"My 600-lb Life" Zsalynn and Olivia

1 00:00:06,033 --> 00:00:08,767 Marla: I CAN'T EVEN BATHE MYSELF. 2 00:00:08,767 --> 00:00:11,333 MY KIDS HAVE TO DO THAT FOR ME. 3 00:00:11,333 --> 00:00:13,767 Charity: I FEEL LIKE SOME MONSTER. 4 00:00:13,767 --> 00:00:18,000 Olivia: I'VE BEEN HIDING FROM THE WORLD, JUST WAITING TO DIE. 5 00:00:18,000 --> 00:00:20,833 Pauline: I AM ABSOLUTELY TRAPPED IN THIS BODY, 6 00:00:20,833 --> 00:00:23,100 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING EVERY DAY. 7 00:00:24,933 --> 00:00:26,967 Susan: I'M TERRIFIED RIGHT NOW. 8 00:00:26,967 --> 00:00:30,200 THIS IS MY LAST HOPE TO BECOME NORMAL. 9 00:00:30,200 --> 00:00:33,500 Madison: I NEED MY MOM. I NEED HER TO BE HERE FOR ME. 10 00:00:33,500 --> 00:00:36,700 ** 11 00:00:43,033 --> 00:00:45,000 Man: 10 SECONDS NOW. HOLD IT, HOLD IT, HOLD IT. 12 00:00:45,000 --> 00:00:47,133 -[ BREATHES DEEPLY ] -GOOD JOB. 13 00:00:47,133 --> 00:00:50,633 Christina: I HAD TO MAKE A CHOICE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. 14 00:00:50,633 --> 00:00:53,733 Joe: I REFUSE TO LET THEM BURY ME. 15 00:00:57,200 --> 00:01:00,067 Susan: I AM NOW EXPRESSING MYSELF 16 00:01:00,067 --> 00:01:01,933 AND LIVING MY OWN TRUTH. 17 00:01:01,933 --> 00:01:04,567 Olivia: I LOST THE WEIGHT, BUT I GAINED MY FAMILY. 18 00:01:04,567 --> 00:01:07,967 Zsalynn: LIFE IS AMAZING NOW. I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 19 00:01:11,100 --> 00:01:12,767 * DUN, DA-DA, DAAAA * 20 00:01:12,767 --> 00:01:14,733 -ALL THIS WILL BE GONE. -WOW. 21 00:01:14,733 --> 00:01:17,333 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 22 00:01:17,333 --> 00:01:19,967 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 23 00:01:19,967 --> 00:01:24,267 Zsalynn: I'M NOT LIVING A LIFE, I'M JUST EXISTING. 24 00:01:24,267 --> 00:01:26,933 AND I HAVE A DAUGHTER NOW, AND IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING, 25 00:01:26,933 --> 00:01:28,667 SHE MAY NOT HAVE A MOM. 26 00:01:28,667 --> 00:01:31,133 SOMETHING IN MY LIFE HAS TO CHANGE. 27 00:01:31,133 --> 00:01:35,300 WITHOUT THIS SURGERY, I'M GONNA DIE SOONER RATHER THAN LATER. 28 00:01:40,400 --> 00:01:44,367 GARETH RECENTLY TOLD ME HE WANTS TO GAIN SOME WEIGHT BACK. 29 00:01:44,367 --> 00:01:46,800 HE WANTS A FAT WIFE. 30 00:01:46,800 --> 00:01:50,700 YOU KNOW, HE TALKS ABOUT THAT I'LL BE REPULSIVE TO HIM. 31 00:01:54,333 --> 00:01:57,467 [ Crying ] I JUST WANT TO FEEL LIKE SOMEBODY LOVES ME. 32 00:01:57,467 --> 00:01:59,500 THAT'S SO STUPID. 33 00:01:59,500 --> 00:02:03,400 I'M GONNA HAVE TO PICK MY HEALTH OVER MY MARRIAGE. 34 00:02:03,400 --> 00:02:06,067 I'VE MADE SUCH GREAT PROGRESS. 35 00:02:06,067 --> 00:02:07,633 MY LIFE IS AMAZING NOW. 36 00:02:07,633 --> 00:02:09,733 HANNAH, HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ME FIT IN A SWING BEFORE? 37 00:02:09,733 --> 00:02:11,067 NOPE. 38 00:02:11,067 --> 00:02:13,700 FOR HANNAH, I FEEL LIKE WE ARE ON THE RIGHT PATH. 39 00:02:13,700 --> 00:02:16,733 AND I AM SO HAPPY TO SEE HOW FAR I'VE COME. 40 00:02:21,600 --> 00:02:24,900 THIS IS GONNA BE A POSITIVE THING TO HAVE IT REMOVED. 41 00:02:24,900 --> 00:02:29,833 OVER THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS, IT'S BEEN JUST HANNAH AND I, 42 00:02:29,833 --> 00:02:31,867 AND I DON'T FEEL SKIN SURGERY 43 00:02:31,867 --> 00:02:34,133 IS THE RIGHT OPTION FOR ME RIGHT NOW. 44 00:02:34,133 --> 00:02:36,400 HANNAH IS MY BIGGEST PRIORITY. 45 00:02:41,433 --> 00:02:44,467 ** 46 00:02:46,000 --> 00:02:52,074 Watch Online Movies and Series for FREE www.osdb.link/lm 47 00:02:53,533 --> 00:02:57,467 IN TWO YEARS, MY LIFE HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED. 48 00:02:57,467 --> 00:03:02,400 AND THERE'S SO MUCH THAT I CAN DO NOW, THAT I'M THANKFUL FOR. 49 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:04,333 BUT I KNOW I'VE GAINED SOME WEIGHT, 50 00:03:04,333 --> 00:03:08,700 AND THE LAST TIME I WEIGHED, I WAS AROUND 315 POUNDS, 51 00:03:08,700 --> 00:03:12,400 AND THE DOCTOR WANTED ME TO GET UNDER 300 FOR MY NEXT GOAL. 52 00:03:12,400 --> 00:03:19,633 IT'S ALMOST HALF MY BODY WEIGHT LOST FROM 597 POUNDS. 53 00:03:19,633 --> 00:03:23,233 AND I'VE BEEN WORKING TO MAKE THAT PROGRESS. 54 00:03:23,233 --> 00:03:28,767 BUT I DON'T LIKE TO MEASURE MYSELF BY MY WEIGHT ANYMORE. 55 00:03:28,767 --> 00:03:30,633 HOW I USED TO MEASURE LIFE 56 00:03:30,633 --> 00:03:35,333 WAS WITH ALL THE THINGS THAT I CAN'T DO. 57 00:03:35,333 --> 00:03:41,467 I CAN'T WALK, I CAN'T STAND, I CAN'T CARRY MY LAUNDRY BASKET. 58 00:03:41,467 --> 00:03:46,233 NOW I MEASURE LIFE BY ALL THE THINGS I CAN DO. 59 00:03:48,900 --> 00:03:51,900 MY LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER NOW, 60 00:03:51,900 --> 00:03:53,600 AND PART OF THAT IS BECAUSE 61 00:03:53,600 --> 00:03:58,333 GARETH AND I ARE FINALLY, OFFICIALLY DIVORCED. 62 00:03:58,333 --> 00:04:00,733 HE DIDN'T WANT ME TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, 63 00:04:00,733 --> 00:04:04,367 AND I DIDN'T DESERVE TO FEEL BAD ABOUT CHOOSING MY HEALTH. 64 00:04:04,367 --> 00:04:09,633 SO, NOW GARETH AND I ARE SHARING JOINT CUSTODY OF HANNAH. 65 00:04:09,633 --> 00:04:14,067 BEING ALONE A LOT HAS BEEN A BIT OF AN ADJUSTMENT FOR ME. 66 00:04:14,067 --> 00:04:15,967 SO, I'VE STRUGGLED WITH BEING DEPRESSED 67 00:04:15,967 --> 00:04:17,867 WHEN I DON'T SEE HANNAH FOR A WHILE. 68 00:04:20,500 --> 00:04:23,800 AND BEING ALONE HAS MADE IT EVEN HARDER FOR ME 69 00:04:23,800 --> 00:04:25,800 TO DEAL WITH MY CRAVINGS. 70 00:04:25,800 --> 00:04:29,567 ** 71 00:04:29,567 --> 00:04:33,100 FOOD WAS MY COPING MECHANISM, 72 00:04:33,100 --> 00:04:36,300 AND NOW, WHEN I FEEL MYSELF GETTING DEPRESSED, 73 00:04:36,300 --> 00:04:40,633 I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY WANT TO EAT. 74 00:04:40,633 --> 00:04:42,800 I WANT TO EAT THINGS THAT ARE BAD FOR ME. 75 00:04:42,800 --> 00:04:44,833 I WANT TO EAT THOSE SWEETS 76 00:04:44,833 --> 00:04:48,900 THAT REALLY MADE ME FEEL WONDERFUL BEFORE. 77 00:04:51,200 --> 00:04:54,667 I JUST WANT TO MAKE LOVE TO THEM WITH MY MOUTH! 78 00:04:54,667 --> 00:04:58,233 EXACTLY, IT'S LIKE A SEXUAL THING FOR ME, OBVIOUSLY. 79 00:04:58,233 --> 00:05:01,133 MMM! 80 00:05:01,133 --> 00:05:03,267 I KNOW I'VE COME A LONG WAY, 81 00:05:03,267 --> 00:05:05,800 BUT I WANT TO MAKE MORE PROGRESS 82 00:05:05,800 --> 00:05:10,200 AND TO START DOING THINGS LIKE DATING AND GETTING MORE ACTIVE. 83 00:05:10,200 --> 00:05:15,167 SO I FINALLY DECIDED I WANT TO GET SKIN SURGERY. 84 00:05:15,167 --> 00:05:17,533 I KNOW I SHOULD BE LOVING LIFE 85 00:05:17,533 --> 00:05:20,100 AND LOVING EVERYTHING THAT I'VE DONE TO CHANGE MYSELF. 86 00:05:20,100 --> 00:05:21,133 Woman: YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY. 87 00:05:21,133 --> 00:05:23,067 THANKS, YOU DO THE SAME. THANK YOU. 88 00:05:23,067 --> 00:05:25,733 BUT I'M STILL INSECURE. 89 00:05:25,733 --> 00:05:30,767 I STILL DON'T FEEL CONFIDENT. 90 00:05:30,767 --> 00:05:32,700 SO, IT WAS A HARD DECISION, 91 00:05:32,700 --> 00:05:35,333 BECAUSE I WASN'T REALLY SURE IF I WANTED TO GO THROUGH 92 00:05:35,333 --> 00:05:38,500 SOMETHING LIKE THAT, BUT I'M READY NOW. 93 00:05:43,600 --> 00:05:46,067 BUT I'M NOT SURE IF I WANT DR. NOWZARADAN 94 00:05:46,067 --> 00:05:49,833 TO DO THE SURGERY. 95 00:05:49,833 --> 00:05:52,667 BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO TALK ABOUT A NUMBER 96 00:05:52,667 --> 00:05:55,400 OR MY WEIGHT ANY LONGER. 97 00:05:58,533 --> 00:06:02,067 I AM MORE THAN A NUMBER, AND I WILL NOT BE FORCED 98 00:06:02,067 --> 00:06:04,500 TO FOCUS ON THAT IF I DON'T WANT TO. 99 00:06:12,333 --> 00:06:15,067 Olivia: MY WEIGHT IS KILLING ME. 100 00:06:15,067 --> 00:06:19,700 I'VE BEEN HIDING FROM THE WORLD, JUST WAITING TO DIE. 101 00:06:19,700 --> 00:06:23,767 SHE'S IN THE BASEMENT BECAUSE EVERYTHING'S ON ONE FLOOR. 102 00:06:23,767 --> 00:06:26,067 Olivia: IT'S TIME FOR ME TO DO SOMETHING. 103 00:06:30,633 --> 00:06:33,067 Olga: I JUST WANT HER TO GET BETTER. 104 00:06:33,067 --> 00:06:34,600 I CAN'T. 105 00:06:34,600 --> 00:06:36,233 [ Voice breaking ] I CAN'T CLIMB THE STAIRS. 106 00:06:36,233 --> 00:06:37,933 YEAH, YOU CAN, OLIVIA. 107 00:06:37,933 --> 00:06:39,700 I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 108 00:06:39,700 --> 00:06:41,333 I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE. 109 00:06:45,367 --> 00:06:49,200 I JUST WANT THIS SURGERY TO GET MY LIFE BACK. 110 00:06:54,067 --> 00:06:58,200 WHEN CAN I HAVE THIS REMOVED? YOU SEE HOW HEAVY IT IS. 111 00:06:58,200 --> 00:07:02,567 I'M PUSHING MYSELF HARDER THAN I'VE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE. 112 00:07:02,567 --> 00:07:05,933 WE'RE TAKING ALL THIS BIG MASS OFF OF HER. 113 00:07:10,200 --> 00:07:13,400 BEFORE, I'D BE LIKE, "GET MY WALKER. GET MY CHAIR." 114 00:07:13,400 --> 00:07:15,567 I'M NOT DEPENDING ON THEM ANYMORE. 115 00:07:15,567 --> 00:07:18,133 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF, 116 00:07:18,133 --> 00:07:20,067 SO I MOVED INTO MY OWN PLACE. 117 00:07:23,967 --> 00:07:27,067 I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD EXPERIENCE LIFE LIKE THIS. 118 00:07:27,067 --> 00:07:29,233 I'M DOING MORE THAN I EVER IMAGINED, 119 00:07:29,233 --> 00:07:32,133 BUT THERE'S STILL SO MANY NEW ADVENTURES AHEAD OF ME. 120 00:07:36,300 --> 00:07:39,333 ** 121 00:07:45,867 --> 00:07:48,100 GO DOWNSTAIRS. COME ON. 122 00:07:48,100 --> 00:07:50,967 IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS SINCE MY GASTRIC BYPASS, 123 00:07:50,967 --> 00:07:52,900 AND I'M STILL EXCITED ABOUT ALL THE WAYS 124 00:07:52,900 --> 00:07:56,167 MY LIFE IS CHANGING FOR THE BETTER. 125 00:07:56,167 --> 00:07:58,433 I CAN DO THINGS FOR MYSELF NOW, 126 00:07:58,433 --> 00:08:02,567 AND I DON'T NEED ANYBODY TO TAKE CARE OF ME. 127 00:08:02,567 --> 00:08:07,200 AT MY HIGHEST, I WAS ALMOST 600 POUNDS. 128 00:08:07,200 --> 00:08:09,433 I DIDN'T HAVE A LIFE. 129 00:08:09,433 --> 00:08:12,633 AND I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO WHERE I WAS. 130 00:08:12,633 --> 00:08:15,367 NOW I'M ABOUT 200 POUNDS, SO I'VE LOST 131 00:08:15,367 --> 00:08:20,367 MORE THAN HALF MY BODY WEIGHT, AND IT FEELS AMAZING. 132 00:08:20,367 --> 00:08:24,633 AND I'M TRYING TO GET UNDER 180 TO GET MY LAST SKIN SURGERY. 133 00:08:24,633 --> 00:08:28,600 BUT BEFORE THAT, I HAVE TO GET MAJOR KNEE SURGERY. 134 00:08:30,933 --> 00:08:33,233 LAST YEAR, I WAS FINALLY ABOUT TO START 135 00:08:33,233 --> 00:08:37,500 LIVING ON MY OWN FOR THE FIRST TIME. 136 00:08:37,500 --> 00:08:40,300 BUT SINCE I HAVE TO HAVE A FEW MORE SURGERIES, 137 00:08:40,300 --> 00:08:42,600 I TEMPORARILY MOVED BACK IN WITH MY BROTHER 138 00:08:42,600 --> 00:08:45,533 SO I CAN HAVE SOME HELP WHILE I RECOVER. 139 00:08:45,533 --> 00:08:49,700 AND I CAN'T WAIT BECAUSE THERE'S SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO. 140 00:08:49,700 --> 00:08:51,500 SO, I STARTED TRAINING TO BE A CHEF 141 00:08:51,500 --> 00:08:53,967 BECAUSE THAT'S MY DREAM JOB. 142 00:08:53,967 --> 00:08:57,100 BUT I CAN'T STAND LONG ENOUGH TO COOK LIKE I NEED TO. 143 00:09:00,433 --> 00:09:02,500 SO, I'M HOPING TO GET MY KNEE SURGERY 144 00:09:02,500 --> 00:09:04,333 AND THEN START DOING EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN 145 00:09:04,333 --> 00:09:06,967 WAITING AND DREAMING TO DO. 146 00:09:06,967 --> 00:09:08,900 BUT I GAINED A LITTLE WEIGHT, 147 00:09:08,900 --> 00:09:10,967 AND I'M BACK AT 200 POUNDS RIGHT NOW. 148 00:09:14,633 --> 00:09:17,467 FOOD WILL ALWAYS BE A TEMPTATION. 149 00:09:17,467 --> 00:09:23,067 FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, IT WILL ALWAYS BE THERE. 150 00:09:23,067 --> 00:09:25,233 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M AT A GOOD PLACE RIGHT NOW 151 00:09:25,233 --> 00:09:28,400 WITH THE BALANCE OF FOOD AND MY HEALTH. 152 00:09:28,400 --> 00:09:31,200 NO. CAN'T HAVE NONE, HARLEY. COME ON. 153 00:09:31,200 --> 00:09:34,667 SO, I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT WHAT'S AHEAD THIS YEAR. 154 00:09:34,667 --> 00:09:37,300 I HAVE A LOT OF GOALS I KNOW I'M GONNA HIT. 155 00:09:39,833 --> 00:09:42,867 ** 156 00:09:48,900 --> 00:09:52,733 Zsalynn: I'M HEADED TO MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOWZARADAN RIGHT NOW. 157 00:09:52,733 --> 00:09:56,333 IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF MONTHS SINCE I'VE SEEN HIM, 158 00:09:56,333 --> 00:10:00,400 AND HE APPROVED FOR SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY A WHILE AGO. 159 00:10:00,400 --> 00:10:03,333 AND I WANT TO TELL HIM THAT I'M READY FOR IT, 160 00:10:03,333 --> 00:10:05,500 BUT THAT I'M GOING WITH A DIFFERENT DOCTOR 161 00:10:05,500 --> 00:10:07,567 TO DO THE OPERATION ON ME. 162 00:10:07,567 --> 00:10:10,533 I FEEL LIKE HE ONLY SEES A NUMBER WHEN HE LOOKS AT ME, 163 00:10:10,533 --> 00:10:14,100 AND THAT'S JUST NOT GONNA WORK FOR ME ANYMORE. 164 00:10:14,100 --> 00:10:17,000 EVERY TIME I GET ON THE SCALE, I DON'T LOOK AT THAT NUMBER 165 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:20,867 BECAUSE THAT NUMBER IS NOT RELEVANT TO ME. 166 00:10:20,867 --> 00:10:23,033 Woman: OKAY. 167 00:10:23,033 --> 00:10:27,300 I WANT TO KEEP MAKING PROGRESS, AND I KNOW THAT I WILL, 168 00:10:27,300 --> 00:10:31,133 BUT I DON'T WANT TO SEE MY WEIGHT OR USE A NUMBER ANYMORE. 169 00:10:31,133 --> 00:10:32,767 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] HI, DR. NOW. 170 00:10:32,767 --> 00:10:35,233 HEY. HOW ARE YOU? I'M GREAT, THANK YOU. 171 00:10:35,233 --> 00:10:37,700 THIS IS THE TWO YEARS AFTER YOUR SURGERY, HUH? 172 00:10:37,700 --> 00:10:41,633 THAT'S RIGHT. I'VE DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND HAVE SKIN SURGERY, 173 00:10:41,633 --> 00:10:45,300 BUT I WANT TO GO TO A DIFFERENT DOCTOR TO HAVE THE OPERATION. 174 00:10:45,300 --> 00:10:47,667 WELL, I'M GLAD TO FINALLY AGREE TO THAT 175 00:10:47,667 --> 00:10:49,767 BECAUSE THE LAST TIME WE TALKED TO YOU ABOUT IT, 176 00:10:49,767 --> 00:10:51,767 YOU WERE NOT READY FOR IT. 177 00:10:51,767 --> 00:10:54,500 SO, IF YOU'RE MORE COMFORTABLE WITH ANOTHER DOCTOR, 178 00:10:54,500 --> 00:10:57,133 THAT'S FINE. I WANT YOU TO BE COMFORTABLE. 179 00:10:57,133 --> 00:10:58,800 GREAT. THANK YOU. 180 00:10:58,800 --> 00:11:03,467 SO, NOW YOU'RE DOWN TO... UNDER 300, HUH? 181 00:11:03,467 --> 00:11:06,200 299, YES. 182 00:11:06,200 --> 00:11:09,333 I SEE SOME TEARS COMING DOWN YOUR EYES BECAUSE 183 00:11:09,333 --> 00:11:13,067 YOU FIND OUT SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T WANT TO FIND OUT? 184 00:11:13,067 --> 00:11:14,667 WELL, I DON'T CARE WHAT THAT NUMBER IS, 185 00:11:14,667 --> 00:11:15,900 AND IT JUST MAKES ME MAD 186 00:11:15,900 --> 00:11:18,800 THAT MY WHOLE LIFE IS JUDGED BY A NUMBER. 187 00:11:18,800 --> 00:11:20,233 I DON'T CARE. [ SIGHS ] 188 00:11:20,233 --> 00:11:21,767 I DON'T CARE WHAT THAT NUMBER IS. 189 00:11:21,767 --> 00:11:25,200 ZSALYNN, YOU'RE RIGHT. THAT NUMBER DOESN'T DEFINE YOU. 190 00:11:25,200 --> 00:11:28,067 IT'S WHAT YOUR WEIGHT IS, THAT'S IT. 191 00:11:28,067 --> 00:11:30,267 BUT WITHOUT A MEASURE OF IT, 192 00:11:30,267 --> 00:11:33,400 YOU WON'T REALLY KNOW IF YOU'RE MAKING ANY PROGRESS. 193 00:11:33,400 --> 00:11:36,067 DR. NOW, YOU SEE US WHEN WE WALK IN HERE. 194 00:11:36,067 --> 00:11:37,767 THAT NUMBER ON THE SCALE -- 195 00:11:37,767 --> 00:11:40,667 THAT NUMBER DOESN'T REFLECT WHO I AM. 196 00:11:40,667 --> 00:11:43,900 I SEE YOUR POINT, BUT THERE'S ANOTHER POINT, OKAY? 197 00:11:43,900 --> 00:11:46,800 WEIGHT IS LIKE A BANK ACCOUNT. 198 00:11:46,800 --> 00:11:50,200 YOU DON'T GUESS HOW MUCH YOU'VE GOT IN THE BANK. 199 00:11:50,200 --> 00:11:52,333 YOU JUST CHECK YOUR BALANCE, RIGHT? 200 00:11:52,333 --> 00:11:53,567 THE SCALE IS THE SAME THING. 201 00:11:53,567 --> 00:11:55,067 YOU SET A GOAL FOR YOURSELF 202 00:11:55,067 --> 00:11:57,833 AND YOU WORK ON EATING HABIT EVERY DAY 203 00:11:57,833 --> 00:12:00,567 AND YOU MEASURE WITH THE SCALE. 204 00:12:00,567 --> 00:12:03,667 ZSALYNN HAS SPENT SO MANY YEARS 205 00:12:03,667 --> 00:12:07,333 ASSOCIATING HER WEIGHT WITH BEAUTY AND SO FORTH 206 00:12:07,333 --> 00:12:11,100 SHE'S HAVING TROUBLE SEPARATING THOSE ISSUES. 207 00:12:11,100 --> 00:12:13,267 BECAUSE OF THAT, SHE SEES THE NUMBER 208 00:12:13,267 --> 00:12:16,467 AS A FORM OF JUDGMENT ON HER WHEN IT'S NOT. 209 00:12:16,467 --> 00:12:19,067 DON'T BE AFRAID TO MEASURE YOUR WEIGHT 210 00:12:19,067 --> 00:12:20,967 AND SEE WHERE YOU ARE. 211 00:12:20,967 --> 00:12:22,767 SHE NEEDS TO UNDERSTAND 212 00:12:22,767 --> 00:12:25,400 THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE IS JUST A TOOL. 213 00:12:25,400 --> 00:12:27,667 IT'S NOT ABOUT HER SELF-WORTH. 214 00:12:27,667 --> 00:12:30,867 I THINK RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE DOING VERY WELL, 215 00:12:30,867 --> 00:12:33,333 AND YOUR BODY IS READY FOR SURGERY. 216 00:12:33,333 --> 00:12:34,533 TRY TO LOSE 10 POUNDS. 217 00:12:34,533 --> 00:12:36,900 IT'S GONNA MAKE A BIG DIFFERENCE IN YOUR SURGERY. 218 00:12:36,900 --> 00:12:38,733 YOU'RE SUCH A NUMBERS GUY. 219 00:12:38,733 --> 00:12:40,933 I WANT YOU TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT, OKAY? 220 00:12:40,933 --> 00:12:42,067 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 221 00:12:42,067 --> 00:12:43,400 ALL RIGHT, THANK YOU. 222 00:12:43,400 --> 00:12:45,100 I'LL SEE YOU LATER. OKAY, SOUNDS GOOD. 223 00:12:45,100 --> 00:12:46,500 GOOD LUCK. THANK YOU. 224 00:12:46,500 --> 00:12:48,500 OKAY. 225 00:12:48,500 --> 00:12:50,567 I'M REALLY PROUD OF ZSALYNN. 226 00:12:50,567 --> 00:12:54,667 IN A LITTLE BIT OVER TWO YEARS, SHE LOST ALMOST 300 POUNDS, 227 00:12:54,667 --> 00:12:58,467 AND SHE CERTAINLY NEEDS SOME EXCESS SKIN REMOVAL. 228 00:12:58,467 --> 00:13:00,433 IF SHE'D LIKE A DIFFERENT DOCTOR, 229 00:13:00,433 --> 00:13:04,433 THEN I'M HAPPY SHE'S GOING TO AT LEAST MAKE THIS PROGRESS 230 00:13:04,433 --> 00:13:07,800 AND GET THE OPERATION SHE NEEDS. 231 00:13:07,800 --> 00:13:10,933 Zsalynn: I'M GLAD ABOUT EVERYTHING TODAY. 232 00:13:10,933 --> 00:13:14,633 I'M READY FOR SKIN SURGERY AND I'M GOING TO GET IT. 233 00:13:14,633 --> 00:13:17,767 I JUST DON'T THINK I NEED A NUMBER TO HELP ME DO THAT. 234 00:13:24,100 --> 00:13:27,133 ** 235 00:13:38,500 --> 00:13:42,133 Zsalynn: I'VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR A NEW DOCTOR, 236 00:13:42,133 --> 00:13:43,967 AND I FOUND ONE IN LOS ANGELES 237 00:13:43,967 --> 00:13:46,133 THAT I'M GOING TO SEE IN A MONTH, 238 00:13:46,133 --> 00:13:49,500 BUT RIGHT NOW, I'M FOCUSING ON MAKING MORE PROGRESS 239 00:13:49,500 --> 00:13:51,433 LIKE DR. NOWZARADAN SAID 240 00:13:51,433 --> 00:13:55,900 SO I CAN GET AS MUCH EXCESS SKIN REMOVED AS POSSIBLE. 241 00:13:55,900 --> 00:13:58,867 IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU. I KNOW! YOU, TOO. 242 00:13:58,867 --> 00:14:01,467 ALL RIGHT, LET'S GET A GOOD WORKOUT IN. 243 00:14:01,467 --> 00:14:03,433 YOU'RE PRETTY STRONG, ZSALYNN. 244 00:14:03,433 --> 00:14:05,167 I'VE BEEN WORKING. I'M TELLING YOU. 245 00:14:05,167 --> 00:14:08,800 I'VE BEEN ABLE TO DO MORE AND MORE EVERY TIME I WORK OUT, 246 00:14:08,800 --> 00:14:11,733 ESPECIALLY COMPARED TO WHEN I STARTED THIS. 247 00:14:11,733 --> 00:14:13,800 [ Straining ] I CAN'T. 248 00:14:13,800 --> 00:14:14,933 YOU GOT THIS, YOU GOT THIS, YOU GOT THIS. 249 00:14:14,933 --> 00:14:16,300 PUSH IT OUT. 250 00:14:16,300 --> 00:14:19,067 BUT I'VE HIT A WALL WITH MY EXCESS SKIN 251 00:14:19,067 --> 00:14:22,533 WITH HOW IT HINDERS ME AND KEEPS ME FROM DOING EVEN MORE. 252 00:14:22,533 --> 00:14:25,467 I DON'T BEND THE WAY OTHER PEOPLE BEND. 253 00:14:25,467 --> 00:14:29,133 AND HAVING THIS SKIN IN THE MIDDLE OF MY BODY IS EXHAUSTING. 254 00:14:29,133 --> 00:14:30,833 ALL RIGHT, TAP AND GO, TAP AND GO. 255 00:14:30,833 --> 00:14:32,367 KEEP WORKING, ZSALYNN. COME ON, NOW. 256 00:14:32,367 --> 00:14:36,067 BUT THE POSSIBILITY OF HAVING THIS SURGERY RIGHT NOW 257 00:14:36,067 --> 00:14:39,300 IS PUSHING ME TO TRY AND DO MORE AND MORE. 258 00:14:39,300 --> 00:14:40,433 GOOD JOB. 259 00:14:40,433 --> 00:14:41,667 GOOD WORK. 260 00:14:41,667 --> 00:14:43,967 AND I'M READY FOR ANYTHING RIGHT NOW 261 00:14:43,967 --> 00:14:47,067 IF IT MEANS I CAN GET THIS SKIN REMOVED. 262 00:14:48,867 --> 00:14:51,900 ** 263 00:14:55,900 --> 00:14:58,967 Olivia: TODAY, I'M HEADED TO AN APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOWZARADAN 264 00:14:58,967 --> 00:15:01,733 TO SEE WHAT PROGRESS I MADE WITH MY WEIGHT. 265 00:15:01,733 --> 00:15:05,267 BUT I'M MORE CONCERNED ABOUT MY LEG PAIN RIGHT NOW. 266 00:15:05,267 --> 00:15:07,267 I THINK I'M STARTING TO GET AN INFECTION 267 00:15:07,267 --> 00:15:09,067 BECAUSE IT HURTS A LOT. 268 00:15:09,067 --> 00:15:11,600 [ GROANS ] 269 00:15:11,600 --> 00:15:14,767 I HOPE I MADE SOME MORE PROGRESS WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS, THOUGH. 270 00:15:14,767 --> 00:15:18,500 LAST TIME I CHECKED, I WAS BACK UP AT 200 POUNDS. 271 00:15:18,500 --> 00:15:22,700 AND I'M HOPING I'M STARTING TO GET BACK TO 180 POUNDS AGAIN. 272 00:15:22,700 --> 00:15:24,133 BUT I'M NOT WORRIED. 273 00:15:24,133 --> 00:15:26,467 I'VE COME SO FAR, AND I CAN DO SO MUCH. 274 00:15:26,467 --> 00:15:27,833 I GOT YOU. 275 00:15:27,833 --> 00:15:31,300 BEFORE, I COULDN'T EVEN WALK ON MY OWN OR GET IN A CAR. 276 00:15:31,300 --> 00:15:34,700 JUST MOVING AROUND IS HARD. 277 00:15:34,700 --> 00:15:38,300 AND I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. 278 00:15:38,300 --> 00:15:42,367 Woman: YOU'RE AT 207. 279 00:15:42,367 --> 00:15:44,333 YOU CAN STEP DOWN. 280 00:15:44,333 --> 00:15:46,200 I KNOW THAT'S NOT GREAT, 281 00:15:46,200 --> 00:15:49,700 AND I KNOW DR. NOW'S NOT GONNA BE HAPPY ABOUT THIS. 282 00:15:49,700 --> 00:15:53,067 BUT WITH ALL THE STRESS AND PAIN IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW, 283 00:15:53,067 --> 00:15:55,467 I'M HOPING HE UNDERSTANDS. 284 00:15:55,467 --> 00:15:57,767 HELLO. Olivia: HELLO, DOCTOR. 285 00:15:57,767 --> 00:16:00,267 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? NO BUENO. 286 00:16:00,267 --> 00:16:02,100 WHAT'S GOING ON? MY LEG. 287 00:16:02,100 --> 00:16:03,867 I DON'T KNOW IF I HAVE AN INFECTION. 288 00:16:03,867 --> 00:16:05,333 I'VE BEEN HURTING FOR ABOUT A WEEK. 289 00:16:05,333 --> 00:16:07,900 LET'S HAVE A LOOK AT IT, SEE WHAT'S GOING ON. 290 00:16:07,900 --> 00:16:10,367 IT WAS RED, BUT I DON'T KNOW. 291 00:16:10,367 --> 00:16:12,800 IT'S RED NOW. IT'S JUST A LOT OF SORENESS RIGHT NOW. 292 00:16:12,800 --> 00:16:14,300 I THINK IT LOOKS FINE. 293 00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:22,100 NOW, ASIDE FROM THAT, WHAT IS GOING ON 294 00:16:22,100 --> 00:16:25,967 THAT YOUR WEIGHT IS STUCK IN THE 200s NOW? 295 00:16:25,967 --> 00:16:28,167 I DON'T KNOW. I'M JUST UNDER A LOT OF STRESS. 296 00:16:28,167 --> 00:16:30,767 I MEAN, I'VE BEEN WALKING, DOING EXERCISE. 297 00:16:30,767 --> 00:16:32,900 OKAY. DON'T CHANGE THE SUBJECT. 298 00:16:32,900 --> 00:16:35,067 LET'S STICK WITH YOUR EATING HABIT. 299 00:16:35,067 --> 00:16:37,367 WHAT DO YOU MEAN, MY EATING HABIT? 300 00:16:37,367 --> 00:16:40,633 WELL, YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY EATING MORE CALORIES 301 00:16:40,633 --> 00:16:42,133 THAN YOU'RE REQUIRED. 302 00:16:42,133 --> 00:16:44,400 I'M NOT EATING A LOT. AM I EATING THE WRONG THINGS? YES. 303 00:16:44,400 --> 00:16:45,667 AM I DRINKING SODA? YES. 304 00:16:45,667 --> 00:16:47,067 AM I EATING CHIPS? YES. 305 00:16:47,067 --> 00:16:51,167 OKAY, SO WHAT CAN WE DO TO CONTROL THAT? 306 00:16:51,167 --> 00:16:55,500 OLIVIA HAS LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT AND MADE GREAT PROGRESS, 307 00:16:55,500 --> 00:16:58,767 BUT IN THE PAST MONTH OR TWO, SHE STARTED GAINING AGAIN, 308 00:16:58,767 --> 00:17:01,400 AND THAT'S CONCERNING ME A LOT RIGHT NOW. 309 00:17:01,400 --> 00:17:04,067 SO, YOU THINK YOU CAN GET BACK ON THE PROGRAM? 310 00:17:04,067 --> 00:17:05,633 I CAN. YOU KNOW. AND YOU'VE SEEN IT, 311 00:17:05,633 --> 00:17:08,067 AND I'VE PROVEN TO YOU THAT I CAN 'CAUSE I HAVE LOST -- 312 00:17:08,067 --> 00:17:09,667 SO, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? 313 00:17:09,667 --> 00:17:12,400 YOU HAVE DONE IT BEFORE. DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN DO IT. 314 00:17:12,400 --> 00:17:15,233 OLIVIA DOESN'T REALIZE HOW HARD IT IS 315 00:17:15,233 --> 00:17:17,567 TO STOP THE PROCESS OF WEIGHT GAIN 316 00:17:17,567 --> 00:17:20,300 WHEN IT STARTS TO SPIRAL OUT OF CONTROL. 317 00:17:20,300 --> 00:17:22,067 YOU'RE ABOUT TO GET KNEE SURGERY. 318 00:17:22,067 --> 00:17:24,100 THIS IS GOING TO BE GOOD FOR YOU. 319 00:17:24,100 --> 00:17:28,067 BUT IT ALSO MEANS THAT YOU'RE GOING TO BE INACTIVE FOR A WHILE 320 00:17:28,067 --> 00:17:31,300 AND PRONE TO GAIN EVEN MORE WEIGHT. 321 00:17:31,300 --> 00:17:33,467 YOU HAVE COME A LONG WAY, 322 00:17:33,467 --> 00:17:37,067 BUT OFF AND ON, YOU'VE FALLEN OFF OF THE TRACK. 323 00:17:37,067 --> 00:17:39,400 YOU NEED TO CONTROL ALL THAT, OKAY? 324 00:17:39,400 --> 00:17:40,767 OKAY. 325 00:17:45,933 --> 00:17:47,833 Olivia: THAT WAS A LITTLE FRUSTRATING. 326 00:17:47,833 --> 00:17:51,767 I'VE GOT A LOT GOING ON, A LOT OF STRESS I'M DEALING WITH 327 00:17:51,767 --> 00:17:54,067 ON TOP OF HAVING SURGERY SOON. 328 00:17:54,067 --> 00:17:56,467 SO, I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT MY PROGRESS 329 00:17:56,467 --> 00:17:59,067 BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN GET TO WHERE I NEED TO BE. 330 00:18:01,833 --> 00:18:04,867 ** 331 00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:13,300 Zsalynn: I'M IN LOS ANGELES TODAY. 332 00:18:13,300 --> 00:18:15,633 I FLEW IN TO SEE A DOCTOR 333 00:18:15,633 --> 00:18:19,233 I FOUND THROUGH THE WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY FOUNDATION OF AMERICA. 334 00:18:22,200 --> 00:18:24,867 THEY HELP PEOPLE WHO HAVE HAD BARIATRIC SURGERY 335 00:18:24,867 --> 00:18:27,967 GET SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY. 336 00:18:27,967 --> 00:18:29,933 ZSALYNN, COME ON IN. 337 00:18:29,933 --> 00:18:32,433 SO, I'M EXCITED RIGHT NOW. 338 00:18:32,433 --> 00:18:36,067 I'M JUST READY FOR ALL THIS EXCESS SKIN TO BE OFF ME, 339 00:18:36,067 --> 00:18:40,300 AND I'M HOPING HE THINKS HE CAN TAKE IT ALL OFF IN ONE SURGERY. 340 00:18:40,300 --> 00:18:42,333 HEY, HOW ARE YOU? HI, DR. KATZEN. 341 00:18:42,333 --> 00:18:44,100 GOOD TO SEE YOU. YOU ALL READY? 342 00:18:44,100 --> 00:18:46,200 SO, WE'LL HAVE YOU COME OVER HERE. 343 00:18:46,200 --> 00:18:49,067 I'LL DROP OUR BLUE BACKGROUND FOR OUR PICTURES. 344 00:18:49,067 --> 00:18:51,800 NOW LET'S TAKE A LOOK AT TUMMY. 345 00:18:51,800 --> 00:18:53,700 SO, WHAT I'M PLANNING TO DO 346 00:18:53,700 --> 00:18:56,567 IS I WILL GO DEEP IN THE PUBIC REGION 347 00:18:56,567 --> 00:18:58,233 AND FROM THAT INCISION, 348 00:18:58,233 --> 00:19:01,767 I EXTEND IT OUT LATERALLY OVER HERE OVER THE HIPS. 349 00:19:01,767 --> 00:19:03,700 AND THIS INCISION COMES AROUND OVER THE BUTTOCKS, 350 00:19:03,700 --> 00:19:07,067 AND THIS WILL BE GONE, ALL THAT, 351 00:19:07,067 --> 00:19:09,333 AT LEAST UP TO BELLY BUTTON RIGHT THERE. 352 00:19:09,333 --> 00:19:11,067 SO, ALL THIS WILL BE GONE, OKAY? 353 00:19:11,067 --> 00:19:12,600 WOW. 354 00:19:12,600 --> 00:19:15,867 THINK OF ALL THAT WEIGHT ON YOUR BACK AND YOUR KNEES 355 00:19:15,867 --> 00:19:17,433 AND YOUR ANKLES. YES. 356 00:19:17,433 --> 00:19:19,300 YOU'LL BE ABLE TO MOVE A LOT BETTER. 357 00:19:19,300 --> 00:19:20,533 YES. SO EXCITED. 358 00:19:20,533 --> 00:19:22,300 YAY. ALL RIGHT, I'M READY. 359 00:19:22,300 --> 00:19:23,667 GOOD. WE'LL SEE YOU IN ABOUT TWO MONTHS THEN. 360 00:19:23,667 --> 00:19:25,067 OKAY. THANK YOU. 361 00:19:25,067 --> 00:19:26,467 SURE, MY PLEASURE. 362 00:19:28,800 --> 00:19:32,500 I'M VERY EXCITED RIGHT NOW. 363 00:19:32,500 --> 00:19:35,867 I KNOW THIS SURGERY IS GOING TO BE HARD AND RISKY, 364 00:19:35,867 --> 00:19:39,067 BUT IT'S GOING TO BE WORTH IT IN THE END. 365 00:19:39,067 --> 00:19:42,300 MY WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY SAVED MY LIFE, 366 00:19:42,300 --> 00:19:47,200 AND NOW THIS SURGERY IS LIKE SAVING MY FUTURE. 367 00:19:47,200 --> 00:19:50,233 ** 368 00:19:57,367 --> 00:19:59,067 Olivia: I DESTROYED MY KNEES 369 00:19:59,067 --> 00:20:01,600 BECAUSE I LET MY WEIGHT GET OUT OF CONTROL FOR SO LONG. 370 00:20:01,600 --> 00:20:06,567 NOW I HAVE THE CHANCE TO FIX THAT DAMAGE. 371 00:20:06,567 --> 00:20:10,333 AND WHATEVER IT TAKES, NO MATTER HOW HARD AND PAINFUL, 372 00:20:10,333 --> 00:20:12,867 I'M READY TO DO IT AND GET MY LIFE BACK. 373 00:20:15,533 --> 00:20:17,533 Dr. George: OLIVIA LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT. 374 00:20:17,533 --> 00:20:20,133 IN ALL THOSE YEARS OF ALL THE HEAVY WEIGHT ON HER JOINTS, 375 00:20:20,133 --> 00:20:22,800 IT REALLY TOOK ITS TOLL, SO SHE HAS DEGENERATIVE ARTHRITIS, 376 00:20:22,800 --> 00:20:25,000 AND IT'S PRETTY SIGNIFICANT. 377 00:20:25,000 --> 00:20:27,767 AND SO, RIGHT NOW, SHE CAN'T BEND HER LEG BACK VERY FAR, 378 00:20:27,767 --> 00:20:30,000 SO IT'S LIKE WALKING ON A SHORT LEG. 379 00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:31,900 SO TO BE ABLE TO GET HER MORE ACTIVE AGAIN, 380 00:20:31,900 --> 00:20:33,633 WE NEED TO REPLACE THE KNEE. 381 00:20:39,867 --> 00:20:41,167 TIGHT. 382 00:20:41,167 --> 00:20:43,733 IN THAT RIGHT KNEE, SHE HAS BONE-ON-BONE, 383 00:20:43,733 --> 00:20:46,367 WHICH CAUSED SIGNIFICANT PAIN FOR HER. 384 00:20:46,367 --> 00:20:47,567 [ DRILL BUZZING ] 385 00:20:47,567 --> 00:20:51,000 ONCE WE DO THIS SURGERY, THAT BONE-ON-BONE PAIN'S 386 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:53,300 GONNA BE GONE AND SHE WILL RAPIDLY BE ABLE 387 00:20:53,300 --> 00:20:57,300 TO WALK AND GET BACK INTO DOING NORMAL ACTIVITIES WITHOUT PAIN. 388 00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:24,867 WE'RE DONE. 389 00:21:24,867 --> 00:21:27,367 A STRAIGHT LEG THAT MOVES NOW. 390 00:21:27,367 --> 00:21:30,867 SHE SHOULD BE VERY HAPPY WITH THIS. 391 00:21:30,867 --> 00:21:32,567 ALL DONE, OKAY? ALL DONE. 392 00:21:32,567 --> 00:21:35,600 OLIVIA'S SURGERY WENT JUST AS PLANNED. 393 00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:38,500 HAVING THE NEW KNEE NOW IS GONNA MAKE A WORLD OF DIFFERENCE 394 00:21:38,500 --> 00:21:40,633 ON HER ACTIVITIES AND JUST HER DAY-TO-DAY FUNCTION. 395 00:21:40,633 --> 00:21:43,200 AND SHE SHOULD HAVE A SIGNIFICANT IMPROVEMENT 396 00:21:43,200 --> 00:21:44,733 IN THE QUALITY OF HER LIFE. 397 00:21:44,733 --> 00:21:46,167 [ GROANS ] 398 00:21:49,067 --> 00:21:52,100 ** 399 00:22:03,867 --> 00:22:07,433 Dr. Nowzaradan: EVERY TIME WE OPERATE, THERE IS A POSSIBILITY OF BLEEDING, 400 00:22:07,433 --> 00:22:10,667 BUT AT THIS POINT, SHE'S LOSING TOO MUCH BLOOD. 401 00:22:10,667 --> 00:22:12,900 DR. GEORGE IS NOT ON CALL RIGHT NOW, 402 00:22:12,900 --> 00:22:17,533 SO I'M STEPPING IN TO THIS ISSUE AND STOPPING THE BLEEDING. 403 00:22:17,533 --> 00:22:19,933 IF WE DON'T AND THE BLEEDING CONTINUES, 404 00:22:19,933 --> 00:22:21,533 SHE WON'T SURVIVE THE NIGHT. 405 00:22:21,533 --> 00:22:24,567 SHE'S LOSING TOO MUCH BLOOD, SO WE NEED TO HURRY. 406 00:22:29,233 --> 00:22:32,267 ** 407 00:22:37,333 --> 00:22:40,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: OLIVIA HAD RIGHT TOTAL KNEE REPLACEMENT 408 00:22:40,067 --> 00:22:43,733 EARLIER THIS MORNING, AND A FEW HOURS AFTER THAT, 409 00:22:43,733 --> 00:22:46,500 SHE STARTED BLEEDING PROFUSELY. 410 00:22:47,867 --> 00:22:49,933 SO, I BROUGHT HER BACK TO SURGERY 411 00:22:49,933 --> 00:22:52,667 AND STOPPED THE BLEEDING AND PUT A DRAIN IN, 412 00:22:52,667 --> 00:22:55,233 AND HAVE THE SITUATION UNDER CONTROL. 413 00:22:57,133 --> 00:22:59,333 ALL RIGHT, EVERYTHING LOOK GOOD. 414 00:23:01,533 --> 00:23:05,267 RIGHT NOW, SHE'S STABLE AND EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL. 415 00:23:05,267 --> 00:23:08,867 WE'RE GOING TO KEEP AN EYE ON HER FOR THE NEXT DAY OR SO, 416 00:23:08,867 --> 00:23:11,933 AND ONCE WE MAKE SURE THERE ARE NO FURTHER ISSUES, 417 00:23:11,933 --> 00:23:16,233 THEN OLIVIA WILL BE READY TO GO HOME AND START HER RECOVERY. 418 00:23:20,500 --> 00:23:23,533 ** 419 00:23:31,200 --> 00:23:35,167 Zsalynn: TODAY, I'M FINALLY GETTING MY SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY. 420 00:23:35,167 --> 00:23:37,233 GOOD MORNING. GOOD MORNING, DR. KATZEN. 421 00:23:37,233 --> 00:23:39,633 SO, WHAT HAPPENS NOW IS WE'LL GET YOU ALL MARKED UP. 422 00:23:39,633 --> 00:23:41,933 AND WE'LL GET THE I.V. IN, AND THEN WE'LL GET GOING. 423 00:23:41,933 --> 00:23:43,767 ALL RIGHT, SOUNDS LIKE A PLAN. 424 00:23:43,767 --> 00:23:45,433 OKAY, GOOD. 425 00:23:45,433 --> 00:23:47,800 I'M GLAD TO BE HAVING THIS DONE. 426 00:23:47,800 --> 00:23:49,600 I'M GONNA HAVE YOU TURN AROUND. YEP. 427 00:23:49,600 --> 00:23:53,333 BUT IT'S SINKING IN JUST HOW BIG AN OPERATION THIS IS. 428 00:23:53,333 --> 00:23:55,900 YOU EXCITED, NERVOUS? A LITTLE NERVOUS. 429 00:23:55,900 --> 00:23:57,067 YEAH, NORMAL. 430 00:23:57,067 --> 00:23:59,233 AND I'M GETTING REALLY SCARED. 431 00:23:59,233 --> 00:24:01,533 ALL DONE. ALL RIGHT. 432 00:24:01,533 --> 00:24:04,733 I'M MORE SCARED THAN I THOUGHT I WOULD BE 433 00:24:04,733 --> 00:24:09,367 BECAUSE I KNOW THIS IS A VERY RISKY SURGERY. 434 00:24:09,367 --> 00:24:11,667 AND SO MUCH COULD GO WRONG. 435 00:24:13,733 --> 00:24:15,400 SO, I'M JUST PRAYING RIGHT NOW 436 00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:20,633 THAT I WAKE UP, AND THE WHOLE OPERATION GOES WELL. 437 00:24:20,633 --> 00:24:24,367 Dr. Katzen: TODAY, WE'RE DOING ZSALYNN'S 360 BODY LIFT. 438 00:24:24,367 --> 00:24:26,167 SHE'D LOST A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT, 439 00:24:26,167 --> 00:24:28,833 AND NOW SHE HAS THIS EXCESS SKIN AND FAT ON HER TUMMY, 440 00:24:28,833 --> 00:24:31,067 EXCESS SKIN AND FAT ON HER HIPS. 441 00:24:31,067 --> 00:24:32,467 IT'S A BIG SURGERY, 442 00:24:32,467 --> 00:24:34,633 BUT I THINK SHE'S GONNA GET A VERY GOOD RESULT. 443 00:24:34,633 --> 00:24:35,667 SCALPEL. 444 00:24:35,667 --> 00:24:37,067 I'M GONNA MAKE AN INCISION 445 00:24:37,067 --> 00:24:39,800 ON THE UPPER PORTION OF THE BUTTOCKS, 446 00:24:39,800 --> 00:24:44,233 LIFT THE BUTTOCK UP, AND THEN REMOVE THAT EXCESS SKIN AND FAT. 447 00:24:46,233 --> 00:24:47,867 THEN WE'RE GONNA FLIP THE PATIENT 448 00:24:47,867 --> 00:24:50,267 SO WE CAN OPERATE ON HER ABDOMEN. 449 00:24:50,267 --> 00:24:53,600 THEN I REMOVE THE EXCESS SKIN AND FAT FROM HER ABDOMEN 450 00:24:53,600 --> 00:24:57,367 AND TAKE IT OFF AS ONE BIG SPECIMEN. 451 00:24:57,367 --> 00:24:59,133 AND SUTURING ALL UP. 452 00:25:04,967 --> 00:25:07,600 THE 360 BODY LIFT TODAY WENT REALLY WELL. 453 00:25:07,600 --> 00:25:10,400 WE REMOVED 52.5 POUNDS 454 00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:14,900 FROM ZSALYNN'S STOMACH, HIPS, BACKSIDE, BUTTOCK. 455 00:25:14,900 --> 00:25:18,900 OUR RECOVERY IS PAINFUL, BUT SHE'S GONNA BE MUCH HAPPIER NOW 456 00:25:18,900 --> 00:25:21,733 TO HAVE THOSE 52 POUNDS OFF HER BODY 457 00:25:21,733 --> 00:25:24,267 BECAUSE THIS IS A LIFE-CHANGING EVENT. 458 00:25:27,667 --> 00:25:30,700 ** 459 00:25:36,800 --> 00:25:40,067 Olivia: IT'S BEEN ABOUT TWO MONTHS SINCE I HAD MY KNEE SURGERY, 460 00:25:40,067 --> 00:25:43,333 AND A LOT'S CHANGED DURING THAT TIME. 461 00:25:43,333 --> 00:25:45,900 MY BROTHER WASN'T GONNA BE ABLE TO HELP ME WITH MY RECOVERY 462 00:25:45,900 --> 00:25:48,467 AS MUCH AS HE THOUGHT BECAUSE OF HIS WORK, 463 00:25:48,467 --> 00:25:51,067 SO I GOT A PLACE WITH MY SISTER, OLGA. 464 00:25:51,067 --> 00:25:52,833 SHE'S BEEN MY BIGGEST SUPPORT, 465 00:25:52,833 --> 00:25:55,633 AND SHE'S BEEN ABLE TO HELP ME WHILE I RECOVER. 466 00:25:55,633 --> 00:25:59,067 IT HASN'T BEEN EASY, BUT I'M PUSHING MYSELF. 467 00:25:59,067 --> 00:26:01,400 [ KNOCK AT DOOR ] 468 00:26:01,400 --> 00:26:03,067 HELLO. 469 00:26:03,067 --> 00:26:05,467 TODAY, I HAVE PHYSICAL THERAPY. 470 00:26:05,467 --> 00:26:07,767 I HAVE THERAPY THREE TIMES A WEEK. 471 00:26:07,767 --> 00:26:10,133 HOW MANY MINUTES? WE'RE TRYING FOR 10. 472 00:26:10,133 --> 00:26:11,533 OKAY. 473 00:26:11,533 --> 00:26:13,533 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO STAY ON TRACK BUT IT REALLY HURTS 474 00:26:13,533 --> 00:26:17,133 TO DO MY EXERCISES OR USE MY KNEE AT ALL. 475 00:26:17,133 --> 00:26:20,567 SEE, THAT HURTS. I CAN FEEL THAT RIGHT HERE. 476 00:26:20,567 --> 00:26:24,400 YOU'RE REALLY, REALLY SWOLLEN. 477 00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:26,900 ONE MINUTE. OKAY. 478 00:26:26,900 --> 00:26:28,100 I REMEMBER WHEN MY WHOLE WORLD 479 00:26:28,100 --> 00:26:30,400 WAS CONFINED TO A BASEMENT FOR YEARS, 480 00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:34,067 AND I COULD BARELY GET UP AND DO ANYTHING ON MY OWN. 481 00:26:34,067 --> 00:26:38,300 I'M IN EXTREME PAIN BECAUSE OF MY STOMACH AND MY LEG. 482 00:26:38,300 --> 00:26:40,467 I HAVE ALL THIS LYMPHEDEMA HERE. 483 00:26:40,467 --> 00:26:42,833 LOOK. [ Groaning ] YOU CAN SEE. 484 00:26:42,833 --> 00:26:45,133 I CAN'T EVEN MOVE IT. 485 00:26:45,133 --> 00:26:47,833 I VOW TO NEVER GO BACK TO LIVING LIKE THAT. 486 00:26:47,833 --> 00:26:49,067 TAKE A DEEP BREATH. 487 00:26:49,067 --> 00:26:51,400 THIS SURGERY WAS TO HELP ME GET MY LIFE BACK 488 00:26:51,400 --> 00:26:53,433 SO I CAN STAND ALL DAY LIKE I NEED TO 489 00:26:53,433 --> 00:26:56,533 SO I CAN BE ACTIVE AND GET MY DREAM JOB AS A CHEF, 490 00:26:56,533 --> 00:26:58,067 BUT IT'S EASIER SAID THAN DONE. 491 00:26:58,067 --> 00:26:59,233 GOOD. 492 00:26:59,233 --> 00:27:01,400 IT'S STILL SO HARD BECAUSE THE PAIN IS SO MUCH MORE 493 00:27:01,400 --> 00:27:03,833 THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. KEEP BREATHING. 494 00:27:03,833 --> 00:27:06,867 BUT I HAVE A CHANCE AT A WHOLE NEW LIFE. 495 00:27:06,867 --> 00:27:09,200 AND THAT'S WHY I'M PUSHING THROUGH THE PAIN... 496 00:27:09,200 --> 00:27:11,367 YOU WANT TO REST FOR A MINUTE? 497 00:27:11,367 --> 00:27:13,400 ...SO I CAN LOSE THE LAST BIT OF WEIGHT I NEED 498 00:27:13,400 --> 00:27:14,967 TO GET MY SKIN SURGERY. 499 00:27:14,967 --> 00:27:17,200 IT'S JUST A LOT HARDER THAN I THOUGHT. 500 00:27:22,433 --> 00:27:25,433 ** 501 00:27:26,533 --> 00:27:28,400 Olivia: I CAME TO DR. NOWZARADAN TODAY 502 00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:31,733 BECAUSE I'M IN A LOT OF PAIN FROM MY SHOULDER AND MY KNEE. 503 00:27:31,733 --> 00:27:33,900 BUT I'M WORRIED ALL THE DOCTOR'S GONNA CARE ABOUT 504 00:27:33,900 --> 00:27:35,700 IS MY WEIGHT RIGHT NOW. 505 00:27:35,700 --> 00:27:38,800 THE PAIN HAS MADE IT REALLY HARD TO KEEP DOING MY EXERCISES 506 00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:41,867 AND KEEP ACTIVE, SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY WEIGHT IS. 507 00:27:41,867 --> 00:27:45,100 BUT I'M NOT REALLY INTERESTED IN TALKING ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW. 508 00:27:45,100 --> 00:27:47,533 I JUST WANT TO GET RID OF THIS PAIN. 509 00:27:47,533 --> 00:27:50,067 [ GROANS ] 510 00:27:50,067 --> 00:27:52,667 HE WANTS ME TO GET UNDER 180 POUNDS. 511 00:27:52,667 --> 00:27:54,700 I WAS 207 LAST TIME, 512 00:27:54,700 --> 00:27:57,267 AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT MY PROGRESS IS RIGHT NOW. 513 00:27:59,633 --> 00:28:01,267 [ GROANS ] 514 00:28:04,700 --> 00:28:06,867 I CAN'T DEAL WITH MY WEIGHT RIGHT NOW. 515 00:28:06,867 --> 00:28:09,167 OLIVIA, HOW ARE YOU? 516 00:28:09,167 --> 00:28:11,067 IN A LOT OF PAIN. 517 00:28:11,067 --> 00:28:13,933 MY SHOULDER'S HURTING AND MY KNEE. 518 00:28:13,933 --> 00:28:15,667 OKAY, RIGHT NOW, I'M GONNA GO AHEAD 519 00:28:15,667 --> 00:28:18,333 AND X-RAY YOUR KNEE AND YOUR SHOULDER 520 00:28:18,333 --> 00:28:21,067 TO SEE IF THERE'S ANYTHING WRONG, OKAY? 521 00:28:21,067 --> 00:28:23,533 Dr. Nowzaradan: OLIVIA HAS GOT INTO THE HABIT 522 00:28:23,533 --> 00:28:26,200 OF MAKING EXCUSES FOR HER WEIGHT GAIN. 523 00:28:26,200 --> 00:28:27,767 I'M GOING TO RUN SOME TESTS 524 00:28:27,767 --> 00:28:29,800 TO MAKE SURE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH HER, 525 00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:35,933 BUT SHE MAY BE MAKING UP MORE EXCUSES TO AVOID THE SITUATION. 526 00:28:35,933 --> 00:28:39,067 HER X-RAYS -- THEY ALL LOOK ABSOLUTELY NORMAL. 527 00:28:39,067 --> 00:28:40,767 THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT. 528 00:28:40,767 --> 00:28:44,333 HER SHOULDER LOOKS GOOD AND HER KNEE IS HEALING NICELY, 529 00:28:44,333 --> 00:28:47,800 SO SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE PAIN LIKE SHE SAYS SHE HAS. 530 00:28:49,767 --> 00:28:52,100 ALL RIGHT, OLIVIA. 531 00:28:52,100 --> 00:28:54,167 YOUR X-RAYS ARE NORMAL. 532 00:28:54,167 --> 00:28:57,100 THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR KNEE OR YOUR SHOULDER, 533 00:28:57,100 --> 00:29:00,067 SO THE ONLY ISSUE HERE IS YOUR WEIGHT. 534 00:29:00,067 --> 00:29:03,767 YOU GAINED ANOTHER 10 POUNDS SINCE THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU. 535 00:29:03,767 --> 00:29:05,600 SO, WHAT EXACTLY IS GOING -- 536 00:29:05,600 --> 00:29:07,300 DOCTOR, I DIDN'T COME HERE FOR MY WEIGHT. 537 00:29:07,300 --> 00:29:08,833 I'M HERE FOR THE PAIN. 538 00:29:08,833 --> 00:29:10,533 I KNOW I PUT ON SOME WEIGHT, 539 00:29:10,533 --> 00:29:12,833 BUT I DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT RIGHT NOW. I JUST -- 540 00:29:12,833 --> 00:29:14,233 OKAY, WELL, YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND -- 541 00:29:14,233 --> 00:29:15,400 TAKE CARE OF THIS PAIN. 542 00:29:15,400 --> 00:29:16,800 IF NOT, THEN I CAN JUST GO HOME RIGHT NOW. 543 00:29:16,800 --> 00:29:18,733 ALL RIGHT, YOU NEED TO CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE. 544 00:29:18,733 --> 00:29:19,967 I'M -- OKAY. 545 00:29:19,967 --> 00:29:21,367 YOU NEED TO CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE. 546 00:29:21,367 --> 00:29:22,700 YOU'RE HERE FOR ALL YOUR PROBLEMS. 547 00:29:22,700 --> 00:29:25,533 YOU'RE GAINING WEIGHT, AND YOU HAVE BEHAVIOR 548 00:29:25,533 --> 00:29:27,500 THAT DOESN'T MAKE A WHOLE LOT OF SENSE. 549 00:29:27,500 --> 00:29:28,700 SO, WHAT YOU'RE SAYING 550 00:29:28,700 --> 00:29:30,100 IS THAT YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT I'M IN PAIN. 551 00:29:30,100 --> 00:29:31,733 YOU HAVE A PAIN -- 552 00:29:31,733 --> 00:29:33,067 ARE YOU SAYING THAT YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT I'M IN PAIN? 553 00:29:33,067 --> 00:29:35,200 JUST LISTEN TO WHAT I'M TELLING YOU. 554 00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:38,067 OKAY. SEE, THIS IS WHY I DIDN'T WANT TO COME TO THIS DOCTOR. 555 00:29:38,067 --> 00:29:40,067 YOU DON'T WANT TO COME TO THE DOCTOR, 556 00:29:40,067 --> 00:29:42,267 YOU CAN WALK OUT RIGHT NOW IF YOU WANT TO 557 00:29:42,267 --> 00:29:46,733 BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU HAVE ADDICTIVE PROBLEM, 558 00:29:46,733 --> 00:29:49,833 AND YOU HAVE A PROBLEM THROUGH ADDICTION TO FOOD, 559 00:29:49,833 --> 00:29:51,067 ADDICTION TO MEDICINE, 560 00:29:51,067 --> 00:29:52,933 AND ALL THOSE THINGS ARE NOT GONNA GO AWAY. 561 00:29:52,933 --> 00:29:54,367 YOU HAVE TO WORK ON THEM. 562 00:29:54,367 --> 00:29:57,500 YOU CANNOT BE IGNORING THE FACT THAT YOU'RE GAINING WEIGHT. 563 00:29:57,500 --> 00:29:58,600 YOU CANNOT IGNORE THE FACT -- 564 00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:00,033 OH, I'M NOT IGNORING IT. I KNOW. 565 00:30:00,033 --> 00:30:02,000 I FEEL IT. I CARRY IT EVERY DAY. 566 00:30:02,000 --> 00:30:05,133 OLIVIA, YOU NEED TO GET AHOLD OF THIS SITUATION NOW. 567 00:30:05,133 --> 00:30:07,533 IF YOU DON'T, YOU'RE GOING TO KEEP GAINING 568 00:30:07,533 --> 00:30:10,567 AND RISK ENDING UP 600 POUNDS AGAIN. 569 00:30:10,567 --> 00:30:12,367 YOU DON'T WANT THAT. 570 00:30:12,367 --> 00:30:15,733 Dr. Nowzaradan: WEIGHT LOSS IS NOT AN ON AND OFF SWITCH. 571 00:30:15,733 --> 00:30:20,067 IT'S A LIFESTYLE COMMITMENT AND HAS TO BE MAINTAINED DAILY. 572 00:30:20,067 --> 00:30:22,600 I'LL SEE YOU SOON. 573 00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:26,900 SHE NEEDS TO STOP MAKING EXCUSES AND GET BACK WITH THE PROGRAM 574 00:30:26,900 --> 00:30:31,333 OR HER SITUATION IS GOING TO GET VERY OUT OF CONTROL. 575 00:30:31,333 --> 00:30:33,967 Olivia: I'M VERY FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW. 576 00:30:33,967 --> 00:30:36,933 I FEEL LIKE HE DON'T BELIEVE ME. 577 00:30:36,933 --> 00:30:39,333 I'M NOT COMING BACK. I'LL TELL YOU THAT RIGHT NOW. 578 00:30:39,333 --> 00:30:42,133 I'M JUST NOT COMING BACK. 579 00:30:42,133 --> 00:30:45,167 ** 580 00:30:49,033 --> 00:30:51,967 Zsalynn: I'VE BEEN RECOVERING FROM MY SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY 581 00:30:51,967 --> 00:30:54,500 THIS PAST MONTH, AND SO FAR, 582 00:30:54,500 --> 00:30:57,667 IT'S BEEN THE WORST RECOVERY I'VE EVER HAD. 583 00:30:57,667 --> 00:31:02,100 I'M JUST IN CONSTANT PAIN, AND IT'S BEEN MISERABLE. 584 00:31:02,100 --> 00:31:05,233 I HAVE TO KEEP EMPTYING MY DRAINS, 585 00:31:05,233 --> 00:31:08,700 AND I HAVE TO KEEP CLEANING ALL MY SUTURES. 586 00:31:08,700 --> 00:31:11,067 OKAY. I FEEL LIKE AN ALIEN 587 00:31:11,067 --> 00:31:14,133 WITH ALL OF THESE TUBES RUNNING IN AND OUT OF ME. 588 00:31:16,167 --> 00:31:18,800 SO, I'VE STOPPED LOOKING AT MYSELF RIGHT NOW 589 00:31:18,800 --> 00:31:20,700 BECAUSE I'M WAITING UNTIL I HEAL 590 00:31:20,700 --> 00:31:23,333 TO TRY AND WRAP MY HEAD AROUND IT. 591 00:31:23,333 --> 00:31:27,067 FOR SO MANY YEARS, I HATED WHAT I HAD DONE TO MY BODY 592 00:31:27,067 --> 00:31:31,067 AND HOW IT PREVENTED ME FROM DOING ALMOST ANYTHING. 593 00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:35,633 NOW I'M MAKING PROGRESS. 594 00:31:35,633 --> 00:31:40,333 I JUST WANT TO HEAL AS FAST AS I CAN AND GET PAST THIS PART. 595 00:31:40,333 --> 00:31:43,967 I KNOW IN MY HEAD IT WILL BE WORTH IT WHEN I DO. 596 00:31:43,967 --> 00:31:49,233 BUT RIGHT NOW, IT DOESN'T FEEL LIKE IT. 597 00:31:49,233 --> 00:31:52,533 ** 598 00:31:52,533 --> 00:31:54,700 Olga: SO, WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE DOCTOR? 599 00:31:54,700 --> 00:31:56,833 YOU KNOW, HE GOT MAD. 600 00:31:56,833 --> 00:31:59,433 HE DIDN'T BELIEVE I WAS IN THE PAIN I SAID I WAS. 601 00:31:59,433 --> 00:32:01,600 ALL HER CARED ABOUT WAS MY WEIGHT LOSS. 602 00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:05,467 HE KIND OF GOT UPSET 'CAUSE I HAD GAINED SOME WEIGHT. 603 00:32:05,467 --> 00:32:08,233 THAT'S NOT GOOD. NO, IT'S NOT. 604 00:32:08,233 --> 00:32:11,367 HE SAID I WAS MAKING TOO MUCH EXCUSES, 605 00:32:11,367 --> 00:32:14,067 AND THEN HE STARTED SAYING 606 00:32:14,067 --> 00:32:16,600 THAT I'M ADDICTED TO PAIN MEDICATION. 607 00:32:16,600 --> 00:32:19,733 HE'S NOT THE ONLY DOCTOR THAT PRESCRIBES PAIN MEDICATIONS. 608 00:32:19,733 --> 00:32:21,267 IF I WAS, I COULD GET THEM, IF I WANT. 609 00:32:21,267 --> 00:32:22,967 YEAH, BUT IT'S NOT GOOD ANYWAY. 610 00:32:22,967 --> 00:32:24,667 IT'S NOT GOOD. 611 00:32:24,667 --> 00:32:26,400 MAYBE THE DOCTOR IS RIGHT A LITTLE. 612 00:32:26,400 --> 00:32:29,567 I NOTICE YOU'VE BEEN DRINKING SODA A LOT. 613 00:32:29,567 --> 00:32:31,667 I'VE BEEN TRYING TO TELL YOU THAT. 614 00:32:31,667 --> 00:32:33,400 IT'S NOT GOOD FOR YOU. 615 00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:37,267 I'M NOT DOING IT JUST TO PICK ON YOU OR NOTHING, 616 00:32:37,267 --> 00:32:39,733 BUT I'M JUST TRYING TO TELL YOU TO HELP YOU. 617 00:32:39,733 --> 00:32:43,067 YOU STOPPED EATING ALL THAT JUNK FOR A WHILE. 618 00:32:43,067 --> 00:32:44,767 WHY DID YOU START EATING IT? 619 00:32:44,767 --> 00:32:46,400 WELL, JUST STRESS OF NOT WORKING, 620 00:32:46,400 --> 00:32:48,467 BEING HERE AT HOME DOING NOTHING. 621 00:32:48,467 --> 00:32:50,233 I WANT TO GET OUT AND GO TO WORK ALREADY. 622 00:32:50,233 --> 00:32:52,367 I JUST -- YOU KNOW. 623 00:32:52,367 --> 00:32:55,100 YOU'VE GOT A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE. 624 00:32:55,100 --> 00:32:58,467 YOU'VE GOT TO GET TO IT AND DO BETTER BY IT, 625 00:32:58,467 --> 00:33:00,200 'CAUSE IF YOU CONTINUE TO, YOU KNOW, 626 00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:01,533 GO BACK TO YOUR OLD HABITS, 627 00:33:01,533 --> 00:33:03,533 YOU'RE NOT GONNA REACH YOUR GOAL. 628 00:33:10,100 --> 00:33:13,133 ** 629 00:33:20,433 --> 00:33:22,067 Olivia: TODAY, I'M GONNA WORK OUT AT THE GYM 630 00:33:22,067 --> 00:33:25,267 SO I CAN START PUSHING MYSELF TO MAKE PROGRESS AGAIN. 631 00:33:25,267 --> 00:33:27,333 AFTER TALKING WITH MY SISTER, 632 00:33:27,333 --> 00:33:29,467 I REALIZED I GOT A LITTLE OVER-CONFIDENT 633 00:33:29,467 --> 00:33:33,067 BECAUSE I HAD LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT ALREADY. 634 00:33:33,067 --> 00:33:36,167 I THOUGHT I COULD JUST DO IT AGAIN WHEN I WANTED. 635 00:33:36,167 --> 00:33:40,100 BUT ADDICTION AND WEIGHT LOSS IS NOT THAT EASY, 636 00:33:40,100 --> 00:33:42,733 AND YOU JUSTIFY YOUR BAD BEHAVIOR. 637 00:33:42,733 --> 00:33:44,733 BUT THE ONLY WAY TO STAY IN CONTROL 638 00:33:44,733 --> 00:33:47,067 IS TO STOP WITH ALL THE EXCUSES. 639 00:33:47,067 --> 00:33:48,733 AND WHEN YOU MAKE MISTAKES, 640 00:33:48,733 --> 00:33:52,433 YOU HAVE TO BE READY TO ADMIT AND CORRECT THEM. 641 00:33:52,433 --> 00:33:55,167 AND THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING RIGHT NOW. 642 00:33:55,167 --> 00:33:56,933 [ EXHALES SHARPLY ] 643 00:33:56,933 --> 00:33:59,067 THAT'S ONLY 10 POUNDS, AND IT'S HURTING. 644 00:33:59,067 --> 00:34:01,067 NO PAIN, NO GAIN. 645 00:34:01,067 --> 00:34:03,433 [ GROANS ] 646 00:34:05,567 --> 00:34:09,067 WHEN I WAS AT MY HEAVIEST LIVING WITH MY PARENTS IN CHICAGO, 647 00:34:09,067 --> 00:34:11,867 I COULDN'T EVEN CLIMB A FEW STEPS OUT OF THE BASEMENT. 648 00:34:11,867 --> 00:34:13,833 I CAN'T. WHAT IS IT? 649 00:34:13,833 --> 00:34:15,967 [ Voice breaking ] I CAN'T CLIMB THE STAIRS. 650 00:34:15,967 --> 00:34:17,500 YEAH, YOU CAN, OLIVIA. 651 00:34:17,500 --> 00:34:19,967 I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT I'M DOING NOW. 652 00:34:19,967 --> 00:34:21,800 * DUN, DA-DA, DAAAA * 653 00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:23,733 IT'S INCREDIBLE. 654 00:34:23,733 --> 00:34:25,933 NOW I'M SO CLOSE TO MY GOAL. 655 00:34:25,933 --> 00:34:29,200 THE DOCTOR WANTS ME BELOW 180 TO GET MY SKIN SURGERY. 656 00:34:29,200 --> 00:34:30,600 Woman: YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY. 657 00:34:30,600 --> 00:34:31,733 THANK YOU. 658 00:34:31,733 --> 00:34:33,100 SO, NEXT TIME I GO SEE HIM, 659 00:34:33,100 --> 00:34:35,400 I'M HOPING THE SCALE GOES BACK IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 660 00:34:35,400 --> 00:34:37,067 WHICH IS DOWN. 661 00:34:39,567 --> 00:34:43,633 ** 662 00:34:43,633 --> 00:34:46,067 IT'S BEEN A FEW MONTHS SINCE MY SKIN SURGERY, 663 00:34:46,067 --> 00:34:48,467 AND I'M FEELING A LOT BETTER. 664 00:34:48,467 --> 00:34:50,500 MY INCISIONS HAVE BEEN HEALING WELL, 665 00:34:50,500 --> 00:34:53,867 AND I'M EXCITED TO FINALLY BE THROUGH WITH ALL THAT PAIN. 666 00:34:55,833 --> 00:34:59,067 BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE I'M THAT 600-POUND PERSON, 667 00:34:59,067 --> 00:35:00,967 AND I THOUGHT GETTING SKIN SURGERY 668 00:35:00,967 --> 00:35:03,500 WOULD FINALLY HELP ME WITH THAT. 669 00:35:03,500 --> 00:35:06,933 BEFORE, I WAS IN A WORLD WHERE BIG WAS BEAUTIFUL. 670 00:35:06,933 --> 00:35:09,167 AND THAT WAS MY IDENTITY. 671 00:35:11,667 --> 00:35:16,700 NOW I FEEL LOST, SO I'M GONNA SEE A THERAPIST TODAY. 672 00:35:16,700 --> 00:35:20,067 I'M DR. ANN-LOUISE LOCKHART. IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU. 673 00:35:20,067 --> 00:35:21,800 FOLLOW ME. 674 00:35:21,800 --> 00:35:23,767 SO, WHY DON'T YOU START OFF BY TELLING ME 675 00:35:23,767 --> 00:35:25,667 WHAT YOUR ULTIMATE GOAL WOULD BE 676 00:35:25,667 --> 00:35:28,133 IN TERMS OF WHAT YOU WANT TO GET OUT OF LIFE IN GENERAL? 677 00:35:28,133 --> 00:35:30,067 I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. OKAY. 678 00:35:30,067 --> 00:35:32,867 AND LOSING WEIGHT HASN'T MADE ME HAPPIER. 679 00:35:32,867 --> 00:35:35,067 ALL IT'S DONE IS MAKE ME HEALTHIER. 680 00:35:35,067 --> 00:35:36,367 SO, WHAT DOES HAPPINESS LOOK LIKE, THEN? 681 00:35:36,367 --> 00:35:38,233 I DON'T KNOW. [ LAUGHS ] 682 00:35:38,233 --> 00:35:41,400 YOU KNOW, I'M SO HAPPY I'VE LOST 300 POUNDS. 683 00:35:41,400 --> 00:35:43,500 I HAVE A FIGURE. 684 00:35:43,500 --> 00:35:46,933 I HAVE BIG HIPS, AND I HAVE A SMALL WAIST, 685 00:35:46,933 --> 00:35:49,900 AND I FEEL LIKE THAT'S WHAT I SHOULD LOOK LIKE. 686 00:35:49,900 --> 00:35:51,867 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'M LETTING PEOPLE DOWN 687 00:35:51,867 --> 00:35:53,933 WHEN I SAY, "I'M HAPPY." 688 00:35:53,933 --> 00:35:56,067 WHY DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE LETTING PEOPLE DOWN? 689 00:35:56,067 --> 00:35:58,133 BECAUSE I'M STILL CONSIDERED "FAT." 690 00:35:58,133 --> 00:35:59,700 PEOPLE STILL LOOK AT ME, ON THE OUTSIDE -- 691 00:35:59,700 --> 00:36:01,833 SO YOU MUST BE UNHAPPY. RIGHT. 692 00:36:01,833 --> 00:36:03,067 IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU FEEL LIKE 693 00:36:03,067 --> 00:36:04,700 YOU'RE ALWAYS HAVING TO JUSTIFY YOUR EXISTENCE 694 00:36:04,700 --> 00:36:07,333 AND YOUR BEAUTY AND WHY YOU'RE SATISFIED WITH YOURSELF. 695 00:36:07,333 --> 00:36:08,667 YOU FEEL LIKE PEOPLE FEEL LIKE 696 00:36:08,667 --> 00:36:10,833 THERE'S NO REASON WHY YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF. 697 00:36:10,833 --> 00:36:12,067 THAT'S RIGHT. 698 00:36:12,067 --> 00:36:14,333 NOW, TODAY, PEOPLE SAY TO ME, "HOW MUCH DO YOU WEIGH? 699 00:36:14,333 --> 00:36:16,167 HOW MUCH HAVE YOU LOST?" 700 00:36:16,167 --> 00:36:17,800 I REFUSE TO GET ON A SCALE. 701 00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:19,067 RIGHT. 702 00:36:19,067 --> 00:36:22,667 I HAVE 40 YEARS OF JUDGING MYSELF BY THAT NUMBER. 703 00:36:22,667 --> 00:36:26,233 IT WAS NEVER LOW ENOUGH, IT WAS NEVER RIGHT ENOUGH. 704 00:36:26,233 --> 00:36:29,200 [ SNIFFLES ] SO, I'M JUST NOT DOING IT. 705 00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:31,367 BUT YOU KNOW, THE BOTTOM LINE -- 706 00:36:31,367 --> 00:36:34,767 YOU COULD BE THE IDEAL WEIGHT AND BE THE PERFECT SHAPE 707 00:36:34,767 --> 00:36:36,067 AND HAVE THE PERFECT SKIN 708 00:36:36,067 --> 00:36:37,700 AND HAVE ALL THESE THINGS THAT PEOPLE VIEW AS PERFECT, 709 00:36:37,700 --> 00:36:39,333 AND THEY'RE STILL GONNA JUDGE YOU ANYWAY. 710 00:36:39,333 --> 00:36:41,067 IT CAN'T BE DETERMINED BY OTHER PEOPLE. 711 00:36:41,067 --> 00:36:42,467 IT HAS TO BE DETERMINED BY YOU. 712 00:36:42,467 --> 00:36:44,067 SO, YOU JUST HAVE TO BE THAT BEAUTIFUL WORK OF ART 713 00:36:44,067 --> 00:36:46,200 THAT YOU'RE HAPPY WITH AND THAT YOU TREASURE, 714 00:36:46,200 --> 00:36:47,867 EVEN IF NO ONE ELSE DOES. 715 00:36:47,867 --> 00:36:49,367 AND YOU HAVE TO THEN START LOOKING AT YOURSELF 716 00:36:49,367 --> 00:36:51,333 FROM A DIFFERENT LENS 'CAUSE YOU'VE SEEN YOURSELF 717 00:36:51,333 --> 00:36:53,600 FROM THE SAME LENS FOR SO LONG. 718 00:36:53,600 --> 00:36:55,467 SO, WHAT I'D LIKE FOR YOU TO DO 719 00:36:55,467 --> 00:36:58,600 IS LOOK AT SOMETHING WHERE YOU CAN KEEP MAYBE EVEN, 720 00:36:58,600 --> 00:37:01,500 LIKE, A DAILY-EXPERIENCES DIARY, IF YOU DON'T ALREADY, 721 00:37:01,500 --> 00:37:03,500 WHERE YOU JUST WRITE DOWN MAYBE ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL 722 00:37:03,500 --> 00:37:05,133 FOR THAT DAY SO THAT YOU CAN STAY FOCUSED 723 00:37:05,133 --> 00:37:07,933 ON MOVING FORWARD RATHER THAN ALWAYS LOOKING BACK. 724 00:37:07,933 --> 00:37:11,833 BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE. 725 00:37:11,833 --> 00:37:13,533 THANK YOU SO MUCH, DR. LOCKHART. 726 00:37:13,533 --> 00:37:15,400 YOU'RE VERY WELCOME. YOU'RE WELCOME. 727 00:37:15,400 --> 00:37:19,367 Zsalynn: IT'S HARD TO LET GO OF WHAT EVERYONE ELSE THINKS, 728 00:37:19,367 --> 00:37:23,800 AND I DON'T SEE MYSELF AS BEAUTIFUL, AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. 729 00:37:25,667 --> 00:37:28,400 I HAVE TO FIND THE BEAUTY THAT'S THERE IN ME 730 00:37:28,400 --> 00:37:32,300 THAT I'M JUST NOT SEEING RIGHT NOW. 731 00:37:32,300 --> 00:37:35,333 ** 732 00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:44,267 Olivia: TODAY, I'M GONNA SEE DR. NOW AGAIN. 733 00:37:44,267 --> 00:37:46,333 LAST TIME I SAW HIM, I WAS PRETTY UPSET 734 00:37:46,333 --> 00:37:48,633 BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY WEIGHT. 735 00:37:48,633 --> 00:37:50,633 OLIVIA CRUZ. 736 00:37:50,633 --> 00:37:55,167 I LET MYSELF SLIP, AND HE WAS RIGHT. 737 00:37:55,167 --> 00:37:57,467 SO, I'M JUST HOPING I MADE ENOUGH PROGRESS 738 00:37:57,467 --> 00:38:01,233 TO AT LEAST CONVINCE HIM TO TAKE ME BACK AND NOT GIVE UP ON ME. 739 00:38:05,567 --> 00:38:09,167 ** 740 00:38:09,167 --> 00:38:13,667 Olivia: I'M HOPING I'M ABOUT TO SHOW DR. NOW A LOT OF GOOD PROGRESS. 741 00:38:13,667 --> 00:38:17,267 I WAS AT 217 WHEN I SAW THE DOCTOR LAST, 742 00:38:17,267 --> 00:38:19,633 SO I AT LEAST WANT TO BE BELOW 210 TODAY 743 00:38:19,633 --> 00:38:21,767 TO SHOW HIM I'M BACK ON TRACK, 744 00:38:21,767 --> 00:38:24,233 AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY SKIN SURGERY. 745 00:38:25,467 --> 00:38:28,267 Woman: 202. WHAT? 746 00:38:28,267 --> 00:38:31,067 [ BOTH CHUCKLE ] 747 00:38:31,067 --> 00:38:33,500 HI, OLIVIA. HELLO, DOCTOR. 748 00:38:33,500 --> 00:38:35,600 HOW ARE YOU TODAY? I'M GOOD. 749 00:38:35,600 --> 00:38:37,733 WELL, I'M GLAD TO HEAR THAT. 750 00:38:37,733 --> 00:38:41,233 SO, NOW THAT YOU'RE BACK ON TRACK TO GET YOUR WEIGHT DOWN, 751 00:38:41,233 --> 00:38:44,667 WE'RE ALMOST THERE TO GET YOU UNDER 180 752 00:38:44,667 --> 00:38:46,333 SO WE CAN DO YOUR SKIN SURGERY. 753 00:38:46,333 --> 00:38:49,267 OKAY. ME AND MY SISTER ARE EATING DIFFERENT NOW, YOU KNOW? 754 00:38:49,267 --> 00:38:50,633 STAYING AWAY FROM ALL THOSE SUGARY DRINKS. 755 00:38:50,633 --> 00:38:53,333 I'M JUST DRINKING WATER AND UNSWEETENED TEA. 756 00:38:53,333 --> 00:38:55,333 SO, YOU'RE ALL SUPPORTING EACH OTHER, HUH? 757 00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:56,467 WE'RE SUPPORTING EACH OTHER. 758 00:38:56,467 --> 00:38:57,533 GREAT. 759 00:38:57,533 --> 00:38:59,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M PROUD OF OLIVIA. 760 00:38:59,067 --> 00:39:00,833 SHE WORRIED ME FOR A BIT, 761 00:39:00,833 --> 00:39:04,467 BUT SHE HAS MADE SIGNIFICANT CHANGES IN HER LIFE, 762 00:39:04,467 --> 00:39:07,067 AND IF SHE CONTINUES TO MAKE PROGRESS, 763 00:39:07,067 --> 00:39:09,900 I THINK SHE'LL BE ABLE TO GET HER FINAL SKIN SURGERY 764 00:39:09,900 --> 00:39:11,633 IN THE NEXT THREE TO FOUR MONTHS. 765 00:39:11,633 --> 00:39:12,967 I'M NOT GONNA LET YOU DOWN. 766 00:39:12,967 --> 00:39:14,067 I'M GONNA GET TO THIS GOAL WEIGHT 767 00:39:14,067 --> 00:39:16,300 SO THAT WE CAN DO THIS SKIN REMOVAL. 768 00:39:16,300 --> 00:39:17,533 OKAY. THANK YOU, DOCTOR. 769 00:39:17,533 --> 00:39:19,267 ALL RIGHT. ALL RIGHT. 770 00:39:19,267 --> 00:39:22,667 Olivia: I'M REALLY GLAD I WAS ABLE TO DO THIS TODAY, 771 00:39:22,667 --> 00:39:24,633 AND THE DOC DIDN'T GIVE UP ON ME. 772 00:39:24,633 --> 00:39:27,700 I'M GONNA KEEP WORKING HARD NO MATTER WHAT, 773 00:39:27,700 --> 00:39:30,800 AND I'M HITTING MY FINAL GOAL OF 150 POUNDS 774 00:39:30,800 --> 00:39:34,500 AND GETTING BACK TO MY LIFE. 775 00:39:34,500 --> 00:39:36,567 ** 776 00:39:36,567 --> 00:39:38,667 WE'RE GONNA WALK AROUND THE PARK. 777 00:39:38,667 --> 00:39:40,167 OKAY. 778 00:39:40,167 --> 00:39:42,367 FOR MONTHS, I'VE BEEN WORKING THROUGH THE PAIN 779 00:39:42,367 --> 00:39:44,067 TO REHAB MY KNEE, 780 00:39:44,067 --> 00:39:46,267 AND FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I CAN REMEMBER, 781 00:39:46,267 --> 00:39:48,300 I CAN BE ACTIVE AS MUCH AS I WANT 782 00:39:48,300 --> 00:39:51,067 WITHOUT HAVING TO USE MY CANE OR REST MY KNEE. 783 00:39:51,067 --> 00:39:52,900 ARE YOU TIRED? 784 00:39:52,900 --> 00:39:55,367 NO, I'M JUST TRYING TO HOLD HIM. HE'S GOING FAST. 785 00:39:55,367 --> 00:39:56,767 I'LL HOLD HIM. 786 00:39:56,767 --> 00:39:59,100 I'M SO EXCITED THAT MY DREAMS 787 00:39:59,100 --> 00:40:01,400 ARE NOT JUST HOPES FOR THE FUTURE NOW. 788 00:40:01,400 --> 00:40:04,000 THEY'RE LITERALLY STARTING TO HAPPEN. 789 00:40:04,000 --> 00:40:06,733 HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RIB EYE STEAKS FOR DINNER TONIGHT? 790 00:40:06,733 --> 00:40:09,900 MY BIGGEST DREAM HAS BEEN TO BECOME A CHEF, 791 00:40:09,900 --> 00:40:11,967 TO MAKE FOOD FOR OTHER PEOPLE. 792 00:40:11,967 --> 00:40:13,800 BUT I HAD TO STOP TRAINING 793 00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:17,100 BECAUSE I COULDN'T STAND AND MOVE AROUND LIKE I NEEDED TO. 794 00:40:17,100 --> 00:40:19,633 BUT NOW THAT I CAN STAND ALL DAY, 795 00:40:19,633 --> 00:40:22,933 I'M GOING BACK TO PICK BACK UP WHERE I LEFT OFF. 796 00:40:25,367 --> 00:40:27,800 AND I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT THAT. 797 00:40:27,800 --> 00:40:29,767 I AMAZE MYSELF. 798 00:40:29,767 --> 00:40:32,333 THE FUTURE I HOPED FOR IS SO CLOSE NOW. 799 00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:39,367 I'M GONNA SHOW YOU HOW TO SAUTé ALL THE VEGETABLES. 800 00:40:39,367 --> 00:40:43,200 THIS IS NOT JUST MY DREAM, IT'S MY INDEPENDENCE. 801 00:40:43,200 --> 00:40:45,300 I CAN BE BACK OUT IN SOCIETY AGAIN, 802 00:40:45,300 --> 00:40:47,767 AND I CAN MAKE A LIVING FOR THE FIRST TIME 803 00:40:47,767 --> 00:40:50,433 IN ALMOST A DECADE AND A HALF. 804 00:40:50,433 --> 00:40:53,667 JUST THREE YEARS AGO, I WAS BARELY ABLE TO MOVE, 805 00:40:53,667 --> 00:40:55,767 BARELY ABLE TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AT ALL. 806 00:40:55,767 --> 00:40:59,300 [ GROANS, SIGHS HEAVILY ] 807 00:40:59,300 --> 00:41:01,567 NOW, I'M A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON. 808 00:41:01,567 --> 00:41:05,833 I'M ABLE TO BE PART OF SOCIETY AGAIN AND GO OUT IN THE WORLD. 809 00:41:05,833 --> 00:41:08,100 I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW, 810 00:41:08,100 --> 00:41:11,067 AND I'M DEDICATED TO MAKING MORE PROGRESS, 811 00:41:11,067 --> 00:41:12,800 AND I'M DOING EVERYTHING I CAN 812 00:41:12,800 --> 00:41:18,067 TO KEEP THIS NEW LIFE THAT I'VE BEEN GIVEN A CHANCE TO HAVE. 813 00:41:18,067 --> 00:41:21,067 ** 814 00:41:23,100 --> 00:41:25,667 IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE MY SKIN REMOVAL, 815 00:41:25,667 --> 00:41:28,800 AND MY INCISIONS ARE ALMOST COMPLETELY HEALED. 816 00:41:28,800 --> 00:41:30,567 MY STOMACH IS FLAT NOW, 817 00:41:30,567 --> 00:41:33,767 AND THAT'S SOMETHING I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SEE AGAIN. 818 00:41:33,767 --> 00:41:35,500 BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, 819 00:41:35,500 --> 00:41:40,533 I'VE FINALLY BEEN CLEARED TO EXERCISE AND BE ACTIVE AGAIN. 820 00:41:40,533 --> 00:41:43,667 I'VE EVER STARTED DOING YOGA. 821 00:41:43,667 --> 00:41:45,567 I'VE BEEN WORKING ON SEEING MYSELF 822 00:41:45,567 --> 00:41:48,800 THROUGH A DIFFERENT LENS LIKE THE THERAPIST SAID, 823 00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:51,100 AND I FEEL LIKE I'M STARTING TO BECOME THE ME 824 00:41:51,100 --> 00:41:53,600 I'VE ALWAYS WANTED TO BECOME. 825 00:41:53,600 --> 00:41:58,067 I'M MORE THAN A NUMBER, SO I'M DONE WITH SCALES. 826 00:41:58,067 --> 00:42:01,267 I HAVE OTHER WAYS TO DETERMINE PROGRESS, 827 00:42:01,267 --> 00:42:04,700 LIKE HOW I FEEL AND HOW MUCH ENERGY I HAVE. 828 00:42:04,700 --> 00:42:09,233 AND I'M STARTING TO BECOME MORE CONFIDENT IN WHO I AM. 829 00:42:09,233 --> 00:42:11,433 SO, I FIGURE IT'S TIME I START 830 00:42:11,433 --> 00:42:13,233 GETTING BACK OUT THERE AND DATING AGAIN. 831 00:42:13,233 --> 00:42:14,900 ZSALYNN? YES, LARRY? 832 00:42:14,900 --> 00:42:16,067 LARRY, YES. HI, LARRY. 833 00:42:16,067 --> 00:42:17,500 IT'S NICE TO MEET YOU. 834 00:42:17,500 --> 00:42:20,200 THREE YEARS AGO, I COULD BARELY EVEN GET UP 835 00:42:20,200 --> 00:42:22,700 TO LEAVE THE HOUSE BACK THEN. 836 00:42:22,700 --> 00:42:25,600 BUT I'M FINALLY LIVING LIFE AGAIN, 837 00:42:25,600 --> 00:42:29,567 AND I'M SLOWLY LEARNING I'M BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE I'M ME, 838 00:42:29,567 --> 00:42:31,367 AND I KNOW THERE ARE GOING TO BE OTHERS 839 00:42:31,367 --> 00:42:32,267 THAT SEE THAT BEAUTY IN ME, TOO. 839 00:42:33,305 --> 00:43:33,545 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org