"My 600-lb Life" Gideon's Story

1 00:00:03,000 --> 00:00:05,500 Gideon: I HATE MY BODY. 2 00:00:05,500 --> 00:00:08,667 I MEAN, I FEEL LIKE I AM DISGUSTING. 3 00:00:16,533 --> 00:00:20,433 Man: MY WEIGHT HAS GIVEN ME A DEATH SENTENCE. 4 00:00:20,433 --> 00:00:23,100 Woman: THE THING I RELIED ON ALL THESE YEARS 5 00:00:23,100 --> 00:00:25,233 IS WHAT'S KILLING ME. 6 00:00:32,600 --> 00:00:34,433 -IT'S BROKEN! -WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? 7 00:00:34,433 --> 00:00:36,033 I DON'T KNOW. I CAN'T GET OFF. 8 00:00:36,033 --> 00:00:37,767 DON'T LET ME GO, PLEASE. -I'M NOT. 9 00:00:41,933 --> 00:00:44,333 Man: IT'S HARD TO BE A FATHER FROM A CHAIR. 10 00:00:44,333 --> 00:00:46,500 [ GRUNTS ] THANK YOU, HONEY. 11 00:00:46,500 --> 00:00:49,600 I SEE THAT UNWILLINGNESS. 12 00:00:49,600 --> 00:00:52,067 IF YOU'RE SERIOUS, YOU'LL MAKE CHANGES. 13 00:00:57,200 --> 00:01:01,600 Kayleigh: I LOVE GIDEON, BUT HE HAD HIS CHANCE TO CHANGE, 14 00:01:01,600 --> 00:01:03,667 AND RIGHT NOW, HE'S NOT USING IT. 15 00:01:03,667 --> 00:01:06,667 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 16 00:01:06,667 --> 00:01:09,667 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 17 00:01:09,667 --> 00:01:12,067 ** 18 00:01:12,067 --> 00:01:15,067 Gideon: SOMETIMES YOU THINK YOU KNOW WHAT YOU NEED TO DO, 19 00:01:15,067 --> 00:01:19,867 WHEN YOU REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT REAL CHANGE IS GONNA TAKE. 20 00:01:21,000 --> 00:01:27,074 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org 21 00:01:38,533 --> 00:01:43,633 WHEN I WAKE UP, I INSTANTLY FEEL PAIN ALL OVER MY BODY. 22 00:01:46,200 --> 00:01:52,333 MY WEIGHT PUTS PRESSURE ON ME, MAKES MY BACK HURT. 23 00:01:52,333 --> 00:01:54,700 MY LEGS SWELL, 24 00:01:54,700 --> 00:01:57,600 AND IT'S A CONSTANT BATTLE TO CATCH MY BREATH. 25 00:01:59,800 --> 00:02:02,733 EVERYTHING IS EXTREMELY HARD AT MY SIZE. 26 00:02:02,733 --> 00:02:07,933 AND I JUST FEEL LIKE MY BODY COULD GIVE OUT AT ANY MOMENT. 27 00:02:07,933 --> 00:02:12,067 WHEN I GET IN THE SHOWER, I TRY TO STAY AS STILL AS I CAN. 28 00:02:14,633 --> 00:02:19,633 'CAUSE FALLING'S NOT A GOOD IDEA AT 625 POUNDS. 29 00:02:19,633 --> 00:02:24,600 THAT WOULD BE HUMILIATING FOR MY FAMILY TO SEE ME LIKE THAT. 30 00:02:24,600 --> 00:02:27,267 I ALREADY CAN BARELY FUNCTION, 31 00:02:27,267 --> 00:02:30,400 'CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT I DO REVOLVES AROUND MY WEIGHT. 32 00:02:33,500 --> 00:02:38,533 PHYSICALLY, IT'S DIFFICULT IN EVERY ASPECT OF THE WORD. 33 00:02:41,300 --> 00:02:45,167 LIKE, I HAVE TO USE DEODORANT NOT ONLY IN MY ARMPITS 34 00:02:45,167 --> 00:02:48,700 BUT IN BETWEEN MY ROLLS BECAUSE I SWEAT A LOT, 35 00:02:48,700 --> 00:02:51,267 SO THEY GET RAW AND CHAPPED. 36 00:02:51,267 --> 00:02:53,467 AND I HAVE TO WEAR THREE SHIRTS EVERY DAY 37 00:02:53,467 --> 00:02:56,967 JUST TO ABSORB THE SWEAT AND TO HIDE THE FACT 38 00:02:56,967 --> 00:03:01,667 THAT MY MAN BOOBS ARE SO BIG AND MY FAT ROLLS ARE SO BIG. 39 00:03:03,633 --> 00:03:06,867 I JUST FEEL LIKE I AM DISGUSTING. 40 00:03:10,767 --> 00:03:15,367 I KNOW I LET MYSELF GET THIS WAY, BUT I STILL EAT. 41 00:03:18,467 --> 00:03:22,633 AS SOON AS I START MY DAY, I AM STARVING. 42 00:03:22,633 --> 00:03:27,067 I HAVE A WIFE AND A SON, AND I TRY TO GET UP BEFORE THEM 43 00:03:27,067 --> 00:03:30,833 BECAUSE IF THEY SEE ME EATING AS MUCH AS I DO, 44 00:03:30,833 --> 00:03:33,200 THEY'RE GONNA SAY SOMETHING. 45 00:03:33,200 --> 00:03:37,067 AND I WOULD RATHER JUST EAT IN PEACE. 46 00:03:37,067 --> 00:03:40,767 I CHOOSE TO EAT THINGS THAT AREN'T NECESSARILY 47 00:03:40,767 --> 00:03:43,933 AS HEALTHY FOR ME AS I SHOULD. 48 00:03:43,933 --> 00:03:48,133 BUT I JUST WANT TO EAT A SNACK WITHOUT SOMEONE GIVING ME LOOKS, 49 00:03:48,133 --> 00:03:50,133 TELLING ME THAT I EAT TOO MUCH, 50 00:03:50,133 --> 00:03:53,167 OR CRITICIZING ME ABOUT WHAT I EAT. 51 00:03:53,167 --> 00:03:56,233 BUT THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENED ALL MY LIFE. 52 00:04:02,633 --> 00:04:06,433 FOOD HAS ALWAYS BEEN A COMFORT FOR ME. 53 00:04:08,867 --> 00:04:13,833 WHEN MY PARENTS GOT DIVORCED, I WAS ABOUT 8 YEARS OLD. 54 00:04:13,833 --> 00:04:16,567 THAT DEFINITELY IS WHEN I THINK 55 00:04:16,567 --> 00:04:23,067 EVERYTHING KIND OF WENT DOWNHILL FOR ME, YOU KNOW, EMOTIONALLY. 56 00:04:23,067 --> 00:04:26,067 I REMEMBER NOT REALLY UNDERSTANDING, 57 00:04:26,067 --> 00:04:30,067 BUT I KNEW I FELT BETTER WHEN I ATE. 58 00:04:30,067 --> 00:04:34,100 SO, BY THE TIME I WAS 9, I WEIGHED OVER 150 POUNDS. 59 00:04:34,100 --> 00:04:36,267 AND I WAS STILL EATING A LOT 60 00:04:36,267 --> 00:04:40,267 BECAUSE OF THE STRESS FROM THE CUSTODY BATTLE. 61 00:04:40,267 --> 00:04:43,600 I HAD TO PICK WHICH PARENT I WANTED TO LIVE WITH, 62 00:04:43,600 --> 00:04:45,833 AND MY BROTHER WANTED TO LIVE WITH MY DAD, 63 00:04:45,833 --> 00:04:48,733 SO I SAID I WOULD GO WITH HIM. 64 00:04:48,733 --> 00:04:52,900 BUT I FELT REALLY HORRIBLE FOR MY MOTHER. 65 00:04:52,900 --> 00:04:56,700 LOOKING BACK, IT MAY NOT HAVE BEEN THE BEST CHOICE 66 00:04:56,700 --> 00:05:01,467 BECAUSE ME AND MY STEPMOM COULD NOT GET ALONG. 67 00:05:01,467 --> 00:05:04,167 SO, FOOD WAS WHAT I TURNED TO TO 68 00:05:04,167 --> 00:05:07,633 TRY TO FIND SOME TYPE OF A CALMNESS. 69 00:05:07,633 --> 00:05:11,800 BY THE TIME I WAS 12, I WAS ALREADY SO BIG 70 00:05:11,800 --> 00:05:14,533 THAT I HAD TO BUY MY CLOTHES FROM THE "BIG AND TALL" SECTION 71 00:05:14,533 --> 00:05:17,367 IN THE MEN'S DEPARTMENT. 72 00:05:17,367 --> 00:05:20,100 AND MY WEIGHT WAS A CONSTANTLY SOURCE OF RIDICULE 73 00:05:20,100 --> 00:05:23,733 WITH MY STEPMOM, AND SHE DIDN'T REALLY WANT ME AROUND AT ALL, 74 00:05:23,733 --> 00:05:28,067 SO SHE WOULD SEND ME TO FAT CAMP. 75 00:05:28,067 --> 00:05:30,467 I REMEMBER THE STIGMA OF EMBARRASSMENT 76 00:05:30,467 --> 00:05:32,733 ATTACHED TO THE WHOLE SITUATION, 77 00:05:32,733 --> 00:05:35,333 BUT REGARDLESS OF WHAT I DID, 78 00:05:35,333 --> 00:05:37,800 THERE WAS NEVER WEIGHT LOSS. 79 00:05:37,800 --> 00:05:42,900 IT JUST WAS ALWAYS GRADUALLY CREEPING UP. 80 00:05:42,900 --> 00:05:49,467 AND BY THE TIME I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL, I WAS OVER 400 POUNDS. 81 00:05:49,467 --> 00:05:53,067 AFTER THAT, I WASN'T GAINING FOR A FEW YEARS THERE, 82 00:05:53,067 --> 00:05:55,900 BUT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT WAS GONNA GET WORSE 83 00:05:55,900 --> 00:05:57,767 AS QUICKLY AS IT DID. 84 00:05:59,800 --> 00:06:03,300 WHEN I WAS 25, MY MOM DIED. 85 00:06:03,300 --> 00:06:08,733 AFTER THAT, THE GUILT AND PAIN FOR LEAVING MY MOM CAME BACK, 86 00:06:08,733 --> 00:06:12,533 AND I REALLY REMOVED MYSELF FROM...EVERYTHING. 87 00:06:12,533 --> 00:06:16,167 I JUST KIND OF SHUT DOWN. 88 00:06:16,167 --> 00:06:19,333 I PUT ON EVEN MORE WEIGHT AFTER THAT... 89 00:06:22,067 --> 00:06:25,067 ...UNTIL I MET MY WIFE. 90 00:06:25,067 --> 00:06:30,067 KAYLEIGH MADE ME HAPPIER THAN I'D EVER BEEN. 91 00:06:30,067 --> 00:06:33,067 I WAS AROUND 500 POUNDS WHEN KAYLEIGH AND I MET, 92 00:06:33,067 --> 00:06:34,867 BUT SHE DIDN'T CARE ABOUT MY WEIGHT, 93 00:06:34,867 --> 00:06:38,700 AND WE STARTED SPENDING A LOT OF TIME TOGETHER. 94 00:06:38,700 --> 00:06:42,567 THE FIRST THING THAT I NOTICED ABOUT GIDEON WAS HIS SMILE. 95 00:06:42,567 --> 00:06:45,933 HE WAS JUST MAKING JOKES AND BEING REALLY FUNNY, 96 00:06:45,933 --> 00:06:48,200 AND I LIKE THAT. 97 00:06:50,067 --> 00:06:51,967 Gideon: I JUST FELL IN LOVE WITH HER. 98 00:06:51,967 --> 00:06:53,700 AND SHE HAD A SON, JONATHAN. 99 00:06:53,700 --> 00:06:55,967 AND AS WE STARTED TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER, 100 00:06:55,967 --> 00:06:59,433 I STARTED TO FEEL THAT HE WAS MY SON, TOO. 101 00:06:59,433 --> 00:07:03,867 SO WE GOT MARRIED AND BECAME A FAMILY. 102 00:07:03,867 --> 00:07:06,500 Kayleigh: IT WAS A LOT DIFFERENT WHEN I MET HIM. 103 00:07:06,500 --> 00:07:08,700 HE WAS ALWAYS HAPPY. 104 00:07:08,700 --> 00:07:10,167 HE WAS CONFIDENT. 105 00:07:10,167 --> 00:07:15,167 HE DID NOT CARRY HIMSELF LIKE HE WEIGHED AS MUCH AS HE DID. 106 00:07:15,167 --> 00:07:19,367 BUT HE'S CHANGED SO MUCH SINCE I'VE KNOWN HIM. 107 00:07:21,933 --> 00:07:24,700 THINGS DEFINITELY GOT BETTER FOR A WHILE, 108 00:07:24,700 --> 00:07:27,667 BUT WITHIN A YEAR OF KAYLEIGH AND I GETTING MARRIED, 109 00:07:27,667 --> 00:07:32,067 MY DAD AND MY SISTER BOTH DIED WITHIN THREE DAYS OF EACH OTHER. 110 00:07:34,433 --> 00:07:38,267 ALL I CAN THINK OF NOW IS FOOD. 111 00:07:38,267 --> 00:07:42,800 FOOD HELPS ME WITH THE PAIN, AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE THAT. 112 00:07:42,800 --> 00:07:46,067 AND NOW I KNOW I MUST BE OVER 600 POUNDS. 113 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:56,400 WHENEVER GIDEON'S DAD AND SISTER DIED, HE JUST GOT DEPRESSED. 114 00:07:56,400 --> 00:08:00,367 AND NOW HE DOESN'T GET UP AND MOVE AROUND A LOT. 115 00:08:00,367 --> 00:08:02,633 GIDEON, I'M GONNA GO OUT AND MOW. 116 00:08:02,633 --> 00:08:04,800 OKAY. YOU WANT TO COME HELP ME? 117 00:08:04,800 --> 00:08:06,933 HE DOESN'T REALLY DO ANYTHING 118 00:08:06,933 --> 00:08:11,667 OTHER THAN PLAY ON HIS PHONE AND EAT. 119 00:08:11,667 --> 00:08:15,567 IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING TO ME BECAUSE I DO NOT FEEL 120 00:08:15,567 --> 00:08:19,200 LIKE WE ARE EQUAL PARTNERS IN THE HOUSEHOLD. 121 00:08:19,200 --> 00:08:22,933 I WORK, I GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME. 122 00:08:22,933 --> 00:08:26,733 AND ON TOP OF TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF JONATHAN 123 00:08:26,733 --> 00:08:30,333 AND TAKE CARE OF THE HOUSE, I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM. 124 00:08:30,333 --> 00:08:33,267 GO GET THE TRASH CANS AND DRAG THEM UP HERE FOR ME, PLEASE. 125 00:08:33,267 --> 00:08:37,700 IT'S REALLY STRESSFUL, AND IT ALWAYS FEELS 126 00:08:37,700 --> 00:08:40,967 LIKE I AM A SINGLE PARENT WITH TWO CHILDREN. 127 00:08:43,567 --> 00:08:46,633 Gideon: I KNOW I SHOULD DO MORE TO HELP OUT WITH THE HOUSE WORK, 128 00:08:46,633 --> 00:08:48,933 BUT IT'S SO HARD ON ME PHYSICALLY. 129 00:08:51,267 --> 00:08:53,067 THAT'S BEEN THE BIGGEST HURDLE, 130 00:08:53,067 --> 00:08:55,433 AND THE HARDEST THING TO KIND OF SWALLOW HAS BEEN 131 00:08:55,433 --> 00:08:58,267 HOW IT AFFECTS THEM. 132 00:08:58,267 --> 00:09:02,133 I DON'T KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE WITHOUT KAYLEIGH. 133 00:09:02,133 --> 00:09:06,967 JUST TERRIFIED THAT MY WEIGHT'S GOING TO CAUSE KAYLEIGH 134 00:09:06,967 --> 00:09:10,200 TO LEAVE ME BECAUSE SHE'S NOT HAPPY. 135 00:09:12,967 --> 00:09:17,267 MY WEIGHT HAS BEEN DETRIMENTAL TO BEING THE FATHER, 136 00:09:17,267 --> 00:09:19,967 THE HUSBAND, THE PROVIDER 137 00:09:19,967 --> 00:09:22,700 THAT I'VE DREAMED OF BEING MY WHOLE LIFE. 138 00:09:25,533 --> 00:09:29,067 BEING A DAD IS PROBABLY THE ONLY THING THAT I'M REALLY PROUD OF. 139 00:09:29,067 --> 00:09:31,967 Jonathan: I LOVE MY DAD A LOT. 140 00:09:31,967 --> 00:09:34,167 I WANT HIM TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BE HEALTHY 141 00:09:34,167 --> 00:09:36,500 SO WE CAN PLAY OUTSIDE MORE OFTEN. 142 00:09:36,500 --> 00:09:37,533 OOH. 143 00:09:37,533 --> 00:09:39,367 Gideon: I HAD A GREAT DAD, 144 00:09:39,367 --> 00:09:43,200 AND [SNIFFLES] HE DIDN'T LIVE LONG ENOUGH. 145 00:09:43,200 --> 00:09:46,800 SO I'M AFRAID THAT'S THE MOMENTUM 146 00:09:46,800 --> 00:09:48,733 THAT I'M CARRYING OVER FOR JONATHAN... 147 00:09:48,733 --> 00:09:50,467 WHERE DID IT GO? 148 00:09:50,467 --> 00:09:52,367 ...IS THAT I'M NOT GONNA LIVE LONG ENOUGH. 149 00:09:52,367 --> 00:09:54,867 LET'S GO INSIDE. OKAY. 150 00:09:56,800 --> 00:09:59,167 [ GRUNTS ] 151 00:09:59,167 --> 00:10:03,533 I'M TERRIFIED OF WHAT KIND OF BURDEN I'M BECOMING TO THEM. 152 00:10:07,167 --> 00:10:08,933 AND I DON'T REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS 153 00:10:08,933 --> 00:10:11,333 MY FAMILY'S WILLING TO TAKE. 154 00:10:20,967 --> 00:10:23,033 Kayleigh: ARE YOU GUYS ALMOST READY? 155 00:10:23,033 --> 00:10:27,167 BEYOND READY. 156 00:10:27,167 --> 00:10:30,233 I ONLY REALLY GO OUT TO GET FOOD 157 00:10:30,233 --> 00:10:33,500 OR IF THERE'S GONNA BE FOOD WHERE I'M GOING. 158 00:10:36,467 --> 00:10:39,267 BUT EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I'M GOING SOMEWHERE TO EAT, 159 00:10:39,267 --> 00:10:42,300 I HAVE A HARD TIME NOT STOPPING TO GET A SNACK. 160 00:10:42,300 --> 00:10:44,033 JUST GRILLING, LIKE... 161 00:10:44,033 --> 00:10:45,967 YEAH, WE'RE GONNA GRILL THE BRATS 162 00:10:45,967 --> 00:10:49,633 AND JUST HANG OUT, PLAY SOME GAMES. 163 00:10:49,633 --> 00:10:52,433 THAT'S COOL. 164 00:10:52,433 --> 00:10:55,767 I'LL SEE A PLACE AND I'LL START TO CRAVE SOMETHING THEY HAVE. 165 00:10:55,767 --> 00:10:57,267 GOOD MORNING. 166 00:10:57,267 --> 00:10:59,267 DO YOU HAVE APPLE FRITTERS? 167 00:10:59,267 --> 00:11:01,400 OH, I WANT TWO OF THOSE. 168 00:11:01,400 --> 00:11:04,767 AND THEN A CHOCOLATE LONG JOHN -- TWO OF THOSE. 169 00:11:04,767 --> 00:11:07,600 Kayleigh: GIDEON IS EATING HIMSELF TO DEATH. 170 00:11:07,600 --> 00:11:09,367 DO YOU HAVE, LIKE, A MIXED DOZEN? 171 00:11:09,367 --> 00:11:13,400 HE SAYS THAT HE'S FIGHTING TO LIVE FOR US, 172 00:11:13,400 --> 00:11:16,267 BUT I DON'T THINK HIS ACTIONS SHOW THAT. 173 00:11:16,267 --> 00:11:21,233 IF THERE'S ONE THING I KNOW, IT'S A GOOD APPLE FRITTER. 174 00:11:21,233 --> 00:11:25,800 I JUST WANT TO SHAKE HIM AND JUST SCREAM AT HIM, 175 00:11:25,800 --> 00:11:28,167 "WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? 176 00:11:28,167 --> 00:11:30,633 WHY CAN'T YOU CHANGE? 177 00:11:30,633 --> 00:11:34,300 DON'T YOU WANT BETTER FOR YOURSELF? 178 00:11:34,300 --> 00:11:38,067 DON'T YOU WANT BETTER FOR ME AND JONATHAN? 179 00:11:38,067 --> 00:11:41,533 YOU ARE SLOWLY KILLING YOURSELF." 180 00:11:41,533 --> 00:11:45,133 HEY. WE'RE HERE. WE MADE IT. 181 00:11:45,133 --> 00:11:49,800 HE NEEDS TO REALIZE THAT HE'S LOSING EVERYTHING. 182 00:11:49,800 --> 00:11:53,600 MY FAMILY AND ME AND JONATHAN IS REALLY ALL THAT HE HAS. 183 00:11:53,600 --> 00:11:55,067 COME HERE, SISTER. 184 00:11:55,067 --> 00:11:58,900 WE WANT HIM TO BE SUCCESSFUL, BUT WE KIND OF FEEL LIKE 185 00:11:58,900 --> 00:12:02,333 HE'S HAD THESE OPPORTUNITIES BEFORE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 186 00:12:02,333 --> 00:12:06,800 AND HE HASN'T GRABBED AHOLD OF THEM AND DONE ALL THAT HE CAN. 187 00:12:06,800 --> 00:12:09,733 [ GROANS ] GOOD GRIEF. 188 00:12:09,733 --> 00:12:13,067 MY WHOLE LIFE, NEVER BEING ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT, 189 00:12:13,067 --> 00:12:14,667 HAS BEEN TOUGH ON ME. 190 00:12:14,667 --> 00:12:19,900 I FEEL LIKE I'M CONSTANTLY FAILING AT EVERYTHING I TRY. 191 00:12:19,900 --> 00:12:22,667 HI. 192 00:12:22,667 --> 00:12:24,733 AND WHEN I SIT AROUND, 193 00:12:24,733 --> 00:12:27,967 IT FEELS LIKE THEY'VE ALREADY WRITTEN ME OFF FOR DEAD. 194 00:12:27,967 --> 00:12:31,233 THIS IS NOT WHAT I DREAMED OF FOR MY LIFE, 195 00:12:31,233 --> 00:12:33,633 AND I DON'T THINK BEING MARRIED TO A FAT GUY 196 00:12:33,633 --> 00:12:36,067 IS WHAT SHE DREAMED OF FOR HERS. 197 00:12:36,067 --> 00:12:38,300 I GOT FOOD! 198 00:12:38,300 --> 00:12:45,900 I DON'T THINK GIDEON REALIZES HOW CLOSE I AM TO...BEING DONE. 199 00:12:45,900 --> 00:12:49,933 I WANT HIM TO LIVE, JONATHAN NEEDS HIM TO LIVE, 200 00:12:49,933 --> 00:12:53,900 AND HE'S GOT TO BE HEALTHY TO LIVE. 201 00:12:53,900 --> 00:12:57,167 BUT EVERYTHING HAS TO CHANGE, 202 00:12:57,167 --> 00:13:01,333 AND I DON'T KNOW IF HE GETS THAT. 203 00:13:01,333 --> 00:13:03,400 MMM. 204 00:13:03,400 --> 00:13:07,200 Gideon: I'M AT THE POINT WHERE I'M SEEING MY FUTURE, 205 00:13:07,200 --> 00:13:09,533 AND IT'S VERY BLEAK. 206 00:13:09,533 --> 00:13:12,267 I'VE HAD TO BURY TOO MANY PEOPLE, 207 00:13:12,267 --> 00:13:15,300 AND I DON'T WANT JONATHAN TO HAVE TO BURY ME. 208 00:13:17,833 --> 00:13:20,533 SOMETHING'S GOT TO CHANGE, 209 00:13:20,533 --> 00:13:23,500 BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP EATING. 210 00:13:23,500 --> 00:13:30,900 AND I KNOW THAT IF I DON'T TAKE CONTROL...I'M DOOMED. 211 00:13:35,733 --> 00:13:37,900 ** 212 00:13:37,900 --> 00:13:39,900 Kayleigh: YOU READY TO GO TO HOUSTON? 213 00:13:39,900 --> 00:13:42,233 I BELIEVE SO. 214 00:13:42,233 --> 00:13:44,167 TODAY KAYLEIGH AND I ARE GOING TO HOUSTON 215 00:13:44,167 --> 00:13:47,233 TO SEE A DOCTOR NAMED DR. NOWZARADAN. 216 00:13:47,233 --> 00:13:51,567 HE DOES WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY ON PEOPLE MY SIZE, 217 00:13:51,567 --> 00:13:54,200 AND I'M HOPING HE CAN HELP ME. 218 00:13:58,067 --> 00:13:59,667 [ GRUNTS ] 219 00:14:02,400 --> 00:14:04,733 I'M A LITTLE BIT NERVOUS BECAUSE I WANT HELP, 220 00:14:04,733 --> 00:14:08,367 BUT I'M ALSO A LITTLE SCARED ABOUT HAVING TO GIVE UP FOOD. 221 00:14:08,367 --> 00:14:13,767 BUT I KNOW MY MARRIAGE AND MY LIFE IS ON THE LINE. 222 00:14:13,767 --> 00:14:15,667 DID WE FIGURE OUT LUNCH? 223 00:14:15,667 --> 00:14:17,567 I WANT THE NUMBER FIVE. 224 00:14:17,567 --> 00:14:20,633 I NEED A JUNIOR BACON CHEDDAR MELT, 225 00:14:20,633 --> 00:14:25,067 A NUMBER FIVE, AND THEN A NUMBER NINE. 226 00:14:27,333 --> 00:14:28,767 THANK YOU, MA'AM. 227 00:14:32,267 --> 00:14:34,500 I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME, 228 00:14:34,500 --> 00:14:37,867 BECAUSE I KNOW I'M NEVER GONNA CHANGE ON MY OWN. 229 00:14:41,867 --> 00:14:46,233 BUT I'M A LITTLE ANXIOUS ABOUT WHAT THE DOCTOR IS GONNA SAY. 230 00:14:46,233 --> 00:14:50,833 I WAS ABLE TO CHECK MY WEIGHT RECENTLY, AND I WAS AROUND 620, 231 00:14:50,833 --> 00:14:53,767 SO I DON'T THINK IT'S GONNA BE MUCH HIGHER THAN THAT. 232 00:15:01,467 --> 00:15:04,633 I'M SHOCKED. 233 00:15:04,633 --> 00:15:07,767 WASN'T EXPECTING IT TO BE THAT HIGH. 234 00:15:07,767 --> 00:15:10,400 THIS IS ABSOLUTELY THE HEAVIEST I'VE EVER BEEN. 235 00:15:12,967 --> 00:15:16,233 REALITY JUST HIT ME IN THE FACE 236 00:15:16,233 --> 00:15:20,067 AND MADE ME AWARE OF HOW BAD MY WEIGHT HAS GOTTEN. 237 00:15:20,067 --> 00:15:22,100 THAT'S AN UGLY NUMBER. 238 00:15:22,100 --> 00:15:24,733 IT'S JUST GONNA KEEP GOING UP. 239 00:15:24,733 --> 00:15:26,433 YOU GOT TO KNOCK IT OUT. 240 00:15:26,433 --> 00:15:28,300 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 241 00:15:28,300 --> 00:15:30,067 HELLO. HELLO. 242 00:15:30,067 --> 00:15:31,933 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU. 243 00:15:31,933 --> 00:15:34,200 NICE TO MEET YOU. NICE TO MEET YOU. 244 00:15:34,200 --> 00:15:37,500 SO, YOU'RE 650 POUNDS. 245 00:15:37,500 --> 00:15:40,267 TELL ME HOW YOUR WEIGHT HAS CLIMBED THIS HIGH. 246 00:15:40,267 --> 00:15:42,333 WELL, I'M OBESE. 247 00:15:42,333 --> 00:15:44,300 THAT'S THE BIGGEST PROBLEM. 248 00:15:44,300 --> 00:15:47,633 OKAY, SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE CAUSE OF THAT? 249 00:15:47,633 --> 00:15:51,633 UH, A HISTORY, A WHOLE LIFE, OF BAD EATING HABITS. 250 00:15:51,633 --> 00:15:54,133 WHAT DOES YOUR EATING LOOK LIKE? 251 00:15:54,133 --> 00:15:56,367 I DEFINITELY DON'T EAT HEALTHY. 252 00:15:56,367 --> 00:16:00,067 I HAVE A SNACK IN THE MORNING, THEN BREAKFAST, 253 00:16:00,067 --> 00:16:03,067 AND THEN I EAT MAYBE ONE SMALL MEAL DURING THE DAY. 254 00:16:03,067 --> 00:16:04,867 LIKE, I'LL GO THROUGH FAST FOOD, 255 00:16:04,867 --> 00:16:07,200 GET LIKE TWO HAMBURGERS, THREE COOKIES. 256 00:16:07,200 --> 00:16:08,767 SO YOU CALL THAT A SMALL MEAL? 257 00:16:08,767 --> 00:16:12,467 WELL, I MEAN, COMPARED TO, LIKE, MY DINNER MEAL, IT'S SMALLER. 258 00:16:12,467 --> 00:16:17,367 WELL, FOR A TYPICAL DINNER, WHAT DO YOU USUALLY HAVE AT HOME? 259 00:16:17,367 --> 00:16:19,800 WE USUALLY HAVE QUICK MEALS, 260 00:16:19,800 --> 00:16:23,367 SO LIKE SPAGHETTI, BECAUSE I DO WORK LATE. 261 00:16:23,367 --> 00:16:26,067 SO WHO DOES THE GROCERY SHOPPING? 262 00:16:26,067 --> 00:16:28,433 I DO, TYPICALLY. 263 00:16:28,433 --> 00:16:30,300 YOU DO? YEAH. 264 00:16:30,300 --> 00:16:33,100 GIDEON IS MAKING JOKES, AND HIS WIFE, KAYLEIGH, 265 00:16:33,100 --> 00:16:35,833 IS MAKING EXCUSES ABOUT HAVING LITTLE TIME 266 00:16:35,833 --> 00:16:37,267 TO MAKE HEALTHY FOOD. 267 00:16:37,267 --> 00:16:39,867 THEY'RE LOOKING FOR A MAGIC PILL 268 00:16:39,867 --> 00:16:42,733 TO SOLVE THEIR PROBLEM WITHOUT EFFORT. 269 00:16:42,733 --> 00:16:46,400 YOU BOTH KNOW WHAT HEALTHY EATING IS. 270 00:16:46,400 --> 00:16:48,967 YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO MAKE THE CHANGE. 271 00:16:48,967 --> 00:16:51,100 BUT NOW IS THE TIME TO DO THAT. 272 00:16:51,100 --> 00:16:53,067 I'M GIVING YOU A DIET PLAN, 273 00:16:53,067 --> 00:16:56,267 AND I WANT YOU TO LOSE 50 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH 274 00:16:56,267 --> 00:16:58,967 TO SHOW ME THAT YOU'RE READY AND WILLING TO WORK. 275 00:16:58,967 --> 00:17:00,100 OKAY. OKAY? 276 00:17:00,100 --> 00:17:01,167 YES, SIR. 277 00:17:01,167 --> 00:17:02,567 ALL RIGHT, SEE YOU SOON. 278 00:17:02,567 --> 00:17:04,300 IT WAS AWESOME TO MEET YOU, SIR. 279 00:17:04,300 --> 00:17:08,367 Dr. Nowzaradan: GIDEON HAS AN EXTRA 400 POUNDS ON HIS BODY. 280 00:17:08,367 --> 00:17:11,900 THAT'S GOING TO START TAKING A GREATER TOLL ON HIM. 281 00:17:11,900 --> 00:17:15,067 IT'S TIME FOR BOTH OF THEM TO MAKE A CHANGE 282 00:17:15,067 --> 00:17:17,900 IF GIDEON IS GOING TO TURN HIS HEALTH AROUND. 283 00:17:17,900 --> 00:17:22,267 DO YOU THINK YOU CAN LOSE 50 POUNDS IN A MONTH? 284 00:17:22,267 --> 00:17:25,533 I THINK THAT I'M GONNA GIVE IT EVERYTHING I CAN 285 00:17:25,533 --> 00:17:28,067 TO LOSE 55 POUNDS IN A MONTH. 286 00:17:31,467 --> 00:17:34,967 Kayleigh: 50 POUNDS IS A BIG STEP FOR HIM. 287 00:17:34,967 --> 00:17:38,333 I WANT TO BE THE DUTIFUL WIFE AND BE LIKE, "MAN, 288 00:17:38,333 --> 00:17:40,367 YOU CAN KNOCK OUT 50 POUNDS EASY," 289 00:17:40,367 --> 00:17:44,600 BUT I DON'T KNOW, REALISTICALLY, THAT HE CAN. 290 00:17:44,600 --> 00:17:48,333 I NEED GIDEON TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT SO HE CAN LIVE, 291 00:17:48,333 --> 00:17:52,767 [Voice breaking] SO HE CAN BE HERE FOR JONNY AND FOR ME. 292 00:17:54,900 --> 00:17:58,433 Gideon: NOW IT'S NOW OR NEVER. 293 00:17:58,433 --> 00:18:01,467 YOU KNOW, I'M HURTING KAYLEIGH AND I'M HURTING JONATHAN, 294 00:18:01,467 --> 00:18:05,567 AND THOSE ARE THE ONLY TWO THINGS I HAVE LEFT. 295 00:18:05,567 --> 00:18:12,067 SO, WHATEVER IT TAKES, I'M GONNA DO IT. 296 00:18:12,067 --> 00:18:16,300 ** 297 00:18:16,300 --> 00:18:20,733 Kayleigh: IT'S HOTTER THAN HADES TODAY. 298 00:18:20,733 --> 00:18:22,833 GIVE ME THE DRAWERS, PLEASE. 299 00:18:22,833 --> 00:18:25,667 IT'S BEEN A HARD COUPLE OF WEEKS, 300 00:18:25,667 --> 00:18:29,600 AND I KNOW AT THIS POINT, I'M EITHER ALL IN OR ALL OUT. 301 00:18:31,067 --> 00:18:34,167 SO, I'VE BEEN ADAPTING TO NEW EATING HABITS. 302 00:18:34,167 --> 00:18:38,233 WE ARE LOADING UP TO HEAD SOUTH TO TEXAS. 303 00:18:38,233 --> 00:18:41,733 WE FOUND A HOUSE THERE, AND WE'RE MOVING DOWN THERE 304 00:18:41,733 --> 00:18:45,867 SO THAT I CAN BE CLOSER TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE. 305 00:18:45,867 --> 00:18:48,900 THE FACT THAT KAYLEIGH, JONATHAN, AND I ARE MOVING 306 00:18:48,900 --> 00:18:52,333 FURTHER AWAY FROM FAMILY JUST PUTS MORE ADDED PRESSURE ON ME 307 00:18:52,333 --> 00:18:54,833 BECAUSE I HAVE TO SUCCEED. 308 00:18:54,833 --> 00:18:59,367 OTHERWISE, I'VE PUT THEM THROUGH CHAOS AND STRESS FOR NO REASON. 309 00:18:59,367 --> 00:19:02,567 BUT I'VE GOT TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES 310 00:19:02,567 --> 00:19:05,633 FOR ME TO GET MY HEALTH TOGETHER. 311 00:19:05,633 --> 00:19:11,900 Kayleigh: THIS IS LIFE CHANGING FOR GIDEON AND FOR US AS A FAMILY, TOO. 312 00:19:11,900 --> 00:19:16,433 WE GAVE UP GOOD JOBS TO PURSUE HIS DREAM. 313 00:19:16,433 --> 00:19:18,967 I'M JUST SCARED IF WE GET DOWN THERE 314 00:19:18,967 --> 00:19:23,233 AND HE DOESN'T HAVE THE SURGERY, THEN WE'RE OUT OF OPTIONS. 315 00:19:23,233 --> 00:19:24,567 ONE, TWO, THREE. 316 00:19:27,233 --> 00:19:30,067 Gideon: THIS IS DEFINITELY MY LAST CHANCE 317 00:19:30,067 --> 00:19:32,400 TO GET MY HEALTH UNDER CONTROL, 318 00:19:32,400 --> 00:19:34,833 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M PUSHING MYSELF TO THE LIMIT, 319 00:19:34,833 --> 00:19:37,767 PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY. 320 00:19:37,767 --> 00:19:39,533 I WAS SUPPOSED TO DRIVE MY TRUCK, 321 00:19:39,533 --> 00:19:43,333 BUT I'VE BEEN ON THE VERGE OF JUST HEAT EXHAUSTION. 322 00:19:43,333 --> 00:19:48,100 I HATE FEELING GUILTY BEING IN THE AIR CONDITIONING, 323 00:19:48,100 --> 00:19:51,767 AND ANY TIME I AM PUTTING KAYLEIGH AND JONATHAN OUT, 324 00:19:51,767 --> 00:19:54,467 I FEEL LIKE IT'S JUST ANOTHER CONSTANT REMINDER 325 00:19:54,467 --> 00:19:58,067 OF HOW I'M KIND OF LETTING THEM DOWN, 326 00:19:58,067 --> 00:20:03,300 MAKING IT HARDER ON THEM BY BEING...FAT. 327 00:20:03,300 --> 00:20:07,000 BUT THAT'S WHAT WE'RE HERE TO CHANGE. 328 00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:11,167 Kayleigh: GIDEON HAS DONE REALLY WELL ON THE JOURNEY SO FAR, 329 00:20:11,167 --> 00:20:15,767 BUT IF WE MOVE DOWN HERE AND UPROOT OUR WHOLE LIVES 330 00:20:15,767 --> 00:20:17,633 AND HE STARTS TO FAIL, 331 00:20:17,633 --> 00:20:21,167 WE WILL BE REEVALUATING OUR RELATIONSHIP. 332 00:20:23,867 --> 00:20:27,333 ** 333 00:20:27,333 --> 00:20:29,033 OKAY. 334 00:20:29,033 --> 00:20:33,233 Gideon: IT WAS A LONG JOURNEY HERE, BUT WE MADE IT. 335 00:20:33,233 --> 00:20:37,767 AND I DIDN'T STOP FOR FAST FOOD ONCE. 336 00:20:37,767 --> 00:20:40,667 WE'VE HAD MY WIFE'S FAMILY OVER HERE HELPING, 337 00:20:40,667 --> 00:20:43,267 BUT UNTIL WE MOVE IN, 338 00:20:43,267 --> 00:20:45,633 I KNOW WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO FOOD RUNS. 339 00:20:45,633 --> 00:20:48,100 AND FAST FOOD IS THE NATURAL CHOICE... 340 00:20:48,100 --> 00:20:49,800 DO YOU WANT ANYTHING TO EAT? 341 00:20:49,800 --> 00:20:51,600 UM, YEAH. 342 00:20:51,600 --> 00:20:55,200 I WANT... THAT SPICY CHICKEN. 343 00:20:55,200 --> 00:20:57,367 ...WHICH MAKES IT HARDER TO RESIST. 344 00:20:59,333 --> 00:21:03,167 FOOD ADDICTION IS A UNIQUE TYPE OF ADDICTION. 345 00:21:03,167 --> 00:21:07,667 IT'S LIKE NEEDING HEROIN TO LIVE, BUT JUST A LITTLE, 346 00:21:07,667 --> 00:21:10,633 SO YOU HAVE TO GO AND FACE YOUR DEMONS EVERY DAY 347 00:21:10,633 --> 00:21:12,500 AND STILL RESIST IT. 348 00:21:12,500 --> 00:21:15,433 I NEED TWO OF THE GRILLED MARKET SALADS 349 00:21:15,433 --> 00:21:18,133 AND THEN A KID'S MEAL, THE SIX. 350 00:21:20,600 --> 00:21:22,567 I'LL BE HONEST -- 351 00:21:22,567 --> 00:21:26,700 THINKING ABOUT DOING THIS FOR A LIFETIME IS SCARY. 352 00:21:26,700 --> 00:21:28,533 THIS ONE'S YOURS. 353 00:21:28,533 --> 00:21:31,100 I KNOW KAYLEIGH IS SKEPTICAL, 354 00:21:31,100 --> 00:21:35,367 AND THAT'S BECAUSE I'VE LET HER DOWN SO MANY TIMES BEFORE. 355 00:21:35,367 --> 00:21:38,767 IN THE PAST ON DIETS, GIDEON HAS ALWAYS CHEATED, 356 00:21:38,767 --> 00:21:42,467 BUT I'M TRUSTING THAT HE'S GOING TO STICK TO THE PLAN 357 00:21:42,467 --> 00:21:44,733 AND NOT SLIDE BACK. 358 00:21:44,733 --> 00:21:48,433 I'M TRYING TO SHOW HER THIS TIME IT'S GONNA BE DIFFERENT 359 00:21:48,433 --> 00:21:52,067 BY NOT FAILING AT THIS, BECAUSE IF I DO, 360 00:21:52,067 --> 00:21:55,333 I'LL LOSE EVERYTHING I CARE ABOUT. 361 00:22:01,500 --> 00:22:04,533 ** 362 00:22:12,433 --> 00:22:15,567 Gideon: IT'S BEEN A MONTH SINCE I SAW THE DOCTOR, 363 00:22:15,567 --> 00:22:18,233 AND HE TOLD ME THAT I NEEDED TO LOSE 50 POUNDS 364 00:22:18,233 --> 00:22:20,667 AND GET TO 600 POUNDS. 365 00:22:20,667 --> 00:22:22,667 MR. YEAKLEY? 366 00:22:25,167 --> 00:22:28,367 I'M MORE NERVOUS THIS TIME THAN THE FIRST TIME, 367 00:22:28,367 --> 00:22:31,767 'CAUSE NOW I HAVE A GOAL I NEED TO HIT. 368 00:22:31,767 --> 00:22:34,167 THIS ONE IS PASS/FAIL 369 00:22:34,167 --> 00:22:36,767 AND WILL DETERMINE IF I GET THE SURGERY OR NOT, 370 00:22:36,767 --> 00:22:39,333 AND I HAVE TO GET APPROVED TODAY. 371 00:22:42,933 --> 00:22:45,900 PART OF ME IS EXCITED TO SEE PROGRESS, 372 00:22:45,900 --> 00:22:48,600 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I'M DISAPPOINTED 373 00:22:48,600 --> 00:22:50,600 IT WASN'T AS MUCH AS THE DOCTOR WANTED, 374 00:22:50,600 --> 00:22:52,367 AND I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW 375 00:22:52,367 --> 00:22:55,133 THAT HE'S NOT GONNA APPROVE ME FOR SURGERY, 376 00:22:55,133 --> 00:22:57,067 AND I WAS COUNTING ON TELLING KAYLEIGH 377 00:22:57,067 --> 00:22:59,133 THAT I WAS APPROVED TODAY. 378 00:22:59,133 --> 00:23:01,167 HI, GIDEON. HELLO, SIR. 379 00:23:01,167 --> 00:23:04,067 SO, YOU LOST 30 POUNDS THIS PAST MONTH. 380 00:23:04,067 --> 00:23:08,767 YEP. THE DIET CHANGE, I THINK, WAS THE BIGGEST EFFECT. 381 00:23:08,767 --> 00:23:10,633 I'M PROUD OF THE PROGRESS YOU MADE, 382 00:23:10,633 --> 00:23:13,100 BUT YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO LOSE 50 POUNDS 383 00:23:13,100 --> 00:23:14,767 IN THE LAST MONTH. YES, SIR. 384 00:23:14,767 --> 00:23:17,233 Dr. Nowzaradan: GIDEON IS A BIG, TALL MAN. 385 00:23:17,233 --> 00:23:21,767 LOSING 50 POUNDS IS THE SAME AS ASKING OTHER PEOPLE TO LOSE 20. 386 00:23:21,767 --> 00:23:25,900 HE SHOULD HAVE HAD NO PROBLEM TO MAKE THE PROGRESS HE NEEDED, 387 00:23:25,900 --> 00:23:29,067 SO HE'S STILL NOT DOING ALL HE SHOULD BE. 388 00:23:29,067 --> 00:23:32,400 YOU'RE STILL NOT FULLY MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 389 00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:36,067 AND I AM CONCERNED ABOUT YOUR TEST RESULTS RIGHT NOW. 390 00:23:36,067 --> 00:23:39,100 SO I'M NOT APPROVING YOU FOR SURGERY. 391 00:23:39,100 --> 00:23:41,900 GIDEON'S HEALTH HAS DETERIORATED, 392 00:23:41,900 --> 00:23:44,367 AND THAT IS CONCERNING FOR ME. 393 00:23:44,367 --> 00:23:47,600 A PERSON'S BODY AT THIS WEIGHT STARTS TO GIVE OUT. 394 00:23:47,600 --> 00:23:50,067 IT'S SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS RAPIDLY. 395 00:23:50,067 --> 00:23:52,433 GIDEON, I'LL TELL YOU WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO 396 00:23:52,433 --> 00:23:54,300 SINCE YOU MADE SOME PROGRESS. 397 00:23:54,300 --> 00:23:57,067 I'M GOING TO SEND YOU TO THE HOSPITAL FOR A WEEK. 398 00:23:57,067 --> 00:23:59,867 I WANT TO RUN SOME MORE TESTS ON YOU TO MAKE SURE 399 00:23:59,867 --> 00:24:02,900 THERE ARE NO LIFE-THREATENING ISSUES RIGHT NOW. 400 00:24:02,900 --> 00:24:05,433 AND IF YOU STICK WITH THE PROGRAM DURING THAT TIME 401 00:24:05,433 --> 00:24:07,467 AND LOSE ANOTHER 10 POUNDS, 402 00:24:07,467 --> 00:24:09,933 THEN I'LL SEE THE EFFORT IS THERE 403 00:24:09,933 --> 00:24:12,133 AND I WILL APPROVE YOU FOR SURGERY. 404 00:24:12,133 --> 00:24:13,433 THANK YOU, SIR. OKAY? 405 00:24:13,433 --> 00:24:14,800 YES, SIR. 406 00:24:14,800 --> 00:24:17,133 ALL RIGHT, I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 407 00:24:17,133 --> 00:24:23,700 Gideon: THE DOC DIDN'T SAY NO, BUT HE DIDN'T SAY YES, EITHER, 408 00:24:23,700 --> 00:24:26,400 AND I'M WORRIED WHAT KAYLEIGH IS GONNA SAY. 409 00:24:28,367 --> 00:24:30,700 LOOKING BACK, YOU KNOW, I KEEP THINKING 410 00:24:30,700 --> 00:24:33,767 I COULD HAVE DONE BETTER. 411 00:24:33,767 --> 00:24:39,600 I AM SO USED TO BEING AN UNDERACHIEVER, YOU KNOW, 412 00:24:39,600 --> 00:24:44,067 THE FAT KID THAT'S LOOKED AT AT EVERY GROCERY STORE, 413 00:24:44,067 --> 00:24:48,300 AND I DON'T WANT TO BE THIS FAILURE ANYMORE. 414 00:24:48,300 --> 00:24:51,967 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, AND I'M TAKING IT. 415 00:24:54,067 --> 00:24:57,733 ** 416 00:24:57,733 --> 00:25:01,800 IT'S BEEN INTERESTING BEING IN THE HOSPITAL THIS PAST WEEK. 417 00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:04,600 BUT I'M STUCK WITH THE DIET THEY'VE GIVEN ME HERE, 418 00:25:04,600 --> 00:25:08,300 AND I'VE GOTTEN UP AND DONE ALL THE EXERCISES THEY'VE ASKED ME, 419 00:25:08,300 --> 00:25:11,533 BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH IS RIDING ON THIS. 420 00:25:11,533 --> 00:25:14,300 Kayleigh: IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME 421 00:25:14,300 --> 00:25:17,200 THAT GIDEON GETS APPROVED FOR THE SURGERY TODAY. 422 00:25:17,200 --> 00:25:20,467 YOU KNOW, WE'VE SACRIFICED A LOT MOVING DOWN HERE, 423 00:25:20,467 --> 00:25:22,667 SO IF HE DOESN'T GET THE SURGERY, 424 00:25:22,667 --> 00:25:24,533 I'M GONNA BE REALLY DISAPPOINTED. 425 00:25:24,533 --> 00:25:26,667 HELLO. 426 00:25:26,667 --> 00:25:27,933 HELLO, DOC. HI. 427 00:25:27,933 --> 00:25:29,333 HOW YOU DOING TONIGHT? 428 00:25:29,333 --> 00:25:31,067 I'M GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 429 00:25:31,067 --> 00:25:33,833 ALL RIGHT. I'VE REVIEWED ALL THE PROGRESS YOU MADE 430 00:25:33,833 --> 00:25:37,267 OVER PAST WEEK, AND I THINK YOU'RE READY FOR SURGERY. 431 00:25:37,267 --> 00:25:39,067 AWESOME. AWESOME. 432 00:25:39,067 --> 00:25:40,533 OKAY? THANK YOU, SIR. 433 00:25:40,533 --> 00:25:42,067 YEAH, THAT'S AMAZING. 434 00:25:42,067 --> 00:25:43,767 GREAT NEWS! THANK YOU. 435 00:25:43,767 --> 00:25:45,400 YOU'RE WELCOME. 436 00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:47,100 ALL RIGHT. THANK YOU, SIR. 437 00:25:47,100 --> 00:25:49,367 GIDEON HAD SOME MEDICAL ISSUES 438 00:25:49,367 --> 00:25:51,700 THAT WERE RESOLVED OVER THE PAST WEEK, 439 00:25:51,700 --> 00:25:55,867 SO I USED IT AS A CHANCE TO PUT HIM ON AN EXERCISE AND DIET PLAN 440 00:25:55,867 --> 00:26:00,267 TO SEE HOW HE STUCK WITH IT, AND HE'S BEEN COMPLETELY COMMITTED, 441 00:26:00,267 --> 00:26:02,933 AND HE'S READY FOR GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY. 442 00:26:02,933 --> 00:26:06,700 I THINK HE JUST NEEDED A LITTLE MORE GUIDANCE WITH THINGS. 443 00:26:06,700 --> 00:26:08,300 HOW DO YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW? 444 00:26:08,300 --> 00:26:09,467 [ CHUCKLES ] 445 00:26:09,467 --> 00:26:11,567 ARE YOU GONNA, LIKE, JUMP OUT OF THE BED? 446 00:26:11,567 --> 00:26:13,533 NO, BECAUSE MY SCIATIC HURTS 'CAUSE I'M FAT. 447 00:26:13,533 --> 00:26:17,733 THIS MEANS A LOT TO ME THAT YOU GOT ACCEPTED, 448 00:26:17,733 --> 00:26:19,733 'CAUSE YOU'RE GONNA LIVE NOW. 449 00:26:19,733 --> 00:26:21,300 YOU'RE GETTING YOUR WISH. 450 00:26:21,300 --> 00:26:24,367 HE DID JUST BASICALLY TELL ME LIKE, 451 00:26:24,367 --> 00:26:25,833 "I'M GONNA EXTEND YOUR LIFE." 452 00:26:25,833 --> 00:26:27,367 YEAH. I LOVE YOU. 453 00:26:27,367 --> 00:26:29,367 I LOVE YOU. 454 00:26:29,367 --> 00:26:33,600 YOU WANT TO GET IN HERE, GIVE YOUR DADDY A HUG? 455 00:26:33,600 --> 00:26:36,767 IT'S A HUGE SENSE OF RELIEF 456 00:26:36,767 --> 00:26:39,900 THAT HE GOT THE ACCEPTANCE FOR SURGERY. 457 00:26:39,900 --> 00:26:42,967 I'M VERY EXCITED FOR US AS A FAMILY, 458 00:26:42,967 --> 00:26:46,967 AND HE... BETTER BE SUCCESSFUL. 459 00:26:51,433 --> 00:26:54,467 ** 460 00:26:57,567 --> 00:27:00,400 Gideon: TODAY'S THE DAY FOR MY SURGERY... 461 00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:02,733 GIVE YOUR DADDY A HUG AND A KISS. 462 00:27:02,733 --> 00:27:05,433 ...AND I'M VERY ANXIOUS. 463 00:27:05,433 --> 00:27:07,700 IS IT TOO LATE TO BACK OUT? 464 00:27:07,700 --> 00:27:11,600 YES. THIS IS DEFINITELY TOO LATE TO BACK OUT. 465 00:27:11,600 --> 00:27:13,500 LAST FEW NIGHTS, I'VE BEEN HAVING DREAMS 466 00:27:13,500 --> 00:27:16,467 THAT THERE'S COMPLICATIONS THAT ARISE DURING SURGERY, 467 00:27:16,467 --> 00:27:20,533 SO THE CLOSER I GET TO SURGERY, THE MORE TERRIFYING 468 00:27:20,533 --> 00:27:25,500 IT'S BECOMING BECAUSE OF WHAT'S AT STAKE. 469 00:27:25,500 --> 00:27:26,900 WHAT IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG? 470 00:27:26,900 --> 00:27:28,700 WHAT IF I DON'T MAKE IT OUT OF IT? 471 00:27:28,700 --> 00:27:31,333 I'M SCARED I'M ABOUT TO DIE, 472 00:27:31,333 --> 00:27:34,067 AND PART OF ME WANTS TO JUST BACK OUT RIGHT NOW. 473 00:27:36,467 --> 00:27:38,667 BUT I KNOW THAT'D BE THE END OF MY MARRIAGE, 474 00:27:38,667 --> 00:27:42,900 AND THAT WOULD BE WORSE TO ME, SO I'M DOING THIS. 475 00:27:45,233 --> 00:27:47,167 Dr. Nowzaradan: TODAY, WE'RE ATTEMPTING TO DO 476 00:27:47,167 --> 00:27:49,667 GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY ON GIDEON. 477 00:27:51,533 --> 00:27:53,633 BIGGEST CONCERN WITH GIDEON 478 00:27:53,633 --> 00:27:57,533 IS MOST OF HIS WEIGHT IS IN MID PORTION ABDOMEN. 479 00:27:57,533 --> 00:28:01,500 SO, IT'S GONNA BE CHALLENGING TO DO GASTRIC BYPASS ON HIM. 480 00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:11,367 GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY IS A WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THAT WE DO 481 00:28:11,367 --> 00:28:14,233 TO REDUCE THE SIZE OF THE STOMACH ABOUT 90%. 482 00:28:14,233 --> 00:28:19,167 WE CREATE A SMALL POUCH, AND WE HOOK THAT TO THE SMALL BOWEL. 483 00:28:21,567 --> 00:28:25,833 AND WE REROUTE THE FOOD FROM GOING TO PART OF THE STOMACH 484 00:28:25,833 --> 00:28:27,667 AND SMALL INTESTINE. 485 00:28:30,500 --> 00:28:32,500 WE HAVE AN ISSUE WITH ACCESS. 486 00:28:34,833 --> 00:28:37,333 WE HAVE TO TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT RIGHT NOW. 487 00:28:39,800 --> 00:28:42,833 Kayleigh: I'M REALLY ANXIOUS FOR HIM TO BE DONE. 488 00:28:42,833 --> 00:28:44,567 I HOPE THAT THIS SURGERY 489 00:28:44,567 --> 00:28:46,900 JUST IMPROVES THE QUALITY OF HIS LIFE. 490 00:28:46,900 --> 00:28:48,767 OUR RELATIONSHIP'S GONNA GET BETTER. 491 00:28:48,767 --> 00:28:51,100 HE'S GONNA BE A BETTER FATHER TO JONATHAN. 492 00:28:51,100 --> 00:28:52,967 IT'S GONNA BE GOOD FOR ALL OF US. 493 00:28:52,967 --> 00:28:55,600 ALL RIGHT, THAT'S BETTER. 494 00:28:56,400 --> 00:29:00,400 WE HAD AN ISSUE FOR A MOMENT, BEING ABLE TO MAKE INCISIONS 495 00:29:00,400 --> 00:29:02,867 TO GET INSTRUMENTS IN THE RIGHT POSITION, 496 00:29:02,867 --> 00:29:05,067 BUT WE'VE BEEN ABLE TO REPOSITION 497 00:29:05,067 --> 00:29:06,800 AND GET THE ACCESS WE NEED. 498 00:29:10,933 --> 00:29:13,233 GIDEON'S SURGERY WENT VERY WELL. 499 00:29:13,233 --> 00:29:15,600 WE DID A BYPASS ON HIM. 500 00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:17,633 TOOK A LITTLE BIT LONGER THAN EXPECTED, 501 00:29:17,633 --> 00:29:19,833 BUT THERE WERE NO MAJOR ISSUES. 502 00:29:22,167 --> 00:29:24,733 GIDEON HAS TO KEEP MAKING RIGHT CHOICES 503 00:29:24,733 --> 00:29:28,200 AND PUSH HIMSELF TO DO THAT, BUT IF HE DOESN'T, 504 00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:32,533 THEN HE WILL EVENTUALLY FAIL AND START TO GAIN AGAIN. 505 00:29:32,533 --> 00:29:34,900 IT'S ALL UP TO HIM NOW. 506 00:29:40,367 --> 00:29:43,400 ** 507 00:29:48,467 --> 00:29:50,733 Boy: I'M HUNGRY. 508 00:29:50,733 --> 00:29:52,467 YOU WANT ME TO MAKE YOU A SANDWICH? 509 00:29:52,467 --> 00:29:54,133 YEAH. OKAY. 510 00:29:54,133 --> 00:29:56,067 DO YOU WANT TO GO WAKE YOUR DADDY UP 511 00:29:56,067 --> 00:29:57,900 AND SEE IF HE WANTS TO EAT SOMETHING, TOO? 512 00:29:57,900 --> 00:30:01,133 SURE. OKAY. 513 00:30:01,133 --> 00:30:05,233 I AM REALLY WORRIED ABOUT GIDEON RIGHT NOW. 514 00:30:05,233 --> 00:30:08,767 ONCE HE GOT THE SURGERY, HIS GOAL WAS TO GET A JOB 515 00:30:08,767 --> 00:30:10,833 AND START HELPING MORE AROUND THE HOUSE, 516 00:30:10,833 --> 00:30:13,000 AND HE'S NOT DOING THAT. 517 00:30:13,000 --> 00:30:14,733 HE SLEEPS MOST OF THE DAY, 518 00:30:14,733 --> 00:30:16,800 BECAUSE HE DOESN'T GET UP TO EAT ALL DAY. 519 00:30:18,900 --> 00:30:20,733 I CAN TRY. 520 00:30:20,733 --> 00:30:23,333 I CAN'T EAT A SANDWICH, BUT I CAN COME FIND SOMETHING. 521 00:30:23,333 --> 00:30:26,700 I'M HOPING THIS IS JUST PART OF THE RECOVERY. 522 00:30:26,700 --> 00:30:32,600 Gideon: SINCE SURGERY, I'VE HAD NO PROBLEM STICKING TO THE DIET. 523 00:30:32,600 --> 00:30:35,100 BUT I'VE JUST FOUND IT HARD TO GET UP 524 00:30:35,100 --> 00:30:36,867 AND STAY ACTIVE ALL DAY. 525 00:30:36,867 --> 00:30:38,800 WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT? 526 00:30:40,633 --> 00:30:43,067 IT'S HARD, BECAUSE WHEN I FELT ANYTHING, 527 00:30:43,067 --> 00:30:45,200 I COULD JUST GO EAT. 528 00:30:47,033 --> 00:30:50,067 NOW, I CAN'T DO THAT. 529 00:30:50,067 --> 00:30:52,167 Kayleigh: WE DIDN'T COME ALL THIS WAY 530 00:30:52,167 --> 00:30:54,767 FOR GIDEON TO END UP THE EXACT SAME WAY. 531 00:30:54,767 --> 00:30:57,033 IF HE DOESN'T FIGURE THIS OUT, 532 00:30:57,033 --> 00:31:00,300 I'M TAKING JONATHAN AND MOVING BACK TO OKLAHOMA. 533 00:31:00,300 --> 00:31:02,167 Kayleigh: YOU FEEL UP TO GOING OUT? 534 00:31:02,167 --> 00:31:04,200 I'M GONNA GO LAY DOWN. 535 00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:08,400 IT'S REALLY HARD BECAUSE I KNOW THAT MOVING HERE 536 00:31:08,400 --> 00:31:10,833 AND HIM BEING ABLE TO HAVE THE SURGERY 537 00:31:10,833 --> 00:31:14,067 IS SOMETHING THAT POTENTIALLY SAVED HIS LIFE, 538 00:31:14,067 --> 00:31:18,133 BUT ON THE FLIP SIDE, KNOWING EVERYTHING THAT WE GAVE UP, 539 00:31:18,133 --> 00:31:23,367 IT MAKES IT REALLY HARD TO SAY, "YEAH, IT WAS WORTH IT." 540 00:31:23,367 --> 00:31:26,933 Gideon: I KNOW KAYLEIGH IS GETTING FRUSTRATED. 541 00:31:26,933 --> 00:31:29,400 AND I'M HOPING WHEN I GO TO MY NEXT APPOINTMENT 542 00:31:29,400 --> 00:31:32,233 WITH DR. NOWZARADAN, HE CAN HELP ME FIGURE THIS OUT, 543 00:31:32,233 --> 00:31:35,567 BECAUSE I JUST HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW 544 00:31:35,567 --> 00:31:37,667 OR IF SOMETHING IS WRONG. 545 00:31:39,833 --> 00:31:42,067 JUST LET HIM REST FOR A LITTLE BIT. 546 00:31:45,467 --> 00:31:49,400 ** 547 00:31:49,400 --> 00:31:51,833 IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS SINCE SURGERY, 548 00:31:51,833 --> 00:31:54,933 AND I'M SEEING THE DOCTOR AGAIN TODAY. 549 00:31:54,933 --> 00:31:56,800 I'M MAKING GOOD PROGRESS, 550 00:31:56,800 --> 00:31:59,333 AND I'M GETTING CLOSE TO BEING UNDER 500 POUNDS. 551 00:31:59,333 --> 00:32:00,867 OH. 552 00:32:00,867 --> 00:32:03,133 I CAN STRIP DOWN. 553 00:32:03,133 --> 00:32:05,300 BUT IT'S MY ENERGY 554 00:32:05,300 --> 00:32:07,567 I'M HOPING THE DOC CAN GIVE ME SOME HELP WITH. 555 00:32:09,567 --> 00:32:12,600 15 POUNDS. 556 00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:14,533 I HOPE HE HAS A FIX OR SOMETHING. 557 00:32:14,533 --> 00:32:16,733 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] HELLO. 558 00:32:16,733 --> 00:32:18,767 HOW ARE YOU, SIR? I'M DOING OKAY. 559 00:32:18,767 --> 00:32:21,267 HOW ABOUT YOURSELF? OKAY. 560 00:32:21,267 --> 00:32:23,933 SO, YOU LOST SOME WEIGHT. CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE? 561 00:32:23,933 --> 00:32:26,767 MY LEGS ARE THANKING ME ALREADY, YEAH. 562 00:32:26,767 --> 00:32:28,667 SO, YOU'RE WALKING MORE NOW? 563 00:32:28,667 --> 00:32:32,067 I FEEL LIKE -- I MEAN, I WANT TO BE DOING MORE ACTIVITY, 564 00:32:32,067 --> 00:32:34,767 BUT I HAVEN'T HAD THE ENERGY TO REALLY DO A WHOLE LOT. 565 00:32:34,767 --> 00:32:39,067 THIS CAN BE A NORMAL REACTION TO LOSS OF COPING MECHANISM. 566 00:32:39,067 --> 00:32:42,567 IT'S A PERIOD OF ADJUSTMENT THAT MAY LAST A FEW MONTHS. 567 00:32:42,567 --> 00:32:47,633 IT'S NOT UNUSUAL FOR SOMEONE WHO USED FOOD TO COPE FOR SO LONG 568 00:32:47,633 --> 00:32:50,600 TO EXPERIENCE WHAT GIDEON'S DESCRIBING. 569 00:32:50,600 --> 00:32:53,367 HE'S SHUTTING DOWN WHEN HE FEELS ANYTHING 570 00:32:53,367 --> 00:32:57,400 BECAUSE HE'S TRYING TO ADJUST TO HOW THINGS WORK NOW. 571 00:32:57,400 --> 00:33:00,733 IF YOU FIND YOURSELF FATIGUED AND YOU STILL FEEL 572 00:33:00,733 --> 00:33:03,433 YOU HAVE NO ENERGY OVER THE NEXT FEW MONTHS, 573 00:33:03,433 --> 00:33:07,333 WE SHOULD GET YOU A THERAPIST SO YOU CAN KEEP MAKING PROGRESS. 574 00:33:07,333 --> 00:33:11,433 GIDEON NEEDS TO START LEARNING HOW TO DEAL WITH HIS EMOTION 575 00:33:11,433 --> 00:33:13,300 AND THE STRESS IN A HEALTHY WAY. 576 00:33:13,300 --> 00:33:15,933 KEEP WORKING ON IT. I'LL SEE YOU NEXT MONTH, OKAY? 577 00:33:15,933 --> 00:33:17,967 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU, SIR. YOU'RE WELCOME. 578 00:33:17,967 --> 00:33:22,533 IF HE DOESN'T, AND GIDEON GOES BACK TO HIS OLD EATING HABITS, 579 00:33:22,533 --> 00:33:25,133 THE SURGERY WILL BE INEFFECTIVE. 580 00:33:27,267 --> 00:33:32,067 Gideon: IT'S A RELIEF TO FIND OUT MY LOW ENERGY IS SOMEWHAT NORMAL, 581 00:33:32,067 --> 00:33:35,400 BUT I DON'T LIKE THE REASON BEHIND IT 582 00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:37,567 AND THAT I'M GOING TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH SOMETHING, 583 00:33:37,567 --> 00:33:41,800 'CAUSE I NEVER REALLY PLANNED ON DEALING WITH IT. 584 00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:46,233 I'D RATHER SOME THINGS JUST STAY BURIED. 585 00:33:46,233 --> 00:33:49,367 ** 586 00:33:49,367 --> 00:33:52,200 HONEY, DO YOU WANT THE BLENDER IN STORAGE? 587 00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:53,867 Kayleigh: YEAH, THAT'S FINE. 588 00:33:53,867 --> 00:33:56,167 IT'S BEEN A TOUGH MONTH. 589 00:33:56,167 --> 00:33:58,700 I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO FIND A JOB, 590 00:33:58,700 --> 00:34:02,700 SO KAYLEIGH DECIDED TO MOVE BACK TO OKLAHOMA WITH HER PARENTS. 591 00:34:02,700 --> 00:34:05,067 THE NICE THING ABOUT JUST MOVING IN HERE 592 00:34:05,067 --> 00:34:07,933 IS A LOT OF STUFF IS STILL IN BOXES. 593 00:34:07,933 --> 00:34:12,067 I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD STAY CLOSE TO THE DOCTOR FOR LONGER, 594 00:34:12,067 --> 00:34:14,067 BUT I KNOW IF I DON'T GO WITH HER, 595 00:34:14,067 --> 00:34:17,200 THEN OUR RELATIONSHIP IS GOING TO SUFFER. 596 00:34:17,200 --> 00:34:22,800 Kayleigh: I LOVE GIDEON, BUT HE HAD HIS CHANCE TO CHANGE, 597 00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:25,333 AND RIGHT NOW, HE'S NOT USING IT. 598 00:34:25,333 --> 00:34:29,533 AND THAT'S WHY IT'S REALLY HARD NOT TO RESENT HIM RIGHT NOW. 599 00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:35,100 I'M JUST NOT SURE WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO. 600 00:34:39,300 --> 00:34:42,333 ** 601 00:34:49,967 --> 00:34:52,067 Gideon: WE'VE BEEN BACK IN OKLAHOMA 602 00:34:52,067 --> 00:34:54,867 LIVING WITH KAYLEIGH'S PARENTS FOR A COUPLE MONTHS, 603 00:34:54,867 --> 00:34:59,800 AND I STILL FEEL TIRED AND JUST DRAINED ALL THE TIME. 604 00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:02,567 I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO DO SOMETHING 605 00:35:02,567 --> 00:35:06,267 TO REPAY MY IN-LAWS, THOUGH. 606 00:35:06,267 --> 00:35:10,733 SO, I GOT A LIST OF CHORES OF THINGS TO DO AROUND THE HOUSE. 607 00:35:10,733 --> 00:35:12,867 HOW DO I TURN IT ON? 608 00:35:12,867 --> 00:35:15,333 WE HAVE WATER. 609 00:35:15,333 --> 00:35:18,200 I'M LIKE A KID RIGHT NOW THAT HAS TO HAVE HIS HAND HELD 610 00:35:18,200 --> 00:35:21,833 TO DO THINGS, AND THAT'S NOT RIGHT. 611 00:35:21,833 --> 00:35:28,200 I KNOW I HAVE TO FIGURE THIS OUT QUICKLY -- LIKE, YESTERDAY. 612 00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:31,700 SO, I'M TAKING DR. NOW'S ADVICE AND GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST. 613 00:35:33,667 --> 00:35:35,400 I JUST WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS FUNK, 614 00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:36,733 'CAUSE I JUST FEEL LIKE 615 00:35:36,733 --> 00:35:39,100 I'M GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS WITH THINGS. 616 00:35:39,100 --> 00:35:40,900 AWESOME. 617 00:35:40,900 --> 00:35:43,400 AND WHAT'S REALLY SCARING ME 618 00:35:43,400 --> 00:35:47,800 ARE THE CRAVINGS AND THE DESIRE TO STRESS EAT ARE COMING BACK. 619 00:35:47,800 --> 00:35:50,733 I DON'T WANT TO END UP LIKE I WAS, 620 00:35:50,733 --> 00:35:53,833 SO I'M REALLY HOPING THIS THERAPIST IS ABLE TO HELP. 621 00:35:55,867 --> 00:35:59,367 ** 622 00:35:59,367 --> 00:36:02,300 TODAY KAYLEIGH AND I ARE GOING TO SEE A THERAPIST. 623 00:36:04,367 --> 00:36:06,067 IF HE'S NOT ABLE TO HELP US, 624 00:36:06,067 --> 00:36:09,200 I LITERALLY DON'T KNOW WHERE ELSE TO GO, 625 00:36:09,200 --> 00:36:11,667 BUT I'M STEPPING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE 626 00:36:11,667 --> 00:36:13,933 TO TRY AND SAVE MY MARRIAGE. 627 00:36:13,933 --> 00:36:15,967 HI, GIDEON. 628 00:36:15,967 --> 00:36:17,500 KAYLEIGH. NICE TO MEET YOU. 629 00:36:17,500 --> 00:36:18,767 COME ON BACK. 630 00:36:18,767 --> 00:36:21,067 SO, TELL ME WHY YOU'RE HERE TODAY. 631 00:36:21,067 --> 00:36:25,767 I FEEL LIKE I HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY AND ANGER, 632 00:36:25,767 --> 00:36:28,133 DEPRESSION FROM LIFE IN GENERAL. 633 00:36:28,133 --> 00:36:31,200 SO, IF OUR SESSION TODAY GOES AMAZINGLY WELL, 634 00:36:31,200 --> 00:36:32,467 WHAT WILL BE THE END RESULT? 635 00:36:32,467 --> 00:36:35,167 FIGURING OUT WHY I TURN TO FOOD, 636 00:36:35,167 --> 00:36:39,067 BECAUSE I'VE LIVED MY WHOLE LIFE BEING, YOU KNOW, "THE FAT GUY." 637 00:36:39,067 --> 00:36:42,067 YOU KNOW, I'VE HAD WHAT I WOULD CONSIDER TO BE A VERY HECTIC, 638 00:36:42,067 --> 00:36:46,900 YOU KNOW, CHILDHOOD, ADOLESCENT, YOU KNOW, 20s, ALL THE WAY UP 639 00:36:46,900 --> 00:36:49,233 TILL, YOU KNOW, BOTH OF MY PARENTS DIE AT 50, 640 00:36:49,233 --> 00:36:50,533 YOU KNOW, JUST A FEW YEARS APART. 641 00:36:50,533 --> 00:36:51,967 FROM OBESITY OR...? 642 00:36:51,967 --> 00:36:54,067 NO, MY MOM DIED FROM A PAIN MEDICATION 643 00:36:54,067 --> 00:36:56,167 THAT EXPLODED HER HEART, BASICALLY. 644 00:36:56,167 --> 00:36:58,700 AND THEN MY DAD HAD A LONG HISTORY OF DRUG ABUSE. 645 00:36:58,700 --> 00:37:02,200 AND, I MEAN, I FIGHT BACK TEARS OVER MY DAD'S DEATH 646 00:37:02,200 --> 00:37:05,667 DAILY ALMOST BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I COULD HAVE PREVENTED IT. 647 00:37:05,667 --> 00:37:08,067 BUT YOU DO FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR FATHER'S DEATH. 648 00:37:08,067 --> 00:37:10,733 YEAH. 649 00:37:10,733 --> 00:37:12,867 ALL RIGHT, TAKE YOUR TIME, GIDEON. 650 00:37:12,867 --> 00:37:16,100 MM. 651 00:37:16,100 --> 00:37:18,733 Kayleigh: I'M HEARING GIDEON SHARE THINGS 652 00:37:18,733 --> 00:37:22,067 THAT I HAD NO IDEA HE WAS DEALING WITH. 653 00:37:22,067 --> 00:37:25,967 ALL THIS PAIN AND GUILT THAT HE'S BEEN SHOULDERING 654 00:37:25,967 --> 00:37:29,600 FOR YEARS -- IT JUST BROKE MY HEART. 655 00:37:29,600 --> 00:37:31,767 [ Crying ] I LOVE YOU. 656 00:37:31,767 --> 00:37:34,367 I WANT US TO WORK THROUGH ALL THIS CRAP 657 00:37:34,367 --> 00:37:35,967 THAT WE'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH. 658 00:37:35,967 --> 00:37:38,900 I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I'VE EVER LOVED ANYBODY OR ANYTHING. 659 00:37:38,900 --> 00:37:42,600 I KNOW A LOT OF OUR ISSUES IN MARRIAGE 660 00:37:42,600 --> 00:37:44,567 AND IN OUR RELATIONSHIP 661 00:37:44,567 --> 00:37:47,500 STEMMED FROM YOU BEING AFRAID OF LOSING ME 662 00:37:47,500 --> 00:37:48,867 BECAUSE OF MY WEIGHT 663 00:37:48,867 --> 00:37:53,533 AFTER YOU FOUND MY DAD IN BED...DECEASED. 664 00:37:56,067 --> 00:37:57,600 IF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR DAD, 665 00:37:57,600 --> 00:37:59,200 YOU'VE GOT TO RESOLVE HIS DEATH. 666 00:37:59,200 --> 00:38:01,367 YOU'VE GOT TO WALK THROUGH IT. 667 00:38:03,833 --> 00:38:07,700 Gideon: I NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH PAIN CONTROLLED MY LIFE 668 00:38:07,700 --> 00:38:10,867 AND HOW IT'S NOT ONLY HURTING ME, 669 00:38:10,867 --> 00:38:14,100 BUT EVERYONE I LOVE AROUND ME. 670 00:38:14,100 --> 00:38:17,900 JUST LIKE I'M LOSING THE WEIGHT, I KNOW I HAVE TO WORK 671 00:38:17,900 --> 00:38:22,800 TO LOSE THIS PAIN AND GUILT IF I WANT TO CHANGE. 672 00:38:22,800 --> 00:38:25,833 ** 673 00:38:29,767 --> 00:38:32,467 IF YOU WERE LOOKING AT THE WHOLE -- THERE YOU GO. 674 00:38:32,467 --> 00:38:34,867 SINCE SEEING THE THERAPIST, 675 00:38:34,867 --> 00:38:37,467 I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO MAKE SOME PROGRESS. 676 00:38:39,067 --> 00:38:41,333 IT'S NOT LIKE RIGHT AFTER I CAME HOME, 677 00:38:41,333 --> 00:38:43,667 I HAD ALL THIS ENERGY, 678 00:38:43,667 --> 00:38:46,933 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M ABLE TO GET UP AND SPEND TIME WITH JONATHAN 679 00:38:46,933 --> 00:38:48,900 AND HELP AROUND THE HOUSE. 680 00:38:51,067 --> 00:38:54,067 JUST KNOWING THAT I'VE HAD ALL THIS EMOTION AND PAIN 681 00:38:54,067 --> 00:38:56,700 THAT I'VE NEVER DEALT WITH HAS HELPED ME. 682 00:38:59,600 --> 00:39:02,600 AND I'M SETTING UP A GOAL OF GETTING A JOB 683 00:39:02,600 --> 00:39:04,267 IN THE NEXT MONTH AND A HALF. 684 00:39:04,267 --> 00:39:05,867 BABE! Kayleigh: YEAH? 685 00:39:05,867 --> 00:39:09,067 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT A JUVENILE-DETENTION OFFICER? 686 00:39:09,067 --> 00:39:10,700 DO YOU THINK THAT THAT'S SOMETHING 687 00:39:10,700 --> 00:39:12,133 THAT YOU'LL FEEL COMFORTABLE DOING? 688 00:39:12,133 --> 00:39:14,600 I FEEL LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I COULD DEFINITELY 689 00:39:14,600 --> 00:39:17,467 MAKE A CAREER OUT OF INSTEAD OF JUST A JOB. 690 00:39:17,467 --> 00:39:19,600 HOPEFULLY, I'LL GET BACK TO WORK 691 00:39:19,600 --> 00:39:21,367 AND START TAKING CARE OF MY FAMILY 692 00:39:21,367 --> 00:39:24,200 SO WE CAN GET A PLACE OF OUR OWN. 693 00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:27,267 I JUST KNOW THAT THAT'S GONNA BE HUGE FOR OUR MARRIAGE. 694 00:39:31,600 --> 00:39:34,633 ** 695 00:39:39,933 --> 00:39:41,767 Gideon: YOU READY FOR SCHOOL? 696 00:39:41,767 --> 00:39:43,533 YEAH. 697 00:39:43,533 --> 00:39:47,133 Gideon: THINGS HAVE REALLY GOTTEN A LOT BETTER THIS PAST MONTH. 698 00:39:47,133 --> 00:39:50,533 I GOT THE JOB THAT I WANTED AS A JUVENILE-DETENTION OFFICER, 699 00:39:50,533 --> 00:39:53,900 AND I'M BACK WORKING AGAIN AND PROVIDING FOR MY FAMILY. 700 00:39:53,900 --> 00:39:56,467 IT'S THE BEST FEELING. 701 00:39:56,467 --> 00:39:58,533 I WAKE UP EACH MORNING, 702 00:39:58,533 --> 00:40:00,833 AND INSTEAD OF GETTING DRESSED AND STARTING TO EAT... 703 00:40:00,833 --> 00:40:02,700 LOVE YOU, BUDDY. LOVE YOU. 704 00:40:02,700 --> 00:40:05,767 ...I TAKE JONATHAN TO SCHOOL, AND THEN I HEAD TO WORK. 705 00:40:05,767 --> 00:40:08,667 I FEEL LIKE I'M THE FATHER I SHOULD BE NOW, 706 00:40:08,667 --> 00:40:11,733 AND I'M GETTING BETTER AT IT EACH DAY. 707 00:40:11,733 --> 00:40:15,300 I'M MAKING A LOT OF PROGRESS WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS. 708 00:40:15,300 --> 00:40:16,633 THANK YOU, SIR. 709 00:40:16,633 --> 00:40:20,733 I STAYED ON TRACK AND FINALLY MADE IT BELOW 500 POUNDS. 710 00:40:20,733 --> 00:40:22,867 THAT'S SUCH A GREAT FEELING. 711 00:40:22,867 --> 00:40:24,400 THANK YOU, SIR. 712 00:40:24,400 --> 00:40:27,200 I'M PRETTY EXCITED TO GO OUT AND NOT FEEL EMBARRASSED 713 00:40:27,200 --> 00:40:30,467 OR, LIKE, UNDESERVING TO BE WITH KAYLEIGH. 714 00:40:30,467 --> 00:40:33,433 I'M LOVING THE CHANGES THAT I'M SEEING IN GIDEON. 715 00:40:33,433 --> 00:40:37,633 THINGS ARE MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, AND I'M REALLY HAPPY. 716 00:40:37,633 --> 00:40:42,000 I FEEL LIKE THE RESENTMENT THAT KAYLEIGH HAD FOR ME IS GONE, 717 00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:45,133 AND NOW WE'RE CLOSER THAN EVER. 718 00:40:45,133 --> 00:40:47,567 I DON'T KNOW THAT I WOULD HAVE MADE IT THIS WHOLE YEAR 719 00:40:47,567 --> 00:40:49,133 THROUGH EVERYTHING WITHOUT YOU, 720 00:40:49,133 --> 00:40:52,433 SO I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU BEING PATIENT AND SUPPORTING ME, 721 00:40:52,433 --> 00:40:53,967 AND THAT'S THE TRUTH. 722 00:40:53,967 --> 00:40:55,967 YOU'RE WELCOME. 723 00:40:55,967 --> 00:40:57,400 IT WAS WORTH IT. 724 00:41:02,633 --> 00:41:05,267 THIS LAST MONTH, I'VE BEEN TO THE GYM A LOT, 725 00:41:05,267 --> 00:41:07,267 AND I'VE PUT IN THE WORK. 726 00:41:10,233 --> 00:41:11,367 YES. 727 00:41:11,367 --> 00:41:13,867 WELL, I'M PROUD OF YOU. YOU'RE DOING VERY WELL. 728 00:41:13,867 --> 00:41:16,067 I WAS CONCERNED WHEN GIDEON 729 00:41:16,067 --> 00:41:18,300 MOVED BACK TO OKLAHOMA SO QUICKLY, 730 00:41:18,300 --> 00:41:20,733 BUT HE'S COPING WITH LIFE IN HEALTHY WAYS 731 00:41:20,733 --> 00:41:23,067 THAT ARE KEEPING HIM ON THE RIGHT TRACK. 732 00:41:23,067 --> 00:41:24,500 Gideon: THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 733 00:41:26,867 --> 00:41:29,267 WE MADE IT. WE MADE IT. 734 00:41:29,267 --> 00:41:32,233 Kayleigh: GIDEON HAS HONESTLY BLOWN MY MIND. 735 00:41:32,233 --> 00:41:35,500 HE HAS SURPASSED ALL OF MY EXPECTATIONS, 736 00:41:35,500 --> 00:41:37,600 AND I HONESTLY COULD NOT BE PROUDER. 737 00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:41,200 Gideon: I CAN'T BELIEVE MY LIFE NOW. 738 00:41:41,200 --> 00:41:44,733 I'M NO LONGER A BURDEN TO THE PEOPLE AROUND ME, 739 00:41:44,733 --> 00:41:47,533 AND IT'S BEEN AWESOME JUST ENJOYING BEING A FAMILY. 740 00:41:47,533 --> 00:41:50,067 ** 741 00:41:50,067 --> 00:41:52,800 IT'S LIKE A DREAM. 742 00:41:52,800 --> 00:41:55,367 AND MY LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER NOW. 743 00:41:57,400 --> 00:42:00,500 I LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH MY DAD. 744 00:42:00,500 --> 00:42:03,900 HE'S MORE ACTIVE, AND HE CAN PLAY WITH ME A LOT MORE. 745 00:42:03,900 --> 00:42:06,333 All: OHH! 746 00:42:06,333 --> 00:42:08,200 [ IMITATES GUNSHOTS ] 747 00:42:08,200 --> 00:42:10,400 LET'S GO LASER. 748 00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:13,400 Gideon: I'M NOT THE FAT GUY THAT I USED TO BE. 749 00:42:13,400 --> 00:42:15,167 I'M CHANGING, MY BODY'S CHANGING, 750 00:42:15,167 --> 00:42:17,867 MY MIND IS CHANGING, MY CONFIDENCE IS CHANGING. 751 00:42:17,867 --> 00:42:21,500 AND THIS IS NOT THE END OF MY JOURNEY. 752 00:42:21,500 --> 00:42:22,533 THAT WAS A GOOD WORKOUT. 753 00:42:22,533 --> 00:42:24,467 OH, THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN! I WAS THIRD. 754 00:42:24,467 --> 00:42:25,833 WE KILLED MOM. 755 00:42:25,833 --> 00:42:27,433 MY GOAL WEIGHT IS 220, 756 00:42:27,433 --> 00:42:30,767 AND I'M GONNA DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO GET DOWN TO THAT 757 00:42:30,767 --> 00:42:32,400 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING NOW. 757 00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm