733 --> 00:13:30,067 YEAH. IT'S LIKE, "THIS IS FOR REAL." 206 00:13:36,600 --> 00:13:40,333 Nikki: WE'VE BEEN IN THE CAR FOR EIGHT HOURS. 207 00:13:40,333 --> 00:13:44,667 RIGHT NOW, I'M JUST READY TO GET OUT AND MEET THE DOCTOR. 208 00:13:44,667 --> 00:13:47,167 Woman: NIKKI WEBSTER? 209 00:13:47,167 --> 00:13:51,200 Nikki: IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE CHECKED MY WEIGHT. 210 00:13:53,100 --> 00:13:56,833 I JUST HOPE THAT IT'S NOT TOO HIGH. 211 00:13:59,367 --> 00:14:01,433 Woman: 649. 212 00:14:06,300 --> 00:14:10,367 I'M JUST SHOCKED TO SEE THAT NUMBER, 213 00:14:10,367 --> 00:14:14,400 BECAUSE IT'S THE HIGHEST I'VE EVER WEIGHED. 214 00:14:14,400 --> 00:14:16,400 HELLO. HELLO. 215 00:14:16,400 --> 00:14:18,067 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 216 00:14:18,067 --> 00:14:19,500 NIKKI WEBSTER. 217 00:14:19,500 --> 00:14:20,700 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? 218 00:14:20,700 --> 00:14:21,767 I'M DOING WELL. 219 00:14:21,767 --> 00:14:23,967 SO, YOU ARE 650 POUNDS? 220 00:14:23,967 --> 00:14:25,067 YES. OKAY. 221 00:14:25,067 --> 00:14:27,467 WHAT SEEMS TO BE YOUR BIGGEST CHALLENGE 222 00:14:27,467 --> 00:14:28,900 WITH YOUR EATING HABIT? 223 00:14:28,900 --> 00:14:31,633 I THINK NOT REALLY THINKING ABOUT WHAT I'M EATING 224 00:14:31,633 --> 00:14:33,667 AND JUST GETTING WHAT I'M CRAVING. 225 00:14:33,667 --> 00:14:36,067 WHAT DO YOU EAT IN THE MORNING? 226 00:14:36,067 --> 00:14:38,133 AN EGG AND SAUSAGE BISCUIT. 227 00:14:38,133 --> 00:14:40,100 AND LUNCH, WHAT DO YOU DO? 228 00:14:40,100 --> 00:14:43,733 MY LUNCH IS USUALLY PRETTY HEALTHY, 229 00:14:43,733 --> 00:14:46,067 UM, BUT COMING HOME, 230 00:14:46,067 --> 00:14:49,733 I'LL STOP AND GO TO A FAST-FOOD RESTAURANT. 231 00:14:49,733 --> 00:14:51,800 WHEN YOU GET HOME, DO YOU EAT AT HOME? 232 00:14:51,800 --> 00:14:54,967 YES. TYPICALLY, THEN I'LL HAVE DINNER WITH MY FAMILY. 233 00:14:54,967 --> 00:14:59,400 SO, YOUR PARENTS GIVE YOU MORE FOOD AFTER EATING ALL DAY? 234 00:14:59,400 --> 00:15:02,233 NIKKI IS EATING FIVE TO SIX TIMES A DAY. 235 00:15:02,233 --> 00:15:05,733 SOME OF THAT IS ENABLED BY HER FAMILY. 236 00:15:05,733 --> 00:15:08,800 THEY'RE HELPING KILL HER IF THEY DON'T STOP THIS. 237 00:15:08,800 --> 00:15:11,767 SOMETIMES, AS A PARENT, IT'S HARD TO KNOW 238 00:15:11,767 --> 00:15:14,200 IF YOU'RE HELPING OR ENABLING, YOU KNOW? 239 00:15:14,200 --> 00:15:15,967 SOMETIMES, THERE'S A FINE LINE. 240 00:15:15,967 --> 00:15:17,667 IT'S NOT THAT COMPLICATED. 241 00:15:17,667 --> 00:15:20,600 IF IT'S HURTING HER, IT'S ENABLING HER. 242 00:15:20,600 --> 00:15:24,133 AND NIKKI IS AT A VERY DANGEROUS POINT. 243 00:15:24,133 --> 00:15:27,700 A NORMAL PERSON'S BMI IS 18 TO 25. 244 00:15:27,700 --> 00:15:32,667 YOUR BMI IS 105. 245 00:15:32,667 --> 00:15:36,700 THE CHANCES THAT YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT TO 40 246 00:15:36,700 --> 00:15:38,300 ARE NOT THAT GOOD. 247 00:15:38,300 --> 00:15:41,867 NIKKI NEED TO MAKE CHANGES NOW 248 00:15:41,867 --> 00:15:45,200 BEFORE SHE DEVELOPS ANY SERIOUS HEALTH ISSUE 249 00:15:45,200 --> 00:15:49,200 THAT CAN PREVENT SURGERY FROM EVEN BEING AN OPTION. 250 00:15:49,200 --> 00:15:52,500 SO, YOU ARE NOT A CANDIDATE RIGHT NOW 251 00:15:52,500 --> 00:15:54,767 FOR DOING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 252 00:15:54,767 --> 00:15:58,067 YOU NEED TO TAKE SOME PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY. 253 00:15:58,067 --> 00:16:02,533 AND YOUR PARENTS NEED TO SHOW THAT THEY CAN STOP ENABLING YOU 254 00:16:02,533 --> 00:16:04,133 BEFORE YOU'RE READY. 255 00:16:04,133 --> 00:16:07,867 I'M GOING TO START YOU ON 1,200 CALORIE A DAY DIET. 256 00:16:07,867 --> 00:16:10,300 THEN YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE 50 POUNDS 257 00:16:10,300 --> 00:16:11,500 OVER THE NEXT MONTH. 258 00:16:11,500 --> 00:16:12,700 OH, MY GOSH. 259 00:16:12,700 --> 00:16:14,800 THAT SOUNDS LIKE A LOT OF WEIGHT. 260 00:16:14,800 --> 00:16:15,867 IT IS NOT. IT IS NOT. 261 00:16:15,867 --> 00:16:16,900 OKAY. 262 00:16:16,900 --> 00:16:18,633 YOU'RE GONNA EAT THREE TIMES A DAY. 263 00:16:18,633 --> 00:16:20,467 NO CARB IN YOUR DIET. 264 00:16:20,467 --> 00:16:22,967 NO SUGARY DRINK. NO SODAS. 265 00:16:22,967 --> 00:16:24,433 NO FRUIT. 266 00:16:24,433 --> 00:16:25,533 NO -- NO FRUIT? 267 00:16:25,533 --> 00:16:26,867 NO FRUIT. OKAY. 268 00:16:26,867 --> 00:16:30,067 OKAY, FRUIT HAS A LOT OF SUGAR IN IT. 269 00:16:30,067 --> 00:16:31,167 ALL RIGHT? 270 00:16:31,167 --> 00:16:32,500 I'M READY TO DO IT. 271 00:16:32,500 --> 00:16:33,600 OKAY? 272 00:16:33,600 --> 00:16:35,133 READY TO CLEAN OUT MY PANTRY. 273 00:16:35,133 --> 00:16:37,200 DAD IS GONNA HELP YOU WITH THAT? 274 00:16:37,200 --> 00:16:38,833 DAD WILL HELP. MOM WILL HELP. 275 00:16:38,833 --> 00:16:40,367 BROTHER WILL HELP. 276 00:16:40,367 --> 00:16:42,400 ALL RIGHT? I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH. 277 00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:43,667 50 POUNDS LESS. 278 00:16:43,667 --> 00:16:45,300 OKAY. [ LAUGHS ] 279 00:16:45,300 --> 00:16:48,600 NIKKI NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND HOW BAD HER SITUATION IS. 280 00:16:48,600 --> 00:16:51,200 SHE DOESN'T HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT. 281 00:16:51,200 --> 00:16:54,067 I'VE NEVER LOST 50 POUNDS IN A MONTH. 282 00:16:56,533 --> 00:17:00,100 Nikki: THIS IS A LITTLE OVERWHELMING. 283 00:17:00,100 --> 00:17:02,400 BUT I HAVE NO DOUBT 284 00:17:02,400 --> 00:17:06,667 THAT THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE TO DO. 285 00:17:06,667 --> 00:17:10,067 I'M JUST HOPING THAT I DON'T LET MYSELF DOWN. 286 00:17:21,600 --> 00:17:25,467 IT'S BEEN A TOUGH FEW WEEKS. 287 00:17:25,467 --> 00:17:28,333 WHEN WE GOT HOME FROM SEEING THE DOCTOR, 288 00:17:28,333 --> 00:17:29,933 THE FIRST THING WE DID 289 00:17:29,933 --> 00:17:34,167 WAS GET RID OF THE FOOD THAT WAS NOT ON THE DIET. 290 00:17:34,167 --> 00:17:38,067 IT WAS REALLY HARD TO LET SOME OF THAT GO. 291 00:17:38,067 --> 00:17:42,200 I'VE REALLY HAD TO TAKE IT A MEAL AT A TIME. 292 00:17:42,200 --> 00:17:45,833 BECAUSE IF I THINK ABOUT IT, I'LL GET TOTALLY OVERWHELMED. 293 00:17:45,833 --> 00:17:49,067 START EATING. Y'ALL ARE ALREADY DONE. 294 00:17:49,067 --> 00:17:50,367 Llewellyn: WELL, YEAH. 295 00:17:54,267 --> 00:17:57,333 MINE CAME TO 345. 296 00:17:57,333 --> 00:18:00,367 ALL RIGHT, DAD. WHAT DID YOUR CALORIES COME TO? 297 00:18:00,367 --> 00:18:03,267 IT CAME TO 274 CALORIES. 298 00:18:03,267 --> 00:18:04,533 NO. 299 00:18:04,533 --> 00:18:05,933 DID YOU HAVE A TOSTADA? 300 00:18:05,933 --> 00:18:07,667 OH, I FORGOT THE TOSTADA. 301 00:18:07,667 --> 00:18:09,500 [ LAUGHS ] I WAS ABOUT TO SAY... 302 00:18:11,200 --> 00:18:14,333 CHANGING MY EATING HABITS HAS BEEN A HARD ADJUSTMENT, 303 00:18:14,333 --> 00:18:18,267 AND I'M NOT SURE OF MY PROGRESS RIGHT NOW. 304 00:18:18,267 --> 00:18:20,600 I FEEL NERVOUS TO SEE DR. NOWZARADAN, 305 00:18:20,600 --> 00:18:23,767 BECAUSE I'M SCARED THAT I HAVEN'T LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT, 306 00:18:23,767 --> 00:18:26,167 MOSTLY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO EXERCISE 307 00:18:26,167 --> 00:18:28,867 AS MUCH AS I'D LIKE TO. 308 00:18:28,867 --> 00:18:30,400 GOING TO SEE THE DOCTOR 309 00:18:30,400 --> 00:18:34,267 WAS MORE ACTIVITY THAN I'VE HAD IN A LONG TIME. 310 00:18:34,267 --> 00:18:37,667 BY THE TIME I LEFT, I WAS HAVING TROUBLE BREATHING, 311 00:18:37,667 --> 00:18:41,067 AND I'VE HAD TO START USING MY OXYGEN AGAIN. 312 00:18:41,067 --> 00:18:44,067 SO, I'VE JUST BEEN DOING, LIKE, SOME WEIGHTS, 313 00:18:44,067 --> 00:18:46,567 SOME SIMPLE EXERCISES. 314 00:18:46,567 --> 00:18:49,767 I CAN FEEL MY BODY DETERIORATING, 315 00:18:49,767 --> 00:18:55,067 SO I KNOW THIS IS A RACE AGAINST THE CLOCK. 316 00:18:55,067 --> 00:18:59,833 AND I HOPE WHAT I'M DOING IS GOING TO BE ENOUGH. 317 00:19:14,733 --> 00:19:19,667 TODAY IS MY SECOND APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOWZARADAN. 318 00:19:19,667 --> 00:19:21,967 I'VE BEEN WAITING 319 00:19:21,967 --> 00:19:24,800 AND COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS FOR IT TO COME. 320 00:19:24,800 --> 00:19:29,867 AND I'M HOPING THAT I'VE LOST AT LEAST 50 POUNDS. 321 00:19:29,867 --> 00:19:34,900 SO MUCH IS RIDING ON THAT NUMBER. 322 00:19:37,500 --> 00:19:40,567 I REALLY HOPE THAT I'VE DONE ENOUGH. 323 00:19:50,067 --> 00:19:53,367 Nikki: I'M REALLY SCARED 324 00:19:53,367 --> 00:19:55,700 THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE UNDER 600 POUNDS 325 00:19:55,700 --> 00:19:58,100 TO QUALIFY FOR SURGERY. 326 00:19:59,800 --> 00:20:01,200 Woman: 587. 327 00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:05,833 IS THAT THE REAL NUMBER? 328 00:20:05,833 --> 00:20:07,067 [ CHUCKLES ] 329 00:20:07,067 --> 00:20:08,667 -THAT'S THE REAL NUMBER. -OKAY. 330 00:20:08,667 --> 00:20:10,967 THANK YOU, DADDY. 331 00:20:10,967 --> 00:20:12,367 I LOVE YOU. 332 00:20:12,367 --> 00:20:16,667 Nikki: I WORKED SO HARD TO DO THIS. 333 00:20:16,667 --> 00:20:21,033 TO SEE IT PAY OFF IS INCREDIBLE. 334 00:20:21,033 --> 00:20:22,067 HELLO. 335 00:20:22,067 --> 00:20:23,200 -HELLO. -DR. NOWZARADAN. 336 00:20:23,200 --> 00:20:27,733 I SEE YOU LOST 63 POUNDS IN ONE MONTH. 337 00:20:27,733 --> 00:20:29,000 YES. 338 00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:30,633 DID YOU THINK YOU WERE GONNA LOSE THAT? 339 00:20:30,633 --> 00:20:32,133 NO, I DID NOT. 340 00:20:32,133 --> 00:20:34,367 NOW YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT, RIGHT? 341 00:20:34,367 --> 00:20:36,200 YES. MOST DEFINITELY. 342 00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:39,367 YOU'VE DONE VERY WELL, BUT I NEED TO RUN SOME TESTS 343 00:20:39,367 --> 00:20:42,400 TO BE SURE THAT YOU'RE READY FOR SURGERY NOW. 344 00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:44,067 OKAY? OKAY. 345 00:20:44,067 --> 00:20:47,167 I'M REALLY HAPPY WITH NIKKI'S PROGRESS, 346 00:20:47,167 --> 00:20:51,133 BUT SHE CARRIES MOST OF HER WEIGHT IN THE ABDOMEN, 347 00:20:51,133 --> 00:20:54,233 WHICH CAN COMPROMISE HER RESPIRATORY SYSTEM OR HEART. 348 00:20:54,233 --> 00:20:58,567 I NEED TO MAKE SURE THAT HER BODY CAN HANDLE SURGERY 349 00:20:58,567 --> 00:21:02,733 OR SHE WOULD LIKELY NOT SURVIVE THE PROCEDURE. 350 00:21:04,267 --> 00:21:08,700 Nikki: I'M NOT SURE WHAT THE DOCTOR IS LOOKING FOR, 351 00:21:08,700 --> 00:21:12,200 BUT I'VE WORKING REALLY HARD TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 352 00:21:12,200 --> 00:21:13,333 AND I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW 353 00:21:13,333 --> 00:21:15,233 THAT'S ALL GONNA HAVE BEEN FOR NOTHING. 354 00:21:15,233 --> 00:21:16,433 [ SIGHS ] 355 00:21:16,433 --> 00:21:17,900 [ CHUCKLES ] 356 00:21:17,900 --> 00:21:19,067 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 357 00:21:19,067 --> 00:21:22,400 SO, YOUR EKG LOOKS GOOD. 358 00:21:22,400 --> 00:21:24,600 BUT CHEST X-RAY INDICATES 359 00:21:24,600 --> 00:21:28,467 THAT YOU MAY HAVE WHAT WE CALL PULMONARY HYPERTENSION. 360 00:21:28,467 --> 00:21:30,100 WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? 361 00:21:30,100 --> 00:21:32,967 THAT MEANS YOUR WEIGHT HAS AFFECTED YOUR HEART, 362 00:21:32,967 --> 00:21:36,700 AND YOUR HEART IS NOT ABLE TO TRANSPORT ENOUGH OXYGEN 363 00:21:36,700 --> 00:21:37,833 FOR YOUR BODY. 364 00:21:37,833 --> 00:21:40,767 SO, WE'VE GOT A LITTLE WAYS TO GO 365 00:21:40,767 --> 00:21:43,233 TO GET YOU TO A POINT 366 00:21:43,233 --> 00:21:47,667 THAT WE CAN SAFELY PUT YOU TO SLEEP AND DO SURGERY ON YOU. 367 00:21:47,667 --> 00:21:50,900 NIKKI STILL HAS A LOT OF WEIGHT PUSHING ON HER HEART. 368 00:21:50,900 --> 00:21:55,733 THE ONLY WAY TO FIX IT IS FOR HER TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT. 369 00:21:55,733 --> 00:21:57,833 IF SHE'S UNABLE TO DO THIS, 370 00:21:57,833 --> 00:22:00,700 SURGERY WOULD NOT BE AN OPTION FOR HER. 371 00:22:00,700 --> 00:22:03,667 I WANT YOU TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS 372 00:22:03,667 --> 00:22:07,567 OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MONTHS AND TRY TO ADDRESS THIS ISSUE. 373 00:22:07,567 --> 00:22:10,967 OKAY. SOUNDS LIKE A PLAN. 374 00:22:10,967 --> 00:22:13,200 THIS NEED TO BE FIXED NOW. 375 00:22:13,200 --> 00:22:15,067 Terry: WE'LL DO THAT. 376 00:22:17,567 --> 00:22:19,833 [ CRYING ] 377 00:22:28,300 --> 00:22:31,167 Nikki: I WORKED SO HARD, 378 00:22:31,167 --> 00:22:34,267 AND TO BE TOLD MY BODY CAN'T HANDLE SURGERY? 379 00:22:35,500 --> 00:22:40,733 I JUST FEEL HOPELESS RIGHT NOW, 380 00:22:40,733 --> 00:22:43,467 COMPLETELY HOPELESS. 381 00:22:51,800 --> 00:22:55,067 WHEN I SAW THAT I HAD LOST 60 POUNDS, 382 00:22:55,067 --> 00:22:58,300 I THOUGHT THAT ALL MY HARD WORK HAD PAID OFF. 383 00:22:58,300 --> 00:23:00,633 BUT WHEN THE DOCTOR TOLD ME 384 00:23:00,633 --> 00:23:03,900 THAT MY BODY WAS TOO BAD FOR SURGERY, 385 00:23:03,900 --> 00:23:06,867 I JUST WANTED TO GIVE UP. 386 00:23:06,867 --> 00:23:09,933 BUT I WANT TO LIVE. 387 00:23:12,533 --> 00:23:14,600 I DID IT ONCE. 388 00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:17,300 I KNOW I CAN DO IT AGAIN. 389 00:23:17,300 --> 00:23:20,900 AND I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME IF I DON'T DO THIS. 390 00:23:27,067 --> 00:23:30,133 I'M STARTING TO BE ABLE TO DO MORE, 391 00:23:30,133 --> 00:23:34,167 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M GETTING MY LIFE BACK. 392 00:23:35,733 --> 00:23:38,067 IT JUST MAKES ME WANT TO KEEP GOING. 393 00:23:38,067 --> 00:23:41,733 AND THE HOPE I FEEL RIGHT NOW FOR A NEW LIFE 394 00:23:41,733 --> 00:23:45,967 MAKES ME REALIZE I HAVE TO TRULY LET GO OF EVERYTHING 395 00:23:45,967 --> 00:23:48,867 THAT LED TO MY OLD LIFE. 396 00:23:50,467 --> 00:23:52,533 THIS IS MY BOX 397 00:23:52,533 --> 00:23:57,267 THAT HAD CHOCOLATE BARS AND CANDY AND -- 398 00:23:57,267 --> 00:23:59,433 BUT I'VE THROWN IT ALL OUT. 399 00:23:59,433 --> 00:24:02,800 HAVING A BOX OF CANDY NEXT TO MY BED 400 00:24:02,800 --> 00:24:07,067 DISRESPECTS THE WORK THAT I'VE DONE SO FAR. 401 00:24:07,067 --> 00:24:10,100 THERE'S NO GOING BACK. 402 00:24:10,100 --> 00:24:13,667 I KNOW IT HAS TO BE ALL OR NOTHING 403 00:24:13,667 --> 00:24:19,067 BECAUSE THIS NEXT DOCTOR'S VISIT IS MY LAST CHANCE. 404 00:24:29,133 --> 00:24:30,933 Woman: MS. WEBSTER? 405 00:24:30,933 --> 00:24:34,533 THIS HAS BEEN A REALLY HARD COUPLE OF MONTHS. 406 00:24:34,533 --> 00:24:35,767 HI. 407 00:24:35,767 --> 00:24:38,300 MY GOAL WAS TO LOSE ANOTHER 50 POUNDS 408 00:24:38,300 --> 00:24:40,600 AND GET BELOW 550. 409 00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:42,633 BUT GETTING ON THE SCALE 410 00:24:42,633 --> 00:24:45,067 AND WAITING FOR THE NUMBER TO COME UP 411 00:24:45,067 --> 00:24:48,100 IS JUST TERRIFYING. 412 00:24:50,233 --> 00:24:51,633 Llewellyn: IS THAT GOOD? 413 00:24:51,633 --> 00:24:53,633 YEAH, IT'S GOOD. IT'S GOOD. 414 00:24:54,933 --> 00:24:57,400 I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 415 00:24:57,400 --> 00:25:00,700 BUT I'M TRYING TO KEEP EXPECTATIONS LOW, 416 00:25:00,700 --> 00:25:02,767 BECAUSE I STILL DON'T KNOW 417 00:25:02,767 --> 00:25:05,433 IF THIS HAS BEEN ENOUGH TO FIX MY HEART. 418 00:25:05,433 --> 00:25:06,733 HOW ARE YOU ALL DOING? 419 00:25:06,733 --> 00:25:08,100 DOING WELL. 420 00:25:08,100 --> 00:25:10,067 YOU'RE LOSING ALMOST A POUND A DAY, 421 00:25:10,067 --> 00:25:11,200 WHICH IS VERY GOOD. 422 00:25:11,200 --> 00:25:13,600 SO, LET ME GET SOME TESTS DONE ON YOU, 423 00:25:13,600 --> 00:25:15,733 AND THEN I'LL ASSESS THE POSSIBILITY 424 00:25:15,733 --> 00:25:17,533 OF DOING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 425 00:25:17,533 --> 00:25:21,067 NIKKI'S DONE VERY WELL, BUT I NEED TO SEE 426 00:25:21,067 --> 00:25:24,567 IF THE PRESSURE ON HER HEART HAS BEEN RELIEVED ENOUGH 427 00:25:24,567 --> 00:25:27,767 FOR US TO SAFELY DO SURGERY ON HER. 428 00:25:27,767 --> 00:25:31,600 Nikki: IT'S BEEN SO HARD TO GET THIS FAR. 429 00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:33,333 I'M JUST REALLY SCARED RIGHT NOW 430 00:25:33,333 --> 00:25:38,500 THAT EVERYTHING I'VE DONE IS NOT GOING TO BE ENOUGH. 431 00:25:49,400 --> 00:25:53,900 Nikki: I'M REALLY ANXIOUS TO FIND OUT IF MY TESTS ARE GOOD 432 00:25:53,900 --> 00:25:57,733 AND IF I'M APPROVED FOR SURGERY. 433 00:25:57,733 --> 00:26:01,567 THIS JUST HAS TO HAPPEN FOR ME. 434 00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:05,300 OKAY. 435 00:26:05,300 --> 00:26:07,633 EVERYTHING LOOKING GOOD. 436 00:26:07,633 --> 00:26:09,600 I THINK WE'RE GONNA GO AHEAD 437 00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:11,533 AND APPROVE YOUR SURGERY AT THIS POINT. 438 00:26:11,533 --> 00:26:12,867 EXCELLENT. 439 00:26:12,867 --> 00:26:14,133 YOU EXCITED? 440 00:26:14,133 --> 00:26:15,767 -[ LAUGHS ] -YES. 441 00:26:15,767 --> 00:26:17,767 YES, I AM EXCITED. 442 00:26:17,767 --> 00:26:18,800 ALL RIGHT. 443 00:26:18,800 --> 00:26:20,067 -THANK YOU. -THANK YOU. 444 00:26:20,067 --> 00:26:21,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY PROUD OF NIKKI. 445 00:26:21,733 --> 00:26:25,767 I KNOW THIS WASN'T EASY FOR HER, BUT HER WORK HAS PAID OFF. 446 00:26:25,767 --> 00:26:29,200 AND SURGERY IS GONNA HELP HER TO MAKE EVEN MORE PROGRESS. 447 00:26:29,200 --> 00:26:32,100 Nikki: I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S REALLY HAPPENING. 448 00:26:32,100 --> 00:26:38,167 I FEEL LIKE THE DOCTOR IS GIVING ME THIS AMAZING CHANCE. 449 00:26:40,067 --> 00:26:43,067 AND I'M NOT GOING TO FAIL. 450 00:26:56,333 --> 00:26:58,733 I'M GLAD THIS DAY HAS COME, 451 00:26:58,733 --> 00:27:02,767 BUT I FEEL TERRIFIED ABOUT WHAT COULD HAPPEN. 452 00:27:05,867 --> 00:27:07,267 I LOVE YOU. 453 00:27:07,267 --> 00:27:09,467 I LOVE YOU, TOO. 454 00:27:09,467 --> 00:27:11,800 SEVERAL MONTHS AGO, 455 00:27:11,800 --> 00:27:15,100 IT WAS NOT UNCOMMON FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT MY FUNERAL. 456 00:27:16,700 --> 00:27:19,867 AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A CHANCE. 457 00:27:19,867 --> 00:27:24,767 I'M RISKING MY LIFE TO HAVE A LIFE. 458 00:27:26,867 --> 00:27:29,467 Dr. Nowzaradan: NIKKI HAD DONE VERY WELL, 459 00:27:29,467 --> 00:27:31,933 BUT EVEN WITH ALL OF HER PROGRESS, 460 00:27:31,933 --> 00:27:35,167 SHE'S STILL CARRYING A LOT OF WEIGHT AROUND HER ABDOMEN, 461 00:27:35,167 --> 00:27:38,067 WHICH CAN PUT PRESSURE ON THE HEART AND LUNGS 462 00:27:38,067 --> 00:27:40,967 IF WE DON'T WORK FAST. 463 00:27:40,967 --> 00:27:44,667 TODAY, WE'RE GONNA DO GASTRIC BYPASS ON NIKKI. 464 00:27:44,667 --> 00:27:49,067 THIS IS AN OPERATION THAT WE REDUCE THE STOMACH 465 00:27:49,067 --> 00:27:52,367 FROM A SIZE OF A FOOTBALL TO THE SIZE OF A SMALL ORANGE. 466 00:27:52,367 --> 00:27:54,800 THIS WILL LIMIT THE AMOUNT 467 00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:57,933 THAT PATIENT CAN EAT IN ONE SITTING. 468 00:27:57,933 --> 00:28:02,333 WE ALSO REROUTE OR BYPASS THE INTESTINE 469 00:28:02,333 --> 00:28:04,600 TO SHORTEN THE LENGTH. 470 00:28:04,600 --> 00:28:06,933 BY DOING THAT, 471 00:28:06,933 --> 00:28:10,900 WE ALSO KIND OF LIMIT THE AMOUNT OF FOOD ABSORPTION. 472 00:28:14,067 --> 00:28:18,300 Llewellyn: NIKKI'S PROBABLY BEEN IN SURGERY FOR TWO HOURS. 473 00:28:18,300 --> 00:28:21,933 YOUR IMAGINATION RUNS AWAY WITH YOU AND YOU WORRY. 474 00:28:21,933 --> 00:28:25,567 WE'RE JUST ANXIOUS FOR HER TO COME OUT OF SURGERY. 475 00:28:35,600 --> 00:28:39,633 Dr. Nowzaradan: I WAS HOPING TO DO A BYPASS ON NIKKI, 476 00:28:39,633 --> 00:28:42,700 BUT WITH HOW MUCH THE ABDOMEN HAS BEEN STRETCHED 477 00:28:42,700 --> 00:28:43,867 WITH HER WEIGHT, 478 00:28:43,867 --> 00:28:47,667 THE BOWEL WOULD NOT REACH FOR DOING A BYPASS. 479 00:28:55,067 --> 00:28:57,333 SLEEVE GASTRECTOMY IS AN OPERATION 480 00:28:57,333 --> 00:28:59,900 THAT JUST REDUCES THE SIZE OF THE STOMACH 481 00:28:59,900 --> 00:29:04,767 AND MAKE IT LOOK LIKE A SLEEVE INSTEAD OF A BIG BALL. 482 00:29:04,767 --> 00:29:08,100 IT CAN BE JUST AS EFFECTIVE AS BYPASS. 483 00:29:18,333 --> 00:29:19,767 ALL RIGHT. 484 00:29:19,767 --> 00:29:23,800 WE HAD SOME CHANGE OF PLAN, BUT EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL. 485 00:29:25,100 --> 00:29:28,067 EVEN THOUGH NIKKI DIDN'T HAVE BYPASS, 486 00:29:28,067 --> 00:29:32,333 A SLEEVE IS GOING TO HELP HER TO LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT. 487 00:29:32,333 --> 00:29:35,900 BUT IF SHE PUSHES HERSELF TO EAT MORE, 488 00:29:35,900 --> 00:29:38,300 THE SURGERY CAN BECOME INEFFECTIVE 489 00:29:38,300 --> 00:29:40,800 MUCH FASTER THAN BYPASS. 490 00:29:40,800 --> 00:29:45,067 SHE NEEDS TO STAY MOTIVATED TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS. 491 00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:02,100 YOU READY TO SLEEP IN YOUR BED TONIGHT? 492 00:30:02,100 --> 00:30:04,000 IT'S BEEN A WHILE. 493 00:30:11,633 --> 00:30:13,467 Nikki: I'M REALLY NERVOUS 494 00:30:13,467 --> 00:30:18,300 ABOUT GOING BACK TO THE PLACE WHERE ALL MY TEMPTATIONS ARE. 495 00:30:18,300 --> 00:30:21,500 THE DOCTOR SAID I COULD RETURN A WHILE AGO, 496 00:30:21,500 --> 00:30:24,233 BUT I THINK I'VE BEEN STALLING. 497 00:30:26,233 --> 00:30:28,700 WHEN I WOKE UP FROM SURGERY, 498 00:30:28,700 --> 00:30:34,600 IT WAS SCARY TO FIND OUT THAT I DIDN'T GET THE FULL BYPASS. 499 00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:38,100 BUT I'VE STILL BEEN LOSING WEIGHT OVER THE PAST MONTH. 500 00:30:39,533 --> 00:30:41,533 IT'S GETTING HARDER, THOUGH, 501 00:30:41,533 --> 00:30:45,467 BECAUSE MY CRAVINGS ARE SLOWLY COMING BACK. 502 00:30:45,467 --> 00:30:46,967 YOU KNOW, EVENTUALLY, YOU'LL STOP IN 503 00:30:46,967 --> 00:30:48,967 AND SAY HI TO YOUR FRIENDS AT THE OLD DOUGHNUT SHOP. 504 00:30:48,967 --> 00:30:50,233 [ LAUGHS ] 505 00:30:50,233 --> 00:30:52,567 THEY PROBABLY THINK THAT SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED TO ME. 506 00:30:52,567 --> 00:30:54,067 [ LAUGHS ] 507 00:30:54,067 --> 00:30:56,467 THEY SAID, "HOW ARE WE GONNA MAKE OUR RENT?" 508 00:30:56,467 --> 00:30:58,567 [ LAUGHS ] 509 00:30:58,567 --> 00:31:00,800 THAT WAS MEAN! 510 00:31:02,067 --> 00:31:04,100 ALL RIGHT. HOME, SWEET HOME. 511 00:31:06,467 --> 00:31:09,800 I WAS FOCUSED ON GETTING THE SURGERY. 512 00:31:09,800 --> 00:31:13,933 NOW THAT I HAVE IT AND STILL HAVE CRAVINGS, 513 00:31:13,933 --> 00:31:18,733 I'M REALIZING HOW MUCH I'VE BEEN USING FOOD 514 00:31:18,733 --> 00:31:21,433 TO AVOID DEALING WITH SOME THINGS. 515 00:31:24,367 --> 00:31:27,467 I'M PROUD OF HOW FAR I'VE COME. 516 00:31:27,467 --> 00:31:30,933 SO THERE'S NO TURNING BACK FOR ME AT THIS POINT. 517 00:31:32,333 --> 00:31:35,667 THANKSGIVING IS IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS, 518 00:31:35,667 --> 00:31:39,300 AND EVERYONE IS COMING TO OUR HOUSE TO EAT. 519 00:31:39,300 --> 00:31:40,667 NOT ONLY DOES IT MEAN 520 00:31:40,667 --> 00:31:43,333 THAT THIS HOUSE WILL BE FILLED WITH FOOD, 521 00:31:43,333 --> 00:31:47,800 BUT THAT MY SISTER COURTNEY WILL BE HERE. 522 00:31:47,800 --> 00:31:51,667 I HAVEN'T REALLY TALKED TO HER IN YEARS 523 00:31:51,667 --> 00:31:55,667 BECAUSE AT ONE POINT SHE BROKE OFF OUR RELATIONSHIP. 524 00:31:55,667 --> 00:31:58,400 SHE WAS SCARED THAT MY SIZE 525 00:31:58,400 --> 00:32:03,067 WAS EMOTIONALLY DISTRESSING TO HER KIDS. 526 00:32:05,267 --> 00:32:08,233 IT MADE ME FEEL MORE LIKE A FAILURE 527 00:32:08,233 --> 00:32:11,333 THAN I EVER HAD BEFORE. 528 00:32:11,333 --> 00:32:13,867 AND I'VE NEVER DEALT WITH IT. 529 00:32:13,867 --> 00:32:16,433 I JUST ATE MORE AND MORE. 530 00:32:16,433 --> 00:32:21,633 AND NOW, I CAN'T HIDE IN FOOD. I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THINGS. 531 00:32:21,633 --> 00:32:23,967 AND THAT'S SCARY. 532 00:32:29,333 --> 00:32:31,700 Nikki: THERE ARE MOMENTS YOU FACE 533 00:32:31,700 --> 00:32:35,400 THAT CAN NOT ONLY DETERMINE YOUR FUTURE 534 00:32:35,400 --> 00:32:37,900 BUT REDEFINE YOUR PAST. 535 00:32:53,300 --> 00:32:57,133 THE MORE I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT THE THINGS I NEED TO DEAL WITH, 536 00:32:57,133 --> 00:33:02,167 THE MORE I'VE REALIZED I CAN'T DO THIS ON MY OWN. 537 00:33:04,867 --> 00:33:07,600 I'VE ALWAYS FELT LIKE A FAILURE, 538 00:33:07,600 --> 00:33:13,333 AND THERE'S NO WAY I'LL BE ABLE TO TALK TO MY SISTER OR MY MOM 539 00:33:13,333 --> 00:33:16,867 IF I CAN'T GET PAST THAT. 540 00:33:16,867 --> 00:33:20,067 SO I'M GONNA SEE A THERAPIST TODAY. 541 00:33:20,067 --> 00:33:21,233 HI. 542 00:33:21,233 --> 00:33:22,800 MY NAME'S LEE. I'M NIKKI. 543 00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:24,800 NICE TO MEET YOU. COME ON IN. 544 00:33:24,800 --> 00:33:26,833 WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME A LITTLE BIT 545 00:33:26,833 --> 00:33:28,100 ABOUT WHY YOU'RE HERE? 546 00:33:28,100 --> 00:33:32,500 WELL, I HAVE STRUGGLED WITH MY WEIGHT MY WHOLE LIFE, 547 00:33:32,500 --> 00:33:35,267 SO I MADE THE DECISION TO HAVE SURGERY. 548 00:33:35,267 --> 00:33:39,467 AND I AM CONCERNED ABOUT GAINING IT BACK. 549 00:33:39,467 --> 00:33:40,600 RIGHT. 550 00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:43,667 WELL, 88% OF WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THIS 551 00:33:43,667 --> 00:33:45,600 IS ACTUALLY SUBCONSCIOUS. 552 00:33:45,600 --> 00:33:49,667 SO THERE ARE EMOTIONAL ISSUES WHY YOU EAT, 553 00:33:49,667 --> 00:33:52,700 AND SO IT'S IMPORTANT TO DEAL WITH THE EMOTIONAL ISSUES 554 00:33:52,700 --> 00:33:55,333 THAT CAUSED THE WEIGHT GAIN IN THE FIRST PLACE. 555 00:33:55,333 --> 00:33:56,767 LIKE, TAKE ME BACK. 556 00:33:56,767 --> 00:33:59,500 TAKE ME BACK TO SOME CHILDHOOD STUFF 557 00:33:59,500 --> 00:34:01,733 THAT YOU'RE CARRYING AROUND WITH YOU. 558 00:34:01,733 --> 00:34:05,833 UM, WHEN I WAS LIKE 13 OR SO, 559 00:34:05,833 --> 00:34:09,133 BOTH MY SISTERS WERE GETTING MARRIED, 560 00:34:09,133 --> 00:34:11,067 AND I -- 561 00:34:11,067 --> 00:34:16,133 I THINK THAT MAYBE I FELT LIKE I WAS JUST IN THE BACKGROUND. 562 00:34:16,133 --> 00:34:18,533 AND NOT KNOWING HOW TO DEAL WITH THOSE EMOTIONS, 563 00:34:18,533 --> 00:34:20,067 EATING WAS MY COPING MECHANISM. 564 00:34:20,067 --> 00:34:21,067 RIGHT. 565 00:34:21,067 --> 00:34:22,267 AND SO I REALIZE 566 00:34:22,267 --> 00:34:24,733 THAT I HAVE TO FIND A NEW COPING MECHANISM, 567 00:34:24,733 --> 00:34:28,100 BUT I GET SO CONSUMED WITH THAT THOUGHT OF LIKE, 568 00:34:28,100 --> 00:34:30,500 "I CAN'T DO THIS, I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH", 569 00:34:30,500 --> 00:34:32,067 I'M AFRAID THAT I'LL JUST THROW IT ALL AWAY, 570 00:34:32,067 --> 00:34:33,667 AND THAT TERRIFIES ME. 571 00:34:33,667 --> 00:34:36,967 WELL, THAT 88% IS WORKING AGAINST YOU. 572 00:34:36,967 --> 00:34:39,833 SO THAT'S WHY MOST PEOPLE JUST GAIN IT RIGHT BACK. 573 00:34:39,833 --> 00:34:43,433 UNLESS YOU MAKE CHANGES IN THE SUBCONSCIOUS. 574 00:34:43,433 --> 00:34:45,767 SO, YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH. 575 00:34:45,767 --> 00:34:48,267 BUT YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO SEE THAT 576 00:34:48,267 --> 00:34:51,067 BECAUSE IT'S SOMETHING YOU'RE CARRYING AROUND WITH YOU -- 577 00:34:51,067 --> 00:34:52,100 LITERALLY. 578 00:34:52,100 --> 00:34:54,600 AND ONCE YOU'RE ABLE TO LET GO OF THAT, 579 00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:57,500 THEN IT BECOMES EASIER TO KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF, 580 00:34:57,500 --> 00:35:00,133 'CAUSE YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT YOU'RE STRONG ENOUGH. 581 00:35:00,133 --> 00:35:01,400 YEAH. 582 00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:03,733 ALL OF THIS CAN BE CHANGED. YOU CAN KEEP THE WEIGHT OFF. 583 00:35:03,733 --> 00:35:04,967 OKAY. 584 00:35:04,967 --> 00:35:07,600 Nikki: I THINK, FOR SO MANY YEARS, 585 00:35:07,600 --> 00:35:11,833 I JUST ASSUMED THAT I WOULD FAIL AND LET PEOPLE DOWN. 586 00:35:11,833 --> 00:35:15,267 I KNOW THAT I'VE GOT TO LET THAT GO, 587 00:35:15,267 --> 00:35:18,300 AND PART OF THAT IS LETTING GO 588 00:35:18,300 --> 00:35:22,200 OF THE PAIN I'VE HAD WITH MY SISTER AND MY MOM. 589 00:35:39,067 --> 00:35:43,067 AS THANKSGIVING HAS GOTTEN CLOSER AND CLOSER, 590 00:35:43,067 --> 00:35:45,433 I'VE GOTTEN MORE NERVOUS 591 00:35:45,433 --> 00:35:50,767 ABOUT SEEING MY SISTER AND TALKING WITH HER. 592 00:35:50,767 --> 00:35:54,867 BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M JUST FOCUSING ON 593 00:35:54,867 --> 00:35:57,800 NOT EATING ANYTHING I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO. 594 00:35:59,700 --> 00:36:02,867 COURTNEY KNOWS THAT I'M TRYING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 595 00:36:02,867 --> 00:36:08,300 AND I'M HOPING THIS WILL HELP OUR RELATIONSHIP. 596 00:36:08,300 --> 00:36:10,667 I WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO COURTNEY 597 00:36:10,667 --> 00:36:14,133 ABOUT WHEN SHE DISTANCED HERSELF FROM ME 598 00:36:14,133 --> 00:36:15,967 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT. 599 00:36:15,967 --> 00:36:20,300 SO I ASKED HER IF I COULD SHOW HER SOME OF MY NEW MAKEUP. 600 00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:24,667 DO I REALLY LOOK THAT DIFFERENT TO YOU? 601 00:36:24,667 --> 00:36:26,333 YES. YOU DO. 602 00:36:26,333 --> 00:36:30,967 I KNOW THAT MY WEIGHT HAS ALWAYS BEEN AN ISSUE 603 00:36:30,967 --> 00:36:35,533 IN ALL OF OUR LIVES, AND, UM... 604 00:36:35,533 --> 00:36:38,767 [ Voice breaking ] I KNOW THAT THAT WAS HARD FOR YOU 605 00:36:38,767 --> 00:36:40,233 TO, YOU KNOW, TELL ME 606 00:36:40,233 --> 00:36:43,067 THAT YOU NEEDED TO STEP BACK A LITTLE BIT 607 00:36:43,067 --> 00:36:45,667 AND GIVE IT SOME SPACE. 608 00:36:45,667 --> 00:36:48,067 [ Voice breaking ] IT WAS HARD, NIKKI. 609 00:36:48,067 --> 00:36:49,967 I NEVER WANTED TO HURT YOU. 610 00:36:49,967 --> 00:36:54,700 AND IT'S BEEN PAINFUL TO JUST WATCH YOU DYING 611 00:36:54,700 --> 00:36:57,367 AND NOT KNOW IF I'D EVER SEE YOU AGAIN. 612 00:36:57,367 --> 00:36:59,100 YOU KNOW? 613 00:36:59,100 --> 00:37:03,400 I WORRIED ABOUT THAT EVERY TIME I SA-- 614 00:37:03,400 --> 00:37:07,900 AND I JUST WASN'T THINKING ABOUT WHAT IT WAS DOING TO YOU. 615 00:37:07,900 --> 00:37:09,967 YOU HAVE A LIFE TO LIVE, 616 00:37:09,967 --> 00:37:14,067 AND I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU COMING ALIVE. 617 00:37:14,067 --> 00:37:16,067 GIVE ME A HUG. 618 00:37:18,300 --> 00:37:19,667 I LOVE YOU. 619 00:37:19,667 --> 00:37:21,900 I LOVE YOU. 620 00:37:21,900 --> 00:37:24,133 AND I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE HERE. 621 00:37:24,133 --> 00:37:26,167 ME TOO. 622 00:37:39,467 --> 00:37:41,267 DO YOU WANT TO GO FOR A LITTLE WALK? 623 00:37:41,267 --> 00:37:43,133 Chris: YEAH. 624 00:37:44,867 --> 00:37:48,633 Nikki: TALKING WITH MY SISTER LAST MONTH WAS REALLY GOOD. 625 00:37:48,633 --> 00:37:51,767 I FEEL LIKE I'M MAKING PROGRESS, 626 00:37:51,767 --> 00:37:56,400 AND I'VE REALLY BEEN PUSHING MYSELF TO DO MORE AND MORE. 627 00:37:56,400 --> 00:37:58,067 YOU GOT ME? 628 00:37:58,067 --> 00:38:00,333 I GOT YOU. 629 00:38:00,333 --> 00:38:02,967 WHOA, WHOA, WHOA, WHOA. [ LAUGHS ] 630 00:38:02,967 --> 00:38:05,600 ONE OF MY GOALS FOR YEARS 631 00:38:05,600 --> 00:38:08,600 HAS BEEN TO START TAKING CARE OF MY BROTHER. 632 00:38:08,600 --> 00:38:11,800 LET'S SEE IF WE CAN MAKE IT TO THAT CAR OVER THERE. 633 00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:15,467 LET'S SEE IF I CAN MAKE IT TO THAT CAR OVER THERE. 634 00:38:15,467 --> 00:38:19,067 MY PARENTS HAVE NOT ONLY HAD TO TAKE ON THAT RESPONSIBILITY 635 00:38:19,067 --> 00:38:20,533 BY THEMSELVES, 636 00:38:20,533 --> 00:38:24,700 THEY ALSO HAD TO TAKE CARE OF ME AT THE SAME TIME. 637 00:38:24,700 --> 00:38:27,267 I WANT TO CHANGE THAT. 638 00:38:27,267 --> 00:38:30,133 I'M DOING EVERYTHING I SAID I WOULD. 639 00:38:30,133 --> 00:38:32,200 HERE WE GO. 640 00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:35,067 I'M DOWN 160 POUNDS, 641 00:38:35,067 --> 00:38:40,067 AND MY GOAL IS TO HAVE LOST OVER 200 POUNDS 642 00:38:40,067 --> 00:38:42,100 AT MY ONE-YEAR MARK. 643 00:38:43,500 --> 00:38:46,500 AND I'M GONNA DO IT. 644 00:38:46,500 --> 00:38:50,100 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME, 645 00:38:50,100 --> 00:38:52,233 I BELIEVE IN MYSELF. 646 00:39:10,567 --> 00:39:14,400 Nikki: I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT TONIGHT. 647 00:39:14,400 --> 00:39:16,133 HEY! HEY, WHAT'S GOING ON? 648 00:39:16,133 --> 00:39:17,867 HOW'S LIFE? GOOD. 649 00:39:17,867 --> 00:39:20,067 I'M GONNA HANG OUT WITH SOME FRIENDS 650 00:39:20,067 --> 00:39:22,600 AND GO SEE AN IMPROV SHOW. 651 00:39:22,600 --> 00:39:26,400 IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE I'VE SEEN SOME OF THESE FRIENDS. 652 00:39:26,400 --> 00:39:28,767 COULD YOU, MY GOOD FRIEND NIKKI, 653 00:39:28,767 --> 00:39:30,067 COME AND HELP ME OUT FOR A MINUTE? 654 00:39:30,067 --> 00:39:31,567 ARE YOU KIDDING? I AM NOT KIDDING YOU. 655 00:39:31,567 --> 00:39:32,900 WOULD YOU COME HELP ME, PLEASE? 656 00:39:32,900 --> 00:39:34,200 OKAY. EXCELLENT. 657 00:39:34,200 --> 00:39:36,767 HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND BEING SOCIAL 658 00:39:36,767 --> 00:39:39,867 IS A HUGE PART IN MY PERSONALITY. 659 00:39:39,867 --> 00:39:42,200 WE'RE GONNA BE PLAYING A GAME CALLED "SPEED DATING." 660 00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:46,333 THAT IS SOMETHING THAT I REALLY MISSED IN MY LIFE. 661 00:39:46,333 --> 00:39:47,800 HEY, HOTNESS. 662 00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:48,933 HEY. 663 00:39:48,933 --> 00:39:50,667 [ LAUGHTER ] 664 00:39:50,667 --> 00:39:53,433 Nikki: I'VE SPENT SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE 665 00:39:53,433 --> 00:39:55,733 HIDING FROM EVERYONE. 666 00:39:55,733 --> 00:39:57,733 I'M WORKING HARD TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 667 00:39:57,733 --> 00:39:59,333 AND I'M GETTING BACK OUT THERE. 668 00:39:59,333 --> 00:40:00,900 [ BELL DINGS ] 669 00:40:00,900 --> 00:40:02,733 [ LAUGHTER AND APPLAUSE ] 670 00:40:02,733 --> 00:40:04,933 -NIKKI! -GIVE IT UP FOR NIKKI! 671 00:40:04,933 --> 00:40:07,067 Nikki: I'M GONNA SEE THE DOCTOR NEXT MONTH, 672 00:40:07,067 --> 00:40:09,867 AND I AM DETERMINED TO HIT MY GOAL 673 00:40:09,867 --> 00:40:12,067 OF LOSING 200 POUNDS IN A YEAR. 674 00:40:12,067 --> 00:40:14,800 THERE IS NO GOING BACK. 675 00:40:14,800 --> 00:40:16,567 HOW ARE YOU? GOOD. 676 00:40:21,267 --> 00:40:23,367 I'M HEADED TO THE DOCTOR, 677 00:40:23,367 --> 00:40:28,667 AND MY GOAL HAS BEEN TO HIT 449 POUNDS WITHIN A YEAR. 678 00:40:28,667 --> 00:40:32,600 AND I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT THE SCALE SAYS. 679 00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:35,500 I'VE USUALLY BEEN AFRAID OF WHAT IT MIGHT SAY. 680 00:40:38,067 --> 00:40:39,733 443. 681 00:40:39,733 --> 00:40:41,867 WHAT? [ LAUGHS ] 682 00:40:41,867 --> 00:40:44,100 MY GOSH, YOU SILLY GIRL. 683 00:40:44,100 --> 00:40:45,500 Dr. Nowzaradan: YOU LOST 200 POUNDS. 684 00:40:45,500 --> 00:40:47,267 THAT'S VERY GOOD. 685 00:40:47,267 --> 00:40:48,700 THANK YOU. 686 00:40:48,700 --> 00:40:51,033 Dr. Nowzaradan: NIKKI WORKED VERY HARD, 687 00:40:51,033 --> 00:40:52,300 AND I HAVE NO DOUBT 688 00:40:52,300 --> 00:40:55,433 THAT SHE WILL REACH HER TARGET WEIGHT NEXT YEAR. 689 00:40:55,433 --> 00:40:58,700 THANKS, DR. NOWZARADAN. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 690 00:40:58,700 --> 00:41:01,233 YOU'RE QUITE WELCOME. I'LL SEE YOU IN THREE MONTHS. 691 00:41:01,233 --> 00:41:02,367 SOUNDS GOOD. OKAY. 692 00:41:04,100 --> 00:41:07,067 I'M FEELING REALLY CONFIDENT RIGHT NOW, 693 00:41:07,067 --> 00:41:11,067 SO I DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO TALK TO MY MOM 694 00:41:11,067 --> 00:41:13,233 AND DEAL WITH SOME OF THE EMOTIONS I'VE HAD 695 00:41:13,233 --> 00:41:14,400 WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP. 696 00:41:14,400 --> 00:41:17,967 I THINK I FELT LIKE I WAS JUST NEVER GOOD ENOUGH. 697 00:41:17,967 --> 00:41:19,800 I HATE THAT YOU EVER FELT THAT WAY. 698 00:41:19,800 --> 00:41:21,800 I HOPE I DON'T EVER HURT YOUR FEELINGS, 699 00:41:21,800 --> 00:41:22,900 'CAUSE I LOVE YOU. 700 00:41:24,300 --> 00:41:25,433 MM. 701 00:41:25,433 --> 00:41:27,867 I LOVE YOU, TOO, BABY. 702 00:41:27,867 --> 00:41:31,267 I CAN DO SO MUCH MORE NOW. 703 00:41:31,267 --> 00:41:32,933 WORK IS SO MUCH DIFFERENT 704 00:41:32,933 --> 00:41:36,233 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I CAN ACTUALLY DO MY JOB. 705 00:41:36,233 --> 00:41:41,733 I DON'T HAVE TO RELY ON OTHERS TO DO MY JOB FOR ME. 706 00:41:41,733 --> 00:41:43,367 IS THAT TOO TIGHT? NO, THAT'S FINE. 707 00:41:43,367 --> 00:41:44,833 THAT FEEL GOOD? OKAY. 708 00:41:47,133 --> 00:41:49,300 Terry: NIKKI'S WEIGHT LOSS 709 00:41:49,300 --> 00:41:53,333 HAS JUST HAD A POSITIVE EFFECT NOT ONLY ON HER, OF COURSE, 710 00:41:53,333 --> 00:41:55,767 BUT ALSO ON OUR WHOLE FAMILY. 711 00:41:55,767 --> 00:41:58,667 SHE IS DOING MUCH MORE FOR HERSELF, 712 00:41:58,667 --> 00:42:01,733 AND SHE'S TRYING TO DO EVEN MORE FOR CHRIS. 713 00:42:01,733 --> 00:42:03,067 THANKS FOR COMING OUT WITH ME. 714 00:42:03,067 --> 00:42:05,333 SINCE I'VE BEEN LOSING WEIGHT, 715 00:42:05,333 --> 00:42:07,233 WE'VE BEEN ABLE TO DO A LITTLE BIT MORE, HUH? 716 00:42:07,233 --> 00:42:08,533 UH-HUH. 717 00:42:08,533 --> 00:42:10,767 I LIKE BEING ABLE TO SPEND THAT TIME WITH YOU. 718 00:42:10,767 --> 00:42:12,533 I DO, TOO. 719 00:42:12,533 --> 00:42:15,667 Nikki: A YEAR AGO, I FELT DEBILITATED, 720 00:42:15,667 --> 00:42:21,733 AND TODAY, IT'S LITERALLY A BRAND-NEW LIFE. 721 00:42:23,433 --> 00:42:27,733 I'M DOING THINGS THAT I HAVEN'T DONE IN FOREVER, 722 00:42:27,733 --> 00:42:29,933 AND IT FEELS AMAZING. 723 00:42:29,933 --> 00:42:32,167 I'VE TAKEN CONTROL OF MY LIFE. 723 00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm